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transmutationisms · 4 months

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from a non-academic, i find parts of comphet to be useful (heterosexuality becomes compulsory when you’re raised in a heterosexual society) but the foundations . suck. what do we do with theories like this, that have touched on a truth but also carry a lot of garbage? can we separate the truth from the founder?

i have to be slightly pedantic and say that i don't think rich's essay is an example of this phenomenon. my central issue with her formulation is its bioessentialist assumptions about human sex and therefore also sexuality. if i say "capitalism includes economic mechanisms that enforce heterosexual behaviour and exclude other possibilities", then what i mean by "heterosexual" is plainly not the same as what rich means—and for this reason i would seldom formulate the statement this way, without clarifying that i am talking about the enforcement of heterosexuality as a part of the creation and defence of sex/gender categories themselves. so rich and i do not actually agree on the very fundamental premises of this paper! rich was not the first or only person to point out that economic mechanisms as well as resultant social norms enforce heterosexual pairings; i actually don't even think the essay does a very clear job of interrogating the relationship between labour, economy, and the creation of sex/gender; she means something different and essentialist to what i mean by sex and sexuality; and i think her proposed responses to the phenomenon she identifies as 'compulsory heterosexuality' are uninteresting because they mainly propose psychological answers to a problem arising from conditions of political economy. so, in regards to this specific paper, i am actually totally comfortable just saying that it's not a useful formulation, and i don't feel a need to rescue elements of it.

in general, i do know what you're talking about, and i think there's a false dichotomy here: as though we must either discard an idea entirely if it has elements we dislike, or we accept it on the condition that we can plausibly claim these elements and their author are irrelevant. these are not comprehensive options. instead, i would posit that every theory, hypothesis, or idea is laden with context, including values held and assumptions made by their progenitors. the point is not to find a mythical 'objective' truth unburdened by human bias or mistakes; this is impossible. instead, i think we need to take seriously the elements of an idea that we object to. why are they there? what sorts of assumptions or arguments motivate them, and are those actually separable from whatever we like in the idea? if so, can we be clear about which aspects of the theory are still useful or applicable, and where it is that the objectionable elements arise? and if we can identify these points, then what might we propose instead? this is all much more useful, imo, than either waiting for a perfect morally unimpeachable theory or trying to 'accept' a theory without grappling with its origins (political, social, intellectual).

a recent example that you might find interesting as a kind of case study is j lorand matory's book the fetish revisited, which argues that the 'fetish' concept in freud's and marx's work drew from their respective understandings of afro-atlantic gods. in other words, when marx said capitalists "fetishise" commodities or freud spoke about sexual "fetishism", they were each claiming that viewing an object as agentive, meaning-laden in itself (ie, devoid of the context of human meaning-making as a social and political activity) was comparable to 'primitive' and delusory religious practices.

matory's point here isn't that we should reject marx's entire contribution to political economy because he was racist, nor is it that we can somehow accept parts of what marx said by just excising any racist bits. rather, matory asks us to grapple seriously with the role that marx's anthropologically inflected racism plays in his ideas, and what limitations it imposes on them. why is it that marx could identify the commodity as being discursively abstracted and 'fetishised', but did not apply this understanding to other ideas and objects in a consistent way? and how is his understanding of this process of 'fetishisation' shaped by his beliefs about afro-atlantic peoples, and their 'intelligence' or civilisational achievements in comparison to northwestern europeans'? by this critique matory is able to nuance the fetish concept, and to argue that marx's formulation of it was both reductive and inconsistently applied (analogously to how freud viewed only some sexuality as 'fetishistic'). it is true in some sense that capital and the commodity are reified and abstracted in a manner comparable to the creation of a metaphysical entity, but what we get from matory is both a better, more nuanced understanding of this process of meaning-making (incl. a challenge to the racist idea of afro-atlantic gods as simply a result of inferior intelligence or cultural development), and the critical point that if this is fetishism, then we must understand a lot more human discourse and activity as hinging on fetishisation.

the answer of what we do with the shitty or poorly formulated parts of a theory won't always be the same, obviously; this is a dialogue we probably need to have (and then have again) every time we evaluate an idea or theory. but i hope this gives you some jumping-off points to consider, and an idea of what it might look like to grapple with ideas as things inherently shaped by people—and our biases and assumptions and failings—without assuming that means we can or should just discard them any time those failings show through. the point is not to waste time trying to find something objective, but to understand the subjective in its context and with its strengths and limitations, and then to decide from there what use we can or should make of it.

#marx #adrienne rich

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is-this-yuri · 8 months

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i think maybe the only thing that can't be yuri is trans men (unless a trans man feels differently about this)

hi let me tell you all a secret

i'm transmasc and also a lesbian. i consider myself butch. i'm in a relationship with a wonderful girl who is also a lesbian, and we joke about being yuri occasionally.

my pronouns are he/him, i have a beard and a deep voice, i've had top surgery, and to the general public i appear to be a cis man. i like it that way! i believe this aesthetic is as far on the butch side of the butch/femme spectrum as you can get. men, even cis men, can be butch. it just happens to be the default for them due to cultural expectations, so we don't generally think of it like that.

i never felt quite comfortable with the gendered expectations of being in a straight relationship. i've been reading yuri since i was a tween, and back then i considered myself a lesbian too. once i realized i wanted to transition to male, i thought i had to let go of the lesbian label, even though i didn't really feel straight. i even felt guilty and creepy for reading yuri, so i stopped doing it for a while.

i've always related to lesbian romance more than straight romance, so i decided to not let go of the lesbian label for myself. i'm also very lucky to be dating such an understanding girl that can look past my flesh shell and love the real me inside, and our love is very gay, despite appearances.

this may be a rare story, but it is real! yuri, yaoi, gay, straight, man, woman, they're all just words we use to imprecisely attempt to describe an infinitely complex reality. all words are like that. we made them up to create pretty much arbitrary dividing lines, and now most people insist on following those lines to a T. even though many people don't even agree on where those lines lie!

the truth is, words are fake. but love is real. self expression is as fluid as the blood in our veins, and true identities are as numerous as individuals.

and while yes, words are useful as a tool to communicate, they should not be mistaken for the reality they attempt to describe. the beauty of a tool that can change is that you can use it however you want. i will respect your words, and i'd want you to respect mine too. we can use different words to describe the same thing and still agree. there's no point in us telling each other we're using the tool wrong, as long as the job gets done.

what i'm saying is we should all take this stuff a little less seriously. describe yourself however you want, and i'll respect that! you can do whatever you want forever. but in a queer and open minded world, nothing and nobody are exempt from potentially being yuri.

#asks #i didnt expect this to happen so quickly after ditching the yuri bit but here we are #a little nervous to be posting this one haha

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sir-yeehaw-paws · 18 days

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favorite ocelhira hcs?

HELLOOOO ANON.

Do you have a day or two available? No pressing plans or engagements that might require your undivided attention soon?

For simplicity (lies and slander) I'll break it down into a few sections for you. 1. Headcanons for the Games Provided 'Canon'.

2. 9 Year Gap Headcanons

3. Happy Death Day Headcanons (AKA Kazuhira Fckin Dies Day)

4. Parasite AU Headcanons

5. Other/Non-Specific Headcanons

6. NSFW Headcanons Ready? Let's begin!

Headcanons for the Games Provided 'Canon'. In the Truth Tapes, Zero tells Kaz that he’s going to introduce him to ‘a network of messengers that will lead him to a man’ a man that Zero trusts ‘more than anyone alive with this sort of thing’. This is clearly Ocelot, and this is what I consider their original meeting. How it happened, and specifically at what time I can really only guess (although I go between late 1976-1977 for it myself) and it’s one I accept easily. It makes the most sense for putting one another on their respective radar’s and amuses me a little bit.

It's like..match maker Zero. If your match making is specifically for war crimes.

I have a prevalent headcanon that they have a sort of mutual annoyance thing. The kind that’s flavoured with ‘can’t live with ya, can’t live without ya’. I think they understand each other on a deep level they almost never or unwillingly talk about.

On Ocelot’s side, I think Kaz amuses him as much as he annoys him. On Kaz’s side, I think he feels a sense of what I call ‘regrettable freedom’ with Ocelot. In that Ocelot understands-deeply-how violent Kaz is deep down and is more than willing to call him out on it-or let him indulge in it, if he’s feeling that sort of mood.

Ocelot thinks of Kaz as a little overly hysterical, but he is one of the only people who doesn’t underestimate him or write him off as faff and a loudmouth (a mistake I firmly believe Zero absolutely made) to uninterested in him and bored with how bad of a spy he turned out to be.

I can see Ocelot considering Kaz, ‘histrionic’. (And, TIL there is something called HPD: Histrionic Personality Disorder. Huh. Sorry, got distracted)

Kaz fluctuates in how he thinks of Ocelot. I think when there is little else to occupy Kaz’s attention Ocelot gets the brunt of it (whether that be nagging him or just talking about whatever) but he can easily get ignored if Kaz is distracted by other things. I refer a little bit to some of the tapes where they have a decent conversation without insulting each other or being catty. They are very few and far between, but I can see them having perfectly normal conversations otherwise.

I think they both take their respective jobs very seriously, and they’re both very intelligent. This helps them out because they can have a mutual interest in a place where Big Boss leaves a gap. To expand on this-Big Boss is war and field smart, but not book smart. Something Kaz and Ocelot both are, if in different ways. Nor does Big Boss really hrm..care?

We know Kaz is exceptionally well-read, and Ocelot has a wealth of information under his belt. Getting drunk and having rambling talks is something I can see them doing-if Ocelot can get drunk (or hell even sober) and just. Talking.

Neither of them sleep well, if at all. Many chats happen at ridiculous hours about nothing, and everything.

They amuse each other. I think that’s one big draw for them, they can banter almost endlessly, and both have a mental category of ‘this is the good banter sections’ and ‘this is the I want to hurt you cruel banter’. Below the belt fighting is not off the table.

I do think they care about each other. To what degree depends on the time.

Ocelot knows exactly how to get under Kaz’s skin the best and can be quite merciless about it.

9 Year Gap Headcanons

They did so many drugs during this time. So many. They ran on it. Kaz often struggled to get the Diamond Dogs up and running and was continually frustrated for being disregarded.

We have small hints that he did black ops field work during this time too-and I can see Ocelot helping out there when it was available or necessary.

They visited clubs. Kaz picked up the family business more than once in desperation (this one I kinda restrict more to my fics, mind you). He tried on multiple occasions to get Ocelot to cough up information (almost always unsuccessfully, mind you) about whatever at first.

They hated each other on sight at the first meeting. Kaz was in a fighting mood, and Ocelot was just. Largely curious. At the same time, I think they were equal fascinated. In the ‘circle the other tiger in the cage’ way.

(Kaz immediately hated how hot he found Ocelot. Ocelot considered him attractive, but unless you’re shaped exactly like BB Ocelot’s attraction might be more minimal, IMO. See further below in the ‘NSFW’ for how I figure that turned out).

There is more than one destroyed motel room from their antics. Kaz itching for a physical fight anytime he feels the mood coming on, Ocelot more unwilling to indulge but eventually going with a ‘fuck it’ attitude because it does, eventually, shut him up for an hour or two.

Happy Death Day Headcanons (AKA Kazuhira Fckin' Dies Day) I’ll freely admit this one is almost entirely MGSV’s fault with the ‘death pact’ made in the ending, but I don’t care either. It’s one I find interesting, and I go with it because COME ON. How can I not? Part of me likes to think Ocelot did it himself, another part of me is convinced that Kaz would be utterly insulted if he sent someone else…which is also why Ocelot might choose that route. I do not think Ocelot would’ve used gas or poison as is suggested by the game, but nevertheless. Sometimes I toy with the idea of them faking his death, to amuse myself. And for AU potential. But there’s always the tried and true ‘once more for old times sake fck’ and a shot to the head. Ocelot probably took more than one trophy. The glasses were a necessity for Liquid, but I think he took something else. What that is I've yet to decide. I think Ocelot misses him periodically in the aftermath, especially as he gets older and more and more of their 'time' die out. Until he's reworked his brain to be Liquid-ified anyway. Parasite AU Headcanons Most of my parasite AU is detailed here. But I love considering parasite Kaz and experimenting with that in fics and other ideas. I like the idea of Ocelot having some housed on his skin and having a symbiotic little imprint with them. Extended by this I've also toyed with ghost Kaz haunting Ocelot after. Other/Non Specific Headcanons Here is my headcanon for Kaz and Ocelot orchestrating his capture together. It's it's own thing, but it's something I've toyed around with periodically and another one of those 'what if' ideas I feel prone to. I do think they have the potential for the most disastrous, but funniest dynamic out there. I like the idea of them having one of the longest working relationships in the series, and I find their mutual understanding, even if that's with an element of dislike or annoyance, fascinating. You could call it 'frenemies', but I think whatever they have is more disastrous and complicated. I also think they do enjoy each other's company, and have a pretty good working relationship. When they are perfectly in-sync they are an enemies worst nightmare. Whether that enemy is a man on the field or a very unsuspecting bar patron does not matter here.

NSFW Headacanons They fuck. Let's be real. They absolutely fuck. Ocelot's one and true love is probably always-and only-BB, but he's human (we think..?). Kaz is right there, and the man isn't a saint. Don't gotta love someone to fuck them (but I COULD see an argument for Ocelhira having their own type of love). I'll use 'fuck' more specifically because I think most of the times they do are pretty violent, and they destroy the room in the process. Tying into that, is because I think by then Kaz's best known form of foreplay is 'fight first' and Ocelot probably isn't going to say no when Kaz has such a lovely, punchable face.

They can (sometimes) have more standard, 'vanilla' sex but if you breathe the word 'make love' at either of them it's an immediate boner killer.

They have both used sex as a beautifully unhealthy coping mechanism.

There are kinks they share-how much they trust each other with those kinks varies considerably, but it almost never stops them.

Both of them have a higher sexual appetite than BB-this has consequences that are both good or bad, depending again, on the situation.

I think they both like strangulation and bloodplay a lot. As well as knife play. One of them has absolutely fainted mid act before. At least in my opinion.

'Safe Sane Consensual' did not always apply (they maybe got better later, maybe. Depending).

They have not always been sober during either act. I think they also find a certain amount of freedom in one-another, an alignment, if you will, in some shared kinks without it getting all confusing or complicated. A form of relief, without so much attachment.

And I'm sure I have way more! For some clarity's sake, here is my AO3 for more Ocelhira, and here is my standard headcanons tag, for anything I might've forgotten. Thank you for sending in!

#character posts: kazuhira miller #character posts: revolver ocelot #ocelhira #mgs #asks #answered asks #thoughts posts #i only have a few thoughts about them yeah-#nates headcanons

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radarsteddybear · 4 months

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My favorite thing about Margaret Houlihan has always been that she is an excellent nurse no matter what. No matter how annoying and obnoxious she finds Hawkeye, Trapper, BJ, et al., no matter how much she loves Frank, she never lets any of that get in the way of doing her job to the absolute best of her ability. She will not hesitate to call out and correct Frank (or any of the other doctors, for that matter) when he does something that could potentially harm the patient(s). She shows real respect for the medical abilities of the doctors. She reassures patients by telling them how great said doctors are, even when she's talking about someone she doesn't generally get along with (see: Aid Station). Even the way she treats the enlisted men of the 4077th changes (for the better) when they become patients (see: Radar in "Mad Dogs and Servicemen"). She is 100% able to compartmentalize her personal relationships in order to be the best nurse there ever was, and I think it really speaks to her character.

I also think that it speaks to the way she's able to grow and evolve as the show goes on while characters like Frank are not. She has a certain amount of respect for the medical professionals she works with regardless of what their personal relationships look like, and that, in turn, allows her to eventually become friends with characters like Hawkeye and BJ. Frank, conversely, is a mediocre surgeon and knows it, deep down. He didn't become a surgeon so that he could help people; he became a surgeon for the wealth and prestige the job comes with.

He's also spent his life, it seems, having a very difficult time getting along with those around him, He's a snitch with a sour personality, someone who became a bully to fight back against those who've bullied him. He doesn't really know how to connect with people (except for Margaret, and they only seem to work due to their sexual compatibility and their mutual dislike of everybody else in camp), and he never truly learns how.

And I think it's really telling that there are moments prior to Frank's leaving that Margaret is able to have genuine moments of connection with Hawkeye, Trapper, and BJ while Frank never is. Sure, there are a few times when Hawkeye/Trapper/BJ extend something resembling an olive branch, which Frank, desperate for friendship, grabs on to, but it's never genuine, and it never lasts very long. It can't last very long. Frank's values simply don't line up with those of Hawkeye/Trapper/BJ. He's more concerned with making sure that those around him are following the rules to the letter while Hawkeye/Trapper/BJ are more concerned with helping people and reducing harm. Frank feels like the whole world is out to get him, so he tries to get the whole world first.

With Margaret (and maybe this thought is colored by the fact that I've watched the whole series), you get the sense during these moments of friendship that, without Frank around, without the stick up her behind, she could be a really great friend. She sees her patients above all else as patients, people. While she does think that rules are important and that everybody should be following them, above even that, she is a nurse, and she takes seriously her job of making sure that those in her care are as comfortable and well taken care of as she possibly can. This is what allows her to see those around her as human beings, to come to understand that the human experience is wide and varied and that people don't deserve to be punished simply for being different or for making a mistake. Frank could never come to this realization, and sure enough, once he leaves, Margaret does become a really great friend, which is only able to happen due to the mutual respect she and the doctors have for each other from the beginning.

#M*A*S*H #Margaret Houlihan #Frank Burns #Teddy Bear musings #original post

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lassieposting · 1 year

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Actually. Also. While I'm SABposting.

The whole "Dark & Dangerous Morally-Questionable Immortal vs Safe But Bland Childhood Friend love triangle? Is boring. It's been done to death in every single YA series ever written.

But. Y'all know what could've been super refreshing and highkey entertaining?

Kirigan and Mal getting along.

Like. Mal is supposed to be a promising young soldier anyway, and when they meet, he's just succeeded in hunting down a folkloric magical creature that nobody has caught in hundreds of years. And then he has the sheer brass balls to withhold said creature's location to try and negotiate with someone who outranks him to an almost inconceivable degree.

This is. Probably not a smart career move, because noblemen are petty and prone to pissing contests, and Kirigan could make Mal's life very unpleasant. But it is brave, and Kirigan has been a soldier long enough to both a) spot untapped potential and b) respect bravery when he sees it.

(It's interesting to me that Mal often forgets to salute/call his superior officers 'sir' in the First Army scenes, but he absolutely remembers his manners with Kirigan. He needs this guy to like him, so he can see his bestie.)

And getting on each other's good side would actually benefit both of them - which Kirigan especially would know - being however many centuries old and with strategy as his fucking job.

On Mal's side - he's kind of languishing in mediocrity because he's an orphan with no contacts to give him a foot in the door to promotion. When he applies to transfer to better units where he'd learn new skills or have more opportunities to distinguish himself in the eyes of his superiors, he's shunted aside and overlooked in favour of someone whose father knows the king, because fatcats all look out for each other. But if he applied for the same transfer with a recommendation from the Black General, his potential new CO would take him far more seriously as an option. He certainly wouldn't suffer for having an affluent, influential man at the top of the military totem pole keeping an interested eye on his career.

On Kirigan's side - having Mal around, even infrequently, will settle Alina and make her feel more at home, and she'll know he pulled strings for Mal to boot. He's been intercepting their letters, because Alina writing all about the daily goings-on in the Little Palace is a fucking security risk, and she's understandably angry with him for it, but if Mal has a reason to come by the Little Palace now and then, to report to him on something or other, she can see him in person and won't need to write letters that could so easily fall into the wrong hands. And - well, at some point, Mal will owe him so much that he'll have to be loyal. Because betraying him would cost Mal everything. He's patient. He can wait.

Except. Mal turns out to be likeable, in the salt-of-the-earth sort of way Kirigan sometimes misses from when he was a serving soldier himself, all those centuries ago, and he is full of fun facts about Alina and amusing (for Kirigan, Alina would say embarrassing) anecdotes about shit she got up to as a child. He's gotten used to the intrigue and the backstabbing and the plotting that goes on at court, but there's none of that with Mal, because the boy is a shit liar and has no guile whatsoever. It's refreshing. And Mal has grown up being schooled about battles that Kirigan fought in or masterminded, and he has Questions that at some point he gets to actually ask, and for a minute while they're conversing Kirigan sort of stops being this terrifying Grisha freak of nature in his mind and is just. Another old soldier, like most of the COs he's ever had, telling war stories, and there's common ground, between them.

And like Alina is aware that they've formed a tentative truce for her sake and she is very pleased that they have, and then one day Aleksander makes a comment about how "the boy isn't a complete imbecile, I suppose" and she starts to think he might even like Mal, in his own prickly way,

And then she walks into a room during a fete and sees them talking, and that's lovely because they both look actually interested in the conversation! And she's smiling at them, right up until Mal starts flapping his elbows around and pulling comically horrified faces and she just knows he's telling Kirigan about the first time she ever rode a horse, when the damn thing spooked and took off with her at top speed and dumped her in the - yes, there he goes, pretending to pick pondweed out of the hair he doesn't have - lake. And Kirigan creases up and almost chokes on a mouthful of wine and saints, he's such a horse girl he'll be bringing this up forever and. Yeah she is going to have to murder the pair of them because she will never hear the end of this otherwise

#sab headcanons #aleksander kirigan #malyen oretsev #alina starkov #anyway yeah it wouldve been nice to see them get on like a house on fire #i have not and will not read the books #but ben and archie's dynamic is great and i wouldve loved to see a little bit of that carry over to mal and kirigan #rather than the same old love triangle pissing match #sab

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popawritter12 · 2 months

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Hello.Can I apply if they are still open?Can I have a Raiden x reader please? I would like to see comfort or anxiety (?)She is an excellent informant, constantly living under the guise of other people. Her motives and behavior are constantly changing. Everyone finds her somewhat threatening because they can't figure out what's on her mind. Raiden knows her a little better and at one moment finds her completely broken, because living someone else's life, knowing everything about everyone, is difficult and destructive for the psyche.Sorry, I do not speak english well. I hope my request will be clear...Thanks in advance <3

Of course! I really needed an excuse to do a oneshot with this man HAHAHA (Sorry if it took too long :c)

Yandere! Raiden x Female reader

Yandere character: Raiden/Jack.

From the videogame/serie/book/movie/manga or anime: Metal Gear saga.

Case: Stalking, a little mention of illegal investigation, comfort and anxiety for the reader <3.

Warnings: Nao nao.

Part: 1 of 1

Finished: Yes.

(You never knew Raiden much, in fact, you only exchanged words with him a handful of times. It was the same with the rest of the team; you just do the most important thing, and then the rest doesn't matter.)

You had a somewhat complex job, the change in personality and appearance was almost as constant as drinking water. And lately, those “jobs” had appeared with more regularity. They were more than your mind could handle; especially with how seriously you took the job you had been assigned.

Especially with how difficult it was to deal with the people you encountered. As an informant, you had a hard time coping with your mental health due to overwork.

Although, you hated being so untalkative; There were very few people you genuinely talked to with confidence, and especially at work. And while you always sought to maintain a constant line of respect with everyone you met, you never felt a level of connection of genuine friendship with anyone.

Without many options, you tried not to overthink. Between all your mistakes in doing various jobs during the most recent week, along with recent arguments with your family led you to be tired, but not physically.

It had been a particularly complex day for you. In fact, this whole week was being especially difficult for you.

—How many times do I have to tell you that I'm fine?

—You know it's not that, I just think…

—This is the fourth time this week you've called me! —You gritted your teeth, trying to suppress how irritated you were—. You almost ruined my job today, the same thing happened yesterday and the day before yesterday, don't you understand how important this is to me?!

The woman on the other end of the phone sighed somewhat heavily.

—I feel like this job is slowly consuming you, I'm afraid you might be having a hard time because of this.

—But..! —Before you could deliberately let out any insults, you threw your back slightly back, hitting the fluffy pillow of the backrest, before remaining silent.

The chair moved smoothly due to your abrupt tilt. The smell of dust invades your senses as you tried to stay calm. The other person you were talking to was a close aunt of yours, she was like your second mother, and she called you often, so often that even your mother more than once threatened to take her cell phone away from her if she didn't let you in peace.

—Listen, dear —She began, a noise from the television playing on her side of the call —.I'm sorry to be so annoying, but I think it's been many months since we saw each other in person, and I'm worried that there's something wrong with you or someone trying to revent you from talking to me and your mother.

Even if you wanted to respond, you just listened to her.

—If you don't want to talk, that's fine, just call us from time to time, okay? —She continued, but she was called by a couple of knocks on her door—well, sweetheart, I have to go, I love you.

She cuts off your call before you could answer, leaving you silent, alone.

You removed your cell phone from your ear, placing the object on the table now. Your gaze remained fixed on the screen, thoughtful.

Doubt arose in your head; How long had it been?

Because you were so busy, the days flew by, as if what had happened 5 months ago had happened yesterday. Checking your calendar, you realized that it had indeed been a long time since you last saw your mother and aunt.

You looked at the images and information that you had hanging on the furniture in front of you, noticing that the amount of words and images that were located there was… excessive.

In fact, it had been a long time since you last hung out with someone you really trusted. Part of you thinks it's because you're so used to no one waiting for you. But, now you feel a gradual change about your past decisions.

Mom was waiting for you at home, longing for you to be safe, maybe thinking that someone is hurting you, or taking you away from her, or killing you.

You panted heavily, leaning down to touch the pad of your phone with the tip of your finger.

Mom is worried, and your aunt too.

Tell me, why the hell do you care more about a fucking job? Unlike the other people there, at least you had a family. Why were you working so many extra hours to investigate, to reinforce your performance? Was all this really about the money? Or was it because you like to rack your brains over topics that don't even concern you?

Your heart rate increases slightly, along with a slight feeling of weight on your chest. That same feeling that had haunted you so much that day.

They are worried about you, why do you ignore them? And your friends? Do they no longer exist for you?

Why the fuck are you still in that job after so many years and all the shit you had to see?

Physical torture, manipulation of all people with important information, death…, and many more things that you preferred not to remember.

So many people with whom you interacted and pretended that they were reliable friends, who for endless hours you dedicated yourself to listening to their problems or their deepest thoughts, so that in the end they end up dead.

And partly, his death was your fault. Tell me, how far are you willing to go? How far are you going to justify your complicity in the death of so many people?

Are a few dollars equivalent to the death of these people?

Your heartbeat increases, while small drops begin to fall from your cheeks. But you didn't sob at any point.

You could feel your hands shaking. You ran your palms over your face, gently covering your entire face. And you just sobbed softly, trying to vent all your thoughts clinging to your chest and stuck deep in your mind.

In short, there was no one but you in that small place you called “your research office.”

Then, a hand on your shoulder catches your attention.

—(Name)?

His voice sounded soft, unlike how it normally sounded. Quickly, your hands left your face, while your head along with your shoulders moved slightly to where you heard the voice.

—S-shit… —You gasped, before grabbing a used napkin to quickly wipe your cheeks and eyes, —…, I didn't know you were around.

Because of how quickly you went through the paper cloth, and because of the time that had passed since the last time you used it, your skin ended up scratched and somewhat bruised.

After that, you threw the paper into the trash can—although the trash can was overflowing with papers—and you pretended to arrange some papers of your desk.

—Why are you here..? —You hesitated, but before you expected it, he took the papers.

—Are you ok?

The question didn't take you so much by surprise, but it did take your sensitive heart, which longed for that human contact, even if it was only through words.

—Yes, why would I be…?

He grabs the back of the swivel chair, before moving it so you're facing him.

—You do not look well.

It was too obvious that you couldn't pretend to be bad right now, but you also didn't want to look this vulnerable to him.

—I just had a… family problem —You answered simply.

He didn't look entirely convinced, but he let go of the back of the chair, at least giving you some space.

—You've been very busy this week, are you sure you're okay? —He insisted, his gaze traveling a little over your face.

Small parts of your face, like your nose or the dark circles on your eyes, were slightly scratched. And your eyes were still with a tearful sheen along with a poorly hidden trace of the tears that had escaped from you.

Among all your classmates, you thought anyone could find you in a vulnerable situation like this, except him.

But in the end, you needed someone by your side so you could let go of all the thoughts you had inside of you.

—Actually… I feel like… it's been a long time.

He was confused, but didn't mention anything.

—My aunt called me, and she told me that she was worried about me… —You started your explanation —…, but she had already called me like twice or more during the week, so I… was a little angry.

Your voice cracked softly as you progressed in what you were telling him, while your heart rate increased again.

—I yelled at her and told her to stop interfering in my work, I thought that if I told her it was okay, then she wouldn't be worried —You continued, your hands shaking again —, but she just told me that… it had been a long time since the last time we saw each other in person.

Your hand went to cover half of your face, while the other stayed on the table, trying not to move it too much.

—Her voice sounded so soft that I remembered that… —The hand on your face clung to your skin, as if you were holding back your tears —…, it's been like 6 months since the last time I saw them.

He knew that you were bad, that you had a bad week, even how your aunt was bothering you with her calls, but still, he listened to you.

—And well; One thing led to another and I thought that… I was selfish, and that I can't treat a family member of mine like that, you know? —You looked at Raiden, but you just sighed, a little broken due to crying —, although it sounds silly… because both you and the other people here can't even go back to their homes or have a normal life and they're here… But me? I am crying because of this nonsense of mine.

The tears continued to come, as you slowly lost control of your words.

—Sometimes I just want to quit, all these thoughts about my job are too much some days, you know? —You gasp again with some difficulty—. Sometimes I think about everything I saw; You and other people have reached a point of almost no return, and I've seen so many things while pretending to be other people that I thought… Why am I still here? Why can't I stop all this and go back to my mother? Why can't I… go home?

you got up roughly from your seat, the chair going violently backwards, colliding with a giant blackboard.

—I think I'm just… talking stupid things now, I'm sorry, Raiden, —You apologized, exchanging glances with him again —. Sorry if I wasted your time…

One of his hands subtly went to your cheek, passing over one of your tears.

—It's not stupid —He whispers, the pad of his thumb making gentle movements over your skin, —, after all, I've been seeing you a little down for two days. And I don't think thinking about renounce is exactly something light.

Even if his understandable words took you by surprise, you felt the center of your chest warm up, slowly easing the weight.

—I'm sorry… I didn't think I worried you —You whisper, a slight smile on your face.

—Don't worry about it, —He whispered, almost as if he wanted to make sure you were calm.

You kept looking at him, almost as if you were lost in his eyes.

—You could ask for a day off after all this —He mentions, almost casually—, you don't have to make hasty decisions because of those things.

You came to your senses, before continuing to talk to him.

You never thought that someone like him could be so understanding of topics that are so… ordinary. But you were really grateful to find someone who can listen to you without judging you in such a way. He actually spoke to you like one friend to another, as if he knew exactly what to say so you could trust him and vent your thoughts to him.

After a while, you finally felt like that mental fatigue had abandoned you like a South American father abandoned his newborn child.

—Thank you, Raiden —You tell him, at the same time that you felt the edge of your lips curve into a smile—. I really needed to talk to someone.

It was the first time you saw him smile, which made you feel calmer.

—Can I give you a hug? —You ask him kindly, it was common that you didn't know how to interact normally with someone like him.

He only responded by walking closer to you, before gently wrapping his arms around you. He didn't use any force, in fact you just felt his arms collide with your body. He was so gentle that you just rested your head against his chest, both of your hands going to the top of his back.

Even with certain parts of him being cyborg, you felt warm in his embrace. There were no longer traces of sadness in your heart, only a feeling of security running through your soul.

When you both separated, you couldn't help but continue smiling at him. Although unfortunately, due to the hours they were in, he had to leave your office again.

And when you both said goodbye, you gave him another hug, a quicker one since you wanted to go to sleep early. And the moment he closed the door, you began to rearrange your desk a little.

And, while you were doing that, he, outside your office, just lit a cigarette, bringing it to his lips as he walked through the place towards the exit.

His mind was filled with new thoughts; Now that he had gained more of your trust, he could give himself the freedom to greet you or talk to you more normally, unlike before.

The only thing that calmed him down was that no one was coming near you. It wasn't because of him, in fact he was one of the few people who could approach you, without wanting to get away from you as quickly and subtly as possible, that made his job easier.

And, in fact, he is visibly…inclined to like (Name).

He smiled at the new idea he had, before taking another drag of the cigarette, knowing that he was getting closer to the person he loved so much.

Although he wished he could make sure your aunt doesn't bother you so much, it bothers him to hear her voice so many times during the week.

#yandere #obsessive love #yandere x you #yandere male #poppa thoughs #metal gear #metal gear rising #Raiden #Yandere raiden metal gear #metal gear rising x reader

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theanimewriter · 2 years

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How could a wild fox love a human

pairing: GN!reader x Tomoe Kamisama Kiss

genre:Fluff

Warning: None!

Summary: The tsundere fox starts to realize and accept that he may have feelings for you.(What’s it’s like for Tomoe to have a crush on you.)

The wild fox spirit could never be tamed,he was always mean and has a strong hatred towards humans.A mystery man,indeed.But what happens when a human comes along and show how they can handle a wild fox.

Tomoe never what to be in love,especially with a human.Why would he fall in love with someone like you.So annoying,and pushing or how lovely you look all the time,it’s dumb ‘cause you are just a human no matter if you’re his land god now.

By this,you can see that Tomoe does not like to think or like love that much.When he first met you,he saw you as a annoying pest that should be killed by now;but he start to feel strange around you.Like he what’s to be around you and keep you all to himself,never wanting to let you go,to keep you safe and let no harm come your way.

Tomoe has a very hard time understanding his feeling and how to even talk about how he feels. Tomoe is a very private and reserved person.He talks very little about his own past and how much he miss Mikage and he has a sense of fear that you would leave him one day as well.

Other than that,Tomoe would like if you have a good sense of humor,he would not like someone who take thing so seriously or if your way to silly as well.You just need the right amount to the point it’s not over the top or boring.

Tomoe always loves a good Adventure.Even if he’s may act like he doesn’t but he loves it.He gets to have fun (which he didn’t have for a long time) and he gets to spend time with you as a bonus.

Respect,is one of the most important thing he wants in a relationship with any kind of person he is really close too.And the other is trust,Tomoe wants nothing more than to have trust.It is very important for you to give them to him since he does (kind of) do this with you.

As time went on,Tomoe learn to tolerate your presence and actually starts to like it a lot.He still acts mean and still is a bit rough with you at times,but starting to show more concern for your well being and safety,than ever before.

It took a very long time before Tomoe would ever consider he has feelings for you,let alone accept it without making a fuss.But,he does have a good reason for doing this and if you know,it’s very hard for him.

Never judge Tomoe just basic on how he acts.He can be good but it’s hard for him to show kindness in a certain way, that you want him to.Just appreciates the things he does for you, even if he yells are such thing,he try’s to be kind in his own way.But one thing for sure,he would never hurt you.Ever.

Tomoe started to question himself a lot when he is around you.”Why did I think that” “Why did I do that just now” “I spoke without thinking, dammit!” This was all very confusing for Tomoe, because he know (or that he thinks that he knows) that a human and a Spirit could never love each other.

Tomoe always wants to be around you more so than before.He use the excuses that your are his land God and you can’t protect yourself against other yokai,but he just wants to be with you and can’t bare the thought of you leaving and never to return.

As the relationship getting better and Tomoe really started to understand you better.He gotten a bit more possessive of you,especially with other yokai or human start to hit on you, or worse they fall in love.

He can’t stop thinking about you and if you say that you don’t need his protection anymore, that you’re strong enough, knowing how to fight,there no need to be baby, and watch over all the time by him.He would be deeply sad by this,because that the only thing that he is useful for.He can’t do anything else but keep you safe,it’s his job and desire to watch over you.

It’s a long way for both of you to love each.But when the day come you know he would never leave you,for now you just have to go on the Adventures with him and all the others trying to understand all your feelings.

#tomoe kamisama #tomoe x reader #kamisama kiss tomoe #kamisama kiss #kamisama no ekohiiki #kamisama hajimemashita #anime x reader #anime boy #japanese yokai #headcanon #x reader #anime #romanticism #gn!reader #boyfriend #fox spirit #tsundere #feelings

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sunshineboy-greer-collins · 1 year

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Pinky promise?

Headcanons on pinky-promises bc i saw a post on pinterest and thought of Ash and then wanted to write about him but it kinda spiraled lol

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Asher is the type of guy to put lots of worth on pinky-promises. they are important and serious and are to be kept in high regards and respected.

“No dAviD. i cannot tell you! i pinky-promised so to Birdy (Angel).” afterwards walking away upset and mumbling about how dare David tell him it’s childish and that he should know about that. if he should know then he should ask Birdy himself to find out bc Ash sure as hell isn’t gonna break a pinky-promise.

Angel also takes pinky-promises very seriously. the first time they made David pinky-promise them something he was like “oh god, not another one” (don’t be fooled tho, he secretly loves that the two do them). he started making Angel pinky-promise him to do things, like eat actual food and not just store bought ramen and pop tarts while he is working a job that has him be away for a few days because he noticed that Angel will take those more serious then when they just normally say they will do it or promise normally. When Angel told Ash that David had them make a pinky-promise after he did for the first time Ash went wild, next time he sees David he’s being a petty lil shit (affectionately) “how am I being childish when making you pinky-promise something but you can just do it no problem, huh?? talk about having double standards! or are you exempt from being childish as the packs alpha? hmm?”

Baaabe totally does pinky-promises with Ash and Angel all the time! they also make others do them but not nearly as often as Angel does. obviously they also put a lot of respect on pinky-promises. they usually tend to make them for more “important” stuff like secrets or something but Asher will make them do pinky-promises over the most bullshit things like that they will actually eat what Ash picks for dinner and don’t change it last minute or something.

the first time Ash or Angel make Darlin’ do a pinky-promise they have the most confused expression on their face, not understanding why the other is holding their hand up like that and when Ash/Angel says “Pinky-promise it!!” in their typical bubbly way, Darlin’ will let out an annoyed breath and role their eyes but then do it anyways, they are fooling no one since you can see the corner of their lips tugging up. Darlin’ will hold pinky-promises they’ve made in high regards and take them very seriously but they won’t make anyone else do one (apart maybe from Sammy-boy but that would only happen like once in a blue moon) (also i am of the firm believe that both Angel and Asher see Darlin as a really close friend)

Milo think it’s funny when Angel or Ash make him pinky-promise something and he’ll usually do it so they’re happy and he will definitely respect it bc a promise is a promise. he usually won’t make other people pinky-promise him something.

Sweetheart thinks it’s cute when Angel makes them do a pinky-promise, they’ll gladly agree to one but usually won’t make anyone do one, except maybe Ash and Angel themselves and even though this started as more of a joke to Sweetheart it is more serious to them now when they make one of the other two do a pinky-promise. but they always respected the promises.

Sam is confused the first time Angel makes him pinky-promise something (i hc that they made him pinky-promise to take good care of Darlin’ at some pack event/party thingy. (Darlin means a lot to Angel and they want to include Sam as best as possible and fully support/defend their relationship after seeing how happy they make each other, fight me) as if he wouldn’t anyways). he obviously does the pinky-promise, puts a lot of worth and respect on it.

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author note: i have never ever used the words pinky-promise quite this much and there were moments where i started to question the existence/spelling of the words… also i might do other characters if i feel the inspiration for it lol anyways this is the first time i post anything like this so i hope y’all enjoyed it! :)

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infraaa · 2 years

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The blood turns, pure and warm… who will take the vial on this night…

SFW // NSFW Commission Pack – Golden Magic

Commissioned by @ne-nene — thank you for your purchase!

tw (for part 2) // dom/sub mechanic, oral, some elements of worship,,, also nonbinary lilIa is canon bc I say so sry bout tht

SFW Section

»» Jamil Viper

Jamil is family oriented by nature. It’s in his blood as a servant to the Asims. Like you, he also has problems opening up, and he’s hesitant with trust, not wanting to get close to people too quickly because of his work. Regardless, Jamil is a devotee— loyal and certainly trustworthy, and albeit a little mama bear esque in personality, he means well.

You and Jamil may share a class with each other and by coincidence, maybe you two may be paired up with each other. This is where you may have to show him your best, putting your two shoes into anything you come across. To garner his friendship, he needs to know whether or not he can trust you. Being highly analytical to detail and high attention oriented, he pays attention to everything you do, all the while not paying that much attention to you as to not distract himself.

As he sees how diligent you are, he puts you up to more tests like retrieving things for him or seeing if you’ll carry messages and report back on your completion. Your wholeheartedness and willingness to complete things, your seriousness rather, puts a smile on his face knowing you’re compliant. He now knows he can trust you. Congrats! Like a caterpillar approaching a leaf, very slow, he’ll open up to you. Slowly showing you more and more of him. He’ll show you things eventually, a more caring side, like him calming you down if you’re overwhelmed, showing you a better lifestyle to abide by (no pressure of course, he wants to help you live a healthier life,) and caring for your well being. Maybe even showing you some of his culture.

As slow as he is as well, he appreciates the time you take to open up to him. It shows him that you’re careful, and honestly, he sees that as admirable. Later on, he may show more of his sly, playful side when he feels as though you’re comfortable around him. He may catch you singing, as a matter of fact, he hears it but doesn’t comment. As someone who does appreciate people who live up to their passions, he lets you sing your heart out. Later on however he may comment on it playfully, saying things like “you’re quite the songbird, aren’t you?” Followed by the usual snake like chuckle. He thinks hopeless romantics can be cheesy, however you seem to have a different approach to it. Warm and subtle, he’s very much not into PDA or any kind of public display. He even may cringe slightly in private— he’s not used to it, nor is he used to being touched in this fashion, or anything platonic rather. Even if you gave him a friendly hug he’ll tense up. Poor kid, you’ll have to warm him up to it.

Maybe touch his fingers, soft and lingering, starting out very slow as to not startle him. The soft lingering touches matter at first, and he may reciprocate the same, albeit in a different fashion. Showing up at six on the dot, helping you with groceries, the little things in life, no matter the significance, matter a lot to him. He may then reciprocate in your own language, and as dry as it may be, he may just give you a pat on the back and throw words of affirmation at you like, “I’m impressed with you, good job today.” Nevertheless, he means well to you. He may ask you for help when it comes to Kalim, which makes you wonder why he chooses to serve someone like he does.

But in the end, you two make a good team in any situation. You both may have your ups and downs, but you’re a good pair.

NSFW Section

»» Lilia Vanrouge

tw// dom/sub mechanic, oral, worship, overstimulation and some things that make Lilia who they are. also I canon Lilia as nonbinary so sry bout tht

Lilia is the type to understand that this kind of thing is sacred, and therefore they treat you with the same respect. As devious as they are, Lilia can be quite the people pleaser. As they try to respect you, they’re known for being playful around campus, whether it be by hanging upside down to scare others for a good laugh, or even just playing innocent pranks, there isn’t anything more than wrong someone at their feet again that makes him happier— more nostalgic in a sense.

Let’s swing back, shall we? To a time where you two were just friends at on point mingling away as usual, maybe talking about music and such? Who knows. But, let’s say you two are at a party of some kind and someone from the light music club offers to play spin the bottle. Would you accept? Chances are, Lilia would bring you into it wanting to explore this human game, they’ve never played it before so this may get interesting. With a sly chuckle, they take your hand and lead you into the sinful circle of wonder.

A few minutes of spinning goes by and oop! The bottle landed on you, spun by Lilia oh wow hat a surprise into the closet you go with them seven minutes ticking away on the clock have fun! Now, they may get a little quizzical about being in a closet with their best friend however, this could get interesting. You explain to them that most people just come in these closets to make out or some shit, but you weren’t exactly expecting them to start kissing you immediately after the fact. Lilia has always liked you, you never knew it because they can be hard to read but yes they’ve always loved you. What started it you wonder? Why, your height.

They’ve always felt as though they had a disadvantage because they’re 5’2 and therefore there’s the stereotype that they have to suck up to everyone else but of course they don’t meet this quality at all— they demand respect, and for good reason. As Lilia works you down, they begin to notice your soft spots. They wouldn’t wanna leave those unattended now would they?

They’ve got a long tongue for a weird looking bat thing. To be honest that’s quite the feat considering they can do a lot with it. This bat thing has been alive for centuries, they know a thing or two about how to use the tongue. They can tie cherry stems in knots with it, they can most certainly eat someone out with it. While doing this they may also add elements of worship to you, how your body reacts and how it shivers at times. But just remember, at the end of that they’re going to want you to return the favor. Eye for an eye, no? Make them proud. Do what they say. Be good.

Lilia just can’t stop with the teasing. Even in sexy times Lilia can be a prick who loves to tease, so you come to overstimulation from them. Also, you wanna be dominant? Well good luck hon. You got a mountain to climb in the form of a 5’2 weird lookin bat gramp thing. Now, he may be old, but they put up a good fight. And they’ll knock you down to your knees. Again they demands respect. They’re dominant natured anyway, unlike for example Malleus who will be merciful enough to have it your way if he so feels.

but that’s all folks, hope you have ibuprofen because they’re military complex is comin back and oh, don’t mind the concern from your friends. Everything is okay! 🥰 Lilia’s sticker of guarantee is on that ledger.

#infrawrites #twisted wonderland #twst wonderland #infra@212!#twst smut #twst lilia #lilia vanrouge #twst jamil #jamil viper #twst commissions #writing commissions

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exquisitesimp · 1 year

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Caring for Kunikida after a tough day at work

A/N: Hello to everybody reading this! I'm back with a Bungo Stray Dogs short story for the Kunikida lovers (he's so underrated imo)! This time, the reader (F) is taking care of her favourite blond after a difficult and exhausting day of work at the agency. Sweet, with a hint of comedy. Thank you so much for reading and liking my post, it means a lot to me! Stay healthy, eat well and drink plenty of water! - Sam

Tags: Bungo Stray Dogs, Kunikida Doppo, Comfort, Fluff, SFW

Word Count: 2k approx.

Your relationship with Kunikida has been stable and secure since day one. It was obvious from the very beginning that he was taking what the two of you shared seriously, and making it last was something he truly wished for. And when he suggested that you moved in together, it became evident how much he wanted to keep you in his life.

Kunikida is one logical man, which is why you found it strange at first. He’s not the type of person to wear his heart on his sleeve and put such an idea forward just because he’s lovestruck. Besides, at the time, it seemed to you that your relationship was in a stage too early for this.

“Are you sure about this?”, you remember asking in uncertainty over lunch that day. “I mean, we’ve spent the night together many times, but actually living together… I don’t know, isn’t that quite a big step?”

“It’s a decision that would be beneficial to both of us”, the man replied, opening “The Ideals” and searching through his notes.

He then proceeded to read out a gigantic list of advantages, which he had prepared beforehand and took up a good amount of pages of the notebook. You didn’t need such…extensive reasoning to be convinced, but you found it endearing how much effort he put into it.

Many of his points made sense too, like cutting down on living expenses, helping each other out, keeping the home and the workplace separate, and most importantly, not being under the same roof as Dazai - he insisted that the latter would grant him a particular sense of relief.

You ended up moving together shortly after in an apartment close to the Armed Detective Agency. It’s been a couple of months now and things were great, just as you expected. Both of you lead busy lives - Kunikida more so than you, and you were each other’s support system on difficult days, and today was one of them.

You happened to leave work a little earlier than usual, so you decided to spend the rest of the afternoon cooking a nice meal for dinner. You dropped by the supermarket, bought all the ingredients you needed and headed straight home. It was just 18:00, which gave you some time to have a quick shower, change into your homewear and get some rest before hitting the kitchen.

You got some relaxing tunes playing, put your hair up with a hair clip and started cooking. Since you had the luxury to be home early, you decided to prepare a more traditional japanese dinner, which included a variety of smaller plates. While cooking, you softly swayed to the music, thinking to yourself that you couldn’t wait to treat your hard-working partner to some nice, warm food.

The hours passed. It was 21:40, dinner was almost ready, but Kunikida was not back and you were still alone. Slightly concerned, tired, and no longer in the happiest mood, you turned off the music. The sizzling of the pork cutlet in the frying pot was the only sound filling the silence of what felt like an empty home without him.

You respect his work immensely, and you understand that there are gonna be days he’ll be home late. His job is very difficult and dangerous after all, and he is especially responsible and serious about it. You tried to reassure yourself that it could be an emergency and that things like that happen all the time, but your worries got the best of you.

“He never comes home later than 20:30. Did something bad happen to him? What if the Agency is under attack? What if he got hurt as he was investigating? No, it can’t be… But if he’s fine, why hasn’t he texted or called at all? How do I know if he’s safe? If something bad happens to him I don’t know what I’m gonna do-”

Your inner paranoid monologue got interrupted as you heard footsteps from outside and the turning of keys in your door.

“Honey, I’m home”, you heard his deep, exhausted voice from across the hall.

You sighed, relieved that your love was finally back

“Welcome back, darling”, you shouted, trying to make yourself heard over the sound of the burning oil on the kitchen counter. “I’m so glad you’re back! It’s so late, you scared me to death! Is everything okay?”

There was no reply from him.

“Darling?”

It’s okay, perhaps the oil was louder after all and he couldn’t hear you.

“Dinner’s almost ready! Have a seat and I’ll serve you once it’s done”

Moments later, you felt his warm embrace softly surround you from behind.

“Darling, is everything okay-” you were about to ask, turning to face him, but he held you tighter.

“Can I hold you like this for a minute and not say much… please…?”, he whispered.

“Mhm” you nodded. It was the first time you saw Kunikida this tired.

You felt his chest gently press against your back in intervals as he took some slow, deep breaths. You lovingly caressed his forearms, which were tightly wrapped around your waist, while his chin rested on top of your head.

You cherished this sweet moment you two were sharing. Being held in his arms was so calming, it made you forget how late it was getting and how worried you were. Kunikida probably felt the same way, you noticed that his tense body was slowly relaxing.

“Thank you”, he said after a while, leaning his head down to kiss your cheek.

“Long day, darling?”, you asked.

“Mhm”

“Wanna talk about it?”

“Not before dinner”

“Alright then”

“Is that Tonkatsu you’re making?”

“Yup”

“It smells so good…”

“I’ve prepared may other side dishes as well”

“Perfect. I’m so hungry...”

“I can also prepare a warm bath for you while you’re eating”

“No thanks, let’s have dinner together. I’ll shower afterwards”

“As you wish”

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t do this. I’ve been wearing these clothes all day”, he said, relaxing his hold on your waist.

“Don’t worry about it”, you replied, turning around and untying the red ribbon on this collar. “Let me just… get you a little bit more comfortable…”, you added, undoing the buttons of his beige waistcoat and the ones on the collar of his black shirt.

“There you go”, you said with a soft smile.

“Thank you”,

“Now, take these off, have a seat, and I’ll join you with the food shortly, okay?”. You gently cupped his face with both your hands.

“Okay”, he replied, before turning to leave, then coming back to hold your shoulders and plant a small kiss on the back of your neck.

“You look beautiful with your hair on a claw clip”, he whispered, making you subtly blush at the spontaneity of the compliment.

“Thank you darling, I’ll be there shortly”

“How do you like it?”, you inquired.

“It’s delicious”, he responded with his mouth half-full. You quietly giggled, you found it so cute.

“So, how was work?”

"Difficult..."

"Why did you have to stay so late?"

“Dazai and I were responsible for arranging the agency’s archives for the new season. Tons of paperwork, basically…”

“Dazai’s not very good with that, is he?”

“Oh don’t get me started on HIM…”

“Was he the one that threw you off schedule?”

“Obviously… Half of the work was on paper; old cases, and very confidential ones that we couldn’t afford to reveal in case a hacker attacked the agency”

“Okay, and the other half was digital, right?”

“Exactly, that’s how we work with new cases now. We decided to split things like that and work at the same time to make the process faster. And Dazai insisted on taking the digital ones”

“Mhm”

“‘I pRoOoOoMiSe, KuNiKiDa-KuUuUuNnNn, I’ll gEt iT aAaAaAaLL DoNe, I wOn’T gEt DiStRacTed!’”

You laughed at the accuracy of that. It’s true, Kunikida is very good at making people’s impressions.

“That fool got zero work done. When I looked at his computer screen, I found exactly 67 open tabs”, he ranted, as he took out his notebook, “including, but not limited to:”

“Oh my god…” you mumbled, knowing you were about to hear some very ridiculous things.

“A reddit post on how to download Goat Simulator for free, an ugly picture of me in high school - I have no idea how he accessed it - , and - stop laughing, it gets worse - his newly set up dating profile on Tinder, with his bio stating that he is ‘looking for a beautiful lady to commit double suicide with’”

This was just too funny not to laugh at.

“Poor thing…” you said, actually feeling sorry for the fact that he has to put up with Dazai’s antics, but still laughing. “I do wonder what that picture looks like though”.

“As you can probably tell, I ended up doing everything by myself, which is why I came home so late”, masterfully avoiding the remark on the high school picture.

“Yeah I can tell… It must have been exhausting”

“Yes it was… It gave me a terrible headache, but I took some aspirin before leaving the agency, so I’m fine now”

“Okay, I’m glad to hear that…”, you said, reaching out for his hand and warming it in your palms. You locked your eyes in his, making sure that he listened to every word you were about to say.

“I want you to know that I am very proud of you and the effort you’re putting in. You are very responsible, and I really admire your dedication. Rough days are expected, I’m sure you know that better than I do. It’s on days like this that I’m gonna be here for you, no matter what, and do everything I can to make it easier”

Kunikida’s expression softened. His eyes and eyebrows were now relaxed, and a little smile appeared on his lips.

“Thank you so much… It’s very important to have someone during difficult times. You might make dinner for someone every day, but on a rough day, that dinner will matter a hundred times more. I’m so grateful for your care and everything you did for me tonight”, he responded sweetly, still holding his gentle gaze.

After finishing your meal, you went back to the kitchen to do the dishes, while Kunikida was taking a shower and getting ready to go to sleep. Once you were done and went to your shared bedroom, you found Kunikida waiting for you in the futon, reading some notes from his notebook.

“How long have you been waiting for me?”

“About a quarter”

“Why? You really need to rest. Tomorrow is a brand new day”

“There’s one thing you’re forgetting about”, he pointed out, taking off his glasses and leaving them on the floor next to him

You shook your head in confusion as you lay down next to him. You were tired too, something must have slipped your mind.

“Goodnight kiss. Seven seconds on the lips every night. Releases oxytocin and reinforces feelings of connection and bonding”

“Oh, that’s right. I thought we were skipping that because you’re exhausted”

“The rules are rules”, he proclaimed as he turned to face you and show you the importance of staying disciplined.

Kunikida merged your lips together in a slow, tender, loving kiss, which slightly exceeded its assigned duration. You found it incredibly sweet that he remembered it despite his fatigue.

“Thank you for everything once again. I’m so lucky to have you by my side”, he said, pecking your forehead.

“Goodnight honey”

“Sweet dreams darling”, you whispered, gently stroking his head. Just a few moment have passed, and Kunikida was already drifting to sleep.

“Darling?”

“Hm?”

“About this high school picture of yours…”

Blunt and expressionless, he didn’t even bother to open his eyes.

“Not happening.”

A/N: The image of Kunikida wearing his black shirt with its buttons undone (especially if it's all the way down) is fueling my dirty little mind, but I'll keep it for a future piece heheh

#bungo stray dogs #kunikida #kunikida doppo #bsd #anime #anime community #bsd imagines #fluff #sfw

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Vegas as a Sadist from My Perspective

I'm seeing a lot of opinions about Vegas and Pete. Which hell yeah! I'm glad to be watching a show that has all of us thinking and seeing different things. I'm just noticing that I'm seeing something completely different and desperately need to get it out.

Alright, this story starts in episode one with Vegas torturing/flirting with Pete. From the smiling at him, touching him, and more. Vegas at some point figured out that Pete watched him with interest and he enjoyed toying with him. Yet those two worlds were too different to collide.

The story would have ended there. With only the occasional opportunity to indulge in teasing. Except worlds did collide in episode 7. Which I talk about in detail here. Basically this is when Vegas really truly noticed Pete. He continued the job that his father had laid out for him but his attention had shifted to Pete.

Pete can see Vegas' monster and it doesn't bother him. No, what bothers Pete is shifting his loyalty. Thanks to the lovely @angie-the-doll we know some of what he was saying in Korean in episode 9. We can tell from the words he spoke in Korean while drunk that he feels loyalty to Kinn and the family. Then he speaks of being separated from his love. Again, Pete is divided and confused.

The story further continues in episode 9 when Pete is sent to spy on Vegas once again. He tries to get out of it because he knows he is bad at it. He also knows he has conflicting feelings. Yet he tries to do his job and is caught. Once again Vegas' full attention is on Pete, with the help of his brother they lead him into the temple. You had to pay attention or mistake this whole situation. It will look like Vegas is just attempting to make Pete uncomfortable but it’s so much more. In true sadist style Vegas flirts. You have to understand that a sadist thought process is not the same as a vanilla.

Sadism or everyday sadism (which is the subclinical term) refers to experiencing pleasure in seeing others suffer or inflicting suffering on others. Sadistic individuals enjoy cruelty and seek opportunities to induce suffering upon others. So imagine if you would that you like seeing someone suffer but the person you want to see suffer is someone you like. The flirting happens in a very different way. Its subtle suffering but not so much that they can't take it. Because you want them, though, be aware that we enjoy a good hunt. Getting you to a panic point and knowing we will catch you, is delicious.

So without further ado, let's dive into what happened inside the temple.

Vegas really was paying attention. For all his evil deeds, he is a believer, he is a fatalist as well sometimes that can be misconstrued as bucking the system. When in fact it's someone who has come to terms with what they believe to be the truth and throw out the rest. We saw that Vegas does have a strong belief system. We saw it when Pete paid respects to Vegas' mother, how Vegas immediately stopped and gave Pete his full attention. Why is that important? Because you could mistakenly think that Vegas is just teasing Pete, if you don’t keep in mind that he is in fact a believer.

When it's time to make merit, Vegas takes this very seriously as @yellingaboutkp points out, Vegas moves into proper sitting. Pete offers to go get a different jug of water for Vegas. Vegas responds with sincerity looking Pete in the eyes. “We make merit together. So in the next life we will get to see each other again” Vegas is not playing, that statement was truth. I know that a lot of people have indicated that Vegas cons, and he does. When has he tried to con Pete though? When since the torture has he not shown Pete exactly who he is? And we know just from his switch in position how he truly feels, along with previous clues to indicate his beliefs.

Now the next part, is part rude but in sadistic style. Vegas begins to flirt. He puts his hand on the back of Pete. Pete thinks Vegas is fucking with him (which he is) and he is insulted. So Vegas amps it up even more by sliding his hand down, which has Pete squirming. I'm gonna be honest, I started clapping.

You can actually see Pete losing it. At which point I'm giggling and am not surprised at all to see Vegas vastly amused. Then we see Vegas make a Dom move. You’ll miss it if you aren’t familiar with it. “Go pour that out for me, would you” It’s a politely worded command. Those on here familiar with me can tell you that this is very much how I Dom. If it had just been a command, Pete still would have done it. Vegas still outranks him. Vegas doesn't command as a boss though, he politely asks as a Dom.

This also confuses Pete but he still goes to follow the command. In which case we see Vegas smile. You could take it as Vegas smiling because he is going to take off but come on. If Vegas wanted to lose Pete, he easily could. This is much more fun! He knows it going to infuriate Pete and that's a turn on. Pete comes back to a note from Vegas. Now you could see this as a taunt “Don’t forget to do this again together. So we’ll see each other often in the next life” … I think it was part taunting because he is a sadist. It was also a goodbye though. He couldn't just leave without saying anything.

Shout out to @slangerogkatter because we wrote our shit at the same time and think alike, lol. here

#kinnporsche vegas #vegaspete #kinnporsche luta #coconuts mafia #luta talks vegaspete

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thecollectionsof · 1 year

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please educate me in the ways of the crygi .. what is their dynamic like !!

i will try my best but if anyone has anything to add please do !!!! and i do talk about a few fics in here to add to my point and also because i will take the opportunity to talk about them all the time if given the chance <3

dear god this got long. it's under the cut oops

i think crygi is based on a few big things: playfulness, passion, uniqueness, and so, so much respect for each other. of course there’s so much you can point to for these things, and so many other aspects you can point to, but i think that this is the bulk of it when it comes down to it.

playfulness/teasing: both crystal and gigi believe in not taking life too seriously. they’re fun and love to tease and joke around, but they also know when it’s time to get serious. they have a compatible sense of humor that they love to play off of, and it means that many interactions are light and fun (for good examples of this in fics, see if you need a friend by my wife and beloved @gggoode for playful discussions that shift in and out of seriousness as needed, and like, a virgin by my other wife and absolute darling @cherubbcheeks for a great example of where you can take the characters in a more playful, comical way)

passion: both of them are teeming with ambition, drive, and an insane amount of passion that they throw into everything they do, including their relationships, both romantic and platonic. they love to find ways to be passionate about things together, and it’s something that they both admire in the other person. it’s true on the show and i think it’s often highlighted in fics, with both of them not only being very close and loving but also huge creatives (and admiring each other for the work that they do). this is seen really well in a few fics, one of which being a smut fic (so i know it's not necessarily for you but i do want to commend it anyways) called i think i've fallen in love by @aqpippin. but another fic i love that really shows this passion about their relationship and how it can drive them to emotional moments is i wish you were sober by @stillmumu. not only does it have the best description of sobbing i've ever seen in a fic, but it also shows a moment where they can't communicate wordlessly and easily, which is often not the case in crygi fics (and i'm guilty of that, with an entire ongoing theme of leave the light on being how they communicate with many words left unsaid but still understand each other perfectly)

uniqueness: it’d be hard not to include this one, and it ties into respect really well. both crystal and gigi are very unique, and it’s something they celebrate in each other in every way. like, a virgin really highlights this for gigi especially, as it’s easy to see some of the ways in which crystal is unique at surface level, so showing gigi’s uniqueness is a great way to ensure good characterization. they’re two people who keep their individuality but can definitely have the “we’re more alike than you might think” moment, and i think that it helps make them compliment each other so well. it also leads to them clicking quickly in many fics, as little quirks that they have are endearing and make them have that instant crush. i think one of the best examples of this, though it's mostly gigi admiring crystal in this one (since it's from gigi's perspective), is we all start as strangers by @goodemethyd. crystal's clothes are often pointed out first, as is her mullet, but this one does a great job at showing off the things that endear crystal to gigi. and also it's just really cute <3

and, of course, love: it’s apparent through all of the other ones, but they truly take the chance to celebrate each other and love each other. it’s true in real life, too, just in a platonic way—gigi said “i don’t ever see us losing contact or falling out of love with each other” about her and crystal in an interview, and it’s very true for fics too, albeit in a romantic way. if i tried to point out fics where they were in love with each other we'd be here all day, but as the number one mushroomeater aka @gggoode fan of all time (self appointed but it is the truth <3) i'll point you in her direction for fic recs that kinda sum up all of these points. iynaf and nice day to start again are two that are longer so they show the relationship turning from a crush into a deeper love the best, but she is the queen of crygi and nobody is doing it like her

anyways. crygi is love and respect and fun and passion, but it's also versatility. you can truly do so much with them—short fluffy fics where they just admire each other? angst fueled by the depth of their feelings for each other? fics with truly odd prompts, like osha inspector/hot construction worker who commits an atrocious amount of osha violations? all of it fits and all of it feels natural for them, making it an easy ship to write for just about any idea you'd have

this is long so i'll stop myself here but tldr !!!!!!!!! i love them the dynamic is good(e) <3

#i am very normal about the things i enjoy :)#thank you for asking this i love you :')#crygi #jinkx monswoon #asks!#gi's musings

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I’ve just finished s5 of AA and I noticed something about Jordan specifically in regards to Layla. It’s almost like he quickly snaps,spirals or worries when he thinks she doesn’t take things seriously. Can you please weigh in on this because I truly don’t understand what that’s about?

Love this question. Astute observation, and I completely agree.

That floods back to his character journey from the beginning. He wants to be this badass leader that people look up to, just like his dad. But he's goofy and playful, and his dad has a hard time taking him seriously. He calls his dad out in 402 about that. His dad expected him to be a screwup, so he wasn't as mad as he was at the perfect son, Spencer James.

With his girlfriends in the past, they kinda ran the show. He became a stoner with Ripley, the stuff with Simone was pretty much always her call... as JJ points out crudely in 506. The minute he challenged either of them, problems arose.

Even this season, when he got Kenny his job, the team still wouldn't take him seriously as a leader.

With Layla, you're absolutely right. Pretty much all their fights happen when he doesn't think she takes him seriously. Layla gave him a wakeup call in 416. She saw leadership in him and didn't understand why he was hiding behind his affable nature. It made him reconsider how he viewed himself, and he finally started to look inward.

So we got that piece. He has a history of people not taking him seriously in the past. And he's not innocent in that and has very much contributed to that ideal.

But Layla has also been in his life most of his own. And he has seen her commitment to other guys. So when she's super cautious about committing to him, he's like, what, does she not take me seriously either?

He knows that she's cautious bc of what happened to her, and he's trying to respect that and is super understanding. But he confesses his feelings, and she's like, "uhhhh the Vortex, uhhhh you're my best friend, uhhhhh" and it kills him because he's never felt so seen or understood or as connected as he has with Layla.

Then in 505, when she's joking about his speed dating, it's clear to us, and probably him, that she's trying to play it off. But he's just so all in with her, and here she is saying she wouldn't want to stop him if he found someone better. And he's like, excuse me??? What about the heat she had for Spencer when he fell in love with Olivia or Asher when he cheated on her? Who is he, chopped liver?

Okay, and again, I love this ask because this is exactly what escalated the fight in 508. He was upset Layla brought Simone into their relationship, but he was more upset she didn't consult him about it. He saw them as this fortified team, and he saw her as someone who took his ideas and opinions and past seriously. And when she acted on her own accord, it upset him.

With 510, he wanted to defend her honor and she very clearly did not need it. And who is he if not a romantic who solves problems by punching? She was kinda challenging his identity, and it made him wonder if she really needed him as much as he needed her.

Then in 517, we don't see much, but he's clearly upset she's not prioritizing him in her life.

And in 520, he flat out says, "If you're not gonna take this seriously..." about the game, but obv about the proposal... he knew most people in his life wouldn't take him seriously at first once they found out he proposed to Layla. They'd bring up his past with Simone and his impulsivity, and he expected that. What he feared was Layla saw him the same way. She says, "Marriage is a big deal." And it gets to him because what is she implying there?? Just because he got married before means he didn't know how to take commitment seriously?

They function beautifully as a team, so his concern and worries are quickly assuaged each time. It's funny because their connection has prompted him to become much more mature and serious about things. But it's also prompted her to not take things so seriously and loosen up. So while they help each other develop these otherwise dormant sides of their personalities, it lends room for some growing pains because of it.

#jordan baker #jordayla #all american #layla keating

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Shouting Into the Void #2: Those Diasomnia Boys Are An Enigma (TWST)

Drunk Minstrel one of the Top 10 characters in that movie and should have gotten a TWST counterpart.

Every TWST character represents someone/something in the Disney franchise. Yes, me stating the obvious obviously. But it tends to be easy to spot. The Overblot Boys are each of the villains, the rest of Heartslabyul are the card soldiers, Ruggie is a hyena, the tweels are the eels, Kalim is the Sultan, and Rook is the huntsman (Epel being the apple had me freaking out, and it was in the name). I'm only not really sure about Jack and Ortho. Jack is an outlier and I might understand Ortho better if I read Book 6.

Now for the enigmas:

Those three. I like to consider myself a general expert on the Sleeping Beauty movie (I watched that thing an unhealthy amount of times and still do). We have a lot of theories about those three. The obvious potential contenders for those three to be stand ins for are the Three Good Fairies (they were the main characters of the movie, fight me on this), Aurora, Philip, and Diablo. However, Epel being the apple (inhales) opens doors for representing objects, like the spinning wheel, the shield of virtue, and the sword of truth. I had also considered Maleficent's henchman because I'm mean (sorry Sebek). The dorm trailer made people think they were each of the good fairies, but I don't think so. Sebek and Silver don't match up to Fauna and Merryweather to me. I had my own thoughts on who these three do match up with though.

Lilia. He has to be the 3 good fairies. A kind of combo deal. He's got the leadership qualities and respect of Flora, Fauna's kind and well meaning nature (despite it often resulting in a comedic final product, looking at those skills in the kitchen) and willingness to see the good in people, and Merryweather's sass and bit more playful nature. Those three are really powerful, almost on par with Maleficent only because their good magic holds them back a bit against hers. Malleus is definitely stronger than Lilia, he's just kind of young. Lilia is also a friend of the royal family and thought highly of in the kingdom, just like the good fairies. Also he raised a baby in a house in the woods into their teen years, so yeah… Dad for the win!

Sebek. I read one thing that said "Maleficent's lightning powers" and it does work with his name and symbol, but that feels like a disservice to Sebek even though those powers are really cool. It's also a disservice to the movie. He's gotta be something better. I did once think henchman. Not in terms of being dumb, Sebek is actually really smart. More so in terms of being a loyal servant of the Maleficent stand in. However, in terms of loyalty, I can see him being Diablo. Call it me reading too much into the hair, but it could pan out. Being loyal to your master to the very end, only looking out for said master regardless of other people, being very VERY loud. I think it works out. He also takes his job the most seriously. I think he'd see Silver as one of the henchmen.

Speaking of Silver, let's jump to who I think is the most theorized Diasomnia character in terms of standing in. The most popular are Aurora and Philip. Philip is for Silver's knightley skills mainly and bonus he's in the equestrian club. However, I've always leaned more towards Aurora. BECAUSE THERE IS SO MUCH. Baby raised in the woods by fae, kind and friendly with the animals everywhere, the referenced attractiveness, the called out niceness. He's part of the Facepalm Brigade, aka the Really Nice Ones. Can't represent a villain thing with a record like that. And the most obvious aspect: the Sleeping TM. Okay, my number 1 pet peeve with Sleeping Beauty adaptations based on this particular movie is how the writers also go "oh lol, let's make the Sleeping Beauty person always sleeping and doing so at random times for no reason." I hate that. She was cursed. She slept the one time, now she's labeled for life. But Silver works. But why? Because he constantly mentions how much he hates it and can't control it. THAT is setting something up. But we don't know why he sleeps, but my guess? Curse. My sister has a theory that Malleus once tried to put a baby Silver to sleep with magic and ended up cursing him with Lilia toning down the effects. I call her valid, I like it. Regardless of why he sleeps, you can't tell me this boy isn't cursed. It could have been anyone. Accident? On purpose (looking at you, grandma)? We don't know. This is just some baby Lilia found and said "this is mine now." He could be another combo deal, but Aurora is definitely the main one in that. He just reminds me of her so much. We really need his backstory explored in Book 7. I'm ready for those lore drops!

I did mention objects. While I'm leaning towards the character connections, I can't overlook those objects and how important they are. Epel can't be the weird one (he was the apple, how could it have taken me so long to see it-). At the very least, they can be a secondary stand in. Some characters tend to slightly connect to someone else along with their main counterpart. If Diasomnia does this, Sebek and Silver are the sword and shield. Oh, writing that out, the alliterations…

Anyway, Silver's symbol is a sword. Movie has sword. There ya go. Technically, both of them are good with a sword and actually bond over them. Silver just gets first dibs with his symbol. Shield could be Sebek. His primary goal in life is serve and protect Malleus. Also, I can totally see him jumping in front of a shot for his master. Also, sword and shield can either put Sebek and Silver side by side or on opposing sides, something to think about.

So, those are my thoughts on this debate. I love this movie and Book 7 must do it justice! I trust these writers, can't wait to see where they take this!

#i was going to post this before book 7 came out and I didn't #whoops #twst #twisted wonderland #lilia vanrouge #sebek zigvolt #twst silver #wish we could tag him silver vanrouge but noooo #we can't have that #shouting into the void

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howl-fantasies · 2 years

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Author-san, how do you think y/n reacted/would react about the time where Oswald almost beheaded Vic?

A/N - Hi dear! Oh how interesting! I asked myself the same question last time and here is what I think would be her reaction and what it means for her relationship with Penguin. But first, let's talk about what happened a bit before the 'almost VicLouis XVI incident', to understand how she reacted and what she decided to do after.

⨠ So far, we knew that Cobblepot and Y/N shared a very special relationship. A kind of frenemy thing, tending to balance more on the 'Oh my god I hate this cripple / harlot! But don't you dare touching any of his / her hair, he/she is family (sort of?) and MY target, not yours so you're dead if you try anything.'

They are, in a way, very loyal to each other in their rivalry and can work with each other on a daily basis without too much troubles. Y/N being professional during her job and Oswald being a good boss in knowing how to keep her and Victor bloodthirsty personalities in line.

Since the beginning, she knew for a fact that Oswald was a very intelligent and cunning man, who always think at least ten steps ahead everyone, even Carmine, and respects him greatly for that.

So when Victor asked him if he "killed the old man" and Penguin said "no" she trusted him and even told Victor that obviously he wouldn't kill the only man able to keep Sofia at bay, it wouldn't be logical.

⨠ When Victor betrayed Oswald, she was beyond mad and even thought about killing Sofia but didn't. The brat was Falcone daughter for starters, and she respected her boss too much to go on a killing spree against his daughter without a good reason.

She stayed with Oswald, her hate for the woman was greater than the one she shared with him. She even asked him, very politely at that, to let her deal with this stubborn boyfriend of hers to try to take him back "home" with them.

Their couple went into a very instable phase, one of their major crisis tbh, constantly balancing between twisted obsessive love and pure resentment because of the other’s allegiance.

They still tried to avoid having to seriously fight the other and killing them. When she heard Sofia was the one responsible for Carmine murder, she went berserk and was decided to make her pay.

If Lee's was the one putting a bullet in the brat body - which Y/N was pretty mad about - she was the one annihilating everything the Italian woman built in Gotham. Killing everyone who supported her,Victor being an exception, and had a very intense conversation (a.k.a with many bullets, blood and blades) with Zsasz about his poor choice of boss.

He decided to not come back to Oswald's side and she agreed with it. Things went too far between Zsasz and him, and Oswald knew better than anyone in town how to hold a serious grudge.

⨠ During Gotham's confinement (COVID vibes here), she still worked with Oswald, needing his ammunition since hers - and secretly Victor’s - wouldn't be eternal.

Deep down, she also wanted the little bird bastard to survive since he was, in her opinion, one of the best choice of leader for this evil city. She asked him a favor : to let her deal with her husband if Penguin ever cross path with him or wanted something from him. And he agreed.

But Oswald being Oswald, he double crossed her when he went to the GCPD to fetch Victor and organize his fake trial. Little bird sent her on a mission at the opposite side of Gotham to make sure she wouldn't try anything against him.

But Y/N being incapable of trusting anybody in town fully, she put hidden cameras and micros all around Oswald's hideout and found out his little beheading plans. She called Jim and demanded him to save her man, since she saved his cop's ass a hundred times before.

If not, ha-ha, she would destroy the whole city, only keeping him alive to watch the massacre. But no pressure, of course.

The fact that Oswald double crossed her didn't bother her too much to be honest, she suspected it. What enraged her was the fact he swore to not do anything without her.

Promises are a serious deal for her. And Oswald, Victor, Ed, Jim and everyone knowing her enough in Gotham knew that. If the woman promised something - which was pretty rare - she always honored her word, thanks to Carmine and the mafiosi she grew up with.

She thought Oswald would have this kind of nobility in him too. Don't get me wrong, he has it, but lose it quickly when things become personal, like they were with Victor. That was her mistake.

Anyway, it didn't change the fact that Penguin swore something and didn't keep his word. This action brought Y/N, Oswald, and her frenemy's relationship to a turning point, the weak balance they had definitely leaning on the bitter and hating side.

⨠ Contrary to Oswald's hot-tempered personality, Y/N is a practical and - in a way -level headed woman. She still thought Oswald was the best choice to rule the city because of his mafia years and how he was able to adapt what he learnt from the bests - Falcone, Maroni, Fish, Nikolaï - to the new crime era the city entered in.

But she won't ever work for him like she did or try to rebuild the bond they had. Her 'trust' was definitely broken and if the two have to work together, she would be extremely cautious around him and make sure to prepare extra detailed contracts, preventing him to double cross her.

They would be business allies or foes and she would keep it that way, cutting all emotional strings they had.

⨠ They eventually might share them again, only if Oswald saves her or Victor's life on an impulse because they have history. Like when he protected Ed from the grenade, without planning something with his action.

I hope it wasn't too long and makes some sense 😅Have a beautiful day / night and take care my dear 💐

#gotham fox #Gotham villains #gotham fandom #Oswald Cobblepot #oswald cobblepot x reader #Victor Zsasz #victor zsasz x reader #gotham villains x reader #gotham imagine #oswald cobblepot imagine #victor zsasz imagine #y/n #jim gordon #gotham headcanon #gotham x reader

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