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anaalnathrakhs · 1 month

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it's rlly fun how my parents just straight up. do not care. about the disordered eating. we had all this talk back when i went through a big suicidal crisis a couple months ago, i explained what was really difficult for me, eating socially, restaurants, not choosing my food, etc, and now it's like. okay it didn't exist actually.

mother i am not going to order you around, either you accept that i'm gonna have difficulty dealing with "normal people behavior" or whatnot and you stop looking at me like :/ anytime i am anything but ecstatic at the idea of eating anything anytime anyhow, or you adapt your behavior to avoid the results you don't like to see. i'm only doing my best to handle things from my side, and i am certainly not going to try measuring for you how important family social eating occurences are to you.

#''we should talk abt it uwu'' WE TALKED ABOUT IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT DOING STUFF THAT I CAN'T EASILY HANDLE MAKES ME WEIRD.#EITHER YOU ASSUME IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME WEIRD BECAUSE YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW AND WHY #OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH #i'm not happy about how guilty i am too of that specific brand of ''oh this is so sad *continues doing nothing*'' form of ''compassion''#they just want me to perform anorexia recovery for them #so they can feel okay we're doing a good job at raising a normal child #they don't give a shit as long as the compusive eating is my mom's meal at the dinner table #just like they didnt care when i had roughly the same problems but not as bad before i had a restrictive phase #i cannot compromise because then WHAT im just hurting my parents for a situation that doesnt make me any happier either?#i do not want to live with them. i do not want to go place or do activities with them.#i dont want to talk to them most of the time and im perfectly willing to handle the times it could be cool to.#but it's really hard to start developping a life of your own when you first of all need like two weeks of total life-reset #quiet at home #and ''at home'' there's your parents who will simply not stop trying to pull you into going random bullshit places #and i can't say no. because the places ARE interesting and time-limited. and it makes them happy. and what am i gonna do anyway?#keep doing nothing on the computer and wait for them to come back to keep doing only the shittiest parts of this unsatisfactory routine?#try to do some work in the house or go out. for them to see that something happened?#i dont know how to live like a normal person #literally not once in my life have i been able to think ''oh i need to do X'' and then just. do X. prepare what's necessary for doing X.#go out and do X. i have to keep stuck at this computer or in this room or with this book.#because there is a million different obstacles to every single thing i'm trying to achieve and half of them are parents-shaped.#everything hurts holy shit #broadcasting my misery #vent #ed tw

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wardingshout · 5 months

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fast travel duck my beloved....

#tloz #a link to the past #my art #it feels a bit excessive to come on here just to post this and have nothing else done but I thought it was cute for once...#this game is Doing it for me #talked to one little guy in the woods who gave me an instrument and then turned into a tree and I shed a tear #idk this is what I'm here for idk the small little things in these games just make me feel stuff #I'm enjoying it so much but everything is truly just out to kill and hurt you in this game holy shit #still thinking about la I will finish wips eventually....

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existennialmemes · 3 months

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Do not speak to me while I am suffering the unmitigated agony of having done

Too Many Things

#spoonie #chronic pain #spoonie memes #chronic pain memes #neurodivergent #neurodivergent memes #actually autistic #adhd #adhd memes #everything fucking hurts #like fuck holy shit why except i do know why #not totally unmitigated though #i am smoking weed about it

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3amsnek · 1 year

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a very merry birth to our most logical boy :]

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reblogs >> likes!! don’t like if you don’t reblog!

#logan sanders #sanders sides logan #ts logan #ts fanart #ts art #ts logic #sanders sides fanart #logan sanders fanart #sanders sides #thomas sanders #literally Howmst the Fuck did I get this done holy shit #almost there kids!! we’ve technically done all of them but I’m gonna try to do em all in a Calendar year as well just because. I am.#apparently a masochist why the hell am I doing this again #context: one year ago today I realized it was Logan’s bday panic hed posted a random coincidentally finished thing of him I had on hand #and then vowed to draw a finished piece for Every T.s Character Birthday for the next year. absolute lunacy but here we still are #continuing for the sake of Spite if nothing else #i make. good choices #hypothetically it’s really not that bad it’s like less than 10 I think over a full year #and obviously tons of people Do do this every year #but of course in the interim i have been diagnosed with ‘oh yeah basically everything’s just gonna Hurt Forever sucks for u man’ disorder so #getting less and less realistic to set. kind of Any art goal anymore :’/#and like yes yes this is also the year i decided to do pride dragons for every identity celebration day I could find #very aware #one Certified Fool right here

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bones-of-a-rabbit · 1 year

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He was tired of you being afraid of him. Even recently, when you hadn't immediately fled at the sight of him, you were stiff and tense- well, more tense than a staffbot could be- and wouldn't look him in the eyes.

It hurt more than he wanted to admit.

He couldn't get an answer out of anyone- Sun, the Glamrocks, even the human workers in the Pizzaplex.

It was driving him mad.

He liked you. More than he probably should. But you were so scared of him. And he didn't know why.

That brought him to now- hunting through logs and security feed for nearly four hours, combing through them, searching for clues as to what happened during the time they had been infected. There was next to nothing in his system, which was only more suspect. Obviously information had been there, but he was struggling to find how to bring it back. The data recovery in his processor wasn't working, so he had elected to go through the security offices one by one to see if there was any saved data there.

Aha.

Someone had forgotten to empty the trash on a monitor, revealing a concerning amount of footage and security logs from when the virus was at its strongest. He started scanning through the logs, pausing when he came upon a log simply titled 'Damaged Staffbot'. Opening it, he scanned the text.

'3:46 a.m. Damaged Staffbot found on the second floor of the Atrium near Roxy Raceway. Arm needs to be fully replaced, wires have been torn at the upper arm.'

He closed the log, suddenly feeling a sliver of dread worm its way into his circuits. Another log.

'2:09 a.m. Damaged staffbot found near Rockstar Row. Legs have been ripped off. Total replacement required.'

Another.

'3:46 a.m. Damaged staffbot found near Gator Golf. Hands have been crushed. Total replacement required.'

Another.

'3:54 a.m. Damaged staffbot found inside the basement of Fazbear Theater. Chest has multiple deep gashes, face has been ripped open.'

Another.

And then...

'5:57 a.m. Damaged staffbot found near front entrance. Bot has been almost completely dismantled. Major repairs required.'

Robots couldn't technically feel nauseous, but he felt like he was pretty damn close. His metal fingers threatened to crush the mouse in his grip as he stared at the screen.

It was you.

No other bot would be repaired without complaint so many times, no other had the discolored plating over part of your head that you did.

Now he knew where you got it from.

You were attacked.

Multiple times.

You were terrified of him.

He had to know who did this to you.

You already know.

He clicked on the feed of the day of the final log, hands trembling ever so slightly as he forwarded through the feed watching over the front entrance. He saw Freddy and a small child (how was there a child still in the Pizzaplex) running toward the door. Then he saw himself, not far behind, a manic grin on his face, locked on the child.

He swung lower on his cable, releasing and scuttling across the floor, reaching for the child-

Something slammed into him, HARD.

He watched in shock as his past self was sent tumbling, limbs entangled with something. His past self laid limply on the floor for a moment, and he watched as the person that stopped him staggered to their feet- and his pupils shrank in horror.

It was you. Even with the less than quality video feed, he could see the discoloration on your face where your metal patch was.

No.

His past self rose to his feet, gaze locked onto you.

No.

You took a step back.

No.

He lunged, and you were too slow to move. He rammed into your upper body, sending you down onto the floor hard. You didn't move as he loomed over you, grin sharp.

He grabbed your head, and pulled.

He shut off the computer.

CONSUMING THIS LOVING THIS I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEAAAA

ANON PLS I WOULD SACRIFICE MY FIRSTBORN TO U PLS KNOW I LOVE U

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cozystars · 5 months

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The one who carries the Mushroom Kingdom on her shoulders.

#sorry for the caption being a bit corny...i couldnt think of anything else #i want to explain everything here we would be here for a few minutes lol BUT UH #the basics: peach is poisonous. similar to how poison ivy works (via contacting skin) but uh a bit stronger.#a trait gained from her mom who was toad-adjacent #which is why she wears those gloves everywhere.#Because of this fact she believes she has to do things by herself. anyone who gets too close means she has a higher chance of hurting them #And leads to her just....expelling a lot of bottled shit by herself :) yaaay #i wanted to keep the fact that peach is shown to be very emotional person. both in terms of sadness and anger #shes kind but still flawed.#“im a nervous wreck but no one can know that! They're all counting on me!”#it was weird but fun to draw her eyes...idk if those are gonna be the final colors #well that was also a pragraph of tags WHOOPS #JP&E #super mario bros #mario #princess peach #now if youll excuse me i gotta go regain my strength from all this drawing i did. holy shit #eye strain #body horror #cosmo creates #illustration

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rocklain · 24 days

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I have been obsessed with this little thing since October, I simply can't get enough ARGH

#captain laserhawk #bullfrog #assasins creed #assassin's creed froggo #the french pun #holy shit #i #my head hurts from how #much i think about him #nothing is true #everything is permitted

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leighsartworks216 · 1 month

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I now understand people who knit/crochet during class and stuff

#i am knitting while watchinf youtube #and i have never been so in tune with everything #my hands hurt but my brain is focused #holy shit i should knit in therapy that would be incredible #random #knitting

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significant-ace-nnoyance · 4 months

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interrupting your regular programming to bring you a special message: stop. whatever you're doing right now. stop and go watch everything everywhere all at once. i dont care if you "dont have multiple hours to spare" do it. i dont care if you've "already seen it" watch it again???? "ive seen it 5 times" watch it a 6th time ???????? even better watch it a 7th ?????? literally what could you be doing that's more important than seeing this masterpiece before you and sobbing your fucking soul out??????

i thought so.

#somebody sedate me because that movie makes me BAJDFLKBdfksKjagsdJHFsdLKfgjsaklJAFGALSKJGD #if you cant tell i just watched it again #holy shit #im too incoherent right now to offer any meaningful thoughts #just #no other movie has made me cry with SNOT and TEARs drIPPPING down my face because of a single LINE a single LOOK #a single SHOT OF TWO PLANETS COLLIDING AND A ROCK FALLING OFF A CLIFF KILL ME NOW #everything everywhere all at once #this has been your psa #youre welcome #or sorry #both #this movie will hurt you and heal you in the most innovative incredible way #hate the fucking oscars drive them into the ground but at least they gave this movie the recognition it fucking DESERVES #also stephanie hsu is CRIMINALLY underrated holy sHIT her performance #anyways ill stop yapping im just wasting your time in which you could be watching this movie #do it #michelle yeoh #EATS DOWN in this movie #as she always does but HOLY SHIT thats an actress right there thats what talent MEANS #also waymond <3 oh my godfkljadkljg that man makes me cry #ke huy quan #DEVOURS as waymond also #anyone who bitches about this movie is genuinely willingly stupid stop boring us with your whining and go WATCH IT #anyways #eeaao

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anaalnathrakhs · 2 months

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im not saying its WORSE or anything but having permissive parents is also an incredibly weird kind of leash. i CAN do anything i want technically, and they'll accept it, but they'll also shit their pants in fear if i do anything but go to school and hang out downtown until 6pm. one time my mom INSISTED to come get me with the car less than a full kilometer away from home bc she was scared for me. and here i was, in my sluttiest outfit, sitting in my mom's car at 1am, because of course mother cannot go to sleep if the child is not back in the nest for tonight. i have a door to the outside in my room, i have the key, i can leave anytime i want. but i remember when i was fully nocturnal and i'd return from a little walk in the neighborhood at 5am and my mom would just look at me like i just told her i swallowed the whole medicine cabinet. i dont want to hurt my parents. i also dont want to be providing a detailed roadmap of everything i intend to do while out. that's what i mean when i say i feel like moving out would fix me.

#i know it's full of love and i know it's not unjustified bc age is not everything #and i did miss a lot of important milestones bc of being a neet for my teenage years #but holy SHIT is it unsufferable #i feel like i can't have a relationship with my parents AND be a regular normal person instead of some kind of pet they keep in the attic #i can't tell them anything without hurting them #because they got used to knowing that the precious glass child was in its room 24/7 and now i suppose it must feel HORRIBLE to not know #we didnt separate properly and progressively as i grew up in age so now im 18yo #with the maturity of a 15yo #and they see me as a 12yo #it's difficult to navigate to say the least #broadcasting my misery #vent

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pinkhairswagtourney · 11 months

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me: i'm gonna work on the tourney today !!! headache: nope blood sugar: nah chronic pain: i don't think so

#i'm working on it now but holy shit my body literally nope'd the fuck out on me earlier #my head started pounding and my back and hips were hurting so bad . i couldn't keep sitting up and staring at my laptop screen #and then when i checked my blood sugar it had spiked even though i didnt eat anything high carb or high sugar to make it spike to begin wit #so i just ended up going to bed early #hopefully i'll have everything ready to post by this afternoon !!#mod post

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lil-munchie · 5 months

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Could you tell I went though hell trying to get the mouths to line up on the face and with the music at the same time

#holy fucking shit everything hurts #animation #homestuck #art #drawing #roxy lalonde #dirk strider #tweening

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jheselbraum · 4 months

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Why does Yunobo's sage theme go so fucking hard

#While Tulin's progression from doubt to accepting the stone is the best written #Yunobo's has the best score #Yunobo's theme makes me feel like we're going to kick ganons ass RIGHT NOW #tloz #totk #yunobo #I love him so much #Rijus theme also goes hard but it feels a lot more calm and collected compared to Yunobo's #Which thematically makes sense #Since she's #You know #A fucking gerudo warrior queen #Meanwhile Sidon and Link are shaking hands meme with ''I have to do everything myself so no one else gets hurt'' syndrome #Holy shit I think all the sages reflect different aspects of links original heroes journey as well as his overall #''you don't have to do this by yourself you know'' arc in totk #Holy shit gotta make a separate post about that

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beauleifu · 1 year

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: LEGO Monkie Kid Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Summary:

"Your eyes. . . . Why are they so empty?"

"These eyes of mine were never capable of perceiving this world in such vibrant colors as yours do, my dear."

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Rarely does one stop to appreciate the little things. However, what does one do when the little things is all that's keeping them attached to this frail, broken world? You never thought you'd find a soul who tends to see things through a cracked lens until you met the Mayor. You never thought someone like you was worthy of getting kidnapped- but fate tends to surprise the unwary.

Besides, that kind of stuff happens to the main character. You've been anything but that for years.

#lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk mayor #mayor x reader #lmk mayor x reader #fluff #angst #heartbeat #hurt/comfort #hurt no comfort #ok fuckthis everything is IN THE TAGS GUYS #look at the tags but also dont look cause i went off #2nd FANFIC LES GOOOO #OTS HAPPENING #GUYS ITS HAPPENING #HOLY SHIT

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stinkrascal · 5 months

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i finally finished writing the vlad/brie backstory reprisal

#holy shit holy SHITTTTTTTTT im gonna cry im so excited #the ending LMFAOOOOOOOOO its so funny. its a happy ending :) kind of #its happy for v and b thats what matters to me!#359 pages BOYYYY do my hands hurt. obviously i still need to take time to edit everything #and delete stuff and include scenes that were brainstormed but never written out. so still a ways to go #but at least its all on paper now and i can parse thru everything as needed AHHHHHHH im so happy u guys!!!!!!!#my silly little vladislaus straud fanfiction its truly the light of my life yall!!!!!!

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idiot-mushroom · 7 months

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i’m really sad actually

#i’m just feel shit abt myself #i’m not a bad person but i’m not exactly great #holy shit do i just fucking push ppl away #i ruin fucking everything i touch and at this point the evidence doesn’t lie #i ruin all my relationships #i hurt people i love #i always fuck it up #always #everything bad in my life is my fault i just know it #it’s all because of me #shroom talks #vent post #vent tw #vent in tags #i’ll be better in the morning just please leave me alone i don’t need comfort #i just need people to just know i’m a lil fucked up rn #and to know that i cannot deal with shit rn so stop being stupid in my posts and shit #i’m not going to deal with it well rn

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