Commission done for Lilly, for her future project "As Loud As A Whisper, As Silent As A Scream". 

You can find Lilly here - https://liluger4e.carrd.co/ Thank you so much for Commissioning!!  💕💕💕

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

I wonder what it feels like to have people in your life who actually want you around, lol

This is just a very silly little coincidence, but. When I got Taliesin's autograph at NYCC and he saw my name, he went "Leo!! Oh, nice." And it made me so ridiculously happy and full of gender euphoria to hear he liked the name I happened to pick. And now finding out that he's playing a new character named Leo just makes me so ridiculously happy,, it just makes me smile that he likes the name too :'))

not to beat a dead horse but jesus christ can you just leave people alone in public bathrooms i just want to fucking piss girl i'm so tired of feeling anxious and trying to avoid using public bathrooms because of how fucking weird cis people are about it. i tried to go into the bathroom at work today (i have worked here for years) and this woman who has worked here for two weeks and doesn't know me laughed and tried to like. steer me in the direction of the men's toilet instead and was like "wrong way!" are you fucking kidding me fuck off

Oh my god, thank you guys for the messages! I can’t wait to read them all when I get home! 🥰❤️

I’m going to see the new TF movie. I saw it last night and I handled it really really well. My biggest issue keeping me from enjoying the movie however - besides not hyperfixating on anything anymore - is thinking these characters want to hurt me bc that’s what my abuser made me believe. I used to look at Bee and think he’d love me more than anything in the world, and I’ve been trying so hard to remember how I used to self ship, seeing myself as worthy of their love. I really want to reclaim all of the characters lost to me, but I don’t know how to do that when the trauma is so fresh in my mind

I want to see the movie again with the mindset that they do love me and have been waiting for me to save the world with them again. Especially my Honeybee 🥺💛 way easier said than done but it’s worth a shot. and if I can’t handle it then I’ll just leave

Mirage 100% calls me his babygirl because that’s what’s on my shirt. And when we start dating he’s introducing me to Optimus like “this is my babygirl”

i was having a midnight talk with my brother yesterday and i told him that when i went out with my friend the other day i didn't have any anxiety attack (like it usually happens to me every time i go out of my house), and you know i wasn't expecting him to say anything about it, people would usually go "...okay? 🤨" like, that's what it's supposed to be like, why would you have anxiety because of that? but he went: "Good! 😁" and high-five'd me

and i- i didn't know what to say but it warmed my heart :(

✨️Magenta✨️

Sigh.

my roommate cut my hair for me tonight and at first i was (secretly) sad because it is wayyyyy too short but then i realized. i literally just got the 1989 chop. like this was all meant to happen this way

trying to find a balance between "module that's easy to understand and follow bc i am terrified of DMing and might cry" and "module that's not boring af especcially in the first adventure bc that might be as far as i manage to get through before losing my mind and i at least want my forever DM to have fun as a player for once" is killing me lmao

wiki how do I stop spiraling about my life once every 2 weeks I'm getting sick of it

Im cursing [REDACTED] right NOW

I wish everyone in the entire world that I love lived in the same neighborhood and then I could just simply never look at my phone again

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All cities (and tbh everywhere, but this is specifically happening in a MAJOR city) should have emergency mental health response teams bc I just had to call 911 about a man clearly having Some Issues and in need of help outside in the freezing weather with no shoes and barely dressed doing cartwheels and somersaults on a busy street + and in the snow and wandering about the neighborhood and I had to repeatedly stress that he wasn't bothering or hurting anyone I was just super concerned about him rolling into traffic during rush hour in an area with notoriously bad drivers + it's cold enough to be dangerous without winter gear + maybe he's got Alzheimer's or smthn like that and accidentally wandered out and is lost bc that's been known to happen

and like sure the 911 operator was nice and confirmed with me that it was a medical-adjacent call and police were NOT needed after I stressed it multiple times, but I had INITIALLY called the non emergency line BC I wanted to avoid the cops and the street outreach folk were like 'nope can't help u gotta call 911' and it's just. SO DUMB.

PLUS. Apparently there's so many 911 calls going in I was put ON HOLD for a whole ass minute and like. I'm clogging up the line for someone having a heart attack or fire or whatever, vs. I'm concerned about this guy but also I'm in the car following at a distance to make sure nothing happens + make sure someone who is less understanding of mental health crises doesn't start a fight with him because he's acting "weird" and wandering on people's front lawns, and it's not really the same level of "emergency" but I'm also 5'3 vs. A Grown Ass Man, and I've no emergency or mental health training so there's nothing I can do EXCEPT follow at a distance and call for help