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Hi friends!
Unfortunately, I never met my goal for April, so I am now facing May with some unpaid bills and a dwindling grocery fund. I'm applying for jobs, but I've had no luck yet.
Anything you can spare will help keep Phoebe and me fed!
Venmo: Mellifluity8
CashApp: $mellifluity8
PayPal: link
I am 3 months post-op today, and walking rehab and surgery recovery are going very well, all things considered! I'm in physical therapy twice per week, and my PT is trying to get insurance to approve a custom orthotic to help me walk better. Pain levels and general function are hugely improved! =)
#mutual aid request#mutual aid#crowdfunding#disability#chronic illness#neurosurgery#tethered cord syndrome#cauda equina syndrome#etc. etc.#personal post#about mel#exlibrisfangirl#princess phoebe#cats#cat lady life
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Tagged by @exlibrisfangirl to list "Ten Songs I've Had On Repeat Lately" - thanks friend!! =)
I actually just made a Summer Sunshine playlist that has all my current faves on it so these all come from there. I tried to stay away from older songs or ones that I have on a lot of other playlists so this selection is a lot more modern than usual 😂
Domicile Conjugal - Soleil Rouge
Offline - Lie Ning
So Far So Good - Great Good Fine Ok
Demons - Angele
Dance the Night - Dua Lipa
Fuego - Eleni Foureira
Love You to Death - Fickle Friends
Body Talk - Foxes
If Only For Tonight - Vacation Manor
Sunlight - The Magician, Years and Years
Tagging (only if you want!) @sunnyrosewritesstuff @lordoftherazzles @fandomcartographer @bisexualwvtson @iwillresthere @nelsonandspringforever @phantomessangel @mamajosrefuge @if-th3n-else @turniptitaness @tolkientrash @enough-effing-owls @shantismurf @conkers-theficwriter @evenstaredits @scullyseviltwin and anyone else who sees this and wants to do it!
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15 Questions for 15* Mutuals
tagged by the luminous @exlibrisfangirl
1. Are you named after anyone? Originally, yes. Now, also yes, but a different person.
2. When was the last time you cried? An hour ago. Tbh, it was an emotional moment in the fic I was reading.
3. Do you have kids? I helped raise two younger sibs. That's enough child rearing for me, and they turned out great.
4. What sports do/did you play? As part of a team...t-ball, soccer, volleyball. I was a ✨Theatre Kid✨, so wasn't really into it.
5. Do you use sarcasm? Do bears** shit in the woods?
6. What's the first thing you notice about someone? I have the dubious benefit of being a "brain shoves all the input at me so that a small crowd can make me short circuit" person, so? It's never one thing. It's usually a combo of posture + presence/vibe + interesting physical feature and/or style choice. Also? Scent, bc my delicate lungs means I'll notice if you bathe in your perfume/cologne pretty much right away.
7. What's your eye color? In the 2010s, they called it glasz.
8. Scary Movies or HEA? Depends on my mood. I was literally raised on cheesy 80s horror classics, so love them like some people love Rom Coms. HEAs are lovely too
9. Any talents? Writing. Editing (it's DEFINITELY a separate skill set, from my experience). Cooking without a recipe. Baking. Coming up with cocktails. Admin stuff like scheduling appts.
10. Where were you born? Sunny California
11. What are your hobbies? Reading, Writing, creating moodboards, drawing basic maps/floorplans
12. Any pets? Not anymore.
13. How tall are you? I'm 5ft 6in of sassy agéd twink.
14. Favorite subject(s) in (High) School? French & English
15. Dream job? If it paid well enough that I wouldn't have to work 65+ hrs a week just to eat and pay bills?? Freelance editing. I can work in pjs, take pee breaks when I wanna, and sit in a summoning circle of coffee mugs.
*I'm not tagging 15 people bc I know a lot of y'all flat out hate/block these things. So? Answer if you wanna, whether or not I tagged you
**the ursine kind. I don't presume to speak for the kind who wear flannel and jeans, or the ones in leather pants. I'm not gonna tell those hirsuite hotties how to live their lives.
tagged peeps (ignore if you wanna)
@worldtravellingfly @beaconfeels @laternenfisch
...I know that's not a lot, but? I am not gonna tag those of you who don't like these. However, if you see this and wanna play along? This is your invite. You can say I invited you. :3
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Fandom ask: 3, 5, 7, and 9 for DS9 =)
TV ask
- A character I want to carry around in a little jar and study like a bug
Kira but also Odo. And Julian. Honestly, the entire DS9 crew is so strange in such different ways I want to study them all xD
- The character who gives me the greatest gender envy
Jadzia Dax My Beloved <3
- A character who feels like home
Ummmm I think I'll also take Jadzia for this one... also Lenara but mostly from KiraDaxKahn fanon xD
- The character I'd most enjoy feeding to a pride of ravenous lions
Dukat. No question. I mean, Quark would also be annoying as fuck to know irl, but him I'd just want to punch in the face lmao
Thanks for the ask, this was fun! Btw, do I know you from another blog/ have you changed your url recently? Sorry, don't recognize you at all :}
Personal post - don't reblog!
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Top 5 characters whose stories you would rewrite, given the chance =)
ok I was not ignoring this I just needed like 3 days years to think about it because GREAT QUESTION, this will get long and progressively more unhinged, let's go-
5. Holland Vosijk ADSOM: Debating whether he belongs on this list, because on the one hand his part of the story would not be as impactful as it is if it wasn't completely soaked in tragic dramatic irony, but on the other hand, :,((. So I'll just change one tiny little bit at the end, to make it so he.... how to not-spoilers things.... so he Realizes certain consequences of certain actions. He deserves that much, at least. Also ice cream. I'll write the existence of ice cream into his world.
4. movie!Faramir LotR: I get what they were they were trying to do here, to give him a bit more of a character arc re juggling the pressures/responsibilities/legacies of Gondor and his father and Boromir and his own moral compass. And I actually don’t hate most of it! I don’t mind that he was tempted by the Ring at first - even the kindest, most level-headed person in such desperate circumstances is at least going to spare a glance at the supernaturally-alluring desperate measures, and imo that doesn’t make him less level-headed or kind. Therefore what DOES feel out of character, and what I’m changing, is how much of a dick he is for a bit there. No gratuitous Gollum abuse allowed.
3. The BBC Merlin knights: For the purposes of this list, they count as one. If it were up to me this would be less of a rewrite and more of a plain old write because I think they deserve a proper spinoff series full of more wacky Arthurian hijinks (Green Knight, anyone? questing beasts? the Holy Grail?) in which Merlin and Arthur and co. only have brief, humorous, and completely irrelevant cameos. The rest of those dunces deserved some character arcs too. If a full spinoff is out of the question, then at the very least keep Lancelot alive longer and give us some Ramifications re Guinevere and him knowing about Merlin’s magic and whatnot, give Gwaine his potential depth back and don’t just reduce him to comic relief, give Leon the respect he deserves for saying no to certain death so many times, etc etc yeah basically I just want more of all of these idiots. I love them.
2. Kai Leng Mass Effect: Yeah, ugh, I know, but hear me out: what if... he was an Actual Not-Pathetic Secondary Antagonist who DIDN'T completely suck shrimp balls?? Have him cameo in ME2 while you're "working for" Cerberus, establish him as a halfway competent sort of rival who's actually like, plotting things or whatever, so then when he comes back in ME3 it's like "oh shit, it's THAT bastard!" rather than "this is SO FUCKING STUPID [punts controller through screen, while crying over Thane (yes, I'm fixing that part too)]." I hate him, you hate him, we all hate him, for good reason, he sucks SO HARD, he can't even land a single hit on me until the goddamn cutscene has to give him the win on Thessia, but! It did not have to be this way! He could have been marginally competent with some writing tweaks, and fellow ME players everywhere could have rolled their eyes significantly fewer times! I want to hate him the way I'd hate an actual adversary, not the way I hate a piece of gum that refuses to un-stick from the bottom of my shoe!
And, in the #1 spot because all these years later, thinking about it STILL fills me with rage... Yassen Gregorovich's Alex Rider Prequel Book.
Context: The Alex Rider series, action/mystery novels about a 14-year-old James Bond expy, was not THE most formative childhood book series for me, but it was up there. In the top 5. Seeing as how I have been the exact same brand of predictable my entire life, 10yo me's favorite character was Yassen, the opposing-team assassin with maybe 20 pages of screentime over a 9-book series. It was obvious that he had... morals is too much of a stretch, but there was a sense of still waters running deep. He was played as a 'darker side of the same coin' sort of deal re Alex himself, and had some Complex History(TM) with Alex's father and uncle, both of whom were, like Alex, MI6 (double) agents, both dead prior to the series' start, one so by Yassen's hand. Yassen also dies young halfway through the series, of course, but his ghost hangs around.
Fast forward a decade or so, well after the series proper had ended. Find out Yassen's getting a prequel book, aptly titled Russian Roulette, tracing how he went from an orphaned nobody to one of the most yikes most competent secret agents in the world. Get HYPE, because he's a goldmine of potential for fleshing out both himself and Alex's past. If you're going to do a spinoff/prequel, this is exactly the kind of character you want for it.
Unfortunately (and this is where we shift from Context to Rant), in my excitement I’d forgotten one crucially important fact, and that is that Anthony Horowitz is completely incapable of keeping track of his own books’ canon.
I’m not gonna rewrite a play-by-play here (that’s stored in a probably 6 page word doc I vomited up shortly after finishing the book wherein I attempted (failed) to rewrite it all to make it make sense), but the short version is that 1) sometimes the timelines and/or events just straight up contradicted what was established in the main series; 2) Horowitz apparently chickened out of the fact that Yassen is kinda sorta definitely a villain and/or he just didn’t know how to write a corruption arc; which together led to 3) Yassen has virtually zero agency in his own book, and in the moments he does have agency, the decisions he makes don’t make sense, in that they are straight up impossible to reconcile with both this perpetually-victimized younger version of himself and the calculating hitman we know he becomes. That’s another thing, we didn’t see him evolve from one to the other, he just kinda. clumsily flipped a switch at the end there. I don’t have to explain that that kind of writing is stupid and lazy. And I know, this is a middle-grade Bond ripoff, I’m not gonna get fuckin, idk, Black Sails levels of character nuance or anything, but like. We can still have a little nuance in this nicely complex premise? Just a smidge? Please...? Apparently not.
(And I’m not even going to get into whatever the FUCK was going wrong with John Rider’s character, except to say that he was hands down the most important person in Yassen’s life and something in his characterization was Definitely Going Wrong as compared to what we already knew of him, which in turn fed into Yassen’s whole everything feeling Off, etc etc why is this entire book made of Nonsense Hell)
In conclusion, there was SO MUCH POTENTIAL and it was SQUANDERED by author laziness and yes I am angry but I’m also just Sad. the entire point was to show all these different people and events and overarching themes (which did actually exist, believe it or not) from alternate angles, but instead we just got a mess. it could have been amazing. and while I clearly haven’t figured out how to make it amazing yet, at least I’ve identified the problems, and that’s step one.
And yeah, there was a russian roulette scene (the gun kind) in the book. Two, actually. They were horrifying and should not have been in a middle-grade series. But they’re honestly among the least of my issues here.
You’re not remotely a great person, Yassen, but for some reason I love you and you deserved better. And Anthony, if I ever meet you: it’s on sight.
#I answer stuff#(and answer and answer and answer and Answer...)#long post#exlibrisfangirl#honestly this was hard bc while there are Many characters that I'm like 'I wish they hadn't died :((' I'm also like. I get why they had to.#to further the themes and stuff. sure rewriting their stories would be happier but it would also be less interesting/impactful#hence my racking my brain to find the intersection of 'who got done dirty and who do I actually care enough about to fix' lol#and on the Extremely Slim Chance that anyone else wants to commiserate over blorbhov from my mediocre books: hmu </3#I would tag koala but. well. we've been around this track many times already
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New Year Fanfiction Ask Game: 8 & 12 =)
8. Do you have a big project planned for the new year?
just the distance between. i'm at 28k right now and maybe a third of the way through the story? this might be the closest i get to hitting 100k in one fic.
12. Is there a fandom event you’re looking forward to in the new year?
ahh no. i told myself this was the year i was not going to sign up for anything, i am going to have a stress-free (ha) writing year of writing whatever the hell i want on no deadline at all. of course then i impulsively decided to make those january otp prompts into a daily challenge so i am clearly not great at sticking to my convictions.
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Fandom ask: 3, 5, 7, 9 for TVD =)
Thanks for the ask!
A character I want to carry around in a little jar and study like a bug
I think Elena is the one I'd do this with more eagerly. I want to study her. She's not particularly inscrutable to me (nobody really is, but I've also met a few Elenas in my life xD), but she is someone whose inner workings I find fascinating and worth analysing in lab conditions xD
The character who gives me the greatest gender envy
I confess I don't think I've ever experienced gender envy LOL. I've reached such a level of comfort with my gender and gender presentation, such a lack of care for the perception of others... eh.
At most sometimes I'll go "oh I want their WHOLE wardrobe" with a character, but I don't remember ever thinking that in The Vampire Diaries. Individual outfits (like some of Bonnie's in the later seasons), sure. Entire wardrobes, nope.
A character who feels like home
It will always be Caroline. My STACKEDIARIES rewatch has brought her back to me once more and it really makes me realize how much I had been missing her <3
The character I'd most enjoy feeding to a pride of ravenous lions
There are a few candidates LMFAO. However, that sure is a fate I would've happily bestowed upon Damon xD
questions from this list
#exlibrisfangirl#replies#talking to the void#my thoughts#plecverse thoughts#the vampire diaries#plecverse
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For the Halloween ask: cobwebs, eerie
Hmmmm i had to think hard about he first one! I'm not easily scared of physical things?
anyway he question is:
Cobwebs: One place you would never want to get lost in in the dark?
Like my mortal enemy is my own brain and I'm riddled with anxiety but my anxiety is just feelings so my biggest fear is jusy my own emotions and has nothing to do with like physical manifestions of real things. People scare me and crowds, never put me in public in crowds, but put in the dark somewhere away from people and I'll feel relatively safe lmao
So maybe the answer is something I'm not realizing lol like an orgy in the dark of a thousand people (just bc im like traumatized, touch averse sex repulsed asexual who cant even fathom someone being close enough to breathe on me, much less come in innocent contact with me, not to mention intimate contact, or even a hug) but I was planning on saying some kind of government facility bc i do not trust them at with anything
Eerie: One thing that always creeps you out?
Cannibalism used to be the thing that used to be it. I think it's not as much anymore but that was one of he bighest thibgs that made me nauseeoussds!
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✨️ UPDATE (finally... sorry) ✨️
Hi friends!
First of all, I am now 4 months post-op, and recovery/rehab is still going very well! I am having some testing done in the coming weeks to try to figure out what's causing the nerve damage to my left leg/where the damage is in order to try to fix it, if it's fixable. In the meantime, I'm having a custom AFO brace made to help with my gait issues. My leg/lower back pain has improved by about 80% compared to the week before surgery, which is HUGE. I've been doing aquatic therapy for the past 3 months, which has helped tremendously.
Secondly, I'm DELIGHTED to announce that I have finally landed a job! I will be working remotely - 100% from home - as a Crisis Counselor for my state's Suicide & Crisis youthline. (I will be the person who answers the phone when someone calls the helpline.) I'm relieved to be employed again and so, SO excited about this opportunity! This job is absolutely ideal for me right now - for a number of reasons - and it was more than worth the wait (and the super intense interview process... seriously, PHEW). Training starts in mid-July.
Last, but not least: because I won't start getting paychecks until August, I will need financial help - approximately $800 - to get through July. If y'all can share, I'd REALLY appreciate it!
Venmo: Mellifluity8
CashApp: $mellifluity8
PayPal: link
Thank you SO MUCH to all of you who have unfailingly supported me throughout this difficult process. We're nearly there! 💛🙏🏻
#mutual aid request#mutual aid#crowdfunding#spoonie community#spoonie life#exlibrisfangirl#personal post#okay to reblog#self reblog
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#my face#arwen undomiel#lotr cosplay#tolkien fanart#exlibrisfangirl#this is my tolkien class final exam cosplay I was talking about : )#I have so many costumes lol#once a theater kid always a theater kid
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8 Shows to Get to Know Me
tagged by the luminous @exlibrisfangirl
...in no particular order, with zero context AND minimal forethought...
Stargate: SG1
Xena: Warrior Princess
MST3K
Queer As Folk (US, 2000)
LEXX
SCRUBS (s1-5)
Teen Wolf (s2-3b)
Friday the 13th: The Series
Now, to tag...there aren't gonna be many, as I don't know many people who do these. But, if I don't tag you but you're inspired? Feel free. Also feel free to ignore if I do tag you
@worldtravellingfly @laternenfischchen
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3, 14, 33, 49 for the ask =)
3) do you leave the window open at night?
i would NEVER, dude, this is florida and it is hot and humid and there are BUGS
14) do you love the smell of earth after it rains?
i seem to be one of the few people on the planet who does not actually love that smell. like, i don't hate it, but i don't find it particularly pleasant either. it's so romanticized and i don't get it 😂
33) the last adventure you’ve been on?
my sister and i got lost driving through small backwood neighborhoods a few days ago while desperately trying to find a new place to live by the end of the month. does that count? 😬
49) can you skip rocks?
i don't think i've ever tried 🤔 haven't had the opportunity
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send me asks!
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Naruto and 3, 5, 7, 9 for the ask meme =)
ask meme
omg hi!!! muahaha thanks for all of these questions!
3. a character i want to carry around and study like a bug
neji obviously, but also! kakashi. he is one of the biggest victims of the konoha system and yet he is one of its staunchest defenders. at this point he's just a superrrr interesting analysis of indoctrination by the state and *slaps the hood of the car* this bad boy can fit so many traumas and complexes into it. each aspect of his trauma feeds into a different aspect of his complicated relationship with the state which is really neat
5.
nobody laugh. choker era neji was a look. but on a side note, my gender feelings really fluctuate so i dont have a solid answer for this but i do want to be an ethereal long dark haired androgynous bitch like neji is
7. a character who feels like home
...........neji LMFOAIEJDIDJEIDIS he hits a lot of my buttons okay!!!!! OKAY!!!!!!!!!! but actually really all of team gai feel familiar and comfortable for me
9. the character i'd most enjoy feeding to a pride of ravenous lions
HIASHI'S CRUSTY ASS
thank you for the asks!!!
#it is embarrassing how many times i answered neji here.#exlibrisfangirl#naruto#ask game#thank you'!
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Your gifs are so beautiful! Thank you for blessing us with them, seriously! 💛
this is so sweet! thank you! 💕💕
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🏆 This is the Amazing Person Award 🏆
✨💛 Once you are given this award, you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you're amazing inside and out! 💛✨
awe, take this response as a right back at you <3 <3
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Fandom ask: 3, 5, 7, and 9 for OUAT =)
I answered a similar ask here (exact same numbers actually haha) but I'll answer with some other characters :)
3. A character I want to carry around in a little jar and study like a bug
the Blue Fairy but only bc she is annoying and I don't know anyone who likes her. So I'd lock her up in a jar so that she won't go around ruining other people's lives. Literal bug in a jar haha. Seriously how is she one of the good guys? How has she never been a season's big bad??
5. The character who gives me the greatest gender envy
(once again no clue what gender envy means haha) Mulan - I can only wish to be as cool as her. Also someone mentioned this to me but if she came to Storybrooke, she would totally arrive on a motorcycle. And then when she takes off her helmet and whips her hair - how is she so cool???
7. A character who feels like home
gonna cheat a bit and use a character from ouatiw: Cyrus. He is so soft and sweet, and ahhh I am so happy that he got his happy ending with Alice!
9. The character I'd most enjoy feeding to a pride of ravenous lions
Can I say the Blue Fairy again haha. If not, I'll go with Pan - he is such a great villain but then the reveal that he's Rumple's dad is just so weird to me. A grown man stealing children - yeah he deserves to be fed to lions
Thanks for the ask!
Send me an ask if you'd like :)
#thanks for the ask!#exlibrisfangirl#once upon a time#mulan ouat#mulan#cyrus ouatiw#cyrus#once upon a time in wonderland#answering asks in the palace#fandom asks#ask game
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