Why do I have the feeling the that Simon‘s got so many food poisonings in his life that he‘s somewhat immune now.

as someone who's essentially simon in this aspect, yeah. im the vacuum with my friends, like ill eat a burger left out overnight, and it's all good but if one of my friends eats that same burger, they're throwing up within an hour.

he'll eat rocks and survive, js.

Management Styles Pt. 1

I find it deeply fun that both the Queens have very similar management styles albeit for different reason. Both Riddle and Vil operate essentially on "might makes right" and "shame to tame".

Vil will cut you down for not acting in a way that fits his definition of beautiful, especially if you're lazing about. Riddle will cut you down for not acting in accordance with his rules, especially if you're lazing about. Both aspire to this lofty concept - order and beauty, and for the most, strong arm people into agreeing. They're quite aggressive so they will seek out behaviors to correct.

Meanwhile, on the other end of the spectrum, Idia who couldn't give two shits about what anyone in his dorm is doing because he's got the most antisocial dorm ever and they're pretty self governing. When they bitch about each other, its always personal because their otakus who will disagree over the slightest differences in interpretation. But like management? structure? what is that?

(Which is what makes Idia's attempt at asserting leadership in Ch 6 sooooo funny. He doesnt really have a way of getting people to fall in line so naturally the other folks started bitching at him)

Now, Ortho's management is a little more advanced. He operates more on a "distract with the shiny" to get them off his back while he actually gets to work. He never actually works with other people because he is in fact not that great of a team player (super robo boy with five million advanced programs can do it all so why ask for help?) but hes better at tricking people to get off his back so he doesnt have to deal with them anymore than necessary

Incidentally, Jamil is the same way. He also prefers to do everything himself and if people are working with him, you better believe that they are under his Direct Supervision. But, when people dont fall in line with his wishes, he relies on his unique magic/signature spell to make up the difference. He's not like either Riddle or Vil who browbeat into obedience simply because that shit would not work on Kalim. However, Kalim can be distracted with shinies at the risk of making more work later if Kalim gets particularly "inspired" by said shiny. In short, Jamil doesn't manage people more than he magicks them into complacence.

Now, somewhere in the middle between outright authority and fuck it I'm doing this myself, there's Azul and Leona. They mostly take control of people via bribes. They are canny negotiators who know what people want and give it to them for a price. Of course, if directly challenged, Leona will throw down and Azul sends out the twins. But for the most part, they rely on clever tricks to get what they need from people. They will avoid violence - mostly because that's just trying too hard.

(And yeah, Leona absolutely believes that Riddle and Vil are too high strung)

As for Malleus... He mostly gets his Dad to do things for him.

goodbye (for now) idol!Rowoon you'll always be part of sepgu and SF9 will always be 9 💖 thinking about how Rowoon's acting career helped bring new Fantasies to the world and how SF9 grew thanks to all the members in their own way - actor!Rowoon you are famous but idol!Rowoon will always have a special place in my heart :(

Fighting to forgive yourself for being you

baddddddd. he's giving pomme first pick of their dungeon loot rn. he's so NICE. not just to the eggs but in general (i am always thinking of those elegant letters). but the eggs are the only ones who he will quickly and easily show vulnerability to. with everyone else it's like there's a layer there, a wall of silliness he keeps up on purpose, but it just. isn't there with the eggs.

there's something about the way that he cares that I can't put into words. like he cares so much. so fucking intensely. look at dapper. look how kitted out that egg is. look at how much time bbh has spent with the eggs, and look at how much time and effort he puts into figuring out how to keep them safe. he goes HAM when it comes to caring for the eggs, but it comes so naturally to him. it feels like caring for people with his whole entire soul is his default, but he doesn't want it to be. or, maybe want play a part in it- maybe it's too dangerous to care so much so quickly. maybe that puts other people he loves at risk. maybe it scares people. but that wall between him and other people is one that he built, and it's bbh, so he built it strong, so even when he's surrounded by people who have proven over and over that they care for him (that they care for the eggs, that they will not hurt them), he can't fully believe it.

im just. bad knows foolish so well. he knows that man wouldnt on purpose kill any eggs. but pomme killed foolish and bbh, dying of laughter, having the time of his life, told her to "put your armour on. just in case."

Does anyone else see red when a dude (usually cishet) says "oh I won't fight girls" as if it's some moral high horse when it's really just misogyny and the implication that anyone with an estrogen based endocrine system is inherently weaker... like if you wanna say "i won't fight someone unless it's fair" that's a perfectly good moral to have, but don't fucking bring biological essentialism into it.

yeah okay i’m actually unbelievably angry about retconning out whole seasons. so funny how many people are celebrating it as if it isn’t an incredibly egotistical and supremely lazy writing move that’s a slap in the face to anyone who’s cared about the show in the past seven years

local man completely obliterated by strength of narrative and character writing in 2023 game of the year

I will not regret having loved.

I don't mean I won't be sad, and my heart won't ache over connections I've lost.

I don't mean I always forgive people who have betrayed my trust and hurt me.

I don't mean I haven't loved the wrong person before.

I mean, the day I regret having felt love at all is the day I fear I will truly lose myself in every way that matters.

Even if I no longer hold any love for someone, I can not regret having felt it in the first place.

Why on earth should I regret the part of me that loves when it is my favorite thing about myself? Why should I shame myself for feeling the very same thing that allows me to have friends to hug and laugh with and milestones to celebrate?

I refuse to feel at fault for having felt something so beautiful and untouchable as love. I can not with good conscience condemn the version of me that loved when I didn't know why I shouldn't have. I will not punish myself over having found something worth loving, even for only a few seconds.

So I will weep for the connections I've lost, and I will do so proudly.

I will scream and cuss and cry at and about the people who have hurt me, and I will do so proudly.

I will laugh and hug and celebrate the people in my life, and I will do so proudly.

I will do these things with all the love I've ever felt etched into my heart, and I will do so proudly.

💭 Since we're here, thoughts from Nillan on the whole party too, and on the vampire gang

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@undyingmedium

"And they did this all themselves, just the five of them..." She walked with a gentle slowness, watching the blood splattered across stone, kneeling to inspect the ruined corpses, and frowning at the horrible experiments that were stopped. The Meat Forge was now devoid of life, inhabited only by the legion of vengeful wraiths that were unleashed upon it. "Good riddance. Quite very impressive though. I would have needed a small army for this, maybe 10 handpicked and involve the troll too. In fact, that might not even had been enough, depending... hmm..."

She took a little chain of praying bones hanging on her waist and looked for an important-looking corpse. "Let's see how they did it, and where the rest you rotten filth are."

(CONTEXT: The "vampire gang" is a young vampire girl and 4 (now only 3) vampire kids that my players befriended and brought into the current city, then the players left for a few months, during which Nillan found them and helped them in the background.)

"They seem free, but Avi won't speak the name of who turned her, and that silence doesn't seem entirely voluntary. It makes no sense to keep her bound unless her master plans to later come back for something... curious..."

tbh i think i just need to get into a media thatll shake me to my core the way me revisiting p//andora hearts at a crucial time shook me

What do you think that scene at the end of "Bethic Twinstinct" with Rick hiding the wine is supposed to mean?

I love that moment! And I think it's really a double meaning imo. One, the writers are shelving this plotline (like the Meeseeks box is in that cabinet too and when's the last time we saw them??) like a 'been there, done that' situation. Two, in the actual show, I think it shows how Rick feels about the situation as a whole. Like sure, he 'seemed' cool with it to Beth (although, he warned her about how it would affect the family and how that kind of pure self indulgence can negatively impact your loved ones) but his body language especially at the end of the ep signifies otherwise (he even remarks to Jerry that he 'learned a lesson' too) and his response to the situation as a whole is to inact preventive measures 'saving' Beth from herself and those kind of choices. I feel like a portion of the fandom seem confused about the wine as a 'love potion' of sorts, although I see it more of an aphrodiac (it is Venusian after all, Venus named after the Goddess of Love. It made them speak 'Venusian' which in reality was just french and is sexy as hell, etc.) like oysters or chocolate. Rick getting rid of the wine, in my opinion, is very similar to babyproofing a liquor cabinet. He saw the outcome of Beth and Space Beth accessing it and doesn't want to take the chance of it happening again, essentially locking it away and destroying the remote access to it (I'm sure if HE really wanted to, he could find a way to access that cabinet again but the most important part is keeping HER out of it, i.e babyproofing)

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I don't believe people when they talk about the nurturing halcyon days of the internet, because if anything, online spaces were far more vitriolic and insular than they are even now. casual bigotry was far more unchallenged and commonplace, and many "memes" were either slurs or shock sites. but there were occasional things, like the immense popularity of the fic "my little dashie", a completely earnest story about a guy raising a baby rainbow dash, in the middle of all the ironic grimdark fanwork produced around mlp that I just don't think would pass many people's cringe tolerance these days to reach the notoriety it did back then. a real mixed bag.

perhaps the most unexpected benefit of doing my own t shots is that the same skillset translates really well to loading samples into gels

m just afk in ffxiv rn hm. afterwards ... do i read Books, play NieR Replicant, or Final Fantasy Type-0 .........