„You look beautiful undone…and my heart's connected.“
„We learn the most when we least expect it. We learn the most when we break in two. (…) It's the cracks that let the light shine through…“ („Beautiful Undone” by Laura Doggett)
“Her hands were brushing a strand of his silky hair out of his face and in this exact moment, Julia’s whole existence got just one purpose: She would always protect this way too skinny, raven-haired boy with his adorably crooked nose and those beautiful - and yet so sad - obsidian eyes!”
This is a tiny snippet from one of my stories, which I’m only writing in order to cope with my own pain. I guess, I won’t ever be bold enough to share them publicly and my friend @vulnus-sanare has the duty to burn my laptop as soon as I’ll be gone one day (even though she threatened me to share my dirty work with the people in our beloved Snapedom).
But this little snippet fits perfectly with the amazing artwork, which my friend, the extremely gifted @snake-queen7 drew for me.
I’ve always had a soft spot for Severus in his younger years. All I’d wanted was to keep this boy safe from harm, making him feel loved and cared for…because this is exactly, what he deserved!
In my stories, Jules is Sevy’s friend, his lover, his protector, his guardian angel, his saviour, his powerful goddess of revenge. And to be honest, you don’t have to be a psychologist to understand, where this is coming from. Julia’s strength and her determination to make the world a better place for her beloved Severus are rooted in my own feelings of helplessness and despair.
My reality with ME/CFS couldn’t be more different from my stories. I feel trapped. Trapped in my own diseased and disabled body…trapped in my room….trapped in my darkness…trapped in a life, in which I don’t feel appreciated anymore.
I’m feeling more and more like a useless piece of furniture, which someone has hidden in a dark chamber. Still good enough to keep it, even though it’s not in plain sight…or at least not bad enough to waste it eventually.
Where’s my light? Where’s my saviour? Where’s my way out of this hell? I guess, it’s just like Severus has said: “Well, it may have escaped your notice,but life isn’t fair!” (“Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix”)
I’ve always loved Severus for his resilience, his stubborn determination and strength. Since 21 years, he’s not only my comfort character and the love of my life…he’s my role model, my inspiration to keep on going…to keep on living.
So, I’m clinging to him and to all the things, I’m using in order to cope with my misery: I’m a loving mother of three wonderful children. I have a handful amazing friends with a deep understanding of my grief and despair, but who also appreciate my dry humour and my sarcasm. I’m still capable of pouring out my feelings onto paper, creating something beautiful in my stories. And I’m full of gratitude for the artists of Snapedom, who are helping me to bring my creative ideas to life with their art.
And that’s exactly, what you have done for me with this delightful piece of art, @snake-queen7! Thank you for giving me some comfort and peace for my troubled heart and soul by drawing Sevy and Jules again. You are wonderful and I appreciate not only your outstanding art, but also your kindness and compassion. Thank you for everything! 🥹
🖤Sevy & Jules🖤
🖤Severus & Julia🖤
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so, nintendo adjusted how tricolor factored into splatfest results awhile ago. twice actually
i think (just a guess here) these changes are their attempt to get more ppl to play it?
bc most of what ive seen of tricolor (from both western fans and japanese fans) is extreme frustration with how the mode is unbalanced, not very well explained to newer players, the maps for it mostly seem poorly designed, and how obnoxious the matchmaking is for it
that last issue especially
if teams are lopsided in popularity (which they often are it seems), tricolor becomes mirror match hell and makes it hard for most ppl to actually meaningfully contribute
ive personally given up on playing tricolor. its not fun, and nothing i do in that mode is likely to matter anyway so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
unless nintendo wants to make some major adjustments to matchmaking (pls?), it might be best for them to reevaluate how many points each category is, just one more time maybe
at least frye got a win in japan, lol
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unpopular opinion for this area of tumblr, beware+also abuse talk warning
admittedly, all the super casual bashing of saikis dad makes me really uncomfortable, like i dont totally disagree but i wish we didnt just all do it in the middle of other completely innocent headcanoning 😭 its never tagged or warned..
my personal opinions on kuniharu are not as extreme as some are on here, like i think he sucks but i dont think hes a genuinely bad person, he was just thrown into a situation he didnt know how to handle.. he reminds me of those parents who prepare to have a baby and get pregnant on purpose, but then the baby has a disability and suddenly, everything changes.. because they didnt prepare for this unlikely scenario, but it happened anyway, and now they have to figure out where to go from here.. kurumi and kuniharu BOTH made mistakes and didnt handle their genius/psychic kids in ways they shouldve, but its because they werent prepared for it
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This realization hit me like a free-falling elevator and I think it has irreversibly rewired my brain
I am a Medication Pact Warlock, and that has made a huge difference in my life, learning how to gain proper autonomy and a meaningful adult life. But I've also neglected my ability to really strengthen my important relationships. I've had a couple of very abusive relationships (one family, one work) that left some very painful scars, but I'm not going to keep hiding from who I am and what I'm good at, and what joy I can bring to other peoples' lives.
And of course! Sliding in there like it's nothing, just dropping a piece of profound psychology, and hitting my brain like a hammer:
"There is no agreement we are more likely to break than one we have made with ourselves."
You can't give that out for free man therapists charge hundreds of dollars an hour to give out truths like that.
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Severus and Julia Snape 🖤 Partners in crime! Forever united!
He’ll always be the love of my life! Severus’ resilience, his bravery and his wonderful stubbornness are inspiring me since more than 21 years. He’s the light to my darkness…the only one in my life, who has always been there for me, when I’m struggling with myself (especially now…fuck ME/CFS!!).
Thanks to all those incredibly talented artists for making my ideas of my Sevy come to life: @sleepybradipo, @alinearthp, @opalchalice, @snake-queen7, @capysnapeart, @madfantasy, @dranna, @tageerdo, @wookiecookiesfactory, @turpinsimp-blog, @juanasunfall-blog, @aoshimasss, @mmad-lover, @hannisimp @pinklovecharm and my best friend Miri (not on tumblr)!
🖤 Severus & Julia 🖤
🖤Sevy & Jules🖤
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