I literally just realised I have no issue ⭐ving,my issue starts when I BREAK MY FAST!!! It's literally a binge trigger.
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**my mother described me as withering away 😋🥰🤭🤩best. compliment. ever. But I am trying this to eat more so she can not be up my ass.
Sun 15:(Day1)⛅️ 454 cal. Did make a smoothie with flax & chia seeds it was so good.
Mon 16:(Day2)🌧️ 498 cal. Probs had more than this as I licked a bit of icing and jam off of a cake like an actual pig but I don’t know the cal intake of that so I’m just pretending it never happened.
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Tues 17:(Day3) 426 cal.
Weds 18:(Day4) 386 cal.
Thurs 19:(Day5) 182 cal.
Fri 20:(Day6) 379 cal.
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Sat 21:(Day7)⛅️ 272 cal.
Sun 22:(Day8)🌤️ 294 ~ I only ate soup today but I was with my mum for like the entire day so you can imagine the problems that caused. she’s taking me to the doctors I am not about to put on all the weight I just lost.
Mon 23:(Day9)🌤️ 442 cal. Wow. Even though I walked around 13,000 steps today I feel really disgusting. i HAD to eat more but no one forced me too and I had a bit of chocolate because my blood sugar is really low but I feel so fat😭. We also baked blueberry muffins I made separate ones for me but it was too salty and such a waste of calories. God I want to throw up but I can’t.
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Tues 24:(Day10)☀️668 cal. Technically - exercise I’m at around 468 but I binged this evening on chocolate as one does because I’m so fucking depressed the doctors was shit I want to kms. This is me being so real I thought lemme lie on here rq cause it’s so embarrassing but I’m just gonna starve next week fr fr. Xoxo
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is my back skinny enough idkkkb??,
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Had only lunch today at a restaurant and could only just now research the calories and omg that were 925 wtf I feel so bad now
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Ate 970 btw!!! Might go up to 1200 bc foods all I can think ab rn??
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it all has to get OFF OF ME
start wt: 160 lbs🌈🌟💫✨
current wt: 151.4 lbs🌈🌟💫✨
gw1: 150 lbs
gw2:143 lbs
gw3: 135 lbs
gw4: 130 lbs
gw5: 125 lbs (reward: new hair,, ring light)
gw6:120lbs
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whenever i do something embarrassing or clumsy i feel like i’m obese. i’m not, in real life im a normal weight, but when i drop something in the bus, when i say something wrong, when i stutter or when i trip and fall. i suddenly feel like im morbidly obese and everyone looking at me are judging me and my humongous shape.
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CRYING RN, I FEEL SO FAT I PROBABLY JUST GAINED BACK THOSE 3 POUNDS I LOST. I HOPE MY MATABOLISM DOSE SOMTHING ABOUT THIS 😭🙏
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having to hear people tell my mom to just let me die cuz it's obvious I'm never gonna recover is the worst pain I've ever felt in my life this disorder truly has taken everything from me
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I don’t know why I’m here. I don’t have any of my friends on this site that i know of. Soo this is my platform to express my weird thoughts without hesitation!
I’m bored, tired, hungry. Feeling too many fat days in a row..now I wonder if that is connected to a comment I swear I heard the other day from my brother..ugh. I should get out more.
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I've been struggling so hard to keep at my c@l limit because in constantly around friends who know abt my e-d and I feel like this is gonna cause w38ght g@in I'm so stressed about it idk what to do I just wanna get to My gw but it's been so hard.
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Guys idk if I’m delusional or if I look like thinspii but idk I feel fat cuz I gained like 6 lbs in 2 weeks er so but I feel like I’m kinda skinny idk tho mayb I am mayb im not well see pls respond 2 thissss
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I rarely eat sweet bread 🍞 but this one here I couldn’t resist … pineapple 🍍 coconut 🥥 it’s crazy Good .
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