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im havin that 3am leftovers, some reason i cant sleep, woke up abd remembered that i didnt eat but one small meal and a coffee yesterday, so i decided to eat the chicken and rice that i cooked for someone else who aint eat it, then im eating it now, and i am havin trouble eating and im having triuble eating recently and i have work in 3 hours and my body hurts so terribly and i got the flu so fucking hard and i never had time to rest, i dont think im sick anymore but my body was so wrecked and i never rested the whole time because im so fucked, then i had to fucking crawl my way through two shifts and go home to clean and die and cook for others and then two days of just the worst absolute shit, i was supposed to rest yesterday and the day before and now i have this permanent cough and like a splinter in my heel that never came out and it just hurts forever and my knees hate me because im so fat and im so fat because im so broke and ridden and now my body is sore again and i haven't been eating and i havent been sleeping and i havent been resting and i haven't been living and i havent been making art which feels like breathing so it feels liek i havent been breathing. and so ill eat the goddamn leftovers because there cannot be food wasted and money wasted and in my heart it tears at my soul to throw away an animals meat and i know ill cry like a fucking dumb idiot bitch if i let this birds muscle go to waste. poor thing probably died thirsty for freedom. i sometimes feel like i owe it to all the birds and cows ive eaten to be wrecklessly free. like a slave to freedom. like this cant end well free. dont think about it free. because i fail at everything i do, so i dont think im the soul on earth wholl use freedom to help anyone. it seems like every time i try really really hard to help someone they either treat me like a snake or they cage me like a bird. so wadda hell bulnasaur. eat the fucking chicken you idiot. permanent cough lets hope not i picked the wrong fucking time to be forced to quit smoking i fucking have a goddamn pattern id like to stick to and i think being forced like this is gonna make it so much worse. before id smoke for like a month and quit for two years. and it works for me, no one believes me and thats fine i know cigs are scary but fuck i didnt care because it worked pretty well and i hardly ever thought about it. but now im supposed to trust someone who patently doesnt believe me about the way my goddamn guts are stitched together and forces me to fucking stifle my heart, no cigs, no fire, no electric experiments, and no glass juggling. this is fucking shit man i have no right being this still all the time. no loud music, no incense, no anything that i love what the fuck. okay this was too much actually. the joys are worth it though, im no goddamn fool
#unless you count a fool for love cause itll always get me int he end#doomed kind of#and so are all my lovers those poor things
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holy quintet looks kind of different
#project sekai#emu otori#nene kusanagi#tsukasa tenma#mizuki akiyama#rui kamishiro#pjsk#prsk#proseka#pmmm#i tag then i scream#UAUUUGUUUUU im tired. smifnfile. I didnt mean to draw finish this i kind of just did and now its 2am. and i have#9am lifedrawing class. sniflfmelfle. Goodnight. IM TIRED.#this is my way of practicing rui i think i finally got him down. ambrose im coming to get you#here comes emunene doomed yaoi and mizurui doomed yuri and tsukasa doomed in general#fun little things: emus hair bows r based on her kirapipi card#mizukis hair bow is the one from the ribbon event and tsukasa hat is torpe card#nenes soul gem is a shell for her mermaid card and ruis is an hourglass for his curtaincall card. and i thought it was funny#and i couldnt draw the balloon nice. LOL. he gets ramune candy for compensation#didnt draw it yet but like when homura takes out her braids i thought nene could take out her front hairties. cg/o hair style. you know.#I got my cat a laser pointer and im so glad it fucking tired her OUT chasing it she sleeps like a rock. me next. OK FUCKING GOODNIGHT.#STUPID 9AM CLASS. EXPLODES.#i know its kind of funny to just have mizuki be there but im a wxs oshi and nenerobo wasnt going to be here sorry. cant draw her a mech. L#but to me they arent just there. thats MIZUKI. theyre a celebrity to me. wxs is just next to them.
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The trio duo ^^
#linked universe#lu legend#lu hyrule#lu time#kind of#doomed timeline links#tloz#tloz fanart#my art#sketches
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Got some feelings about c!Dream and his whole arc. So I’m making it everyone else's problem XD
The Beginning
The End (Wishful)
Also for those that like Angst: The End (Actual)
#I love doomed narratives- the could haves and the is#I wish the Syndicate!Dream ending was real#but unfortunately his story was not fated for that#c!dream#dreamwastaken#c!george#c!sapnap#c!dreamteam#c!techno#c!philza#doomsday trio#my art#It is finished!! OTL#I’ve been working kind of slow cuz I gotta do it on breaks QAQ#and of course I wanted to add a lot of details - so it took even longer#on the bright side - I finally figured out how to make mirrors!
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they should've been at the club(infertility treatment centers)
#like guys. be real with me. how many options did you even try before turning to dark magic#nothing about the situation called for all that😭#in my mind they're like 22 and 25 here which makes it all even funnier#guys please just adopt a dog or something😭#nothing about either of you screams ready for parenthood#im so happy adrien agreste exists but the circumstances of his birth are so ridiculous#there is so much gabe and emilie couldve done besides this. they could have done anything#honestly knowing them(<-girl who believes she knows them) im not even convinced the infertility treatment wasnt working#I think they just both were so allured by the concept of a magic baby#they were like six months in and hadn't gotten pregnant yet and were like. well. I guess we're out of options! dark magic it is!#and made it everyone else's problem forever#these two wanted to be doomed by the narrative SO bad#honestly though being a 22 year old girl I kind of yet it. sometimes I see a cute baby and want one so bad maybe I too would use dark magic#maybe emilie agreste was just a girl.#anyway. sorry adrien that your parents were Like This but it is so so funny#anna rambles#ml#gabriel agreste#emilie agreste
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robert chase one of the characters of all time. hes blonde. he went to seminary school. he purposefully murdered a patient. he’s a vapid slut. allergic to strawberries. was caption of his college bowling team. desperately needs to be on antidepressants. he’s divorced. his ex-wife was/is in love with his dadboss. it’s heavily implied that this is part of why he married her to begin with. he’s been fired multiple times but he keeps coming back like a fucked-up obedient boomerang. he’s the best surgeon in the hospital. all this while having the personality of a sopping wet cardboard box of corn flakes that somebody poured milk into and let mildew.
#the concept for chase was#‘what if house had like. a surrogate son. and he kind of wanted to fuck him and also hes like catholic’#‘ohhh and he can be australian!’#‘why would he be australian?’#‘just cuz’#house md#robert chase#beautiful loser very virgin mary coded man#i do like chase but i find it amusing that i also find him boring#bc objectively theres no reason he should be?#hes a great character i love his story arcs i love how sarcastic he is i love how hes doomed to repeat houses fate#but compared to say. foreman? there is NOTHING#im very sure ill manage to gaslight myself into loving him later#dr robert chase#i didnt actually fact check the bowling thing. dont quote me its late
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"There's something about Rhaenyra being [Aegon's] sister, and she is the one fighting for the throne." — TOM GLYNN-CARNEY
#DOOMED SIBLINGS FATED TO CLASH!!!!!!#my kind of jam fr#rhaenyratargaryenedit#rhaenyra targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#hotdgif#hotdedit#hotd season 2#hotd s2#welighttheway#gameofthronesdaily#gotcastedit#hotdcentral#rhaegon#tvedit#asoiafedit#asoiaf#dailyflicks#targaryensource#by jen
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more libber super hell au because i COULD be normal but no i wont be
#i should specify. libber isnt one of the forbidden five in this au. assuming kai and bonzle escape wirhout the blood moon.. theres some kind#of other exit. this serves as her entrance. i havent decided if ill come up with my own reasoning or try use what we get in canon#libber gordon#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#SORRY FOR THE DOOMED YURI. except not actually. last post i vaguely hinted that she had a crush on maya and now ive gone all in for lily#libber loves all women i believe this truly.#ninjago libber#kai smith#ninjago kai#ninjago au#ninjago spoilers#dragons rising spoilers#dragons rising s2#ninjago dragons rising spoilers#wyrm draws#libber superhell au
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mmm bobots...
#rain world#looks to the moon#ultrakill#v2#ultrakill v2#doodles#im a simple creature i see tragic doomed robot i steal them#some kind of bugs i think
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i like my body when it is with your
body.
#death note#meronia#near#mello#mihael keehl#nate river#mello dn#near dn#artists on tumblr#horreurart#been working on this one here and there for a long while. i love drawing mello's scar >:) it's like a brain coral or a very shitty maze.#also i cannot remember the last time i posted something even slightly racy so this feels rather scandalous#2024 is the year of posting sexy blorbo art i've decided...#anyway this literally happened in canon it just wasn't relevant to death note's journey. source: trust me#something kind of melancholic about this piece i think. it's like spying on them. it pulled that one ee cummings poem from the#deepest receses of my mind -- i hadn't thought about it in years. it's sooo romantique. to me#girl help the anime boys are in doomed love...#in my mind this forbidden rendezvous is happening in one of those abandoned love motels with heart shaped tubs and round mattresses and#mirrors on the ceiling and wall carpeting. it's kind of gross.#sometime between spk control room meeting and mello dying. rip king at least you got the love of your life laid once (1) one time
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Just saw artwork of Jason doing the heads in a duffle bag thing and—-
I’m sorry but there’s just something so visceral and horrifying about a teenager sawing heads off people in a display for power.
Were they bad people? Yes. Did they deserve it? Probably. Did it send a message? Absolutely. Is it still horrifying? Heck yeah.
Just—- knowing Jason and his background, it’s just so heartrendingly tragic. I don’t even think he liked doing it, I’m just imagining him having to throw up afterwards before putting his helmet back on and playing tough crime lord again. The amount of self loathing he must feel whenever he thinks too hard about his actions. Falling asleep and seeing that—
Just— emotional repercussions, man. They’re real…
#sorry this one’s a little deep#see this is why I usually go with pit madness#one of the many reasons#like the put kind of numbs the part of you that feels guilt over something so atrocious#greys out your moral compass#if you can’t fall back on that— you’re doomed#in Jason’s case pls don’t quote me on that#anyway yeah#just#musings#ghost talks#jason todd#red#it was awesome art btw#just got me thinking tho
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With love, for you.
(extra vers under the cut!)
#tshirt that says i am normal after raison d'etre#duck scribbles#valkyrie#mika kagehira#shu itsuki#shumika#mademoiselle#enstars#another tshirt that says i am normal after the valkyrie trip album. (extreme lie)#never drawing hair drills ever again after this that was kind of painful#funny thing that happened while i was doing the lineart my friend saw and asked hey that kinda looks like mademoiselle#and i told them it was!!! and had the pleasure of informing them how it was shus grandpa madonee was modelled after and grandpa itsuki's#doomed parisian yuri romance and his reaction was simply a five stages of grief speedrun. it was great i love telling her things#ensemble stars#kind of started to not like how it turned out by the end of it but its swagever. agh i didnt improve much this year huh 😔👊👊👊#edit I NOTICED I FORGOT TO COLOR IN SOME LINES RAHG fixed now orz
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#I like rayllum but mostly in a doomed romance kind of way#the dragon prince#tdp#rayllum#callum#rayla#;kuri art
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anybody else ever think about how knuckles and shadow are both the last of their kind but how they ended up in that situation and their feelings surrounding it are completely different. idk i just think its interesting
#knuckles just being born into that situation and shadow wiping out the rest of his species himself .............................#and by shadow being the last of his kind i mean that hes the last surviving member of the black arms#not that hes the last hedgehog. obviously hes not the last hedgehog . sonic and amy and silver are right there#before anyone goes ''Ummm black doom is alive actually havent you seen the sxs generations trailer/description''#hes probably there through time travel shenanigans since shadow's part of the story still takes place during generations#so im just gonna assume that hes still dead. unless the game comes out and shows that he isnt
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Mizu's spectacles, and the levels of her disguise
In drafting some more Blue Eye Samurai meta posts, I find myself writing out the comparisons between what Mizu can and cannot hide about herself, and how that affects how she moves through the world.
Like, I get the jokes about Mizu's glasses, if only color contacts had existed back then, etc. etc., and I think (hope) that most viewers don't take the glasses jokes seriously, as in "I don't care about the suspension of disbelief because BES is a cartoon." But I wanted to write these thoughts out anyway without burying them in a text post about something else.
I think the points I'm going to lay out here are viewed very differently by different people, so please feel free to add to this post, reply, or put your thoughts in the tags!
Not only do Mizu's glasses not actually help her that much, there's surely more to Mizu's mixed race appearance than just the color of her eyes.
In my view, this was pointed out in episode 1:
I'm willing to bet most of us were expecting young Taigen to say "blue eyes," not "ROUND eyes."
Obviously this is still about Mizu's eyes, but not even spectacles can hide their shape.
I don't think the show is obligated to point out everything about Mizu's face that isn't quite as Japanese as the people around her expect. Though the creators have said that they specifically designed Mizu - and her clothes - to read both as "white" and as "Japanese," as well as both male and female. I think there's more about Mizu's features that read as "white" than just her eyes.
This is where my own headcanons start entering the picture, but it's my impression that people can just tell that Mizu looks different, whether or not they can put a finger on exactly how.
There's the little girl who looks at Mizu and then hides on the way into Kyoto:
When there's more to your face you'd like to cover up than just your eyes, big hats are a big help!
By the way, most of these examples have to come from the first half of the season, since by the second half, either Mizu is too preoccupied with fighting henchmen, or everyone Mizu is facing knows who she is already, and she therefore has no reason to hide her mixed race identity.
It's worth mentioning that the mere fact that Mizu has to hide multiple aspects of her identity - her mixed race and her sex - results in her having to choose clothes that really, really cover her up, which doesn't win her any favors either:
(Zatoichi reference, anyone?)
If it were as easy as, for example, tying her glasses to her head and wa-lah, nobody would ever know she was half-white - then (1) Mizu would've just done that long ago, and (2) Mizu wouldn't be so on guard and on tenterhooks 100% of the time the way she's depicted in the show, even when her glasses are on.
Her spectacles sure don't help her in the brothel, which is full of observant women who are trying to seduce her, meaning they get good long looks at her:
Mizu never takes her glasses off, but they still send a woman to her who has light eyes, thinking that must be what will interest a blue-eyed man:
No wonder Mizu gets mad after this, lol
So Mizu never takes her spectacles off in the brothel, it's dimly lit inside, and the women can still tell that she has blue eyes. I'm getting the sense that Mizu putting on her spectacles isn't a guarantee that people suddenly can't tell that she looks different.
And yet no one spots that she's female.
Mizu can hide her breasts, can wear her hair in the right style, can hide what's between her legs, can walk and talk and behave like a man - and she's been doing it for almost her entire life, to the point that not only is she very good at it, but the threat of being found out as female is deadly, but isn't presented in the show as omnipresent.
Let me explain.
She threatens Ringo for nearly saying the word "girl" out loud, because while she's constantly ostracized for being mixed race, being a woman traveling without a chaperone, carrying a sword, and disguised as a man will get her killed or flogged or arrested or some combination of these things.
But in addition, it's been drilled into her since she was a child that if she is discovered as female, the combination of her being mixed race and female will identify her as someone extremely specific, someone known to some bad people, and she will be killed:
I think of it as Mizu thinking to herself, "Being found out as mixed race means I'm treated badly. Being found out as mixed race and a woman means I'm dead."
Mizu's hair is cut as a child. But she isn't made to wear a big hat, or cover her eyes somehow, or anything like that. Because hiding her sex is a more successful endeavor than hiding her race.
Ringo finds out she's female by accident, but once Mizu accepts the fact that he won't rat her out, she relaxes pretty early on in the season. Because the threat of being found out as female is mitigated pretty much 99.9%, since Mizu has gotten so good at being a man. And also, because most of the time, people see what they want to see. Even if Mizu's face makes her stand out as "not 100% Japanese," no one in the world of BES looks at Mizu's clothes, her bearing, her sword, hears her voice, and will ever in a million years conclude that she is a woman, because expectations around gender roles in the Edo period were so rigid and so widely enforced.
One detail that proved this to me is after the Four Fangs fight:
Ringo takes off Mizu's clothes so he can stitch her up, then leaves her clothes off even after he's done. He doesn't even throw her cloak over her as a blanket or anything. There's a little a straw (pallet?) as a divider there on the left, but anyone could just peek around it and see Mizu and her chest bindings. (I think it's mostly there as a windbreaker.)
And Taigen is right there, but he doesn't give a shit:
Opinions probably vary hugely on this, but my impression is that because the show doesn't make any kind of deal about Taigen being in the room with Mizu here, my guess is that Mizu isn't in any danger of Taigen thinking she's female. Even when I watched the show for the first time, I assumed that Taigen had seen Mizu out of her clothes here, and that he thought nothing of it.
Eat your heart out, Li Shang (Mulan 1998). I actually do think that this scene is a direct and purposeful side-eye to that movie, lol
There's obviously some nuance to how "severe" being mixed race is compared to how "severe" being a woman is for Mizu:
After all, Swordfather can't bear to listen to Mizu confess to being a woman.
So a Japanese man can go wherever he wants, whenever he wants in BES. A Japanese woman has limited options: marriage, religion, or a brothel. A mixed-race man is an eyesore in this story. A mixed-race woman is a death sentence.
May as well eliminate the female aspect, and do what you can about the mixed-race aspect. Because that's just realistic.
Meaning Mizu can avoid the strictures Edo society places on women. But she can't avoid the repercussions that come with being mixed race. And I truly don't think that it's just because "there's no brown contacts yet."
#blue eye samurai#mizu#racism#bes#I am truly disappointed that we didnt get absolute confirmation that Taigen saw Mizus bound chest and just didnt think it was a big deal#but I still think that scene is making a point#again I dont think most people take the glasses jokes seriously#but its been bothering me ever since I first saw them#I really dont think Mizu just looks like a 100 percent Japanese person...... with blue eyes#and I bet that will be made even more obvious when she goes to London where Im sure she will meet plenty of people#who are more than happy to point out their observations to her#also I ran out of room in this post to go into it but this is also what made Mizus marriage an absolutely doomed prospect#Mikio talks about wanting to find the right creature for his lord and well... a mixed race woman is the right creature huh#he just needed a little push imo#getting kind of sad at the thought that Ringo is the only person in Mizus life who knows her whole identity AND accepts it wholly
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I couldnt finish. Got too sad.
#Disco elysium#So at first i didnt have an idea for an end panel that was kinda cheesey looking and so i was just going to leave it#But then i was like what even is this? Is it a declaration of despair? Is it some kind of masturbation? Is it fake doom tourism?#So i wasnt going to post it. It just felt cruel and inappropriate#But then i was like if even a fictional bombing serves a purpose at all its to radicalize the youth#Thats annette at the end btw. Besides the lorry drivers shes probably the only one not there at the time#Its a declaration of despair btw#Im so sad#Oh fuck i forgot to tag#Hanging#Death#Flashbacks
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