i got a thing for pushing people away when im at my lowest

I’m so fucking tired. I can’t do this anymore.

Lately I noticed that everybody looks ok until you eventually have a deep conversation with them...

And then, you realize that, this a sad generation of people struggling to survive through smiling faces and pretty pictures.

Flower.

Here I am still thinking about you.

the false hope is one of the worst enemies…

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I don't ever remember what passes by unless it flies after I knew it would. Somebody's funeral air blows swiftly in my ear—clouds swallow up my heavy tears that made the sky cry down into land. some jump in puddles, some stand in the rain. I screamed in silence loudly—it awoke the city in me. Because my love for you makes my heart warm, sing, yell, and bleed. And the remembrance of your sounds always take me back home. You are as gentle the ripples I eye down at. And your eyes—oh his eyes, make me see what roses glare at. The sides of your head that you dislike make me feel safe. I could not admire them more. But most of all your soul— way of doing, and that quiet spirit, make me feel like it was all a nice dream. Like I was in love with an angel or ghost. For I was holding on to a fantasy that wasn't my reality. You are as charming as a prince but when I asked my mirror, I saw no princess in front of it. my blindness only sees a villain in me. In the generous galaxy where the stars are promising, our fingers were made for a ring. But that was my wish for the star that flew before I knew it would.

no one

knows how bad I'm doing and it's

funny because

I'm not even

trying to hide it.

I am so fucking tired. I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of trying to do everything . I'm tired of waking up. I'm tired of fighting with myself to keep going. I'm tired of feeling nothing I’m tired of the pain.I’m tired of myself . I’m just so tired

i think i like the image of my own bloodied, split skin too much.

more scared of getting old than dying young

I feel so unbelievably alone.

Too tired to do anything but scroll on tumblr and bed rot :/

romanticising this is the only way I can get through it without going insane

how was i supposed to learn how to love myself

or accept love from people around me

when the only person who should have loved me from the moment i was born

did nothing but left me torn

i cannot see a reason to stay alive

just a bunch to end my life

just a bunch to fly away

but not a one to make me stay

i thought i could see a star

shining bright in the sky

but oh, the huge scar

it only makes me cry

leaving no place for hope

no place for my shattered heart

just waiting for my final breath

for my final part

24 yrs.

About me: (if you even care.)

Multi~Fandom, but mostly jjk. (N)SFW. Not spoiler free! 18+!

My playlist :

Yuji/Sukuna (I personally think this Playlist goes hard and is pretty accurate for them.)

Kacchako (really used to be into this ship. Not so much anymore. The Playlist is still fire tho!)

Depressed Megumi :( (my personal sad playlist at this point..)