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celestialiron · 1 month
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@wulferson
HERE'S TO A WAR YOU'VE STARTED UNTIL WE SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN
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tbzhours · 2 years
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this is how you fall in love
sangyeon x you, established relationship, fluff, comfort
[summary] wednesday becomes your favorite day of the week  [words] 1k
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The past month has been the most tiring ever for you. You were overloaded with work, family events happened weekend by weekend, and you were seeing Sangyeon less. He wasn’t concerned about that. Rather, he had worries in his eyes when he heard you sigh through the phone. Even your short meet-ups made it hard for him to let you go. 
Luckily it’s Wednesday, the day you’d have less work to do. You came home less stressed than any other day, knowing Sangyeon would be there at your place. It’s becoming a thing actually: Sangyeon coming over and just spending the night with you. His presence was already a comfort to you when he opened your front door with the biggest smile on his face. 
“Hey.” He greeted you, wrapping his arms around you so you could snuggle against him. A kiss on your forehead, he asked, “How are you feeling?” 
“Cozy.” You smiled and he knew he had won your heart at that moment. 
“Come inside.” Sangyeon pulled you in as he closed the door behind him. 
In your living room, Sangyeon had set up some dinner and snacks with the start of a movie paused on the screen, and  blankets on the couch with just the end table lamps on. When you said cozy earlier, you didn’t expect it to be exactly this cozy. 
“I’ll make you a cup of tea while you put your things away, yeah?” Sangyeon side-hugged you, rubbing your arm. You held onto his hand from there as you nodded then he softly kissed your smile. 
Your cheeks burned up but you definitely weren’t blushing. “Thanks, I’ll be right back.”
When you came back, his back was facing you from the kitchen. You rubbed your sleeves together as it felt funny to be in sweats while he’s wearing jeans with a white long sleeve shirt with a few buttons opened from the neck, revealing his chest a little. 
He was brewing your tea, pulling the teabag up and down multiple times from the cup. You wanted to laugh because the teabag is supposed to be sitting in the cup. 
Sangyeon noticed you as you walked up and stood next to him. He had a hand in his pocket and you slipped your hand behind his wrist, pulling it out before you folded your hands together. He softly chuckled, “What are you doing?” 
“Nothing. I just want to be with you.” You confessed. You looked at the teacup and a tiny smile formed on your lips. 
“Thank you for being honest.” He pulled the teabag out and set it aside. He turned to you and announced, “Your tea is ready, made with plenty of love.” 
Sangyeon felt shy as he laughed with you. He grabbed your cup and you both headed to the couch. The movie played and you both ate dinner together. Sangyeon was affectionate, sometimes you didn’t even realize when he placed some food onto your plate or wiped food that had gotten on your face. When you realized though, you thanked him and made sure he had enough too. 
The movie was still going when you both cleaned up the table. After throwing them away and Sangyeon went to wipe the table, you were getting a slice of bread out from the loaf of bread bag in a cabinet from the kitchen. He was wondering why you weren’t coming back and glanced over as his lips beamed. 
“I’m craving toast.” You called from the kitchen. “Do you want some?” 
Toast was one of your most comforting foods to eat. It reminds you of the morning, like the smell of fresh coffee. It’s actually cozy too, like Sangyeon. Maybe that’s how it came to be. 
“Yes, I’ll eat with you.” He said back. 
He was finishing up as he watched you wait for your toast. You smiled over your shoulder at how nice it sounded to have someone want to eat with you. You wondered if that was how Sangyeon had felt earlier. 
Cuddling after sharing comfortable silences and toasts with your empty plates on the table, your conversation took over the movie dialogues. 
“Are you falling asleep?” Sangyeon asked, his hand patting against your stomach while your back was attached to his chest. You hummed, eyes closed but he peeked over and his voice woke you up. “Do you wanna call in tomorrow?”
You could almost whine when you frowned at him. “They need me.” 
“What do you need though?” He asked genuinely. His frown looked lovely. His hand caressed your cheek, a touch of comfort that could convince you to call in. 
You hummed, thinking first before you answered, “You?”
Sangyeon smiled. He didn’t expect you to respond like that as his heart blushed. He nodded and before he pressed a long peck onto your warm cheek, he added to your  answer, “Rest and possibly a pinch of me, yes.” 
You laughed and turned to escape when his playful kisses became too much to handle. After a short fight, you settled into his tight cuddle where your noses could almost touch. 
Sangyeon was staring at you with such adoration, you could almost faint. 
“I love you, Sangyeon, and thank you.” You whispered the words you could never say enough of, your heart full of love and appreciation. Your opened hand pressed against his shirt, a gesture folded into your words. 
Sangyeon smiled softly, knowing how true you meant. He lost himself in your eyes and moved in to kiss your lips. “I love you too.” 
You mirrored his smile before he kissed you again because one was never enough. This time, you chuckled. 
“Get some sleep.” He moved up so you could lean onto his chest. He rubbed your back and whispered, “Good night, love.” 
“Good night, Sangyeon.” You closed your eyes and sighed softly. 
Sangyeon could read the sound of your breath and he’s glad it wasn’t a stressful kind. He believed that you can finish the week strong as long as he’s with you. Soon, he closed his eyes and before you fell into a deep sleep, you swore you felt his kiss on your forehead. 
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fruityfourgalore · 2 years
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platonic stobin + cozy by the fire for the spooky szn fic prompts!!
friend, i hope you enjoy this! its more of a drabble than a fic, but i wanted to finally get it to you because if i stare at it any longer i am going to hit select all and delete it
Halloween fell on a Friday night in 1986. Steve is glad. Halloweens that fell on weekend nights were better than any other night. When he was a child it meant sleeping in after eating too much candy. When he was a teenager it meant sleeping in because he was hungover. 
Robin, Steve, Nancy, Eddie, Argyle, and Jonathan were all around the crackling, cozy fire in Steve’s backyard. The air is a crisp 62 degrees and the kids are in Steve’s living room sleeping off a candy coma. Robin could hear one of them snoring loudly and the static noise from the television saying their movie had ended. 
Steve reaches over to the bag of candy in Robin’s lap (she stole it from Mike, haha!) and digs around looking for something specific. “Where’s the Kit-Kats!” Steve mutters. 
“In my tummy,” Robin whispers and then giggles. 
Steve looks over at her with an expression of betrayal. “You ate them? All?” He whispers. 
“They are delicious.” 
Steve pouts. 
“Oh, oops, wrong verb tense.” Robin pats her belly. “Were. They were so delicious.” Steve gives her his bitchiest bitch face and she snorts a giggle. 
“Rude,” Steve mutters and looks at Eddie asleep on his shoulder. Robin readjusts her position and accidentally, but softly, elbows his ribs. “Ouch! Hey, Robs, you gotta move your legs, my thigh is falling asleep,” Steve says and Robin’s elbow nudges his ribs, a bit too hard. “Ow!” 
“Are you saying I am too heavy?” 
“No, I am saying my thigh is falling asleep,” Steve grunts as he tries to move his left leg out from under Robin’s legs, but it is useless. He takes one last drag of the blunt Eddie rolled for them and snubs it out on the armrest of the couch. 
“I can’t move my legs because Nance is sleeping.” Robin reaches down and twirls some of Nancy’s hair around her finger. Nancy was the first to fall asleep, sitting on one of the ottomans, her legs laid across part of the patio couch and were currently being used as a pillow for Argyle and Jonathan. 
Jonathan and Argyle are also snoring softly to the right of Robin. The two of them are cuddled up against each other on the second patio couch. Argyle is apparently the small spoon in that relationship. Robin thought it was cute. 
Honestly, all six of them are disgustingly adorable. If Robin wasn’t so in love with Nance and had her and Steve never worked at Scoops, it was the kind of dynamic she would judge so hard. No way would she be the King of Hawkins High’s best “platonic soulmate” friend who is now annoyingly in love with an almost thrice convicted murderer metal head, while madly in love with said platonic soulmate’s ex-high school sweetheart Nancy Wheeler who used to date loner Johnathan Byers who is now dating the most adorable pothead from Cali. But, here she was. And here they all were. Tangled up together but spread across two patio chairs and a patio couch. 
Robin would give all the Kit-Kats in the world to whoever understood that string of words. 
“I think we should go as the Scooby gang next year.” Robin says to Steve. 
“Oh!” Steve picks out a Kit-Kat Robin must have missed and unwraps it. “The Scooby gang? Why?” He breaks one stick off and hands it down to Robin. 
Robin takes it and plops it in her mouth. Chewing, she answers. “Because, look at us.” She motions around them. “We are so codependent and, I mean, we do solve crimes. Argyle even drives us around in his van when Eddie’s van is in the shop.” She chuckles. 
Steve drops his head back and looks at the cloudy night sky. “Who would I be?” 
“Fred, obviously. I’m Thelma. Nance is Daphne.” 
“Eds would be Shaggy or would Jonathan be Shaggy?” Steve twirls his fingers through Eddie’s hair. 
“Jonathan would be Shaggy.” She giggled. “His hair looks identical to Shaggy.” 
“Okay, so then, what? Eddie is Scooby? Who’s Argyle going to be?” 
Robin thought about it for a moment. “Hmmm, Eddie is Scooby, Argyle is… the van! His van looks more like the Mystery Machine than Eddie’s.” 
Steve’s laugh pulled his head back in an upright position. He looked down at Eddie and smiled. He wasn’t sure if Eddie would sign off on dressing up as a dog, but they had a whole year to convince him. “So, that mean you’re the Thelma to my Fred, Robs?” He dropped the mostly empty, mostly full of empty wrappers, candy bag on the grass and reached to tousle Robin’s hair. 
“I mean, duh,” She looked over her shoulder at him and pressed her finger to his nose. “Boop!”
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briankang · 1 year
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sorry but I needed to send this to you directly :/
(<3 u)
HELLO...............HELLEOOGE???????????????????? GOOD MORNGING??????????????????????????
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endusviolence · 2 months
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Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?
I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?
In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".
Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.
This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.
Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.
The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.
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[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]
There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.
This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.
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[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]
As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.
But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?
Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.
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gohjuo · 2 months
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👀 this may be the funniest thing ever listen
send 👀 to walk in on my muse naked
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FIGHTS COULD BE MESSY THINGS, the metallic taste of blood in his mouth & the feeling of the skin along his knuckles ripping was surging through his body. it was nothing compared to the other guys. however, there's a part of him that enjoys these kinds of moments, it was riding the high of a TALL WAVE, unsurmountable emotions that tell him the thrill of violence. he lives on this like fumes emitting from cars. his back is against ace as they continue their plummet into bodies being strewn out on the floor.
thirty minutes later, they find themselves at gojo's place away from the crowd of eyes that would spare more glances at them. for one, he's a little too hungry & he didn't feel like going anywhere else. ❛let me know what you pick, fire head. ❜ it was a list of nicknames for the raven haired male that gojo had come up with, but he had given ace the rights to figure out dinner. he takes a moment to rip off the black compression shirt letting it hit the floor. there's nothing wrong with the unspoken comfortability that gojo finds himself with the other. the white haired male enjoys how unsuspecting most people are when it comes to his physique, he would rather everyone underestimate him despite everything. his biceps have more muscle due to the intense training he had gone through while his toned body reveals the start of a v-line. ❛ if you need anything, i'll be in my bathroom. ❜
regardless of how much he likes a fight, he doesn't like the sweat & blood that stains his body. not that he was an honorable person to begin with, he despises all that meaning in good & evil. without another word, he strips out of the rest of his clothes. gojo takes the moment to take a glance at the mirror admire the way whatever higher power blessed him. he's about to start running the shower when the door props open & reveals to the other male his naked glory. gojo was nothing more but clean shaven & endowed to back up all the ego that he has. never mind the slight curvature of his dick.
❛ oh? did you finally decide what you wanted for dinner? ❜ there's a smirk that follows his cut lip. ❛ if you wanted something else on the menu all you had to do was ask. ❜ he's teasing naturally before he elaborates further. gojo sees no shame between any of this. he was never one to be nervous but he was caught off guard. the situation doesn't have to be anymore than it needs to be.
❛ you saw the show, are you staying for the meal? ❜
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aarchimedes · 3 months
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for context: I read the hobbit first over the course of two years when I was like 13, but I'm only now starting to read lotr. having a blast tho!
anyways, reblog if you feel like it 🙌🏻
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wu-does-art · 3 months
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thinking about Nico adjusting to letting himself miss and long for the people he loves. based on these bits from the sun and the star:
" As Nico and Will followed the trogs, he thought about how much he missed Hazel. He was learning to make peace with that feeling. It was okay for him to miss people because that meant he wanted them around in his life. That idea was *very* new for him- he was used to either pushing people away or watching them recoil from his presence." *
" That was the most surreal thing of all... Was he happy? Nico wasn't very familiar with the sensation, but he couldn't deny that he felt wonderful in Will's presence. He even longed for the son of Apollo when they were apart. A funny thing had happened as the two grew closer: Nico suddenly understood all those cheesy, sappy love songs he'd always hated."
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twinstxrs · 1 month
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idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.
#riz gukgak#gorgug thistlespring#fantasy high#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#these kids are all so self-sacrificing but i do think riz gorgug are the most clear (& juxtaposed) self-sacrificers#riz will mentally tear himself to pieces and get lost in cases and take on ungodly levels of stress for those he loves#gorgug will use himself as a human shield. he will take hit after hit if it means his friends are okay.#and they’d both do the other thing too. riz would let himself get hit for gorgug. gorgug would pull all nighters & take stress for riz.#even if mechanically they can’t or it wouldn’t make sense. they would if they could.#also#the starstruck barry mechanic of being a guard is so gorgug. it’s soooo gorgug like that’s literally him#anyways love this tall green guy & this short green guy so much#especially because gorgug is tall & considered intimidating but protective in a deeply kind way#while riz is short & underestimated but protective in a deeply vicious way (affectionate)#i hope this makes sense but i think riz is primarily ‘i would kill for you’ & gorgug is primarily ‘i would die for you’ maybe#this does not mean gorgug would not kill for riz or riz would not die for gorgug. they both would.#but those are the primary ways their love manifests due to the nature of their strengths/personalities. To Me#idk this is all just me saying stuff when i should be sleeping 😭#sorry if i missed a riz gorgug moment in the main post btw i’m tired
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raepliica · 10 months
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Heartbeat
[image description: A grayscale Trigun comic featuring Vash and Wolfwood.
Against a black background, child Vash floats in Ship 5, curled up and with his thumb pressed to his mouth. Heartbeat noises sound around him, and he looks at peace. The background shifts to white and shows adult Vash, sitting shirtless with his knees pulled up to his chest. The heartbeat sound continues only to be interrupted by knocking. Wolfwood, from outside the bathroom, asks, "Hey blondie! You fell asleep in there?"
The scene expands to reveal Vash sitting curled up in the bathtub, shower spraying on the back of his head. His clothes are left aimlessly on the bathroom counter and floor. From outside the bathroom, Wolfwood, shrugging of his jacket, continues, "… The sand steamer leaves at dawn tomorrow so don't take all night. I'm not waking you up gently if you're late." Vash's eyes continue to look downward, glazed and unfocused. Step sound effects and a yawn sound from outside the bathroom before Wolfwood says, "'m going to bed…". In the tub, Vash sits curled up against a dark background, before eventually lifting his head and unfurling himself as the background grows lighter.
He twists around to turn off the shower and then looks at the floor, going, "Ah." He sits, thinking, before calling out "Wolfwood?". A sleepy Wolfwood replies, "…yeah?" from offscreen. "I forgot my towel!" Vash exclaims. "Ugh, look under your change of clothes… Knew you'd forget so I left it there…" a grouchy Wolfwood replies. "Gee, thanks!" Vash replies, a cartoony doodle of him saying "so reliable!".
Vash, shirtless but with sleep pants on, opens the door, towel draped over his head, to see Wolfwood, reclining on the bed. Wolfwood's smoking and holding his rosary, lit by the light from the bathroom. Vash climbs into bed next to him, towel still around his shoulders, and rests his head on Wolfwood's chest. His eyes close and then open to see Wolfwood watching him. Vash exclaims, "Oh! It's speeding up!, and Wolfwood bonks him on the head before saying, "Get on here since ya wanna be so up close 'n personal!". The two tussle briefly and Vash laughs before Wolfwood tucks the blanket around them. Wolfwood continues to smoke as Vash curls up against his chest and listens to his heartbeat, the background turning black once again as he smiles, content. /end id]
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ofimmortal · 1 year
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ravusnightblossom asked:  A plop onto Cor's lap as Ravus takes his preferred seat. ♥
random ask || always accepting @ravusnightblossom
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arms wrapped around the others waist and goes to look at his phone, like this is a normal Tuesday afternoon for him. 
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astearisms · 8 months
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may you find peace 🌾
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izvmimi · 1 year
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This sounds fun, here is my list of favs! Atsumu, Tendou, Tsukishima, Shigaraki, Fatgum, Zeke Yeager, and Sukuna.
help this is all over the place
hmmm
ok so
i'm gonna go with your faves running the gradient of silly neutral, as it seems like their alignment runs from good to evil sort of haphazardly. they also are generally somewhat jokesters/sarcastic.
what does this mean for you?
you're very easygoing and passionate! that's an excellent trait but it also means that fights can escalate because neither of you will necessarily yield first. nothing some good makeup romance won't fix!
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sunderwight · 4 months
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Bingqiu roleswap where disciple Shen Yuan knows he's gay, and figures out that he has a big huge crush on his handsome Shizun, but also concludes nearly at once that he's not going to be drawing Luo Binghe's eye any time soon. Firstly, Luo Binghe is notoriously straight. Secondly, even if he weren't, he wouldn't go for his scrawny untalented nerd of a disciple! Shen Yuan's not bad looking, not before or after transmigrating, but he's neither a beautiful nor a hot manly man, and he assumes if Luo Binghe were into dudes he'd be into the same kinds of twunks that Shen Yuan likes. Guys on his own level, etc etc.
Plus Luo Binghe hated the original disciple Shen, and only started to warm up to the transmigrated version after Shen Yuan got injured in front of him trying to stop the other disciples on the peak from killing a small animal. For some reason, Luo Binghe brought Shen Yuan medicine. He got even nicer after Shen Yuan distracted the skinner demon by trying to convince it to take his skin instead of Luo Binghe's, and then again when Shen Yuan successfully fought off a demon invader -- though initially when Luo Binghe volunteered him for that job, he thought it was an assassination attempt. His heart was in his throat when Luo Binghe nearly took a poisoned blow for him, but luckily he reacted more quickly and got hit by the thorns instead. His heavenly demon blood took care of the poison, and he managed to convince everyone that he narrowly avoided getting cut at all.
Shen Yuan's careful not to read anything into it when Luo Binghe finds out about his, erm, uncomfortable dormitory situation and moves him into the side room, or when he completely messes up trying to make dinner and Luo Binghe takes over cooking and bans him from the kitchen (he swears he's not actually that bad at cooking, he just never had to use a kitchen without a microwave or an electric hot plate before...)
After all, it's not like Luo Binghe is cooking for him, he's just making food he likes and letting Shen Yuan eat it too! Because he's nice! He's way nicer than the book gave him credit for being, see, clearly Shen Yuan was correct in signing up for his defense squad, "top ten worst villains of all time" his ass that poll was nonsense...
Unfortunately, though, the plot's still gotta plot. Shen Yuan is heartbroken when the Immortal Alliance Conference rolls around and his shizun stabs him and throws him down into the Endless Abyss. Heartbroken, but not surprised. After all, it was always going to go this way, wasn't it?
But at least, now that it's done, he has some agency in how he reacts to it. He's changed the story enough that he doesn't need to go get revenge. Maybe Luo Binghe's still the villain of his story, maybe that was inevitable, but some heroes let the villains get away. Don't they? It's all part of that noble, breaking the cycle of abuse type stuff. He can be that kind of hero. He can let it go. As long as he avoids Luo Binghe altogether, it should be fine, right? It's not like he's obligated to turn people into human sticks. He asked the system, he's definitely not!
Technically he's not even required to conquer the demon realms. He just has to get out of the Abyss and the be sufficiently cool and/or tragic. Conquest is just one means of doing that, and not even Shen Yuan's preferred, since he doesn't exactly want to rule over anybody. Going around the demon realms beating up some jackasses and rescuing some damsels in distress and becoming sworn brothers with Shang Qinghua, one of the current demon kings, is suitable. He definitely doesn't want to marry any of the damsels he encounters (thank fuck the system lets him off the hook for that!)
But eventually he has to go back to the human world. Not only is it mandated by the system, but he also misses living there. The demonic realms are in many ways better than expected, plus a lot of the monsters are really cool, but he misses the weather and plants and the people he's more accustomed to being around.
He misses Qing Jing Peak, if he's being honest with himself. Shizun's cooking and the bamboo forest and the crisp mountain breezes, the comforts of home.
Not that he can actually go back there in specific. Of course not. If he did that, Luo Binghe would try to kill him, or else the system would try and make him kill Luo Binghe. Bad ideas all around. No, he can't go back to Qing Jing Peak, but he can go find someplace nicer than the demon realms at least. He just has to keep a low profile, which shouldn't be hard since the original goods did that even while actively scheming to kill his former master!
Except.
Everywhere he goes, suddenly Luo Binghe is also there?!
Good thing Shen Yuan thought to take a page out of the book of Luo Binghe's actual love interest, Liu Mingyan, and start wearing a veil. He just didn't want any randos who might have seen him at the Immortal Alliance Conference or on any of the other missions his shizun sent him on to recognize him. But one minute he's investigating a strange case in Jinlan City, and the next the streets are full of Huan Hua cultivators (Shen Yuan has no intention of joining them, that's the path the original took to getting revenge! He doesn't want revenge!), and then Luo Binghe and Sect Leader MBJ and Peak Lord SHL show up, and SY is ducking down alleys and hiding behind columns, just trying to stay out of the way until the lockdown on Jinlan lifts and he can leave.
Except...
Luo Binghe really isn't acting like himself?
He looks like he hasn't been eating or sleeping well. There are dark circles around his eyes, and something almost melancholy in his countenance. And he's dressed entirely in white, none of the usual Qing Jing greens and blues anywhere to be seen. Of even greater concern, he's being reckless. Shen Yuan can't stop himself from rushing out when he sees his former shizun get infected by a sower demon.
Luckily, it's been some years since the last time they saw one another. Shen Yuan's gained a few inches in height, so he's almost at eye-level with his old master now, and though he's still more slender than bulky he's picked up some totally new styles from training the demon realms. He doesn't move the same way he used to. With that, plus the veil, it's enough for him to quickly swallow back his words as he grabs Luo Binghe and quickly administers a cure for the sower infection.
Well, he has one of course. He wouldn't need it himself, heavenly demon blood and all, but his time running around playing hero in the demon realms meant he rescued a lot of humans from such fates. Which is hard to do if you don't have a cure to their afflictions, but between him and Shang Qinghua, sourcing such things was almost easy.
Luo Binghe looks at him like he's just seen a ghost. The other Cang Qiong sect members are alarmed by SY suddenly accosting one of their own and of course find him suspicious, so he runs away right after, and then he has to lose Sha Hualing's pursuit in the city.
But what else could he do? He manages to evade the system's attempts to railroad him into meeting Gongyi Xiao, avoids the rest of the Cang Qiong crowd, and drops some of the cure through the current Qian Cao peak lord's window to get the incident sorted out. Then he flees and puts a good amount of distance between himself, Jinlan City, and every righteous sect he can think of.
The only problem is that after this point, Luo Binghe is everywhere.
Any time Shen Yuan stays in one place for longer than a few days, Qing Jing disciples start turning up. Any time he takes a job hunting some cool-sounding monster or pursuing some interesting tome of knowledge, the better to satisfy the system, it seems like Luo Binghe has selected and gone after the exact same target! Which is especially annoying because back when SY was a disciple, Luo Binghe was always assigning him to do this stuff. Since when does his chronic homebody master have an interesting in six-tailed scorpion lemurs or ancient spiritual kilns?
What's weirder, though, are the rumors.
It seems like any time SY stops at some well-populated place and asks for the latest gossip, he has to hear about how the Qing Jing peak lord lost his beloved disciple during the Immortal Alliance Conference, and mourned like a widow, and now wanders the earth in search of solace for his grief. Seeking something, possibly even the ghost of his dear disciple.
What nonsense! Luo Binghe threw SY into the Abyss himself. He had to do it, it was the plot! And also his obligation as a righteous cultivator, confronted with a "dangerous" half-demon. Does it sting? Yes it stings! That's why SY wouldn't just forget it! Despite logically knowing it's pointless, is there some part of him that wishes his master would have chosen differently? That thinks he should have known that no matter what kind of power Shen Yuan had, he would never use it to hurt people recklessly, or harm innocents, or especially not harm... well. It's pointless, his blood condemned him, and if there is some part of Luo Binghe which regrets what happened, it's doubtless just that he unwittingly harbored a monster for so long.
Which is fine and Shen Yuan would leave it at that, if the guy would just let him!
But no. Instead he has to deal with Luo Binghe turning up and asking him questions, trying to get him to talk (SY has no hope of disguising his voice, if he says anything he's not even sure it won't crack as he comes perilously close to tears instead, so he just stays silent), and then asking for his name, asking if he's mute, asking about his background, his sect, his kin. Is his a righteous cultivator? Where did he get that sword? (NOT Xin Mo, thanks, he used that thing once and then tossed it back into the Abyss before the portal finished closing behind him -- he knows a poisoned chalice when he sees one, although knowing the plot twist about that sword from the novel sure helped.) Where did he learn those forms? Is he... does he have a safe place to go home to? Someone to tend his injuries? Make sure he eats his meals?
SY, of course, stays silent. But it's difficult. Not only because Luo Binghe asks, but because he still looks... bad. Sunken, sorrowful, desperate almost. Shen Yuan can't figure out if he knows or not. Maybe he's unsure, maybe he's looking for SY to give him a sign, so that he can figure him out and then flip a switch and try to finish the job he started.
That can't happen. If they fight, SY will win, and he doesn't want to hurt Luo Binghe.
But even if Luo Binghe's not a heavenly demon, he is a highly accomplished cultivator, and it seems he's got his own breaking points to reach. Eventually he corners SY and gets a hand on his veil, and for a moment SY is sure he's going to rip it off, see his face, and confront him all "I knew it was you, you twisted evil demon, you won't escape justice a second time" and he feels a deep, icy terror close around his lungs--
Luo Binghe lets go of the veil before he can lift it.
But then something even worse happens. Because Shen Yuan's handsome, peerless, noble master breaks down. He falls to his knees, begging forgiveness, sobbing, clutching at his head like he's being driven to madness.
It all spills out of him, then. How he pushed his own dearest disciple into the Abyss, which obviously SY already knew, but also how he was apparently qi-deviating the whole time, and his senses could not differentiate between one kind of demonic "threat" and another. How he realized what he'd done only after he regained his senses hours later, and rushed back to the place where the tear to the Abyss had opened, but could not find a way in after the one he lost. How he had betrayed and thrown away the only person who cared about him, and couldn't even explain that he hadn't intended to. How he would accept anything, any punishment, hatred, penance, or revenge, if only he could see his disciple's face once more.
SY is stunned.
Apparently, Luo Binghe hadn't rejected him for his demon blood?
Not only that, but beforehand, he seemed to have valued Shen Yuan a lot more than Shen Yuan would have credited.
Is it a trick? Is he lying? SY would have guessed so, would have assumed that Luo Binghe's plan was to lull him into complacency only to turn on him once he finally had confirmation. But somehow, he just... doesn't think this is an insincere display. His old master is too cool for this stuff! He has too much dignity to just throw it away on a scheme! There are other ways to get what he wants.
Even if it is a lie, Shen Yuan is tired of running. He's the hero. He won't actually lose, and if it comes to it, it's still in his hands to decide if he wants to spare Luo Binghe or not (he does, of course he does, even if this whole spiel is an act). Plus he's got a backup plant body in one of Shang Qinghua's greenhouses if all goes to shit.
He takes the veil off himself.
Luo Binghe, teary-eyed, stares at him as if his face is the most beautiful he's ever seen.
Shen Yuan nearly puts the veil back on. His cheeks heat up. Dear Shizun, aren't you an immortal master? A noble peak lord? Isn't it your calling to vanquish demons? Get up off the dirty ground right this minute! Where did your dignity go? Shen Yuan did not spend all those nights doing the laundry to watch his teacher dirty his knees for no good reason!
There's a quaver in Luo Binghe's voice as he points out that Shen Yuan was terrible at doing laundry. Luo Binghe had to redo it the day after, all the time.
Shen Yuan chides at him that he should have made one of the other disciples do it then.
Luo Binghe just laughs, and stays on the ground, until finally Shen Yuan has to physically pull him up. Muttering about how he's being ridiculous, what's he crying for, why's he been moping so much, doesn't he know that handsome face should never look so bereft? Then he realizes what he's saying and shuts his mouth, but Luo Binghe just looks happy for the first time in years. Since the Abyss. How is it possible that SY, who actually had to slog through that awful place, can still smile more than Luo Binghe, who didn't?
They're standing so close. Holding on to one another. Almost as if... as if the scene's tone is... well...
Oh what the hell!
Shen Yuan closes the last little bit of distance between them, and kisses Luo Binghe.
#svsss#scum villain's self saving system#bingqiu#long post#of course the plot probably interferes further then#turns out that while luo binghe was desperately trying to get sy back he accidentally woke up sy's father#who for this au let's say is sj instead of tlj#sj does NOT approve of this match and also hates all the righteous cultivators (and demons... and everyone mostly...)#but he is also busy trying to resurrect yqy or something#kidnaps sy like well I missed the chance to raise you and actually that's probably for the best but now I need your blood#for Reasons#luo binghe is not a fan of this turn of events#reverse holy mausoleum arc when SY is mostly unconscious except to sometimes throw out advice and LBH is dodging traps and villains#the pining-over-the-dead-shizun arc is probably AFTER the holy mausoleum and lbh self-destructs to rescue sy from sj's plans#sy refuses to accept this outcome he decided luo binghe was NOT to die he didn't need a redemption arc he was FINE sy DECIDED#but luckily they're in the holy mausoleum so sy grabs a resurrection artifact of some kind#has to spend a few years restoring and maintaining lbh's corpse before he can get the to actually work but it's fine#he's fine everything's fine he's GOING to get lbh back lbh is NOT ALLOWED TO DIE#luckily unhinged sy results in way less collateral damage than unhinged lbh#so mostly he just fights off mbj's attempts to honorably recover his shidi's body and offer him a proper burial#while camping out in the holy mausoleum and arguing with sj's detached body parts#y'know normal healthy behavior
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yourlocalabomination · 5 months
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This is Hatchetfield, People go missing everyday!
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bamsara · 1 month
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was anyone going to tell me there are fanlore pages about me and my works or did i have to find that out by myself when i tried searching for one of my tumblr posts in a google search bar
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edit: i just read through the solar lunacy one and some of the details on there are just kind of....wrong. lmao
edit: there's one for my iz fics??
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