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cherryeol04 · 2 years

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Losing Control - Pt. 5

❥ Pairings: Y/n x Everyone

❥ Genre: Wolf au, romance, fluff, omega verse

❥ Word Count: 1.7K

❥ Series: No Control

❥ 1 ･ 2 ･ 3 ･ 4 ･ 5 ･ 6 ･ 7 ･ 8 ･ 9 ･ 10 ･ 11

❥ Trigger Warning: Mentions of death in the past. Mentions of no longer wanting to live. If these things trigger you, please protect yourself and skip this part babies! Please remember you are valued and you are loved! 💖

❥ Warning: This is a work of fiction. The members displayed in this story are not meant as an accurate portrayal of the members of Stray Kids. Everything is made up and not real!

The pack was at a loss of what to do. Jisung had locked himself in Y/n’s room and refused to leave. Well, he hadn’t actually locked the door and the members could go in and out, but Jisung refused to acknowledge any of them. It was understandable; they had outcasted someone he loved without getting the proper story. Y/n had even tried to tell them that it wasn’t her. They should have believed her. But in that moment, nothing mattered more to them than Jisung and he had been dying. One woman wasn’t going to be chosen over a mate they had been with for years.

Some hoped that Jisung would understand that, and maybe he did. But that still didn’t ease the pain that he was feeling - the void in his heart with Y/n gone couldn’t be filled. He missed her, he needed her. But no one knew where she was and with a murderer on the loose, only the worst case scenarios were running through their heads.

“Come on Ji, you need to eat dinner, please?” Felix muttered as he knelt down next to the other, holding out the plate of food. “You skipped breakfast and lunch.”

“I’m not hungry.” Jisung muttered.

Felix sighed heavily, sitting the plate on the bed. He sat down next to Jisung on the floor, giving the other a once over. He looked absolutely terrible and it was really eating at Felix inside to see his September twin in such a state. “Jisung, I know you miss her, but not eating isn’t going to bring her back.” he said carefully. “What point are you trying to make by starving yourself?”

“That I’d rather die than be without her.”

“That’s a bit dramatic.” Felix snorted and shook his head. “What about the rest of us? We’re still here.” Jisung scoffed and turned away from him.

“You don’t get it. Just go.”

Felix whined in the back of his throat at the comment. Reaching out, he wrapped his arms around Jisung’s waist and pulled the other into his lap. Jisung went willingly, all but flipping against the other. “I do get it, Sungie.” he whispered, voice deep and sending a shiver through the other beta. “I care about her too, a lot. And I hate that we did what we did and I wish I could take it all back.” he whispered, hugging Jisung closer.

“Lix-”

“We’re trying Sung. We’re trying to find her, to bring her back. To apologize for everything that was said and done.” he explained. “Please, the last thing I want is to find you dead too. I can’t lose you too.” Jisung whined and squirmed in Felix’s grasp. Felix loosened his hold, allowing Jisung to move and turn around, wrapping his arms around Felix’s neck tightly as he clung to him, crying into his shoulder.

“I’m sorry!”

“Shh.” Felix whispered and rubbed his back. “Don’t be sorry, Ji. I understand. But I can’t lose you too. I love you so much and I could never forgive myself if I just let you waste away.” Felix struggled to get out, choking on his words. Felix buried his face into Jisung’s neck, nuzzling against him as he let the other sob into his shoulder.

“Love you.” Jisung croaked out between each sob. Felix simply shushed him, rocking them back and forth gently, letting Jisung cry it out.

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Two months. It had been two months since you lost your second home - exiled by the people you had grown to love. Two months of suffering alone in a shelter, just trying to survive. The only solace you had was when you visited the library to continue your research. Jaebeom had come to be the only ray of sunshine in your life and you were thankful to have him. But you’ve been burned one too many times now to trust anyone. It was easier to keep people at a distance and your heart protected.

In between your library visits, you had also applied to jobs, which was more difficult than you thought, especially when most of the applications asked for a place of residence and you didn’t think they would be so understanding if you listed a shelter. You were lucky though when you applied to a bookshop. The owner was so stressed to hire someone that she didn’t even give you an application.

(“Do you have any experience in retail?”

“No. But I’m a quick learner!”

“Perfect, you’re hired!”)

And a quick learner you were, though for the most part it wasn’t that difficult of a job. You started out with just taking inventory and stocking the shelves. It was a simple job and really the help the owner wanted while she ran the register and dealt with customers.

The shop itself was a cozy little building nestled on the corner of an intersection. The mornings usually brought bright rays of sunlight and a warmth that you imagined was what all those female characters in the movies felt; you blamed Felix for that. And evenings bright about beautiful rainbow skies and peace. Though you didn’t get to see many of the evening shifts - your curfew with the shelter was always in effect. But in two months you had managed to save up quite a bit of money, though nowhere near what you needed to be able to afford a place of your own. It was just nice being able to finally buy food that you were specifically craving and never worried that the shelter was serving something you didn’t like.

You never realized how much you value your family and independence until it was taken away.

Family.

That’s what the pack is, or well was. They had been your family that had nurtured you in the best ways they could. Even though things had been very rocky and dynamics were uncertain, you considered that part of your life the best part. Your happiest times.

You really missed them.

“Y/n.” You jumped, dropping the stack of books in your hand, eyes wide as you stared at the shop owner. “Jumpy little thing, aren’t ya?” She snickered. There was always something about the way she spoke and carried herself that was off to you. She was mischievous when given the opportunity - like now - and you often thought that maybe she was a fox shifter. But you could never smell a scent on her. And sure you weren’t “trained” in sniffing, you kinda figured it was just second nature that your wolf would be able to sniff out other shifters. Like it had with that old man in the library. You were certain the owner was just a normal human who liked to jest.

“Sorry, ma’am” You quickly apologized, kneeling down to pick up the books, checking to make sure there wasn’t any damage to them. Thankfully there wasn’t.

“Don’t worry about it.” She waved you off. “Listen, I have to run a few errands, think you can handle the shop while I’m gone?” You stilled, frozen in fear because sure, you could handle the shop while she was gone but what if you got a customer? You only had the bare basics of how to work the registrar. So many things could go wrong. You could feel the stress and anxiety rising within you.

“Hey, calm down.” Her soothing voice broke you out of your thoughts, body almost instantly relaxing. “If you want, you can just turn the sign to closed.”

“Are you sure?” You asked softly.

“Yeah. So what do you say?”

“Um, okay.” Nodding, you stood, clutching the books to your chest.

“Perfect. I’ll be back soon.” She waved as she disappeared around a bookshelf. A few moments later you heard the door open with the sound of a chime, closing shortly after. You were alone in the shop.

You could do this. You could do this.

Taking a few deep breaths, you decided to continue working on stocking the shelves and headed over to the history section. A few of the books in your arms belonged there and as you searched for the right spot to slip them in, your eyes landed on a title that just seemed to scream your name.

Faded History: Native Packs

You knew the store carried books on shifters, a specialty of its kind. You didn’t really find books on the subject outside the library. It’s not like people weren’t aware of shifters, but it didn’t seem like they were actively taught in schools. Well at least not human schools. You remember Jisung telling you about his experience in school and how he went to a shifter only one. The segregation seemed extreme but given the life you led previously, it’s to be expected. Hunters wouldn’t exist otherwise, right?

Putting the books down, you pulled the book loose and examined the cover - black with embossed gold. The cover felt like it was made of leather and just overall had a very timely feel to it. Opening it, you flipped through the pages for a moment before stopping on a page that, again, just felt like it was calling out to you.

The Bloodrose Massacre

A lump formed in your chest, heart suddenly racing and you didn’t know why. But that name - Bloodrose - resonated with you. It was a feeling from deep inside you, your wolf pacing with anxiety and yet familiarity with it. You began reading, lost in the words scrawled upon the pages as it told of a horrible massacre of a wolf shifter pack. The culprit was apparently an ex-lover to one of the alphas and in a jealous rage, she murdered them all before escaping into the night.

With each word, it felt like your throat was closing up, making it more difficult to breathe. You couldn’t imagine such an act happening, or the mindset the woman had to be in to just murder a pack like that. And they didn’t fight back? That was odd, but then again if the person killing you was someone you knew, you probably wouldn’t put up a fight at first either. And it only took a moment of having your guard down for an attacker to get the upper hand. You knew that well, it was part of your training.

The book continued, speaking of a lone survivor of the massacre, who thankfully spoke with the author of the book to recount the tale. They had been young then, had witness their family being murdered and was more than willing to name the assailant. Two words were the last entry for that chapter. Two words that struck a harsh chord in your heart that you suddenly felt nauseous.

The person who killed an entire shifter pack, her ex-lover included, was your mother.

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pretty-ds · 1 year

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This could be fun!

NSFW ASKS. Give me the number of the questions you are curious about. I will give you asks in return if you would like. 🌸💗🌸

1: Kitchen Counter, Couch, or on top of the dryer?

All of them

2: Your last sexual encounter: Good or Bad and why:

By myself 2 days ago. It was great because i know me and what i like.

3: A fictional person that you think would be good in bed:

Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice.

4: Something that never fails to make you horny:

Fingers in my mouth. I am a very oral girl and a Doms hands just do it for me. Not just any Dom, someone i have chosen.

5: Where is one place you would never have sex:

On top of a fire ant hill

6: Weirdest thing that ever made you horny:

Watching a man playing with his ring

7: How are you after a really good f$%k?

Depends on the type of f$%k but overall, relaxed

8: Have you ever got so wet in the night that you wake up wanting some sexual activity?

Yes

9: Tell me your wettest dream?

I could make something up but in all honesty, i don't remember

10: Top or bottom?

Bottom in my role as a sub. Both as in positions

11: What body attracts you the most, men or women?

men in a physical manner, women in an artistic viewpoint

12: Ever kissed someone of the same sex?

Yes

13: Home alone and you’re bored. What do you do?

Log on to Tumblr, of course

14: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find:

Adult toys

15: Weirdest nickname a significant other has ever called you:

I was once in a relationship with a historian and he called my breasts Osgood and Farley because of WWII bunkers located on the California coast. This was the ultimate in compliments from that guy

16: Are you a touchy feely person?

Yes

17: If you were/are a lesbian, would you go for the women/girls who act like men, or the ones who act like girls?

I suppose it would be to whom i was attracted. I admit i find girly girls very attractive but i have also seen a few hot boy-girls (for lack of a better term)

18: Does a massage get you wet?

That depends where on my body the massage was given and who is the person massaging

19: Is it ever okay to not use a condom:

Yes. Long term, monogamous relationships and those trying to conceive

20: If there’s one place a girl/guy should touch you to make you instantly horny, where is that

my mouth or neck. But if i am highly attracted to the person, any place would do it

21: Has a guy/girl even touched you or discreetly groped you while clubbing or in a crowded place?

Yes

22: Ever left the house without wearing any underwear?

Yes. Very intentionally

23: What do you wear when you go to bed?

Depends on the weather, if it is cold i wear cute pajamas. In the hot summer months i wear a t-shirt and panties

24: Biggest turn on:

D/s

25: Worst possible time to get horny:

In church

26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans:

Yes!

27: Worst sexual idea you ever had:

I don't recall but i am sure than have been a few

28: How much fapping is too much fapping:

If said fapping causes injury

29: Best sexual complement you ever got:

I taste like peach juice

30: What do you think you and/or the opposite sex looks the sexiest in?

Confidence

31: Have you ever been called a tease?

In my year book, i was class flirt so it's about the same thing. Apparently, I flirted but did not follow through. I thought i was being friendly. Who knew?

32: Fill in the blanks: “If they ____________, we are ****in”

If they bring a nice wine, we are drinkin.

33: What your favorite part of your body:

I suppose my face and my chest

34: Love (>,<, or =) Sex For those of us who don’t remember our math thats “greater than, less than, or equal to]

Love is > sex

35: What do you wear to bed?

See #23

36: When was the last time you masturbated:

See #2

37: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself?

I have nudes. Not for public consumption

38: Have/would you ever have sex outside?

Yes!

39: Have/would you ever masturbate at work?

I have

40: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane?

If it were comfortable and legal, yes

41: What is one song you’d like to have sex to?

Powerful by Ellie Goulding and Major Lazer. String of Pearls by the Glen Miller Orchestra for soft and slow lovemaking

42: Has anyone ever posted nude pictures of you online?

Not that i am aware of

43: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in?

If i am interested in them then obviously i'm alright with tattoos

44: Does size really matter to you?

No. Confidence and intelligence matter to me

45: Is there anything you do on the internet that you would not like your significant other to see?

Yes

46: Do you own any sex toys? (what is it? (how long have you had it?)

I have quite a few toys and a few BDsm toys. They are different ages going as far back to 2017

47: Would you give your significant other access to your internet history?

If my future Dom asked me, yes

48: Would you be offended if your significant other suggested you get plastic surgery?

No. I am my own worst enemy and focus on imagined faults. No one can be better at that than me

49: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute?

Prostitute in the high-class escort kind of way. But it would never happen

50: Who gave you your last kiss? Did it mean anything?

My husband. Yes, It means he loves me

51: Do you like to have phone sex?

Sometimes but it takes a lot to get me there

52: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”?

No. But i have and probably will again

53: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair?

Depends on whether i am able to breathe or not

54: Booty or Boobs?

Boobs

55: If you had a penis, what would you name it?

Mr Winky

56: Have you ever been on an official date?

Seriously? Yes

57: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?)

Yes. I have exclusive tastes that are not understood by many. People into D/s can relate

58: Have you had sex with someone of the same sex?

Yes

59: Have you had sex with more than one person simultaneously?

Yes

60: Have you ever been to a strip club?

Yes

61: Name one naughty act you have done in a public place?

Blow job

62: Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?

With the right person, yes ;)

63: Shower or bath while having sex?

shower

64: Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?

If you haven't been able to tell by now, aggressive, but that does not mean I want all sexual encounters to be aggressive

65: Love or Money?

Love, with enough money to go out and have a nice time. I would expect my partner to want that from me as well

66: Have you been caught having sex?

Yes

67: Does anyone have naughty pics of you?

Yes

68: Do you like wild sex or romantic sex?

Both. but i generally get more release and relief from wild sex

69: Do you consider hair pulling sexy?

Absolutely

70: What should a guy first do when about to have sex with you?

Lead

71: Something that will never fail to get you horny?

Intelligent conversation, depth, and confidence

72: Favorite sexual things a guy/girl does to you that's not sex?

Putting his fingers in my mouth while talking aggressively sexy to me

73: What do you wear to seduce the opposite sex?

Perfume and a smile

74: Have you ever paid for sex?

Haven't we all in one way or another? With actual money, no

75: Do you like kissing in public?

Yes as long as it's not tongues out, panting, and making out

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merry-kuroo · 1 year

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you lived in the UK for a time ??? Ok I gotta hear the story on this, and totally ignore this ask if you'd rather not say lol I was just curious after I saw the tag you left

Haha thanks for the ask! I totally don't mind talking about it. I may just message you with all the other miniscule details.

So, I was in Wales for 9 months from 2020-2021 to attend graduate school. For context, if I'd stay in America for graduate school I was looking at student loans of about 100k and finishing in 3 years. By going to graduate school in Wales, I only had to pay 20k and I got my degree in 1 year. So, it was a no brainer in my eyes 😂

It was a constant battle of "Yay, I'm in the UK its so nice over here!" to crying and wanting to come home because I was locked down for 5 months and craved human interaction and attention 🥴 I was a 30 minute walk from the beach so I went down there almost every day during the lockdown in order to keep my sanity.

(Here's some pictures from where I stayed in Wales)

My classmates loved that I was from Texas and said "y'all" constantly. They also told me they could name 3-4 states (California, New York, Florida, and Texas were the main ones). They also loved hearing about homecoming, prom, and my time as a cheerleader in high school 😂😂 It was just little things like that made them laugh.

My classmates were appaled that Americans eat donuts for breakfast. That's not a thing to eat in the morning apparently. My friend said you eat donuts DURING AFTERNOON TEA 😭😭

The food over in the UK is so...healthy. And I didn't have a car nor did I take public transportation so I walked everywhere and when I came back to Texas I had lost 25 pounds and the doctor said I was under weight 🙃 My family kept asking why I was so skinny when I sent them pictures and they were concerned for me while I was over there 😅

But some of the things over there had no flavor. I avoided fish pie or any form of mash potatoes over there. No amount of salt or pepper could make it taste good. I wish I had some stronger seasoning. Mashed peas are the worst thing to ever be served with food. I was to scared to try blood pudding 😭

Graduate school was good. I had insane flat mates and 1 insane classmate and I had a crush on this really really sweet Welsh guy 🥰 I wanted to ask him out, but I was ready to come home 😅 If I had stayed over there, I would've

I had the opportunity to get a graduate student visa and work over there, but the jobs in my chosen field were abundant in America compared to what I saw in the UK (it was pandemic/lockdown related. America was opening up and the UK was still shuttered.) It was a hard decision but I came back to America because I'd knew I could save more money and get started on my career. There are days where I wonder where I'd be if I did stay in Wales or just move to England and Scotland. Some days I tell myself I'll move back or go get my Ph.D over there.

But I think I was meant to move back to Texas for a reason.

I plan on going back this summer to visit my best friend in Edinburgh but it's tentative and depends on what happens in both of our lives from now until April/May.

So, yeah if you have any other questions for me about my time in the U.K. or in Ireland let me know!! 🥰

Here's some more pictures:

#sorry this was super long #I'll message you later if I can think of anything else #thanks for the ask!#wales #uk

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topshelf2112-blog · 2 years

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Hiya I'm here to swamp you with bothersome questions yet again like a cat demanding treats :3 so for the fanfic emoji ask: 🥺 🛒 🍆 🌞 ❌ ✨ 💲 🤗 ✅ 💔 🤯 🦅 thank yooouuu my sweet my dear my beloved 💙

Dearheart, you are only ever an additional measure of joy and never a bother or even a shadow of such! Treats for you!

1. 🥺A type of interaction that gives me feels: a character seeing the truth of another one, seeing past the persona they’ve created to the fact that they live with the same pain and vulnerability & fear as everyone else. (Looking at you, Major).

2. 🛒 Common things I incorporate: there are so many… Chinese food, kittens, autumn scenery, comfortable sweaters, tea…

3. 🍆 I do write spicy things but I don’t think I actually have any truly popular fics in any category… I just write because I love my darlings.

4. 🌞 The cats get me up at 4 AM so I often write from 4-5 and again from 10-11 at night.

5. ❌ a trope I would never write… I’m sort of a never say never person, but probably mpreg

6. ✨ I’m terrible at being kind to myself, but I love that I remain consistently curious about so many things. On the writing front, I’m proud to say I write something every day, even when I feel at my worst.

7. 💲I can’t imagine anyone wishing to pay me, so I guess I am open to requests!

8. 🤗 my advice to all writers is to read in and out of your chosen genre - and not to write for a certain reaction/interaction but for yourself.

9. ✅ evidence of myself, probably 🤦🏼‍♀️ - I often use fic to work through things I struggle to face head on.

10. 💔 I have 100% cried while writing… Tontine was a rough ride.

11. 🤯 I struggle with every single genre that requires a plot

12. 🦅 I sometimes take a few notes in an app, but usually it’s by feel. If I’m slow to update a WIP, it’s probably because I don’t know where to go.

#thank you darling #kind asks #writing

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releasingmyheartnsoul · 7 months

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Preliminary Questions from the book "Emotions Simplified"

1. Do you like who you are and who you are becoming? Yes, I love the man that I am and who I have become.

• If yes, write down 3 things you like about yourself. 1) I like that I'm a hard worker. 2) I like that I think more before I speak. 3) I like that I am able to express myself more

• If not, write down 3 things you wish to change. 1) I wish to change my attitude towards things. 2) I wish to change how involved I am in others lives. 3) I wish to change my approach to life situations.

2. Have you decided who you want to be? Yes

• If yes, write down what you have decided. I have decided to be the best version of myself regardless of what others think.

• If not, write down what’s keeping you from deciding.

3. Have you chosen to treat yourself with respect and love? Yes

• If yes, write down 3 ways you are honoring that choice. 1) praying for myself. 2) daily affirmations. 3) taking time to do things I want and love.

• If not, write 3 reasons why you haven’t.

4. Are you a product of your past and feel shameful about it? No

• If yes, do you have individuals in your sphere who want to control your environment while you fall victim to their tactics?

• If not, write down3 examples of how you protect yourself. 1) realize that I can't change what I've done. 2) know no one is impactful in my life to make me feel bad. 3) think on the lesson I learned

5. Do you always seek to be your best self? Yes

• If yes, write down 3 examples of how you continue to excel.

• If not, write down 3 examples of why you feel it is not worth it for you.

6. Rather than measuring yourself against others, do you measure your growth from your past self to your present self?

• If yes, write down 3 examples of how you feel you have grown.

• If not, write down 3 reasons why you feel a need to measure yourself against others.

7. Do you allow others to mistreat you?

• If yes, are you mistreating others as a consequence? Write down 3 examples of how you allow others to mistreat you and 3 examples of how you mistreat others.

• If not, write down 3 examples of what mistreatment means to you.

8. Have you chosen to allow yourself to be flexible in life?

• If yes, how have your conscious efforts helped you deal with different aspects of your life? Write down 3 examples.

• If not, write down 3 examples of the reasons why you are not flexible.

9. Have you identified the thoughts and beliefs that no longer serve you?

• If yes, write down 3 examples of those thoughts and beliefs that no longer serve you.

• If not, write down what it will take to identify them.

10. Imagine if you could go back in time and see that child that was once you.

• What 3 words of encouragement would you say to your younger self?

11. Do you find that unless you are in control, everything around you is going to fall apart?

• If yes, write down 3 things that stress you out about being in control.

• If not,write down 3 things you can do to let go of control.

12. If you haven’t been much of a giver, can you begin to share more of yourself in ways that would set you free?

• Write down 3 things you would be comfortable sharing with others.

13. Are you afraid of failure?

• If yes, write down why and what is the worst thing that could happen if you failed.

#feelings #thoughts #expressed feeling #expression #motivation

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faithnfrivolity · 8 months

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Posted on FB by my friend Mark Altekruse on 09-08-23

I came across this in another post and thought it was worth sharing.

Credit to James Palmer. I put a story of his journey out of Christianity in the comments below.

As you know, I once was an evangelical megachurch pastor and my pastoral career stretched over many years. Eventually, I could no longer teach Christian doctrine with a good conscience and realized this teaching was not truly changing people’s lives… and so I walked away from the whole enchilada.

Below are 14 things that the misguided religious establishment doesn't want you to know. Speaking for myself and my personal experience, I was not able to see or admit these things to myself. I truly got into ministry initially because I wanted to make a difference and help people, and I relied upon the belief-system I learned as the proper framework to achieve this. It took a lot of post-religion reflection to see the ways this belief-system was hurting people.

I offer the below list in hopes that you might disentangle yourself from harmful beliefs and attitudes impacting your life.

14 things the misguided religious establishment doesn’t want you to know:

1. Toxic religion is rooted in fear, especially fear about the afterlife. It leverages the false doctrine of hell to win converts and demand holiness. The fear of God's disapproval, rejection, abandonment and punishment is another hallmark of toxic religion.

2. Clergy have no innate authority. Holding a church leadership position or having a theological degree does not imbue a person with special divine authority or superiority. The terms "anointed", "called", or "chosen" or titles such as "pastor", "priest", "bishop", "elder", "evangelist" or "apostle" do not confer any innate authority on an individual or group.

3. We hold sacred what we are taught to hold sacred, which is why what is sacred to one community is not sacred to another.

4. The stories in our sacred books aren’t history, nor were they meant to be. The authors of these books weren’t historians but writers of historical fiction: they used history (or pseudo history) as a context or pretext for their own ideas. Reading sacred texts as history may yield some nuggets of the past, but the real gold is in seeing these stories as myth and parable, and trying to unpack the possible meanings these parables and myths may hold.

5. Prayer doesn’t work the way you think it does. You can’t bribe God, or change God’s mind through obedience, devotion, or groveling. The underlying theistic premises of prayer are untenable.

6. Anything you claim to know about God, even the notion that there is a God, is a projection of your psyche. What you say about God—who God is, what God cares about, who God rewards, and who God punishes—says nothing about God and everything about you. If you believe in an unconditionally loving God, you probably value unconditional love. If you believe in a God who divides people into chosen and not chosen, believers and infidels, saved and damned, high cast or low caste, etc. you are likely someone who divides people into in–groups and out–groups with you and your group as the quintessential in-group. God may or may not exist, but your idea of God mirrors yourself and your values.

7. Nobody is born Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Catholic, Protestant, etc. People are born human and are slowly conditioned by narratives of race, religion, gender, nationality, etc. to be less than human.

8. Theology isn’t the free search for truth, but rather a defense of an already held position. Theology is really apologetics, explaining why a belief is true rather than seeking out the truth in and of itself. All theological reasoning is circular, inevitably “proving” the truth of its own presupposition.

9. Becoming more religious cannot save us. Religion is a human invention reflecting the best and worst of humanity; becoming more religious will simply allow us to perpetuate compassion and cruelty in the name of religion. Because religion always carries the danger of fanaticism, becoming more religious may only heighten the risk of us becoming more fanatical.

10. Becoming less religious cannot save us. In fact, being against religion can become it’s own fanaticism. Becoming less religious will simply force us to perpetuate compassion and cruelty in the name of something else. Secular societies that actively suppress religion have proven no more just or compassionate than religious societies that suppress secularism or free thought. This is because neither religion nor the lack of religion solely nullifies our human potential to act out of ego, greed, fear, hostility, and hatred.

11. A healthy religion is one that helps us own and integrate the shadow side of human nature for the good of person and planet, something few clergy are trained to do. Clergy are trained to promote the religion they represent. They are apologists not liberators. If you want to be more just, compassionate, and loving, you must do the personal work within yourself, and free yourself from the conditions that lock you into injustice, cruelty, and hate, and this means you have to free yourself from all your narratives, including those you call “religious.”

12. Religious leaders claims that their particular understanding and interpretation of their sacred books should be universally accepted. Religious leaders often say, “My authority is the Bible.” It would be more accurate for them to say, “My authority is what they taught me at seminary the Bible means.” People start with flawed or false presuppositions about what the Bible is, such as: the Bible was meant to present a coherent theology about God or is a piece of doctrinal exposition; the Bible is the inerrant, infallible and sole message/"Word" of God to the world; the Bible is a blueprint for daily living. Too often religious leaders make God about having "correct theology." There are a lot of unhappy, broken, hurting, suffering, depressed, lonely people in church with church-approved theology.

13. If your livelihood depends on the success of your church as an organization, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that you will mostly define and reward Christianity as participation in church structures and programs. Christian living is mostly a decentralized reality or way of life, not a centralized or program-dependent phenomenon. Church attendance, tithing, membership, service, and devoted participation, become the hallmarks of Christian maturity.

14. You are capable of guiding your own spiritual path from the inside out and don't need to be told what to do. You naturally have the ability, capacity, tools and skills to guide and direct your life meaningfully, ethically and effectively. Through the use of your fundamental human faculties such as critical thinking, empathy, reason, conscience and intuition, you can capably lead your life. You have the choice to cultivate a spirituality that doesn’t require you to be inadequate, powerless, weak, and lacking, but one that empowers you toward strength, vitality, wholeness, and the fulfillment of your highest potentialities and possibilities.

Jim Palmer

#deconstructing christianity

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14 things the misguided religious establishment doesn’t want you to know:

Speaking for myself and my personal experience, I was not able to see or admit these things to myself. I truly got into ministry initially because I wanted to make a difference and help people, and I relied upon the belief-system I learned as the proper framework to achieve this. It took a lot of post-religion reflection to see the ways this belief-system was hurting people.

I offer the below list in hopes that you might disentangle yourself from harmful beliefs and attitudes impacting your life.

3. We hold sacred what we are taught to hold sacred, which is why what is sacred to one community is not sacred to another.

5. Prayer doesn’t work the way you think it does. You can’t bribe God, or change God’s mind through obedience, devotion, or groveling. The underlying theistic premises of prayer are untenable.

7. Nobody is born Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Catholic, Protestant, etc. People are born human and are slowly conditioned by narratives of race, religion, gender, nationality, etc. to be less than human.

Jim Palmer

#religion #jim palmer

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The first Jhumpa Lahiri book I owned and read.

The last Jhumpa Lahiri book I read; 2022.

I read Jhumpa Lahiri's Unaccustomed Earth for the first time back in Class 9. It is a brilliantly written collection of short stories set in America which deals with Bengali families in the diaspora. Lahiri, especially in her earlier works, wrote about middle-class, academic Bengalis who struggle with assimilating to the American culture while struggling to relate anymore to their homeland. Finding a common cultural thread between us, Lahiri became a literary inspiration for me quickly. She was Bengali, educated in my dream school (Barnard College), living an academic/writerly life and writing books about Bengali characters for a living; she was everything I wanted to be during those early years.

For 5 years of my university life, I was stuck in a competitive STEM program which was chosen for me by my parents because of its lucrative job prospects. They desperately wanted me to "make it"; I wanted so desperately to please them. As a result, I had completely blocked the writer/poet in me in order to survive school. I stopped reading-the only thing that ever brought me pure, unadulterated joy-to switch off that part of myself, so I could focus more in school and succeed in my field. I got myself into a 3-year long reader's block.

In 2021, I graduated with an Environmental Science degree, like my parents wanted. And I passed with flying colours too. My capstone research project won first prize in an Undergraduate Research Showcase. I had done everything I needed to make my parents proud. And yet, I felt empty and directionless; I didn't know what I wanted to do with my degree. None of the related job prospects enticed me. Coincidentally, around this time, one of the worst possible things that can happen to an international student, happened to me. My application for a post-graduation work permit was denied. This meant that not only was I legally prohibited from working, but I might have had to leave Canada soon.

Until then, I was used to getting what I wanted from my academic life. I was a hard worker and I enjoyed the results of my hard work. But this set back was out of my control. And it made me realize, how little the work permit mattered to me; I didn't want to earn a living as an environmental scientist anyway. I realized that if life is going to throw us major curveballs, we might as well pursue what we really want.

In February 2022, I picked up a work of fiction after 3 whole years. It was Whereabouts by Jhumpa Lahiri. I chose Jhumpa Lahiri because I wanted to gain back access to the Raisa who had once lived and breathed literature. Whose entire life revolved around her favourite authors and poets, and their work. And Whereabouts did exactly that. So much so that when I finished the book-even though I had no work permit (I had re-applied for one and was awaiting their decision) and no way of knowing whether I’d be legally allowed to stay in Canada anymore-I applied for an After Degree in English. I wanted to go back to who I was before I became a vessel for my parents' expectations of me. I wanted to come back home to myself. Since returning to school to pursue my English degree, it does-in many ways-feel like coming back home.

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Thank you for the ask! These questions were so interesting to think about and answer, I really liked your choices!

3. What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?

I've scrolled a little through my published fics to remind myself of what is up there and I'm surprised to find that the tropes I used are a little bit all over the place. I do have one details that I think is pretty characteristic tho: Most of my fics aren't set in a specific moment or timeframe in canon, but mostly in a vague not so far future of canon at the time of writing. And then I'd say two tropes that are very characteristic for my writing, despite my AO3 profile not accurately representing that, are 5+1 things and for romance mutually oblivious pining. You can find these two a lot in my wip folder, half finished, since this is what I default to when writing most of the time when I write casually. I guess the fics on my AO3 are mostly the ones where I was struck by sudden electric inspiration that made me finish them in one go or something close to it, and the more casual stuff is getting slowly written bit by bit in my wip folder.

7. Any worldbuilding you’re particularly proud of?

I wouldn't necessarily say proud, but I guess I had a lot of fun with the worldbuilding for my crack fic Carefully Chosen Words. The initial basis was a group effort by spitballing after a typo turned "soulmates" into "soupmates", but I enjoyed doing what I did to the background of alphabet soup communicating with the Buckleys and how it incorporated into and influenced the 9-1-1 worldbuilding.

23. What’s a trope, AU, or concept you’ve never written, but would like to?

Despite most of my fics playing in some vague future of canon, I don't think I've ever written a real Future Fic with a big time gap. I'd like to set a fic 10, 15 or even 20 years in the future of canon, and come back to it and see how time (and possibly distance) have changed the lives and relationships of the characters, but also what stayed the same. It's not something that works for me for all fandoms tho, so I have yet to write it (I might finally have an inkling of an idea for this, but time only will tell if something comes out of it)

34. What aspects of your writing are inspired by/taken from your real life?

I try to not draw too much from my own life on purpose cause I'm very afraid of doxxing XD but I obviously know that nonetheless my life will still show on paper (special shoutouts go out to that one Wattpad commenter who clocked where I'm from just based on one line of I come home after 🤣). There is one fic where I specifically took something from my own life tho, and that is Lift Me Up, where Buck and Eddie from 9-1-1 get stuck in an elevator together. It's based on my own experience of getting stuck in an elevator. I obviously didn't have a romance with my neighbor or anything, but I used all the elevator stuff, especially the interactions with the call center employee. I think the worst part of the fic might actually be too much elevator stuff 😆 since it was so hard to decide what to include and when and at which point I'm just doing too much elevator-related exposition that isn't needed for the story to work.

Thank you for the ask! I had a lot of fun answering this (and honestly also thinking back to some of the fics I wrote) 😊

You can find the ask game these questions are from here

#sif talks #sif interacts #ten-ten31 #ask games #not fic

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Every Day Is A Good Day?

These words were the motto of a friend/mentor in my professional world. He had gone through a serious health spell, and was left to rot in the hospital. When he rebounded and got better, his feet and toes essentially had to be broken and pinned to straighten, allowing him to walk.

For years, I carried that motto. Then came the stroke. These days, it is a much more difficult task to find a day that I can feel like that motto is more than just words.

As an Atheist, my views on life & death are pretty straightforward. I have no belief on the question of where my "soul" will come to reside based on who or what I may have pledged my allegiance to. I've always believed in karma, that you get what you give.

We've all gotten a kick out of Little Nicky when Hitler is in hell and he gets a pineapple shoved up his ass as a punishment for possibly being the worst human ever on this planet. We've all talked about people who will have "A special place in hell" reserved for them.

I had a friend pass away recently, and his brother went about 9 years before, so the prevailing sentiment is "Be sure to say hello to your brother for me" or something like that. Rock N' Roll fans think of a supergroup with people like Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, Randy Rhoads, John Entwistle, and Charlie Watts playing in it.

Then there's the reincarnation theory. If you lived a good life, you come back as a puppy or something deemed to have a blessed existence, where if you were an asshole, you come back as a DMV clerk or an IRS accountant.

Those theories give us the sense that this is just phase one of a larger existence and that what we do here punches our ticket for the next chapter. As I have believed for some time, it is like mourning. We don't really mourn the dead, but rather the fact that the living can no longer have them in our lives.

I have chosen to believe that we are simply a different form of animal and therefore our lives and deaths are similar. When our heart stops and the body can no longer support life, it is the end. Not a pathway leading somewhere, but that's it, no more, game over.

I may be entirely wrong, but I have nobody that left us, arrived at this afterlife destination, then came back. So, as an Atheist, I go with the simplest theory is most likely the truth.

After a 30+ year career in healthcare, nearly 20 with the same company, that company is now closing the doors and going out of business. This is the company that kept me on the payroll when I was hit with the stroke, and allowed me to return to work on a limited schedule when I returned, among countless other things.

Not surprisingly, I don't find myself independently wealthy after that time in healthcare. I've had a good income and good life, but I'm afraid not working is not an option going forward. But, I'm not able to drive, have limited movement on my right side and sound like I've been in the dentist's chair all day. Narrow's the opportunity window, right?

In August I filed for disability, thinking I would get ahead of the game. HAHAHAHA. No such luck. They tell you it could be between 5 - 8 months before they will determine if you should be approved. 3 months in they are still hovering at the beginning of the medical review.

It's a shame they have had to make the system so difficult because so much fraud has tainted them, but they should be able to look quickly at my record and see that I applied for unemployment once, and got 1 check before I was back at work. I have worked since I was 16 and my working karma should earn me this when it is needed.

So, I'll just apply for work from home. After all, one of the things we learned during the pandemic (aside from how wonderful it was on the roads) was that most of us can do our work from home. But here again, most companies want you to be able to field calls, handle the finances, balance their budgets and manage their staff with no time off. Or it's a "hybrid remote" position, meaning at least once a week you need to come to an office and speak with people who can't email or chat online.

And for the jobs that don't require all of that, there's 27,000 applicants. "We'll get back with you soon."

This is the exact reason why a life used to be considered over once you have raised and taught your children to produce and be independent, and concluded your career. Otherwise, you get to spend who knows how long being a burden to those you raised to be independent.

Having spent that 30+ years working in senior healthcare, I have watched countless lives that were dragged on way past the point of logic, partially because we don't embrace the idea that over is over and while we have no problem putting down a 9 year old dog, we can't let a human say it's their time to be done.

Now please don't think I'm seeking an injection to be done. I would never do that unless I were deemed to be beyond help. But if I went to bed tonight and never woke again, I wouldn't feel that I was robbed of a single moment. Before you read this and think this screams depression, understand the difference between looking for a rope and being comfortable with mortality. In many cases, depression means "take 2 of these and call me next week". (unless you've ever been told you could possibly be allergic to the 12 ingredients you can't pronounce without a PHD) I've contributed plenty to the medical machine already. You're welcome pharma!

I guess for me now it's every day is another day. SSDD, now there's a motto!

#mortality #disabled #system

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palimpsessed · 2 years

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Fan Fiction Year in Review 2021

I did one of these last year and thought it was interesting to look back over what I had written and think about what I may write going forward. This retrospective list of questions is from @captain-aralias.

If you're a writer, I'd also encourage you to do this. Tag me so I can see your thoughts 🥰

List of Complete Fics for 2021

1. Lotus-Eaters and Sirens - G, 557 words

2. It's a Kind of Magic - M, 15,806

3. The Thrill of the Hunt - M, 11,230

4. Chamber by Chamber - E, 19,043

5. The Hex Files comic - G, 183 (It has a storyline and words that I wrote so I am counting it)

List of In Progress Fics Started in 2021

(because I have a LOT of words 😤)

1. Sleeping with the Fishes (co-written with @the-greater-grief) - M, 7,786 by end of 2021

2. Slings and Eros - M, 52,882 by end of 2021 (This fic alone makes up half my total year’s word count!)

I also wrote a bunch of non-fic things, mostly about AWTWB, that I hadn't expected because I wasn't used to getting asks like I did last year. I'm going to include them, too, because time spent writing is time spent writing.

1. Baggage - regarding Simon's literal and figurative baggage in WS, 480

2. AWTWB and Chosen Ones - thoughts about Simon's arc, Smith Smith-Richards, the Mage, and Chosen Ones, 686

3. The Watford Goats and the World of Mages - working out my ideas about the the goats in AWTWB and Agatha's journey, 314

4. The rest are all tumblr asks linked on my blog at the bottom of my Masterlist 19,147

Total:

4 complete fics, 1 comic, 2 in progress fics, 3 meta, 9 asks

word count: 128,114

word count for fics: 107,487

Thoughts: In my review post last year, I noted that all of the fics (4) I had completed were for events, and I predicted it would be the same for 2021. In fact, it was not! I figured out pretty quickly that I have a problem with over committing when it comes to fandom events and forced myself to scale back. I did participate in some events, but most of the content I made for those was art.

Best/Worst Title?

Best: Slings and Eros

I love this title, even though I have this fear that it won't make sense without my long explanation. Which I'm giving. I just feel like this title does so much. I even made a whole other post about it once. It's a play on words from a Hamlet soliloquy, which feels meta in itself since Shakespeare has to have quite a hold over the World of Mages (even though this isn't a magickal fic). Beyond the source, though, is the context, which is Hamlet trying to decide if he should end his own life and framing that life as enduring a series of trials ("the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune"). I liked this quote particularly for my fic, because it's a Greek Mythology AU, and Greek myths frequently feature stories of a hero enduring a series of labors in order to achieve some overarching goal. This is true for the myth that directly inspired this fic, Eros (or Cupid) and Psyche, and also true for my fic. It's also a big feature of the classic Hero's Journey, which of course, ties back perfectly to the idea of the Chosen One. I also liked the fact that I was removing the word "arrows" from the quote, just as I removed Eros/Cupid's arrows from the story and replaced them with a sword, which felt far more appropriate for Simon. And instead, I could use "Eros" which very conveniently sounds almost exactly like "arrows" and also hints to the source material, Simon's characterization, and one of the major themes of the fic.

I also really like Lotus-Eaters and Sirens and Chamber by Chamber.

Worst: Sleeping with the Fishes

I stand by this title, and I think it makes sense once you've read past the first 1 or 2 chapters, but without any context, it probably sounds like a Mafia AU, when it's actually a tennis and texting AU. I like it, but I feel like it was probably not a great choice in the grand scheme of things. I just saw an opportunity for puns and went for it.

Best/Worst Summary?

Best: Chamber by Chamber

"I'd give him all that I am.

I'd give him all that I was.

I'd open up a vein.

…

I'd tie our hearts together, chamber by chamber.

Simon and Baz have been through a lot. They've also been hard at work on communicating their needs and feelings. Here's some (therapeutic) smut."

This maybe is unexpected because it's a book quote followed by "here's some smut" and there's no actual plot to summarize. But the "chamber by chamber" quote is what inspired the series that culminates in this PWP one shot, and it's smut, so...it really does tell you all you need to know.

Worst: Lotus-Eaters and Sirens

"Simon has some thoughts about sirens while watching Baz drive away from their eventful trip to the Omaha Renaissance Faire.

(This is when Simon is being cute and happy on battle adrenaline and car snogging, and reality is trying to creep back in.)"

I just reread this summary for the first time since I posted it probably and it's so clunky. I don't even know why I have the second part there. I am contemplating how much it would matter this late in the game if I rewrote it, or at least deleted the second part.

Best/Worst First Line?

Best: Chamber by Chamber "Baz is squirming beneath me. It's good. It's hot. It's perfect." Yup. It sets the scene, it sets the mood, it also helps to set up some dom/sub dynamics they're playing with in this fic, too. Also I wanted it to be reminiscent of the night spent kissing at Pitch manor. (Simon on all fours above Baz.)

Worst: It's a Kind of Magic "I can tell it's happening almost before it does. I've had lots of time to learn. I know the signs better than he does, now." I think this opener is weakest among all of last year's fics because it takes its sweet time to get to the point. I don't think I define the "it" in that first sentence for several (admittedly short) paragraphs, and even then, I think I imply, rather than state, that the "it" is Simon slipping into a depressive spiral.

Best/Worst Last Line?

Best: This one is going to be a tie between Chamber by Chamber (the fic not the series) and Lotus-Eaters. Despite them both being one shots with no plot, I really think both of them pack a wallop in their final lines and I am incredibly proud of them! I'm not going to include the last line of Chamby because, plot or not, it actually is a spoiler. For LEAS, I feel like it's safe, though, so I'll drop that one here. "And then…Well. Then I drown." What really makes this line punch for me is that it's a Simon POV taking a Baz line from canon and reversing it from "burn" to "drown", fitting in perfectly with the siren/water imagery Simon uses for Baz in the fic. (Also, points to me for using water imagery for Baz before AWTWB!) It also goes a little further in that the fic is sort of in conversation with the part of CO where Simon compares Baz to a siren (the kind on police cars) and turns that on its head, by having him revise his comparison to the other kind of siren (the singing, ship-wrecking kind). That part in CO runs parallel to Baz's part comparing Simon to an open fire, which is, of course, where the original quote "and then you burn" comes from.

Honorable mention to the Hex Files comic because I intentionally set up Penny's final line to sound like a spell, in order to make it ambiguous about whether she was actually casting on Shepard in the last panel.

Worst: Looking back, I really like all of my last lines. I felt incredibly good about every one of them when I figured out how I was closing out each of these fics and I don't think any of them need improving. So, for this I will say, the worst lines are the ones that don't exist yet because the fics aren't finished and I am a completist.

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, fewer than you thought, or about what you predicted?

I think I wrote fewer fics than expected (even though I did not place expectations on myself) but more words overall, so I guess I'm about equal. 2020 was obviously a very unpredictable year, so not really a great barometer of actual productivity. I was back working full time in person by the start of 2021, and then the day after Baz's birthday, I had surgery which kept me laid up for the better part of 6 months. Of course, I thought I'd be a lot more productive writing wise during that time, but I didn't really account for how tiring it is to regrow bones so...I spent more of that time on art. Plus, we got AWTWB?! After that, my brain melted and then I was going back to work with a COTTA deadline looming.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

I wouldn't say "never predicted", especially because I was already planning it in 2020, but I wrote my first smut! And it ended up being one of my favorite things I've written so far. It was something I hadn't planned on doing, because smut felt intimidating and way out of my depth. But then I was rereading WS, as you do, and the chamber by chamber scene always sticks with me, especially Simon talking about "all that I am...all that I was..." and how those two ideas of his self-identity and self-worth really weigh on him and his relationship with Baz and what it would look like if he really could give all of that to Baz. And then I spiraled about trauma and liminal spaces and monster parts (my love). And I realized I was going to have to write a smut fic if I was ever going to know peace.

What's your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest?

Torn between two lovers... Chamber by Chamber (if it's not obvious by now given how I haven't shut up about it) and Slings and Eros. Both of these fics were/are incredibly challenging to me as a writer--Chamby for the smut but also what I think was an ambitious agenda about dealing with trauma throughout the three part series--and Slings and Eros for being a plot-heavy (for me) epic complete with epic poetry that is very likely going to break 100k. Both of them have been exercises in patience in their own ways, and labors of love that I have enjoyed even when I haven't.

Okay, NOW your most popular story?

Going by kudos and bookmarks, it's Chamby

(To the Manor Borne is still my most kudosed and A Man of Letters is still my most bookmarked overall)

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

I would have liked to see more love for my Penny/Shep comic but it's not Snowbaz and it's the very first comic I did, so maybe that's to be expected. Actual fic-wise, I'm kind of surprised that The Thrill of the Hunt underperforms its Chamber by Chamber colleagues because this fandom seems rabid for vampirism and that's what it's all about. But maybe people read the first one and get impatient for the smut and skip to the last part? I would like to see more engagement on Slings and Eros because it's my current project and I'm excited about it, but it's a beast and I get that a lot of people don't want to read WIPs, especially longer ones.

Story that could have been better?

I didn't answer this last year, and I'm not going to answer it this year, either. I just don't think it's worthwhile for me to hash over what ifs in my fan fic. If I think something can be better, I keep working on it until it is better. Otherwise, it won't see the light of day.

Sexiest story?

The one with the sex in it. 😉

Saddest story?

I think this is LEAS. There is soft and sweet to balance out the sad, but it's not really ever happy. Simon is riding a high from the Ren Faire as he contemplates how much he is just head over heels for Baz, but the undercurrent to all of that is how much he feels like he isn't good or good enough for Baz. He loves him but he can't give him what he deserves; he wants him but he's going to drag him down. It's a lovely meditation full of devotion, but that devotion is telling Simon that he isn't worthy and that's sad, even if he closes the fic reaffirming how hopelessly in love he is with Baz.

Most fun?

When I first went to answer this, I thought it meant most fun to write, but there’s another question about that further down. So then this means the story that is the most fun. And I have no idea how to answer that 😆. Probably Sleeping with the Fishes. Texting is usually a fairly good time. Anyway. I’m still keeping my original answer since the other question is combined with easiest to write, which is different from my answer here. So starting it felt like pulling teeth, partly because it required a lot of research and reading and outlining, and then I got the completely inadvisable idea to write epic poetry, and then had to slog through several chapters to get Simon and Baz into the same place...but SAE has been the most entertaining for me, I think, because of the character dynamics. Getting to write the first Penny, Agatha, and Fiona POVs was so freaking fun. Also, the boys are absolute disasters and I love to watch them just completely lose their minds over each other in every scene. And knowing where it's all going is just SO GOOD and I can't wait for the payoff!

Story with the single sweetest moment?

I think it's SAE, but I don't really want to tell what the moment is because I don't want to spoil it? There's a thing at the beginning, about Baz leaving offerings in Simon's shrine. And at one point, when Baz is having a really hard time, Simon does this really adorable and heartfelt thing that echoes the offerings Baz leaves, as a way to try to let Baz know that he isn't alone. And it just...is a very Simon thing to do and I love it. (Chapter 7 for those curious.)

Hardest story to write?

It's a Kind of Magic needed so many rewrites. I had written The Thrill of the Hunt and didn't realize until I went to write Simon's story in the series that his had to go first, and Baz's second. So then I had to sort out how I wanted to write part 1 when I already had part 2, and what parallels I was going for, and what the ultimate goals were in each part, etc. I think I had a much clearer idea in my head for what I was trying to accomplish with the Baz part than I did with the Simon one. I had a sense of what I was trying to get at, but I think I wasn't sure how to get there, or maybe even where "there" was. I started and re-started it so many times and just chipped away at it for a solid two months fruitlessly before I think things finally started to make sense in my head. Then I had story pieces and had to decide how they fit together and what order they went in. Then Baz started to lead me in a new direction I wasn't really prepared to go. Ultimately, it all feels very smooth and satisfying, but it was such a struggle the entire time. I had been most worried about writing Chamby and I sat down, wrote a full outline in one day, and just went point by point until I had 19k. It was wild. All the hard stuff had already happened I guess.

Easiest/most fun story to write?

I kind of already answered this. I think it was Chamby. There were some lines in there that had me howling when I wrote them. (Baz compares the tightening in his bollocks to the event horizon of a black hole.) There’s a line about them not holding back with each other, and I feel like I was doing the same—just letting them go and do their thing. It was also incredibly moving for being unapologetic monsterfucking PWP, but for the most part, I just had such a great time with it.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

I think SAE has gotten me to think the most about the characters, in so far as it is an AU, and I'm spending a lot of time exploring the ways in which canon and the source myth converge and diverge and how that informs the characters and their dynamics. I don't think it's shifted my overall perception of the canon characters, but the ones in my fic, yes.

Most overdue story?

Same answer as last year, so we're moving on...(I get random bursts of creative energy and then they dissipate before I can capitalize) (but I will persist)

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

I wrote smut, and I co-wrote a fic, and I started a fic off with poetry in a form I'd never written before, and I made a comic, and I started a super long fic with a fully developed "external" plot. I think what I learned is to take risks.

This year's theme and the story that demonstrates it?

Liminal spaces! I haven't screamed about them for a while, but that was really the driving force behind so much of my writing this past year. Chamber by Chamber is the obvious one, but also SAE, probably just one of many reasons those two are my favs.

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

Write what feels good when it feels good. But also venture out of my comfort zone once in a while. Since this is next year already, my immediate goal is just to keep working on my posted WIPs, but also to let myself think about/work on other things, too, because I feel like I need that reminder.

#fan fic year in review #lotus-eaters and sirens #it’s a kind of magic #the thrill of the hunt #chamber by chamber #sleeping with the fishes #the hex files #slings and eros #spicy links

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Hey guys!!! Thanks to our lovely anon/blog historian, Soupy, we now have a recorded history!! Blog lore, my beloved. I'll try and start adding in our new things too, but to any newbies out there, come take a look :):):):)

About the lore for this blog, i cannot remember everything, but i can do something about the cursed asks lore and history, since i just scrolled all the posts in the tags!

31 Jan 2021: an anonymous send an ask asking what people actually mean when they tell a ship if "pedophilic". This start a big number of asks about real survivor and how fucked up is fandom water down the word, purity culture, and consequently story time about harassing people in fandom for purity culture.

1 Feb 2021: someone speak about how much fucked up fics helped them. This probably opened the possibility of cursed asks. The same day, someone other send an ask about a terrible person known for harassing people about the sexuality of a character. The person is called "train fucker".

2 Feb 2021: anonymous point the attention on the train fucking thing. The cursed ask tag is created.

In the following hours, always in the cursed ask tag, people discover the fandom was Death Note and the guy was apparently in real attracted to trains and planes. Hell break down, memes are created.

History is made.

One of the characters will later become protagonists of the tag already existed. PKD already was knew since the 22 Jan 2021, when they sent an ask about the color asks and you had the intuition the tags he was probably someone with a piss kink and the tag "chronicles of piss" was created.

Cursed ask history part 2:

At this moment on time,the tags is still not clearly used. One of the First post tagged as such, the 9th Feb, is an anon answering to the ear fucking conversation about micropenis, while all the other posts are not tagged. The day after PKD enter the cursed asks tag, while the others ask still stay out of it. People start sending the stories they read.

12 Feb Hagrid/Hedwig fics are discovered. Owl fucking anon appear. Someone suggest a friendship between them and mlp guy.

Also mlp pony guy is a lore being who did not appear before in the #cursed asks, but already had their history in the simpler ask tag and in the previous cancel scale period, that we could call the ancestor of #cursed ask.

The First post tagged as cancel scale is from the 2nd Jan 2021. It was an anon answering your post of the same day "alright guys scale 1-10 how screwed r u if it ao3 history and bookmarks get released".

This is the gold era of this blog lore. The philanthropist, wound fucking discourse, rpf bdsm and mlp guy (with the first ask behind paywall) appeared during the first month and a half of the year, mixing at the end with the cursed ask tag.

Cursed ask history part 2:

12 Feb Hagrid/Hedwig fics are discovered. Owl fucking anon appear. Someone suggest a friendship between them and mlp guy.

Cursed ask history part 3:

The philanthropist appeared the same day #the cancel scale started. With their iconic "i am a shameless philanthropist and so my bookmarks are public. I eat dead doves for breakfast. Come on down to the buffet y'all! You want some wound fucking? 8-yr-old omega abortion? I got you fam, watch me scramble these eggs" they left a forever sign in this blog. Still to this days asks are written to know if they are good. They obtained a 12/10 in the cancel scale.

Wound fucking discourse started, also the same day, by CB answering "is that where the wound fucking comes in??" At a ask about vivisection and medical experimentation. Discourse about what classify as a wound and how it works continued trought the day.

Rpf bdsm is thought to have beat the philanthropist with their mix of rape, underage, incest in a foursome, huge age, rpf tentacles and, mostly, someone getting turned into a pickle and his partner fucking himself with it.

This also started a string of asks about people being transformed in object used for sex.

Rpf bdsm would appear again later that day to specify the pickle fic was a rpf.

Cursed ask history part 4 (i think? Already lost the count)

Mlp guy. The one and only. Always in the terrible 2 Jan 2021, they first appeared in the tags of an answer to a marvel ask. #Hey HEY mlp guy #u know who u r #i'm afraid to look at this ask #like yeah we saw some shit tonight but this blows that outta the fuckin WATER #y'all would dead ass have to pay me to post it

Someone noticed the tags and asked about it, and a strong sexual tension between everyone and the unpublished mlp ask started. Someone ended up paying, cause the ask was later published as last post of the day and terrorized every follower of the blog. It was published as screenshot of the ask, and is not even put in the #cancel scale.

MLP guy stayed so in the apex of the cursed asks for some months, till the Pokémon ask by soupy was published the 9th may 2021, taking home a 15/10. MLP guy made a Tumblr profile, @therealmlpguy, in retiliation, and reblogged answering with a new terribly cursed fic. CB have still not voted it, so who have the worst cursed ask is still in question.

The day of #cancel scale the blog fanficmemes lost many followers, but the story was, as we know, not finished.

Cursed ask history part 5

I like to stay an half cryptid of this blog, so i will not tell my blog of origin, but i can tell you I am Soupy. Also i need to know if i am actually considered a cryptic of the blog and if i need to make a lore post about myself XD.

This is starting to get hard cause i cannot reread what i already sent, but the end of the tunnel is near.

We already told about owl fucking anon in the cursed ask tag, but their story is a bit more longer. The cursed ask was actually their big return, and they are probably one of the most proficious lore making, having also a part in the creation of the PKD legend. They should really have their own tag.

How? Well.

The 17 Jan 2021, when the big part of the cancel scale was done and the elders of the lore created, they sent an anon ask about what the cancel scale made them remember. It was a fic, red when they were ten or eleven, about someone fucking an owl while the owl was on their period. Consensual, and apparently the authors were two teen girl who write only character x owl. Their mom proofread. CB answered with their profile picture, edited so that it red "i can't believe it's gotten even worse!" Instead of "i can't believe it's not canon".

This post created, if we want to say, PKD, cause their first ask, that assigned them piss kink, was yes about the color asks (that, in case someone does not remember, was CB asking what colors people assigned to them), but had as explanation "if you keep posting stuff like the owl period whatever". So the owl fucking anon indirectly created, the 22 Jan 2021, PKD.

Owl fucking anon continued their ascension to lore of the blog.

The 12th Feb 2021 sent an ask were they were surprised someone had found Hagrid x Hedwing fics, and than sent anther 9 parts ask about the story of how they red lot of cursed shits thanks to an old tumblr blog that had the links, and how from there they found an author who only published Hagrid x Hedwing, and how that introduced them to FF smut.

(it is also discovered they are only 15, baby, please, i am noone to talk with the shits i red at the time but i hope you are ok).

They are now consacrated in the memory of the blog.

Cursed ask history part 6

Before continuing with the history of the cursed asks, is now time to finally give a small talk about PKD. We know how they originated, but how they become so famous?

Probably is the fact they appeared so many time during the last months. Being it for cancel scale, cursed asks or just normal asks, they continue to give us company with their exploration of piss kink fic. Is true they soundly negate having the kink the first months, but after lot of memes and people speaking about it, the 25 Apr 2021 they finally admitted of having the kink,and discovered it reading an a/b/o Captain America fic.

I would suggest to read all the posts, but they stopped being tagged halfway through, so is half in the specific #chronicles of piss and half in the #cursed ask

Cursed ask history part 7

The big lore is finished, and now only the later history stay.

#cancel scale posts and #cursed asks post lived side by side for some days. The owl fucking one of the 12 Feb was actually the last cursed fic published in the cancel scale post, leaving the tag only for some history reference later.

#cursed asks saw the appearence of every type of cursed possible to thought, with scat and nipple fucking between the different tags. At the start there was no specific day chosen, but later, for CB schedule reasons, Saturday was assigned as cursed ask day, and some week later it was moved to Sunday.

And here we are, today, to see what other cursed things we will bring in this world

Cursed fic History part 8

The cursed fic History have been covered, but i still think is important to talk about some of the before time tags that created the good ecosystem for the creation of #cursed ask.

The most famous is #the lube discussion.

It started the 23 Aug 2020, when CB wrote a post about FF using the word "supple" in smut without the thing being actually supple. In the tag, they added #also #that does Not work as lube.

Some anon asked what was being used as lube, that was answered with "one was peanut butter. I will not discuss the other". This started the bug lube discussion, were everyone talked about what they continingly see used as lube when it cannot be used as lube.

Between the classics soap and blood, we see some more daring one as mud, yogurt, aloe vera, years, milk, hot sauce and the more intersting, cannoli (have no idea if they are talking about the cream you put in cannoli or some american thing i don't know).

Nothing reached cursed material, but it put the first seed for the blog.

#blog lore #my dearest soup #my response to your first letter will be posted swiftly #I got distracted bc I forgot that we don’t know each other irl #and I was gonna press some flowers for u #(they’re still being pressed but I’ll send a pic I forgot that I can’t send real flowers over text #but again thank you so much for doing this #also I really wish I would’ve tagged shit better #maybe I wanted to go back and reread chronicles of piss #but nooooooo I just had to forget about it halfway through #anyways here we go #cursed asks #the lube discussions #chronicles of piss

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goddessofmischief · 3 years

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Blue Monday, Chapter 12 - Loki Laufeyson x Reader

Read chapters 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 8, 9, 10 & 11!

Author’s Note: It’s been a long time coming, but we’re in the endgame now! There will be only a few chapters left after this one.

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“What do we do?”

It was a simple enough question, you knew. You had just discovered that Mobius - your boss, your trusted mentor - was plotting against you.

Either that, or Loki was.

Though somehow, it seemed infinitely preferable to you that it was Mobius. If Loki truly had betrayed you... well, you just couldn’t take it.

“We’ll go, of course,” said Loki. “Mobius has us on a leash - as long as he lives, we are bound to him. We both signed our souls over, Y/N, the very moment we signed that contract. The only thing left to do is confront him.”

“Travel by Tesseract?”

“No. We’ll take the Bifrost. If Mobius is plotting against us, it would be unwise to arrive via his method of transportation. We have to catch him off-guard.”

You nodded, mind racing.

“Alright, alright... we’ve just got to get to the Bifrost, then-”

“Easier said than done. The Bifrost is guarded by a soldier called Heimdall. He’ll know that I’m a time-traveler immediately. There’s no possibility he’ll let us through.”

“What if we could distract him?”

“I can’t imagine a distraction large enough that it could distract a man who can survey the entirety of the universe in a single glance.”

You thought, carefully.

“What if there were two Amoras?”

...

“This is an awful plan,” Loki muttered, striding beside you.

“It’s a wonderful plan. Heimdall will be distracted by the impossibility of the situation, and he’ll have to come look -- then we can sneak away.”

Loki nodded.

“It makes sense on paper, doesn't it? But these things never seem to work as well in practice.”

“Yes. True.”

“And besides... Amora was a fearsome warrior, love. She could kill you. How do you expect to fight her?”

You shrugged.

“I’ve got her sword, haven’t I? Without that... I imagine we’ll be equals.”

...

You were dead wrong.

You’d only been looking at Amora - who, you had to admit, did look quite a bit like you - for all of six minutes, and she was the most terrifyingly intense person you’d ever witnessed.

“And you’re sure you’re ready for this, darling?” Loki asked again.

“Yes,” you said, quietly. “I was born ready.”

With a final squeeze of his hand, you strode up to the warrior.

“Amora!” you shouted. “Of Asgard!”

You had gotten her attention, you knew - and she stared through you, with piercing eyes.

“You are myself, I see.”

“I am more yourself than you are,” you taunted, and Loki arched an eyebrow. You could almost hear his thoughts:

What are you doing?

Enough small talk!

Make her mad!

You cleared your throat.

“I am yourself, Amora. And I have come to take what is mine. I’ve already got your sword-” you swung Kursebreaker for extra effect. “How about your betrothed?”

Amora growled, and with identical grimaces, the two of you faced off against each other.

“I will destroy you,” she promised.

You smiled.

“You may try.”

She lunged in your direction, and to your surprise, the sword seemed to do all the work for you. You blocked her kicks and her punches, and even managed to knock her to the ground.

That is, until, someone tossed her a staff.

She beat you to the ground, and you began to collapse under her weight. Somewhere in the crowd, you could hear Loki’s whispers, as if he was speaking against the back of your neck - spells, enchantments.

Loki had chosen you over Amora. Loki was fighting for you.

That had to mean something.

“Well,” said a larger guard, who you guessed was Heimdall, “What’s this?”

“This imposter has attempted to vanquish me,” said Amora, standing up. “I was about to finish her off.”

Suddenly, like magic, fifteen of you appeared in the arena. Loki gestured at you, and you ran to him, the other Amoras distracting the crowd.

“That was close,” you panted, and you both ran. “I thought she was about to kill me.”

“I thought she would, too!”

You glared at him, and, suddenly, you stopped in front of a large, rainbow bridge -- the Bifrost, you guessed.

“Good, the sword’s here -- come on, you first.”

“What, so I can die first?” you shouted. “Nice try, Loki - not bloody likely!”

He groaned.

“Trust me?”

“No, of course not! The worst possible thing I could do is trust you!”

Thirty soldiers began to descend upon you, and you glanced at Loki.

“Fine, yes! I trust you!”

Without warning, Loki swept you into a kiss.

“I’ll see you on the other side,” he promised, and you vanished into the Bifrost.

...

The T.V.A. felt a little different, now. Cursed, or haunted, or something.

It felt wrong. Like you’d outgrown the place.

And you had, in a way. You didn’t need to be their agent, ever again. You didn’t belong to anyone. All you needed was Loki, and you had him.

“He must be around here somewhere,” Loki muttered, ducking around a hallway. “Somewhere...”

“Hey, kids.”

“Mobius,” you snapped, glaring at the man who had just appeared before you. “You son of a bitch.”

“Easy, darling,” Loki whispered, dangerously serene, tangling his fingers in yours. “It’ll be alright-”

“No, it won’t be!” you exclaimed, wrenching your hand away. “Don’t you understand? He’s about to kill us!”

“And do you really think I’ll let him?”

“Loki, I don’t think you’ve got a whole lot of say in it.”

“She’s right,” said Mobius, nodding towards both of you. “See... that’s kinda been my plan all along.”

“Explain yourself, small man,” Loki ordered.

“Well, the thing is - this universe is done. Earth is gonna destroy itself, just wait and see. Asgard is dead. The rest of our universe will soon follow. So I’m going to take that tesseract... and I’m going to the next one. It’s a big multiverse. I’ll travel a little, y’know... decide where I want to end up. I’m really kinda glad you guys came to confront me, by the way - after all... it is why I brought you here.”

“You tried to frame me?”

Loki looks completely unsurprised, of course, as utterly tranquil as a resting lake, but you saw the stirring underneath.

Mobius had chosen him because he thought he would be a monster, and make a monstrous choice. He had hoped that Loki would destroy the universe for him.

And Loki had disappointed him.

But he had saved you. That had to count for something.

Right?

“Tried? I did frame you,” said Mobius. “In the eyes of the universe... when I destroy this world, you will be the only possible culprit.” “Why’d you bother?” you ask. “You could’ve just... destroyed this timeline yourself, and taken the credit. You were my mentor. I know you’re powerful enough to do it.”

Mobius wagged his finger at you.

“The Watchers,” he said. “They see everything, you know. Broad strokes and actions. If I had done it, they would’ve made my travel... inconvenient.

And, besides. I had the book, I knew how the story would end. I knew what he thought you were, all along. And I knew that if I put the one thing that Loki needed and just could not have so close to him, it’d be bound to end in bloodshed. It’s simply the most likely outcome. Why have all that blood on my hands, when it could so easily be on the God of Mischief’s?”

Loki looked lost, and far less certain than before. You wanted to comfort him, but... you were quite unsure, yourself. Both of you would soon be dead. There was precious little that either he or you could do about it.

“It’ll be alright,” Loki repeated, sounding a little uneasier than he had been. You looked up at him, concentrating, carefully, on memorizing every flawless line of his face.

You’d never told him you loved him.

Well... it just didn’t matter. You’d be dead in moments.

It just didn’t matter.

But he had to know something else. You had to destroy one last bit of hope for him.

“Loki,” you whispered, quietly, reaching for his hand, “Loki, I can’t do it.”

“Can’t do what, darling? Handle this fool?”

“No. I can’t... I know part of you thinks I can save us, but I can’t. I’m not a goddess. I’m not. I’m just me. And that isn’t enough.” “I know.”

“What?”

He did a half-hearted little shrug.

“I suppose... I’ve known for a long time. If you ever were who I thought you were... you aren’t, anymore. I can’t explain it. But I did know.

Oh, what’d you expect me to do, love? Admit that I had been sticking around, all this time, simply for you?”

Your breath caught in your throat.

“But... no matter,” Loki said, briskly, pressing a kiss to the top of your head and continuing to glare at Mobius. “I imagine you know why she looks like Amora? That must all be part of your plan, yes?”

Mobius chuckled.

“Certainly, friend. See... it’s all very funny... she is Amora.”

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MAJOR SPOILERS FOR DANGANRONPA V3 (and probably the other games, too, just to be safe)

So, just as a heads up, I made this list a few months ago, I think in the middle of chapter 4. I was going to update it, but I realized that any feelings I had were just made stronger and the list was still relatively accurate. Here are my thoughts:

I see no god up here other than me

Kirumi Tojo - As you may know about me, I can typically tell who my favorite characters are going to be before I indulge myself in a series. This has especially rung true throughout Danganronpa, I was able to correctly guess Taka and Gundham as my respective favorites before actually seeing them in action. Let me tell you that Kirumi surprised me. I originally guessed K1-B0 as my favorite and while he’s still up there, he is nowhere near Kirumi. I realized she was my favorite the moment chapter 2 ended. Not only were her execution and plan wonderful and brilliantly done, her last-ditch plea to convince everyone to let her live sold her for me. Not only did this plea make sense, it almost worked and I kinda wish it would’ve. Her motive was almost completely selfless and she worked damn hard to escape. Her execution was the only time I cried during this game because I wanted so badly for her to escape, but I knew that all of her efforts were futile. I know her biggest criticism is that her plan from hiding Ryoma’s body was completely unnecessary, but I like to believe she was just nervous and overthought the whole thing. I mean, this had to go perfectly in order for her to save her country, of course she’s going to add a few too many steps.

Miu Iruma - Okay, I know this is going to sound fake, but I actually really love the dichotomy of her character. The way that she acts so self-righteous but is actually quite self-conscious really stood out to me. Of course she’s funny and hot, too, but I feel it’s important to really appreciate the way her character was written. It amazes me that she was written to be the least likable character in the entire series and still ended up being one of my favorites.

You’re the best

K1-B0 - Yes, I type out his name every time. As I already mentioned, he was my original guess for favorite character, but it obviously didn’t work out that way. He stayed in his position of first for a while, but I always knew it wasn’t meant to last, I just didn’t know which character would take his place. Even besides my doubts, I still love K1-B0, I just wish more could’ve been done with him in the earlier chapters. There are several opportunities for him to be a really funny character and have good interactions with Kokichi and Miu, but he just comes off as annoying. I feel like he only really started to be utilized after Miu died with Monotaro and I really enjoyed their dynamic, I just wish we could’ve had some of this side of K1-B0 before this point.

Kokichi Oma - This spot probably isn’t as subjective as I’d like it to be. Every time Kokichi was on screen, I would get visibly annoyed, but I knew I was in for a treat figuring out his deeper intents behind what he’s saying. The only reason I really like Kokichi at all is because he’s fun to analyze. It gets boring to analyze Nagito because his motivation is pretty much just a mix of “hope” and “he’s crazy.” Kokichi’s character trait of lying makes it so fun to individually analyze each of his lines to figure out whether he’s telling the truth and why or why not. Other than that, I guess he has some funny dialogue with Miu sometimes.

Gonta Gokuhara - I really don’t know. I know this is way too early to be unsure about characters, but I just know I couldn’t put him any lower, but I also couldn’t put him any higher. He’s just such a sweetheart, but that’s about where the substance ends. I adored every time he was on my screen, but everything that would’ve been fun to analyze about him just leads back to Kokichi. I still really enjoy his presence, though. I’d like a big Gonta hug.

Kaede Akamatsu - I’ll just say it, I think she would’ve made for a better protagonist. I’ll talk about this later, but Shuichi’s character development doesn’t really feel like it goes anywhere and the twist doesn’t feel worth it because of that. I think the twist should still have been incorporated, but with the roles reversed. Either way, we got what we got, and what we got was tears from Clair de Lune. But seriously, she really is a great pianist. I’ve been trying to learn the piece for ages and it’s still too complicated for me. I mean, it’s in 9/8 for God’s sake. Good for her, regardless.

Tenko Chabashira - Tenko’s a weird case. I didn’t actually care for her that much until quite literally a few lines before she died. Fun fact: I spoiled this entire series for myself before I ended up playing it and I’m still mad at myself. This meant that I was just waiting for all of the deaths to happen, especially Tenko’s. I was fully aware that every line could be her last during the seance, but I wasn’t aware that she would pull on my heart strings before she went. When she tells Himiko that she’ll do the seance in her place so she can talk to Angie, I literally almost started crying. Before this, Tenko was just kind of annoying, but not too bad, but this moment really solidified her spot for me. She really just wanted to help Himiko and I wish she had chosen a better target for her affections.

Hey, I think you’re pretty cool, I like you a lot

Shuichi Saihara - Time to elaborate on what I said for Kaede. I actually really enjoyed Shuichi’s character development throughout the first three chapters. Before coming to Hope’s Peak, he was afraid to hurt people with his detective skills. Kaede notices this and helps him through it, passing the reins to Kaito once she passes. Shuichi convicts Kaede and later Kirumi, much to everyone’s detriment, but they’re all okay with it (Nobody was really super sad about Korekiyo to begin with, lol). Then, starting in chapter 4, everyone just kinda flips on him. Shuichi + the rest of the gang - Kokichi all believe that Gonta is innocent and Shuichi tries to prove this. Instead of supporting him, everyone (especially Kaito) tries to... stop him??? from proving it??? They’re all just in agreement that it wasn’t Gonta, but don’t want to proceed with the investigation to figure out who it was instead. It’s really frustrating and made my overall experience much less enjoyable. This is bumped up a few notches in chapter 5 with Maki. I understand that she was part of the whole case, but that doesn’t make it any less annoying that she won’t let me prove Kaito was the victim. It just feels like the character development was all for nothing and every student feels like a human obstacle (except K1-B0, of course). Still relatable and emo, though.

Rantaro Amami - I would make the joke everyone expects, but I’m on my laptop and I don’t know how to get to the emoji keyboard.

Ryoma Hoshi - I genuinely don’t have anything to say about Ryoma. He’s my halfway point because I don’t have anything particularly for him and I don’t have anything particularly against him, either. Go off, funky little cat man.

Kaito Momota - He got on my nerves in chapter 4, but he was a genuinely sweet character that I really enjoyed talking to. Any time he would talk about the stars, I would swoon because he’s just such a natural romantic. Not really my type, though. Very average.

Monophanie - Legally you can’t ask me why the monokubs are where they are. She’s voiced by Natalie Hoover (Sonia) and I guess that’s my only reasoning.

Monotaro - I really just liked his interactions with K1-B0 in chapter 4. Other than that, I greatly disliked his and Monophanie’s presence in Gonta’s execution. 0/10 worst use for monokubs.

Monodam - A nice, non-distracting addition to Korekiyo’s execution. But he had so much potential and just threw it all away. Apparently I’m a basketball dad from a high school movie now.

I remember you

Angie Yonaga - Many times, I’ve found myself asking who I ship from the series and this love triangle comes to mind. Of Angie, Himiko, and Tenko... I only really like Tenko. I don’t hate Angie’s cult stuff as much as everyone else seems to, but she didn’t have nearly enough of a presence for me to latch onto outside of the cult stuff, which was funny, I will admit.

Maki Harukawa - I was so excited the whole game for her to get cool. I knew she was going to get cool, I just didn’t know when or how. But then, it was chapter 5 already and she hadn’t gotten cool in my eyes yet. I was really meh on her by that chapter anyway, but her being annoying really knocked her down a few pegs. She got a couple extra points for surprising me during the case, but not enough to bump her up any spots.

Himiko Yumeno - I was rooting for her to be crushed under the rock at the end. She was fine before chapter 3, but then they tried to develop her with the Akane treatment and it didn’t work for me at all. She just got on my nerves during the third trial and continued to contribute nothing throughout the rest of the game. During chapter 5 and 6, it’s like the writers just completely forgot that she was there. This would’ve been fine if they weren’t the last couple of chapters and she was one of about 6 people left alive. She had a role to play and didn’t play it in the slightest. The most she was utilized after chapter 3 was as Miu’s replacement post-chapter 5. Someone needed to fill the dirty jokes quota and I guess Himiko was chosen. #GiveTenkoABetterLoveInterest2021

Monosuke - The only thing I remember him doing throughout the entire game was distract me from Kirumi’s exectuion. Not a fan.

You are the worst. Literal scum. Leave this planet and never return

Korekiyo Shinguji - Okay, listen. He’s not that bad. His design is actually one of the best, in my opinion and I love his dedication to his craft. However, he just creeps me out whenever he’s on screen and I’d prefer not to be around him. It’s not even the sister thing, I honestly think that’s funny and a nice change of pace, but his overall demeanor is creepy. Not to mention he’s played by Todd Haberkorn and he’s been in one too many roles recently. Hopefully I’ll get over it, but as for now, that loses him points.

Tsumugi Shirogane - I know, not exactly an unpopular opinion. She’s just annoying and downright pisses me off a lot of the time with her “plain” shtick. I already knew she was going to be the mastermind, so most of the game was just me waiting for her to reveal it. I swear, I almost couldn’t take it every time she said something like, “What if there isn’t a mastermind?” “What?? There’s a mastermind????” Just stfu Tsumugi. You all are lucky I don’t have the energy to talk about 3-6 right now.

Monokid - Hate the tongue sprite, that’s literally the only reason he’s down here. He’s also kind of annoying, but made the best addition to an execution out of all of the monokubs. His death was one of the few things that surprised me in this game and it was a welcome twist. I was sick of him by this point, but was still incredibly shocked when he was pushed into the execution. Then, his severed head rolls out to all of the students looking on in shock at Kaede’s death. Masterful. Still hate the tongue sprite.

There we go. Definitely my least favorite cast out of the whole series, but it’s still fun to love on and hate on a lot of the characters, as per usual. There are just a few too many in the middle tier (metaphorically speaking) that are either uninteresting or just don’t get their time to shine. Maybe they’ll eventually grow on me more, but I doubt it.

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Being a role model SUCKS (Inuyasha)

Spending time in the future was usually fun and a break from the stress that the feudal era gave out but the bucketful. Usually but not this visit. Inuyasha should of known something was up when Kagome A) kept talking about how upset and babyish Souta felt needing bedtime diapers as of late (and some day time pull ups, there had been little leaks) but also B) was giving Inuyasha all the instant ramen noodles he could handle and more.

Sadly, nothing quite clicked till they had arrived and then he'd been cornered not only by Kagome, but her mother as well while Souta was playing out behind the house.. and from there everything had gone downhill.

After a long talk (Well the women had talked, Inuyasha had argued but they seemed to ignore any points he made) Inuyasha found himself making a deal that he would give Souta the confidence boost he needed by having someone bigger then him be more BABYISH then him.. and in return Inuyasha got whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted it next time he visited.

"And let me tell you right here and now, My list of demands are gonna be HUGE!" Inuyasha growled.

Kagome however just smiled and patted his head like he was already just a huffy baby and had lead him off to get dressed for the part.

Souta huffed as he kicked the soccer ball at the goal post, catching it and kicking it back over and over. It just wasn't fair that his bladder was betraying him like this when he was -9- years old! without a doubt in his mind, he was the biggest diaper baby in the whole town, heck maybe even the whole freaking country!

That thought was interrupted as he heard a LOUD crinkling noise and turned to see what it was.. and his ball hit his shin as his jaw almost hit the ground.

Waddling out behind behind Kagome dressed in a red onesie that did NOTHING to hide the thick, massive diaper(s) he was wearing and a pair of sandal's was Inuyasha!

The Half demon was beet red and seemed to be tugging on Kagome's arm, making it clear he'd rather go back inside even as he looked this way and that until, heh, she stopped and gave him a swat on his padded backside and shook a finger at him, talking clearly.

"No Inuyasha, you've been hiding inside for 2 weeks now, you need some fresh air and that's why we're in the future." She scolded.

"But..but.." Inuyasha whined.

"It's ok Inuyasha, I'm sure Souta won't tease you just because you can't control yourself right now." Kagome said in a motherly tone, then turned back to Souta. "Isn't that right Little guy?"

"heh..hehehehe yeah no, I won't at all Little yasha!" Souta said, a big silly grin breaking out on his face now."What even happened though?" he asked, coming over to the pair.

Kagome let go of Inuyasha's hand though gave him a look and the huffing diapered half demon plopped his butt onto the soft dirt of the back yard.

"Oh, we got attacked by a crazy priest who figured the only way to redeem demons was to teach them humility." Kagome started, a well practiced lie. "Basically Poor little Inuyasha, heh, or yasha as you called him..I like that! Anyways, he lost a lot of power and well control of his tinkles and uh-oh's for 3 weeks.Not to mention he's become a lot more..childish as you might of noticed." As Kagome said that with her back to the half demon Inuyasha stuck his tongue out at her and Souta covered his mouth to keep from giggling. Kagome turned to see what was so funny but Inuyasha had stopped JUST in time and was looking away, trying and failing to whistle. "...Anyways..I've been trying to deal with it in the past but frankly he's been stinking up his cabin and I'm sick of washing his diapers. figured why not let him spend the last week of it here and enjoy the freedom to play outside AND the wonders of disposable diapers." she finished.

"oh well, shucks , Little yasha could of came here sooner! I would of helped look after him!" Souta said, swelling with big boy pride since heck he was just in a nice and slim pull-up AND he didn't stink up his diapers! "If you wanna take a little break I'll even watch him for you right now." Souta added.

"Will you? that'd be great!" Kagome gushed and ruffled his hair. "Oh, one thing, with Inuyasha starting to get his control back, you'll have to keep asking him every so often if he need to potty or needs a diaper change. about once a hour. I'd worry more on the diaper change though myself."

the fact that Souta was suppose to be doing a potty check himself once a hour flew right over his head and the little 9 year old nodded and gave a thumbs up.

"Don't worry sis, I got this!"

Inuyasha was mentally adding heaps on his list of demands as his new nick name caught on and Kagome went out of her way to make him seem even more helpless.

with his 'darling' girlfriend retreating inside, Souta came over to him and smiled, then bent down and sniffed, confusing Inuyasha for a second.

"Hmm, you SMELL clean for the moment at least." Souta said and then patted Inuyasha's head. "Good boy!"

If he made it thought the week without having to kill someone Inuyasha wanted all the good damn treats.. but knowing the role he was SUPPOSE to play he gave a silly grin (And the heat pats kinda sorta maybe felt nice too.)

"Well little yasha, what do you wanna do? I was playing some soccer but if your muscle control and stuff is all messed up I don't think that's a good idea. sides you likely can't move too fast in your diapies." Souta said.

'So nice but still being a jerk..it must run in the fucking family.' Inuyasha thought then put a thoughtful look on his face. "Ummm we could play hide n seek!" Inuyasha offered up, putting a doopy childish twinge to his voice.

"ok, You hide and I'll seek. I'll give you to the count of 20." Souta said and went to cover his eyes when Inuyasha tugged at his shorts. "Hmm? what's wrong?"

"How many is 20?" Inuyasha asked, rubbing the back of his head sheepishly, not having to force a blush as the pure humiliation of this all was taking care of it for him.

A big grin broke out on Souta's face and he bent down and took Inuyasha's hands in his.

"20 is this many.. and then" and Souta let go of Inuyasha's hands and tapped a finger on the exposed toes since Inuyasha had gone sockless in the sandals. "and this many. Can you keep track of that?"

"Ummm I think so!" Inuyasha said and nodded his head, having to admit that was all sorts of cute.

"Ok then, when I hit 20 you'll hear me say, ready or not, here I come anyways in case you lose count." Souta said and with a last head pat, he stood up and closed his eyes, starting to count.

Of course Inuyasha could of scaled a tree or taken to the roof top even with the bulky diapers he had on, he decided to play fair and also, knew it would ruin the whole plan and he hadn't of put up with it THIS far just to fuck it up now.

He needed what would seem like a good hiding spot to a toddler but clearly wouldn't work for him and now up on his feet he scanned the yard.

"One...two...three...four.."

Jesus, this wasn't like a life or death battle but for Inuyasha he found himself frozen on the spot, trying to figure out what would work, his natural instinct to win was messing up his need to lose!

"Five...six..seven.."

ok this was just getting stupid! he fought the urge to face palm and then spotted a narrow opening under the steps to the back porch, it would hide him from Souta's direct line of sight but would of gotten him caught as soon as the little guy came close.

"Eight...nine...ten, That's half the count yasha!" Souta called.

'heh, he really is a fair sport.' Inuyasha thought, then as stealthy as he could (read, not at all) waddled his way over to his chosen hiding spot even as his tummy started to feel a little bit weird.

'Must be that glass of icky juice they insisted I drink before coming out so I don't get dehydrated.' Inuyasha thought, crinkling loudly and having to speed up.

"Fourteen...fifteen...sixteen..." Souta called out, a big goofy grin on his face.

Waddling with all the speed he muster and keep up the lie, Inuyasha drove to get into the hole.. and found out that while he had been right he could of squeezed in there normally.. he hadn't taken into account the triple diapers. His upper half was in, but his padd butt and legs stuck out and he knew if he tried to force himself in,he'd end up losing them.

'fuck my life..'

"seventeen, eighteen..nineteen...twenty! Ready or not here I ..pffft.. come..heh. Did you get stuck little yasha?"

Inuyasha had been about to push himself back out but with Souta's suggestion, figured that worked and started to give out a sheepish yes, but his tummy cramped and it came out much more panicked.

"Yeah! Uh.. Please help me git out!" he said, one hand keeping him from going into the dead leaves and the like under the step but the other was on his tummy, and he kicked his legs a little more to try and work out the cramp.

"hey, it's ok! don't worry! I'm coming over, though you have to stop kicking your legs. I'm gonna grab you at the waist and pull you back, so watch your head!" Souta called, and Inuyasha could hear him running over.

"O-Ok." The half demon whimpered, the cramps were getting worst and he semi pushed back a little giving Souta a better place to grip though he didn't take into account with the building cramps he might not want someone wrenching on his midsection.

'oh god, this feels like that time I ate those clam's that had gone bad right before I..I..Oh those fucking bitches!' Inuyasha thought, cluing in to why the ladies of the house had grinned so big when Inuyasha had downed his drink to get the icky tasting thing over and done with.

he had a brief second to think about just calling this off, he'd get himself out and whine to Souta that his tummy hurt and try and shit himself somewhere private, but by then it was far, far too late.

Souta's little arms and hands were trying to pull him out and the extra force on his tummy tum meant that while he did get free, pushing himself back to make it look like it was all Souta, he banged his head on the step knocking him loopy for a split second and also started to filled his diapers.

As he loudly farted and giggled, he wore a blissful stupid derp face.

Souta was shocked at just how strong he was as he freed the poor trapped little guy, though it was soon replaced with amusement and disgust as Inuyasha started to let out massive wet fart and then more then that, a stupid look on his face.

"Uhhh yasha, are you going boom boom?" Souta asked, holding his nose. it was rhetorical question at this point as the diaper was starting to swell, so Souta didn't figure he was gonna need to do a sniff check.

"Hehehe Ya! Going PBBBBBBTTTT!" Inuyasha giggled and stuck his tongue out, blowing a raspberry.

"heh, you surrrre are buddy. but it's ok. You uh.. stay here and finish up and I'll go get Kagome ok?" He said/asked, coming over and patting Inuyasha's head.

"OOOOOOTAYYYY!" the diaper pooping derp coo'ed.

"heh..wish Kagome would of worked me you went all derp when you unload. kinda cute." Souta giggled, then dashed up the step's to stick his head in the back door.

"Kagome! You need to come and get your boyfriend, he's pooping himself silly, Literally!" Souta called.

Yeah, wearing pull-ups sucked, but as Souta pulled his head back out of the back door and looked down at Inuyasha, at least he was a stinky diaper derp.

The end..for now

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