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emaiiyaru · 9 months

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#sorry for lack of posting #i have like two posts i'll put up sometime later idk #emaiiyaru's art #genshin impact #genshin #genshin art #genshin impact art #genshin impact fanart #genshin fanart #venti genshin impact #venti #i feel awful

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weenie-kun · 3 months

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#bean tag #im suffering from eating too many treats #i feel awful

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yuppievalley · 5 months

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awful

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#my art #infinity train #min gi park #min-gi park #ryan akagi #rymin #b&w #i feel awful

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latenight-dnd · 1 year

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Feeling like a big fucking stupid idiot brain moron. Therapists be like “oh set alarms so u remember tasks, it’ll cure ur adhd” but then I am cooking and I set the alarm to go turn off the stove and then the alarm goes off but I’m doing a task so I turn the alarm off and say I’ll do it after the task and BAM. Adhd strikes. I have forgotten the task, or that there ever was an alarm. My house is full of smoke.

#adhd #adhd stuff #living with adhd #adhd bullshit #adhd brain #adhd problems #adhd fucking sucks #I am an idiot #I feel awful #I ruined a pot #the family is pissed #really hoping I haven’t ruined our Mother’s Day plans for tomorrow #by putting everyone in a bad mood and potentially risking our house and their lives

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anonymous-dentist · 18 days

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since people apparently cant be formal im going to be: we dont use "q!" cuz people kinda dont want to talk abt the server, only spiderbit/guapoduo, so they decided to use "g!" or only "!", and when people are refering to other series they use the first letter of the series for example: "c!roier", i myself dont quite get the g!/! and understand why u dont like people not using "q!" when the universe they talking abt is qsmp

(people saw u complaining abt it here and start to shit on u without any context on twt and saying u complained that q wanst appearing in other fics even tho im pretty sure i didnt when ur distancing urself from him so i wanted to be formal :])

-🎀

(also can u explain y u dont like the "g!" or "!"???)

I can try to explain myself, but I'm also kinda crying answering this because I have a hard time with emotion regulation when I'm upset (autism thing)

OKAY! SO!

I don't really mind the new tag things? Like, I don't love them, but they're fine. If people want to distance themselves, that's fine. I'm distancing myself. Anybody who's been keeping up with my blog over the past half a year or so can see that I haven't really posted about the QSMP at all since Purgatory started. I haven't talked about Quackity at all outside of that shitshow of an awards ceremony in over a month when, for several years, I was a Quackity-centric blog (2021-early 2023)

My thing with the new tags, and with the Guapoverse thing in general, is that it really just isn't accessible for a larger audience. Sure, some parts of Twitter might understand it, but what about the rest of us?

As far as I can tell, the Guapoverse originated with a Twitter artist (Moone), and it blew up overnight. And I'm overall cool with it! It's a little silly, but so is fandom. I'm a fanfiction writer. Who plays Splatoon for like 4 hours every day. I know silly, and I love it

But then, BAM, I blink and everybody's abandoned the q! and they're changing their tags on Ao3 and making everything suddenly so much harder to find, and it's all about accessibility, isn't it? Like, don't get me wrong, I love a good multiverse, but when it inadvertently excludes a significant portion of the fandom, what are we supposed to do?

Like, say I go on Twitter looking for q!Pac fanart. But now it's so much harder to find because it isn't tagged or typed that way, it's !Pac, and that includes search results from every single au that has a ! in it, like if there was an au called AU!Pac? The !Pac would be in there. But I don't want to see AU!Pac, I want to see q!Pac.

And then there's the g! thingy. Like, that's fine, but a little more widespread of an explanation would've been nice. Like, what au does g! stand for? If you don't know what Guapoverse is, like A LOT OF PEOPLE don't, what are we supposed to think your art is? If we're looking for q!Cellbit art, we aren't necessarily going to like and retweet your art if it's labeled as g!Cellbit because we don't know that he's q!Cellbit.

It's kind of similar on Ao3, only that one's a little different because you can filter by relationship. But let's say you don't know how to do that. Let's say you're new to the website and you only know how to filter by fandom, because that's the first thing you learn how to do on Ao3- it's right there at the top of the front page: Browse By Fandom.

So you go to the QSMP tag looking for fics with Spiderbit/Guapoduo in them. But, here's the thing, you can't find any. Because they aren't being tagged QSMP, they're being tagged Guapoverse now even if the fics are being set in the QSMP setting.

It's just a general lack of fandom accessibility that gets me. I understand the distancing aspect, and I've been waiting for it to happen since the Elections when he Brazilian fandom started getting IMMENSE amounts of hatred from Gringo Chats. But it gets a little tricky when you're part of a fandom as large as this one is. How are we all supposed to share content and talk about things with each other if we can't even find each other anymore?

Like! I've lost so many cool fics I forgot to bookmark because they were taken out of the QSMP tag and moved into the new one! (The new one goes against ToS btw I believe, but go talk to a tag wrangler about that.)

People on Tumblr don't know what the Guapoverse is. TikTok doesn't. Reddit doesn't. Only Twitter does, and only a section of Twitter does. Because I haven't seen any English or French-speaking Guapoduo People talk about the Guapoverse, only Portuguese or Spanish-speaking people. And I get that the exclusion isn't purposeful and that the Guapoverse is meant to sort of heal everybody from the wounds the QSMP left, but I think that maybe even just spreading the news and not... you know... sending death threats and insults and smearing people's names would be better than this.

Thank you for politely asking. I thought I had made myself clear before, but I guess I hadn't.

I'm open to answer any more questions. I can't explain myself to my critics on Twitter, but I can answer your questions here, hopefully.

#asks!#anon!#i feel awful #idk why i'm even being targeted #and why people are lying about me

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soap-ify · 17 days

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hi everyone! i know i have been very inactive lately. it's just life beating my ass these days in all honesty, and i have just been in a really horrible state of mind recently. i truly miss you all and this is NOT a goodbye, but i will be logging out and taking a break for myself. i don't know how long it will be, hopefully not too long :( i am sorry.

#i feel awful #worst year for ruru #ruru rambles

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scribe-of-elysium · 27 days

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Quietus: Status Update

Hello, Tumblr followers. I've started working on the next chapter of Quietus. I'm aiming to write up until Sakura's Rebirth, which will be covered in the next 2-3 chapters, depending on whether I split the content. So there will be a few more updates until we get to that point.

After that, I'll be formally Discontinuing the story because I sadly have no time, inspiration, or motivation to keep working on this project as things stand. It's a commitment I can't make; I have too many responsibilities, too little free time and can't be as active as I used to be, unfortunately.

This is not an easy decision for me to make, and has been on my mind for the last year. I'd been wanting to stop sooner, but I pushed on, hoping I could continue it, but it's now becoming really difficult to find the time and effort the story requires to maintain its quality.

Placing the fic on hiatus indefinitely as I have in the past pressures me to keep thinking about it knowing updates are anticipated and is counter-productive. It also feels unfair, like I'm constantly leaving readers hanging and waiting with the regular starting and stopping, and I'd rather just be honest that I've been struggling with it at this point.

I can't force myself to write something rushed, either I give 100% or nothing. If my circumstances ever change and I can pick it up again, I'll return to announce that, otherwise, I want to sincerely thank everyone who was still following and reading up to this point, everyone who patiently waited for updates all these years, and everyone who took the time to interact, comment, share, recommend, make art or commission it. I appreciate my readers and their support more than I can express on here.

#Quietus #Fanfiction #SasuSaku #Writing #Never wanted to label the fic as discontinued #But it's become nearly impossible to find the time for it #It isn't fair to keep stopping and restarting with it #Either I finish it with 100% commitment or I don't #Sorry to my readers #Posting this makes me feel like a failure #But writing can't be forced or rushed #Thanks to everyone who followed it over the years #I'm grateful #I feel awful #But needed to be honest

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softpinksiren · 1 year

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**my mother described me as withering away 😋🥰🤭🤩best. compliment. ever. But I am trying this to eat more so she can not be up my ass.

Sun 15:(Day1)⛅️ 454 cal. Did make a smoothie with flax & chia seeds it was so good.

Mon 16:(Day2)🌧️ 498 cal. Probs had more than this as I licked a bit of icing and jam off of a cake like an actual pig but I don’t know the cal intake of that so I’m just pretending it never happened.

Update:

Tues 17:(Day3) 426 cal.

Weds 18:(Day4) 386 cal.

Thurs 19:(Day5) 182 cal.

Fri 20:(Day6) 379 cal.

Update:

Sat 21:(Day7)⛅️ 272 cal.

Sun 22:(Day8)🌤️ 294 ~ I only ate soup today but I was with my mum for like the entire day so you can imagine the problems that caused. she’s taking me to the doctors I am not about to put on all the weight I just lost.

Mon 23:(Day9)🌤️ 442 cal. Wow. Even though I walked around 13,000 steps today I feel really disgusting. i HAD to eat more but no one forced me too and I had a bit of chocolate because my blood sugar is really low but I feel so fat😭. We also baked blueberry muffins I made separate ones for me but it was too salty and such a waste of calories. God I want to throw up but I can’t.

Update:

Tues 24:(Day10)☀️668 cal. Technically - exercise I’m at around 468 but I binged this evening on chocolate as one does because I’m so fucking depressed the doctors was shit I want to kms. This is me being so real I thought lemme lie on here rq cause it’s so embarrassing but I’m just gonna starve next week fr fr. Xoxo

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crystalmagpie447 · 3 months

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dont mind me

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splittingpotenzial · 4 months

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I was never enough and I was too much

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lopsushi · 1 year

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hi, I'm korean and came across your recent drawing for your au, and I'm pretty sure you drew the grandmother in a hanbok, not a hanfu. Hanbok's are traditional korean dresses, hanfu's are traditional Chinese dresses. I'll attach some pictures of empress hanbok's so you can see for yourself. They look very similar to what you drew

…I AM SO SORRY!!!

I didn’t mean to mix them!! I need to look at sites more carefully next time. 😮‍💨 I deeply apologize for the mistake of mixing the names. 🥺

#ask #I AM SORRY!!!#I mix them up!!#i feel awful #I’ll double check these outfits better 😞

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tur-bot0-4 · 2 months

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The spatter becomes a spray, the spray becomes a stream and the stream becomes a waterfall...

#fuuuuuuck #han tyumi #han-tyumi #art #sketches #kglw #kgatlw #king gizzard & the lizard wizard #robot stop #FUUUCK #i feel awful #vomit coffin #murder of the universe

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wolfstrong · 5 months

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Rest in peace to my smallest Cory Cat!!! He got sick a couple weeks ago and passed this morning :((((

#I feel awful #about it #I tried really hard to save him #it was sad looking at old picture of how healthy he used to be #my other sick one is in recovery #I think he’ll be okay

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sarahhasthoughts · 6 months

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i had a boyfriend for like a week and half and just broke up with him because i found out i am aromantic as well as asexual

#any aroaces wanna be friends?#i feel awful #but also chill because my anxiety has gone down exponentially #aromatic #asexual #lgbtqia #lgbtq community #gay

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theonewiththeeyeliner · 5 months

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Everyone talks about sh with borderline and acts like it's intentional, like it always helps. Using sex, weed, hitting myself, alcohol, physical harm, toxic people, and reopening physical and emotional wounds doesn't even fucking help. I still hurt and feel guilty about it.

#selfharrrm #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destructive behavior #tw substance abuse #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #i feel awful #miserable even #bpd vent #k*ll me

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multifariousmayhem · 23 days

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"but have you tried doing visualizations to have more energy?" if i could hit you with a crowbar i would. what part of chronic fatigue is not clear?

#cfs #chronic fatigue syndrome #chronic pain #chronic illness #chronic fatigue #end me #i feel awful #i am losing it #i cannot believe someone actually suggested that #next thing someone is gonna ask me if i tried yoga #what a shitty way to start the day #fucking hell

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