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asking-jude · 6 months
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Do you want free mental help? What about remote, pay-what-you-want counselling? Visit askingjude.org.
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depression-culture-is · 7 months
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Shoutout to everyone suffering from depression that still managed to get up today, even if it was just to use the bathroom or get some food. That's a wonderful achievement.
Shoutout to everyone suffering from depression that couldn't manage to get up today. It's okay. You're still alive. You're still breathing. That in itself is a huge achievement and I hope with every fibre of my being that tomorrow is an easier day.
Shoutout to everyone suffering from depression that managed to go today without self-harming. Whether you're on day one or one hundred, it's still something worth being proud of and I hope you treat yourself for it.
Shoutout to everyone suffering from depression that has relapsed today. I'm so sorry. Please remember to take care of the wounds. Clean them, run them under some cold water, do whatever you can to ensure that they don't get infected/worse. Recovery is a long journey and while I know it must feel like you've taken a hundred steps back, this is just a small set back. It's okay.
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You're always doing better than you think.
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breathing-in-fire · 7 months
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maladaptively · 1 year
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is madd tumblr still a thing like i used to be so big on there
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donthugmeimscared · 24 days
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powerrangersystem · 1 year
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Ketamine Treatment Experience
This post is about my experience in Spravato and Ketamine treatments (with and without a therapist guide). It will be long, so I will put it under a cut. But if you are interested in what Ketamine therapy feels like, feel free to read on. And if you have any questions, let me know. I'm happy to answer.
So, Ketamine injections and Spravato nasal spray feel basically the same to me, depending on the dose, so I'm going to talk about them together. I'll say Ketamine for short, but I am referring to both here.
With or without a therapist, I meet with the prescribing physician and discuss the dose. We talk about my symptoms (I always fill out a little questionnaire about them beforehand) and how I reacted to the dose in the last session. Then she determines if we need to go up, down, or stay the same
Without a therapist, I would take the ketamine and then put on something to listen to. I would be put into a small room with a comfortable chair or bean bag chair, a light machine, and a small table. The lights would be turned off and the light machine turned on (it resembles stars on the ceiling).
I typically listened to Welcome to Night Vale because I've listened to it before so it doesn't matter if I pay attention to it or understand it, but I find his voice comforting. Most people listen to music, I believe. Just listen to something you find comforting.
I experience a great amount of dissociation with ketamine. I do not feel my body at all when I'm on ketamine. I could not move or walk if I wanted to. I also can't talk.
I don't fully remember everything I experience while high. But I usually feel like I'm moving through rooms. I tend to mildly hallucinate different rooms. I also almost always feel like I've been on some important journey. Trying to figure something out or trying to find something. I sometimes think I've had a very important conversation with someone, but I don't remember it. Perhaps I'll be able to talk about it with a therapist present and remember more, but I've only done one with a therapist so I don't know yet.
I have never had a bad experience (though I did get sick to my stomach once), but I know that it is possible. Having a therapist in the room would probably help with that. In my clinic they have cameras in the room to monitor all the patients as well.
With a therapist: we talk before the dose, do a grounding, and set an intention to think about during the trip. Then I take the dose and relax for a while. I am usually unable to talk while on ketamine. My trip usually last about 20-30 minutes, but I am apparently a fast metabolizer, so usually they last closer to 40-60 mins.
Once I am able to talk, I talk with my therapist about my experience, anything that came up, or really whatever comes to mind. I typically still feel the effects of the ketamine at this point and wouldn't be able to walk well, but I can talk. I usually have blurry vision as well at this point.
After a while, my vision clears and I am able to walk again. My clinic allows us to leave after 1.5 hours, but you can stay as long as you need. They used to require you stay 2 hours to be monitored, but they reduced that time.
You are not allowed to drive afterward, so I take an Uber (though this is expensive so if you can get a ride, do that).
Depending on the dose, I usually don't feel too many side effects after about two hours. I take a zofran to help with nausea before the dose, but if it is too high I will sometimes still feel nauseous. I feel loopy and can't concentrate well for a few hours. But after a day, all the side effects are gone and I am back to normal.
My mood improves noticeably for 24-48 hours after the first few doses. Then, after I've taken about 3-4 doses, my mood improves for longer, usually all the way until the next dose. My treatments usually go on for 2-3 months, though they can go on for longer if necessary. I usually feel better for several months or longer, though I'm hoping that doing ketamine with a therapist will make the effect last even longer.
If you have any questions, please let me know and I will answer them. For context, I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder, PTSD (possible complex), anxiety, an eating disorder (two actually), autism, and medically recognized as having DID. I am happy to talk more about how this therapy affects any of those diagnosis if anyone is interested.
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zoomvis · 2 months
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one day we will get there
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deersfangs · 3 months
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You’re still trying even if you relapse.
You’re still healing even if you relapse.
You’re still worth it even if you relapse.
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crowscoffee · 7 months
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hi!! my name is crow and this is an anonymous blog to help me keep track/keep myself accountable as i finally try to address my maladaptive daydreaming/severe executive dysfunction issues. i am in therapy and on medication right now, but even then my mental health has been suffering this year especially, and i really want to focus on improving myself and grounding myself for my own benefit, that way i can actually focus on the things i want to be doing irl instead of losing hours of my time to daydreaming + executive dysfunction.
my goal is to update this daily with my progress to help with mindfulness and accountability but we’ll see how that goes, my long-term goal is actually to delete this blog once i feel happy with myself and my real life/can have a healthy relationship with daydreaming!
if you want to follow this blog for perhaps personal motivation, or you’d like to chat, feel free. i will not discuss my daydreaming and/or the topics of it directly much yet because it can be triggering for me, but i’m happy to talk about other stuff! i’m in uni rn studying poetry, film, and queer history, and i love sci-fi/horror, crocheting, and my cats. :D
i’ll try posting daily logs starting tomorrow to see if it helps, they probably won’t be very long but it’s a start. thanks if you’ve decided to support me as i finally face this problem i’ve been letting build up and take over my life for years :’)
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asking-jude · 6 months
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Do you want free mental help? What about remote, pay-what-you-want counselling? Visit askingjude.org.
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affectionatepanda · 6 months
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My psychiatrist asked me if I feel like a Guinea pig today while we were going over my medication list and everything. I said yes and burst into tears because absolutely everything makes me cry lately. I think at this rate I’ll have tried every anti-depressant before I’m 30.
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cptsd-my-recovery · 1 year
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breathing-in-fire · 7 months
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broimouttahere · 2 years
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Fam: Oh my goodness why are you so tired? It’s not like you do much all day
My brain at every waking moment:
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ghostisventing · 1 year
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I am nearly 3 years clean
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