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m-jelly · 10 months

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hi m-jelly.... how are u doing? if its not a bother may i request a levi and a female reader fic whereas levi loves her breast so much. like he likes to be poked by them and even requested reader to titty-fuck him. like i never seen a fic with levi receiving a titty-fuck... please please please... thank u in advance, have a great day my favorite writer!

So soft

Pairing: Levi x Fem!Reader

Genre and tags: Modern AU, detective Levi, established couple, breast touching, breast kissing, praise, titty-fucking, romance, kissing.

Concept: Your boyfriend, Detective Levi Ackerman, has been having a hard time at work with a lot of cases. You want to help him relax. You let your man touch, massage and kiss your breasts before you use them on his cock and let him enjoy how soft they are.

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Levi stumbled into his apartment and groaned. He slipped off his shoes and hung his coat up. He was tired, aching and he was wet from the rain. He wanted a week off or more. He was done with the world and wanted just some peace and quiet.

He dragged his legs as he walked into his bedroom and found you inside putting away some laundry. He felt all his troubles wash away when he saw you, the love of his life. He walked up to you and pressed his face into your breasts and hummed.

You hummed a laugh and petted your boyfriend's head. "Hello, my love. That bad of a day?"

"Mm."

"I'm sorry you've had a shitty day."

He pulled back and stood up straight so he could look down into your beautiful eyes. "I love you."

You linked your arms around his neck and kissed him. "Love you too." You nuzzled your nose against his. "Why don't you have a nice hot shower, get changed and meet me in the living room. I have an idea to help relax you."

"Okay." He kissed you. "You're the best."

"I'll get something out for you to wear."

Levi squeezed you as he kissed your cheek making you giggle so sweetly. He hurried to the bathroom and relaxed under the hot water. He massaged your shampoo into his hair to give him comfort. Anything and everything to do with you comforted him. You were everything to him.

He dried off and felt his heart flutter at his comfy clothes being neatly placed on the bed. He pulled on his jogging bottoms and shirt. He moved out of the bedroom to see a hot tea waiting for him, along with a freshly baked cookie and what looked like lube.

Levi sat on the sofa and picked up the lube and read it. "Sweetheart, what's going on?"

You sat next to Levi and smiled. "Something fun."

Levi looked over and blushed hard at seeing you in lacy panties, stockings and no bra. He felt himself drooling as he pressed your breasts together and up. "B...B...B...B..."

You giggled. "Boobs, yes. Would you like your tea and cookies fed to you?"

He gulped hard. "P-Please."

You picked up the teacup and blew on it. "So hot."

"Very hot."

You dipped the cookie into the tea and offered it to Levi. You smiled as he bit it. "Mm, yummy, right?"

He nodded as he felt like he was on cloud nine. "I-It's good."

"I baked them today just for you."

"Th-thank you."

You held the cup up and admired him as he drank from the cup. "Nice?"

He sighed and relaxed. "Yes. So, umm..."

You put the cup down and threw your legs over his left thigh. You rubbed his chest and purred at him. "You are curious about what I have in store for you?"

"Yes."

You slowly lay back on the sofa and opened your legs. "My breasts are all yours.

Levi's eyes widened in delight. "All mine?"

"Yes."

He dove for your chest and nuzzled your breasts. "So soft." He massaged them and marvelled at how hot they were. He smiled when you let out a little moan. "Cute."

You pushed your fingers into his wet hair and massaged it. "Keep going. They're all yours to play with."

He pressed his face between them before pressing both against his face. He wiggled his face in them and hummed in happiness. He pulled back a little and gazed at them being pressed together. He felt himself drooling at the view before him.

Levi pressed his lips against yours and sighed happily. "So beautiful."

"Thank you."

He dragged his tongue over your right nipple as he moaned. He took your nipple into his mouth and sucked happily on it. He moved his tongue against your soft and sensitive skin as he felt his erection press against his jogging bottoms. You were such a wonderful and divine goddess that he loved with every fibre of his being.

He turned his head and covered your left breast in kisses. He nipped and sucked the skin causing lovebites to decorate your skin. He leaned up and massaged them. He watched his actions and adored how your boobs moved in his hands and jiggled a little. He smiled at the lovebites starting to form.

He wrapped his arms behind your back and lifted your body up. He pressed his face into your breasts and growled. "I love you and your body so much. You're incredible."

You hummed a laugh. "Want your next gift?"

"You spoil me."

You sat up and sat Levi back in his spot. You reached over and grabbed the lube and put some on your chest. "Figured it out?"

Levi gulped hard. "I know just what you have in mind." He pulled his hard cock out of his jogging bottoms and moved his hand up and down slowly. He parted his legs. "I can't wait."

You leaned over and pressed your breasts around his cock. You leaned your head down and opened your mouth a little and sucked on his tip. You moaned against him as you rolled your breasts around him. You smiled as Levi moaned and shivered in delight. You adored how hot his dick was and how much he was in heaven.

Levi leaned his head back and moaned out to the room. He pushed his hands through his wet hair as he enjoyed your hot mouth on his tip, your soft breasts on his cock and your gentle moans. He looked down as he panted and purred at your affection. He reached down and brushed back your hair.

You popped your mouth from him and smiled. "That feel good? Are you relaxed?"

Levi nodded. "Ngh, ah, ha, mm you're perfection. You make me feel so good."

You licked his tip before you began sucking again. Levi started panting as his pleasure increased. He loved how you doted on him. He never thought he deserved this kind of adoration and love, but you always spoiled him and showered him in so much love that it took his breath away.

He mumbled your name. "P-Please."

You gazed up at Levi. "What do you need?"

He yanked you against him and kissed you passionately. He lifted you and lay you against the sofa again. He crawled up your body and straddled your chest. "I hope you don't mind it this way."

You blushed as you gazed up at him. "Oh, handsome, you know very well I love you on top." You pushed your breasts together. "I'm all yours."

Levi pushed his cock between your pressed breasts and moaned as he watched it slide between them. He gripped the sofa and began bucking hard and fast against you. He gasped in delight as you stuck your tongue out for his tip. He gazed at you with such deep love and affection. You were perfection to him.

Levi moaned your name. He leaned over you more as he lost his composure a little and began bucking against you. He reached down and cupped the side of your face and he admired you. You were so beautiful to him. You were divine to him. He shivered as you licked his sensitive tip and smiled at him.

He whimpered a little as he felt the urge to cum. "Love, I can't hold on much longer."

You smiled at him. "Cum for me, my love."

He pulled back and moved his hand on his cock. He moaned your name. "I love you."

You pulled his hands from his cock and wrapped your hands around him. "I love you too."

Levi reached down and massaged your breasts. "My love. Darling." He moaned as you touched him. "So good."

You pushed a hand into his underwear and massaged his balls. "Let go."

He moaned your name and heavily panted as his cum covered your breasts. He shivered and whimpered your name as ribbons of his seed coated your plump soft breasts. "I love you." He mewled. "I love you."

You slowed your hand down before releasing him. You reached up and cupped the side of his face when you saw how sleepy he looked. You reached up and cupped the back of his neck and helped him lay back. You tucked him into his jogging bottoms and kissed him.

Levi hummed sleepily and softly said your name. "Thank you."

"I'll be right back."

Levi whined as you walked off. "Sweetness?" He slipped off the sofa and sleepily stumbled behind you. "Come back."

You gasped when he hugged you from behind. "Careful Levi, you'll get your clothes messy."

He nuzzled your neck. "I want to be with you."

"Okay, you can stay with me." You tried to pull his arms from you, but he held you tightly. You grabbed a cloth and cleaned up your chest. "I need to change."

He picked you up and carried you. "I'll dress you."

You hummed a laugh. "Perfect."

He sat you on the bed and pulled your sexy underwear off and swapped it for comfy things. He dragged on a top of his. "Cute."

You giggled. "Thank you."

Levi picked you up again and moved you up the bed. He wrapped himself around you and held you tightly. "Mm."

"Do you want to be cuddled or do you want me to cuddle you?"

He squeezed you. "I cuddle you." He snuggled close. "Mine."

You closed your eyes and melted into Levi's touch. You held him back and began peppering his face with kisses. "Mine." You lightly touched under his eyes. "Get some rest now, okay?"

He nodded. "I will. Just stay with me, always."

"I promise."

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lostarchivesoforpheus · 11 months

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hi!!! i was reading your cookie run fics and i LOVE THEM SM!!! especially capsaicin- hes such a sweet boy 🥺love him to pieces

but,

may i request a dark cacao x gn reader who finds it hard to be serious, and is really bubbly? like they might be at a meeting or something and reader just cannot keep up their serious facade!

thank you and have a great day :D

Bubbly!Reader Headcanons

dark cacao cookie x gn reader

summary: how dark cacao acts with a happy & bubbly s/o (i wanted to make a scenario w/ this but my brain couldn't think of anything good :,)) i hope it's ok and i hope u still enjoy it anon ilysm ty for requesting)

warnings: physical touch, maybe ooc(?) (he is very very soft for u), i think that's all but lmk if i missed any

confused by your constantly happy personality at first, but eventually got used to it and warmed up to you. now, your joyfulness is like a calming remedy for him whenever he's stressed.

thinks it's adorable whenever he sees you trying your hardest to look serious; thinks you always look so cute whenever you do.

^^^ likes to playfully tease you about this afterwards. likes seeing your flustered expression.

he always feels at peace whenever he's around you. your warm and happy demeanor always manages to bring a soft smile to his face.

loves it when you hug him. your touch is warmer than anything else he's ever encountered, and the butterflies in his stomach go crazy whenever you hold him.

likes hearing your voice. he could listen to you for hours on end, so he loves it whenever you indulge him in one of your long talks about anything that you find interesting.

likes spending time with you. your very existence makes him happy, so any time he spends with you and your warm, bubbly nature is time he treasures.

overall very soft around you and loves your personality. you always seem to make him smile, and he's always glad to have you around <33

a/n: he,,,, he is so,,,,,,,,,, anyways um i was gonna set up the event but then 3 requests got sent in overnight so once i finish those then the fun event will come so look out for that yAY,,,,,,, also tysm for showing ur support anon it genuinely means so much to me aaaaa pls request some more stuff if u want ur so nice aaaaaaaaaa would love to have u as a named anon in the aquarium but also if u dont want to that's fine too im just so happy that someone likes my works that much AAAAAAAAA TY <3333333333333333

thanks for stopping by!

wanna submit a request? see my requesting rules here.

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velvetwyrme · 1 month

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i eat up ur recs with a spoon and have almost gotten to the end of the list!!! do u have any other self insert recs? thank u! u have great taste

MWAH MWAH ILY !! THANK YOU and yes ofc I have more recs (not as many as last time, but it should still be a decent list to sink your teeth into <3)

Take care when reading, and always be sure to check the tags!

Same notation as last time, with STATUS of each fic labelled as such: Finished, Ongoing/Unfinished, Discontinued. (Unless the author specified that the fic is Discontinued or on Indefinite Hiatus, I will mark it as Ongoing/Unfinished. Oneshots are also marked as such.)

Spicy (Explicit) and/or Dark fics have also been labelled if relevant. (I won’t mark ones with just suggestive themes/moments, since I cant guarantee I’ll catch all of them. Similarly, unless there is consistent graphic death or gore I [probably] won’t mark it as dark.)

MULTICHAPTERS

As always, tread carefully while reading and take care of yourselves <3

Edit: Fixed a missing link or two!

These Masks We Wear - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

TIME LOOPS BABEY!!!! This reader is a delight from the get go because they have been stuck in a time loop and are... rather impulsive because of it, which lands them in a bit of a mess, because these strange, dangerous monsters have just emerged from the mountain. (I'm screaming and yelling at this fic very intensely)

Resisting the Current - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

If you haven't read this yet please do yourself a favour and read it. The premise was enough to get me irrevocably hooked (anti-harem but the gf is ALSO into you. ALSO SHE'S YOUR EX) and the writing is just FANTASTIC. I'm obsessed with the dialogue and description at every turn. Also, I would very much like to kiss Quinn please and thank you. The plot is beginning to set in now, and it's so good??? I have to cut this short or else I'll talk forever <3

ALSO the same author recently posted the first chapter of Wishbone which has me in a vice grip!!! AHH

Comic Classifieds - Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

*kicks in the door* DID I HEAR... FAKE DATING? Very sweet VERY funny, with an extremely extraordinarily awkward reader. (Who is also "cute in an awkward, baby giraffe kind of way.") It's sooo good please please check it out.

Stolen with Friendship, Captured by Love - Papyrus/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

2016... I still love this fic deeply <3 It's so SWEET and it reminds me of the good days of fic... Papyrus is. a Lot to deal with, but the reader takes it all in stride. He is SO full of energy and I want to sqUISH HIM.

Tough Choices, Tougher Consequences - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

I loooooove stories where soldiers get thrust into awful political matters. After you are forcefully removed from the battlefield, the Emperor gifts you his finest gladiator- Papyrus. He intends for the monster to be a toy to you as much as you are a toy to him, but you can't accept that and quickly broker a deal with Papyrus for his freedom.

Already There - Underfell!Sans/Reader - Finished

[Warning: INCREDIBLY SAD AND GOOD]

BURSTS INTO TEARS. Like for real though I adore this fic, it will break you into a hundred million pieces. My beloved son!!!!!!! I can't believe I didn't add this one to my last list it's such an influential piece of my existence like genuinely

There is also a sequel! Which hasn't updated since 2018 BUT STILL IS REALLY GOOD. If you want a slightly less heartbreaking story, the author also has another Sans/Reader; A Tale of Dog and Monster which makes me want to cry but in a happy emotional way instead.

Here's to You, Doll - Mafia!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Ah... this one is very fun. You're a scientist who gets accidentally isekai'd into a Mafiatale universe and becomes stranded there. Unfortunately for you, Don Gaster and his brothers think you are a spy, so you're kinda stuck with them. Also Sans is kinda a little freak in this one at times (/appreciative)

Soul Collector - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

The reader (the Soul Collector) gets transported into another universe and has to stay with their alternate, who is the skeleton's terrible neighbour. You look just like her, of course, resulting in a lot of VERY confusing interactions. I wasn't expecting to, but I actually really like Meyer.

Consequences - Papyrus(?)/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Anti harem, but the reader gets mcfreaking MURDERED (and so does classic Papyrus?!) so now they are both Ghosts. Focus is currently more on platonic relationships and REVENGE but I'm enjoying the twist on the typical anti-harem structure!!

My Soulmate is a Pastel Goth (And Other Concerns) - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Edge is very cute in this and I also feel really bad for him, he's trying so hard but the MC will not give him the time of day ;w;!! I looove me a good tumultuous soulmate fic. (Note: this fic also features Fem!Frisk as Sans’ soulmate in the bg, so if you’re not a fan, that’s something to note ^^! Fr//ans isn’t quite my thing, but tbh I’m really interested in seeing how things turn out here!)

ERROR: Not Found - Error!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Error, gets obsessed with the reader and kidnaps them! It's slice of life, so don't expect TOO much hard hitting angst here, it's more about being woo'd by the strange stalkerish entity who knows everything about you <3

When Death isn't an Option - Horror!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

I'm a sucker for immortal readers, especially ones that get stuck in HORRORTALE of all places. This fic is very fun and plays in the Horrortale sandbox in a fun way- I'm enjoying it a ton so far :]!!!

Additionally... if you liked that or if you're like me and love immortal readers forced to make decisions of extremely dubious morality and sense because of their immortal nature, you should also check out Cadarverous and 𝚎𝚊t. which are both very dark and very compelling.

Babysitting with Extra Morbid Steps - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

So the first thing you need to know is: Papyrus is dead.

... WAIT WAIT WAIT HEAR ME OUT- this is a really brilliantly written fic about like. SO much fucked up shit happening. The reader is Sans' friend, who he has hired/tasked with guarding the various alternates he has. just straight up imprisoned(?!?!). I avoided this for a while because of the aforementioned Papyrus Being Dead thing, but HOT DAMN I'm glad I read it in the end. Delightfully horrifying, but it gets sweet I swear!!! I would say read the tags but those are Spoilery ;)!

Additional note; the comments section often has Really Interesting dissections of characters and their motivations, which if you're into that (like me) then you should read those too!

All You Knead is Loaf - Sans/Reader - Finished

[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]

Super sweet, VERY punny fic that updated over the course of a month iirc. It's a cute food-centric Sans/Reader!

Like a moth to flame…or a lamp - Mothman Horror!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

BIG MOTHMAN HORROR!!! He's so sweet and sad this poor man. He has mistaken the reader for his mate and is trying to woo them again...

Those Times I Met His Brother - Sans/Reader - Finished

Essentially you befriend Papyrus and keep getting left with Sans, during which you grow closer. Love Papyrus' not-so-subtle attempts to get them together afjkdfjsf,,

Just Try and Help (Lil Old Hopeless Me) - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Skeleton reader! Very angy skeleton reader. They do not Want to be here (understandably, considering they were essentially kidnapped) but their former caretaker is gone, and they have nowhere to go.

Lovely House of Bones - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Six monsters get stranded in a snowstorm, and you help them not freeze to death by inviting them into the house you inherited. I'm really excited to see where this one goes :D!

Maybe In Time, You'll Want To Be Mine - Underfell!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

More!! Soulmate stuff!!!! SOULMARKS BABEY!! Love it when there are misunderstandings! Love it when there are cuuuuute background character kiddos!! AUGH it's cute! And angsty! But cute!!

No Good Deed - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Finished

You volunteer at a local homeless shelter where you meet a strange, less-than-friendly volunteer. Short and sweet!

Nothing but Skin and Bone - Horror!Skelebros/Reader - Finished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

MORE Horrortale content! This one only finished last month or so- it goes from angsty to sweet/cute and it's real good!!

If you read that and want EVEN MORE sadness and gore, the author's other work Vivid Blood, Pale Scars (DARK) is very tragic and very fucked up because you get saddled the Horrorfell boys this time. MUCH Hurt and No Comfort!! All the endings hurt me in different ways and none of them are happy. LUCKILY(?) the spinoff/AU where the skelebros and reader from VBPS get pulled into a multiversal skeleton house; Blurred Lines, Opened Wounds has just started!! Surely nothing can go wrong. Surely.

The Princes' Bride - Skelebros/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

What if you got kidnapped by the king to marry his sons. "Why" is a good question. And an even MORE pressing question is: how do you get OUTTA here. (Papyrus is a sweetie, Sans is distrusting, and King Gaster is a mysterious weirdo who is a good dad and bad everything else.)

MorTificaTion - Bad Sanses/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Reader from Outertale gets yanked into Horrortale! They then have to masquerade as Sans' wife and Aliza's mother, all the while trying to just stay alive. Not to mention the other Sanses running around... really fun premise and I'm excited to see where it all goes >:0!! Also extra kudos to the name of the fic because YAY Murder Time Trio (MTT) mention!

So here's the plan... - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader/Underswap!Papyrus- Finished

[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]

VERY CUTE!! Love them. Fake dating except there's a third conspirator involved. Each of them was also trying to set the other two up in a couple uwu. Chapter 1 is cute, and chapter 2 is spicy ;)!

Just a Cat - Swapfell!Skelebros/Reader - Finished

The reader is in fact, not just a cat. (He is a shapeshifter, and pretends to be a cat.) Shenanigans ensue.

An Apple a Day Keeps the Asshole Away - Swapfell!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Unhinged. When I say unhinged I mean it in the best possible way but it IS unhinged. They're all a bunch of little FREAKS. Please read it, if only to experience the absolute TERROR of Miss Bluebell and also Steve. What the hell (appreciative)

Honey Lemon Tea - ...?/Reader - Discontinued

RAGHHH I'm so sad this was discontinued :(( I loved the set up and the mystery so much... the author did leave an end note with how the plot would have played out though!

Shifting Morals - Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

You go stargazing and have an encounter with a mysterious stranger :0c?! (It's Sans. He's a cool beasty guy, and he is very very sadly Entirely alone.)

Additionally, this fic was suddenly revived 5 years after posting the first chapter which I have immense respect for.

The Key To Freedom - Yandere Buttontale!Papyrus/Reader - Finished

Yandere Papyrus! Not a common sight, but this fic does it particularly well. He mostly wants to eat your soul at first, but then he starts getting... attached. The bittersweet ending!!! AUGH.

Milky Tea and Souls - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

What if you could summon bitty versions of your soulmates!! And oh stars why are there so many- WHAT DO YOU MEAN MORE KEEP APPEARING??? The reader has a handful of skeletons and more to deal with!

The House on Lane 66 - Various/Reader - Finished

[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]

I feel like legally I have to include this (/lh /j). I finally finished it recently and went "WOAH..."

I stopped reading for a while (because of the length...) BUT I returned to it because I really really enjoy the world building (like holy SHIT!!!) but oh my god that sure is. a Million words now. It is TECHNICALLY finished, but that's only because the next part is in the works(?!?!?!)

Love Grows - Farmtale!Sans/Anomaly!Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

🎵 Love grows where my rosemary goes~

The reader doesn't have a physical body or a way to interact with the world while they watch over Saejun and the rest of the Farmtale characters. They inhabit a scarecrow to have some semblance of personhood, but they remain unable to talk...

Falling - Underswap!Skelebros/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

You are dying. You are dying and all of a sudden your dad is asking you to pick out a fucking slave of all things. The monster does not trust you (fair) and he thinks you are faking your illness for attention (less fair. what the fuck). Really interesting dynamics in this one!

Se Brûler - Grillby/Reader - Finished

[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]

I reaaaally love this fic! Sweet fluff! Angst! THE DRAMA!!!!! AUAUUUUGH I have too much to say about it just go read it.

Early Bird Special - Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

Old fic that's still updating!!!! Really interesting plot that just keeps getting More Dramatic as time goes on (in a good way). It's a Slavetale AU, in which the reader ends up joining the resistance after a few chance encounters. The author also has a spinoff fic with the same premise but featuring Underfell instead, which results in quiiiiite a lot changing.

nemesis & nike - Various Horrorbros/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

The reader essentially starts off in a zombie apocalypse and then gets transported into an alternate universe where they initially think that the various skeletons they meet are zombies. Turns out they are not in fact, zombies, but like most of them still want to kill the reader so...

Rules to Survive the Zombie Apocalypse - Swapfell!Skelebros/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes] [Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]

More zombie apocalypse stuff! Except this time you're stuck there with a pair of weird skeletons! You give them nicknames so you don't get attached, but of course you end up getting attached anyway.

To My Horror - Horror!Skelebros/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Post-surfacing Horrortale fic where the skelebros get to go live their farming dreams. With you! Slice of life with a dash of intimidation and angst.

If you enjoyed the Horrortale/Farmtale fusion, you'll be glad to hear there's also...

The Skeleton Stalks - Horrortale!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Another Horror-farm-tale fusion which has just begun recently! You live on a farm and all of a sudden there is this Big Intelligent Dog hanging around. Eventually, your new neighbors are sent to check in on you and your Great(er) Dog, which leads to some sweet interactions.

The Ruse - Swapfell!Sans/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

This is a rework! I read the original fic while it was being originally posted and I ADORED it, and the rework is superb <3 Sans is the Captain of the Royal Guard, who must fight valiantly against the villanous Eclipse, who exists only to spread terror... and you're just some human chilling on the sidelines, posting treasonous Soriel posts on the Undernet.

I'm so so so excited for it to return auauusgfhfhdj THE ORIGINAL FIC IS GONE SO I CAN'T EVEN READ IT TO SATIATE ME...

Almost Alone - Swapfell!Papyrus/Male!Reader - Finished

I love the sleepy, slow atmosphere this fic has- it's so befitting of both SF!Pap and the MC in this. It's soft and sweet and melancholic auauuauauuughgh I LOVE IT... *bursts into tears again*!!!! Also, there is a side fic which follows different POVs throughout the story, which is similarly well written!

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ONESHOTS

Date night Purring - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Oneshot

SUPER CUTE (and slightly suggestive)! Also Edge has a feminine body in this which is always fun. Booba <3

Scares and a Sudden Friendship - Horror!Sans/Reader - Oneshot

Reader's shitty boyfriend leaves them behind in the haunted house in which HT!Sans is working as a scare actor. Sweet little meet cute! (Meet spook?)

Fallen Star - Underfell!Gaster/Reader - Oneshot

An ooooold fic but one that never fails to break my heart. Written from the perspective of UF!Gaster recording experiment logs about the newest fallen human.

Birdy -Mafiafell!Sans/Reader - Oneshot

LET THE BIRD FUCK SHIT UP!! I love the way the Avian... siren(?) reader is characterised... there's also another oneshot in the same series which I enjoyed- love me some weird Creature Body Horror!!

I also really enjoyed the author's other fic: Moss & Mycelium, wherein the reader is a skeleton :]!!

Skeleton's Curiosity - FellswapGold!Skelebros/Reader - Oneshot

SUBNAUTICA AUUUUUUUUUUU YEAAHH BABEY!! I love mermaid AUs and I love Subnautica! Real cute!

Chance Encounter - Underfell!Papyrus/Reader - Oneshot

ANOTHER SUBNAUTICA AU :D!! Except it's just UF!Pap this time <33 !!!

Leaving A Mark - Sans/Reader - Oneshot

The twist(?) made me laugh so hard I almost cried. It's VERY cute also.

Nice to Scare You - Various/Reader - Oneshot Series

A fun series of oneshots of the spookier variety! Or more Halloween-y at least. All very good <3

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MISC. / OTHER

The Escort - Lust!Sans/Reader || &Reader - Finished

[Warning: Contains Discussions of Explicit Content.]

No romance! (But lots of kind-of-onscreen fucking.) This fic feels like looking at a bunch of polaroids, seeing a snapshot of existence. Life out of context. And it works SO well. It makes me feel sad and existential and I really love it.

Rubble & Ramparts - (An R&R-Inspired AU Fic) - Various/OC || Various&OC - Ongoing/Unfinished

Not a reader insert, but it's like. An AU of a reader insert so I'm including it here!!! Rubble and Ramparts is of course, inspired by R&R (Rabble & Rampallians), which was on my previous list but is getting linked here again for ease of navigation

ALEXIS my beloved!!!!!!! I am in loooove with the way things are going in this fic. It's so COOL and Alexis is such a freaking DELIGHT. Also I just really love reading all the notes from the Cutting Room floor, which the author has kindly included in a separate fic for your reading pleasure!!

ALSO in writing this I also remembered there is Another Spinoff AU fic which IS a reader insert (that I'm enjoying)...

Perception & Patronage (An R&R Spinoff) - Various/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

Thank the stars I remembered this, it's really fun!! Also judging by the tags there is also plans for. not only Various Sanses/Reader, but also READER/READER, which is such an underrated thing I love it, but I digress. It's a really fun spin on a really fun fic <3

Teen Livin' - Various Skelebros & Reader + Frisk/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished

[Warning: Contains Dark/Heavy Themes]

Cute and sad! Platonic reader insert. The reader is a troubled teen who befriends Frisk, and gets to meet a bunch of skeletal guardians. The skeletons have a familial/friend's cool cousin vibe with the reader, which is really sweet! The fic is currently going through a Halloween Special which I'm enjoying quite a bit (Haunted dolls! Ghosts! Blood!! Still very sad :[...)

Something Good - Fellswap Gold!Papyrus/Reader(?) || /OC(s) - Ongoing/Unfinished

Technically not a reader insert since Coffee is the MC, but I can forgive it because I'm really really invested in this and I really adore the character dynamics so far <3 Coffee striking it out on his own is always a fun thing to explore, and I'm excited to see more!!

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I love writing up these rec lists- it's such a fun way for me to rediscover fics I've enjoyed, thank you for giving me another opportunity to reread some of my favourite fics and more importantly to share them with you! I hope you enjoy them as much as I did :D!!!

I'll probably leave it here for now or else I'll end up rereading fics forever lolol it's already like 3am I gotta sleep SOMETIME

#doozis fic recs #fic recs #fic rec list #others writing #anon #inbox #i did my best to make sure there were no overlaps between this list and my original one but no promises #there are however definitely some overlaps with my uf!pap fic recs lol #ALSO THERE IS *MORE* UF!PAP STUFF IN HERE #because i found more fics that i missed last time :(#if you're like. huh. a lot of these ones are ones that are newly updated youd be correct and thats because my memory is bad #so i gotta rely on email updated to Remember fics i like shdjgjfndnbg #why are there so many fics with Fucked Up Character Dynamics this round...#also a LOT of horrortale-adjacent fics. weird #THE AMOUNT OF DARKER FIC IN HERE IS ASTONISHING but also im not surprised one bit sbfjfbdjf its just. comparing it to my last list.

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emry-stars-art · 11 months

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Regarding the incredible royal AU (THAT I LOVE SO MUCH ALREADY🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡) If that’s okay I would love to hear more about andreil and what happens next? Maybe about them becoming official (like official official- being recognised as a prince and his betrothed/ husband(?)) (I guess it depends if in your AU people officially recognise gay relationships (hopefully they do? :D) and just the overall reactions to that event or maybe like the scene of one of them proposing to the other (I don’t really know about engagements in history, do you need to properly court somebody? Or do you just give them a ring and ask?)

This is getting long and you don’t need to answer or anything but I just wanted to say I absolutely adore the way u draw the characters and their poses and interactions and I always love your additions like headcanons and notes and stuff (it’s honestly thrilling to read I can’t stop I love it so much)🥰🥹❤️❤️❤️ Hope you have a good day!!

Hello!! First thank you so much you’re so kind to come here and say all these things 🥹💕

As for andreil becoming official - I think yes. When I do royal aus I wouldn’t necessarily call the universe/world “queer normative” because the higher in station you go, the more true “straight until proven otherwise” holds - no one frowns on gay relationships and the setting is perfectly accepting, they just kind of… expect their rulers to be straight for bloodline convenience and all that 🤷 and it’s not like Andrew is trying to be subtle either, he keeps his relationships and ‘affairs’ to himself well but once he actually takes a liking to Abram he’s not really trying to hide it (case in point: here). He just lets the rumors about his sexuality spread and hopes he won’t have to make a big deal about coming out.

The really really fun part about universes like this is that we can kind of make up the traditions to be whatever we want! I love love love the idea of courting, I think it’s got great possibilities (and I’m so certain Aaron courting Katelyn was like the floweriest, cutest thing ever omg) so I’d love to make Andrew actually commit to courting Abram 😂 But like in canon where Andrew and Neil (and this is only a widely accepted head canon) don’t make a big deal about a proposal and wedding, probably having a tiny wedding or just going to the courthouse - Prince Andrew doesn’t make it a grand, super special thing like King Aaron and Katelyn wanted to. He picks the parts he likes and makes sure he meets all the basic expected requirements (because I want SO BADLY for Andrew to secretly be a sap, he likes the romantic stuff he just doesn’t like making it public) and then when Abram wants to, they get married and Abram becomes whatever title is next in line after prince. Duke? I don’t remember right now but yeah to avoid confusion/political issues he is not technically also considered a prince.

The people as a general rule love this, people like parties and they like celebration and a wedding is both of those and the prince seems happy so that’s as good as it’s gonna get. No one’s going to be able to say Abram doesn’t make them a tiny bit wary because let’s be real. Abram’s nature before you get to know him can be off putting. But that’s the only real thing anyone would have against their marriage.

ANYWAY. god there’s so many ways it could go, so many little things and fun possibilities to consider when you think about an Abram/Andrew courtship and SINCE WE GET TO MAKE UP THE RULES?? If you guys start putting courtship ideas in the tags and replies I might melt omg 😭🥰 sappy Andrew, Abram picking up on it when he realizes how much Andrew likes it (the only thing he’s actually sappy about is making Andrew blush and making him feel special in ways that aren’t just because of his station), parts they put on for show and the little cute things they do for each other when no one else is there… AUGH

Yeah to answer your question: the people are surprised but cool with a gay prince, they think his fiancé’s a little spooky but whatever, and andreil court at Andrew’s pace and get married when Abram is ready and everyone is happy :D

#THIS ASK WAS SO FUN THANK YOU #i love Andrew thinking ‘please let them assume I’m gay’ whenever he does something else nice for his guard lmao #my writing #royal au #andreil #andrew minyard #neil josten #asks

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trashbins-stuff · 5 months

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Hello. I have seen that you have been tagged by @neobixiscool on one of their posts. I am planning to make a rant post on them. If you can provide some background info and your side of the story, that would be great. If you feel uncomfortable discussing this, that's ok. Have a good day/evening.

rub hands together like flies. my time has come/silly 😋😋

and thank you for coming to me :3 i appreciate it/gen also i get to go all cabby on this hehe

oh and, im not really hurt-hurted by them, i feel like mocha (mochablogger), liam (moonmxple) and mac (blairdrawzstuff) are most affected. They did have a book with my character in it but in a different universe or something (without my consent nor credit btw). Anyway under the cut is my observant. Honestly i think i might have jsut make the rant post for you lmao hrgbnhe 😭😭

the background/before:

mocha was working on a little story and xe said we could be in it! so obviously me and my friends signed up for the fun, not really expecting anything, the story was called "The Traumatized Cup", thats when we first meet him.

In one of the chapter mocha had introduced rubix, at first i didnt really think much about him, i was just aware of his presence, i do notice him and mocha started to become friends and i thought that was great :)

something that you should probably contact cuppy for more info:

so rubix (or according to rubix, "jasp" was roleplaying) and mocha were friends on facebook, and they roleplayed there i think, this i just know but apparently he said crap about liam (mocha's platonic partner and my best friend). Mocha is very sensitive and even in roleplay xe's still uncomfortable with what rubix said

"bezel's" divorce headcanon (and possible influence on further problems):

i heard people talked about it but never knew where it came from, but thne i found out and,,

tdlr; 1st one is about mocha and rubix, i dont know if mocha consent to it. 2nd one is uh a bit weird i i guess like he could have ask facemoji to make another one ;-;. 3rd ah yes the divorce that i had heard about!/vneg

rubix said bezel forced him into making the 1st one, even if thats true, rubix said the divorce was bezel's headcanon but hes the one that decided to post the 3rd one ("okay i asked facemoji again..")

seem kinda sus not gonna lie..but what do i nose right :-)

bezel probably influence more but even after all these months im still not sure if he really did do those things, idk lul, it is pretty weird that bezel's blog was a sideblog though (liam told me)

heres a bunch of words with link attach, those r my opinions lmao:

these u can just click to read so i hope thats okay

on wattpad he have a book in which he painted mocha, hazel and blair as manipulative (admittedly his writing was good, he could have used it for something different though)

he also uses some of our characters (such as mocha cuppy, hazel, blair, harp, blueberry, winter, bin (mine btw), seedling, galaxy journal,...etc) he did the delete that book tho, anyway heres more screenshot proof (credit @moonmxple )

mocha asked liam and neobix said its cringe

i remember this one also

the one where he tried to ban pet name and online dating (in 2023) (check the comment and other reblogs also theres alot, its practically a goldmine/silly)

and can i say he barely knows our friend group? like sure he knows mocha but hes trying to fit into our group (very poorly)

please read what cass wrote in the comment (thanks cass for speaking out about it ily)

the ask i sent him

NOT to get all bitchy here but mocha blocked you therefore you literally dont appear anywhere on xer dash, you're out of xer life and xe had no reason to pester you, not everything has to be about mocha. You guy's relationship (or supposedly lack there of) had change but honestly? thats okay they dont have to like the same people that they liked yesterday. You might think you know that's them but it wasnt, mocha in real life is kinder and better than the version inside of your head and they're happier now and its so sad that you cant see (because you're blocked)

and again, not everything has to be about YOU

he also made it all about HIM like excuse me ???? can i not complain for little bit without you coming in and nag about your problem ??? if you're suffering go talk to someone dont talk to online strangers ??? :)))???????

bro cant even read a long paragraph post like go back to elementary school lmao, also reporting ppl just because they use their right to not forgive you is such a sore loser move, it make you sound like petty six year old (also max be spitting facts tho)

bro brought out HIS right (reporting mocha, which he actually cant do if he doesnt have a valid reason) while ignore MOCHA's right (not forgiving him, which isnt a valid reason for him to report xem). The definition of petty is literally complain way too much about unimportant things that could have and should have ended already

"you dont have to relate to everything you see on the internet, somethings are simply not about you" :)

did you know that to report someone you have to click alot of buttons??

common salad W <3333

oh yeah, this doesnt have links but jasp/neobix is being so casual abt bezel's death but also uses it as a way to make people feel bad for getting upset with what he did

Sorry for playing the dickhead role, but you wouldn't be laughing if you knew how we felt about every single one of you. (why it sound serious all the sudden lol)

why i still doubt (uh and heads up, galaxy brush, kodu, cuppy,..others who think @/rubixisanidi0t was saying the truth, im not saying he isnt but you cant blame me for not trusting can you? please skip this part if you're sensitive):

naw so if this was suppose to be jasp then whats jasp motive lmao :/..he dont gain anything from this + who tell people their secret plan publicly?? + how did jasp know about rubixs hallucination?? rubix please dont tell such personal things to jsut your friends and please just talk to an adult in real life. And jasp, dont let these kind of things on the internet its not safe/srs

this is just straight up weird and also why did neobix/jasp said "old friend" like hes rubix?? when he supposedly told rubix and i quote "yeah.. Soo.... This person named @/mochablogger seemed like some cool person, and when I tried to talk with them... Nothing happened, so when I figured they didn't care... It all happened at once." neobix/jasp and mocha werent even friend to begin with why was he SO obssess over getting mochas forgiveness when they supposedly barely interact much??

aint it a bit weird how this is supposedly jasp/neobix but why would they make this video??? it???doesnt make any sense?? and like were rubix and jasp still good friend??? why wood bezel make jasp of all people do it??? unless yk

HOL UP, WAIT A MINUTE..if rose jelly dated rubix but rubix tunred out to be jasp then..WHO IS ROSE JELLY ACTUALLY DATING??????

if @/neobixiscool is suppose to be jasp then how did he get a screenshot for a show rubix was making???

i translated it and head up. it has death threat in it

you know, if someone stole my account and ruin my reputation i wouldnt be following them and be mutuals with them :)

i appreciate him saying hell save us but like..why would @/neobixiscool linked the real rubix's yt and discord knowing full well that the real rubix was there and could told joiners the truth??? that seem kinda dumb ngl also on the channel you can find a video called "waitng for forgiveness" which @/neobixiscool had talked about. and lets do a bit of timing here, if rubix really was telling the truth and havent been on social media since his alst post on @/rubixcuix (last posted in august) and the divorce arc and the roleplay thing and EVERYTHING had started in september, and if the yt belonged to rubix, then he shouldnt have known that mocha didnt forgive him and make that video????? bc he wasnt suppose to be there since august??? bc if anything he shouldnt be waiting for forgiveness bc if jasp really did steal his tumblr account then its not his fault?? like i find it absoltuely HILARIOUS that the evidence agaisnt what rubix said was on both the account @/neobixiscool AND @/rubixisanidi0t's PINNED post?? and it boggles my mind how no one talks abt this???/lh/nm i mean its quite obvious maybe im jsut really observant though idk

if you got your account stolen and jasp supposedly brought back a wattpad book, i dont think you should be continuing it?? and didnt you said your reported him on wattpad?? on the same account where the book is?? why are you acting like "yes i did promise them this and im fully aware of what happen even though i supposedly havent been here since august and i will continue this book" has it hit you?

uh yeah so these are just my silly little takes, but hey! what do i nose? :-)

#drama #my take on the drama is very fun hehe :) i had fun writing this #anyway thanks for reading my thoughts lul hope you have a great dayyyy <3

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visionsofmagic · 1 year

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Sub heimdall??

submission | heimdall x reader

masterlist | warnings&tags: fluff, nsfw, minors dni!, touching, praising, kissing, cum, licking, biting, sub!heimdall, dom!reader, masturbation, oral > reader!receiving, watching, nude, nicknames/petnames, no use of y/n, no use of pronouns, no proofread. | wc: more than 1k but don't know totally | requested by anon: thanks for requesting! hope you and all other readers will like this one because I had real fun while writing this because I read so many fics starting with sub!character, idol!character, etc. if you have another one plase let me know and I will gladly write more (including other fandoms and characters as well) enjoy! love u and *kisses*

sub!heimdall who enjoys being called pretty boy by you. he likes to be yours in general but when you call him with nicknames because he knows only he is your pretty boy. also, he finds it cute when you use nicknames but with "good boy" one, he loses his mind, especially in certain events such as doing something you want him to do, bringing you love and gifts, and in bed, getting praises from you in which you use "my good boy." and when you moan between these words, he keeps going deep and hard, giving you pleasure at highest.

sub!heimdall who feeling so shy when you watch him masturbate in your shared bed. his eyes finds yours in pure shy, trying to avoid eye contact mostly in order to hide his delicate side but he most likely to make you want to watch him like this; naked, covered in redness, glowing purple eyes, a hand on his hardened cock touching his obdomen, other hand on bed to find a source of stability because he is weak at that moment - a weak moment he chooses to have.

at these moments, your eyes travel on everyone - every part of his body shamelessly contrary to heimdall's shyness. you even put a smile or a smirk on your face, not touching yourself firstly, just watching his hand move around his cock, then up and down, eyes glowing so purple that they can light all the room in total darkness. you let him giving himself pleasure with the way he is comfortable with.

you stare at him with sharp eyes from start to finish, sometimes choosing touch yourself when heimdall reaches his climax. then, with the help of his mind and intention reading ability, he sees how you want to lick his semen covered fingers, then kiss him and he only nods with a great redness on his cheeks that becomes more visible each second. you just smile in happiness and lust, reaching for his fingers, licking them while showing your tongue to him, eyes directed on his, challenging him to look right into yours. then you kiss him passionately and heimdall moans - he literally moans because of both tasting you and himself at the same time and being dominanted by you.

sub!heimdall who can kneel on his knees at every moment. he can kneel between your thighs as long as possible 'till your juicy flows into his mouth, tasting you so much that it blows his mind because you taste so good on his hot tongue and perfect face. he even watchs how you throw your head back, moaning his name, mouth agape, tears running from your watery eyes and pinkness on the lips due to biting and licking. he is patient - always, so he waits for you to come to your senses and praise him like he deserves as you believe because he does good job giving you the pleasure no one can. he reads your mind during every intimate moments but he prefers hearing you aloud. and you give him that by saying lots of things, expressing how a good and pretty boy he is for you, how he is so good and you want him, you want him everywhere. he spends no time to get into the bed as you wish.

sub!heimdall who literally cries and begs for cum while fucking. he needs your approval, he knows it and he doesn't hesitate to cry - the lord of the asgard cries for cumming, yes, and he has no shame for it. the way he looks at you, the way his pretty mouth opens for more moans and growls mixed with begging, the way how you have him like this - it all combines together and make you nod, giving him permission to cum - you let him cum on wherever he wants as a thanks to him.

sub!heimdall who takes care of you in every situation. heimdall loves to be beside you even though you are doing totally different thing rather than spending time with him such as picking up vegetables for the dinner, developing fighting skills and reading a book. he tries to create more and more free time to be beside you, listening your teases about him being like a cute little thing follows every step of yours and he smiles, nodding. he doesn't mind.

sub!heimdall who let you tie him down with a rope around his wrists, putting them on head of the bed, sitting on his cock and watching you bounce, going up and down on him. his comprehension skills doesn't work at that times, losing the track of time, day and place. only worshipping you, he being a good boy 'till you cum for asking same from you. however, he also wants you to cum more than one time as he waits for his turn in patient - he is patient only for you though. he can't stand people but you - oh you are the only one for him. you are the person who can make him surrender gladly, letting you destroy him because in the destruction, he finds himself and the love he has for you.

"heimdall, oh yes!" you moaned, eyes close shut, mouth open, taking all what heimdall gives you as his glowing eyes travels on your tears and sweats covered face like he definitely knows what he is doing between your legs - oh he definitely knows it, you thought, letting him lick you deeper while your right hand position on his golden hair, pulling it with a pure instinct just to have a feeling of being stable.

he growls because of the action, sending vibration into your core, making you praise him more, "oh, what a good boy you are for me." your voice reflect how turned you on and how he makes you so high like you drink hundred potion who makes people lose their mind. "hei - yes, yes!" you say when he adds his fingers, going in and out of your pussy faster than his tongue but has same affect. "you are the most precious thing alive - for me -" you look at him with half open eyes, "only for me." you add and when he approves with a little nod, you smile. you always find it amusing how it is easy to be bossy around heimdall - someone who is feared by all realms.

"isn't it ironic?" you ask, "you make everyone kneel but look at you now, kneeling down on your knees only for me." you say while caressing his cheek as he puts kisses on your inner thighs, listening you carefully. he always be good for you in every situation - way.

smiling wider, you let him taking his time on kissing you 'till he goes back for licking, kissing and tasting your pussy after saying, "I will do anything for you."

"I know." you close your eyes again at the return of lust feeling. "you are such a good boy. my good boy."

💌

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quietblueriver · 17 days

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15 questions for 15 friends

Tagged by @gingerniiiija. Thanks, friend! This was super fun.

Were you named after anyone? I was. In good Southern (US) fashion, I have a double name that incorporates my grandmother's maiden name, which was also my mom's middle name and is now one of my niece's names.

When was the last time you cried? Today. I took one of my dogs to board at the same time that a pup was coming for their last vet visit and watching him surrounded by his crying family while an instrumental version of a Brandi Carlile song played over the vet speakers broke me. Managed to keep it together until I got to the car. Before that, Thursday during Critical Role.

Do you have kids? I do not. I do have wonderful nieces, and being their aunt is one of the best things in my life.

What sports have you played/do you play? I played church basketball and soccer when I was little. As an adult, I've played rugby but I tend toward activities like running, yoga, swimming, and hiking/wandering with my dogs.

Do you use sarcasm? Yes, in a dry humor way. My entire family is dry as hell, so it's a big part of my sense of humor, although I rein it in with strangers so as not to be a tool. I'm typically called a golden retriever gay, but one of the highest compliments I have ever received was one of my oldest friends telling me that Sister Michael from Derry Girls reminded her of me.

First thing you notice about people? I genuinely don't think I have a pattern here. Voice, maybe? Or smile? I do often appreciate and take note of people's style as well, especially shoes.

What is your eye color? Green

Scary movies or happy endings? Whichever has the better queer storyline

Any talents? I come in clutch in the following trivia categories: pop culture (non-reality tv); 90s country music/modern women of country; name that song; US history and politics and/or law; and queer things. Per my nieces, I am very good at the "funny faces" feature on FaceTime, a solid water slide escort, and an acceptable makeshift jungle gym. I have been told that I'm an excellent driver; I enjoy driving and have driven both a passenger van and a U-Haul up most of the East Coast of the US.

Where were you born? A military base in the United States.

What are your hobbies? I love writing, feeding/spending easy time with friends, reading (preference for fiction, poetry, and comics, although I do love some philosophy and theory as well), exploring good food and new places (solo or with friends, my own city or others), live music and theater, playing board games and Switch, watching tv and movies (my oldest niece and I see a movie every time I visit them in person and it brings me great joy), and being silly with my nieces. I'm a lawyer and a law nerd, so I also spend time following SCOTUS and listening to legal/political podcasts.

Do you have any pets? Two dogs, Annie and Buffy, a big doofy retriever mix and a tiny poodle-ish terror respectively.

How tall are you? 5' 8"

Favorite subject in school? Growing up, English/Lit, closely followed by History. At university, I majored in History and Gender & Sexuality Studies.

Dream Job? Obligatory note that I do not dream of labor. But I'm actually currently working on a career shift, so I'm giving this a lot of thought. I'd love to be a writer, journalist, professor, or preacher (last one is more complicated, for probably obvious reasons).

Would love to see answers from anyone who wants to do this! Tagging @korralone, @kasadilla11, @antlereed, and @overnighttosunflowers. Pls forgive me/disregard if you hate this, ha.

#river writes #about me

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mickmundy · 9 months

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i am now hooked on bushmedicine bc of your fics, would u happen to have fic/blog recs? 👀

OH MY GOSH EEE THANK YOU SO MUCH MY FRIEND ;__; I'M SO HAPPY YOU'RE ENJOYING MY SERIES!!!! ;u; as for recs.. ohoho... yes... i do.., fortunately i have amazing talented friends whose work i admire and adore!!! just going to say that this list is by no means exhaustive or complete and is being done completely off of the top of my head, so PLEASE don't feel bad if i leave anyone out!! ;__; <333

also i'm really not super active on here so i mostly know twt accounts but i'll do my best! i'll firstly advise you to just look through my bushmed tag on my blog. lots of great folks in there!! ^v^ so much talent!! aoguaougaaa!!! and to my friends who have supported me with my own fics thank you so much ;;; i owe u all everythign!! <333 going to stick this under a cut since it's kind of lengthy!!

for fic recs, i actually don't have a lot of time to read many, sadly!! ;_; BUT i'll gladly point you in the direction of some of my besties' fics that i have read and absolutely adore!!:

see that my grave is kept clean by @fairyouth.... my favorite. john is a freaking MASTER of writing them and i love his big huge creative mind!!

heatstroke by @eurovamp... kat is so talented!! i LOVE her interpretation and they have so many fun au's!! i haven't gotten a chance to read it but she also wrote a bushmed naga fic that they've been talking to me about and AAHHH IM SO EXCITED TO READ!!

as for fanart, i'll also use this as a chance to promote my lovely talented friends!! i don't speak for them of course but i believe some of them (myself included) might be more active on twitter, i'm not sure! :( but i'll rec them here regardless hehehe!! some accts are ns/fw too so just a heads up!

@lovey2dovey2 YESSS FELLOW MEDSNIP LESBIAN!!! HEHEHE!! she's SO talented and kind, and all of her interpretations are SO fun and creative!! absolutely adore her art style!!

@5piecechickendinner / @5piececockdinner DEEEEEE absolutely stunning pieces, great moody art and a joy to talk to!! a blast to talk headcanons with too!!

@rabidratbaby -> twitter acct! amazing pieces, conveys such tenderness and sweetness in their art, both nsfw and sfw!! super chill and immaculate vibes in general!!

@radioactive-gremlin -> support her on patreon! char's got it all... lighthearted silliness and super sexy comics!! a total delight to follow and befriend!

@lubby-beez LUB!! so sweet to know, and the queen of saucy medic art!! amazing coloring and body type representation and super fun ocs!!

@poisonedflame if you follow me on here you've probably seen me reblog ren's amazing sfms quite a few times hehe... so kind and talented, huge-brained and a wonderful friend!!

@skymacaroon fantastic art and super fun to talk to, absolutely love how he draws medic and sniper!!

@oldkamelle one of the accounts that warmly welcomed me to tumblr.. ;u; very kind and so great to talk to, totally wonderful artistic talent!!!

as for folks who i am not very close to but whose works i still adore and cherish and scream so normally and lovingly any time i see them on my tl and who i want to still give some spotlight to! i hope it's okay that i'm tagging you in this! ;-;

@goo-p absolutely no notes... ellís's style yields so much range for whimsy And more somber/serious pieces... absolutely stunning!! a joy to work with creatively and to speak with!!

@hootsimedes such cute style and so many amazing creative ideas!! and so kind!! ^u^

@halfhihat SUUCH a cute style!! absolutely love the cute little comics he draws!!

#asks #anonymous #dutchfoolery #medsnip

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awesamforehead · 6 months

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Tag at least six people (can be more than six if you want), and say at least one nice thing about or to each of them. Can be mutuals, can be people you follow, can be people you don’t know but just happen to exist in the same circle(s) with. All you gotta do is tag them and say something nice about/to them :)

Thank you @mahikamihan (the nicest and sweetest person here) for the tag! Ignore that its been a few days shhhh I was actually thinking of doing this on my priv but then this showed up so perfect opportunity :D Its a big one so everyone will be under a read more so Im not clogging the dash

@gogtopia Jules, you were the first person I followed when I was revamping my blog last year, the first person that came to mind on who I knew was safe post October. Although this was long ago, I really enjoyed the discussions we had about lore and such on discord that was a fun time. And now you're on the path of getting my into The Yard more too lol

@i-anonymous-crow Crow crow crow crow. You were the first (literally the first) people to follow me and it was all because I was crying over the Las Nevadas gift for ckarlnapity. And since then we've cried some more together. And now we're here, thank you for giving me a chance

@foolishfreckles Moss my beloved. Actually one of the chillest people I know and a really great clipper. Another person who has been here since pretty much the beginning (like when I had 20 followers) and one of my biggest supporters. If you arent already following Moss what are you doing. I also love the Foolish screenies you try to get every stream

@traidyy LUCKY!!!!!!! :D SWEETEST PERSON AND GREAT ARTIST THEIR ART IS SO CUTE. also a karl fan so thats 1000 more attractive points. But actually one of my favorite people here, wuv u Lucky <3 the dog to my cat

@sapybara INY!! Somehow you are the most rational but also the most chaos inducing person here and I love you for that. Whenever dash is all fucky and im beginning to spiral, your post are usually the ones who help pull me back up. Also your sapybara pfp is the cutest thing ever.

@vadergf REY REY! The would be drolo of my heart and the realest person when it comes to the green man. Your anons are hilarious and your art is so cute, no matter what you might say. Also thank you for supporting me like with the dteam hourly account i really appreciate it

@simplepotatofarmer Loyal! :D this is a thank you for always wanting and trying to make the fandom a better place. So many people give you the worst shit and yet you try to give second chances and show kindness. Thats something very rare to find nowadays. I love your aus like the rabbit and black dog au, and your chicken posts are some of my favorite things (all hail dream (chicken) )

@toxicsapolo Hi Salty! The og sapolo, the one who paved the way. Even though I have no idea what you and Adora are talking about with the F1 fandom, Ive admired how passionate you are when it comes to your interests. Sapnap, fashion, cooking, your boyfriend.

@tinynap JO!!! Your liveblogs never fail to make me laugh, even if half of them give you a tummy ache. I also want to say im proud of you trying your best at college, even at your roughest nights. You're gonna do great, kid

@dralbum NIICCCKKK!!! Ok not only is your art gorgeous and gives the softest feeling, you are also one of the funniest motherfuckers here. I enjoy our time on privtwt where we ask to eat each others food lmao

@faehrys ARIA MY ARIA!!! Not only an awesome editor, but also an awesome person. I appreciated how you tried to keep a positive space during the rough time, but also knowing when to stand your ground. And as always, karl enjoyer so extra cool points :>

@negativepeanuthoarder PEANUT!!! A true squirrel in which they stick around and make a home in your heart. You are always the loudest supporter in my writing and I really appreciate that, especially on the harder days

@knffuckraw ACE!!! Another funny person here and also representing the inner haikyuu fans (along with Iny). You have the greatest comebacks for anons and the funniest tags. love you ace <3

@dreamnotnapss First, a thank you for your services they’re greatly appreciated and you be missed by many. Second, a thank you for supporting everyone you could within our circle and even beyond. We’ll remember you fondly

@selvish HI TENDER!! we interact much more on twitter lol but youre one of my favorite people, big karl enjoyer and created some of my favorite fics like Y&OY, Rules, Favorite Place, and when we’re older 💜

@secretkoalasandwich EMMI MY BELOVED. ok tbh when we first started following each other I was so nervous cause you had a Wil pfp but now youre one of my favorite people lol. My brethren of punzblr, always ready to simp with me. Also an amazing artist with the most amazing blending skills youve ever seen youre telling me this is a painting??? anyways 10/10 spectacular amazing wow

@canonicallykayfabe EACHTRA!! Some of the most beautiful art here, both in a more cartoony style and one that holds slight realism. The color choices are fantastic as well. Along with that, you have some really thought provoking posts that I really appreciate like the banter discussion post awhile ago.

@sapnapstummy BLAZE THE KINDEST PERSON HERE 100%. legit i dont think ive ever seen you post a neg post about anything thats impressive. also i want to say i love how youll go back to either dreamtummy or sapnaptummy, so iconic and so true.

@dnapsnfsapnap PIGEON!! We’re semi newish mutuals but I’ll always welcome new sapnap fans into my life. On par with Salty, Jo, and Blaze, you fit right in with the sapolo ideology and i think thats amazing. You can always get the cutest screenies of Sapnap and I love your frog posts as well ^-^

@snfbabydrop Ive said this multiple times but thank you for your work on dreamnotnapss. The safe haven for multishippers in our corner. Aside from that, you are one of the nicest people Ive met here, never let your sunshine get blocked out

Also shoutout to my awesome mutuals who I dont talk to often but still love ��

#drops this at your feet and runs #im posting this late in the night so people have something nice to wake up to ^-^#yeah idk how to tag this hi

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shitouttabuck · 6 months

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20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @thewolvesof1998 thank u bud i’m procrastinating packing and this was fun

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

seven!

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

129,484 which is a fake number to me

3. what fandoms do you write for?

nothing has made me as insane in my life as network television procedural drama 911 on abc, so

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

you can start a family who will always show you love

let the world have its way with you

my hearts over-pumping and your mouth is an ambulance

like a dog with a bird at your door

i like the summer rain (i like the sounds you make)

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try very hard to because they make me so happy and it’s unbelievably kind of people to take the time to leave them!!! However i sometimes leave it too long and then worry it’s weird to reply after like. a month. which as a fic reader i wouldn’t give a shit about so idk what my problem is!!!! i will reply i will just maybe take a hot sec to do it

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i don’t have any i’m a happily ever after or bust kinda guy in my own head if nowhere else…… angstiest is probably the sound of love astounds me if only because it ends post-feelings realisation but still pre-relationship

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they’re all so happy omg. i will say with great personal bias it’s my heart’s over-pumping but also i have. a sequel in the works….

8. do you get hate on fics?

no people have been very very very lovely but also sjjsjsjs i’ve not been here super long. the funniest comment i’ve gotten was on my first fic where someone was like i liked this but it is jarringly inaccurate as mcdonald’s in california doesn’t have a veggie burger option 😭 i cried laughing im so sorry to u americans. pls petition your local mcdonald’s to stock the mcplant it slaps

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

have written two e-rated fics….. it’s very fun but i don’t think i’m very good so i’d like to practice actually (maybe some sexy prompts after i finish the bed-sharing ones?) just the regular kind for now like i love buck and eddie desperately and am myself into a million things but i don’t know how kinky they would actually get in my own head. so just a little gross with it for now i guess

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

nope!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no that would be SICK. @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove is podficcing bucket list fic which is so very cool of her!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

no omg i don’t know how y’all do it i’m bad at group projects but also this sounds soooooo fun. if also deeply stressful

14. what’s your all time favorite ship?

if that’s synonymous with most likely to get you institutionalised, uh. gestures around us. otherwise mulder/scully and i am just now right as i’m typing this realising i’ve never ever in my life actually read x files fic what the fuck. also steve/bucky but i haven’t read fic since 2017 probably

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

listen i have not written a word for x files au past that one snip i shared forever ago. i want to soooo bad i’ve talked about it to some of you very rabidly but. it does not want to be written and if it did it would have to be so fucking long which is very daunting to me. not saying i’ve put her in the ground yet but. we might need some necromancing

16. what are your writing strengths?

i think i’m pretty good at writing in character? mostly? sometimes i struggle with buck just because i think we’re very similar and i project a little and then have to go back and fix it lmao but for the most part i think i’m good at that! and i have a lot of fun writing dialogue

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

plot!!!!!! and pacing!!!!!!!!!!! also my inability to write non-linearly omg if i get stuck i just get Stuck i can’t jump ahead

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

oooh i love it and would love to include more than the teeniest bits i have but i’m so conscious about it sounding natural and not stiff to people whose language it actually is (shout out and a million kisses to @eddiebabygirldiaz for fixing the spanish in i love you like a dog!!!!!)

19. first fandom you wrote for?

911 babey!

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

my heart’s over-pumping and your mouth is an ambulance !!! not just because it was the first fic i posted after joining tumblr fandom but. idk it is so so so special to me like it makes me so happy and when i think about it i’m like. hey u wrote that. good for u my dude. and also maybe i just associate it with meeting a bunch of you whjsjssjsj

tagging @callaplums @eddiebabygirldiaz @housewifebuck @rewritetheending @try-set-me-on-fire @onward--upward @anxieteandbiscuits @devirnis @athenagranted if anyone wants to do this i’m nosy soz if you already have !!!!

#tag game #if you see me posting later today. send me hate mail i need to pack

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hey, ik u aren’t like a huge creek person but do u have any like a03 one shot recommendations, or know anyone who might?? i’ve read all of urs already and loved them!! 💞😍

First of all THANK U I’m so glad you like my stuff!!! And I do love me some creek so I’ve definitely read quite a bit of them, just not as much recently, but I can for sure rec some oneshots!

*Final GEH! Boy! by Katakombae such a fun read and Tweek is a slay in it, classic main4 shenanigans too!

*To All The Demons Under My Bed by LWTIS dude when I say this is one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE CREEK FICS!!! Oh my god it’s hysterical Craig is an absolute ICON my NONCHALANT KING!!! I cannot rec this one enough!!!

*we can’t just stay in bed all day, man! by ihearttweek. Ok this one is smutty but it’s fun lmao

*The Pet Theory by wildgeese_badideas literally SO fucking cute just classic creek fluff

*Youre probably wondering how Thomas Tucker got in this situation by ScarlettDragonwolf345 absolutely ICONIC!!!! I’m not usually one for fics centered around the parents but this is a slay

*Would You Kick Me In The Face Please? by rekimetal ok this is a two shot but it’s short and GREAT!!! Gotta love Crog being bad at feelings and it’s so fun

*The Show Goes On by duskmote FAIR WARNING THIS IS SMUTTY!!! Like it’s been a sec since I read it but uhhhhh it’s well written though I remember that much!

*why does tweek call you babygirl? by yurie_havi this one is HILARIOUS oh my lord

*Gas Station Soup by UAs_Fics THIS IS ADORABLE! Superhero au, sickfic, fluff, I loved this one

*Nothing In This World by EnmityRedity some more superhero au and bruh deadass all their superhero creek SLAPS (I do be lovin a good injury aftermath) and TFBW creek will never not slay!

*cariño by rudetoast CRAIG SPEAKING SPANISH ohhhh my god this is cute they’re so silly andhfgsjsk

*Routines by UrbanNightingale CREEK FLUFF CREEK FLUFF

Ok anon I know you were mainly asking for oneshot recs BUT!!!! If you’re up for some longer creek-centric fics I GOT SOME FOR YA!!!

*This House Of Mine by OrcaTimes LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE SOUTH PARK FICS EVER!!! I mean EVER!!! I will never stop recommending this one and NO ONE does Craig like this author I am NOT kidding!!! Like seriously one of the best crogs out there in my opinion and that’s saying something bc I am a certified Craig Enjoyer the PLOT!!! The CHARACTERS!!! The side relationships!!! Tweek coming into Craig’s world of gang activity via chance meeting and AAAAAA!!! I’m so serious dude this is easily one of the best fics I’ve ever read and I know I’ve reced it before but BRUH!!!

*Ladies and Gentleman We Are Floating in Space by gremlinteeth I’m sure every creek shipper out there has read this one, and it’s a classic FOR GOOD REASON!!! Like rip your heart out incredible this shit makes me sob every time (as a Stan Enthusiast, FUCK I love his characterization in this) CRAIG AND TWEEK ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!! CRAIG IN GENERAL HERE!!!

*Oh My God, They Were Cellmates by Absolute_Trash_Fire aight I read this one a good while ago but I definitely remember it being INCREDIBLE! Prison au but super slay and surprisingly sweet! Tweek centric, heed the tags if you check it out tho!

*Shoelaces by fruitloopzed I read this one a few days ago and IT GOES ASTRONOMICALLY HARD another Tweek centric one, some mystery surrounding Craig at first, the homies in an anger management group, etc

I think that’s all I got rn but THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK I LOVE RECOMMENDING FICS!!! Feel free to ask any time I am ANNOYING and LOVE TO BE OBNOXIOUS!!! <3

#south park #asks #fic recs #creek #creek slay #craig tucker #tweek tweak #I’m the ao3 rec dealer at this point

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shurisneakers · 2 years

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bridges break (v)

summary: steve shuts himself away. you pull him along on a trip of a lifetime in an attempt to reconnect. great plan! except there’s one big secret he’s keeping from you that could change the course of your entire relationship, and there’s no greasy stack of diner pancakes in the country big enough to hide behind.

(road trip!au, best friends to lovers)

Warnings: angst, mental health issues and disorientation, ptsd, swearing, mentions of death. lemme know if i missed anything and I’ll tag it.

A/N: hello everyone !! i have been going through a bit of a depresh which is why i haven't responded or updated but i shall forge through. this godforsaken series demands to be seen. thank you for your kindness on this fic. i want to throw up u are all so nice

Previous Part || Series Masterlist

Tip #77: Stay away from landscape fabric!

Steve lets his eyes scour over the words, and then again.

He glances down at the picture and stares at it for a little over ten seconds before his eyes go back up to re-read the words.

He reads them again, and then again.

Leaves shake gently, like they're chastising him. He'd already spent ten minutes on Tip #43 of Gardening: 4427 Brilliant Tips & Ideas thinking of nothing, and now Tip #77 about the state of the world and his noticeable absence in it.

There's a tension in the air, a lingering awkwardness.

Your fingers nimbly card through another page of your book. A breeze blows and a soft exhale escapes past your lips.

Tip #77: Stay away from landscape fabric!

Steve tries his hand at it again and once it finally registers, the picture makes sense.

It'll stick around in his head for as long as he can remember, with the other 76 tips and a million other details he'd never cross again. It helps most times. HYDRA bases were easier to track down after a single glance at a map, but he also spent 5 excruciating minutes remembering what it felt like for the Arctic ice to crystallise his blood when Bucky stuck his cold metal arm down his shirt for fun.

A curse to remember.

Steve clenches his eyes shut tightly.

He shouldn't feel that way about his abilities. Shouldn't be ungrateful for what he was given. He forces himself to remember that he’s long moved on, spent so long quelling the simmering anger in him. But it nags at the back of his head that it's purely sinful to do so many things he does, think all the things he does. He does it anyway. Whose God would spare another second to damn him when there was already a place for him in hell?

Grass pokes out from under the blanket you've spread. It's soft and prickly and the moisture seeps through the fabric. The tree you're under overlooks a lovely part of the park, nothing in the distance for as far as he can see other than more trees over the valley.

His skin on his ankles itches from the burn of the sun, and so he readjusts.

Sitting on the ramp of the quinjet, looking onto rolling hills with Sam was, in spirit, similar. The platform was cold and hard and ridged, and Sam's laugh is still luminous as ever. The moon curtained by clouds is captured so neatly in their eyes; spending the night here in the jet they managed to finally break doesn't seem so bad.

Tomorrow was another day, another border to cross and other bodies to chase but for now, Sam's talking about the cartwheel that landed him and Sarah in the emergency room, and Nat's joining them the next day, unfortunately missing the story of a lifetime.

He wondered what colour her hair would be then. It changes like the wind.

He likes it.

Steve's back tenses on instinct, even though there is nothing to protect himself from. The tree is good support and there's a throw pillow separating him from the ground. Still, his muscles have a faint ache in them, the same as the morning after the sun rose over the hills and through the entrance of the quinjet left opened a crack.

A curse to remember.

"What’s wrong?" you ask quietly.

He snaps out of it, shaking his head and straightening up. “Nothing. Just zoned out for a second.”

"Flashback?"

Steve pauses. "No. Didn’t get much sleep."

You’ve turned away, and so he misses the scrunch between your eyebrows.

Tip #78: Herbs? Don't Mint If I Do!

He looks down at the picture. Looks back up at the words. Mint.

"I'm sorry."

Your eyes flit towards him and quite possibly the umpteenth apology he had given in the last twenty-four hours.

"I know," you reply slowly.

"How do I make it up to you?" he asks again.

You don't reply.

Steve wonders when the last time was when he read a book that had pictures and still registered nothing.

You turn another page, but this time the novel lowers. You close it, using your finger as a makeshift bookmark to hold your place.

Steve hopes for a hum or a song, but none follows as you stare out blankly into the open.

He's about to ask if you're okay, if something's wrong even though he has a feeling that something definitely is when you shift forward.

Away from him.

Steve doesn't dare to look from the corner of his page, careful not to give too much away, but his stomach drops heavily.

Until he feels a certain pressure and your head shifts to lie on his lap. Not facing him, but still there. Not away from him.

His hand twitches, hovers even, for a few seconds before his fingers stroke over your head.

You let out a small sigh. Steve continues, waiting for any inclination on your end for him to stop. It never comes.

And while he sees you open your novel again, he can hear you thumbing the pendant that hangs from your neck. He thought you would have taken it off by now, thrown it, incinerated it. But he can hear the minuscule clink of metal against the chain and it's a sign that maybe, things aren't as hopeless as he thinks.

There is silence and the sky breezes by. The moisture seeps through the blanket. Your head rests on his lap.

He picks up his magazine again.

Tip #79: Fallen leaves: Mulch Ado About Nothing!

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The wind whips around the car. His elbow leans out, other hand on the steering wheel.

The radio jockey talks, laughs obnoxiously at a corny pun his co-host cracks. Steve had met them before; they hosted the celebrations at Arlington several years ago for Memorial Day.

They were half decent, if a little talkative, but he didn't mind.

It served well to distract him. After all, Arlington was where Steve was buried.

A corny reference to a Don McLean line about him, and a proposal to have him pick the songs to kick the next morning's show off, and Steve almost stops looking in the direction where he was informed Bucky's empty casket was lowered into the ground way back then.

That day, Steve was in a bombed-out bar in London. The skies that bled as he tried to drink himself to oblivion, were now bright blue overhead. It was a rush to get rid of the bile that rose to his throat as his oldest friend's tombstone flashed through his mind.

The stone was long gone, of course. After Steve's rebirth and Bucky's return, empty coffins were removed. Not to make way, but just out of respect.

Freshly dug up earth, though. Freshly dug up earth had a scent of its own.

Unfortunately, he'd buried the ghosts of friends who never made it back after a battle far too many times. And after the last time it happened, he isn't quite sure he'd be able to go to a cemetery again.

Not when he knows her body is somewhere on a planet he couldn't reach. Not when he knows that unlike Bucky or him, she isn't getting a second chance.

“Your side of it,” she responds. "I could read about the battle anywhere. What I’m interested in is your side, how you’re dealing with it.”

Steve wants to smile, bitterly almost, at the fact that she only knows what they wanted everyone to know. But he couldn’t tell her that either.

"I deal with it just fine, I think," he says distantly.

"What do you mean by just fine?"

If this was what one on one therapy was like, it's a wonder why he doesn't care for it much.

"Well--" he blinks-- "I'm here, aren't I?"

She stares at him a little while longer. Steve glances at the clock.

"Are you happy?"

It takes him a second to realise the hosts aren't speaking because you've changed the channel to something far less grating. How far he's gotten since he spaced out, he has no idea. He's only glad it's a straight road for the next few miles.

"How much longer till the motel?" he asks, keeping his eyes trained ahead.

"A fair bit," you answer, looking at the navigation you had open on the phone. "You want to stop for a while?"

"No, just checking," Steve says. "I'm good."

You nod silently, lending your attention to the world outside the window again.

"I hope it doesn't rain."

If anything, it makes his eyebrows raise slightly when you continue to talk. He finds himself not caring if it’s about the weather, the stupid advertisement running on the radio right now, or even the fucking space titan. As long as you were talking to him, you could speak about any damn thing in the world.

"Don't think it will." He cranes his neck to get a better look at the sky.

It wasn't the bright blue it had been that morning, but it wasn't entirely overcast.

"Better not. We got a landmark coming up that I've been dyin' to get to," you mumble.

"What is it?"

"You'll see."

"Is it a world's largest something?" Steve asks, dry tease optimistic in his tone but still cautious. "World's largest mothball? Stroller?"

"Patience is a virtue, Cap'n." You tsk to yourself. "You'll see it when we get there."

Steve catches a bit of your sight, turning just as a faded smile grows on your face.

"But if you're tired, we can just crash for the rest of the day."

"Can't bail on me now, you got me all excited for your mystery landmark."

There's a small scoff that leaves you, half a laugh. "Whatever you want, Rogers."

He keeps driving. Even as the noon slips into the humidity-gifted heat of a late afternoon and he wipes a bead of sweat from his forehead. The radio plays indie rock and summer feels like it stretches on for eternity.

______

“Jesus.”

“You know-" you squint- “I don’t think Jesus was nineteen feet tall."

Steve is inclined to agree.

"Or that he held a hotdog like a child.”

That even more so.

"Woulda made church a lot more interesting," he says wryly.

The Paul Bunyon statue--deliberately misspelt to avoid a legal charge-- stands proudly and, dare he admit it, rather dauntingly. Michelangelo’s David could only dream of achieving the level of artistry this enterprise possessed.

It was a cultural landmark, a must-see on this trip according to several websites. Though Steve initially couldn’t see why… he kind of could.

He has his hands on his waist as he looks up. “Well, we can cross it off the list.”

A bird caws from overhead, and a car drives down the street. Unlike the both of you, it only slows to capture a picture before carrying on its way.

“Guess we can.” You bring your palm shielding your eyes from the rays of the sun.

The longer he looks at it, the more it begins to morph into something beautiful. Ugly, but beautiful, in its own amusing, absurd way.

It's ugly.

It's there.

“You want a picture?” Steve finds it hard to stop staring at the stupid smile smirk the strong-jawed man had like he was proud of his wiener infant.

“Hell yeah.”

_______

Steve glances at you through the rearview mirror. He only catches a glimpse of your forehead, the rest of you hunched over your phone.

It drags through his chest again; the same, scraping rawness that had him opening his mouth before he could stop himself.

"If you're gonna apologise again, Steve, I swear--"

He shuts his mouth, lips pressing into a thin line before he compounds another topic.

A bead of sweat rolls down your skin, and he turns up the AC.

The beat of silence rests nicely between you both before he asks,

"So these weird things-- giant shoes, and whales and whatnot-- they're the whole niche for this trip?"

You look up from trying to connect your phone to the car Bluetooth, an attempt that had been fruitless the last few times you'd tried.

"Yeah. People've made whole careers out of it." You fumble with a dial. "It's got a real dedicated fanbase."

Small talk was good. Just surface conversations but he was thrilled by every second.

"Have you ever road tripped before?"

Steve keeps his attention on the road. He's come to see that some of them tended to run off into gravel, dead ends or simply dirt tracks. The signs weren't always right, and the maps you vehemently defended were also outdated on several occasions.

"Does running from law enforcement count?" he asks in return.

You narrow your eyes at him. "Were you listening to good music while it was happening?"

"Sometimes," he says. "Other times it was Sam’s rendition of Inner City Blues for 3 hours."

"Then it's a road trip," you decide. "Bless Sam, he knew exactly what he was doing."

"Yeah, singing into the comms in the middle of a stake out."

"It's called having fun."

Steve doesn't disagree, but he doesn't agree either.

"You've been on a road trip before?"

"One or two," you say. "Whenever my parents had time off work and my mom managed to convince my dad."

“Were they fun?”

There’s a slow down in your movement that he barely catches.

“As much as they could be, I guess. It was fun when they’d remember we were on vacation together. Otherwise, they’d spend a lot of time just talking to each other about their own world so it was easy to forget I was there,” you reply thoughtfully. “I didn’t really have anyone to talk to, so it was kinda quiet most times.”

His grip against the steering wheel tightens, the skin on his knuckles pulsating against the pressure.

“You haven't gone since then?”

"No, my friends-- I think a few of my friends planned one a couple of years ago? We were supposed to, at least, a few of us."

"Did you ever go?" He glances at you.

"Nah," you say, short. "I wasn’t in the best place in college and by the time I got okay again, people moved on. We didn't get the chance. But I know it would have been fun, they were great."

Steve watches another dilapidated sign whiz by.

You get back to whatever buttons you were clicking, wholly ignoring the instruction manual that came with the vehicle.

"After the Battle of New York, I got a bike," Steve pipes up. "Told myself I was gonna go check out the country and everything that had changed."

You pause, finger hovering over the power button on the radio. "Did you?"

"Not really," he confesses. "Got to check out Brooklyn, but after that Fury recruited me and I was back in training for SHIELD."

"Oh.”

"I've seen some parts of the country when I was on the run," he offers. "Most of our time we spent abroad 'cause it was harder for the government to track, and there were more HYDRA bases in other parts of the world."

"Didn't you also go after the Snap?" You poke at something on the display.

He opens his mouth to reply, only for you to cut him off with a jump when the car is flooded with loud, ear-splitting conversation. The hair on his skin goes upright in an instant, breath shortening and world shifting into slow motion.

You swiftly turn down the dial to restore the peace, murmuring in quiet annoyance to yourself the entire time.

"Fuck me," you curse lightly, "I'm sorry, you were saying?"

"That was also, uh-" he forces himself to recentre "-mission-related."

"Oh, right, yeah." You facepalm lightly. "Forgot you were back only for the last two years."

He doesn't blame you. Steve had spent the first three years in and out of the state, the country-- almost the planet at times. He could count on his hand the number of times he'd snuck away to see you in between his erratic schedule.

It'd gotten easier once he finally chose to stay back in New York, but by then it wasn't his circumstances that forced him to keep away from others, but his quiet choice to stay inside a lot more.

"So I guess I'd say this is my first real road trip," Steve says.

"No pressure at all," you mutter. "Just a whole lot of empty land and tiny windmill restaurants."

He looks at you. "I think they're nice."

"You'd say that even if you didn't think so." The corner of your lips upturn.

He thinks that he probably would, but most likely not if it were anyone else.

"Fuc- finally." You sigh loudly, dropping your hand and settling back into your seat and grabbing your phone. "Any suggestions?"

Steve shakes his head. "Your choice."

You shrug, scrolling through your phone before an idea hits you and you quickly type in the title.

Leaning back, you look out the window as the car slowly fills with the familiar tune of Inner City Blues.

____

Steve's sketchbook is nearly twenty pages into his journal-sketch book hybrid. At this rate he'd be forced to get a new one before two weeks were done.

A corner of the page has a piece of Arlington on it, a singular tombstone with indecipherable writing. Somewhere else is his best attempt at recreating the mastery that was the Bunyon statue.

Most of the page was just filled with what you saw today, what he did and what he ate. He didn't make much of an effort at journaling, as substantiated by his pathetic attempts earlier that left behind half-finished sentences and open-ended thoughts. When he did try, it was simply a skeleton of the day. Nothing interesting.

Steve runs his eyes over the filled sheet. He notices it does nothing to him. He feels nothing about the scribbles and pencil scratches.

Until there’s confusion.

In the corner, there’s a recreation of a familiar scene. The stores at the back and the road bear a scary resemblance to the original. The man sits at the front with his smoke, white shirt and hunched over.

Edward Hopper’s Sunday looks back at him in black and white, and Steve doesn’t even remember when he put it there.

But his eyes were wrong.

Steve erases it lightly, careful not to rip the page. Makes sure there are no smudges or strays.

The tilt of his brow is perfect, the scorn on his lips is harsh. Yet, when Steve looks at him, he doesn’t feel like his soul is being ripped out of his chest. Doesn't feel the drop in his stomach.

He can’t get the look in his eye right.

Steve pulls the book away from him slightly, letting himself really look at the image. There is no change. He feels nothing.

He turns his stare back to the wall.

Across the drywall, he knows you're there in a mirrored room. Your pacing stopped a while ago but your keyboard clicking still came in sporadic bursts.

There's a sudden sense of urgency in him. It makes his muscle twitch and his nausea set in his ribs.

Something-- he needs to do something now.

He clenches and unclenches his fist, even taking a step off the bed to shake off the sudden angst. But the feeling perists and so he exhales deeply, and it comes out shaky.

Checking the clock to make sure it was not too late, he picks up his phone instead for a quick search.

___

Steve knocks on the door, thrice, before letting his hand drop. It finds its way back to his pockets in nervousness, not before consciously being dragged away from where his belt buckle would be if he wasn't wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt.

The entrances to the double-story building all overlooked the car park. Some of the brown imitation wood paint had peeled away from the banisters and one of the lights overhead didn't turn on. But all in all, it was a pretty good place; clean with working facilities--

He hears the chain unlink from the door before you tug it open.

"Hey," Steve says.

"Hi." You'd changed out of the clothes you were wearing during the day into something more comfortable and were looking at him in mild concern.

"I know you said we'd do takeaway, but there's this diner down the road with an arcade," Steve tests, letting it sit for a second before asking, "Maybe we could get dinner? Check out the games, if you're up for it?"

Your eyes flicker behind his figure to the moon in thought, before back at him.

"You gonna wear that?" you ask.

Steve glances down at his outfit. "Yeah?"

"Cool," you say, leaving the door open as you go to grab your stuff. "The likelihood of me saying yes depended on that."

"I could just throw on a tuxedo," Steve calls out.

"Close the door on your way out," you holler back.

He holds back a grin when you shut the door behind you and lock it, tucking the key into your pocket.

You mention towards the staircase that was too small to host the both of you at once with a nod of your head.

"Lead the way, Rogers."

_________

You don't say much on the walk over, nor when he buys an obscene amount of credits for the two of you to share.

Even the first game or two is spent in huffs in the form of laughter and quiet questions as to where to go next.

It takes nearly half an hour and him beginning to think it isn't a very good idea at all, before a grin makes its way onto your face at your first big win of the night.

"I don't care how close we are," you start, "I will wreck you at pinball. I will."

Steve's eyebrows lift as he glances at you. "We'll have to see about that."

"Careful now,” you warn and he can tell you're putting an effort in. "You're talking to the all-time arcade champ here."

"Correct me if I'm wrong, but you just lost embarrassingly at racing a fake car.”

You scoff, “It’s called a pity loss. Felt real bad for you. It’d be like beating my grandfather at a running race.”

Steve neatly tosses a ball into the basket. The score overhead had been updated to show his new record.

“Jealousy,” he states simply. “How sad.”

You stifle a laugh, picking up the next shot and obtusely missing the basket. It breaks his perfect streak.

He gives you a sidelong glance in amusement. “I still win.”

The machine corroborates his statement.

“Whatever,” you dismiss playfully. “PacMan’s the real test of skill.”

He wordlessly gestures for you to go ahead. If nothing else, the bleeps and bells chiming from different slot machines seemed to lift your spirits considerably.

Steve presses the coins into the back and steps away as you crack your knuckles. “Gonna make this game my bitch.”

He’s never played before, so he’s got nothing to refute you on. You, on the other hand, do seem like you’re gonna make good on your promise.

"Have at it."

Or maybe you were losing. He couldn’t really tell what the point was. He just stands watching for several minutes.

“So,” you bring up, eyes reflecting the light from the screen. “What'd you actually wanna talk about?"

Steve peers at you in mild surprise.

“You brought me here because it’s easier for me to talk when I have something to do with my hands,” you continue casually.

“That’s not the only reason.”

“I know,” you concede. “But you did, didn’t you? Want to talk about something?”

"Yeah," Steve replies carefully. “Wanted to apologise. Maybe a do-over from that breakfast, if that was alright.”

"Figured as much." Your lip twitches as your character narrowly avoids running into a ghost.

His smile comes back dry. "How?"

"You barrelling towards my door sorta gave it away. I could tell."

"You still said yes," he points out.

"As opposed to what, saying no and turning down free dinner?" You crack a small smile, immediately dropping when you see one of the ghosts round the corner to where you were. “We’ve been friends for too damn long, Steve. I don't want to let it go to shit over us not having a decent conversation. You mean too much to me.”

His heart jumps to his mouth. He swears that you could hear the audible exhale he just let out over the almost irksome beeping.

But now came the difficult part. What the hell does he actually tell you about? Time heist? Therapy? The stupid dream? List?

"I'm sorry," he says stupidly again. "I-"

Almost like you can hear his brain combusting, you ask,

“You want me to start?”

“Yeah, please,” he replies softly.

"Okay.” Your nose scrunches up when you lose a life. "When you said it was different-- what'd you mean by that?"

He sees you get right back into the game, and thinks it’s probably good that you’re not watching him directly. It doesn’t feel like he’s under observation.

"It feels like I just got out of the ice again," Steve says. "Doesn't feel like this place is for me. First time around, I was forced to accept it, y’know? Find something, or make something for myself. I don't know if I ever did, but I didn't have any other choice. This time, going and coming back, it’s like I-"

"Have another option.”

"Yeah." Steve watches your character pick up another bigger dot. "Watch out."

"Got it," you confirm lowly, taking another turn to narrowly miss one. "And you're going back how? The time travelling thing?"

"Yeah," he says. "I know there are more Pym Particles now that the doctor's back."

"And the machine?"

"Still functional. Pepper's got it with the rest of the old stuff."

You watch the little circle get killed again when the old joystick doesn't respond to your command, but there is no reaction on your face.

"You'd be safe?" your voice comes through instead.

Steve looks at your reflection in the screen. "I would."

"Okay."

You dive back in for the last round after your acknowledgement. You get killed in a much shorter time than the first two rounds.

"Boo," you say.

He silently hands you another quarter.

You take it from him, inserting it into the machine. "Don't you want to have a go?"

Steve observes at the starting screen of the game. "It'd just be embarrassing for the both of us," he decides on.

"One more game and then we hit Street Fighter 2."

He doesn't know what that is either, but it sounds more up his alley.

"D'you sleep at all these days?" you begin again, taking your time just as you had. "You've been looking a lot more tired recently."

"I do." He got three hours of sleep last night, a whopping two more than his usual. "You?"

"So and so." You shrug. "It'll get better."

He hears you at night sometimes, walking up and down across in the adjacent room.

You’re left in long, painful silence. It doesn’t take too much to realise how much he really fucking hates this. Not the silence, he’d sit in it comfortably with you for hours, but the awkwardness. The distance between you both when you were right there in front of him.

"What are you thinking about?"

You peer at him quickly and he holds it before you break the stare to go back to the screen when your little guy dies again.

"A bunch of stuff," you reply, restarting the round. "I just don't think I have all the questions right now. There's a lot I wanna ask, but there's only a few I can think of right now, and I don't want it to be something that I regret later."

"Anything it is, I'll answer. Whenever." You could throw even mumbled, garbage words out there and he'd piece it together like he had in the past. "But know that you don't have to sugar coat it. You can tell it to me straight."

Your jaw tightens until you force it to relax. The machine beeps get faster and fast with each passing moment, but he's all but entirely turning it out.

"It fuckin’ sucked that you didn’t tell me, Steve," you say steadily. "It’s a huge decision and I wish you had told me earlier. Like– even a text would have worked.”

“I’m sorry," he breathes. "I can't take it back, I know. I'm really fucking sorry, I should have told you earlier. Just tell me what to do-- I'll do it. I'll try to make up for it. I'm sorry. I really am."

You look him in the eye, not breaking contact for a second with your eyebrows knitted together.

“Steve, the biggest issue isn't that you didn't tell me. I know I'll get over that. Like yeah, it was-- is-- absolute shit for a while, but I’d get over it eventually.” You let go off the stupid joystick to spin towards him.

“But you’re leaving. You’re going away. I spent two years talking to you through voicemails and those stupid, secret notes and the fact that we might not even have that anymore?”

You look at him helplessly. He swallows back his guilt, fresh and heavy in his throat.

“How do I just do that?” you finish, lips pursing inwards.

Nine years of knowing you and this was the first time he’d seen you look at him the way you were. Even when he was on the run, you were sure he'd be back. There was no lapse of faith, no questioning. But now-- he doesn't know what to say because he had nothing.

“I’ll find a way to stay in touch,” Steve trails off. He isn’t sure how he’d do it. He doesn’t know. “I will. There has to be some way."

You look like you don’t believe him. He knows you don’t have reason to.

"We've always found a way," There's a pained smile on his face that is replaced with something more determined.

"You wanted to make it up to me?" you bring up again and his ears perk up. "I have a few things."

"Anything."

"No more keeping stuff from me. Not like this." You breathe out.

He holds up a hand to his chest and prays his heart doesn't burst into flames that very second.

"And no more voicemails," you continue. "I've had enough of them. Find another way."

"No more voicemails," he swears. "I promise you.”

That he could do. He could make good on his promises. That's what he was still trying to do.

“Better not.” Still, a sadness pulls at the corner of your lips, turning it upwards. “Or else you’re gonna have a bigger problem when I travel back in time to kick your ass.”

A laugh escapes him against the tense atmosphere. "I bet I will."

"You'll have to visit." You hold a finger up in a vague threat. "Don't care how you do it. You have to be there for my birthday, and the holidays and-- and St Patrick's Day, I don't know."

"I'll visit," he holds his hand up in an oath. "You'll be beggin' me to go back, you'll be so tired of me."

It makes you feel a little better, he can tell by the slight relief on your face. Fuck, he'd visit six months out of the year, if he had to. He'd figure out time travel on his own with a cord phone and a typewriter.

"And you need to invest in all the right places and save up a bunch of money and get it to me. Somehow. So I can retire early"

"Apple, right? What about the horse thing-- the Derby?"

"Yeah." You give him the first real smile he's seen all evening. "Apple and the Derby."

"Done," he announces. "You got it."

The game cries behind you when your last life is taken. You turn to it, sighing at the loss of your quarter.

"Want another one?"

"No, we've got other games to play. This shit's rigged against me anyway," you reply, looking around. "Before that-- one last thing."

"What?"

"I gotta be there," you say. "The day you leave. I wanna be there. No disappearing without a trace."

"Of course," he says softly. "I wouldn't do that to you."

"Good." You nod, a little more determined. "Okay, then. Dance Dance Revolution next."

Steve watches you turn on your heel and make your way towards the machine, completely discounting the fact that it was not the game you had initially named.

This was hardly the end of this conversation, he knows for a fact. And hopefully, he'd have answers for when you did ask.

“You good?” you call from a few feet away, hand on the railing of some new contraption with bright, flashing lights.

Steve nods, shoving his hands into his pocket. “I’m driving tomorrow.”

"You drove today," you remind.

Steve shrugs as he makes his way towards you and the supposed dance machine. "I know."

“Okay, Rogers.” You give him a small smile, shaking your head lightly. "Whatever you want.”

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