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gurugirl · 2 years

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Gonna Make you Mine*

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Summary: Your boyfriend is involved in illegal dealings and Harry's his boss. Harry wants to make you his and your boyfriend owes Harry big time, so a proposal is made that involves you, Harry, and your boyfriend (not a threesome).

A/N: This one shot was thought up while I was waiting on a layover at the airport. 6k words

Warning: This might not be everyone's cup of tea so read at your own discretion! Smut (obviously), exhibitionism, cheating, cursing, slight violence and mentions of violence, forced voyeurism, unprotected sex, cream pie, mention of illegal dealings, 18+ only, NSFW

“Come on. You know you want it. Your pussy boyfriend isn’t treating you right. I’d worship the ground you walk on. Fuck, I already worship you and you haven’t even given me the time of day.” Harry’s speaking quietly into your ear with a hand holding onto the back of your arm to keep you from walking away from him like you normally do when he starts this up.

“Just imagine how good I’m gonna treat you when I make you mine. Hmm? I already treat you better than fuck face over there.” His other hand has come up to your waist. Harry’s standing behind you and if anyone were to see you two from the front they wouldn’t know he’s pressed into your back and holding your arm and waist. It just looks like he’s leaning over to talk to you.

“Stop, Harry. Jake is right there. He’s gonna freak out if he sees how close you’re standing when he walks over here. I don’t want a repeat of…”

Your words are cut off at Harry’s deep voice interrupting you, “What the fuck is he gonna do to me huh? He fucking works for me. He’s my bitch. And if he even dreams of doing anything to you in retaliation I’ll kill him. Why do you care so much anyway? Hmm? I know you want me. I see how you look at me, how you watch my mouth when I talk, how you never pull away from me when I touch you. Like right now. I’m pressed right up against your ass and your pressing yourself right back into me. You fucking like this.”

You gulp down your saliva and take a deep breath. The truth was you did like it. Harry really did it for you. He was attractive to you in every way that mattered, in your opinion. He was physically an absolute god. He was also extremely intelligent and aware. And to top it off, rich and powerful. And in the year you’ve known him (as long as you’ve been dating Jake), he’s been very forward with the way he felt for you. At first it was just him making crude comments about sex and what he could do to make you feel good, but then as you two got to know one another his comments and attitude toward you changed into something different, not as crude (still crude at times, though, as that was just Harry's norm). He began sending you gifts, he’d show up at your apartment when Jake was away and watch movies with you, make you dinner. Then he made it clear he wanted you. As his own girlfriend. He could be a little pushy but he never forced you to do anything.

You wanted to cave so many times but a part of you was very stubborn and you wanted to make it work with Jake (which is such a laugh now that you think about it). But you also really liked the attention from Harry at the same time (who wouldn't?). Jake wasn’t a bad boyfriend the first six months. He was all the things you really wanted. But then he started spending a lot of time away “working”. And when you found him in a lie two months ago and you threatened to break up with him he begged and apologized and you decided to give him another shot. But Harry has also been telling you for months that Jake was cheating. You didn’t believe him at first because Harry really wanted to get with you for such a long time that you sort of just dismissed it thinking he was just saying that to get you to change your mind. But now? You didn’t know what was holding you back. Another of Jake’s associates told you he was cheating too and even though you didn’t have tangible proof, you wanted out. You wanted Harry.

You sigh and press your bum back ever so slightly to feel the man behind you. He grips your waist tighter to him and drops his mouth to your ear, his lips brushing at your lobe as he speaks, “Just like that, baby. I can take you right here if you want. Right in front of everyone. I’ll just flip this skirt up over your hips, unzip my pants and fuck you right here while we watch everyone in this room. Then eventually people will start realizing what’s going on when they hear you moaning my name and they’ll all watch on as I fuck an orgasm out of you.” You turn your face an inch toward his to feel his face even closer to yours.

You let out an involuntary whimper when his lips brushed at the edge of your cheek and he rutted his hips into your ass hard enough to nudge you forward a bit. This was the first time you’d really given in to him like this. Sure you'd let him massage your shoulders, hug you a little longer than he should, kiss your forehead in parting... but never this much.

Just then Jake began to make his way over to you when he saw you standing near Harry. The closer he got he could see Harry was rather close.

“What’s up Harry?” Jake spoke loudly, trying to assert dominance. Harry stood upright and walked around your frame to stand in front of you.

“You wanna know what’s up? I’ll tell you what the fuck’s up. What’s up is that you still fucking owe me and I’m about this close,” Harry holds up his thumb and index finger about two inches apart, “to kicking your fucking ass and making you beg me for death. That’s what the fuck is up. Fucking pussy.”

Jake holds his hands up in front of himself, “Woa, woa, there. Calm down! I can pay you back. You know I’m good for it. Seriously, H. I’m just working on a few things to get the money back and I’ll have it to you before you know it. Paid with interest.”

“Oh yeah? Bout fucking time. It’s only been, what, three months?” Harry takes a few steps toward Jake and looks down at him when he’s standing a foot away, “Three. Fucking. Months. Times up, asshole. I’ve got a better idea for how you can pay me back anyway.”

Harry turns to you standing a few feet behind him and he gently nudges at your arm,”Let’s the three of us,” he then turns and motions at Jake, “go into my office. I’ve got a proposal that’ll clear your debt.”

Harry leads you and Jake into his office and he ushers you to the couch to sit down next to him. Jake is forced to sit in the arm chair across from you and Harry. Harry puts a possessive arm over your shoulder and looks down at you for a brief moment before he turns to Jake. Jake is sitting up straight as a board with his eyes on Harry and how close he’s sitting to you. Jake knows that Harry often flirts with you. He knows Harry’s gone to your apartment to keep you company and because of that, Jake’s accused you time and again of cheating on him with Harry even though you’ve never even so much as kissed Harry on the cheek (though he's kissed your forehead a few times).

Harry directs his attention to Jake first. “Now, this proposal for your debt will have to be approved by your girlfriend first. If she doesn’t want to do it then you’re fucking out of luck and then I’m gonna beat the shit out of you so you won’t be able walk out of here.”

Then Harry looks down to you and speaks as he points a finger at Jake, “I can tie him up to that chair he’s sitting in,” then he drops his hand down to his thigh, “and make him watch while I bring you to orgasm over and over again. Then he'll be cleared of his debt."

Your mouth drops open. You hadn’t expected this. You knew Harry wanted to fuck you in front of people because he’s mentioned more than once but this? He was actually proposing it to you. All the other times seemed to be in jest and you'd laughed it off.

“No fucking way, man! You’re outta your damn mind Styles! There’s no way she’s gonna agree to that? What the fuck?!” Jake is standing and as he takes a step forward Harry launches up from sitting and steps right up to Jake. He roughly grabs Jake by his shirt and shoves him back down into the arm chair.

“Sit the fuck down! You have two fucking options here you piece of shit. The first one is the one I’m offering now and it will only happen at her say so,” he gestures toward you, “and the second one leaves you as a cripple for the rest of your motherfucking life. I’d strongly recommend you stay seated so she and I can decide how to proceed. I don't care what you want, your opinion means nothing to me. You better pray to god that she wants a good dicking because that option leaves you untouched and scot free.”

Harry moves back to the couch next to you and he turns to face you. You’re still in a bit of shock at this whole thing. And what is most shocking of all to you is that you want Harry to fuck you in front of Jake. The idea is absurd but it’s kind of a turn on, honestly. Plus you’d be taking the less violent route if you did this with Harry. So a win, win. Right?

“You can say no. But I know you want to. You know this fucker is sleeping with other chicks anyway, give him a taste of his own medicine.” Harry is leaning in close to you, with his magnetic gaze pulling you in.

“What?! Since when am I cheating on her dude? That’s a lie. Don’t listen to him!” Jake stands up again and Harry stands up too, but then you get up and grab onto Harry’s forearm. Harry looks down at you in question and just as he’s about to tell you not to get in the middle you speak.

“We should tie him to the chair so he can’t keep getting out of it. I mean…” you look at the ground and bite your lip before looking back up at Harry, “since we’ll need to anyway to get his debt paid.”

Both Jake and Harry have their mouths dropped open with surprised looks on their faces. Jake speaks up and then Harry directly after.

“No you aren’t! This isn’t an option!”

“Are you serious that you want this?”

Harry brings an arm up to hold Jake away from you two as he keeps his eyes on you, Jake is struggling against Harry's hold. He really didn’t think you’d go for it. All the times he’s offered to fuck you or kiss you or anything really you’d eventually turn him down and that was when Jake was away so you had plenty of opportunities to sneak around. But now that he’s telling you he’ll fuck you in front of your boyfriend you suddenly want it? That’s wife material if he’s ever seen it.

Plus this is good news for his knuckles and the skin over his fists. He was imagining this night ending with having to get someone to remove Jake’s unconscious body from his office while he tends to his hands and knuckles. But this is a turn for the better.

Ignoring Jake you answer Harry, “I do want it. Plus this is helping him pay the debt more peacefully. Right?”

Harry’s smile is wide and his dimple is carved into his cheek. He wants to lean down and kiss you but he realizes he’s about to have plenty of time for that. First thing on the agenda is to get Jake tied to the arm chair.

Harry tells you where the cord is and the duct tape and after a short struggle between Jake and Harry, Jake was pretty easily overcome then tied and taped to the chair. For good measure Harry taped over Jake’s mouth as well.

Harry instructs you to stay on the couch as he goes to the door of his office and locks it. Jake is looking at you wide eyed and trying to speak but he can't with the tape over his mouth. You watch on as Harry nears you. He's wearing one of his expensive suits that looks so good on his broad frame. Harry's always dressed nice. You can't help it when your gaze drops to his crotch for a moment. You've always noticed the large natural bulge he sports and have imagined that he's packing under his pants. You can't wait to see what he's going to do to you.

Harry walks past Jake and gets to you on the couch and reaches out to pull you up. He inches in toward you and holds you to his body before brushing some hair behind your ears and searches your face. His gaze holds something very serious and very hungry.

"Tell me if you change your mind. You're the only one here who's of any importance to me. Okay?" Harry rubs his thumbs over your cheeks as his fingers grasp onto the sides and back of your neck. His hold is gentle.

You softly smile, already feeling exhilarated about what's to come. "Okay." You lift your hands up to his chest and smooth them around to his back to hold him closer. You've been dying to be truly kissed by him and now it's all about to happen.

Harry draws your face into his and softly places his lips onto yours. It's slow and sensual. His lips are soft and the way they wrap around your own is making you feel comforted and aroused all the same time. When you lick at his lips he deepens the kiss and you two are just standing in front of the couch and holding onto one another with gasps and moans falling from your lips. It's hot and sexy and Jake's noises are annoying but he deserves this, you think to yourself.

Harry pulls back and bumps his nose into yours, "After I'm done with you, you won't want anyone else but me, baby. I'm gonna make sure of that. I'm gonna make you mine." Harry caresses your back with his large palms and then he's moving you to sit on the couch together. He returns his mouth to yours and you two begin moaning and sipping at one another for a bit. You place your hand over his crotch where his bulge is now getting to be quite evident and Harry groans into your mouth.

Harry leans back and grasps onto your top and slides it off over your head. Once he's got your top thrown onto the floor next to Jake's feet he whines and closes his eyes as he leans down to kiss your bra covered breasts. He squishes your flesh and licks over the fabric in haste before he's undoing the clasp behind your back and your bra snaps off and falls down off of your shoulders.

"Holy shit. Holy shit." Harry whispers as he gets a good look at your bare torso. He's attaching himself once again to your breasts but this time you really feel his mouth on you. He's sucking and pinching, squeezing and nibbling. Your breasts are wetted by his tongue and mouth as Harry removes his suit jacket and drops it to the floor. He pushes at you to lie down and then he slides your skirt off of your bottom half. You're left in only a white thong that has Harry going feral. Harry stands up to remove his shirt and pants but he doesn't take his eyes off of you. Not even when Jake is mumbling something neither of you can understand.

Harry, left only in his briefs quickly gets back to you on the couch. He roughly moves his hands all over you body. From your breasts, to your tummy, your hips and thighs and then he leans down to kiss your stomach all over. He's sucking bruises into your skin and smirking with each little purple splotch he leaves behind. Harry looks up to you as he slips his fingers under the fabric of your panties to pull them down off of you.

When he's rid you of your final piece of clothing he groans and rubs over his clothed erection. Harry tosses the thong toward Jake and it lands on his lap, the soaked material sitting there for him as a reminder of what's happening if he decides to look down at his lap instead of you two.

"Gonna eat you out baby. S'that okay?" Harry looks up at you as he parts your legs for his access. One of your legs is tossed up over his shoulder and the other one he's grasping from under your thigh as he gets his face right where he wants to be.

You moan and nod, "Yes, Harry. Yes!" He lovingly strokes over your slit and spreads your arousal all over your pussy and even to the crease of your thigh. Harry wants this to be as messy as possible. He's going to ruin you. You'll never want to even so much as look at another man after this.

Harry inserts two fingers into your slick cunt and searches around for the spot he knows will make your toes curl. When you gasp and throw your head back he feels the spongy spot at the front of your walls and he begins his assault on your cunt with his lips.

Harry is like a cave man. He's grunting and sucking and slurping you up. The noises coming from you are embarrassing at first but eventually you can't hold back. It's so good. He's better than anyone you've ever been with by far. Harry teases you a bit and then goes back to doing cave-man like cunnilingus that seems to be reminiscent of someone who's starved.

Everything is wet and warm between your legs and Harry's really getting into it, so much that he's got your arousal smeared on his face all over his nose, mouth, chin, and cheeks. He spits over you, and you watch as the glob drips down to your core, while he's still pumping his long thick fingers inside of you. He presses a thumb over your clit and slips it around for a bit as he catches his breath. It's only a minute of this before he's back at it again. Slurping you up and sucking on your clit like he's eating a mango.

You begin shaking and sighing high pitched breaths. You grasp onto Harry's hair and he nuzzles into you further, creating more pressure and friction at your clit and it's creating a crackle of electricity over your thighs and tummy.

"Fuck! Harry! Oh my god... fuuuuucck... right there, right there, right there..." you're done for and Harry can tell. He doesn't stop feeding on you until he can tell he's worked you through your orgasm. You're a blubbering mess and everything is wet between your legs and on the couch beneath you. Harry really did a number on you.

Harry is standing up and removing his briefs when you open your eyes. He's not done with you yet. You glance over at Jake and he's just sitting quietly now. He knows struggling won't do any good. He has resigned himself to this fate and he knew he didn’t have a choice. He was never going to repay Harry so if this was the payment, then so be it. Probably better than getting his legs broken and beaten unconscious.

Harry kneels over you again and looks down at you. "How was that, baby? That's something I can do for you every day from now on if you want."

You swallow and squirm under him a bit and smile, still feeling a bit fucked out, "Yeah. So good." Your words come out a little shaky but it's all Harry needs from you at the moment.

"It was good, wasn't it? Could tell you were really having a good time there. Ready for me to fuck you now? Make Jake watch as I make you mine?" Harry scoffs and looks over toward Jake and shakes his head at him before looking back down to you and smiling softly. He dips down to kiss you and once again, his lips are superb. No one's ever kissed you like this and it's such a turn on.

“Mmm… smell that? Smell yourself all over me?” He presses his lips back onto yours and then gives you space to answer.

You nod at him, “Yeah.” You chuckle a little. You’re not sure why. You’re not embarrassed of your scent, but Harry is making you a little light headed.

“S’gonna be my new cologne. Gonna smear my face all over your pussy every morning when we wake up and then everyone’s gonna smell it on me and know who’s treating you right. Only me.”

His words have you keening. He’s so nasty and you love it.

Harry leans back to get a good look at you and you lean up to get a better look at him. His cock is big. He's definitely bigger than Jake. He's hung just like you knew he'd be. His thighs are strong and solid and he's so fucking hot. You know he's going to feel incredible once he gets inside of you.

"Can I fuck you raw? Your sweet little cunt is begging for my cum to be poured inside of her. I want Jake to watch it when I'm done and dripping out of you. I want him to see how I've made you mine."

You are nodding your head so fast. It all sounds so good to you. You don't even care about the consequences. You're on birth control anyway and you really want to feel him inside of you bare.

Harry narrows his gaze onto your center and closes his eyes. He's shocked that you're going along with this, it's like a dream come true for him. He's wanted you like this for so long now and he's finally getting to have you, and right in front of your pussy ass boyfriend is just the cherry on top. Of course, after this Jake's not going to be your boyfriend any more. You're going to belong to Harry.

Harry smooths a hand up over your soft thigh and bites his lip as he strokes his cock. "We're going to start off like this, okay? I'm gonna dip into you for a bit and then I'm going to switch up the position, but right now I'm desperate to be inside of you and feel you.”

Harry leans down over you and slides his cock over your slit, getting himself nice and wet with your arousal. Each glide of the tip of his cock over your clit draws a moan out of you and Harry smirks at the effect. When he finally lines up his thick tip with your little wet hole he slowly pushes himself into you. It's everything he ever imagined it to be. You're tight and warm around him. He draws himself nearly all the way out and pushes back into you excruciatingly slow and he does that for a good few minutes and you can really feel him. The way he fills you so perfectly has your mouth hung open and your eyes rolling into the back of your head. He's so deep and so big that the only thoughts you have are of Harry now.

Harry groans in ecstasy at the feeling of his bare cock gliding through your wet walls. He's pushing in as deep as he can get at this angle but he knows the next position is going to have you screaming.

Harry pulls himself out of you and then pulls you to sitting. The couch in Harry's office is a deep couch so there's a bit of space but of course, sex on a couch is a bit difficult and Harry wants to get you in a position where Jake can see Harry entering your pussy.

"Ass in the air, pointed this way, I want Jake to see this. Yes, just like that, baby. Beautiful. She's really beautiful, isn't she Jake? She feels so good too. So fucking tight and wet. I've got her completely soaking my cock. Not sure why you stepped out on this." Harry says as he rubs his palms over your ass.

You put your head down toward the cushion of the couch with your bum up. Harry climbs over you and spreads his legs so he's bent over you from behind, sort of like doggy style, but he's standing over you. Harry holds onto your hips and he enters you at this angle, where he's fucking down into you and Jake can see everything. You turn your neck a bit so you can make out Harry over you and you can see Jake's lap. Harry is hitting deep into your cunt this way and it's amazing the stamina he's got because this seems to be like a lot of work.

Harry's deep and hard thrusts are punching grunts out of you at each hit. It's so good and everything feels so fucking amazing. The sound of Harry's hips meeting yours, his balls thudding into you at each smack, the wet noise of your cunt sucking him in. You notice too that with this view of Jake's lap that he's got a boner. You can tell he's a little turned on by this. Interesting...

"How's this, baby? Is my cock making you feel good? Because your little pussy is making me lose my fucking mind." Harry is pounding away into you and you can feel yourself dripping down your thighs.

You can't make out many words because you're scrunched up to the couch and the cadence at which Harry is plunging into you is quite intense but you try your best.

"Yes. Fuuuu... Ugghhh... Feels so fucccckking goooood!" It took a lot of work to get those words out in between gasps of air. You take a hand and start rubbing at your clit but it's difficult, though you make it work. Harry's relentless pace is rocking you into the couch and you feel the gentle spring of another orgasm approaching you as you rub over your slippery clit.

Harry's moans are non stop. He's loving this angle and he could go all night like this. He's in incredible shape and he's very strong so he has no problem fucking you like this. Plus the view of your ass has him going berserk. You're so fucking pretty and you're really taking him so well.

“Fuck, baby… who does this pussy belong to? Hmm? Tell me.” A particularly sharp push into you has you yelping out. He’s so deep it aches but it makes the pleasure even more intense.

“Harry! Ahhhh! You! Fuuuck! It belongs… ahhuuuuhh… Shit. You, Harry! It’s yours, god!” He was relentless and your words were punctuated by each thrust. Spitting out a sentence was nearly impossible.

Harry groans into your ear as he leans over your back and continues rocking into you, “Baby, don’t tease me. Do you mean it? You’re pussy belongs to me?” With his slower pace now that he’s leaning over you, you’re finally able to form a sentence in answer.

“Yes, Harry. This pussy is yours. Fuck your cock makes me feel so good. Is your cock mine too?” You do your best to speak clearly and with your head turned you can see Harry’s profile while he’s fucking you.

Harry chokes out a moan before responding, “This cock is already yours, honey. Has been since the first day I laid eyes on you. Gonna treat so good. Mmm… fuck.”

You begin to unravel at his words. This was it. You and Harry were together now, there was no turning back after this. You were his. It made you dizzy how happy you were. You pushed yourself up, despite Harry’s grip on you and you turned your body slightly so you could pull Harry to your lips. As Harry continued fucking into you his lips smothered over yours and that’s all it took for your orgasm to burst through you.

You yelped and moaned loudly as Harry tried keeping his mouth over yours but it was no use. You were peeking in your second orgasm of the night and coming on Harry’s cock while his lips were on you was the most sensual thing you’d ever felt. His cock was magic and your walls pulsed around him as he continued to pump his hard prick deep into your tummy.

Harry wanted to come so bad but he had a pretty good hold of his urges and he wanted Jake to watch while he brought you to another orgasm.

Harry slowly pulled out of you and spread your cheeks to take a close look. You were fucking hot and he was on cloud 9. You turned to look at Harry and he saw your flushed cheeks and messy hair and felt like you were the prettiest thing he’d ever seen.

Harry plopped down onto the couch with his back against the back cushion, facing toward Jake. Harry dragged you over to him and sat you in his lap to straddle him.

“Can I get one more from you? Hmm? Have you just sit on me and grind over me while I’m deep inside you til you’re coming again.” He squeezed at your ass and you scooted in closer to him so your centers were pressed together.

You hold onto his shoulders and nod at him with a smile. You feel so relaxed now but you know you can come again for him. With a cock like his, and a dirty mouth like that it’s hard not to. You drop your gaze over Harry’s torso and he’s just so agonizingly sexy. From his tattoos, to the way his pectoral muscles are well shaped and defined, his hard nipples, and to the trail of sparse hairs that lead downward to his pelvis and scatter around his thick shaft.

He brings a hand up to the back of your neck and runs his fingers through the hairs on the nape of your neck and pulls your mouth to his. He still tastes and smells of you and his mouth is soft and wet on your lips. Harry moans into your mouth as you adjust yourself to bring his dick back into you. Keeping your lips on his you knee up a bit and position him at your entrance before slowly sinking down over him.

Harry throws his head back with mouth hung open and sucks in a sharp breath.

“God you feel so good like this. Want you like this all the time.” He lowers his hands back to your ass and helps you along as you rock your hips over him, seated fully into lap, and Harry bucks into you with his feet planted flat on the floor.

Your clit rubs against his pubic bone perfectly in this position, constant friction right where you need it. You moan Harry’s name and grasp harder onto his shoulders when he begins fucking up into you with more vigor. The pace is rough but it’s exactly what you need to start sliding into that fuzzy, tingly space where your orgasm begins its ascent.

“Oh my god Harry! Fuck! Oooohhhh…” your nails are digging into Harry’s flesh and it’s getting him off. He loves how it feels and looks forward to seeing the marks afterwards. Harry groans at the sight of you. As he’s bucking up into you it causes your tits to bounce. You’re beautiful and you’re his now.

“Are you my girl now? Hmm? All mine?” Harry asks with his eyes on yours.

You squeeze around him and just as you start to come you answer him, “Yes! I’m fucking yours, Harry! Fuck!” You unravel on his cock as your vision blurs, your ears begin to ring and you melt into a puddle.

Your orgasm triggers Harry’s and he releases everything he has into you. Gritting his teeth he groans and holds you down over him, pumping his hot come deep inside of you.

Jake’s view is of your ass with Harry’s balls tucked right under your pussy and his legs spread wide. It’s a lot like watching a porn except it’s his girlfriend being fucked by his boss and it pisses him off but at the same time, he’s quite aroused. The sounds you were making, how wet he could see you got, the couch hitting against the wall when Harry thrusted into you especially hard, it was all very erotic. Jake had a feeling that you’d eventually choose Harry.

When you and Harry have calmed down a little he begins to kiss you again. He’s still seated firmly inside of you, still hard as far as you can tell, and he holds onto the back of your neck, holding you close.

Soon, though, Harry’s come begins to drip out of you just a bit and Harry helps to lift you up. He angles you on his lap so your cunt is facing him and he can watch as his come drips out of your hole.

Harry grins and looks over your shoulder at Jake, “Should see this mate. Her sweet pussy is just dripping with my come. Was gonna make you watch my come dripping out of her but I think I want to keep this view to myself. Fuck. It’s beautiful.”

You roll your eyes at Harry’s comment and he smacks your outer thigh lightly with a cocky grin on his face, “Don’t roll your eyes at me. You like this shit, baby.”

After a bit of shuffling around and Harry suddenly realizing he doesn’t want Jake to look at your naked body, he’s standing in front of you to shield you as you quickly put your clothes back on at his urging.

Once the two of you are dressed and straightened out Harry takes the tape off Jake’s mouth and speaks to him.

“So, you’re debt free now. You’re lucky too, man. Wanted to hurt you. But I think this scenario works out best for everyone. You get to walk out of here on legs that work, I’m leaving with your girl, well, she’s not your girl anymore, and she’s gonna be treated like a queen from now on.”

Harry grasps your hand into his and pulls you with him as he makes for the door.

“Wait up! I’m still tied to this fucking chair! Are you gonna help?” Jake’s frantic voice stops Harry in his tracks.

“Ah, shit. I forgot man. I’ll tell Reggie to get you untied. Enjoy the rest of your evening because me and my new girlfriend sure will be.”

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just a looong ramble analysing and rethinking Rey's character and turning whatever conclusions I get to into my headcanon without changing any plot points in TFA because I don't have the energy for that....

First things first. With everything I write here and publish on my blog from now on I refuse to believe that TROS ever existed. Everyone is free to have their personal opinions as long as they don't harass or hate on anyone, and this is mine. Almost every choice in that movie has left me scarred, even up til now, 4 years after its release. I thought I can ignore it, like any other healthy human being, but - oh boy, I cannot. If you are interested in reading another ramble on that, here's the post.

Since I am writing my own take on what could happen after TLJ (you may call it a fanfiction, I'm gonna call it a fanscript since that's gonna be its format), this post serves the purpose of getting my head clear around what's the deal with Rey, analysing, and lying down a solid foundation for my WIP. The story I'm writing has barely reached the end of Act I (out of III) at the moment I am composing this commentary, and I constantly notice that I get stuck with Rey's character every time I have to think about her for different reasons I will address down below.

I will make some rewrites as I see fit and necessary along the way for her character to make sense to me. All rewrites are in Tumblr's

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This post will be linked to my AO3 fancifction as a reference for people to understand how I treat her character as soon as that one will be finished... *clears her throat* ...ANYWAY-

Let's have a look at Rey, shall we?

Rey's introduction.

When we first meet Rey, there is already a lot we get to learn about her. She's a scavenger. On a pretty much deserted desert planet. Water and food are scarce. She gathers parts during the day to sell them in exchange for food rations.

She has no friends, no family. She's lonely. And has been for quite a while. And yet, though hard, it looks like a pretty peaceful and stable life. If it were significantly different, we would have gotten introduction scenes of her battling some gangs or other scavengers for parts or something. But instead we were provided with beautiful, peaceful cinematography and John Williams' incredible score.

She manages. She manages because she has to and has never known to do otherwise. This on its own is already a very solid introduction. And it becomes even more powerful as we are provided with additional context later on, as she tells BB-8 that she's waiting for her family.

We know who she is, what she does and what she wants. No more questions, right?

Well, this is where it gets confusing, at least for me: there's one shot in Rey's introduction which always leaves me puzzled about her actual wants. It's the moment she puts on the rebel pilot helmet.

Maybe I am reading too much into it, but it feels like it kinda wants to draw parallels to Luke Skywalker in ANH? What exactly is the purpose of this shot? Is she putting on the helmet just for fun? Is it to show that she is still a kid inside? She seems to enjoy herself. Is it to show us that she maybe wants to be a pilot...? The gesture on its own is too little information to imply that, let alone that she already is a very skilled one, so probably no. Then, is it, perhaps, to show us that she dreams of more? Like Luke, who wanted to get off the planet that is "farthest away from the bright center of the universe"?

The interpretations, especially when looking at it in context to the rest of the movie could go on and on and on.

Quick detour.

The reason it works so well with Luke's character is because from the very beginning, with everything he does and says, it is perfectly clear that he doesn't want to stay on Tatooine. It's his only want when we first meet him.

Luke has friends who tell him about the galaxy. He seeks adventure.

And he's very impatient about it.

Everything he says basically SCREAMS how much he hates it there.

Now back to Rey.

Am I expecting Rey to show the same interest in getting off Jakku with the same attitude and level of energy as Luke, should that have been what TFA was going for? No, of course not. They are (supposed to be) two different characters after all. But I do believe that, given the setup, that helmet scene leaves too much room for confusing and unnecessary interpretation. (More so because I am trying my best to avoid nostalgia bait wherever I can.)

I am not denying the fact that she wouldn't have heard about the wider galaxy, that she wouldn't wonder about what it would feel like, being out there. People travel. And with people traveling, so do stories. So if you want to hint at that, do it subtly, all the while keeping the focus on her biggest want.

I might really just be reading too much into it, but still, in my humble opinion, a way to solve this confusion is cutting out her interaction with the pilot helmet completely. Let me demonstrate.

Inside her home we already see this self-made rebel pilot puppet. Just like the puppet lying around, instead of having her pick it up and putting it on,

the helmet remains part of the environment, stuck in the sand. There could even be a close-up on it as Rey puts down her empty plate next to it when she has finished eating if you really want to show it. She then rests her arms on her knees and looks up into the sky, following the ship that has just departed from the far outpost into the high atmosphere until it disappears. Waiting.

What is achieved by changing the interaction with the helmet is that it keeps her wants just as clear as Luke's. Luke wants adventure. She wants her family back. Period.

...I rewatched this scene after writing these paragraphs and yes, I admit, in the end it happens so fast that one could probably just let it pass and interpret it as Rey being very bored and using it as entertainment to wait out the days. But even if it were just that, the effects this little tweak would have on the following scenes is quite interesting to look at nonetheless.

The tweak I am going with from now on: Having her not actively wonder about possible adventures at all. She doesn't believe those stories to actually be true, because she's never allowed herself to. She's never allowed herself to actually want to ever leave Jakku.

What would it mean for her characterisation? It would make her slightly more serious and grounded. And the movie (except for the helmet scene) actually already treats her that way. Notice how she, while fixing BB-8's antenna, takes a moment to look at him before asking:

She's never seen such a droid before. At least not in such good condition. So, of course, she's curious. But when BB-8 says it's classified, she only laughs about it. "Classified? Really? Me too. Big secret," as if to say, haha, yeah, right. She rejects that possibility. And she doesn't bother asking any further, because when she is confronted with the choice to go and explore, she is reminded of her promise to herself, which is that she will wait for her family until they return.

Now, here is where I insert some very subtle "rewriting". When Rey first meets Finn, she is suspicious of him...

...and should actually remain suspicious,

instead of admiring him and falling into this, let's call it, "excited, fangirly smile"...

She doesn't know him. She has no reason to trust him. Instead, the tone of this line should be one that reflects her emotions as it slowly gets to her that those stories she's been hearing about might actually have some truth to them, that there might actually be a wider world out there. So make her be gradually interested.

Huh. This man I just forcefully hit to the ground, a Resistance fighter, knows about BB-8 and his classified information. What are the odds of that?

"So you're with the Resistance?" Rey asks suspiciously, looking down at the man.

The man stands up, brushes the sand and dust off his jacket and answers, "Obviously. Yes, I am. I am with the Resistance."

Rey frowns, "I've never met a Resistance fighter before," scanning him with her eyes. Why would there be any on Jakku? Nothing ever happens here.

"Oh, this is what we look like, some of us. Others look different."

Rey cannot help a little smile at his strange attitude. She looks back to where BB-8 rolled off to. Puzzled, she tells him, "BB-8 says he's on a secret mission. He has to get back to your base..." Even hearing herself pronounce that out loud feels so surreal to her. None of this makes any sense. Why-

"Apparently he has a map that leads to Luke Skywalker and everyone's after it."

What? "Luke Skywalker?" she asks, confounded.

CUT TO ACTION.

Whether she wants it or not, the plot forces her into the stories she's been hearing of. You don't want to believe they are real? They're real, all right. She has no choice but to run and get along. And later, she does get more and more interested, specifically when she meets Han Solo, the legend himself. Her whole beliefs turn upside down. It's exciting and she embraces it. Why? She's made a promise to BB-8 that she will get him home, and those things kinda come hand in hand.

Rey's physicality.

Rey is very fast to jump into action. She doesn't think twice about what she's doing. She just acts. Because that's how she's learned to survive all this time on her own. When she but hears BB-8 struggling in the distant sand dunes the first time they meet, she immediately reacts and goes to help (which also shows how compassionate she is towards people - and droids - in need of help).

And she's incredibly stubborn about it. If I may even word it like this: it's something she carries with pride.

So she's a good fighter. And I have but one request: DO. NOT. FORGET. THAT. HER. FIGHTING. STYLE. IS. ROUGH. AND. DIRTY. AND. HAS. NO. TECHNIQUE. WHATSOEVER. WHILE. THE. STORY. PROGRESSES. OK? Ok. What else? Ah, yes. Piloting. I don't know which of the two aspects has brought more uproar in the SW community, with the addition of the Force to these 2 points making people call her a Mary Sue, her being overpowered and so on. Let's have a look at that.

Rey's piloting skills.

She obviously knows her way around the Falcon. And it's plausible. "This ship hasn't flown in years!" It's been there for quite a while. Maybe she has had the opportunity to sneak onto it once. What about her flying skills? Well, that takeoff definitely had me worried. At this point I am even amazed this ship is still all in one piece. Which has me thinking... just a thought...

While trying to get those TIEs off their tail, Rey damages a visibly big part of the Falcon's exterior. "Ups," she comments, hastily checking the controls. Ok... The ship still flies. All good.

"What was that?" Finn calls from the gunner position, seriously worried for their lives.

"Nothing to worry about!" Rey quickly shouts back. All in all, the flight is messy as hell, and the Falcon needs some heavy repairs. But they still manage to get out.

"Nice shooting!"

"That was some flying! How did you do that?"

"Thanks! I don't know! I've flown some ships, but I've never left the planet."

(This is me reacting to their dialogue in the new context:) Yeah, guys, good work! You've almost destroyed the Falcon in the process, but you're alive, so I guess it's fiiiiiine.

What am I going for here? Adding to their level of expectations, which are... pretty low, and hopefully Rey's likability.

And then, later, Han is horrified of the state his ship is in, "Who did that?" Rey doesn't answer his question, but instead immediately offers her help, "I can fix that for you," feeling a bit ashamed of handling the ship of a legend this carelessly. And Han is... well, Han about it.

When would the Falcon get those repairs, you might ask? Eh, *hand gesture* there's plenty of time on D'Quar for that while they discuss how to blow up the third Deathst- *clears her throat* Starkiller Base. And obviously it's not gonna be Rey doing those repairs.

This addition tones down her abilities, puts more focus on her skills as a scavenger and makes her more relatable. I'd also argue that it puts more weight to her decision to eventually decline Han's offer to join the crew because of her wants. You see, once immersed into the real thing, the stories becoming true, meeting the legends, she becomes genuinely curious. She asks questions. Why did Luke leave? What fight? She gets incredibly excited when Han offers her a job. And yet, despite all, she still wants to go back.

Nevertheless, Rey displays pretty amazing piloting skills under those stressful circumstances on Jakku. After all, flying the Falcon is....

Her instincts are implacable. One might even say that she*

She just isn't aware of it yet. It is not until some scenes with Han and the rathtars later that we get the first hint.

The Force.

Now I might be wrong, but I have a theory, which is that the piloting performance under high pressure on Jakku might have been it. The Awakening.

The Force calls to Rey through Luke's lightsaber. And she listens to it, not knowing what will follow. She experiences the Force vision, and is horrified.

"That lightsaber was Luke's, and his father's before him, and now, it calls to you!"

"I have to get back to Jakku." Again.

Even when Maz tells her, "You already know the truth. Whomever your waiting for on Jakku, they are never coming back,"

she still refuses to believe that.

Tears run down her cheeks

and she shakes her head. No.

"But there's someone who still could."

Rey frowns. What is Maz implying there? "Luke?" she asks and realises what it's leading up to, and doesn't like it. Her emotions are a mess. She gulps back and keeps shaking her head as Maz speaks.

"The belonging you seek is not behind you. It is ahead. I am no Jedi, but I know the Force. [...] The light. Feel it. [...] The lightsaber. Take it."

Rey doesn't want to hear of it. Any of it.

"I am never touching that thing again!"

Rey just witnessed complete horror. She is in denial. Keep in mind her clear wants from the beginning of the movie. Ideally her want for her parents to come back should be replaced by the character fulfilling her needs at the end of her arc. But we're not nearly there yet. What Maz tells her about the Force completely contradicts Rey's experiences. She cannot just accept the truth. And how does she handle it? She runs away. She's terrified.

She wants to go back to the way things were before any of this mess started. But the plot doesn't let her run away that easily. It knows she has to face her fears, one being her fear of the Force and one the fear of perhaps never making it back to Jakku ever again.

It forces her further into these situations, making it impossible for her to get out of them. She's trapped. Literally and figuratively. And fighting her way out won't work this time, the one ability she always relied on to save herself. It's her darkest moment. And if that were not enough, Kylo Ren, this stranger, this man inside that mask, the man from her vision, shoves all her insecurities right into her face.

"And Han Solo." Rey jolts up. Either out of fear of possibly betraying Han and slipping, giving away a location, or out of rage that Kylo has gone too far into her personal space. Either way, this rage gives her some strength to oppose him. "You feel like he's the father you never had. He would have disappointed you."

"Get out of my head!" He backs away for his own reasons, not wanting to think any more of his father, but still holds onto her mind. Rey does all she can to withstand him, and the longer she does, the more time it gives her to understand what is going on.

And Kylo senses it. What he's trying to do here is not working. Concern washes over his face, which makes him lose control over the situation. The connection opens, inviting Rey to tap into his mind. She's inside his head. Now she understands. She understands she can use this power on him, too. So she does.

And there it is. She's strong with the Force.

And that's intentional. Why? For reasons we discover in TLJ and numerous other fanfictions. (TROS? w-what's that-)

She has found a way out of the situation. Now, has she ever heard of Jedi mind tricks? Maybe? But remember what she just discovered: She just tapped into Kylo's mind. So she tries that again on the stormtrooper. Because when she knows how to act, she just does. She's always been confident in her physical abilities and skills. Why would she have to treat this new power any different? And luckily it works, after 3 tries.

And that's fine. Let's move on. Kylo kills Han. Explosions.

Notice this. Even though she knows she now has these new powers, the same powers Kylo has, she still draws her blaster at him after calling him a monster. She acts on emotion and choses the quick, familiar way.

I actually like to believe that Rey really doesn't know what the Force is and how it works, at all. How would she? Yes, Maz did tell her about it, but how do Force-powers manifest in people? She's never seen anyone use it before, upon meeting Kylo Ren. So in every scene she does use it, she just copies Kylo. That's the only reference she has. Remember how proud she is of her physical abilities. And she is so naive that she just goes and tries it for herself, without thinking of whether it will work out or not. And it works out for her. Because, again, she is strong in the Force.

It's true that her flaw, her naivety, is not really addressed in TFA. It never really backlashes on her. And, to be completely honest, I have no idea how to make room for that without some heavier rewrites yet. But maybe it's not necessary. TLJ takes care of that. TFA just introduces us to Rey as a character after all.

Now, is the force-summoned lightsaber making her overpowered? If you interpret it as "Kylo couldn't get that thing out the snow but Rey could," then yes, yes it is. BUT, if you see it as "while Rey is observing the fight, she sees Kylo trying to summon it, so she copies him, the way she copied him with the mind-tapping, and reaches for it the moment Kylo conveniently gets it out of the snow for her," I don't think it is, though I do agree that in order for the second version to be true, the scene happens too fast with too little shots to explain it. *OP takes a breath* So, here is what I suggest:

Kylo reaches out for the lightsaber. SHOT of the lightsaber in the snow, fidgeting slightly. BACK TO Kylo, pulling anew. BACK TO the lightsaber. It gets free. CUT. Another shot of it flying through the air towards the camera.

SHOT on Rey witnessing that - she is already on her feet again - and immediately reaching for it as well, outstretching her arm towards it.

SHOT of Kylo as he feels the momentum of his pull shift and dodges out of the way. The lightsaber flies past him, into Rey's hand.

Rey has always been fast to react to action. So it would make sense for her to be able to do that. Ok. Now to the fight itself.

*sighs* I don't even know where to start. ...One thing's for sure. Kylo at this point is pretty much destroyed emotionally from having killed his father, but he's still big and strong and aggressive in his movements. Rey, on the other hand, kinda seamlessly knows how to handle a lightsaber, which... is definitely not believable at all.

Let's step back for a moment. Why do we have this fight? Rey needs to get Finn and herself out of there and Kylo is pretty much in the way, so she wants to eliminate the problem. And what does Kylo want? Sure, he is interested in Rey and her raw powers which eventually adds up to them being equals in the Force, so he doesn't want to kill her...

But he also wants that lightsaber, doesn't he?

(God, I am looking at this fight to find any clues and I'm just sitting here, elbows on the table, resting my head in my hands, massaging my temples, wondering, "why the hell are there so many cuts in that fight scene?") (I am no expert in fight choreography, so bare with me as I try to make this work.)

Rey is the one who draws first at him.

She has never wielded a lightsaber before, but knows how to handle a staff... so she treats the lightsaber like a staff within its limitations.

Because remember, HER. STYLE. OF. FIGHTING. IS. ROUGH. AND. DIRTY. AND. HAS. NO. TECHNIQUE. WHATSOEVER. So, pretend we have some well thought out choreography in this part.

Kylo blocks her with ease. Rey is frustrated. The lightsaber feels heavy and difficult to handle. It doesn't take long for Kylo to

get her cornered at the edge of the newly formed cliff.

"You need a teacher! I could show you the ways of the Force!" he exclaims.

Rey considers, out of breath, "The Force?" Rey takes a moment as her mind connects the dots. So that's what these new powers are? Kylo watches her, waits for her to make a move. No time for pondering about the Force any more. Rey moves. Kylo LETS her duck and free herself from his block. She runs, backs away from the crater. He follows her. He outstretches his arm. Rey is stuck. She's literally petrified. Again. Kylo draws nearer. He twirls his saber, now holding it backwards (you know, Ahsoka style). "No," she hisses through her teeth, struggling. Heavy breaths. She closes her eyes. When he almost touches her hand holding the lightsaber, "No!" she RESISTS his force-cage and GOES FREE.

Because, you see, even though Maz told her to "close her eyes" and "feel the light", Rey has never done that before, and when under stress, I do believe she would rather choose a quick, familiar way to get out of the situation. The only thing she knows how to do with the Force at this point is to copy or resist Kylo. She wouldn't know how to to draw power from the Force, yet. She'll have plenty of time to learn that from Luke later, should she survive this fight, so we better continue.

Kylo stumbles back as she draws at him. Rey goes for a swing to hit from above, which Kylo manages to block last second, bringing his lighsaber up from behind his back. As their lightsabers are crossed again he quickly reaches for her right hand, which is holding Luke's saber, with his left hand and moves it aside to his right towards the ground, using his crossguard for more momentum to force her down. He steps his left foot accordingly to keep himself stable. Rey cries out from the unexpected movement. They are kinda back to back. His left shoulder against her right one. The position is uncomfortable. He squeezes Rey's wrist. Rey cries out in pain. Then, she realises how close they are.

Time for some close combat, ladies and gentlemen.

She gives in and lets go of the lightsaber, lets it fall to the ground. Kylo releases her to reach for the fallen lightsaber. But before he can pick it up, Rey KICKS his left hand away with her right heel and PUNCHES his JAW with her right elbow from below. Kylo's head rocks back. He stumbles backwards from the harsh impact, causing him to turn his back to her in order to catch himself. Rey summons Luke's lightsaber back into her left hand, and ignites it. When Kylo turns back to his opponent, left and unprotected side first, Rey is ready to stab him in his left shoulder.

Kylo stumbles back some more, she brings her hands together for another strike leftwards, he barely blocks it, he stumbles back some more, it leaves his posture open, Rey strikes again, rightwards, lower this time, wounding his leg, he falls to his knee, leaving Rey the final blow to provide him with his scar.

The reason I started writing this entire ramble in the first place is a conversation I had with my friend which brought up the fact that Rey should be able to beat Kylo by using her rough, unpredictable moves. Shout out to my friend who, bless her, is willing to listen to and survives every one of my sw rants and who pointed this out in the first place!

Is this a good fightscene now? I have no idea. I hope so? I do have it very clear in my head now though, so I might go and have some fun storyboarding it in the nearest future.

You know the rest. The ground splits, she runs to Finn, Chewie picks them up. . . .

There are some more moments which I believe need some tweaks, like the meeting with Leia, which is just so unfair to Chewie, really, but if I go on and on about this, I would end up changing the entire movie, which I do not have the strength for atm. This ramble was supposed to be about Rey and her alone, so I am done here.

I guess in the end Rey does realise her needs and is able to let her wants aside for a bit longer and focus her hope on actually helping the Resistance and get Luke. Hope that, with finding Luke, she will get to understand these new powers. I do feel like the movie could have provided us with a more emotionally rich reactive scene to the fight and her abilities, and generally just more of those, but then, what am I expecting from a JJ Abrams film? We have Rian for that.

My conclusion? I'm bad with conclusions and summaries, so here you have it, my take on Rey by only adding to the existing dialogue, changing some attitudes here and there, adding a scene, and changing the fight sequence at the end and how she treats the Force.

I do have a clearer understanding of her character now, which was the entire purpose of this ramble, so I guess, mission accomplished. Congratulations on having made it till the end. It was a long ride. I did consider splitting this beast into 2 parts, but while writing this, at one point I just decided to fully commit to it.

You are totally free to, of course, agree with me and stay tuned for my WIP fanscript or disagree, never read through this thing ever again, ignore it and leave it to die on Tumblr's graveyard.

Before you ask, because I also considered doing that just for the sake of having fun with GIFs on Tumblr (all text gifs are taken from YARN btw), I will not do a post like this on TLJ, since I have no problems with Rey's character there at all. Props to Rian Johnson at this point, for managing to make sense of her with what TFA gave us.

#rey #rey nobody #the force awakens #the force is strong with this one #character analysis #character rewrite #headcanon #this is my headcanon now #ramble #long ramble #long reads #have i mentioned it's long?#star wars #star wars fanfiction

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sophieinwonderland · 6 months

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Today We're Talking About Ethics and Dual Relationships!

One more thing that bothered me was an anecdote DIDadoseofreality mentioned where they engineered a scenario that allowed their student, who they were also the therapist of, to talk about trauma in front of the whole class.

Now, in this anecdote, they're sure to make it clear that they asked their student if he was okay participating in this exercise. And the student had allegedly expressed a desire before to be able to talk about his trauma in a way that wouldn't make him feel foolish. So they present this as doing the student a favor.

And maybe that is how the student perceived it.

But... this is also a really uncomfortable power dynamic where your therapist who you share privileged information with is using that privileged information in your classroom to pressure you into sharing traumatic events with all your classmates.

And while the student allegedly gave consent for his teacher/therapist to blog about it the incident later, his therapist is his teacher.

There is a huge power dynamic in play there for pressuring a patient into waiving their HIPAA rights.

And while I sure do hope the teacher/therapist had the presence of mind to at least use a pseudonym for their student/patient and that their student/patient's name isn't actually Zac, it really doesn't matter because anyone in that class or told what happened by people in the class could stumble upon the blog post and now know that Zac's in therapy with their teacher.

Because after describing this event in the class in detail they also thank Zac for letting them tell everyone what Zac did Monday. Which, for a post made 4 days ago, places this incident multiple people know about on October 30th.

Unless some of the details were falsified beyond the name of the students, I'm going to hazard a guess and say that there was only one class anywhere where a student participated in an exercise that followed the exact sequence of events described on that blog, including Zac's specific trauma, on October 30th 2023.

...

I tried doing further research to find out if this was common or if it was even ethical. What I found first was a Quora thread with a bunch of different opinions. Well, the same opinion mostly but from different people.

I wasn't clear on dual-relationships or how they worked, so I decided to do further reading and came across this article. (Since I'm not one to just trust Quora at its word when there are better sources to be had.) Here are some excerpts.

This is not a simple "all dual relationships are bad." There is clearly nuance to this.

But if this relationship could impair their objectivity or competence in their role as a therapist, then they're supposed to avoid that relationship.

Now, one answer in that Quora thread described an example of a therapist-professor relationship working well for them with proper precautions and going to extraordinary lengths to keep those lines separate.

This is clearly not how DIDadoseofreality behaved though.

They used privileged information to influence how they treat their student in the classroom, got their student to open up about a traumatic event in front of everyone, then while having power over their client in their dual relationship as a teacher, they got their client to waive their HIPAA rights and allow their story to be posted on the internet for all to see. And potentially reveal to their classmates that the student is seeing their teacher as a therapist.

These are massive ethical violations.

I frankly would not trust them as a therapist OR a teacher.

If I were Zac, I would be shopping for a new therapist because mine could clearly not be trusted to keep their dual relationships separate.

If I were DIDadoseofreality, I would be looking for a colleague I could recommend Zac to for the same reason. I would also promptly delete my post describing the events of October 30th before a student or someone connected to me in real life identifies me and reports me for what are obviously ethics violation as both a therapist and a teacher.

#syscourse #psychiatry #psychology #therapy #mental health #therapists #pro endo #pro endogenic #disability rights #hipaa #hipaa violations #mental illness #trauma #sysblr #multiplicity #disability #neurodivergent #ethics #ethics violations

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practicalmagicintuitions · 1 year

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HC+NV relationship and career

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DISCLAIMER II : This reading contains very heavy topics, so be careful. I’ve decided to put it after the cut, the KEEP READING. Cards pulled today: 09/04/2023

After a meditation session, I felt I had to do this reading.

So I have barely thought about HC when The Fool flight out. Anyone who is here long enough knows that The Fool is HC so I saw this as a good sign that I am on track with this reading. But since there was no question attached to this card I put it back.

I felt I have to publish this ASAP, so if there are any errors, or typos etc, apologies.

HC relationship

4 of Wands, 9 of Swords.

This combination is anything but hopeful or joyous. The 4 of W card is a traditional wedding, celebration and marriage card and since this is about a relationship I think this is what the means for them. Engagement, wedding etc. However, the 9 of Sw is the nightmare card. On the card the man wakes up from a nightmare, his hands covering his face, maybe he is crying.

The less negative option here is that HC is happy but has some serious fear that he will lose this current happiness.

The more negative option and this was my first thought when I saw this combo that he made up his mind and decided to marry NV, maybe we are past engagement already but he realised he made a mistake or he will after the wedding. We all have those jokes about runaway brides…well runaway groom is a thing too.

And this combo is baffling because the 4ofW is one of the happiest, most stable card and the 9 of Sw is one of the darkest, dealing with depression and serious negative thoughts, and feelings. The imagery is the complete opposite. 4ofW’s background is bright, sunny yellow, the 9ofSw’s are black as night. For me, this is stuck with the idea of marriage and married life. A thing he must do, like a chore but he doesn’t want to do it, the whole idea makes him sweat from fear.

So I wouldn’t be surprised if we would hear of an engagement from a reliable source aka on his IG or something. (and other things are coming in this reading, so keep reading)

HC’s career and finance

Ace of Pentacles rx, Knight of Pentacles, The Moon

Ace of P is lack or loss of money, poor investments. Stability is gone, someone is better at spending money than earning it. This also means not rushing into any investments. I could not think of his Warhammer project… Knight of P is holding a pentacle in his hand, the image is awfully similar to the Ace of P. And it looks like he is handling the pentacle (the money) to The Moon card. KnofP means he has to accept and takes responsibility but with The Moon card and the Aof P rx I think he is delusional about his career and financial projects. This Knight is also kinda boring in terms of career and branding so it is not the best.

The Moon is also a powerful imagination. So a less negative option is if he is hard-working, persistent, responsible and uses his ideas in a proper way he has a chance to turn his current financially negative situation into something better. But I won’t lie, I don’t really see this.

When I was checking my notes on The Moon card I found that someone suggested that this card could mean a job as a sailor. I don’t know where this comes from but I remembered his new movie (with Guy Ritchie) something has to do with sailors based on a picture I saw. And this has given to me a different perspective. I think his hopes career-wise lie in this movie. Maybe he is involved financially in it. Maybe he has a contract that if the movie succeeds he will earn extra money, have a second part etc.

I’ve decided to draw 2-2 cards for NV and HC as individuals in this current citation they are in. I suggest when you read this section keep in your mind the cards I got in the relationship section and try to interpret them together.

2 of cups rx, Ace of cups rx

I won’t sugarcoat it, I will tell you what was my thought immediately.

That she is pregnant and she is not happy. Here, I’ve said it…

Let’s start with the AofC rx and why this is a pregnancy card. If this card is upright, the water is flowing undisturbed. If it’s RX there is no flow, meaning no period meaning…pregnancy.

2 of C rx is an imbalance, unhappy couple, separation, divorce etc. My feeling is that she was unhappy in this relationship anyway but the potential pregnancy doubled it. 2 of C rx could mean a broken engagement or an attraction for someone other than our partner. I feel she was not happy anyway with or without pregnancy. I think the overflowing emotions, the pink glass slowly wore off and what remained is the harsh truth, that his relationship is not so dream-like as she imagined.

The Emperor, Queen of Swords rx

When I saw the QofSw rx my first thought was: this kid possibly won’t be born. This could mean abortion or miscarriage both aligned with the rx QofSw

The Emperor is the ultimate father card, the one who cares but gives structure, boundaries, discipline, and rules to follow. He is also a strong, authoritative figure, a patriarch. With the QofSw rx I think he is imbalanced at least his thoughts are. He is cold, maybe argumentative. Swords are thoughts and in rx those are cold-hearted, negative and mean. I feel he is ready to manipulate to get what he wants. I think he is sharped tongued and not the most gentle with NV. It also could mean he is questioning his own ability to be a father and reflects his relationship with his own father.

So I have this feeling that neither of them wants this pregnancy or is just very confused about it because their relationship is not a good foundation for having a family. I think HC is traditional enough not to want a child without wedlock so if the pregnancy happens I think he would say he doesn’t want the kid at all or say let’s get married then. This depends on the woman who delivers the news to him. Since NV is his official gf I think the marriage is more likely.

I have decided to pull an outcome card for the whole reading and the Judgment felt off horizontally exactly on the Ace of Cups RX card. You already know I pay attention to those details. How and where a card lands. Horizontally means it’s between the rx and the upright, it means to struggle. For me, that means the future of this possible pregnancy is undecided yet. They (or she) struggle to see clearly. Maybe she wants to have a kid just not from him. It’s a point of no return either way and she has to be very careful what decision she makes because it will be final. The imagery of the card is an Angel blowing a horn and people are rising from their graves. This is Judgement Day. It’s pretty heavy considering the topic, right?

This was a heavy reading I know but that is what I saw.

Take care of yourself, be blessed.

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You are SO right about the Death of Optimus Prime.

It feels so one-sided which wouldn’t necessarily be a bad thing if it wasn’t clear the narrative is pressing that the Autobots are just as bad as the Decepticons by literally refusing to have anyone but Prowl argue against what the Decepticons have done versus the Autobots and treating him like he’s being ridiculous even by his comrades! When the NAILs come back it’s not just that they’re tired of war and just want peace they seem to have no concept of anything about Autobots or Decepticons except that they’re both Bad but somehow Autobots are worse?

And seemingly no one points out anything the Decepticons did like blowing up one of the last energon mining facilities but that’s just frankly ridiculous because by all accounts the NAILs would all *have* to be from before the war and somehow they’re the only group who doesn’t remember what it was like before they left? Later we find out Soundwave was apart of pogroms specifically against Neutrals, Decepticons put Autobots heads in bombs to make them beg for their life by bomb disposal and had at least one facility dedicated to smelting Autobots alive and none of the Autobots seem to disagree with NAILS opinions on them? It just reeks of trying so hard to press “they’re both equally as bad.”

The whole Starscream as ruler too honestly conceptually I like, that he manipulated his way through shaky political ground and underhanded tactics and continued those away from public eye once he was in position in a tense post war society that doesn’t have any real system of government and would crumble if they tried to overthrow Starscream, but the idea that somehow no one could manage to point out that Starscream was second in command and complicit to all of Megatron’s crimes from the very beginning and that all the NAILs were totally cool with voting for him in power without any real discussion of that the first time he won felt so farfetched.

Honestly all of it could work, condescending NAILs, Optimus being forced to leave, Starscream becoming ruler of Cybertron could all genuinely work if they actually bothered making the arguments feel balanced because it relies way too hard on everyone just agreeing the Autobots are basically just as bad as the Decepticons and don’t have room to argue because War Is Bad.

THIS. Anon said everything I wanted to say except in a clearer conciser way. The whole premise of “Autobots are just as bad” is something I never understood, both from character perspective and as a reader. What exactly did the Autobots do to merit this sentiment? Like we all know there’s Prowl and the Wreckers, okay. Mostly Prowl. But the neutrals don’t know about what he did. Even the Autobots themselves don’t know! Whereas the Decepticons have this looooong list of insane evil shit they take pride in (including burning the entire planet and halving its population), were committing terrorism acts against the general populace before the war, and have specifically implemented anti-neutral pogroms during its course. How. do the Autobots compare. A hell lot more of “show, don’t tell” is needed rather than just having every non-Autobot transformer repeat it as an irrefutable mantra. And the Autobots just accepting it without even making an attempt to defend their position.

Like if the ‘Autobots just as bad’ statement was true, they wouldn’t even have been in such a difficult position in the first place, outnumbered and stuck between the NAILs and Decepticons. They could just detonate all the Decepticon inhibitor chips and shoot/banish every NAIL who doesn’t accept their authority. This is our home that we won back, we’re ruling it, and that’s that. That’s what the Decepticons would have done. That’s what the old government would have done. It’s as if the reason the NAILs were causing so much trouble was because they were perfectly aware of this difference; they knew the Autobots were restricted by their principles, so they were bold with their protests/lynching. Which again rubs me the wrong way because it implies that morality is a weakness to be taken advantage of that lets people walk all over you without fear of consequences.

Same goes with treatment of Optimus in DoOP and the Optimus Prime series honestly, the narrative is blatantly unfair. Characters keep shitting on him and doubting him and accusing him of being a tyrant when it’s repeatedly shown that none of his actions are ever self-serving. Like haven’t you all met multiple actual tyrants. Would they ever tolerate you guys. They make accusations because they know Optimus is a decent person who cares about the opinions of the people and the morality of his actions. Decency is never not taken advantage of.

To the colonists, the sins of the past primes are somehow All His Fault. To the humans, the atrocities of the Decepticons are also somehow All His Fault. Whenever he does anything, there’s always someone there to accuse him, regardless of the fact that his actions almost always turn out to be right and extremely foresighted. But he gets. no chance to explain himself. When he presents the matrix as a divine artefact (which it culturally is) someone goes: primes are evil I don’t believe in them. When he admits that he privately thinks the matrix is just a bauble and himself as just an ordinary person, the same person goes: how dare you not believe, gimme the matrix I can do better. He can say something as innocuous as “we should focus on dealing with Unicron rn” and there’s literally a colonist who goes “bringing people together because of a shared enemy is literally Fascism.” Seriously. The narrative is that skewed. Selflessness and trying to do the right thing despite being misunderstood by others are all well and good, but when the ‘misunderstanding’ becomes increasingly contrived to the point where the one person is constantly getting pilloried for no sound reason, then it just makes both sides look stupid.

#idw transformers #transformers #maccadam #optimus prime #death of optimus prime

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🪐 my take on the outer planets 🪐

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saturn is constantly given a bad rap just because it does its job- saturn's placement in your chart isn't always a bad thing- it can signify difficulties in that area of your life, yes, but it can also tell you what you have unwavering resolve in (especially if you're saturn ruled or saturn is positively aspected)

for example, my saturn is in my 1st house in leo (cancer rising) and I've seen people say that saturn in the 1st house can indicate a fear of growing old or being lonely, whatever- my personal experience with this placement is, ask anyone that knows me and they will tell you i am fucking petrified of losing myself- losing my mind, losing who i am and dying early are my worst fears (dreams in which im dying are NOT the best ive ever had 😮‍💨)

but as a result of this, i know myself SO well. i do think saturn in the 1st house can indicate issues with finding yourself IF it's afflicted, which mine isn't (thank god 💔💔💔)

im also very scared of growing out of touch with the world around me- dont get me wrong, i love being a hermit, but if im ever that old man that can't understand trends or whatever and is overly cynical of younger generations... dawg- take me the fuck out 😕

uranus i LOOOOVEEEEE and i think it stands for so much more than just rebellion- my uranus has a LOT of power in my chart (so does my neptune but they're in mutual reception 😮‍💨) because my moon is cusped (1° pisces, but i feel both pisces and aquarius influence 💔), and it and my mercury im pretty sure are why i think backwards as fuck- (fun fact, my mercury is FIRMLY direct but it likes to act like it's in retrograde 💔💔💔💔)

but!! more interestingly, i have a very specific mental process where whenever im goin thru it, i cant stay goin thru it for a while- if my brain is fucked up for a little too long and i start getting pissed about it, my uranus takes over and legitimately propels me through the pain in almost an instant. i could be going through something for weeks and once i start getting pissed about it or legitimately bored of it, the next day it's like nothing ever happened BUT i still learned from it

ofc I have to do something to trigger that effect, which is where my mars in cancer comes in and i do a workout to tap into the physical catharsis and BOOM, go to bed and wake up the next day a new man 🙏🙏🙏 god bless 🙏🙏🙏

neptune Ok i am not entirely sure what made whoever said neptune is the higher octave of venus think that but I've never been able to see it. this might be controversial as hell but neptune is the higher octave of the moon to me and jupiter is the higher octave of venus. THAT BEING SAID-

neptune is an absolutely fascinating planet to me lately and im not sure why- i do have a couple transit aspects with it right now but ive wanted to write about it literally all day now- U KNOW i might love it so much bc it's in my 8th house actually that would make sense- ANYWAY-

neptune to me is the source of all the visions from god i get, especially my creative ones- (source: it came to me in a vision from god.) the moon is a very creative placement in my opinion (i have a WILDLY different idea of the moon that i can go over in another post), so neptune follows a similar current, but neptune is higher creativity, higher emotion, etc- it's the planet of spirituality and the absolute depths of our subconscious, like to the point of past lives, that's the kinda shit neptune fucks with

but because it's also the higher octave of the moon, to me it can absolutely represent addictions and vices, everything garbage- personally, my neptune isn't very afflicted at all but i also have a major lack of earth in my chart so i Do find myself experiencing classic neptune-based paranoia sometimes- fuck dude i went neurotic for a week at one point, that was some serious neptune delusion- But my uranus/saturn pulled me back from it, because like i said, saturn makes me petrified of losing myself, so those two joined forces like "ya this shit ain't cool actually take it out back and shoot it"

i might make a post on specifically neptune stuff soon and/or right after this bc the hyperfixation is hyperfixating 💔💔

pluto i FUCK with because it's such a soul searchy planet (my 8th house is very active so ofc i fuck with pluto) in the darkest ways and i love that shit- jonathan davis has his pluto in a fucking mastery degree (29° virgo) and i am to this day like 😦 over it- and it makes SO much sense for him to have PLUTO of all planets in a mastery degree- and i have mine in 26° sag so like im not that far behind... 💔

but dude that's mastery of some SERIOUS transformative powers- that's mastery of the wildly darker shit in life and that is so fucking tight to me- i value that kinda stuff more than anything dude- probably why korn is my fav band (been listening to them as i write this 😭😭)

one thing abt pluto that i DONT agree with tho, and this is more of a scorpio thing BUT i know everyone loves to say scorpios are the sexy signs but dawg... it's cancers... i swear 2 god it's cancers- i will write an entire fucking post on cancers and why i HATE everyone's interpretations of them bc everyone's like "cnanncers are cRYBbaueiis and tHyeyre the most emOtIknal siGnsns 💔💔💔" Bro. Bro. Bro dont do me like that for the love of god. that shit made me hate my rising sign for SO long and also not relate to it!!!! then i started doin my own research and found out "Oh fuck nvm im totally a cancer"

BUT if you look at pluto like the actual God- nowhere in his mythology (that I read anyway- i could be wrong i dont wanna act like i know everything) does it say anything abt him ruling over sex or sumn like that- but everyone says pluto rules over sex!!!!!! Where!!!!!!!!!!! dawg they said he was a god of abundance bc he ruled over the underworld and gems and stuff were found underground 😭😭😭

i do think pluto fucks with taboo shit though But back in the ye olden days when astrology was being developed, sex was not taboo at all, that's a new development that i think uranus fucks with more because uranus is a very future focused planet in my humble opinion

i could definitely keep writing but i think this is already a novel SO- to specify tho, this is all my opinion of the planets, ive read PLEEEEEENTY of books and stuff so by no means do i not know how this shit works, but my uranus makes me rip everything apart and make my own take so 💔

#astrology #astro observations #astro community #outer planets #saturn #uranus #neptune #pluto #astrologer #space

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randomblack-girl · 2 years

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Synastry Astro Notes *my experiences with people of different synastry placements*

🌞 Sun in the first house: admiration, my last bff had this placement I also have this placement with others I look up to

A guy that would bother me a lot (low key bully) had his mercury conjunct my mars he also had his sun in my 8th house and he loved to get a reaction out of me because it gave him power (that's my opinion which lines up with this placement)

♨️ My old bff had the asteroid nemesis (128) in my first house and she expressed how pretty she thought I was. I had mine in her 4th house and I was jealous she had a brother who protected her since I never had a man protect me before (or anyone really, in a passionate way). But also after we stopped being friends her mom blocked me and her brother stopped talking to me 😭. Her mom even blocked my mom!

🧜🏾‍♀️ Venus in the 12th house is weird I have my venus in my old bff's 12th house and she liked me but I didn't like her I have it with my guy friend and we both liked each other but I rejected him because I wasn't sure I liked him (I ended up really liking him 🥲). And with people who have their venus in my 12th house I noticed I liked them but they didn't like me or at least not that I know of. But I feel it can show a close connection, guess it depends on other placements.

🌝 With moon in the 12th house it's giving therapist. I be bearing my soul to these people and they do the same 😭. But I noticed it's more about the moon person like the moon person will share their problems with the house person constantly and it gets emotionally tiring for the house person.

Mars conjunct Saturn usually shows the more mature or older person the mars being the young one ofc.

🌞♀️ You'd think sun conjunct venus is good but I'm not sure I had it with the bff and that guy who bullied me so ??

☪️ My old bff had her moon in my 8th house and this was one of my best friendships and we were really close. But also I'm pretty sure she liked me and was mad I liked her brother and that's probably why she dropped me 😭. And she literally cried because I got mad at her and that's why her mom hated me after the friendship. She also had prominent pisces and venus in the 1st house which explains some of this. Like she really thought she was the victim 😶.

☕ There's this guy I was in an insta gc with. I liked him and we started talking I guess as friends but we'd flirt (his venus in my 3rd house). And he rejected me harshly and kinda led me on (omg I just realized his chiron was also in my 3rd house). We obviously stopped talking. And sometime after he told my other guy friend (who was in the gc) that he missed me and asked for my Instagram. My friend told me though that he said I look like a goat but he'd f*** me (if drunk) like wtf? He preceded to message me and talk to me I acted like I didn't know what he said too 🤣🤐. I found out his mars and venus sqaured my asc and he's a libra rising with his moon in the first house and it all started to make sense 🥲.

It's been 2 times now where my mars ended up in a guy's 12th house and I've ended up obsessed they're cancer risings and my mars is in cancer. I heard somewhere your mars (for women or people attracted to men) sign shows what kind of men you're attracted to so this makes sense.

#astro observations #zodiac signs #synastry #venusconjunctsun #astrology #8th house #cancer rising

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sagau-my-beloved · 2 years

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Headcannons about Venti with God reader, part 2

Ok, nobody requested this, and I literally just posted the other one like a day ago, but I can't stop thinking about him so part 2

Warnings: general Sagau, yandere behavior, general obsession, vague mentions of death

• His favorite time of day is the morning specifically because he loves to watch you sleep (like a creep) and the sun is just streaming in through the window and he can't help it that you look so ethereal

• Oh yeah, also he sneaks into your room to sleep next to you

• And is typically very comically kicked out by the first person to wake you in the morning for breakfast

• He would spend every waking second with you if he could though

• So he's typically sitting outside your door after getting kicked out (I'm absolutely going to write a drabble on this later)

• Really really likes it if you play with or braid his hair for him

• If your hair's long enough to be braided, he'll do the same for you, and even if it isn't long enough he'll still probably try

• "Come on now my love, pleeease. I promise I'll be careful, I need to make it up to you for doing mine!" He begs sweetly as he exaggerates his movements to allow the freshly done braids to move back and forth freely in the hopes that they catch your eye

• It's just an excuse for him to touch and play with your hair

• Even still, he's surprisingly, or I guess unsurprisingly good at it

• It is not an uncommon occurrence for you to be in the middle of a meeting, with like important people, and for him to just walk in uninvited and sit in your lap

• Most people have pretty much just accepted this

• He does like to drag you to a different bars, and restaurants too occasionally, but there aren't really a whole lot of good ones in Mondstadt

• But any time you are in the same general vicinity for a meal he will absolutely try to feed you

• It's more of an intimacy thing, and when you deny him he'll definitely pout about it

• Because of how he keeps a bit more of a distance from the everyday lives of his people, there are certain things he's not entirely caught up to date on

• Mainly just what's popular and general slang

• He is the weakest Archon God specifically because of his freedom policy, and it never really bothered him before, but with all the Archons fighting for your attention, sometimes it's difficult not to become a bit self conscious about that

• That's part of the reason why he's so adamant on being a part of almost every activity in your life, he feels that if he doesn't fight for it then you wouldn't actually seek him out yourself, preferring to spend your time with a more powerful and respected God

• There's a chance that he could become a little less overbearing if you were to actually prove to him that wasn't the case

• But after years and years of being ridiculed by the other Gods, it's going to be difficult for him to really truly accept that

• He's also really a sucker for praise or anything of the like

• A lot of the time he brushes that stuff off in more of a joking manner, but, when coming from you, it's a lot more personal

• The opinions of others never really mattered to him, positive or negative, nothing of what anyone said was going to stop him from doing what he thought was best, but you're a special case

• He always feels like he just so full of love and adoration for you that it's just impossible to express it all

• And that pretty much doubles any time you give him any attention

• He does act a bit aloof sometimes though

• Not intentionally of course, but he's more used to being alone than he is with other people, so he occasionally defaults back into that mindset

• It's like one extreme or the other

• Either you can not pry him off of you for days at a time or you haven't seen him in 48 hours and are getting kind of concerned

• Still, he wants nothing more than for you to only think of him like he only thinks of you

• Humans die, everything dies except you, and of course even Archons can die, but it makes way more sense for you to be close to somebody that has a longer lifespan than less than a century in most humans cases

• He knows what it feels like to have to deal with friends dying, he doesn't want that for you

• So his clinginess is partly for him and partly for you

• Or at least that's how he spins it to justify it to himself

• He wants to be someone that you can rely on, someone that you feel stability in, because he's going to be around a lot longer than your other friends

• On a lighter note, he'll almost constantly be making jokes about age difference

• It could go either way depending on his mood

• Either you're an infinitely old being and he's just a poor young multi thousand year old being that you're taking advantage of (as if you're the one that stalks him-)

• Or your current reincarnation is just so young compared to him and all his wisdom and you really should be considering him your senior you know

• Whatever he chooses leads to you taking the opposite stance

• Circling back around the topic of how much he can't stand to be away from you real quick

• One time you decided to take a little vacation without telling anybody

• Because 50 of your closest acolytes fussing over you doesn't exactly sound like the best time

• It took him less than five minutes to notice you left, and less than an hour to find you

• He was incredibly insulted that you didn't at least invite him, you two were close enough to spend a vacation alone together right? Right???

• He pouted for quite a bit, worrying rather profusely that you didn't like him as much as he previously thought you did

• If you just really really really wanted some alone time, he would very unwillingly give it to you, while walking away in an incredibly dejected manner

• Looking back occasionally, just to see if you might have changed your mind as he shuffles away

• You created this monster by being so goddamn nice, so this is your fault really

• When it comes to gift giving, he would strive to find things that he thinks would remind you of him

• Beautiful fresh apples, freshly picked and incredibly fragrant cecilias, anything that was his specific shade of green

• And a lot of the time he doesn't even give them directly to you, but just puts them in your room somewhere

• He did learn pretty quickly to put the organic things in a place that you could easily find them to avoid any sort of mishaps

• He also really loves writing short notes with those stupid doodles on the sides

• Typically depicting either him or you

• If you choose to write back, then he will be incredibly ecstatic

• That ecstaticism will multiply if he sees that you have also drawn a little doodle

• He'll probably get a very doppy grin on his face and hold the note to his chest as he tries to contain the absolute unbridled joy that he can't seem to hide

• This, in turn, increases his vigor to write you notes, despite the fact that you see each other like every ten minutes

• But he keeps everything you've given him, gift or note or otherwise

• So if he has to force himself to not interact with you for an extra ten minutes in order to get a keepsake, he will restrain himself

• Anyways, it's 3am and I'm tired, and this was completely self indulged anyway, so I'm ending it here and good night to you all

#genshin impact #sagau #yandere venti #yandere genshin au #yandere genshin x reader #genshin venti #genshin x reader #headcannons

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faithfromanewperspective · 9 months

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So I am going to be asking about a character I hate right now, but it's a character that I think about frequently because of his proximity to ALL my biggest blorbos. Charles Fairchild. What brand of neurodivergent do you think he is? I have opinions, but want to see what you have to say.

I LOVE THIS QUESTION SO MUCH!!! because I get to talk about a recent interest of mine: and that's how to be properly neurodivergent affirming for all neurodivergences, especially those that are overrepresented in criminal populations and those who are also overrepresented in those who are ostracised for being seen as 'bad people' due to having and expressing non-neuronormative needs that are a result of a combination of trauma and neurobiology. and not just being able to chalk it up to the double empathy problem, either. I will say I am not an expert in this, and if there's anyone in the community reading this who thinks I've not handled it sensitively, please let me know. I like feedback, and I also like it when people say things nicely because i'm human and fragile too.

First, hate to be your stereotypical armchair diagnoser but something about Charles absolutely screams NPD. And as much as he's not a great guy I love that we actually do get to know him, we get to know not only our usual TSC boys who are bleeding with emotion and just so loveable and hungry for connection and love, but the trope that we're told exists, we see from the outside in politicians and business (usually) men (doesn't James compare Charles to one of those men with briefcases rushing about at rush hour in chain of gold?) and who never really let us in to the fact that they're human. Through Alastair's description of Charles' motivations in chain of thorns, we do actually get to know him and what drives him: fear, masked by ambition. And at this point I want to say: I don't think he has NPD because he's a dick. He just happens to be one as well, and that happens to be one of the ways it presents. It is not the only way NPD can present. Overall, in terms of NPD awareness and hey-let's-not-call-all-these-people-with-this-diagnosis-or-who-would-get-it-if-they-ever-got-help-abusers, Charles isn't the best representation. He's not the worst either; he does get sort of a redemption arc, and though we can speculate about his relationship with Alastair (and have reason to) there is very little that is canonically confirmed about it. So, at this point (and it's taken me a lot of thinking and one (1) Charles POV oneshot to get to this point) I agree with Ari that he's an interesting guy to have as a penpal, for curiosity if for nothing else.

I also think he may (?) be autistic. I've strung this together from a very obscure bunch of observations, the first being Will and Tessa's wedding where he 'had colic and wanted everyone to know' (don't mind me botching my quotations). Not saying all autistics are fussy but you know. Differing pain feeling thresholds that come with different sensory profiles. On top of that, politics is an intense and long-lasting special interest for him. I think some of it is the power, some of it is him still trying to get his mother's attention and love by imitating her even after all of these years, but also: it's a way to exist with people that gives him a more or less scripted role. He's known for quite a few social faux pas (think his engagement announcement at james and cordelia's engagement party! that can't be completely siren power mindpuppeting), he struggles with the social-emotional reciprocity thing (especially when it comes to the being vulnerable side of things and we see Alastair suffer for that), he seems to get irritable in a way that he doesn't understand nor know how to be honest about, and when he does want to say something, he just interrupts the conversation. Overall he seems to be a shitty presentation of a shitty stereotype, many shitty stereotypes in fact (that he humanises, like I've talked about). But. Before we brush off Cassie for that, it's important to have diverse representation of any kind of neurodivergence (including what we find ugly), and I find he does actually balance out james and thomas and christopher quite well. And yes. The TLH gang, more of them are autistic than not. His parents are also Charlotte and Henry and I do know how genetics works. I'd be surprised if they had a neurotypical kid.

Speaking of my absolute faves Charlotte and Henry who we do have to admit are kind of shitty parents during the time Charlotte is Consul I can kind of see how having two flaming neurodivergent kids who they had none of the resources to know how to support, one parent is disabled and one is facing the incredible pressure of being the one to break the glass ceiling of holding an INCREDIBLY stressful job with all the scrutiny that comes with Being A Woman while also kind of unofficially being her partner's caretaker and having two kids with zero time off her fulltime plus job and also has a fair bit of her own trauma in regards to Parents--I can see how the Trauma of Many Kinds resulted in this incredibly underresourced family and we have to recognise Charles is a victim of this. Especially, as we know, how neurodivergent needs are you know--different to neurotypicals--and you've got to be super attuned as a parent to understand the unique things your kid needs. We also have to recognise that growing up with him being doubtless unpredictable did a number on Matthew, six years younger and incredibly hungry for connection.

Overall, Charles is a really well put together character in my view and the way he exists in the ecosystem of generational and lateral community trauma just is really well done. He's not a great guy. I hope he gets whatever help he needs, whatever that looks like--I am kind of optimistic for him but I also Really Think It'll Take A LONG Time and it's going to be really hard for him to make genuine connections for quite a while. I think at some point Charlotte and Henry will slowly figure things out. And grieve. A lot.

#charles fairchild #neurodivergence #neurodivergent affirming #and i mean really neurodivergent affirming #the last hours #genuinely please let me know how i've gone with this

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tiredspacedragon · 9 months

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BIONICLE Retrospective

2002: The Bohrok Swarms

Part 1: The Bohrok Awake :REMASTERED:

Heyyy~

Hiiii~

Once more with feeling, okay?

You guys are sweet, y'know that? Anyway, I have elected to begin back at the beginning of 2002 to make this a proper fresh start. The original versions are still out there for anyone who wants to find them, but I'll basically be saying the same things here, barring some tweaks to align with any opinions of mine that have changed since then and any other thoughts I add.

But, re-intros out of the way, lets get back into this!

The first time I talked about The Bohrok Awake, I made a point of how the comic format results in the pacing of the story feeling somewhat rushed. Events happen quickly, and there's barely time to breathe between scenes, and that's when scene breaks happen at all. Most of this issue is one continuous sequence, from the Toa reemerging at Kini-Nui, to their encounter with the Bohrok at Ta-Koro, to Vakama's exposition dump. All directly one after the other. It is a little much, just a little.

But, that's all I'm going to say on the matter of pacing this time. I've complained before, and I'd rather be positive this time. It's 810NICLE Day, I'm feeling chipper.

So what does this comic do right? Well, quite a bit. Shocker, right?

Get it?

Shocker?

*ahem* So, what I wanted to bring up was the portrayal of the Toa here, their characterization specifically, because it's pretty good. That might seem odd in such an action-focused issue, and medium in general, but these are action-oriented characters, so I say it fits. Which is good, because like 2001 before it, 2002 is decidedly light on Toa-centric material, so it's fortunate that the comics, the one medium where the Toa have always been the stars of the show, does a good job depicting them.

On an individual level, we get to see both examples of character growth and lack thereof. Tahu has begun to show genuine compassion and concern for his villagers, rushing to Kapura's side at Kini-Nui and then to Ta-Koro to defend his people, continuing to show that secure OG Tahu command of the team as he does so. Lewa, meanwhile, continues to be reckless even after his experiences in the prior story arc, and it continues to cost him. His headstrong attack on the Kohrak gets him iced and pinned down in the time it takes to blink, and of course this time it's not just a character moment, but foreshadowing as well...

I will commend Lewa on his inventive use of the Hau's shielding power here though. Using the shield to break and push the ice off of himself is rather ingenious.

Perhaps more importantly though, this issue continues where Triumph of the Toa left off, showing the Toa as a formidable united front. Given that unity will go on to be a recurring issue, it's nice to at least see the Toa working so well together here. Tahu rushing to Lewa's aid, Onua watching Pohatu's back, Lewa and Gali combining their powers. Teamwork, communication, it's good stuff.

But of course, this is 2002! This year isn't about the Toa! This is the year of the Bohrok swarms! So does this issue serve as a good introduction to the central, well, not quite characters, but entities of the arc? Yes, I rather think so. Vakama of course gives us our rundown of all the different swarms and their abilities, but we also get to see some of the Bohrok in action, displaying their core features: their cold, robotic efficiency, and their trademark disregard for living beings. Though the Bohrok's mission remains a mystery, it's clear their objective is the destruction of the landscape specifically, not the people of the island. We don't know much about the Bohrok at this point, but that is A) par for the course with Bionicle, and B) all that the characters themselves know at this point, so even if it isn't much to go on, it is keeping pace with the plot, and it's an excellent introduction into this new force.

And that's exactly what The Bohrok Awake is supposed to be: an introduction. The Toa appear immediately, established as the heroes of the story, they show their powers and teamwork, and meet their new enemies, with a little extra info from helpful local mentor-expositor Turaga Vakama. It's by-the-book, entertaining, and gets readers up to speed on everything they need to know.

It also includes Pohatu's first "what's a" question, so I think that qualifies it as an instant classic.

Speaking of introductions, re-introductions specifically, I hope this was a good one! Feels good to get back into this now that I'm in the right headspace for it. Expect more soon. For now, I'll leave you all with this image, still haunting 21 years later.

Next up: To Trap a Tahnok :REMASTERED:

#bionicle retrospective #the bohrok awake

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Yeah Georgia’s birthday post for David is cute but as soon as Michael says anything or posts about him, it’s over for her. I feel like she knows it too, that as always her posts about him will be overshadowed by someone who has a lot more chemistry and electricity between them. Oh well, hopefully David’s celebrating with him tonight and gets everything he wants or wished for 😏

Hi, Anon.

Ooh, well, you raise a very intriguing point. I know most folks have probably seen Georgia's post by now, but here's two pictures from it, as well as two of the Insta stories she posted:

The first thing I will say is that I did think Georgia's post was actually genuine and sweet, and I just wish that didn't feel like such a rare way of describing her posts. I also feel like the shift between the post and the stories she posted was sudden, and the difference dramatic. (Though I'm pretty sure the "He dresses like that for every birthday" was referring to the picture of David in a bathtub that Neil posted, as Georgia shared that as the preceding story.)

But why the DW picture? It definitely doesn't appear to be recent (I don't think it could be, if we're operating under the assumption that the silly face pictures were taken yesterday, because he has stubble there but is clean shaven in the DW pic). Also (in my opinion, at least) his smile in the DW pic looks tight and like something he is doing for the picture, rather than that big, genuine beautiful smile we've all seen from David.

It is interesting, though, that you mention Michael posting something. Because for the past several years, I think many of us have hoped he would write a tweet for David's birthday...and yet he hasn't. The only time he came close was this tweet in 2021:

So part of me does wonder if it's just that Michael doesn't like to acknowledge anyone's birthday on social media...or if he chooses not to post something publicly for David's birthday in favor of acknowledging it privately instead. And in this instance, I do feel that saying less somehow says more, if that makes sense. It makes me think of the night of the NTAs in 2021, when Georgia posted the "Mine" thing on Insta and all Michael posted was a retweet of that postcard from the past. He didn't need to post anything obvious or on the nose, because what he did post spoke volumes on its own.

I do love the thought of David getting to quietly celebrate his birthday with Michael, though. Again, it's the very fact that that isn't something splashed all over social media that makes it so intriguing to me. Perhaps Michael went to London, or he and David met somewhere between London and Port Talbot for a sweet, intimate get together. I can just see Michael wanting to make David's birthday as special as possible and making sure David knows how deeply loved he is, and this being left to our imagination is what I think makes it even more powerful.

(And as for everything David wants or wished for, I am guessing having both a wife and an adoring boyfriend qualifies as exactly that.)

Well, those are my thoughts on Georgia's birthday post(s) for David. I'm glad you shared your thoughts with me, Anon. Thanks for writing in! x

#anonymous #reply post #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #georgia tennant #birthdays #curiouser and curiouser #throuples are totally cool now #or 'v style' as i now understand it #there's something slutty in the state of denmark #living the polyamorous dream #and it's david tennant #amazing #ineffable lovers #discourse

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Better than Expected

Chapter 17

Spider felt like he'd chosen well to be with the Ash Clan now, despite how they were known among other peoples and his decision to stay with them had, in a way, made him the enemy of his former friends. The boy believed that they were still his friends and that an agreement could emerge between the clans and the people of the ash, he had to have faith in that, after spending time with them and getting to know them in depth.

There was something comforting and nostalgic and right about Spider being there, in Miles's opinion. The first thing was that he was with his family, the second was that by spending more time together he finally felt like he was making up for lost time. As Ash Warriors, they spent much of their time training and hunting, but also exploring the places Varang had once introduced Miles to.

-So, what do you think of Varang? - the father asked his son, in a calm moment in front of the Tree of Souls.

-Why the question now? - Spider was suspicious of the questioning.

"Because I wanted to hear from you," Miles explained.

-But you can deduce how I feel, right? You're not stupid! - the boy snapped.

-Look, a compliment for a change, that's very good to hear - Miles laughed openly - if you want to know, I'll say what I think, you feel good with her, despite her being very scary.

"No, she didn't scare me at all," Spider denied smugly.

-Oh yeah, smart guy? Because I know it's good to be afraid of her - Miles advised.

-That's exactly what she told me about you - the boy confessed, even more arrogantly - but I can't blame you, she's the boss and she orders everything around here.

-That's right, but what I mean by all this is that she really cares about you, like a son - the eldest assured.

-I know, I'm grateful to her for that, but mother is a very strong word - Spider took a more serious posture - as much as I didn't know mine, I don't think anyone would replace her anyway.

-Your mother is irreplaceable, you're right - Miles sat beside him, reflective - I always feel guilty thinking about her, I felt… now I feel that I did the right thing for Paz, for having you around and protecting you, the three of you.

-That's very good, Dad - Spider gave him a sincere smile in response.

"It is," he agreed.

-Varang may not be my mother, but she is a good foster mother, stepmother, anyway… - the boy shook his head - if she is the mother that Eywa gave me, I'm happy for that, I like her, even though she is scary sometimes.

-But she's funny and very sweet and affectionate when she wants to be, isn't she? - Miles completed.

-Yeah, I think you miss her a lot, isn't it right? It's even cute - the boy commented.

-I'm a powerful warrior, I'm not cute, son - Miles joked with him, even projecting himself forward and showing his fangs.

-Maybe we better go back, thanks for the chat - Spider thanked and led the way back home.

The return awaited them with some disquieting surprises.

As she said goodbye to Miles and Spider that morning, Varang felt more restless and her baby just as active. She knew her birth wasn't too far off. She then knelt down, asking Eywa that things would be different this time, and that just as the Great Mother had once promised her that she would bear her child, whatever happened at that moment.

Chanting an ancient chant of good fortune, Varang decorated herself with ash from the volcanoes that surrounded her home. Lines and curves around her eyes, forehead, chin, chest, arms and legs. Without delay, the tsahik of the tribe, with a group of midwives, came to attend to their leader. At the first cry of pain, they went to Varang, positioning and reassuring her. For the mother in labor, it was hard to ignore the fear she might have of losing her child again, but she would have to trust Eywa once more.

Varang could feel her child's struggle to get out and finally see the light on the other side, until the tsahik's hands reached for her child and pulled her out, giving relief to her mother's body and heart at the same time. Crying filled the place, she was a strong and healthy girl, with a peculiar characteristic, she had an extra finger on each hand and foot, like her father.

She was handed over to her mother, who kissed her on the head and thanked Eywa that everything went well after all, only wishing that Miles had been there to witness the moment. Her request was granted when his ears recognized the child's cry coming from his hut.

-My son iss born, your brother is born, Spider! - he said completely euphoric and emotional, running to the place.

He found the group of women, who made way for him and the boy. His vision filled with Varang and the small package in her hands.

-He's born, is he okay? - Miles questioned, approaching.

-She's fine, we're fine - Varang assured - she's a girl, she looks like you.

Looking closer, he realized what she was referring to.

"I hope that's not a problem," he worried, wondering if his daughter wouldn't be called mixed-race either.

"She is not, she is indeed a blessing, her father's daughter," Varang said proudly.

-What's her name? - Spider asked, looking further away, more quietly.

"I thought of Mawey," the child's mother replied.

-Who brought us calm and peace - Miles understood the meaning immediately - is very beautiful and perfect.

"I thought you would like it, live well, live bravely, live proudly, ma'ite, heir of fire and ash," Varang declared to her daughter, Mawey's father and brother silently agreeing with her.

#avatar #avatar the way of water #avatar the seed bearer #miles quaritch #recom quaritch #recombinant miles quaritch #varang #varang avatar #varang of the ash clan #miles socorro spider #spider socorro #quarang #quaritch x varang #varang x quaritch #my writing #better than expected

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Hey its your gf here to make you put in an obscene amount of backbreaking labour in the infodumping mines. All of the character questions from the seven stations ask game for Tatum because I’m obsessed with them and all your moots need to be obsessed too

All of them?

Well okay, if you insist :). I do love Tatum. I’m going to put it under a read more though so that I don’t clog up everyone’s dashes with a ten-mile-long post

(From my Seven Stations themed ask game here!)

For those of you unaware, Tatum is the quartermaster of the Drowned Gull, Captain Jetti’s ship. They’re going through it :)

Tatum is most frequently anxious about their health (whether they’re going to be able to do their job and manage their pain today) and about whether someone is going to hurt them

They have the strongest tie to Jetti, which they absolutely wish they could break but they can’t - she’s violently abusive towards them and has beaten them near death before but she’s the only source of the medication that keeps them alive. They also develop a very strong bond with Merry, which is a lot better for them

Tatum is haunted by the horrible things they’ve been forced to do. Jetti uses them to mete out punishments and sink ships and they blame themself for it

Honestly I think the only thing they’re proud of is their magic - they’re the most powerful tidemage in the world. They don’t like to be showy with it but Jetti makes them. They will use it to keep from getting rained on though :)

Tatum and their parents haven’t spoken in 20 years because their family was dismissive of their illness and the abuse they were suffering. They do learn they have a brother later in the story who’s dying of the same cancer that nearly killed them and they become fiercely protective of him

Honestly Tatum has immense disdain for themself. They hate themself and what they’ve done and they struggle to think of themself as anything but a monster

Tatum has complex opinions on authority. They’ve been frequently exploited by authority figures but they find it easier when someone is directing them, so while they like having an authority they’re picky about who it is

Tatum hasn’t had the passion to be fascinated by anything in years. Back when they did, they were fascinated by the pirate culture. It was so different from what they were used to

Honestly? They struggle with getting out of bed and other mobility issues. Tatum has debilitating chronic pain. People on the Drowned Gull are too scared of them to harass them, but some people do after they escape

Tatum honestly isn’t working on their goals very much. They feel too defeated, like there’s absolutely nothing they can do to help themself

They’re most well-known for being Jetti’s violent, impassive lackey who doesn’t care about anyone. It’s not true at all - Tatum is scared and goes along with Jetti even though it kills them inside because they would die if they didn’t - but they do give off that impression

At first, Tatum isn’t devoted to anything. When they meet their brother, Apatli, they develop a fierce devotion to him

They don’t have a ton of hobbies. They like reading and I imagine they pick up some old Sun Empire handcrafts when they start trying to reconnect with their heritage

I’m not sure what legacy they’ll leave behind, probably the stories of the person who could sink ships with a glare. They’re okay with a quiet life but I think they’d be a bit sad if people feared them after their death

Tatum doesn’t care about winning competitions. There isn’t a competitive bone left in their body

Tatum is motivated first and foremost by wanting to stay alive. Once that’s no longer a daily fight, they’re quite lost and end up searching for purpose, which they eventually find in caring for their brother and working on the Sea Star

They’re very bad at being caring towards people, so people who are struggling usually find them cold and unsympathetic. They care a lot and will try to help (like how they tried to shield Merry on the Drowned Gull), but they’re very bad at showing it

Working for Jetti is a circumstance Tatum doesn’t want to be in, but they’re forced to. They do as they’re told, even though it eats at their soul

They needed to step up when they learned they had a brother who was dying of cancer, and again when they learned he was being abused. They weren’t perfect at it, but they managed

Tatum doesn’t laugh much. Most of what they find funny is blunt honesty and clever wordplay

Tatum’s type in a partner is someone who’s kind and gentle and loves them even though they know their past. Their type in a friend is realistically anyone who’ll have them - Tatum is super lonely. Their type in enemies… well, they try not to make enemies, but manipulative types tend to see them as easy to exploit

There have been a lot of big changes in Tatum’s life. Probably running away from the Sun Empire and the angel incident were the two big ones. The Sun Empire escape went pretty well, all things considered (those things being that they’re a traitor now). The angel incident (which involved them being kidnapped by a stranger who attempted to transform them into an angel - it’s a whole other story I won’t go into on this post, but I’m happy to elaborate if people want to hear) got people pretty worried because they vanished and then came back with vestigial wings needing emergency surgery. The people who weren’t immediately there, though, mostly just wondered why they were taller now

In the Sun Empire, Tatum’s desertion would be highly disapproved of. Among the pirates, the disapproval mostly comes from the fact that they worked for Jetti who… uh… isn’t popular

Tatum used to have principles about right and wrong and spent ten years with a woman who cruelly broke them down. They’re trying to find principles to live by that don’t drown them in guilt for what they’ve done

The biggest sacrifice Tatum has made was giving up their morals to keep themself alive. They regret it every day. They’d do it again if they had to

I hope y’all enjoyed this seven-mile post. Apologies for not writing out the questions, I wanted it to be a readable length (maybe). If you have any questions, lmk!

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Character bingo for Vil and Idia

***Standard disclaimer: These are just my personal opinions of the character(s); regardless of what I may think of them, sharing my thoughts is NOT meant to offend or to shame anyone that thinks differently.***

Truth be told, I don’t care for a majority of the dorm leaders, and Vil is no exception to this. I don’t necessarily think he’s poorly written or anything, though! On the contrary, I really enjoyed his story arc across episodes 5 and 6, and I think that both the lessons Vil imparts onto his students and the lessons he learns for himself are very valuable. Being content with yourself and being unconcerned with constantly comparing yourself to others is extremely relevant, especially in this day and age where social media is so prevalent and a lot of people look to it for validation.

I think that Vil has a lot of good things going for him, most notably his confidence and determination. He knows just how skilled he is, but he also knows that he must work hard to not only maintain that skill, but to excel in it. I really admire that about Vil--he’s always willing to put forth his own effort to improve, rather than rely on magic or other shortcuts. Vil has TONS of super inspiring lines, and I love them all. A particular favorite of mine is, “I’m not interested in magic that only lasts until midnight.” (this is a very rough translation that I recall from the original Japanese, so apologies if I misremembered it) It really showcases his resolve!! I also like how Vil challenges traditional gender roles; he’s not afraid to show an interest in fashion, beauty, and taking care of himself despite being a man, even when society generally looks down on such things. He’s also not just all bark and no bite, Vil is strong in his own right and shows that you can be powerful and pretty at the same time. He’s very confident in being himself, and that’s super admirable!

Actually, I kind of feel bad for Vil 😅 Around the time of episode 5′s release in TWST JP, he was getting some salt directed his way because people completely misread why he Overblotted. I believe part of the misunderstanding could be chalked up to the language barrier between JP and the rest of the world; a lot of the Japanese language’s nuances did not translate over well into English (through no fault of the fan translators, but just due to the nature of the differences in languages). A lot of people were taking Vil’s OB to be the result of pure vanity and jealousy, but that’s NOT the case. When he was screaming for others not to look at him because he was “so ugly”, Vil did NOT mean it in a literal sense of being physically repulsive, he meant that he had an “ugly heart”. Recall that Vil was very intent on winning through his own talents and merits, but that he had resorted to attempting to poisoning his competition to gain an unfair advantage when the performance drew near. He resorted to foul play when he had previously said he wanted to win fair and square, and as Vil is Overblotting, he’s realizing how hypocritical he had been, and thus, how “ugly” he is really is ON THE INSIDE. This hurts him particularly deeply because Vil was constantly told by his peers in childhood that because he played the parts of villains, he must also be a bad person off-set, and Vil trying to poison his rival in present day is basically AFFIRMING all those beliefs that Vil was working so desperately to prove were false. I really wish people would see past the surface and realize that Vil’s problems don’t just amount to him being concerned with his appearance or with his popularity, but with his own struggles to accept, and be happy with, himself. There’s definitely a lot more than meets the eye when it comes to Vil!

... Now, I know you must be very confused. I opened up my remarks on Vil by stating that I don’t like him, but then I proceed to defend his positive traits for 3 consecutive paragraphs 🤣 That’s because even the characters I don’t personally enjoy have good points, and I want to acknowledge those rather than just mindlessly bashing on a character. It’s time to get down to business to defeat the Huns--

The main reason I don’t like Vil is because of how... intense he can be? Like, there’s nothing wrong with him being ambitious, but he comes on too strongly both in appearance and in personality although not gonna lie, I find his Kool-aid tipped hair hella ugly. His eye makeup is very striking (particularly in his dorm uniform), and he exudes this energy of “you cannot hope to touch me” that just scares me off. If I saw him wandering around in real life, I’d cross the sidewalk just to put distance between me and that oppressive aura. Vil’s sternness isn’t doing him any favors in my eyes either. I totally get that he’s in an industry that demands a lot from him, but I think Vil takes it too far when he imposes those high expectations on everyone else around him. You can say that he has good intentions (which I’m sure he does), but I still think that Vil goes too far with his methods and needs to be more mindful of others’ limitations and how to work around them rather than keep pushing them. To me, Vil kind of reads like an unrelenting and uncompromising tiger parent, which is very off-putting.

I also dislike Vil partly because of what he is: a celebrity. I admit that it comes across as a very shallow reason for disliking Vil, but it’s just a very personal thing for me. I have never ever been taken by celebrities (real ones or fictional ones) or celebrity worship culture (especially the parasocial relationship aspects of it); there’s such a large gap between them and their followers that people try to traverse to get closer to their idols or to be like them, and that makes me feel very uncomfortable. I also just don’t like how “in the spotlight” celebrities are; I much prefer characters that operate “in the shadows” and go under the radar.

Speaking of being “in the spotlight”, I felt like Vil was hogging it in episode 5. I get it, it’s technically his chapter so the focus will be on him. However, I feel like he got so much more screen time than previous episodes’ dorm leaders (except maybe Kalim?), and this was very apparent since there were a lot more characters in episode 5 for Vil to compete with for lines and presence. I felt like Ace and Rook especially faded away into the background while Vil dominated, and that wasn’t something that I personally enjoyed. Episode 6 did a better job of balancing out Vil’s screen time with the other boys, but episode 5 was just Not It for me 😔

In conclusion, while I think that Vil goes through a fascinating character arc, has admirable traits, and is a lot more complex than people take him to be, who and what Vil is fundamentally does not appeal to me.

***CONTENT WARNING: My thoughts under the Character Opinion Bingo for Idia mention death and suicide!***

Idia is an... interesting case. He’s one of those characters that I started off not liking very much because I thought that his personality was way too “gimmicky” (especially the way he talks; all that gamer slang and internet lingo got grating for me to read really fast and it took me out of the immersion). WHEN I READ HIS LINES, I CRINGE SO HARD THAT MY SOUL LEAVES MY BODY, REINCARNATES, AND THEN IS REBORN ONLY TO CRINGE SO HARD AGAIN THAT THE CYCLE REPEATS ITSELF. Idia got particularly irritating whenever he assumed his arrogant persona and talked down to his peers. Like, my dude... you should NOT be shit talking the people who are trying to rescue your ass from an undead marriage, they’re RIGHT THERE and they will turn on you so fast. He is, quite literally, THE quintessential elitist gamer, and his only vaguely redeeming quality was that he was sometimes cute when he engaged with Ortho. Needless to say, my initial impression of Idia was Not Good.

What I noticed immediately about Idia (once I looked past all the annoying things he does) is that he legitimately seems to be socially anxious and sometimes straight up fearful of others. I’m not going to go into detail and speculate about potential conditions Idia may or may not have, but I could tell something was seriously eating away at him. His reactions are way too extreme for it just to be a “cute character quirk”; there HAD to have been a good reason for why he’s... like this. (Luckily, we do get to see what that is in episode 6, which I’ll discuss in a bit!) I developed a hesitant interest in Idia because of this observation (yes, in spite of my initial dislike), holding hope that there would be something deeper to his anxious personality. Now, what I didn’t like was when pockets of the fandom interpreted that anxiety as just Idia being “shy”. Granted, we didn’t know at the time what specifically was worrying him so much, but I don’t think it would be wise to conflate very real problems that actively impede his life and his relationships with “shyness”. From the rarity of Idia actually leaving his room to his hesitance to speaking to people face-to-face, it all reads to me as someone who is struggling rather than those just being something slapped in for comedic effect.

Episode 6 completely changed my opinion of Idia. Here, we get to pull back the curtain and see just how much Idia was still grieving the loss of his little brother, on top of dealing with the pressure of carrying on the Shroud family’s VERY important duties. He’s been chained not only by his bloodline, but by his own guilt and involvement in Ortho’s early passing. I’m not someone that cries easily when I’m consuming fictional media, but Idia’s backstory was the ONLY one of the OB boys that actually made me tear up. We see just how deep his hurt goes, and how it emotionally, mentally, and socially cripples him to this day.

As I’ve mentioned in this analysis, Idia appears to have received very little emotional support after experiencing such intense trauma, and a lot of his dialogue and behavior also gives me very deliberate “unaliving himself” intent. It’s a very touching and very real tale about losing a loved one and the consequences death has on the people who cannot properly move on--and that’s a delicate subject that few stories can tackle in a respectful and tactful manner. Episode 6 really made me appreciate Idia’s character more, and it explains most of the hang-ups I had with his personality prior to episode 6. However, I will say that I could not take OB Idia’s dialogue seriously because he was still throwing around all that gamer slang 🤣 Clearly, I don’t vibe with how he talks asdhbasdasodpqbdqoyr8qvbdqso

I think a lot of us in the TWST fandom can relate to Idia in terms of hobbies and interests (I mean, why else would we be playing this game full of pretty anime boys 😅) but I actually relate to Idia in other ways. When Idia’s Groom-for-a-Day SSR came out, a friend was translating a lot of his homescreen lines and they straight up told me, “Idia sounds a lot like you”. When I looked at the lines for myself, I found myself agreeing with them. Idia appears to have a very cynical view of love, gagging at the idea of happily ever afters and begging others to focus on being a student rather than passionately pursuing a romance. That’s very much in line with my own stances on romantic love. No one ever outright tells you “ROMANTIC LOVE IS THE BEST, YOU NEED IT, EVERYTHING ELSE IS TRIVIAL”, but it’s all implied (for example, parents pressuring their children to marry and provide them with grandchildren). It’s an unspoken expectation of society, and I don’t like seeing the media or the people around me constantly pushing romantic love as the “end all, be all” of life. It felt very validating to hear similar thoughts reflected back at me in Idia.

In episode 6, Idia had some lines that really resonated with me: “The story of a hero rescuing his girlfriend from the Underworld is considered beautiful. Why is it that when it’s a younger brother being rescued, it becomes a taboo?” I know that he’s talking about the story of Hercules vs him bringing Ortho back as a humanoid robot, but outside of the context of Idia’s flashback, I interpreted it to mean “platonic/familial love is just as important as romantic love”. That’s likely just me projecting my own views onto a fictional character, but I don’t think there are enough words to describe the immense relief I experienced when I read those lines.

On the surface, Idia comes off as an anxious person with stereotypically nerdy hobbies, but episode 6 provided ample explanation for his character being the way it is, as well as a very compelling narrative about death and learning to cope with it. I’ve also noticed over time just how similar my thoughts on romantic love are with Idia’s, and as a result I find myself projecting my own views onto his.

#Vil Schoenheit #Idia Shroud #twst #twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #spoilers #notes from the writing raven #tw // death #tw // suicide #ask game #character opinion bingo

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