#god i am so fucking happy rn it's fucking insane.
Text
i'm... writing. i'm writing!
#[ 🌱 — blah blah. ]#it's really not good — very incoherent and stiff#but holy fucking shit i'm WRITING#i know it's no good i know i know#but wow. WOW#i know this joy is short-lived#but FUCK you have no idea how good it feels to finally be able to do the one thing that gives my life meaning#i can finally write and critique myself with a clear head#i think i need to just.. talk to my mom too#because i'm thinking of making some changes to my plan#i want to stay in the school i'm in#they really nurture my writing in a way that no one else can#god i am so fucking happy rn it's fucking insane.
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
really. for real. deadass. on god. are you kidding me. if these problems aren't my fault then why am I always in the center of them
#mine#🎸#😀😀😀 are you fucking kidding#bro does NOT care what is happening rn. feel sick to my stomach<3 aha#genuinely what is the fucking problem i am trying to eliminate all the sources of problems but they keep coming up#what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!#if im not doing anything wrong then what is the problem. seriously seriously seriously im going to punch something#im going to kill something even. why me huh why me i care so much and this is what i get#ahaha if im everything you wanted what is the FUCKING PROBLEM#cant help but crying now what the fuckkkk can this stop happening to me already#im trying the hardest possible ever yet this happens. even when im not fucking trying at ALL this happens i seriously cannot win dude#i was happy to finally fucking be able to tell everyone about us and not have it just be a 'oh.. we arent friends anymore' situation AGAIN#some higher power has it out for me i am 100% sure. how many horrible things can happen to one guy#really. really. really. for fucking real. really. really? really. i cant wait to murder god#😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃#my heart is beating so hard and fast#He does not feel the same any more.#ok i cried for a long while im so annoyed. send me insane stalker asks to make me feel better and fuel my ego
1 note
·
View note
Text
feather , part 5
“ then you pull back ”
series m. list
previous chapter
next chapter
( socialmedia!au )
yourusername
liked by rutgermcgroarty, _alexturcotte, trevorzegras, and 45,886 others
yourusername what a fancy vintage car ⁉️
view all comments
colecaufield do you ever take insta pics where you’re looking directly at the camera 🙃
→ yourusername IT’S NOT MY FAULT IT’S MY BROTHER WHO TAKES BAD PICS
→ jamie.drysdale MAYBE YOU’RE JUST UGLY
→ yourusername I’M TELLING MOM YOU CALLED ME UGLY
→ jamie.drysdale FINE YOU’RE JUST NOT PHOTOGENIC 😑😑
username24 i’m down HORRENDOUS for this woman
lhughes_06 wow the color of the car really makes your eyes pop
→ dylanduke25 are you dumb
→ mackie.samo bro u can’t even see her eyes in the pics
→ _alexturcotte istg this kid
→ yourusername thank u lukey 😭😭
trevorzegras okay hear me out
→ yourusername no.
→ trevorzegras I HAVEN’T EVEN SAID ANYTHING YET
→ yourusername immediate no
→ _quinnhughes this is why you’re my favorite drysdale yourusername
username79 now tell me she isn’t the most beautiful girl in the world
username6 god if only i lived in michigan
luca.fantilli he’s asking for a close up of your face
→ yourusername what who 💀
→ luca.fantilli u know who
→ markestapa he says he doesn’t wanna say anything bc then it’ll just reveal who he is 😂😂
→ edwards.73 it’s luke dumbasses
this reply has been deleted
username13 OH MY FUCKING GOD DID ANYONE SEE ETHAN’S REPLY TO LUCA’S COMMENT THREAD
→ username50 I KNOW MY DRYSHUGHES SHIP IS SAILING
→ username25 DID HE DELETE IT?
→ username98 YES I THOUGHT I WAS GOING INSANE
yourusername
liked by edwards.73, mackie.samo, lhughes_06, and 37,993 others
yourusername bc cole thinks i don’t take full face pics 😒😒😒 (are u happy now???????)
jamie.drysdale you’ve had those earmuffs since you were like 10
→ yourusername NO they’re new ☹️
→ jamie.drysdale clearly you’ve gotten too attached to your 10 year old style choices 😬
→ yourusername why are you being so mean all of a sudden 😔😔
colecaufield OKAY i said you didn’t take pics of your face whatsoever, not full face pics
→ yourusername ARE. U. HAPPY. NOW?!?!?!?!?!
→ colecaufield YES I’M HAPPY GOOD GOD
username64 i need the makeup tut rn
username73 she’s so petty i love it
dylanduke25 cole’s not the only one that’s happy
→ yourusername oh my god this better not be about who i think it is
adamfantilli did you dye your hair lighter or am i going blind
→ yourusername you’re going blind
→ yourusername not too good for your hockey career babe
→ jamie.drysdale BABE????
→ yourusername NO NOT LIKE THAT OMFG jamie.drysdale
→ jamie.drysdale you better treat my sister right. 🙂🙂 adamfantilli
→ adamfantilli no no no it’s not like that i swear
→ dylanduke25 i take it back, cole’s the only one that’s happy now
→ yourusername DUKER STOP
next chapter
notes )
i’m enjoying these a little too much 🤭
always gotta add in those little luke moments for yall AND WHEN I TELL YOU I LOVE THISSSSSS (jk i came back after i wrote it and i kinda hate it)
and i said i’d be gone for finals week but.. i’m speeding through these bc they’re too fun so i’m choosing to feed yall 🤍🤍🤍
#luke hughes#luke hughes x reader#luke hughes x y/n#luke hughes fic#luke hughes fanfic#quinn hughes#jack hughes#cole caufield#alex turcotte#trevor zegras#jamie drysdale#mark estapa#mackie samoskevich#dylan duke#ethan edwards#rutger mcgroarty#luca fantilli#adam fantilli
277 notes
·
View notes
Note
Can you do a smutty jack Hughes (like juraj and arber) ??
Jack Hughes smutty thots
you don’t gotta tell me twice to write about my baby daddy!!
Jack has such boyfriend energy when it comes to sex
Like that boyfriend you have in college that you experiment with and the two of you have a lot of firsts together
He loves having sex anywhere and anytime
He’ll drag you into the locker room before a game
“Come on y/n, no one’s in here they’re all on the ice for warm ups. It’ll be quick.”
You’re always so hesitant but somehow he always convinces you
He spends a lot of time beforehand just staring at your naked body
Hands running down your chest and stomach, “Fuck, you’re just so perfect”
Ohhhh how fine he looks as he bites his lip
Sometimes he forgets foreplay, that horny boy just wants to get straight to fucking
So you talk him through a lot
“Am I doing it right?” He’ll ask innocently as he’s going down on you
He’ll always look up at you while he gives you head, always trying to make sure you feel good
The fingering and clit sucking combo he does is immaculate
Once he gets the hang of it he’s perfect
He hits juuuust the right spot with his index and middle finger while swirling his tongue around your rose bud
When you squeal in pleasure he can’t help but laugh while still attached to you, chuckles reverberating through you
Much more of a receiver than a giver, he’s selfish with sex (he’s such a spoiled brat but I can’t help but love him)
He just lovessss how good you look while choking on his length
Holding your hair in a ponytail, he nods in approval “mmhmm just like that. Keep going and I’m gonna cum babe”
I feel like his dick is so pretty
Like it’s cut and the tip is a cute rosy pink. It has a single vein that just runs up the underside.
He either keeps is nice and trimmed or has a small bush, not too much tho cause he’s a manscaper lmfao
He has a lil happy trail that leads from his v-line downwards
It’s not a thick happy trail but it’s visible
He’s a biter
He loves to leave sloppy kisses along your tummy that end in tiny lil bites
It just leaves shivers down your spine
I feel like he loves a good hair tug
you give him the slightest bit of pressure when you tug his locks, ouuu it sets him off
He’s a freak for public sex
Has a list of places he wants to do it. This includes a beach, the movies, while he drives, and on the private plane (which are all going to be smuts soon wink wink lmk which one to do first)
He also has a voyeurism kink,,
Like he loves to fuck your loudly while his friends are over
It’s like he wants all of them to hear you screaming his name
“Mhmm, let ‘em know who’s making you feel this fucking good”
He’s just always so horny
He has to fuck you like five times a day
He wakes up, wants to fuck, before practice, wants to fuck, right before bed, wants to fuck
It’s insane that his skinny lil body has all that stamina
He loves to cuddle afterwards
He keeps a rag/baby wipes by the bed so he can clean you up as fast as possible because he just wants to lay in your arms
He honestly just loves being [half] naked with you
Little to no clothes is his favorite
He loves when you just wear one of his t shirts and your panties
It’s easier to access, just bend you over and fuck you wherever you are
Sex with him is just fun and cute
It gets hot and heavy
But it’s like young love sex
It’s romantic and silly and something you just remember forever
God I’m getting heartbroken cause I can’t fuck him rn!!!!
#jack hughes thots#Jack hughes smut#starbabyg#jack hughes drabble#jack hughes headcanon#jack hughes one shot#jack hughes dirty#Jack hughes#starbabyganon#starbabygasks#hockey fic#hockey imagine#starbabyg anon#nhl imagine#starbabyg asks#hockey smut#nhl smut#starbabyg masterlist#starbabyg drabble#starbabygsmut
321 notes
·
View notes
Text
thank god for bikes | arthurtv
inspired by @mrstelevision 🤍
face claim: steph bohrer ♡
request: here !
───────── ౨ৎ ─────────
📍 london
liked by gkbarry, max_balegde, and 98,302 others
y/nsworld about last night ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
view all 3,392 comments
user1 i'm in love with you
gkbarry cant believe i didn't even get photo creds
↳ y/nsworld please forgive my sins oh great gkbarry
user2 y/n!! i think the guys u mentioned on ur twt was george clarke and arthurtv!! arthur posted on twt about george getting hit by a bike on a wall!!
↳ y/nsworld !! let me check his twt <3
liked by y/nsworld, wroetoshaw and 29,492 others
arthurtv first pic taken moments before disaster (at least this one won't leave a scar)
georgeclarkeey don't know what was worse, the bike ptsd or you dribbling down your shirt
↳ arthurtv your mum doesn't mind my dribbling
↳ y/nsworld the dribbling was funnier to watch tbh
↳ georgeclarkeey take that mr television
gkbarry i didn't even notice it was you guys hiding in the corner
↳ georgeclarkeey just wanted some alone time with my boyfriend x
↳ arthurtv stop telling people i'm your boyfriend!!
👤 max_balegde
liked by max_balegde, arthurtv and 38,028 others
y/nsworld wine in coffee cups and classic literature in a park, my idea of heaven ꕤ
max_balegde got home off my head and now andrews mad i've ruined dinner plans
↳ y/nsworld andrew baby im so sorry :(
↳ andrew_spanndy could never blame you xx
↳ max_balegde god just date her already wooooow
gkbarry regret introducing the two of you, my poor ears will never recover from this
↳ y/nsworld thats your fault for putting two professional yappers together xx
arthurtv pretty sure that's bride you're reading... wouldn't call werewolf smut classic literature
↳ y/nsworld and how do YOU know what's in the book? 🤨
👤 arthur_tv, max_balegde
liked by y/nsworld, arthurnfhill and 30,395 others
georgeclarkeey totally normal photo to promote the newest useless hotline ep x
max_balegde rip my purple crocs... can't believe y/n stole them right off my feet...
↳ user2 !!! y/n at the arthurtv podcast recording?? my y/ntv senses are tingling
↳ user3 i'm pretty sure she was there bc her and max are friends...
♥️ y/nsworld
↳ user2 they've never randomly had their friends at recordings, dw you'll join the y/ntv cult soon
📍 ibiza
👤 georgeclarkeey, chrismd, arthurnfhill
liked by arthurnfhill, y/nsworld and 45,028 others
arthurtv thank you spotify for inviting us out! (photo cred: y/nsworld)
user2 i am going to scream from the rooftops, y/ntv'ers unite!!
y/nsworld should receive compensation for having to look at george's bare grippers the entire weekend
↳ arthurtv will bring round some wine this weekend
↳ y/nsworld good boy
↳ user2 ... y'all are fucking with me atp
📍 ibiza
liked by arthurtv, gkbarry and 83,028 others
y/nsworld beach bum 𓇼
gkbarry happiness looks so good on you
↳ y/nsworld i love the bones of you
user2 !! WHO TOOK THE PHOTO I FEEL INSANE
↳ y/nsworld my friend! :)
📍 ibiza
liked by y/nsworld, georgeclarkeey and 49,204 others
arthurtv decided to stay in the sunshine a few more days :)
user3 user2 i fear you may be onto something
↳ user2 i'm gonna eat glass. like i am actually putting shards in my mouth rn
↳ y/nsworld omg pls don't
y/nsworld looking good mr television
↳ arthurtv why thank you miss world
liked by arthurtv, max_balegde and 83,028 others
y/nsworld use code ynsworld for 15% off ⋆⭒˚｡⋆
max_balegde leaving my bf for you rn.
↳ andrew_spanndy not if i leave you first
↳ y/nsworld i can date both of you at the same time xx
arthurtv djsidjief djg
↳ y/nsworld you ok mr television?
y/nsworld didn't even think about what i was wearing when i went to go see mr hill sing about cold coffee, sorry guys you got the wrong arthur xx
POST DELETED
👤 y/nsworld
liked by y/nsworld, arthurnfhill and 93,294 others
arthurtv someone forgot to change over to their finsta so i guess it's hard launch time... somehow got the most gorgeous girl on earth to agree to date me, must be my fantastic sense of humour
y/nsworld lbr most of them already knew, we weren't exactly subtle
↳ arthurtv speak for yourself xx
theburntchip it's the big ol' hog you got in them trousers
♥️ y/nsworld
↳ arthurtv ah yes forgot about that
max_balegde take care of her or me and andrew are snatching her real quick
↳ y/nsworld ... i may have to do some rethinking
user2 i can't believe i was right... VINDICATION
♥️ arthurtv, y/nsworld
👤 arthur_tv
liked by arthurtv, gkbarry and 104,845 others
y/nsworld told him i forgot to change to finsta but really i just wanted to show that i bagged a hottie ✮⋆˙
georgeclarkeey still can't believe you snatched him from right under my nose
↳ y/nsworld we're still in the honeymoon phase so i may give him back x
↳ arthurtv what the fuck
gkbarry crying into a pint of ice cream thanks xx
↳ y/nsworld you know you're the love of my life xx
y/nsworld also user2 sorry for gaslighting you xx
↳ user2 i have never been so happy to be gaslighted could do a happy lil cry
↳ y/nsworld our fave y/ntv'er we love you ♡
#arthur tv imagine#arthur tv x reader#arthurtv imagine#arthurtv x reader#arthurtv fluff#arthurtv fics#arthur frederick imagines#arthur frederick x reader#arthur frederick fics
305 notes
·
View notes
Text
☆ wish i could forget.mp3 ☆ [hit me where it hurts pt.2]
/ the sad ending /
♡ genre ¿? ♡ -> double the angst
♡ pair ¿? ♡ -> ot8!skz x gn!reader
♡ plot ¿? ♡ -> words that left scars on you are not easy to forget.
♡ warnings ¿? ♡ -> cursing ; arguments ; no happy endings
♡ request ¿? ♡ -> yes!
first part -> hyung line | maknae line
a/n: so before you read, there’s gonna be a make up version of this reaction. i decided to get the sad one out first because it’s the one i could write rn :] but seriously i am overwhelmed by the support and the love that i have received. i gained so many followers and likes/reblogs that it’s insane to me. thank you all for everything and enjoy the heartbreak! unless you wanna wait for the happier version.
chan ✉
as chan took every step to your shared apartment, everything felt like it was crumbling apart. he couldn't sleep, he felt like he was suffocating in the dorms so he spent most of the night at the studio. exactly the opposite of what you would've wanted and that led him to think the worst of the worst. he knew he had messed up big time, he knew you were only trying to help him and this is how he repays you?
putting the key in the lock, he felt dread in his heart as he walked in. everything looked too perfect, like you weren't even there but as soon as his eyes stopped looking around, he saw you. you were standing there, bloodshot eyes as you finished... packing.
"please don't tell me this is what i think it is." he said and you just looked at him. a sad look in your eyes, as he tried to process everything that was happening and what he was gonna say but nothing was coming out. oh god, he was panicking, he did not want you to leave. "please (y/n) i'll do anything."
"i made my decision. i would rather not be here if i'm not wanted and if i am gonna be treated like this. i'm sorry but there's nothing you can do that's gonna make me stay." you said and if he didn't feel broken and obsolete before, he was feeling pure numbness now.
"we can work this out. this was a one time thing!" he said and this time oh did the tears fall from his eyes.
"it's not the first time chris and i think it's not gonna be the last time either." you said picking up your suitcase and heading towards the front door as chan looked in horror at the scene unfolding. "i'm sorry it had to end this way."
"i should be saying sorry, i fucked everything up." he said clearly and you just got close to him again, pressing a kiss to his wet cheek and wiping away the tears.
"you'll be okay." no, no he definitely wouldn't be as he watched you leave from the apartment you two shared so many memories with and now they're gone. taken from him just like the power in him to stand up, as his legs gave out and the knot in his throat got tighter.
minho ✉
another award and you weren't there. this time for a good reason though and he still couldn't process his words, the ones he spoke with such cruelty and the instant regret that hit him when he would try to call you and would lead to voicemail. when he got off stage and the first thing he did was check his phone to see no messages, he felt like crying right then and there. he was not one to cry at all but since the fight, he felt like he could feel the tears coming in at any minute.
he knew the boys were all still confused about what happened and wondering why you didn't show up anymore. he didn't know how to explain that he was the one who messed up. he felt such disappointment in himself and carried it everywhere with him, he just couldn't function without you.
he checked his phone again, texting one more time but this time they wouldn't send. no, that could not mean what he thought it meant right? that's not what he's thinking. he decided to leave without explanation and not care about his image or the professionalism of it all, he just wanted to see you and talk. as soon as he found himself in front of your door, he knocked and waited for you to come out. as soon as he saw you in front of him, no words were coming out of his mouth.
"minho? what do you want? i already left your things at the dorms." he didn't even have time to check that and it felt like everything was suddenly drifting away from him. "i know i didn't say anything but i think the things you said were enough for this to happen right?".
"i can't leave you (y/n), i know i fucked up immensely and that you don't want anything to do with me but please i'm asking for another chance." he said and felt his world crumbling when he saw you shake your head.
"i wish i could forget what you said but i don't think i ever will. maybe it's stupid of me to do this and i will regret it later but right now? it feels like the right choice, goodbye minho." you said as you closed the door and left his figure standing there.
changbin ✉
chan and jisung decided to go with him to the dorms as they were still trying to figure out what happened. they knew changbin didn't have the biggest temper but they never saw him get mad at you. he eventually said what happened exactly and he could sense the disappointment in his bandmates as he explained it but they were still there to support him through it all. even with that, he felt completely lost and heartbroken, he couldn't seem to forget the look in your eyes.
he decided to try and call you, maybe you had calmed down by that point. maybe you were ready to yell at him for what happened. maybe you wouldn't pick up at all and this would be the way you two drifted apart.
luckily you picked up but not so luckily he would have to hear some heartbreaking words.
"hey bin. i know what you're gonna say and i'm gonna say it before you. i don't think i can forgive you for what you said and i think it's better if we go our separate ways. like you said i get in your way too much and maybe someone else would be better for you." before he could answer, you were hanging up and leaving him absolutely speechless. he didn't even sense the tears coming out of his eyes as he tried to dial your number again and call you but it looked like you turned off your phone.
the fact that he made you feel like this, was gonna haunt him. he wanted to go to your apartment so bad but he found himself like he couldn’t move as he wiped the tears but they did not seem to stop. the part where you said he should be with someone else when all he could think, dream and feel was you. all he wanted was you and yet a part of him knew that after what happened you deserved better.
he sat down eventually and waited for someone to push him out of that state he was in. thankfully felix was there with him as he had no words but at least he held him as he still repeated your words in his mind.
"there's no one better than them lix. there's literally no one." he said as his friend tried to console him but there was no cure for a broken heart.
hyunjin ✉
as much as he insisted he was fine, he was far from it. he didn't know what he was doing most of the time as he expected for you to walk in. he wanted to see you so badly yet he was scared and as the days passed he was sure that this was the end unfortunately. he was tired of waiting so he headed to your work one day, being done with going back and forth and in circles around this fight. he didn't know what he was gonna say as he waited outside but he surely did know that he had to do something before it all fell apart.
"hyunjin? what are you doing here?" you asked and he could already sense by the tone of your voice, you did not want to see him.
"i wanted to talk to you, about what happened and about us." he said and you crossed your arms 'cause the last thing you wanted to do was to fight again with him outside of your work. "listen, i know i should've called you or showed up earlier but-."
"but you didn't and now it's too late. i really don't wanna hear it." you said as you headed towards the opposite direction but he grabbed your wrist before you could walk away. "let go, seriously what the hell hyunjin? you hurt me and then leave me all alone, expecting for me to hear you out?"
"i don't know why i didn't contact you okay? i was a fucking idiot. but please i'm here now and i want to fix things, it's been hell without you." he says honestly and raising his voice. he wasn't mad, he was just frustrated and tired of the fighting but this time he knew he deserved to go through this 'cause what you went through was worse.
"well i don't want to. i'm done with you and i don't want to see you ever again." he let go then and felt a lonely tear fall from his eye. you went away, far from him and the pain he brought. you didn't want anything to do with him anymore and he knew this would be the last time he saw you so he stood there as he watched you. walk away from him and his life forever.
jisung ✉
you in fact did not come back to jisung. it's been so long without you, he started to forget what being with you was like. every love song turned into a sad heartbreak song in the lyrics he wrote, every step he took was in direction towards your apartment but he couldn't go back there. he felt so alone and broken, how could he be so careless? how could he say that stuff to you? those words kept repeating in his head over and over.
you were never too much and you definitely didn't make his life difficult. you made everything so much better, right now it just felt like it was all crumbling.
"jisung? i'm sorry, i was just packing my stuff." he didn't even know how he got here, he must've confused himself again and thought he was going to the dorms. but here you were standing in front of him with boxes upon boxes of stuff that you had packed. you didn't take the photos or the presents that he gave you and that left a sour taste in his mouth.
"it's okay, it's not like i come here anyways." he said and that left you confused but then you realized that yeah it was hard to walk in here. too many memories that blinded you and saddened the atmosphere. "can we talk?" he asked and you didn't know what there was to talk about.
"i think it's better if we don't. before we say things we regret again." you said and that was a dagger to jisung's heart. of course you were still mad, what was he thinking? that you were gonna give him a second chance? that everything was gonna be alright?
"i will always be sorry (y/n), please know that." he said and you nodded, not believing a word he said. he sighed as he left the apartment, hoping to never come back. he wouldn't see you in it again so what was the point right? no more future that held you two, it was just him on his own again. and that was worse than anything he had ever felt.
felix ✉
he was already calling you as soon as chan got home from dropping you off. he didn't know what came over him when he pronounced those words but he was surely gonna make things up even if it took him everything. he knew you needed distance right now but he needed to know how you were (and guess who's clingy now?).
"baby, listen i know you don't want to talk to me right now but please i hope you know that i didn't mean a thing i said. i was just in a bad mood but it's not an excuse for what i said and-." he knew he was gonna get cut off, he was just rambling but everything that you said cut through him.
"so that's what you came up with? listen i don't know what gives you the right to use an insecurity of mine against me but i'm not gonna tolerate it. it was a low point for me that you did that and i don't think i'm gonna be able to move on past it especially after i told you that those kinds of comments still hurt." you said clearly, there was no sadness or anger in your voice. it was just plain and simple what you said yet felix felt like falling apart right then and there.
"i know love and i'm deeply sorry. i won't insist on it but please if you reconsider, call me? i know i shouldn't have messed with that. i truly do love you forever and ever." he said but you did not want to hear it so you hanged up and left him right there, with no more words coming out of his mouth. chan who witnessed the whole scene and expected you two to make up but it looked like it was from reality.
"lix, i'm so sorry." he said as to which the other nodded and sighed. he didn't want to cry in front of his hyung but it was inevitable when the tears were just rolling freely through his cheeks. he was wrapped in chan's arms as he let go of what he feared the most and started to think how he was going to handle his life without you in it.
seungmin ✉
ever since he said those things, everything changed. you two were still together but it was never the same, it felt like he was trying to compensate for the hurt of his words with material things, sweet words and dates. it was enough for him to realize that he was never gonna be able to completely make it up to you because he didn't know how to solve what his words did.
so when he saw you packing even if it hurt so fucking much, he had to let you go. he had to actually live with the reality that you were not be with him anymore, no more fake smiles or pretending to be fine. you weren't okay with him and it showed.
"i'm sorry it had to be like this. i wish i never said those things to you and we both could be okay again." he said sadly and with a cloudy vision. it felt like all the air was taken from his lungs and like he was trapped in a room with no way out.
"i wish i could forget them." you said calmly and gave him a little smile as you hugged him one last time. he held you tightly not wanting to let go because this moment would be one that he never forgot. it just pained him that he hurt you so deeply that it made you want to leave. it scarred him that he made so much damage that nothing could repair it even if it wasn't the best solution, he was still trying right?
"i love you (y/n)." there was no response, just your broken smile as you looked at him again and left. it finally broke him that there was no more, no more love, no more relationship and no more holding on. he didn't know what he was gonna do without you and picking up the pieces of what you had been was not the solution. he had to grow up and be better next time in his next relationship. yet he didn't see that happening, he just wanted you and will always want you.
jeongin ✉
did you talk later? no, he wasn't ready to have the conversation. you also weren't ready to confront him about his words. it felt like the perfect picture was ruined immediately when you heard him mutter his cold and harsh words. he felt like he did everything wrong, it was hard to get him out of his room because all he wanted was to close the door and never come out of it. he wanted to see you but everything was stopping him, he truly thought you deserved better this time.
when he finally saw you because you were the one who decided it was enough and you two needed to talk. he felt like falling right then and there in your arms where he belonged but he couldn't do that, at least not again.
"i'm sorry (y/n)." he said and looked at you for a response. he knew he should say more but he couldn't find the right phrasing of things to go with it so he just said the words that came out of his heart. "i should have never said that and i'm deeply sorry that i hurt you."
"i'm sorry for not being what you wanted innie. it's okay, i guess it was gonna happen. i hope you'll be okay after this and that you grow from it." ouch, you didn't know how much these words would be kept in his head like a mantra. he wanted to grow from it now, he wanted to be better right now for you and for you guys to be okay but this was more like a goodbye than a hello.
"please don't go." he said and you just kissed him to shut him up one last time. his hands met your cheeks as he deepened the kiss not wanting this to be your final one but knowing all too well that it was. you would stay there, standing in the living room looking at each other for a while to then let go and leave him stranded like you two just didn't share the most precious and hurtful kiss. it wasn't okay, none of it will be okay without you in his life and as much as he would want to move on, everything would bring him back here again.
#sourbinnie#skz imagines#skz reactions#skz drabbles#skz scenarios#skz#stray kids#stray kids x reader#skz x reader#skz angst#stray kids imagines#stray kids angst#stray kids x gn reader#skz x gn reader#skz x you#stray kids x you#felix x reader#jisung x reader#chan x reader#changbin x reader#hyunjin x reader#seungmin x reader#jeongin x reader#minho x reader
587 notes
·
View notes
Text
I AM NOT UR GF -
[ ot7 x reader ]
SEOKJIN -
y/n: i’ll kill you
jin: i’m into that
y/n: ur going to hell
jin: i’ll take you with me
y/n: i’m going to heaven i’m an angel
jin: my angel
y/n: gross
jin: only for you
y/n: we are not together
jin: ???
sorry i can’t read
y/n: clearly
jin: take ur clothes off
y/n: ???
jin: sorry autocorrect
y/n: why did you tell the boys we are dating?
jin: i did?
lmao yeah i did
sorry i could never lie to the loml like that
y/n: what?
jin: ur on my will
y/n: happy one day to us 🥂❤️
jin: i like being used
y/n: yk what i’m having second thoughts
jin: as long as it’s you using me
y/n: uncomfortable rn
jin: i’ll make you comfortable
y/n: ur the cause
jin: ur my cause ❤️
y/n: what does that even mean??
jin: kiss me
y/n: leave me alone i’m tired
jin: i’ll build you a bed
y/n: what
jin: i cook
y/n: ur like 62
jin: age is a construct
y/n: ur gonna get arrested with a mindset like that
jin: would go to jail 10x over for you
y/n: out of context this looks insane
jin: you make me insane
and keep me sane ❤️
y/n: what
are you drunk?
jin: a bit
y/n: yikes
jin: my hips work
y/n: i would hope so?
jin: use me
y/n: you need to be put down immediately
JIMIN -
y/n: ummmmm?????
jimin: ummmmm?????
y/n: i am not ur gf
jimin: ummmmm?????
y/n: why are you telling people i’m ur gf
jimin: ummmmm?????
y/n: ummmmm?????
jimin: i thought it was time to tell people
y/n: tell people lies???
jimin: we are always together anyways i am doing us a favour tbh
y/n: “am” so ur still actively telling people that we are together?
jimin: ur so smart this is why i love you 😘
y/n: so were you in love with me when you flirted with the waitress right in front of me when we went out YESTERDAY?
jimin: why were you jealous?? 😏
y/n: ur actually insane like clinically insane
jimin: it was a moment of weakness babe 🥺
y/n: moment of weakness??
you have like 20 of those a day
jimin: omg i’m just a natural flirt yk i can’t help it 😞
y/n: i think the word ur looking for is whore?
jimin: I AM NOT A WHORE
y/n: yeah ok
jimin: unless you want me to be a whore then i’m the biggest whore you know honestly and truly!!!!!!
y/n: ur gross
jimin: ofc i’ll marry you!
y/n: ???
jimin: wow i’m so emotional rn
i love you i’m so excited for our future
i know some people may say we’re moving to fast but idc the truth is that i’m so in love with you i can hardly breathe!!!
y/n: get actual help.
HOSEOK -
hobi: we
y/n: no
hobi: us
y/n: no
hobi: hands held
y/n: no
hobi: mouth 2 mouth
y/n: still no
hobi: i told my parents about us
y/n: ur mother is gonna beat ur ass for lying
hobi: i told the boys about us
y/n: we are not together
hobi: the company is next
y/n: you won’t live to see another day if you do
hobi: i hope our kids have ur eyes
y/n: i can report you for harassment you know?
hobi: my pretty gf
i love you ^^
y/n: blushed for a second
that’s all you’ll ever get out of me
hobi: ur soosososososo cute
σ(≧ε≦σ) ♡
i’m gonna eat you
y/n: this isn’t right
hobi: this is the rightest thing ever
y/n: go outside or something
hobi: come with me
y/n: there is no hope for the kids these days 😞
JUNGKOOK -
y/n: DO YOU KNOW HOW EMBARRASSING IT IS TO BE FLIRTING WITH THE KIM MINGYU AND FOR HIM TO BE LIKE “ARE YOU NOT DATING JK?”
jk: i’m going to kill myself
y/n: ARE YOU SICK IN THE HEAD IM GOING TO FIND YOU AND KILL YOU
jk: i’m already dead
y/n: GOOD
jk: i can’t believe you talk to other men
oh my god i cjant breathe rn iMmm loosing vision hhe lp mmme…
y/n: IM SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU OH MY GODODJD
jk: so like did you did you tell him we’re together or…
y/n: NO U SICKX SICK FUCK
I TOLD HIM NO IM NOT WITH FUCKING JUNGKOOK ARE YOU OUT OF UR MIND
jk: wow
in all caps like that?? a bit harsh
y/n: FUCK YOU
jk: pls stop shouting yk im a sensitive soul
y/n: WHY DID YOU TELL HIM WE ARE TOGETHER????????
jk: i didn’t tell him directly omg?
i messaged him
y/n: WTF IS UR PROBLEM????
jk: WAIT DID YOU JUST SAY YOU WERE FLIRTING WITH MINGYU?????????????????????
WHAT THE FUCKCKCKDK
y/n: i hate you
i’ve never wanted to push someone out of a building so bad until i met you
jk: that’s kinda cute
you think of me??
i love you too
y/n: you have 3 days to live
jk: as long as i’m with you nothing can take me out
y/n: shut the fuck up
yk know whose taking me out tho?
mingyu 🥰
jk: what
y/n: ?
jk: i have dispatch on the phone rn
y/n: tell them
being mingyu’s gf publicly? a dream come true tbh 😍
jk: when ur new bf is kicked out his group becomes broke and is living on the streets i’m sure ur dream will be alive and well
y/n: oh it will
with my baby through thick and thin 🤞🏽
jk: i’m going to kill myself
y/n: idc!
jk: i love you
TAEHYUNG -
y/n: stop telling people we are dating i will block you
tae: did you know i need u girl was about you
y/n: didn’t even know you then
tae: i’ve always known you
y/n: creepy as hell
tae: to some
y/n: to all
tae: why don’t you want me
y/n: ur not mark lee
tae: i’m kim taehyung
y/n: exactly
tae: you could get jumped for saying stuff like that these days
y/n: oh well
it was worth it
tae: i wish you knew
i wish you knew i wanted you
y/n: i know
and you got the lyrics completely wrong
tae: my lyrics may be wrong but my feelings for you aren’t
y/n: are you not with jennie?
tae: stfu?
y/n: loser
tae: she’s not my type
you are 😘
y/n: wishing i was jennie hours 😞🙏🏽
tae: you’ll will literally never be happy without me
y/n: that’s so crazy cuz i’m like over the moon rn
tae: that’s because i’m messaging you
y/n: pretty sure it’s because i’m not with you but whatever helps you sleep at night
tae: you help me sleep at night
y/n: tough
tae: :(
YOONGI -
y/n: i’m ur girlfriend now?
yoongi: what?
y/n: you’re telling people i’m your girlfriend?
yoongi: might be true might be false
y/n: kinda crazy
yoongi: do you not want to me my girlfriend?
y/n: no?
yoongi: 😢
y/n: cry me a river
yoongi: i will
then i’ll drown myself in it
y/n: dramatic much?
yoongi: i just got my heart broken can you have someone sympathy
y/n: L
yoongi: maybe like kiss me on the lips or something and i’ll be better idk tho
y/n: is min yoongi being open and honest with me rn???
times have changed i must say
yoongi: having a gf does that to a man
y/n: really?
yoongi: yep being in love is crazy
y/n: love? so it’s pretty serious between you two then?
yoongi: yeah i’m gonna marry her
y/n: wowwww how long have you guys been together then?
yoongi: 3 years in my head but i only started telling people 3 days ago
y/n: you are not right in the head
yoongi: love is crazy
y/n: i think it’s just you fr
yoongi: 🥲
NAMJOON -
y/n: DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
namjoon: hi
y/n: shut ur mouth
namjoon: 🤐
y/n: we are NOT together
N
O
T
together
do you understand?
namjoon: 🚫❌⁉️
y/n: well start understanding
namjoon: 🙅🏻♂️🚫
y/n: i’m sick and tired of you
namjoon: 🙎🏽♀️➡️👨⚕️🏥
y/n: bye
namjoon: 🥺
y/n: what is with ur obsession with me???
are you that bitchless omg??
namjoon: logically speaking
y/n: you have never spoke a logical word in your life
namjoon: okay nvm
y/n: namjoon you are down ridiculously bad at first it was cute i WAS blushing and giggling now i’m just concerned
namjoon: date me
y/n: that is NOT how you ask a girl out
namjoon: help me out here
y/n: i will not help you in the slightest
namjoon: that’s just mean
y/n: ur a freak
namjoon: am not
y/n: you so are
namjoon: go on a date with me
y/n: where is the the question mark?? are you asking me or telling me??
namjoon: ur being ridiculous
go on a date with me?
there
y/n: hehehehehhehehehe
okay!!!
namjoon: FR??
y/n: no lol
namjoon: that was so mean
y/n: :p
namjoon: dating me would probably mean free food for life
y/n: probably or definitely?
namjoon: *definitely
y/n: wait i’m kinda in love with you
namjoon: lol me 2 let’s makeout rn
y/n: i lied
namjoon: ur annoying
y/n: mwah
namjoon: did you just kiss me?
are you deeply attracted to me or something?
kinda cringe kinda hot i want you
y/n: didn’t know 2:25 am were your disgustingly desperate hours
namjoon: it’s not my fault it’s 2:25 in the morning and all i can think about is you
should i write i song about you?
would you be my gf then?
y/n: pls don’t
namjoon: it’s too late
y/n: if i go on a date with you will you shut the hell up and go to sleep
namjoon: YES
YESZYSS YES YES YES YES YESH
YESSYESYSYSYYDYD
yes
i might lol
y/n: see you tomorrow
namjoon: gn
y/n: gn
namjoon: gf 🤭
we hit 200 since when omg?? anyways feeling like i should do a “i’m not ur bf” ver but idk yet thoughts? u might get it next year or never but it’s the fact that i thought about writing it that counts!!
#bts crack#bts fanfic#bts fluff#bts imagines#bts fic#bts text#bts x reader#bts x y/n#namjoon x reader#jin x reader#yoongi x reader#hoseok x reader#jimin x reader#taehyung x reader#jungkook x reader#bts texts#rm x reader#suga x reader#v x reader#jhope x reader#hobi x reader#bts fake chats#bts incorrect texts#ot7 x reader
509 notes
·
View notes
Text
ੈ✩‧₊˚ PADDOCK TO PADDOCK (LN) PART 5
series masterlist | prev part | next part
lando norris x fem!horse rider!reader
yourusername just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by landonorris, lilymhe and 192,306 others
yourusername 🇬🇧⏭️🇸🇬
👤 tagged landonorris
view all 10,093 comments
user3 bestie is travelling the world a lot with him huh
user5 and they still deny they’re dating
landonorris 🧡
liked by yourusername
texts with lily ੈ✩‧₊˚
lando.jpg just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by danielricciardo and 90,361 others
lando.jpg exploring singapore
view all 3,498 comments
user4 WHAT THE FUCK MISS Y/N. THAT IS ILLEGAL
user5 so glad i’m not the only one freaking out over that secOND PHOTO
user7 SHE. SHES. MY GOD.
user9 does she not have the olympics or something to train for🙄
daniel.jpg is this why you’ve been hiding from me
yourusername ur not the favourite anymore
mclaren posted stories ੈ✩‧₊˚
mclaren just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by scuderiaferrari, your username and 120,417 others
mclaren P2 IN SINGAPORE AND CARLANDO PODIUM?! WHAT A RACE!
👤 tagged landonorris, carlossainz55, scuderiaferrari
view all 10,506 comments
user5 CARLANDOOOO😭😭😭😭
user2 TEARS IN MY EYES
user7 FOREVER OUR MCLAREN BOYS (oscar we love u as well)
yourusername someone raced well huh
mclaren we heard it had something to do with a certain incentive👀
user6 whAT IS GOING ON
twitter reacts ੈ✩‧₊˚
landonorris just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by carlossainz55, yourusername and 250,710 others
landonorris an insane weekend. and this time i took away two trophies🧡
👤tagged carlossainz55, yourusername
view all 54,200 comments
user3 huh
user7 i am. is this confirmation? i don’t understand
yourusername baby u are so cute but the caption makes me seem like a trophy wife😭
user5 SO THEY. THEY ARE ?????
user8 CARLANDO PODIUM AND Y/NANDO DATING??? WHAT IS HAPPENING TODAY
yourusername just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by landonorris, lilymhe and 234,109 others
yourusername told him if he got podium i’d be his girlfriend. guess i’m a pretty proud girlfriend right about now🧡
👤 tagged landonorris
view all 37,008 comments
user5 OH MY GOD THAT WAS THE INCENTIVE
user1 ITS HAPPENING EVERYONE STAY CALM
lilymhe ‘i don’t have time for a relationship’ - you in my messages a month ago
yourusername LEAVE ME ALONE SHDJJSJS
landonorris 🫣
user13 going to cry there’s a new mom and dad on the grid!
alex_albon so i’ve been forgotten
oscarpiastri @/landonorris you can stop pining in my dms now
landonorris PLEASE SHUT UP
yourusername IM OMW TO UR HOTEL ROOM SHOW ME RN.
landonorris made me wait long enough but you’re worth a thousand years of waiting
user7 oh he’s WHIPPED
lando.jpg just posted a photo ੈ✩‧₊˚
liked by yourusername, flo_norris_showjumping and 108,333 others
lando.jpg you’ve been my favourite view for a while, but i’m glad i get to share it now. let’s go get you a medal baby🧡
view all 10,926 comments
user9 🙄
user3 HOPE UR CRYING RN
user6 LOLLLLL
user2 y’all are so sickeningly sweet and i love it
flo_norris_showjumping glad you got your shit together bro🩷
user7 MY FAVES ANDBWHXJSJSJ
user1 crying. sobbing. shaking. tears are flowing
yourusername 🩷 i adore you so bad
daniel.jpg you’re still a loser but i’m happy for you
taglist: @idkiwantchocolatee @vellicora @alessioayla @bborra @crimeshowjunkie @minkyungseokie @paolexsstuff @celestialpato @champagnelovers101
a/n: i know it seems like the end but it’s NOT i have a little more planned so hold on <<33 just some soppy relationship stuff really
taglist found here
- giselle xx
#🐴 paddock to paddock#f1#f1 x reader#lando norris#lando norris x reader#mclaren#lando norris au#lando norris blurb#lando norris imagine#lando norris scenario#lando norris smau
402 notes
·
View notes
Text
Now that I've had time to Absorb mentally. Several things.
-Luffy going from overeating to swearing off eating entirely. Homie that CANNOT be good for you. And the fact that he's willing to not eat unless it's Sanji's food...that's so. INCREDIBLY significant. Bc it's been very clearly established how much Luffy LOVES food. His stomach is literally a black hole. Eating gives him strength and makes him happy. He enjoys food so much he steals it off other people's plates. He's so impatient when it comes to meals that he'll sneak into the kitchen to try and mooch before it's ready. And now he's refusing all that...for Sanji. He's going to sit there and starve himself, even though he doesn't like being hungry, even though food is one of the most important things to him, even though he has a CHOICE to eat and he CAN eat but he's not going to because it's not food Sanji made for him. The fact that food is such a central part of Luffy's character and who he is, and that we know he never does anything he doesn't want to do, it just makes me. GODDD. Why is he like this why are they like this I'm insane
-THE FACT THAT THEY LITERALLY DID THE MONTAGE OF ALL THEIR MEMORIES TOGETHER. JESUS CHRIST. That was a low blow. And also the gayest shit I've ever seen. Yeah let's just drive it in even further how important these two are to each other and how much it's tearing them both apart that Sanji's leaving by showing all their wonderful moments together. I was literally full on SOBBING at this point. Fucking RUDE smh
-Sanji being SO self sacrificial makes me want to cry I CANNOT with him rn,, It's to the point where he feels like he can't even rely on his nakama because he just wants to protect them. Like he could have easily told them what was going on. But he decided he'd chase them away, for their own safety, because Zeff's already in danger and Sanji can't risk losing his crew too. He couldn't bear to see any of them get hurt by the family that's been tormenting him for years. So he hurts HIMSELF by pushing them away. He loves them so so much that he's willing to cut ties with them completely and make them hate him so that they'll stay SAFE. GOD. Except Luffy sees right through that act bc he knows Sanji too well 😭 The fact that even Nami didn't realize that Sanji was just trying to protect them makes me so emo she really did think he'd been lying to them all along...GIRL have more faith in your nakama!!
-Luffy refusing to give up on Sanji, not ever, I'm going to explode, that is HIS nakama HIS cook and he won't stop until he can bring him home. BASHING my head against the wall
-Also I already talked about The Line in my last post but here I'll share my tags
I need to be put down I think I am so unwell rn
#SORRY. I'M SORRY. I JUST NEEDED TO GET MY THOUGHTS OUT#Oda was successful he put a bullet RIGHT through my heart. She is bleeding now. I am crying#Sanlu#Lusan#One Piece#WCI#Whole Cake Island#Sanji#Luffy#Monkey D Luffy#Black Leg Sanji#They are in LOVE your honor!!!#Things are rough rn but they'll work out I KNOW they will#Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt tho. CHRIST.#Feverishly rewriting their farewell as we speak. AKA Sanji kisses Luffy goodbye instead of beating him senseless#Shima speaks
122 notes
·
View notes
Text
sooooo i may have. spent my day binge watching dungeon meshi and here are my Opinions, having never read the manga ever (very MINOR ANIME SPOILERS ahead! nothing too in-depth but, y'know, for laughs):
laios is my autistic blorbo son boy and i love him and i want him to be happy. go find your sister, dude, but also eat monsters for fun and research reasons. this is the one context where i would say "eat monsters" like... ever
laios is also 1,000 percent a freak for wanting to eat monsters and study them the way he does. absolutely insane man. stop trying to be a martyr, you dumbass, and also stop poisoning yourself. both of these opinions coexist at the same time and i don't know how to feel about it because feelings (and social cues) are difficult
marcille is a lady who is so so SO smart and cool, but has absolutely ZERO street smarts. (babygirl you are JUST like me, except for the whole "being a woman" thing.) she's a "gifted" kid who now has burnout and needs to feel useful or else she feels like a failure constantly kinda girlie. she doesn't want to be abandoned. relatable. i'm concerned at how much i relate to her. stop being so relatable, dammit!!
chilchuck is INCREDIBLY emotionally constipated. lmao. he also has chronic young-forever face, which means he probably gets mistaken for a twelve-to-sixteen-year-old constantly, which... same, dude, same. i've heard (from the manga readers) that he's divorced with several children, but i don't know if that's true. i hope it is. i really want that to be where part of his issues come from. i want more angsty moments with his character. he'll be my new emotional punching bag when i finish all those other unrelated one-shots i'm planning on writing :)
senshi is a sweet man who just wants to feed and protect his new friends. i think food and acts of service are his love languages. he has a really fuckin' strong pot and knife for some reason lmao
i love falin. she's kind of a freak too, but she knows social cues better than her brother from what i can tell. sure hope nothing bad happens to her- oh gods. well, i sure hope nothing ELSE bad happens to her- OH GODS OH FUCK-
uhhhh. i like that the kobolds in this anime are dog-people. i love dogs. dogs are cool. very cute. 12/10 decision honestly
this anime made me so hungry but i still forgot to eat for most of today. rip. the food in dungeon meshi looks goddamn delicious though, so it's fine
sometimes these characters act just like a D&D party would. like. damn. this is just like that ONE TIME in dungeons and dragons when our party did [X action] and then [Y consequences] happened-
oh my goddddddssss there's ECOSYSTEMS IN THE DUNGEONS??? DUDE I LOVE THAT. CRAZY CONCEPT. FUCKING LOVE THAT. ADVENTURERS AND MONSTERS AND CREATURES (and senshi, who is his own category) ARE PART OF AN ECOSYSTEM. I'M CLIMBING UP THE WALLS AND GOING INSANE RN
oooohhhh shit politics. oh shit background politics that our main characters ignored. no wonder they focused on this other party lol
OH SHIT OTHER CHARACTERS FROM THEIR BACKSTORIES RRRRRAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
oh yeah i guess this is about whoever gets the big treasure at the bottom of the dungeon or whatever if they defeat the Big Bad or something? okay dude. it's only relevant to me when it's relevant to my New Blorbos honestly. but i WILL jot that down though :eyes emoji:
look. i am NOT calling it "delicious in dungeon". i KNOW that's the creator's intended english translation, but personally i think that title sucks. so DUNGEON MESHI it is, for me personally
PLEASE give me the second season right now i need MORE. i'm slurping up this show like soup and i'm fucking HOMGRY!!!
okay that's it that you for comjng to my ted talk
#void keith talks#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi anime#delicious in dungeon anime#late night thoughts#late night rambling#void keith rambles#anime stuff#show stuff#tv show stuff
37 notes
·
View notes
Note
If you had to pick just three favorite Trevor/Hetty moments, what would they be? I'm missing them today!
Ooooh this is hard, I am not good at picking favorites of anything because that is too weighty of a choice lol!! So I'm just going to show off the three that come off of the top of my head first <3 I am very sleepy rn so these will be very brief/not too articulate, putting under a tag because it's gifs + I am being a little nsfw because, well. I do tend to think of the nsfw ones first, so XD
Can I list this entire episode as one moment? Because oh, my god, I feel nuts over this episode LOL. The way her plan is so bad but he's going along with it because she asked him to, and then at the end of the day they're just all over each other, like god, the way he kisses her and then drags her down on top of him..they were so funny this entire episode, they're at their best when they're scheming and plotting together and I love the idea that he'll do what she tells him to as long as she praises him for it later that night, it's adorable. The way he genuinely is very happy with her compliment and politely thanks her, LOL. Iconic, peak H-Money, this is what they're all about
She can be a taskmaster....do I really need to say anything else. Like. Jesus christ, Trevor. LMFAO. He is so, so, so desperate to get her to want to fuck him again in this episode, it's insane.
The pillow talk scene! This scene does SO much to establish their dynamic- Trevor wants her to play with him like a dog bouncing around a cat, and the cat is slowly agreeing to chase some string with him- if he pretends not to watch her to do. The way she genuinely asks him for advice on something that's upsetting her and takes it, the way he is SO thrilled the walls are coming down and she's being more open with him, the way she smiles at him so fondly before switching that indifferent mask back up, and then of course, this, the fingers on his chin and the way he leans into her like a puppy...GOD. It's so good. They're SO GOOD.
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
✨ rayllum ✨
whaddya want from me i have to talk about it rn. aaaaaaaaaaaaa🫶🫶🫶🫶 boundaries. trust. FINGERGUNS. they. them. my pronouns are they because i'll never be them. callum is done wasting time being mad and is now devoting all of his time remembering and/or discovering HOW MUCH HE LOVES THIS GIRL UGH 💕💞💖💗💞💕💖💝💝💘💖💓 he is the sweetest fucking thing rn oml he can see now that she will always be there for him and he wants her to know and im normal. aside from the core developments of their relationship omfg we were SERVED. the banter, the softness, the absolute bestie(+) behavior. let's review:
(e1) "practical? like what ; :)" that is the flirtiest fuckin face ive ever seen
"yes. you. uh.. rayla."
"i was lookin for you! uh.. callum." HIS FACEEEE HIS WIDDLE SMILE
"i can see that. let her go." ZERO hesitation. also mad foreshadowing
"she broke into the high mage's office." "no that's crazy. she can go in there any time she wants." UGH i expected a "no that's crazy she would never do that" but he's straight up like 'whats mine is urs bbg" 😭✋
"the elf stole it." oh.. ok his face doesn't look too happy there i wonder if "shes not 'the elf.' she's rayla." OH FUCK ME THEN
"and she was hiding a weapon" "so what? she always is?" IM SCREAMING I LOVE THEM SM
it doesn't even seem that for a second he was perturbed about rayla having the murder weapon, more so that he was looking straight at the murder weapon. she's always been in the clear 🫡
"if she didn't tell me... she has a good reason." THIS. THIS RIGHT HERE. THIS-- iiis getting its own post.
"it means i trust her. unconditionally." brb dying happy
his face when she unchained herself god he loves his non-law-abiding girlfriend
"you don't have to explain or justify anything to me. you can tell me when you're ready :)" what can i even say at this point
(e2) "well i'm glad you liked it :)" kill me now
"and now... here we are," there it is he still sees them as one unit, defying all odds and persevering all circumstances oh me oh my
stargazing obvi
(e3) RAYLA IN CALLUM'S DOODLE. HE DIDN'T HAVE TO ADD HER IN THERE YET THERE SHE IS LOOKING ADORABLE
"she can't stop us." "nobody can >:)" "so we're going to lux aurea right? ; :)" "too right we are >:)>:)>:)>:)"
their chaos <3
(e4) rayllum montage my beloved THAT MUSIC
if you guys have been weird please show me normal
"rayla, we've been through a lot, and a lot has changed, ah- um, well, some things have changed, but not.. everything. uh... i would do anything for you."
i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i would do anything for you i wo
this is not fucking real what the fuckity fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
they are The standard
i've seen a lot of ships in my day way too many perhaps but no one compares
he's so patient and respectful w her 😭 the way he just gently holds out his hands
she fully emphasized that freeing them wasn't her priority and yet just ZERO hesitation callum saw his girl in distress and dropped everything no second thought required
THE HAND HOLDDDD THAT WAS SO SOFT
HE WAS SO FRICKEN EXCITED TO HELP HER
about to die and only one priority mhm
THUMB RUB THUMB RUB THUMB RUB THUMB RUB THUMB RUB THUMB RUB THUMB RUB
"i waited too long" i am so absolutely insane feral indignant
"i hope you know-" "i know."
bury me
(e5) fist bump. thats it im done im gone oh m !!!!! FIST !!! BUMP !!!!! YOU ABSOLUTE DORKS YOU <3<3<3<3<3
i am weak and the water scene is literally my favorite
he IMMEDIATELY knows shes uncomfy
AND he waits for her
"i don't think i'm comfortable pushing- hey!" "see? i pushed you first! pushing is easy!"
12:06 ish that glance downward tho 👀
the hand snatch of the century. her face. his face. that squeeze. "together." that ttm parallel.
HE HELD HER HAND THE ENTIRE TIME 😭😭😭💗
"-the entire world would be in danger-" IM SORRY BUT HE LOOKED STRAIGHT. AT HER. THAT LOOK KILL ME
"an amulet. or, uh, is it a talisman? what's the difference?" HER SWEET LIL GIGGLE (might just be the last sweet moment i have to report on)
beginning o e7 they're standing together on deck what happened all last night i need to know
her catching him when he collapsed :') and holding him up the rest of the time
"LET HIM GO!"
so e8 🙂
so
e
8
🙂
female rage has nothing on callum.
5 seasons. so many characters. so many losses. we have never seen this much emotion from anyone. i can hardly joke right now but he really embodied "don't you just wanna go apeshit?" i consume so much fucking media and this is new even for me. callum has never even had a temper. through all of this--getting kidnapped, abused, mentally and physically, seeing what his friends are going through--he hasn't broke. and then, seeing his biggest fear, the thing he's been plagued with for years, the thing we've seen him throw away his life to prevent, comes true, and he loses it. the scream, grunt & inhale, the speed, the aggression, the fucking expression. it's not hard to see how what happened next happened, i'm surprised he didn't do worse.
“all that talk about how love makes you stronger, but the second you see that elf girl in pain, you completely lost yourself.” mitski miyawaki kindly carry me out
every threat or demand finnegrin has made and callum has done nothing but scour. he has been as strong as anyone can be. and all of a sudden here he is crying out for mercy, pleading, bargaining, the lowest we've ever seen him. it hurts, but finnegrin was right.
"just... just let her go."
"NO! NO"
his defeat. we know this is because of... literally everything he has ever stood for being demolished. but his personal moral catastrophe aside, don't you find it interesting how he did all of that to keep rayla safe, and yet he never once went to her? i made another post abt this but i'm saying it again: rayla told him not to. and she believed in him. she's safe, but i don't think he thought he really saved her. he doesn't think he deserves anything she's giving him. he refuses to indulge in her, he refuses to confide in her, he refuses to seek her out. but he just saved her life. but that's not enough. not enough to resolve this within himself, and apparently not enough for the girl who's life he has saved twice now, who has stuck by him for years, who has dedicated everything to him, to be able to be okay with it. and he just kind of... accepts it. he doesn't beg for forgiveness, that being said he doesn't tell her either. this may seem like he's protecting himself, that he really just doesn't want to lose her, that he doesn't want to face this at all, but maybe it's him not wanting to disappoint her. yknow i really hate to be one of those people who ignores how basically all of callum's character surrounds his own internal conflict in favor of rayllum fan service, but fuck it's hard no to sometimes. he wants to be her hero, but he isn't; not to himself, anyway. this would always be the case. and yet... he did it all anyway. if that isn't unconditional, i'm jumping off a bridge.
no matter who he's protecting he is still being so strong for her
"yeah. yeah, i'm okay. i am." no, that obviously wasn't the truth. but for a "horrible liar," he sure appeared at least a little bit better. at the end of the day, the end of the battle, rayla's okay. and that always seems to help.
face touch 🩷
that hug man. her deep sigh. his shame melting into unavoidable comfort. him letting go despite all his better judgement. also it was cute. homicidal. but cute.
THE OTHER WATER SCENE IM STARTING TO THINK I HAVE A TYPE
the "eyes on me" thing AUUUHGHHGHGHGHGH
"i-i'm getting out" 👏ZERO👏HES👏ITATION👏 AND THE THING THAT MADE HIM BREAK WAS THE FEAR/SADNESS IN HER VOICE. LIKE AT FIRST HE WAS JUS LIKE "U GOOD?" BUT THEN HE SAW HOW UPSET SHE WAS AND WAS ALL "FUCK THE FATE OF THE WORLD IM GIVING YOU A HUG"
the squad reunion post-claudia when rayla gives callum's arm an extra little squeeze 😭
the ending handhold 🫶 thereee'ssss my little married couple
welp i would say it's been fun but it's been more so absolutely excruciating so. it has been.
if i still had feelings i would be so happy <3
#tdp spoilers#s5 spoilers#tdp s5 spoilers#rayllum#tdp s5#tdp season 5#tdp#the dragon prince s5#the dragon prince
78 notes
·
View notes
Note
I am sickened by your symbolic state posts because at the moment I’m still living at home, a place that is generally unpleasant for me. I’ve been living in a near permanent state of maladaptive daydreaming since I was a young teenager and its only this year, with moving out on the horizon, that I’m trying to move from my head into reality again. It’s difficult and I don’t exactly know how to live 😂 like with your video game post especially. I don’t know how to live in the moment by following urges. I think: I want to write later, but I don’t plan what I’m to write. Instead of following the urge to do one certain thing I seek out a mindset for the future and then never get around to it. I’ve bought countless items, like necklaces with symbols or woven bracelets, allways promisimg myself that they will be special and lifechanging only for them to be empty. How do I get out of this? How do I stop myself from turning my life into feeings instead of actions?
(if you’ve given a similar answer I apologise. I’m scrolling through your symbolic state tag rn)
So, I've been having a hard time responding to this one. I still haven't been able to finish this post in a way I'm happy with but I really do want to respond so I'm going to have to keep my answer short and hope that I can produce something more valuable at a later date. But anon, your message has really stuck with me. Here's the answer I started writing some time ago:
How do I stop myself from turning my life into feelings instead of actions?
People keep summing this stuff up better than I can and it's driving me slightly insane; all younger me wanted was to be Known and now I have random anonymous strangers I've never met reaching into my fucking Soul like how is this possible. first the yearning anon and now this.
So the Bad, Irresponsible answer is to do what I did, which is sit in a room and hotbox it and ask myself questions and wait till my brain answers them. Weed is what allowed me to blow this whole thing wide open for me. But now I don't do weed anymore I can say that you achieve Inner Peace(TM) the 'hard' way just as well - but dear god with or without drugs this IS A PROCESS. And it HAS to be a process, because there is only process, no destination. After all, there is no 'you' in the future - there is only the reality of now, and the reality of 'you' in the now, and that is what is awe-inspiring and beautiful.
The entire process of re-engaging with reality has so many interconnected parts and requires so much analogy and explanation that I have been seriously considering writing a book about it. I struggle with PDA (pathological demand avoidance), and I believe it and depression are all wrapped up in my symbolic mindset. But since I don't have any background in clinical psychology I would feel like a hack writing a self-help book. So I'm probably going to end up talking about it here, instead. And maybe one day collate it all into some sort of book or series of essays.
The core of all of this is acceptance. Defining acceptance is hard; I best describe it as wanting to, say, move your arm - the moment you've wanted it sufficiently, the moment it has happened. There is minimal causal relationship between wanting it and it happening - sufficient want becomes action, necessarily. That sufficient want becomes action is something I learned to recognise during this process - the symbolic mindset is disengaging with the mundane reality of cause-and-effect such that said cause-and-effect is re-evaluated with a narrative structure instead, utilising symbols to generate meaning with an agenda in mind. So returning to reality has to involve strengthening the relationship between cause-and-effect, and the most sustainable way to achieve this is to recognise what you want moment-to-moment, and then immediately do the thing.
So, I refer to this really irritating (complimentary) comic:
When you struggle to do things for mind-based reasons, the claim 'it't not that simple' comes from a place of being unable to recognise that part of you doesn't want to do it. And this is where the acceptance comes in: being able to recognise yourself as messy, imperfect, finite, human, and a product of your environment - instead of a glorious, infinite source of potential - will result in you feeling less fragile, more complete, and less reliant on symbols to drive a narrative about yourself so you can feel comfortable with existence. Acceptance of yourself and your wants will result in more authentic actions, which will result in less of a need for everything to 'go right'.
The process of acceptance is something that happens within you, and you will feel it when it happens: acceptance is when something goes from simply being theoretically true (I can state that I am wearing blue trousers) to being something I believe (I know that I am wearing blue trousers). Said acceptance is much less fragile, because my belief of the colour of my trousers is something I no longer need to be true - if someone says my trousers are red, I can say 'oh, they probably are' and I can look down at them and make another judgment. If they're red, I don't panic, because when I believed they were blue, that was an innocent belief that came out of my flawed human mind. I am, in short allowed to make decisions, I am allowed to believe things, to think things, without them needing to be correct, without them needing to be more correct than the reality in which I exist - the reality that came before me, and will exist regardless of my ability to percieve it, Descartes be damned.
If you want to write, but find yourself unable to write, you might have to confront something embarrassing about yourself: that you don't, actually, want to do the process of writing; instead, you want to have written something. But believing of yourself as a conduit to, and obstacle in the way of, achievement, posits said achievement as a metaphysical construct of greater importance than the literal reality of how many hours you sacrificed for said achievement. There's both a humility and a sense of responsibility in all of this: you're the one who generates meaning and feels the feelings, so you must prioritise yourself over some percieved obligation to 'the universe' - your achievements are your own and do not exist in the ether first. But reality itself exists first, and you must engage with the physical world in order to strengthen that causal relationship. There was a post I read a while back about how if you're struggling with gender dysphoria, then exercise can really help - this works because it operates under the same principle that without a natural interaction with cause-and-effect, the brain constructs a narrative to fill in the gaps, kind of like phantom-limb syndrome.
The realisation 'it is that simple' comes from the moment of acceptance. The moment 'it is that simple' is the moment you understand that writing a book is the same as moving your arm - if you want it enough, you will do it. There are many things that you may want *in theory* - but those are infinite, metaphysical, symbolic. There is only the reality of who you are and what you experience, moment-to-moment. Until you go and make that sandwich, your hunger isn't even proof that you need to eat anything. You show your depth of self through directly interacting with the real world, whatever form that takes. Symbolic thinking is what happens when you stop interacting with the real world, including the reality of your own selfhood, and the result dissatisfaction will have you sunk-cost-style retreating further and further back. Breaking out of it is hard but it's all a testament to just how much what we want is who we are.
I've barely scraped the surface here of what it takes to do all this - but this is the fundamental basis of the principle that I developed and still use to this day. It's the principle I used that got me starting to write on tumblr - instead of pathologising my desire to analyse, I decided to start getting my thoughts out into the world. Instead of waiting till I can achieve a known symbol of completion - instead of writing a book - I decided to engage in a much more immediate form of writing by directly writing out, with zero plan, what I think and publishing it instantly to the world. Because of this, my thoughts have ceased to exist as some testament to my big-brained genius - and will vanish along with me when I die - and representative of my fragile ego, but rather something I use to directly engage with other in the material space. My ideas now generate meaning because of their relationship with reality, not in spite of it. And it's infinitely more satisfying.
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’ve wanted to make this post for a while but wanted to wait until the dub was officially over so
My Final Thoughts on the TGCF Season 2 English Dub
Howard Wang as Xie Lian is fucking perfect. Every single time he spoke it just, I don’t know how to properly put it into words, except it is so well done?? But when XL started basically having a mental breakdown in front of Hua Cheng after Lang Qianqiu found out about the truth of the Gilded Banquet, holy fuck did the emotions just hit me in the feels. The scream and he emotional fatigue after? Xie Lian’s voice is perfection omg
Shoutout to James Cheek for just voicing the gayest character ever (Hua Cheng) and writing the gayest script for TGCF. While I liked his voice in the first season, but I wasn’t the biggest fan of it. It wasn’t until the second season where almost everything improved, and James’s voice for Hua Cheng? *chef’s kiss*. Okay but at least tone down the gayness a bit. And seeing someone who has read the novel and having little easter eggs for the novel readers for them to go insane over is incredible. I’m going to miss his voice in Season 3 since they’re going to have to cast someone else as Hong’er, but that’s ok.
Male and Female Shi Qingxuan: OMG??? Perfect casting. I just know they both put so much effort into them and I am eternally grateful. They just sound like the best of friends (they are). Every single line from them was so fucking iconic, which is accurate to the Wind Master’s character. I love both their voices so much you don’t understand.
Lang Qianqiu: AAHHHHH. My son, my boy, they gave him justice and I am so happy. First read through of TGCF, I only cared for HuaLian, but reading it again has made me appreciate and fall in love with the side characters, with Lang Qianqiu being one of them. I’ll say it did take a bit for me to adjust to it, but he sounds so much like an anime protagonist that I am ok with it. Another perfect casting. I’m going to be so fucking sad that he won’t appear for such a long time, and while he does get brought up occasionally, his last appearance is going to be the finale. I’ll miss you my son 😔
Jun Wu: ASDFGHJKL. He sounds like such a manipulative/toxic ex and a father figure at the same time. wtf. But his voice is so sexy tho. I don’t like it but I do. And I thought his original Chinese voice was hot, and then the English one goes and surprises me. I hate that I love it
Qi Rong: Perfection, glorious, fucking incredible. HIS VA IS PERFECT. Original was slaying so hard, and English? Fucking killing it. He was actually the one I was looking forward to the most, and he 👏 did 👏 not👏 disappoint. I won’t get over the perfect casting. Ever. The crazy and mad laughs? The insults I’ve never heard about but decided to keep in mind? Literally everything. I’m sorry I can’t get over how great his voice is
Feng Xin and Mu Qing (of course together): I am so biased towards Lucien Dodge, so I immediately loved his voice for him. He slaying that tsundere cat boy vibe so well. I will admit that his voice made me like his character more tbh. Ok but Feng Xin’s? Every time I hear it, I always need at least 30 seconds to get used to it. Idk why. I don’t hate it, and I actually love it, but he sounds so much like a dad it’s so funny. I still love him tho.
Pei Ming: 😳. No but that was actually my reaction to his voice. Why is every single god’s voice so hot. Please calm down. I really did not like Pei Ming at first but damn. I can actually understand why every single woman went weak with him.
Ling Wen: While she didn’t get as much dialogue this season, I’ll still count her. I’ve heard some drama relating to her voice actress from a while back but I’m not bringing it up rn. But her English voice is almost exactly the same as the original, just, different languages of course. She has such a unique voice and it’s quite pleasing to hear. She also sounds a bit like Siri but it fits her character
Other major characters that got only a few lines but still slayed their roles (Ming Yi, Pei Xiu, Jian Lan, Yin Yu): Hello?? Can I be patient to hear their voices again? Probably not, but please I need more of them. Ming Yi sounded hot since he took voice lessons from Hua Cheng, Pei Xiu sounded like such a little wet cat (wtf where did this crush on him come from), Jian Lan slayed because she is such an underrated queen, and Yin Yu? I WAS NOT EXPECTING A DEEP VOICE FROM WTF. I will say I do prefer his Chinese VA a little more due to it being more in character with him sounding soft and somewhat tired. But I enjoy his confident and announcing voice. They should keep him for the QuanYin flashbacks.
All in all, perfect cast. I don’t have twitter/X but I see things from the VA’s from time to time. And seeing them interact with the fandom and trying to give more to their characters makes me so happy. I just desperately need for more of the characters to have voices (aka Shi Wudu, Quan Yizhen, Mei Nianqing, Yushi Huang, Male!Ling Wen, White-No-Face). Give me more please.
Please check out the dub it’s so fucking great.
#yeyarants#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#mxtx#mxtx tgcf#mo xiang tong xiu#tgcf donghua#tgcf dub#tgcf season 2#xie lian#hua cheng#feng xin#mu qing#pei ming#shi qingxuan#jun wu#ling wen#qi rong#lang qianqiu#ming yi#jian lan#pei xiu#yin yu#hualian
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
What I noticed TSN rewatch🤪
Eduardo coming to Marks dorm looking concerned at TWO AM. “You and Erica split up” Why r u checking his blog at 2:08 am… - 12:33 and his CONCERN the whole time “it’s on ur blog :(, Are you alright :(, I’m here for you” like damn
Dustin’s adorable wave to Wardo :((( - 12:34 and DUSTIN LAUGHING AT THE “i’m here for you. no i need the algorithm” LMAOO - 12:43
Wardo waiting for him after the face mash meeting :( sitting down, headphones in, clearly been there for a while - 20:32
EDUARDOS DADDY ISSUESSSSS. “You have no idea what that’s gonna mean to my father” - 37:04 AND THEN MARK SAYING “Sure I do” LIKE HE KNOWS AND CARES TOO. Also, “My father won’t even look at me. (1:40:03) and there’s one more time i know he mentions it i just don’t know where😭
“have you slept yet?” (36:06) even after mark made him wait and in that tone like aw
BRO THE FREAKING BEER THING. stop aaron sorkin david fincher you fucking menaces how dare you put that there. (46:58)
Eduardo’s “oh my god…” at 51:29 when he realizes that they are in the stall next to them
THE LOOK AT 52:09. OMG KILL ME RN.
Eduardo’s sad and painful look at Mark after Sy brings up animal cruelty, like ‘really, you went that low?’ - 1:12:39
Marks tap on Sys shoulder saying ‘stop no don’t go there’ - 1:12:42
The parallel of how happy and jokey Mark is when in the dorm during the chicken scene with Wardo being put side by die with how hostile they are and how sad he looks in the deposition scenes. he never once smiles.
Marks sad look at Eduardo after being exposed - 1:14:39
Eduardo’s disbelief at Mark going so low as the chicken thing 1:14:41
Mark opening his mouth to protest against 1:14:43
the pain in Eduardo’s eyes after Mark makes a half joke that probably would used to make him laugh. also the look of betrayal and the eyes that say I don’t even know you anymore. 1:18:17
The disconnect between Mark and Sean. “Ever think about that girl?” “No???” 1:23:52
How so genuinely happy Mark looks when greeting Eduardo in Cali. The little grin. The surprising him. The wack on the arm. the ‘Wardo’. - 1:30:50
“I want- i-i want- I need you.” aaron. sorkin. what. the. fuck.
“I didn’t know whether to dress for the party or the business meeting, so i kinda dressed for both.” (1:41:51) Um aaron you did not have to go so deep with that one my god do you ever think of our feelings.
The piano coming in at 1:43:46 after the reveal is just so heartbreaking.
The PAINNNNN in his voice at “You set me up 😕” (1:43:51)
Throughout the whole confrontation scene, Mark looks like he’s going to cry. so so badly. especially at 1:44:50 like PAIN. And 1:45:27, “Yeah” - 1:45:50, and the REPEATING “You didn’t have to be that rough on him.” (1:46:00).
When he hit 1,000,000 people on HIS OWN WEBSITE he looks downright depressed. not happy in the slightest. he just hit this amazing milestone. should be like the happiest moment of his life. yet he looks like he wants to cry. I wonder why. 1:47:10-1:47:20
Marks outfit during the deposition w the Winklevi being a collared shit and sweater, outfit during the first deposition with Eduardo being a half zip up, and then wearing a FULL SUIT for the second one?? okay then
You don’t really realize it but I think it’s fitting that the last we see of Eduardo the whole movie is the confrontation. Like chronologically, he’s in it for way after, but with the actual editing and all the time skips, his last line is “Makes me look so tough” and thats the last we see him. pretty cool.
through the whole movie just THEIR FACIAL EXPRESSIONS DURING THE DEPOSITION. the SADNESS and REGRET constantly portrayed in mark. the PAIN AND BETRAYAL constant in Eduardo.
THE MOTHER FUCKING NORTH FACE ZIP-UP. WHAT THE HELL DAVID FINCHER. yeah this was genuinely insane tho. like that was unhinged. aaron sorkin, david fincher, AND WHOEVER THE BLESSED COSTUME DEISGNER WAS, reached new levels. we could’ve chalked everything up to gay people always looking for gay people in film, for exaggerating things that were only slightly there because of the need for more representation. but the north face zip up?? come on. I need to get me one of those now. the timeline makes so perfect sense too. We see Eduardo first wearing it when chilling in his dorm - 31:25. Then we next see him in it when at the intern “interviews” - 1:16:20. Then we don’t see if again for a little while, until MARK wears it during the business meeting - 1:33:52. This happens AFTER Eduardo visits Pao Alto. So he goes to Cali, presumably leaves the zip-up, (maybe even gives it??) and then ever since then Mark wears it in almost EVERY SINGLE scene. Because he misses Wardo. ITS INSANE. Like, the business meeting, then the phone call to Wardo. - 1:36:25. Then he wears it during the whole conformation, and is still wearing it later that night when Sean calls him. Like wow. That right there? Insanity. Purely CANONICAL gay insanity
and finally just some more character noticings. I really just love Divya omg. and the winklevii. like they r just so comedic at times. the first time i watched i viewed ty and cam as like one entity, but this time i really payed attention and like they r so different. cam usually takes the lead and he is very level minded and calm, while tyler is very hotheaded.
The first time andrew garfield just captivated me. i mean duh, he’s andrew garfield. but this time i just, wow. JESSE. he was perfect. PERFECT. best actor should’ve been his hands down. every single word he said was so calculated and made so much sense for his character like. and the real best part of his acting was his reactions, to everything that everyone else said. like he knocked it out of the park completely.
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
Study - Gareth Emerson x reader
Warnings: Gareth is kinda pushy and a bit of a perv but nothing is nonconsensual, dry humping, smut, heavy use of “girl” based compliments, praise kink
Gareth is aged up to 18
A/N: don’t worry, I’m not gonna become strictly a Gareth writer I just have a really bad thing for him rn. I’m in love with him, I cannot lie 😐 but I’m also in love with all the other characters too so maybe that doesn’t mean too much lol
-
You were sat in your room on a late Tuesday afternoon.
“Fuck, stop it.” You say, swatting his hand away.
“You don’t mean that.”
Gareth can’t seem to keep his hands to himself while you’re trying to talk to him about math, as you find them wandering up and down your thighs, brushing your cheek, just feeling your skin.
“I do. You know your mom is paying me for this, right? By the hour. You’re actively wasting her money.”
“How am I expected to learn when I’m being tutored by such a pretty girl?”
Gareth looks at you with sweet, almost pleading eyes. You can’t fight the blush that creeps across your cheeks.
“Aww, see, you like that.” He smiles. “I could continue, I could sit here all day showering you with compliments.”
“Yes, fine, I like it a little bit. But we have to be serious.”
He sighs dramatically.
“Alright.”
You get through a page in the workbook uninterrupted, he’s close to you so he can see the pages you’re working from. It’s fine and normal at first, but then he’s so close that he’s brushed your hair to the side and started to kiss your neck.
“Okay, so, this next one, we’re gonna- fuck- we’re gonna solve it by using- ah.”
The words you try to say get lost in the moans that come out around them, and it’s like you’re not in control anymore. You curse your sensitivity because making these sounds is only egging the boy on, fueling his ego.
You feel him smile against your skin when you gasp and whimper involuntarily. You shut your eyes, just for a moment, you tell yourself, to take in the feeling. He worked his way up, kissing along your jawline which makes your mouth fall slightly open, then got to nibbling your earlobe.
“God,” you breathe, trying to muster up some authoritativeness, “really, you- you need to stop.”
“You clearly enjoy it, listen to you. Can’t even talk. Jus’ kiss me, yeah?”
You check the time, you still have 20 minutes left with him. Time has really gone by incredibly slow. Til now, at least. You decide to give the boy what he wants, which is your attention.
You definitely enjoyed his, though you would never ever admit that out loud. You put your pen down and turn to face him, taking his chin between your fingers and pulling his face towards yours and sealing the distance with a kiss. He opens it immediately, tongue asserting dominance before there could even be a fight.
“Jesus.” You mutter, overwhelmed by the insane quickness and force of his kiss. You indulge in it for a couple of minutes, but pull away when it starts to get too heavy. You knew if you got too carried away you’d end up fucking.
“There. You got your kiss, happy now?”
The boy just sits there, lips pink and slightly swollen, the smallest glint of shine from the saliva that remained there as an after affect. Big, dumb eyes, nothing behind them. Not a single thing. You can’t deny he’s cute, you just couldn’t, because you’d be lying to yourself. But you want to do your job, you want to help him academically instead of sexually. Okay, so both. Both could work. Couldn’t it?
“Yeah, wish it was longer though.” He says, pouting slightly.
You don’t know why, but you lean back in. You wanted more too. When you kiss him again, you get out of your chair and he does too. You walk him a few steps backwards to the bed, and he pulls on your waist to bring you closer to him and ultimately into his lap, straddling him.
All of a sudden, the room was hot and the air was thick, the situation felt heavier. He pulled his lips away from yours to return them back to your neck. When he kisses the sensitive skin sloppily, you automatically gasp and push down on him. “Fuck, you’re so sweet.” He comments mindlessly. “So pretty, so sensitive, so easy to turn on.”
“Who says I’m turned on? That’s a bold assumption.” You scold him.
“I just have a feeling,” he shrugs, slyly reaching his hand underneath your skirt and finding an embarrassingly wet pair of panties, “and my feeling was right.”
He doesn’t withdraw his hand, instead lingering to rub gentle circles over your clothed clit. Your head falls forward onto his shoulder and your breathing picks up rapidly.
“You wanna admit it?” He asks cockily.
“No, Gareth, I- god I don’t.”
You find yourself absentmindedly grinding against his fingers, trying to get more from them.
“That’s too bad….” He pulls your panties to the side and rests his finger right up against your entrance, not moving any more past that.
“Please.”
“Say you need me.”
This boy has an insane amount of confidence, his ego is ginormous. He gets what he wants.
“Damn it, Gareth, I hate you.” You desperately try to sink down onto his fingers.
“Alright, alright, no need to get mean.” He slips in his pointer and middle fingers at the same time and curls them. A grin creeps across his face while he stares at you, watching the pleasure express itself in your demeanor. Your mouth parts open slightly, your eyebrows furrow together, and your eyes flutter shut.
“So fucking wet, just like I imagined.”
Of course he’d imagined this.
“Mhm” you reply softly, affirming his observation.
“You make me so hard, you know that? You kill me. Feel this.”
He takes his fingers from out of you, you whimper at the loss, and pushes you down against him, hard as a rock through his jeans.
“Fuck.” You say, halfway out loud and halfway to yourself. He hears it anyway. You start to grind on him, rocking your hips back and forth and trying to find the perfect spot to hump against him. He groans at the feeling and soaks up your eagerness, coming to capture your lips once again. You continue to just make out and grind on him and you feel like you could stay that way forever until you hear a car horn outside.
“Shit, it’s been an hour. Your mom’s here.” You announce, and get off of his lap. He gets up as well.
“Shit, shit, shit. Uhhh, hold on.”
He turns around to seemingly dig in his pants, but he was really trying to find a way to situate his boner and hopefully hide it. He tucks it into his waistband, good enough, and grabs his backpack. He slings it over his shoulder and heads out your door, but a second later, he peeks back in.
“I’ll tell her I’m learning a lot so I need to come back next week.” He winks and you just roll your eyes.
“Get out.”
-
A week later, a couple hours after school, there’s a knock at your front door. You head to it to answer, but look in the peephole first. It was a nervous habit. You only saw a mop of fluffy light hair and knew right away it was Gareth.
“Hi.”
“Hey.” You step aside to let him in and you lead him to your room.
You shut your door behind you both and he dramatically throws off his backpack, dropping it to the floor.
“Where are your manners? And bring that over here, I’m sure you have some homework in there you need to do. I’ll help you.”
“Ughhh.” He groans. “I have a better idea.”
You knew just by the look on his face.
“That was a one-time thing. I fell victim to your shenanigans but I won’t again.”
“You sure?”
“I’m sure.”
You pull up a chair beside yours at your desk and gesture him to sit.
You think this is gonna be fine, that he’s more tame today. But again, about halfway through, he gets distracted. You sit close together, and he takes his right hand to stroke your inner thigh under the table. You squirm a bit, trying to ignore it. It seems he’s tracing mindless patterns onto your skin above the denim fabric covering it.
“I wanna take a break,” he whines, getting up from his chair and plopping down on your bed.
“Make yourself at home, I guess.” You say, sarcastically.
“Come here.” He says, acting as if he has something interesting to show you, but he didn’t.
“What?” You walk up to him, and he does it again. Pulls you right on top of him.
“I should’ve seen that coming.”
“Indeed you should’ve. Now you’re stuck.” He grips your hips, keeping you against him.
“Cmon, gimme a kiss, pretty girl.”
“Fine. Only because I like it when you call me that.”
“Yeah?” He smiles, and you lean down to connect your lips.
His big, rough hands stay on your hips, but slowly make their way down to your ass. He gives it a light squeeze, and you moan into his mouth.
“So responsive. That’s really hot.”
“Shut up.” You kiss him hard to make him stop talking.
“Nope, sorry, I’m the one in control here.”
He flips you over, now on top of you, and you feel butterflies in your stomach. He takes your wrists and pins them down beside your head.
“And I really wanna fuck you.”
“Do you want me to?” He adds.
“Yes.” You breathe, quietly.
“Good. I’m gonna lock the door.”
He gets up and turns, headed to the door, and you take the opportunity to shed your clothes. You’re left in your bra and panties, waiting for him maybe a little too eagerly.
“Holy shit.” He says when he turns and sees you.
“Thank you, but we don’t have forever. Gotta be quick, okay?” You ask.
“Y-yeah. Okay.”
He begins to take his pants off after his shoes.
He tugs off your panties, then his own underwear, climbing back on top of you. You lift your head up to kiss him, breathing heavy.
“Gare?”
“What?”
“You’re so gonna fail that class.”
“I know. Worth it.”
He runs the head of his cock up and down your slit, dipping between your folds and spreading the wetness, pushing in.
“Oh, fuck, Gareth.”
The slight stretch is intoxicating.
“Yeah, pretty girl? That feel good?”
“Mhmm.”
He applies more pressure, quickly bottoming out inside you, seemingly all at once, making you gasp. Of course, you get a glimpse of his cocky grin and normally you’d want to smack it off his face but now you just wanted to kiss it.
“God, shit, more. More, please.”
He listens to you, quickening his pace, thrusting in and out of your warm, wet, and needy hole.
“Feel so fucking good, so tight. Who’s pussy is this?”
You try to ignore his question, act like you didn’t hear it. You knew the answer, but you didn’t want to give him the satisfaction. He grabs you by the throat and looks you in the eyes, suddenly serious and a little scary looking.
“Yours, yours, it’s yours.” You cave in and say it.
“Good girl.”
You clench around him hard and he smiles knowingly.
“Being so good for me, letting me fuck you.”
He’s pounding into you, and you’re struggling to stay reasonably quiet. This was definitely not studying.
“N-needed you to. Wanted you to, so bad.”
“Oh really? For how long?”
“God, since you first came over. Started fucking touching me.”
“You’re jus’ so gorgeous, couldn’t keep my hands off you.”
He had slowed while you had this small dialogue, but picked back up when he saw the need in your eyes.
“I’m close, fuck.”
You decided to push yourself over, keeping in mind you were crunched for time, bringing your dominant hand to the spot where the two of you connected and rubbing your clit with fervor.
“Yeah? Go ahead, pretty.”
“I’m gonna… I’m gonna ah- please, Gareth.”
“Good girl, come on.”
He maintains his speed, driving his cock in and out of you. That, combined with the stimulation on your clit, quickly sent you tumbling off the edge, legs shaking as the orgasm wrecked your body. The moans you were letting out were pornographic and likely quite loud, you prayed no one could hear you in the back of your mind but you didn’t care much at all in that moment.
He’s panting, now, open mouth and hair even messier than usual. He looks down at you as you shake, aftershocks tingling in your whole body. His thrusts become sloppy, inconsistent, and random and he pulls out just in time to spill onto your stomach, pumping every bit he had in him out.
“Jesus fucking Christ, that was good. You’re so good.” He says softly, still panting.
You heard a car in the driveway and knew she was here before she even honked. The sound brings him back to reality, and he seems mad about it.
“Listen, fuck the tutoring thing, alright? Let’s just hang out. There won’t be a time limit and we won’t have to try to pretend to care about my C minus in algebra.”
You giggle. “Sounds good. I guess we can be friends with benefits, maybe more, who knows.”
You rushed out the last part, mumbling it on purpose because you got scared but it was too late to go back.
“Yeah. Maybe more.” He smiled. He heard you.
You both got yourselves together, and he started to get his stuff. His papers were still on your desk, halfway blank. He goes to grab them, but you interrupt.
“I’ll finish the homework, okay? Just this once.”
You lift a single finger as a warning and cocked your eyebrow.
“Okay.”
He slips out of your door, sees himself out, and just like that, he’s gone.
#gareth emerson imagine#gareth emerson x y/n#gareth emerson x reader#gareth emerson fanfic#gareth emerson#gareth stranger things#gareth the great#gareth emerson smut#gareth x reader
284 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
vampire-chanyeol-blog
Heartless
steveosullivan
Steve O'Sullivan on Tumblr
brujite-de-gulubu
DNI if you're a doctor en cuatrimotor
una-chicamas
chica invisible
masawi
Masawi