#(also u want me to site things that i can't remember why or how i know them??? look just... trust me plz...)
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I have been losing my shit over this damn panel for the past THREE DAYS (more or less) and I need to yell somewhere so it's gonna go here.
It all began when I was writing my fic (I think this was for My Immortal), and I needed to recap significant hakukai moments. And I remembered "hey, I should include this one thing saguru said during sunset manor that was stupidly super gay for no fucking reason" bc like, yea hakukai not canon, but if canon was gonna give me a whole ass confession then I might as well use it. So, like always, I head to mangadex to look for this panel... Except... It's not there... The line... The line's not there... But I remember... I remember something about "the only one to disrupt/disturb my thinking/mind"... Where... I didn't imagine that right? I mean I read a lot of google translated Chinese fanfics but... I REMEMBERED reading that line... In a manga... In English... ON mangadex...
This is where I should mentioned, that if you weren't around for the Great Collapse of Mangadex. Then... Well, so there was this period of time where mangadex just DIDNT EXIST. Bc there was some cyber?? Attack??? On the site??? I can't fully remember. But it like wiped out most of the site. The mangas r just, gone. So mangadex fixed it. It took a while bc they figured "might as well revamp our site and system". And they did. And it's great. And it looks beautiful now, even more than before.
But see. The line I remembered? Yea... Yea that was from before The Collapse. And mangadex let multiple translation groups submit their translations. So u can read diff translations of diff group, see how things are interpreted differently... And... I remembered this one, that I posted here up top, but I remembered there was another. One that had The Line.
And it was driving crazy so, like usual, I asked my cn friend. But my cn friend (why am I still saying that, it's @beingvv , that's the friend) has A Life, and isn't always online, and we love that for ppl. So. I'm still crazy. I can't trust my own damn mind and memory bc why tf do I remember something that isn't there (happened before btw, but that has nothing to do with this).
Luckily, I have a friend who knows jp. UNLUCKILY, I don't have the jp raws and it's from chapter 300 and we are in the thousands. So, I went back to losing my mind. Until I found it again, and realized. Heyyyyyyy there's a whole ass ANIME. So like the baggage my dear friend had the misfortune to be saddled with, I went to find the ep, timestamped it, yelled begged them for help.
This is where I lose my damn mind the first time in the recent weeks.
(thank you my dear piglet, u don't even go here but u tolerate my insanity)
THIS. THIS WAS THE LINE. THATS WHAT I REMEMBERED.
So, I feel a little more sane (bc my mind didn't fabricate a memory again) and also A LOT more insane bc WHY WOULD U SAY THAT, HAKUBA SAGURU 😭😭😭 WHY WOULD U SAY IT LIKE THAT 😭😭😭
In any case I feel validated. Told beingvv about my discoveries (for whenever they come back) not that they need it cn fandom already got the correct translation. And finished writing my fic.
And then Saguru's comeback was announced.
So I've been losing my shit for 3 days on twitter, looking at all my fave KR and JP accounts and the things they say.
And then someone dug up and old tweet thread that talked about this panel. Specifically, op talked about the nuance in the word choice used.
Here's the og thread if anyone wants to read or Google translate it urself.
(mkppyong my love, bless you)
Bc mkppyong talked to a jp acquaintance about ??? Uh I dunno just language I guess. POINT IS. They pointed out that gosho used specific words/phrases that really wasn't needed if all he wanted to say was "the only one who drives me crazy/mad." But he did used them. It's specifically "his thoughts/mind" that's being driven crazy. And that if he wants to just talk about Saguru's mind being disrupted/confused, then there's rly no need to use the words "go crazy"
And then they wrote out a whole symbolism about clocks and saguru and being broken down/disrupted and I lost my shit over the clock symbolism, sue me 😭😭😭
I don't think I'm making sense anymore bUT WAIT, THERES MORE, THE FINAL BLOW
THE THAI TRANSLATION
This is where I expose myself more than I ever want to, but here's a fact. I'm thai
Here's a second fact. I'm SHIT at Thai. I've been bad at this language before I got good at English. My Thais as good as an elementary student. Every time I understand difficult words I get confused bc where did I know THAT from???
In any case, point is, I saw that tweet, read the text, immediately understood it and began losing my shit all over again... And then I doubted... Bc like, I'm not good with this lang anymore... Maybe im understanding it wrong? So I look up Google.
Google: คลุ้มคลั่ง just means go crazy
So I was like, damn guess I'm wrong, read too much into this. BUT SEE BC I LIVE HERE I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARENT A DISGRACE. And so my friend said:
SO WELCOME TO MY THIRD ROUND OF INSANITY.
HAKUBA SAGURU WHY WOULD U SAY THIS SHIT IN FRONT OF LIKE NINE OTHER PPL 😭😭😭😭😭 BOY WHY R U TELLING THEM UR OBSESSED 😭😭😭 youre driving ME crazy 😭😭😭
So. Here we are. At the end. I have no idea how tf I'm supposed to end this post. I'VE been obsessed for 3 days straight. I don't have a lot of braincell left in me (there weren't any to begin with). I don't have a statement to wrap this post up in a nice little bow. Go make ur own conclusion I dunno.
But I would not have been losing my shit over this stupid panel for a month if it wasn't for the fact that eng translation was missing a pretty crutial thing in what Saguru said. I don't know if this was a mistranslation or a misunderstanding or something, but the English translation was lacking. And I love and have always been thankful and grateful to the ppl who worked hard to translate mangas in their free time, and do it all for free, bc I haven't had any real way to rent/borrow mangas from renting shops/libraries in years. So this was one of the only ways I can read mangas. But, even as I checked the raw panel with Google lens just now, even google translate it as "the only one to make my thoughts go round." No where was there any mention of "case" and "solving." So that's just, multiple accounts of ppl who knows jp, including native jp speakers, all saying that this panel is Saguru saying "the only one to drive me crazy". And man I rly hope this doesn't make me come off as ungrateful or like shitting on the translation team, I'm rly not. But yea. Uh. The translation was wrong. And I remembered that there used to be a diff eng translation. And it led me to go to all this trouble and journey to find out what was actually said. And here we are, at the end.
The only one who could disrupt Saguru's thinking.
The only one who could disturb Saguru's mind.
The one whose sole existence drives him mad.
The only one to make his mind obsess over till he's driven to madness.
Or to use the symbolism mkppyong wrote: the only one to break down the clock, the precise and accurate mechanism, that is Hakuba Saguru.
#hakuba saguru#hakukai#magic kaito#dcmk#sagukai#ramblings#oh god this is long#lost in translation#tbh it's also FOUND in translation#long ass fucking post holy shit#im sabotaging my own fics by tagging this with thr ship tags tbh#now my fic posts are completely buried#edit: not me noticing several typos months later
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You Earned It!
Warnings: Fluff, of the tooth rotting variety
Pairing: None
Characters: Chan, Felix, Kate, Minho, Yeji
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A/N: idklols asked:
Hey so my best friends bday is tmrw (Jan 17th) and so I don’t have any money so I’ve resorted to this (no offense I’ve read a story from u and it’s rlly amazing) but my bsf is in love with bang Chan (she also likes Felix) so i was wondering if you could make bangchan give her a surprised bday? (Also her name is Kate!! Tysm ig you get around to it!!)
Chan POV:
I have been trying to set this up for weeks and finally it’s happening. I hear my phone ring and I answer, balloons in hand.
“Hey, have you heard from Kate yet?” I heard Felix ask. I could hear the background filled with activity as I loaded the car.
“Nothing aside from a good morning text, Yeji said that they were going on a shopping spree for her birthday, the others in Kate’s group are with them too. All Kate knows is that you, I and the boys are going to have a birthday dinner for her.”
I could hear the smile on his face as he said, “She has no clue this is going to be great,” I laughed with him as he said, “I just called to say the cake and brownies are almost done and Minho is getting started on prepping for dinner. So we are all on track over here.”
I breathed a sigh of relief as I said, “Ok thanks Lix. I still have a few things to do. Then I’ll head over to decorate with Hannie and Hyunjin.” After I hung up I started the car and went on my way to grab some party favors. Kate has known us for a while. She was very young when we met, Barely past 10 years old. She was an aspiring idol. Just after we debuted, Kate came up to me in the practice room one day and introduced herself. I remember thinking how mature she was.
She spoke with authority and confidence. She knew what she wanted. She wanted to learn, mature, adapt, and make it in this industry. I have always loved cultivating and teaching idols to do what they love, so when she asked me to mentor her, I was more than eager to help out. I can’t believe it’s already been 5 years. Now she has her own group that she leads. Their group is honestly astounding. The music is positive and uplifting, the moves are addicting, and much like my group, 98% of it is done by the members.
After I pick up the favors I head to the DanceRacha house. The minute I park I am met with the members opening doors and grabbing items. I make my way in to find the space transformed into party central. The music is on low and Felix is filling a little table to the side with the sweets, including a cake that looked amazing, done by him, of course. Off to the other side of the living room are the beverages, and dead center is the dining table decorated in Kate’s favorite color.
We also had a giant present pile over to the side. I made sure to put mine a little more forward in the pile.
After I helped with the balloons I sent out the text to remind everyone that they had to park a little farther away to keep it a surprise. I had no clue why I was nervous. Maybe it had to do with the present. So many gifts were lavish, Louis Viton and Givenchy being bigger names in the pile. I don’t know if what I got was enough.
Finally, once everyone was in it was time to have Yeji bring Kate back to the dorm. At the five minute mark we all took our positions, hiding well out of the way. The anticipation ramped up, to the point of us giggling every time we heard a car pull up. We get a knock at the door and Minho goes to open it non-chalantly. As soon as Kate walks in everyone pops up yelling “Surprise!!” That part took Kate off guard but she was tearing up and thanking everyone as she walked in. I was so excited for the presents. I really think that she’ll like it.
After a few hours of food, dancing, and chatting, we got to blowing out the candles on the cake. After everyone got a slice she started opening presents. Some of them were amazing, designer purses, wallets, and glasses to match (Obviously Felix’s), all the way to designer belts, dresses, red bottom heels. The more of these I saw the more I wanted to just put my little envelope of a present back into my pocket and hide in the back.
Before I could, she opened it. Minho demanded that she read it out loud. She started.. “Happy Birthday Kate!, I remember when I met you 5 years ago. You were a 10 year old promising talent. I remember you asking me if you had what it took to do what I do. I could see immediately that you had it. You work hard, you strive for perfection, and most of all, you always are willing to learn. I am so proud of you. You are a fantastic leader..” At that point I saw tears forming in her eyes as I smiled.
She kept going, “You have an amazing heart, eye for talent, and not not mention you always are focused. You told me at that time, you wanted to be mentored by me. That you wanted to know if you made it or not from me only…” She looked up at me and I was fighting tears myself.
“That’s why I am happy to tell you that come your legal age, your group will be signed under our label. All you have to do is sign on the dotted line. Congratulations Kate! You made it! Happy Birthday!-Chan” She started sobbing along with her group. She didn’t know but I saw every move she made, and she’s ready, all of them are. That’s why I was rushing today. I went to my manager yesterday and we found the perfect manager for her group. We drew up the contracts today, which left me not a lot of time to finish the decoration hunt.
A few seconds later I was taken out of my reminiscing by Kate thumping into my body, wrapping her arms around me as she said thank you… All I could say was “For what? You earned it!”
It was true, she did earn it. The hours of practice, the drive to succeed. That was all her. Now comes the hard part, I know she’ll be fine though. I’ll always be here for her, I know she’ll be okay. I can’t wait to see what she comes up with.
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i really don't know how to feel about being able to just enjoy sterek has been
Like barbie just reminded me I didn't need to white knuckle adulthood
Life isn't just how much blood I can squeeze from the stone of my life
(I just rant about sterek pretty much)
But also just why I started obsessing about the ship itself, the dynamics and just
I an so embarrassed and enlightened by my self journey with these two
Like, Stiles is my favorite character in the show. He just was himself, and he said the right things at the right time, and he just
He really helped me understand my own thoughts and I honestly found a lot of myself
And like yeah, I like Derek, but as a character study, it's like - a caricature. I can't stop reading the stupid fics tho, and I start venturing further in
And i can't stop, because it's like a mirror sometimes. It scratches my brain in the right way, lets me roll with those questions I've always had
And then i found that beautiful fic, that just, Derek was allowed to be h
Derek's caricature made sense. I realized that I had always seen myself as Derek. That Derek, Derek was seen by Stiles. And no matter what ended up happening in the canon story, it all made sense.
I, personally, will never be able t
I never want to, remember, and I think that's fine. Because i don't trust myself, and Derek's life in canon was just one tragedy after another.
Like, wtf did that character do to u Jeff.
And why did u agree to this Tyler, like, get a better agent or whatever.
This shifty show tho, let me look into myself without going too crazy.
I think crazy is relative.
And i think that i just need to channel the Derek who moves to a remote lake and is just healing or the Derek who gets to rebuild instead of fucking burning to death, and stop trying to be Stiles i guess.
Yeah my head feels like it's splitting open and just, reading isthatbloodonyourshirt's fic just was so fucking good u should go read it if u made it this far for some reason
<a href="https://archiveofourown.org/works/44597413"><strong>Matchmaking in Fandom</strong></a> (13092 words) by <a href="https://archiveofourown.org/users/wasterella"><strong>isthatbloodonhisshirt</strong></a><br />Chapters: 1/1<br />Fandom: <a href="https://archiveofourown.org/tags/Teen%20Wolf%20(TV)">Teen Wolf (TV)</a><br />Rating: Teen And Up Audiences<br />Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply<br />Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski<br />Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Scott McCall (Teen Wolf), Vernon Boyd<br />Additional Tags: Meet-Cute, Getting Together, Alternate Universe - Human, Grumpy Derek Hale, Fix-It of Sorts, Derek Hale Deserves Nice Things, Stiles Stilinski is a Nice Thing, Fluff, The Movie Doesn't Exist, Don't copy to another site<br />Summary: <p>It wasn’t like it was a secret that the showrunners made <i>terrible</i> decisions when it came to their own show, so why he’d had actual faith in them <i>not</i> fucking the movie up, he had no idea. Really, it was his own fault.</p><p>He hadn’t even set the bar <i>high</i> for the movie! The bar was so incredibly low, like mid-shin height, and they somehow managed to get it subterranean. That was talent. A bad talent, but still a talent.</p>
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Me: "Oh, I've got all these ideas, I'll write about these."
Jojo's Bizzare Adventure addiction:
Anywho, time to talk about JoJo OCs under the cut that'll happen eventually:
BTW starting at part 3 they all get 1 power cause Goldsboro blood or smth I just wanted to
Part 1: The Sun and the Mask (Don't know how I feel about this title)
Basic background to other parts cause I want a developed character backgrounds cause I swear I wasn't high when I wrote out these characters but it looks like I was
OC: Rebecca "Becca" Goldsboro
Lemme put it this way; if it wasn't 1890 and she knew diddly-squat about the LGBT other than "SIN!" She would be Trans-masc. Jonathan is the only one nice to her too.
Part 2: Roses and Bubbles (I'm working on the title plz leave suggestions cause it sux rn)
Cesear Zeppeli x OC
OC: Rose "Rosy" Goldsboro
Yeah, she just kinda vibin and occasionally saying sus stuff.
Part 3: Lightning (Title also sucks! I'm coming up with them as I write this :D)
Jotaro Kujo x OC
OC: Kasumi "Misty" Goldsboro
Crackhead energy. 1000% crackhead energy. And with a fast af electricity stand called Blue Lightning. Also in a band, cause... why not. Weird power is that she can like see dead ppl in her sleep but like... important to plot ppl. Like her grandfather, Cesear.
Part 4: Angel with the devil's eyes (This one kind of works ig???)
Josuke x OC
OC: Usagi Goldsboro
Crackhead energy 2: Electric Boogaloo. Also will murder anyone who talks shit about her friends on site, but you would never fuckin guess it cause she's got that petite Kawaii girl energy. Her stand is called Pink Thunder and it yells really loud. Her dad works out of country (Italy, hint hint nudge nudge). Weird power is that sometimes she'll just sit down to draw cause she's an artist and she'll draw past events (Bonus: Jotaro saw her just randomly doodling Kakyoin right after he died and that was... and experience.)
Part 5: Red-eyed hacker
Giorno x OC
OC: Georgia Silverthorne
Chaotic Gremlin + Crackhead energy 3: Syrup Village Arc. U totally thought she wasn't a Goldsboro, didn't you? Yes, but actually no. Her mom is Usagi's. She's just raised mostly by her mom who's incredibly abusive and she doesn't know who her dad is. Also it's "Red-eyed" bc everyone else so far and continuing on has bright ass Green eyes and hers are red. Normal eye color is boring. Her stand is called Techno Glitch and it's like normal stand, but it has to be programed by hand from a floating computer cause it sounded cool in my head so I said "yeah that." Weird power is that she sorta sleepwalks into the other 2 living Goldsboro's heads, like Usagi'll be dreaming and the 2 knew each other for a long time cause they have the same mom and stuff and Georgia will go "Ayo, what u dreaming about?" And Usagi will jump like 6 feet in the air.
If you can't tell by the length of that wall of text, she's my favorite
Also I'm skipping part 6 cause Jolyne is literally Kasumi's daughter, we don't need to sweet home Alabama this stuff
Part 7: Oh, to be young again
Johnny Joestar x OC
OC: Lucie "Lucky Lu" Goldsboro
Has that "popular yet still a good person" energy rarely found in my generation, or at least just in my school. Her stand is called Boomerang, and I'll let you figure out what it is. Only thing is that it's a person holding them, not an actual boomerang. Also 110% horse girl energy, but not in a cringy way Her weird power is that she has an insane amount of luck, hence her nickname.
Part 8: Rock n roll all night
Gappy x OC
OC: Rin Kaneko
Crackhead energy 4: Tsuzumi Mansion Arc, mixed with small but noticeable amounts of Undertaker from Black Butler and Hu Tao from Genshin. She just woke up next to Gappy, no memory of the last 2 months, and went "Ima just follow around this dude and help him remember his shit first." Her stand is called Ragged Glory and it's a guitar, but it doesn't just play music if you pull the strings, nonono, it also generates a random effect from a defined list because I only have so many sides on a die, and it's great. Her weird power is that she is well aware of the TimeLine reset in the end of part 6 (The one that left me crying cause all my Husbandos are gone now) and the memories and experiences of our past characters live in her and just surface at random.
I might make one for JoJo lands, depends on how I feel about it, dunno
#jojo's bizarre adventure#Jojo part 1#Jojo part 2#Jojo part 3#Jojo part 4#Jojo part 5#Jojo part 7#Jojo part 8#Cesear x reader#Cesear Zeppeli x reader#Cesear x OC#jotaro x reader#Jotaro Kujo x reader#Jotaro x OC#Josuke x reader#Josuke Higashikata x reader#Josuke x OC#Giorno x reader#Giorno Giovanna x reader#Giorno x OC#Johnny x reader#Johnny Joestar x reader#Johnny Joestar x OC#Johnny x OC#Gappy x reader#Gappy Higashikata x reader#Gappy x OC#Hallucination word vomit :D
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hi Luta,
Really curious about one thing. I've been reading some of ur blogs and its extremely interesting. I wanted to know what you thought of 50 shades? I only watched that movie once a long time ago....I just got reminded of it while going thru some of ur content cuz i remember at one point for the public, 50 shades was like the poster for bdsm. I think I also saw articles talking about how bad it was. I hadn't really paid attention to it back then. But now, after reading thru some of ur blogs, I'm really curious and I would love to know if 50 shades is an accurate representation in ur opinion and what u think of it.
-Anon Anon
Hey Anon Anon,
Within the kink community It's called the book and movie that shall not be named.
That's how inaccurate it is. How much disdain there is for it within the community.
I get it. Kinksters stick with other Kinksters. We don't really talk outside of the community because we get bullshit back. If you only knew how much bullshit I deal with daily on here. It's getting better though! It is. By not talking though, we've gotten to some major inaccuracies.
I can't tell you how often I hear, "that's inaccurate because I read a lot of BDSM books." Here is the kicker though, ask these authors where they get their information from? Do you know how many authors just assume another author is informed and use their knowledge. We have a bunch of authors writing BDSM who aren't kinksters and haven't talked to a kinkster. They read a book, not even a blog from a kinkster site. I'm not trying to put anyone down. Just point out where the problem is and why there are so many inaccuracies.
What's hilarious is the true author whose work was stolen is kinkster! They had accurately portrayed the BDSM. However when their work was stolen and the 50 shades was written, that author thought the work was inaccurate based on the works they had read.
What really bothers people though is that Christian is a horrible Dom. Kinn was too but it was acknowledged. Christian was praised because people thought that's how Doms are. Yeah, if you're a predator Dom. Smh
So yeah, not a fan. It will forever be the book that shall not be named, to me.
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idk how u code on neocites- just trying to follow a basic overview video makes me feel really confused. How did you learn how to do stuff??
well, i first get an idea.
then, like you- i am bad at videos, so i go read up on tutorials, and look at examples of how the code to do what i want is written,
next, i get confused. necessary step.
and then, i try applying what i'm reading to my site anyway, even if it's confusing, and even if i can't follow it 100% correctly.
and then i go read some more tutorials for the same thing. i repeat the process until it works... or looks how i want it to look
i try not to follow it exactly, because i want my code to be readable and editable to myself later. this is the most important part i think. you should start very small and do what's understandable to you.
it also doesn't have to be very big or impactful to anyone but yourself, either. it can be small, even, and i encourage that.
here, if you want, in this keep reading i'll show you some examples of stuff i can do with properties i learned:
this small green box, for example.
it's name, or div class identifier name is "update". it's job is to hold the massive list of updates to the site, so viewers can scroll through to see what i've done, and what has changed.
right now, i've shown you where "update" is in the HTML sheet, and we can see that it's been given in-line properties. think of "in-line properties" as adjectives, describing how tall, wide, or how rotated your element is.
(keep in mind that you can't literally see the html as you're editing it like i'm showing you here unless you get a dedicated application for editing and testing html and css. i don't have any apps for that, and usually just edit and refresh to see if it looks right hundreds of times.)
okay, now let's see what exactly i'm telling this "update" box to do inside the CSS,
the CSS style sheet is another way of telling what something on your site to do. you would use the CSS to organize what everything on your page does more neatly, if you don't want to brute-force style it through the HTML directly, like i do.
in the CSS sheet, anything given the name of "update" is basically given the property of "overflow:auto;" which tells it to scroll whenever what's inside of it gets too big for the box. i have given the box a minimum width, so that the words inside will very easily start scrolling.
it is also given the color of #baddad, or a nice minty green- it's about 200px (pixels) wide- it has a border that's 2px wide and is solid (fully closed border) that's black- and it has a box-shadow that is 11 px 11 long in the bottom and the right, with a rgba value given to it to make it colorful, too.
why did i put width on both the html in-line style properties, AND the css style sheet? i don't know honestly! you don't need to do this, i think. just one of them will probably work, really.
i forgot what margin-bottom does, but i think that just adds filler space between elements. or is that padding, which adds filler space -inside- elements? maybe you can figure that out. i still can't remember the difference.
is there an easier way i could explain this to you?... i dunno, maybe ask for something more specific other than "how do you learn stuff" such as "what ways could i do *thing i want to do* specifically"
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5x6 the final frontier
I remember this episode, I am a castle fan from firefly & I loved this episode & the audio commentary & everything about it
We all thought that the guy who got shot was shot with a real thing
derrick storm is a graphic novel, I forgot!
supernovacon? Shiny
dsjflksdjfjskh shiny
pint sized princess leiea <3
apparently the costume design used some of the old stuff, including stuff from the zombie episodes
14 episodes too many?
Oh I was going to watch battlestar galactica
that joss whedon show?
JE: Give me Blade Runner - a bleak, dystopian future with sexy replicants. Right?
*he & castle bump fists*
JE: How about you, Beckett? What do you—?... *stops at her annoyed expression*
RC: Perlmutter, good to see you.
SP: Ah, if only the feeling were mutual.
a tiny hole? like a bullet hole?
SP: No clue
Not all nebula 9 fans will be on that site
also ryan pretty af as usual so no need for a pic ig
she is so obviously a fan, she could just say "oh plenty of fandoms have websites, I'm sure there is one for neb9"
lol her face when he walks in
KR: Oh, I tried to talk to him, but he said he needed a minute to “Muse upon the fragile nature of human life.”
& may fortune guide her journey? really?
also that booty tho
I love how castle has the chance to meet someone even more egotistical than him
Never meet your heroes
Aww webisodes, that's cute af! I'm a big fan of fanfiction
you're allowed to like a show even if it is bad
who is this man!? also she went by k-becks?
your WHAT NOW?
Henry Barnett: You should've seen her as Lieutenant Chloe. Oh, wait. You can!
fracking, I heard that mostly in battlestar galactica
RC: Look at my life. (whisper) My dreams come true.
KB: Perlmutter.
SP: Detective Beckett.
RC: Perlmutter.
SP: And non-detective Castle.
that is a hell of a burn
SP: Well, as much as it pains me, Mr. Castle is… [marginally or largely] correct.
KB: How is it possible that she's killed by a laser?
RC: Easy. Someone shot her with a laser gun.
Or maybe she was already dead when she was killed by the laser gun, or she was drugged, I'm sure you would have to sit there for at least a halfminute to burn through that much flesh
KB: Nice one coming from the guy with a life-size Boba Fett in his bathroom.
a WHAT
"blasphemous" lmao
KB: posessing a...
RC: Laser blaster!
KB: ....... laser blaster
this scene with ryan showing the pic on his phone was filmed at 4am bc they screwed up the schedule
JE: First of all, ma'am, I must ask you, uh…how are you keeping those leaves on there like that?
NEBULA NINE EVE: Why don't you pull on one and find out?
JE: *staring at her (eyes)*
Maybe you can't translate well but you can say yes or no... right?
*writes her number on her boob leaf*
*esposito looks more uncomfortable than pleased tbh*
*she took his pen*
(probably glued on)
"obvi" teenager english lol
Castle shut up lol
also I'm still stuck on the fact that they just pulled castle away from his signing
ew weird bug thingy what
Becks u can say "according to my intel"
u literally said it launched your career tho?
Nikki heat type pose
Drunk? in the middle of the day?
two lieutenant chloes lmao
I don't like espt's shirt.
oh my god!!! ALEXIS???
Dressed like what castle? she is not dressed at all
apparently the cast was all weirded out bc they kind of movie-raised her since she was a teen
you know what good for her she is allowed to do what she wants ig...
Yo cops they paid good money for this!
RC: Then you wouldn't mind relinquishing your weapon.
good word
gabriel winters is so annoying
*shoots it*
*it works, & works way too well & tbh they should have been wearing eye protection*
mUZZLE CONTROL
"Zap" said the lady
As you wish <3
NO SHE IS NOT A FULL GROWN WOMAN, SHE IS A VERY YOUNG WOMAN,
plus, you two wanted it in the privacy of your own home!
"what kind of idiot does that" *looks at him*
how bad can it be?
"burning" desire XP
ryan pretty he so pretty always love his outfits, i love how he has a vest but no tie
KR: This is like the Halloween from hell.
JE: Oh, yeah, this is probably too lowbrow for you, huh? You're probably into that boring-ass intellectual kind of sci-fi, like Gattaca ((loved that one)) or 2001. The monolith-- what the hell was that?
KR: Don't ask me. No, no, swords and sorcery, that's more my thing, like, uh, Lord of the Rings.
((Ooh ryan is a fantasy guy))
[Esposito looks Ryan over. not gay at all]
JE: Yeah, I could probably see you as an elf. Or a hobbit. ((bro you are not much taller!))
KR:
HOLD ON THAT WAS THE LONE RANGER
Esposito is a fan? he could use the excuse that he did some research for the case
ryan doesn't make fun of YOU!
*authorized personnel only door in portal* "that means me!"
oH NO ARE THOSE LASERS EVIL?
love donnely. apparently his shirt caused a ton of fighting on set
& yet it is capable of great damage? Why did you make it harmful then? You could have made it so it feels warm when you get shot, maybe even hot, but this thing is deadly!
What kind of protection? Probably goggles
Hm, license plates
Castle, bringing the convo back to needing protection
*cut to castle still being concerned & feeling his face*
*beckett talking abt the symbolism*
ofc he'd be concerned abt his hair
alexis XD.
S name!
esposito seems like he may have a nice outfit but I can't tell
*The elevator opens in front of them with a ding and Castle is there, looking anxious*
RC: Hey. Tell me, you guys, do you think my hair is thinning?
*espt looking at his head with a grimace*
*castle flinches*
he's just playing with him
Also why did castle not go wit hthem> isn't he supposed to be shadowin gbeckett?
surprised they are not doing a b plot parallel here
I really want to go to a masquerade ball
doing a movie or reboot WITH YOU or what?
sort of?
Ah masks
lots of money holy crap
idrk if I like ryan's outfit today. It is nice & all but... yk I don't much like those stripes & smth is awkward abt it
yk what valid
but her voice is so small
lol castle pretending to be capt max
ew, still a crime scene
it WAS a stupid show but it was still enjoyable!
alexis leaving home!
Oh feminism. Good for her.
What was that buzz sound tho?
I like beckett's jacket
I also like how max has never NOT worn his outfit
"I need you to resist a little less"
"overacting much?"
Ah the mark of cain
They could have just got like,, a handheld uv flishlight
Why didn't he want to show his left hand? was he afraid he had smth else on his hand? phone numbers? bodily fluids?
Except wouldn't he have gotten The Talk about protection
"I'm captain max!"
He's so proud of that hole in the wall lol
there just so happens to be a UV thing there? & then there were detectives behind the door?
dang she is insane
WOAH HE JUST DID THAT
is ther a functional stun setting tho?
the two egomaniacs I love it
*tries telekenesis*
bribery lol
Ooh a nebula nine marathon
aw come on as long as it is light hearted youo should totally make fun
*castle trying to close the elevator doors faster*
Fun music, sexy legs, then THAT face & he falls off the bed
KB, with a bloody creaver mouth & mask: You want to make out, Castle? Rawr.
So wait if there was a ship is it real?
I was a firefly fan so I mostly only got the firefly references but there were a lot of other scifi members on the crew or smth so they made a bunch of references to their stuff too.
I highly suggest watching the audio commentary. Super fun.
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An Interview with Geoff Follin: 5 Years Later
5 years ago today I published an interview with former video game composer Geoff Follin, it’s by far the biggest thing I’ve ever done online as at the time of my interview there wasn’t much known about him so the interview got a lot of attention and got shared around everywhere.
As someone who had a massive Tim and Geoff Follin craze growing up, actually being the one to bring Geoff, someone who was mysterious for decades, into the public spotlight was absolutely incredible and it’s definitely one of the things I’m most proud of. So I decided to give a “director’s cut” on the interview and look back on how the interview holds up today.
As I mentioned on my original TwitLonger post I managed to secure an interview with Geoff over trying an old email of his, then trying to email his brother Mike, before eventually managing to get a response to a comment I left on Geoff's YouTube account that he was fine to do an interview and provided me an email to use where we arranged a time and date.
...But I do have to be honest, going back through that interview (especially the original TwitLonger post) made me cringe at parts. I don’t normally do interviews (hence why this is the only one I’ve ever done) but in hindsight I could have done a lot of things differently.
For one I ask too many questions relating to Geoff’s experience as a video game composer when the answer was always the same – He was okay doing it at the time but it wasn’t something he was really interested in and was happy moving away from it while doing something he was passionate about instead.
Furthermore instead of drawing attention to the fact that typos happened I should have just fixed them [like this] which is exactly what the republished version of the interview did (which I'll go into later) it looks incredibly rude honestly calling them out like that and this wasn't just with the typos either but in other sections as well, such as when I added "[In hindsight I should have guessed he meant to say “I” not “U”, also at this point he starts taking a long time to respond to my questions, so I ask if he’s alright, and that’s why his next response starts with “I’m doing other things too” I did ask if he’d like to finish the interview another time, but he wanted to keep going]" which is REALLY awkward to read and makes me glad that the republished version got rid of this entirely.
Speaking of, when I talk about the "republished" version, I mean this one on VGArc[dot]org, from what I remember this was the first website to republish my interview along with adding in a lot of new snippets of context (such as links and screenshots to whatever Geoff and I were talking about) and by cleaning it up a little making certain sections better to read (which is something I should have done in the first place). If you haven't read the interview yet I strongly recommend reading the version on this website since it's honestly a lot better than my original post (there was another website that republished my interview as well however the site seems to be gone since I can't find it).
Another thing to mention is at the time of the interview, there was a website called SongTreasure[dot]com which was the first time Geoff had put himself and his family in the public spotlight (excluding his YouTube channel where he posted his music) the purpose of this website was that your child would sing a song that they'd have available and then you would send the recording of the song the child sang to SongTreasure, they would then give the song back as a "personalised gift" by including an instrumental to the recording and also do any editing / sound mastering if required. A KickStarter was setup but it didn't reach its funding goal, you can listen to some of the original songs on Geoff's YouTube channel but otherwise there's nothing else (I should note my explanation of how SongTreasure worked probably isn't the best as the site doesn't exist anymore so I apologise if that's the case).
However while SongTreasure wasn't a success, you may notice that throughout this post I've regularly brought up Geoff's YouTube channel as it's not only still up but music is still posted to this day! whether they're soft piano pieces, the original songs he made for SongTreasure or even a song where his family is involved!
Interviewing Geoff Follin 5 years ago was such an interesting experience, being just 19 at the time and despite never doing an interview before I wanted to try to arrange one with him, and while I've mentioned things I would have done differently overall I'm so happy to have done this interview back then I'm really proud of doing it :)
Thanks for reading!
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vmin is such a curious case to me. u know u have taehyung swearing up and down how he loves jimin the most out of everyone but he comes online today after such a long time not even mentioning jimin and jhope being in paris and instead feeding delusional shippers by randomly mentioning jungkook 😭 its just soooooo it’s giving insecure tbh. becuz it’s like clockwork everytime hes not in the spotlight , he gets insecure, comes online feed the shippers and dips. i really cant take this whole vmin shit srsly at all even jimin was like “hmmm yeah i like u too i guess taehyung 🫤”
Vmin the actual real couple that doesn't need to be seen or known to be real <3
In regards to vmin, I think a lot about this weird human phenomenon that is how you can love someone to death but not really like them. I don't see Jimin and Taehyung as "kindred spirits", they don't seem to have anything in common. I've said before that they're friends because they were put in the same group and they learned to love each other, but I don't think they would've been friends right now, if they met as regular people.
You might also love someone but think another person is better at something; maybe you enjoy more doing something with A while still loving B a lot. You probably have friends with whom is funnier to go dancing, other who prefers going to the cinema with you, other who likes shopping, etc. I've never seen vmin share interests or match hobbies. Never, literally never. There's no commonality, no middle ground for them to meet at in terms of likeness. And there's nothing wrong with that.
Jimin said once that his ideal travel partner was a mix between Namjoon and Jungkook, and he gave his reasons tho I don't remember right now and I can't find anything about it. But he said that. The times Jimin has had a chance to travel tho, he doesn't go with Namjoon or Jungkook 🤷♀️ Jimin has been travelling for years with other guys, other friends. People who are probably more suited to his travel habits. It doesn't mean he doesn't love Jungkook or Namjoon because he doesn't travel with them, just maybe that are people that are better for Jimin to do that with.
So yeah, vmin love each other. But do they choose each other to share their everyday life with? It doesn't seem so.
I've always believed that in things like that, Jungkook and Taehyung are more like each other than vmin are. There is more camaraderie, more commonality between taekook. They have similar hobbies, they share the same interests, whatever name you wanna give to it. I really believe they're more alike than people imagine.
Taehyung is opportunistic. He knows that his relationship with Jungkook is celebrated to an abnormal degree, he knows that his fans enjoy seeing them together and want to see more of them. Until some time ago, he was literally named as the "weverse king" because he spent so much time interacting with fans on the platform. Weverse, a site that's literally flooded with taekook content. A site where he even interacted with taekook content and with taekookers.
So he uses that. He's got a friend in Jungkook and it's also good for business, why not just take advantage of it. His friendship with Jungkook doesn't change, it's s harmless. He's not hurting anyone except some jikookers feelings.
All of Taehyung's friendships are useful to him, btw. Taehyung has big celebrities as friends, and he's gotten a role in a drama, a couple of OSTs, a cameo in a MV, he did ITS with his friends, he went to Paris fashion week with a friend, he went to a radio show with another, now he has a cooking show coming up where he is once again with another friend. He literally hasn't done anything that wasn't somehow tied to his friend's connections in the industry. I can't say that their friendships are not real, they probably do love each other. But are those friendships useful to Taehyung for more than just company? Yes. Is he using that? Yes.
For the fandom, he knows how to "show off" his friendship with Jungkook and he knows (BOTH know) that it works.
I don't think I have anything else to say about it, I actually have talked about tk/vmin a lot just that the posts are all spaced out.
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Art Deep Dives #1 - The Value of Art ~
Hi everyone!
This is the start to another project I want to start on this account, a companion to my Art Advice tag, and each week or so I’ll be ‘deep diving’ into art history, arts & culture, society’s relationship to art, etc etc... (I basically want to make use of my history of art degree, and also because I genuinely love talking about this stuff... especially without the pressure of deadlines lol)
Side note: don’t worry about these being really ‘academic’ or ‘formal’, since neither of those things are in my vocabulary lol... this is a very casual, informal kind of ‘essay’ writing that I want to be accessible to everyone, regardless of how much you know about art!
This first one is a kind of follow up of my Art Advice post talking about references, and I’ll be talking about the ideas of how we ‘value’ art.
(this is about 1600 words long by the way...)
The Value of Art
It’s no secret that art is highly subjective. Particularly when it comes to the question of ‘what is the most important type of art?’. It changes from person to person, country to country, and era to era. How we define ‘great art’ now is vastly different to how we defined it several hundred years ago. I mean, just look at the kinds of art in galleries in the modern era (Tracey Emin’s bed comes to mind) versus that of the 18th century (with the likes of Joshua Reynolds, JMW Turner and Thomas Gainsborough). Really, it’s clear to see that what we see as ‘the most important type of art’ is forever changing...
Or... is it?
In order to really answer whether the kinds of art we value now versus that of the past has changed, we need to first establish what ‘valued art’ even means.
I think in today’s day and age, ‘value’ is often synonymous with ‘price’. So, a Banksy original chipped away from it’s original wall setting and having been sold at a Christies auction for £3.2million is, by this definition, what we as a society ‘value’ as art... Right? Or maybe ‘value’ is more to do with what kinds of works that are displayed in big galleries or public spaces? The Tate has an entire wing dedicated to the works of landscape/seascape painter JMW Turner, so surely that means that we today place a high ‘value’ on his work still? What about public sculpture? Architecture? Sculpture and architecture are often a lot more available for the general public, and even if most people wouldn’t be able to tell you who made the Statue of Liberty, they at least know about her and perhaps even enjoy to look at her? And surely the fame of buildings like the Eiffel Tower or the Taj Mahal mean that they, too, are ‘valued’ as pieces of art? And what of artworks from other countries and cultures? A Chinese man may find no ‘value’ in a painting by a so-called ‘Great Master’ of the Italian Renaissance, but instead will ‘value’ a piece of Imperial Ming Dynasty porcelain instead, does that mean his opinion is the ‘right’ one? Colonialism has played heavily into what arts are now called ‘valuable’ and what are not, so how do we quantify whether a work has ‘value’ without placing our own individual cultural bias on it?
Basically what I’m getting at is, what we value as art in this day and age is very complicated, in a big way because our society is complicated. But for the sake of arguments, and for my next few points, I will be defining an art’s ‘value’ predominantly by whether it has been featured in a big gallery... Which also means I’ll be focusing on painting and sculpture... And also focusing on the Western world of art, specifically Europe, which I want to clarify doesn’t mean I personally ‘value’ that art more, it’s just where I’m from and predominantly what I studied in my course...
Art historians often declare the Renaissance (around the 14th to 16th centuries) the ‘beginning’ of what we know as art today. But for this essay, I want to instead start a little before this, in the Early Medieval period. People often know of this era as ‘the dark ages’, in Europe at least, because it was after Rome had fallen and taken all their so-called ‘genius’ with them. A particular note for why for years we’ve seen this period as ‘regressive’ is through their art. A quick Google search of ‘Medieval baby’ will come up with a plethora of results for a wide range of paintings depicting babies (usually the baby Christ) as scaled down versions of adults, complete with receding hairlines and strangely buff arms and chests.
Now, is this because medieval babies actually looked like this? I think this is... highly unlikely... I know most things happened earlier in that era than nowadays (girls getting married and pregnant at age 14, for example), but I think it’s a bit of a stretch to think their babies had six packs... No, instead it’s more likely that rather than being direct representations of babies, these were purely symbolic. And particularly given how they often were of Christ, art historians often say that the weird adult-baby hybrids are to represent Christ’s divinity.
Now... What’s all this got to do with art and value? Well, the thing about early medieval art is that the value was almost entirely placed upon the symbology and meaning of a piece. Later in the medieval period, paintings began to become more ‘realistic’ to some extent, but it still for the most part stayed true to this idea of symbolism over representation.
That is, until we get to the Renaissance and all of that gets thrown out of the window because artists want to be able to paint babies that actually look like babies, thank you very much! And with the likes of Leonardo da Vinci championing for art to become a science, surely this means that the kinds of art that was valued in this era were highly accurate portraits or landscapes... Right?
Short answer? No.
Long answer? Well, portraits and landscapes had their place in the hierarchies of art. Portraits were often commissioned by wealthy patrons, and were basically ways of the artist showing off how good their portrait skills are. And landscapes were less important, more seen as ‘nice backgrounds’ than anything else. But the art that was highly valued by most wealthy patrons and art connoisseurs of the time was... (imagine a drum roll here please)
History painting! These are basically big biblical or mythological scenes, often with a lot of figures doing a variety of things (think Michelangelo’s Sistine Chapel), often with some pretty landscape as the backdrop, and often featuring a couple of portraits in the mix (including one of the patron who commissioned it, probably being blessed by the Virgin Mary, and a cheeky one of the artist peeking out from behind a bush or something...). From the Renaissance era up until basically the mid 19th century, History paintings were seen as the most important works of art to be featured in galleries.
And really, things only really began to change when we reached the end of the 19th century, with the development of photography.
Photography, and film, both lead to a massive shift in not only the kinds of art that are produced in the 20th century, but also the kinds of art that are valued. For so long art had been the main form of representation of society, and the advent of photographs meant that art had almost lost that ‘purpose’. Not to mention the leading towards a more secular society which no longer had a need for symbolic or spiritual artworks.
So, the only place art could really go was to become a form of expression instead. The likes of artists like Picasso and Braque pioneering cubism, being about new ways of representing the world. The Surrealists delving into ideas of the subconscious. Pop-Artists like Warhol looking into media and consumerist society, and the list goes on...
Which brings us onto my most hated period in the history of art: Conceptual art.
I’m not going to go big into this period, which is still around today (unfortunately), but all you need to know is this twat Marcel Duchamp flipped a urinal (which he didn’t even make himself) upside down and called it a ‘fountain’ and shoved it into a gallery and thus art that has no value beyond it being ‘concept based’ was born. And yes, yes I hate it a lot (I’m not even trying to be objective about this, I hate conceptual art with a burning passion... some guy put some sh*t in a box and put it in a gallery & called it art and I am SO mad about it lol...). And as much as I hate this period, what it does signify is how art began to be valued not through the craftsmanship of the work itself, but instead the ideas.
And this idea remains today. Damien Hirst has forged his entire art identity on creating works that are based entirely on some ‘meaning’ that could be forced onto it, rather than the aesthetic or material value. And as mentioned before, Tracey Emin’s infamous bed isn’t about the work and effort gone into the piece itself, but instead about what the artists intends for the piece to ‘mean’. So, the ‘value’ of the work is what it says, and not what it is, essentially.
(This is not to say that there are no artists who work today that get featured in galleries and are highly skilled at their craft. The one that springs to mind is Grayson Perry, who’s well known for his pottery and tapestries with some kind of social commentary bled into them.)
This ideology around art also bleeds into online spaces of art (which I see as distinctly separate from the world of art galleries and the Turner prize). I still see artists, and non-artists, talking about how much they enjoy work that is ‘original’, and oftentimes ridiculing and demoting ‘fanart’ as purely ‘derivative’ or ‘unoriginal’.
And all this brings us back to history paintings. Because their ‘value’ wasn’t just in the immense amount of skill that went into them. A large part of their ‘value’ was that artists and non-artists alike saw them as feats of the artist’s ‘genius’ or ‘imagination’ at play. And in the same way that Early Medieval art was valued for the symbology of the piece rather than the representation, history paintings had the benefit of including both elements. In essence, they were both meaningful AND beautiful.
In conclusion (just to remind you that this is technically an essay lol), a lot about art HAS definitely changed in the last few hundred years, particularly in what kinds of art is getting made now (and why we make art in the first place). However, what we as a collective society ‘value’ as art has remained surprisingly the same, often with a heavy preference for a work’s meaning and symbology, which can sometimes overshadow the craftsmanship of the work itself.
I still hate that godforsaken Duchamp toilet though...
(images used:
unknown medieval painting (I just liked that he had his hand down mary’s dress lool)
mona lisa by da vinky
detail of the creation of adam on the sistine chapel by michelangelo
a photograph by louis daguerre, often known as the father of photography
*clenches fist* ‘fountain’ by marcel duchamp
‘my bed’ by tracey emin )
I hope you enjoyed this informal essay about art, I will definitely be doing more of these in the future! If you have any thoughts on this, feel free to reply to this or message me, etc! I love having open and frank conversations about art!
#art history#art discussion#essay#history of art#art#long post#renaissance art#early medieval art#conceptual art#i over simplified a lot of this i know but i hope this is still interesting to read lol!#art deep dives#value of art#no sources or bibliography because we die like MEN#(also u want me to site things that i can't remember why or how i know them??? look just... trust me plz...)#(honestly this is more about sparking a discussion than anything lol)
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Yowww i've been thinking about this for a while now😩😩😩 imagine
Fem reader and jay are childhood bffs and after so many years both of you meet at a meeting for like collab of your companies as ceo and then both of you are the only one left at the meeting area and start talking for a while, until you can't control it anymore so you just kiss him, so he brings you to his office and starts fucking you rough at his desk😩🤤🤤, and after that he's going to be so gentle to you like he wasn't fucking you so rough mins ago😫 both of you talks about the collab thingy at the bath tub😍😚👌👌✨
CEO JAY??!!! I JUST I CANT 🥵🥵 like just imaging him calling you his little cum slut ª *dies. Gurl you just inspired me to write a whole story ily <3. Hope you like it. (I made it very special couse you are my first ask omg I really hope you like it)
Our Little Secret
CEOJay x CEOreader
Jay was your childhood friend and also your first love. But as always, first love's never end up right. Now you seem in a very difficult situation between the CEO of Park Tech. Corp. and you, CEO of T.T.Corporation, who is trying to do a collab between companies. You might ask what is the problem here? Well the problem name is Park Jay. "u know? I didn’t like the way he was looking at you, princess...”
Warnings/genre: CEOJay, CEOreader, SecretaryHeeseung, childhood bffs, fluff, suggestive, angst, smut, fingering, unprotected sex(stay safety), use of curse words, pet names(slut-princess-baby), breeding kink, kind of public sex. (Also a lot of typos sorry)
Words: 6k (it's kind of long.)
You have been friends with Jay since childhood, charing and doing everything together. From him assisting to your littles tea parties, playing pirates and rescue the princess to even bathing together, obviously the bathing thing stopped when you guys grew older, but sleeping together still was a thing. For Jay you were his princess, the most beautiful he ever seen and for you, Jay was your brave knight in shiny armor. You loved to play with him because he became your best friend and your confident in crime, but for him, you were more special than a friend. He didn't have any friends because he was very (a mean a lot) shy so when you appeared and told him that he will stick with you because you are a princess and he must protect you...he just did. And after that you have been the only friend and the only one who he wanted to be with. His parents were so happy to see how a shy boy like Jay, everytime he arrives home shout out loud, that when he grow up he is gonna make you his wife, like in the movies where the knight who rescue the princess get married. Even though your parents didn't understand why such a fancy boy and a future CEO saw in their little daughter who still eat buggers and can't use skirts couse she doesn't now how to sit properly, "well anyways its just kids love" they said. But for Jay as the time passed and he grew, so did his love for you. "She is my best friend!" "What am I thinking? I'm getting too greedy" thoughts like this rounded in his head hoping they'll disappear one day.
It was beggining to bother him a little, also because you were so dumb that you didnt think your actions make to him, you never notice his small nervousness when you both sleep together or when you hold his hand everytime you want to guide him to somewhere, he really tried to control himself whenyou sited on his lap or when you ask him to shower with you like the times we're you were little. You always told him everything from your first kiss with the weird guy of your class (story wich he couldn't stop making fun of you, of how desperate you were to kiss someone, that you didn't even care if you knew him) to when you got your period. You were his precious special person, and so was he for you.
"Mum! I'm leaving bye"
"Are you going to y/n place? Remember to give her the sweater she left here, God she left everything her panties, her shorts and even her bra. Everything is in the bag hahahaha this kid..." she smiled remembering when y/n heard that Jays aunt was having a birthday party without cake couse they forgot to buy one. Which was something you'll never let it be. "Every birthday party need a cake" that's what you said. You didn't knew the mess that baking a cake took, so after making the cake you were so dirty that you had to borrow some of Jay's clothes (something very normal between them) "she got all dirty helping me to bake the cake for your aunts birthday"
"Got it! Bye!"
"Jay com here please!! I don't want to keep screaming!"
With a little sigh he went to the kitchen were his mom was, he knew what she was going to say, but he didn't want to hear it, it just wasn't fair.
"Jay, you know you have to tell her right? This is your last week and-"
"I know I know" he takes a deep breath and kisses his mom head.
Jay was the only son of Mr. Park, CEO of Park Tech Corp and eventually, he will became the CEO of PTC in the future. Because of this, his father made the decision to send him to study abroad so that he could prepare himself in a better way. It wasn't as if he couldn't prepare here, but his father was sure that this would benefit his son so no one would have the opportunity to remove Jay from his position with the cheap excuse that he was not prepared. Jay tried to intervene in his father's decision by never getting into trouble and having perfect grades, but all his attempts were useless. And for the worst, Jay's last year in school, his dad decided to send him to Canada where he could be an exchange student.
He really was upset because he didn't even have the time to confess you how much he loved you.
When he arrive to your house, he found your mom making salad, but with green olives. Jay knew your hate to green olives, so he made a mental note to let you know what your mom made for dinner.
"Hi Jay! How are you?" Your mom asked
"Hi Mrs. L/n, I'm fine. Is y/n upstairs?"
"Yes! Go tell her that dinner is ready"
"Okay!" Jay said while going upstairs to your room.
"Jay!" You exclaimed, excited to see him
"You haven't eaten yet?" He throw the bag with your clothes on your face
"Yes I diiiiid, but at kfc, after school, you didn't come with me remember? You said your father arrived from his business trip, and you wanted to talk to him about some "none of your bussienes loser""you muck at Jay trying to imitate his voice, you were angry, couse he didn't tell you about what he would be talking to his dad. He just mess with your hair while he ignores your face full of curiosity about what he have talked with his dad.
"My mom washed your clothes. ¿ y/n you know? You need to stop forgetting your clothes on my house, this will scared hot chicks from coming since they will think that I have a girfriend"
"Firstly thank your mom for me, and second, Jay you are so lonly that the only comfort you have for your "needs" is your hand"
Jay scoffs "that's what you think"
You just roll your eyes at him while making space at your bed for him to take a seat besides you.
"Sooo playboy, what's new?"
His smile drops when he hears this, just remembering what his mom told him, and that he only got 1 week with you. He didn't want to seem obvious but it just went like this.
"Jay? What's wrong? Are you Ok?"
"It's nothing I'm just sad that my best friend still a virgin"
he really didn't want you to get sad the whole week so he said he will wait a little more to tell you the truth.
"JAY SHUT THE FUCK UP I TOLD YOU THAT HIS DICK WAS UGLY AND I GOT SCARED"
He laughs while you was beating his ass. He really wish things were different, and those cute little moments, like this ones, with you, stay like this forever.
"¡Hey hey ok ok! stop punching me, it actually hurts ¡auch!"
"Yeah? I think I'm still stronger than you"
"Oh really?" He stands on his knees and he grabs both of your wrists with strength hovering over you. He was really strong, and you knew that, it was useless to even try to slip away. Gosh Jay was going to be the death of you someday. You don't know when or where did the little shy and crybaby go. You were even not just stronger but taller than him. He was now a man, he is way more stronger and taller than you now. You would be lying if you said you didn't loved to have such a hot best friend like Jay, every girl at you school was envious couse the guy was just too perfect. He was handsome, always with perfect grades and also perfect body; a body like his got every girl drooling over him, he was a little tan and his abs were tonned just in the perfect size (everyone knew it couse he always he always took off his sweater in practice) but you never wanted to admit it. You didn't want his flirting ass over you bothering you until you die. But you where always thankfull that you have the opportunity to watch him in your everyday. The way his arms flex when he carried the groceries, the way his jaw line accentuate while eating or how his eyes twinkled just when he was with you, you loved all of him and also you loved how goofy he was only to you, always taking care of you. But you didn't want to cross the line, you thought that he only saw you as a friend, and he knew so much about you and your not girly side, that you were sure he didn't even look at you as a woman. Nevertheless, you were so gratefull that you at least you got to see him be happy.
"Ok you win you are stronger" You shove your head looking at other side, not wanting him to see your flustered face with your now reddened cheeks.
He chuckles at your attempts to try to throw him off of you and he throw himself beside you in your bed. The little action giving you butterflies.
"I'm gonna stay tonight, and I'm not asking you"
"Again?" You sounded annoyed but in the inside you were so happy. " come on, you know how lucky you are having Park Jay at your bedroom?!" "Oooooh im so sorry your highness, what an honor" you said sarcastically.
"Thats what I thought loyal peasant, Oh and your mom made salad with green olives so I don't recommend you to go downstairs" you went to take a bath after that and so did Jay,in the guests bathroom.
You fell asleep first and he made space beside you, but unlike other nights that he sleeped with you, he was way much closer to your face, just admiring you, trying to take a mental photo of you for him, to never forget this moment. He take a strand of hair behind your ear and then put his hand on your cheek, caressing it with his thumb. "Gosh you are so beutifull" All of this was happening WHILE YOU WERE TRULY AWAKE. You were waiting for Jay when he was washing, but you don't know why, when he got into your room, you act like you were sleeping.
You didn't know what to say, you would be ruining the moment if you said you were awake. You try to calm yourself saying that maybe it was just a compliment as a friend right? Then he hugged you, your heart beating like crazy. He put his head on the top of yours and with that, both bodies being this close, both of you went to dreamland.
All the week you notice Jay being a little weird after that night, he was being way to nice to you. He was always nice, but in all that week he didn't even make fun of you with anything he didn't even make those flirtatious lame joke on you. He always did make fun of you when he had a chance so you knew something was happening. You ignore it couse you like the extra care he was giving you, it was like he was your boyfriend, just the mention of the idea made you happy until Saturday came. That day, he invited you to the park to watch the stars with him while eating ice cream just for fun he said.
"I don't get it" the handsome boy say "so you like to eat toothpaste??"
"Jay it's just choco-mint ice cream bear with it, anyways I know you wanted to tell me something. You don't like parks because of mosquitos, so tell me what's wrong?" You stare deep in his eyes wanting to know what got the picky guy to have a date in the park for fun, with you.
"Y/n" your breath hitch In your throat to the proximity of the boy to your face. He put your ice cream away (they were on cups) cupping your face with his big hands.
"I-i don't know how to tell you this, it's just so difficult for me-"
You didn't even let the boy finish the sentence when you close the gap between each other and you kiss him with so much desesparation that you fell over him in the blanket that he placed on the grass. You chuckle at the surprised face Jay did.
"Gosh you are so slow, Park, that's why you are alone" you stand in your hands with him still caged under you. "I also like you Jay"
And with that Jay hugs you by the waist making you sit on his lap while crying. You were happy that you both felt the same, and the thought that he was crying because he is such a crybaby , make your heart skip a beat but what you didn't know was that the real reason was that he knew that when he finally got you he now will loss you.
He didn't say anything, scared to hurt you, he just let the night pass like those dreams that you know that you are dreaming but you don't care because it's just so perfect that you want to sink on them until it's over and then you wake up facing reality. Both of you slept together just kissing and laughing because now your unrequited love was finally yours. Or that's what you thought when you were heading to the airport on Monday to say goodbye to Jay. You had so many questions ¿why he didn't say anything, ¿why now? What was the reason of him leaving?
"I hate you" it's the first thing that slips out of your mouth without hesitation while he wiped your tears that were flowing like waterfalls "I hate you Park Jay...I-i hate you with all my soul" you said this while he caresses your cheek with his thumb and with both hands as you leaned your face to his touch.
"I promise I will call you." You start to cough while crying and sniffing all your nasty fluids trying to maintain them inside your nose.
"Hey hey" Jay chuckle softly at your cuteness. "if you cry, i’ll cry....and that won’t be fun for anyone.”
You try to stop crying just sniffing couse it was really hard to calm yourself down
"Pro-promise me tha-that you will call me everyday"
He laughs kissing your forhead "I promise baby dw"
And with that your first love die that they. He didn't call you even once. He just called you when he arrived but after that he totally disappeared. The first day you were really sad but then you just got to hate him for what he did. You went to his parents house to ask why he left. Mr. Park only told you that he needed to prepare himself to be a CEO and that he is actually very busy so that's was the reason he was avoiding any distraction. ¿DISTRACTION IM I A DISTRACTION? you thought. "You should study abroad too y/n, one day you will be also a CEO at you family business, and you are a girl so the competition will be not that easy." Mr. Park said.
Jay's mom didn't even want to see you couse she felt guilty about why was Jay really avoiding you. His dad didn't like the show you made in the airport because made Jay to pick a fight before heading the airplane, he almost dropped his bags and stayed but his dad told him that he will make your live miserable if he stayed. His dad just wanted the best for him scared of people saying that his son is not capable when he know he is.
Way home you cry a little more thinking in that one night you both were so happy because you both felt the same. But now those are just memories that you hope soon forget.
"FUCK U PARK JAY" And with that your summer vacation and first love was over.
And yes here you were too stunned to speak watching the famous Park Jay in his glass office at the PTC offices building. He was all dressed up in a black suit, he got much bigger in muscle and height "wtf is wrong with the boy? Is he a Pokemon that just evolve into a better him?"You said to yourself.
"Miss L/n, Mr. Park is waiting for you to talk about the collab between both companies" You are really to stunned to speak, you knew Jay was CEO but, Oh come on there are a lot of Parks how would you know it was THAT Park company, and when you were little those were just adults conversations so you didn't know nothing about their company name.
"Ok thank you i-i am going to the bathroom first" the lady who might be Jay's secretary return you a smile and went back to her sit in the reception. And you went run-walking to the bathroom.
"Ok Jay Park, you will regret this" you said to yourself in front of the mirror and you began to doll up and open a little more your shirt by opening two buttons. You were really happy to see him again but all your sour memories of him also came to your mind. So you give yourself two gentle face slaps and you arrived to Jay's office. He was facing the Windows looking at his beautiful view in the tall building. He is so handsome, from the back he looked like the shy boy you once met and fell in love.
The secretary opened the door "Mr. Park, the CEO of TTC has arrived" when she left, you entered to his office "Good afternoon Mr. Park, my name is y/n L/n, it's a pleasure to meet you."
At first he didn't believe that he was actually watching you in front of him. You got more beutifull, he finally met again with his princess. He already knew he was going to meet you but he preferred to play it dumb. He even cut his hair so maybe he looked more handsome.
"Y/n!" He said it a little to excited "drop formalities you look so good y/n" he run to embrace you in a warm hug. "I mean I didn't know we would meet like this, ¿how are you?" You back off from the hug feeling a little mad that he got to give you butterflies even though it has been a while since you have seen him.
"Oh sorry, what's wrong?"
"Jay, people outside can still see us..."
"Oh fuck your right" he run to his desk to press a button that make curtains to lowered when there are meetings.
"So where were we? Oh how ar-"
You push him back to his seat and lean over him, giving him a view of your breast and your face to close to his face, while your hands rest in the head of the chair. "Mr. Park do you want to know how I've been?" The poor man didn't have words to get out of his mouth at your question, too drunk in your sweet scent. "To be honest with you i've been lonly, really really lonly...and neddy" you said while you remove his glasses from his face, tracing your finger from his lips to his, now hard, throbbing friend. He groan at the feeling of your knee getting pressed against his hard cock. "I kinda need help, but idk if you can do that for me" you coo and by inertia Jay puts his hands around your waist which make your breath hitch and feel dazed at his touch. "Yes y/n don't worry I will take so much care of you I promise" he guide you over his lap, you felt controlled by him, you didn't want him to take control but he was so intoxicating. When you were on his lap he first began to tell you nothings in your ear while kissing and bitting your earlobe.
"God you don't know how much I missed you...you are so perfect so hot....i-i just want to fuck you so hard baby...I missed you" he said this while groaning in your ear caressing your sides up and down. You whimper at his words and began to bounce and move a little over his big hardened dick.
"Wa-wait don't do that a-ah"
"You don't want me?" You ask pouting your lips out
"Yes I do baby b-but mmmh not a-ahg not here"
His hands stop you because he was so strong, you were needy indeed but you really want him to suffer so you stopped as he said and get up from his lap. You have almost everything planned in the bathroom, you send a message to your hot secretary and also your right hand Heeseung, that you need him to fake-date with you, which he agrees knowing the story about you and Jay. He knew you didnt hate Jay, he knew you were so in love with him that he always felt bad for you.
"Y/n I know this will seem off but would you like to take a coffee or something with m-"
"Sorry that I'm late y/n, also good evening Mr.Park, nice to meet you. I'm Lee Heeseung, secretary of Ms. Y/n."
"And also my boyfriend" you said smiling at Jay and grab Heesungs hand,putting it around your waist"
"Baby why are these buttons of your shirt opened? Let me help you" you let Hee help you and in front of him, ignoring completely the poor man existence, he was stunned like a real statue.
"I'm sorry, I came here running from your apartment Hee, I didn't wanted to wake you up, to help me, please do."
Jay cough for the attention from both of you. "Hi I'm Jay, I'm y/n's childhood best friend."
"Oh really? She never told me about you"
You must have won the lottery because you looked to happy to try to act surprised 😮. The three of you sit down and began to talk about business, Jay was falling more for you, he was amazed of how you were talking and how good your company was being carried by you, he was so proud that his girl...well not his but anyways, his y/n became such a great woman. He kind of miss the dummy y/n that always misheard things and always forgets that the math tests were on Fridays. He was looking at you as a little child is watching his favorite superheroe movie. But what bothers him is the way you keep touching your boyfriend who's name was heeseung.
Gosh he hated so much the nickname you put him "hee am I right?" You ask him while touching his chest, sometimes slipping your fingers between his bottom to touch his skin. He also didn't like the way Heeseung laid way to long his eyes on your big and heavenly butt. That just was not it, how can your boyfriend be this disrespectful. Jay said to himself, he said that he wouldn't do that things to you. He began to think about the way Heeseung touch you. Does he makes you cum undone all wet just by talking to you? Does his hands makes you feel sexy? Is he even that good that you are playing to touchy with him in a so important meeting? Jay began to let his mind fly as he imagine how he is way better than heeseung for you, he would first tell you how pretty and unique you are, how beutifull and perfect it's your body, then he would trace forms with his hands while caressing your body, making you feel loved and then he will eat you up making you feel wanted, making you want his dick inside you, Fuck, balls deep inside you " I can make you feel better"
"Excusme?" You asked knowing that maybe he was thinking about you.
"L-like I can make the company feel better, we can make our employees feel better. That's what I meant." Damn Park Jay stop thinking with your dick, he thought to himself.
"Well thats everything, what do you think"
"It's perfect, please send this to my secretary, she would take you to the Boardroom to talk about this with the others Partnerships, and y/n I need you to sign some things before you go" Hee left both of you alone giving you a quick peck on your cheecks, that took you by surprise too, how Hee was being so bold, but he was helping you to get your revenge. (He needed a raise ) you thought to give him a raise for being such a good friend.
" Y/n why didn't you tell me you have a boyfriend?"
"Why would I tell you?"
"You said you felt l-lonly a-and" he saw you bent to sign the papers he gave you. Your skirt wasn't helping him, neither his throbbing dick. He was angry hard and leaking pre-cum. "You have a boyfriend and you were playing with me a few hours earlier". "I mean I can do whatever I want since you don't own me"
"Yeah I know! but do you even know him that well? ¡ I saw how he looks at you, he just want your body! And maybe your company." He was just giving excuses from how jealous he was.
"I don't really care u know?" You step closer to Jay, he was so tall that he need to look down to look at you. "As long as he fucks me hard and good it's perfect for me" you look at him with a smirk and seductive eyes.This just make Jay more angry at the thought you having hard sex with your secretary. He was angry but also sad.
"I thought you miss me" His voice being lower while your hands slips around his neck. Getting way to close to his face.
"Yeah but...do t think you can fuck me as good as he does?" and with that you take your folders heading to the door but before you go you say: "fuck, he just fucks me as good as the boy who slept with me while you were gone" with this said you let him in his office thinking about that night were you confessed to him. It was all a lie? Did you just wanted to be fucked and that's why you confessed? But you both cuddle just loving each other without lust in your mind. Did he was the only one in love? Of course he had other girlfriends while being abroad, but you were always in his mind. Now he was mad, he wanted to see you cry as he cried for you, he wanted to hear you scream his name, see you all tearfully, messy and full of him, he wanted to see you fucked dumb by him, he didn't care if you still love him, he just wanted you to pleading him to fuck you hard.
It was all I lie what you told him, your ex's never fill that space that Jay left in your heart, you just wanted him to suffer, but at the same time you wanted him to grab your wrist and hug you, but nothing of that happened.
You and Hee waited in the boardroom patiently. Hee was sitting beside you, while Jay was sitting in front, the others were dispersed in the other chairs. Jay's secretary was going to put a video that your company made about your collab with PTC after you presented yourself.
While the video was running you slide your foot out of your shoe and began to touch Jay's dick with it, he was startled at first, but he looked at you with different eye from earlier, his gaze was no more soft and sweet but very dark and somehow lustfull eyes, he seems kind of mad, but you didn't care. He grab your foot and squeeze it a little bit for you to stop but you continued, and now you were not just caressing his dick, but also his thighs. He didn't resist to long, so when he slipped his view down to see you working him up, he saw your hand on Heeseung's thigh, being also caressed and squeeze. If he was mad, now he was REALLY mad (lmao). He shove your foot with anger, away from is throbbing dick. He was now waiting the time your stupid video ends just to teach you a lesson. He was going to demonstrate that he was not the same boy you made fun of.
When the video finished every one clapped at the amazing an well explained proposal at the company collab product. But Mr. Park was not happy, he didn't seem happy. Everyone wait to Mr.Park give his opinion, so the room got silent.
"I don't think this will be the best for my company, I need to think about it and talk to Ms. Y/n about this collab."
"But why? It's really good and the statistics say that this will benefit our company in every way." One of your common partnership stated really annoyed at Mr.Park absurd request .
"I said I'll think about it" he raise his voice with a demanding tone. "Ms. Y/n let's talk, everyone else, get out" as he said everyone did, so there were just him and your confused self, trying to understand why did he rejected your idea, when he was so approval about it.
"Mr. Park I don't underst-"
You were cut by him roughly kissing your lips as he pin you against the wall, keeping you trapped between him. You began to moan when he start bitting you on your sweet spot right between the end of your jaw and your neck. But you try to shove him away. That's right, you tried but he was so strong that he grab your writs with one hand and pinned it to the wall, while the other was placed in your pussy, teasing your little clothed cunt.
"You're soaking wet, baby. Have you been like this since your little jumps on my dick earlier?" You moan when you felt Jay's fingers slide your panties for better access, pressing one finger against your slit, making you whimper at the felling of his fingers so close to be inside you.
"I hate you" you try to mutter, feeling to good to speak properly, you really missed him and remembering how hard was his dick earlier just make it worst. "So do I...we finally feel the same way eh princess?" He said near your ear " there's is to much clothe up hear, let me help you " he said the line from Hee earlier, just mad at how close he was to your boobs.
He starts to unbutton your shirt just to found himself in front of you boobs covered with a cute black lace bra that covered absolutely nothing of your breasts. He almost came at the site of your nipples all hardened pocking against the small holes of the lace bra. He began to lick them and bite them with so much desesperation, just like a starved man. You were a moaning mess under him, it was too much, you just came from him only teasing you.
“It’s hard to hate you when you’re under me like this, submissive and breathless. Gorgeous sight really”
"Fuck u Jay your never be as good as he-"
You moan immediately as his two fingers enter you and began to fuck you fast with them, not letting you finished your sentence.
“Dont say his name...u know? I didn’t like the way he was looking at you princess. ” now he enter three fingers inside you, while talking low in your ear "I really mean it when I said I can make you feel better but you were being a bratty princess" you pussy clenching at the pet name. You always were his princess and you knew it, and after he left you still were, you just didn't want to admit it.
You were almost at your limit, you were going to cum but suddenly he slowed down, now slowly stroking his fingers in and out , feeling you desperately clench against his fingers "It's a shame, I don't like bratty princesses " you were so desesparate to find your high that you began to fuck yourself faster with his fingers. He chuckles at this action and took out his fingers. You whine in desasparation.
"I said I didn't like bratty princesses, so if you behave, maybe I can make you feel better" he had his leg intertwined between your legs trying to get some sort of friction for his clothed dick so you started panting and whimpering and bucking your hips in search of your climax and somehow to have a sort of control over him.
"Y/n" he groan breathlessly "If you do that one more time I'll-" "You'll what? Punish me?" You said also breathlessly "Don't test me, you do not want me to fuck you when I'm angry" "oh, I'm sure I do" with that said he bend you over the meeting table and taking your skirt with your panties with a pull and his pants, without any warning he pump his dick two times and began to tease your folds with his dick. He like it messy so he covered your pussy with his pre-cum while teasing your folds.
"J-Jay" you scream in desesparation wanting him inside you ASAP.
"You will stop being a a fucking bratty princess?"
"Ye-yes I promise! Fuck-I promise"
"Say it properly, princess or else you will not be having my dick inside you"
"Yes Jay omg- I'm gonna be a good princess just for you mmmh j-just fill me up please!" He groan at your pleads and start fucking the shit out of you, he was so angry that you were going to head home with your boyfriend that he just wanted to hear you scream his name.
"you like it when i fuck you like this? yeah you do."
"Mhhhh a-ah feel-so-good" he was fucking so hard that the only sounds heard in the room were your moans, his low growls and the sound of the table moving.
“ i want to hear you ¿who is making you feel so good, babe." He began to trust you slow but hard until he heard his name
Jay o-onmm only you jay
"I know my little princess can say my name louder than that” he grab your hair for support to fuck you harder.
"Just you Jay can make me feel so full...mmmh please I'm so close... go faster". You whimper while small drops of tears began to form and you didn't even notice that you were crying of pleasure. Your whimpers and moan just turn him even more, he was also so close ar this rate.
He knew you were close too because how hard you began to squeeze his dick, making his hard start to twitch inside your walls.
"good girl—that's a good fucking girl."
"Baby I'm so close p-please cum inside please"
"Mmm, i know baby, you are getting so tight mmm I want you to look at me when I cum inside you" your belly was on fire, tightening as you get closer and closer to cumming, he grab your chin with his hand and began to kiss you in messy way while he reapeted "your mine, only mine" in your mouth. You cum when he began to squeeze both of your boobs, moaning mess under him making him cum from your angelic sounds.
Both trying to get back on earth he start to kiss your face,neck and shoulder to wait for you to calm down from how hard you came.
"Y/n...I'm sorry, please breakup with him...I never stopped loving you, give me a chance to demonstrate you how much I care about you." Jay said while his head rest on the back of your shoulder.
"Hee is not my boyfriend" you breath out Finally confessing your little facade.
"What!?"
"Mr.Park did Ms. L/n finished signing?" Jay's secretary asked behind the door.
"SHE WILL BE RIGHT BACK IN A MOMMENT JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE!" He shout desperately running towards the door to lock it up.
"We will talk about this at my apartment ok?"
You chuckle and you nodded. He gave you a kiss on your fronthead as he immediately search for your skirt and help you put it on back again. Jay grab your panties and save it in his pants pocket. When both were out of the boardroom Hee saw your messy hair and smirked at you knowing what just may had happened in those long 30min of paperwork.
So everyone had headed back home as so did Jay, taking you in his car to his apartment. You both were silent in the car but it wasn't awkward, you felt again, someway,in home.
His apartment was very big, it was a penthouse, so you expected to big very big. It was very luxurious and all the room screamed Jay Park, black marble floor and white walls, everything was so pretty, it was like a dream house.
"Do you like pasta? Let's eat it with red whine.¿what do you think baby?"
"So Mr.Park knows how to cook?"
"When you live alone you need to learn how to cook in order to survive"
"I just saw the restaurant bags with the food Jay"
"But I'm the one who bought them so I made it"
You giggle while he grabs you close to him by your waist and start kissing your neck
"Jay.."
"Y/n let's take a shower"
"Mh?"
"Like when we were kids, ¿remember? I really missed you..."
You nodd so now you both are heading to the bath top, he helps you to take your clothes off and you help him too. He motion his hands p and down to tell you to sit on his lap. He began to scrub your back and while he plant wet kisses over your body, just loving the way you squirm at his touch.
He told you why he was avoiding you and you told him the truth that you always loved him and that you didn't actually fuck with someone until you were 23 and it was your worst experience ever. You both laugh at lame jokes and little stories you didn't know between each other from the time that both of you were separated. He hugged you again when you both didn't have anything more to say "Lets stay like this, forever, y/n...please"
"Of course Jay, I have waited for you all my life" "me too" he began to kiss you so gently and soft, but the action became more lustfull since both of your naked bodies were touching. "Jay let me ride you" you said breathlessly as Jay grab your waist and turn you to face him. You immediately begin to kiss his jaw, sinking his cock inside you, both moaning at the stretch. You kept kissing his face,his neck and then down his chest, leaving little red spots for him to remember that everything that happened this day was not a dream " Y/n I might cum very fast if you keep doing that" "I'm ok with it, just want you to cum inside me" "s-shit why are you so dirty...mmmh not complaining though...I like my princess being so dirty and lustfull for me" he smirks kissing your boobs, you moan his name at the sudden lick in your nipple while one of his hand care for the other bood. He began to touch your clitoris for you to cum fast because your moans were driving him very close to the edge. "Jay f-fuck fill your little princess with your seeds mmmh" "y/n, princess I'll make you feel so full of me, I'm gonna make you only mine, I'll breed you everyday baby, I'll make sure that you're always will be stuffed with my cock " you clenched his cock making him cum all inside you "y/n I love you" and with that you also cum. Now both of you needed a second wash but it was worth it because now you finally have your knight with shiny armor with you by your side.
"Jay, what about our collab, and now that we are together what will we do?"
"Don't worry princess this can be our little secrete."
He was right, it would be to sudden that Mr. Park had a girlfriend who was the CEO who offered him the collab, so both of you will wait a little more of time to tell everyone about the union about the two companies. But he wasn't going to let you go to your apartment ever again, he promised himself to never ever let you you go.
The end
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Notes: I really hope you like it. Im also very new here so hope you give this a lot of love and support.
#enhypen smut#enhypen hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#enhypen jay smut#jay enhypen smut#enhypen park jongseong#jay smut#park jongseong
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elphie anon 🐘
I read MID ch7 instantly when you posted it and had to take a couple of days to just to comprehend... uhm, some... feelings. So forgive me, since I've bottled this up and will result in a long message ... but the work is just so good I can't resist showering you with praise.
You live in my mind rent free.
I can't describe how cute and domestic everything was in the early parts then hOt, then just ditty dotty destroyed me in the later scenes.
The smut was... *clears throat, wipes forehead daintily*... it made me feel stuff that I should otherwise be used to in esp in this site, but when mid Tae told YN to behave I think it took my brain minutes to comprehend that I'm just reading a wonderfully crafted piece. And that no, I should not feel my knees to weaken and toes curl, but they did anyway. Gotta say, the mind is a powerful thing.
But as it turns out, SAMMY IS SO MUCH POWERFUL.
The whole trip with Jimin really solidified what was coming in the end of this chaoter, it tastefully and comprehensively vocalised the conversation about this whole feelings ordeal first with YN, and paved way for that earth shattering ending. I can't help but remember thay quote from The Perks of Being a Wallflower when I was reading: "we accept the love we think we deserve."
Damn, really. While it hurts to see and more on resonate with how hard it is to accept love from others after certain unfortunate relationships (yn), I really commend you on choosing to write this realistically. I think her mindset towards this type of stuff, while not really the best, is well-built enough to show how hard and conflicting it is to see yourself have worth for love. And it isn't easy to change in a matter of moments, but it is worth changing this perception just as it is worth seeing and admitting when you love someone.
For me, it's also worth seeing that sometimes the love others give us are dependent on how much they treasure us, and that's theirs alone. It's not something that we get to decide no matter how much we think we shouldn't hsve it, but something that, at least here, is something they spend just as much thought and effort to ensure and choose.
Tae felt it in every chapter, intensely too, with his friends as witnesses. Of course deceit can always happen, but sincerity too. You can't punish yourselves for the deciet that others do. it's their lie, faulting the victim (hate u kiseok) won't do anything, and carefulness doesn't always mean you're always right about others' intentions. I cried so much for both of them, but I guess that we can't always understand love from each's point of view as clearly as they can; we just have to learn to accept it. And trust that maybe, or surely, that they do love us, and us them.
Your talent and hardwork speaks so genuinely to my mind when I read your work; I can't say enough to thank you for letting the world see this.
... And is it true? The murmurings from the street, the rumors falling from lips? MAKE-UP SEX? YN BTCH U BETTER HEAL THAT HAND fully OR I WILL BE THE ONE TO CAREFULLY MEDICATE U SO TAE CAN FUCK YOU INTO THE DEEP DIMENSIONS OF HIS LOVE AND CARE FOR U. AND U DO THE SAME TOO BTCH BETTER KISS ALL UR FEELINGS INTO HIM.
cuz if u don't, then i shall join forces with jimin and hana.
sorry for such a long mssg huhu, and for the bad interpretation chahahzhJJJjssjjakwks
NEVER SAY SORRY FOR LONG MESSAGES I’M A CERTIFIED WHORE FOR THEM 😤
“You live in my mind rent free” Showering me with praise??? I’M- I’m crying?? I don’t even know what to say omg 😭 ASLDJLDKJ please dom!tae has that power, and it’s really only a sneak peek of what happens when you disobey him because let’s be real, Y/N will do it again sksksk. Oh God, you’re so correct, I think it summarizes perfectly what’s going on between these two. In a sense, they’re both rejecting each other on the premise either of them is not deserving of the other’s love. “We accept the love we think we deserve”, such a beautiful quote that can explain two broken people trying to find a way to love each other 🥺
You’re correct again, the human mind is a wonderfully intricate system, and oddly takes a few seconds to destroy yet years to rebuild. Y/N’s mindset comes from not only years under the emotional (and sometimes physical we’ve seen) abuse she’s endured from her mother which can largely impact any child, but also from someone she was in love with for a long time only have that love taken advantage of and abused as well. It’s crippling to anyone’s mentality and skews the idea of love for them almost eternally.
Taehyung is different because he’s never been in love before, it’s new and shiny and bright and so he fell hard and fast, he has no qualms about admitting he’s in love either because he doesn’t know the painful experience of falling in love and desires to finally be in love (only until this argument ofc) while Y/N denies it because she knows love is painful and doesn’t want to go through it again.
Though you’re correct yet again, it will present itself in future chapters but ultimately, love as pure as theirs is unconditional and cannot be changed nor forgotten. It won’t matter what the other thinks, because the other will love them unconditionally, or love them until they believe them, because love is ours to give and cannot be defined nor appraised by any price. But alas, we can never truly know how someone else feels about us, so another great point, love is scary because we must trust in the depths of our hearts somebody loves us the same, and we must see how these two decide to trust each other on that.
You’re so kind for even taking the time to write such a long message elphie anon omg, it took me days to reply to you because I didn’t even know how to begin, but I had the stupidest grin reading your lovely message 🥺💕 thank you so much, truly, for always being so sweet and interactive.
ALSO WAITTT “SO TAE CAN FUCK YOU INTO THE DEEP DIMENSIONS OF HIS LOVE AND CARE FOR U” WHY AM I CACKLING AT THIS I FELT THIS IN MY SOULLL OMG but yes I’m currently writing the smut scene and all I have to say is there’s a LOT going on, YES it shall be categorized as rough and nasty yet soft and passionate makeup sex because I'm a desperate whore😌
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A totally self indulgent compilation of my favorite works on this blog of the year June 13, 2019 - June 13, 2020
I wanted to do this for the blog's first anniversary but then completely forgot about it lol.
The following lists are all in chronological order according to the date each post was first published.
Top 10 panel edits:
#1: Don and Gilda - Chapter 138: Demon serch (1)
Date: Jun 14th, 2019
Time: ~ 1:30 h
My very first redraw from my very first edit posted here, so it deserves an honorable mention. Back then I was young and inexperienced, I didn't even apply a gray filter (lmao I was so unskilled I even unintentionally scratched the picture, I hadn't realized until today). I'm actually very happy my first redraw was of Don, boy deserves all the love.
#2: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!
Date: Jun 28th, 2019
Time: ~ 1 h
Back then this looked like so much work to me!!! And to this day, I think it turned out pretty well. I'm particularly proud of how the bow turned out. This is one I was really proud of right after having finished it; it gave me the confidence to try redrawing bigger areas. Also, the edit were I first applied the opacity of layer / opacity of brush for the gray filter that would have stuck with me.
#3: Krone's birthday edit
Date: Jul 15th, 2019
Time: 15 mins
I don't know I just really like how Krone's hair vanish to a more sketch-like style here– and consequently, how I managed to replicate such effect. I think Krone's beautiful.
#4: Emma, Norman and Ray - Chapter 153: Coward
Date: Oct 4th, 2019
Time: 4:07 h (and 67 layers lmao)
Probably the single panel redraw I'm the most proud of. That Norman panel was beautiful and very poignant at the end of a chapter I adored, so I believe it deserved all the time I've spent working on it. It's far from being perfect - the back of his head is too plain, and the difference between my brushes and the original brushes is pretty visible - but I still like it very much and am extremely attached to it. The horn looks kinda big but I honestly believe it to be more of an issue with the original than with what I had redrawn lol. Funny enough, the whole picture didn't make it to the final edit and had to be trimmed.
#5: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough
Date: Oct 11th, 2019
Time: 29 mins
I don't have a particular reason for this I just think Emma's hair turned out amazing. It took just half an hour and I didn't even use references like. Wow. @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back
#6: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born
Date: Nov 17th, 2019
Time: 2:09 h
Sis I love this so freaking much. The shift from redrawing almost exclusively people and clothes to redrawing this mess was so fun and refreshing. Even though it's a mess I think it turned out very clean and overall it looks beautiful? I remember after finishing this I felt so powerful, like now that I had redrawn this thing I would have been able to redraw anything I set my mind on lol.
#7: Emma - Chapter 161: Never Be Alone
Date: Dec 13th, 2019
Time: 57 mins
Again no particular reason except this is a very cute Emma and I think the redraw turned out pretty well. There's this big lock on the left that doesn't make a lot of sense but overall I really like it. Cute Emma is cute, and I love her determination.
#8: Emma - Chapter 166: Going Back Home
Date: Mar 9th, 2020
Time: 3:45 h
I'M SO FREAKING PROUD OF THAT RIFFLE I have not the slightlest idea why this took so damn long BUT I'M SO PROUD OF IT
#9: Norman's birthday edit
Date: Mar 21st, 2020
Time: 1:04 h
This is cool! I didn't know I could manage to draw this, but I did it! The feathers were particularly hard to clean but I think they turned out fine.
#10: Full Score Trio - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)
Date: Apr 6th, 2020
Time: 2:11 h
I just think they're very pretty? I can't understand if I like Ray's face a lot, or not at all, but I think overall there was a lot to redraw and it turned out pretty cute! Sorry Gillian.
(Also insert pretty much every panel from the chapter 177 Isabella edit– I've spent so many hours on basically every panel there's no way I could choose only one).
Top 5 edits as whole:
#1: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!
Date: Jun 29th, 2019
Complessive time: 2:57+ h
The very first edit I'm actually proud of; I'm really attached to it. It's the first edit I had put all of my effort into, and I remember feeling anxious people would have left it without notes. It kinda feels weird to think about it now, because I really don't care about notes anymore; yet, it somehow makes me happy to think that past-me wasn't let down. Thank you @neverlandstrio for your support, you may not remember but it really meant a lot to me back then! And it still makes me smile. You're the best!!!!!!
#2: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born
Date: Nov 20th, 2019
Complessive time: 7:12+ hours
This whole edit was an hella wild ride. It's midnight before a school day, when I think: "Mh, it's been a while since I last made an edit, why not make one about Musica and the queen from the last chapter?" And seven hours after this was born. I'm particularly proud of the queen's redraws on the 3rd, 7th and 9th picture (ofc), the areas which have been redrawn are pretty huge yet I think the difference with the original is almost impossible to notice?? @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back (part 2)
#3: Emma - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)
Date: Apr 12th, 2020
Complessive time: 6:53+ h
I think the panels that were selected work very well together, especially considering the close-up / full body alternation. I love Emma, and I've always been kinda sad noticing that edits that focus one her take the less notes... She deserves all the love. Also, fun fact: for the last but one panel, I had redrawn Emma's whole left ear before remembering she doesn't have one, so I had to redraw the panel from the start. Besides from the error with the ear, the reason why this (and all the others after) took so long is because official panel take way longer to clean.
#4: Isabella and her children - Chapter 177: Mother
Date: May 22nd, 2020
Complessive time: 13:41+ h (ahah.)
Lmao tbh I can't understand how this has so few notes it's like. Technically speaking, probably the best edit I've ever done. I don't even like Isabella that much, I haven't got the slightlest idea why I decided to spend so many hours on this. Anyway, I find the composition (full body on the left / headshots on the right) really good looking in this as well! And I think the redraws turned out fine, especially Isabella's.
#5: The Promised Neverland manga ending countdown→ 1/7 chapters: chapter 1 - Grace Field House
Date: Jun 9th, 2020
Complessive time: 1:59+ h
I don't know how I came up with that idea for the composition but I find it really beautiful??? I think it does a pretty good job conveying the sudden, terrific shift of atmosphere from the first chapter, and I think that sharp bridge is very nice. I'm very, very proud of this.
Honorable mention #1: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough
Date: Oct 13th, 2019
Complessive time: 3:44+ h (+ 1:13 h of working on a panel that ultimately didn't make it to the final edit)
A very good chapter, and the edit turned out surprisingly amazing??? All the redraws look great and make it almost impossible to distinguish them from the original; honestly I feel like I'll never be able to redraw so neatly again lol.
Honorable mention #2: Don and Gilda (+ Norman) - Chapter 160: Shackles
Date: Dec 11th, 2019
Complessive time: 3:14+ h
That one is really one of my favorite scenes; I'm telling you peoples, Gilda and Don are a blessing to the earth. I think I've never mentioned it, but Gilda's hair is a nightmare to redraw??? More specifically, it takes me h o u r s to fill the texture without making it look too weird, it's the worst.
Honorable mention #3: Norman and Ray - Chapter 179: Compensation
Date: Jun 6th, 2020
Complessive time: 4:16+ h
I was so glad to finally be able to make a Norman / Ray edit, and it turned out it was just in time before the series' finale. I like how it turned out and I'm pretty satisfied with the redraws (even though my sister helped me with the lineart of some panels - it was exams time and I really couldn't afford to spend more time on it), too bad we didn't have more chapters that focused on the boys. Ray sweetie one day I'll fix your ear it's just today's not that day.
Btw, I justed realized I have never done an Emma / Norman centered edit? I'll have to make one eventually. I remember considering focusing on them alone for the chapter 154 one, but then I thought "even if the manga is gonna ignore Ray, I will chose to do not" lol.
Top 5 long posts:
#1: Reconstruction of how the Grace Field children were settled in the three bedrooms
Date: Aug 28th, 2019
I just had really a lot of fun doing it. I love putting all the little things to their own place, it's so calming to do and that's why I love making this kind of things. Also, loved how @temporoom contributed to the post! It was so nice of them to add what they had noticed to come up with more exact conclusions, that's one of the things I love the most about the internet.
#2: A study of how many times the characters of The Promised Neverland call each other through the first season of the anime
Date: Sep 10th, 2019
I REALLY LOVE IT! I mean it *was* kinda stressing to note everything, but it was very also very satisfying to see everything methodically divided and organized! And it's not just that– it's also the fact that it looks good. That's one post I have fun rereading because it's actually pretty! Also, even though it can be very stressing to learn to use new programs and sites, it's always very satisfying to look at the final result. Again, I really adore compiling these tiny little details! I would love to make more posts of that kind if i had the time.
#3: The Promised Neverland musicals headcanons
Date: Oct 27th, 2019
I mean it's literally. Putting my two favorite fandoms together how could I not love it. This is another one I really enjoy rereading, I find all the musical / character associations so fitting! I really want to make a second part, I hope to find some time to do it.
#4: Considerations on the reward / eventual series' finales (and Emma's sacrifice)
Date: May 7th, 2020
It's always nice to put down all your thoughts regarding a particular matter. It can take a lot of time (at least for me it does because... I need time to think about things), but it's so satisfying to see all of them there once you're done. Bonus points when, like in this case, it was something asked by someone else because “Wow! Somebody wants to hear my opinion on this subject! I'm flattered (◍•ᴗ•◍)”
#5: Some other considerations on the series' finale and Emma sacrificing herself
Date: Jun 13th, 2020
Pretty much the same as above. It's like some kind of clarity when the post is done and signed. Another fun fact, I had to censore the post a lot; the first version was extremely sharp and harsh, but I believe it's right to express your opinions calmly and politely.
Bonus: A thread of what the tpn characters would wear at the Oscars
Date: Feb 9th, 2020
Imagining all the children in those pretty dresses makes me so incredibly happy (╥﹏╥) I go back to look at that post a lot. I really love red carpets, I love looking at pretty dresses!!!!!
Lmao it's so funny how the post of mine I like the most are also the ones with the less notes
Anyway this was just a personal report! You don't have to read it all (or any of it actually). But it was indeed fun making it! Here's to many more months in the fandom!!!
#This was supposed to be posted on July 13th as one year and one month since I made the blog#but Tumblr decided to be a jerk and deleted all of it 😊#So here we are#tpn#tpn manga spoilers#long post#Again this is just a personal report don't stress over reading all of it#But it was fun to make!#To the people I tagged: sorry for tagging you in this long post but also it would have felt weird not to do so? I hope you don't mind#It felt like... Giving credits foe something you've done y'know
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No matter what I do, I can't make myself try in school. I'm a solid B student, but I know if I applied myself fully,instead of procrastinating until the last minute and handing in first drafts, I could be a ninties student. Ugh. I keep fucking myself over. Advice?
Hiya there!omggg i understand. i really do. this happens to me too :(( thing is procrastination strikes at times just as this & youve got so much potential & can easily score well. but dont worry, with some time, hard work & patience you can tackle it! i haven’t put the basic things you find on websites cuz you prolly know/ read em. i put a few things i use & find helpful. (sry if somethings sound harsh, it’s just that being honest is the best thing you can do to combat procrastination)
some tips:
do you have a goal in life? a thing you’re working towards? maybe an ambition, or something personal that you want to achieve in life? everyone you sit down to study & feel like you dont want to, remember it. think of it. remember why you stared in the first place. maybe if you dont have a career choice for yourself yet, maybe have some small goal.for egs i want to be happy in life. if that’s your goal, do something that makes you happy. prioritize things that make you happy.
a lyric by eminem i stand by:‘look if you ever had one shot or one opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment, would you capture it or just let it slip?’
procrastination is the thief of time. i know its cliché lol but look at it this way; you have 2 weeks for an exam, you can either spend 2 weeks spreading out your work load and studying OR you can spend everyday wasting time & cramming in the last 2 days.
what’s something that you procrastinate doing? like for me its reading books or youtube or just scrolling through tumblr. i cut out reading books during exam time & read only at night. i cut out youtube during exam time as well. tumblr is something i come to once a day fr a few minutes. this all took time & it wasn’t easy.so cut out things that you procrastinate on. one by one. every small action matters.
try the pomodoro method. give this a read & try it. you can download the app as well!
read this from this awesome site:“ I have friends who almost never let themselves do the really fun things they want to do during the semester.They’ll talk about how much they want to play a certain game or watch a new movie, but when I suggest that they just go play it, they’ll say: “I really can’t; I have way too much homework and I’d feel guilty.”Five minutes later, though, I’ll see them scrolling through their Facebook feed.I call this low-density fun. Scrolling through your news feed or watching a few funny videos on YouTube is easy, and it’s sort of fun to do. However, because it’s so easy and feels so unlike “real” fun, it’s easy to not feel guilty about it – which leads to a lot of procrastination.The solution? Commit to having your high-density fun. If you want to play a video game later, commit to starting it at 8 p.m. Then, make sure all your work is done by then.Let your high-density fun create a deadline that propels you into focused work. “
a quote i LOVE:“effort never betrays you”
try the 2 minute method. study for JUST 2 minutes. and then maybe just 2 more minutes? then maybe just 2 more! trick your brain like this. trick your brain into thinking that studying is actually fun & that you’d want to do it just for 2 more minutes & keep going on. it really works for meeee!
try this study method:
do the easiest or most fun thing the first
then do the hardest
then the 2nd hardest
then something that HAS to be done
then finish off with something easy & fun!
eat the frog lol pls not reallyif you have something which you HATE doing, do that first. finish that first & then go ahead with the rest.
is there something you really like doing? for egs if you loooove chocolate, you can buy a small stash & keep it away. then you sit down & do some work & then IF and ONLY IF you’re satisfied with yourself, indulge in yourself. if you’re unhappy with the work done, do not take it.
if youve got a lot of things to do, make a timetable for yourself or a to-do list. also allocate an hour of activities/ exercise/ something you can do to get fresh air. it gets the blood flowing & helps a lot!
if its a subject you hate:just using my egs here, i hate physics & I’m bad at it but doing sums & questions make me happy cuz then with some hard work, i get the correct answer! so if you have a subject such as this, try to do something which helps you get an answer which might motivate you!
if you’re an audio learner (you can find you which type of learner you are here) try listening to some videos while you jog/ exercise. Khan academy (an app) lets you download the videos you want and u can listen to em offline. they’re really really good!!
if you know what type of learner you are, study using those methods!
think of the effort you have put in, in the past few years!! youve been in school for so long & if you dont put in the effort for this year, you’re basically wasting the time you spent in the past few years!
think of the effort, time & money your parents put to get you this education. work hard & make em proud ☺️
do you have a park in your area/ a coffee shop/ library? go there, DO NOT GET WIFI!!! delete all the games off your phone a well if you want to, & study there.
think of all that you can do for this world. youve got so much potential & so much to give. why waste it? if you ever fail in anything, that is okay, you can always try again! just remember, its the effort that counts.
be a sincere student. you’re not only lying to your teachers, you’re lying to your parents & yourself.
if it really gets out of hand, call your mum/ dad/ sibling t sit with you in the same room & study while they’re there, or better, teach them! that way they can call you out when you’re wasting time.
switch off your wifi modem? ask ur family members if its okay lols
give ur phone/ computer/ tablet/ etc to your patents, tell em to lock it in a cupboard & not give it to u. tell them to hide the key as well 😂
study with friends if that helps you! prom each other when you waste time
try fear? the day before your exam, work up all the things that might happen if you dont do your exam well or if you dont study. that might get your motors running? warning: this is kinda pessimistic. this is not for everyone. also if you have anxiety pls ignore this
remember, just be you. having fun is no crime but trying to escape your responsibilities is well kinda. try to get eternal happiness NOT momentary happiness.
do not let the toxic mixture of laziness & fear mess everything up
watch this 😂
watch this as well! then get back to work k!!
this post by @emmastudies on how to beat procrastination is v v good!!
make a good timetable if you’d like & stick to it. again u can force your fam to help u
discipline is MUST. try to follow a strict routine!“suffer the pain of discipline or the pain of regret.”
do NOT compare yourself to others.
everybody makes mistake, everybody has those days but the goal is to nOT make the same one again. try not to!
look, you can do it. set your mind to it. sit down, get your things out & just begin. i know you can. YOU know you can!!!! the only thing stopping you is you. do not let your dreams be crushed by a the needs of momentary happiness.
sry if this post is kinda long oopsi hope this helped! ace this, hun! you can do it. if you ever want to talk/need help, pls do send me an ask/ message. i know that its hard to break procrastination but trust me, you will get over it. just keep trying, k?take care & good luck. 💕
#q: finals#just keep trying k :)#you cannnnn <3#tc!#answered#emmastudies#not-so-perfect-porcelain#procrastination#h#myposts#mymps#mytexts#productivity#masterpost
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I can't even believe that some people are actually thought that my mother is me like wow wtf , she's like 51 already dude . We're both like .... Personally are a very different person . I don't even fucking put rose images in front of my wallpaper . I'm darkened minded . She's like the light and I am the opposite . She's all flower-y and I am not . I don't even closed with her that much but I do give some respect to her even though mostly I've been quarelling a lot with her , be negative irl and angry also dark most of the days . Not just on here . Irl too . I'm 23 (?) . She's 51 . Give me a break already . I'm more younger than her ? Why nobody ever noticed that shit ? She does looks like around 40's but nope . I am honest . If she ever told someone that she's probably 40 + to someone irl or online to make them guess , I will just leave a message on below , "She's 50 already ." I am just honest . I hate it all . Fuck off from my mom's phone and email . Fuck you . If you want to hack so much , point it directly to me . I know you want to find me and etc or just leave . Free that thoughts or something .
Don't fucking fuck with her . Fuck with me and fight with me . Either physically or mentally or emotionally . Not her or anyone else or something . Hack me . Why you fucking hate her and fucking with her ? Why on earth did you do that for ? For fun ? Hate ? Great . Because we have the same commons now . I hate you , you hate me . 1 - 1 or just zero . Nobody is winning . Nor losing . Don't just come and go hack her . Fucking disgust with people who are able to hack and hijacking . I may be dark and anguish most of the days but I will be real and honestly no drama here . I'll cut the chase and just kick them all out . I don't know most of these people but I will find out . I will . Find out . How about meeting with me or her irl ? I'll bring my weapons and I will bring her .
I will ask for her to show her phone and etc . And I will show mine for proof . We'll both will talk and we will discuss with you and ask why and etc . I will open my mouth and she'll talk too . For you . For proof . For real . Honest . Real talk . Fucking real fucking talk . The real fucking thing . I want to meet this people too from Tumblr or anywhere on somewhere around hell sites . Probably fight ? Fist with fist ? Speaking of talking , it's going to be bored on just talking . I will answer on what ever you want to know or been wanting to ask or curious or been lingering inside your head all the time about me . (?) Great , huh ? With weapons around me and you on chair . In case if you want to attack me . I don't want to lose either . You probably won't understand so I will show you my anger and my darkness to you and how much I am so great at it for another results . I know people like this won't give me or us enough choice or freedom or etc .
You just want to tortured us or me . You loving it . That's what I've been learning about humans most of the times . And I will show you who's the real me and my face . You always been wanting to search for my face . All the time . Curiousity eats the cat anyway . I'm just being honest . So you don't have to be so fucking curious and heartache all the times and etc . Then I will close the door . I will be focusing at my anger and etc . You ? It's your choice to do what ever you want . But , please . Mind your own business . I will kick you in throat and pull you by force by your tie or your collar shirt or hands into in front of her and say , "Mom , look what I got , this is the one who's been hacking yours . Look at this face carefully . Remember this face . No , I don't want to let go . I hate them so much 🔥 They are been so merciless on US . What should we do to this one . (?) No , I am not wrong >8'U I've been telling you before that I am not crazy about them . & this time I am right . Punish this one . PUNISH ." *kicks head in anger* I am so upset my god . I'm going crazy again . Oh , forgot . I am always been like this for everyday . Stress + tensions + sad + angry and etc . Talking about hacking and hijacking surely leaves me cold and crazy and I'll be so fucking angry like flame is going to burst from my eyes and my skins . I swear .
#p#.txt#tw#about#thought#irl#vent#hate#// screams internally : suffer !!#hish what the fuck .#i can't#i had bad experienced about it and trauma about it
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Blake: *During a trip to Vacuo Team Rwby have decided to spread one night exploring one of Vacuo's most famous cities Los Sega during which the four girls split up, Weiss and Ruby visiting the arcades while Blake and Yang went to multiple clubs and bar. However, the next day Blake woken with a aching pain as she slowly sat up in bed.* Mrrrrr, Ow my head. *The cat faunus groan as she rubbed the sleep from her eyes before opening and instantly becoming aware that she was not at the small hotel to which She and her friend were staying but instead a rather expensive penthouse sweet.* What the? Where?... Where am I?... And Why am I coooOOOH MY-!?! *Blake started to think to her as she looked around and became aware of three things that caused she to begin to shout her thoughts before smacking her mouth shut with her hands. First, aside from her sheet she was naked. Second, She was not the only one naked as her girlfriend laid also naked sleep beside her. And the third and most surprising to the huntress was the blonde cat ears upon Yang's head and, to Blake secret desire, a fluffy cat tail coming from her lovers butt.* Oh my god! Oh My God! What happened last night!? Why does Yang have a tail!? although it does complements her butt and hips very nicely-FORCE BELLADONNA! *Blake shouted to herself inside her mind, blushing as she ran herhands through her hair, only to pause for a moment as her cat ear felt something odd on one of her fingers.* Huh? What's this?.... Oh My god. *Blake quietly said as she stared at her hand, more specifically the golden ring with her girlfriend crest engraved on it around her ring finger.* Is this? It can't be... Can it? *Blake rambled to herself before quickly searching for Yang's hand to find another ring except with her crest engraved upon it.* OH god it is... Yang... YANG! WAKE UP!
Yang: Mah!? Huh? Wha? *Yang mumbled, rising up then rolling to her side and tiredly smiling at the site of Blake.* Hey Good morning Blakey. Did you sleep... Uh, Why does my ass hurt?
Blake: Yeah Morning to you too love. Yang do you remember ANYTHING from last night Because I think we may have gotten MARRIED? Also, Your butt hurts because you have a tail. *Blake questioned in a panic, taking a moment after to calmly answer her lover.*
Yang: *For a moment Yang stared at her panicking girlfriend, blinking twice, before looking at Blake's ring and raising her hand to look at her own, and lastly reaching behind her to take hold of her "tail" and giving it a tug.* Mph. Heh, I guess it wasn't a dream afterall.
Blake: WHAT WASN'T A DREAM YANG!?
Yang: Well you see. *Yang started as she moved to sit up, moaning slightly as she removed the tail from her behind causing Blake to blush.* Ah.~ That is going to be sore later. You see after the I think fifth bar we went to we got pretty smashed and you wanted going to this Faunus only club, to which I picked out that I wouldn't be allowed in. However, You got the great idea of making me look like a faunus and we proceed to go to the only store open that had Cat ear which happen to be a sex fetish shop where we got the cat ears. *Yang paused for a moment to feel the top of her head and removed said ears.* These. Anyway, Before we buy them I saw the tail and told you I wanted the tail so you could play with my ass since you love to do that. So we did. We then found a quiet private place, had a quickie which ended with the tail in my butt for the rest of the night as we went to the club you wanted. We drank, had fun, got into a bar fight, started a riot, ran from the cops, hide in a church, Possible dragged race a couple of midgets, I proposed to you, you said yes, bummed into I thought Sun's uncle who happened to be able to marry us, hit the tables at a casino, won like millions, got the honeymoon sweet, and made sweet passionate drunk love til we fell asleep. Aaaand that's about sums it up. Give or take a few times I passed out in between. *Yang said as a matter of fact with a smile. Blake Meanwhile stared at her Wife dumbfounded.*
Blake: ... And you remember ALL of that?
Yang: Blakey, My Last name may be Xiao-Long Belladonna but I'm still a Branwen. We may do stupid shit while drunk but we remember it all.
Blake: ... You... You took my last name?
Yang: Yep. *Yang nod with a pop to the "p".* You kinda did the same.
Blake: *Blake ran her hand over her face trying to process everything she just heard, muttering to herself how her parents were going to kill her before looking at the wedding ring on her finger once more.* Okay then. So where did we get the rings? Winnings from the money we won?
Yang: Actually... No. *Yang stated with pink cheeks.*
Blake: No? Yang, from just looking at this I can tell that this are pure gold rings with I think dust in the engraves.
Yang: Purple dust in mine. Orange red in yours. *Yang added trying to hide her blush.*
Blake: *It only took Blake a second before she realized with a soft gasp how Yang knew the exact details of before rings.* How... How long were you planning on asking me?
Yang: For as long as we have been dating. Though honestly, I was going to when and propose to you When we got back to Vale and went to Forever falls. *Yang admitted, unable to look at her wife out of embarrassment until her cheeks were cupped by Blake who lifted her face u to give her a gentle soft yet passionate kiss.*
Blake: *After a few minutes as the need for air became to great the two broke apart and Blake smile.* Well we can always have a proper wedding their AFTER you ask my parents for their blessing when explaining how you married their daughter.
Yang: *Yang Smiled brightly as she gave Blake another kiss and hugged her.* I am perfectly okay with that and having a blackeye from your dad during our wedding.
Blake: Hehehe, We'll wait till it heals but first I need a shower. *Blake said as she hopped out of bed and made her way to the bath room.
Yang: *yang meanwhile watch with glee as her naked wife exited the room and flopped back down of the bed as she heard the shower start.* Sigh, I finally married the girl of my dreams. Hehe, I wonder how Weiss and Ruby will react? Eh? *she ponder until she noticed her robotic hand was missing a finger.* What the? I don't remember losing a finger. Sigh
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