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h2bakugou · 3 years

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Hey, Hey I was wondering if I could get some fluffiness with Izuku where he and his s/o are in the middle of some heated things but then she stops cuz she gets insecure and he sweetly and lovingly comforts her?

a/n: hi hi! of course!! i need to write more for izuku!! i love him- if anyone has any links to cute deku plushies i would like to purchase one

summary: in the midst of a pretty nice makeout session with your boyfriend deku, a spell of insecurity hits you and you begin to feel self-conscious.

key: (y/n) - your name / (f/n) - first name / (l/n) - last name / (e/c) - eye color / (h/c) - hair color / (y/q) - your quirk

warnings: swearing, fluff, some angst, mentions of insecurities, 16+ (no smut just some mild spice-making out and shit idk what to tag this dkjgkdgk)

word count: 1.2k

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A gentle breeze blew the storm cloud’s raindrops against Midoriya’s balcony door, the pitter-patter of the droplets hitting against the glass only fueled the peaceful mood that was heightened by a forest-scented candle burning away while you laid beside him.

The pleasant atmosphere was calming as you stroked two fingers down Midoriya’s chest, your index and middle finger tracing the outline of the logo on his shirt.

“I’m really happy you were able to make it here, I know training was tiring.” Deku commented quietly. Training had been intense, but you’d lucked out with it ending early due to the storm.

You’d planned on napping afterward, but Deku had asked you to come to his dorm after cleaning up and showering. And honestly, if you didn’t do anything soon you were going to nap on him.

“I hope that storm doesn’t get too nasty, as much as I’d like a few days off, I think we could use a little extra training.” You giggle, lifting your head off of his arm to look at him.

“Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?” You smile, bringing your index finger up to tap the tip of his nose. Deku’s cheeks turn pink as he smiles, shaking his head.

“I think you’re way prettier. But maybe I’ve got some good looks.” Deku teases, sitting up. He ushers for you to sit on his lap. You hesitate, swallowing a lump of nerves before slowly bringing yourself onto his lap.

“God, look at you.” Deku paused, staring at you in admiration, lifting a hand to cup your face as he pulled it down toward him. He traced his fingers around your cheeks and down to your chin, lifting your face as he leaned in.

Pressing his lips to yours, he kissed you passionately, only stopping for air in between.

Guiding you back down with a hand pressed to your back, you were hesitant to relax as he laid back down, your body now laying more on top of him as you struggled to keep your lips on his while you leaned down yourself.

Deku’s lips traveled much like his hands, finding new places to hold or touch you. From your back to your hips, your lips to your neck, Deku was exploring as much as he could of you, all within your say-so.

Though you didn’t stop him, he knew if you were uncomfortable you would let him know.

You were both far too inexperienced to be doing anything more than hand-holding, but kissing felt so nice, especially like this.

The aroma from the candle burning on his dresser, to the sound of rain drowning out any noise coming from the dorms beside you, it felt like a cozy spring day.

As Deku pulled away to take in another breath, he stopped to stare up at you. His wide green eyes softened as he lifted a hand to stroke your cheek.

“I love you.” Izuku murmured, moving his hand back around behind your neck, forcing you down on his lips again. This kiss was needy, desperate, but loving and kind. It was soft and gentle like Deku, but there was a longing behind it.

As you kissed him, something came over you. Feeling insecure suddenly, you pull away and pause, glancing down at Deku’s chest as you catch your breath.

At first, Deku thinks you’re just catching your breath, but as you move your fingers up to your lips, you begin to rub your bottom lip nervously.

“Is everything alright?” Deku asks quietly. You nod quickly, trying to disguise your insecurity as just needing a moment of air. But Deku knows you better than that.

“You don’t have to tell me what’s going on, but please don’t try and hide it, I know something’s up. You do that thing with your lip whenever you feel...insecure.” Izuku sits up, his arms wrapping around your waist to hold you in his lap as he readjusts to look at your face.

You shake your head in amazement at his attention to detail.

“I’m sorry, I just, feel weird. I don’t...know why. Part of me just feels like you deserve so much better, I’m so-”

“Don’t you dare finish that sentence. I know more than anyone that it’s false. You are beautiful, even when you don’t feel like it.” Deku smiles, hugging you close to him.

“Was I going too far? We can stop if you’d like.” Deku is quick to ask if everything is okay. He’s beginning to feel bad, as if he’s pressured you to do something you weren’t at all ready to do.

“No, no. I really liked it. I just feel like I’m terrible at kissing and like I’m just no good for you or-”

Deku pressed his index finger to your lips, silencing you as you stared at him.

“I know insecurities can be scary, they’re hard to read and they make you feel really icky, but it’s okay. You were doing a great job.” Deku teases, his cheeks bright red as he lifts his hand to rub your cheek again.

You lean into his touch, your nerves and anxiety finally simmering away as his thumbs strokes your cheek. You close your eyes and smile, a small sigh heaves from your chest, your shoulders relaxing at the soothing feeling.

“Just take a few breaths, just like that.” Deku leans his head on your shoulder, pressing his lips against your peeking skin, the collar of his oversized shirt falling down your arm.

“In and out, good, good girl.” Deku instructs you, his words making your heart flutter. You can feel the heat of his cheeks press against your skin as he tries to hide his fluster.

“I can feel you smiling.” You tease, finally opening your eyes as you glance at him.

“Can I kiss you again?” Izuku moves so you can see him clearly. You nod, but Deku doesn’t budge.

“Yes.” You say softly. On your mark, he leans in and presses his lips to yours, kissing you lightly. This kiss is soft, calming, and reassuring.

Deku’s hands rub up and down your arms before moving to rub your back. You fidget with your hands before wrapping them around his waist, hugging him as you lean into the kiss.

Deku pulls away only to press his forehead to yours.

“I love you, all of you, all of your quirks and flaws, all of it. You’re beautiful, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.” Deku’s words were more than enough to make your heartbeat quicker. Leaning into him, you moved your head to rest in the crook of his neck.

Pressing a little kiss to his neck, you moved your head to rest on his shoulder.

“I love you.” You whisper, hugging him. Deku hugged you back, resting his head on your shoulder, embracing you warmly.

“I love you more.” Deku smiled, pulling back to kiss your cheek before returning.

The embrace lasted for a while, until you were ready to kiss him again, and then you spent a good few hours just lazily laying and making out while talking about little things in between here and there.

But when Kaminari came banging on Deku’s door, asking when he’d be down to play video games in the common room for a bit, you decided it was probably best to go eat some dinner and get started on homework.

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calpops · 3 years

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the first morning | c.h.

The first morning Calum wakes in his new home with a person who inspires songs about the sun. The first morning of many tiny home adventures to come.

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Calum wakes to beams of sunlight pouring in through the windows. Duke is curled into his side and the morning is quiet; only the chirping of birds and the lapping of water against the rocky shore to be heard. A small smile works its way onto Calum’s face as he takes in his surroundings. He finds comfort in his new home, the space is small but it’s cozy and has everything he needs. From natural light, to storage for his bass and journals. A bed big enough for two—and a Duke—with views that inspire poetry and lyrics. Art coming to life in front of his very eyes.

All he’s missing is her. Her side of the bed is cold, sheets rumpled and comfort long abandoned. He smirks, lifts himself from the warmth of the blankets and ruffles Duke’s ears in a good morning greeting. He knows where to find her. He drags himself from the bed and pads his way over to the ladder, the loft shining with sunlight from the high windows. She sits with crossed legs, his button up hanging off her frame, a concentrated look capturing her face. She bites her lip and narrows her eyes as her gaze stays steady on a canvas. Calum quietly climbs the ladder and gives her a smile when she turns to him.

“G’morning, sunshine. How did I know you’d be up here?” Calum asks with a laugh as he settles to sit behind her, arms winding around her and lips kissing her exposed shoulder.

“I couldn’t sleep,” she explains and tilts back so her head rests against his chest. “Sunrise was too pretty to ignore.”

Calum nods his understanding. The paintbrush in her hand creating an image he missed. Orange dances across the canvas and clashes with darkened waters not yet touched by the gleam of light.

“You should have woken me,” he says and nudges against her, taking in sweet scents of sugar and cinnamon. Paint coats her skin, art climbing her arms in patches of colors to her elbows.

“You were too pretty to disturb,” she defends and smirks. Her hands reach up and her fingers gently rake through Calum’s curls, the gesture familiar after years of practice. “There’s always sunset,” she reminds.

“I wouldn’t miss it,” Calum promises, already envisioning a trip down to the lake with her hand in his and Duke trotting along after them. She turns back to the canvas and he rests his chin on the crook of her shoulder. “I’ve got songs to write about you and the sun.”

She lets out a breathy laugh and puts down another swipe of color. This time purple graces the orange and deepens the atmosphere of the piece.

“Yeah? And when the sun goes down?” she questions with a timid smile. “What will you write about then?”

Calum doesn’t hesitate to answer. “The stars… and you.”

He smirks as she giggles and shakes her head, tendrils of soft hair falling in her face with the motion.

“And will you keep this song?” she wonders and Calum shrugs. “The world deserves to hear your words from your voice.”

Calum bites his lip. His songwriting credits keep him in the shadows, keep his voice to a whisper and his audience to her and Duke. “My world is right here.”

She softens but Calum can see the determination still set in her eyes. She sighs and puts her paintbrush in a glass of water so she can fully turn to be in his embrace. She kisses his lips in a whisper of affection. He revels in her taste and wishes she would linger a little longer. But she sighs and pulls away again.

“Your world wants to see the mountains next,” she says with a pointed gaze out the window.

Calum drums his fingers on her bare thighs and gives her a tilted smile. Her voice is soft and filled with wanderlust as she explains her desire. Eyelashes flutter against her cheekbones and she inches closer to Calum, the captivating scent of cinnamon nearing him with ease. Calum’s smile broadens as a realization strikes him. They can go anywhere in the world together and still be right at home; with or without the bus sheltering them.

“Perfect, we can leave tomorrow morning. Head west. You can paint, I can write…”

Calum loses his words, any thoughts of planning abandoned as she setttles in closer to him, wraps her arms around his neck and gives him what he was longing for. Another kiss. Another taste of sweetness that puts a yearning for adventure but a fulfilled feeling in his heart.

A small whine sounds from down the ladder and bliss breaks apart in an attempt to find the source. Neither truly has to question it. They both know Duke has finally made his way from bed and is requesting their presence.

“And Duke can explore,” she finishes Calum’s thought and breaks away to descend the ladder to comfort the old dog. Her feet hit the ground in a delicate way and Calum follows shortly after, her arms holding Duke and his quickly finding their way to holding her.

“Little man’s gotta learn how to climb the ladder,” Calum jokes.

She shakes her head in slight laughter. “We’ll just get him a little basket and pull him up whenever he wants,” she proposes and instills an image in Calum’s mind. “Then everything will be perfect.”

“Our perfect little world, in our perfect tiny home, with our perfect little dog,” Calum teases her though he’s apt to believe his own words.

His girl and her art, his dog and his basket, his music and his bass are all he needs in his new tiny home. In his life and in his world.

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syubub · 3 years

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Hey I'm not sure if readings are open now, so feel free to ignore if they're closed, but can you do what you think bts will do for their weddings? Like will it be big and formal or small and spir of the moment. Thank you I love ur blog and all your readings just feel right if that makes sense!💛

I love this so much???

Disclaimer: this is for entertainment purposes and not to be taken as fact! This is my interpretation~

Seokjin

Sun and starseed.

Right off the bat it's gonna be lively and full of jokes and fun

Very light

Leaning a bit towards traditional

Maybe a bit...extravagant?

Like the outfits and decorations will be very cool

Probably a lighter color scheme or some fun pop of color!

Probably all the friends and family come so it big but not BIG

Probably a really fun reception with great food and I wouldn't be surprised if it was in a venue that has a nice outside?

Even outside tbh

I could definitely see it happen in the summer time!

Just so nice and inviting

Maybe on the beach

Yoongi

Ace of cups, death, chariot and take a break

I pulled death and was like ??? Imma need some clarity on that

Now it makes sense

So cute and lovey and he probably wrote the most heartfelt, emotionally raw and beautiful vows known to man

Formally informal

The experience itself at the ceremony almost transports everyone to a whole new plane of existence lol

Like everyone in the room is 100% drawn into the intensity of the moment

The wedding might not happen in korea

Think destination wedding/ in a place that isn't korea

Very relaxing and just cozy, lovey and nice reception

Obviously lots of fun at the reception too but yoongi and his newly betrothed are just in a world of their own

A darker color scheme

I could see him and his betrothed both wearing black

Wouldn't suprise me

It's a bit untraditional but so very them

I wonder too if the ceremony itself might utilize a mesh of traditions?

You know the music would slap.

Definitely smaller and more intimate

(What if yoongi wrote a song to preform??? Or the members made a song without telling him and they suprise him???)

Maybe in an old building or something with a beautiful view.

Hoseok

HOBI

The lovers and align your self

So romantic

Like every cliché kinda romantic

He 100% cries

It would be very hobiesque?

Like its cliche and everything but in a hobi kinda way

Probably a romantic color scheme??

Twinkling lights and dreamy vibes

Pretty traditional and formal at the ceremony

Hobis reception would be so crazy fun

Infections laughter

Dumb childhood stories

Nostalgia

Just so much happiness

It's the shit you would see in a movie

Probably a wedding hall or a "classic" wedding venue

Namjoon

Lol

2 of wands, 2 of cups, queen of swords, council of light

All these came out together

2 of cups is romantic partnership so I think honestly it's so centered around him and his betrothed just being in love that they wouldn't care what the wedding was like?

Like I'm sure they'd care but it's the kind of, "I don't care as long as you're by my side" kinda thing

Very future oriented? So I think they get married simply bc the legality of it? Like by the time they get married, it's like they've practically been married for a long time before that

Maybe a bit spur of the moment

Very straightforward

Idk about where yall live but in America you can just go to the courthouse and be married

So... that might be a thing

Or just a very simple, no fanfare kinda wedding

Maybe a very natural color scheme?

Jimin

Omg

The star, two of coins and awakening

So jimims wedding is an EVENT

and I think it will be a blend between him and his partner you know?

Like, so extravagant

I feel like everyone would want an invitation

A lot of people but still exclusive

Big but exclusive

Not a cheap wedding at ALL

It's very much the most libra wedding the world could think of

Gold and black would be a good choice

It's very much something for people to look at but also very sweet and delicate too

Bold and delicate

Luxurious for sure

I wouldn't be surprised if jimin had 2 weddings?

Like one to actually be married and say the honest vows

And one for the experience and spectacle of having a fantastic wedding

It's extra and so so so fairytale meets bad and boujee

So charming too?

Like it is in no way obnoxious, it's just an experience!!

A cool ass venue or an absolutely decked out wedding hall

Taehyung

Cute

Strength, play and the fountain

Everything you could ever dream of tbh

It's very beautiful and might even influence a new generation of wedding culture?

Like the wedding will be traditional ish but very... modern? Like morphing the beautiful traditions with some newer and unique things

So very tailored to him and his person

Probably a nice uplifting atmosphere

Very romantic and joyful

So. Much. Fun

Dancing and singing and the whole 9 yards

The fountain card is about oneness and being absolutely awake. It's not having to search anymore because you've found it

I honestly don't no what else to say

It's just a beautiful and perfect wedding

Probably not a million people but its full of the people that have been important to them in whatever way

Like, the people that are ment to witness it

Marriage is definitely something special and almost spiritual at this wedding.

Really nice

I would like to think its at a farm or a wedding hall

Jungkook

Three of cups, four of cups and get grounded

Very chill

Definitely with family and friends and not many more people

Everyone is enjoying and celebrating and being themselves

The ceremony might be pretty traditional or formal but it's kinda like when jk had his school ceremony and he was all nervous but everyone was cheering him on

Could also be an informal "wedding" at a Vinyard

Very close and comfy and just love

Sharing an important moment with important people

Maybe sings a song

Maybe plays pop punk and edm at the reception lol

It's just so nice

Wouldn't be surprised if purple was in the color scheme

Definitely lots of drinks to go around as well!

Everyone cries

Maybe an outside reception or even an outdoor ceremony?

I think fall or spring would be the perfect time for his wedding!!

Very familial

Very nice

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holy-guacamoly · 2 years

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Congrats on 200!! And thank you for the event!

I had a hard time choosing between events options AND characters but... let's go

Personal HC

with Levi

SFW, a little suggestive okay!

I go by she/her, Eliza

hobbies/interests: old movies from the 30s to 60s, lounging at home in pjs, napping :) having family/friend game nights, baking, going to farmers markets, traveling, Disney/princesses (IDK if that means anything haha but just in case!) photography, reading, ice hockey, animals/cats...

personality

ISFP-T

pretty introverted (until we really connect)

open minded

leader

sarcastic :)

motivated (when I want to/need to be)

amiable

can be slothful :/

caring

reliable

dreamer

quick thinker

Hey bby! <333 Well to me the Disney part means a lot because I am Disney obsessed, so I am glad you told me lol I really hope you like your little Levi HC's and you have something to look forward during your stressful days. :) Warnings: none Genre: Headcanons ♥ First of all, Levi and you bond over the adoration for old movies. He is a classy guy and of course, enjoys classy movies. This man will rent one of that small vintage room's in cinemas to give you a private show. He is THAT extra. On rainy Sundays the both of you cuddle on the sofa and binge-watch every classic that comes to mind. Luckily Levi has seen them all over a hundred times because he can't really focus on anything but your head resting on his lap. Has to fight the urge to not kiss you right here and there. ♥ ElizaxLevi = Absolute power couple. You both are fighters at heart and are always looked up to. People admire your ambition and your overall leadership qualities. Levi and you are constantly hyping each other up, especially when life's been rough. There is no way your man is letting you down. "Oi brat, what was that about quitting?" he asks, arms crossed in front of his chest. "Did you forget who you are? The woman I've fallen in love with, would not dare to give up." ♥ Nap Time with Levi is just *chef's kiss*. Since he has insomnia he often gets very tired during the day. Before he met you this stubborn mess always refused to just rest, but luckily you saved him from his misery. Levi loves to hug you from behind as you snuggle into his chest. Both of you are wrapped into a nice blanket and enjoying each other's warmth. Before you feel sleep overpowering you, you hear your boyfriend whispering all sorts of sweet nothings into your ear. The dimmed room, the cozy atmosphere seems to make him weak. ♥ After countless begging and at least a year of dating, Levi finally gives in on a date to Disneyland. You are over the moon, he....not so much. Imagine dragging him from ride to ride while you forced him to wear those Mickey Mouse ears. lmao He hates all the bright colors Disney has to offer, but he loves the way your face brightens at the sight of all your favorite Disney characters. This is the moment Levi realizes how much he loves you. He adores the way you are able to be happy over the smallest things. It's a rare quality. ♥ Levi always had to be strong and independent from an early age. So he was bamboozled when he met such a caring person like yourself. At first, it was hard for him to just accept that you genuinely want to do nice things for him, but now he enjoys your care so much. :( You learned to make tea, just how he likes it, and Levi is so flustered about that fact. </3 When you begin to scratch his head and give him shoulder massages it is over for our main boy. Sometimes he has to hold back tears because he is so touched by all the love and nice gestures you have to offer. ♥ This dude loves some intimate make-out sessions. Something about the way he has you all for himself during these gives him so much joy. Levi is a little bit jealous when you don't give him enough attention, so this is the best remedy. He never gets tired of your lips, caressing his. Is especially crazy for you laying on top of him, so he can wrap his arms around you. "Liza?" Levi finally whispers after your lips part for a moment. You gift him a confused look. "What's up?" you ask since it clearly wasn't the moment to talk. "Thank you...for everything." ♥ During lazy mornings you guys talk about your wildest dreams. You've created a safe space where the both of you are allowed to take some time away from reality. Levi even gets a little giggly over your more than unrealistic future plans. No one ever made Captain Levi Ackerman, humanity's strongest, giggly. Good job, girl. ♥ Your family loves Levi and all your cousins will get a little jelly over. your handsome man. :) Even though he likes to keep up his cold facade, he has this amazingly smooth way with older people. No matter if it's your mom, dad or grandma - He has them wrapped around his finger. Did you ever experience some young guy flirting with older ladies, just to make them happy and flustered? Saying things like "Oh no, Ma'am, there is no way you are 60! I thought your granddaughter was your sister." That's Levi. That's your man over there, talking to your great aunt. ♥ Levi is OBSESSED with touching you. Not in a sexual way, but he always needs to feel you close. Especially when his night terrors hit once again. Touching you, feeling your warmth means safety for our beloved Heichou. Levi awakes with a blood-curdling scream, ripping you from your deep slumber. In an instant, you shoot up, focusing your tired eyes on the person next to you. "P-please..." he whimpers, tears streaming down his face. You know exactly what to do. What he needs. Your digits find the back of his hand, drawing circles. "I am here, baby. It's okay." ♥ I am living for the HC that Levi doesn't know how to ice skate but won't admit since you are good at it. He genuinely likes to play hockey with you but this man is just so scared lmao No matter how hard you try to teach him, this mofo can't get a grip on the concept of ice skating. He gets so grumpy and you are just a laughing mess. In the end, Levi has to skate with those skating devices for children which are designed like penguins. ♥ The two of you are sarcastic clowns and I love it. Whenever you dislike somebody the both of you can't form one sentence that isn't sarcastic. Also, you never fight. You just end in some weird sarcastic discussion, which leaves you both laughing at the end. In conclusion: Levi isn't only your partner but your best friend. He values you more than anything. Even more than tea.

#guac.events #levi ackerman

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hchan-main · 4 years

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Tastes Like Heaven

Haechan x Reader

Fluff, no warnings

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A/N: this started as a 200 words drabble... Idk how it became this. Not edited! I'll make the post look pretty tomorrow :(

You were late. It was already the second semester of your first year in college and during all that time you had never been late. Or at least not this late. You checked the time on your phone, juggling between your backpack, your broken umbrella, your wallet, your soaked sketchbook, and whatever was left of the sandwich you prepared that morning because you were oh so sure that you had enough time to put something in your stomach before the long day that awaited you; 9:45 am, class had already started forty five minutes ago and you hadn’t even reached the building. Thanking the skies that the rain had stopped, you stuffed all your things back to your bag and with a loud huff, focused all the energy you had left to run as fast as your legs allowed you to your first class that day.

By the time you got there, random strands of hair had already stuck to some parts of your forehead and cheeks and your chest rose and fell at a fast pace following your shallow pants, forcing you to take a few extra minutes to steady and fix yourself before slightly sliding the main door of the room. The professor looked at your apologetic expression with surprising sympathy, probably noting that for the first time you were not already in a seat by the time he arrived, and signaled you to come in. “Sorry…” you say in a quiet murmur and with a quick pace went to where you usually sat next to your friends; eyes now fixed on the ground and an embarrassed sigh escaping your lips.

The day had barely even started but you already knew it was going to be a long one, one of your hands went to rest on your forehead to give support to your head on top of the table as you tried to generally explain to your friends what had happened. Your short story only being interrupted when your eyes locked with Lee Donghyuck, sitting a few rows in front of you. Both of you quickly showing the surprise on your faces to later advert your eyes back to the teacher.

It didn’t take too long for the class to finish since you had arrived on time for the last 20 minutes of it. “I still can’t believe you didn’t remember that your umbrella was broken. I told you to get a new one like three times last week!” one of your friends nagged “I know, I know. I’m dumb, you’re right. Can you stop?” you answered, already irritated enough by everything that had happened that morning at the time you hanged your backpack on one of your shoulders.

“Uh… y/n?” the unfamiliar voice immediately caught your attention, turning around just to find Donghyuck standing behind you with a rather awkward expression; a mixture of worry, disgust, and discomfort. It was quite shocking, honestly. Of course you knew who he was; the tanned skin decorated with tiny moles in a few places that seemed to be so soft to the touch, the pouty lips, rounded doe eyes, and the dark honey tinted hair had had picked up your interest some times before; especially because it had been more than a few times that you had caught him staring at you. But you two had never said a word to each other before that day.

However, any kind of excitement was instantly stopped by the look on his face. “Oh, hi…” You say, his features slightly easing the frown. “Is there something wrong?”

“That’s what I wanted to ask” He was quick to answer, his right hand finding the spot at the back of his neck as he avoided your eyes with a tilt of his head “I thought that maybe this could make your day a bit better?...” he added, handing you a pack of Oreos as he bid goodbye and left the room at a swift pace. As awkward as it was, you still considered the gesture as sweet since your only other source of food was the half eaten soggy sandwich hiding in the depths of your bag. Not putting too much thought into it, you opened the package and guided one cookie to your mouth as you hurried to your next class, your friends fast to question you and gossiping about what had just happened. You let them be as you once again sighed, at least you were not going to have to survive for the rest of the day on an empty stomach.

8:32 pm; your last class had finally finished. As you reorganized your things to leave the room, your thoughts went back to when you wondered that morning how hard the day was going to be. Your hands grasped the now dried sketchbook that despite not dissolving because of the rain, it didn’t go back to its original state; the pages now crinkly and colors and lines faded. You kept it in your grip as you walked outside, your steps stopping only when they reached the main door of the building. It was raining again, not as hard as in the morning but it was still going to be an unpleasant trip; the sky was already dark and none of your friends had that last class with you.

“Are you still upset?” You heard that unfamiliar voice again. Your eyes widening when you met Donghyuck’s bright curious pair.

“Kind of?... I ran out of my apartment too quickly this morning and my backpack fell on a puddle of water. I also forgot my umbrella broke last week. It’s been kinda shitty today” you said, the outburst of words feeling almost natural next to him. “but I think the worst is that my sketchbook barely survived, so many of my drawings faded with the water…” you continued, only then taking another look towards him, his contorted frown back on his face. “The cookies did help though, thanks”

You noticed a slight smile spreading on his lips, the furrowed eyebrows going back to their resting positions as he hit the floor with the tip of his umbrella a few times. “I can walk you home, if that helps too” it took you some good ten seconds to actually analyze his words “… or not?”

“Oh no, no. I mean, yes. That’d be nice, thank you” Donghyuck laughs at your alarmed tone, his smile finally widening to his maximum extent as he pushed the door open for you. As you stepped outside you thought, maybe the day wasn’t that bad after all.

As days passed, Donghyuck and you started to talk more. You’d meet sometimes for lunch and he’d walk you home some others. It was hard for you to think of a moment of your life where you had laughed more than when you were spending time with him. He was charming and witty, always knew how to get back at people with his words. He was also annoying, he made fun of you and his friends, but somehow always knew when to stop, when the joke had gone too far. And perhaps, that was what annoyed you the most.

He always seemed to know when you were feeling down and he would make a clown of himself until you were laughing again and your heart beating hard against your chest, cheeks flushed and smile wide at how much he cared. It annoyed you to know how fast you had fallen for him and his antics. But honestly, when he came at you, eyes big and bright as ever and a cheeky grin plastered on his face to ask you out for a date, you didn’t even doubt to say yes.

It wasn't until a pair of weeks into your relationship that you noticed there was this thing about him that you have been wondering for a long time now. As you got to know Donghyuck better, you realized that there were some times when his face would distort in disgust. It happened at random moments and it didn't seem to be connected to someone else in particular, but you always brushed it aside.

This time, the two of you were sitting at a new café that had recently opened near campus, the large windows that went from the floor to the ceiling allowing the natural light to shine on your table and the strong smell of coffee along with the cozy atmosphere made it a perfect spot to study. "What's wrong? You didn't like the cake?" You asked him, worried because of the deep frown on his expression.

"It's just..." Donghyuck doubted, his eyes going from the speaker behind you back to your eyes, a troubled sigh leaving his lips "you're not gonna believe me"

"what?" The confusion in your voice didn't take long to settle on your expression as well "try me"

He hummed, his right hand cutting a tentative portion of the cake in front of him before looking back at you "I have synesthesia" he confessed as he took the piece of the pastry to his mouth "I can taste sounds" Donghyuck added before you could ask for more information about what he had said.

"Taste sounds as in?..."

"The song that was playing tasted like brussel sprouts" he told you as he took another bite of cake, as if trying to wash away the previous unpleasant flavors.

"That's... That's crazy" your voice went lower in volume as you were still trying to process the new information, the dots quickly connecting to your previous thoughts "is that why you get randomly upset?"

"I don't get upset, but some flavors are not what you'd like to taste without expecting them" he explained once again "like when you're angry. Your angry voice tastes like Jaemin's favorite coffee" you laugh at his expression when he acted out drinking the mentioned beverage.

"wait, are you serious?? Then what does my voice taste like normally?"

"you really want to know?" You nodded immediately, Donghyuck's smile not taking too long to hang on his plump lips "like strawberry Oreos" you laugh at the comparison, a bit embarrassed as you lifted one of your hands to hide your content grin with your palm. His mischievous smirk not taking too long to follow after you "Wanna know what your laugh tastes like?"

"Oh no"

"It tastes just like heaven" was his last line before bursting into loud laughs as you tried to attack him by throwing him a scrunched napkin while he winked at you.

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luminousnotmatter · 4 years

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Answer the questions and tag people you want to know better

Name: Clara

Nickname: I don’t have, like, a short-form-version-of-my-name-type-nickname but I’ve kind of always wanted one hehe. My family sometimes calls me Miss Boo or Boo, and Cricket.....I have a dear friend who calls me Duck.... you can make a nickname up for me and use it if you want, I love nicknames. ^u^

Zodiac: Jake Gyllenhaal. That’s Tracy’s answer but I’m keeping it because it’s perfect and makes me laugh.

Height: 5'5″. I made it to my goal of being taller than my mother. *fistpumps* Is it only by one inch? Maybe.

Languages: English, sarcasm, movie quotes, and I can recognize some numbers and maybe a dozen words in Spanish.

Nationality: American

Favourite Season: Autumn and Spring. The beautiful transition of both, the transformations in nature and the atmosphere and people’s moods.... *dreamy sigh* ❤ Autumn would probably win if I was forced to pick between the two.

Favourite Flower: Oh, my friends. SO MANY. Peonies and sunflowers and roses and daisies and ranunculus and lilacs and dahlias and camellias and tulips and hollyhocks and zinnias and daffodils and irises and black eyed susans and violets and pansies and apple blossoms and cherry blossoms and wisteria and lilies and magnolias and dogwood flowers and sweetpeas and lavender and foxgloves and poppies and delphiniums and forsythia and and and and I just love all the flowers. ^u^ ❤

Favourite Animal: I love animals, period, with a few exceptions, but dogs and horses and cats have always been especially special to me. ❤

Favourite Scent: Again. So many. !!!! I really like warm scents? Like baked goods and comfort food and my dog’s fur and chocolate and the smell of my home....but I also really enjoy citrusy aromas too. Lemon, lime, orange, grapefruit. And then there’s sun-dried laundry....and lavender, lilacs....and the ocean....the smell of rain....the forest...... I’m a real sensory person so I could be here for a g e s.

Favourite Fictional Character: Eggsy Unwin, y’all. ❤ But then Steve Rogers and Sam Winchester too. ❤

Tea/Coffee/Hot Chocolate: Tea please. ^u^ Though I do love me some hot chocolate. Coffee is whatever.

Average Sleep: Ehhhh…..idk.....7 hours?? It really depends on how well my self-control is operating on a given night haha, though right now I mostly have the freedom to sorta cover those poor choices by sleeping in, what with quarantine and all. :P

Favourite Colour: Yellow is my very favorite, but I just love colors in general.

Dogs or Cats: Dogs. But see favorite animal answer.

Number of Blankets: That I own?? That I sleep under?? Be specific, Tumblr. ;) I sleep under a sheet, a duvet on top of that, and I throw a quilt on if it’s real cold. But I really enjoy being cozy and have a fairly decent collection of other various blankets.

Dream Trip: The UK, Ireland, Hawaii with Tracy please ❤, I’ve always dreamed of roadtripping the U.S, France, Italy, NZ, Australia...y’know....basically everywhere. The more history there is in a place the more I wanna visit.

Blog Established: Oh man. I’ve been on here since...2013. Holy crap? Had one url (shoutout to pearlsinaclamshell you’re still mine and you’re still special to me) and many loves for the first 6 years and then late last summer Taron Egerton happened to me and nothing’s been the same since tbh.

Random Fact: I have curly hair and a pretty freakin good? good singing voice. #TwoFactsForThePriceOfOne

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Hetero

Harry Potter Moral Compass: I’m not even going to dignify this confounding question with a response. Once again, stealing my Brain Twin’s response because same.

Where Are You From? California, U.S.A.

Why Did You Start This Blog? So many good and important and wonderful reasons haha. ^u^ To share an AU Fic idea with Tracy. To be a part of a sweet, fun, beautiful, talented group of humans from all over the world who loved a thing I loved as much as I did. I stay because that sense of sweet community and togetherness is always here through shifting loves, and for new friends and old. I’m here because of the openness to love and freak out over and babble about and crush on the things and people I love and freak out over and babble about and crush on with as much vivacity and passion and silliness and loudness as I please with zero judgement because we’re all trash for Our Fave(s) and it’s a beautiful wonderful amazing thing. ❤ Sister Wife, your answer was so much more succinct and eloquent than this ramble-fest what the heck.

Most Recent Album Played: Dude, I don’t even know....I’ve been listening to playlists and Pandora stations so much today and lately...…I think my Elton John Diamonds disc 1, which is like a greatest hits album basically, and the first disc of it is my favorite. ^u^ ^u^ ^u^

Thanks for the tag, My Girl! @taronunwin ❤I nominate my Sweet T @djjarindin My Pineapple @noturbaby, if you gals wanna participate. ❤

#taronunwin #djjarindin #noturbaby #Clara Can Talk #Clara Answers Questions #I Wrote This #This was really fun! :D #Makes me want to do more of it haha.#Also Taylor listen I came up with that nickname right off the cuff there buT IT WORKS SO WELL I KINDA ADORE IT??? SWEET TEA #YOU'RE SOUTHERN #AND THE SWEETEST THING EVER BASICALLY.....please may I call you that? Please? ❤❤#Also also: thinking about how long I've had my blog #considering the past and such #it kinda lowkey made me miss sharing my writing on here?#So....like....should I go back to doing that? Idkidk what do you guys think?#And finally: it's possible I love the strikethrough feature a bit too much hahahaha

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isthatso7 · 6 years

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idk another part of my fic

a\n: this is my first attempt at writing if english( pls i need beta i suck

Title: Hyperspace blue

Characters: The Jedi Exile and Atton Rand

Basically, Exile and Atton meet on the Nar Shadaa under different circumstances. She works as a mechanic and he’s a smuggler.

UPD: posted it on AO3

Atton Rand woke up and sat up in his small, but cozy bed. His bedroom was filled with blue and pink glow from vibrant street signs and giant screens with giant faces on them. He needed to get ready; there was an another work waiting for him tonight. After a brisk shower and a scarce midnight breakfast he started to put his clothes on. He grabbed his old blaster with holster from the desk and secured it to his belt. At last, he put on his ribbed jacket and left his rarely visited lair.

You know that feeling when your vessel is entering hyperspace? The sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach, the feeling of acceleration that pushes you back into the seat. For Atton Rand, this feeling was like coming home, something that meant comfort and safety. You are in the alternative reality made of white and blue lines, and outside observers can mistake your freighter for an innocent and beautiful comet. He knew it was weak consolation and ships still could explode while traveling at lightspeed, but he still relished the idea.

“I know a place where we can change vessel’s ID. The owner is an old, partially blind Sullustan, but he’s the best you can find. ” Rand’s partner in crime was a reasonable guy he met while trying to make a living in the refugee sector of Nar Shadaa. Atton never really liked the Serroco gang, mostly because they were easy to jump to conclusions, conclusions that usually lead to violence. This guy called them family. But he was smart and really knew his job so they got along very quickly.

“And also there’s a female mechanic working there, a pretty gal, but she’s not the talking kind, and Force knows I’ve tried.” He sighed and stretched his arms and put his hands behind his head. They’d successfully accomplished today’s mission, and now they needed to hide hijacked vessel. A few more hours and they’d enter Nar Shadaa’s orbit, a few more hours and they’d be changing vessel’s ID signature and bringing it to the client. Another simple job done. He’d fallen into the routine of odd jobs and got used to never knowing where he is going to meet new day again. When they’ve arrived to Tien’s place, it was close to nightfall on the Nar Shadaa. But it’s hard to tell what time of the day it was because there was no sun above you head. There were only dim street lights and animated neon signs.

The workshop was desolate at this hour. There were no customers and Tien was nowhere to be seen. The only working light was above the workbench where was sitting a slumped female silhouette. They both approached her and she didn’t noticed them at first, too consumed in examining some droid part lying in front of her while sipping caffa from chipped mug.

The girl lifted her gaze from her work and the light from the lonely lamp fell on her face. She looked a lot like those Serroco refugees, always with the blaster in the hand, ready to fight for their territory, their little piece of freedom, trying to protect each other at all cost. Her locks were jet black and she had a few short braids in front of her left ear and in the back of her head, adorned with little wooden beads. Her monolid eyes stared at them, her right brow lifted in a silent question. She had an unusual eye color - usually people with black hair had brown eyes, but hers were green. But what did he know about genetics? He was just a smuggler.

“Hey, Kano, is Tien here?” asked Atton’s companion.

“Well, Gar, he’s sleeping, because it’s one AM.” She smiled weakly with a sleep-deprived gentleness in her eyes.

“And why are you up?”

“I can’t sleep”.

“You look like you’re going to pass out any minute, Kano.”

She shrugs, “Still can’t sleep.”

Hm. That’s the mechanic he was talking about, thought Rand.

“I and my friend are in need of some services from the boss of yours.” He ran his hand through his short hair and smiled tentatively. Kano got up and looked out the wide glass window behind her. She grabbed a rag from the table to wipe grease from her hands. The mechanic was wearing dark blue jumpsuit with dirty, worn-out military boots. She noticed their starship on the previously empty landing pad.

“You’ve got a new ship?” She eyed them warily.

“Yeah.”

“I’m going to wake him now.” Kano gulped leftover caffa and left.

***

Atton usually came around two or three times a week.

Sometimes he left the moment he got what he need.

Sometimes he tried to make small talk with the unfazed, steady and irreplaceable mechanic.

Usually, he started with: “Hello, Kano.”

And she would answer after a moment: “Hello, Rand.” And then she would put her face mask on to continue welding starship hull.

Sometimes he tried to ask her personal questions just to spite her. She made an impression of a person who probably was bullied in school, but never cared about it. An estranged girl that rarely let her thoughts to materialize in a form of spoken words.

“Do you live here? It seems like you’re always working.”

“I work every day.”

“Why?”

She shrugged with a plasma torch recklessly swinging in her hand. Too cool to think about safety.

“What do you do after work?”

“I go home, take a shower, eat something, and fall asleep.”

“That’s really sad. Do you want to go out sometimes?”

“No.”

He rarely came around during the day, so most of his interactions with her happened during her night shifts in the poorly lit hangar or cluttered workshop. But he managed to catch the sight of little things about her. She had a stern gaze but a soft face. Her skin was sickly pale with a distinct green tinge. Her eyes were always looking at you with a hint of mistrust and suspicion, always watching out for sudden movements.

There was a look in her eyes that wasn’t obvious and he managed to catch a brief glimpse of it only once. But he understood it immediately. He saw them peeking through the cracks in her guise, eyes that reminded him of a wild animal, born and raised in the confines of a cage, malnourished and abused, only to suddenly become one day free and unrestrained.

“Why? Don’t you feel suffocated by loneliness?”

“There’s no need for your fake sympathy. I chose the job myself. I like it.”

Her smile was acidic. She knew he couldn’t figure out what’s she was thinking about and tried to annoy her out of sheer curiosity. Or maybe he just didn’t care. Maybe he was acting like that with every person he found remotely attractive. Or maybe acting arrogant was just a part of smuggler’s professional work ethic.

“There’s no need to punish yourself, Kano. You deserve to have fun sometimes.”

“And you know how to have fun?”

“Yeah. A couple of drinks, beautiful companions and pazaak. And maybe some other stuff.”

She sighed and continued to repair broken protocol droid. Most of his jokes had zero effect on her. But he made her smile a few times. Atton would’ve never confessed to it, but he was proud of himself for doing that. That’s how he discovered most of her smiles were crooked and bleak. The only time he observed her having a beaming smile on her face was when she talked to an old rusty homicidal T1 utility droid.

***

Kano’s work attire never changed. She seemed to own at least dozen of navy jumpsuit, all in various state of weariness. He sometimes wondered what kind of clothes she wears outside work. He tried to imagine her in a sandy midi skirt and a ink blue jacket. But the jacket always turned to be very similar to the top of her jumpsuit, so he stopped and cursed his imagination. Usually he had no problem with imagining anyone in colorful outfit. Or without one.

“How old are you, K?”

He found out she hated when someone shortened her name. But she didn’t mind different pronunciations. Like, he heard people calling her “Kay-no“, “Kah-no” or even “Kah-nu”, but she never protested or corrected anyone.

“Don’t call me K, please.”

“So?”

“I’m almost thirty. And you, scoundrel?”

“Thirty-four.”

“Woaw.”

“What? I don’t look my age?”

“Really? Yes. What is the secret? You look twenty-two, flyboy.”

“That’s an ancient Sith technique. Only a few in this part of the galaxy know it.”

“Does it involve sacrificing a bunch of Jedi to an ancient Sith lord?”

“No. Just a lot of water and positive vibes.”

“Have you ever seen a Sith lord? A real one?”

“No, of course.”

“And you?”

“I haven’t too.”

“Do they really do that stuff?”

“I don’t know. I heard some stories, but you can never know the truth now that they’re gone.”

***

One day he strolled into the shop and Kano was wearing a white T-shirt. It hang a little bit loose. And that’s how he saw her pink burn scars all over her right hand and her neck. It only happened once. He tried asking how she got these scars, but she never answered. Hadn’t even stopped looking at the droid detail she examined.

“I’m going on a vacation,” She said suddenly when handing him the parts he asked for.

“Nice. Where to?”

“Telos IV.”

“If it was a decade ago, I would’ve been jealous of you. But now? C’mon, there’s nothing to see there. The ocean’s irradiated. Your skin will come off. Or the Citadel station will explode because of that shitty Peragus fuel.”

“They’re trying to rebuild. I’ve heard it’s beautiful in the zones where the atmosphere is restored. Almost like it was before.” She was delving into the old memories, he could tell it by her eyes.

“And who told you that? A shifty travel agent?”

“A friend of mine.”

“A friend? What kind of friend?”

Now he’s surprised. And maybe a little jealous. What, he thought she doesn’t have friends besides him?

“A kind that doesn’t lie about the peaceful landscapes.”

She wasn’t there the next time he visits. The almost blind Tien sat in her chair and a utility droid made a series of hostile beeps following him around the shop until he left.

#atton rand #jedi exile #kotor 2 #my shitty writing #my fic #i'm suffering

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eyesfilledwith-stars · 7 years

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10-14, 18, 99, 100 (you don't have to answer all those.)

obviously, i’m going to answer all of these.

10- do you sleep on your side, back, or stomach?

usually on my side… i like to cuddle. like, a lot.

11- what’s an inside joke you have with your friends?

uhm… does “walk with ag to me” count as an inside joke? it’s pretty throwback, but remember we said that to each other every day for a year straight? idk why that was the first think i thought of.

12- what’s your favorite planet?

i really don’t want to be cliché and say Saturn, but… it’s Saturn. not just because it has the most visible ring system in our solar system, but it’s also suuuuper lightweight despite its size (like, throw it in a celestial ocean and it will float kind of lightweight), and it’s got a whoooole bunch of moons (62, actually), and it’s the farthest planet we can see without a telescope, and i’m sure the horizon on that planet is spectacular (although there’s no ground there, so i guess technically there is no horizon, but i mean… the sky as seen from within the planet’s atmosphere).

but i love all the planets v much.

13- what’s something that made you smile today?

waking up to a snap of my girlfriend singing cheesy love songs to me. she’s… ugh. she’s the love of my life.

14- if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

okay, are you ready for this? sit back, i want you to picture it.

my absurdly artistic interior-design loving girlfriend has been given full control of decorating, because i have no taste. nice, cozy living room with a blanket over every chair because i am always fucking cold, and she’s always fucking hot. no carpet if i get my way, no accent wall if she gets hers. i’m picturing open brick wall, but that might just be because i’m thinking along the lines of “city aesthetics”. candles everywhere. definitely cats. the kitchen, where i will spend about 60% of my time, is all pastels. would we share a bedroom or keep two, dan-and-phil style? idk… but if there’s two, hers will be travel-themed, and she’ll have all her art stuff probably put away neatly, with her fairy lights around the bed. lots of yellow things in there. my bedroom would be all spacey, lots of dark blue/purple/greenish galaxy colors, complete with star stickers on the ceiling. papers and clothes and shoes scattered everywhere.

or not. but really, as long as i have you and there’s wifi, i’ll be perfectly happy with whatever our flat looks like.

18- tell something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up since.

… i’ve done a lot of dumb things.

99- list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

• we don’t have to take our clothes off- ella eyre(just… everything about this song. it never gets old.)•the rain- the suitcase junket(v v aesthetic)•6/10- dodie(obv)•northern downpour- panic! at the disco(luv luv luv)•ribs- lords(i don’t actually care about the lyrics to this one, just the sound)•haze- tessa violet (again, the sound more than the lyrics)•not over you- tessa violet(v catchy… it kind of captures my feeling of falling in love, even though that's not what the song is about.)•blue- troye sivan(this hits me most when i’m missing you)

100- if you were presented with two buttons: one that allows you to go 5 years into the past and the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

(i’m assuming this is 13-going-on-30 style time travel.)

absolutely 100% i’d go to the future. me from 5 years ago was… cringey. and besides, i wouldn’t have you of i went back in time. i want to skip these in-between years. i want to go straight to the good parts of life, to when i can come home to you every day.

ask me some of these questions!

#aks me a kestion #j #ask meme

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itheelephant · 7 years

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#metoo? Groomed By My Karate Teacher

This one's probably gonna be long and rambly. It has taken years for me to even realize how much was wrong. I thought I was content with my conclusions, but apparently I'm still kinda stirred up about it, so I think it needs to be worked through some more.

When I was 15 years old, I started taking karate with three of my younger brothers. We happened to be buying a couch at a garage sale around the corner from our house and the guy had converted his garage into a dojo. He was in his 40s, was a 2nd degree blackbelt in taekwon do, and a blackbelt in kenpo although he said he couldn't prove that because his psycho ex girlfriend burned his certifications in a fit of rage. (Idk how well that story holds up, but he did know his kenpo, so.) He was close to home, not super pricey, and focused almost entirely on self-defense, which was what my dad was interested in. My brothers were required to join, and I, being a girl, was given a choice. I wasn't sure how far I'd go, but I knew I was gonna feel left out if I didn't give it a try, and I was thoroughly impressed by this man who told my dad and I, as he stood on our porch delivering the couch, that he specifically felt it was important to teach females how to defend themselves, and in fact he liked teaching girls better than boys because girls don't automatically think they know how to fight when they don't.

I don't remember too much about my first class except that I loved it, and that he totally buttered me up. I mean, I felt (/was) stupid and clumsy as all get-out, but he said as were leaving that I had natural talent. I was hooked.

I got better, some friends joined, we all teased and laughed all the time...I felt like what we had as a group was special. He pushed me harder than I had ever been pushed before, but it never seemed like too far. Which made me trust him. He made us feel like we were the real deal and no other dojos were worth a flip--he made fun of all kinds of things, like certain ways other systems tied their belts, pullover uniforms tops, sport systems...I know I felt so lucky. I became the head student and my brother Nathan was kinda right under me--we led warmups, helped teach the lower belts, our instructor consulted us on other students' progress and test scores, and he frequently talked about his dreams of opening a big town dojo and my brother and I teaching there after we became blackbelts. I never had intentions of continuing martial arts after I earned my blackbelt, but I didn't want to disappoint him, so I didn't say much and figured we'd cross that bridge when we came to it.

He and my dad became good friends. He came over for several holidays and when we joined a new church, he even attended my younger brothers' baptism ceremony despite not being a Christian. But our friends who had joined the class, two families, quit suddenly at around the same time.

--Everyone else in the class got birthday "treats" like, "Oh you're turning fourteen? Spar with 14 people in a row." "Oh, you're turning 15? Get in a horse stance so we can all line up and kick you in the thighs 15 times." Not me--I got presents. He gave me a volume of the complete works of Jane Austen, an apron handmade by his mother, and a gi top also handmade by his mother with lapels customized to my belt color which she changed every time I passed a belt test. He made a big deal about sparring scores. He said none of us should ever expect to get a 5, because 5=as good as him (which we weren't). I'm terrible at sparring by the way, I always end up a slobbering, sniveling mess by the end. I got an underlined 5. I KNOW I didn't earn that 5. Oh, and then he gave me a belt. Yep. A belt. Some lower belts were testing that day. There they stood, on the mat, waiting for their belts and certificates. Teacher came out. Called me up with them. There I stood, in my denim skirt, as he handed me a red belt. (Equivalent of 4th Brown in taekwon do--since we were doing a tkd/kenpo mashup he played with the ranks a little) He told me it wasn't honorary--that I would still be earning it, but he...wanted me to have it early because I was a good teacher? Yeah. Charmed my socks off though.

-In spite of having mocked sport karate ever since we began training, he started talking about some of us competing. My brothers did a couple of times. I had no interest at all. But he pressured me until one night, in the warm after-class atmosphere I loved, I gave in. He cheered loudly, and I was so proud to please him, but I felt sick to my stomach that night getting in bed, because tournament training is a huge commitment for weeks before the event, and I literally had zero interest in any part--the training or the competing. (I'm not a competitive person.) I felt (on a small teenaged scale) like I had signed my life away. I talked to my parents though, and they said I could change my mind, and I hated telling my teacher (who was very gracious about it) but I did, and I was SO thankful my parents allowed me to bow out. Now, looking back, I am even more thankful for it. I feel like that was a significant moment in my relationship with my teacher and if I had allowed myself to succumb to the pressure, he would have had complete control. I do remember one dayI regret-class was just me and my brothers.I was pulling punches, so my assignment for the next day was to randomly punch my brothers. I did, until Dad got home from work and said no, that was ridiculous. I still feel awful about that day.

So at 17, I got engaged to be married, in a year-long engagement during which my fiance would be completing his sophomore year of college in another state. He was mildly uncomfortable about my karate training, I think we both agree he was feeling overprotective out of ignorance, haha. So my dad invited him to watch a class to ease his mind. It didn't. In fact he says now that class is what made him really concerned at all, because when he met my teacher, it was like when two territorial male animals do that glare of death thing. My teacher clearly gave him major "stinkeye." And my fiance left with predator-alert warnings going off in his head. After I got engaged, my teacher's behavior towards me did a complete 180. No more of the cozy, "dojo-family" vibes, no more joking and teasing. Pure professional karate instruction. I was trying to make blackbelt in 1 year instead of two, so it was definitely crunch-time, but his change in behavior was much more than that. I was hurt, honestly. I remember a class conversation before the shift in which we were all discussing a news story in which a martial arts instructor had taken advantage of a female student, and we were discussing the trust in the student-teacher relationship. He said something, I don't remember if it was in the article or if he was describing another story, about a student in that relationship trusting their martial arts instructor so completely that they would jump off a cliff if he instructed them to. My brothers and I all scoffed, and he said, "Now wait a minute. What would you do?" He spoke in a cautionary tone, and I left chilled because when I thought about it, I did trust him so completely in a way I didn't trust anybody else, because of how well he knew me--how my body worked, and how my brain worked too. How he always seemed to know exactly where my limits were, and when to push them/when to let up. The bond was stronger than I knew for sure I liked.

So when he suddenly stopped the playful familiarity, the affectionate hugs and, "darlin'"s, I did feel hurt. And when his girlfriend moved in with him and we stopped going (my parents didn't approve), I hated the instruction we switched to. I felt like we had lost that one-of-a-kind atmosphere that was so much more than karate. My martial arts world was drained of color and life.

Through the next years, my feelings are what convince me more than anything else I've mentioned that I was being groomed. I wasn't "in love" with him, I was completely head over heels for my fiance/husband. That wasn't the issue. But I thought about him constantly. I invited him to my wedding and was disappointed he didn't come. Every time I went to town, I hoped to run into him. Every time we passed a motorcycle, I checked to see if the rider was him. For years. If I still lived there, I think I would still check motorcycles (not hoping anymore, but it's THAT automatic for me). That's so scary to me now.

Then I started talking to my friends, the other women who had been in the class. Two families had left suddenly, and I knew they had a problem with our teacher but I didn't know what. It turns out, he acted inappropriately with every one of them--one he pretty much stalked, showing up at her house repeatedly, despite being asked not to. I remember him showing up at one of our homeschool park days, but of course I didn't know how inappropriate he was being, I was just pleasantly surprised. It ended when he visited her house one too many times. She gave him an ultimatum about disrespecting her boundaries, and he told her students and instructors shouldn't have boundaries. They never went back.

I suddenly remembered the photos he had of former students on his wall when we first joined. He said they were a family a lot like ours, but they had suddenly up and left.

I also remember having a reoccurring nightmare throughout my time training in his dojo. In the nightmare, I would be attacked at night in an alley. I would execute my self defense technique, but it would suddenly be as if I were underwater. My moves in slow motion, with no strength.

I check his Facebook every now and then. He is an outspoken Donald Trump supporter, and at one point his cover photo was that famous quote, "Grab 'em by the pussy."

Most recently, I've realized I can't roughhouse with my (5 and under) children without starting to panic, and wanting to curl up in a fetal position and cry. I've been through other traumatic situations since then, so I don't know if my karate teacher gets all the blame for that, but I do know it has been deeply troubling since piecing together his character to realize those two years I so valued, those techniques and self-discipline I thought I would be able to use to protect myself and my little brothers or my children, were all taught to me by someone undermining it all by worming his way past them all.

So, #metoo? No, thankfully, but it could have been me. I was directly in his sights, and nobody, me or my parents, or anybody, had any idea.

#metoo grooming karate manipulation

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1-100 cute questions

:~)

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?- more cereal than milk! it has to be crunchy and milk is fucking gross, even though i use almond milk instead

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?- FUCK yeah, especially if it's also sunny outside

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?- grocery receipts are the usual culprit. maybe i should make my own bookmarks!

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?- rn i'm having sugar free white chocolate w half & half and 3 splenda

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?- i'm self conscious of my entire existence my friend

6: do you keep plants?- yes! she gave me and orchid and a bamboo plant a while back, and i have ian my aloe/succulent

7: do you name your plants?- lmfao yes, ian! she named the bamboo melman, and i never named the orchid. zack and sabrina are no longer w us unfortunately

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?- i used to write and draw a lot. i don't get a chance to do it as often now but i rly am trying more. i'll even try my hand at inktober this year but yikes scared bc i can't actually draw

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?- hell yeah bitch if i am in the mood for it

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?- all of the above? lmao. my back is most cozy but sleep paralysis, so a mix of side stomach like its a specific diagonal ass position on my bed lol

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?- "coming this soon"

12: what's your favorite planet?- FUCKING JUPITER BRO OMFG MY URL ARE TWO OF MY FAVE MOONS OF JUPITER TEST ME BITCH

13: what's something that made you smile today?- i don't think i've smiled today? maybe something michelle said earlier when we went to lowe's

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?- *takes pics of my current place*might have a little more aesthetic to it just bc location though. and if i live in a bigger city than orlando that means i have more money to REALLY fulfill my aesthetic wishes

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!- Recent work by planetary scientists has indicated that the deep atmospheres of Jupiter and Saturn may contain chunks of diamond floating in a liquid hydrogen-helium fluid. MEANING, it rains diamonds on jupiter

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?- permission crusted chicken, w angel hair in a lemon butter sauce

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?- i was going for a magenta over the summer and was p successful but my mom paid for me to not keep lightening and shit, that wasn't my money so idc lol rn its auburn-ish. i rly do still want a light blond/almost gray though

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.- the time i got incredibly drunk, like, throwing up and dying can't even walk drunk like wow i'm not like that lmao so when that happens it's wild

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?- i have multiple journals and a sketch book. the sketch book is whatever i feel inspired to draw atm and bc thats so rare i just be picking it up and going lmao. i hardly write anymore, these questions kinda keep me going

20: what's your favorite eye color?- light brown is vastly underrated tbh, like yeah green is cool but i have always been a sucker for hazel or just noticeably lighter brown eyes. i remember this one boy in the 8th grade had me swooning w that alone lmao and ofc my gf now its soo nice

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.- i no longer have it, but i had the same jansport since the seventh grade. i used to customize it and sew on letters or iron on, change it up ever so often, and got rid of it senior year of high school

22: are you a morning person?- i really am not, but everyone thinks i am since i'm up at 6am even the days i ain't got shit to do

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?- PLAY VIDEO GAMES. draw, do these questions, sometimes even brainstorm ideas about books i'll never write

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?- shit every single one of them? well nvm, yeah there is. jordan. that's my ride or die forreal and honestly i think she does know ABSOLUTELY everything there is to know about me. timmy too actually!

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?- hmm idk if it counts but this one "abandoned house" in the gables to smoke, and the rooftop of merrick park late at night

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?- bro i had these low top black and white converse that i got for christmas one year from this boy that rly liked me lmao i kept them for a hotttt minute, through college i think but had to throw them away when the sole finally gave out

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?- just mint is fine

28: sunrise or sunset?- sunset

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?- just how she remembers and notices absolutely everything. i moved a pin in my room once and after not having been over for a week she asked me where it was as soon as she walked in

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?- yeah last night when i was home alone and i swear i thought i heard knocks on my bedroom door which would be impossible. fuck no i didn't open it

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.- i think socks are cool, they make my feet soft if i put them on immediately after showering & moisturizing. they protect your heels from getting too cracked as well. i don't care for white socks, but am a slut for black no show ones. i sometimes have to buy kids socks bc my feet are so fucking small that no show, still show. i like aesthetic socks! like the ones w cartoons and stuff like that. and knee high socks can be sexy, just maybe not on me?

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.- i don't be w friends like that? OH but this one night we went to see Laidback Luke at Space and then we went to Nikki beach to drink some more and watch the sun rise and we all rly bonded and i learned some shit about my friends i def ain't know before it was rly nice. there was a dog we met there named molly LMFAO

33: what's your fave pastry?- i like lemon and red velvet stuff. guava and cheese pastries are good too i miss them

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?- okay i didn't rly have any stuffed animals as a kid, but that boy i was obsessed with, omar, he gave me a plush lil puppy one year for christmas and omg i cherished it lmao. but then my dog got it and i was so sad :(

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?- FUCK YEAH I DO. i use them often, though not as often as before like i need to get back on track w being organized

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?- arctic monkeys, always

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?- clean!!!! i finished cleaning it completely today and wow i feel like a brand new person

38: tell us about your pet peeves!- messes stress me outtttttt, like gross unhygienic messes omfg

39: what color do you wear the most?- black bitch, next

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?- i have these 1/4 carat diamond earrings that i received as a christmas gift last year from one of my kids and it was just so sweet and i rly love them, they're the only earrings i wear now

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?- the zodiac series! and lord of shadows!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!- no i don't, not yet at least. i would like to find a rly rly nice one, maybe we'll go hunting for one next weekend. there are two rly good boba places i like though!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?- michelle maybe? and no gaze, we just noticed the starts were nice during that hurricane lmao

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?- july 8, 2017 it was short lived limited to just that day lmao but it was nice

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?- some times? my instincts don't be telling me a lot tbh

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.- "what did the cell say to his sister when she stepped on his foot? Mitosis"

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?- sea food? fucking pickles!! mustard too

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?- roaches, and possibly hell yeah

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?- i do! but i have apple music now so i do not buy music or anything any more

50: what's an odd thing you collect?- tickets. plane tickets, parking tickets, concert tickets, admission tickets, sometimes even receipts, if it has a nice enough memory attached to it i collect it

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?- nothing i can think of at the moment

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?- salt bae, all the "it" memes, the neo yokio memes, "i had to do it to em," x-files memes

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?- i'm familiar w rocky horror & the heathers, love beattle juice, haven't watched pulp fiction

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?- myself whenever i look in the mirror

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?- i don't rly be doing shit "just to prove a point" thats rly petty

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?- love when their faces light up talking about some shit that gets them hype

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?- i rly don't fucking care for bohemian rhapsody like why is that a thing

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?- i am vodka aunt

59: what's your favorite myth?- I LOVE ALL GREEK MYTHOLOGY EQUALLY. norse mythology is cool too, as is celtic but i think greek is my fave

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?- poetry is hard to get into bc so much of it doesn't resonate w me or comes off as fake deep tumblr posts (i'm looking @ you milk and honey). howl by allen ginsberg is still my fave

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?- i'm always surprised to be getting any gifts at all, i don't think i have ever received anything "stupid." my gf used to love giving me food and candy though but like i'm fat so no. and i don't give gifts without putting any thought into it so i have never given a "stupid" gift either.

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?- no, i drink ice cold water and coffee. sometimes crystal light which isn't rly juice to me i think its just flavored water

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?- nigga YES! i just reorganized my entire bookshelf and my itunes is not as neat bc i'm behind but i also keep that rly meticulously done

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?- blue-ish gray

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?- my gf, lmao. thuy!!!! nick and andres too omg!!

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?- not roses, it'd be an assortment of a ton of flowers, lots of pink and green and white

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?- i fucking THRIVE it's nice, scary movie and reading weather

68: what's winter like where you live?- it's FAKE AS HELL. i wish it just a tad cooler, like ten or fifteen degrees

69: what are your favorite board games?- i like scategories and the game of life. candyland!

70: have you ever used a ouija board?- those are caucasian activities no thank you

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?- great tea or tazo passion tea

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?- HELL YEAH and i'll note it down multiple times like written, typed, phone agenda, etc it's hard and i hate my shit memory

73: what are some of your worst habits?- procrastination is the worst i think

75: tell us about your pets!- i don't have any :( i would count zeus but i'm also deathly allergic to him

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?- yeah!!!!! smh

77: pink or yellow lemonade?- "why not both?" probably pink more

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?- hate that shit they're so ugly and annoying and gross and hate how they talk like bro

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?- i never thought my mom cared about me tbh but she threw me a huge graduation/birthday party i cried.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?- they're a nude/beige, i didn't pick it but i'm also not painting over. its nice though

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.- this sounds nice in theory but i dont rly have the energy for it rn lol

82: are/were you good in school?- i was but i coasted, had i tried a lot harder and dedicated more time to it i could have been better

83: what's some of your favorite album art?-i can't think of any rly

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?- i have to add to what i have on my back, and have a few more i would like but am not sure about

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?- i do! i'm actually reading one now on tumblr, its called countdown to countdown and its rather interesting. i like twd comics, and am also reading the OoT manga. i rly love manga too actually, inuyasha was the first one i read that got me into it

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?- BECAUSE THE INTERNET, CHILDISH GAMBINO

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?- i've seen a ton of movies dude. i think spirited away or kiki's delivery service, or princess mononoke. ghibli movies w strong female leads. howl's moving castle too but it does focus more on romance. i should reread the book

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?- i'm not familiar enough w art to tell you! i think art is rly interesting though, and don't particularly care for modern art

89: are you close to your parents?- not rly, but am more so as an adult. i don't tell them my business or anything like that though

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.- seattle just really resonates w me and the more i talk about it the stupider it sounds. but i have been to quite a few cities, DC, atlanta, Tallahassee, miami, san diego, vegas, the list goes on. none of them made me feel the way seattle does. maybe bc i went alone? maybe the time period that i went? some of the memories attached to the city kind of suck now, lol, but still rly important to me

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?- nowhere in particular this year, but i'm def going back to seattle next year guaranteed, maybe doing paradiso

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?- if its my own sauce then no cheese at all, otherwise olive garden def hates me

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?- i just wash it and wear it down

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?- today is felisha's bday apparently

95: what are your plans for this weekend?- uh idk, ig see my gf. i'm avoiding a baby shower but idk what we'll do instead

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?- i procrastinate on them a ton lmfao "remind me later" yeah bitch in like a century

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?- INTP, gemini, ravenclaw

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?- i don't think i ever have gone hiking

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.- i'm sure there are a few but nothing i can think of off the top of my head. reflection by 5h actually lol

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?- FIVE YEARS INTO THE PAST and five years ago is a rly good time to go back to!!! i was 20 and going through suchhhhh a bad break up but i wish i could have gotten up and been a bad bitch sooner lol i love the stuff i experienced that year, went to my first edc and whatnot. 2013 was rough on me but i pushed through it! 2014 i made some bad choices that i would change, 2015 wan alright but i can do it better and i'm not even sure what 2016 was. i would have started teaching sooner had i known it was something i could do i think. i would have worked harder and been more responsible especially financially, though tbh i did pretty well. i'd just do adulthood a lot better and start off a lot stronger. I WOULD REDO THAT LOCKHEED INTERVIEW AND ROCK THE SHIT OUT OF IT.

#personal #inthemoodforlovee #asks

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hey-kids-want-some-avengers · 7 years

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Holy mother of- alright, I did this to myself. Answers are below the cut!

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? More cereal! I’m hella lactose intolerant so I rarely even have milk.

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? Sometimes, it depends if I was already too cold or not.

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? Usually I use drawings or a bit of cardboard.

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? I take my tea with a little honey and my coffee with lots of flavored creamer.

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? VERY MUCH YES

6: do you keep plants? Cacti mostly:)

7: do you name your plants? YEP

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? Pencil or acrylic, though I’m digging clay now.

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? I spend almost every hour of every day singing, it’s one of my absolute favorite things!

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? back or side depending on how my jaw is doing.

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? OH GoD, so many...

12: what's your favorite planet? Mars >3

13: what's something that made you smile today? I got to spend all day with my pupper AND I got called for an interview tomorrow.

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? Brick walls, lots of floor space for art, ect. a window seat, high ceilings and a cozy atmosphere please and thank you.

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! 99% of our solar systems mass is the sun. :3

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? Baked Penne!

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? It’s already blue but I wanna do it red, orange and yellow at some point for a crazy fire look.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. The time I jumped off the lid to my friends hot tub and hit my head, knocking myself unconscious and almost dying.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? Kinda, it’s mostly art and random facts??

20: what's your favorite eye color? Blue

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. My art bag that looks like a freaking paint towel at this point.

22: are you a morning person? Ye!

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? Write, draw, take a bath and bake.

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? Yes, my bestfren Chloe -w-

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? An abandoned house down the block while chasing a cat. There was some guy sleeping in there.

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? My red Converse!

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? Wintergreen

28: sunrise or sunset? Sunset, for sure.

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? She blushes in her ears and gets really shy around guys.

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? Umm, yes. When my mom had emergency surgery.

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. OKAY, I LIKE SOCKS, I WEAR EM ALL THE TIME AND THEY NEVER MATCH. BOOM.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. I went to down my iced tea and found out too late that it was my dads whiskey and I got drunk off my ass.

33: what's your fave pastry? oooh, I love pastries with all my heart, probably lemon bars.

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? It’s in my room somewhere, a little weasel puppet named “wonder weasel” and I made him a mask.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? Yes, I keep at least one on me at all times.

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? Panic!

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? I reaaaaally like it clean but it never happens. I’m a pig.

38: tell us about your pet peeves! I hate when people never show up on time, ignore me when I’m talking to check their phones and I hate when people pretend to like me.

39: what color do you wear the most? Black

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? It’s a bumble bee necklace my sister got me and I love it.

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? The book thief.

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! It’s a local place here and they make really pretty pastries and coffee, it’s very modern inside but it’s cozy and everyone’s super nice. It smells like autumn leaves and spices.

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? myself???

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? Last week in a bath tbh

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? Yes and no? It kinda depends but I usually second guess myself.

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. I changed my ipods name to titanic. It’s syncing now. (I hate myself)

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? LETTUCE

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? Burning alive, and it kinda is kinda isn’t still.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? I like to but I never have money, the last one was a panic! at the disco cd.

50: what's an odd thing you collect? Fish????? I have five tanks in my room ok????

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? Can’t help falling in love with you and phantom of the opera (my gf) IM CHEESEY

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? THEY ALL SUCK

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? I’ve seen all but pulp fiction and I adore them all, beetlejuice is one of my favorite movies.

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? Besides myself idk

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? I don’t even know honestly.

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? Their sense of humor, laugh and comfortableness.

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? Doesn’t it always?!

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? My friend hates wine but is totally the wine mom, sooo that makes me the vodka aunt bc I only have one friend.

59: what's your favorite myth? Icarus

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? YES! I love the raven, tyger and the tell tale heart??

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? Socks for received I guess? Probably the dumbest thing I’ve given was a dirty shirt to my friend????

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? Almost always, grape or orange usually.

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? I’m really particular about them and I don’t let anyone touch em.

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? Ink black.

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? My gf..; ;

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? Seashells, blue flowers and tiny pink ones, probably a lil glitter.

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? They feel relaxing to me.

68: what's winter like where you live? ITS LIKE A NEVER ENDING HELLL

69: what are your favorite board games? Fury of Dracula, d&d, ect.

70: have you ever used a ouija board? Yep! I own one.

71: what's your favorite kind of tea? cranberry??

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? YES. My ADHD is scary bad ok.

73: what are some of your worst habits? Not eating healthily/not drinking enough, secluding myself.

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. Humorous, kind and caring and wonderful and supporting. The most fantastic person to live.

75: tell us about your pets! OK!!!!!! I have three cats, a tabby (ponyo), a massive grey one(rory) and a smol floofy white and black one(lydia). I have four betta fish, Lafayette, Remus, Pietro, and Marvel. I have 12 guppy/platty and I could list their names but I wontttt, and my sweet pupper girl, Matilda

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? Writing requests..............

77: pink or yellow lemonade? Pink.

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? HATE

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? My girlfriend sent me chocolates and my fren bought me a bee pillow, they’re pretty great.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? Light purple and I didn’t choose them, my mom painted that room before she got sick so I kept it.

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. Deep sand washing over dark beaches and charcoal mixed in a vat of dark clay.

82: are/were you good in school? No, not really. I listened tho

83: what's some of your favorite album art? Pretty odd, believers never die, infinity on high

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? I have two right now and I have MANY more planned.

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? OF COURSE, CAPTAIN AMERICA AND DEADPOOL, SANDMAN EVEN THO THAT DON’T REALLY COUNT.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? um? Nirvana? Am I doing this right?

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? Perks of being a wall flower, three idiots.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? All of them??

89: are you close to your parents? I like to think so

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. Ohhh um, I dunno, probably Denver?? I’m really isolated.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? I’m going to Denver for a concert and a huge road trip to California this summer to see my family.

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? It GoN DRoWN SOn

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? Down. It’s too short for anything.

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? My grandpa

95: what are your plans for this weekend? Hanging with my fren and watching shameless.

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? Sadly, I put them off until it does it automatically. I regret it every time.

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? Advocate, Taurus, hufflepuff!

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? Yesterday and I loved it.

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. Hamilton tbh, think of me, riptide and I found.

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? Five years into the past because I’m not fucking ready to grow up.

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