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teamnick · 1 month

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What are YOUR top 5 Piarles moments?

oh anon.......its nearly impossible for me to answer this because there are so many moments and all of them are gold!! but let's try...

5. the paris nba event

holy shit. them playing basketball, giggling and being sooo bad at the whole thing, but enjoying it nonetheless...then attending the match, making a joint post, ignoring esteban 🤪🤭 hall of fame! and this moment right here...charles???

4. 2018 canal+ interview

they were ofc very normal about each other again (lie)

but especially what charles said here:

idk it devastates me every time, he wasnt kidding there at all 😳

3. the squeezie vid

well this has it all - piarles joking around and teasing each other in french, pierre making obscene gestures that make charles blush, both participating in a baby simulation class...i'll be a squeezie fan forever solely cos of this genius video. thank you for my LIFE!

2. montreal 2022...investigate montreal!!

so it all started with a lovely interaction bw charles and pierre's parents, then charles drove pierre around in a white ferrari, they had dinner, and then charles went and uploaded this to his public insta...ig he wanted his 10M followers to see how funny is the love of his life. 😅😅

1. monza 2020

what cara said earlier...it literally looks like a romantic movie. like these moments alone would be more than enough...

but then charles just. sneaked away to watch pierre's podium, despite not being medically cleared yet...you gotta be kidding me. 🥹🥹🥹

honorable mentions:

#thanks for the ask 🫶🫶🫶#ask game #anon

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stormesandshowersparttwo · 3 months

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Which thirst trap do you think you would send to your fiancé if you were chatting him up on Grindr for the first time?

this ask feels like an excuse for y'all to get thirst traps 🤔 which I'm happy to oblige since I'm a whore. though of course the really juicy ones I won't be able to post here (not to be all "I lure them in with my dick" but I do)

#thank you anon for the nicer ask than the last one i got #i act a tough game but rude stuff can get me down sometimes so i do appreciate yall when you're encouraging of me 🫶#i dont think yall have seen these but if you follow me on bluesky you probably saw the uncropped ones 👀#asks #anon #me #gay #thirst trap

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zan0tix · 1 month

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Hi tumblr user Zan0tix, I have to say that I love that you draw Jake as big and hairy AND fem. It's such a rare combination outside of mean-spirited caricatures, every time I see your Jake I get a big smile on my face. :)

Hi tumblr user HermitCyclop ^u^ here is a jake drawing for you 🫶

The transmisogynistic demonisation of these features is so maddening!!! I agree! Im glad that the intent (appreciating these features) of my jake design reaches you c:

GOING TO PUT IT UNDER THE CUT BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. But jake english gender meta because i think about it Too Much and am taking this as an excuse to infodump abt it. 😁

The alpha kids and their specific defiance of both homestucks gendered narrative AND real life societal expectations are so fun to think about to me!! but since we are talking about jake, his specific defiance of both homestucks models of masculinity and femininity in the context of his queerness is like the reason he is my fav character.

He props himself up that he wants to be the adventure "hero" in the homestuck sense (the hardheaded blue femme fatale) and the western media sense (the hardheaded action man) yet whenever pressed to actually act on what he says he always refuses or obfuscates. Because really what he wants is to just be himself! I really love the alpha kids because they all just want to be Themselves, not be restricted and defined by what is expected of them, (all the characters have this but the alphas particularly really hammer this home for me)

The heavy emphasis on their beta selves, the heteronormative archetypes they embodied and what went wrong in their lives that manifest as fears in their alpha selves... im always thinking about it. How differently society affects queer ppls choices in life and then the fact that they all get a second chance and getting to watch them live out that second chance and realize their queerness and them all caring so much abt eachother and wanting to aspire to be better FOR the ones they love!!!!!! it always tugs at my heart strings to ponder😢😢

IM SO GOOD AT GOING ON TANGENTS MY BAD but basically. The alpha kids explicit queerness and how despite the comic itself protesting, they are all shown to be deserving of love (of all kinds) And as a person who super heavily relates to jake, his experience with his own identity (and dirks unending adoration and love for him and likewise jakes belief and admiration of dirk) serves to me as a reminder that yknow! We are all worthy of love!! Even if we dont think ourselves to be (this is just the message of shrek.) and there is always hope to be found in things improving!!!!

But in a text thats explicitly queer and not shy about letting its queer characters do wrong in realistic ways i think this message is incredibly powerful and certainly one of the best things about the comic in my eyes. And i love embracing that in my art of the characters! Drawing queer (but here specifically trans) characters all getting to be proud of themselves and their appearances makes me feel proud of myself alongside them and I think its wonderful to be able appreciate other trans peoples experiences and looks through it too!!

I specifically in homestuck fandom dont really see anybody but twinks (usually dirk or eridan LMFAO) portrayed to be fem in any manner 😢 when jake is the most explicitly feminine man in the comic. (I think the transmisogyny thats kind of rampant in this fandom means people dont want to consider those outside conventional attractiveness being feminine or transfem identities outside binary transwomen if even that😭😭) I am being the change i wana see in the world 🙏 The amount of transfem fat gay bear jake in the world increases by one every time i post

#hermitcyclop #daniel talks #my art #jake english #DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT JAKE ENGLISH I WILL NOT STOP. I COULD KPEP GOING BUT ITS MIDNIGHT AND I NEED SLEEP.#But thank you for the ask hermitcyclop you are the most dedicated dirkjaker mad respect 🫶 years in the game and still around.. you are cray

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devotion-disorder · 10 months

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incredibly smart of ur pfp to be that harper art bc whemever i see it i fall in love all over agaim

i dunno if falling in love with harper is a good idea, anon

#ask #anon #my art #degrees of lewdity #dol #harper the doctor #i think harpers probably too psychopathic to really comprehend the concept of love #he is cooking up 800+ nefarious plans in his mind as we speak #but also!!!! thank you for liking my art anon 🫶🫶

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caycanteven · 1 month

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Careful! Don't get too flustered~

Commission for @ask-underpressure ! Thank you so much for letting me have so much fun with your UnderPressure!Sans!!! I am so glad I could get to bring them to life and fluster them up a bit~ Check out their blog if you want to learn more about their AU! Thank you again for your support, it was a pleasure and so were you! 🫶❤️ Version without text under the cut!

#my art #caycantdraw #sans #sans au #ask-underpressure #caycanteven #caycanteven commissions #super awesome lad #love'em so much #was so fun to draw! aaaah #adorable precious even #fluster'em up a bit #underpressure au #thank you again for your support!#you're amazing! ❤️🫶#cays commissions

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stephschoices · 3 months

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You really think all these IF authors love you stupid bitch? God your so stupid, the second you don't lick their asshole they will abandon you, they only care what you do for them, they won't ever have your back. I pity you poor baby girl 😔

HELP I’ve been on tumblr since 2011 and this is the first anon hate I’ve ever gotten omg 😂😂😂 lmaoo thank you 🫶🏻

I don’t do anything for anyone btw everything I publicly post is for me 🥰 if authors or fans of the authors ifs like it then that’s great but I don’t crave validation like you do bestie 🫰🏻

#thank u #🥹🫶🏻#ask #anon

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losersimonriley · 7 days

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At the tail end of a long, grueling mission that had them run around half of Eastern Europe, Laswell had given Ghost and Soap three days of leave before they'd be flying back home. She'd even booked them a hotel in a tiny spa town for two nights. Yet even though they arrived early in the day, Soap was still exhausted enough from the mission to just let Ghost handle the check in.

Something was off, though, when Ghost returned to him. He could tell by the square set of his shoulders and the slight frown on his brows. Even without his usual balaclava, his hood and face mask hid most of Ghost's expressions from inexperienced viewers.

"Good news: Laswell's paying for two dinners each at the in house restaurant. It's supposedly very good," Ghost reported.

"And the bad news?"

Ghost subtly shifted his weight. "Only had rooms with double beds left."

"You mind sharing?" Soap raised his eyebrows.

"Nah. Thought you might."

"Nah. Let's get up to our room then. I'm right knackered from the trip."

Ghost rolled his eyes at the phrasing, but didn't comment on it. When Soap punched his shoulder to signal go time, he obediently followed to the elevator.

As forewarned, the room only had one bed. But at least it was the softest, most cloud like bed Soap'd ever had the pleasure of sitting on. He wanted to immediately lie down and never get up. First things first, though.

"Mind if I take the first shower?"

Ghost shrugged. "Feel free. Thought I'd have a look around town. Find the spa. Try the public fountains. Look at the local attractions. Tourist shite."

"Have fun. I'll cover home base while you're out on recon, then."

Ghost huffed out a small laugh as he turned to leave the room.

Soap hopped into the shower for a quick wash, dried himself off with extremely fluffy towels and then got himself comfortable in the bed. He'd planned on a quick nap, but when he woke up again, it was because someone had chucked a paper bag at his head. It smelled deliciously like baked goods.

"Got you lunch, Sleeping Beauty."

"I'd be so mad at you for waking me like that," Soap said as he sat up and bit into the bun that'd smacked him in the ear. "If this weren't so good."

"Up for an afternoon trying all the healing springs? The park is twenty minutes from here and has at least ten different fountains with different properties. Maybe one can cure stupid."

"Maybe one can cure being a dick."

"You'll never know."

They spent the afternoon together trying the water from every single fountain in the park. It had clearly been built sometime in the nineteenth century, Soap pointed out, citing the architecture and decorations. The water was various kinds of salty. More than half the fountains were claimed to have uranium in the water, a fact that led both Ghost and Soap to come up with more and more outrageous movie mutations caused by too much of the spa water. Dinner at the hotel's restaurant was fantastic. The chef didn't skimp on the fat, nor on the herbs and spices.

Soap had almost forgotten about the bed in their room by the time they got ready for bed. "I can still sleep on the floor, LT."

"Why?"

"Dunno." Soap shrugged. "Thought it might be weird to you."

"'s not." Ghost took off his boots, stripped down to his undershirt and briefs before he slipped under the covers. "Fuck. 's like a cloud in here."

Quickly, before either of them could change their mine, Soap undressed and got into bed as well. His hammering heart forced him to keep a fair distance between himself and Ghost.

"Figured you'd be a cuddler," Ghost mused.

"That an offer?"

"Mh." Under the covers, Ghost reached out to pull Soap closer to him. "Don't mind if it's you."

Soap swallowed. He let himself be pulled against Ghost, head resting on a broad chest, hand over a heart that was beating it's staccato rhythm in tandem with Soap's own.

"G'night, Simon," Soap whispered, not trusting his mouth to say more.

"Night, Johnny."

When he woke up the next morning with his Johnny sprawled out on top of him, with his breath hot against his bare neck, Ghost was immensely glad he'd convinced the hotel clerk to give them a room with a double bed. Even if it was just for one more night, he'd treasure this closeness for the rest of his life.

This felt like getting tucked into a comfy warm hotel bed of my very own <3 I hope everyone else enjoys this cloud bed as much as I do god BLESS

#ghostsoap #I love their banter especially ghost’s one liners my god #“maybe one can cure stupid” AKDHSHA PLEASE #cuddling ghoap my absolute beloved #ghost you sly devil you #thank you for this treasure I’m sorry it took so long to answer I was waiting until I had good quiet time to read it <333 #LITERALLY the post from the other day about writing characters just getting to sleep in a comfy bed oh my god 😭❤️🫶#fics #asks #long post

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inoreuct · 6 months

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Tiger Zoro thoughts AGAIN lol but u know how they say that cats purring has healing properties? When anyone on the crew is feeling ill or even just upset, zoro pads up to them and curls around them and gets to purring. Always makes them feel better <3

i love this. i love this so much. his purring is STRONG, too, like a damn engine; and it helps that he can smell emotions, or at least the small hormonal changes in a person’s scent that tells him how they’re feeling. if they smell off they’re not feeling well either physically or mentally. so he bullies them into sitting at a comfortable spot and lays down around them, tucks them close to his side and starts purring and it helps.

surprisingly, the first person he does this with is usopp. the sharpshooter’s so frustrated about a project that just won’t cooperate and zoro can smell it so he corners usopp in the galley and the man squeaks, muttering a panicked okayokayokay under his breath as zoro crowds him to the wall and nudges at his knees until he sits down. he can feel how tense usopp is before he starts purring, but after a while the sharpshooter relaxes and curls up into a little ball with his knees to his chest. zoro flops his tail over usopp’s shoulder and they somehow both fall asleep.

it’s started to become sanji’s favourite way of falling asleep, too; whether zoro’s in tiger or human form, he likes to curl into zoro’s chest and hug one of his arms or paws and drift off with zoro’s purrs vibrating through him. zoro can smell the way the tension and stress of the day bleeds out of him and it’s soothing for both of them, honestly.

#weretiger zoro au #one piece #zosan #zoro x sanji #roronoa zoro #black leg sanji #one piece zosan #one piece sanji #one piece zoro #sanji #zoro #THANK YOU FOR THE ASK ANON 🫶🏽🫶🏽#ino’s ask box

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tomboxed · 6 months

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Doodle Request: Tyler & Jack kissing after their Golfing Game outside at Moonlit Night <33

absolutely

they go smooch smooch mwah

#fight club #fight club 1999 #the narrator #tyler durden #soapshipping #ask #i mean nothing says love like punting balls into windows late at night #am i right or am i right #(i'm right)#thank you very much for the request 🫶🫶🫶#tyler x narrator #tyler/narrator

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crystallizsch · 1 month

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Yuusha = Jamil's Charging Station

(help 😭)

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prajjna · 8 months

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kiwi sniper can i squish him? i wanna squish him gently 🥺 ✨ im in love with ur art it's so cute and your such a talented artist 🌹

of course

squish squish

#and thank you ...🥰🫶#ask

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chapel-of-rizztual · 9 months

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Hi, hello, okay, I have no thoughts in my brain but from the prompt - "wanna practise?" / "you'll have to teach me" with Phantom and either Dew or Rain? He could be slammed against the wall also 👀 Because Phantom is a dumbass who knows nothing and I love him. Please and thank you if you do write 🖤

How about Phantom, Dew and Rain using Poor Phantom?? No wall slamming though I’m afraid.

It wasn’t like Phantom meant to walk in on them. He’d just been so excited to tell Dew he’d managed to nail that solo he’d been struggling with, he forgot to knock, and burst his way through the door to Dew’s room.

He squeaked at the sight in front of him, slapping a hand over his eyes.

“Shit-I’m sorry- I’m sorry.” He stutters, stumbling backwards, his back hitting the door making him stumble forwards. “I’m sorry, again- ill leave.”

Rain pulled his lips off dew’s, a string of saliva connecting them. He glares at him, and Phantom feels himself shrinking back, fumbling to try and find the door.

“What do you want?” And the way Rain sounds, bored, irritated even, shouldn’t have Phantom’s cock twitching in his pants the way it does.

“I- I wanted to tell Dew I managed to get that solo right.” Dew beams at him from where he’s pinned beneath Rain.

“That’s so good, Tommy! You’ve been working on that for ages now.”

Phantom has to suppress a whimper, feeling his cock twitch at the praise.

“I-thank you.”

Rain glares at him again. “Is that all? Are you done here now?”

Phantom nods, not trusting his voice not to break.

“Good. Shut the door on your way out.”

Phantom stumbles, tripping over his own feet, trying to move as fast as could to avoid pissing Rain off even more.

“Wait!” Dew exclaims. “You could leave, if you wanted.” He look up at Rain, then back to Phantom. “Or…” He smirks. “You could join us.”

Rain looks down at Dew with a questioning look. Dew wiggles his eyebrows at him, still smirking at him.

Rain turns back to phantom, the same unimpressed, irritated look on his face.

“Well? In or out?”

“In-in- I’m in.” Phantom stutters again, stumbling into the room, pushing the door closed behind him.

Rain rolls off Dew, rolling to the side and pats the space in the middle of them. “Come. Sit.”

Phantom moves as fast as he can, climbing over Dew ungracefully and rolling himself in between the two ghouls. Dew giggles at him as he does.

“He’s already hard, the poor little puppy.”

Phantom whines burying his face in his hands.

“Awwhh our poor little puppy, so easy aren’t you.”

Rain voice is so condescending it has Phantom squirming.

“Ah, don’t be mean to him, Rainy. He can’t help it, he’s just a baby.” Dew cuddles himself into his side, pressing a kiss to his cheek. Phantom can’t help sighing into the soft touch.

“You wanna join me, little one? Wanna help me make Dew feel good?” That’s the nicest Rain’s sounded since he walked in.

Phantom feels overwhelmed already, just at the thought.

“I don’t- I’ve never- never done anything like this before.” He stutters again, feeling his cock twitch as humiliation pools on his belly.

Rain runs a claw along Phantom’s jaw line.

“You really are a puppy, aren’t you?” He runs a claw over his bottom lip, letting it dig into the soft pillowy flesh. “You want me to show you, puppy? Wanna practise?"

Phantom nods, letting Rain guide his face towards his own. “You’ll have to teach me.” He whispers.

He hears Dew snort a laugh.“He’ll teach you alright, don’t worry about that.”

Before Phantom can reply, Rain is pressing his lips to his. The kiss is sweet and slow, Rain’s hand stays on his cheek, guiding his head in the direction he wants. He feels Rain’s tongue tracing along his bottom lip. He parts his lips, letting Rain push his tongue into his mouth and he whimpers with it, his hand coming up to grip at Rain’s shoulders.

Behind him Dew whines. “I want a turn. Rain, let me have a turn.” Rain pulls away with a small laugh, and there’s another hand under his chin, turning his head to the opposite side, and another pair of lips are pressed against his.

Dews fast and sloppy with his kiss, fangs digging into his bottom lip, a hand in his hair, pulling him the direction he wants.

Phantom feels Rain pressing him up against him, feels the hard outline of his cock pressing up into his ass. “Use your tongue, puppy, just like I did to you. He likes that.”

Phantom pushes his his tongue into Dew mouth, making Dew whimper, his jaw going slack, the hand in his hair twisting, pulling harder.

“That’s it, good boy.” Rain coos at him, making Phantom himself whimper into the kiss. “Run your hands along the scars on his chest, then rub his nipples. It always drives him crazy.”

Phantom does as he told, tracing the scars on Dew’s chest, before thumbing over his nipples, pulling at the rings. Dew whines, his hip bucking into phantom’s.

“Such a good boy, aren’t you? Listen to me so well.” Phantom can’t help moaning into the kiss, his eyes rolling back. He can feel his cock jumping in the confinement of his sweatpants, and feels the tip dampen, precum beading at the tip.

Rains hand grips at Phantom’s chin, pulling him off Dew’s lips with a slick pop. He turns his head back into his direction. Phantom blinks owlishly at him, licking his spit damp lips. “My turn again.” Rain's lips are back on his, slow and sweet just like before, a complete juxtaposition to Dew. It makes his head spin.

Dew’s hand reach under Phantom’s T-shirt, pulling at his nipples just like he’d done to Dew. He whines, his hips bucking into Rain’s thigh. Dew places light kisses up the back of his neck and Phantom shivers with with light touch.

Rain bites at hip lip, making Phantom gasp and Rain takes the opportunity to push his tongue back into his mouth. Phantom whimpers, his eyes fluttering closed.

“Raaaaain.” Dew whines from behind. “I want a turn again, stop hogging our new toy.”

Rain pulls off him, looking behind him to Dew. “Yeah? You wanna play with him again.”

“It’s my turn.” Dew pouts at him. Phantom makes a choked off sound, the two ghouls talking about him like he isn’t even there, likes he’s just an object to them has heat flowing in his veins like lava, pooling between his legs.

Rain turns his head to the opposite side, and Dew’s lips are on his again in an instant. Rain runs a hand down Phantom’s belly. “That’s it, good boy.”

His hand moves further down, squeezing Phantom’s cock through his sweatpants. Phantom squeaks, his hips rolling into Rain’s touch. “If you keep being good us and let us have use you, maybe we’ll let you cum.”

#not edited if you see a mistake no you didn’t #thank you for the ask 🫶#the band ghost #ficlet #ghost headcanons #nameless ghouls #dewdrop ghoul #rain ghoul #phantom ghoul #Ask #THE PHANTOM SANDWICH STRIKES AGAIN #My writing

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ripplerain · 2 months

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Talking about the pokespe version (bc I love the mangas), how do you think the friends would react if they saw Nemona crying. Like not happy crying or fake or anything like straight-up SOBBING, and it's from NEMONA of all people to cry like that, how do you think they'd react considering their personalities in the mangas(so like Scarlet and Violet and Arven etc) because I'm intrigued what you think(and I'm glad there's more scarnemo fans)

I'm sorry for the late reply Anon

needed some time to think about this

so I did some sketches for you

and my thoughts 🫶

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danandphilupdates · 1 month

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Hi hello just wanted to thank you for letting me live twitter free, it truly waters my crops to not have to use that app just for dnp

i’m taking one for the team 🫡

#also v sorry to anyone who has sent an ask before my notifs are a mess and i just noticed i missed a whole bunch from last year #you all leave kind words so thank you 🫶

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antizutara · 2 months

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what are your top 5 kataang moments in the show?

this is such a sweet ask but it’s also so hard, anon!! i love them alllllll

my number one is For Sure but idk abt the others

1. katara finding aang on the fire nation island, running and falling on her knees to hug his head. then she looks at him with happy tears streaming down her face and they share a small forehead touch

2. the serpent’s pass speech when aang indirectly tells katara he loves her and she cries happy tears and they hug :’)

3. first two cheek kisses (s1 and s2) are fighting for this spot—i think i lean towards the second bc it also came with a hug and an interrupted confession, but the avatar’s love playing for the first is so sweet!

4. any time katara’s eyes sparkle bc of aang (two waterbenders, sifu katara, the painted lady glance after he called her a secret hero)

5. all of the cave of two lovers (hand holding under the lights? “even if you’re lost you can’t lose the love because it’s in your heart” foreshadowing katara’s uncertainty to begin a relationship?? the way they parallel oma and shu??? peak)

i refuse to categorize the following:

- the desert hug

- their final kiss

- the kataango

they’re just too iconic.

(i’d include more pictures but tumblr limit :/)

#thank you 🫶🏽🤍#ask #mail #kataang #kataangtag

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chuluoyi · 1 month

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tw vent — a personal life problem. i just have to leave it here bc i’ve been crying for two days. it’s long… so feel free to scroll past it :’)

i’m… about to break up with my bf of 2 years

he’s a really kind person. and i don’t exaggerate it. he always makes sure to show me that he loves me through little actions like forehead kisses whenever we meet up, getting me a customized keychain with my name on it, getting me meaningful gifts and flowers on important dates unprompted… and every simple and little gift he gave me i have stored inside a box and there are so many i’m bawling whenever i look at them bc i’m so touched that a man who loves me really exists :’) he’s my prayers coming true. i used to pray for a boy who will accept me as i am and he comes at the perfect time near the end of my college year when i thought everything in this world was jaded

not only that he also spoils me, goes along with anything i say… he is serious regarding our relationship, introduces me to his parents and siblings. i thought i no longer have any worries about the future. and i can say i’m 90% content with my life now— a great job, a nice boyfriend, financially independent… my life is too good sometimes it feels scary

but there’s no such thing as a perfect life and i’ve dreaded it quite some time… because i know that both of us have been avoiding a certain issue just so we don’t burst our happy bubble… and now that issue has come to bite us

we’ve been in a LDR for two years and i’m honestly okay with it, but whenever questions about the future comes up—like “where should we live in the future?” i always clamp up bc for certain i want to live in my hometown, where my job, parents and social life are. but the thing is… he has his own thing in his city, where his parents reside and he’s the first son so he’ll inherit the family business there

i eventually voiced my worries about this to him, and do you know what his first reaction was? i was so sure he’d immediately get worked up and convince me to leave my job

but no. it never happened

he was so shaken. and yet… he never denied me. he said he’d talk to his parents about it… he said he’d be fine with this arrangement even if he has to be the one going back and forth. he said anything that would make me happy… he’d do it

and i believe him. until the end, i believe him. because he really means it even until the end

i’ve predicted it already. no way are his parents going to agree with this. i know bc just put yourself in their position—your bright first son has everything in order, set to inherit the family business, but he’s going to live a hard life of LDR only for some girl… that’s simply unacceptable

now you might wonder why i’m so dead set with living in my hometown. in chinese culture, when a girl marries, she usually lets go of everything and goes with the husband. but i really, really love my job here. i love the work i’ve been doing, community and friends i’ve made here, the salary and whatnot. not everyone gets a chance to work in my company bc it’s considered prestigious. working here gives me a purpose— i feel enabled here and i can be a part of something greater. i’ve won awards and i’m considered for a promotion too in just 2 years in this company, so it’s really hard for me to let go of it when i know i can be more than just a housewife. and so, whenever i imagine that i have to leave this company one day… i’m crushed

and not only that, my parents only have me. i’m an only child, and my father’s health condition isn’t the best either. i can only shudder whenever i think of them being alone if left them here

sometimes i think i’m too selfish for wanting this. for wanting to keep my job. for wanting to be with my parents. for keeping my social life. my bf is the one sacrificing energy and money twice a month to meet me in my city, and even then i still want to ask for more

but… i really can’t lie to myself and say it’s fine when it’s not. and what makes me cry even harder is the fact that when he finally tells me what his parents’ opinions are… he cries too and said all of these:

“i want us to be together. i feel so, so lucky to have met you. there are some days in which i thought that if you weren’t there… then it’d be much harder.”

“i’m always so happy seeing you all happy and energetic, doing things you love. i don’t want to take that from you.”

“if i make you go with me, i’m afraid that one day… you’ll regret leaving. i’m afraid you’ll be unhappy and tell me ‘if i’ve known this earlier… i wouldn’t have left at all.’”

it’s the depth in which he thought of all of these. i cried on the spot in front of him because… what have i done? what should i do? i love him, i really do but in the end, i can’t let go of everything for him either

and the cherry on top? he doesn’t even want to instigate the break up. he said everything is in my hands now. he wants nothing more than keeping our relationship, but he doesn’t have the heart to make me unhappy. even until the end, he says whatever my decision is… he’ll accept it even if it hurts

i’ve been crying since yesterday. it’s so hard to let him go when memories of the past two years pop up one by one. he’ll pick me up, hug me on hard days, tell me that i’ll do just well, adore me and make me feel confident in myself… he’s been a really great emotional support for me and i’m so, so grateful to have met him too

now we’re still in a limbo. i’m too shaken so i obviously am not able to tell him what my answer is. we agreed to think of this further and talk about our decision in 2 weeks, when he’ll come to meet me again

i don’t know what my answer is even until now. i know the best course is probably breaking up bc we can’t agree on this particular point… but it’s not easy, not when we still love each other this much

. . .

for any of you who have taken the time to read this until the end… thank you :’) this blog is the safest corner i have and i really don’t want to bring any sort of negativity here… but this time i’m just too sad with everything and i think i need a space to confide in💔

#tw vent #so sorry i’ll answer asks later!! :’))#thank you all for dropping by🫶🏻✨#—chu’s ramblings 🗯️

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