tw for sh

well, i guess ill try this trend... (a few weeks later lmao-)

if this post gets 300 notes, ill try to stop self harming.

hi

I finally have some time so I wanted to make a post while I have the chance so everyone here knows where I've been, but I'll be able to get in touch individually with all the friends I've made on here in a few hours. Thank you all for being patient with me. Cw for self harm and just general mopey-ness under the cut

A bit before my birthday I was hospitalized for the flu, in case you didn't know, I have a compromised immune system(it's not too bad that there's any worry about dying, but I get sick very easily and need to stay at the hospital every now and then when it gets bad), and I guess it just beat the hell outta me. I haven't been fully conscious and lucid for the days since then, but recovery should go well from here on, though I am really beat up about having missed my birthday 😞 I know it's a dumb thing to be fussing about but blegh. My mental state has been deteriorating a lot recently, and just before this I had a falling out with a friend I've had for years who just converted to Christianity and tried to get me to go to conversion therapy. It's been a lot of bad really fast and I guess this visit and thinking about the bills it just kinda made me snap. I know it was a mistake but I tried to harm myself. My siblings were there to keep me safe but I don't think I'll be okay alone for a while. I'm planning on staying with my sister at her place for a few days once im out of here later tonight. It may be a bit before I'm in the right state to run this account, but thank you all for being so kind in the past, and I'm sure you'll only be even nicer in the future. I miss being able to post here and I hope I can come back soon :). Once I finish checking out and getting settled at my sister's I'll be back on to try to get in touch with everyone. I'm sorry this post doesn't really fit the vibe of the account 😅 thank you for bearing with me.

got a fucking "do you have childhood trauma???" quiz ad, THIS EXISTS?!?! might as well make a goddamn "DO YOU SELF HARM??" quiz while we're at it

what I say: “it is what it is”

what I mean: “I have cried about this for hours and have probably self harmed and contemplated suicide over this.

In a sick way, I like being this way. I take pride in how fucked up my mind is and how much I hurt myself, whether it be from a blade or indirect self-sabotage.

sh culture is when you're not even doing it bc ur sad anymore ur doing it just bc u can

.

Born to hit beans, forced to hit styros and baby cvts

you ever have a $h session so good it's all you think about the next day

I GOT T WORDED. this time i actually got t worded.... i literally can't have anything. i used to be @spinnspidey, @radiospidey, @knifespidey.... please help me find my mutuals!!

@oscillating-fan-whore3 @blackkat @losercuts2 @cammyluvss @rorrycheeese @decrepitxangel @dreamy-love111 @alwaysnumbers77 @t1r3d-as-h311

chat i relapsed again. NOTHING GETS BETTTER😁😁😁

Here it is! Part 3 of Dead Eyed Ivy Second Puberty Edition 💜🏳️‍⚧️

I wish I have someone to talk about $h... Not the type of person what wants to help me or stop me...

Just someone who will chat about it with me...

I love white scars so fkcin much they're the prettiest istg but I don't think I can get them bc I'm too pale?? 😭

I have the most scars on my thighs and some of them are almost a month old but they always turn pink, can someone educate me pls

Sitting in the shower crying uncontrollably with diluted blood dripping down your thighs while you think about how much fun your favorite person is having without you and how pathetic you are or how much you hate yourself just hits differently, doesn’t it?

Stings even worse when they post about all the other friends they have and how close they are.

Self harm culture is getting sober and wishing you weren’t. Self harm culture is needing that release, that mark, that proof that you’re hurting so maybe someone will believe you. Self harm culture is your dad threatening to kick you out if he sees another cut

,