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steponmepinkjun · 3 years

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I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it’s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i’m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

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allisxonrxse · 3 years

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It was a Friday, close to 10 PM. You were finishing up your studies as you were at college for the previous hours. Your best friend, Cathy, calls you at 10:07 pm, you answer and she yells on the phone, “ Y/N!! You have got to come to the pub tonight! I heard that there were some really cute guys there..?” she said that with a high pitched voice at the end. “Maybe,” you softly said, “ Maybe i'll come. I will just have to finish these papers. I'll call you when i'm finished, alright?” Cathy sighed, “ Alright, but you have to call me before 11 PM so that you're not late.” You mumbled, “Okay, just let me finish!” Cathy hangs up the call. You squealed a high pitched scream that sounded like you were excited.

“Finally, I finished.” You smirked, looking at your papers, then looking at the phone on your desk. Oh shit, I almost forgot. You ringed Cathy at 10:58 PM, she squealed “ Omg y/n, you took forever!” “Oh shut up!” you jokingly replied. Cathy sighed, tiredy,”I'll pick you up at 11:20, is that fine?” “Yup! Im gonna get ready.” You said confidently back. You hung up the phone then sprinted to the closet like an animal chasing a bunny. You found a beautiful red dress, all the way up to your knees. “This looks amazing!” You looked at yourself in the mirror, then grabbed the reddest lipstick you could find in the drawer. “Fuck,” you chirpped,”I messed up.” you then grabbed a makeup wipe and did it neatly. It was then 11:14, you took a black, small purse, and sprayed a nice perfume scent of roses on you.

Cathy honked her car 3 times, just to get your attention. “Damn.” You ran as fast as you could, out of your apartment,forgetting to lock your door, however, Cathy doesn’t notice it.

It took only 10 mins. To get there. “Hmm, smells like sweaty cigarettes.” You mumbled to Cathy. “Rightt…” It only took her just a few seconds to spot a stunning guy in the crowd. You sat down and sighed. But then you felt as if someone were taking a glance at you. You knew it. You felt it. You looked at the man who was playing the electric guitar. The both of you noticed that it wasn’t normal to spot someone just like that. You felt as if you had a connection somehow.

The show finished, Cathy left you at the pub, and drunkenly left with the stunning man she saw. Then so, the guitarist comes up to you, with his rosey cheeks and beautiful hair. “Hey.” He said with a deep voice, then smirked.”Hi.” You replied back, thinking that you did something wrong. You turned pink, slightly embarrassed. “ You look gorgeous.” He said, staring at you, while slightly grinning. You decided to be flirtatious for the night and replied back with, “You too, you look bloody handsome.” He blushed. “ You look smart.” You blurted out. Roger jumps up behind him and says, “He’s a smart lad, but so am I.” raising his eyebrow, then smirking. “ Really Roger?” Brian croaked, tiredly. “Yes, really. I uh- am uh- gonna be a uh- dentist?” Roger mentioned. “Oh fuck off, im tired of that.” Brian laughed and you lock eyes with him. “Woah now,” Roger soon mumbled, “ I can see you guys already fucking.” “Shut up!” You hit Roger playfully.

“So, wanna go out sometime? If you-” Brian tried to say, as you just interrupted him by handing him a drink. “Yess!” You said in excitement. Roger left the room as he was getting bored, and talked to Tim, the lead singer of, Smile. “We could go out right now if you’d like,” you croaked, “I dont have any plans.” You saw Brian try to hide his grinning face from you. “You look really cute, y’know?” You chirped out loud. “Oh- t-thanks.” Brian stumbled on his words. You just thought it was so adorable how he was shy when HE was that one who came up to you. If nothing would've happened, I could've done it myself.

You already saw the thought of you and brian kissing. “Too fast,” you thought to yourself, “too fast.” You didn’t know it yet, however, Brian was thinking the same. You gave him the choice, “Can we go to your house or mine?” Brian thought of it, then came the thought of it that you were just a girl who he noticed out of the crowd of people, he thought to himself,” She’s different.” Then Brian blurted out,” Uhh, we could go to yours.” He walks you to his car, and tells you what it's like to be in a band, and how hard it is, and how stressful it is. He kept on complaining to you, as if you were the only one that he could talk to.

You soon got home, and he came with you to your front door. “Juice?” you offered him. “Sure! That would be nice.” He replied back with. You got into the kitchen and started getting the glasses ready. You poured in the grapefruit juice, you guessed that he would like it. You returned back to the living room just to check on him. He looked overwhelmed to be quite honest. He looked so stressed out. “You okay?” You mumbled, hoping not to wake him up. “Yea, yea.” Brian said ever so softly. You fell in love with him at that point. Seeing him on that couch made you feel safe. Even though you weren’t even sure if he liked you back, you knew for a fact, you loved him.

You woke up on your bed, and you found brian facing you, right next to you. “Oh my fucking god.” You thought to yourself. He moves in the slightest way possible, and you hope he doesn’t wake up. You look at his big brown curly hair, and you start staring at his face. Brian feels like hes being watched, he opens his eyes, and wided them. “Y/N i am so so sorry,” he panicked, “I didn’t mean to.” You chuckled, giving him a small smirk. “I'm actually surprised.” you said back with the remaining of that smirk that soon turned into a grin. Brian got out of the bed quickly. He was still wearing what he wore to the pub last night.”You didn’t change?” you mentioned. “No, i dont have any clothes anyway.” Brian said. You got out of bed, still tired, but somehow, excited. Why do I feel this way? You thought to yourself. Brian walked to the kitchen, you saw him and he looked like he was cold.

“Brian,” you called out.”come here!” Brian quickly came to your room, shivering with small goosebumps on his arms. “Here,” you gave him a fur coat.”wear this.” You looked up at him and noticed how taller than you he was. He looked down at you, passionately. He held the back of your neck, and you felt his cold, long hand pull you closer to him. He pulled you closer until you could feel his hot breath. He grabbed you and closed his eyes, then you felt his lips touch yours. “Wow.” you thought to yourself while this was happening. You closed your eyes, and the kiss went longer than it was supposed to.

“I am so sorry, love!” Brian took a gasp. “No, no” you took 2 breaths, “i-i liked it..” “Really?” Brian mumbled. “Wait.” you noticed, “did you just call me love?” Brian gasped, he looked down at the floor, itched the back of his head, and cooed out, “Yea..” You saw him getting nervous. “Stop apologizing,” You croaked “You're too nice.” He looked at you up and down. You saw that. You licked your lips and eventually, your the one that risked it for a kiss. You grabbed the back of his head, pulled him close and you felt the friction of both of your lips touch together. You kissed passionately, it felt like this wasn’t the first time you did this. It wasn’t. You pulled back, “Im so so sorry.” You looked him in the face, and you were worried. Brian mocked you, “No, no” he chuckled, “i-i liked it.” Both of you grinned and smiled widely.

He took the fur coat off the table, then put it on. You look in the closet for a hoodie. You find a big black hoodie, then you put it on. It covered your knees and you weren’t wearing shorts, you just wore underwear. You went to the kitchen, boiled 2 cups of tea, then got it ready for the two of you. The tea was finished, so you brought it, 1 cup by one. “Herbal tea?” Brian sniffed the drink. “Yea,” you responded.”Rosemary tea.” “Ooo, fancy.” Brian commented on the tea. “I thought it would be chamomile tea, as it is very common.” You stared at his hazel eyes, he stared back at you. You guys did this until brian noticed the time. 11:38. “Shit, what day is it?” brian grunted. “Its a saturday, dummy!” you chuckled out loud, and brian seemed to enjoy your laugh. “I dont have anything for today, you?” he questioned. “No, we can go out to the pub tonight.” You mentioned. The phone was ringing. Brian answered it and gave a playful smirk, “hello?” you heard him. A deep voice you were in love with. “Uh, yea shes here.” He talked to her and brian called you to the phone. “Hello?” you talked in the phone. It was Cathy. “Hey, sorry for leaving you at the pub, haha..?” She nervously said. “Whos with you? Did you sleep with him? Was he from the pub?” Cathy kept on interrupting you. “Oh my bloody hell. Let me talk!” you complained,jokingly, “His name is brian and i met him at the pub. And no i didnt sleep with him!” You hung up the phone embarrassed. He chuckled and mumbled, “I wish you slept with me.” leaving a small smirk on his face. “What?” you asked.”I couldn’t hear you.” “Oh nothing.” Brian responded with a small grin.

It was the afternoon, somewhere near 3 pm. “Wanna go to the movies tonight?” Brian asked, nervously. “Sure!” You replied back. Excited and dreamy, you decide to choose your clothes on what you're going to wear to the movie theatre. You picked up some blue bell bottoms and aside from that, a light yellow shirt. You also took a backpack for some stuff if you needed it. “When do you wanna go?” Brian asked all the way from down the hall. “I don't mind, at 9 or 10 probably.” “Ok, i'm going to leave and pick you up.” Brian said. He took a piece of paper and a marker, then wrote down his telephone number. “Wait, but-” you said as he closed the front door. You walked in the living room, half naked with only your underwear on. Brian came back in, “Oh my god, i'm so sorry!” He yelled out loud. You looked him up and down and so did he. “But you look amazing..” Brian said looking at your top. You saw the long print in his brown pants. He noticed you were looking at him. Then he covered it with his hand. “Oh- um sorry.” He mumbled. You uncovered your top and took off your underwear. “Wanna come?” you asked him, flirtatiously. “Yea..” brian looked at you and gave a seductive smirk. He followed you into your room, he pushed on the bed, passionately kissing you as if he knew you for so long. “I cant believe that this is happening.” You thought to yourself as he gave you love bites and started kissing your neck. You saw while he was kissing you, he was painfully hard. “Can i suck you?” you mumbled, looking him up and down. He took off his clothes so quickly that he had almost ripped them. He threw his clothes all over the room, causing it to look messy. He took a deep breath and groaned. You dropped to your knees and smirked,”Can i?” you asked. “Yes, please.” He was begging for it and his cock was rock hard. “Just for you.” He groaned. You put his cock in your mouth and started sucking him off. His head threw back and he kept on rolling his eyes. “Please, please, i wanna cum.” he said softly, moaning. He grunted with pleasure. “Keep going!” he said. You felt his pubic hairs on your nose. You choked on him, and he cummed in your throat. You could feel his heartbeat on the veins of his dick going faster and faster. He rolled his eyes and threw his head back once more. “Oh my god y/n, keep going.” Brian moaned while biting his bottom lip. You again felt his warm seed go down your throat as he bit his bottom lip even more. He rolled his eyes and he felt so good. “Wow y/n, you're really good.” He looked you up and down. You felt so honored for making him cum. You smirked. “I want you inside me.” you groaned. “Maybe..” brian croaked. After he recovered, he could finally do the things you wanted him to do. “I want you inside of me.” You repeated. “Fine, fine,” he chuckled so cutely. You looked at him and it looked like he was semi-hard. “y/n can i?” brian asked so politely. “Yes, thats what i want you to do.” you giggled, “y/n your laughs make me feel different, y’know?” brian mentioned. He ripped off your underwear and pushed you onto the bed. He kissed your thigh so lightly. He licked your thighs and he licked your pussy. Once he licked your pussy you needed you let it out. “Mhmm..” you moaned slightly. “Haha, already?” Brian laughed. He put in his long fingers and he instantly hit the spot. “Awwhhhh b-brian,” you moaned, “fuckkk…” he was so good at this already. He looked and you and licked your clit. You bit your lip so hard that you could taste the blood. He repeatedly licked your clit, over and over again. “Awhh fuckkk…” you moaned,”b-brian, dont stoppp..” He fingered your spot and you bit your lip and rolled your eyes. It felt so good. He used his tongue and licked your clit even faster, with more pressure. You moaned with pleasure. “Do you have condoms?” brian asked, slightly smirking. “Yea, I think.” you said, reaching over to your desk. He grabbed a condom out and placed it on his cock. He grinned and groaned, “Can i?” “Yes, put it in pleasee..” you moaned. He slid his dick on your wet folds and he kept on teasing you. “Bloody hell brian, stop teasing me!” you grew moody. Brian giggled. He slid his cock in, and you moaned,”oh my fucking god bri, its so big…” you bit your lip and rolled your eyes until you could see nothing but black. He hit your spot, it hurt but it felt so good. Both of you moaned at the same time, both giving you pleasure. “Fuck bri, this feels so fucking good.” you moaned once again. “Mmhmm..” brian said. “I love it when you call me that.” he groaned, going deeper. “Fuckkk..” you moaned louder than before. He thrusts his cock into you, faster, and you love this,”Fucking shit bri, dont stop!!” you can hear his whispers, (fuck,fuck,fuck) and him slightly moaning. This turns you on even more,”bri, your so hard.” you roll your eyes back and he moans,”im gon- im gonna c-” he cums. You wish he fucked you raw. You feel like he loves you, and this wasnt just a one time thing. You were sure that you loved him, but you didnt know if he loved you. He cleaned up and put his clothes back on, starting with his boxers. You changed your clothes and looked at brian, “I really liked that.” you mumbled. “So did i.” brian said, putting his shirt on. He looked you up and down,”i love you.” he mumbled. Did i hear that correctly? He loves me? “Wait-” you said as brian interrupted you with a passionate kiss. Now you knew that kiss was from his heart. You knew he loved you as much as you loved him.

#brian may #brian may x reader #queen

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clan-sayeed-fic · 4 years

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Let me earn your trust (Kamilah Sayeed & MC)

Previous chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18

Book: Bloodbound (property of Pixelberry Studios) Pairing: Kamilah Sayeed & MC: Amy (I do not own those characters, they're the property of Pixelberry Studios as well) Warnings: only some fluff Rating: Mature Author's note: I'm not a native English speaker, I'm sorry for any mistakes (feel free to correct me).

I know it's been a while since the last chapter. I hope you still remember the story somehow.

I finished writing it, so you can be sure that there will be a finale of this fic😄

Summary: I think we need a little reminder of what happened before I went on hiatus. Sorry, I’m not so good at writing summaries. * Amy was working at Priya's party, and that's when/where she saw Kamilah for the first time. * They met again at the event. That was the night when newly turned vampires attacked in the hall. * Lily got injured seriously during this event. After Amy's begging, Adrian turned her best friend into a vampire. * Amy was living with Kamilah since this night. They were getting closer to each other with time. * That's how we got to the Council voting. Lily became a member of Clan Raines. But at the same time, Amy made a deal with Adam Vega. * Amy and Lily threw a party in Kamilah's penthouse, after which Kamilah and Amy had their intimate moment. * The next day both women got into a fight, and Amy left. * She started working for Adrian, and Kamilah went on a trip to Paris. * After she came back, it turned out she got scratched by feral, and Amy took care of her. * They had an honest talk during which Amy gave up secrets about her past. * After that, women had another intimate moment, which ended up with them sharing a night.

So here we are. Now both, Amy and Kamilah can catch a breath before things get complicated more than before.

~ 2400 words

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Chapter 19

Another morning was something different.

Sun hadn't shined like this for days. It made the bedroom brighter despite blackout curtains.

Kamilah didn't really like the sun since the day she was turned into a vampire. She got used to not feeling it's warmness on her skin. Even if she was born as an Egyptian, the majority of her life she spent in shadows, hidden from the natural light.

But that day, sunlight made her feel peaceful.

The woman lifted herself on one elbow, looking at this beautiful human being lying next to her on the bed. The blanket fell from her upper body, exposing gorgeous, light skin. She gently pulled it up to cover Amy, smiling softly to herself. Some mumbles escaped the girl's mouth while she was still sleeping deeply.

"What have I done to deserve having someone such remarkable next to me?" Kamilah whispered quietly, not wanting to wake her up.

She leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on Amy's forehead before getting out of the bed.

She had a meeting scheduled with Adrian in her office.

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It was around 10 a.m.

Amy was stretching her body on the bed, arching back with a soft moan escaping her lips when her muscles loosened up after this long night. Even before she wholly woke up, she knew that Kamilah wasn't by her side anymore.

The girl turned around, looking on the clock. She rubbed her eyes to see clearly and fell again on the mattress with a loud sigh.

"Good job, Amy," she said aloud, angry at herself for oversleeping.

She overslept and missed the meeting with Lily and her real estate agent.

They wanted to find a new place for Lily to live in after Amy would leave the city. Lily wanted her best friend's advice on this topic, and there she was, lying naked in the bed of some CEO.

Amy laughed at this thought, biting her lower lip when the memories of the night hit her.

Enough, she scolded herself and quickly got out of the bed, putting on a shirt from the last day. After that, Amy immediately reached for her phone to find there an immense amount of missed calls from her best friend. The girl dialed her number without second thoughts and prayed for her to pick it up.

When she did, all Amy heard was silence. And that was enough for her to know what exactly was going on at that moment.

A silent treatment.

"Lily, I know that you probably hate me by now, but..." Amy said quickly, afraid that her best friend would hang up. She had an explanation created in her mind, the truth, but she gave it up. "You know what actually, there is nothing that would explain why I wasn't there for you. I should have been, and I'm sorry."

Still nothing,

still silence.

Amy lifted a free hand to her mouth and bit on her own thumb in anticipation. But then, she came up with something that would possibly cheer Lily up.

"What would you say if there was a chance for me to stay in New York?" nothing. "You wouldn't have to move out anymore."

At first, Amy wanted to hear anything from her friend. But then, when Lily squeaked into her phone, the girl started to miss the sound of sweet silence.

"OMG, FOR REAL?!" Lily shouted, making Amy put her phone away from her ear if she wanted to hear anything again in her life. "You're not joking? Because if you are..."

"I'm not," Amy said reassuringly.

For a moment, there was no response, as her best friend was rethinking if she should trust Amy's words.

"Let's say that I believe you... for now," Lily teased. "By the way, why weren't you home last night?"

Amy opened her mouth to answer, but before she was able to say anything, Lily already figured it out on her own.

"OMG!" she repeated with the same high-pitched tone, "you're with HER?!"

Amy moved to the kitchen, filling herself a cup of coffee while Lily was still excited. She was screaming into her ear some speculations and questions about her night in Kamilah's place.

"Lily, listen," Amy interrupted her never-ending talking about how hot Kamilah was, "I love you so much, but I have to go."

"But you didn't tell me how it was," Lily sounded like a sad puppy and probably, at that moment, looked exactly like one.

"We'll talk later," the blonde laughed and hung up, knowing that her friend wouldn't let go quickly.

Amy took a sip from the cup, coming closer to the fridge on which she found a little note left for her. It didn't take much to recognize beautifully written words from under Kamilah's pen.

I reached the conclusion that you will be hungry when you wake up, so I ordered something to eat. I will be back at 5 p.m. I'm hoping to see you there, my little firefly.

Amy's heartbeat raised, and she smiled, blushing at the same time. Even if Kamilah didn't call her like that in person, it still made warmth spread all over her chest.

The girl turned around, lost in her thoughts. She laid her eyes on the envelope on the coffee table in the living room. Amy came closer and lifted it from the table.

A tiny smile appeared on her face.

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"I owe you a huge thank you for taking care of my business during my absence," Kamilah said after Adrian finished reporting things that had happened.

"It wasn't an easy task," he said honestly. "I am impressed by how you manage to keep this place growing."

"It's not an easy task," Kamilah repeated his own words with a smile, surprisingly, she was in a mood for jokes.

Adrian looked at her curiously. Something about Kamilah seemed different to him, but he couldn't figure it out. Not yet, at least.

With help came a message from Amy on his phone. Adrian read it fast, trying to hide his happiness.

"What was that?" Kamilah was paying too much attention to not notice a difference in his behavior.

"Um," he gritted his teeth, not wanting to say another word.

He looked like a five years old child that did something wrong and was afraid of confessing.

"Adrian," the woman's voice sharp, "I'm a big girl, I can handle it."

His shoulders lifted and fell with a deep breath as he gave up.

"It's Amy, she decided to stay at my company," Adrian moved away with his chair like he was afraid of some sudden reaction.

But, to his great astonishment, there was none. Instead, he saw Kamilah smiling softly with her eyes looking through the window.

"She is truly a sleepyhead," the woman spoke to herself, quietly. But of course, Adrian heard all of it.

"So, you two..." he pointed at the woman, feeling truly happy for her. "My life will finally come back to normal," he said, leaning back in the chair with his hands behind the head, relaxed.

"Your life?" Kamilah lifted one eyebrow with surprise and amusement.

"Did you think that your weird behavior didn't affect me?" Adrian asked, faking hurt look on his face.

Kamilah rolled her eyes. What on Earth made her keep in touch with this kid for so long.

"Anyway," Adrian spoke with his normal voice, that made them go back to serious topics, "it's a good thing that she is at your place."

"Why is that?" Kamilah asked curiously.

"There are rumors that some vampire in New York is planning another attack any day from now." Kamilah was angry that Adrian didn't tell her earlier. But he managed to add before her interruption. "We are working on it, Kamilah. It's hard to find this guy. It's like..."

"Like he is already one of us," the woman finished the sentence for him.

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Kamilah came home on time.

The woman went to the kitchen, leaving her purse on one of the chairs.

She looked at the fridge to see her own note with a little addition to it. It made her smile when she recognized a cute firefly similar thing drawn by Amy, referring to her nickname.

But beyond the drawing, there was no sign of the girl in the house. Kamilah looked around automatically, even if there was no use of doing that. If Amy was at home, she would already sense her presence.

A feeling of uneasiness filled Kamilah's chest. She looked over her phone to see if Amy was calling her, but there was nothing, not even a message. Nothing beyond this small firefly drawn on the note.

The woman thought of picking Adrian's number, but she gave up this idea right away. Kamilah saw him a few minutes ago, and there was no chance Amy would have got there without running into her.

But there was another person worth calling.

Lily.

The Vampire Queen inhaled deeply, trying to stay calm. She picked Lily's number, already preparing herself for the worse. They weren't on good terms since Amy's and Kamilah's argument. Actually, they had never gotten well on with each other, but especially not after this incident.

Finally, the purple-hair vampire picked up Kamilah's call.

"Oh damn, what is it with today. This isn't a number for the hot couples to ring every time they want to," Lily laughed proud of her jokes.

"I'm calling you because... wait," Kamilah frowned, "what did you say? No, I changed my mind, don't tell me. I wanted to make sure that Amy is safe."

"Well, I guess she is," Lily kept on laughing.

"You guess?" Kamilah's voice sharp.

"I didn't see her since she got lost in your bedroom ma'am," Lily stopped with jokes, suddenly feeling concerned. "You didn't see her either?"

"I was working the whole day," Kamilah gulped. Fear was showing in her mind after long years of indifference. Then, she heard someone stepping into the elevator a few floors below. "She is here," Kamilah hung up after those words without much explanation.

After a moment, the elevator's door opened, and Amy walked in, smiling to herself.

She was concentrated on the small box that she was carrying in her hand. Her mind was totally somewhere else, so the view of Kamilah standing in the center of the penthouse with her arms crossed made the girl jump from surprise. Fortunately, Amy managed to hide the package behind her back, not causing the woman's attention.

"Where were you?" Kamilah asked, her voice cold.

"Um..." Amy wasn't prepared for this situation, she assumed that she would be able to make it before the woman return.

Maybe if she wasn't so caught up in thoughts, she would look around in the garage and notice Kamilah's car. That, for sure, would make her less surprised.

"Do you comprehend how dangerous it is for you to be out there?" Kamilah couldn't deal with this new emotion in her body. Was it a concern?

"I... was outside before," Amy spoke slowly, not understanding the woman's attitude. "Why are you angry?"

"I'm not," Kamilah frowned. Finally, she regained control over her emotions, adding calmly, "I was simply expecting you to be here."

Amy looked at her suspiciously but decided to let it go. She had something better in her mind.

"Well," she moved closer to the woman, "I was planning to be here before you and make you a surprise," they were barely an inches apart from each other.

"Surprise?" Kamilah lifted her eyebrows, not knowing what to think.

Amy climbed on her toes since Kamilah was a little taller than her. And on top of that, the woman was wearing high heels at that moment. The blonde moved her face close to her right ear, her hair brushing Kamilah's cheek.

"Close your eyes," Amy whispered, making Kamilah shiver ever so lightly.

"For what reason?" Kamilah asked, unconvinced.

Amy stepped back, looking directly in her eyes. Unable to hold back a smile.

"Because I'm asking nicely," she said, tilting her head to the right," please?"

Kamilah rolled her eyes but followed Amy's words. With her eyes closed, she was hearing some noises of Amy's struggle with unpacking something close to her. It made the woman smile softly. This girl was so clumsy, and it only made her more adorable in Kamilah's eyes.

Finally, Amy stopped what she was doing and approached Kamilah. She put her hand on the woman's shoulder, gently going down to her wrist, which she kept close to herself. Kamilah moved a little when she felt something cold touching her skin, but she didn't open her eyes.

The woman felt Amy's presence closer, and next, she remembered, was her lips brushing against her own. Amy kissed her softly, stepping back, leaving Kamilah craving for more.

"You can open your eyes," the girl said.

Kamilah did this and looked at her wrist. She saw a beautiful gold bracelet with a symbol of a cross shape having an oval loop on its upper bar.

It was an Ankh, hieroglyphic symbol of life used in ancient Egypt.

It took Kamilah's breath away, she stood there, speechless, looking at well known for her symbol.

"I thought that if you don't want my money for living here," Amy started explaining, afraid that she did something wrong, "that this is the least I can do for you."

Kamilah lifted her gaze to look into Amy's eyes. There was an uncertainty growing in the girl's expression, so she finally spoke.

"You did way much more than that," the woman said, closing the distance between them, kissing Amy deeply.

The girl returned the kiss, but she didn't want to get lost in the moment. So she placed her hands gently on Kamilah's chest and broke the kiss, even if the taste of her lips was too tempting to stop.

"So, do you like it?" Amy looked at her as a puppy desperately searching for attention.

Kamilah couldn't stop a smile, watching her excitement.

"I do a lot," she answered, causing a broad smile on Amy's face.

They stood silent for a moment, drawing energy from each other's presence. Then, unfortunately, Kamilah's phone rang, and she looked at it, rolling her eyes. She read the message and looked at the girl without previous happiness.

"I'll have a chance to wear your gift soon," she forced a smile, pointing at the bracelet.

"What's happening?" Amy felt the unsureness in Kamilah's body, the feeling so strong that she could almost touch it.

"We got the invitation to Adam's birthday gala," the woman answered with a serious voice.

"We?" Amy was shocked, she wasn't the part of the Council after all.

"Yes, because you, Amy Campbell, are going to be my date."

Next chapter: 20

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#kamilah sayeed #kamilah x mc #bloodbound kamilah #kamilah #bb kamilah #BloodBound #bloodbound choices #choices stories you play #choices fanfiction #choices fic #adrian raines #lily spencer

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qyu-inactive · 4 years

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My thoughts and feelings about Outtakes 13-15💛

@shhhlikeme i decided to make you a post about my thoughts and feelings about your new outtakes cos i definitely had wayy too many for an ask. Under the cut just because this became longgg.

I took so many screenshots while reading this so I wouldnt forget anything and just that these are my favourite parts as well

Outtake 13

Okay this outtake was both amazing and gut wrenching. I loved getting to see Kenjis thoughts so much!! His and Aones friendship is so beautifully written in this story, I really appreciate how much detail you put into side charcaters. I see it a lot in shojou manga where the main girl just sometimes straight forget she friends at all because its a love story but the fact that Kenji has been a constant in the whole story is wonderful and I love it so much.

Of course as all good friends are he's angry at reader-chan for breaking Aones heart, but like if anyone yelled at me like that I would crying straight away. Reader-chan is a lot stronger then I am to hold it in as well as she did. When he said/thought "And it was all your fault" that hurt

OKAY BUT AONE PROTECTING READER-CHAN, I LOVE IT SO MUCH. AONE CAN BE MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR🥺

Outtake 14

This outtake was great, im glad things started to look up and brighter. I love how you used K_nji 😂😂 its so perfect to describe the duo together. I swear tho there are so many boys with similar firsr names in haikyuu, we've got Kenji, Kanji and Keiji. Im glad they mostly go by last names, even tho there are similar last names: Wahio and Washijo, Ojiro and Ohira.

I do lile that k_nji's are trying to help him actually get over reader-chan for the time being. Deleting photos and changing wallpapers. I really really liked Aone and Kenji having their silent conversation and Kanji just being the loud and doesn't know when to be quiet boy he is

When Aone asked “…….You know how to make the pain……stop? I broke, this poor mountain man needs a hug and to mend his broken heart🥺

Your gifs are always amazing and I love what they add to the story but the mean girls one. Kogane was gonna die if he said anything more in that situation 😂😂😂

Step 4 🍆 i don't know what I was expecting when I saw the title but this whole section was a whole lot of kogane needing to learn subtly and how to read the room and a reminder of simpler days when Aone would just tell Kenji about his wet dreams😔

BUT THIS BIG DUMB BOY KOGANE COMING IN WITH THE "OH BUT YOUVE SEEN HER NAKED THO SHES HOT AS FUCK" (obviously my own paraphrasing😂😂) I was ready to slap this boy though the screen.

Outtake 15

Okay finally at the last part, finally a part thats looking up for our losty couple. Thinking about them being in university and still heart broken hurts😭 but the magic of coincidence and now Aone and Reader-chan have to work on an assignment together.

When reader-chan said she'd also been crying every night since the breakup, that really hurt. Knowing both of them are sharing the same hurt but dealing with it separately is jusy like your twisting my heart on purpose.

And that Aone ans Reader-chans backgrounds were the matching 😭😭

Okay but like I'd be checking out Aone too if he was in my class😋 when he wanted to consesnsually bend reader-chan over the desk and more. First we stan a man who respects consent but also wants to satisfy you so bad. Second these two better get back together soon so there won't be sad tears, just years of pleasure💦

The post nut clarity😂😂😂😂 I'm glad Aone cleared his mind a bit but the dead squirrel thing. I would be turned off for hours after seeing pictures of dead squirrels😰

"allow me tell you both about my plan to…. to get the girl of my dreams back.” YES YES YES THE WAY I SCREAMED WHEN I READ THIS. YOU GO GET YOUR GIRL BACK AONE, SHOW KENJI LOVE IS WORTH IT.

Okay these are all my thoughts, I'm sorry that this is so long omg. You blessed us three amazing cheaters today tho and I couldn't hold it in. I really can't wait till the next chapters💛 also remember about kenji's over life if we will ever see that bloom, maybe he'll be inspired to take a leap of faith. Obviously I understand you've got uni so take your time!!

#💛💛💛#Losty Series #Qyu anon's thoughts and feelings about fanfic #i really said id do this is 10-20 mims ands it probably been an hour at least haha

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puckinghell · 5 years

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Wanna Bet | Travis Konecny

Summary Request: Omg Lou can you write something with the ”am I just a bet to you” storyline?! Word count: 4.2k Note: You guys asked for something with TK so here we are!

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It’s kinda funny, how just being in the wrong place at the wrong time, hearing the wrong thing, can cause your entire world to fall to pieces.

You weren’t meant to walk past the locker rooms. Being in the analytics department, you don’t have to actually be in the arena much, and when you do, you’re in the stands, watching players on the ice to access if the data you have on them is correct.

A guy’s plus minus really only makes sense when you’ve seen the way he carries the puck, seen the way his legs pump as he skates.

No, you never have to be in the locker rooms for your job, but today you decided to take the long way from your office to the ice. Just so you could walk past him. Just so maybe, you could accidentally bump into him, sneak a kiss before the game, wish him good luck.

Now all you wish is to disappear.

The voices are a little far away but not muffled, as the door is slightly opened. It’s Ghost’s voice, that you hear first.

“I can’t believe you’re actually dating her, TK. And all because of some stupid bet!”

Dating her. You. Travis is dating you, so they must be talking about you. Laughter fills the hallways; laughing about you.

“I never lose a bet.” The voice is familiar, too familiar. Just last night that voice was soft in your ear, whispering all kinds of things he clearly had not meant.

A bet.

There’s a heavy feeling in your stomach, like a rock settled in your intestines. The thing is, well, you’d known it was too good to be true. Why would a guy like Travis Konecny be interested in you?

You weren’t WAG material. Weren’t even puck bunny material, really. You work in the analytics department, for God’s sake; you’re as nerdy as they get, love math and numbers, you even wear glasses, just to completely fit the stereotype.

And you’re not skinny. Never have been; no matter how many times you used to skip dessert, there has always been a little soft pudge on your stomach, your thighs have always rubbed together when you walk. You don’t do that anymore, now, skip dessert; you deserve some chocolate every now and then, and you deserve a guy who doesn’t care.

You hadn’t expected to find that guy in the Philadelphia Flyers locker room, but then Travis had shown up and you’d thought, stupidly, maybe...

The very first time you’d shown up at practice, when someone was showing you around after having just been hired, it had been Claude who first said hi. Captain’s duty, and all that. But it had been Travis that made you feel a little less nervous about all these big, bulky dudes, who seemed to slide on the dangerous knife shoes like they’d never walked before; he skated up to you, softly bumped into your shoulder and said: “Don’t let my numbers fool you. I’m an important locker room guy” before dumping his water bottle over Oskar Lindblom’s head.

Ever since then, he’d always been sure to make a little small talk when you were around. Sometimes, his comments had been borderline flirty: “Saw that goal? That was for you” and “Can you believe I missed that pass? Totally your fault for distracting me” but most of the time you talked about mundane things like the never ending snow and what restaurants were good for steak.

You never expected anything to come of it, though. Perhaps Travis was just one of those kinda guys that couldn’t talk to anyone without flirting. Or maybe he was just taking pity on you. He couldn’t mean it; not when you were you, and he was him. You might as well be from a different planet.

But then, one day, he’d skated over to the boards where you were standing, sent you a wide grin and asked; “Will you go to dinner with me? On a date?”

You’d nearly dropped your clipboard and you’d definitely dropped your jaw, but then you’d stumbled a “yes” and stared after him as he skated away. For a solid hour, you figured it must’ve been a joke or maybe Travis had taken a puck to the head and was so concussed he mistook you for someone else, but then he’d texted you a time and date and suddenly it was all very real.

It was so easy, then, to fall in love with him. Between lame jokes and broad grins and the way his hand was always resting on your back, you couldn’t stop yourself from falling for him, even though you tried to convince yourself that was a bad idea. It was so easy to forget it was doomed to end badly when all Travis ever did was say the right thing.

It was a bit like walking on a bridge you know is gonna collapse, and now, it’s collapsed.

I never lose a bet.

“I’m just a bet.” You don’t mean to say the words out loud but they fall from your lips before you can stop them, and apparently they’re louder than they sound to your own ears because suddenly the locker room goes very quiet.

You don’t get drunk a lot, but you know what it’s like to be very, very drunk; it’s like the world is a bit fuzzy, sounds are a bit muffled, and all you can focus on is the feeling of your heart beating, the way your tongue lays in your mouth, how heavy your feet feel against the earth.

All you’ve had to drink today is coffee but you feel like that, now.

“Y/N?” The voice is familiar but it’s not Travis; you’re met with Carter, a worried look on his face as he sticks his head out the door.

Beside Travis, Carter is the only guy on the team who really ever takes the time to talk to you. At first it was all just polite small talk, but then you found out you both liked the same TV shows and now you talk all the time. Carter is a complete sweetheart, would never hurt a fly, and that’s why it’s so hard for you to believe he knew this.

But you know, when you catch his eyes and there’s nothing but pity in them. He knew it was all a lie.

Carter steps aside, then, and Travis comes flying out the door, his eyes wide and mouth slightly slack.

“I’m just a bet.” You say it more forcefully because that’s the only way you can think of to make this make more sense. It doesn’t feel true, especially when Travis looks at you with clear panic written across his features.

If he didn’t care, why would he panic?

“Babe,” he starts, his voice a little scratchy, but he doesn’t say anything else and so you do the only thing you can think of doing.

“Are we dating cause you want to win a bet?”

Travis stares at you, swallows heavily.

Please say no. Please don’t let these last three months of my life be a waste of time. Please don’t make a fool out of me. Please say no.

“Yes, but...”

That’s all you need to hear; you need to get out of here before the tears that are threatening to well up in your eyes find their way out, before you lose that last sliver of dignity you might still have left.

“I don’t ever want to see you again,” you choke out, and then you’re pushing past Carter and out of the hallway, out of the arena, until the cold wind hits you in the face as you fumble with the lock of your car.

You should’ve known better. Should’ve learned from the last time.

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You were 14 years old, an awkward teenager with few friends and no sense of self-preservation. You were sitting in the canteen on your own, eating lunch, because your only friend at the time had called in sick that day.

If she was there, you don’t think David would’ve approached you.

David was the cutest guy in school, and not just because he was the tallest. He had nice dark curls and sharp green eyes, and he was the captain of the football team. He always walked around with a bunch of guys following him around like lost puppies, and he was endlessly cool.

You, were not. You were part of the drama club, you excelled in math and the braces you had hadn’t managed to make your teeth look any smaller so far, and you were used to people snickering behind your back when you walked past.

Of course you had a crush on David. Everyone had a crush on David. And the fact that he’d never actually made fun of you made that you allowed yourself that crush; it was just to look, just from afar.

Until he came up to you, that day, his posse of friends in tow, and smiled.

“Hey, Y/N, you wanna maybe go watch a movie with me on Friday?”

Everything inside you screamed ‘danger’, wanted to say no and run away. But something, just a little sliver of hope, stopped you from doing that. The part of you that watched too many romcoms and read too many Nicolas Sparks books wondered if maybe miracles still happened. That part of you said yes.

As soon as you said the word, David’s friends had started laughing.

“Dude, she actually believed you!” one of them laughed. “I guess I owe you 20 bucks, man.”

“Thanks, Y/N,” David said, shrugging his shoulders. “Matt said you wouldn’t believe me if I asked, he thought you would know that guys like me don’t date girls like you. Guess he’s even dumber than he looks and you just made me 20 bucks!”

He left and you ran off to cry in the bathroom, but you learned one thing that day.

Guys like that didn’t date girls like you. And that part of you that still believed in fairytales needed to be locked up in a box somewhere and never let out, because that part of you would kill you, if you let it.

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You tried, to lock that part away, and you’d managed. Until Travis had looked at you with honest brown eyes and a little smile and you’d thrown away everything you had worked so hard for.

What good had that done.

When you were 14 you locked yourself up in the bathroom until your mom came to pick you up from school. This time you lock yourself in your apartment and eat an entire box of cookies while you watch Property Brothers and cry yourself to sleep at night. The next day, you call in sick to work and watch Gilmore Girls and order Chinese.

It’s maybe not the healthiest way to deal with things but it’s a way, and it works. Well, not really; you still feel like shit, but it works enough that you find the strength to ignore your phone buzzing and eventually shut it off without looking at it.

You turn it back on in the evening and don’t respond to all the missed messages and calls - mostly from Travis, but a few from Carter too - and fall asleep listening to Adele.

It’s not easy but you’ve gone through a lot in your life and you won’t let yourself be miserable over something like this for too long. If anything, this has just taught you that same lesson you learned when you were 14.

Guys like that, girls like you, etcetera etcetera. This time, you’re gonna remember. This time, you’re gonna know better.

Every now and then you think of Travis, wonder what he got out of this bet and what exactly he bet on.

Did he bet on getting you to believe a guy like him could be interested in you, like David? Or was it more? How many dates was he obliged to go on to win the bet? Was the sex part of the bet or was that just because you were there and it was easy? Why had he been so nice, if it was part of the bet?

You try not to think about it. It gets easier when Travis stops texting and calling you. You haven’t read any of his texts, or listened to his voicemails. In fact, you barely touch your phone, nowadays.

When you go to work, you avoid the guys on the team at all costs, and it’s easier than you thought it would be. You sit high in the stands and write in your notebook and try to not feel your heart sink in your chest when you see Konecny on your paper.

It’s fine, you can manage. You’re an adult and you will move on with life and forget about these three months ever happening. You promise yourself you will and you seem to do okay.

Until one day you come home and you find Nolan Patrick sitting on the floor in front of your apartment door, two take away cups in his hands.

“What are you doing here?” you ask, crossing your arms. You know Nolan hasn’t technically done anything to you but he’s Travis’ best friend and therefor he is guilty by association. Also, he’s always been nice to you and that was clearly all fake, so fuck him for that, too.

“Oh, hi!” Nolan scrambles up when he spots you, extends one cup towards you. “I brought coffee. Hazelnut latte, one sugar and some cinnamon.”

You frown, and he seems to understand your question, cause he shrugs.

“Teeks remembered your coffee order.”

You almost ask him why; why would Travis remember your coffee order if he clearly didn’t care about you at all, but you don’t ask him that because why would he tell you the truth? Instead you take the coffee, open your apartment door and step inside without saying anything.

You let the door fall behind you, but before it can click into the lock Nolan has put his foot in front of it, and then he slips into your apartment.

“Nice place,” he says, as if it’s not super weird that he’s here, and then he flops down onto the couch.

“Right, sit down, make yourself at home,” you snap sarcastically; you grab your mail and start sorting through it, more because you don’t know what else to do than because you actually wanna know what mail you have.

Why is Nolan here?

“You must wanna know why I’m here,” Nolan speaks, as if he can read your mind.

You don’t remind him that’s the first question you asked.

“I’m here,” Nolan continues, seemingly unbothered by your cold shoulder, “because you deserve to know the truth, and you won’t answer the phone so Teeks can tell you himself. Which I don’t blame you for, cause, you know, if he did what you think he did I would’ve kicked his ass myself.”

What you think he did?

“But,” Nolan crosses his arms now, seems genuinely offended, “you’re mad at Hartsy, really? You can’t be mad at Hartsy. That’s like being mad at a puppy. Or a bunny. Or anything else that’s super cute and impossible to be mad at.”

“He knew and he didn’t tell me.” You didn’t mean to break your silence but you’ve got a soft spot for Carter and, to be honest, it’s almost been harder to ignore him than it has been to ignore Travis.

At least with Travis, you know what happened. He thought you were pathetic and it would be funny to turn you into a joke.

With Carter, it’s not so clear. Did he actually like you? Did he think Travis’ bet was funny? Or did he secretly disapprove but just not find it important enough to stand up for you? Or, maybe, did he try to stand up for you, but Travis didn’t listen?

You know you shouldn’t allow yourself to hope for that last option but you can’t help it.

Nolan rolls his eyes. “Hartsy didn’t know shit, all he knows is that Teeks is stupidly in love with you and that you’re good for him. He said that once, you know. That Teeks should never let you go because you’re good for him.” Nolan looks a bit sad as he said it, his face pulled into a pained expression.

It might be because of the way your face drops at his words.

Teeks is stupidly in love with you.

“He’s not,” you manage to bring out. “In... into me. It was all just a joke.”

“You have no idea what you’re talking about.” Nolan shakes his head, then takes a sip of his coffee. “Y/N, can I be honest? I don’t know you very well. I think you’re a great girl, but I don’t know you enough to care about your feelings.”

Well, ouch. The truth hurts.

“I have no reason to be here and lie to you.”

You have to admit he has a point there. If Travis genuinely doesn’t care, why would Nolan be here? It’s not like you’ve ever even held a proper conversation with Nolan. He’s always just been Travis’ roommate, Travis’ best friend, Travis’ teammate.

“So why are you here?” you dare ask him, and he smiles, a little smugly.

“Cause I have a story about a bet, and I think you’d like to hear it.”

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It’s weird, to be back at Travis’ apartment. Nolan’s footsteps are heavy in the empty hallway; he’s walking a good meter in front of you and you don’t try to catch up to him because with every step you take it’s like you sink deeper into the floor.

“Come on,” Nolan says, impatiently. He takes his keys out of his pocket and opens the door to their apartment.

Your heart is beating so fast you can feel it all the way in your throat.

“Ooooh Teeks!” he calls out, annoyingly chipper. “TK! I have a surprise for you!”

“Is it Thai? If it’s not Thai I don’t want it.”

Travis sounds tired but he sounds so familiar, so like Travis, and it washes over you like a comfort blanket, fills you with warmth from the inside out.

“You’re really gonna regret saying that,” Nolan answers, and then he suddenly steps behind you and pushes you into the living room.

The second Travis’ eyes meet yours, all the blood drains from his face and his eyes widen almost comically. Within a second he’s standing up, the xBox controller falling onto the floor; his hands are in the air like he’s going to reach out for you, but then they drop to his sides and his jaw clenches.

“Y/N,” he says softly. “Are you here to get your stuff?”

Nolan has made himself scarce very discreetly and now that it’s just you and Travis, you suddenly don’t remember how to talk.

It’s silent, for a solid five seconds - but it feels like 50 years - before your brain starts working again. It’s Nolan’s voice, that you hear in the back of your head, and then your own, as if one voice is fighting with the other.

Teeks is stupidly in love with you.

I’m just a bet.

Stupidly in love with you.

Just a bet.

“What was the bet?” you burst out. It might not be the right way, might be too sudden or too harsh, and there’s not really a reason for you to ask; Nolan has already told you.

But you wanna hear Travis say it. You need to hear Travis say it.

Travis’ face crumples, his eyebrows knot together and his eyes drop to the floor. It looks as if it pains him to speak, but he speaks.

“It was so dumb, Y/N. You have to believe me, I never meant... I didn’t want this to happen. I’m sorry.”

You swallow; there’s a lump in your throat that seems to be stuck there, that’s in the way of your vocal chords, but you just manage to repeat the words.

“What was the bet you made, Travis?”

Travis inhales sharply, and then looks up. His eyes are staring intently into yours when he answers.

“Ghosty bet me I wouldn’t dare to ask you out.”

“Why?” you ask. “Why would he think that?”

There’s a lot of answers you’re expecting, all of which allude to the same thing; you’re not good enough for him.

You’re not pretty enough. Not fun enough. Not thin enough. Not charming enough.

“Because you’re way out of my league and I would’ve looked stupid if I asked and you said no.”

It’s like everything inside you deflates, at that point; your shoulders sag and you release a breath you didn’t know you were holding.

“Oh.”

“Yeah,” says Travis. “Oh.” He sighs and then takes a step closer, a little one, very tentatively; as if he’s afraid you’re gonna turn around and run, if he moves too much. “I know it’s stupid, but I hate losing bets and the boys know that, so whenever they want me to do something I don’t wanna do, or in this case, am too afraid to do, they tell me that I can’t and I bet them that I can. They were all getting a bit sick of me pining after you so Ghosty thought, if he just said I couldn’t ask you out...”

“Then you would bet that you could,” you finish his sentence.

Oh God. You’d gotten it so wrong.

“So,” you continue, softly, “they didn’t bet you to ask me out as a joke. Because they thought it would be funny if a guy like you asked out a girl like me.”

The skin around Travis’ eyes crinkles as he frowns. “What does that even mean?” he asks.

“Because you’re really hot, and really great, and I’m really nerdy, and not very pretty. And I’m not good enough for you.”

Travis’ breath stutters as he hears you speak. “That’s.... insane,” he brings out, stammering. “Y/N, if anything, I’m not good enough for you. You’re so gorgeous, and so smart, and you look at numbers and see a Stanley Cup winning team and I struggle to hit a piece of rubber with a big stick. I couldn’t keep up with you even if I tried.”

He takes a bigger step towards you, now, your words seemingly giving him a bit of courage.

“I’m sorry for making you think all of this was based on a lie,” he mumbles, and he carefully takes your hand in his, lacing his fingers through yours as his thumb traces lines across your knuckles. “But I promise you, it’s not like that. None of this was fake to me. I wanted to ask you out long before I got the guts to do it and I’ve been happy about taking that bet ever since.” He takes a deep breath. “I love you. And that has nothing to do with any dumb bet.”

Your heart leaps; he’s never said that before, and neither have you. You’ve felt it, sure, but there was always something inside you wondering if it was too soon, if you were just asking for trouble by saying it.

But there’s nothing but honest truth in Travis’ brown eyes, now, and suddenly you’re not afraid anymore.

“I love you too,” you say, and the words aren’t out of your mouth yet or Travis’ lips are on yours.

His hands are firm on your waist as he tugs you closer, and it’s like you can’t feel anything but him, everywhere, and it’s like everything that happened before has been forgotten.

Until he pulls away, both of you gasping for air, and you remember something else.

“Oh my God, I have to call Carter back,” you mumble against Travis’ shirt; he’s pulled you flat against him and nestled his face in your shoulder, meaning you’re now being smothered by his chest.

There are worse ways to go.

Travis laughs lightly, his breath hot against your neck.

“Really?” he says. “I kiss you for the first time in two weeks and you think of Hartsy?”

“I’ve been ignoring him, and that’s not fair, cause he, oh...” you break off as Travis presses a kiss to the sensitive skin on your neck, “cause he’s a great friend and... Trav!” The last part comes out as more of a whine and Travis chuckles.

“Hartsy can wait another hour, babe.” He starts pressing kisses along your jaw and you groan, lightly shoving against his shoulder.

“Trav, I gotta call Carter and...” You bite your lip to stop yourself from moaning as his teeth scrape across your skin “and I don’t know what you think you’re doing but you’re not getting me naked within the first hour of getting back together!”

“No?” Travis pulls away, one eyebrow raised, and there’s a smug look on his face. His hands slowly travel to your back, fingers sliding below your shirt, and despite your best efforts, you can’t stop yourself from shivering.

“Hmm,” Travis hums, right before he kisses you again.

“Wanna bet?”

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She's my destiny (2/2)

Countdown to Christmas pairing Writer Jimin and female baker.

Feat. OT7 and NamJin as the loving fathers of a little boy.

Ok guys, here it is.

First of all, I want to say an immense, a huge, a big thank you to my lovely princess @aspaceformyself. She made that mood board for me. She named Kookie «baby Koo» and I stole that nick name from her (with her permission of course) and she is the one who asked me an AU with writer Jimin and baker reader. I transformed the idea into a countdown to Christmas.

Princess, you know how much I love you already. There is not a day that ended without me telling you how much I love you (and you too… you love me too :) )

Also, fuck Elsa :)

So, in this very long story, we’ll have all interactions between Jimin and his girl, from the very first meeting to the final explosion at Christmas. It’s a long one that takes time to set, action is slow. It’s perfect for this holiday season.

Read the warnings but know that it’s a very comforting reading. There is no big drama, no real angst. But… there are some sensitive topics in it.

W.C the total of the whole thing is more than 18 000 words… I worked like crazy on it. Won’t be perfect tho, English is not my first language.

Warning: just because there will be question of it: abortion, child mistreatment, child malnutrition, a smutty part (nothing graphic). If you are homophobe and against gay people to adopt, you can suck my toes don’t read. Basically, my main warning would be: this fic is so long…

Read the warnings but know that it’s a very comforting reading. There is no big drama, no real angst. But… there are some sensitive topics in it.

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December 12

Jimin was really sad this morning when he woke up. The first thing he had in mind was the note that was on your fridge when he took some milk for the cat yesterday. «I love you so much, I will always do no matter how badly we fight, we always find a way to each other’s heart. Oppa set the standards high, right?»

What does that even meant? Is Yoongi hyung right? Can it be a note left by a brother? Well, it could be.

He decided that today, he will continue to write but from home. He’s too sad to get out. The loud and fast winds are discouraging him from going outside too. But at the same time, he would like to know how the kitten is doing. And he would like to see your face and hear your voice.

No, no, no. Today he’ll stay home. He doesn’t want to seem pathetic or insistant in your eyes.

December 13

Today, you took the day off. You never do that but it was a well needed rest. Yesterday, you have worked twice hard, ovens working at full capacity. You decided that after christmas, you’ll hire a new baker. Your business has prospered and your brother was right, you need to rest more. Thinking of him, you decided to surprise him at school with a latté and his favorite cake.

Yesterday, you haven’t seen Jimin, it made you a little sad to be honest. You are used to his presence in the corner of the eatery now. Sometimes, when you extended your neck from your workstation in a certain angle and you would see him writing on his laptop. You have learned from Namjoon that he’s a well known writer. You’ll have to ask your brother more about him. Maybe it was the real intention behind your surprised visit after all.

You knocked on his door and entered as soon as he invited you in.

«Oppaaaaaaa» you exclaimed joyfully. «I baked you some choux a la crème. I decided not to work today. See, I listen to you sometimes” You haven’t look in his direction yet, struggling between the bags and travellers mugs in your hands.

«Oh! Dongseng. Wait little love, I am with students» When you lifted your gaze, you saw he was surrounded by 2 students about your age. You remember that man, you met before. You don’t remember where or when but you saw his face once, for sure.

«Oh! Sorry Hobi! I will wait outside» the 2 students both said at the same time «no, no, no! It’s alright. We’re almost done». Your brother smiled at you and gestured you to sit on the chair next to him. He grabbed the coffee mug, took a sip of his favorite and continued his passionate explanation. The second the students closed the door, he told you, holding on to your sleeve, over excited «You’ll never guess who is my student’s brother...»

«Well, not a chance since I don’t know who your student is...» he interrupted you, not able to contain his joy.

«His name is Jungkook. His brother is the writer Park Jimin. Can you believe it?»

You looked at him with a quizzical look on your face. «THE Park Jimin? The writer? Man. I knew I saw your student once. He was the one walking with Jimin”

«What? How? Where? You know Park Jimin?»

«Oh! My! God! Calm down Hoseok oppa. Calm down! You’re drooling» You teased.

«I need to know...»

«Well, Jimin is one of my regular customer. He comes in for hours to write...»

«NO WAY» He boomed.

«Yes way»

«Jungkook was telling me that Park Jimin is writing a book about a beautiful baker… No… that cannot be you, right?» he looked at you, skeptical. Then, his face lit up.

«Of course it’s you! Omg! My favorite writer is in love with my sister. I can't believe it. It’s the most wonderful day of my life!

«Calm down oppa. There is no way in hell I...» He didn’t listen to you at all.

«He seemed to be such a kind man too. You’ll be in good hands. You have my blessing»

You were unable to place a word. He was babbling about his love for Jimin. The way Jimin writes, his impact on modern literature. His kindness every time he could see him on national television. His modesty. You started to listen carefully when you heard the word ‘’United states’’ and “wife”.

«Wait oppa, repeat this please».

«You don’t know?»

«I know nothing about him but I think I have a little crush… so please tell me everything»

«Ooooooooh! I see!» He teased, chuckling. «Let me tell you everything I know then. I never verified the rumors but… apparently, 2 years ago he lived in the united states for a short period»

«This is true, he told me he lived there»

«You two are really close then… He is kind of private about his life. People knows nothing but rumors spread here and there”.

«I am not exactly someone who will put in in the papers you know. Continue...»

«So, he went in the united states and married someone over there. Apparently, she got pregnant and they didn’t…»

«NO NO NO! Stop please» you shouted, placing your hands on your ears. He froze.

«Hobi, I don’t like that. I don’t want to know this. Please don’t tell me. I feel like I am invading his privacy»

«You asked»

«And now I regret. I don’t want to know anything that he wouldn't tell me himself. We became some kind of… friends? I don’t know what we are exactly. We are not actually friends but he gave me a cat the other day and came to my apartment to help me out. We definitely are a little tiny bit of something. I feel bad now. But tell me, if he’s so private, how in hell do you know all of this?».

«He’s a private person but his ex-girlfriend is the contrary. She is all over the social medias and she gave her version of the story back then. She is a well known youtuber.”

«Ok. Tell me no more.».

«Fair enough. Tell me, cute baker. No BEAUTIFUL baker. I will be the maid of honor, right?»

«Oh! man! You are too much for me to handle today. I will let you work». You stood up and gave a big kiss on his cheek.

«Gotta go. I love you oppa»

«I love you too my tiny, little baby that is not so little anymore». Giggling, you let him work and went home. You missed your little kitten, he reminded you of Jimin and Jimin’s hands..

December 14

You were pulling walnut pies out of the oven, listening the Christmas carols that you could hear over the customers voices. Jimin entered the bakery with his little brother Jungkook.

«I’m telling you Baby Koo, those are the best baba au rhum that you will ever taste in your whole entire life».

Jungkook and your eyes met and a big smile appeared on his face. The kind of smile that meant ‘’I know something’’

«Oh! Hi! It’s you, right? It’s you that brought Professor Jung a coffee yesterday? I think he’s your brother and that you call him oppa right?»

What a strange question, you thought. Of course you will call him oppa.

«Yes, I saw you yesterday in his office. Tell me Jungkook, my brother is not too rough on you? I am certain that he’s really strict» you asked while you spread maple syrup on the pies in front of you.

«To be strict, he is strict. But he’s also my favorite professor so far. He’s really passionate and he teaches in a simple and easy way to understand. He’s clever too and knows literally everything. I mean, he’s a human encyclopedy». You laughed.

«I am glad then. He loves his job so much, I’m glad if he’s loved and respected by his students».

«This is something I can’t deny, he loves to teach. It shoes.» Changing subject, he asked «I think you know my brother. This is such a coincidence, right?» he said with a wide grin on his face as he looked at Jimin.

«Baby Koo… please stop...» You heard Jimin murmured, blushing.

«We know each other a little, yes»

Jungkook was looking at you and Jimin, one after another, his smile growing bigger.

«JIMIN SSI, KOOKIE SSI» you heard a little voice screamed. Saved by the bell you thought.

«Sangie» The brothers exclaimed at the same time.

«Hello Yoo Yoo» You told him. «How are you doing today?» Joon answered faster than his son.

«He’s over excited today. But hey, when is he not?» he stated, smiling at his son and caressing his back tenderly.

«We will take out today, Jin is sick. We’ll eat at home with him»

«I shall give him something special today, right? Unless he asked for something specific»

«No, as always. Give us your favorites of the day»

Smiling you told your employee what she should wrap for the cute family while Jimin and Jungkook were already paying for their consommation. As soon as they were ready to go in the eatery, the younger brother said «if you have time, come talk with us»

«I’ll see what I can do» you smiled.

The second they crossed the swinging doors and went out of your view, Jimin lifted his 2 fists to the sky as a sign of victory.

«He’s her brother! I can’t believe it. I still have a chance for happiness» he told his young brother «She’s my destiny Kook, she is»

«We’ll have to work on your flirting skills though… cause, you know. You’re barely talking to her».

«Oh! man! Let me live. I didn’t know what to say!»

«For example you could have ask how her kitten was doing. Or the name she gave him. Just saying… Snap, she’s coming over here».

You were walking between the tables looking for them. The second you spot them, you walked faster.

«Boys, you forgot your tray on the counter» you said laughing as you placed their coffee and plates in front of them. You also put a bag with a fresh bake bread that Tae just made and 2 glasses of iced water. «I brought a fresh cranberries and orange bread, my friend Tae’s specialty. Bring it home and eat it toasted with a lot of butter. It’s delicious».

«Thank you noona» Kookie said switching to informal language. Not that you care, you just noticed.

«My pleasure» As you were turning your back to leave, Jimin asked you with his melodious voice.

«Hey, how is the kitten doing by the way? I didn’t had the chance to ask» At the mention of your baby, your heart melted and you smiled brightly.

«Aaaaw, my babyyyyyy. He’s doing fine. He’s so cuddly, I love him. I can’t believe that someone abandoned their own child like that. I mean, he’s a family member now, isn’t he?»

«Yeah, you are officially 2 members in your own family now»

«Absolutely» you smiled «I have to go back. You can come and meet him again if you want Jimin. I’m curious to see his reaction if he meets his savior again».

«Yeah, maybe one day».

«Ok. Enjoy the snack boys».

Jungkook waited for you to be away before he told his hyung.

«Fuck it Jimin… You had an opportunity here, she opened the door for you and you closed it back on her face».

«I knoooooow I’m a lost case» Jimin whined.

«Man, I’m not proud of you on that one»

The brothers started to laughed.

December 15

You haven’t seen any of your regular clients today and it made you kind of sad. Normally, Jin, Joon and some other regular would have come by and chit chat with you. You loved that proximity you have with them. You loved to bake in front of them and get to have their immediate reactions or questions.

Recently, you surprised yourself hoping for Jimin to come. He was so charming with his cute and shy smile. With time, you noticed a few details here and there. Like the way he tilts his head when he thinks, the way he eats and drinks distractingly while he writes. There were times when you brought him a new hot beverage without him realizing your presence at his side or noticing that you were switching his mugs. You always made sure not to interrupt him, he was so precious when concentrated.

«Thinking about someone?» Tae asked while he placed his cheek on your shoulder from behind. You couldn’t resist the temptation to put flour on his nose.

«Stop teasing me with this. You never know who could hear».

«He’s so beautiful, right. Is it true that he’s writing a story about a beautiful baker?»

«Shhhhhhhh! Don’t say it. Gosh, I will kill my brother. He’s the worst».

«Nope! He was just very happy to have such a talented brother in law”.

«Yeah, Yeah! You are all overreacting!»

«For your information, he looks at you too, when you are not looking at him. You both are really good at playing hide and seek».

«Stop it Tae… please» you blushed.

At the end of your shift, you and Tae went to share grilled meat. You had a very good night with your friend even if he didn’t stop teasing you about a beautiful writer.

December 16

When you woke up this morning, you didn’t know that your live was going to take such a beautiful turn. It started normally. There was more and more customers in the pastry and they were loud. You even had to stop the music from playing, it was too noisy. By the end of the afternoon, Jin and Jimin entered the pastry together with Yoo Sang. It appeared that they have met on their way here. Jimin had his computer in a crossed bag leaned over his shoulder, black glasses and a beanie. He was so beautiful, you could cry.

They were the last clients and you were about to put the key in the door when you saw Joon running towards you while waving his hands up in the air. You opened the door to him and a cold and penetrating wind sneaked in and froze you on the spot.

«Y/n! I need Jin. Where is he?» You noticed the emergency in his voice.

«He’s eating inside. Come» You locked the door and followed him in the eatery. His loud voice could be heard in all the pastry, that’s a good thing you were alone with the boys. If something bad happened, at least he will feel safe and free to talk.

«Jin, baby! They called» Strangely, even though he said nothing more than that, Jin knew exactly what it was about.

«Really? FOR REAL?» Jin and Namjoon fell into each other’s arms, hugging and holding lovingly on each other. You looked at Jimin with a quizzical face and he shrugged.

«A boy or a girl? What age?» Jin asked his husband. Namjoon dimples appeared and a tear rolled on his cheek. They sat down close to Yoo and Joon started to explain.

«So, remember Sangie? Appa Jin and I wanted to adopt another baby»

Now you and Jimin caught what it was all about. You both let escape a whoop of joy at the same time.

«It’s finally happening. She is a 1 month old baby girl and her father forced her to fast because he put her mom’s death on her behalf. She apparently died during the labors. Social services discovered she was mistreated since she was born. Anyway, we have to go get her as soon as possible. The only problem is no child is welcome in this orphaned. Yoo, I am sorry my love but you will have to go sleep with Grandma for 3 nights»

«No, I want to come. Please Appa. I want to meet my little sister too”

“I am sorry Yoo, you can’t come with us”

“But you told me you would never abandon me like the other families did. You said you would ALWAYS be there» he started to cry and it broke everyone’s heart. You knew nothing about Yoo’s past before he was adopted.

«I know Yoo and I am really sorry baby. We are absolutely not abandoning you, you have to understand that we will be back. You are our son and we will always, ALWAYS be back for you. But I couldn’t say no to them. We have no choice honey. The plane is tonight at 11h00. We have to bring you right now at grandmas. We’ll be on time for Christmas and we’ll have a beautiful little girl with us».

«Nooooo»

Yoo Sang was not happy at all but you could say, he felt really sad. He was not throwing a spoiled kid tantrum. He was scared that his dads would abandoned him. He was crying, saying he don’t want to go to see his grandparents, that they didn’t love him anyway. That he wanted to meet his little sister too. He didn’t want to leave his house. You had an idea and you told them without thinking of all the implications. You were just incapable of seeing him so sad.

«Sangie. You know I love you, right?» He said his grandparents doesn’t love him. At least, you wanted him to feel loved if it meant anything to him.

«Yes» he pouted

«Would you like to stay with me? Maybe you can bake with me during the day, I could reduce my hours at the bakery and close earlier. Tae will be there too and at night we would go to your house and you could sleep in your bed. If they can, we could facetime them very often so you will see your little sister too.»

Jimin added «Hey, I am here too. I can take care of him during the day while you work and bring him after your shift. That way you will be able to bake without interruption. Oh! I have the best idea ever». He leaned over Yoo and murmured something into his ear. You could hear the words ‘’crib’’, ‘’baby clothes’’, ‘’shopping’’.

«YEAH! YEAH! I want that!» Yoo Sang shouted. «I want to stay with Y/n and Jimin, please appa. Please I will behave and I will listen to them».

«But, I don’t want to give you that responsibility» Joon said. «It’s a lot of work and he’s not always easy. He needs a lot of patience and he is very energetic. He’s still a little stressed from his abusive childhood and might keep you awake till late and...» You cut Namjoon off.

«Joonie, I need you to know that Yoo Sang would be totally safe and loved with me. I would take care of him the same way I would take care of my own baby. I love your son, I love every children actually and I would be glad to do that for your family. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have offered. Also, if Jimin is really willing to take the ‘’day shift’’ it would be amazing but either way, I will manage to take good care of him. I can even close for 3 days, there is a baby to save and if it’s my part to play then I will do it”.

«No need to close your shop y/n, I absolutely want to help too” jimin told you. Then looking at Jin and Namjoon “Go get your little girl. Yoo will be in good hands. He won’t have the same routine with us, for sure. But he will be under loving hands».

«Please appa. Please» Yoo begged. His fathers looked at each other and nodded at the same time.

«YES» He jumped, danced and screamed.

All of you walked to the family’s place. They prepared their own bag while you and Jimin prepared Yoo’s little one. It was decided during the walk that you will sleep in your apartment tonight finally.

«I’ll let you the keys of the house. You can sleep wherever you want». Jin said.

«Very good. Yoo! You will meet my little boy»

«Your cat?»

«Yes, my cat»

«What’s his name?» Jimin asked.

«Watch out! I was very inspired».

«Okay...» Jimin smiled while preparing Sangie’s toothbrush, he was really thoughtful.

«His name is ‘’little boy’’ and sometimes when I feel really, like REALLY extravagant, I call him ‘’little dude’’ or ‘little guy’’.

«Oh girl, you really know how to name a kitten» Jimin giggled.

«Y/n? Can Jimin sleep with us tonight?» Yoo Sang asked, pulling at your sleeve.

Your eyes met Jimins, both of your nervously smiling. He answered for you, lightening the atmosphere.

«Yoosangie, a gentleman never invites himself over like that, it would very rude. How about I bring you back to y/n place, we grab some take out on the way. I could see Little boy again, I’ll tell you how I am involved in is adoption. Then, I will come back home. Tomorrow morning, Y/n will call me when you are guys ready and I will come and get you for the day. Let’s go ice skating tomorrow shall we?»

Yoo was really happy. He run towards the door, ready to go. He completely forgot about his fathers.

«Hey little monster, come kiss your dad before you go» Jin mentioned, fist on his hips, pretending to be mad but a loving smile on his face.

«Yes, I forgot» Yoo said not even sorry. He kissed and hugged them very tightly and ran back towards you and Jimin again. He grabbed you both by the hand and said «Come on, we have plenty of things to do» he was serious all of sudden.

That night as you leaned over your bed to look at Yoo in his tiny bed on the floor, you thought of how beautiful that little man is and how lucky he is now that he has 2 wonderful fathers. Jimin would have been a perfect father too, you can tell by the way he is with Yoo. Always smiling, positive, patient and playful. He seems to care about his comfort and security as much as you do. You hope that what your brother tried to tell you wasn’t true.

December 17

You woke up abruptly, an over excited Yoo Sang pulling at your pajama sleeve.

«Wake up y/n ssi. It’s time to shine and rise. I bet you make the best pancakes ever»

You looked at the time on your phone. 4h45 am. Nooooo! How can it be even possible? It’s way too early, even for the baker you are. Seeing that he’s so happy to be awake, you didn’t dare ask him to go back to sleep.

He jumped on your bed, sat heavily on your laps, wrapped his little arms around your neck and snuggled his nose against your cheek. He was so precious, lovingly wrapped around you like that.

«Let’s call Jimin»

«Woah woah woah! It’s the middle of the night» you chuckled.

«He said we can call him anytime. He said it last night when we were eating sushi”.

Deep inside of you, you are really tempted to do as Yoo asked. But, you can’t do it to Jimin. Can you?

«He said it, remember?»

«Ok! Let’s call him. Might be funny»

He answered after the first ring tone.

«Hey guys, already awake?» you heard Jimin’s voice in the speaker of your cell.

«JIMIN! COME TO Y/N’S PLACE WE WILL EAT PANCAKES»

«That is a very nice invitation. Let me shower, I’m coming» He didn’t even hesitate. You never thought he would come for real. After all, it was still the middle of the night. When you think about it now, the first time you met, it was the middle of the night too. Is he a late owl or an early bird?

You ate pancakes with Jimin and Yoo Sang. Jin and Joon called a little later, saying they will soon meet their new baby. Yoo was excited to talk to his fathers and to tell him all the projects he has for the day. Jimin and Yoo leaved at 8:00, the boys had a very packed schedule for the day. They called you from time to time, telling you where they were and what they were doing. It was decided that tonight, as Yoo asked, there will be a sleepover in his house. Jimin asked you if you were ok with that and when you accepted he smiled at you foundly. He was at the pastry, the boys have decided to come and take a snack and some tea before lunch. Jimin has changed clothes during the day because apparently, it was exhausting to skate with such an energetic little man. He was wearing a loose plaid shirt on a skinny black jeans and a reverse cap on his head. He was the real definition of beauty and masculinity but also softness and kindness. Most of all, his smile was pure and genuine and that for you meant a lot. This man was absolutely perfect. As soon as the kid get up to go to the bathroom, you asked Jimin

«Now tell me, aren’t you tired?»

«Tired is not strong enough to express how I feel. I am drained” He giggled «But I feel alive! He’s an amazing kid. Exactly the kind of child I wish to have one day»

«You’re really good with him»

«And so are you. He told me for last night. That he peed on the sofa and that you were not even mad. He said his first mom hit him because he peed on the bed once»

«OH! NO! But he must have been so young. He’s with Jin and Joon for at least a year now. He was what? 1,2 years old? Poor baby»

«He said he don’t remember but he had to go to the hospital and that’s where he met his fathers. His leg was apparently broken».

«No… poor love. Who does that to a child. I can’t even believe this” You were emotional when you talked about child mistreatments. Who isn’t?

«He told me he was petrified to tell you when he peed on the couch. That he thought he would have to go to the hospital again and have new parents».

«Damn childhoods trauma. Poor love, I would never hurt a kid. Never»

«Now, he knows… careful, he’s coming back»

Yoo sat on the chair between you and Jimin ant at the same time you both asked him «you washed your hands»?

The evening with Yoo went really well. You watched a pixar movie snuggled up on the couch with the little one between you. You facetime with Joon and Jin, they were coming from the orphaned and were enchanted about their little girl. They showed you pictures they took on their phone and it was the cutest thing you ever seen in your life. Yoo wanted Jimin to read him his bedtime story, which he accepted with a radiantly blissful smile.

It took at least 2 hours for the kid to finally fall asleep which was already a better chrono than yesterday. Yoo was scared to sleep. He was petrified that while he sleeps, his family would disappear, tonight he transposed his family with you and Jimin. You used all your love and patience to tell him that only bad people does that. That his new family is nothing like that. That you and Jimin were going nowhere. He needed to be reassured again and again and again. When he finally passed out from exhaustion, you and Jimin slouched in the couch. As soon as you looked at each other, you started to laugh.

«This is crazy! Omg! Jin and Namjoon does that every day and they still want a newborn baby. They deserve a medal!»

«Indeed» you added.

«Seriously though, he is really anxious. Some people are heartless to impact a child like that”.

You turned your whole body to be on your side, your cheek against the back cushion of the couch. Jimin had closed his eyes, he was massaging his temples. He looked tired but beautiful nevertheless. «I’ll take a shower and will be back» you told him. «Perfect. I will prepare the beds while you’re there. You prefer the couch or the air mat?» He asked, turning his head to look at you in the eyes.

«I prefer the couch but I don’t really care».

«The lady will have what the lady asked for» he said.

You grabbed your bag and went to the bathroom.

Before you entered the shower, you made sure to brush your hair carefully and removed your makeup.Then you stepped into it, your toes curling as they touched the cold ceramic floor. You took a long and hot shower, you were exhausted from your day. You let the water cascade on your back, gently massaging your sore muscles. It was delightful and relaxing. When you felt satisfied, you finished your night routine and made sure to button up your pajama before you went out of the bathroom. Your hair were still damp but you didn’t want to make any noise so you didn’t use the hairdryer.

«I’m done, you can go if you want» you told Jimin as soon as you came out. You realised he already had his jogging and a shirt on, he took his shower in his house next door earlier. He didn’t respond and when you looked at him, he was asleep with his lips partly parted. He was lying on the mat next to the couch. Both beds were made with tons of freshly cleaned blankets, you could smell the fabric softener from where you were. You closed the lights, keeping only the night-light lit and came closer to Jimin. He seemed to be in a heavy sleep phase. You smiled when you realised he still had his glasses on his nose. You came closer to him, tiptoeing to make as little noise as possible. You leaned towards him and with the gentlest touch you can manage, you removed his glasses and placed them on low table next to the couch. Suddenly, he moved on his sleep and opened his eyes for half a second. He smiled brightly and closed his eyes again, a sleeping and angelic smile on his face. He reached his hand out and without even looking at you, he tried to grab your hand in the dark. You helped him and place your hand in his, overwhelmed by so much tenderness. He pulled on your hand and brushed his nose lightly against your palm, humming in content in his sleep. You stayed like that, admiring his adorable face for a moment. You took the chance to remove a lock of hair from his eyes with the back of your free hand, admiring his forehead, the perfection of his features for a little longer. The more you knew Park Jimin, the more you were in love with him. Almost as if he had felt your emotional state, he kissed your hand gently and whispered to you "go to sleep, love, tomorrow we have more work to do".

Was he asleep as you thought?

December 18

Your day at the pastry went really fast. You were so busy with work that it was already 5:00 p.m. when you looked up at the clock for the first time. You looked at your cell phone and noticed 4 unanswered calls from Jimin. Scrolling down the text messages, you were flooded with selfies of them and pictures they took during the day. Pictures of them ice skating. Pictures of a snow man. Pictures of you baking… WHAT? They came here and you haven’t notice them? Apparently yes cause they took pictures of them with you in the background, facing the other way around while you were pounding flour. Oh man, it was an hectic day. A picture melted your heart. It was them with a baby crib, both thumbs up proud of the good work. Under this picture there was a message «we’ll need your help to wash the tiny tiny baby girl blankets that Yoo chose. They are really ugly but I couldn’t say no to him. Please wash it, I am scared to do it wrong. it’s so delicate».

When you arrived at Jin and Namjoon place at 18h00, the boys had cooked you dinner. A good smell of kimchi stew was diffused in the air and they were finishing to set the table.

«Why do I have the feeling of coming home to my husband and kid?» You laughed. You shouldn’t have said this but it slipped your lips… Jimin shyly smiled and his cheeks went crimson red. Fortunately there was a little 3 years old boy that came to grab your hands and save you from the situation.

«Y/n! Come in my dads bedroom. We assembled a little crib for her and also we bought her clothes and you will have to wash the blankets because Jimin was scared they wouldn’t be pink anymore after he washed it and we also visited you but you didn’t even noticed us Tae either oh I met Tae’s girlfriend she is really nice and oh yes she told me that Tae sleeps at your place to take care of Little Boy and….»

You started to laugh before you lifted him up in the airs. He was so happy and excited tonight.

«Oh! Yoo! You have no idea how happy I am to see your beautiful smile tonight. I missed you. I missed you so much» you said before you took a big smell in his neck, tickling him.

«Are you gonna cry?» he asked, gaging your expression.

«I might cry from happiness» you started to laugh instead and held him against your heart. You kissed the top of his head and looked at everything he wanted to show you with him sitting on your hip. He was so proud of everything he did with Jimin today. It seemed that he had a wonderful time.

You thought that tonight, since he was so happy, it would be easier to put him to bed but you were wrong. After 2 hours of hugs, promises that you and Jimin will still be here in the morning and that his dads will be here tomorrow, he fell asleep like a rock.

After yours and Jimin’s shower, you both sat on the couch, exhausted from your days.

«I miss writing» is the first thing he told you.

«I am so sorry Jimin, I was suppose to take care of him and here you are, spending the day with him. I am sorry».

«Hey hey… no! It’s perfect. It gave me so many ideas for the rest of the novel. And I told you I was taking the day shift. It’s the busiest month for you. Everything is absolutely fine.»

«But I was suppose to take the night shift and...»

Jimin, who remembered his brother’s mockery about him not able to flirt with you, gathered his courage as he saw this moment as an opportunity to push things further. He took your hand in his, made sure to lock eyes with yours and said, very proud of himself.

«Hey, please stop y/n. I am glad I stayed mostly because I get to spend some time with you»

The corner of his eyes crinkled, he was looking at you with adoration all over his face.

«Aaw, that was really cute» is the most clever thing you thought to say at the moment. But you cannot let him talk like that and add nothing, can you? With a shy but pleased smile you said «I’m glad to spend time with you too» but you cannot bear his intense gaze any longer. Hiding your face in your hands you smiled at the situation. If he really was flirting with you, your childish attitude screwed it up. He took your hands away from your face and said, on a complete flirting mode, you can tell even though you are not a flirt expert

«Hey, don’t hide that smile from me. I love to be the reason of your happy face». He was about to kiss you, you swear. You felt it. Unfortunately, 3 light knocks on the door interrupted the moment. Jimin pressed his hand on your knee and said in a funny way "don't go anywhere, I haven't finished with you". Your heart made 3 complete turns in your chest and you nodded, a silly smile being all that you could offer him right now. You were beyond happy and whoever was on the other side of that door, you hope they will leave fast.

«Jimin… Jimin… You have to come home fast. You have a visitor» you heard a nervous voice that you didn’t recognised.

«What??? It’s 23h00! Who’s there?»

You stood up and went by the door to see who was talking. A delicate man, not much taller than Jimin but really thin stood there, concern all over his face. The second he saw you, he bowed politely.

«Hi Y/n, I am Jimin’s brother Yoongi. We briefly met once. I’m sorry to interrupt whatever you guys were doing» and looking at Jimin he added, smirking «You were right, she is really beautiful». Jimin froze on the spot and pushed his brother out. Yoongi chuckled but remained serious all of sudden when a feminine voice, a seductive voice is heard

«Jimiiin! Where are you my love?»

Holy shit!!!

December 19

You feel a small hand pulled on the pillow that you had over your head. It’s probably the morning but you didn’t want to open your eyes. You felt sick, your whole body was aching like if a truck ran over it. The pillow was finally removed and you felt your sore throat the second you tried to talk. Oh no! You caught some virus, just before christmas. What a wonderful timing.

«Do you think she’s dead» Yoo asked.

«Yaaa, of course she is not dead. She is emerging from dreamland but at her own slow pace». It’s Jimin’s voice. As soon as you remembered what happened last night, you opened your eyes to see if he was really here. Indeed, he was with dark circles under his eyes. He seemed to be in bad shape just like you are. Or maybe he didn’t sleep for some other nocturn activities. Why is life so cruel to you, dangling happiness in front of your eyes and tearing it away the second or you succumb to it.

«You ok Jimin?» you didn’t want to say in front of Yoo Sang that he left last night.

«Yes, everything is absolutely fine but I cannot say the same for you… You look so sick» His face shown concern. You started to cough and Jimin’s hands covered your forehead immediately.

«You are burning. Sit down love, I will bring you some meds» He helped you sit as soon as he noticed your dizziness, offering you his arms in support. You would have enjoy those muscles under your touch if you wouldn’t have been so sick. Yoo started to cry and he followed Jimin in the bathroom.

«Is she going to die? I don’t want her to die»

«Hey, Yoo! Stop it. Of course she won’t die. She only has a little fever. Nothing to die for. Let her a few days and she will be on her feet again». Jimin handed you the medication and said:

«I might have a replacement solution for you today. You remember Yoongi?»

«Your brother?»

«Yes. His girlfriend is a baker. She is younger than us tho, she just graduated from the school 2 or 3 months ago. She’s looking for a place to work. Maybe she can give you a hand».

«She don’t know my recipes, she won’t work fast enough. She...»

«Love, I don’t want to be rude but I don’t think you’ll be effective today. Also Taehyung will be there to guide her. For what I know, she is a good baker and she learns fast. She seemed passionate about it.».

«Ok then, you’re right, I won’t be able to work»

You texted Tae and gave him the details while Jimin went to his apartment and prevent his sister in law that she will work at your pastry today. Immediately, she followed Jimin and came to introduce herself. It was love at first sight for you. You have no idea how that girl works but you loved her immediately.

«Thanks for giving me a chance. I will bake with care. I hope I won’t disappoint you».

She left with a big smile on her face while you cought to the point you almost choke. Damn it!

«Ok, I will call a cab, you have to go to your place and rest. It will be better for you to have a quiet environment. Also, the baby arrives today, she can’t be near your germs» he teased.

«You’re right. I am so so so sorry Jimin. Please forgive me» you almost cried and he came closer to you, hesitating only for a second before wrapping his arms around you.

«Sorry for what?» he asked softly, rubbing your back.

«I cannot help you properly. Sorry about that». You felt so good in his arms. It was the first time he was that close. Why is he even doing it, after being with his «girlfriend» last night.

He took a step back and locked your hands in his.

«You have to stop with that guilt. Really. I am sad that you are sick but not mad at all about helping my neighbors. Me and Yoo gets along pretty well actually. It’s tiring but it’s going well».

He helped you add some layers over your shoulders. You hugged Yoo with a mask on, making sure you wouldn't contaminate him and you went home. Alone and scared that whatever you had with Jimin was now over because of that feminine voice you heard.

December 20

Jimin, Tae and Hoseok texted you at least 20 times each yesterday. They kept track of the evolution of your virus.

If Jimin really wanted to have something with you, he would have explained himself, right? He would have say a word about why he left last night to meet a woman that called him «my love». Well, he didn’t. Maybe he was just a gigolo after all. No… he’s not like that at all.

You were still really sick, your fever didn't want to drop and you were coughing non stop. Every muscle in your body was sore, your head was threatening to explode and all you could do between coughing was sleep or taking care of your kitten.

Yesterday, Jin and Joon arrived with their little girl that they have named Hyeon. They took pictures of her in Yoo Sang’s arms and send it to you. Your favorite was the picture of Jimin with Hyeon in his arms. It was really cute cause Yoo was on the picture too, concern all over his face. He didn’t want Jimin to hold his little sister and it shown. Probably because he didn’t want Jimin to love her more than him, he didn’t want to lose his place in his heart. You will have to ask Jimin if you are right about it.

At the end of the day, you took a long shower, dressed warmly and put a mask on. You went downstairs in the pastry. You wanted to see how things were doing although Tae was texting you non stop.

Your regular customers were glad to see you, not being used to your absence. You went on the kitchen part but didn’t touch anything. Chae Li was working effectively. She had made your recipes and the displayers were full of cakes, viennoiseries and sweets.

«People are crazy this year. As soon as something is on the displayers, it disappears. You have no idea how much we worked» Tae said after a warm hug from behind, his hands not touching you. He didn’t want to catch your bad virus. That’s when you saw him, coming from the eatery with his empty mug and plate. Jimin! The beautiful man that almost kissed you was wearing a blue jeans, leather jacket, white button shirt and a big scarf around his neck. He was mesmerising. You were about to go and talk to him when you saw her, holding onto his arm. A beautiful woman, dressed in clothes that you will never have the money to wear even if you put all your money into it. She was a natural beauty, the actual definition of class and elegance.

When he saw you, Jimin suddenly seemed very uncomfortable. He didn't seem to want you to come near them. This is what you can read from his non verbal attitude. Why did he invited her in your pastry then?

The woman also noticed Jimin’s face and when she looked at you, her face illuminated like she knew something you didn’t. Like she was almost happy.

«Is she the owner of the place?» She asked him.

«Yes, now let’s go!» After a little bow to you and a smile that didn’t reach his eyes, he dragged her out.

«You saw this too, Tae?»

«I’m sorry cherry pie».

Tears running down your eyes, wetting the mask you wore, you go back to your apartment and cried all the tears you had for that romance that didn’t really had a chance to start.

December 21

«You sure Chae? She was crying? But why?»

«Jimin, you are really stupid or what?» she asked him, smiling tenderly.

It was the end of the day. You had came back to work today, not feeling good at all but determined to work nonetheless. You managed to work only 3 hours, still recovering but it was enough to say that this girl was a treasure. You hired her full time right away. Tonight, she was celebrating her new job with her boyfriend, her 2 brothers in law and their parents.

«He is stupid» Yoongi said.

«When it comes to love affair, I have to admit, he’s not really clever» Jungkook added.

«Where is my baby Koo? My little brother that is always by my side?»

Everybody were mocking Jimin.

«But Chae, tell me. Why were she crying?»

«Ok, ok! Let me tell you Jimin but please, be careful not to betray me, she is my new boss. The ambiance in this pastry shop is so joyful and cozy. I don’t want her to fired me. I love her and Tae. They are amazing».

«Promise»

«I am telling you just because I see there is a misunderstanding between you. But clearly, both of you are into the other and...»

«Chae… spit it» Jimin cuts her justifications.

«Ok, ok! So, there was a french christmas song playing. French pastry shop, french christmas song, see the link here?» She asked Jimin, teasing him by taking her sweet time. «Chae...» he said threateningly before she burst out of laughter.

«Tae and her were speaking in some type of code language and when y/n realized that I understood what they were talking about secretly, she threatened me with a whip so you better not say that I told you anything. I really love her and I don’t want to talk on her back I just want the situat...»

«Chae...» the 3 brothers cut her endless explanations.

«She was sad. She said you almost kissed»

«JUST ALMOST?» Yoongi cuts his girlfriend «you had 2 entire nights with her and you didn’t shared any fluids?»

«Shut up Yoongi, let her talk»

«So apparently the moment was interrupted by my man here» she pointed Yoongi «and a woman languidly calling you».

«ok, and...»

«And then you left. The day after, as if nothing ever happened between you and y/n, you brought that woman to eat something and she was beautiful and you were uncomfortable because you didn’t want to introduce her to y/n»

«But I never brought Jamie there… I brought my agent! She wanted to see what my novel was about»

«y/n didn’t know that. She thought she was the girl who called you ‘’my love’’ with a sensual voice the other night. That’s why she is sad. She thought that she and you had a little something growing and then BAM» she clapped in her hands dramatically, startling people around the table «it was taken away from her by that beauty queen in heels».

«But Jamie and I, it’ over. She’s casually visiting South Korea but I made sure she understood I wouldn’t be her personal guide».

«y/n doesn't know it»

«Oh my! Oh! my!» Jimin murmured «I am not good with woman. I must be cursed or something».

«Jimin, you only need to make things better. Explain to her… she’s waiting for it».

«Ok, I’m going» he said, standing up.

«Wait until tomorrow. She is with Taehyung, his girlfriend and Hoseok tonight. She was sick to death but they went for Soju shots I think. I was invited too but I had to come here».

«Text her, at least» Koo suggested.

«I did. She didn’t answer any of my messages since she saw me with my editor».

«You lost your only chance to get married» Yoongi lovingly teased his little brother.

«Shut up Hyung» the younger boys said at the same time.

December 22

You were eating dinner with Hoseok, Little Boy on your lap when someone rang the doorbell. You discovered a beautiful Jimin, a woolen hat sunk on his head.

«Jimin? What are you doing here?» You asked, intrigued.

«There are things I need to tell you» he said before you both jolt.

«Jimin as in PARK JIMIN?» Hoseok shouted, running towards you as Jimin was taking his hat off. You turned towards your brother and made ‘’the face’’ that meant it all.

«But this is Park Jimin… oh! my! god!» he went in front of Jimin «I am a big fan of your writing style. I even teach your brother Jungkook and I think you are the most talented writer in Asia right now. You are revolutionizing literature and well your brother is talented too I didn’t meant»

«Oppa… Oppa… OPPA» you finally cut him «I don’t want to be rude but Jimin came here because he wanted to talk to me?»

«Sorry. I am glad to meet you Jimin ssi» he leaved without taking the keys to his car. You prepared it for when he would realise it. When he knock on the door, you just handed it without a words but he gave you a big kiss on the cheek. «Call me if you need anything». You closed the door and turned towards your guest. He already had Little Boy in his arms. You needed a moment to collect your thoughts before the big talk so you said «Come in the kitchen, I just need to put the food in the fridge». You did but you didn’t stop there. You were removing the dishes from the table and putting it in the dishwasher when he interrupted you, grabbing your hand and dragging you into the living room.

«Y/n, there is no need to be nervous. I need to talk to you now. Ok?» You nodded.

«Hey, I want to hear your sweet voice, talk to me. Why are you nervous?» he smiled at you.

«How are Yoo and Hyeon?» you asked timidly, you were not ready for whatever he had to say.

«Really? That’s what you have to say?» He laughed.

«Y/n, there is a misunderstanding between us. We need to talk».

«I have nothing to say Jimin. But go ahead, talk to me. I am telling you, I have a good flair for bullshit»

«Oooh! I thought you were an unarmed sweet girl. I’m glad to see that you know how to stand for yourself. But then, it means you won’t need me to take your defense» He said, pretending to be sad. You frown and patiently waited for him to speak again.

«Let’s start with the easier part. The woman I was with in your shop, remember? Tall, in a jumpsuit? Heels?» When you nodded, he continued «she’s my editor. We work together for at least 5 years now.»

«Oooooh...»

«You might have felt a tension because I didn’t want her to spit the tea. She is unstoppable when she started and I didn’t want her to talk in front of you»

«Talk about what?»

«My new novel. One of my character is based on you. The main character actually...»

Your eyes widen under the surprise. Your brother was right after all, there will be a pretty baker in his next book.

«I knew she wanted to tell you about it and I wanted to do it myself. She is the best editor in korea but she can’t keep her mouth shut».

You smiled at him, relieved.

«Now Jamie» he sight, the subject seemed more difficult to approach for him. «How many time do I have?» he asked you looking pitiful.

«You have all night Jimin. I ain’t going nowhere»

«Good… Jamie is my ex-fiancé. We were not together for very long but it was interse. Intense relation in all aspects»

«Please, spare me the sexual details»

He laughed.

«I was not talking about sex, I’m a gentleman for god sake» He took a deep breath in and continued.

«It was intense, I don’t know how to explain it... She was intense. Her personality and mine are totally different. She was flirty, possessive, she wanted the attention on her all the time. You know what I mean?» You nodded, looking at him in the eyes. «She was a beautiful woman and at the moment, I thought I was the luckiest man in the world to have her»

You knew he was about to tell you something that is still hurtful for him, it shows in his expression. You were sit cross legged, face to face on the couch. You took his hands in yours and caressed his palm with your thumbs, by reflex. With that simple gesture, he gained some courage and continued.

«I will tell you the truth here. I won’t lie»

«I certainly hope so»

«I was captivated by her beauty. I was not able to discern her true personality. My brothers, who met her only twice because we lived in the states, immediately warned me against her. They saw clearly in her. Not me. To be honest, she was holding me by the you know what ”

You pointed his crotch with your chin and added, to lighten the atmosphere «Isn’t every man's weakness?»

«Well, I don’t know for the others… but it was mine. Anyway. We were together for 8 months I think when it happened» You squeezed his hands in yours, you felt he needed strength.

«One day she came home with a stomach ache and she had trouble walking. I prepared a hot bath for her, applied warm cushions on her tummy. It was not taking the pain away. I told her that we should go to the hospital, that pain was not normal. That’s when she spit it… she just had an abortion».

«She was pregnant?» you asked in disbelief.

«Yes. And I didn’t even knew it»

«THE BITCH! She had an abortion on your back?» you were shocked.

«she announced this to me as if she just had a plantar wart removed. I swear to god, in the same tone she would have taken»

«She is a monster! It was your baby too. She should have warn you, minimally».

«I left her alone with her stomach pain. I went away from her bullshit. I left everything behind, all my belongings and came home the same day. I cried all the tears that I had inside of me for that baby that I almost had but never knew when it existed, isn’t crazy? I was devastated. I was sad because this baby whom I never knew but who was mine will never have felt loved in its short existence. This woman is not capable of true love, of empathy. She got rid of a baby the same way she would get rid of a mosquito. And that baby, my poor baby, was never told it was not his fault. That he was loved nevertheless».

«Oh my god Jimin… it was not your fault»

«I know it was not my fault. And I also know that none of us were ready to have a kid. At some point I’m even lucky that I never had to have a child with her. I am not against abortion at all, I want you to understand that. I am not making any sense, sorry y/n»

«Oh Jimin, you make so much more sense than you think. I understand completely. You would have liked to know, you would have liked to be consulted. In fact, you should have been. You would have liked it to be a more significant act. She never told you she was pregnant and got an abortion. She should have warn you... What kind of heartless woman does that?»

Becoming emotional but lighter because you understood him and didn’t judge him, he leaned towards you and leaned his head on your shoulder. Your arms wrapped around him and you hugged him tightly.

«I am sorry for you Jimin. Really»

«I know, I feel you» he said «You can’t lie and you are connected to your emotions. You’re like me. Raw and sensitive»

«It seems that you know me well...» you smiled, caressing his back. You felt his body relaxed under your touch and you didn’t want to let go of him. Despite being comfortable, he stepped back and looked you straight in the eye.

«Jamie… it’s her that you heard the other night. I didn’t split with her in person, I texted her. I figured she wouldn’t mind the lack of manners». He smiled but his face remained sad and tense. «She came to my place, I never got rid of my apartment, even when I lived overseas. She knew the address and came to try to win me back»

«Did it succeed?» you teased «she used a very seductive voice from what I heard. It might have awaken certain parts of your anatomy» you made fun of him, pointing at his crotch again.

«Yaaaaa! Of course it didn't. My head is filled someone else. Someone that is even more beautiful».

«Oh! Really?» you timidly asked.

«Hum hum! Her eyes are an open book, I can read her soul in her eyes. And most of all, her heart is pure and she is the kindest person I met. She is really the most beautiful person I ever met, for real this time. Her voice is angelic and her smile illuminates everything around when she is in a room with you. The first time i saw her, her tongue was sticking out like a young child, she was trying to catch snowflakes instead of shoveling her balcony. I knew she was the one»

«She is that beautiful, hum?»

«She is… Let me tell you more about her. She has the most beautiful neckline, all in delicatesse… Her face is perfectly shaped and her body is made out of god’s material. She is perfect. Oh! girl… Her lips… They are full and pinky red. She...»

«She must taste delicious, don’t you think»? You blinked, teasing him.

«Oh, she probably does. And the more I get to know her, the more I discover her hidden side. She is not that shy, she’s even a little sassy»

You laughed loudly.

«Jimin...»

«Wait Y/n. There is something I want to do before I go. I wanted to do it for so long»

«You go already?»

«I have to… I have to pick some family members at the airport. I might even be late already» He started to laugh, not a tiny bit feeling guilty about them waiting for him.

«Then what the hell are you doing here?»

«It’s called priorities. I had to make things better with you. Chae told me that you were sad and»

You jumped down from the couch before you pointed at him with your index.

«Noooo she didn’t… I will… I will...»

He went in front of you, ran his hand behind your neck and kissed you without further ado. It was a soft kiss at the beginning, gentle and tender. As the kiss deepened, his tongue became more greedy. It was unthinkable that your mouths would separate soon. You never wanted to get away from him again, you had him under your skin as they sing in love songs. Even though you were leaned against him, you still felt too far from him. His mouth moves away from yours but he leaned his forehead against yours.

«I don't think I could have stopped kissing you anytime soon Jimin. You have a lot of self-control».

He smiled and kissed your forehead, his lips brushing against your skin tenderly.

«I had a thought for my family member that I have to pick up at the airport. She won't be touched by my love exploits and let me tell you, I'm no better than dead if I don't arrive quickly».

«Go then. I don’t want you to die the day I finally kissed you».

«Can we go on a proper date tomorrow»

«I wished I could, believe me. But tomorrow it’s the 23. After work, my parents come and get me for a diner at my aunt. Each year it’s the same, it’s our family Christmas party. I’m sorry».

«It’s alright. It’s christmas season after all. We’ll talk about it tomorrow, shall we?»

«Yes» you timidly answered. You don’t know why you were so timid all of sudden.

«May I kiss you again before I go?»

«You didn't ask earlier» you mocked him.

«I didn’t had to ask, you were begging me with your eyes» he teased. You kicked his shoulder playfully «Hey! I didn’t, take those words back»

«You did. I had to sacrifice myself»

«Oh the nerves! Because you said that, I declare that there will be no more kiss exchanged tonight. Nada»

«Nooooo, the punishment is too severe for the petty crime committed»

You took your chin between your thumb and forefinger, pretending to think

«Who’s begging for a kiss now, I wonder»

He grabbed your waist and dragged you against him. He was eager to kiss, to taste you and you seemed to share the same impulse. He wanted to taste every centimeter of your body right here, right now letting no spot unloved. But he couldn’t. Maybe it was for the best after all. He loved that he took his time with you. He loved that he get to know you better before he would share that kind of intimacy. He burned himself once, this time, he wants to make things perfect.

«I knew you were the one»

With a small peck on his lips, you said «Next time, I will tell you how I fell for you, should I? Now, go. Someone is waiting for you.

December 23

You were at your family party, all dolled up in a short black dress when you received a text message from Jimin. You have talked with him all day long. You have realised that it won’t be easy to plan a date with him. For the next few days, if you don’t have a party, he does. The only party that you have in common is december 24. Jin and Joon always threw a party for their friends on christmas eve and this year, you were invited for the first time. You auto declared Hyeon official babysitter for the night since you didn’t met her yet. Your relation with Jin and Joon as deepens during the year and you were happy to call them your friends now.

Jimin: I hope you have fun. Did you received nice christmas presents?

You: My favorite present, I received it last night. It was a kiss from a mind blowing man. So beautiful, I could have think he was a model.

Jimin: He’s way too small to be a model :)

You: true

Jimin: Hey! You were supposed to deny politely :)

You: Will it make it better if I tell you I can’t wait to unwrap my favorite present?

Jimin: …

You: …

Jimin: You mean, THAT???

You: oh, do I? ;)

Jimin: You’re telling me this and we can’t meet before what? 3 days?

You: Well, I am bored. Santa is gone and we've already eaten the buffet ... but I'm too lazy to walk. Wanna come get me, bring me home and spend the rest of the night?

Jimin: address?

You: ah ah ah! Just so you know, I’ll be the pretty girl waiting for you outside. Hurry up

Jimin: I am not taking the time to pack a pajama. Sorry not sorry.

You: Hurry up! I want to take you in my arms to make sure that this is all real.

Jimin: Let’s make it real real love.

You knew that you and Jimin would fit together well. You guessed it when you fell for him and you had a hint of it last night when you shared a couple of kisses. You were not prepared for that night of love making though. None of your previous boyfriend prepared you for that passionate sex you shared with Jimin. It was a torrid night, spent discovering each other’s body without any complex. No area remained without being kissed, observed, licked, smelled or bitten. All this passion was burning but consumed slowly, painfully slowly until one or the other lost control and took the lead to reach his ultimate pleasure. Exploding under the loving caresses of the other.

Jimin knew exactly how to satisfy a woman but when you pointed out to him he surprised you with his response «It has nothing to do about me or my supposed skills. It has everything to do with our connection. I am giving you what your body is asking for and you are doing the same for me». Damn, he was right!

When the alarm went off that morning, you were still kissing, well seated on his thighs with him deep inside of you. You were in your umpteenth love making session and you didn’t want your hands to get away from him anytime soon. Leaning on your side, you stop the alarm and came back to work on him. He sat under you and you crossed your legs behind his butts as you slowly continued to rock your hips with languid movement, both of your bodies exhausted but still thirsty for more.

«Jimin...» you said as you hide your face in the crook of his neck, humming his smell.

«Hum...»

«I think I am falling for you» he took his hands off your hips and gently framed your face. He guided you so that you looked him in the eyes when he whispered to you

«That’s good love because I know I have”

Words were no longer necessary, your bodies and your eyes could speak without them and the «I love you» message was clear even though none of you said it out loud, too early in the relationship.

Nonetheless, love was the only thing between you during this languorous night and you both felt it.

December 24

«Are you sure you don’t want to tell them»? Jimin asked you over the phone while looking at you from his window.

«No, let’s see how long it will take for them to realise it»

«Ok, go first, I will come in 5 minutes. You look stunning by the way»

You blushed at his compliment.

«You haven’t seen my dress yet, you silly»

«It's not your dress that I compliment, it's your face»

«Tell me again, how I got so lucky?»

«I am the lucky one here, don’t fight me. Now, go inside before you get sick again» You started to walk towards your friends apartment, still talking on the phone with your now called lover «I can’t wait to take you in my arms, I think I am addicted to you».

«Already?»

«How can it be otherwise?»

«Gonna hang on now, see you in a few minutes».

«Can’t wait»

It wasn’t a smaller party that the previous years, you learned. Jin and Namjoon having a newborn baby girl at home now, you could have thought that it was going to be intimate. But since they prepared this party with Yoo and that he was waiting for it for quite long, they didn’t changed anything and did as planned.

You have brought gifts for the 4 family members and you placed it under their Christmas tree as soon as you arrived, telling them to unwrap it later when they are alone. You made sure to give all your attention to Yoo Sang before you even pronounced the name of his little sister. When you have hugged and talked a few minutes with him, you asked him if he could present you his little Hyeon. He brought you in his father’s room and when you saw Namjoon in a big rocking chair, you realised that you haven’t seen him yet. He was humming her a melody, caressing the little hair on her head softly. Your heart melted from so much softness.

«Sangie, Jimin and his brothers has arrived» you heard Jin shout.

He ran out of the room without further ado.

“Since you and Jimin babysat him the other day, he can’t stop talking about you”. Joon told you after you kissed his cheeks and kiss the little baby’s head.

“Oooh, really?”

“Yes! Of course. I don’t know how to thank you”.

“There is no need to thank me”.

“Y/n, please. I am truly grateful for your help. You have no idea what a feminine presence means for Yoo. As you know now, he was beaten by both his mom and grandma to the point he had broken bones. You are the first feminine figure he trusts and for us, it means that he will be resilient. So thank you”.

You couldn’t help the tears from running over your cheeks.

“Hey, cry baby! Wanna hold the little princess?”

“Yes, please but she is so small, she looks like a premature baby. Are you sure she is a month old?

He stood up and invited you to take the seat. When you were comfortably installed, he placed her in your arms gently. She was the most beautiful baby girl you’ve ever seen even tho she seemed so fragile and skinny. You realised that something was missing. She had absolutely no baby fat anywhere you looked. Namjoon who observed you and knew what you were thinking said

“Yes, she was deprived from milk. She lacked vitamins and minerals. Out biggest hope is she will be able to grow old healthy from now on. It might have caused her brain damages. We have to wait and see”

“Jesus Christ! Namjoon, this is so fucking sad. I could cut both of my arms and give it to her. Cut my brain and give it to her. She never deserved this”.

“I heard someone said she was ugly earlier… that’s why we are hiding”.

“Are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? Who said that? Give me a name and I will make sure that person eats his own genital for dinner served cold in a silver plate”.

Namjoon laughed.

“She is beautiful Joonie. Absolutely beautiful, there is no reason to hide her”.

“Actually, I was not hiding her, I was protecting my weak heart. I can’t hear a bad comment on my child, it’s killing me”.

When the baby wriggle in your arms and started to cry, Namjoon’s voice calmed her down. Noticing it, you gave her back to him. She had a content smile on her face as soon as she was in her father’s arms.

“Let’s go, people are waiting for us” he said.

“We’ll come back together if anything happens again. We’ll let Jin play the hostess and we’ll come back here. You don’t have to be alone with this pain”

“You are my guardian angel Y/n. I love you”.

“Love you too pretty dimple boy. Now, let’s go”.

The party was an absolute success. It didn’t take long for people to notice that you and Jimin were now together. The second you were in the same room, you immediately ended up side by side, his hands on you somewhere. Only places that were publicly acceptable of course, but on you nevertheless. He was an absolute sweetheart, not being glued on you but having a tender gesture when you were together.

It was the end of the evening when you realised that on the room where you were, only the people you love the most in this world were present.

On the couch Tae and his girlfriend who were in a deep conversation with Yoongi and Chae Li. Jungkook who was rocking little Yoo on the rocking chair of the living room a big blanket on both of them. You’re not sure who will fall asleep first between them. Jin was feeding his daughter, smiling fondly at her. Namjoon was talking with his sister and Hoseok. He wanted to introduce them for so long now, saying that they would fit perfectly. Turned out he might have been right if you still know how to read your brother’s eyes.

Most of all, there was Jimin that dragged you onto his laps. You fell heavily on him, the side of your body leaning against his chest, your arms snaking around his neck. When your head founded its home in the crook of his neck, you hummed in content.

“You smell good Jimin”.

“Oh, really?”

“Yes, your skin, it smells good”

“Ooooh… “

You were so tired from intensively working, from the recent virus, from not sleeping at all last night. You could have fell asleep on his laps.

“Want to come and sleep at my place”

“Will I be allowed to take a shower?”

“Only if I can take it with you” you lifted up your head and looked at him, trying to see what his intentions were.

“What?” He wondered.

“I’m just trying to see if your intentions are pure”.

He burst out of laughter.

“You are so tired, my intentions are pure. You need to sleep and so do I”

“I don’t know if I am deceived by that answer or not”.

He laughed and said “me neither”.

When you entered his house that was literally next door, you both fell on the bed. Hugging each other tight, you fell asleep with the feeling of being loved, of being home.

December 25

«Jimin...you awake?» You asked, knowing well that he was still asleep, you could hear him snoring softly. He dragged you closer to him and hummed your hair.

«Jimin open your eyes!»

«No, I’m scared that you would have been a dream if I do»

«Why are you so cute? Of course it’s not a dream, look» You kissed his naked shoulder and brushed your lips and nose along his clavicle. He probably got rid of his shirt while sleeping.

«Please baby, open your eyes»

«What’s there for me if I do?»

«That’s the whole point. You will see» He did as you requested and discovered mistletoe hanging from the ceiling. He automatically smiled.

«Who did that? I am pretty sure it was not there when we fell asleep last night?»

«It was not. You know what it means, right?»

«Let me tell you something pretty girl. I plan on kissing you first thing in the morning every day till the end of time. And I also plan on kissing you every night before we fall asleep. I am planning it ever since I saw you catching snowflakes with your tongue».

«Aaaaaw! Jimin… I come I deserve you»

«Wanna kiss me, now? The mistletoe is waiting»

«I’m pretty sure that the mistletoe doesn’t care at all»

«Sshhhh woman. Kiss me»

«I will, every morning from now on» You said right after you kissed his nose playfully.

«Promise?» he asked

«Well unless...» You burst out of laughter when you saw his expression. You wanted to tease him a little but in fact, there is nothing you want more than to wake up in his arms and start the day like that.

«Jimin. I want it too. I promise» He kissed you for real this time as to show you what awaits you in the future. No, you couldn't have asked for better.

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Spop Fic recs (Catradora)

(finally)

Hello Catradora trash can's today I finally give you what I've been promising for MONTHS - a fanfic rec list. Because, if you didn't already know, I read A LOT of Catradora fanfic, probably too much and although I'm definitely not the best judge of...anything, I really wanted to make this post, so here it is, weeks late.

(it's a long one though)

I’ve written my full opinions n shit on like the first 10 multi chapters and one shots because there’s a lot lol, and some I remember better than others (tbf I've re read all of them at this point), but yeahhh. For the others, I’ll describe it in less detail and a bit more jokily lol.

I'm sorry I haven't just linked all the fics bit I just want this to be out of my drafts loll, and I can assure you most of these are pretty easy to find, I apologise for the laziness though haha

Also I’ve tried to find the all the authors tumblr or other social media, but I couldn’t for all of them which sucks, so if you happen to be the author and I left you out, please comment :)

Anyway, Y'ALL NEED TO GET ON MY LEVEL SOOO WITHOUT FURTHER ADO HERE YOU GO:

(here's a key first)

Key:

(o) = ongoing

(f) = finished

[G]=General

[T] =Teen and up Audiences

[M]=Mature

[E]=Explicit

Multi-chapters:

1. Upper West Side by ceruleanstorm (o) 100,000+ words

@princessofgayskull

[Modern AU] [T]

This fic is so amazing!! It goes so deep into their psychology and past and damn is it hilarious at time. Also, I love the premise of it - Catra is a Uber driver and Adora ends up as her passenger. It's a fairly slowburn as it goes deep into the two girls' lives and really gives time for the relationship to develop naturally and that is honestly really appreciated because it makes the good moments between the two even better and more rewarding if I'm honest. A lot of angst though. All the other characters we know and love are also written amazingly in it too, and are made equally important. All in all, I love this fic and everything about it!

As of writing it has fairly infrequent updates, but each chapter is 10-20k+ words and has 9/12 chapters so...there’s a lot.

2. For my Sake by doublepasse (f) 100,000+ words

@doublepasse-writes

[Canon Compliant][E]

The story and world building is just - WOAH. This one is quite the slowburn but boy is it worth it. It's set a couple months to a year after season one, where Catra finally captures Adora but the tables turn very quickly when capturing her nearly results in her death, which Catra (unsurprisingly) didn’t want. The story has some BIG plot twists and is definitely one of the best canon universe Catradora fics I’ve ever read and the ending was very satisfying, but also open ended, BECAUSE there’s a part 2 coming and I couldn’t be more excited!

(Also, there is one chapter with nsfw content in it, but it has a sfw version)

3. Skinny Love by Maychup (o) 89,000+ words

@maychup

[Canon Compliant][M]

Another amazing fic that takes place in the canon universe that has such great world building, and is very plot heavy. It takes place days after the S1 finale and goes from there basically. The premise of it is similar to many fics and one shots you’ve probably read - sleeping with the enemy. From the first chapter it seemed like it could have easily been a five chapter easy redemption fic but nooooooo, it goes a lot LOT deeper. I feel like this fic did such a great job on character development, Catra’s specifically, she grows so much throughout the fic. She is also such a mother to all her Horde pals in this and I love that haha.

At the time of writing, it’s still ongoing, and boy am I excited to see where it goes. It’s also super angsty and has a fair-ish amount of smut so be warned!

4. The Heiress and The thief by Fuhadeza (f) 58,000+ words

@fuhadeza

[Regency AU][M]

As it says in the fic summary, it is literally the She-Ra regency AU I never knew I wanted likeeee, it’s so good! Premise - Adora is taken by Lady Brightmoon, leaving her boarding school, and her best friend behind, Catra, and everything is fine until her old friend face resurfaces. This one had me screaming at times (most of them did, but this especially). It was a really enjoyable read and I honestly loved the way the author dealt with love and the way Adora dealt with her feelings and just ahhh- read it.

5. Faded with feelings by yesimgay (f) 24,000+ words

[Roomates AU][T]

This fic. I read this a WHILEEE ago but to this day this is one of my favourite fan-fics ever like it’s hilarious, and fluffy and unproblematic and sometimes you need that tbh. Everything you need to know is established in the first chapter but the way it is done feels so natural, as if it’s just Adora‘s or Catra’s thoughts and I love it. Also the premise is GREAT - Catra has ADHD and smokes weed to help with it, and Adora accidentally takes an edible, which is when shenanigans start to ensue.

6. Dream of Me by DBsean (f) 18,000+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

Although it is on the shorter side with only five chapters, this was another fic that was so so good in quality and premise. For whatever reason, Catra and Adora start sharing dreams, enabling them to share moments together that they (unfortunately) can't have in real life, due to them being on opposite sides of the war, and in turn - enemies. The angst in this fic literally KILLED ME, and the characters dialogue is so good as well! I also recommend you check out some of the authors other fics, they're all great!

7. we've been making shades of purple out of red and blue by darklady21(o) 19,000+ words

[Roomates AU][M]

Another Roomates AU, bUT instead of being best friends, the two barely know each other, or interact at all...GREAT RIGHT?!? Honestly though, I think the author did a great job in making it not seem too rushed, especially in the setup and establishing how although they know each other, they DONT know each other, so the first couple chapters are basically that stage where they are learning more about each other and leaving stupid post it notes around the house, and it just feels so natural and great! Updates aren’t super regular, but there’s already nine chapters (as of writing) so definitely check it out, as well as their other works too!

8. Razorback by Starr_Reborn(o) 22,000+ words

[Canon Divergence AU][M]

Apparently, the author wrote this with the intent of it being fluffy. From the title you can tell that is NOT the case. At all. This one HURTS. This is very very angsty, and also has some themes of rape in it, so if that kinda thing triggers you I might wanna skip out on this one. It is a really good fic though and stands out from a lot of the others because of the way it is written. Chapters aren’t usually longer that 1000 words and the writing style is quite disjointed at times, and it a lot of the time a stream of consciousness. At times it can even be a little confusing or hard to follow, but I find it makes it even more interesting, and also means it will probably be a fic I come back to once completed. It is genuinely so unpredictable, I have no clue where it’s going, but I really love it for that!

9. Sunflower by TechnoSkittles (f) 6000+ words

@technoskittles

[High School AU][G]

Oh, BOY. Oh boyyy. This fic - it's 8 chapters and only 6000 words yet the story is just- Ahhh READ IT. It's so good! And like the author in general is so amazing at writing like check out all their works (especially their latest one shot omg I loved it). Anyway, read this, it's not too long, it's cute and also genuinely surprising, the ending was not something I saw coming AT ALL, so YEAH!

10. I like me better when I'm with you by lesbians_harold(f) 22,000+ words

@lesbians-harold

[High School AU][T]

Just a nice, fun, fluffy high school, friends to lovers AU. Catra moves to Adora’s school senior year and the twos friendship is quickly rekindled, after a rocky start albeit. Adora is a big ol’ jock and Catra draws which is a headcanon I LOVE. It’s written so well, and the characters are also written well too! It is a lil angsty at times, but not to worry - but it does pay off, I assure you.

11. I thought we were best friends by vanilla107 (o) 45,000+ words

@vanilla107

[University AU][T]

Breakups. Lots of breakups, and angst. This one will mend your heart then hurt you. BE SCARED. But go read it. I mean it. It's good!

12. Dirty Dancing by LilLegalLoli94 (o) 9000+ words

@lillegalloli94

[Dancing AU][M]

Basically lots of (sexual) tension after years of not seeing each other because Adora moved to Brightmoon Dance Academy. It's good. Real good.

13. Back to Black by eveynull (f) 6000+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

(Post War) Gays go and visit their past, staring angst, and featuring your favourite co-star - fluff!

14. how things are supposed to be by maggiesbombshell (o) 11,000+ words

@yeunslegacy

[High School AU][M]

A jolly slowburn that will hurt your soul because (internalised) homophobia and gay.

15. Some things you don't see coming by Trashibesensei (o) 20,000+ words

[High School AU][T]

Adora being a big ol' jock, and Catra being a big ol' gay. I’m not even gonna explain it, you have to find that out yourself.

16. A quarter after three by Maychup (o) 11,000+ words

@maychup

[Youtuber AU][M]

Adora's gay panic settles in when she bumps into her childhood bestie, Catra, live streaming in the streets of LA. My favourite part of this fic has to be the YouTube comments she gets. This one will make you laugh. And go AWWW CUTE.

17. A Song to My Heart by DemiRebel (f) 8000+ words

[Neighbors AU][G]

The cute girl next door keeps singing loud, and it sounds BELLE, so what else would you do other than creepily listen?? 10/10 for premise.

18. Occupied by Nny11 4000+ words

@nny11writes

[Modern AU][T]

The most hilarious soulmate AU I've read tbh. One word - bathrooms.

19. Whispering Dreams by dragonesdepapel (f) 7400+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

Adora finds a wounded and sick gay so obviously, she helps her out, much to her protesting. This fic will honestly make you go through the five stages of grief. Big ol' oof.

20. Why you SHOULD bring in your untrained cat to the rebellion by locuas (f) 6800+ words

[Canon Divergence AU][G]

This fic is a literal joke. But it will probably be the best crack you will ever read, so. READ IT.

ALSO HERES A LIL SELF PWOMO OF MY MULTI CHAP:

What drove her insane, 13,000+ words (f)

One shots:

1. hang tight (all you) by TechnoSkittles 9000+ words

@technoskittles

[High School AU][T]

This is a fic that will break your heart and mend it. It's about Adora coming to terms with her sexuality throughout high school in a pretty unsupportive environment, added onto the fact she has a crush on her best friend. It's paced so well, nothing feels rushed and although it's only 9000 words, it manages to flesh out characters that aren't even in the show, and it obviously does a great job with the topic at hand - sexuality and homophobia. Like it honestly touched my heart, reading it I genuinely wanted to cry. I loved everything about it, from the moment it started to the last line. It's just written in a way that is probably relatable to so many people who are or have struggled with coming to terms with themselves, and shows how for some it's really not an easy thing. It's also written beautifully, and I PROMISE you won't regret reading this! Definitely check out some more of their works too, they're all great reads!

2. you're my favorite song (and it's stuck in my head) by artemiswords 16,000+ words

@artemisbye

[High School AU][T]

A belle valentine's day fan fic which I just,, ahhhhh this is some of the best 16k words I've ever read, it's so nice and fluffy! Premise - Catra has to take the bus to school, and ends up sitting next to this cute girl on the bus, Adora, and listening to TayTay (Swift), sharing earphones with this complete stranger. Obviously, Catra develops a crush, but she is sure Adora is straight. It's written so well, and is such an enjoyable read, with so many great moments and dialogue. Music is a very prevalent theme (which you can tell from the name tbh) in it, and the amount of song references in it also make it feel so fleshed out in a way, like their both just teenagers with somewhat questionable music taste. Just all the exchanges they have are great, especially the ones over text and social media, there were so many funny moments too. DEFO, recommend if you wanna read something nice and lighthearted!

3. The Interlude That Never Ends by FMLClexa 2000+ words

Twitter: catrxs

[Historical AU] [M]

Angst. Quite angsty. But also fairly fluffy, it has a good balance. And the writing style is just so - it gets your heart wrenching despite being fairly short, and is also very poetic, and I don't know about you, but I love things like that! The fic is a historical/soulmates AU where they are bound to fall in love, no matter the period they're reincarnated in. It's one of the most creative fic ideas I've ever read, and the concept is executed so well, which makes it even better. And it's, so so damn sweet ahh, read it read it READ IT!

4. is there a knife in your bed or are you just happy to see me? by ceruleanstorm 6000+ words

@princessofgayskull

[Canon Universe][T]

This fic was everythinggg, it is so cute, like it’s basically 6k words of fluff! Also, if you didn’t already notice, the title (and the fic) heavily references the fact Adora keeps a knife under her bed (I DIED when that happened in s2). Set post war, Catra sneaks away from her post to visit an overworked and stressed Adora in Bright Moon and cuteness ensues. I honestly just love everything about this fic, we need more fluffy and funny fics like this! The dynamic the two have in this is perfect and the dialogue and general writing style of it is great! And Adora’s internal dialogue in this honest to god had me dead. Needless to say this is one of my fav Canon Universe one shots.

5.Girl’s Become Lovers (Who Turn Into Mothers) by A_Zap 2000+ words

@azapofinspiration

[Canon Universe][G]

This has to be one of the cutest, well written, fic I’ve read! Catra brings home the only survivors from a tragedy her and Scorpia stumbled upon, but one thing Adora doesn’t expect is for them to be children. The,, emotions in this are so raw and powerful. Even though they obviously have these new little people in their life though, their problems don’t just go away, they still have their own issues, and have to deal with them while looking after these kids. In general they handle mental health so well, and Shadow Weavers lasting effect on Catra SHOWS and it shows hard. Honestly, it made me want to cry at some parts and the ending was EVERYTHING, so reAd IT.

6. baby, i'm a house on fire (and i wanna keep burning) by wittchers 7000+

@huremsultan

[Medival AU]

A really fun fic to read, with a very original premise: after the Horde defeats the kingdom Bright Moon, Hordak is crowned, Queen Angella was killed, and Princess Glimmer is missing, which leaves Lady Adora forced into an arranged marriage with Lord Catra, to keep her people happy. Obviously, being an arranged marriage, with her enemy, she ain’t too happy about it, nor is Catra. But they have to put up with it, and each other. Honestly, like the development of their relationships is sooo good, and there is the perfect balance e of angst and fluff (if you can call it that?) so don’t worry it won’t kill you! Like ahh, the emotions in this - so well described with so little words. And the ending is great, in general it’s great!

7. Adora Casts: Zone of Truth by Hemogobbler 2000+ words

@hemogobbler69

[Canon Universe][T]

Literally just 2000 words of utter cuteness and hilarious dialogue haha. Premise - Catra has just defected recently, and is still warming up to Adora, is still slightly shut off from her. So, to try remedy this, she gets a truth serum from Madame Razz, and slips it into their food, leading to them talking honestly about their feelings for the first time in a while. I just love it so much because I feel like this is genuinely something Adora would do, and also something I’d probably do in her situation - Catra opening up is a rare occurrence! Also, as I said, their are some really funny, laugh out loud moments, which out of context are so weird, yet somehow manage to make a lot of sense. Anyway, if you just had a bad day, I think this fic would definitely lift your spirits.

8. bloom by kimah 4000+ words

Twitter: whitehotmoons

[Modern AU][G]

A post break up fan fic where Catra's therapist suggests Catra write down her feelings, which leads her to write the things she hates about Adora, and their interactions they've had since their break up. The way it's written is so... angsty but like, not? I'm bad at this. Literally, reading this I really felt Catra's pain, and I just wanted to give her a hug at times. Adora too. The small details the author outs into the characters makes the characters all that more realisitic too, and I love it! Seriously though, the angst, will, get, you.

9. I do adore by thankskelley 6000+ words

Twitter: cosmicsporks

[Modern AU][G]

A Catradora fake dating AU. Is there anything more you need in life? Catra and Adora are are roomates, and one day, Adora bursts in, saying she finally came out to her parents, and also that her parent had assumed they are dating... leading her to ask if Catra could pretend to be her girlfriend for while. What could possibly go wrong? Hmm?? I've always loved the whole fake dating premise (to all the boyss) and with characters like Adora and Catra, (especially Catra like she is a TEASE) I always thought it'd be great. Who doesn't love oblivious gays? Their dynamic in this is also great, especially all the flirting and teasing. BUT, of course, it also a bit angsty too. I can promise you you'll love it!

10. Chocolate and Roses vs. Heartache by Trashibesensei 9000+ words

[High School AU][T]

Another high school AU...I know I have a problem leave me alone. This time, if you couldn’t tell by the title, there’s some heartache involved, because: this Valentines Day, Adora doesn’t spend it with her best friend (now ex bestie) Catra. Even despite her popularity that she now has due to being the star player of Bright Moon’s soccer team, she can’t shake of how much she yearns for her old friend. Somehow, even with all the angst, it is still sO fucking FUNNY, the way Mermista was written was great, and she had some of THE best lines. But yeah, it’s so pure and just - Catra needs a hug, Adora needs a hug, they need to hug EACH other tbh! It had a very nice and hopeful message, and also kinda surprised me with the end.

11. someone you like by caela 5000+ words

[High School AU][T]

As a gen z, or x, or whatever the fuck I am, I always appreciate a fic where the characters say stupid shit over Instagram to their crushes which results it getting a date to prom. Although I can assure you that would never happen to me. But this So FUCKING cute and funny so READ.

12. this is what it's like when we collide (this is how you bring me back to life) by azul (7daysoftorture) 5000+ words

@bluelipgloss

[Canon Universe][G]

This galaxy brain fic is amazing and that’s ThE TEA. Catra gets a wish stone from Hordak and we all knowww, WHO she (subconsciously) craves - Adora, which obviously leads to hell breaking loose, because, disaster gays. Anyway read this it’s great and made me feel forget about the cruel world we live in.

13. Five Times Catra was a Cat and One Time the Cat was Catra by sunscreams 2400+ words

@catradoramma

[Canon Universe][T]

A BELLE, well written 5 + 1 which is just pure fluff (some hurt/comfort too) and Catra being Catra (so a loveable pain in the ass) after joining Adora in Bright Moon.

14. Vital Signs by SereneKarma 2000+ words

@serene-karma

[Modern AU][G]

Like a dumbass Catra breaks her leg and gets put in hospital, but hey - it’s okay as long as she’s got a cute nurse to look after her! It’s pretty funny just based on the concept alone so read ThIs BiSh.

15. You put the cracks into my moral code by Littleamethystc 3000+ words

@littleamethystc

[Gang AU][T]

Catra is a hotshot mafia member, Glimmer and Bow are the PoPo, and Adora is underestimated as HELL. It’s also pretty funny, like the whole concept is just perfect, so check it out!

16. The Best Gift I Could Ever Ask For by blueninjasharpshooter 1500+ words

[Modern AU][G]

Just a short n sweet fic of Adora celebrating her birthday which she forgot, and also Adora has a pocket knife in her boot, which is so accurate lmaooo. As well as having the most accurate character portrayals, AWWWWwwwww, was my reaction to the end of this fic, so read it to find out wHY.

17. but i still don’t wish death on ‘em (i just reflect on ‘em) by ayushi_writes 1500+ words

@ayushipop

[Canon Universe][G]

(Post S1) A year after the battle of Bright Moon, Adora and Catra are standing on a cliff, and Catra finally has a chance to end it all. But WilL she?!?! Let’s just say, Catradora are the queens of promises.

18. Whiskey and Eggnog by briony8969 3500+ words

@briony8969

[Modern Christmas AU][G]

A cute Christmas fic where a nervous Adora goes home for the first time in months with her new friends from college, scared of what they’ll think but more scared of a certain SOMEONE she hasn’t spoken to in months. So basically: sexual tension gAlore.

19. She's a Regular by BaronVonChop 1500+ words

@baronvonchop

[Coffee Shop AU][G]

Adora is gay. Catra is gay. Catra works at a coffee shop (badly), and Adora goes to said coffee shop soo much, that it gets on her friends nerves, coz she very obviously likes to flirt with a Catra. It’s funny too. That’s it. That’s the fic and I love it.

20. Hand in Hand, We Make Our Way to The End by thethirdphiladelphiavireo 6500+ words

[Canon Universe - Soulmate AU][T]

Catra and Adora figure out they are soulmates after years of not knowing what it meant, but OBVIOUSLY, cannot communicate like mature humans, because - same.

21. How Do You Tell A Girl You Really Like Her Eyes? by Gay_Panic 1000+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

(Pre Canon)Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, a very gay, very wholesome, very nice first kiss fic. They are very gay for each other in this one, they don’t even care if KYLE catches them kissing.

22. Tender Moments by yesimgay 1500+ words

[Canon Universe][G]

(Post-war) Catra still feels guilty about everything she did to Adora in the past, so instead of sleeping at the foot of the bed as usual , she decides to sleep next to Adora...So there’s fluff, lots of fluff, and it is very tender.

23. Perfectly intertwined by dragonesdepapel 2000+ words

[Canon Universe][G]

On Catra’s first official day in Bright Moon, Adora drags her to a festival and they do cute things and it’s cute, and you should defo read it.

24. a girl without freckles is like a sky without stars by dear_universe 900+ words

@catralovesgirls

[Canon Universe][G]

More bed sharing because I CANNOT help myself, I love fics like these! Catra can’t sleep without Adora on her first night at the rebellion, so, she knocks on Adora’s door and things go from there.

25. Something to remember you by by DBsean 3000+ words

[Canon Universe][G]

Adora sneaks back into the fright zone in attempt to retrieve something, when Catra catches her. It’s cute af. Despite the circumstances.

26. Skiffs & Ships by mysteryinc 900+ words

[Canon Universe][G]

(Pre-show) Just two gals being pals who missed each other a fuck ton while on separate missions. It’s pretty cute.

27. Starstruck by InvisiblePinkToast 2500+ words

@invisible-pink-toast

[Canon Universe][G]

(Pre-show) A lil bit of angst, and nightmares, and a little bit of fluff, Stargazing and bed sharing - what more could you need?

28. a truth so loud you can't ignore by adverbialstarlight 2500+ words

@adverbialstarlight

[High School AU][T]

Catra ignores the growing feelings she has for her best friend, until the truth is so loud she can’t ignore it (see what I did there?) But for real tho this fic really gave me angst that hurt my soul then fluff that healed it, so we StAN.

29. Horde kids are just Like That by gerti 1500+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

(Canon Divergence) What would happen if when Adora defected the Horde, her and Catra where still girlfriends? Read this to find out because it’s FUCKING hilarious lmaoooo, like it’s so absurd but somehow still makes perfect sense.

30. The First Step by oldmountainsoul 2900+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

(Post S1) Apologies which end in getting shoved out off trees are now exclusively for the Catradora fandom only.

31. (You’re My) Haven by giraffewrites 400+ words

@giraffewrites

[Canon Universe - Pre Canon][G]

(Pre-Canon) Adora only kisses Catra when she thinks she’s asleep, but my girl Catra ain’t playing no more so one night she just goes in for the KILL, Aka, cute dorks just being cute dorks.

32. Beyond the Screen by SereneKarma 5000+ words

@serene-karma

[Youtuber AU][G]

If you can't tell I really like YouTuber AU's. Catra being the angsty gal she is starts a YouTube channel to rant about her old best friend who practically vanished when she was 15, and her viewers (who definitely have no life) end up finding her.

33. come on, sugar, don't you leave early by thesqian 1500+ words

Twitter: @crnkgmeplys

[Modern AU][G]

Two gays at a gay wedding, who clearly have some shit going on, but it’s okay because gay weddings always bring gays together. I said gay a lot in that sentence. Read the fic, it’s short n sweet and cute, so you can’t go wrong!

34. but we could never stay away (from each other) by adorassword 1500+ words

[Canon Universe][T]

Catra and Adora have a nice, not so nice chit chat on Adora’s balcony late at night, - these two need LOVE, and I needed a hug after reading this coz damn. Damn.

35. bad ideas by ranpoandpoe 1000+ words

[University AU][T]

How we all wish thinking about your crush at 2am would go. That’s the only context I’m giving, so READ IT.

Also, here are some of my fav one shots I’ve written:

Two Sides Of The Same Coin 1000+ words

[Gang AU][T]

If I was perfect 2500+ words

[Modern AU][T]

And check out my Catradora week series, however my fav is:

damn you, unrequited love 7000+ words

[Modern/Sixth Form AU][T]

Here are some more series packed with fics that I’ve really enjoyed too!

Catradora Oneshots by clicheusername5678 @hey-adora

Catradora Tumblr Prompts BY sunscreams @catradoramma

if I grind my teeth at night, would you hear it? By poetroe

in the bottom of a coffee cup + pieces by inkwelled (their stuff is great)

Twitter: adorascatrq

Anyway, I hope you guys appreciate this, it took quite a while lol. I had a lot of fun making it, and I hope you check out some of the fics on the list (maybe all if you're a crazy mf)

Until next time (:

#micah n spop #spop #she-ra #she ra and the princesses of power #catradora #fic recs #micahs fic recs #micahs recs #adora #catra #spop catra #spop adora #fan fics #she ra netflix #i ship

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