#and mine fucking slapped imma be honest
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have a gcse exam thingy 2morrow 💀
#i had 1 on monday#and i cant remember a thing of it#well maybe a little#but i dont want 2 think about it LMAO#but not bc i did badly#(idk how well i did)#but idk i need to live in the moment and not be bogged down by things of the past#<-wisdom#but all i gotta do is this one other exam cuz the gcse has 2 papers#and then im free 2 access everything in my mind again#and let go of everything else#until the Next One#and the one after that after that after that#and its going to be an endless cycle like a timeloop#except things get Progressively Worse#but we'll burn that bridge when we come to it#anyways i did cut outs of newspaper words to make a song yesterday for a songwriting class i do#and it was really fun and i wish i could do sort of creative things like that more often#and mine fucking slapped imma be honest#bc I LOVE USING WORDS I LOVE CREATING STRANGE STORIES PLEASE IM CALLING UPON THE GODS OF DEATH ASKING THEM TO GRANT THIS ONE WISH#that i may one day be able to spill all the sweet honeyed words of the false deities out of my mouth#to sing and revel in the shower of blood and the dew on the grass#and to one day be freed from the grey tinted glasses#and the shackles on my wrists and the screwdrivers stuck in my brain#to scream until my throat is hoarse and to feel rage and love and happiness and sadness and pain and joy#i just need to defeat the Screamers and the Metal Angels and the Knockers#or die trying#anyways#red meows
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[Intro]
Understand, understand, understand
See my face, I'm done sayin: I aint playin
I am loved and Reborn, every day
I'm my own version of a real man
[Verse]
Felon in the eyes of my fam, really irritating
Weeping on the melons of Madame, keep em irrigated
Treated as an afterthought, they'll regret in hindsight
Streamin when my palm writes, income like pipelines
My rap is deeper than coitus and high life
Sobering thoughts and my fantasy is sky high
I got a good wife, we're raising ours right
True to my new self, I'm living Christ like
Should've passed out brother fingers to my little siblings
Cuz the way they passed me up, hate without a ceiling
Bigotry like this is why my wife abhors religion
Lukewarm Christians praying loud but God wont care to listen
Technological advancement, I can be more graphic
Imma knock your lights out, leave you keysmashing
Slap out the bass, out of wannabe Chuck
Chuckle at his gibberish, fucked his wernicke up
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Head up your ass, I'll knot your arms , youre a pretzel
Head of mine critiqued, but it soon became the stencil
Brown noser relatives (immer am scharwetzeln)
Can't take my jokes? Let me hide a pencil
Dark humour is morbid, not anti-Black racist
Germans were zombies, gold diggers, makeshift
Graveyard shift but holes were like craters
At least in Namibia they buried their leaders
Skulls as a trophy like soldiers american
Did to Iraqis, Afghans, Iranians
They emigrate and change race like Kardashian
Big nose is vilified, Disney thinks Aryan
Papa named me Jonathan, God's gift, heaven-sent
Now he's bedridden, Godspeed, you're coming back
Instead of grieving, the rest seems hellbent
No to bereavement, keep acting heartless
Towards me and my wife and my offspring
Too often, neighbors and aunties did gossip
About me, then they believed their own stories
Sorry, your works dont give my God glory
Call me, verify what you heard about me
Doubt me, openly, long's you confront me
Taunt me, long as I know, you're really for me
But dont speak, ill about me, when I'm your homie
It's lonely, not just up top, but when you fall deep
Was horny, cramped in a room with kid and shawty
So corny, in-laws look sour, not resolving
So jarring, mad for no reason, it gets boring
Be honest, spell out your issues and move onward
A forward, attacking me nonstop like a coward
Dont cower, face your emotions, feel empowered
Where His presence towers, I can't get devoured
Verse
You were wrong for choosing your publicity
Over showing up for a woman in her pregnancy
Jeopardizing beating hearts, scoffing at their misery
You wont see their infancy without an apology
Narcisstistic mom and dad,
One had money, one had kids
Some of us did not repair,
Some need honeys, some need drinks
Pressure felt from everyone,
You're afraid what people think
So you're living how you're told
And you shame the mavericks
Thank you for your 3 horrendous months
Had a place to sleep, but we were on the run
When you kicked us out, He gave me an apartment
God is Lord over the storm, I'll never jump ship
Always faithful to my love, not like y'all did
Get offended bout my lines if the shoe fits
Fuck your feelings, cuz my heart has your shoeprints
Blocked your contact, until God gave me a new lens
(Chorus) x4
Understand, understand, understand
See my face, I'm done sayin: I aint playin
I am loved and reborn, every day
I'm my own version of a real man
[Outro]
Oh oh
Real man
Oh oh oh oh oh
Real Man
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Imma just put this out here. Imagine Steve Rogers and y/n making out a in Her bed in her apartment a few hours before his next mission. Their just snuggled together whilst Steve grinding into her and just having a amazing time making out and grinding on each other. But when Steve goes to fuck her he’s looking for a condom and he can’t find one. When he finds the box there’s actually no condoms left cause neither of them went to buy any lately. And y/n won’t let him go inside her without a condom so they can’t exactly have sex. So Steve finds over ways to satisfy them both 😉
This is going to be short ish but sweet but i hope you still love it...
Disclaimer: My work is not to be posted anywhere else other than MY Tumblr, Wattpad and Ao3 accounts without my permission. However, reblogs are welcome.
Pairing: Steve Rogers x Fem!Reader
Warning: Fluff & soft smut. Language, Oral (f and m receiving), fingering (vaginal and anal), hand job, overstimulation well kinda and last but not least, daddy kink. 18+
Word Count: 2,264
GIF NOT MINE!!! Credit to @softietom go check them out 💙
Make You Feel Good
You nuzzle your head into the crook of Steve’s neck as his arm drapes around your body, pulling you in closer, if that’s even possible. You’re at the point where you can’t tell where he ends and you begin.
Both of your legs tangled in each others, you’re naked and he’s just in his boxers. You’ve done nothing all weekend except fuck and make out. Obsessed isn’t the word for how you feel about him. He’s everything you’ve waited 25 years for.
Being younger than him isn’t an issue though. People were skeptical at first, he’s older than old. Should be dead by now but since he was stuck in the ice for all those years, he didn’t age. But since they saw how happy the two of you make each other, they stayed out of it, letting you live how you want to.
His age rarely shows though. He’s more than capable of keeping up with you. If anything he has you gasping for air a lot of the time. Runs circles round you.
His index finger lifts your head up so he can look right into your eyes.
“I have to go soon” he lowers his head to kiss you quickly but you pull him back in. Only breaking away to talk before claiming his lips again.
“Please stay” you beg, he never gets to stick around for long, there’s always something that requires his full undivided attention.
“I can’t princess. I’ll be back tomorrow though and besides, i have a little bit of time before i need to go”
You know exactly what he means by that so you beat him to it. Getting on top and straddling him. The kissing continues as his hands rest on the round globes of your ass. His favourite feature on your body. An ass man all the way.
He relishes in the way it bounces each time he slaps it or whenever he’s fucking you from behind and his skin collides with yours. It’s the most mesmerising view.
His tongue slips into your mouth, exploring yours like it’s the first time. Winning the battle for dominance but let’s be honest here. When is Steve not in charge? You allow him to be simply because he’s so good at it and you love being owned by him.
Whenever he’s around, you’re stuck in this bubble where all you see, feel and taste is him. He makes you’re whole body turn to jelly, your pussy wet and your vision blurry. Everything about him has you walking around like you’re floating in the air.
“God i’m so hard for you” his whisper like moans escaping as soon as you grind your naked and soaked core along his crotch, from the tip of his cock to just where his balls are most likely sitting.
His nails dig in further and as soon as you wince he releases his grip “shit, did that hurt? I’m sorry baby, you just drive me crazy”
You place your index finger over his mouth “shush, it’s fine. I liked it”
Even during intimate moments, he remains a gentleman. Sure he can talk dirty and fuck you like a whore but he always makes sure you’re having a good time, that he’s not being too hard on you.
Typical Steve Rogers move.
Once you can feel yourself making a mess of him, you decide it’s time. You sit up slightly, making room for him to release himself out of the confines of his boxers.
“I need you so badly” you kiss him, not wanting to wait any longer, you speed up the process by practically yanking his boxers down.
“So desperate huh princess?”
You bite your lip “can you blame me? I need to make the most of having you here”
He agrees as he watches you wrap your hand around his shaft, pumping him a couple times before shimmying down so your mouth is level with him. He knows exactly what you’re about to do and he can’t wait to feel the warmth of your mouth around his cock.
“Mhmm, such a tease baby” he chuckles, breath hitching as you lick from his balls to his red tip.
One hand tugs on them the other pumps him as he gradually hits home, reaching the back of your throat. As he does, you gag, still not used to how big he is compared to other guys you’ve been with. He’s always loved the sound of you struggling.
“Is my cock too much for my princess?” he taunts
“No daddy” your words muffled by his cock, the sound vibrates onto his skin, sending a shiver down his spine.
You continue to work at him, now using both hands to twist around him gently, your saliva lubing him up beautifully. So much so that some even drips from the corners of your mouth. You’re making a real mess of yourself now.
“Fuck, gonna have me cumming in no time”
“Cum for me daddy”
As your hand pumps him, you sink down further, taking his balls in your mouth and sucking, bringing him even closer to his peak. The way his mouth is hanging open in the perfect O shape, his eyes closing gradually but keeping them open just a little, so he can see you making him feel good.
“I’m gonna c-cum” he stutters, groaning, his eyes shoot back open, he sits up slightly and you feel him twitch. You wrap your mouth around his tip, licking the slit before deep throating him, sending his world spinning.
“Oh god” his hands grip the sheets into a fist, he spasms once more and before you know it his hot seed is spurting into your mouth, filling you up. Not in the way you imagined but you know he can go again.
You sit back on your heels, looking him dead in the eyes as you swallow everything he gave to you, just the way he likes. And he can’t get enough of it. “Come sit on my cock baby, wanna feel that pussy wrapped around me just like your mouth was” he leans to the side, opening the drawer on the bedside table “wait. Where are the condoms?” he asks.
You shrug “they should be there” you respond, kissing on his neck, keeping things interesting. Even biting and sucking a little. Making sure to mark him.
“God, baby. That feels so good”
“They aren’t here” he moves things around, still not able to find them.
So you try.
Getting off the bed and checking all the drawers.
“There’s none here”
“Did we use them all?” he raises his brow.
You giggle “maybe we did, shit. What are we gonna do now?”
It wasn’t intentional. You had purchased a pack of 24. A pack you were sure were going to last you. But with you and Steve being the way you are, they didn’t last.
Clearly you’re sex addicts. Who can blame you both? He’s hot and obsessed with you so you can never hold back. Morning sex, mid day sex, evening sex. Early hours of the morning too. Just name it, you’ve both done it.
He can’t stop himself and quite frankly neither can you but you wouldn’t want it any other way.
“We don’t have a lot of time before you need to go”
“That’s fine” he starts “come here” he starts tapping his face as he lies down on the bed “let me help you out”
You’ve had your fair share of orgasms from this mans mouth. That same mouth of his can have you shaking and trembling. But you’ve never ridden his face before. He’s asked plenty of times, you’ve always turned him down.
Maybe this time is where you say yes?
“Please, let daddy make you feel good princess, it’ll be just like the other times just a different position”
You cave, settling yourself on top of him, your core inches from his face until he pulls you down so that you’re practically smothering him.
“Mhmm” he mumbles, sucking on your little bundle of nerves and giving you that first shoot of pleasure through your body, causing a moan to leave your mouth. The sound is like music to his ears.
“Like this baby?”
“Yes daddy” you whimper, watching as he sticks his tongue out, agreeing to let you ride his tongue. So you do. You get comfortable. holding onto the headboard for support as you glide yourself over him, the feel of his flattened tongue is driving you crazy and you’ve gone from soaking to practically dripping in seconds.
“Fuck, daddy” you cry, needing more, craving more.
“What is it princess?”
“It feels so good”
“You gonna cum baby? Cum all over daddy’s face and make a mess”
“Yes daddy���
“So even when i go on that mission, i’ll still be able to taste you”
His words are like bullets, shooting through you and killing you off.
Your end is near and you need it desperately.
“Right there, keep doing that, oh fuck”
“Give it to me, let that pretty pussy cum princess”
Suddenly, his finger glides into you from behind and seconds later, another one circles your puckered hold, pushing it’s way in. Being careful not to hurt you. But from the look on your face, he can see that you love it.
“Love having both holes played with huh? Such a dirty girl for daddy princess”
“More, please, i need more” you beg, pathetically.
You’re desperate at this point. You’re so close to finishing that you can see those stars in the distance when you scrunch your eyes closed.
Your hands find purchase in his hair and you’re so caught up in the moment that you don’t realise your hips moving faster and faster. Using his tongue to get you to there.
“Such a dirty baby” he mutters as he takes a break for air, shoving his fingers in and out of both holes, his pace getting quicker by the second.
“Oh shit”
“You close?”
“Yes. Make me fucking cum daddy”
“You got it baby” he winks, sucking on your clit once again.
The all too familiar feeling arrives, starting at your pussy and running through your body. Your clit pulsates in his mouth as your walls flutter around his finger with your asshole repeating the same action. He keeps them in, thrusting them into you to ride you through your intense high.
“FUCK YES” you scream, quivering and trying to get off of his face, he doesn’t let you. His mouth continues to work wonders on your sensitive nub, flicking across your whole sex with greed.
But let’s be honest here when is he not greedy for you? He can’t get enough of you and how sweet you taste.
He pulls his fingers out and uses his hands to lift you arousal covered hole directly over his mouth. He needs it all, all that you have to offer.
“Steve. Omg” your body shakes and your legs clam down on his head, keeping him there.
He starts to slurp and suck, making ungodly sounds as he cleans you up.
Once he’s finished, he taps your thighs and you get off. Collapsing onto the bed instantly.
“Steve” you pant, earning a low and raspy chuckle from him.
“Yes?”
“What the fuck?”
“Are you okay princess?” the innocent act comes out.
“You didn’t stop, i’m ruined”
“It’s my job to ruin you like that baby” he gets up off the bed, strutting into the bathroom as you lay there, unable to do anything. So you just watch him, his bum jiggling as he goes.
“You need a bath princess?”
You mumble your response. You hear the bath water running and before you know it, he’s scooping you up in his arms.
“Come on baby, i got you”
He sits on the edge of the bath with you in his arms, waiting for it to finish running before he helps you in. Bubbles galore.
“I have to go now though” he looks down at his hands, he hates leaving and it shows. But you know this is his job. Being with him involves watching him go. Just like how you worry every time he’s away. It’s all apart of being Captain America’s girl.
“I’ll be back tomorrow though. I love you, you know that right?” he says as he starts changing once he uses a wash cloth to clean himself up, brushing his teeth and styling his hair too.
“I do and i love you too”
He grabs a hold of his shield, attaching it to his back before he leans down to press a final kiss to your lips and letting it linger.
“Stay safe princess”
“I should be saying that to you Captain”
He smirks, blowing a final kiss as he shuts the door and you hear footsteps through the room and out the front door. You already can’t wait for him to return.
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You guys like charts and graphs and I'm obsessed with the thought of being accepted.
So let's talk rwby songs tier list.
Of course there's no way to add an "is a dog" category to a tier list so imma have to carry this bitch myself.
So here's each song summed up quickly.
Goat:
Fear
(I have said this multiple times but Fear hits different thinking about the finale of volume 7 or the next episode of volume 8. Fear has somehow capitalised on my... fear...)
From shadows
(I used to hate this. Then I listened to that guitar riff)
This life is mine
(Weiss is fucking metal.)
S tier:
Path of isolation
(Weiss is still metal.)
Divide
(Salem is salty and beautiful and then it goes soft and then there's the screaming and I really like Salem holy shit)
Boop
(the sweetest most innocent song.)
Sacrifice
(I really like villain songs-)
Caffiene
(vague screaming noises)
Celebrate
(nothing bad ever happened. Eeeeverrrr)
Die
(villain songs can step on me)
Hero
(I WOULD DIEEEE)
Bad luck charm
(Its just Jeff screaming that's the best kind of song)
A tier:
Rising
(I love this intro. Its just so good I-)
Until the end
(*breaks down into tears*)
Red like roses part II
(If I concentrate hard enough, I can just about hear Caleb singing it in my head next to Casey and that's the only way to improve the song)
War
(the voice actor for Elm helps sing this and tbh that's the only thing saving Elm's Character)
All that matters
(I don't bumblebee very well but all that matters is sad and I'm crying and-)
All things must die
(ITS VILLAIN SONGS MAN, FEED THEM TO ME)
Dream come true
(it's boop but Pyrrha. Pyrrha doesn't boop great but it makes up for it cause she insults Weiss)
Let's just live
(good song. Why was Oscar not in the intro animation tho)
Home
(you can hear me sobbing on the other side of the Atlantic)
Indomitable
(the crying has stopped. It has been replaced with hollering and bawling)
B tier:
Gold
(sounds like a magical girl song. Penny is my favourite magical girl)
Trust love
(trust love is the catchiest song in the series prove me wrong)
This will be the day
(I set this as my alarm clock for a year. It would probably be s tier if I wasn't a sadist.)
Time to say goodbye
(oh look triple intro)
Like morning follows night
(sun you're a good himbo but Blake prefers Weiss and Yang at this point)
I'm the one
(babey villain song. Its trying it's hardest)
C tier:
I may fall
(it's in c tier because the accoustic version made it look bad)
Its my turn
(Weiss isn't as metal but I'm still here for it)
When it falls
(its uh okay I guess)
Miracle
(it's an intro but not???)
Ignite
(Yang songs get the short end of the stick tbh)
One thing
(is this even a villain song?? You're letting the team down Neo)
Cold
(I don't miss Pyrrha. I miss the fight scenes tho, rip monty :( )
All our days
(only relevant if I want to cry my eyes out)
Neon
(I like the fight. I like the OST version of this song. The lyrics just don't stick with me)
Smile
(#justiceforchameleonbaby)
D tier:
Nevermore
(it's catchy, and that's about it)
Mirror mirror part II
(Weiss is... LoFi)
This time
(I miss sun)
Red like roses part I
(doesn't hold up)
Shine
(I don't miss Pyrrha, I do miss the beacon dance)
Armed and ready
(Yang was better when she was armed)
I burn
(her songs however were not)
E tier:
Forever fall
(I don't miss Pyrrha, I miss Oscar's on screen development)
The triumph
(letting the intros down)
Mirror mirror
(why were none of the trailer songs as good as from shadows? Especially when the trailers themselves were so much better)
Touch the sky
(haha Jaune hair go brrrr)
Wings
(it's too sad for a happy volume)
Big metal shoe
(tbh this slaps I just hate cordovin)
Brand new day
(a bop bop de da de dum bop)
Let's get real
(YOU MADE BOOP. YOU MADE BOOP IN VOLUME 2 AND NOW YOU GIVE ME THIS THING FOR THE KISS???)
F tier
Bmblb
(even if I shipped bmblb I wouldn't like this song I'll be honest)
Not fall in love with you
(???)
Lusus naturae
(I've never heard it I'll be honest)
Lionize
(I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU, WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU, VILLAIN SONGS.)
And that's my opinion on every single fucking rwby song.
Send an ask if you want greater detail
#(she says#knowing nobody will ask)#im sorry bmblb fans#tbh it's entirely Yang i just really don't like Yang#rwby#rwby songs
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Ok, just got back from the doctor so I apologize if I'm more of a mess than always, so have some hesdcanons about Langdon that bitch Caul and Edith, the poor woman who deserved better. Also, most of these were created with the help of the amazing @ellieheim
- FIRST OF ALL, let's just pretend he wasn't a jerk with Edith, canonically, he was a bitch, but let's just pretend he wasn't (at least with Edith, everyone else can suck it)
- Now, I can't for the life of me, remember if it was even mentioned how they met and such, nor the circumstances of their marriage, so Imma go with the following scenarios:
They met at the library. Edith got bored, went for some books, ended up finding a very sleep deprived and possibly drunk Caul, somehow they ended up talking and it was nice.
It was an arranged marriage. Edith's parents went like "ehhh, that one!" So they just introduced them and somehow they actually liked each other.
By sheer casuality, what are the odds you'll find your future spouse on the market looking for random products? Idk
- Now, keep in mind, we are pretending Caul was way nicer than what he was in canon, now, about Edith, she is nice and proper and all of that jazz... but she can also kick your ass and she will kick your ass.
- Don't mess with her, she'll slap you, she'll smack your head with an umbrella or something.
- The whole Oaness society is scared of her, Caul finds that hilarious.
- Speaking of Caul, Edith's the only one allowed to call him Langdon.
- Also, remember my bi Abe headcanon (x)? Goes without saying that it also applies to Caul, A.K.A, disaster bi/demisexual icon.
- Ok, so this one wasn't mine, Elle, I love your ideas: basically, Caul almost dropped the wedding rings on the sea by accident, then he DEADASS just flopped into the water for the sake of not loosing them.
- It happened the same day him and Edith got married, he showed up with his suit all wet and seaweed on his hair. Edith was unimpressed.
- There's definitely a photo of the where he's wearing a freaking deep sea diver suit, Edith once again is unimpressed.
- Btw, the wedding was cute and all but everyone was freaked out by the groom's guest, who were the whole fish cult society acting like the weirdos they are.
- I said Caul is nicer in this one but he still is a punk ass bitch so... I mean he kinda deserves a slap from time to time but overall he's just a drunk mess who definitely became the town's cryptid at some point.
- Oh and, since I know there are sourcers that say a little about his childhood (will put a proper link if I find it, for now I just got things I rebbloged), I don't care if he was a shy and nerdy kid who loved the outdoors, he was also a gremlin.
- Like, imagine this 5 y/o running around with a journal, taking notes of everything he encountered, face covered in dirt or mud, wet hair and clothes cause he fell into a river at some point, probably lacking some teeth, I mean, that's cute but has the potential to be extremely chaotic (plus kids are weird so...)
- Then his dad introduced him to the sea life and all, listen, just imagine this mess of a teen, complete nerd, probably a lanky mess of hormones and anxiety, just collecting sea shells and fossils while being extremely antisocial (a mood, ngl)
- Edith wasn't a fan of the idea of him putting all those weird things and fossils and crap as decoration, somehow he managed to convince her that at least one room would have those, Edith's inner interior designer was fumming but she at least got to pick the wallpaper.
- Let's be honest, Caul can't cook, he'll burn down the whole kitchen, but he totally is in charge of making tea and coffe.
- Edith stole a few cigars while he was gone out of sheer boredom, Caul knew but pretended he didn't, one day Edith finds a whole box of cigars with her innitials on it, she still is not sure if that's sweet or passive aggresive.
- Caul doesn't sleep, at all, that man lives on caffeine and spite, Edith tries to make him go to bed yet keeps failing, one day she tought he woke up early, turns out he hadn't even realized it was morning already. (Thank you Ellie for that wonderful idea)
- Imagine them drunk, lying on bed, ranting about life, each one holding a cigar, and yes, I know women weren't expected to smoke on the 1860s but I like to think Edith didn't give a damm and Caul was ok as long as those weren't his cigars.
- And speaking of drunk, one time good ol' Langdon got drunk enough to read outloud one of the poems he wrote as a kid, Edith liked it though.
- Also, I know men back then didn't grew as tall as they do now, but I like to imagine Caul being the same height as Abe (before certain comics events), I just like to imagine him awkwardly standing out next to everyone else.
- Edith on the other hand was the average height for a woman, which made her look even shorter next to her bastard of a husband, but hey, cute height difference interactions.
- I'm still not sure how Caul looked that young at amost 70, I think it's because of some cultist thing, but personally I have a headcanon that back in his 20s/30s or somewhere around those lines, he ended up involved into some weird thing that makes you look young and of course the bitch himself became the test dummy for it.
- The thing that made Caul fully realize he wanted to marry Edith was seeing her beating the crap out of a guy.
- TEATHER DATES, TEATHER DATES, those two totally went to the teather for special ocassions, or the bakery, or just to the beach to take a stroll. (Again, thank you friend for that)
- Caul's excuses for going away for months are crap and Edith doesn't believe them, they both know it, no one will say a word but Edith manages to came up with better excuses in case anyone else asks for him.
TL,DR: Caul is less of a bitch, Edith will fuck you up, let's imagine their marriage was happy instead of the mess it canonically was, that way what happened to them will hurt more.
#hellboy#hellboy headcanons#hellboy comics#langdon everett caul#edith howard caul#headcanons#abe sapien#comic abe sapien
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Serendipity 10 | (m)
Story Description: After you reveal your inexperienced sexual status to your bestfriend, Jungkook grapples with the news, startled by the idea that the girl he always thought could get anyone, is a virgin. After finding his porn at 3AM, you decide that maybe it’s about time to stain the white sheets of your world with the colors of a forbidden fruit Jungkook seems to have in the palm of his hands.
PAIRING— jeon jungkook x reader, friendwithbenefitsAU
GENRE/WARNINGS— smut, fluff, humour
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It's 3 pm on a Monday.
You're in a soundproof meeting room in the library. It's one of those meeting rooms where the walls are completely glass; you can see out but people can't see in. It's horribly distracting but wonderful for those who love to people watch. You, however, dislike people watching and wish you were in bed instead.
There's a big white table in the middle of the room with eight white plastic seats around it. Some of us have come straight from lectures with fresh hot coffees held close to chests. Some of us have come before going to lectures or like you and Claudia, before going to the student council office.
The room is only meant to fit 8 or 9 people but in this particular case, we've fit about 12 people.
You came early with Claudia to grab the unbooked room, so you're in a chair comfortably waiting for everyone to arrive, nervously at your fingernails. People like Yoongi and Hoseok and Mabel are packed like sardines up against the wall.
And Jungkook has obviously come from the gym, his hair still damp from the shower he likes to have when he's finished working out. You haven't met eye contact with him but you checked him out when he was on his phone in front of you.
You sigh, as you think about how delicious he looks in his white cotton button-up. It wasn't fair.
That bastard.
"Sorry, I'm late," Wendy whispers, closing the glass door behind her, standing in front of it next to Yoongi. "The health department are having an influenza talk, wanted to make sure I had enough information."
"That's wise," you smile, swallowing the lump in your throat. "Is that everyone?"
Claudia does a headcount before finally smiling.
It was glamping season and Claudia had pulled Yoongi, Hoseok, Jungkook, the girls and you into a meeting to discuss how we'd utilize it. Apparently, this is an important part of university culture that you had blissfully ignored prior.
Ever since Halloween, you've been throwing yourself into group activities with the girls. It's actually been so nice just to be apart of a group of girls who are positive and optimistic while being study focused and career-driven. You've been blessed.
But you miss Jungkook.
It's been two weeks of discomfort with the way things were left last time.
He's been busy and you've been busy with study.
You feel on the edge.
Maybe a holiday is exactly what you need. You'll be refreshed by the fresh air, you'll be around more people, you'll have fun talking about non-Jungkook and non-law study things. You'll be comfortable and fed and warm and loved.
Whatever Claudia organizes, hell, you're in.
The excitement pulsed through you as you fantasized making smores with the girls, playing truth or dare, drinking and having fun.
As you daydream, the fantasy shifts to camping with Jungkook and you're eternally grateful to be pulled out of your thoughts as your phone buzzes in your pocket because hell, it was getting romantic all up in your brain.
Shaking your head, you pull out your phone and read the message.
Jungkook: Hey, you look nice today
You gape down at the plain blue jeans and Harvard grey hoodie. Your attire wasn't exactly aimed to impress.
You: I'm not dressing to impress but thanks
Jungkook: You're finally responding to me? Woohoo
Jungkook: Hi
You: Focus
Sighing, you slip your phone back into your pocket. To be honest, you haven't spoken to or spent time with Jungkook in a while. The embarrassment of what happened on Halloween plagued your thoughts and you couldn't bare confronting those feelings around him.
So embarrassing.
And it's not like you're his girlfriend or anything, this was okay.
Jungkook leans on his chair to meet your eyes.
You blush when he smiles.
That stupid smile, making your heart flutter.
"Y/N," Claudia claps her hands, "I know Jungkook can be distracting but are you even listening."
You startle, looking away from him to Claudia. "Sorry, carry on."
"My fault, she's still not talking to me," Jungkook laughs, stretching his hands behind his head. You can tell he has more to say with words hanging off the tip of his tongue. "Do me a favor Claudia and put her tent next to mine. She can't run away from me then."
Everyone in the room groans.
"Excuse me?" Frowning at Jungkook, you raise your voice. "You ugly ass noodlehead. Imma make sure I'll be in the tent furthest away from you!"
"Oh yeah," Jungkook chuckles, leaning forward, he places his fists underneath his chin. "With who? You'll just end up in my tent anyway, who are you kidding here?"
Heat dusts your cheeks. "That's not true! I'll just stay with Seulgi!"
"Oh hello," Seulgi winks, licking her lips at you. "You can stay with me in my tent any time."
Sinking in your chair, you cover your face with your hands. "Oh god. Seulgi, shut up."
"Don't worry babe, unlike Jungkook, I'll keep it in my pants."
Wendy laughs loudly, interrupting any opportunity to clap back. "Oh my god, this suddenly got way more fun. I'm coming!"
"Of course it did," Mabel adds, fanning herself with her book, "You're all a bunch of whores we get it. Will we have to sleep on air beds and is there an option to sleep somewhere else if we have to. I can't stand those things."
Jungkook agrees. "They make too much noise when you move."
"See? Thanks, Jungkook," Mabel smiles. "And they bloody deflate in the middle of the night. I don't want rocks in my ass."
"Mabel, we're on beds." Claudia groans, flicking her hair over her should as she takes out her computer. Connecting her MacBook with the big screen, she opens her prepared PowerPoint slideshow.
The first slide shows a glamping location in Busan that she liked. "Alright, my Busan babes in the room. Welcome to camp cozy."
To say the campsite was beautiful was an understatement.
There were four big khaki tents and they were already set up at the site with large beds and furniture within. Fairy lights all over the place, fluffy blankets, fluffy pillows, big bean bags. Christ. It was perfect. "From my expert research and communication skills, each tent comes with a double bed, so we have beds for 8 people."
Yoongi raises his hand. "I have a question."
Claudia nods.
"I don't want to share a tent with anyone else because I plan on having a lot of sex in my tent, where do I go?"
Everyone in the room snorts.
"What? I'm asking what you're all thinking?"
Wendy walks across the room to slap his back. She chuckles madly. "I agree."
"I'm not bumping uglies with you Wendy, don't act like we're on the same team," Yoongi shakes her hand off his back. "Although if my date doesn't turn up, I'm happy to cuddle and stroke your hair and talk about our boy problems."
She stands in front of him, blinking in confusion. "Are you being serious because that actually sounds so fucking nice."
He laughs loudly at her. "Of course I'm not."
Wendy pouts, raising her shoulders to her cheeks as she walks back to her side of the room. "Asshole."
Claudia clicks next on the slideshow, showing alternative options. "Our options are 4 big tents for 8 people or 10 if you're little, and if you want privacy, don't come," pointing to the beach she cheekily adds, "I hear the sand is a nice mattress, why don't you find out Yoongi?"
"I've never had sex on a beach before," Yoongi deflates, "Am I okay to bring my own tent then? I'll pitch it myself, I'll even drive down myself?"
"Sure," clicking onto the next slides, she goes through items we'll need and an estimate of the cost. "If anyone wants to help organize this?"
You're acutely aware your phone is buzzing in your pocket but you're also aware that it's Jungkook because he's on his phone and he's aiming it at you. Biting your bottom lip, you raise out of your seat.
"Should we split up into groups to help organize this? Transport, Food, Cleaning, Finance, Activities?"
Claudia beams, finally happy someone was contributing to the organization of it. "That's a beautiful idea, oh bless your little cotton socks."
Everyone mutters between themselves as Claudia opens up her google document. You watch as she types your name under food and Jungkook's under transport.
"Is Y/N a good cook?" Hoseok asks Yoongi, crossing his arms across his chest. "I bet she is. She can cook for me any day. We love a kitchen bitch."
"She can like totally hear you," Mabel says, rolling her eyes. "And she is like 100% taken you giant ass."
"No, she isn't," Hoseok holds his hands up in surrender. "Last time I checked, she was single."
"Ugh, who even invited you," she stands up, walking over to him. "You're lucky I find you attractive otherwise, you'd be blOCKED from coming. Aren't you studying sociology or something."
You don't need to look at Jungkook to know that he's beaming in delight and is now a big fan of Mabel. The tension in the air between Jungkook and Hoseok makes you uncomfortable. You've never been put in a position like this before giving you were just a virgin like a couple of months ago and had no idea what a peen actually looked like.
"Looks like I have a fan." Hoseok steps closer to Mabel and whispers into her ear. No one knows what he says but she blushes and rushes out of the room.
"What'd you say to Mabel?" You ask concerned, she's never run off so fast.
"I have seduction superpowers," Hoseok winks at me. "Want me to come over and whisper in your ear too? Bet I can seduce you in less than a second."
"No thank you," You gulp, unsure what to say to that. Jungkook stands out of his chair, glaring at Hoseok. "Leave her alone bro."
"What?" Hoseok chuckles, winking at you again. "I'm just having a bit of fun with her. She's so kitten-like, makes me want to get to know her a bit more."
There's a possessive tone to Jungkook's defense that's both intimidating and sexy. "Well, don't. Shut the fuck up. Leave the girls alone."
"Am I not allowed to? She looks like she's enjoying it?
Seulgi sinks into her seat next to you.
"No, you aren't allowed to," You've never seen Jungkook so angry before. "She's mine, back off."
The whole room goes silent at that.
The tension in the room is palpable.
And your heart is pounding against your chest.
"Is that true," he asks you, goading you to speak up with his eyebrows. "Are you Jungkook's girlfriend?"
Your heart is pounding so hard against your chest that it's deafening in your eats.
What am I supposed to say to that because I honestly am not his girlfriend officially, although it would be nice? This is not how I thought this meeting would go at all and quite frankly, I'm pissed. Jungkook's face is pink. It's the only thing I can focus on. I can't even remember what he asked me. He seems to want to know the answer to Hoseok's question as well, as though he doesn't know the answer either. Dumbass. They're all dummies. Who are these people and why are they putting me on the spot like this. I didn't ask for any of this, I'm just simple girl-
"Ooh, Jimin wants to get coffee," Yoongi giggles, interrupting your thoughts, softening the tension in the room as he gapes at his phone. "There's too much testosterone in this room, why not you both just fuck each other and get over it."
For a second you think Yoongi is referring to you and Jungkook.
Anger dissipates when Yoongi slaps Hoseoks ass. "Sounds like you both need to relieve some tension and normally, I enjoy a bit of torture but this is horrible. Claudia, message me with details, I'd love to come. It okay if I bring Jimin?"
She nods.
Yoongi doesn't say anything after that. He simply picks up his backpack, nods at Claudia before leaving the room. You wish you had the guts to do the same but you feel frozen and Claudia looks desperate for help now.
Hoseok sighs. "Looks like she's single my bro."
Jungkook says nothing to this.
He simply stares at you in an unreadable expression as you stand and walk towards him.
Gesturing for him to sit down, you pat his back to calm him, he leans into your touch like a kitten being scratched behind its ear. "Sit down and calm down, I don't know why you boys get off on tormenting girls but cut it out or I'll cut YOU out."
Jungkook apologizes while taking his seat.
"And you," Pointing at Hoseok, you scoff. "Who even are you? You don't get to speak to me or about me like that. Women aren't pieces of meat, we're human beings. Now, shut the hell up and keep your dick in your skirt and your tongue in your mouth."
The girls laugh behind you.
Claudia thanks you.
Fucking Hoseok.
You decide then and there, that when you go glamping, you'll piss in his shampoo.
Little bitch.
"Now that everyone's finished their periods. Jungkook, you're the team captain for transport, liaise with me so we can try and get a discount or something," she writes Seulgi's name underneath his, "Hoseok, how do you feel about organizing activities?"
He picks up his laptop bag. "I'm fine with any job you give me Claudia. As long as people aren't afraid of drinking games, we should be A-okay," he lifts his wrist, staring at his watch. "Naeun is pretty fun as well, can she work with me since Y/N can't?"
"Be careful Hoseok," Claudia warns, adding her name to the list, she finishes. "Anyone who isn't in a group by the end of the day will be on cleaning duties."
She then re-opens the map, showing us the trip location. You stare at the pictures as she flicks through them. There's something so nice about camping by the beach, a nice dip when it's too hot, a bonfire at night with the sound of cascading waves.
Your phone buzzes once more in your pocket. You pull it out, knowing it's going to be a message from the mousy brunette still huffing in anger.
Jungkook: Can we talk after this?
Looking above your phone, Jungkook tilts his head at you, a worried expression sits between his brows.
Taking a deep breath, you respond.
You: I'm hungry, want to get something to eat?
Jungkook: Can we go now?
You: When Claudia is finished.
"Claudia, are you done?" Jungkook asks, placing his hands together in prayer. "Please be done. I'm so hungry."
Seulgi frowns. "Is that what it is, hanger?"
Hoseok winks at Seulgi.
"Ugh, can someone fucking uninvite him," she gags loudly, "He might give us all ear chlamydia."
You watch the cocky little shit deflate. A bit of you feels sorry for him but after what he just pulled with you and Jungkook, hall hath no fury like a scorched betch.
"I guess this meeting is over then," Claudia sighs, closing her computer down as well. "I'll make us a group chat to discuss it."
Jungook loudly jumps out of his seat, the gloom worried appearance he previously wore, now replaced with pure happiness. "Yes, let's go eat Y/N!" He rushes over to your side of the table to help you pack up.
"Ooh, can I come?" Wendy and Seulgi both ask.
"No, "Jungkook pulls you out of your chair, patting your bum as you leave the meeting room. "We need to talk and eat, you guys can go eat and talk with someone else."
You don't even have enough time to say goodbye or apologies or tell Claudia you won't be coming to the council office because Jungkook is rushing you out of the room, down the aisles of the library and into the darkest parts of the university library.
You're going in the opposite direction to food as he takes you within the deep depths of the math and science department.
"Jungkook, where are you taking me?"
He hushes you. "We gotta talk."
Irritated, you stop. "Jungkook, I don't really want to talk, I wanna eat," turning around to face him, he grabs your shoulders, pushing you down the aisle backward. "JUNGKOOK!"
"You have no choice, we need to talk," He stops, then he looks left and right before softly pushing you up against the wall. It's clumsy and not at all sexy when Jungkook tries to bypass the big ass fake plant next to you and you slightly trip as he pushes you back up against the wall. His hold on you is strong, as he quite literally picks you up by the shoulders to help you stand.
"Now, You." he starts.
"No, you let me talk," You harshly whisper, "You gotta give a girl a warning and I'm starving so let's do this later."
Dropping his hands from your shoulders. He stares deeply into your eyes. "Shut up for a second will you? Or I'll make you shut up. I have that power you know."
"Jungkook, what the hell," you whisper, pushing his chest away from yours. "You could've just asked me to follow you, you didn't need to push me up against the damn wa-
You don't get to finish what you were saying because Jungkook slams his lips against yours, stopping the words from leaving your mouth. The kiss is startling but not unwelcome as you close your eyes and melt once again into him.
Moving his hand up against your body, he cups the back of your neck. He's unexpectedly rough as he grips on your hair, pulling your body against his. Your hands rest on his waist as you easily fall back into the rhythm.
He kisses you like he's starving like he hasn't had food in days.
Oh man, this boy.
Raising your hands, you hold his face tenderly, hoping he gets the point to soften the kiss. Kisses with Jungkook are always magical but this one had so much feeling. Each movement of his lips and his tongue were filled with unspoken words, fears, and anxieties. It was startling how much a kiss could say and how much this kiss overwhelmed you.
He holds you close, not wanting to let you go.
Your body shivers, sensitive to his touch as his warm hands continue touching you.
He loosens his grip on your hair, resting his warm palm on the back of your neck. It's a feeling you're familiar with, being held so tenderly.
Pulling away from the kiss, Jungkook leans his forehead on yours.
You both pant from the intensity of the emotions, your eyes still closed.
"It's been hell without you, Y/N," he catches his breath, his voice a soft whisper. "I can't take this anymore. I've reached my limit."
"What?" Opening your eyes in panic, your heart stops as you stare into his gentle brown eyes. Is he ...is he dumping you. "Wait, what do you mean by that Jungkook?"
He steps back, unable to meet you in the eyes. "I can't do this anymore. I can't hold myself back anymore. I'm getting jealous. I want to have you around all the time. I want you to study with me. I want you to call me in the morning and before you go to bed. I want to hold your hand when we walk around campus. I want people to know that you're mine and that I'm yours. I want to kiss you. I want to fuck you. I want to hold you as you cum. I want all of it. "
You're confused. "What? Jungkook, I-
He presses his hand up against your mouth.
"I don't like this uncertainty of who I am to you, I'm creating a boundary right here and I want it around us," He releases his finger to let you respond, "Will you be my girlfriend?"
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I DUNNO
How do I explain people that I actually do not know the reason why I can’t be strong in front of women sexually and give in to easy because my bitch ass was groomed by a bunch of females so I have no boundaries there and do the most hyper sexual things.
I do have my suspensions on pride’s hypersexuality he talks like every person who ever got violated as a kid...
Maybe I am assuming and wrong and men are naturally on that level but I do worry about him and envy but maybe it’s the hormones.
I need to stop being so nosy and curios especially about an asshole that’s now had a whole ass funeral in my mind. Though death by infinite number of slaps but still.
I NEED TO KNOWWWWWW
I OVERTHINK A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
IMMA DIE OVERTHINKING
BITCH GO STUDY
Naah me still more hyper sexual lmaoooooo I am just too good at controlling myself because I anyway fear men and don’t trust them because they aren’t worth the trust anyway.
Yeahhhhh
I am running away aren’t I?
But the curiosity regarding these things is infinity I just need clarity and I won’t sleep properly until then because genuinely something funny is going on AND I NEED TO KNOW.
I am more of a go with the flow kind but I needddddd tooooo know or I am going to go bonkers. I swear I have not been able to study just because I have useless questions and I CAN’T CONCENTRATE I JUST CAN’T IT’S LIKE THAT ONE MANGA CHAPTER THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR FROM THE PAST 6-7 YEARS
I HAVE NO PAITINCE I USED TO HAVE IT BUT I INVESTED IT ALL IN WAITING FOR MANGA RELEASE AND ONE THING I HAVE LEARNT FROM THAT IS NEVER WAIT FOR THEM FUCKING MANGA RELEASES THERE MIGHT NEVER BE ONE AND YOU WILL END UP MISSING OUT ON BETTER MANGAS.
IT REMINDS ME DID THEY EVER UPLOADED WALLFLOWER’S NEW CHAPTER BECAUSE I WILL REREAD IT IF NOT
FUCK REAL LIFE SUCKS ASS I WANT MY MANGAS BACK AND HOW DARE THEY STOP THEM FUCKING FREE SITES?!
I AM LOSING MY MIND SLOWLY AND DESENTING INTO MADNESS I AM VERY CLOSE
naah I am just being overdramatic and writing just for the heck of it. Isn’t that what I always do? Write whatever I want just for the heck of it because I like how it makes me feel less useless and how I am able to communicate without hesitation. I do take it too far at times because I enjoy it a lot BUT
I am never making this my profession it’s my sanity. If it becomes the very thing I run away from again I will break someone’s neck.
I do not want to be dictated what I have to write and what I should do in order to come up with the idea and how I am supposed to research
and I very specifically remember asking manjhi’s writer his process for coming up with the character’s personality and the way he went into details. Bruh. Also what do you mean the whole story should come in that 4 page that’s your script and only that’s accepted.
I swear my college made me hate writing. It just did. Somehow it made me realize the moment this becomes my profession and I start or go into technical writing or PR or anything of that kind I will lose my coping mechanism, my escape, my little heaven and I would not be able to forgive myself for that ever.
I am genuinely writing just for the heck of it and feels so free. I do imagine how beautiful and calming it must be typing on a typewriter.
I will buy myself one. Some day I will. I do not know but after watching the little woman I suddenly started missing writing but I am scared. It’s like I am never able to figure out what I want my character’s personality to be like and how do I keep it consistent through out and how do I channelize different voices for different characters?
And how does one do that? That too consistently because the only way to ever pull that off is to write consistently. Consistency suckssssssss. That’s one thing I genuinely want to learn. The art of being consistent without taking anyone’s help.
I am genuinely tired. Imagine being sponsored by a company that sells typewriters. I remember how I used to be crazy about writing once upon a time and was so determined to make it my “profession” what a silly child I was.
My dreams demand more and so does my family at least for now and I genuinely can’t write without having to suffer through the pain of a monotonous life because writing is essentially my escape. If it stops being that ever again I will lose it.
I mean I have seen how other writers live as book bloggers on youtube. The highly notorious “BookTube” is filled with those who can afford expensive books and the goddamned book shelves. Book heaven and almost all have those tiny what is that company’s name Branes and nobles? I guess? The have their tiny harry potter figurines. Also everyone just suggests expensive books. I though still adored illumine files. I am yet to read the other two books in the series.
You know what I miss the most? Metro rides to my college. I genuinely miss being sleep deprived shaky and standing waiting for a seat to clear so I can sit. Even that used to be a game. Always stand near the pole in the middle so you can see in the front but also see the seats behind you in the reflection of the mirror.
The being the first one to be able to grab that seat, taking out your earphones turning the music on loud and taking out a book from your bag so you can hide your face and forget about the crowd. I miss the yellow light.
I miss metro so much. It used to be my second home. My ticket to freedom. I remember coming home late at 8 and running from the metro station till the gate to my “campus”
There was a distance of 1 km approx.? I remember freaking out only to find out that my parents were out shopping. I don’t think they know the amount of times I have reached home by 8-8:30
You see my parents are strict and will never let me be out when it has started to get dark. I miss my freedom.
I don’t want to go out and explore the society there way too many people always walking at any given time. I miss empty streets. I miss being forced to walk for 3-4 kms just to save money by kushal. I miss how he used to act like my big brother in this awful place where I was left to fend for myself.
I even miss that one birthday I missed. I was not awake on my 19th birthday xD I technically was. Actually it was supposed to be my first birthday so I had spent the whole night before planning but suddenly there was this message to submit fees at my college. So I went to my college with a poorly made check. Mind you my college is 30 kms away from the place where I used to live. It took me 45 mins to reach my college. I went there with no cheque book. They straight up refused to take it so I had to travel back and get my cheque book xD I did the whole thing and bought myself a bottle of milkshake.
I went back to hostel and asked this “Friend” of mine to wake me up after this time in case I don’t come out because I really want to celebrate my birthday. Technically either the friend group or your floor mates are supposed to make you cut cake at 12 but I didn’t realize this back then and this bitch she knew but didn’t care she was using me as a person she could cry to. She didn’t care at all this selfish prick that I used to call my “friend” she made me feel so alone and then she also didn’t wake me up. I woke up and cried so much I had even missed dinner. I took warden’s permission watched some animated movie made myself Maggie (it has always been my comfort food) and just cried myself to sleep.
I sometimes do wish somebody out there cared because all my life I have met selfish people who would rather use me. I keep meeting them and I have learnt to never give such kind a second chance and even if I do I only feel hate. I still hate that person. I hate each and every selfish person out there. There is a difference between being someone who loves themselves and someone who is way up their butt. I know people who love themselves. I adore them.
Where as selfish people have no place in my life. It’s the stupidest thing but I genuinely do not know how to forgive someone. I mean it took me years to forgive my own parents and they care. Once I get resentment in my heart I don’t care how much I care about you or love you I will harm you. I will make sure you go insane slowly and surely with more hurt you place upon my shoulder.
I sometimes do think I made my parents life a living hell for a few years. On the daily I used to make them count all the horrible things they have done. Each and every day and it went on for years. I am a little cracked in that department. I hold on too tight and no one can make me let go of it. I will end up hurting you again and again and again for years before I actually get the proof you are no longer a threat to my mental health and you are no longer selfish.
I have handled way too much in my life but disrespect and selfish behavior is one thing I can no longer tolerate and the fact I did try to tolerate it just because I needed answers is so damn crazy to me.
The fact it even induced flashbacks/nightmares from my past. It’s so fucked up that I was trying to look for some kind of clarity. Some kind of closure and honest to god I still want it because I really want to know and I do not know how to stop my overthinking. I genuinely do not know. It’s almost like somebody has power to my mind and I do not like it or the person. I am officially at my breaking point and hate the guts of the person. HOW LOW CAN ONE STOOP?
What did I ever do to deserve this? I want the answers so badly. I need clarity. It’s not a want it’s a need and I want it on text. So I can remember and put things together. I just want that. 6 Fucking months.
Just to get my answers. I got so involved that I actually tried to chase a dude I knew was emotionally unavailable. I even tried to befriend. I literally reached my limit. I have always been in it for the answers. The fact I have to make peace with the fact I might not get them until maybe years later sucksssss. I dunno from where to where I went but this is just me ranting it all out and taking all of my frustration out and reminding myself. I will keep reminding myself of the hurt and the pain we went through just so we don’t repeat the cycle ever again with someone else.
This was an experience but never again. The fact I got so involved that I had even started to give life advice lmao. We could have been awesome ass friends. It’s shitty how it had to come to this point that now I actually hate him and don’t ever even by mistake want to cross paths with him, don’t want to see his face or anything.
Not even the online presences I don’t even want that in my life. I just want freedom from this pain. It’s way too painful. I have went through way too much bullshit that I didn’t even deserve and I have never stooped so low for anyone. I genuinely feel like I betrayed myself aging and again and again on repeat just for the tiny clarity.
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sorry i wasn’t super specific with the fetish ask, but maybe bulkhead, ratchet and smokescreen for team prime? thanks!
Thank you for specifying anon! Lets get started!
Bulkhead; Altocalciphilia, Plushophilia, Ropework, Wax play, Intoxication kink, Telephonicophilia, Odaxelagnia, Sadism (with the right partner), Phygephilia (with the right partner), Body Painting kink, Fisting (preferred to take it, but will also give it), creampies (prefers giving those. He’s a dirty boy, make no mistake), thigh jobs (prefers getting them), sensory play, tickling, orgasim denial, Queening.
Make no mistake, as tender as Bulkhead can be, he’s just as perverted. He loves making messes.
Loves it when a partner actually takes care of his valve. Seriously, he’s SO used to being a spike only kinda guy, its almost offensive (in everyones defense, that valve is deeper than the grand fucking canyon).
Ratchet; Latex/rubber Fetish (ONLY on hands), Quirofilia, Needle Play, Masochism, (giving not taking), Vaccinophilia, medical play (clearly), blindfolds (on himself), Cuckolding, Degradation (giving), face slapping, Agrexophilia (he’s somewhat embarrassed about this one), Triolism (particularly watching his partner getting it).
Imma be honest, I ship him with smokescreen thanks to an rp I do with a buddy of mine. Smokescreen is a whore, and I love the idea of Ratchet just watching his stupid gorgeous husband getting absolutely railed and using that cash to buy him random ass gifts just because.
With Optimus, literally any kink. Just let him fuck Optimus ONE time, for fucks sake.
Smokescreen; I headcanon him being a grade A hooker, so pretty much any kink. However, I will be specific here with ones I think he favors.
Corsetry/ any other clothes kink (he will wear ANYTHING if it gets you off, he knows he makes anything look good. He prefers leather straps tbh, but again, anything you want), bondage (giving or taking), Stigmatophilia, weapons fetish (the phase shifter so counts), Quirofilia (especially big ol dude hands. Let him touch, PLEASE-), bukkake (he loves it on the face. Seriously. He’ll take a creampie and the like, but just, aim for the face), Gerontophilia, Allorgasmia, Somnophilia, Intoxication kink, Masochism, pet play, revving, blindfolding, choking/gags, orgasm control/ denial, queening (or kinging, since hes a dude i guess. Drowning warning though, dude might as well have a water alt mode), Agrexophilia, Polyiterophilia.
Assume he bottoms. He CAN top, really can, but if he can pick, let him take it.
Any bot gets a turn, just ask honestly, its that fucking easy.
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Lucio x Fem! Thicc! Reader
A/N: Now look, I’ve noticed Lucio has a lot of hate these days. Not sure what has been said but if you do tell me. I’m curious. Also, I write mainly female reader and dabble in gender neutral reader.. Don’t be upset (if you’re a guy) if I don’t write male reader.. to be honest it’s like trying to make a clear homosexual guy date a girl. It just doesn’t work out.
I have no problem with male readers I just can’t write them..nor can I write ‘smol’ reader. It’s kinda annoying but that’s a personal problem of mine.
Anyway, my master list for my request on this fandom is at my other account, Yandereinmyguts, if anyone is curious. I will also be post Yandere simulator males x fem reader on this account because the fandom needs... “better written oneshots.” (Sorry..)
Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy! Let’s get to it, if you have a problem find another account to waste your time on.
Rating: Mature
Word Count: Idk but more than two thousand perhaps
Pairing: Lucio x Thicc Reader
EDIT: As much as I love Nadia, Julian, Asra, Muriel, and Portia (if you Request her I can’t do any smut on her..I love her like a friend not a lover) imma have to mainly post for the courtiers cause they got me hooked. They need more oneshots on them.
NON: I haven’t really gotten far in play throughs due to being a poor hoe so don’t come here with any spoilers. I know the characters I just haven’t been playing the game like that.
Don’t come here being salty either because I would gladly fuck all of the courtiers. Don’t kink shame me because that’s also a kink of mine.
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The girl’s (e/c) eye twitched in a clear form of irritation as she sat on the fountain, a rather large book in her (s/c) hands as the water settled calmly. What irritated her was the bright eyes on her from the male sprawled out in front of her, watching her like a cat watched some mouse. With a glare she closed to book quickly with a soft slam before looking down at the ground where the male laid lazily before he started grinning a sharp grin at her.
“Is there something you need Count Lucio...”
She spoke, clear aggravation in her voice. It was one thing for them to be bound to each other, yeah but it was another for him to always stare at her. Those crimson eyes widening in mock surprise as the blonde shot up in a sitting position from his previous laying one in the green lush grass. His golden hand over his chest as he gave a dramatic gasp.
“H-Huh? Why’d you say it like you were annoyed? I’m only trying to appreciate ‘second hand beauty’!”
He countered and for a second she stopped, a slight look of confusion on her face as she stared down from the area she’d been sitting setting the book by her well rounded thigh to which his crimson eyes followed for a split second before looking back to her. The (s/c) girl forced herself not to let out a snarky reply but crossed her arms over her breast instead.
Now the Count’s face was a bit pink as he dropped his hand to his side catching Mercedes and Melchior’s attention for only a second before the precious pups lost interest and went back to running around the large gardens.
“And Count..what do you mean by that?”
She asked with an unimpressed gaze and he simply gave a charming smirk before standing up, his hand on his thigh as he pushed himself up from the grass before dusting off his mainly white suit. With confidence he strides over to her form and seats next to her.
He’s close, close enough to feel her larger thigh against his own smaller but strong one, the coolness of his nearly see-through body mixing with her everlasting warmth. Her (e/c) eyes follow him and each step he takes and he gives a low purr that nearly makes her shiver.
“Well I’m the most best looking man around so you can’t be the first. That’s why you’re the second.”
The girl finally lets out a soft snort uncrossing her arms as she looking away tilting her head in a way where he can get a good look at her strong smooth neck and the tantalizing choker that hugged it. She grabs her book again tooling it in between her careful fingers as she opens it once more, her thumb pressed against the corner of the papers searching for the page she had been on previously ignoring the blonde next to her.
“Count, once again. I am I female so I don’t think that statement makes sense. Thank you though.”
She hums before her eyes widened, a firm hand touches her face, his thumb and pointer finger on her cheeks shocking her with that same electricity she had felt the first time they touched and a shudder ran down her back. With a gentle but persistent pull he turns her head back to him and they’re only centimeters away. His eyes hooded looking at her smooth soft lips as she blushes a bit too darkly.
“Then you’re the cutest woman, how about that? Just look at those eyes and those oh-so soft lips. If I wanted to, would you allow me the pleasure to kiss you?”
He speaks lowly and even though he seems confident she can clearly see the blush on his light cheeks and it almost makes her giggle. However, hearing such words completely threw her for a loop, she knew he watched her but never expected him to act out. Ah, two could play at such a game.
With a hum she pushed his hand away and for a second his flirtatious lips formed a pout which quickly formed into a arch of confusion when she stood up kicking her wedges off into the grass with a dull thud, the jewels on her ankles glistening and jiggling with each step she took as she approached him once more. His body rigid as she playfully ran a painted nail from his naked collarbone up to his chin making him look at her again before planting herself in his lap, the bold action making him jump quite noticeably as she grinned wrapping her arms around his neck.
They’re close, awfully close to the point where her front pressed so firmly against him that she had to put her now naked feet in the fountain, cool water tickling her smooth (s/c) feet, the ankle bracelet around it glistening as water and sunlight clashed causing a beautiful shine.
“What’s wrong Count? Why so shy now? Do you not still want a kiss from these ‘oh-so soft lips’?”
She teased as he started to blush, crimson lacing his cheeks all the way up to his ears. She smiles innocently before leaning in, laying a kiss on the corner of his mouth, just barely missing his slight gaped mouth. Curiously his hands lay against her thighs rubbing them to see the boundaries she most likely had. A stern glare found his face as she wiggled her hips firmly against his making him let out a low growl. His pants were definitely tighter than the were a couple minutes ago.
“I don’t like being teased (y/n).. and yes, I still want to kiss you.”
He spoke quickly breath hitching when soft lips connected with his earlobe nibbling on the sensitive flesh. His arms hugged her now, his normal and metal hand on each of her asscheeks squeezing the large masses loving the shudder she let off. Her warm breath dusted over his skin.
“Just a kiss though? Lucio?”
She purred before a sharp yelp left her lips and a slap wrung in the air for a second. Her ass letting off a ripple as he rubbed the now warmed ass. His clawed hand digging up and under her clothes, under her silky underwear and pinching her flesh as she buried her head in his shoulder. This time he was the one in her ear, voice low and obviously suggestive.
“If you’re offering so willingly, then I’d love to do more. So much more. Are you giving me permission?”
He asked once more before pulling the fabric of the front of her v neck shirt down licking a fine line from her cleavage to her chin making her tilt her head up more as he kissed and nibbles along her skin. Clearly he was getting greedy, his human hand squeezing her thigh once more as his metal one toyed with her asscheek. She couldn’t trust her voice as he rolled his hips, a semi hard bulge rubbing her through her thin pants as she gave a nod finally confirming the permission he wanted.
Her hands moved up to his hair, hands lacing in silky blonde locks tugging lightly as he purred. Their faces were both red, excitement flooding their veins as Lucio forced himself to not take them both back in the cold water behind him. For so long now he wanted her against him, to feel her body against his own and now that he had that he really didn’t want to mess it up. He didn’t Ben care if they did it here, he’d gladly hold her legs as she bounce in his lap or send them both forward to the ground and continue from there, it didn’t matter to him.
No one usually stepped out of the palace at this time anyway.
His real hand moved to the front of her fitted clothes and cupped it causing her to gasp and arch against him, his eyes casting up as she tossed her head back a little.
“L-Lucio~”
She gave a weak moan as his thumb rubbed over her clit. He could feel the heat coming off her right here, he could also notice how damp she felt and for a second he shivered all over. It’s really been so long since he’s done this but he refused to mess this up. Once again he was in her ear now pushing that hand into her clothes, hand twisting to tap her hard nun holding her tightly as she arched and jumped a little in his lap.
“I want to kiss you here too. You’re so wet already do I really excite you that much or are you just really sensitive?”
He hums before a rich chuckle fills her ear.
“It doesn’t matter, I’ll treat you good (y/n).”
He promised before tackling her, a startled yelp leaving her lips when her feet left the water splashing them and when her back hit the ground. Not too hard though as his arms support her, her bright (e/c) eyes stare up into his crimson ones and for a second they simply stay like that. He’s watching her looking for any discomfort and for a second it takes her a while to notice. Then she gives a soft smile reaching up and cupping his cheek to which he flinched at the shock that came from it before he nuzzles her hand, moving his own to hold hers.
He takes her hand kissing along her knuckles before kissing the inside of her wrist as she simply watches him with awe.
“I love you.”
It’s a whisper but it’s firm as well and it catches him off guard completely, he opens his eyes; which he didn’t even noticed he closed to look at her once more. They’re flushed so closed together but he acts like he didn’t hear it.
“W-What? What did you say?”
The girl now blushes looking to her side, the many plants and rays on sunlight filling her vision as she tries to avoid his prying eyes but with him on top of her and so close that’s hard to do. Every time her head moves away from his he follows growing frustrated eventually leaning down biting down on his exposed neck.
“A-ah!”
She yips and he sucks on the wet flesh making the skin turn a different shade, he nips at the flesh as his hands grip the back of her thighs that twitch at the feeling.
“Tell me, (y/n). I just want to hear you say it again. Stop being stubborn..”
He grumbled against her throat and she pouts hands finding his hair again catching his attention immediately, he slowly looks back up and she pulls him into a hard heated kiss. He feels his eyes hood and watches as hers close a light moan leaving his throat as he licks her lips asking for permission and pressing his tongue into her wet mouth the second she opens.
His hands are pulling at her fabrics and she moans into his mouth as she lifts her hips letting he tug them down her thighs. He pulls away slowly, saliva stringing them together as they pant against each other breathless and wet.
“I-I love you.”
She whimpers as he kisses her cheek then her forehead to shush her somewhat. That kiss said everything he needed to know.
He pulled back some more looking down at her thighs freezing when he notices the thigh high stocks she has on along with a silky lace garter belt that hugged her hips a bit too nicely. Lucio suddenly feels his pants tighten a LOT more.
His hands freeze on the spot as his face turns red all over, some would think he’s sick but he’s so flustered and honestly even though she’s blushing too she can’t help but wants to call him cute. To be honest though she had forgot she even had them on, so if he was going to have a malfunction if some sort she’d have to apologize after they finished. (Y/n) tightened her legs around him again and the blonde jerked looking up to her only to see the blushing girl give him a smug smile. He pouted before tugging off her pants tossing them aside not caring where they landed pushing her back down when she tried to bicker about it.
“Stay still, don’t move (y/n). Babygirl.”
He orders and she feels her thighs quiver at his rough tone, for a split second she imagines him in his goat form getting ready to pounce and fuck he open and the thought has her reviving but she keeps it to herself biting her lip. That lip caught in those pearly white teeth as he grunted softly. He strips her before lifting her top showing the frilly lace bra that matches the things below and he’s honestly hasn’t felt so hard. The last time he was this excited was a while ago when he was alive and Nadia decided to top him. However, that is another story which he doesn’t want to think about with (y/n). He wasn’t for Nadia anymore, not like she wanted him anyway.
He reaches before her and pulls the garment out tossing it as well releasing her smooth (b/s) (s/c) breast leaning down to kiss them purring when she arched against his face with a high pitched moan.
With a wet pop he lets go and pulls back once again to open his pants giving a sigh of relief when he’s somewhat free. His underwear is bulging out, the fabric soaking wet with precum that made the girl gulp licking her lips. He pulls down the fabric and literally keens when the female purrs, her foot on his cock. The meaty rod stiff between her toes as he grabs her calv panting heavily as his precum drips down his cock along her toes.
“It’s pretty wide, you’re so excited hum? Want to see how my pussy spreads around it Lucio? Want to stretch me open Count?~”
She grinned and he grabbed her foot roughly pushing it up grabbing her other foot pulling her making her yelp as he pulled her closer. He quickly tears open her belt breaking the lace and straps and for a second she actually worries, sweat gathering over her skin. She was only teasing him...and he’s this riled. She shivers when a cool breeze rushes over her glistening pussy and shivers some more when he moves down to it.
It’s so messy, her natural lubricant dripping down between her lips and her hole twitching in anticipation. Her clit is hard and sensitive to the touch and knowing that Lucio blows a gust of wind over it that has he whimpering. She can even get herself to lean up for a second but when she does she’s on the ground again with a loud cry falling from her lips and her wide hips jerking closing around his head. His mouth closed around her clit, tongue tickling the underside as his golden hand pressed against her hole, juices running down the armor and just the site had him ready to burst.
He groaned, he really wanted to eat her out. However they always had time, he could do it later. Lucio pulled her legs open again and scooted close. (Y/n) lifted her head, (h/c) (h/l) hair messy, cheeks dark red, and skin sweaty and then he sunk into her as she let out a loud keen which he groaned at. His cock surrounded in her tunnel; warm, wet, and tight. Her legs tightened around him again and he leaned down again kissing her his cock pressing deep and rubbing along her cervix.
Every noise she made he swallowed greedily as he started with a slow pace first rolling his hips carefully before quickening his strokes. Soon he couldn’t control himself and nor could she. His hands held hers to the ground pinning them down to the green grass licking their fingers together as his balls slapped against her ass, his mouth all over her. He left hickies everywhere he could and with her mind so flooded with lust she couldn’t tell him where he could and couldn’t put them. He marked up her neck, collarbone, chest, chin and even left a couple behind her ears as she called out for him.
Her legs tight around his hips and bucking against him matching his pace, her juices squirting out all over his cock and pants with each thrust.
She cried out when he abused her g spot, her eyes wide in shock as he stared down at her. His hair hanging in his face, sweat covering the locks and his cheeks pink, eyes dark and bright at the same time as though he was looking deep into her soul as he searched her insides. He really looked like a demon and damn did she love it.
They were making a lot of noise but even if someone came out he wouldn’t stop. He wouldn’t stop showing how much he loved her, how much he wanted her, wanted to be with her. No, if anything he would force himself to go harder to fuck her sloppy trembling pussy open until she creamed so hard it sent her into an alternate universe of some sort.
He watched her, letting out grunts and groans as she shuddered and twitched and finally she let out another cry and wiggled, thighs moving on their on now as they trembled and shook uncontrollably. Her orgasm crashing so hard that he had to quickly pull out and cum on her stomach. She milked him would be another way to say it.
It shocked him and he let out a weak whimper as he cummed, her own dribbled out of her pussy leaking into the ground and with fascination he watched as she moaned softly trying to stop her shaking, grabbing her legs and holding them which only ended up presenting her wrecked pussy to him some more and he watched intensely before licking his lips slowly.
He slowly leaned down and licked a fine line from her asshole, feeling it twitch, to her clit and she jumped so hard that it seemed as though she didn’t want it. It was the overstimulation and as much as she wanted it she just couldn’t at the moment. A shaky hand found his wet hair and she weakly pushed on his head making him glance up at her with a smirk and sharp eyes as she shook her head.
“I-I can’t Lucio, m-my body-mhm~”
She cut herself off with a pitiful moan as he purred against her clit and then bit down on it a little. He then came up kissing her softly pressing his fingers inside her spent fuck hole grinning at the loud cry she let out as his fingers curled pressing firmly against her bladder.
“Shh, kitten. Let me take care of you. Daddy’s got you.~”
And she went quiet shaking, blushing brightly but spreading her legs some more making him blush again but smile as well.
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Sorry if that was a mess, I really needed to post that and I get lazy quickly so it had to be done.
I hope you guys liked it though!
-A
#lucio the goat#count lucio#the arcana#arcana game#x reader#one shot#fanfic#fanfiction#smut#lucio x reader#thicc reader
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Asra × Female!Reader
• (Y/N) is having an anxiety attack and suffocates herself into fainting and then Asra finds her and is like
- wtf no
- uhh,,, I need to comfort my baby!! !!
- and then imma ask her what the heckle she did and reassure her that I love her bc I do >:((
• And ye!!
//tw- mentions of anxiety attack and suicide attempt\\
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Hot tears streamed down my face as I trashed and kicked, making my blankets and sheets fall off my bed.
My barely present nails raked down my arms, leaving pulsing red marks down my appendages. I clenched my teeth and winced at the sensation.
I gripped at my hair and pulled, my lungs heaving with effort.
I let out a long held in cry, hearing it echo in the small shelter of Asra's room.
I fucking hate myself. Why does anyone even give me the time of day? Probably because they pity me. Who wouldn't? I'm just a hopeless lost cause, after-fucking-all. Or they just use me and then they will throw me aside once I'm drained and even more futile than before.
I sat up abruptly and slapped my hand over my mouth painfully.
I don't deserve to let it out. I deserve to self-implode and die agonizingly.
I stopped breathing, hoping to silence my pathetic sobbing. I knit my brows together and shut my eyes tight, concentrating on shutting the fuck up.
Suddenly, my world became dizzy and twisted; distorted intensely.
I didn't let go, though. I kept my hand firm over my damp nose and mouth, suffocating myself with increasing effort.
I opened my eyes and blinked my tears away, attempting to get rid of any signs of struggle.
I honestly couldn't tell if I was slipping out of consciousness or if I was closing my eyes; I couldn't decipher anything that was going on; my mind was clouded by a storm of pessimistic thoughts, and I restrained myself of any liberties at the moment, anyway.
••°°°°••
I wake up with sunlight dappling my features, highlighting every inch of my face. My throat is dry and my head is reeling. I attempt to sit up, but to no avail. I was exhausted.
I saw water on a small, carved wooden table. I reached a shaking hand toward it and gripped the contained liquid. I threw all my strength into sitting up, and this time, I was successful.
I brought the bowl to my mouth, being pleasantly surprised by the feeling the warm sensation that the heated stone caused my lips to feel.
The water smelled of honey and sugar.
I smiled weakly. This would make me feel much better.
I let the warm, welcoming liquid slip down my throat and swallowed it slowly, relishing the feeling.
Quicker than I would have liked, the liquid was less than a mere drop in the bottom of the bowl. I set it back on the bedside table.
I let my memories of the previous events flood back to me. Dread overcame my senses.
Asra must have seen me like that. Oh, no.. I didn't want him to see me like that. I.. I let myself go because I thought he wouldn't be back for a while.... he.. must've sensed something had gone awry.
I groaned and buried my face in my slender hands, feeling my eyes to be extremely puffy.
I gently pushed away the covers that Asra had presumably laid overtop of me.
My bare feet touched the polished wooden surface of the floor, the chill shooting up my legs.
I shivered and headed to the bathroom, looking in the small mirror Asra keeps on a shelf in his wardrobe.
I looked like hell.
Well, it felt as though I had experienced it, so.. close enough.
I smoothed my hair down and continued my minuscule trip. I felt the even colder tiles touch the soles of my feet.
I gasped slightly before grabbing the brush I had abandoned on the bathroom counter.
I brushed it through my hair, making my (thin/thick) and (hair type) hair volumize.
I let the faucet water run, waiting for it to warm up; I was tired of feeling cold.
I let my fingers travel under the flowing water, attempting to let the feeling resonate within me.
I dampened my hair, making it flatten and getting rid of the frizz.
Once I was done, I turned the water to be frigid and rubbed my eyes, hoping to subside both the puffiness and redness that infested my eyes.
I sighed sharply before walking down the steps and looked into the booth that we held our tarot readings in.
I reached out lazily to brush back the curtains and entered the shop proper.
As soon as I entered the main room, I felt warm arms wrap around my waist and felt hair softer than cotton tickle my forehead.
I gasped, startled.
Soon, I eased into the hug that Asra had provided me, letting his love and comforting presence wash over me.
His voice was barely above a whisper when I felt his breath caress my ear.
"Did you attempt any-... anything yesterday?" His voice wavered, and his usually steady breathing hitched a bit before resuming, this time slightly more shaky.
My shoulders drooped with guilt. I didn't think he would know.
"I-I.. no."
The words hung in the air, obsolete with any meaning or truth, and Asra could sense that.
"(Y/N)," he began cautiously, "Are you telling the truth?"
He pulled back so he could look into my eyes.
His soft lavender orbs were not warm and happy as per usual, but hurt and worried. Barely evident tears lined his bottom lid.
"Asra, I-"
He grabbed my shoulders, his lips quivering.
"Don't lie to me! Please, I need to help you. I.. I need you."
His words cut deeper than the sharpest blade could ever.
I looked away. Guilt was emanating from my entire being as my (eye color) eyes searched the floor, seemingly for an answer or distraction.
He pulled me close to his body and let out a weak sob.
"Pl-please don- don't ever do anyth-thing like that again," Asra choked out, sniffling as he held me closer than he ever has before.
Silent tears streamed down my face.
"I won't. Ever. Please, don't cry.." my words wavered and I rubbed circles into Asra's back, wanting to calm him and reassure him I will never leave him.
He continued to sob and I rocked him back and forth and slowly led him to the couch in the back room and sat down next to him, still cradling his form in my arms.
Once he had calmed down a bit, he met my gaze.
Wiping tears from his beautiful eyes, he said, "Promise y-you won't ever-.. ever take yours-self away from me?"
"Oh, Asra.. I promise. Sincerely. I wouldn't ever want to hurt you like that," I said, giving off my most honest aura. "Please know that. I love you, and I would never even come close to damaging you like that."
Asra seemed satisfied with the answer and pulled me into his lap and made me straddle him.
Once again, we sat in silence. The only sounds we listened to each other's shaking breath and in sync heartbeat.
I let my fingers run through his soft hair and rubbed his back with my other hand.
"I love you. So, so, so much. Never forget that," Asra mumbled into my chest.
I smiled sadly. "I know. I won't. I love you, too. More than anything I've ever known."
I pressed my lips to the top his head, hoping to reassure him that my words held the utmost truth.
••°°°°••
I wake up with warmth surrounding my frame, comfortable as ever.
I smile and find Asra's hand, bringing it up to my lips in an affectionate manner.
"Hello, beautiful. Had a good rest, I hope?" He mumbled, his voice groggy from sleep.
I chuckled. "Yes, it was lovely. What about you?" I turned around to look into his eyes that I adored too much to put into words.
"The most fantastic sleep I've had in a while." He smiled and pulled me closer.
"Mm, that's probably because you're always sleeping somewhere foreign, hm?~" I tease him, propping myself up with my elbows.
"You got me," he spoke. "Stay here, I'll make us some food. Also, I'm keeping the shop closed today. I'm thinking we should take this as a vacation day for just the two of us~" he prompted as he walked out of the doorway.
"Sounds like a plan, my love," I call to him, snuggling into the couch, already missing his warmth.
My fingers grasp onto his shawl that he left behind, bringing it close to my face.
I let his scent enter my nose, filling me with bliss.
He smells like his favorite smoky-tasting tea and cinnamon- with a hint of vanilla, as well.
I smiled and yawned, content with my life.
I get up, longing for his presence.
"What are you making? Smells delicious~"
He looks back at me, smiling.
In that moment, my breath was taken away and I knew he was the only one I am ever going to love and that he is all that I will ever need.
"Asra.." I breathe out, taking in all of his features.
He turns around and cups my cheeks in his hands, suddenly concerned at my change in demeanor.
"Are you alright, my love?" His concerned eyes search my face.
"I.. I think I just fell in love with you all over again." I laugh, peppering his face with kisses.
"Ah, I do that all the time," he whispers, drawing me close.
We stare into each other's eyes with small, contented smiles dancing on our face.
"I-" we both began at the same time.
Asra laughed and I beamed in amusement.
"You go ahead, (Y/N)."
I smile and brush a stray curl out his his face so I could see more of his dazzling features.
"I just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. Nothing you do could ever make me not love you, much less dislike. You.. You're so perfect, and I'm overjoyed I got to be a part of your life, and you a part of mine. I feel privileged and lucky to have gotten to spend any time at all with you. I guess what I'm trying to say is.. I love you. Unconditionally. No one else could make me love them more than I love you, no matter what they did or however hard they tried. Just know I will forever be here for you, and know that you are appreciated, even when we have a small quarrel."
The words slip out of my mouth so easily, as if already engraved in my brain. Or rather, heart.
Asra scooped me in flush against his body and kissed me with burning and powerful love. No other emotion besides love and happiness was poured into that kiss.
I felt warm and protected in his strong grip.
Nothing could ever feel more welcome and blissful as this. Just Asra and I.
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That was eh.
I liked it but,,
I kinda
h a t e d
the uh
ending.
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life updates!
so in the spirit of radical authenticity imma be completely transparent about some life stuff shaking out for us right now and why i’ve kinda been on and off the grid for a little over a year now. i’ve realized it’s really difficult to create meaningful connections with people when both parties aren’t being honest and true, so here’s me laying it all out. basically butt naked. i’ve only shared this with like 2 people in real life, so what the heck might as well share this with a bunch of total and complete strangers for the sake of meaningful connection! this is probs gonna be fairly wordy so here’s a page break so i don’t eat up someone’s entire dash haha.
1. since undergoing a lot of personal growth stuff and trying to define what this big adventure called life means for me, it’s been really hard for me to post on here. it just hasn’t felt in alignment for me to do so and trying to be present on here otherwise has felt a lot like forcing it any slapping on a happy face when, in all honesty, there’s been a lot of feeling very not happy. i’ve also felt like i’ve had to fit this certain image that i was when a lot of faces decided to join me on my journey, and so posting on here started feeling a lot like doing it for other people than continuing to do it for myself. so, i stepped back. i didn’t feel like people would understand, i didn’t feel like wanting to remember some heartache and icky stuff that happened, and i didn’t want to post stuff until i wanted to post stuff for me and because it was fun again. it was a healthy break and much needed.
2. i’m finally getting out of a funk that’s lasted a couple months and has been really not fun. i feel like my natural, uninhibited state is joyful and bright and optimistic and that got really tainted and hidden. i lost my hope in humanity and felt like all my dreams and goals were impossible and far from reach. things just felt kinda hopeless and that feeling was so scary because that’s so, so not me. i’m the girl that everyone calls childlike and naive because i believe in dreams and fairies and angels and magic and that love always prevails and that everyone should do what they love, with their soulmate, and live happily ever after. i lost that, and that was terrifying, because i didn’t know how to get back. but i think when you get deep enough into the self help arena, you reach this point where it all really comes down to being happy and doing what you love. regardless of anything. and i think we’re all just looking for permission to do that big, terrifying thing that makes our heart flutter and our stomach churn in knots. at the end of the day, you were born here, on this green and blue ball whirling through space, with your specific dreams and desires for a purpose. and i believe you are meant to do something with that, regardless of whether you receive money, or fame, or recognition for it. i realized over the summer that i’ve spent sooooo much time and energy and emotional investment trying to fix things for people and save people and help them accomplish their dreams, all the while completely neglecting and ignoring my own desires and dreams. and honestly, that’ll slowly kill ya. if you’re not living your life for yourself, why the heck are you even here???? what’s the point???
3. me pursuing running was a total cop out. it’s been my backup plan because i’ve been too terrified of pursuing ~the thing~ and getting my heart broken, so this was the safe alternative. minimal emotional investment. still get to achieve things and work towards something. but here’s the dang thing. the universe/god/whatever you want to call it wants you to do the thing, and is going to do what it can to get you there. cue multiple running injuries and setbacks. like one after the next after the next. it just was not working. and when i finally got to that place where i realized that this was not working, i lost it. because it made me realize that i felt like i couldn’t have running or the other thing. but not because i couldn’t do the thing, but because my brain killed that option off in my head because it wasn’t safe. the emotional risk was too high. what if i gave it my all and failed???? what if it never worked and i never got there???? and many other numerous intense irrational fears. BUT if you don’t ever go for what makes you feel excited to get out of bed even if it makes you want to pee your pants and question your sanity, WHAT IS THE POINT OF ANY OF THIS???? to live a boring, stable, mediocre life? to live a safe life is to choose boredom and misery for the rest of your life because it’s “comfortable” and “safe” according to your brain, and i reached the point that i just couldn’t do it anymore. i couldn’t be miserable and “safe” anymore. it was killing me.
4. so last month, i spent a couple days in an intense, intense internal emotional battle with myself. wanting to commit (let alone admit that i even wanted) to pursuing my dreams, but being so fucking terrified at the same time. and i understand that it sounds so stupid! like looking back, i’m like WHY was that SO hard???? your brain can be a huge pain in the ass, let me tell ya. sweet dan snuggled me one night when i was really struggling and talked me through things while being the voice of reason to my irrational fears and got me to the place where i could finally admit that i wanted to do the thing. and holy moly just admitting to something like that will change your dang life. it was like a woosh of tension and stress and weight just left my body. like that. done.
5. so here i am, like 3 weeks later, finding myself. going back to 7 year old me with the dreams and the joy and the possibility. looking for the good and finding it. mentally committing to going for it, whatever the hell that means or will even look like. but it has radically transformed my life in the best of ways. i’m killing any and all “have tos” and “shoulds” in my life. i’m doing what feels fun and breezy and brings the light back into my eyes. it’s all baby steps, and i still falter and fall, but i can feel where i’m going to be and finding my way back easier and quicker every time. i’m telling you, this is what makes life worth living.
6. dan’s also realized his life calling and dream this past month (yeah. october’s been real big for us hahah)!!! he’s gone from working at the fbi in d.c. to going to become an agent for the fbi office in milwaukee to meeting me (love will change your life in more ways than you realize) and not realizing what the heck he wants to do, to landscaping, flipping houses, and over the summer realizing he wants to be an architect that specializes in modern, organic, sustainable architecture. we’re looking at schools for him for next fall. :)
7. right now, dan’s boss just bought a new house on lake michigan as the next flip. we’re doing a proposal for a modern flip to this two story ranch in the next week or so, so if that goes through, prepare to see some fun house renovation progress pics! we’re really excited for the opportunity, and my dad (a prominent architect in mke) is overseeing our project and helping dan which is just going to be so, so cool. it’ll be soooo much fun if it happens, so fingers crossed!!!!
oh! if you’re wondering what the heck the thing is for me, it’s horses. it always has been. it’s been in there since is was 5 or 6. i don’t know how this dream is going to shake out, but it’s mine, and i’m owning it.
if you need permission to go for it, if you need a sign, this is it. it is worth it. the universe/god/whatever is not going to give you a dream that it will not fully support you in achieving. you just gotta fucking go for it. it’s scary, but we’re all in this together and there’s nothing more badass and fulfilling than going for it. if you need a dream buddy, reach out. i will 100000% support you.
#big things#rachelsrambles#because clearly EVERYONE missed my several thousand word rants hahaha#if you read this i sincerely thank you for spending the time to do so#and i hope this resonates with you in some way :)#also#all of this is my own opinions about my own life#so don't take this personally if you don't like it!
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That's super fucking romantic? Like tragic but in a nice way. i love that shit. i'm a monogamous slut for romance pghiosuag even tho we have to learn to live alone too but it's just like the NOTION is nice?!??! awwww
i told my mom that SOPHIE's gf was like "she died taking a picture of the moon" and how it was like idk. the gf was just processing it and she thought it was romantic and my mom was like "wow.....depressing" bc think she thought it was stupid millenial shit i was like no mother doent u see she died in the BEAUTY LMAO but then i told her jessica walter's husband died the year before and then she died and she was like "aw...kind of romantic" LMAOOOO i guess two people have to die. why did i tell this story? i am so sorry.
the show ended today right (ep 10?) i didn't realize it was that short. so i hope it was a happy ending? (tell me) i understand why you love the atmos! it's like, not really been done. there's this BL that i hear isn't too great but it does take place in a rural part of thailand and there's way less budget. a lot of ppl seem to like it.
ep 6 LW / LW in gen
gotta be honest, rushed through it. i knew spoilers from jump cause BL spoilers are just absolutely nothing and sometimes ur just like i need to know. i do not understand the ~silently lookin 4 u~ trope it always backfires and is also DUMB.
so happy about tiffy. a girl who likes girls but ends up with a man bc of mommy and also the man is ok....it's me. she's gorgeous and actually [h*lf] gay so it's great. god ok i feel so old again. lmaooo but i was like obsessed with lady gaga for that reason (dont ask...also how i got kinda popular on tumblr way back in the day) and shes just absolutely fucking beautiful and bad ass. (which kind of doesnt helpcos they r all skinnty but that's FINEEEE)
right? i mean like i guess cos we knew abt it? i can see why he was so pissed off, too? i mean i'm so fucking like...sensitive to being told what to do so i was angry for him from jump. i guess i was also looking at it different wholetime cos i knew the spoilers? i'm assuming u did too lmao. so we knew hed be pissed and leave. and frankly that's what sib gets.
just for you my friend i will watch it and update. i think MANY times in shows in gen but it is something you notice a lot in BL bc they are just absolute novices most times. in this case, gene's actor mostly well (and i like him as a person just cos he was on that thai 3 girls in a car show and used to date on eof them lmao) can act so i will look over that scene to see how sib's actor plays off him. but the pausing in between sentences or for so long even decent actors or actors doing better. kao is not bad, not great so
they
will
talk
slowly
because
dramatic
acting
but the problem is most times it's too long. even if the person is an adept actor it won't always work and YES THEN THAT MEANS THE EDITOR COMES IN AND SNIP SNIP SNIP! it's too long. and sometimes it just does not work even if you can act. but it is GLARING when they cant or are average (someoe said this about tharntype and my god lmao tharn..is...so...slow...in...talking...the actor idk his name it's one of em, the other one with the nose (type) is....different not better but he certainly does not talk as slow. they arent bad but they are not good so.)
also sometimes they are forgetting their lines. some ppl find this charming. clearly we do not lmao.
what is their relation? what is going on there? i don't have a problem with stepbrothers as long as they didn't grow up with that sibling bond. many times blended families really have to watch out for that kind of fraternizing but it's always when theyre older and teenagers bc they didnt grow up w/ each other....i mean they have chemistry so i'm whatever. but. hennYYWAYYYS.actually it's bc im an idiot i didn't read it as Mhok (singular) and aey's father. Yes and his sister who i think i may hate? im like bitch okkkkkk but.
his name is lhong. and he is a psycho. i mean so is type. so. oooh it could be that he stole! but also i'm pretty sure cos hes gay lol or did they
not make that explicit? the thing is i had to skip through most of that scene too because the drama was WAY too much for me. too much. lmao. the sister thing i got and it made sense and iliked that. oh yea he is gay and they know. that's a big one.
WBL
haven’t watched color rush! did you like it? i have seen wyel, parts of mr heart, and ofc to my star :)
ohhhhhh ok. i get you. yea he definitely wasn’t being ooc cos i think that....what u said. and also like....ugh i cant even think rn. i like sam lin a lot so i like gao shi de but i gotta say. lmao. hm. first of all. yes it is creepy what he did. it’s fucking weird. and sad that his whole life revolves around him. it’s not as fucking weird as LW but still like when he did the door thing. i was like UMMMMMMMMM cos i really didnt want it to be constructed. and when it was i was like imma suspend my disbelief. but if anyone dared...
and so what he did in s2 i think he just couldnt realize that he was loved back which is why it’s good he WAS ALONE for 5 yrs imo. but he gave shu yi 0 choice and for that i am pretty sure i would be even angrier. i do think though that the father’s role is pretty important but i can see how the show is like....letting that go? bc as fucking weird as GSD is, he was still like...20? i guess and shu yi’s dad is like. crazy? i am also like he really had to fucking start a company to get noticed like are u joking? is it also that easy? and also why? lmao i just. ugh. i think that probs bothered me the most...priorities.
i like the show! well idk if i love it but sure. i think it’s decent lmao. i understand what you’re saying. for here it bothers me less but i certainly don’t think it was OOC. immature and stupid but like...that’s.....what they are. i also don’t have a problm with the timing from a technical point.
however, when i started the show? i had NO clue what concept of time it was. and that was very annoying. tehy redeemed it bc of the comedy aspects (the first time shu yi sees shi de is so fucking good, i really loved the shot and editing; it’s hilarious and silly) and i started to go with the flow of the show through that. but the fucking concept of time in the show in general esp with repetitive outfits (i understand that they are more likely to wear multiple outfits as well, it’s just that you have to split it up or it i sconfusing visually and looks like the same scene twice or just a full day of shooting which it could be but then something should change in the clothes. this is just an ex~~*~*) and partof that is they have this already controlled narrative i guess.
i have to admit as well...i skipped episode 1. and most of 2. i was like i rly dont want to see someone slap a pereson even if they were like. not together. it’s just not cute also not in front of ppl. and then when they were yelling and bla bla i was like listen ladies lets calm down. too much angst in a boring way. what they have now is good. also they should probably like estrange the father but i doubt they will.
i cannot make up my mind totally now bc i see what ur saying i guess i just don’t feel that way as much but i guess i have to think about it more, too. i do think he was contorlling in getting him or like when he didnt want shu yi to find out whwatshisface liked him. i guess for me it would be if he is still that way in the rship. but even tho he’s at fault for what happened, i’m also like but his dad? but also like...did he try? why did he just stop contacting? but then i guess he emailed everyday? DO U C MY QUANDARY.
alsoi have to say i do not care abt their backdoor being opened lmao like wow business? no thanks
LMAO. did they cry a lot in UWMA? i only know the teamwin parts. which one is fluke the really pale one who died? idk what it is about that kid but i just cant watch him. it’s not his fault it’s mine.
DUDE i still dont understand the husband and wife thing and ive looked into it multiple times. ive kinda just classified it as one of those things that make me uncomfortable but arent problematic lol. it you have any insight about it id love to hear it tho !!
it’s stupid. that’s what it is (husband and wife.) it’s just something they say like many gay couples may use pejoratives in conjunction with them, the f word etc. or even imply something about being a top and a bottom. whatever. but these arent gay spaces or gay storylines. sure gay men may direct them but since BL operates and relies on patriarchy without a doubt and also stereotypes poorly kathoeys or won’t cast trans women in anything substantial and use them as jokes (and see this is one of those things where it’s like...ud never see this in the US tho like our concept of third gender or kathoeys but life stillBOOOOO.) so it’s just useless when they put it into the scripts because it’s for people to consume and lots of girls are. obviously. so the idea that if you are being penetrated and u r the wife and this is used like literally anywhere but not from gay or whatever men is gross. are cis women’s vaginas sieves to them? are trans women not women? do we have to categorize people by PHALLIC OBJECTS IN OUR BODIES SPECIFICALLY A WOMAN? it dont make no sense. plus really most ppl just experiment, there’s more ways than one to have sex, we have lives so most times it’s not just full penetration for hours anyway. it’s just so gross. like oh that’s really funny lol ur the wife cos his dick goes in ur butt XD i get it, same. i say “i’m wife’ whenever there’s a penis in me. fucking kill me. it’s not a big deal but it’s just dumb and gross. if they use it they could try and subvert it too like i like how my engineer has a whole absurdly stupid episode about it. but in TT the dad says “if ur the wife i wont accept it” and i was like u know what gals? im good. goodbye.
pgojaihousgajigko THAT’S SOOOOOOO OOWIEOFUGHOIJ WEIRD. FANDOM IS REALLY WEIRD. i have read rpf and written it once upon a time but dont do it anymore uch. i mean it’s weird. no doubt about that. invasive, weird, strange. but very unreal anyway. it is. plus i dont like celebs or fame and think of it as a gross capitalist scheme so i had to stop (also so weird?) but i know very many people like lean in. lean in. LEAN IN. this youtuber i watch did a video on like insanely popular ships (like that 1d one) and their insane fandoms and i just couldnt. it’s so embarrassing? and then they’re so bold????? about it?
yea it would be cool (more queer men or visibly we should say or like out whatever.) but it doesnt necessarily mean that will be good or beneficial i guess? i mean like. i dont know. so much about the genre is about wish fulfilment for young girls. its literally selling some fantasies because the other thing is for BL (i read a paper on this...) esp for girls in more conservative societies they cna maybe replace themselves in the character? but they may not feel a threat as a woman or like their life will fall apart if they engage in sexual things with anyone really. and that’s where i’m like....for a lot of these are they just writing a story and just replacing two men? bc they also seem to think it owrks like that. and in a way that’s what it is bc of the writing and how they use certain terms. you can tell the piece is about pushing a product and less about the real affects of a story. i think ITSAY is a great example of a really intelligent great piece of work that contains multitudes. and the girl was amazing. it just depends on the goal. and for most of the ppl the goal isnt...to do anything. so i dont know. idk how to talk abt representation anymore. it both is and isnt.
i really liked tingting from my engineer a lot (idk if u have seen) she’s so fun and unapologetic. i love how much she drinks and if someone tells her to be ladylike she says no. and i appreciate that in the show when girls were rude to her she said nothing about the girls but said “NO IM NOT LUCKY TO HAVE ALL MALE FRIENDS?” i really want to see her more in the next season. obviously tiffy is goat. super excited to see how their rship develops.
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Chapter 13: Death by giggles
✗ Adrian ✗
I decided to walk to the rec center on campus. Aj would probably be mad if i decided to drive and not get the benefits of the fresh air or some bullshit reason. The walk wasn’t that long either, the campus wasn't that big anyways. When i reached the center I saw Aj sitting outside with his bag on the ground at his feet.
“Yo.” I shouted out to him and held my hand up.
Aj turned around and stuffed his phone into his pocket. “You actually came, surprising.” He crossed his arms over his chest.
“Im an asshole, not a promise breaker.” I walked up to him and slugged him in the arm.
“And you hit like a child.” He laughed and hooked an arm around my shoulders. “Lets go and get changed and start on making you bulkier.” he bent down a bit, taking me with him to pick up his bag.
“I dont wanna look like you. I like my size.” I mumbled beside him.
“Oh, i’m not going to make you huge like i am, just….bigger...stronger i mean.” He smiled at me with a huge grin.
“Yeeeaah okay big guy.” i laughed and shook my head. We went up to the front desk and showed our student IDs and were let in for free.
Aj took me to the locker room, “Are you squirmish on changing in front of people?” He looked back at me with a grin.
“No, I went to public school and had gym classes thank you.” I walked up to a locker and set my bag down, pulling my shirt off over my head.
“Aight.” he laughed and went to a locker close me and dropped his bag. He pulled out his clothing before taking anything off. Aj took his shoes off first then pulled his shirt off. I had my tank top on under my shirt and stared at aj as he undressed. Aj wasn’t a freakishly huge guy, but he was built like a brick shit house. He had a very broad chest and shoulders, with very large biceps. And i shit you not you could probably wash clothing on his abs , I wasn’t able to count but i feel like he’s more than a twelve pack of abs….he could very well have more and his hips had like the most perfect v-line cut to them. I looked up to see Aj staring down at me with a brow raised. “Having fun?”
“Aaaauuuuuuh…” I looked down at my feet then back up at him, “yeah.” I said bluntly.
“At least you’re honest.” he laughed. “But when i take my pants off can you not stare? I feel like Karim would know even if he isnt here and kill me when i get home.”
“I can try not to.’ I looked at the clothing on his bag. “Do you just bring a extra pair of pants?” i asked looking back up at him.
“Yeah? Shirts are pointless if im going to get sweaty.” He put a hand on my shoulder and slowly but gently pushed me and made me turn around and have my back to him. I heard a belt buckle and pants hit the ground.
Grabbing my basketball shorts from my bag, i quickly took my shoes off and wiggled my skinny jeans down to my ankles and step out to put my shorts on. Sitting on the bench to put my shoes back on, i looked over at Aj. He had on like a wear pair of tight sweat pants but it wasn’t tight around his waist, it was actually quiet baggy and the cloth around his legs was tighter. Aj sat on the bench beside me and put his shoes back on.
“Do you have anything specific you wanna try or do?” He leaned back and waited for me to finish tying my shoes.
“Uuh, not really i dont work out that much.” I turned to face him as i grabbed my hair and tired it up in a high ponytail.
Aj grabbed the bottom of my tank top and lifted it up to my chest. “Dude, you dont work out? Bullshit.” he dropped my shirt.
“I said not much, i did before school, i usually get lazy during the semesters.” I stuck my tongue out at him.
“Hm, we’ll we’re going to get that changed.” He got up and slapped my back, “cmon.”
“Chill muscle head.” I flipped my head over and grabbed my hair that way because the first ponytail didnt go right. “Some of us have hair we need to fix.”
“Woah holy shit dude you’re huge.” A familiar voice came from behind me. “Come here often?”
“Yeah, and you are? I think i’ve seen you before.” Aj spoke to the voice behind me.
“Kane.” he said and i saw Aj make a motion like he was extending his hand.
Flipping my head back up, i had tied my hair in a messy as fuck bun, “whats up Kane.” I turned to look at Kane who had Aj’s hand in his.
“Sup.” he smiled down at me. He had on a white tank top and gray sweatpants and his hair pushed back by a bandana. “You started working out?”
“Not started, just bonding time with Aj.” I got up off the bench and gave Kane a high five.
“Wanna join us for a work out?” Aj put his hands on his hips. “Im use to working out alone, but it is fun to have others, especially if you two fail horribly.”
Kane started laughing loudly while i smacked Aj on his arm. “We might be tiny but we aren’t weak.”
“HA, i dunno about you, but im pretty sure I’m stronger than you.” Kane started chuckling evily to himself.
“Oh you’re on blondie.” I grabbed his bag from him and tossed it in my locker and closed it. “Cmon lets go, start walking.” i got behind Kane and started pushing him out of the locker room.
Aj had the great idea to see how much both of us could pick up in weights or how much we could press.
“Actually, is there a tire in here?” Kane looked up at Aj. “Like, a fairly big heavy one?”
“Uh, yeah? Why?” Aj raised a brow at kane and then pointed over to a huge tire on the ground.
“Cmon skrillex hair cut.” Kane laughed and grabbed my wrist. “We’re gonna see if you can pick up this tire.”
“The fuck? I doubt you can do it either.” I huffed and let Kane drag me.
“Hahaha, try it, you go first.” Kane motioned his head to the tire.
“No you first.” I crossed my arms over my chest, “this was your idea.”
“Oh god, flip a coin for it.” Aj walked up and stood between us. “Or pick a number between one and ten. Whos ever closest goes last.”
“Five!” Kane shouted and looked to me.
“Eight.” I glared at Kane.
“It was three. You go first Adrian.” Aj put a hand on my shoulder and shoved me a bit.
“Ffffffuck FINE!” I sighed heavily and stepped closer to the tire. “Do i need to do this a certain way?”
“Hands under, lift with you legs.” Aj had his hands out in front of him and squatted down to demonstrate. “Just dont hurt yourself.”
“Aight will try not to.” I sighed and spread my feet a bit apart and lowered down at the knees and got my hands as best as i could. trying to lift the tire i held my breath and tried to pick it up at least a little. I was failing horribly at this too, it was not moving an inch at all with how much i was trying.
“You can see his arm muscles, it not like he doesnt have any.” I heard Kane mumbling to Aj.
“Yeah but this is hard.” Aj mumbled back.
Grunting really loudly, i fell backwards on my ass. “Fuck you both!” I turned to look at them and gave both of them the middle finger. “You come and try this shit Kane, cuz i know Aj can do it.”
Kane came over and helped me off the ground. “Aight pretty boy, stand back.” He patted my shoulder. Kane lowered himself at his knees like i did and got his hands under the tire. He shrugged his shoulders a bit and took in a deep breath or two. Pursing his lips he let out a light grunt and worked the tire up. It wasnt the quickest lift ever by he was able to pick it up. Once he got it on its side, he put his hip against it so itd stay up and hooked his arm around it. “So?”
Aj started clapping lightly for him. “Nice i didnt think you could lift it.”
“What the fuck man?!” I glared at him, “you’re like fairly the same size as me and i couldnt lift it!?” i groaned and threw my head back.
“I think he just has more-” Aj was going to speak until Kane laughed.
“Nah what ever you were going to say might be true, but thats probably not the case.” he had a huge smile on his face, “im actually a mechanic, lifting and moving tires is fairly easy for me even if i dont look massive.”
“You cheated then!” I yelled and went to grab Kane by the shirt and shake him.
Kane started laughing hard and grabbed onto my wrists, “its not cheating if i dont tell you!”
“FALSE ADVERTISEMENT YOU SHIT!!” I started shaking him more violently. He grabbed onto my forearms trying to stop my shaking.
“Alright children.” aj grabbed the back of my shirt and pulled me away from kane, and put his palm on Kane’s chest. “We’ve established that Kane here can kick your ass Adrian.”
“I demand a retry!” I huffed and crossed my arms over my chest.
“Nah i can still kick your ass half-shave.” Kane had a cocky smirk on his face.
“Imma kill you!” I extended my hands out towards Kane again this time trying to go for his neck. Aj still had his hand on my shirt and was holding me back, Kane all the while was laughing his ass off at it all.
“Im sorry come here you delicate angry child.” Kane walked up and hugged me putting his arms around my neck, “im sorry.” he spoke softly and nuzzled his cheek against mine.
“Imma kick your ass later for this.” I put my arms around his waist to return the hug.
“You guys look cute together.” Aj laughed before turning around, “cmon follow me you tiny kittens.”
“I prefer the term mighty cub thank you.” Kane stuck his tongue out at Aj who had his back to us.
“Alright, mighty cub, get stalkin.” I pushed on Kane to let me go and pressed my hands on his shoulders forcing him to walk in front of me.
The three of us had fun together at the gym. Aj slowly regretted having me and Kane together because of the fact we’d start goofing off with each other as Aj tried to teach us or we’d get distracted by watching Aj do something and neither of us really followed after him. We both just kinda zoned out and stared at Aj’s ass when he started doing squats. Kane was losing his shit with randomly giggling at seeing Aj flex or something and would grab onto me and shake my arm trying to hide his giggling. When Kane and i were actually able to function and participate in what Aj was trying to get us to do, it was enjoyable. Minus the fact that i did not have the stamina, willpower, or strength to do anything that Aj was making us do. Kane was a lot more well off than i was, He was just a bit shorter than me and not as fit looking like i was either and the kid was still kicking my ass in everything. Eventually at the end we all sat down on the floor catching our breath.
“So Aj whats your major or minor.” Kane asked as he wiped the sweat off his face with his shirt
Aj looked at him with a raised brow. “What do you think im at college for?”
“Uuuuuuh.” Kane stared at Aj with wide eyes and looked him up and down, “football?”
“Pfft. no.” Aj started to chuckle, “gave up football in high school. Im going to school to be a physical therapist, personal trainer, chiropractor, and massage therapist.”
“Oh fuck what do you not do?!” Kane leaned away from Aj a bit, “HOW LONG ARE YOU GOING TO SCHOOL FOR DUDE?!” Both Aj and i fell over with laughter at Kane’s reaction. Kane grumbled “its not that funny! Dude you’ll be like eighty when you graduate!”
“Its all good man, i actually get that a lot.” Aj sat back up again. “Dunno if i’ll pursue all of it yet, but its what i wanna do. What are you here for?”
“I have a degree or certificate whatever you wanna call it in Mechanical engineering, minoring in theater.”
“You do theater?” I asked and popped up again off the floor, “you didnt tell me that?”
“I think i did but thats beside the point, heres the real question. Aj, what the fuck is your real name?” Kane leaned forward towards Aj, leaning down on his legs. “I just wanna know where Aj comes from.”
Aj leaned closer to him and waved for me to lean in too, “okay so, if any of you call me by my real name, i get to kick you okay?” we both looked at each other and nodded, turning back to Aj. “okay, not really but i dont like being called it. My name is Austin and my middle name is Joseph. Now you have to share yours.” He leaned back away from us.
I put my hand up a bit, “Russell.”
“Lucius Riley!” Kane smiled happily and rocked side to side slowly.
“Story time? Why’d your parents give you two middle names?” I asked and put my elbow on my knee and my cheek in my hand, “you have an odd combo of names too.”
“Well my dad named me Kane.” His smile softened a bit as he spoke, “mom didnt know if she wanted to name me Lucius or Riley, so she just convinced dad that im having those as my middle name. My middle names mean a lot to me.”
“Can i ask why?” I spoke softer this time, seeing that Kane had a not so happy look on his face but he was still smiling.
“My parents split up and i lived in two homes, eventually i lost my mom.” He spoke in a very soft whisper, “so thats why its important to me, i also was with her a lot anyways after my dad got remarried and they were raising my half sister.”
“Hey, i’m really sorry about your mom.” Aj spoke softly to and put a hand on Kane’s shoulder.
“Thanks.” He smiled up at Aj and smiled at me, “it sucks to have lost my mom, but i know she’s watching over me.”
“Thats a good outlook on it.” I said and leaned over to pat Kane as well.
“Yeah.” he said softly and pulled out his phone from his pocket. “AH, guys, i need to bounce, I promised id take my roommate and his bro to something tonight and i need to shower and do some things before we leave.” Kane started getting up and fixing his clothing.
“Uuuuh, is it possibly a show at the Lethal Apple?” I asked looking up at him.
“Uuuuuuuuuuuuh….” he paused, “yeah i think so.”
“YOU BITCH! Thats my show with my band!!” I scrambled to get up and shake him by his shirt once again.
“AAaaaah! Dude!” Kane grabbed onto my wrists again, “Im sorry please dont hit me! I’ll be there aight!”
“You better be!” I looked down at Aj, “you coming too?”
“I can ask Karim if he wants to go, is Val going?” Aj got up and patted his ass off from any dirt.
“I think he will yeah.” i looked up at Aj who had a smirk on his face.
“Then yeah, ill see if Karim can go and we’ll see you there.” he put a hand on my shoulder and pushed me away from Kane. “you need a ride home man?”
“Nah, i got my truck, thanks tho.” Kane smiled up at Aj, taking a quick look down at his chest then back up.
“Aight, you want a lift back to the dorms Adrian?” Aj looked over at me.
“You drove?” I asked.
“Yeah?” He answered.
“YOU BITCH, I WALKED HERE.” I brought my hands up to Aj to shake him and he stared at me with a raised brow. I stopped my reach and put my hands back down when i realized he hasnt been wearing a shirt and i’d feel bad for touching his chest. I think Karim would actually kill me if i touched Aj’s fucking pecs “Fuck you.” I mumbled, causing both Aj and Kane to laugh.
We walked back to the locker room to grab our belongings. Kane left us early on because he parked elsewhere in the lot. Aj didnt tell me he only had his motorcycle and didnt have a second helmet. He got the engine going and had his helmet on and waved me to hop on the back. I got on pretty easily given this wasnt my first experience riding bitch seat, but i was nervous about putting my hands around Aj’s waist.
“I wont go anywhere if you dont put your hands around me.” He looked back and raised the visor off his face and up onto his helmet.
“Will Karim know? I feel like he’ll kill me if he knows.” I kept my hands between my legs.
Aj stared at me with a confused look before laughing loudly. “I think Karim wont mind because it means keeping you safe. He’d kill me knowing i didnt have a second helmet for you instead of you hugging me to stay safe.”
“I still feel wrong if i touch you….” I mumbled.
“Just shut up and put your hands on my hips, you’ll be fine.” He laughed once more.
Grumbling loudly, i put my arms around Aj and leaned into him, holding on tightly. I patted his chest to let him know i was good and he was ready to take off when he put his visor back down. The trip to the apartments was an even shorter trip by vehicle but Aj kept at a slow pace for me since i didnt have a helmet on. He pulled up as close to our building as he could and let me get off.
“Hey.” Aj raised the visor up.
“Hm?” I turned around to look at him and shift my bag onto my back.
“You wanna come over for dinner soon at our place?” he shifted his weight on the bike, “Karim would want to get to know you more and hang out with Val some, those two are close anyways.”
“Yeah, i can ask cupcake what his plans are. I just gotta tell my parents im not coming home this weekend.” I twirled my hair on my finger.
“Cool, i’ll ask Karim what his weekend looks like and i’ll text you or val what we decide on then.” He flipped his visor back down and held a peace sign up. “Peace man, i’ll see if i can make it to your show.”
“Alright, see ya if you can.” I waved him off and watched until he was out of the lot to climb the stairs to the apartment.
The lights were off and the door was locked, so i assumed Val wasn’t home yet and still off doing some things. I walked in and turned the lights on, going to the bedroom and tossing my bag down before going over to the dresser and pulling out the draw Demyan sleeps in. I looked down to see him all bundled up on my clothes.
“Hey, you good?” i poked his little head.
He looked up at me and yawned a bit, “Oh welcome back pup.”
“Thanks. You need anything? Food, water….condoms?” I asked and petted him gently.
“Uhm...no thank you, I think i do not need any of that.” he curled back up and closed his eyes.
“Alright, i’ll be in the shower.” I closed the drawer a bit before i pulled off my shirt and stepped out of my shorts. Going to the bathroom, i took my boxer briefs off and turned the water on. Having the hot water hit my skin felt so nice after that work out with Aj and kane. I was still freaked out by how i didn’t have the bruises from my fight with Aj anymore, and i was too freaked to ask how the fuck Aero had to deal with it. I quickly washed my hair and body, so i could soak in the hot water for awhile before i had to get ready. I heard the door click shut outside the bathroom. Turning the water off and grabbing a towel, i wrapped it around my waist and walked out of the bathroom.
I took just a few steps out before i had Val run right into my chest. He stumbled backwards after he ran into me. I put both my hands around his waist and pulled him closer to me so he didnt land on his ass. “Well, welcome home to you too. Though I would prefer if you were just as naked as I am.” i looked him up and down and smiled.
Val stared up at me with wide eyes and his face bright red. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I didn’t even hear you, so I assumed you were listening to music or something and I wasn’t paying attention and I’m so sorry.” he backed up away from me and held his hands up waving me off.
I stared at him before hunching over and laughing a bit at his reaction.“Oh god cupcake, you’re too much.” I patted my knee before getting up straight again and putting a hand on my hip. His reactions were usually just so cute and it was fun to tease him a bit. “What did you do today?”
“I went and hung out with Karim and then we also met Gabe and his little brother Yori, They were going on a walk like we were so they ended up joining us.” he started to calm down and answered me.
“Oh, that sounds like a lot of fun, compared to the torture I went through with AJ and the gym. God, damn I don’t have the stamina to keep up with that man,” I groaned painfully at the thought of doing a real work out with Aj at some point, thank god i had Kane today.
Val giggled just a bit before speaking, “I’m sure he had a good reason for making you work so hard.” he smiled as he played with his bright red hair.
“You kept your hair down.” I pointed out. Watching him play with it. His hair was such a nice color and it was a shame he wore it up so much. It looked so nice down.
“I-I did yes. I didn’t feel like putting it back up,” he sounded a bit nervous with his response as he looked up at me with those blue eyes that looked so nice with the red hair framing them.
I hummed a bit and smirked down at him, looking him up and down. He really did look nice with his hair down, looked a bit girlish more but he was still really cute looking. “So, what do you wanna do for food?”
“I think we have fish and potatoes. We can make fish and chips for dinner,” he pondered on the thought for a bit.
“Isn’t that a Friday thing?” I asked, i thought people only ate fish on fridays. Its why tuesdays are Taco tuesday and fridays are Fish friday.
“It doesn’t have to be just a Friday thing,” he sounded cocky with that remark and had a smirk on his lips.
“Go take a shower, I’ll work on the potatoes.” i chuckled a bit and ruffled his hair.
“After you get dressed. You’re not using anything in the kitchen with just a towel around your waist,” he pointed his finger at my hips and had a pink blush on his cheeks.
“Ugh, you’re not fun, live a little cupcake.” I turned around and went to the bedroom, Val following after me
“I’ll be out shortly.” fiddled around behind me and then went to the bathroom to shower.
Waiting for the door to close, i looked down and saw Aero sitting at my feet staring up at me. “Hey princess.” I bent down and petted her head a bit, “mind giving me a second to put underwear on, i dont wanna taint your sweet princess eyes.” She meowed at me softly before walking over to Val’s bed and sat down, curling up and cleaning her foot and whipping it on her head. Watching her i grabbed a fresh pair of boxer briefs and putt them on under the towel and dropped the towel on my bed. Grabbing a pair of my black torn skinny jeans, putting on a shirt that had the top half made out of fishnet and the bottom half that covered my stomach as solid black and pulled on some socks.
I left the bedroom and went to the kitchen to pull out the potatoes and start working on them. I got at least two potatoes clean and shaved before Val bounced up beside me in a tank top and shorty shorts. He helped with the potatoes before working on the fish. Cooking went by fairly quickly and we sat at the small table together.
“You going out somewhere?” Val asked as he chewed on a potato chip.
“I have a show to do tonight, so i’ll probably be heading out after we clean up. Wanna come?” i asked before putting food in my mouth.
“Mmm!” val hummed and swallowed his food, “sure i’d love to!”
I held a thumb up to him because i had too much food in my mouth, and my phone started buzzing. Pulling it out of my pocket i put it on the table.
‘Karim and i will be coming, where is it?’ Aj had sent the text and i spun my phone around so Val could read and pointed down at it.
“Oh cool, do you know all whos going?” He looked down and up at me.
Swallowing my food. “You, Aj with Karim, I think Joce might have invited that kid she was with, and Kane will be coming with him and his brother.”
“Gabe and yori?” Val asked.
“Yeah i think so.” I took another bite.
“Oh fun! It’ll be nice to get to meet Kane a bit.” he smiled happily and took another bite.
Swallowing hard and taking a drink, “he’s a little weird just so you know.”
“Arent we all?” Val smiled up at me.
“Only the best of us.” i grinned and stuffed my mouth with the rest of my food and got up to put the dishes away. “Mmm.” I hummed, and walked back to the table to grab a drink. “You dont have to come with me, unless you wanna meet the band early before.”
“I’d like to meet them at least.” He looked up at me and smiled with his fork in his mouth. Getting up soon after and putting the dishes up.
“Hmm.” Val walked behind me as i hummed, i put my hand around me and grabbed his exposed thigh, my arm going across val’s body. “Might wanna put something a bit more appropriate on. I like the booty shorts but at the same time i dont want you to get molested or something.”
“I was going to change anyways. It’s very rare that I leave the house in short shorts. Only when I’m asked to will I leave with them on. Let me just go throw on some jeans quick.” his face was a bit red and he mumbled softly.
Sliding my fingers up just under his shorts by a bit, i let go his leg. “Alright, ill be outside then, i need a smoke.” I walked over to door and slipped on my brown boots and opened the door and walked out. I waited at the bottom of the stairs and leaned on the railing while taking a quick smoke break.
Val jogged down the stairs, “smoking isnt good for a singer.” He commented as he walked around me.
“Eh, we’ll be fine, i dont do it often.” I picked my foot up and put the cigarette out against the bottom of my boot and tossed the bud into a trash can. “Your ass looks good in those jeans.” I brushed my hand along the bottom part of his ass but mostly on the back of his thigh.
He shivered a bit, “thanks?” he mumbled.
“Your welcome, now ass in the passenger seat of my car.” I pulled out my keys and walked towards the lot. I hopped into the drivers side and turned the car on, waiting for Val to hop in as well and buckle up. “Ready?”
“Yeah.” He smiled and slumped down in the seat a bit to get comfy.
“Good good.” I put the car in reverse and backed out, going into drive and leaving campus. The Lethal apple wasn’t far from the college but it was enough so that we had to drive and couldn't walk. When we got there i saw Kane standing outside of his truck and leaning on the bed. Pulling up next to him, i waved and he waved back.
Val hopped out first before i turned the car off. Following after him i walked up to kane. “Hey man.” i held a hand out.
“Sup.” He grabbed my hand and pulled me into a bro hug. “Didnt know where to go so we just waited out here.”
“Hi Val!” Yori leaned over into the drivers side of Kane’s car.
“Hi Yori! hi gabe!” Val leaned to the side to say hi to yori then back over to say it to gabe as well.
Yori and gabe both got out of Kane’s truck and walked around to stand by us. “Sup gabe, you have fun with Jocey?” I smiled at Gabe and he kinda tensed up and started blushing.
“Uh, yeah i did.” He mumbled and rubbed the back of his head. “She’s a nice girl.”
“Oh yeah?” I started to chuckle low to myself and smirking. Val slapped my arm and glared up at me. “Oow, what?” I laughed and looked down at him.
“I dont know what you’re thinking, but be nice.” He frowned at me.
“Yeah, im sorry man.” I put a hand on Gabe’s shoulder. “Treat her right tho, if you fuck up, im kicking your ass….and so will Harv and Desi.”
“Uuuuuh.” gabe stared at me with a confused look.
Val hit me again, causing Kane and Yori to laugh. “Be nice!”
“Damn! Ow, fine fuck sorry.” I rubbed my arm and looked down at Val who was puffing his cheeks at me.
The sound of a loud engine and pipes grew closer to us before pulling up beside all of us standing outside. I assumed it was Aj because he held up a peace sign to us, and the person hugging him around the waist had to be Karim because he waved as well. Aj backed the bike up a bit and turned to park it backwards in the spot on the other side of my car. He put his feet down and turned it off before patting Karim’s thigh and letting him get off.
Karim pulled the full helmet off his head and fixed his hair. “Hi everyone.” he smiled sweetly.
“Karim! Im glad you came!” Val bounced over to Karim and hugged him.
“Of course!” Karim hugged him back, “id love to see Adrian perform.”
“Thanks.” i smiled. Aj got off the bike soon after and took his helmet off. “Wanna put your shit in the back of my car so you dont have to lug it around?” I pointed at my car.
Aj took Karim’s helmet, “uh, sure thanks.” I opened the back of my cars diver door and let Aj put the helmets in there and their jackets as well, before locking it up.
“I thought you didnt like riding the bike.” Val asked Karim.
“Its not my favorite thing but i feel bad making Aj fit into my car.” He laughed lightly and played with his hair.
“Yeah, he had to get the smallest car available knowing i cant fit in most cars cuz im tall as hell.” aj wrapped an arm around Karim and pulled him in closer.
“Sell the bike and get a bigger car.” Karim said flat with a smirk on his face.
Aj looked down at Karim with a raised brow, “no.” he said flatly as well.
Val laughed happily beside them before putting a hand on my back, “should we head inside?”
“Yeah,” I paused and looked around the lot, “i see everyone’s car but Harvey’s so you can meet Asher, desi and Joce.” i lead the way into the Lethal apple and was allowed to take everyone back with me.
“Gabe!!” Joce shouted and bounced up to gabe and instantly wrapped her arms around him. “Im so glad you made it!” she hugged him tightly. Joce was wearing high waisted short shorts with thigh high socks with a distressed very cut up hoodie that only covered her shoulders and short cropped tight tank top under it.
Gabe started blushing and hugged her back “Of course, I told you I was coming and I always keep my promises.”
“Good!” She smiled up at him and let him go, “Hi kane, yori and val!” she smiled at them and they all said hi back. Then turned to see Karim and Aj. “hi, who are you two and why the fuck are you so big?” she held her hands out to Karim and Aj and looked up at Aj.
“Im Karim.” he grabbed her hands, “val’s friend, and this is Aj my boyfriend.”
“Sup midget.” Aj held her hand too. “Its not my fault you’re tiny as hell.”
She blinked slowly at Aj and turned to me. “I like this one, you find him?”
“He found me cuz of Val and threatens to kick my ass a lot.” i crossed my arms.
“I LIKE HIM WE’RE KEEPING HIM!” Joce laughed loudly and let go of their hands. “Aside from that, Im Jocelyne you can call me Joce.”
“Its nice to meet you too.” Karim smiled at her.
Desi walked up in her combat boots, tight leather pants and bustier top. She had uneven blue and purple hair with blue eyes. She usually wore her bright green anti-brow piercing and her lip ring that sat in the middle of her bottom lip. “Hi boys, nice to see Adrian is making more friends. Im Desirae you can call me Desi.” she walked around and shook all of their hands. “Please be gentle with our singer, we’d like to keep him around more.”
“Shut up.” I lightly smacked her back. “Im not a child.”
“I know, but you are a heathen so thats why.” She smiled wickedly at me. “Asher come say hi.” she turned around to look behind her.
“Sup.” Asher walked up to us and waved at everyone, “im asher.” he was the more normal side of our group minus his orange as fuck natural hair that had a bluish under color that Joce did. He wore black capris and a cropped asian like jacket over a tank top.
“We’re missing our drummer too, He running late?” I asked Desi and she pulled out her phone.
“He should be here now actually, he said he was running a bit late but shot a text to me.” She answered and put her phone back in pocket.
The back door opened and in came a panting Harvey. “Hey guys sorry ‘bout that.” He looked up and shook his head. “Woah you guys brought friends.” he smiled sweetly at everyone. “Hi, im Harvey, nice to meet you all.” He bowed his head a little. “Nice to see another tall as fuck guy too.” He extended a fist out to Aj. Harvey was the tallest out of all of us, and he had long hair that was split down the middle red and black tied up in a messy bun and had a nose bridge piercing. He wore nice fitting brown jeans and a deep maroon vest jacket that he had mostly zipped up.
“Yeah totally.” he fist bumped Harvey, “you go to our school, ive seen you at the rec center.”
“Yeah i do.” he laughed lightly. Harvey then looked over at Gabe. “you gabe?” He asked.
“Yeah?” gabe stood kinda stiff with his answer.
“Aight, treat our little tiny princess well okay?” he smiled at gabe.
Joce came up and punched Harvey right in the stomach. “I’d worry more about you than him!” she huffed and put her hands on her hips.
Harvey hunched over a bit from the impact, “sorry Joe, didnt mean it like that.”
“Good!” she huffed proudly. “We’re all happy you guys came though, we hope you enjoy the show.”
“Of course, we’re all excited to see you preform.” Val smiled and came up to me, “we need to go find a seat let you guys set up?”
“Yeah might be a good idea.” I looked at my phone and back down at Val.
“Alright.” he got up on his toes and hugged me tightly, “good luck!” and he let me go and left with the others.
Joce, Des, Harvey and Asher all stood there and stared at me with wide looks trying not to smile. “What!? Go get set up you dorks!” We got everything prepped on stage and ready to go.
We don’t talk much as a band before, during or after our shows. Hell we dont even have a band name yet since we haven’t really thought about it. We just kinda roll with it and all have fun together. The Lethal apple was fairly busy tonight too which was good for us. Not a lot of people paid much mind to us when we got on stage minus Val and the group, they looked up when they heard us come on.
“Some legends are told, some turn to dust or gold. But you will remember me, remember me for centuries.” we opened up with Centuries and the chitter chattering came to a stop when we started playing and i started singing.
I dont know why but tonight's performance felt way more fun and special to me, and i think it was because of everyone coming to support us. We weren’t all close at all, but the fact that Val had friends who’d come to support us, that Joce meet Gabe and that made Kane yori and him come along, really meant a lot, even if i wasnt close to anyone of them. I kept looking over at Val who looked so amazed by it all and he’d lean into Karim and whisper something to him. Yori and Gabe looked pretty amazed by it all too, i could tell that Gabe was mostly watching Jocelyne as she stood on the other side of Desirae, with me in the middle, Asher to my right and Harvey behind us. Aj and Kane were the only two who kinda rocked to the music, both of them had their hands up briefly with their thumb, index and pinkie fingers up in the rock symbol.
We performed until closing time for the Lethal Apple. The others waited outside for us to finish moving shit around or into our cars. When we finished moving things around we met up with the others huddled around the cars.
“Sup dudes.” I raised a hand and walked closer to them. “Enjoy the show?”
“It was great!” Val beamed happily and bounced on his toes a bit.
“Thanks cupcake.” I ruffled his hair up a bit. “Ready to head home guys?” I looked back at the group of my heathens.
“Yeah, i gotta get back to my dorm, my roommates are probably waiting for me.” Asher pulled out his phone, “yeah i lied, they are waiting and are spamming my phone. So i’ll see you guys later.”
“Bye Asher!” we waved him off and watched him leave. Harvey and Desirae left soon after Asher did.
“Do i need to take you home again Gabe?” Joce poked Gabe’s side playfully.
“Uuuh.” He blushed red and looked at Kane.
Kane started doing that same giggling from the gym earlier today. “Yori get in the truck, we’re leaving gabe with the lady.” Kane started pushing on Yori who held his place and leaned back into Kane.
“We aren’t leaving him a second time!” Yori laughed, “unless he wants us too.” he had a wicked looking smirk on his face. Kane’s giggling stopped for a moment before he started giggling uncontrollably loud.
Everyone minus gabe, started to laugh because of Kane’s giggling. “Dude why do you giggle so much?” I asked and put my hands on Kane’s shoulders.
“I dun-hehehe-fuck if i know!” he started laughing harder now and put his face against Yori’s back and turned away so none of us could see his face.
“It was fun guys, but Karim and i need to head home.” Aj spoke and pointed at my car and waited for it to unlock before grabing his things. “I need to make sure my cat didnt eat Karim’s bird or he isnt loud cat crying waiting for us to come home.” He put his jacket on and gloves, then his helmet and got on the bike, turning it on and walking it out of the spot and waiting for Karim.
“It was, thanks for inviting us.” Karim smiled at me then gave Val a hug and whispered something to him before putting his gear on and getting on the back of the bike. “Bye everyone!” He waved and Aj held up a hand before taking off with Karim.
“Gabe, decide if you’re riding with us or the lady friend.” Kane yelled at Gabe as he got into his truck and turning the engine on.
“Ummm, a, I’ll go with Joce, I wanna hang out a bit.” he mumbled softly and smiled at Joce.
“PARTY TIME!” Joce bounced in her spot and threw her arms up.
“Alright man, Joce, i dont care when you bring him home, just bring him back to us at some point.” Kane laughed and waved a hand before getting tackled over by Yori.
“In one piece please!” then he leaned off of Kane and back into the passenger side.
“Will do i promise!” Joce wrapped her arms around Gabe’s arm.
I motioned for Val to hope in the car before getting in the driver’s side. “Joce, have fun with Gabe, but use a condom okay?” i laughed and slammed the door closed before she could pull me out of it.
“Fuck you adrian! I hope you choke on a dick!” she yelled before dragging gabe off to her car.
I laughed to myself and turned to look at Val who was hunched over trying not to laugh and having his head on his lap. “Cmon cupcake, seatbelt on we’re going to find me a dick to choke on.” I patted his back.
Val instantly made a loud spit like noise and started laughing into his hands still hunched over onto his lap.
“You okay man?! Are you choking on your dick?!” i started laughing harder and put my head down on the steering wheel and turned away so i wasnt looking at Val’s trembling shoulders with laughter.
“NOOO!” his voice squeaked out through his giggling fit.
“No you aren’t choking on your dick or no you arent okay?!” I looked back over at him and he was turned away from me.
He wheezed a bit before looking at me, “I’m not choking on my dick, but I could also not be okay.” he ran his hand under his eyes to wipe away the bit of tears he had forming.
“Are you okay man? Do you need CPR? I know cpr or do you want me to leave you alone?” I asked as i tried to calm down from laughing, “also are you flexible enough to suck yourself off cuz thats hot.” i smiled at him, trying not to laugh again.
He giggled lightly before speaking, “I am flexible enough to do that yes, if you didn’t see me bending over from laughing so hard.” his face turned a light shade of pink and he looked away from me for a second then back to me.
I stared at him with wide eyes, my mouth dropping from the smile. I blinked slowly at him for a bit. My mouth started to twitch up into a wide smile but i was trying my hardest not to smile at that comment. Eventually my mouth won and i had a stupid smile on my face before scrunching my nose and making a snorting noise.I stared at val like he had made the noise first and he stared at me with wide eyes. I ended up snorting again before covering my mouth and nose and looking away to start laughing. “You didnt hear that!”
Val smacked the dashboard before leaning back over on himself and giggling uncontrollably as well. “That was adorable.”
“Shut up!” I yelled and let out a loud whine trying to calm myself down, “I have a headache from laughing so hard now, ohmygod.” I sighed and pulled on my face.
“Im sorry.” Val giggled and fanned himself, “are we homebound or finding you a dick to suck on.” He started to giggle louder midway through his sentence.
“NOPE, we’re going home!” I turned the car on and backed out of the lot, heading back to the dorms. The ride was mainly silent with the occasional giggle from Val or me, and the the sound of us smacking each other a bit to make the laughing stop.
When we got to our building, Val hopped out first and waited for me. I put my body against him and pushed him toward the stairs, bumping my knees into the back of his to make him go. We made it up the stairs in one piece thankfully. When we got into the apartment, Aero was sitting on the floor with Demyan pinned under here and was cleaning him yet again.
“Oh god aero, do you like demmy that much?” Val asked Aero who looked up at him and meowed softly.
“Let him go princess, you dont know where he’s been and what he’s been in.” I bent down and tried to get aero off of Demyan. She whined sadly and demyan scuttled away from her and got under a table. “Cmere buddy, i wont let the portable body heater get you.” i stuck my hand under the table and demyan crawled into my palm. Holding him gently i got off the floor. “Do we need to discipline your cat?” I turned to look at Val who picked up Aero.
He looked down at her and scratched her fluffy white face.“There’s always a reason why she does something. Maybe she didn’t like the smell on him?”
I put demyan’s little body up to my nose and sniffed him, “yeah you need a bath little man I’ll be out in like two minutes.” Demyan squawked loudly at me and i put both my hands around him and walked to the bathroom. I got demyan clean pretty fast and he smelled so much better now. Grabbing a soft hand towel, i walked back to the living area where Val was sitting with aero.
I plopped down beside him while i dried off Demyan. We talked about the performance and he told me what he thought about hearing me sing and how the others had fun too. We both eventually passed out on the sofa from today’s show and all of the laughing that we did before we got home.
I woke up to the sound of birds chirping really fucking loud by one of the windows. My head was tilted back and when i picked my head up it cracked loudly.rolling my head around i looked to my right to see if val was still on the sofa. He was but the first thing i saw was his ass.Looking down at my lap, Val had his head on my thighs and was curled up on the sofa beside me. I put my hand on his thigh and slowly dragged my fingers down the length of his thigh before gently patting on his ass, “Cupcake, time to wake up.”
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