All these poets and authors and philosophers talk about getting over romantic loves but no one ever taught me how get over you. How to deal with your absence when you were the first person in a while who I was confident would stay a little longer, if not forever. Watching you leave was not abrupt, it was gradual. Watching us fade away was like watching the slow withering away of a flower, death of beauty. Years of laughter, tears, love, quarrels, companionship slowly extinguishing because of the lack of fuel perhaps. I'm sorry I wasn't enough, I tried. And maybe you tried too. And maybe it was worth letting go of me over a stranger. It's okay I understand. I cannot make people stay and maybe it's my narcissism to blame. But I hope you're happy. I hope they're enough for you. Maybe their altruism will make them stay.

However, remember this, I never willing let go of anyone's hand but I do not cling on to those who wish to leave. I wish there was an easier way to say this but I didn't find one.

(-on losing platonic love.)

~V.J.C

(01.11.2023)

no one will know the violence it took to become this gentle

only emily axford could accidentally paraglide herself into being in one more episode of critical role than she was scheduled for. and i think that’s beautiful.

i think there is so much love in the world and so much beauty and sure things suck but at least we have good food and good friends and cool music and tasty drinks. and warmth on the floor from the sun. thank god for the sun. wowh. the world is so beautiful thank fucking god the world is beautiful

baby byler / miwi headcanons of mine:

whenever they wanted something and knew that karen would say no, they'd always have will be the one to go up to her with his big ole kawaii anime doe eyes n sweet wittle face and ask, because even though it didn't always work & karen definitely knew what they were up to lol, they still thought they were being sneaky masterminds and it did get them a few extended play dates and extra desserts, etc, so technically... they Are sneaky masterminds tbh

conversely, whenever something happened or she heard a crash somewhere, karen always singled out will to tell her the truth, because even if he did try to lie to her and cover the party's butts sometimes, his little side-to-side sway n hand clasping tells immediately tip her off every time & she'd always turn to mike after, narrow her eyes, and go "Michael." in the most mom the-jig-is-up-so-you-better-tell-me-what-happened-right-now voice you've ever heard in ur Life

this tour event story

my heart can't stand it

goodbye

I just read the last chapter of Houseki no Kuni…

I don’t know how to describe this feeling. I’m glad I’m alive to see the ending of Houseki no Kuni.

This feeling of hollow victory. That is the feeling I get when I finish books with big emotional impact.

Thank you Haruwa Ichikawa for this very depressing and psychological pain of a very good manga that I’ve just read. You’ve made so many people weep and cry from just reading this manga. *deep sincere Japanese bow* domo arigato, for the very compelling story the tells deep meanings and have very deep thoughts about existence and life and finding purpose, for the very appealing visuals of the lustrous and displaying their beauty of their lustre to its fullest, wether they stay in sun or shade or the full or new moon and even on the moon. And for the literal gem of an anime that leaves me wanting a season 2 of your story lovingly crafted into a super impressive 3D CGI by Studio Orange who also worked on Beastars that is just as good.

May you continue with future works that I may be looking forward to and continue to give us your lovely artwork that we the readers may appreciate from the most impressive of big details to the smallest of simplicity of drawings.

my experience of reading A Sport and a Pastime at the same time as What Belongs to You was sensual and magnificent. i was so sad to finish these books. i never wanted them to end.

i wont be able to get this finished by tonight for k.dy's birthday (sorry baby) but i want to be clear we're not even done with the smut parts 😫

blame this nct djj F4 set-up being a landmine for FEELINGS even though it's a sexcapade. hope it makes up for the current plot over porn ratio in agtbtb

Note to self: just cause you say sure visit for a day but I have other plans so I just have this period of time free. Does not mean that they cannot appear for triple the time

gsometimes you go and try to write either meta or poetry (its both. honestly) and you end up just bapping the shit out of a character because they are soooooo self-destructive it makes you mad at them IWISH YOU WERENT FUCKED IN THE HEAD. YOU COULD HAVE CHOSEN TO BE CALM AND TRY SOMETHING ELSE ACTUALLY INSTEAD OF. RUINING LIKE FOUR PEOPLES LIVES . tihs is about beast

listen. there's more to 911 than buddie, i know this. and if buddie is endgame im sure the writers will have plenty of fun dragging it out. but boy the relief i felt when felisa just left after the conversation on the beach was Palpable. we dodged that bullet team, good work (for now)

one day i’ll be attending funerals of people i talk to now, of the ones in my contact list. one day, i’ll sit on the bench of a graveyard. and the world will become so, sad. i will pass coffee shops remembering what she would order for me. i will pass parks remembering the way those two played with their friends, until the football fell into the river. i will pass bus stops and train stations, remembering we were once there. i will pass my life with the knowledge that i lost something i will never get back. love is impermanence. impermanence is why we love. yet it is soul-crushing, whenever i look people in the eye, that one day, i’ll never see you again. god, how is this fair? how is it that this day will come eventually and i will be telling myself ‘i told you so’. what difference does it make? that i had known all along. i knew everything but i had no power to change it. omniscience but not omnipotence, perhaps god can’t save us because he couldn’t, can’t. 

Murro?

aO3 please don’t do this

/// Talk to me about an AU where Bill joins Joel and Ellie on their way across the country, either because he finally sucks it up and is like “I’m unhappy, Frank is gone, I’m alone, Joel and Tommy are my only friends left in the world, I’m going with him”, or because Joel sees the abyssal loneliness within Bill and is like “yo... uh, Bill? You could come along”