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icannotgetoverbirds · 2 years
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Fat people deserve better.
We are not repulsive. We are not vile. We are not appalling.
We are people.
If my existence "promotes obesity"? Good!
You want to know why?
I am not promoting the idea that someone should become obese. I am not going to attempt to police someone else's body and lifestyle like sizeist people do.
I am promoting the idea that people of all sizes are deserving of the bare minimum of basic human respect.
This should not be a radical idea. This should not be something we have to fight about.
99% of the time? Being fat is not a choice. And you know what? Even if it was - even if I was shoving big macs into my greasy fucking maw every 2 hours?
I would still be deserving of basic decency.
I would still be deserving of proper medical care that takes into account things other than my size and diet.
I would still be deserving of comfort, of clothing that fits.
You want to know the worst part of all of this?
Fat kids deserve better, and all too often, they don't get it.
Fat kids deserve to be able to be active without being mocked for the way their body moves.
Fat kids deserve to be seen as children rather than medical problems that need solving.
Fat kids deserve clothing that fits them and makes them feel good about themselves.
Fat kids deserve to eat, and to eat good food.
Fat kids deserve to eat cake at birthday parties like everyone else.
Fat kids deserve to go trick-or-treating like all the other kids.
Fat kids deserve love. Fat kids deserve respect.
Fat kids deserve a proper childhood without having to pay a toll of trying to change their bodies.
Fat kids deserve acceptance for their bodies as they are and as they will be - not pleasantries about how they'll grow up to be skinny, so they don't need to learn to love themselves before then.
Fat people deserve better.
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kkujo · 2 years
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i love you girls with round faces i love you girls with strong jawlines i love you girls with big foreheads i love you girls with chubby cheeks i love you girls with masculine features i love you girls with square faces i love you girls with big noses i love you girls with double chins i love you girls with bushy eyebrows i love you girls with soft jawlines i love you girls with crooked teeth i love you girls with small eyes i love you girls
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joestarkisser · 5 months
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tw// fatphobia
Hey. If you're a fat selfshipper, and you don't have the "good parts" of being fat, the "at least" parts, that's okay. I know a lot of selfship content is intended for thin people, or fat people who are still societally considered "good enough", and I just wanted to say your F/Os love you.
If your breasts are small, not big and nowhere near gigantic like fat people are often "supposed" to have, your F/O loves your chest.
If your hips are narrow, not wide, pronounced and round like fat people are "supposed" to have, your F/O loves your hips.
If your thighs are small or narrow, not big and squishy like fat people are "supposed" to have, your F/O loves your thighs.
If your ass is small, not big and soft like fat people are "supposed" to have, your F/O loves your ass.
Fatphobes often bully people who don't match up to the "acceptable" fat, that "at least" fat people have big breasts, large hips, large thighs and a giant ass, and it can be hard to love your body even in fat positive spaces. It's hard to see only pear shaped or hourglass shaped fat people and wonder why you "had to be fat" yet "don't have the right assets".
It's hard when people post videos of your body type, talking about how "unfortunate" your shape is because you happen to be fat, but lack the things that "make up for" being fat.
But it doesn't matter at all. Your F/Os find you so very attractive. Your body is a masterpiece, a pinnacle of desire for them. It sparks only the most lustful of feelings for them, makes them want you, to touch you, to feel you in ways you couldn't even imagine possible.
So don't worry about if your body is "good enough". Your F/Os love you. And they want you.
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astralnymphh · 4 months
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i've said this before, but ellie loves being straddled. esp jackson!ellie, when you prompt the position yourself, shifting weight onto your knees n' tossing a leg over right as two r cuddling, like the legit moment you do it her lids hastily peel back and you see her arm reach out for your hips like a reflex— bends at the knees behind you where her thighs press into ur' butt n' fuuckk she gives a faint squeeze to your hip bones, notably her thumb on the opposite side of the bone so you truly feel that dimpled push, and her other fingers inching the round of your butt— on the sly she eases you further on her hips/belly, skimp roll of her groin creasing the fabric under your bottom blehhhh AND THE BUTTON OF HER FLY POKING YOU DELICATELY AUGHH.
tries to keep the conversation ordinary— but her voice, her fucking voiceeee would be so nasally and lush with dry scoffs, "pshh— please, you probably don't know the first thing about 'the turning'." when all she wants to do is flip your body plumb to the mattress and bury you in it with soft, wanton nibbles weaving through the bare/revealing bits of your shirt, to have you giggling and bucking when she ruts her frame through the gap of your spread thighs n' envelop herself in the plush skin, to leave an impression with the tight jam of her fingers fondling said plush fat on your flesh, pretty little raw marks, lovely hidden traces of how fucking bad she needs to take you. ♡
sorry like. ellie x reader starting a relationship in jackson is literally my empire i need to write a whole fucking drabble book on it (or fucking finish tps LMAO) also this angelgbc pic AHHHHHH (dunno the direct source but pls lmk so i can credit)
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also update on knight!ellie fic it's going smooth but because it's the prologue it's sooo lore heavy before the romance and tension actually begins to bloom BUTT LIKE heyy!! slowly leads up to some romantic n dirty smut scenes in other chapters!!
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lewdimagines · 13 days
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𝓞𝐏𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐄 (18+)
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pairings : jake kim x reader, gitae kim x reader
content warning ⚠️: nsfw head canons. . .
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JAKE KIM :
he definitely is nice and romantic.. the way he gives off lover boy is so mbejwgsjeh 😍😍, he is the type man to caress you and lead you while slowly but harshly pounding into your hole and whispering soft praises in your ear.. calling you his good (boy/girl) and how your taking his cock so well
he kinda gives off like prob..8 inches def a shower not a grower 🎀 he definitely has top 5 prettiest cocks but his cum is prob not as tasty as others since he mainly eats like ramen n stuff..please give this boy some fruits and a correct diet 😭‼️.
bonus…
jake had you in a big spoon position..its been like this for minutes probably hours even! You couldn’t keep up with this mans stamina not knowing how much times you had even came around his girthy cock, as he hit your sweet spots with every thrust forcing loud moans from your vocal cords “ please..jakee feels too much its too much baby~! “ he would kiss your tears rolling down your face as his thrust sped up slightly making you squeal out in overstimulation pulling out another orgasm from you “ shh..just take my cock pretty thats all im askin you to do baby. “
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GITAE KIM :
THE TOTAL OPPOSITE FROM JAKE
js mean and rough :(( never gives you a break esp if you guys are dating/married he just wants to be in your hole all the time, how else is he gonna relieve his stress anywhere else? Its hard managing a cartel and being so hot, he is such and i mean SUCH a red flag
Soon as you say no to him he will throw a big fit making no other choice for him to fuck your throat and degrade you in how stupid you are and how you dont even compare to those street common whores.
9 inches. YEA HE IS BIGGER THAN JAKE AND SO WHAT 🤬🤬‼️ He is a grower at first you’d be relieved on how he is a average length..but as soon as you start gridding your hips on his lap at the club he is dealing at you felt something way more than average against the fat of your cheeks. ( he is a ass man )
he only is romantic when youre dating him!! If you’re js some night stand he is gonna be rough and aggressive to you all night not even giving you a break.
bonus. . .
“ GITAE- SHIT! “ your screams and moans would bounce off the club restroom his hands bouncing you back on his cock, plunging his hips into yours making wet slapping noises “ maybe if you..didnt tightened the fuck up this would be fuckin easier, right? “ he said his tone being menacing and rude your walls tightening up on his walls as you squealed out more your hands gripping on the bathroom sink. Your legs quivering as the tip of his cock kept hitting your g spot. “ PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE “ your begging would fall deaf on his ears as he roughened up his thrusts pulling you back by your hair “ let me see that fuckin face yea? “ you could only nod bring to dumb to know what to say as your legs quivered pulling out an orgasm from you
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shotmrmiller · 3 months
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✨Toni~✨
I come with an idea. I need more FWB! Simon. I need angst, I need to suffer from this man, I know he would do us so dirty.
Like imagine since the both of him and reader are non exclusive, but reader gets knocked up. She's panicking because she's on birth control, trying to figure out who she slept with last and it's HIM-
And maybe, just maybe the last time they slept together, they had a fight. Because this Mansss decided to leave us after an argument, because he had another 'appointment'.
So yeah know, now we got to tell this dick we're knocked up. And I don't know you can go from there, if you don't like this idea, delete it ignore it.🫠
BUT ANGST.
Thank you for your time, I love you Toni you rock like always! 💓
oh, so dirty.
esp if i use the fwb simon from the (platonic) cbf johnny au i got.
Johnny held your hand as you waited the 5 minutes for the results of the pregnancy test.
"What am I gonna do if it's positive, Johnny? I can't...I'm not ready to be a mum!" you sniffled and took in a shuddered breath. "What are the chances that I'm the 1%?"
His expression was solemn, thin lips set in a firm line. "Ye finally gonna tell me tha' the father is Simon or do ye wish to continue playin' yer little game?" Johnny rasped.
You rest your head on his shoulder and tiredly close your eyes.
"Was hoping I'd never have to tell you. It was supposed to be just a quick knocking of boots and then we both went my merry, his miserable, ways. But as per usual, I'm just dogged by misfortune."
The wait for the timer to ring had your heart slamming against your ribcage. The prospect of birthing a child you never even thought about having had bile rising up to your throat, leaving an acrid taste on your tongue.
You start at the piercing ring of the timer but don't move to get up.
Johnny, forever your hero, is the one who bites the bullet for you.
He gently flips over the stick, stares at it for a second, then drags a hand down his face. He also doesn't look at you as he utters, "So are ye gonna tell 'em?"
You hastily crawl over to the toilet bowl and empty your stomach.
Pregnant.
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You told Johnny everything. How it started that one night when he had been over here for drinks, and you had put Johnny to bed because he'd gotten to sloshed, to propositioning him and then the weekly hook ups.
Well, almost everything. He didn't need to know that you gave Simon a sloppy toppy in his kitchen while he snored away that same night you asked him to fuck you.
And then how it finally ended. Simon getting redressed at witching hour because some other tart called him to go over. (your thighs had still been wet from his spend at that time)
So you had called him an unpaid whore; A worthless piece of meat— good for nothing other than cock— and told him that if he leaves, you and he are done.
He had huffed out a laugh, grabbed his motorcycle helmet off your dinner table, and walked out the door without a backward glance.
Johnny hadn't said a word the entire time, but then again, he didn't have to. His countenance said it all.
Disappointment.
He looked so devastatingly disappointed that your eyes welled with tears in seconds and spilled— one fat drop after the other until he pulled you into his arms and held you as you wept, your grief and anguish visceral.
--
"Ye've gotta tell him, bonnie. He has the right to ken."
You let out an aggrieved sigh. Again, with this. "No. He hasn't texted in weeks. Clearly, Simon doesn't give a damn about me. 'Sides, we don't need him when you're around."
A wave of dizzying nausea slams into you, and your world beings to tilt on its axis.
"Don't feel so good, Johnny, I think I need to sit down."
Strong arms catch you as your body crumples and everything goes dark.
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You rouse from your sleep and find yourself in Johnny's bed with a sharp pounding in your head. Groaning, you turn over to your side and press your fingers into your temples— hoping to alleviate some of the pain when your phone's screen lights up.
Simon's calling.
Goddamnit Johnny. Bloody nosy parker.
You decline it and wait for his text. He's always hated when you ignored his calls on purpose.
And there it is.
Where you ever gonna tell me?
Nothing you need to know about.
No? I thought you were on birth control.
We don't need you.
That mean you're keepin' it?
My baby? Yes, obviously.
Our. Stay at Johnny's, I'm coming over.
No, no. Stay at your girl's house. We'll be just fine without you.
Cute. I'll see you in 10.
(lowkey wondering how he would react if you told him it's johnny's. lol)
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punkitt-is-here · 5 months
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Your human pinkie makes me so happy. I rarely see big fat characters, usually only just a bit chubby if at all. So seeing her with the style of fatness that feels like people I've seen is so nice. The big arms, the shapes, the weight. It just feels nice to see this body type appreciated and see so much love and thought be put into her design.
Anyways it makes me happy and makes me feel better about how I've been gaining a bunch of weight. :)
Love your art so much, hope you have a good week!
hell yeah! makes me happy too, ever since I got on estrogen I've been gaining weight but I'm at a point in my life where that doesn't bother me at all, and the positive response to that art certainly helps :> and yeah! i'm happy to see it described as "feels like people [you've] seen", cuz that's kind of exactly what I wanted to do. When I got more confident drawing her I wanted to represent features I see more on the friends i have IRL that are fat (esp since they're not represented too well in a lot of art) and that makes me happy that its coming across that way!
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bonefall · 2 months
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i was wondering, how different are BB!Windstar, BB!Riverstar, and BB!Shadowstar in Modern Starclan than they were alive? Esp compared to BB!Skystar and BB!Thunderstar.
Windstar is waaaaaaaaaaay different. Modern cats have completely forgotten that she was kind of a bitch. Of all the founders, I'd actually say that she's the most different. They de-girlbossified her.
Her revelation from Gray Wing the Wise was that she had a taste of battle and choked on it; ergo, she should expand her horizons. She spent the later half of her leadership doing just that, encouraging her cats to trade, forming alliances, and collaborating heavily with Shadowstar on technological advances. She was so loved that ShadowClan constructed a cairn at her burial-- a mound of stones around her body.
In life, she never lost her intensity. Though she took the revelation to heart, she often held grudges, took part in skirmishes against the others, and displayed a lot of bias within her heavily-hierarchical Clan. She could even be cruel and unfair in her judgements. Moth Flight personally experienced this in life, as The Wind Runner held her parentage against her before she'd proven herself useful.
In BB, Moth Flight is the daughter of Cloud Flight and Wind's terrible ex-mate, Branch. Windstar's kittens are Morning Awakener and Dustiest Muzzle.
(note: Names still might change. Park cat names are titles, three words at most, which are collected over their lives. Traditionally, a king bestows these titles, but in WindCo it's their parent. I feel like it fits her to have three kits called Big One, Middle One, and Little One tbh, lmao)
In death, these less savory aspects have been filed down by the sands of time. She's remembered as intelligent and jovial, loud and singsong. Her real build was lanky and wiry, but she's imagined to be as fat as a rabbit thanks to her trading and innovation. She gets associated with the matriarch doe that runs a warren.
(Gorselike Fur is depicted as harelike.)
The stories give her a king-like air to her. Most of the post-battle WindClan tales open up with her being approached in her camp, describing the kittens that took over after her death as 'heirs,' because the Wind Coalition didn't have deputies until Riverstar's death and a succession crisis.
In contrast, Shadowstar is actually the least changed founder. Her revelation was that she had failed to break her own legacy (remembered through history as failed to be compassionate, as her "legacy" of being the descendant of Broken Shadow is forgotten) and someone else would be broken for her. That turned out to be her nephew, Sun Shadow.
After winning a staring contest with One Eye, Sun Shadow won the right to become the God of the Sun. It is said that if someone else wins a staring contest with him, THEY will become the next god, so Sun Shadow defends his position viciously.
At night, he must rest, and his aunt is there to shelter him. This is why there is day and night-- as Shadowstar allows him to sleep in her embrace.
(Post-Lake there are actually arguments between River and Shadow "philosophers," who fight over if Sun Shadow is actually laying down to rest in Riverstar's embrace instead. Blood has been spilled. Average college professor discussion.)
So, as a patron, she's associated with shelter, safety, rest. Sanctuary. It's something that ShadowClan heavily values about itself at various points through history. So Shadowstar is seen as gentle, protective, and pragmatic. Someone who deeply regrets how she lost sight of the value of life, and will now fight to defend the cats under her charge.
Not all too different from who she was in life.
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starry-eyedblog · 4 months
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just found your account and ohhh my god I love it mwah chefs kiss
but I gotta know what you think about price with a partner who bites/likes being bitten (esp. a bratty partner?? tell me that’s not a gorgeous idea)
anyway I will be following bc I love your account so far
brb sobbing, thank you anon that's so kind!! i hope you will continue to enjoy my posts (˶˃ᆺ˂˶)
as someone who loves to bite and loves being bitten, this is right up my alley so i am positively eating this the fuck up.
warnings/tags: john price x gn reader, biting, bruises
i feel like price won't really entertain you biting all over him, he's a captain and needs to remain respectable so his neck is a no go for bites. if he's feeling nice, or you’ve been behaving well, he'll let you bite at his chest a little. he secretly really enjoys when you bite and tug at his nipples but wont admit it because then he’ll never get a break from you, begging to get at his chest with your teeth.
price isn't an easily jealous man. he's older, more mature now and he knows how head over heals you are for him. he doesn't need to prove anything, especially younger men who fawn over you.
so, he won't usually go for your neck with the bites. your thighs though? now that's a different ballpark. when he's eating you out/sucking you off, you best believe your thighs will be left bruised and sore.
he’ll take his time, pressing kisses to your thighs and working his way up. when you get impatient, bucking your hips up or tugging his head down by his hair so he’ll finally put his mouth on you where you need it most, he’ll sink his teeth into your thighs harshly till you’re crying.
he’ll leave faint teeth marks that last for days, and are highly sensitive to touch. when you're being bratty, he'll press his thumb down on your inner thighs where the bruises and bites are because he knows how much they sting.
i also feel like he's the type of man to bite your arse cheek when taking you in doggy. one hand pressing down into your lower back to make you arch more while the other grabs at your ass. he'll lean down and sink his teeth into the fat of your arse while still fucking you meanly.
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scwibbs · 1 month
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Mmmm okie lemme be a bit silly for a second but can I thank you for the fat Miguels? Like. I dunno it's nice, when I'm fat too? (Esp when you've done him as a trans man, I hold that dear to my heart?) He's got rolls and he's happy and idk? Seeing your art just makes me happy tbh, so thank you?
aaaa im so glad that you enjoy it!! its brings me alot of joy that my art makes you happy :') genuinely like ive said before knowing that my art impacts you guys in a positive way keeps me drawing even when im down. here's a drawing jus for you :D
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ishgard · 22 days
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— B A S I C S
Name: Ahru Hiraeth Nicknames: Not a lot of nicknames actually, occasionally "Ru" Age: Early-Mid Thirties Nameday: 21st Sun of the 4th Astral Moon Race: Seeker/Keeper Gender: Female Orientation: Bisexual / Biromantic Profession: Adventurer, Warrior of Light
— P H Y S I C A L A S P E C T S
Hair: Naturally blond, light corruption left it bleached white. Eyes: Blue with a gold ring around the pupils Skin: Pale with warm undertones, tans easily Tattoos/scars: No tattoos, but many superficial scars and several less. A thin scar on the side of her face from sahagins when she was child. An 'overlapped' scar from Zenos and Elidibus across the chest. Lichtenberg scars along her left arm, old burns down her right leg, hip-to-knee.
— F A M I L Y
Parents: Both living. Ahnia Hiraeth, mir'amna ('mother') of the Hiraeth. X'rehn Tia, ex-Garlean assassin. Siblings: Nia'to Hiraeth (twin brother), Fianah Hiraeth (younger half-sister) Grandparents: Amazingly I haven't thought about them too much. In-laws and Other: X'rhun Tia (uncle), X'yehnia Rehl (cousin), X'vehl Tia (cousin, retainer) Pets: Arrow (chocobo), Grani (…Grani), Caesar (wolf 'pup'), Mochi (fat cat - King of the Rising Stones), Ardbert (black hayate - lives with Ryne and Gaia now), Baby (baby opo opo - not a pet this is her son)
— S K I L L S
Abilities: BRD/RDM main, MNK is always one broken weapon away from showing you why it's a bad idea to disarm her. Omniclasses p much everything but is worst at SMN/SCH. Her music weaves aether in such a way that it enhances her magical abilities, so even when utilizing her healing or destructive magics, she often weaves her bardwork into it. Hobbies: Traveling, making music, journaling, reading (in the past study of the Void has been her speciality and passion - but she's always had a soft spot for epics, romances, and such), knitting, cooking.
— T R A I T S
Most Positive Trait: She's got way more love to give than you might expect, she just sometimes has a hard time showing it. Open-minded/flexible, she's not often put-off or caught off guard and is very accepting (at times forgiving, to a fault). Most Negative Trait: Still getting over the trauma of 'people who get close to me tend to suffer terribly', which leads her to distancing herself. Really prone to wanderlust and violence (as in, loves a good fight). Good luck slowing her down and good luck getting her out of it if you got her in 'fight mode'.
— L I K E S
Colors: Red and Black (omg she's a gamer) Smells: Campfire smoke, cloves, leather, amber/incense, rarer but often enough the frosty fresh air of colder climes. Textures: Broken-in leather, furs (silky, soft and the more coarse), the smooth and sharp edges of a crystal. Drinks: Water, tea (specifically mulled tea), wine, ale. Partial to mint lassi's.
— O T H E R D E T A I L S
Smokes: Very occasional, with growing rarety. Drinks: Historically was your pretty average social drinker, swore off the stuff for a long period after being drugged multiple times, but more recently has started enjoying the occasional drink - her tolerance has dropped significantly to fun/humorous effect. Drugs: No; somnus in particular is a touchy subject. Mount Issuance: Arrow (chocobo) was a gift from Thancred welcoming her to the Scions. Grani was a gift from Emet-Selch, and is her primary mount esp. in places where Arrow can't go. Been Arrested: Amazingly not.
Tagged by: @ardberts, @gatheredfates, @sealrock, @myreia, @shroudkeeper - thank you all so much!!! I might honestly do more and use the tags as an excuse 😌 Tagging: @twelveswood, @thewitchofelpis, @eorzeanflowers, @thefrostflower, @allyennah, @mrlarkstin, @koijikido, @ubejamjar, @ungrateful-cyborg - and anyone else! (if you've already done it or don't want to ignore me <3<3<3)
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liquidstar · 6 months
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my big fat greek wedding is the realest greek rep in mainstream american media, not because its completely accurate- a lot is rooted in lighthearted sort of self-stereotypes, and is overall pretty shallow if youre looking for legitimate emotionally resonate representation of any kind. BUT thats also EXACTLY what makes it vibe w so many greeks anyway because we hardly ever see those very specific little eccentricities even mentioned, letalone be made the focal point, so we kind of love making fun of it in a way thats like "oh my god thats JUST like my thio maki!!! and thats just like thia calliope!!! oh fuck that ones just like me"
all things considered i dont think greek representation is like the most important ever or anything, but its so rare to see greece acknowledged beyond ancient stuff or mythology, or maybe the occasional jab at eastern europe, that its just... fun to see yourself and your family a little bit on the tv. it doesnt really get into the super deep parts of the culture or anything like that but its fine bc its fun. i think most greek families (esp of diaspora) have bonded to this movie because theyre just like us for real. before this, i think the closest thing id seen to actual greek rep on tv was from an episode of the suite life on deck where it was mainly just an eastern europe stereotype 😭 abt being hairy and playing with pig guts as balloons and shit idk. i mean also true but in a way that comes off as more mean spirited lol. but even then i was excited just to see our flag on tv and remember pointing at it to my mom so i cant say it was the worst. but hey!
anyway i like my big fat greek wedding a lot, wanna see the 3rd sometime too but never got around to it. it just vibes and is fun. and again like i said before, greek rep wasnt the most important thing ever growing up (even if it is super cool to see and does make me very happy to have our culture acknowledged outside of ancients!) but it does make me understand why representation is important in a more general way and why it means so much to people. and i also understand that it can mean a whole lot more to people whove been historically treated way worse by media. like, lack of acknowledgement is one thing, but outright malicious stereotypes are another. i do get this with lgbt+ rep too but since i was lucky enough to be born in a time where its becoming the norm i also cant imagine how it must have seen so much worse and then live in a world where every cartoon has 2 girls kissing. its not perfect and often corporate but... also a good sign
sorry this post is super stream of consciousness so its probably all over the place but i think my general thoughts are that ppl who shit on a series for having any kind of representation they dislike (being "too progressive" or something) is not only an awful unsympathetic person but also like. on the flip side will never know the joy of seeing yourself like that. but i do realize it also comes with the tradeoff of not being seen to begin with so its not like its a net positive but... those ppl still wont know! they will not understand the true joys of "[country] mentioned!!!!" when the country is The United States Of America. the end
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modernghostfare · 5 months
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Hello.. can we get more ghostmace headcanons. If you ever wrote any pls link them too...
:)c YESSS i love talking abt maceghost.. i know ive made a bunch of sporadic posts about them but i havent done a like dedicated hcs post. i feel like often im struggling to understand the narrative of their past but generally i keep the same vibe to it all.
mace is for sure the more level headed of the two only because relationships and love freak ghost out. ive mentioned on a post like years ago hes traumatized by watching his mother stick with his father and i still believe this. hes like scared to be in a position where something Isn't working anymore but hes too emotional to cut it off so he self sabotages the relationship so mace will get pissed and stop talking to him.
in the past (as i mentioned in another post) mace Did also feed into this. he had a good home life but his own personal issues and anger at more outward issues caused him to like. seek an outlet for this sort of petty squabbling. and he found it in ghost. until he got tired of festering and being pissed off all the time and decided to actually like Do Shit he feels good about. and he broke up with ghost.
now in modern times where theyve caught up with each other it's like a weird mash of their past and them both being more mature. ghost struggles more because hes very adverse to actually improving himself and how he feels about himself bc hes like. hes Given Up on being a person. while mace has done a lot of healing.
like the toxic factor of maceghost Is Ghost at this point to me. but theres a lot of love there bc theres a lot of mutual respect and, like, easy familiarity there. mace understands how ghost works at his core.
so like. when ghost is being Normal and not anxious they literally just. like. Click? mace can extremely put ghost at ease with just his presence. and mace in turn rly enjoys his company bc a calm ghost is actually just sort of casually funny.
and ghost does like making mace laugh i imagine mace has a really beautiful smile bc he has resting bitch face so when it lights up it's very special.
ghost also i think would be 100% willing to take his mask off in a room of just him and mace. no special occasion needed he's just comforted. mace has already seen it over many, many years.
because they're like an Old couple i think theyve been on and off since their mid twenties for ghost and late twenties for mace. WHICH is another reason mace like wont entertain the childish picking ghost does theyre literally too old.
but he does play along a little. sometimes. old habits die hard. if it's petty mace will have a back and forth w ghost for old times sake its just how ghost communicates sometimes. emotions are just hard for ghost mace understands this. to put all of this simply.
i will say tho if more comes out and they end up more antagonistic than my current read i will still be a huge stan i love when dudes try to fuck and kill each other 💪🥰💕
speaking of fucking tho. tw for implying sexual assault also i just got kinda nasty sowwy.
LIKE we know ghost has a complicated relationship w sex a lot of his past history w it is like traumatic. i think he was already promiscuous as a teen bc he already had issues from his upbringing so hes like. well experienced. and he likes sex. and he likes fucking mace bc his dick is thick, hes good with his hands, and he's not afraid to be rough with him and take their time bc mace likes to be edged and when ghost is rly into it he Likes it to Last esp if he can cum more than once. he likes when his pussy is sore.
BUT ALSOO theyre both like. verse esp w each other. ghost likes topping more tho. he likes fucking mace for being a little bit vocal and just. like. huge. ghost loves bending him over and watching his fat bounce. ghost would blow off any task and anyone to go fuck him.
but also, bc its ghost and i think if the wrong buttons get pressed in the wrong order and it goes sour he gets quiet and, like, disassociates. and mace keeps watch for that bc he doesn't want to put ghost in that state. its not fun
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ovaruling · 9 months
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hey girl! happy to—the buccal fat removal was pretty simple compared to the other surgeries, but it was still very painful. as i understand it, the surgeon made incisions on the inside of both of my cheeks, and entered that way, and sucked out the “buccal fat yolk,” as he called it. he explained to me that there’s a pouch of fat there that is yolk-like, and does not usually disappear, even with dramatic weight loss, except in cases of extreme malnutrition where there is no reserve left. that’s how he put it, anyway.
so, he essentially stabbed inside my cheeks through up where the “cheek fat” was, just under my cheekbones, and sucked the fat through those incisions and stitched them from the inside. it was, as i said, extremely painful, and eating and drinking was very difficult for a long time. the scars are inside my cheeks and i can still feel them if i run my tongue over them.
the entire cheek area on both sides, inside and out, is mostly numb. sort of like… when Novocain has started to wear off at the dentist.
but i get sudden, electrifying wallops of pain where the buccal fat used to be at completely random times. i get at least one or two a day. it is pretty agonizing, ngl. it feels like instantaneous nerve pain, if you’ve ever had a dentist nick a nerve on a sensitive tooth. it runs through the cheek into my sinuses and down into my gums and it takes my breath away. when these episodes first started happening i genuinely thought i was having a stroke.
i get a lot of migraines now (brow and temple) and my jaw sits really uncomfortably—i’m always having to bite my inner cheeks or suck my cheeks in manually, or else they become fatigued.
a good experiment is—try to hold your mouth open as long as you can. just—open like a crocodile. as wide as you can go, until your cheeks reach the utmost point of fatigue. that’s what it feels like all the time if i try to relax my face—unless i am constantly drawing in my cheeks or making a “duck face,” my cheeks feel fatigued. i don’t know why—maybe they’re strained without the fat there to support them. collapsing, i guess.
it’s really uncomfortable tbh. i’ve gotten used to it, but it sucks.
and it just looks weird as hell too. all it did was age me and make me look dehydrated and starved.
ykw, i guess it really has affected how i do everything with my mouth and facial expressions. they all had to change in some way to accommodate the new “dimensions.” i wish i could show a before and after pic, bc i had a ton of nice healthy buccal fat and now i just look soooo hollowed out and honestly i look so bad lol. i smile differently, i make all my expressions differently. what feels “natural” is kind of weird—cheeks sucked in manually, or lips sucked into my mouth manually. biting of upper and lower lips into the mouth. just… a constant need to draw the face inward to relieve the cheek fatigue.
which leads me to say that once again there does not seem to be a resting position for my face anymore. it’s a neverending strain on the cheek muscles. maybe that’ll change over time—or maybe i’ll strengthen the cheek muscles with facial yoga, idk. but for now it’s a constant nagging need to keep my cheeks sucked in or my lips drawn into my mouth, like this…
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…so that they’re supported in some way from the fatigue. idk, it’s really weird. hate it.
the sudden pains are pretty bad too esp bc i never know when they’ll happen. there’s no trigger, really, but i have noticed that cold or hot drinks/foods mean they’ll happen within the half hour. the worst is when they happen WHILE i’m drinking hot coffee or am mid-chew in food. i’ve almost choked a few times that way, lol. super annoying.
that’s all i can think of for now! hopefully that helps a bit. please feel free to ask any specific questions i didn’t answer!
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Hi! How do I feel less bad about my body as a fat transguy?
(Esp pre and post testosterone/surgeries)
Been sitting on this one for a little bit because well, I'm a pre-everything fat trans guy. And I struggle a lot with the same thing, often. But here's what I've found works best for me.
1. Look at pictures of other guys that have a similar body type to you, especially those who are happy and living their best lives.
How do you feel about these guys? Generally positive, or at least neutrally I'd assume. I'm personally attracted to guys, so I see them with a very positive outlook. Remember that these guys are similar to you- as bad as you might feel, you see these guys as valid and worthy, maybe even attractive if you swing that way. You look like them too. Or, if they're post T and you're not, you WILL look like them. Goals, as they say.
2. If you can't start with body positivity, start with body neutrality.
Others have said it better, but if you can't bring yourself to believe that your body is handsome, incredible, wonderful, or whatever other description you want to strive for, start smaller. Your body takes you from place to place. Your body is what people hug when they want to hug you. Your hands are what you use to do your hobby of choice. Adapt to your personal situation, and work up to body positivity over time.
3. Consider your body a customization project
This one's a little weird. Yes, absolutely your body is perfect as is. But most of us, throughout our lives, are going to have a body that changes. Be it from transitioning, body modification, general wear and tear, your body will change over time, and from the day you were born has become a museum to a lived life. I have found embracing the idea of body customization has done wonders for my self esteem. These things can be temporary, like dyed hair or body paint or makeup if you're so inclined, or more permanent, like tattoos, piercings, and medical transition if that's available to you. I find it easier to love a work in progress than an empty canvas, and that's made the wait for medical transition far more bearable, and has let me love my pre-everything body a lot more.
If you can't/don't want to do tattoos, piercings, makeup/body paint or other similar things, consider something less drastic. I started lifting heavy shit around my apartment in an attempt to get stronger, and seeing that my body is able to do that now gives me great satisfaction when I can use that skill to help around the house, or at work. Plus, this one is more typically considered "masculine", so gender moment.
4. Get fatphobia out of your life.
Society at large is hostile to fat people, especially those of us who are otherwise marginalized, like by being transgender. Surround yourself with people who fight back against that, or who celebrate fat bodies like they deserve to be celebrated. Work on any internalized fatphobia you might have- because you're worthy of love and appreciation at any size.
5. Spend time with other fat trans guys, both online and irl if you can.
We have wildly varrying lives, varrying life stories, and skillets. But we all have something to offer in our community, and we shouldn't isolate ourselves. Trans masculinity is beautiful. Trans bodies as a whole are beautiful. Fat bodies are beautiful. And all that's easier to see when you're around people that are like you. Thin, white, late teens early 20-something trans boys are not the normal, just one flavor of guy to exist with the most visibility. Your body isn't an outlier, just part of the massive spectrum of guys out there. And you deserve to be appreciated and celebrated for that.
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I hope this was of some help to you, and maybe to others. It was a little hard to get my thoughts together, since I struggle with this problem myself. I'm lucky enough that I live with and love other fat transmasc people who are very vocal about their love for myself and my body, and have helped me form a healthier relationship with my body. But I know not everyone is lucky enough to be in that situation, so that's my advice.
Take care of yourself ❤️
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agumonger · 4 months
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Fuck it, male muscular torso art tutorial 🧵✍
Take my hand, let's draw pecs and six-packs together.
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I usually start with a trapezium. Almost a tall rectangle. No, really. The "typical athletic male torso" is somewhere between a rectangle and a trapezium. You might want to begin with a basic front view, arms more or less lowered.
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The chest takes from one third to almost the upper half of the torso, sort of. We can round the chest a bit, open it to connect with the shoulders. Abs take about half of the torso's width. I tend to emphasize the sides a bit, though. Make room for obliques and ribs.
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Between the chest and lower pelvic area, divide in half but a bit higher, then do it again. You've got the base for the abs! The upper row is sometimes not visible (esp. in shorter people). Obliques generally start around the lower row, "folding" around it and the thighs.
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Nipples vary a lot, actually! But anywhere in the lower half, mid-outer part of the chest is usually right. They tend to look higher when arms are raised, lower when... lowered, or hunching. Also lower on really bulky, near boob-like pecs.
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Pecs can be really tight, really smooth, really flat... depends on muscle mass, fat, or genes! They can even have a small cavity around the center, usually more visible in thinner people, and anime characters. Clavicles like a SUPER flat V! Linked to shoulder position.
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Be careful when defining abs, as skin is a continuum and it doesn't usually do hard cuts. At this point, references are golden, as they help you get a feel of their volume. Navel also varies in height, between 3rd-4th row of abs. The 4th row fuses near the pelvis.
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At some point you might want to adjust the general shape with, say, the Transform tool. That's fine! I do it all the time, usually on the sketching stage, as lines tend to get muddy. As for serratus, this group usually follows the abs to the ribs in a gentle curve.
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Once you get a feel of the structure, you may decide to simplify it a bit. Perhaps your character isn't that "defined" over there, that's good too! Just keep the basics in mind. Also, watch out for the latissimus. It belongs to the back, but you can see it sometimes.
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Cleanup time! I like to use varied line width to make some shapes pop a bit more. Also, here are some notes regarding the shape I used for this particular character's torso. Each one is different! Can you guess who this is?
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And we're done! Danny is here is actually being a bit of a tryhard right now... But since his arms are a bit separated, I added a bit of the latissimus shown earlier. Hope you found this useful!
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