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Week 7: March 27th – April 2nd, 2023 // Final Count Down

It’s been such an eventful roller coaster this week! Nearing my final days in Tassie I’ve been wrapping up loose ends for van things, making an effort to check off some of the final main “must-sees,” and trying to make the most of my remaining time here. It’s been a rather emotional one if I’m being honest. The reality of me venturing off properly on my own is setting in and I’d be lying if there wasn’t a lot of anxieties coming with it. Between the usual worrying I’ll forget something important, to the unknown adventures and mishaps, to the general lack of expertise in so many things. I feel as though I’m throwing myself into the deep end, and while I’m SO incredibly excited for what has been a dream of mine for years to finally become reality, there’s a healthy amount of “what the fuck am I doing” to keep me grounded? Level-headed? Who knows lol.

We kicked off this week with a true Tassie must experience! I brought my car out to a mechanic in Triabunna to get some work done [stuff required for the safety certificate I needed – I’m going to do a whole separate post dedicated to buying a vehicle in Australia], which was coincidentally just a 10minute walk to the ferry that’ll take you to Maria Island! Maria Island is infamous for its abundance of wildlife (Wombats, Kangaroos, Wallabies, Pademelons, etc.) and endless trails for walking and biking. I mentioned the details in a recent Instagram post https://www.instagram.com/p/CqVZbZvyTO2/ but the island doesn’t allow cars, making it an absolute dream space to properly disconnect and venture into nature (keep an eye out for a detailed post on Maria Island in the future). Most of the island doesn’t get much service either so it really does force you to be present with your surroundings. I turned my phone on airplane mode and used the little paper map from the information centre to get around, using mostly just my camera for capturing little moments.

The weather was perfect, mostly overcast but warm, with few breaks of sun. My favourite moments from this day were wandering across the beach and the painted cliffs barefoot for about an hour – just taking time to really admire the beauty of the naturally formed patterns –

getting to sit with a wombat, and capture a really beautiful photo of a kookaburra.

Unfortunately for the van, one of the parts ordered didn’t arrive… so we were left to hope the mechanic back in Hobart would give me the safety certificate anyways…

Plot twist… they did!! Tuesday I called them up first thing to see if they could change my appointment to meet with me that day (the girl I bought the van from was leaving the next day for a 9-day trip, so this was quite literally our last chance to get everything officially and properly signed over to me). Brought it in and 2 hours later was handed the safety certificate! It was a super rainy day, so I spent most of it curled up in the van outside the Fitzy Castle house, working on blogs, editing my photos from Maria Island, working out some plans for my final week. Taking it relatively easy after the big win.

Wednesday is once things really started to kick into gear. Met up with Stefi (the girl I bought Peg from) in Sorrell to get the registration moved to my name, transferred from Queensland to Tasmanian plates, and get a Tasmanian drivers licence! I think the woman at Service Tassie had a good laugh at us – she made a comment about how it seemed so funny to be so stoked about getting new plates and a driver’s licence – all we could really say was that it had been such a long time coming to get to this point! Honestly, everything else for this trip has been so seamlessly smooth – I’ve been lucky to have made some really incredible connections for all aspects of my trip, the support I’ve received here has gone well above anything I could’ve ever expected – but the process for getting the van actually put in my name has for sure been as nail-biting as you could get it. Quite literally got drawn out to the last possible second, but SO thankful it all worked out!

I’d been in need for a good climb, so once I got settled back, had some food, I took myself to the gym for a good boulder sesh. It’s been so cool and motivating seeing the progression I’ve been making in my strength and technique. Working through routes I would never even be attempting back home, even at my strongest. I feel a different level of confidence building up this time around, which has been a lot of fun to navigate and witness.

Spent the rest of the evening + afternoon applying to Sea Shepherd’s volunteer photographer position. I got really into it and ended up putting together a proper portfolio, which got me really excited and eager to look into more work and potential opportunities similar to this. Maybe even some blogging for another company! (Any takers?)

Thursday morning, I finished up and sent off the application, then made my way to the MONA (Museum of New and Old Art). I had been told it was a cool experience, but this well exceeded my expectations. For starters, the grounds and architecture are absolutely stunning! So much thought went into not just a place to hold art, but to physically experience it too from the inside and the outside. All your senses are activated when you walk through. You begin by going down 3 or 4 floors underground, and the rest I’ll leave to you to have to experience yourself one day. Let’s just say, I’ve spent a lot of time in museums, especially in Europe, and I think this is my favourite by a long shot.

After eating some lunch and hanging in the van in the MONA parking lot while the rain went past, I made my way to the Royal Tasmanian Botanical Garden’s. It’s quite similar to the UBC Botanical Garden’s but is free to park and enter, and a bit smaller. Super stunning layout and plant life, with lots of really beautifully detailed + informative little signs scattered throughout the park. My favourites were the signs sharing how indigenous people use the plants for materials, medicine, etc.

Friday was SUCH a great day. Leah and I had been meaning to connect for a while so we spent the day out at Port Arthur’s visiting the Tasmanian Devil Unzoo, hiking Cape Raoul, and hitting up the infamous ‘Trout Party’ back in Hobart!

I was really impressed with how the Unzoo was set up. The place is meant to help protect Devil’s from contracting the illness that spread like wildfire and wiping out I think something like 95% of the population. Thanks to efforts like theirs, the Devil’s have been rescued from extinction, but still have a long way to go to no longer be considered endangered. Check out the Unzoo website for more information: https://tasmaniandevilunzoo.com.au/save-the-devil/.

Cape Raoul was a beautiful 15.5km hike out to stunning cliff face views, similar to those of Cape Hauy, but with a lot less “up down.”

For those wondering what a ‘Trout Party’ is – one of the houses in the friend has a little bar room that is decked out to be the ultimate “fisherman bar.” It’s just a small room off the backyard with exactly what you’d imagine! This house is known for throwing some pretty fun parties at least a couple times a year, so everyone looks forward to them!

Saturday I managed to get in a bit of a slower morning before spending the whole afternoon with Rhys working on the van. The van build has been such a fun learning process, getting to use power tools, brainstorming designs, figuring out ways to make the most use of our material, the many… many… trips to Bunnings (Australia’s version of a Home Depot), seeing my little home come together. Slowly but surely. We had a few little hiccups with the original electrical set up, but thankfully the owner of the house we’ve been using to build out of is an electrician and was super willing and eager to help get it back up and running. I’ve actually really enjoyed the electrical part a lot. It makes me more excited about the idea of designing a proper van from scratch in the future – one with a functioning sink and shower, and lights on dimmers, with electrical outlets. Actually use my schooling for once lol.

Sunday I made a point to get out to the Farmgate market one last time. I really didn’t take advantage of the markets back home, and I know this is something I want to be doing more of. Supporting the small local businesses, buying your produce for the week, trying new products, gathering with friends to sit in the park or going solo and wandering leisurely.

The afternoon was spent much more of the same – meeting with Rhys thinking it was our last day of building, just to find ourselves saying “we probably only need a few more hours tomorrow.” We definitely made really good progress today though! It was actually coming together – all the drawers fit together (like a glove I might add… every millimeter really does count) and screwed down into the van, electrical fully up n running, fridge properly set up. The end is truly near…

Then spent the evening hanging out with the house + Sophie for dinner and watching an episode of Alone; this year’s season is filmed here in Tassie!

The final days have me feeling a whirlwind of emotions, but overall, I’m feeling incredibly grateful for my time and experiences I’ve had. It turned out to be so much more than I could’ve imagined. The people I’ve met and the support I’ve received has been truly wonderful. Now I move into the last days of preparing to leave for the official big adventure, with no one but myself and Peg. It’s a journey I’ve longed for years, and now… here we are.

Wish me luck.

Stay passionate and curious, Hunter♡

04/03/2023

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writingsbychlo · 1 year

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oh my god. i’ve been scrolling through my old posts and i’ve found your page again and experienced true nostalgia.. i don’t think u remember me my username used to be obrienimagines/obriengif but that’s besides the point .. i followed u almost 7 years ago and i used to keep up with all ur fics and writings i’m so happy you’re still on here! i just wanted to say that i hope youre doing well and still have fun posting and interacting! i’ll try to keep up with ur stuff again i’m super excited to see what new content u’ve posted!! xx stefy

omg, were you one of my OG followers from 2016? that is wild!! hi!! thank you so much, it’s not dylan stuff anymore so you may not like it, but if you do end up liking it, then amazing 🥹🤍

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survey--s · 2 years

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116.

survey by kolorfulkylee

What's underneath your bed? Dust on my side, and on Mike’s, a whole load of crap lol. He’s a nightmare, to be honest. Stuff just gets piled up then he complains he can’t find anything, he blitzes it and then it’s back to a shit heap a few days later, lol.

What's your favorite music genre? It depends on my mood, I love songs from pretty much every genre ever.

Do you prefer writing on lined or plain paper? Lined paper.

Name 3 people who you'll never forget: Aside from the really obvious choices, my year 7 English teacher, my first headmistress and my grandma’s next door neighbour.

Have you ever been told you are fake? I’m sure I have been at some point, yeah.

What was the name of the last pet of yours that died? I’ve never lost a pet in that way.

What's the longest you've gone without taking to someone when you were mad? No longer than a day or so. I’m not very good at holding a grudge, lol.

Do you like pineapple? Yes, but not on pizza.

When was the last time you wished the day would just get over with? Thursday. I was tired as fuck, and then on the last walk of the day it started absolutely pissing it down with rain and I was NOT impressed, lol.

Stop typing. What do you hear? The TV, the cats snoring.

Is there any specific number that has any significance to you? No.

What does your hair look like right now? It’s pretty good. I just washed it this morning and it’s now tied up in a messy bun.

What month were you born in? December.

Is there anyone that you wish you were with right now? Nah, it’s nearly 9pm and I’m just happy to be chilling at home, to be honest.

Name one person you've never had a fight with: Stefi.

What are you currently listening to? A TV show called Big Clean Up.

What would you rather have: Cat or Dog? Dog.

Batman or Superman: Who wins? I prefer Batman, I guess.

Have you had braces? No.

What's the last song you heard? I don’t remember, whatever I had playing in the car on the way home.

How long have you gone without sleep? 36+ hours. I can’t sleep on planes and we used to fly to Australia regularly. So I’d be awake for say, five hours before a 24h flight, and then I’d have to stay awake all day until bedtime, which would easily be 12 hours later again.

What movie can you watch over and over again and not get sick of it? Legally Blonde. Alice in Wonderland.

Have you ever streaked? Nope.

Have you ever accidently drank spoiled milk? No. I mean, how can you not smell it?

Do you and your best friend have an inside joke? Of course.

What are you currently listening to? I feel like I’ve answered this about ten times in this survey alone, lol.

What do you do if you know someone is talking crap behind your back? It depends on the person and how much I care about their opinion.

Do you drive? Yeah.

#survey #surveys #questions

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barnesafterglow · 3 years

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we are on spooky season mommy, so sorry but i gotta raid this askbox:

what are your favorite mystic creatures/monsters? are you into monsterfuckery?

i’m adding them all to one to make this easier

1. i would say i…..dabble….in monsterfuckery….. branded by @trashmenofmarvel is demon!bucky and one of my all time favorite series, and i loooove a good a/b/o (does that count?), i’ve read some other stuff as well like vampires and a ghost!steve, so i’m still exploring i suppose

2. my top three character crushes are: bucky barnes, obviously, (i love sebs other characters of course but the only other who even comes close to the same amount of love as bucky is chris beck - i love my nerdy space boy), rhys from acotar - this will forever be my favorite book series, i don’t even know how many times i’ve read it at this point, and mayhaps an ambiguous third?? i’m a fool for a strong woman role in any sense, but i especially love a final girl around halloween time. right now tho i’d say it’s jennifer check (from jennifer’s body) because i am in love with megan fox

3. i feel like i’m so small i’d be like an annoying gremlin or something, but i asked my bf and he said i’d for sure be a succubus so i am in fact a whore

thank you for exposing me like this stefi i appreciate it

#stef <3 #tiff answers

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stefyjonas1 · 1 year

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Hi friends! I have a request that I was hoping y’all could help me with…

My sister is really into crystals now and she just moved back home after years away so I’m still learning what they all mean and I wanted to get her one. She’s seeking guidance now in her big life choices so I’d love if there was something related to that I could get her. Any suggestions? All ideas welcome!

For context we grew up in the Catholic Church so I know absolutely nothing about this stuff

#crystals #crystal #stefy says stuff #witchcraft #baby witch #witchblr #witch community #wicca for beginners #wiccablr #pagan wicca

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urwatchingdisneychannel · 7 months

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Update: monster high 2 was amazing and I loved it so much

#stefy says stuff #gcwca shenanigans #monster high 2

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kingandqueenofillea · 1 year

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So I’m scared to look at anyone else’s reviews of The Grace Year because it’s my favorite thing ever and I don’t want to ruin that happiness that I’m feeling as I’m rereading my favorite book, ya know? But anyways, I’m writing an entire trailer in my head as I read it and I’m actually listening to it so I want to go find my copy so I can annotate it and everything but I am so making a trailer for this and getting it out there so they’ll hire me to work on the film

#the grace year #blogging as i read #booklr #bookblr #book blog #stefy says stuff

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jr-ops-networking-as-spies · 2 years

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After seeing all these moments between the moments I really want some Jonas friends... Anyone wanna be besties?

#jonas brothers #nick jonas #joe jonas #kevin jonas #tour #concert #jonas #the jonas brothers #userstefanie #user stefanie #stefy says stuff

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magdlene · 4 years

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i know i say this all the time but i can’t wait to get money and buy my friend’s art/stuff and just send them money idgaf first thing im getting is stefi’s joy poster yup

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feely-touchy · 5 years

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If I went home to my deathbed tonight

I think there's a lot of stuff to miss

Quite a lot I like

I'd wish I could play Yu-Gi-Oh with Jasper

Dark magician vs red-eyes black dragon

Watch horror movies with Don until dawn again

Scrub the brainrot from our noggins

Talk about DBZ with Jacob and Anthony

Over frozen custard from Connie's

Write letters to the friends I still miss

too embarrassed to say their names aloud

Also pen a few hundred apologies

Bury a few million things of which I'm none too proud

Before any headache heralds the turn of the light

or any halo is tailored to size

I hope to be done with the no-good fights

and that the world is softer than I ever realized

If I could just do more of anything or whatever

I'd like to take care and take time

Make something irreverent worth sharing with Holly

Work on something pointless and wonderful with Roswell

Cheer on everyone I've ever loved who left me behind

Trade more music with Emily and Dana

Write poetry back-to-back by Amyna

I'd like to tell Rylee she's a kind person

I'd like to tell Katie how much I believe in her

Promise Katie she's a better mother than she's ever had

Find reasons to laugh louder every few minutes than ever before

Sing a song for Spencer (who I miss still)

Tell Su she's good enough just as herself

Take Catherine out to a good movie

Get dinner with Victoria after work

Help Stefie feel less alone like me

Feel 25 going on 70 road tripping with Haley

Finish up Steven Universe with Che

Send Noah a handwritten poem

Play Jackbox with Jess and the folks from Tumblr

Make cookies for my cousins

Do something nice for my brother and his family

Do something nice for my mother and her family

Laugh until we pass out with former strangers

If it isn't safe just being yourself

I want to die leading a life filled with danger

If I went home to my deathbed

Full-faced heart grinning

Crying to the news that keeps hitting

I would hope more than anything

Not to be remembered

but rather to see the spark of love I helped foster

No matter the cost

I have loved without reason or sensibility

more than I ever could have lost

#poem #poems of tumblr #poetry #poets of tumblr #art #literary art #writing #poems on tumblr #love #poets on tumblr #person inspired poem #friendship #loss #moving on #mutual aid #support #death cw #death mention

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ijustreallylovezebras · 6 years

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UK Avengers Pt 9 [end]

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: The ninth part in a series pt 1, pt 2, pt 3, pt 4, pt 5, pt 6, Pt 7, pt 8

Requested: No

“I’m sorry,”

“If you’re just going to repeat ‘I’m sorry’ over and over again then I really don’t see the point,” I inform Bucky, walking into the kitchen and pouring myself a glass of water before leaning against the counter and looking at him again.

Bucky lets out a breath, running his hand through his hair.

“You wanna start by admitting that you’re a twat?”

“A massive twat,” he agrees, looking up at me with tired eyes. “The biggest twat in the universe,”

“Now, wait a damn second, Barnes,” I say, holding my hand up, a slight smile playing at my lips, “that title definitely has to go to Thanos,” Bucky huffs a small laugh and shakes his head a little.

“At least I come below Thanos,��

“Who doesn’t?”

“I really am sorry though,”

“Was it real?” I ask. It was the only question that needed answering. “Was any of it real? Or was it all fabricated, a web of lies to get closer to me, to make it easier to exploit my weakness when it came down to it? Because guess what, Bucky,” I say, lifting my arms up to gesture around me, at the place that I had called my home for much of my life. “You’re here. This, here, this is my weakness. Janie, Stefie, James. James is my weakness. His family are my weakness. Fuck, Buck, you were my weakness,” my brows are creased in frustration as I tell him.

But unlike the last time we spoke, I don’t have tears left to cry. Tears and sadness are not enough at this point. Eventually there comes a time in which you let go of sadness and expectations of apologies, of bouquets of flowers and unrelenting texts. Sadness gets replaced with disappointment, when you realise the one person who you care more about than anyone in the world is human too.

“I didn’t want to go back to America,” he tells me finally, breaking the few moments of silence that had descended upon us for my words to sink in. “That day, I didn’t want to go back, I wanted to stay, talk it out with you. I knew you’d think I lied about... everything,” his blue eyes shine when he looks up at me through the long, tangled locks of his hair, “you were the only person who made me feel normal,”

Normal. What people like me, people like us, strive to be. Being normal was something I knew everyone with special abilities wished to be at least once in their lives. Bucky must have wished it every day since he got out from HYDRA’s control.

We look at each other in silence for a while, neither of us knowing what to say, what there is left for us to say. Everything and nothing had been passed between us.

“You broke my heart,” I say finally. “After James... I promised myself I’d never let myself break like that again. And then you gave me that fucking smile and I was gone,” I allow myself a laugh, even though the tears have finally filled my eyes. Bucky’s mirror my own, though, and there’s a grimace on his face as he tries to keep them inside.

“I’m sorry,” his whisper is hoarse, his voice is cracked and I’m just so tired.

“You were the only person who I let myself love,” I tell him quietly.

“I trusted you with everything I had,”

“God we’re fucked up,” I let out a hollow laugh and Bucky chuckles bitterly, nodding.

“But it was real, all of it was real,” he says and I give a smile. It’s small but it’s genuine.

“Even if we got back together,” Bucky’s head slowly raises to look at me, hope radiating off of him in waves at my words. “You would still be there, I’d still be here,” but I’ve planted something in Bucky now and he crosses the space between us and takes my hand.

“We’d figure it out, work it through. We could do it, Doll,”

“But how do you know?”

“Because I’m not letting you go again,” I sigh, placing my hand on his shoulder and kissing him gently.

“You’re still a massive twat,”

“The second biggest twat in the universe,” he agrees but neither of us can escape from our wide smiles as our lips connect once more.

“Well, well, well, what do we have here?” I groan and hide my face in Bucky’s shirt. The man laughs, rubbing my back with his metal hand and his other hand reaches out towards Stefie.

“I’m Bucky Barnes, ma’am, it’s a pleasure to meet you,”

“Stefanie, but everyone calls me Stefie,” comes her reply and she takes his outstretched hand. “I’d say the same thing about you, but I’ve only heard the bad stuff, besides you’re hot. She stressed that, I seem to recall,” I give another, louder groan and hit my head a couple of times against Bucky’s chest, which is shaking through his laughter.

“I hate everything!” I announce loudly. “Janie!” I call, removing my head from Bucky’s chest and turning towards the door, which the little girl bursts through shortly after my call.

“Auntie Y/N!”

“Save me! Mummy’s being mean,” I say and Janie giggles gleefully, standing in front of me in a protective stance.

“Don’t be mean to Auntie Y/N!”

“Listen to your daughter!” But Janie goes suddenly shy, grabbing onto my leg to hide behind. “What’s the matter kid?” I ask, crouching down. She points her little finger at Bucky, drawing patterns on the floor with her toe.

“Bucky,” she says quietly and Bucky crouches down next to me.

“That’s me,” he smiles and holds out his hand to her. “What’s your name?” Janie looks at me for some sort of confirmation. I give an encouraging smile in response.

“Janie, Mr Bucky sir,” she says in a small voice and her small hand is completely engulfed by Bucky’s.

“Just Bucky is fine, Janie,” he says, eyes crinkling at the edges from his wide smile.

“Uncle Bucky?” She asks innocently, looking at me inquisitively and I blush, looking away.

“Not Uncle Bucky, just Bucky,” I mutter and Stefie laughs, picking up her daughter with a cheeky grin.

“Not Uncle Bucky yet,” she stresses and I groan again.

“You’re worse than if Bucky were to meet my actual family,” I inform her and Bucky places his arm around my waist, kissing the side of my head.

“Y/N cry,” Janie says, frowning and I smile at her. “Y/N sad?”

“Not anymore, sweetheart,”

“And we are your actual family,” Stefie says, her eyebrows raised before she turns and walks Janie back outside.

“I’m sorry about them,” I say, turning to face Bucky who has a grin on his face. He shakes his head.

“They’re fantastic,” he assures me and I press a kiss to his lips.

“I’m glad you said that, because Stefie’s right, they are my family,”

“Do I get to meet the rest of them?” He asks, and I shrug, kissing him again.

“Depends, do you plan on sticking around?”

“Forever, doll,”

So this is the last part to this series. I’ll post an epilogue at some point but I hope that you have enjoyed reading the official series :)

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tayga-lover · 7 years

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Fix You With My Love

Do I know half of the stuff that I wrote? not really, don’t attack me I’m a clueless child. I really hope you guys like this one and have fun reading.

Prompt: Could you do a fanfic about her dealing with chronic pain, maybe combined with her addiction to painkillers? How it’s affecting her relationship with Taylor, how he’s trying to help her etc. And can you keep out Christian because I don’t like him and I’m not over TayGa.

Chapter 1

“Are you ready, Stefi?” Taylor Kinney walked towards the brightly lit bathroom, he wore a fancy black suit, ready for a date night with his beautiful fiancé, Lady Gaga. Once he entered the bathroom he seen her sitting in the bathtub, the water of the tub was colored a light pink because of the essential oils and scents she poured in the tub, and a few soap bubbles lay scattered on the water.

“Stef, why aren’t you ready?” He asked kneeling beside the small woman who had her eyes closed. She opened her puffy eyes and looked at him, “Baby, are you okay?” He stuck his hand out and lightly caressed her tear stained cheek, “you’ve been crying, what’s wrong?” He moved closer and she closed her eyes again.

“I-I don’t know, T-Taylor, it’s-it’s happening again.” She stuttered, “my body just hurts so much.” She cried and covered her eyes with her cold, wet hands. Taylor sighed and his heart ached seeing his love in such a bad state of pain. “Let’s get you out of this bath.” He whispered and wrapped his arms around her cold body lifting her out of the tub. “I’m sorry, Taylor.” She cried holding onto his neck tightly. “Sorry for what?” Taylor asked grabbing her towel and wrapping it around her small body. “You wanted to go out tonight, we were supposed to have a romantic night and I fucked it up, I’m so sorry.” She cried harder and held onto him. The pain she felt in her body was almost unbearable and she couldn’t stop crying.

“Baby, Stef don’t be sorry.” He picked her up bridal style and walked to the bed gently laying her down on it, “this is not your fault okay?” He looked into her puffy red eyes. She closed her eyes and breathed in deeply.

“It’s just, you flew here for me and it would’ve been perfect to go on a dinner date, I just can’t help but be sorry.” She cried and groaned at the pain in her body, Taylor leaned down, He grabbed her arms and gently massaged them and he gently kissed her lips. She wrapped her arms around him and tightened her grip as breathed in deeply, trying to calm herself down. “You don’t have to be sorry, okay.” He kissed her plump lips, “I don’t care about dinner anymore, my priority now is making you feel better.” He spoke softly. She smiled and ran her fingers lightly over his cheeks and lifted her body to kiss him. She lied back and groaned at the pain she was feeling. “I’ll give you a massage princess, is it the same pain as last time?” He asked as he moved off of her and she opened her eyes watching as he got off the bed and took his coat off. “Yes.” She sniffled and wiped her cheeks, she looked up at the ceiling trying to take her mind off of the pain but it just got more intense and more sobs escaped her lips.

“What hurts princess?” He got back on the bed rolling up his sleeves. “Everything Tay.” She sobbed and grabbed his arm, Taylor frowned feeling his heart ache, he hated seeing his love in pain, she’s only had this twice recently and he was so glad he was there both times to help her. “M-my foot, h-hip and just-just my whole right side.” She covered her face with her hands and Taylor sat behind her, letting her body rest on his chest, he softly massaged her shoulders. “My face hurts.” She whispered lifting her hands to her cheeks. He placed his hands on her cheek and ran his thumbs along her cheekbones.

After almost an hour of Taylor massaging her body, he grabbed ice packs. He placed one on her right hip, around her ankle, on her torso and held one gently to the side of her face. “I bet I look so pathetic.” She cried and Taylor quickly shook his head. “Don’t say that princess.” He caressed her hair and gently kissed her forehead. “Please lay down with me already.” She pleaded and Taylor nodded. He took his shirt off and his pants, he lied in bed next to her and held her against him. “Thank you for being here for me.” She sniffled and wrapped her arms around one of his muscular ones. “I’m glad to be here.” He whispered against her hair, “princess, We need to make an appointment to the doctor as soon as possible, I can’t stand that you’re in pain.” Taylor kissed her again and she nodded. “I’m just scared of what they’ll tell me.” She opened her mouth to loosen up her jaw that began to feel tense again. “I’ll be here with you, I’ll be here to help you, every time you need me.” He put his two fingers on each side of her jaw and began to gently massage circles. “I’m so lucky to have you.” She closed her eyes and a tear ran down her cheek. “I’m so lucky to be here to help.” He kissed her, “are you feeling better?” He asked and Gaga nodded, “much better, thank you.” She whispered.

~The Next Day~

“Are you ready princess?” Taylor asked Gaga wrapping his arms around her. “Yes I am.” She looked at him through the mirror she was using to apply her lipstick, she turned her head and gently kissed him. “I’m still scared.” She said as she grabbed her purse and watched as he grabbed his phone and the keys to the apartment. “It’s for the best, my love.” He grabbed her hand as he followed her out of the room and walked with his arm wrapped around her waist.

They quickly drove to the doctor's office and after a few tests on her body and looking over her symptoms the doctor sat in front of the two. “With the results of Our tests and the symptoms you’ve been experiencing, we can confirm that you have fibromyalgia, chronic pain.” The doctor looked at her computer and looked back at the couple, “luckily, there are medicines to help with the pain, they are big doses and should only be taken once every two days, the effect with wear off within a good amount of hours and if you have a flare up in the time in between the last dose and the next, there are exercises to help and, as your partner has been doing for you already, massages help. She looked at Gaga’s medical record. “I see here that you take depression and anxiety pills, chronic pain can and does cause depression, you’re always taking pills for depression, which is good, but these pills can also help for depression.” Gaga nodded at all this new given information, and she was beginning to feel slightly overwhelmed. The doctor grabbed a note to write the prescription on, “you can get this at our pharmacy down stairs and more information is on the bottle but you can call me so I can explain more. Any questions?” The doctor looked up at the couple and Gaga blinked a few times before looking at the doctor, “Does this have anything to do with my hip injury of a few years ago?” She asked squeezing Taylor’s hand. “Yes, you say you feel the pain mostly on the right side of your body, the side that your hip broke, so yes it ties down. I don’t know why it is barely becoming an issue but yes it is because of you hip and most of what you put your body through.” Gaga nodded, “And what about my ability to perform?” Gaga nervously bit her lip. “As long as you feel good you can, just do some exercises and stretches before hand to make sure your body feels alright.” The doctor smiled.

“And about these pills.” Taylor gently spoke, shifting in the chair, Gaga turned her head to him and waiting for what he was going to ask. “These are strong doses right? So, do we have to be sure it’s exactly two days before she can drink another? And if she has a flare up that’s unbearable like the last few times, can she drink painkillers or would that be bad for her health?” He asked and looked at Gaga who nodded and the both of them turned their attention back to the doctor. “Good question.” She placed her pen down and looked at the two. “So, these painkillers are known to be highly addictive, that’s why we suggest one pill every two days to decrease the possibility of addiction from occurring, if she dies drink more than one she will begin to act in ways as if she has just taken drugs, if she were to drink a strong painkiller, she may have the same reaction as drinking two of these; hallucinations, disoriented vision and so on, as if she were to have just taken a drug.” She grabbed the prescription. “She may drink something as low Does as a Tylenol, Advil or aleve and preferably the smallest dose, and even then she should push back the intake of one of these pills another day.”

“Damn they’re really strong.” Gaga whispered and the doctor nodded, “Yes they are, I prefer drinking them only when you have a flare up, let's say you have one tonight, drink it and the pain will hopefully go away. If you experience one tomorrow take a low dose of over the counter pills, but it’s better to try to massage the pain away.” Gaga nodded and looked back up at the doctor, “I tend to flare up if I get a wave of depression, will these pills help?” The doctor nodded, “Yes, and by the way you can still drink your depression pills with these, the dosage of your depression pills won’t interfere with these pills.” The doctor smiled. “Okay, Thank you so much.” Gaga stood up and Taylor followed. The doctor handed the prescription to Gaga and the couple walked out of the room.

“How are you feeling?” Taylor asked as they sat waiting for the pills. “A little scared still but relieved that I’ll have something to take when it’s very strong.” Taylor nodded and leaned into her to kiss her lips gently, “I love you.” He whispered and Gaga smiled, “I love you too. Thank you for being here with me.”

I hope you liked it and that it’s not cringe worthy.

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