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imnotfinebutimfine · 8 months

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Shout-out to @amtrak-official for letting me travel quickly & cheaply so I could affordably take this small picture of Hozier without paying for parking

#he is so shaped in this image #i got zero (0) good pictures of him but thats ok bc i had a good time #and i didnt have to drive home after when i was exhausted #thank you amtrak for saving me lots of money #parking was $90 ?!#a few of the other ppl there were taking the train & we were all complaining about the parking price

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paralien · 2 months

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maybe if I just tell myself that i love my job then I'll love my job and stop crying in the kitchen

#fanya.txt #the crying is unrelated to my job and related instead to me having been triggered by B yesterday #pro: i didnt cry when i came home but saved it for work the next day so im technically being paid to feel upset rn so.#i am however exhausted and pushing through a headache rn and i just hate doing kitchen cleanup bc it takes HOURS #HOOOUURRS #and thats annoying #also im gonna be busy all evening after work so :(( no time for stardew valley #im done at 15 and then after that im gonna look at a car w gramps and soph #and at 19/20ish bff wanted me to drop by to hang out for a bit b4 i drive him to his overnught buss bc hes going back to england #my evening :((#its fine tho its cool im just being a genuine baby abt it #ill get to relax once im done at work sunday evening bc then i uh. dont have work for a few weeks .........

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lovsome · 7 months

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venting :-) sorry

#sh tw !!#i am so tired of my mother #last time i saw my therapist i talked about how she drives me insane but still i feel so guilty for getting mad at her because i know she #has issues and literally can not reason but i get so frustrated and exhausted #she took like 9 days off of work to ‘take care of me’ (her words) after my surgery and i didnt ask her to do one thing all these days excep #help me make food and come up with stuff for me to eat bc of my diet rn and thats all #she has been doing her thing all these days like literally just sleeping on the couch and going out with her friends and going shopping and #only made me food herself once (1) in over a week #and i didnt say anything bc i know i cant say anything to her if i dont want to get her to start screaming but today i couldnt take it #i was painting all morning because i am extremely stressed and anxious to make a fucking portfolio to find some work and idk what they thin #i do in my room all day probably sleep but i dont !! im up until 1:30 am working every day even now despite having just had my jaw cut into #pieces and stitched back together #and she went out to the post office for me for a second and then spent the rest of the morning shopping and came back at 12 and had the #audacity to get mad because i hadnt made any food for myself or for anyone else yet #when i literally called her just minutes before to ask her instructions on how to prepare a certain soup for myself and she told me to wait #because she was gonna do it instead #like ???????#and when i told her i had been busy working all morning and that the whole point of her being home from work was that she said she was gonn #make stuff for me she started screaming like an insane person that i was accusing her and it wasnt fair and i was mean and rude and that sh #does EVERYTHING for me and im ungrateful #and when i say my stomach sinks to the floor every time i hear her yelling #it is ingrained into my brain #i have nightmares about her tantrums and her yelling #im so tired #and it always ends with me getting the urge to hurt myself and i want to cry but i cant because my face hurts when i cry and i am not #allowed to blow my nose bc of my surgery so im just here. swallowing all of this once again

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soraphic · 7 months

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plug!connie who go to war for his lady + some smut at the end💁🏽‍♀️

𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐥𝐞𝐫 (𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐭. 𝐬𝐰𝐚𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐞 & 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐟 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐟) — 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐭𝐭.

before you had time to process the movement around you connie had him pressed against the wall,one hand pressed flat beside his head as he levelled with him,ears steaming and a nasty mug. (the other guy,who had been previously feeling you up on the dance floor at some dingy house party you had been dragged to by sasha) tried to speak,but connie quickly cut him off by guiding a hand between them to press against a hard outline in his sweat pocket. "you feel that?" he closed his fist,forcing the other guys fingers to wrap around the heavy barrel of the object,watching his eyes widen and his breath shallow. "yea,you know what that is. back the fuck up,cabrón."

(the other guy) was rendered speechless,mouth open and closing dryly with a humiliating look on his face. "I—,,I—"

"I—..I—.." you winced as your boyfriend mocked the poor guy with a faux frown on his face,an inked hand coming up to grasp the boy's face. "what? you gon' try tell me it was an accident?"

by this point people were staring,and you suddenly felt embarrassment course through you. you gently tugged on your boyfriend's sleeve,stalling hopefully enough time for you to be able to convince him to leave before he took the situation too far.

"con,let's go,just leave it,i'm tired." you tried,but his eyes didn't leave the asshole in front of him,arm tensing as he tried to shrug you off.

"nah,'ion think he learned his lesson yet."

you sighed heavily,giving a slight roll of your eyes toward ony and eren,who were quietly watching everything unfold. ony had a hard look on his face,arms crossed tightly against his chest and unmoving as he watched connie with narrowed eyes. eren,on the other hand,had his hands hanging loosely in his pockets and a taunting grin on his face,clearly enjoying the entertainment for the night,and slightly proud of connie for giving the dick what he deserves for touching you. you motioned your head toward connie,silently asking them to do something. but neither of them budged,eren letting an airy chuckle pass his lips with a shake of his head.

"connie,let's just fucking go,he's not worth it."

"i already fuckin' told you,ma,i ain't movin'!" he snapped,irritated with your constant interference. he was doing this for you,so why were you so insistent on helping this mamahuevo?

"go wait in the car,princesa." he nodded over his shoulder at you,but his gaze still locked in front of him.

you obliged with another dramatic roll of your eyes,barging past a crowd of people to the door. you were too exhausted to fight him on it,deciding to just let him handle it and blow off whatever steam he needed so that he could come back your sweet,doting boyfriend after.

the car shook slightly as he threw himself into the drivers seat,inspecting the blood staining his knuckles to pinpoint whether it was his or the other guy's.

you sat there with a sour expression on your face,glaring out the window and refusing to look at him as he leaned over the back seat to grab a cloth and clean himself off.

"what?" he snapped,"what's with the face?"

you didn't answer him.

"aight,it's like that,then." he grumbled before starting the car.

the drive home had been silent,both of you exhausted and ready to crash.

you were now laying atop the black sheets of his lavish bed,fingers running along the edge of his large t-shirt he had thrown at you,muttering something about - 'since i know you gon' complain' - before hopping in the shower.

part of you wished you hadn't even gone back to his place,feeling sick with guilt. you don't know exactly what he did to the guy,you didnt want to ask,but you knew whatever it was connie must have fucked him up good.

when you heard the sounds of the shower shutting off,you told yourself you were going to act mad,readying yourself by rolling over with your back to the door.

you heard the thuds of his feet grow closer before you sensed his presence stop at the door,grunting when he noticed you were still giving him silent treatment.

a heavy hand came down to smack against your ass,making you jump and shoot him a nasty glare over your shoulder.

"move over,fat butt."

you didn't budge,until you felt the sting of another slap making you roll to get away from the assault.

he slipped into bed,pulling the covers right out from under you to then throw over your figure while he wrapped a tatted arm around your waist to pull you across nearly half the bed to snuggle into his chest. you huffed,defiantly wiggling your hips in an attempt to show him how pissed off you were,you didn't want to cuddle tonight. but he simply squeezed you in warning,grumbling and burying his nose in your neck - "stop fuckin' movin'."

you refused,struggling to slide out of his tight grip on you. you were met with another slap to your ass,cheek stinging with the force of it,much harder than the other ones. he soothed the burn slightly with a rub,gripping your mushy cheek between his fingers and kissing at your shoulder. "i told yo ass stop fuckin' movin'. don't play wit' me."

you debated telling him to fuck off,but the feeling of him pressed against you,putting you in your place was too arousing to try crawl away once more. so you stayed put this time,instead rubbing your hips backward to appease him as he gripped up your hip,placing wet,open-mouthed kisses down your spine.

"your dick hard,perv." you deadpanned,making him chuckle into your skin,smoothing his lips over the intricate lettering tattooed into your back.

"you the one backing yo' shit up."

"you pulled me."

another laugh,"yea,guess i did."

he travelled back up to press his lips against the tip of your ear,running his tongue along the ridge before pressing another,much softer,kiss to the fat of your cheek. "so you gon' come sit on it? help papi out?"

"in your dreams!" you scoffed,knowing damn well you'd be creaming all up on it later.

"ahh— con! 's too much!"

"you a big girl,you can take it." the smack of his swollen balls against your ass had you reeling,practically choking on your own spit as you clawed at his beautiful decorated chest,swirls of red and black clouding your vision while his broad figure leaned right over you. you were being folded in half,knees pressed right up to your chest,blocking your feeble attempts at pushing him away.

the boom of the speaker on his dresser and the pungent smell of weed had you feeling faint,the tip of his dick abusing your sore cervix.:(

"stop fuckin' whinin',actin' like a lil girl." he demanded with a slap to your puffy clit,making you cry out.

he switched positions,dropping your legs and letting the burn of your sore muscles subside for a moment,leaning down to rest his forearms against either side of your head,feeding you his dick in much more fluid strokes rather than a violent pounding.

"mm— 'm not.." you brought two hands to grip at the flesh of his ass,feeling the muscles contract within your palms with each push into you. his brows furrowed,bringing an arm up to grip against the headboard,foreign curses falling from his parted lips.

you laughed lightly,eyes heavy-lidded and a goofy grin spread across your face. "i can tell when you gonna cum,connie.. stop actin' all tuff.. "

soraphic 2k23 — please do not copy, repost or translate any of my works on other platforms: i do not tolerate them at all.

#𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐬𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬!₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊#plug!connie #plug!connie smut #plug!eren #attack on titan #aot

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oscpaistry · 1 year

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| walking in on Kylian touching himself |

! Warning : moaning, groaning, filthy !

It was a busy day for you meanwhile Kylian was at home probably watching tv or sleeping. It was 4:40 PM and just got off work. You needed to go get groceries. You went to the shops and got everything. You texted Kylian if he needed something but he didnt answer as usual. Finally back in your car you put some music on and sing your lungs out. After a long day of doing everything without a break was exhausting. The only thing you wanted to do was lay next to Kylian and sleep. You drive up your driveway and park your car. You sit in your car enjoying the silence for a few minutes. You get out of your car and get your groceries from the trunk. Bags in one hand and keys in the other hand. Struggling to open the door. You get in your house, put your groceries down and exhale deeply. First you take off your shoes, then get some water and chug it down.

Half way of chugging your glass of water down you hear Kylian making noise. You choke on your water hearing him. It were sounds of... Pleasure? Hearing him moan made your heart drop to your stomach. Your feet were ice cold. Thoughts flooded through your mind thinking he was bored of you and was fucking some other chick. You put your glass of water down and slowly went up to see what he was doing. You go to the room were the moans and groans escaped from. The guestroom. Fuck. You stand infront of the door and carefully opening the door to see who hes fucking. What? Your eyes widened and your mouth feel open seeing Kylian doing that you would never expect to walk into. He was touching himself.

Fully naked, legs spread wide open, head rested against the headboard, eyes screwed closed, moans, groans and curse words escaping his mouth, one hand on his shaft and the other gripping the sheets beneath him. "Oh Y/n please" you hear him moan. That hole in your stomach transformed into a knot and feeling yourself getting turned on how hes close and moaning your name. You feel that known warm feeling between your legs. You watch in awe how hes almost cuming. His hand going faster then before. With one flick in the wrist he stops and strokes slowly. Toes curled. Again he goes fast. You see his fist going pale. Him clenching his other fist around his shaft trying to come. "Mhh pleaseee" you hear him whine. Making yourself feel unbearably good. You had a huge kink when he moaned or groaned. Then something snapped in him and went as fast as he could. Breathing fast, sweating, cursing and bucking his hips into his hand. Then white ropes of come spilled all over his beautiful abs. He moans your name one more time and relaxes. His cock twitching on his stomach. Theres still come coming out. He trys to get his breathing under control.

"That was amazing to see Kylian." You say while opening the door more. Standing against the door frame. Arms crossed and a grin in your face.

Kylian's head shoots up and sees you grinning at him. "Depuis combien de temps êtes-vous là à me regarder me toucher?" (How long have you been here watching me touch myself?)

"15 minutes, mon beau garçon." (my pretty boy) You say while walking in the room and sitting next to him.

He smiles at you.

You see his face getting a bit red from embarrassment.

You cup his face and kiss him. You get onto his lap.

"let me show you something!" You grind on him. Hes already a moaning mess.

I made this in 20min😍 My tiktok is @virgilcentral

#football smut #kylian imagines #kylian x reader #kylian mbappe #kyliansmut

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cloudytaemin · 1 year

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taemin as ur boyfriend <3

just some 2 am taemin thoughts, enjoy. damn hes sexy in that photo though aughhhh

bullet point syle since i am way too tired to write something out, sorry y/n-nies :[

taemin's home after ten too many days of working, a sigh escaping him as he makes his way to the bedroom

you already knew hed be exhausted so you started the bath and threw in some salts and oils that you knew he liked

you peck him on the cheek and he hugs you tightly

he wants to kiss you deeper but knows that you arent expecting it so he waits

you look up at him and tell him about the bath you prepared and he grins

of course, he's taemin, so once you get into the bathroom he starts to strip and asks you to join him

hes the type to let you sit on his cock in the bath while he pretends to be unaffected by how dangerously hot he thinks you are

once you slip in on the other side of the bath he frowns and tells you to come sit with him

so of course he pulls you between his legs on his side of the bath

and starts kissing down your neck, nibbling on your skin

you can't reach his cock so you move your hips back and forth to get him aroused, but the joke is on you

because taemin had been growing since he asked you to get in with him

and once he saw you it was game over for him, he needed it then and there and he knew it

his hand reaches forward and he runs his fingers up and down your folds, he knows exactly what he's doing

his thumb finds its way onto your clit where he rubs it back and forth quickly, and your hips buck in return

he tells you to turn around and you quickly oblige, feeling his cock rub against your heat in the water of the tub

you raise yourself up to take him in

but you dont realize that despite how tired he is he really cant control himself when it comes to you

so of course he's going to fuck you like he always does

long and hard, hes going to make you squirt around him until you feel like you cant anymore

if anyone knows how many rounds you can go its him

hell make you feel like you never want today to end

and hes such a slut for your lips

not to say you arent for his

but hes addicted to kissing, its all he ever does, even when hes moaning loud enough for the floor below him to hear he'll have his lips locked on yours because he can never get enough

but not to mention the way his muscles tense while hes fucking into you

you could swear they get even better

and his back while youre running your hands all over him

the waves and taut feeling of his back

those damned dancer muscles making an impression on you

once he finally thinks hes exhausted enough

and the bath water is starting to get dirty

hell wash himself, and then you, because what kind of man would he be if he made you wash up yourself after he used you like a toy

and taemins such a soft boy so after he fucks you until you feel like moving is impossible hell dress you in a pair of his sweatpants

and one of his favorite shirts, maybe he'd even let you wear his boxers to bed instead of pants

but no matter what he's end up sticking his hands under them anyway to feel your bare skin

he swears he couldnt sleep without it

even though he does every day he's away for preparing for comebacks

even if hes gone at one am hed make sure to come home at least once to check on you while you were asleep

just to see your face because he missed you

and sometimes he wakes you up to give you some kisses (even if it evolved into more most of the time)

always coming back to his schedule with his makeup from the last location all screwed up

hair tousled and lips swollen

thank god he didnt wear any of the official outfits off set

but when hes in bed he cant drift off without one more kissing session, and some more touching

because who would he be if he wasnt a religiously guilty sex-driving machine that ended up not being very sex driven at all?

unless he was, when he wanted to be

but, alas, when he didnt want to be he would make you breakfast

and shower when he woke up, to keep his pristine skin and hair from falling out

he needs another kiss when you wake up

how else would he keep the smile on his face

he hates working when he cant bring you

but when he can its usually to concerts

nobody else knows why he looks at one section for the whole concert except for you

and you blush every time he sings want and wont stop looking at you in the eyes, yes he knows what hes doing

he always tries to get you backstage afterwards

but you reject him since you know the media will catch you

and then youd become more than the cover up that you visit him so much because youre his housekeeper

what kind of housekeeper goes backstage at concerts to see him afterwards

some housekeeper that must be

he'll get impatient after a while though and end up in your hotel room even though euisu said no

all tangled in covers with you

infatuated by your beauty, tracing shapes all over your skin and giving you infinite amounts of kisses

hes such a cheesy little shit

but both of you know thats how it goes even if hes looking at you telling you that hes your toy in the middle of a concert

taemin always says i love you

because its all he ever thinks about

his mind is you you you

and maybe some kkoong too

because he always cuddles up with her

and starts vlives when youre in the other room

one too many times youve wondered who hes talking to and almost blew it

and hell apologize after for not warning you

but we all know hes going to do it again

because thats just how he is

in his stupid, lovable, little shit form that he is

and you love every part of him because of it

even when you fight

hes always first to apologize but expects an apology in return

because hes not the only one who did wrong

but of course he forgives quickly

and ends up kissing you

and making you an omelet or kimchi stew

because he is lovable, lovable taemin, whom you can never take your mind or eyes off of, even when you try

yall that was so cute for me to write my brain is melting in cute taemin rn, i hope you enjoyed this. its my first time writing in bullets though so i hope its okay TT

~ ryse

#taemin fanfic #taemin smut #taemin x reader #taemin imagine #taemin scenarios #shinee fanfic #shinee x reader #shinee smut

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lingeringdesires505 · 4 days

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maybe its for the best

rin itoshi x reader

angst

rin can’t stop blaming himself, he knows hes at fault, that hes the reason the two of you had broken up. rin’s life mainly revolved around soccer, until he met you. all his life, his only goal was to beat his brother, itoshi sae, and show him how he too could be good at soccer. little did he know, he would be so caught up in his obsession with competing against his brother would ruin a relationship he had cherished so much.

28 April, 10.58 p.m.

The night you two broke up, it was after one of his late night trainings. despite being tired and burnt out, he still stayed back after training, pushing himself to his limit, in hopes that his skill would be up to par with his brother’s.

you laid in your shared bed with him, wondering when he would come home. his soccer training should have ended at 9 p.m., yet he was still not home. seeing the clock almost striking 11, you became more and more worried about your lover. you had sent him multiple texts, but none were read.

“he must be staying back after training again,” you thought to yourself. despite the constant reminders not to overexert himself, and that he should rest more, rin never listened to you. he would either brush you off, saying it was no big deal and that he wasnt tired, or just ignore you. you understood that he was feeling lots of stress especially with the upcoming soccer match, but you just couldnt stand there and see him destroy himself like this. it certainly wasnt healthy and beneficial for his physical or mental health.

as you reached the stadium, you saw a familiar figure doing his routines.

“rin! ive been worried about you. its already 11 p.m., you should come home and rest!” you called out to him as you ran towards him.

“ just a few more minutes…im almost done. after im done, we can go home, okay? “ he said without looking back to you.

as much as you wanted to let him finish, you could already tell he was extremely tired. the sweat running down his forehead and muscles, the heavy panting that you knew all to well — he was already pushing his limits, if you were to let him continue, he might over exhaust himself, doing more harm than good to his body.

“ rinnie, please, youre at your limit already, please just stop! youre going to hurt yourself at this rate! “ you begged him to stop, but he wouldnt listen. tears started to well up in your eyes as you grew more and more anxious, why wouldnt he just stop hurting himself like this and listen to you?

it wasnt long before rin snapped.

“do you really think im that weak?! besides, what i do to my own body is none of your business! youre just another obstacle in the way of my success, just leave me alone you lukewarm piece of shit, god damn it!” he shouted, his eyes filled with anger as he finally looked over to you.

that was when he realised he fucked up.

his heart ached as he saw hot tears streaming down your red cheeks. no, wait, he didnt mean it!

“please baby, wait, i didnt mean it. im so sorry i said that, please..” he immediately stopped what he was doing to run towards you, forcefully hugging you, frantically apologising.

you didnt say anything. you couldnt say anything. you were in disbelief — the man that you had loved with all your heart, the man that you cared for so deeply, wanted you to leave him alone? was this truly the way he felt about you? just an obstacle? a lukewarm piece of shit?

“baby please, i didnt mean any of that… its all my fault, i know you want the best for me. forgive me please… please, say something!” this time, rin was the one of the verge of tears.

“so that’s how you feel about me?… you want me to leave you alone?…” you managed to stutter out, trying hard not to start bawling on the spot. how could he say something so hurtful?

“fine. if that’s how you want it, dont contact me ever again rin, it’s over between us.”

you ran back to your car before rin could react and slammed the door shut, driving off to your shared apartment to pack your things and move out. you weren’t just angry, you were upset.

you couldnt believe this was how your relationship with rin was going to end. you always thought of rin as someone you would continue to love and care for, someone you would grow old with.

that night, rin laid on the grass in the stadium, looking up at the night sky, head filled with regrets, heart aching.

present

was it really worth it? rin always asked himself. sure, he managed to show to his brother that his soccer skills were excellent, but that didnt make him happy. in fact, after the two of you had broken up, nothing made him happy. how could he be happy without you? he was struggling to even live a day without you.

rin would spend countless sleepless nights scrolling through his photo gallery, looking at photos you had forced him to take with you. the poor man couldnt even sleep without your scent. he would often try and find old articles of clothing you had left behind around the house — it was the only way he could sleep, with your scent.

he would spend many hours training, even if there wasnt any upcoming matches. he was desperate to find any sort of distraction to distract himself from thinking about you.

some nights after training, he prayed that you would still be there outside the stadium, waiting to drive him home. he prayed that he could see you again, hear your sweet voice and hearty laugh again. he was so desperate to hear your voice again, he didnt care if he had to hear your nagging or your complaints, he just needed to hear you again, to see that pretty face of yours.

rin always thought about how foolish he was. before he met you, he felt that unfortunate things always happened to him. he always thought about how terrible and unlucky his life was. that was until he met you. you were like a blessing from heaven, an angel that came and brightened up his dull, lukewarm life. he wished he had known how to appreciate you earlier. if only he had opened his eyes and see how much you had loved and cared for him.

it feels like torture scrolling through your instagram page, seeing you move in with your new boyfriend, seeing you have dinner dates with him. he knows your new boyfriend treats you way better than he ever did, and he feels happy that your being taken good care of, but deep down, his heart was being ripped into shreds. it felt so wrong, but he couldnt stand the thought of you laughing, or smiling for another man. you were already moving on with life, getting ready to marry your boyfriend, and there was nothing he could do about it.

rin accepted that he could never be at peace with himself, especially since he had fucked up the only good thing in his life. it was too late for regrets, the only thing he could do now was make sure that you were safe and happy from afar.

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mythicalmyles · 2 years

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masky? breeding, bondage, masochism kinks

Prison au

(Name) let out a laugh, leaning against one of the prisoners cells. He was always kind, usually getting close to some. He wouldn’t deny some of it was selfish, he figured if he showed everyone kindness he could be spared in a possible riot. He couldn’t deny it was his biggest fear as a guard, he wasn’t that big. Most of the inmates dwarfed him.

He preferred to learn about people and he knew a few could be jailed for simple mistakes. Sometimes desperation can drive people insane, he could get it having grown up ass broke. He never let his guard down, he may have empathy but he wasn’t stupid. There were murders who did it for fun, not that he really had to interact much. He couldn’t deny he was glad for it though.

He let out a sigh as his eyes flicked to the clock. “Have fun, boss.” The inmate laughed, waving him off. “Oh I’m sure i will.” He called back. He quickly made his way up the stairs and lightly jogged over to the double doors that led to the D block. Luckily he was just in the med bay today, didn’t mean something couldn’t kick off but it was rarer than checking in on some of them.

He flopped into a chair at a desk opposite of the nurse, her tired old eyes flicking to him. She forced a small exhausted smile, (Name) felt bad for her. She had to deal with some at their absolute worst, she wasn’t really mean but she was very strict. She had childrens at home and was usually tired by the time her shift started. It was why some of the guards had decided to accommodate her. They’d drop in and look after things while she slept for a while, they all had basic training and the prison couldn’t afford another employee. (Name) had gotten the job purely because he’d timed his application right and they had been desperate for another guard.

(Name) was sure the prison was held together with rubber bands at this point, most of the time it was freezing and the lights went out so often everyone had stopped complaining. (Name) leaned back in his chair, watching Arina stand and head through the back to sleep.

It wasnt long after two guards came in with a beaten prisoner, his blue eyes were set in a cold hard glare aimed at the floor. His eyebrows were furrowed and the corner of his lips were turned down. (Name) couldn’t find an ounce of humanity in the man, he looked a ball hair away from snapping someones neck. Luckily he was handcuffed and he was not so gracefully pushed onto the bed by two guards who left without a word. (Name) rolled his eyes, turning to the prisoner

“What happened?” He questioned pulling out a book. “Why’s a guard playing nurse? Then again, looking at you i doubt you’re good for much else.” The smugness in his voice made (Names) eye twitch. He cleared his voice and repeated himself, not letting the prisoner get to him too much.

“I got jumped by some other inmates.” He shrugged, throwing himself over the bed to lie down. (Names) chest twinged, he hated when people ganged up on one. “Im sorry.” (Name) spoke, he didn’t catch Tims eyes shooting to him as he began cleaning up his arm cuts. (Name) wasnt too surprised when he didnt react to the antiseptic spray he used, not a lot of inmates did.

Luckily it was scratches, he was lucky his attackers didn’t have shivs. (Name) didnt doubt he’d have some bruises soon too, he had patches of red swollen skin. “What’s your name?” (Name) questioned, putting bandages on the few deep scratch wounds be had ended up with. “Tim.” (Name) nodded, quickly patching the inmate up and moving to fill out some paperwork.

When (Name) finally found the paperwork after what felt like five minutes of searching. He victoriously softly whispered an ‘Aha!’ As he threw his arms up, before he’d had a thought his wrists were gripped and he was shoved onto the desk and cuffed.

Tim gripped (Names) hips, yanking hum back into his chest before spinning him around. Time couldn’t deny he relished in the shock on the cops face. “You really reallly shouldn’t turn your back on a murderer.” Tim laughed, stopping when (Name) barley even flinched. (Name) thought for a few moments, he knew the guy was murderer now but what kind was all he could think about. He wondered if it was self defence or cold blooded, it could be either and he could just be desperate for escape. A hand gripping his jaw pulled him from his thoughts. Tims eyebrows were furrowed, he wasn’t getting a kick from this. It wasn’t fun if they weren’t pissing their pants in fear. He tilted his head at (Name), Tim licked his lips when he saw (Names) pupils dilate.

Tim smirked as he unbuttoned the guards shirt, grinning at the fact (Name) didn’t have an under shirt on. Not that he could blame him with how hot it was. (Name) barley moved a muscle, eyes watching Tim unbutton him. Tim flattened his hand against (Names) chest, dragging against his nipples as Tims hands moved down his body. (Name) moaned and pushed into Tims hands. “Whore.” Tim laughed as (Name) glared at him. Just as (Name) was going to shoot back Tim grabbed his cock, (Name) jolted back in shock.

Tim didn’t stop there, he ground his hand onto (Names) cock causing him to let out deeper breaths. Tim didn’t play with him long, he quickly ripped down (Names) pants after undoing his fly. Tim yanked (Name) forward by the hips, turning him around again and this time bending him over the desk. Tim left him as he walked straight to a cupboard by the sink, where they always kept the lube for rectal examinations.

Tim quickly made his way back and lubed up his fingers, he wasted no time in pushing two of his digits into the guards hole. “So whats your name?” Tim questioned as he quickly fucked his digits into (Names) ass, (Name) was quick to moan and apparently too slow to answer as Tim’s hand soon made sharp contact with his ass. (Name) let out a choked moan and arched his back, Tim couldn’t resist and landed another two smacks.

(Name) choked his name out inbetween moans, his teeth biting hard on his lip. He’d kick himself if he woke up Arina. (Name) had to choke back hard when Tim added a third finger, his hole burned slightly but he relished in it. Tim slapped his ass five more times before pulling out his fingers, yet again he pulled (Name) around, this time sitting him on the desk. (Name) let out a loud choked moan out behind Tims hand, luckily he was quick to quiet down the guard as Tim pushed his cock into him.

Tim looked into (Names) eyes as they rolled back, he couldn’t help himself and he pressed his lips to the guards. Quick to push his tongue into (names) mouth and explore. (Name) kissed back just as hard moaning into Tims mouth as he was bounced on his cock. (Name) wished Tim had cuffed his hands infront so he could have at least held into his neck.

Tim pulled him off of the desk due to the rattling, using his strength to keep bouncing the guard on his cock as he bit and marked his neck. (Name) felt Time bite hard enough to make him bleed, he bit the junction between (Names) neck and collar. (Name) let out a small squeal as he bit and rolled his lips together.

(Name) wished be could let go, he wanted to moan loudly. He was loosing his composure and he was loosing it quick, every time Tim slammed his cock into (Name) he saw stars and felt dizzy. “You’re so tight pretty boy.” (Name) arched into Tim’s chest begging for more as the other gripped him tightly, it wasn’t long before (Name) couldn’t hold back and Tim quickly covered his mouth as he arched and let out a loud moan.

“I’m gonna stuff this little hole full of my cum, everyone here is gonna know how much of a little whore you are.” Tim’s thrusts hit harder and (Names) eyes rolled back, moaning into his palm. “God you probably want to be bred don’t you slut.”

“I don’t mind, ill stuff you full and breed you up.” He came all over Tims orange jumpsuit, Tim not handling the tightness quickly followed after. Tim flopped forwards, pushing (Name) against. Tim lazily ground his cock into (Name) who weakly moaned, looking at Tim confused. “I wasn’t kidding when i told you i was breeding you.” Tim grinned and pressed his lips to (Names).

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xuanzangg · 9 months

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modern au. ages up to 20+. fluff, fluff, fluff, comfort!!

"suguru." you called out for him, lying down on a mattress on your shared apartment suite's living room. you noticed that your lover has been tired, stressed and burnt out from work lately and you wanted to make him feel better.

this leads to you setting up a date for the two of you in a nearby lake where flowers blooms throughout the spring season, the grass cut off comfortably for a picnic.

"yes love? can i do something for you?" he replied to you and scooped you up to his arms, placing you on his lap as he sat down the couch where you were lying down earlier.

you cup his cheeks and pepper his face with kisses, "lately, i've been noticing that you've been working a little too hard so," you took a deep breath before telling him your plan, "if i remember correctly, today's your day off. with that being said, i decided that we should go somewhere. i've already prepared everything so you dont have to worry about the stuffs we'll need to bring." you smiled at him sweetly, tucking a strand of his har dangling on his hair behind his ears. his face lighted up with what you've said, "a date? now that's what i want. i've wanted to spend some time with you lately but i've been so busy with work. im glad you thought about this." he kissed your forehead, smiling at you and whispering a 'thankyou' to your ears as he wrapped his arms around you.

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an hour of driving, you two have arrived on the said location. the flowers sure are lively and beautiful today, the grass is not tall and you can definitely lay down the picnic blanket on the ground without struggle. suguru then put the basket of foods you've brought on the ground, setting up the plates, spoons, forks and water glasses along with the 66oz tumbler you brought just in case you get thirsty.

what i can say is, suguru definitely enjoyed the picnic date you had arranged for the both of you. he was happy, grateful and feeling much better than he was before.

"spending time with you at home sure is nice but going on a picnic date with you is something i didnt know i would definitely need after such a long and busy week." he then started peppering your face with damp and sweet kisses, thanking you over and over for arranging this sweet and nice date for the two of you.

when the sun started going west, you two decided that it's time to go home as it's getting darker. by the time you two got home, you both have decided to take a shower together. washing each other's hair, rubbing the sweat off of your backs and playing bubbles, being silly and happy.

cuddles and kisses were brought along as you both decided that it's time for bed. finally letting the sleepiness takes over the both of you, but before that, suguru made a comment.

"you always take good care of me."

"it's because i love you and i care for you, too much."

"it's a rotten work."

"not to me. not when it's you."

"i love you, so damn much. simply having you makes me feel like the luckiest person alive."

"i love you too, suguru. let's rest now, we have a long day ahead tomorrow."

you cupped his cheeks, kissing him gently and tenderly, whispering nice and sweet words to him as he melts in your touch.

you both sure were exhausted for the day, but that doesnt mean you're exhausted of each other. loving getou suguru will never exhaust you, not when he's the one who gives you fuel and energy to keep going.

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hallo~ lately, i've been grossly inlove with this man named Getou Suguru. i cant help but think that he'd be the sweetest and most understanding partner out there. i also think that he'll be sosososo vulnerable around his partner bc he trusts them so much.

also, credits to @/tohruh4rt on tiktok! it's a big thanks to them for insipiring me on making this one! check out their acc and vid!

#geto suguru x reader #comfort #geto suguru #getou suguru #jjk geto #jjk suguru #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen geto #jjk fluff #jjk comfort

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raincamp · 7 months

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11 03 2023

discovering that i experience pathological demand avoidance / pervasive drive for autonomy (PDA) as a symptom of my autism has been fucking life changing.

i spent all these fucking years feeling so helpless, my parents telling me that im lazy, feeling like a failure because i couldnt even graduate highschool. i didnt understand how everyone else could just sit back and waste their entire lives at the demand of someone else. how they could work 40+ hours a week and not come home so exhausted that they can't even find time to take care of themselves.

i couldn't find a justifiable reason why i was physically unable to do what everyone else has been able to "just suck it up" and suffer through. working full time, being at school full time, it was all enough to make me lose sight of why i was even alive. enough to make me have mental crises. enough that i ended up in the hospital several times.

but idk, im fine when i have control over my schedule. i was thriving during COVID when school was no longer a thing i was forced to do, but something i got to choose to do. nobody was making me sit in a building for 6 hours bored out of my mind. i got autonomy over my schedule, over my life, and i genuinely haven't been able to recreate the feeling of freedom it gave me since.

and when i was forced to go to school again, despite how easy it was, despite the fact that i barely had to do anything, the mere idea of having to sit in a classroom against my will made me burn with such rage that i made it so that i had autonomy over it. i would only come to classes i wanted to go to, which meant going to school three hours late and walking out when the class was over.

now obviously thats not how highschool works so i had to drop out. after a lovely (/s) visit to the psych ward my parents stopped giving a fuck. but then it was my choice to get a diploma/GED which i had zero problem doing, i was happy to do it even. why didnt i just sit through the last 6 months of school instead? idk, to me it felt like fucking torture.

i still feel that way, working full time. working part time even. i hate it because i want nothing more than to enjoy having a career like everyone else can. to be able to have a life outside of work, a fulfilling one even. ive never been able to do that. and it saddens me. why is it that everyone around me can find happiness in working their entire lives away but not me? why do i come home everyday wanting to die? why am i the only one who sees it as an injustice that my entire life is going to be spent at the whims of someone else's demands?

i burn with helplessness and anger and pain at the mere thought. but still i suffer through as many months as i can handle at jobs until i have enough money to last me a couple months of freedom. even though i have to sacrifice my mental stability for it. even though it means hospital visits and alcohol dependency and suicide attempts.

a perfect life for me doesn't include not working though, not working feels unfulfilling, i want to make a living for myself. i want to be financially independent. i dont even mind working 8 hours a day if i got to choose my schedule. if i could wake up one day and say "nah ill wait till 2 pm to start work today" or could start work at 7 am when i wanted, take as many days off as i wanted, which honestly wouldn't be a whole lot because i find value in productivity.

its the fact that i have to follow the demands of someone else that sucks the life out of me.

and now that i have this knowledge i can learn how to use it to accommodate my struggles instead of feeling like a fuck up

- andrew

#pda #tumblr diary #im not mentally stable #mental health awareness #capitalism #pathological demand avoidance #pervasive drive for autonomy #highschool dropout #autism #actually autistic

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bananafire11 · 5 months

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vent

please dont read if youre not in the right space rn. heavy on anger and feels. just wanna type it out somewhere and this blog is my safe space so

i am so fucking angry right now. like the kind of anger thats pent up and bubbles beneath the skin and is ready to implode out at any fucking second and i hate it so much. i dont feel like i have very good reasons for feeling this way either. or maybe im downplaying those reasons, i dunno

i dont want to bother any of my friends with this shit. i feel guilty because ik they have their OWN struggles. ik feeling this way is silly because i help them through so much, and am so glad to do so. but theres always this doubt.

anyway. on discord, i put my status on DNIUC sometimes because i just need space and ik that most of my close friends will see this and know to be careful that day. or if they text and im slow to respond, ik they understand. but theres these friends who KEEP spamming. and its driving me FUCKING MAD. one, who is very close and gosh i love them so much, sends me so much every day. youd think after the first few times i didnt respond, he'd get the fucking jist and think "ill stop there" but instead he KEEPS ON. ITS OVERWHELMING. and the subject of these texts isnt bad or anything, but its always about him and his bf. i dont have the energy to talk about them 24/7. im beyond happy for him, that hes happy. but FUCK. im asexual and never have been in a relationship, and sometimes it feels like a fuckyou to me?? ik he doesnt mean it that way at all!! but!!! idk, sometimes its like theres a longing for a bf of my own. but i dont want to settle. ill wait for the right boy. right now, hes not here. and im not actively looking for a relationship, i have so much shit going on. so, i usually ignore this guys dms as long as i can. i feel guilty, but at the same time fucking furious that i even have to do it in the first place, if that makes sense. i love him dearly, but it's forced me to just put my status on 'invisible' so it looks like im offline. better to avoid people, ig.

theres another guy, who isnt as close, but ive made great friends with thus far in the time ive met him over a game i enjoy. but again, doesnt know when to stop. why are you texting me when it says dniuc!!! YOU ARENT CLOSE. ive explained 'close' is friends ive known for a year or so, which isnt exactly true actually... but i needed to tell him something that wouldnt hurt his feelings. after i clarified for the second time, he let up. but still. people are fucking annoying and its so FRUSTRATING that i love them because that makes shit so complicated.

then, family. ive been snowed in with my mom and sister for over a fucking week and I NEED OUT. i never thought id say this but I WANT TO BE AT SCHOOL. AWAY FROM HOME. my neighbors, who are more so aunt and uncle to me and my sister, let me go over and stay hours with them when i need it. but i dont feel like trecking thru the fking snow to get there. last night i stayed over and watched a favorite movie of mine with them and it was great, but having the energy to do that feels exhausting tonight.

im trying to distract myself with art, but its not working like it normally does. and its goddamn hard. tried videogames, youtube, but nothing is bringing me true relief. but i dont want to sleep either. ugh.

vent art, anger.

#banana brain blurbs #vent post

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nonbinary-eddie-munson · 1 year

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Finals week was killing Robin. She loved college, loved that the things that made her a weirdo in highscool actually were seen as cool in college. But finals week was going to kill her. She had been pulling late nights in the library every day this week, she was exhausted and just wanted to go home after a long night of studying, only Steve platonic love of her life was late to pick her up and also not picking up his damn phone.

It was well past closing at the library so she couldnt even sit inside until he finally got here meaning she was stuck sitting on the curb and hoping she didnt get kidnapped. Robin was debating just spending the $15 she didnt have on a uber home when a presence made itself known behind her.

Robin jumped to her feet at the sound of someone clearing their throat.

"Fuck! Please dont steal me and sell my organs on the black market, my family has a history of kidney disease so stealing them really really isnt worth it" Robin blurted as she whirrled around almost losing her balance with the quick movement, her hands coming up in front of her in a defensive position only to come face to face with the cutest girl she had ever seen.

"Im sorry i didn't mean to scare you" said the girl as she brought a hand up to stifle her giggles at Robins antics "i was just wondering if you were okay? Its pretty late and i didnt want to leave you out here without checking"

Robin pressed a hand to her chest taking in deep breaths to try and calm her racing heart. "Yeah im okay, my roomate is late picking me up but i think i might just uber home, dont wanna keep sitting out here until someone decides to come steal me and my organs" Robin replied with an awkward laugh "unless of course the uber driver moonlights as an organ stealer then i guess im out a genetically sub-par kidney".

The girl laughed for real this time not bothering to stifle it behind her hand as she smiled at Robin brightly.

"Your name is Robin right? I'm Chrissy, i work in the library part time I've seen you working late every night this week" the girl- Chrissy- said "i could give you a ride home if you want?"

"Oh no i couldnt ask you to do that" Robin replied waving her hands around for emphasis

"Please? I'd feel awful leaving you out here this late, I promise not to steal and sell your kidneys, especially since i know now that i wont make enough off them to cover tuition" Chrissy joked, smiling at Robin brightly.

'I'd give you both my kidneys and my heart if you just keep smiling at me like that' Robin thought, her brain going all fuzzy under the force that was a beautiful girl like Chrissy smiling at her like that.

"If you let me drive you home you can keep your kidneys but maybe we could talk about you giving me your heart over coffee once finals are over?" Chrissy said her smile somehow getting brighter

"Oh god i said that out loud didnt i?" Robin said burying her face in her hands, mortified.

"That you did, now come on im parked over this way" Chrissy said extending a hand out to Robin "we wouldnt want someone to steal your heart and kidneys before we can get that coffee"

"No" Robin replied, removing her hands from her face and reaching out to take Chrissys warm hand in her own "we definitely wouldn't want that"

#finals are killing me so i decided theyre also killing robin #she and I both deserve some fluff though so chrissy is here to save the day #steve accidentally fell asleep after his shift which is why he didnt pick up robin. i think he'll be forgivin though #since robin is getting a date out of it #and a girlfriend bc the date is gonna go amazing #steve is 100% gonna take credit for thwm getring together in his best man speech #anyways this was inspired by my own late night at the library #buckingham #buckingham fic #robin buckley #chrissy cunningham #goodnight beloveds i am exhausted #buckingham ficlet #stranger things ficlet

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safetycar-restart · 6 months

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The marc reply is still making me so happy, it was fabulous!!!!!!

So trying to recreate my Fabio ask.

That bike sucked. That season was no fun.

So in a ds au Fabio would probably have needed to chill a bit (I mean hes already started training for next season full on), but that man who runs a lot and very fast probably needs to be very very exhausted to chill.

So how would his dom exhaust him? Not sure your limit but think Fabio would probably enjoy some pain. Not bondage when hes this jittery, that comes later.

But like edging, perhaps remote controlled vibe, perhaps sensation play? Spanking or flogging? And then all the orgams until Fabio is dried out and relaxed, perhaps a bubble bath and can then be bundled into his favorite hoddie and be all cuddly with his dom.

Also ds au with Marc and Fabio together or with a dom were you interested in that? Cannot remember or find.

Hope all is well on your end <3

Cheers 🏍 anon

oh my god yes. Firstly, I'm so glad you liked my sub!Marc!! I absolutely adore writing for motogp (lads if you like motogp... send me some thoughts and I will answer them embarrassingly quickly I am so gone for the two wheeled vroom vroom). And I love these thoughts so much!!

So firstly, yeah poor fabio is so pent up after the season!! My immediate thought was maybe that after the season ends, you planned to spend a few weeks away from each other just enjoying some downtime. Because you're still just his team dom by this point, so all your time with him is technically working, and you deserve some time off from managing fabio.

Except.. except fabio only manages three days before he's calling you in tears because he can't relax!! He thought being at home with his close friends and getting to have some fun and sleep in and just enjoy himself would work but it didnt. He's still just as tired and stressed and worked up as he was when the season ended AND now on top of that he also misses his dom!!

Just poor fabio crying on the phone with you because it turns out that no, he can't go a few weeks without you. He knows you deserve time off, but your relationship hasn't been strictly professional for months now, so you can't expect him to suddenly stop viewing you as more than just a team dom.

Needless to say, you leave your holidays to go to him, promising your friends and family that you'll be back soon (and realistically that you'll be back with fabio because you're almost certain he won't be leaving your side again).

So you get to Andorra and it becomes very clear that he just desperately needs you to completely drain him, making sure he's absolutely exhausted and then he'll be able to curl up with you and actually relax.

I think the best way to start this is actually tasks? Fabio is, of course, a very very good boy and also a very horny boy, but he's also often almost skittish? If you go straight into a sexual scene there's a high chance he'll feel exposed and scared, especially with him so wound up. You have to ease him into it.

So, after you've been attack hugged at the airport and clung to on the drive back (fabio brings tom with him just so that tom can drive and he can attempt to melt into your chest in the backseat), you start him off with simple, easy to accomplish tasks. First, you have him unpack your suitcase for you, and then you praise him when he's done, kissing his cheek and calling him the best boy. He starts to get all giggly and soft, beginning to fall back into that soft, subby headspace where you can properly wreck him.

Then, you have him a run bath for you and while you bath, he's in charge of making lunch (something very simple that he couldnt possibly mess up, to ensure you'll be able to praise him after). And then, of course, you hand feed him lunch while he kneels for you.

By the time lunch is finished, you've got him right where you want him, all soft and subby and half hard because he hasn't been taken care of in a while.

It's so so easy to let him curl up in your arms and push his sweats down enough free his cock. That's how he gets his first orgasm, spilling over your hand and whining against your neck, shaking in your arms because it's so overwhelmingly good and he hasn't felt so safe and so good since the season ended.

You take him back to the bedroom after that, and that's where the real fun begins. He needed to cum at least once first or else he wouldn't even be able to calm down enough for you to wreck him.

He's so smiley when you get him on the bed, immediately getting on his hands and knees so you can stretch him out properly. You decide to tease another orgasm out of him then, listening to how he whines and cries and how his cum drips down onto the bedsheets. His arms shake but he manages to stay on his hands and knees, because he's a very good boy and he listens very closely to all his instructions.

That's when you start spanking him, giving him a pillow to hold onto and then making sure his ass is nice and red. You spank him until he's sobbing in the pillow, his body shaking as he cries into the pillow because it hurts so much but feels so good and he's so deep in subspace and this is exactly what he's been needing.

You push him as far as you can, until he's about to collapse and then stop spanking him. The moment you tell him the spanking is over, he falls face down into the bed, completely spent.

Then, you settle down against the headboard and gather him into your arms, ignoring how he hisses in pain when his ass brushes against the bed until he's once again sideways on your lap. Then he gets one more soft hand job, this time you praise him the entire time, encouraging him to cry as much as he needs to. He sobs into your neck, feeling so good and so safe and also so overwhelmed. All his pent up anger and frustration dissipates entirely.

He's in subspace for two days after that, just a happy subby thing curled up with you and finally getting the rest he needs.

(Sidenote: I would love to do poly!Marc/fabio in the d/s au and I have a couple thoughts, especially around the idea that fabio introduces Marc to his dom because he can see how much Marc needs a kind caring dom to lean on)

#sub!fabio #fq #nsfw.#gn!reader #soft soft vibes #d/s au #🏍

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exporius · 2 months

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Solars tired body climbed the metal ladder with vigor, his breaths labored from the events before. Their body-bloody, bruised, broken, was rightfully exhausted. He gave an agonizing groan as he felt the wood of the platform dig into a wound in her chest. Eclipse stared up at the frustrated human, his plastic brows furrowing.

"Let us help." He suggested in that caring and gentle voice, the audio obscured by another set of voices. It sounded sorta like sun and moon..

The animatronic, though in worse condition than solar, lifted his metal arm up and placed his hand under their shoe. Solar flinched a little, but it soon accepted the help from his friend. The effort it took eclipse to push him up and above the platform was little to none.

"Oh-! Thank you, hun." The technician smiled; the kind of smile that can make anyone melt (especially the daycare attendant.) She didnt know it, but those little words were enough to make the animatronic get all warm and fuzzy inside. Unable to find his words, eclipse only responded with a strained smile. He would've said more, but right now wasn't the best time- so he just pulled himself up onto the platform, using solars arm to assist.

Solar sighed as he looked towards the hole in the glass; the same hole he had crawled through to even get inside this wretched place. They were almost out, just needed to get to the truck and drive home.

"We're almost there!" She spoke enthusiastically, hoping to brighten eclipses mood. It was something sun did when he noticed solar wasn't feeling the best, he was always good at distractions.

"You doin bette-"

"Solar~!"

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Finally drawing out lore for my Somniphobia au, but its a little later in the universe after ruin😭

I really just wanted to draw angst since i needa cope. Ive been having nightmares hella recently(moon fnaf save me) so ive been thinkin abt my nightmare-ridden oc a lot.

Eto ang part 2

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf dca #sketch #traditional art #sun and moon fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #dca fandom #own au #dca somniphobia au #comic #why do i draw on lined paper #eclipse fnaf

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humandisastersquad · 1 year

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like. putting aside that i have multiple conditions that make driving a living nightmare (anxiety, autism, ADHD, heck even my joints act up from being in certain positions while driving), i just. Never really had the time/right conditions to progress much on my licence.

i turned 16 in the midst of my final year of high school where i had to basically put all my energy into getting through that year without Exploding from stress between school and my toxic fucked up family situation. mum was working full time and too tired to take me driving, i was Terrified of my father and we couldn't afford to buy driving lessons. then pretty much after i finished school i had to help pack and clean everything for selling the house since my parents Finally fuckign got divorced, get ready for uni and pack my stuff to move into on-campus accommodation etc and both parents were at peak emotional explosiveness. then i moved two hours away from home and while i did come and visit mum's during uni break and would do some driving, the gaps btwn each time grew wider, esp when i graduated and started working where i didnt get extended periods of time off. even during this degree i've barely been able to go down and do some driving bc of covid lockdowns and restrictions during the first two years and then just sheer exhaustion from full time placement eating into my uni breaks. and now i honestly dont know if i'll ever be able to get my licence when i start working full time unless i find a job near mum and live with her for a while but even then i might be just Too Wiped Out from full time work to be able to anyway.

#like i honestly just Cannot See myself ever being confident enough to drive by myself #and yeah sure in the past i never saw myself working such a customer/patient job involving talking to strangers all day #but im even having doubts about that despite graduating in like 6mths lol #god i wish my brain and everything wasnt so fucked up #just wish i could actually Function like the average person can without tearing myself to pieces to accomplish the bare minimum #holy personal post batman

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nonbinary-sticks-the-badger · 4 months

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ummm errr heres my NiGHTS playlist

tbf its just meant to be songs that feel magical and NiGHTS was the best character i thought i could assign to a playlist of that theme but whatever. explanations under cut

1. Gate of Your Dream SEGA SOUND TEAM

hurrrr hurrr NiGHTS into dreams song fits NiGHTS' character

2. Peaceful Moment SEGA SOUND TEAM

yeah this is pretty magic and from NiGHTS hurrrr

3. Fragmented Nights SEGA SOUND TEAM

guess the explanation

4. Introduced Dream SEGA SOUND TEAM

hmmmmmmmmm

5. Paternal Horn SEGA SOUND TEAM

ummmm

6. After The Dream SEGA SOUND TEAM

see 1 - 5

7. Star Light Zone Masato Nakamura

THE STAGE TAKES PLACE WITH STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY!!! LIKE NiGHTS!!! AND ALSO IS SONIC TEAM!!!

8. Special Stage (Sonic 1) Masato Nakamura

mysterious and surreal... some may say dreamlike... and also sonic team

9. Duel in Dream SEGA SOUND TEAM

like the first one but instead of NiGHTS into dreams its journey of dreams

10. Peaceful Moment SEGA SOUND TEAM

if i include the NiD version i may as well include the JoD version. i didnt do this with gate of your dream because the JoD version sounds so bad

11. Merry Memory Go Round SEGA SOUND TEAM

this is getting exhausting

12. Eloquent Echo: River Rescue SEGA SOUND TEAM

do you hear the flibberty jibberty jibber jabber with an 'oh my god ive gotta get out of here or ill have another word to sell another story to tell another time piece ringing the bell' do you hear the clocks stop when you reach the end no you know it must be neverending comprehend if you can but when you try to pretend to understand you resemble a fool although youre only a man so give it up and smile

13. Dreams Dreams - Located Link Mix (Instrumental) SEGA SOUND TEAM

see 9 - 12

14. Collision Chaos - "G" Mix SEGA SOUND TEAM

yeah this feels like NiGHTS

15. Tidal Tempest - "G" Mix SEGA SOUND TEAM

these are also obviously sonic team, yeah, you get it

16. Zone Clear SEGA SOUND TEAM

TELEPORTATION YEAH! ZIBITTY BUP-BUP!

17. Sky Chase Zone Masato Nakamura

i think you get the point

18. Special Stage (Sonic 2) - Demo Masato Nakamura

i recently got into the sonic 1&2 demos. some of them are bangers, such as this one

19. Special Stage (Sonic 1) - Demo Masato Nakamura

see above, with the additional bonus of me adding the mega drive version before

20. Vanilla Jack Stauber

FINALLY!!! FINALLY!!! A SONG I CAN ACTUALLY EXPLAIN BECAUSE IT ISNT NiGHTS OR SONIC!!!

and i just realised its instrumental. great. if it helps, its sort of like a lullaby.

21. dancing around in circles until my little feet fall off spellcasting

WOOHOO!!! SILLY CLOWN MUSIC!!! LIKE NiGHTS!!!!

22. Dream Sweet in Sea Major Miracle Musical

alooooooooooone

i think less about the lyrics and more about the fact this sounds vaguely magic and a little christmassy (because, yk, christmas NiD)???

23. A Lady Tally Hall

idk its kinda calm ig. if you ignore the 'lady' bit (although NiGHTS probably wouldnt mind being called that) i suppose you could say theyre good and evil? idk

24. 13 Tally Hall

i probably should have added ruler of everything afterwards but idk why i feel i shouldnt

25. Spring Yard Zone Masato Nakamura

this is my favourite stage in sonic 1!!! so much so that i made up loads of lore about it having homes just so that i could make an oc be from there!!! anyway yeah the usual. its sonic team. sounds vaguely magical.

26. Temptation Stairway (Waltz Variation) Metaroom

when i got into ena temptation stairway was the latest episode, or really anything to do with ena. maybe the first teaser for dream bbq was out??? before we knew it was a game??? idk. point is, ena is absolutely bafflingly surreal, and i could sort of imagine this in a NiGHTS game. sonic team please contact metaroom for any future NiGHTS projects please please please 🙏🙏🙏

27. Fancam RYL0, Aron Enoch

the lyrics dont fit even slightly ❤️ but it sounds cute

28. Theme of "CHAO" SEGA SOUND TEAM

this is such a silly happy song from a game that references NiGHTS! also ive literally gone bankrupt from buying stuff in the chao garden black market in sadx lol

29. Isle Unto Thyself Miracle Musical

to me, this DEFINITELY fits the magical theme, as well as the sensation of flying. i have absolutely no idea what any of the lyrics mean.

30. Black Rainbows Miracle Musical

it also feels kinda magical and follows isle unto thyself

31. White Ball Miracle Musical

see above only less because it feels magical and more because it follows black rainbows. i didnt add murders because that's definitely a stretch to say it fits NiGHTS

#not sonic #nights into dreams #my playlists!!!#Spotify

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