You know it's getting bad when you have nightmares of binging
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Today I ate:
400calories of snacks
Vegetarian pot pie (~600)
Batter I snacked on while baking (~200)
2 mini cucumbers with salt (~20cal)
Todays total: around 1,220
It’s still under my bmr, and I probably overestimated the pot pie and batter but over 1,200 really makes me feel like I’m not doing enough. I’m just gonna clean my room to try to burn some of the calories and start working out more this week..
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I wish I was bulimic instead of anorexic.
How come I can go days without food to lose weight but I'm too scared to throw up?
How come throwing up is where I draw the line even though I do anything and everything to lose weight?
I wish I wasn't such a coward and could just throw up. Instead I have to live with the not so glamorous guilt of eating.
Emetophobia is not for the weak yall😭
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i need to be so sick that my death is not a surprise.
i need to be so sick that my death is a relief.
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ej misie co ma najmniej kcxl?
ziemniaki, makaron, ryz czy kasza??
wiem ze pewnie nic ale musze wiedziec np jak jest obiad i musze zjesc przy kims
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TW: ED
Yesterday my boyfriend told me that he loves my body so much. It felt nice to hear but im still fat??I love him so much but i can’t believe he finds this attractive. He always tells me i look good. It’s so weird to me when he says that. Like don’t you see how fat i am and how disgusting this is… i want to be skinny for him. He never says it but i notice he finds it hard to pick me up, im just to heavy:( I am scared that he won’t find me attractive when im skinny and this demotivateds me. Im still going to keep doing it. He will find me more attractive when im skinny i have to belive in it!!!!
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