No one understands how much I hate myself. I hate myself so fucking much I can’t even look on the mirror without feeling absolutely disgusted. I want to die.
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passing by blades in target and not buying a new one is the hardest thing ive ever done
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I constantly wonder if tonight will be the night I finally run out of tears to shed. 😥
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Gone for a while...tried to get better....got worse....somehow hate myself more? Neat trick...
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I keep telling myself, “I don’t really like him it’s just the idea I like.” But he’s on my mind 24/7, when I see another couple I image the us. He doesn’t even know I exist and I continue to yearn for him. He makes me go insane, I like him too much and yet I have no chance with him.
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Why does healing takes forever ?
Why is it harder than getting worse ?
Why do I want to be notice and at the same time I just want to be forgotten ?
Why do nobody notices ?
Why am I pushing them away ?
Why do I feel nothing and everything at the same time ?
Why do I love being sick ?
Why do I hate being like this ?
Why am I like this ?
Why can’t I be me ?
But who’s me ?
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This pain is sucks this voice is sucks WHY I CAN'T JUST BE HAPPY????? WHY I CAN'T ENJOY MYSELF??? WHY I HATE ME??? I just want new pills I just want to take this fucking pill and this pain this thing just fucking go away
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why is yearning for death so painful
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Know what's more exhausting than pretending to be ok?
Trying to convince everyone else you're fine.
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I hate myself
One of those things of the past
But presently inhabits my soul
I want to go back and stop
But…I can’t
So yes
I truly hate myself
My decisions
Why?
The way my face burst with more bumps
From the things of the past
From my “if I had”s
The way my skin holds more weight
When I wanted less
Death wraps it self in this thing called “food”
What I’m trying to say is that
I failed again
And I really
Really
Hate me.
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Pain is a great motivator…
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Meanwhile Toriel:
(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)
Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!
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I told myself for years that I will never ship real people again.
But now I kind of need someone to write a Luke/Käärijä Fanfic. And I hate myself for that.
(And I also hate that I‘m apparently the only one shipping it :‘D)
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