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shijiujun · 1 year

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Why You Should Watch 少年歌行 | The Blood of Youth

TLDR: Super good, you should absolutely watch this! Not at all a BL/danmei but from what the donghua gave, there’s quite a healthy bit of bromance and brotherhood between the two male leads, and this show has comedy, plot, excellent pacing, exciting wugong moves and conspiracy, plus tons of gorgeous women and men who can all fight!!! CGI is great too, I initially thought this was gonna be a trashy but funny and moderately good wuxia drama but it’s really well-made and it is still funny and really good on all fronts.

*It has a donghua but I haven’t watched it!!!

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Summary:

Xiao Se is a handsome but relatively poor inn owner in the middle of nowhere on some snowtop mountain, and said inn barely sees any visitors year after year. Just as Xiao Se is deciding whether or not to sell the inn, they finally get one visitor, a young traveler, Lei Wujie who’s traversing jianghu for the very first time on his own, and then they soon get a bunch of hooligans who want to rob the inn. Lei Wujie ‘saves’ Xiao Se by defeating the hooligans but in the process damage the inn; Xiao Se demands payment and Lei Wujie says he needs to get to Xue Yue City to find money to pay him back essentially, so Xiao Se follows him out of his inn in the mountains on a journey.

Along the way, they stumble upon Tang Lian, a skilled and well-known disciple of a famous shifu from Xue Yue City, who’s guarding and escorting a golden coffin to another city, not knowing what is in the coffin. He’s been hunted down repeatedly and ambushed by multiple groups of skilled experts, all coveting what’s inside the golden coffin. Xiao Se and Lei Wujie get accidentally embroiled in the mess, and then realize along the way that a monk - Wu Xin - is in the coffin. And everyone is after Wu Xin, from the demonic sects to other sects in the pugilistic world, all the way to the royal palace.

As Xiao Se and Lei Wujie end up traveling with Wu Xin, conspiracies and past feuds unravel, and Xiao Se is not who he seems to be.

Watch on Youku (YT): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1xIuBPN-lk (Total 39 episodes, from Dec. 2022 - Jan. 2023)

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Main Characters:

Xiao Se/Xiao Chuhe (Li Hongyi): The exiled 6th prince who was once a prodigy in martial arts and cultivation before he lost all of it after an attack, and he’s been at the inn ever since. Very well informed of everyone and who’s who, plus all the big happenings in the pugilistic world. Nonchalant, dealing with some issues, very bold and haughty (rightfully so), and this man was a prince and skilled fighter from before too, HAS A LOT OF BAGGAGE, banters a lot with Lei Wujie (cuz this boy is dumb) and is forced to face his demons with the help of Wu Xin. Mysterious, but not really because the moment he walks out everyone knows him like come on he’s the beloved 6th prince before he was exiled

Wu Xin (Liu Xueyi): The son of the demonic sect head before his dad went to war with the royals and was betrayed and defeated, and the demonic sect had to send him over to the royal palace as a hostage, but he gets ‘adopted’ by an old monk and is taught everything that he knows (and was loved) by the old monk. He looks very demonic LMAO more than a monk, super skilled, known for his magic eyes, and he kidnaps Xiao Se and Lei Wujie to be his companions, has a bit of daddy issues too and a lot of pent up anger from when he was younger, but also like super zen at times, and then flippant at other times

Lei Wujie: Dumb husky or golden retriever. Very skilled, pure-hearted, but still very young. SO DAMN FUNNY!!!

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Why You Should Watch This:

1. Possible bromance between Wu Xin and Xiao Se - So far they’ve been very brotherhood but I expect that all to change soon, their first meeting is hilarious af this is the first thing they say to each other, when Wu Xin asked if Xiao Se would accompany him to place and bro went “No wtf”

I mean look at how demonic and slutty Wu Xin is with his eyes and that jawline and see how close they sitting to each other even though Xiao Se is like get-away-from-me

GUYS WE REALY DO GET BROMANCE!!! HAHAHAHA also i was wrong xiao se at this point isn’t the 团宠 just yet, wu xin is!!! he’s the center of attention do you know how many people ran to catch him when he fainted?!?!??!

AND THEY WERE FORCED TO BE SEPARATED FOR A BIT AND LOOK AT HOW THEY TEARED UP WHEN THEY WERE BACK FACING EACH OTHER WTF YALL WERE BARELY BROS FOR AN HOUR

2. Gorgeous men and women and they all can fight and murder you with their eyes?!?!?! (There’s more than the below LIKE A LOT MORE)

3. COMEDY

Example this dumb boy introducing his big name to everyone and then hitting his head

Example the whole fucking carriage has been exploded to smithereens BUT guess who is literally untouched and still in his bed?? Sleeping beauty Wu Xin

Example Xiao Se praising how amazing Wu Xin is but then like “We’re his hostages but we’re praising him” wtf

4. The CGI!!!! And the fighting sequences are really amazing!!!

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And lastly am I the only one thinking about Xue Xian and Xuan Min from Copper Coins!!

#少年歌行 #the blood of youth #liu xueyi #li hongyi #wu xin #xiao se #why you should watch #cdrama

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bougiebutchbitch · 1 month

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I've seen that you're really into BatJokes, so how do you interpret Harley Quinn into the equation? Is it like the Harley Quinn show where he admires her for her top tier henchman skills, but puts literally all of his emotional investment into Batman or something else?

It varies a lot! I love all sorts of different interpretations of the Jarley relationship.

I love Joker being a cut-and-dry abusive manipulative cunt just for fun revenge fantasies where Harley kills him! I love Joker being a cut-and-dry abusive manipulative cunt whose literal only vaguely redeeming quality is his (still SUPER fucked up) love for Batman, where Harley doesn't kill him but probably should!

I love Joker being a bastard who manipulated Harley into being his Henchman because she's an absolute badass and he respected that, but he was always emotionally invested in Batman, not her, and only led her on to keep her loyalty. I love Joker making Harley his henchman because she's an absolute badass and he respected that, but he was always emotionally invested in Batman, and makes that clear, but Harley still clings and it causes their mutual resentment to fester.

I love Joker who takes on Harley as his Henchman because he thinks he can use her, but grows to respect her and then wants to keep her under his thumb because he doesn't know how to cultivate an equal relationship, and Harley wants more but Joker is just so fixated on Batman he completely misses all the signs and this drives a wedge between them. I love Joker and Harley trying to have a relationship, but it all spirals because Harley wants way more affection and sexual stuff than Joker is comfortable with, and she gradually realises that he's in love with Batman, not her, and that's never gonna change. I love Joker and Harley breaking up because they can see this is going nowhere, but staying weird sort-of villain-friends, lending each other explosives and poisons and so forth.

I love Joker and Harley staying together as besties, wlw & mlm soldarity, the sort of chaotic friends who embody 'Be Gay Do Crime' and sometimes fight loud and violent and smooch and snuggle and occasionally fuck when the whim catches them, but it's very much an equal-on-both-sides thing, a la Legoverse.

I love Joker and Harley where Harley was a manipulative monster who set her sights on her own patient, or used him as a tool and abused him like in Telltale. I just -

:grasps them in my fists and squeezes:

T H E M

#batman #joker #batjokes #harley quinn #jarley #puts the blorbos in the blender

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mxmeiyun · 1 year

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(Kristina comes on around the 3:42 mark.)

Do you see the edits? "I do see the edits. I don't see all of them, but I've seen quite a few. Sometimes I watch these things and I'm like, I was there. I did the scene. I did the scene ten times. Why am I crying?"

When asked about the Mother Superion and Jillian ship: "God knows that, well. Both of them need somebody to love and to love them... Like Mommy, I mean mother, I mean."

"The saddest part is we don't know when we'll see each other again." 😭

Is Beatrice a tea or coffee person? "Tea. I feel she'll know how to prepare every single type of tea and she'll she'll be very anal about how to do that. And she'd probably yell at Ava for doing her tea wrong or whatever."

Is Beatrice really royalty? "No, I don't believe so."

On following ice hockey: "Yeah, the only thing you need to know is don't whack people with the stick no matter how much you want to."

On Beatrice's name: "Sally's gonna haunt me forever. I'll hear it in my dreams, softly whispering in my ear. Sally. Sally. I'll wake up in cold sweats, screaming."

About who's the big spoon: "I think they spoon interchangeably. Take that as you will."

Obviously you're aware of how much of an impact the character Beatrice has had on so many people. But how has she personally impacted you, and what have you taken away from her that you would like to bring to your own life? "Decorum." "I think there's a there's a sense of confidence, even if you are not. Confident in all of yourself, you can still be confident in the parts that you are secure in, and you know your skills. If you're not ready to be completely open and live your truth in full honesty, then it doesn't mean that you still can't have integrity and confidence and stand up for yourself. And integrity of character and belief in my skills that Beatrice has cultivated already, and that I definitely, when I started playing her, I was like, I am an imposter. I'm gonna get fired from the show immediately." "But like you get that feeling when you go to work or whatever. You go to school. You're like, I do not know any of the things that I know and then you slowly start to realize that you do know, and then you're like, OK, I can hold on to that and make that my my backbone for now until I'm ready to face all the other things that I know to be true about myself, but I'm not ready to project into the world or or represent in the in openly in the world."

If you could spend a day with any of the characters, who would it be and why? "I think I'd have a pretty good time with Ava."

Do you think you're more like Ava or Beatrice? "It just kind of depends on the situation. I feel like if you just talk to me and we're like really good friends for a long time, I might come off more like Ava. But I feel like if I'm not really that close to you, I might come off more as a Beatrice."

How are you taking care of yourself in light of today's news? "Well, first of all, thank you. I'm doing fine. I am in therapy. Therapy great, guys." "It certainly feels like a massive hit to the community, and to us, as well. It's important to take those feelings that are coming up now and try to cultivate them into how you can- I'm just speaking for myself, I can't speak for anybody else- but for me it's about how can I turn these feelings into something useful for me going forward rather than languishing in it for too long. Obviously, your feelings are valid and should be felt to their fullest extent, but don't let them consume you, because then that's not doing anyone service." "Someone taught me a method in acting school, my improv teacher, and he said, 'Whenever something bad happens in your life, pretend you're going into this helicopter. The further up you go in that helicopter, the smaller the problem is, the more you can see around you and the more you can see how that problem does or does not affect everything else around your helicopter. And put into context of how you can affect change positively once you come back to the ground, once you're in the midst of it rather than staying too close to the to the issue at hand and and not actually realizing all the other things that are going on." "I think that's that thinking has helped me a lot whenever something kind of goes wrong or things are not going the way I want them to. But take time for self-care. That's like the most important. If you feel like things are overwhelming then it's always important to look at the things to reprioritize um and always prioritize yourself. Spend your own health and your own wellbeing." "Because anything in life, even if it seems like a little thing like this show got cancelled and now you're upset, you know it might seem to some people like a little thing, but their opinion is not a priority. Your wellbeing is a priority, so always keep that in mind." "And HYDRATE."

Responding to a comment about Beatrice really resonating with a lot of fans and praise of her performance, time, and energy: "Thank you... Beatrice launched my career so she's one that i'm definitely going to hold to heart for many many years to come."

Reflecting on her increased visibility: "You know, at this point, it's not a burden. At this point, I can do this with you guys and it's completely fine. It's the same thing with anything; when something new starts happening, you learn to deal with it and where your boundaries are. I've been so lucky that you guys are all so respectful, and I really, really appreciate that from all of you. It's definitely not the norm for every fandom, so it's incredibly special what you have made this to be. So I commend all of you and I'm so grateful."

Were you shocked by the broad reach of the show, or was it something you anticipated? "Definitely. I was surprised when the first season came out, it was so globally successful. I mean, that just goes to show that some subject matter is felt all around the world. And a beauty of Warrior Nun is that there are so many characters everywhere around the world you can definitely find one that you can root for."

Responding to one fan whose wife has recently passed, and with whom she watched the show with love: "Oh my God, you're gonna make me cry. First of all, so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how that must be, and I applaud your courage. Thank you. I'm glad this show can be a good memory for you guys and continuing forward. That there's something you can always remember with a warm heart."

Responding to love from Brazil: "I fear if I ever go to Brazil."

"Fear not the bowl of rice, 'tis but a bowl of rice."

Responding to one of the APOP producers wanting to make sure none of their tweets made her uncomfortable: "I'm, like, fully aware of what I've gotten myself into." Do you see all those, Christina? Like, I know there's a joke that you have a burner account, but. "No, I don't. This is my only account."

"I feel like if the pope joins this conversation, he'll no longer be able to call himself His Holiness." Did you see the Warrior Nun stan that recommended the show to the Pope? "No?! Nice... Yeah, somebody just has to tell him to skip that episode, you know?"

*Records an alarm sound for a fan named Janina with increasing intensity*

Wait, Kristina, can you say gay rights? "Wait, what about it?" Just the phrase. "Gay rights." *awkward cheers* "Really lukewarm cheers from the crowd."

Kristina, to Ange Hall: "Well, actually, and I have a question for you. Tell me again, what was the progression of the dickwaffle conversation?" "I feel like Netflix being harassed by penis waffles- someone needs to draw the art of." "Make it rain dickwaffles. No, I mean, obviously, do it respectfully. But like, respectfully make it rain dickwaffles. For legal reasons this is completely a joke. But also, you can't really get mad at dickwaffles. Like, come on."

#warrior nun #kristina tonteri-young #warrior nun blogging

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bonefall · 7 months

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Can we hear about the Guardians too? I forget if you've already talked about them, but what about their afterlife? Where'd they come from? What're their ideas about gender, culturally?

Anon you got me feeling like an elder telling stories to kits again lmao. All righty. Elder Bones gonna teach you a bit about the Guardians.

Troutfur and I are building out a rough draft for their language too so I'll give you a preview of that, too. Let's start there, in fact.

GUARDMEW

Is an SVO order language, just like English. We Cultivate Roses. Subject, Verb, Object. This is going to come up a lot in BB!ASC when Berryheart, the Evil Educator, critiques a ton of Sunbeam's grammar.

Unlike Clanmew with each verb morpheme being used in full to describe a past action and shortened for present tense (pabrpabrpabr vs pabrpabr) Guardmew uses suffixes, also just like English. Sunbeam picked up the habit from her mentor, and Berryheart HATES that she will say "Pabrpabryr" instead of "Pabrpabrpabr."

But anyway, forget the setup we've got going for ASC. Let's just talk a little more about Guardmew.

It is in the same lingustic family as Clanmew, descending from Lakemew. Of all the living languages, Guardmew is closest to the ancestral form, since it was born directly from refugees fleeing eastward, from the tyranny of Holly Leaves.

They also have the concept of Threat Level, with pronouns built around skill for people, and benignness for everything else. That means, they have completely separate pronouns for cats, but classify plants and animals based on how they act on the environment.

For examples, their leader Spiresight shares the same pronouns as their "elders" and most experienced craftsmen. The building they live in will use the "respected object" pronoun. A plant with an infectious mold, or an invasive weed, will have a "malignant" pronoun.

CULTIVATION CULTURE

While Tribe cats encourage traveling, Guardians are the opposite. They believe in the value of setting down roots, and cultivating your homespace. If you go somewhere, they expect you to take care of it well.

The Church that Dovewing found is not the only place where Guardians live in that geographic region. They tend to name their groups after a major landmark-- she found the Guardians of the Spire.

They manage their land in a way that attracts wild animals, and then attempt to selectively hunt the animals that live on that range. In a way, it's like a carnivore's approach to agriculture.

If the Clans have a specialty in combat, and the Tribe has a specialty in hunting, Guardians can be considered to have a specialty in construction.

AFTERLIFE SYSTEM

If they have a Hell, it was made by Sol. But I'm not sure if they have one of those.

They DO have a heaven though-- they call it The Firmament.

The Firmament is the ground, but it's specifically your home soil. To Guardians, the more people who are buried somewhere, the more power that ground has. They believe that buried bones are proof that the soul still remains within the Firmament, and remains are NEVER to be disturbed.

They try to avoid the graveyards of humans and bury their prey neatly in "mass graves," pits dug neatly and only totally covered bi-weekly. Because there's such a strong taboo against disturbing remains, they are VERY careful about where Guardians are buried, and try to cover them with carefully arranged stones and woody plants so these graves are not disturbed.

After death, the flesh of the body must rot away into soil. They believe that this allows you to experience The Firmament TRULY, as a mole or an earthworm does. It becomes a new world, and you no longer see dirt, but the connections between everything.

You could describe this as "Monotheistic." They believe that when your flesh melts away, you join The Firmament. Your bones are like a conduit of the wishes you have for your loved ones still above the ground... but, these too will someday melt away! That's part of it too!

The Sky, in contrast, is a terrible, almost evil thing. In English we may say, "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade." A Guardian would say, "When the sky rains, the firmament grows mushrooms." Weather is something to be anticipated and handled, ESPECIALLY storms.

New spirits are made from what the mother eats of the Firmament. Berries feed the mice, mice feed the cats, cats return to the Firmament. A cycle, forever.

LEADER POWER

NOTE: I should rename this BB concept, "leader power." Not all cats with these unique abilities, given by an Afterlife System are political leaders-- they're spiritual ones.

One example of this is the Groundskeeper of the Guardians. They are thought to fully reincarnate, taking new bodies over and over. When a Groundskeeper dies, they are put into the same grave as their previous incarnation, and it is believed they gain more power with each death and rebirth.

But, they are not given political authority. They have CONSTRUCTIVE authority-- advising new projects and acting as a liasion between the Firmament and the living.

Cats who are identified as Groundskeeper change their name to their old incarnation. Spiresight is the leader of the Guardians of the Spire. They're identified on their birthday, so all Groundskeepers begin at exactly 1 year old, at least 1 year after the death of the old incarnation.

Spiresight is able to "see" the world as an interred skeleton does, he is in a permanent state between life and death in their eyes.

He can "feel" when something new enters his Firmament, gage it based on its paws, weight, movement. He can can tell when a plant is sick based on how strong its roots are, or if something is being pulled up. He knows where all the skeletons are, feels the worms in the dirt, and can tell the weather from the sway of the plants above.

He can tell if a plant is sick, but not animals. Because of this, the Groundskeeper is NOT INCLUDED IN MEDICAL PROCEDURES. He may point a doctor in the way of good herbs, but all Guardians are expected to know medical knowledge significantly beyond first aid.

The Groundskeeper leads religious ceremonies, funerals, and new projects. He is socially expected to not leave the center of the territory too often, especially during storms. That aside, the Groundskeeper is allowed to have a life and family of their own, including adopting kits and having mates.

OTHER THINGS

Time for a closing list of random facts.

An adult member of the Guardians, fully trained, is called a Gardener.

They have an extreme and severe taboo against other supernatural entities. They believe that they are "of the sky" and harshly reject anything "unnatural."

This is likely because of Holly Leaves, who tried to force a star-based religion upon their ancestors.

The Guardians, like all societies, have their problems too. They don't welcome cats who return after a wander and heavily discourage leaving.

If you're going to leave, leave permanently. A dandelion seed does not return on the wind.

So returning cats, traders, and repeat visitors are treated more coldly on subsequent visits. Not always hostile-- but the welcome is not gracious.

Cats who do have to leave on a quest or for some reason have a "quarantine" period when they return. A cleansing ritual.

Kittens are named by their families, usually after consulting with the Groundskeeper. Names are often reused through generations.

A name carries association with whoever had it last; it's not quite a reincarnation so much as it is a "continuation"

Because of this, there's very rarely any new names. A cat who enters the Guardians keeps their old name, and it is entered into their "list" after they die.

This is how they get some weird ones, like Boots and Cinnamon.

When a Guardian does something awful, they're buried beyond the Firmament and their name is no longer used.

I haven't worked out their gender systems yet.

#Now try to go back to canon where they don't actually have any of this lmaoooooo #Hate how they never build out other cat cultures because they have to make the clans The Correct Way To Live #And oooough its so amazing and perfect and nothing else can compare #Shut up. Touch Firmament.#The Guardians wc #Better bones au #Man I need a tag for Cultural Overhauls #Like for all the outside groups im overhauling #In line with the spirituality overhauls #Heartstar's Rise

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zykamiliah · 1 year

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I’m gonna be honest, I don’t think SJ would have ever been happy as a Peak Lord. The only reason he took the job was because of YQY and he thought he’d be able to protect himself better as someone of high status. He never had the right kind of mind or attitude for teaching and never had the social skills to get along with his peers. He’d have been much happier as a wandering cultivator but that wasn’t where YQY was so even then he’d have never been fully satisfied.

oh my god sorry for the late reply

i also think that sj got attached to having status and power because he knows that powerful people can get away with anything, since he knows what that's like thanks to Qiu Jianluo. He definitely didn't want to be on the receiving end of all that power and influence. I think that, even if he wasn't a good teacher, if he had able to deal with his inner demons (literally and metaphorically) he wouldn't have had so much trouble living in CQM. But he hated men to the point of being unable to sleep next to his peers, and when he became a peak lord he turned paranoid, thinking people wanted to undermine him and usurp his place, was envious of anyone with more potential or power than him. and like, not all of that was yqy's "fault", since we see in the qijiu extra's opening scene what he was like as a 12 years old. i love the parallels between qijiu as kids and qijiu as peak lords because the latter is basically a reenactment of their childhood dynamics: sj fighting with others, yqy the protector who always tried to smooth things over and let sj get away with anything, etc. then his dynamic with lbh and nyy is a reenactment of his life with the qius, this time with him as the one abusing his power. it sort of feels like there's something inescapable about their fates, and it goes to show how much work sj needs to achieve a modicum of peace, though of course if he was sure of yqy's love for him that would be a great start.

sorry for rambling. back on topic. why did sj became a peak lord?

“If I said that I wasn’t doing well at Qing Jing Peak, what would you do?” Shen Qingqiu asked, slow and measured. “Would you help me enter Qiong Ding Peak, just as you recommended me for Qing Jing?”

Yue Qingyuan gave it some thought, then said solemnly, “If that’s what you wanted.”

“Clearly I don’t want that,” Shen Qingqiu said with a resolute humph. “I want to be head disciple. Would you be willing to give me your position? Let me become the sect leader?” he asked, forceful and lofty. “For better or worse, Qing Jing Peak ranks second among the Twelve Peaks. I’d rather wait to succeed this one.”

it's clear he wants power and influence, and if he'd had the chance he would have gone for the sect leader post. can you imagine that??

In the past, Qiu Jianluo had forced Shen Jiu to learn how to read and write. Shen Jiu had been unwilling to learn, had detested it to the point of madness, yet now it was only through his abilities in reading and studying—through being smarter than his peers—that he’d been able to earn the Qing Jing Peak Lord’s favor. To make it even more laughable, of the thousands of possible names in this world, the peak lord had just happened to name him “Qingqiu.”

But no matter how laughable, no matter how it made him gnash his teeth, Shen Qingqiu still wanted that name, for this name represented that from now onward, a shining new life was his.

sj is ambitious. that's why i think he' wouldn't be happy with living like a common person. he also likes luxury so i guess he'd detest the life of a wandering cultivator because it would to much like living in the streets, where he spent most of his childhood. he likes quiet and staying inside. he liked the security of being at the top.

so i don't think it would be impossible for him to have a life more suited to him, that wasn't such a consequence of his traumas and how he copes with them, but like i said, it would take a lot of work and healing.

#svsss #svsss meta #shen jiu #original shen qingqiu #zykamiliah-svsss #anonymous

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grooviestsadpapaya · 2 years

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Okay revisions!

So I’m gonna address some of the suggestions I got, they were all very good btw thank you!

We have some palate changes, rather than more greens the tones are warmer just to make them more recognizable.

More patterns on the pants and sleeves, they were kinda boring and I imagine that the Gerudo are a race that values arts, so boring clothes are a no go. Maybe their embroidery and designs are added on with time and as someone develops new skills there are more designs representative of that sewn onto their clothes.

Their shoes! I love them! I imagine the bottoms are made from Molduga tongue leather, since they are textured like that. They act like running spikes and stick to the sand so that these people can get around easier in the desert.

SCIMITAR 🗡🗡🗡🗡

Some things not present in the design that I will elaborate on in a future post:

The Gerudo use mainly satchels made from Molduga parts to carry supplies. I think I am going to make the Molduga more of a pivotal part in Gerudo culture since they are like the divine creatures of the desert. It is also canon that their organs are used for medicinal purposes, so I think it only makes sense that the Gerudo make use of every part of the beast.

The Gerudo have a gene that causes them all to be born female, and it is the same gene that makes them have four fingers. Because Ganondorf is male, he doesn’t have this gene and therefore has five fingers, a trait he inherited from his paternal father. The gene is dominant in Gerudo, hence why every other gene is recessed, making a male Gerudo incredible rare.

They have textured tongues so they are able to eat cacti! Unlike Hylians, who eat primarily meat and have vegetables and fruits as a minor part of their diet, meat is scarce in Gerudo Valley. When meat is not present (mostly in winter, when the Molduga are in hibernation) the Gerudo eat mostly cacti that have been cultivated in captivity, much like modern agriculture. Their rough tongues make it easier to eat without getting poked.

I might delete the other post with the old design, but I also might just keep it so that people can see my progress on this design. It’s been super fun! Hopefully I will come out with more ref sheets that I have been working on when I am tired of working on the comic. Please consider reblogging, this took a really long time and I would really appreciate it! You don’t have to of course but it does help me get criticism on improving my character design in the future.

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mysteryshoptls · 1 year

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SSR Idia Shroud Masquerade Dress Personal Story: Part 2

"Even if you say you believe in me..."

(Part 1) Part 2 (Part 3)

[Diasomnia Dorm – Lounge]

Idia: Why…

Idia: There was less than a 30% chance, so why was I chosen…?

Idia: And on top of that, the three selected were Malleus-shi, Azul-shi, and me… All Dorm Leaders…?

Idia: That's gotta be a statistical anomaly!! I demand a re-do!!

Ortho: Ni-san…

Ortho: I came all this way to Diasomnia to check in on you, 'cause it felt like it was taking forever for you to come back…

Ortho: But now I see you were just clinging to a pillar in the dorm lounge refusing to practice. No wonder you weren't coming back at all.

Idia: Ortho, you're here to pick me up, right!? Okay, let's team up and head back to Ignihyde.

Ortho: Hmmm. I don't know if I can do that, even if you're the one asking me…

Idia: Eh. Why!?

Ortho: That's 'cause I'd be happy, too, if you'd sing in front of everyone!

Idia: You little…!

Sebek: Hey, human! Why don't you try to be a little more like Malleus-sama!

Sebek: Despite his already melodious singing voice, he wastes no time whatsoever and continues training with Lilia-sama!

Silver: Azul is also practicing hard every day.

Silver: He said he wished to return to basics, so once practice was over, he went to speak to the music teacher.

Idia: I-I can feel the fire burning within those two… B-But that's why I don't want to deal with it!

Idia: But no matter how much I offer to give the main vocal spot to one of the other guys going to the cultural exchange…

Idia: "That would not be fair," they'd say, or "I do not wish to incur Malleus-shi's wrath" and they all refuse me…

Idia: I really want you all to give me a break!

Sebek: I cannot comprehend why you would shirk singing this much… And you call yourself a mage!? How are you even passing your usual music classes?

Sebek: Music are essential in order for a mage to cultivate their imagination.

Silver: That's right. In order to become a distinguished mage, if there is something you aren't proficient in, this would be the best venue to overcome it.

Idia: Th-Th-Th-That's not what I mean…

Ortho: My brother doesn't hate singing, nor is he terrible at it.

Ortho: Back in his room, he's always singing the opening songs of anime, or video game theme songs.

Idia: Ortho… You can't just blab that out to people like that! I'm gonna be lying awake tonight with embarrassment!

Ortho: Why? You're so good at it, so I've been hoping for a while that others can listen to you too.

Ortho: You can sing on key, and your emotions have such an expressive range that even I can tell. I really love your singing voice!

Ortho: That's why I was so happy to hear that you were selected to be one of the main vocalists. Because you're so good.

Idia: Ortho…!

Idia: I mean, sure, I'm glad to hear all that praise… It's nice and all, but…!

Silver: If it isn't a skill issue… Then it must be an issue of self-consciousness.

Idia: Y-Y-Yeah! That!!

Idia: It's too high of a hurdle for me to have to stand in front of others, and sing while being at the c-center of attention…!

Sebek: How weak. Just think of everyone, other than the Young Master, as mere rocks!

Idia: So a huge rock's just trying to lecture me right now. 'K, I'll just ignore it, then.

Silver: Idia-senpai… Allow me to teach you the secret to singing.

Idia: The secret to singing…?

Silver: That's right. This.

Ortho: That's a glass cup filled with drinking water. There doesn't seem to be anything unusual with it…

Idia: Wh-What, you want me to drink this…?

Silver: No, I don't.

Silver: When you see your face reflected in the water like this… Doesn't it feel like a song begins to naturally build up from inside yourself?

Idia: NO, IT DOESN’T!?

Silver: Ever since my father taught me this "ancient method passed down for generations," I've used this approach whenever I required it.

Idia: What do you even mean by "see your face reflected in the water"? I don't get it at all.

Sebek: Unfortunately, I'm also at a loss…

Silver: If that method does not work for you, then you must simply practice.

Silver: As you sing in front of all of us, you'll slowly build up your courage. I'm sure that will help you develop the courage for the actual performance.

Ortho: It's just as Silver-san says. C'mon, Nii-san, you gotta practice, so we can go back to Ignihyde!

Idia: I DON'T WANNA～～～!!

Idia: I'm definitely, absolutely, hundred percent, never going to sing!

Silver/Sebek: Sigh...

(Part 1) Part 2 (Part 3)

#twisted wonderland #twst #idia shroud #ortho shroud #sebek zigvolt #twst idia #twst ortho #twst silver #twst sebek #twst translation #twst glorious masquerade #mention: azul #mention: malleus #mention: lilia

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wangxianficrecs · 10 months

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Follower Recs

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hi mod kay, hope youre having a lovely day :> i'd like to send a few recs for wip week, idk you might like to space them out if they're a lot @danmeiireader

[You're gonna get your own Follower Rec post for all these lovely recs! ~Mod Kay]

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LQR lets go of his prejudice enough to put two and two together, and sees it's not five like the Jins are confidently proclaiming. i loved this for his introspection.

Anything for Family

by Starlight143

T, WIP, 2k, Wangxian & Nielan

Summary: Faced with pitiful resistance by the Wens in the Burial Mounds and later with the sick toddler his nephew brings back, Lan Qiren doubts the truthfulness of the scenario they were presented with. With one nephew being wilfully blind and the other in seclusion and refusing to speak, Lan Qiren is left to satisfy his suspicions on his own. Activating a time travelling array hadn't been his plan but after being deposited in the past, Lan Qiren refused to sit back and watch his family and home be destroyed a second time.

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This is a different tone than 'Once Can Keep a Secret', it leans into wwx dealing with tense political plays while being his brilliant self. It has 2 chapters, and it ends on a bit of a cliffhanger :V

The Trial

by H_Belle

Not rated, WIP, 6k, Wangxian

Summary: Canon divergence - Cloud Recesses did not burn and the Sunshot Campaign has not yet started. Amidst the rising tensions in the cultivation world, the Wen Sect announces a special event planned for the next Discussion Conference - a trial of wit, skill and spirit, meant for the sect heirs only. For some reason, Wei Wuxian is asked to assist. And what was this trial supposed to be, exactly?

@hedgebelle

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It's a fave of mine, I just can't pass up dad!WWX protecting a-Yuan with his life. It'd be a cold day in hell.

Hysterical Strength

by covalentbonds

Not rated, WIP, 3k, Wangxian

Summary: Hysterical strength is a display of extreme strength by humans, beyond what is believed to be normal, usually occurring when people are in life-and-death situations. Most commonly displayed when one's child is in danger. A suprise attack in Yiling changes everything.

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Short, but packs a punch :')

An Inch of Grass, and All The Sunshine of Spring

by ChilianXianzi

T, WIP, 1k, Wangxian

Part of @pocketfulofrecs' Exploring Tropes: Time Travel

Summary: "Did you…Did you know our A-Ying?" Cangse Sanren's eyes are wide and full of hope, and Lan Wangji is suddenly struck by the realization that he is the only one in the world now who would still speak of Wei Ying with fondness. Who knows him enough outside of the wild and hurtful rumors scattered across the land. Just him, in all of his own failings and his poor grasp of words. But Lan Wangji had failed Wei Ying once, and if he could not speak for Wei Ying when the whole world had bayed for his blood, then he owes it to Wei Ying to speak of him kindly now, to let his meagre words tumble out of lips unused still to speech after years of silence. He doesn't expect there to be so much words inside him, doesn't expect that his words would carry him until the sky darkens around them. Doesn't expect the embrace enveloping him after he is done - Warm and firm and safe.

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(Please REBLOG as a signal boost for these hard-working authors if you like – or think others might like – these stories)

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time-is-restored · 8 months

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oh shit i forgot here's another one, this time its an old neal caffrey analysis rant (this one fueled by insomnia, and written much earlier into my first watch of white collar - i think early season 3??):

im gonna be weird about white collar but the thing is so many people are weird about white collar in the wrong direction

like woobifying neal to hell and back or inventing whole new personalities for el or . i don’t even know how to describe what they do to peter

like the thing about neal is he Is a magpie he’s just a surprisingly loyal one, he flits from shiny thing to person to ideal, sure, but certain classes of ppl can fully hold his attention

peter holds his attention bc he is good as in skilled (it’s borderline canon that no one else can catch him, or even really come close), and extremely principled w a cunning streak which neal basically approaches as like. a puzzle box, bc like none of their principles line up so he’s curious how the apparent closed system rube goldberg machine of his morals work LOL

then it becomes a dedication through loyalty, in that peter sticks his neck out multiple times due to faith in neal, and neal is EXTREMELY weak to loyalty/consistency (gestures at the mess of his childhood)

and due to generally low self image (morals wise, he kind of thinks he sucks? like he’s competent and cool and charming and everything, but he also tends to consider himself a nuisance, w how he’s disruptive to ‘normal’ / ‘good’ people) that dedication can become disproportionate

we see through kate (and later, adler) that the easiest way to con neal/get him acting against his own self interest IS to cultivate that loyalty

there’s an easy archetype to it, even, in that u present him with a competent, smart individual (bonus points if they’re a conventionally attractive woman), but have her off limits in some way (uninterested, taken, stand off ish, whatever), activate his thief urge to ‘take’ what he wants, then when they are friends/partners whatever, his inadvertent guilt over like. corrupting/endangering this person/tricking them about who he ‘really’ is will loop around into VERY strong loyalty, and a commitment to being whatever they want him to be x2, bc he Cannot handle being left behind LMAO

peter simultaneously feeds into + challenges this framework, bc he clearly has the least biased opinion about who neal is, even though he’s still wrong about a lot of things. and beyond that, he REALLY likes neal, thinks he’s interesting and funny, but at the start of the show can’t deal with even 0.01% of his chaotic neutral methods

WHICH IN TURN!! actually breaks through some of Neal’s shit bc:

peter picked him out of prison before neal had changed at all

he essentially sees his role, from as early as ep 1, as tactically breaking the law where peter can’t/won’t, in ways that help them close the case faster

after peter (more or less) gives a thumbs up the first time he does this, neals puzzle box brain goes ‘oh?? morally grey bestie??? CRIME BESTIE????’ and now he’s trying to ‘solve’ peter’s moral code

this is actually almost in complete opposition to elizabeth, who is compete open and clear about her affection and friendship w him basically since they meet, and apparently has no prerequisites for it. which, again, pointing to the low self esteem, triggers the ‘oh god what have i done to deserve this i haven’t even CONNED her yet’ so he’s low key more invested in + comitted to elizabeth in a specific. 'i want to be on good terms w this person' targeted way than he initially was w peter (since their mutual obsession manifests so fucking frequently as 'what, you're gonna hit me? you're gonna hit me with that big bat? better make it hurt. better kill me in one shot!' style antagonism)

HENCE the constant check ins w their relationship, reminding peter about anniversaries and dinner times etc, though that’s also due to a general fascination he has w stability + permanence

we learn in s2 he was seriously considering proposing to kate, and that he genuinely wanted to take the ‘true love’ way out of the conman life, even though he wasn’t quite sure whether it would stick, hence we see a lot in s2 his fascination w peter + els marriage, along with june (crime aunty <3)‘s relationship w her passed husband

a lot of his dedication to peter circa s2 is, by my reckoning, explicitly because peter is so determined to stick with Neal, and doesn’t give up on him/their deal even when it would be entirely reasonable (neal admits to crimes, gets put back in prison, constantly breaks rules and goes looking for kate) which is like. neal HATES being trapped, but he also REALLY values consistency + competency

hence the complexes, y'know?

#wc #white collar #can you tell im procrastinating uni work. im gonna get a functional draft of this assignment done and then i'll reward myself by posting my #inconsolable wailing circa elizabeth's kidnapped arc

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butmakeitgayblog · 10 months

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What’s your opinion about the people making fun of the ones missing in the titanic submarine? I get it they’re billionaires, they did nothing to help anyone ever. But still they’re people and they’re gonna suffer an awful death if not already. And there’s a 19 year old there. I can’t find myself laughing at a lot of post making a joke out of it.

Well to preface this, I've always thought they were dead to begin with. Either because of a system failure or because they just plain got themselves lost. I think this whole "search and rescue" thing was a completely futile mission to begin with because it's not even trying to find a needle in a haystack, it's trying to find a needle 12,500ft below sea level in the dark. The whole oxygen countdown was nothing but hysteria inducing bullshit created by the media to sensationalize this shit. They're dead. They've been dead. Probably before Tuesday when this all was released to the public, even tho they went missing on Saturday. But even if it was from oxygen deprivation, the whole 'X amount of remaining hours' countdown thing was never real because that's not accounting for each person's oxygen use or increased breathing due to circumstances, etc. It was all media sensationalizing bullshit.

That being said.

I think the answer to as why so many people are finding humor at the prospect of this terrifying ordeal is a lot more of a nuanced answer than just oh they're callous and don't care about people's suffering. The truth is that this isn't something unlucky and devastating that just happened out of nowhere to unsuspecting people. These guys knew the dangers. They signed very detailed consent forms explaining the risks to all this. However, like what usually happens with the obscenely wealthy, they thought they were untouchable. Disasters don't happen to them. Right? The supreme level of privilege it takes to overlook how lucky in life you've had it (while the mass majority suffer at your indifference) and instead deliberately chasing down thrill seeking highs that put your life in danger because you actually have no idea what it means to be terrified for your life is mind boggling.

The fucking hubris that requires.

I mean these men, every last one of them, the 19 year old included, knew what they were getting into. They climbed into a tube with shitty communications, no homing devices, no flotation devices, no escape hatches, all to go down and look at a mass graveyard through a shitty tv screen for no other reason than to be able to say that they did it. And oho, can't forget, because it was a more ~convenient~ form of being able to achieve such a thrill.

That's literally the selling pitch from the CEO himself that every last one of them read.

The entitlement it takes to read this and all the other warnings about lack of safety contingencies WHICH WERE MADE CLEAR TO THEM and think, "yeah no that's for me😀" is insane because it truly shows that fundamentally these people think they're untouchable. They lack any survival skills because they've never had to cultivate any because they've lived their lives in total luxury and safety.

And they've done it while the rest of the world suffers as a direct result of their selfishness.

They each paid a quarter of a million dollars to do this. The things they could've done with that money instead and still be alive right now. I'd love to say they could've sponsored a refugee or used it to feed swathes of starving people in each of their home countries, but let's be real, they never would've done that. Because they didn't do that while they were alive. You're right, they helped no one. They hoarded their wealth and lived in opulence while the rest of the world suffered at their fingertips.

And now people should feel bad for finding humor in all this? I'm not saying it's ok to laugh at the death and suffering of anyone, but I can see quite plainly why people are reacting to this with humor. I can see that a lot of the humor comes from a place of anger and inequity and being fucking tired of living in a world where people who have more money than sense can do things like this for a thrill and a chance to flaunt their wealth, while the majority of the world is just struggling to stay alive.

I don't think those two mentalities have to be mutually exclusive. I think you can feel objectively bad and empathetic to what was probably a pretty miserable death, and also find the absurdity of the whole situation grimly humorous. I think those two things can and do exist, and I don't think it necessarily makes someone a bad OR good person for feeling one more than the other considering everything else at play.

And that's not even getting into the fact that we're having this conversation at all when refugees are dying all the time trying to escape the suffering of their countries and no one says shit about it. But when it comes to some wealthy men fucking up on a power trip? Well then everyone's suddenly got an opinion 🙄

#anon #and I'm sorry but to find at least some ironic humor in the fact that this all involves the titanic #i mean jesus that bitch just don't quite taking out the idle obscene wealthy population every chance she gets

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THIRD WAGON

Anastasio has often had to manage more than he was expected to. This only became worse when his father died on a fishing boat and Anastasio had to add taking care of Ambrosios to the list. Luckily, although the siblings don't always see eye to eye, Ambrosios has grown into a capable young man. It was him, in fact, who showed Anastasio the ad in the newspaper to join the new homesteaders in Alicel. Ambrosios has always been a little strange; a loner who had strong views about the environment and how city life was not the way of the future. He has dreams of cultivating a way of life that seems more aligned to his values.

Anastasio Tedo

POPULARITY/KNOWLEDGE bisexual vehicle enthusiast, coward, party animal, hydrophobic. LTW: own 5 top level businesses

Ambrosios Tedo

KNOWLEDGE/FORTUNE straight shy, inappropriate, loner LTW: become cult leader

Ishan and Mei were married despite their parents disapproval. Both being young, they have run off on the first wagon out west. Mei suffered a broken leg during the journey and the Bee's will be the only couple out of the wagon staying with the Laces during her recovery.

Mei Bee

FAMILY/POPULARITY straight schmoozer, party animal, lucky LTW: Graduate 3 Children from College

Ishan Bee

POPULARITY/PLEASURE straight absent-minded, rebellious, angler. LTW: reach maximum long-term aspiration

Edward Ward has always been a romantic at heart, perhaps that is what drew him to the church; knowing that it was supposed to be a place of unconditional love. He hopes he can teach that in Alicel, and provide a safe harbor for those in need.

POPULARITY/PLEASURE bisexual great kisser, angler, neurotic, no sense of humor. LTW: reach maximum long-term aspiration

NOTE: i am going to be playing the Laces back to back to put them in the front of the rotation like it says on my document haha. On top of that the new settlers had to be moved into new lots because there are too many sims in the Lace's house and the lot keeps crashing. This is helped by the fact that the ROS event was founding a church so Mr. Ward was chosen to be a priest. I'm gonna handle the folks that have moved out but haven't gathered resources as living in tents until they can accrue the needed goods and skills!

#ts2 #sims 2 #the sims 2 #ts2 homestead challenge #homestead challenge #historical sims #sim: anastasio tedo #sim: ambrosios tedo #sim: ishan bee #sim: mei bee #sim: matilda butler #sim: edward ward #neighborhood: alicel #alicel: y2w2

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Cursed fic idea

Okay look, Ezio Auditore is literally everything. There are times I've asked myself #whatwouldeziodo and then do the exact opposite because it'd probably involve murder.

James fucking Buchanan Barnes and The Winter Soldier have taken up residence in my brain and heart and are 100% there to stay.

Please tell me you see where this is going and have begun crying like I have been for the past 2 god damned months.

My brain decided that my favorite murder baby needed competent help in the form of the best assassin to ever exist. #fightme

SO! So *cries* I started sketching out a fic where Ezio gets yeeted into the MCU a la Isu Bullshit at some point during WW2. There's developing friend/mentorship when my favorite murder birb stumbles on Azzano bc you best believe he'd help the Italian Resistance and dismantle any and every scrap of Nazi supply line he can get his hands on. Like I can see Ezio rolling his eyes at Steve because ho boy does this blonde-haired blue-eyed innocent and idealistic child remind him of himself before- well before he became an assassin. Bucky? Well, Bucky is the man he became after taking his first leap of faith in Venice and his skills as a sniper are breathtaking. Can't really find fault in passing on intelligence to the SSR when he learns of Hydra and pointing the Howlies at this repulsive entity(they are absolutely adorable but he doesn't have the time to focus on giving them more than the bare minimum of time to pass on some of his skills and good lord do the ridiculous duo pick up skills fast. Though Steve frowns on the sneaky sneaky, whatever, they've saved his life more than once). Now, Ezio is the one to give them the info on the train and the soul-crushing guilt he feels when his favorite doesn't come back? When they don't even send a single person to try and recover his body?! That's not gonna fly. Unfortunately, he learns of this too late and well. We all know what happened to Bucky.

I can see Ezio getting to know Howard, understanding but ultimately disapproving of his obsession with finding Steve. After all, Ezio knows just how isolating that obsession can be. But, a sort of friendship? develops? Because Ezio is 100% a hypocrite. He spends every second of his free time trying to track down Bucky. There was no body but he found where he should have been.

Ezio being Ezio cultivates a... hm comfortable amount of wealth over the years and valiantly ducks questions about why tf he isn't aging. Isu Bullshit is my favorite excuse in the AC 'verse. I can see him talking about this to Howard and Peggy when he trusts them enough. Maybe. Maybe, he talks Howard down from building weapons, just a little, but can't completely stop his fall into alcoholism and being a shit father. Maybe, he falls completely under Tiny Tony's spell and becomes Uncle Ezio. Who 100% teaches Tony how to fight back and escape after his first kidnapping. Swapping out with Peggy when he's off searching for Bucky (who he's figured out is the WS but can't fucking track him down) but always always shows up for holidays, birthdays, graduations, science fairs, and silent support at the stuffy galas. Listens to this little boy, who reminds him of Petriccio, trip over himself talking about what he's learned and learning, his never-ending ideas and frustrations. (Jarvis fucking loves this wonderful Italian who also occasionally scares the shit out of him but ignorance is bliss and it's no skin off his back to wash the occasional blood stain out of Ezio's clothing and administer first aid.)

Maybe, he stops the WS from assassinating the Starks. Maybe, he helps Bucky find himself even if he can't do anything about the trigger words. Maybe he becomes a little more blood-thirsty, a little more ruthless when going after any and every Hydra outpost he can. Maybe he sits there and holds Bucky as he cries when Ezio finds the book. Stands behind him, in pride and grief with a hand on his shoulder as Bucky and Tony burn the damn thing. Maybe he whole-heartedly approves of Rhodes, even as Bucky gives the poor child the stink-eye. Is the one to give Tony the shovel talk when he notices the beginnings of attraction between these two idiots. The fact that Bucky proceeded to leave a whole host of bruises when he found out just makes Ezio laugh with pride.

Maybe, just maybe, Ezio finds himself sitting on the balcony of his villa on the outskirts of Florence watching the sunset over his sprawling vineyard with a glass of wine in his hand, his heartache over the family he left behind so very long ago on that bench in the middle of the summer market no longer suffocating. The faint sounds of his bright-eyed and brilliant nephew bickering with the haunted but hopeful man he proudly considers to be his son bring him a sense of peace he never thought he would have again.

#ezio auditore #tony stark #winter soldier #bucky barnes #winteriron #james buchanan barnes #assassin's creed #fanfic #cursed crossover #it's 3 fuckin am and idk what I'm doing with my life #if someone runs with this idea please for the love of god #tag me so i can cry over it #I could not stop the winteriron even on threat of death

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Honestly, sometimes it makes me confused why so many people decide to dye their hair weird colors. Growing up, I never really got the chance to be considered a person per se. I was a hyper-visible minority in a country where no one looked like me, and I sort of had to deal with the consequences of that my entire life. If you can imagine being a five-year-old biracial child in a train car with a bunch of Asian adults staring at you, and when you look back at them, they look down at their phones like they’re afraid of making eye contact with you. And just, day in and day out, that being your reality with you growing up with that as your baseline. I felt like a monster at times, I’d get angry, and I glared at them when they stared at me, relishing in the idea of them freaking out at the way I looked. Sometimes, I’d get really sad, and sometimes, I just listened to really really loud music. I had bad social anxiety. To be fair, it wasn’t me being overly paranoid; people really were staring at me. I think it was a completely rational reaction to how people were treating me, but of course, it was bad for my productivity skills, so it was definitely unhelpful for me.

To be fair, my life was not hard. I grew up in a fairly progressive space, and within, you know, my school, I felt at home with people who looked kind of like me. Still, there was always an expectation, or at least I felt like there was an expectation, that there was something inherently interesting or radical about my existence. I never really felt like I was a person of my own that I could cultivate meaning by myself of myself. And I think I just never learned how to do that. To this day, I don’t really know how to be a person. I feel more like a zoo animal. Or like a person on display.

I feel, at times my life is an experiment on what happens when you put a child through severe social alienation and expect them to be OK. Sometimes, I wonder what it’s like to be visually disabled, to sort of have to deal with that everywhere you go. I watched the movie Wonder when I was in- I don’t know, middle school, high school? And when the main character said something along the lines of “There is a second where people register my face, and they see me as a freak. They try to hide the face, but it always comes out”. That made me cry at the time, as I wanted to watch Deadpool and not really this movie, but it also really bummed me out because I realized that what was that was what was happening to me my entire life. I don’t really know what to do about it. I think- well, you know, I take my antidepressants, and I don’t have to feel these emotions if I choose not to, which is cool. Still, I sort of want to be a person of my own making, being myself and not necessarily a representation of other people or what things could be your political values or anything. I just wanna be myself, and I don’t think I’ve ever been a person. I don’t think I’m ever gonna really be allowed to be a person.

I really love boring people. I love born people because I feel like I was never able to grow up being a boring person. My number one wish is that I could be boring, I could be unremarkable, I could be nothing when I walk down the street.

I have this character in my head, and she’s well- she’s tall because I’m short, and her face isn’t really a face, it’s a white circle, and the white circle has no facial expression has no emotion unremarkable you can’t really feel anything from it. You know, it doesn’t really show any reaction to anything you do to it. It’s just a white circle. And sometimes I think about her tall and lanky, just walking around the world, and no one seeing her, and I think, ‘Wow, that would be nice if it was me’.

#i like to talk

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I want to write a fanfic but I’m scared people will either judge my writing skills or what the fic is about, do you have any advice for people who struggle to post their fic?

My first and foremost advice for fic has always been write for you. Write the things you want, how you want, and when you want. Nobody else gets to dictate those choices but you. It's true there's been a rising tide of entitlement in fandoms recently, and I can understand being hesitant about posting fic for the first time because of that. However there is so much joy to be had writing fanfic. So many of the people I hold dear are friends and fellow writers I've met through fanfic. No matter what you write or how you write it, there is a place for you.

I posted my first fic back in...2012? Christ... and was very nervous. Gonna be honest, my writing then was not great! But that's hobbies in general. People aren't born with the inherent ability to write perfectly, it's a skill that's honed over time. I myself am still improving and finding news and better ways to tell stories. Part of that is resigning myself to the fact that sometimes I have to write badly to be better. However it could be you have a natural born talent and your potential readers have been waiting to see it!

You may not get much of a response first from folks, that's to be expected. However that's all the more reason why you should be focusing on things that are fulfilling for yourself and not others. I've seen folks fandom chase and trope chase on here and I see how burnt out they get in pursuit of interaction. It's a losing game, and I hope you don't fall prey to it.

In addition, remember to tag. I've had and seen plenty of cases where someone reads a fic with something they don't like and then complains despite the fact it was tagged. If someone does this to you, and I cannot emphasize enough, it is not your problem. It's like someone hating coconut and then seeing a coconut flavored dessert and going 'Wow, this looks delicious- why is there coconut in this?!' It is their responsibility for curating their experience. Not yours. Delete/block/ignore them and move on.

and to those reading this who are readers and not writers- be kind to beginning writers. Do not offer them (or ANYONE) unsolicited feedback. No 'concrit' unless SPECIFICALLY ASKED FOR. I've heard people say 'Oh I stay away from the 'my first fic' tag'. Consider giving those writers a chance. Leave a lovely comment. You have no idea how encouraging that can be for someone new to fanfic. By doing so you are cultivating a community, a place for all of us.

and anon, honey? You're doing great. I'm proud of you. Let us know how it goes.

#writing advice #writing help

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I’ve been meaning to post my long ass post about the subconscious mind here. It was posted to my old fb account back in June, and it helped a good handful of people.. I have it in my notes on my phone. I’m not editing it, it’s just gonna be a copy and paste. But this information changed my fucking LIFE. And I really just wanna help people. Take the time to read if you want, if not ✨that’s fine too✨ lol

Gooood morning☀️ some days ago I said I was gonna start making more posts about the subconscious mind, this won’t be my last post about it but I’m just gonna throw it all out there.. this will be a VERY long post, but hopefully this helps at least one person.. many people don’t know the role our subconscious plays in our lives nor where to start, which is understandable. But it’s vital information everyone needs on the healing journey. And since there has been a rapid influx of people waking up to the fact that they need healing, I’d like to give a little more guidance than I received when I first began.

Once you begin actively striving to access your subconscious mind your life will change. In every conceivable way possible. It’ll seem slow at first and then it happens all at once.. make no mistake, everything will hit you like a ton of bricks… the things that are hidden from us tend to be hidden for a reason and the weight of it all is something you have to be prepared for, otherwise overwhelm will send you into a downward spiral and you will run from yourself.

Before diving into the murky waters of your subconscious mind, I would suggest going to therapy first to cultivate healthy coping skills, or follow great thinkers and licensed psychologists on social media. They’re everywhere these days. Build up your self discipline and self trust in small ways. The best way to do this is start keeping all the promises you make to yourself. Prioritize your mental WELLNESS, over your mental illness. Also build a very solid spiritual life, I can’t stress enough how important that is but if you’ve been my fb friend for years, I don’t have to explain that too extensively. That’s all I’ve really talked about the last 6 years. It doesn’t matter who or what you believe in, just get you some type of faith. Get you some principles and follow them to the letter. The combination of all of this will make you unstoppable. You must be intentional and determined when it comes to healing, once you start you can’t stop. If you stop, everything will come crashing… and it’s hard to come back from. I’ve seen it with my own 2 eyes.

Start with the things you are aware of, in most cases we have to work backwards before we can get to the root. The flood gates will open once your subconscious mind deems you trustworthy with that information, but once you get through the worst of it, everything in your life will begin to make so much sense.

The amygdala and the reticular activating system, along with the nerves that stem from our brain and run throughout our bodies are what make up the subconscious mind. It is 96% of our brain power. 96! That’s powerful. Think of your brain as if it were a desktop computer. Our conscious mind is the screen, the keyboard, and the mouse, that’s what we can see. The subconscious mind is the modem. The hard drive, the central processing unit, the motherboard, and the RAM are located in the modem. If you have a problem with your computer, you have to crack open the modem to figure out what’s really going on. The same is true for our brains.

The amygdala is responsible for our emotional responses and the regulation of our emotions. A small bundle of gray matter. Which is why it’s so easy to become emotionally overwhelmed, it’s tiny and most peoples amygdala is full of unprocessed emotions to begin with because majority of us weren’t taught how to properly process emotions as children. Just stuff it all down. But the reticular activating system is an important mechanism in the subconscious mind that has MANY functions.

Even smaller than the amygdala, but it’s solely responsible for the creation of our neural pathways, as well as the way we see and interact with the world. Many articles and neuroscientists describe it as a gatekeeper of information which is accurate. But it helps to reframe that idea and to think of it more like it’s an input output machine of sorts. In goes your traumas, your experiences, your influences, and your environment… as all of this information passes through the reticular activating system, inside of this mechanism is where your core belief systems and emotional patterns are created. They were created in childhood and are sometimes restructured as you age and take in new information. But typically stay close to the original model unless you intentionally go inward to change them. Your core beliefs about religion, spirituality, race, your culture, relationships, yourself, your family, society, the world and your place in it. What comes out are our lenses of perception. It’s exactly why everyone’s perspective is so different. While everything and everyone is connected, and we have all experienced similar things, our subconscious mind only has awareness of itself and what we take in. It has no concept of other peoples subconscious minds or their experiences. That’s left up to the conscious mind and the spirit. But a lack of awareness of what’s behind the curtain of our own subconscious mind and our unwillingness to find out is what allows a lack of compassion for others to slip through our fingers at times. Me personally, I’ve had a bad habit of calling people delusional, despite knowing it’s not completely their fault. I try to reserve that word now for the people who pretend to be healing and pretend to know what they’re talking about, and don’t have a clue.

We can’t change or completely control what we take in. You can’t change the past and life is gonna keep life’n regardless. Our power lies in feeling our feelings, learning to regulate our emotions and intentionally changing our lenses of perception. And the ONLY way to do that is to go inward to question, challenge, and change our core belief systems. Feel the repressed feelings we’ve ran away from our entire lives. When we don’t feel our emotions (aka energy in motion) they get trapped in our bodies along the meridian points directly tied to our nerves. You have to get that energy moving. You gotta honor it and feel it. It’s a leading cause to why hurt people hurt people. Getting to know yourself and healing is so much more than spirituality. So much more than saying daily affirmations. So much more than hitting the gym or doing yoga. So much more than healing your body with sound bowls and somatic exercises. There’s a time and place for everything, but you have to heal the brain too. They’re all equally important avenues of healing and choosing one over all the others is a mistake.

You hear everyone talk about their inner child, but what they don’t tell you is that your subconscious mind is where your inner child dwells. I spent years submerging myself in soul work and spirituality before I realized I kept hitting the same brick wall. I began trying to heal my body eventually and it wasn’t sticking. Because I had to face my mind. Specifically my subconscious mind. I’m still facing it. There were way more demons than I realized but I loved and accepted myself into wholeness. I was curious and determined to figure out what the fuck was really going on with me. I want to be transparent without divulging all of my traumas, as this isn’t the time nor place for that. But I need y’all to know I’m not just flapping my gums, I know exactly what I’m talking about. I’ve lived it.

I went to therapy for 6 months and was diagnosed with manic depression, aka bipolar 1, 2 years ago. I left therapy after learning healthy coping skills and found a group that teaches about the subconscious mind. It changed the way I approached healing entirely. Once I dove into my subconscious and got close to the CORE of my problems I began having massive consistent mood swings between being manic and being depressed. The highs were REALLY high and the lows were REALLY low. It lasted for a long time and was consistent. I felt like I was losing my mind. It was overwhelming and I was so afraid because I thought I was getting worse instead of better. Come to find out I was creating new neural pathways and my brain was freaking out cuz, why wouldn’t it? My brain was only used to functioning in a specific way, and I was moving away from that. For like a solid year I truly felt like my brain was on the fritz. It was an extremely rough period, and I was doing this all on my own. No therapist, no counselor, no spiritual teacher.. just me. I was working full time in a super toxic environment and I was also romantically involved with a manipulative, emotionally abusive man. Which in the end allowed me to really face all of my remaining traumas and fears. I’ll make a different post about how our relationships and our jobs mirror what’s going on inside and how we should use our connections to address our core issues, some other day.

But anywho, despite all that, I kept going. Kept learning and kept processing. I reached a point where there was no depression but I was manic for WEEKS. I knew it was mania but I couldn’t make it stop. It was better than being depressed but I genuinely felt CRAZY. And then suddenly… one day…. It was gone🤯 Completely gone. And I was just… at peace, happy even. Despite going through one of the worst betrayals and heartbreaks of my life in the midst of all that. I haven’t had a manic depressive episode in almost 3 months. After a lifetime of not being able to regulate my emotions, I mastered it. In the realest way. I’m not saying I healed my bipolar disorder but I meeean 🙈🤭🥲 i have never been this level headed in my life. I have never been this at peace. And it’s REAL. No faking.

I say all of this to say, you cannot truly heal without diving deep into your subconscious mind. You cannot heal without feeling every single feeling that’s trapped inside of you. It’s impossible. You will never heal if you continue to ignore, downplay, or suppress your traumatic experiences or your feelings. You will never heal if you don’t take radical accountability for your life and your choices. If you want to HEAL you’re gonna have to want freedom more than you want to hold on to the programs and traumas that are hurting you. You have to stop placing blame on the outside world. Self pity is a dead end road that many people never find the courage to back out of.

They lead us to believe that mental illnesses are forever and I wholeheartedly disagree. I had chronic anxiety since I was a child and its GONE. Depression GONE. Mania GONE. I can’t speak on all mental illnesses but every single one I had is gone. ADHD is one thing I don’t think you can get rid of, I honestly believe that’s just how brains naturally function, everyone I know has ADHD lol. It shows up differently case by case. BUT you can restructure your lenses of perception to make it work FOR YOU. That’s how I’ve been able to really learn, not just memorize all of this, in such a short amount of time.. on top of learning about a bunch of other various topics that interest me and dealing with every day life, showing up for my family and friends etc.

We all have the capability of being our own hero. But they want your money man. They want us endlessly consuming. The government, big pharma, psychologists that give you just enough information to keep you coming back. They want us to hate ourselves and to feel hopeless. They want us to feel like we can’t do it without them. They want us on the drugs and on the couch for the rest of our lives. Obedient cogs in their machine. The free group I learned most of what I know about the subconscious mind also has a program that walks you through their “master healing course,” but that shit costs $10,000. I was FLOORED when I received what they referred to as a “readiness call.” And honestly slightly offended. I felt like I was baited and bamboozled with the free group.

I’m not tryna blast them because I truly did learn a lot while I was in the group, but I have to call a spade a spade. The women leading the group are trapped in a capitalist headlock and feel justified in their methods. Like yeah they’re sharing vital information in the closed group for free. But ultimately living their best lives off the backs of deeply wounded people who are just trying to heal. All that talk about challenging core belief systems and they never stopped to question why they think that’s okay. Capitalism is directly linked to white supremacy and the white savior complex, but that’s also a topic for another day. I think it’s all just so gross.

Just like when I was in therapy, I took what I needed and got the fuck out of dodge. I understand these people have to make a living too, but people deserve to HEAL. No matter how much money they have in the bank. And I’m trying my best to do my part for the people that can’t afford therapy or special programs. Or don’t trust someone else to coach them through. Besides, we already have what it takes to save and free ourselves from our mental prisons. People just need knowledge on how to access that power. You don’t need a psych degree or to become a neuroscientist to be able to really grasp this shit. You don’t have to become some super spiritual guru or anything like that. You just have to have a deep desire to learn, grow, and change. You have to have a desire to just be your truest, most authentic self. Whatever that looks like. They rely on people not having a clue about how any aspect of self truly functions. Cuz I guarantee you they know about us what we don’t know about ourselves.. on a very large scale. Mentally and spiritually. Health is wealth but knowledge is power. And don’t you ever forget it.

I hope you read all the way through. Im gonna pin this post so it doesn’t get lost, I post a lot on purpose. I’m nobody’s savior except my own, but I really just want to help people. That’s why I’m here. Helping people heal is apart of my purpose. God definitely put me on desk duty for a reason. I have a particular piece of the puzzle most people don’t have. I’m not citing anything tho, google is your friend lol😂 i would never tell anyone to take what I say and run with it. Do your own research. I would encourage everyone to become VERY curious about every aspect of themselves.. start reading up on the subconscious mind.. I did my best to put it in basic terms but there are multitudes of books and articles written by actual neuroscientists out there that can further help. Learn spirituality and distance yourselves from dogmatic religious beliefs.. lose your ego and guard your spirit… start small, but think big.. and fight for yourself, because we all deserve to be free. None of us truly will be until we all are. It will be a long process and you have to be patient with yourself. We tend to believe that our pain separates us but in all honesty it’s the ONE thing we all have in common. We’ve all been through shit. Don’t delude yourself into believing even with the knowledge it’s something you can rush through. And please note, I’m forever a student. I’m not saying I know it all by any means. Just wanted to share what I do know to be true. And this I KNOW. Have a good day everyone &… happy healing ✨

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