I THINK THERES BEEN A GLITCH
CHAPTER FOUR: WHAT'S IN OUR SYSTEM
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steve harrington x fem!baker + artist
word count: [12K]
warnings: no use of y/n, talks / mentions of mental spiral, fluff overload (everyone buckle up and prepare to be mush by the end)
summary: you and steve find yourselves entangled in something else besides your feelings. all of the fun things — skin and bones, breakfast and laughter, goodbyes and hellos. it’s dizzying, like a drug that flows your systems and should have the both of you wondering if it’s in any of your best interests. it’s not worth denying or thinking other wise… you both know you’ve made promises, now it’s up to you both to keep them.
It’s the same room and the same bed Steve had been spending most of his life sleeping in. Worn out and faded gray bed sheets that were long overdue to be replaced and pillows that lost their fluffiness years ago. His bed was nothing special, just the place where he would burrow under after all his hardest days and battles.
But these days his bed was just a place of hiding — somewhere he would go to in order to pass time hoping he could seek comfort even when he knew he couldn’t.
He’d lay and stare up at the ceiling waiting for his parents to drive off so he could finally go down and make himself some food without being victim to a lengthy lecture.
He’d even bunch up the blankets, using them to cover his ears and drown out his parents arguing, which was usually over something so stupid that could’ve been solved with a simple ‘sorry’ or if one of them finally kept quiet and let the other speak.
He managed to master the art of forcing himself to fall asleep so he could escape it, but it always seemed to follow him in his dreams… all the pent up anxiety about the future and how scared he was that he’d turn out just like his parents.
Stuck in the cycle and forcing everyone to walk on eggshells around him.
It was only really a comfortable bed when they weren’t around, but it didn’t mean that it wasn’t lonely.
Hearing absolute silence was just as torturous as hearing his mom and dad fight.
A beautiful home, fully furnished that housed the picture perfect family only for it to be amounted to a place that didn’t feel like home at all. What a waste of space that had so much potential for a joyous family to actually live and create memories in. All it was now was filled with loneliness and nightmares.
But there were always those rare occasions where he could dream up a life that didn’t feel so lonely. A place with someone who he cherished and who felt like home to him — more than any furniture or square footage could make him feel.
Last night was one of those nights and only this time he realized it wasn’t a dream.
Through his sluggish eyes, he could still see the indentation in the shape of you from the night before. The little details of the way your arms had laid against the sheets and how your body shifted during the night. Your… his pillow etched with the silhouette of your head and your hair that sprawled over it.
The covers were partly thrown off to the side with you nowhere to be found. And as Steve weakly drew them up just to steal two more minutes of the morning warmth, he was greeted with a big waft of everything you.
The two minutes in bed didn’t seem enticing anymore. He just wanted to get to you now.
Vanilla filling his senses and coaxing his eyes wide awake.
Jasmine brightened up his energy as he made the bed.
Sweet peaches calmed his limbs as he stared at himself in the bathroom mirror and got himself freshened up for the day.
It should’ve worried him, the way that you could’ve called Nance and have her bring you to Joyce and Hop’s to get your car and head home. Leaving him without saying goodbye or talking about what happened last night. But the anxiety didn’t seem to run through his veins when it came to you or this… he felt safe and tranquil knowing you were still here.
You had put his mind at ease, promising you would be.
Last night he emerged from the bathroom, bare chested with a pair of sweatpants hanging low on his waist. His room was ill-lit, drapes blocking out most of the moonlight, letting only his weak lamp gleam up the corner of the bedroom.
You were already settled and comfortable, fast asleep in his bed. Covers brought up to your shoulders and your knees tucked up, curled like a baby snoozing soundly — or so Steve thought.
He smiled at the sight, content to know that at least you found his bed to be peaceful enough to sleep in. One hand came down to pull the covers up higher over you to keep you warm through the night. His palm lingering over your collarbone, watching and feeling you breathe in and out softly… the memory ingrained in his mind forever now.
“Night, sweet thing.”
It was a muted murmur, the last thing he was supposed to say before he switched off the light and headed downstairs to take the couch, but you had responded.
“Stay,” you stirred softly, shifting against the blankets as you picked up a throaty chuckle. Steve huffing out something about how you almost scared him to death.
But he grinned a tiny bit, crouching down to move the damp strands of hair that covered your cheeks. “You’ve been up this whole time?” he asked quietly, not wanting to invade the tranquil space.
“Mhm,” you crooned, peeping open your eyes to see him through your doziness.
His hair was still wet, itty-bitty beads of water sprinkling his exposed shoulders and the furs on his chest. He looked refreshed, but it was clear that he needed to get some much needed rest.
“We can share the bed, tonight,” you said faintly, bringing one of your hands up from beneath the covers to wrap around his wrist, “please?”
He swore you could feel his pulse in your touch, not that he minded. It felt so raw and so real different from anything he’s ever felt before. Everything about it felt almost sacred, like something out of his wildest dreams just feeling like he was needed by someone when he knew deep down it was him needing you all this time.
“Okay.” He nodded without faltering. He was met with you smiling sleepily at him, finally letting up on his wrist while you moved over to make space for him.
The lamp clicked off, cascading the room with complete darkness as he pulled back the covers and got in beside you. He was careful, putting a few inches between the both of you not knowing if closing it was something you were comfortable with.
“You can come closer,” you whispered quietly, letting your fingertips skim over his arm, letting him know he was alright to do so.
It was almost like second nature, his body drifting closer to you as you closed the remaining millimeters and draped your arms over his. You were like a bear clinging to him, yearning for his warmth and he was pleased to provide it to you on nights like this and forever, for that matter.
“Comfortable?” He chuckled bemused, looking down and seeing your head smushed under his pillow, seeking the proximity the same way he was.
“Extremely.” You sighed contently, breathing him in as your eyes fluttered shut.
Steve’s bed would never be the same, and it’s a sudden pang in his heart when he realized it because now you’ve turned it into a sacred oasis that he never wants to leave.
He swallowed nervously, letting his thumb trace circles over your shoulder. “I’m happy you’re here.”
“Me too…very very happy.” You replied sleepily, letting your head nod against his skin letting the sleep consume you.
Steve didn’t want to ruin the moment, to sound desperate when you were trying to fall asleep and so should he. But he just had to ask… to make sure this wasn’t all in his head even when it was so delicate already.
“Will you be here in the morning?” His voice was shaky, trying to keep it stable and composed.
You didn’t waste another second, more awake than ever, as you opened your eyes and smiled up at him.
“I promise.”
That night there wasn’t any silence or his parents fighting — no agonizing sounds keeping him from feeling like this wasn’t a holy place. It was your breathing, gentle inhales and exhales as he watched your chest rise, wondering if you were dreaming about him. With each passing second that he listened to your breathing, taking it in like a lullaby to his ears, he let his eyes float closed, drawing him somewhere where it was just you and him.
His footsteps echoed on the wooden stairs that he jogged down, turning towards the living room and into the kitchen where he was met with your back facing him.
You were still dressed in his clothes, a pair of striped boxer shorts rolled over your waistline and an old faded Hawkins track team t-shirt — they both looked better on you than it ever did him.
His cheeks rose, lips tugging into a smile as he approached you. His arms rested on either side of the counter, caging you in, “morning, early bird.”
“Morning, sleeping beauty,” you teased with a giggle, leaning into the peck that he pressed on your cheek before turning to him and frowning deceptively. He looked almost worried, like he might have done something wrong, but then you broke into a grin.
“I was gonna bring you breakfast in bed.” You admitted, turning your head to the dining table where you had already prepared some cut up fruit in a bowl with a side of honey and yogurt you found in the fridge.
He ruined your surprise, yet didn’t feel an ounce of regret. Instead, his heart flocked with fever, blood rushing, and his cheeks beginning to grow sore with how much broader he was smiling now.
Breakfast in bed? An actual meal and not just a piece of toast slathered in peanut butter… not that he would ever mind if you brought him that because he’d eat anything you’d give him. But this just feels other worldly.
“That’s sweet,” he replied appreciatively, letting the smile linger on his face because he was quite sure he couldn’t stop even if he wanted to — all of this was just too much for his heart to handle, “but you could’ve slept in, I wouldn’t have minded at all.”
He’d skip breakfast if it meant he got to lie awake in the morning sunlight and watch you dream until you woke. But he also wouldn’t want to pass out on this, the sweetness of the moment with you being here and doing this for him when you didn’t have to.
You shrugged, setting down the whisk you were using for the pancake batter and letting your arms wrap around his neck, stretching yourself into him in a hug. He doesn’t hesitate to wrap you up in his arms, cradling your back and pulling you closer.
“I wanted to… felt right.” Your words springing against his skin like a million tiny kisses.
Right there in that moment, everything felt right.
He pulled back just enough to see you, a pout playing on your lips not being able to hide away in his neck. “Well, at least let me help. I can make a mean scrambled egg.” He smirked, wiggling his brow as you glanced up at him and giggled.
You rested your chin on his chest, keeping your orbs on him, and you’re sure you looked a mess.
Hair still a little tangled within the hideous bun you tossed it up into this morning. And your face looking dull not having the chance to give it a proper wash and moisturize with your beloved products waiting at your apartment.
You shouldn’t feel your best, but all of those silly insecurities don’t seem to matter, not when Steve is looking at you with fondness in his eyes, like he’s done it a million times before. Taking you in like you’re the sunshine and he’s the flora, leaves eager to soak you in and bask in your rays for as long as you’d let him.
Nothing about this feels weird or nerve racking. If anything, it feels comfortable, like home. A kind of familiarity the two of you just decided to lie in together.
Finally, after all the morning ogling, you answer him. “I’d be a fool to pass out on it, Chef Harrington.”
You tapped your fingertips along the back of his neck and he laughed at the feeling, tucking his chin down and pressing a kiss to your forehead. “On it.”
Steve has moved around this kitchen many times before. He’s not the best cook in the world, almost cuts his fingers off every time he tries to finely chop ingredients or nearly burns himself with how hot he lets the pan get. But he knows how to cook food that tastes good and keeps him fed.
But you… you moved around his kitchen like it’s the waltz and you made it look effortless. The way you strode from the cabinets in search of something, eyes lighting up when you found the brown sugar and hugging it to your chest as you stepped back to grab a small bowl. You poured a teeny serving in, rolling the bag shut and striding back to put it where you found it.
You took the gooey eggshells from his hands as you swept past him, discarding them into the trash and giving your hands a wash under the tap before you dried them on a towel resting on the counter. Then you’re back at the stove, peppering a light dust of brown sugar over the raw pancake batter and giving them a flip.
It’s as if you rehearsed it — the rise and fall of every movement you make and how you make the space feel alive even in the early hours. It’s an addicting sight, like something Steve wants to watch over and over again in real time… but only, there are eggs in his pan and he’d be damned if he would mess up the first thing he’s ever cooked for you.
“What’s that for?” Steve cleared his throat with a cough, tearing his eyes from you and turning them towards the stove.
You hummed, facing him and observing how he pulled the raw eggs towards the center of the pan with the spatula. He’s focused — you’re about to have the best scrambled eggs of your life and the slight tip he gives the pan proves it to you.
“It gives them a little crust with some sweetness. That way, you don’t have to use too much syrup and it doesn’t get soggy by the time you’re done cooking them all.” You told him.
“And where’d you learn that?” He asked, taking his eyes off the pan and bringing them straight to yours.
Your shoulders bounced, bottom lip moving over your top one. “Nowhere specific, kinda just experimented, and it worked!”
Steve should’ve known… you’re far better in the kitchen than he is and he’d take all your advice, self taught or read in a cookbook.
“Smart girl.” He complimented with a coy smile as you grinned before you both turned back to the dishes.
The next seven minutes were spent with Steve plating the eggs and you forming a stack of brown sugar pancakes on top of one another. He worked on setting the table, grabbing extra napkins to get close by and making sure you both had clean glasses.
Even when you weren’t at home, you were always trying to be a good host. This time finding yourself in his fridge, moving bottles and containers over as if it would help you find something that wasn’t there.
“Are you sure you don’t want orange juice? I swear I could juice some right now!” You called out, eyeing the fresh fruits that sat in the produce drawer.
Steve barked out a laugh, head shaking, when you turned your head over your shoulder to see him. His eyes pointed to the table, the empty seat that was yours waiting for you. “Stop it! Water is fine… just come to the table, please.”
You huffed defeatedly with phony annoyance, strolling to the table with nothing in hand as Steve already grabbed you both a fresh cup of cold water. He made a scene, pretending to bow as he dramatically dragged your chair out for you while you covered your face and snickered behind them. You took a seat and even let him push you in.
The both of you opt to side by side instead of face to face — it was more comfortable and special that way, even when your knees occasionally bumped under the table.
“Thanks for doing this for me,” Steve spoke suddenly, grasping your wrist and holding it gently.
He said it like you didn’t use all of his groceries and made a mess of his kitchen. Like you were doing him a favor, something he didn’t deserve, when all you wanted to do was show him how much he deserved all the special moments of life, even homemade breakfast.
You grinned timidly, swinging your head as your other hand rested on top of his, rubbing your thumb across his knuckles. “It’s really no problem. You did let me spend the night and take your bed.”
His face fell with feign skepticism. “Technically, we shared,” he countered with a lifted brow.
You rolled your eyes, clicking your tongue. “Okay, yeah, but still! I wanted to do this…really really wanted to do this for you.”
Steve could read between the lines, understanding where you were getting at without actually saying it.
How yesterday the mental spiral had taken a toll on him even after you promised you would spend the night at his. He was particularly quiet, keeping to himself and not having the energy to do much talking, but you didn’t mind, frequently turning to him and offering a comforting glimpse, rubbing a tender hand over his shoulder to ease his nerves.
You didn’t make him feel like there was something wrong with him or try to force him into the conversations when he didn’t want to. Instead, you let him be and made it clear that everything was alright. That you would be there when he felt lost and scared, even if he striked out and had to crawl back home.
He shouldn’t have turned the night he was anticipating into a long road of catastrophic blues. The words the kids had said without thinking should’ve bounced off of him like nothing. But instead he spent the night beside you wondering if how he was feeling was a mistake, if it was really all in his head the way he thought it was, or maybe how wrong and selfish it was to ask you to stay the night.
The whirlwind of uncertainty floating away when you grabbed his hand from under the table and gave it three squeezes when no one was paying attention. It was then and there that he knew you didn’t have any plans to leave… at least not without him.
All of that was true, seeing as though you were here in front of him.
He smiled kindly, eyes full of gratitude for you taking the time to do this for him even if it meant you missed out a few more minutes of sleep. Soon he’d find a way to make it up to you, but he wasn’t quite sure if anything he did would top this.
The two of you plated yourselves some food, digging in and enjoying one another’s presence in the early morning air that enveloped you both. And as per usual, Steve wasn’t subtle when it came to something you’ve made yourself. His fork clinked against the plate after he took a bite of the pancakes, throwing his head back on the chair and moaning loudly as he chewed.
“You’re a dork!” You chided, shaking your head as you laughed and slapped a hand over your mouth.
His head lifted up slightly, patting his bare stomach and giving it a rub. “That’s incredible, you’ve gotta trademark that or something.”
“I don’t think I could trademark food, can I?” Your eyes narrowed, thinking if that was a possibility because it didn’t sound bad.
He shrugged, sitting up straight and cutting himself another piece. “No clue, but you should try it. This is better than the boxed stuff,” he said, popping the fork into his mouth.
“It’s not too tricky, I could teach you how to make the batter from scratch next time?” You offered with a warm smile, eyes showing how genuine you really were about it.
He smiled tightly, nodding his head and speaking with a half full mouth making you grin. “I’d keep the recipe a secret… promise.”
Like something alike, you wanted to keep him a secret, and you’d be his if he let you.
But it would be a shame for either of you to be each other’s secret. Neither of you wanted to hide the other away from the world — far from that, actually.
He’d shout it from the rooftops and you’d paint it in the skyline — how special you both were to each other even after this short time. Have you both known each other for twenty seconds or twenty years?
Neither of you knew nor did you care because all that mattered was the lifetime you wanted to spend together like this. How this morning and last night felt so easy, as if you’ve spent the night in each other’s arms and woke up in them in some past life before.
Time was funny, but you and Steve never minded, not when this kind of feeling was soaring through your systems at an alarming pace.
The table was quiet for a few minutes, just the forks running against the ceramic and tolerable chewing. The two of you were stealing glances at each other when he was too busy spooning yogurt into his mouth and when you stared out the window watching the birds fly by.
Steve dredged his fingers clean, propping his elbow on the table as he watched you pick up the ice cold glass of water and finally tear your eyes away from the window to catch him.
“How do you like Joyce and Hop?” He proposed, not getting the chance to ask you last night before you both went to bed.
You gulped down the water, eyes lighting up. “Oh, they’re wonderful! They were really welcoming and made me feel right at home.”
He wasn’t surprised at all; he knew they’d love you and you’d love them — Hop and Joyce practically talked your ear off and you seemed to enjoy it quite a bit, grateful that they were keen on getting to know you better without making you feel like you were being interrogated.
“Hopper didn’t bore you with his do-it-yourself kitchen renovation stories?” He questioned with a chuckle, reliving the vile conversation that came up during the dinner.
You scrunched your nose, catching his drift right away and your shoulders shuddering a bit. “I could’ve gone without knowing he found a huge rat in the walls, but at least now I know if I need an exterminator I could give him a call.”
“Trust me, he would have way too much fun going around and looking for things to fix.” He warned with no actual malice, just preparing you for the dad-mode Hop would be in if the occasion ever arose.
You snapped your finger as if you remembered something.
“Like the lock Max picked! It was pretty impressive, but I think it’s also a major safety issue.” Your voice falling with the realization.
He furrowed his brows, dropping his chin from his fists, face painted with worry and confusion. “Wait, Max picked your lock? When was this?”
“Oh, Robin didn’t tell you?” he shook his head, watching you sit up, “they stopped by that morning after you left and I guess I forgot to set my alarm and they were waiting outside in the hot sun so Max picked the lock to get in.”
You revealed the situation like it was totally normal for them to be breaking and entering. Meanwhile, Steve’s head was whirling with fear at how easy your lock must have been to pick if they managed to get in even after he was sure he locked it from the inside before he left.
He would definitely tell you later to get the locks changed for safety purposes.
Steve let out an exasperated sigh, letting his shoulders slump with disappointment. “I swore I told her to stop doing that.”
You lifted your brow suspiciously. “Did she pick your lock?”
“Worse.” He groaned, pinching his eyes shut at the memory from a few months ago. “She picked the lock to the arcade just after closing so she could beat Dustin’s high score on Dig Dug.”
You gasped, eyes widened slightly, and a laugh caught midway through your chest. “Did she get caught?” You asked partly stifled, not believing she could actually get away with it.
But he shook his head, further surprising you and somehow your eyes got larger, watching as he mimed her actions.
“She went to the back room and deleted the security camera footage before leaving. That’s when Robin and I closed up Family Video and caught her trying to leave out the backdoor.”
“What happened after?” You leaned in closer, waiting for the continuation of the story.
He lifted his hand in a dismissive manner, lips pursing accompanied with a playful tone in his voice, “Oh you know, classic lecture and threats of taking her to Hopper—”
You didn’t look convinced, narrowing your eyes. “She wasn’t scared at all was she?”
“Not one bit,” he deadpanned before smiling defeatedly, “she asked me to give her a ride home and gave Robin a stuffed animal she stole from the backroom.”
“You know she could make a stealthy spy.” You pointed your fork at him before stabbing a piece of apple on its prongs.
He crossed his arms across his chest and sneered, “Oh trust me, she does enough snooping… alllll of the kids do.”
“But they’re all really sweet. They probably all have good intentions and just might have questionable ways of going about it.”
He knew you were right, and yesterday was a prime example of that.
The kids meant well just trying to get him to finally fess up his feelings that had been harboring since the moment he laid eyes on you. Their goal was never to send Steve into such a mental spiral that it caused him to combust internally and detach for the rest of the night. It would be unfair of him to ever think that of them because it was far from what they were.
They all were good kids, cared about each other and wanted the best for everyone they loved, especially him. They all knew how much Steve sacrificed for them, plenty of times of almost getting fired for giving out free ice cream and letting them off the hook for returning their tapes late.
It was about time that they helped Steve in the only way they knew how, which was trying to encourage him to make a move on the girl of his dreams, and they had no idea it would have ended up like that.
He felt like an asshole for the way he acted towards them. They were young and just wanted to see him happy, but instead they saw him moody and petulant.
You didn’t miss the way his eyes glazed over, sitting stiffly in the dining chair instead of the relaxed way he was just moments ago. You reached out a hand, setting it on his forearm and letting it move and up and down.
“Are you okay, Stevie?”
He blinked, instantly melting back into the relaxed state once your touch was on his. A half smile quirking up on the corner of his lips, thankful for your concern and quickness.
“Thought I told you not to worry about me?”
Your concern faded slightly, a warm glint in your eye now. “Thought I told you I would, anyway.”
“I’m never gonna win, am I?” He frowned sarcastically, watching as your hand fell back to the table.
“Nope! Now, what’s on your mind?” You ordered, shifting your body to face him fully with your knees settling against his.
You looked determined to figure it out and try to help him. To get into his mind and kick those worries away. Your elbows resting on your thighs as you kept your eyes on him, patiently waiting until he was ready.
He ran a rough palm over his face, wriggling his shoulders. “Just thinking about how stupid I acted at the party last night. Felt like a ghost with how quiet I was.”
“You didn’t act stupid at all,” your voice filled with confidence while you shook your head, “you just needed a little break and there’s nothing wrong with that.”
“I felt like an asshole.” His voice trailed off with annoyance with himself.
“Don’t say that,” you pouted, poking his chest with a disapproving look on your face. “You’re not an asshole.”
He always found it endearing, your ability to always see the best in him, even when he knew he wasn’t at his best. Usually Steve’s always upbeat when it came to the friends and the kids, he’s known to be the friendliest of them all, but last night he felt far from that. As if he was the stranger sitting at the table lost in his own thoughts.
“You sure?” He asked like you’d ever lie to make him feel better.
You chuckled, nodding undoubtedly. “I’ve encountered a few assholes in my life and you’re waaaay off from one. You’re like the most non-asshole guy I’ve ever met.”
“Yeah?” This time a twinge of playfulness came with the question.
Nodding obviously, you leaned closer to him, your face hanging only inches away from his.
“A guy who memorizes a girl’s coffee order and picks up her favorite pastries when she’s far from a morning person?” Your lips curled into a smile. “I’m positive you’re not an asshole.”
Like a force of habit, his palm cradled your cheek, while you continued to stare up at him like he hadn’t been thinking so horribly about himself just moments ago. He was getting lost in your eyes; the ones filled with so much devotion and softness for the moment and how even this is enough for him.
“What if I just so happened to steal that cronut recipe?” He mumbled just clear enough for you to hear.
You pushed back against his touch, cheek rising suspiciously in the palm of his hand. “Why? Are you hiding it from me? Because if you are, then that’s cruel!”
A dimpled smile broke out on his face, closing his eyes blissfully and swinging his head no. There’s laughter erupting from you and he could feel it in the way the apple of your cheeks leaped against his palm. You didn’t shy away from his hand, letting yourself stick to him like the sweetest honey, and he didn’t care about the mess.
The real mess was whatever was in your systems.
He finally spoke. “No, but I know a stealthy spy who could help me break in and get it.”
You rolled your eyes, tongue in cheek. “You’re trouble, Harrington.”
The pulse point on his wrists felt your lips before he could comprehend what was happening. Your plush skin grazing his skin lightly, a kind of kiss that felt electrifying even when it wasn’t upon his own lips. It’s innocent yet still all around tantalizing, the urge to tell you that he’s crazy for you on the tip of this tongue more than ever now.
He was sure before that he’d go through all the trouble if it meant making you happy, but now he’s positive he’d even break into a family-owned establishment to get you that secret recipe – and most importantly, to feel you like this every morning.
His pulse was undeniably thumping against your lips, though you didn’t mind, letting them stay for a minute until the phone abruptly rang and you were tearing away from his hold, ripping yourself from him like a bandaid that took the skin with it. His wrist began to feel lonely, pulse feeling like it’s dying out not having you there anymore.
To your surprise, you weren’t feeling at all embarrassed, simply just giddy as he cursed apologetically and let his hand fall into his lap as he got up. “I’ll be right back.”
“I’ll be right here!” You vowed, tipping your head back to watch as he left the kitchen.
It was only seven in the morning and he never got calls this early. Ever. Unless it was the kids.
“Hello,” he answered, pressing the hunk of plastic to his ear.
“Hey, kid,” it was Hopper, “how are, umm, you and the girl?”
Steve peeked back into the kitchen, seeing you finishing up the rest of the cut up fruit. “We’re having breakfast right now. What’s up?”
“Honey! They’re already having breakfast!” Hop called out, sound a bit far away.
“Crap!” Joyce wailed out in the background.
Steve laughed, rubbing a hand over the back of his neck. “Sorry. If you would’ve called half an hour ago, we’d still be in bed.”
“You guys shared the bed?” Hop inquired, his voice accusing and curious at the same time.
“Well… yeah.” Steve didn’t have any reason to lie, but he was regretting it the second it left his mouth.
“Soooo… s’that why you both left early yesterday?” Hop suggested, sounding more interested in conversing now.
Steve turned away from the adjoining wall, cupping his hand over the receiver as he spoke sharply. “What? No! We left early because I was crabby and she was getting tired.”
A puff of air came from the other end, Hoppers laugh heavy. “You know you don’t have to lie—”
“Oh my god, I’m hanging up, now.” Steve’s fingers were ready to press the hook switch to end the call.
“Tell your girl I checked her tire pressure and added some air into her back left wheel, thing was nearly deflated.”
“Yeah okay, appreciate it. We’ll be there in a few.”
There’s talking in the background, he could hear Joyce saying something and Hopper attempting to cut her off with ‘yeah’s’ and ‘got' it’s.’
“And Joyce says she’ll save some breakfast sandwiches.” Hop grumbles.
“Okay, thanks, bye.” Steve said rushed, pulling the phone away from his ear.
He placed the phone back onto the rest, shaking his head a bit at the teasing he often faced from Hopper, but it was all in good fun. At times, he felt that Hop and Joyce were more like parents to him than his own. Hell, they knew more about his life than his parents ever did.
“Who was that?”
He took a seat beside you again. “Hop. I think Joyce made him call to ask if we wanted some breakfast.”
“Oh no, I hope she didn’t go through too much trouble.”
Steve shook his head, reassuring you. “She said she’d save us breakfast sandwiches for when we go and get your car.”
“That’s sweet of her.” You bubble, a smile replacing how apologetic you feel for missing out on her breakfast.
“And Hop said to tell you he checked your tire pressure and filled the back left one up with air.” Steve informed you, watching the way your eyes filled with appreciation and surprise.
“Oh my god, he’s the best! How much do I owe him?”
You’re a lot of things — talented, kind, beautiful, all around down to Earth, but you don’t know much about cars and he doesn’t blame you because they’re boring, but he now realized he can never let you walk into an auto shop alone and let you be victim to those premium air scams.
“Nothing, sweetheart. The air is free, and he just uses a special machine to fill it up.”
“But it must have taken him forever.” You protest with a deep breath, determination behind your voice like you’re sure of it and you want to compensate the old guy.
Steve’s face softened, moving over to clutch your hand and give it a squeeze. “He takes longer to pick up donuts and head into work. Filling up tires is easy peasy for him, I promise you.”
“You sure?” You bit your lip still feeling a bit bad for Hop going out of his way.
He nodded, giving your hand another squeeze. “Positive.”
“Did he say anything else?”
“Just curious as to why we left early last night. Told him I was crabby, and you were getting sleepy.”
“I wasn’t that tired.” You mumbled.
Steve scoffed, forehead creasing up because you clearly didn’t see yourself how he saw you last night. “Sweetheart, your eyes drooping on the drive home.”
“No, they weren’t!” You half-laughed in defense, palms resting on the table.
“You fell asleep so quickly last night.” He pointed, roaring at the way you gave in and blushed.
“I was just really comfortable.” You whined, lifting your eyes away from his in an attempt to stop yourself from looking like a dork.
“Yeah, you looked super comfortable. You were even snoring a little.”
You shrieked, a small scream coming from your throat and hands covering your face. “Was I?” God, that’s embarrassing!”
He wrapped his fingers around your wrists, working them away from your face without any resistance. Your eyes met with his smile and headshake. “No, it was cute! You’re just lucky you fell asleep first because had you not my snoring would’ve kept you up.”
“I think I’d be able to fall asleep either way. It was so comfy.”
What you really meant to say was that he’s comfy — practically was your space heater and human pillow. You would be a liar if you didn’t think that you were a bit too clingy last night, but he didn’t seem to mind from what you remembered and it felt nice not having to apologize for that. You know Steve would’ve told you if he didn’t like it; he was always honest with you.
“Would it be okay if I had another shower before we leave?” You watched him stack the plates, getting up and walking them over to the sink.
“Course! Go and I’ll take care of the dishes.” He replied, taking the bowls you had stacked from your hands.
You willingly handed them over, following him to the counters. “No, c’mon let me dry and you can wash,” attempting to reach into the drawers to retrieve a clean kitchen towel.
But he blocked you, keeping his hip attached to the wood. “No, go on and shower. I’m not moving till your butt is walking upstairs.”
You both knew he wouldn’t relent, not like the first time you’d stepped into his home and insisted you helped gather plates and cutlery. Things were different now, with time grew comfortability, but also playfulness and ease.
“Fine!” you fussed, trudging away dramatically.
“Did you need to borrow clothes?” He called out, arms folded over his chest as he watched you.
You halted near the doorway, spinning and wrapping your arms round the frame, smiling stupidly at him. “Please? I would use my clothes, but they still smell like charcoal.”
“Pick whatever you want, and leave the dirty ones in the hamper. I’ll do a load before we leave.”
“Thanks! You’re the best!” You singsonged, making your way up the stairs leaving him with the biggest love sick smile on his face.
The Harrington house has never felt this homey and for Steve it’s a feeling that he never wants to fleet. His fists running under lukewarm water scrubbing dishes that weren’t only used by him but by someone whom he wanted to stay with. The lip print you had left around the cusp of the glass, suds away, and he wondered when was the next time you’d be coming around.
Clean dishes pile onto the kitchen rag you laid out before you went to shower. He decided to let them air dry instead, making better use of his time by heading upstairs and grabbing the hamper of dirty laundry filled with both yours and his clothes.
Strolling down the hallway, he heard the sound of the running water in the shower accompanied by your hums to a tune he couldn’t pick up from behind the wooden door. Though it doesn’t fail to make him smile, pleased that you felt so comfortable at his place already. Turning into his bedroom, he fetched the laundry basket, twisting back around to head downstairs towards the washing machine.
Steve had never put much thought into actually taking the time to do separate loads of laundry, honestly just sticking everything in one wash and throwing them in the dryer as any other person would do. He was guilty, a few times some of his white t-shirts would dye a bright green from his work vest but they were replaceable.
It’s only then when your clothes are in his care that he takes the time to read the labels to make sure he’s washing them properly. Your floral long sleeve, safe to wash along with the rest of the other garments. But he doesn’t risk it with the denim overalls, deciding that it’s best for them to have its own cycle to prevent it from fading too much and wearing the material down.
A hefty scoop of detergent goes in with the wash before he clicks start, and the whirling begins.
Your fingers reached for the lotion bottle that sat on his bathroom counter, pumping a dollop into your palm and spreading it across your damp skin. Though it’s unscented, it still smelled like Steve, a hint of him layering itself over the body wash you just used in his shower a moment ago. When the two are paired together, it’s a reminder that you didn’t wash away his touch from last night or this morning, but now you felt like you were reapplying it like a second layer of skin.
You worked the tan buttons that lined the front placket through the buttonholes, leaving the first two undone for a more casual feel, letting it droop down one of your shoulders. Another pair of his boxer shorts, this time light blue colored, rolled up over your hips to fit snuggly.
Running your hands down your sides, you took a deep breath in the mirror, satisfied with the way you looked despite the slouchy fit to the oversized garments. You liked the way you looked in Steve's clothes, no matter how baggy they were on you.
“Let me fix…this,” you complained to yourself, motioning around your head before tugging your hair out of the bun and letting it fall down your back.
Your fingers worked through the roots, giving them a bit of volume while the other brushed the ends, untangling some of the knots. You sectioned your hair in half, keeping the top half in a little bun in the back of your head while the bottom half flowed down nicely.
Grabbing your damp towel off the counter, you hung it on the rack before hitting the light switch off and opening the door.
“Oops, sorry!” You yelped, running smack dab into Steve’s side as he walked by.
He tsked at himself, immediately stabilizing you by the shoulders. “Oh, shit, sorry,” he paused, the two of you laughing now before he looked down and realized what you were wearing. “Woah, you look nice.”
Your fingers played with the sleeves that nearly covered your palms, looking up at him through your lashes. “Hope you don’t mind. It looked nice.”
Steve shook his head, shamelessly admiring the way it looked on you. He hasn’t worn the button down in a few weeks, forgetting it was even in his closet, but glad you found it and picked it out for yourself.
“Looks better on you.” His hands rubbed up and down the sleeves before nodding his head towards his bedroom where you followed.
He headed for his closet, pulling the accordion doors open while you plopped down comfortably onto his neatly made bed, shifting onto your stomach as you observed him.
“Got any idea on what I should wear?”
“Dark jeans? Maybe some Nikes?” You suggested, propping your chin up on your arms.
“Nude top half?” He said, and you could feel the smirk in his voice.
You snorted. “Shut up. You’ll look good in whatever you pick.”
He plucked some pieces off the hangers, shutting the doors before turning to you. “Just teasing. I’ll be quick and then we’ll be out of here.”
“Take your time…do you mind if I sketch?”
You looked towards his desk, eyeing the yellow notepad that sat on top of the rest of his belongings. He nodded, walking up to it and grabbing a pen and pencil and handing them to you. “Go ahead.”
“Thank you!” You took it from him, getting to work as he walked across the hall.
You didn’t take yourself seriously with the sketch, drawing up whatever you had in your head. It’s what you had woken up to that morning—Steve’s arm slung across your stomach with his face in the crook of your neck. Snores and breaths greeting your skin in the purest kind of way, even if it had gotten you up a little earlier.
You wished you had a polaroid around to capture the scene, but thankfully your photographic memory wouldn’t ever let you forget it. Such a sight to see the sun peeking in through the cracks of the curtains, spilling a beautiful glow over his back that made each and every single one of his beauty marks stand out – now you were positive you knew where each other was.
He looked at peace, face no longer sulked and somber like it had been the night prior. The crease between his brow ironed out, not a glimmer of anxiety as he dreamed…if only you could convince him to stay right there forever because you didn’t want to share.
“Ready?”
Losing track of time when you were lost within the pen and paper wasn’t abnormal, but being pulled out of the trance by a beautiful boy was something new. You peered up from the page, breath hitched as you took all of him in.
A color block polo — dark blue to compliment the wash of his jeans and cream in the center. You liked to think he was matching you in a way.
“You look really good.” You complimented with a tight smile, capping the pen and rolling off of your stomach.
“You picked it so thank you.”
He turned to his drawers, pulling them open to get a clean pair of socks. Unbeknownst to him, you ripped the sketch off the pad, folding it and slipping it under one of the corners of his landline, just enough of it peeking out for him to find later.
You slung your bag over your shoulder, giving yourself a one over in the hanging mirror before Steve finally shut the drawer and turned back to you.
“The wash isn’t done yet?” He said, letting you walk in front before he closed his door behind him.
You hummed out a no, listening closely to hear the slight rumbling of the machine. “I can still hear it running.”
You both stopped at the front door, Steve leaning against the wall as he slipped his socks on and pushed them into his Nikes. Undoing the laces, he knotted them tighter, pulling the strings taut.
“I’ll pop them in the dryer when I get home and give you your stuff the next time I see you?”
“That’s perfect, and I’m sure we’ll be seeing each other soon.” You assured him, bending down as you strapped your sandals on.
He waited until you were ready, opening the front door for you and then reaching into his pockets for the keys. With your back facing him, you looked out on his driveway, seeing how the shiny red hood reflected the sunlight. It was practically spotless, not even a smidge of dirt across his front bumper — he must have really adored his car.
“You know, I don’t think I’ve ever told you how nice your car is.”
“You know she used to be cleaner before the kids started eating and leaving their crumbs behind.” He told you, his fingers twisted the front door to make sure it was locked, which it was.
“They’ve got you wrapped around their pinkies.” You nudged him as you walked down his driveway.
He wiggled the keys in the air. “Wanna give it a drive?”
“HA! You’re so funny.”
“No, I’m serious.” He added, placing the keys in your hands and closing your fingers around them.
“You’re gonna let me drive your fancy car?”
He laughed comically, unsure why it seemed so out of this world to you that he would let you drive his car. You’re probably the only person Steve trusted to drive it. You’re responsible, and unlike Eddie, he knows you won’t try to race the other cars on the road.
“You’ve got your license, which means you know how to operate a car. Fancy or not.”
“You sure?” You sought again skeptically, giving him one last chance to back out.
“I trust you. Now c’mon, I’ll give you directions and everything and this time you won’t get lost.” He assured you, walking over to the driver’s side holding the door open for you.
“You put way too much trust in me, Steve.” You puffed with a weak laugh, walking over to get in.
“Actually, just the right amount.” He patted the top of the hood before shutting the door.
He held his hands out for your purse, resting it in his lap as you began adjusting the seat and mirrors to your liking. Steve reminded you that it was okay to adjust it as much as you needed, that he would be able to fix it all back to normal later. Before you knew it, you were on the road, driving in probably the nicest car you’ve ever driven in your life while the radio played and Steve gave you directions to Joyce and Hop’s.
“And ladies and gentlemen, we’ve arrived…alive!” Steve cupped his hands around his mouth, announcing it with a deep voice as you giggled.
“Stop it!” You placed the car into park before nudging his shoulder with a feeble fist.
His hands let up, looking in your direction with a small smile showing up. “I knew you’d do good.”
“Got my half broken down piece of crap to thank.” You joked, jutting your chin to your less than adorned car parked beside his.
“You know Eddie’s uncle knows a thing or two about cars? Maybe he could check it out one day?”
“Oh my god, please?”
“I’ll call Eds today and see what Wayne can do.”
“You’re amazing.”
Steve felt like he’d been reduced to a fit of smiles and sore cheeks all morning, taking in your compliments and passing them back to you. He’s used to people thanking him, but never for the bare minimum parts he promises you he’ll never break. It’s something he could get acquainted with, and he hoped it would never end.
Within his peripheral vision, he could see the family begin to crowd the porch, watching through the windshield. “Looks like we’ve got a crowd.”
“I’m not surprised.” You retorted, making the first move to remove the key from the ignition and open the door.
“Morning!” You hailed out loud, tossing the keys over to Steve as he locked it up.
“You let her drive your car!” El exclaimed, though you were both pretty sure she meant it as a question.
“Mhm, she’s horrible, a menace to society. You should arrest her right now, Hop.” Steve answered seriously, patting Hop on the behind with a growing smirk.
“You’re ridiculous.” You snorted, waking over to give the kids and Jonathan a hug.
“Had a fun night?” Hop urged, leaning against the post.
You nodded, looking up at Steve. “More like relaxing… Steve’s shower pressure is perfect, better than the one I have at home.” You informed them, missing the smirks that fell on Hop and Jonathan’s faces.
Hop stuck his hand out, pushing at Steve’s shoulder roughly. “Oh, I’m sure Steve has the right amount of pressure somewhere else—”
Joyce erupted with a loud cough, picking up your attention and catching her stomp on his foot in the process, while he winced, cursing under his breath.
“Inside!” She blurted, clearing her throat and gesturing to the front door, "I’m gonna give you the dish you brought inside! I just washed and dried it a little while ago.”
“Oh, okay!”
The spectators on the front porch waited until you were out of reach to start talking about what was going through their minds since you and Steve left last night. It was a short goodbye; you thanking Joyce and Hop for having you over and giving everyone else a hug while Steve waited by until you were done. Safe to say, once you both drove off, they all speculated on what was going to happen and why you were really spending the night at his.
“You’re disgusting, dad.” Will scowled, shaking his head with revulsion.
Hopper ignored him, looking over at Steve. “She’s wearing your clothes.”
“Okay and?” Steve said, looking a little annoyed at how anyone was crediting him for the truth.
“You two had sex.” He declared flatly, a grin tugging up on his lips as the porch exploded with grunts and obscenities to shut up.
“Oh, my god!” Jonathan choked on his spit, turning away and laughing.
“Gross!” El yelped, covering her tomato red face.
“I think I’m gonna barf.” Will declared, dramatically clutching his stomach.
Steve rolled his eyes at their ignorance, arms crossing over his chest. “Believe it or not, I don’t need to have sex with her to have a good night.”
“Wow, isn’t that the first?” Jonathan bantered with a satirical inflection in his tone.
“Is that a hickey on your neck?” Steve narrowed his eyes, pointed at the purple bruise hiding behind his messy hair.
“I’m definitely gonna throw up.” Will gagged, turning away and covering his mouth.
El frowned, looking down at her chipped nails. “Is that why Nancy didn’t want to paint my nails last night?”
Hop looked between the youngest and the oldest. “I thought she left with Robin after the barbecue.”
“Oh my god, this isn’t about me!” Jonathan stammered, slapping a hand behind his ear to hide the love bite.
“What happened?” You buzzed, strolling back out to the porch with the glass bowl in hand and Joyce beside you.
Steve grinned wickedly, happy that he got them off his back, turning to Jonathan and smacking him over the head lightly. “Nothing, just teasing him.”
“Speaking of, Jonathan, don’t you need to give her something?” Joyce’s eyes darted to the back of his pocket where the flyer was folded up.
He reached behind him, passing it over to you, Steve taking the bowl from your hands so that you could unfold it and read its contents. A bright graphic announcement of a farmer’s market that would be hosted in Hawkins next weekend.
“Nance meant to give it to you last night, but she forgot,” Jonathan began, “We’re trying to get the town rallying behind small business before they all get driven out. She was wondering if you wanted to help out and host a booth.”
“Like a bake sale?” You proposed.
He shrugged, looking over at his brother for some guidance. “Kinda, but she was thinking of it as a bake sale and art sale combined.”
Will chimed in without missing a beat. “I pitched the idea to Nance, and she seemed to really like it. I could help you manage the booth. I’ll take the art side and you can handle the baked goods, then we switch around the halfway mark.”
“That’s genius.” You grinned, reaching back to rubbing his shoulder proudly.
“No really, you guys should do it.” Steve supported from behind you knowing that you would be great at something like this.
El let out a gasp, clutching your shoulder lightly as she wedged herself between you and Steve. “I can help with the money! I’m getting better at counting change!” She spoke bubbly, making you and him laugh.
“Nancy’s covering the whole thing and writing a paper about it. She’s really hoping to get it published.”
You’d help out either way knowing that this was an important cause, but hearing about how Nancy was the leader of this whole thing made you want to help even more. She was so passionate when talking to you about her love for writing and keeping these mom-and-pops in her town up and running — you were definitely in.
“Well, tell her I’d be happy to help!” You replied warmly, folding up the paper and sticking it in your purse.
“Great! I’ll let her know!”
You twisted your head, looking over at Hop. “Oh! And thank you for filling up the tire!”
“No problem, kid.”
“It didn’t take you long, no?”
“Easy as could be.” The older man assured you with his tongue clicking.
“Told ya.” Steve smirked, pressing his elbow gently into your side, making you giggle.
The two of you didn’t notice how the family was watching the way you and Steve interacted like a couple, so oblivious to the small touches and teasing that usually never came with everyone else. It was the kids who stepped forward, breaking up the love dove fest between the both of you. Will slung his arm over Steve’s shoulder and El rested her chin on his shoulder with those puppy eyes that the babysitter could not say no to, even after the meltdown last night.
“Steve, could you give us a ride to the arcade? Lucas and Max are already there.”
Steve scoffed, glancing over at the other adults around. “You’ve got your parents and your brother here who all have licenses you know.”
“Hop and I are gonna go run errands!” Joyce clapped her hands, gawking up at Hop who snapped out of it and nodded agreeingly.
“Gotta go see Nancy.” Jonathan tried to excuse himself.
It was no use. Steve was ultimately the go-to chauffeur, the best and safest driver who wouldn’t only take them to point A and B, but stayed until they were ready to go back home and occasionally gave them spare change when they ran out.
“Go get changed.” Steve exhaled, utterly defeated.
El and Will cheered, detaching themselves from his sides before engulfing you in a quick, yet tight hug. “Bye! We’ll see you!” They said before rushing inside.
“Bye-bye, kiddos.”
Steve looked over at you, tilting his head towards your car. “C’mon, I’ll walk you.”
You nodded, twiddling your fingers at Jonathan and his parents. “Bye guys, thanks again!”
“See ya sweetie.”
Steve stepped a bit ahead of you, opening the driver door when you clicked the fob before moving towards the back seat and putting the dishware on the empty seats. You waited until he shut the door before reaching up and wrapping him up in a hug.
Your bodies molded together, like they’ve done times before, holding one another properly like it was routine by now. His face in the crook of your neck while you tiptoed and rested your forehead under his jaw.
“Drive home safe okay?” He squeezed your back, feeling the skin indent through the garment.
“I will.” You promised, taking a deep breath of him in, savoring everything right now.
“Thank you.”
“Don’t let anyone beat Max’s high score on Dig Dug.” You spoke half jokingly.
“I’ll try.” He huffed out against your neck
“Tell me about it later.”
He gave your back one last gentle squeeze, pressing a kiss to your temple before he released you and let you get into the front seat. You hadn’t made the move to close the door yet, just settling in by placing your bag on the passenger seat and twisting on the ignition.
“You still have a full tank?” Steve peered a ways bit in, his focus on the arrow on your dashboard. He got a glimpse of the red light that switched on, making a mental note to bring it up to Eddie later today.
You took a peek, nodding and looking up to meet his gaze. “A little more than half. I should be okay for the drive home.”
“Okay, sorry, just wanted to make sure. Didn’t want you running out on the highway.” He apologized sheepishly, raking a hand through his hair.
“No, it’s alright, it was sweet.” You giggled, moving up to tuck a stray piece of hair away from his eyes.
He gulped, your hand still trying to place the piece with his roots. “See you in a few days?”
“Yeah,” you smiled, nodding your head, “a few days.” You agreed, fingertips finally trailing over his cheek and jaw before falling back into your lap.
“O-okay… great, awesome, get home safe.” He sputtered slightly, eyes still holding yours.
“You too! Oh, and Steve?” You stopped him from moving away from your car, though he wasn’t making plans to, anyway.
“Yeah?”
“I might have left something on your desk, but you can just check it out later okay?”
“Something important? I can drive down and get it real quick?”
You shook your head immediately. “No, no, I mean yeah, it’s important, but not that important… well I kinda hope that it is important, to you I mean — sorry, am I rambling?”
“Not at all.” He said, biting back a chuckle.
“Just…just check it out when you get home okay?” You asked, voice fluttering with desperation like you needed him to find it.
“Promise.”
You took a deep breath in, smiling wistfully and feeling your chest tighten having to say goodbye. “See ya, Steve.”
“I’ll see you, cupcake.” He assured you, tapping the hood of your car and shutting your door gently.
It’s been hours since this morning. The day slowly dwindled into night by the time Steve parked his car in the driveway and unlocked the front door. He was only able to pop in for a few minutes before he brought the kids to the arcade, throwing the clean laundry into the dryer and saving your overalls for when he got home. Slipping his shoes off, he made a beeline to the laundry room, tossing the denim material into the machine before emptying the dryer and taking the basket with him.
“Fuck,” He spat, stubbing his toe near his desk in the darkness before clicking on the lamp for a little bit of light.
He dropped the basket onto the floor, making plans to fold and put them all away before he went to bed. But eyes caught the bright yellow paper tucked under his home phone, crimped into fourths with his name written in a heart on it.
It was you who left it and he knew it. His hand springing forward and nearly toppling the phone off the desk all together as he seized it and swiftly opened it up without ripping.
A sketch of you and him in bed. You’re lying awake, facing towards him with your hands resting on his arm that’s sprawled over your stomach. His face is partly hidden in your neck, yet you’ve detailed everything like the bridge of his nose and the curve of his jaw. Even the freckles that litter his skin are dotted in the blank ink. Glimmers of sunlight created with the gray graphite along with the creases of the bed sheets covering the bottom half of your bodies.
Even for a sketch, he knows this is unreal, the talent you have, insane for drawing this up in the matter of his fifteen minute shower. He should have been looking at himself, appreciating how much thought you put in to making sure it looked exactly like him, yet he’s looking at you.
How you’ve drawn your face with somehow all the emotions that he can feel through this piece of paper. That while he was asleep dreaming of you, you were awake watching him. It’s intimate, like you’ve let him know what you’ve both been feeling all this time and finally confessed.
In the prettiest and neatest handwriting he’d ever seen, you had left a message in the blank corner.
‘You look pretty when you’re sleeping, Stevie. Not gonna forget like an idiot this time… xxx-xxx-xxxx.’
Steve had never picked up the phone and dialed so speedily that he had to hang up and redial, totally messing up and pressing the wrong numbers the first time.
It’s been hours since you departed Hawkins. The drive back to Roane was uneventful but still smooth, hitting no traffic and even crunching enough time to stop by the diner to say hello to Dorothea and catch her up on life.
You had spent the rest of the day fueled with energy and anticipation. The second you walked into your apartment you felt a spark of motivation. Something calling you back to the piece you had abandoned only 24 hours ago. Now you had a clear mind and no thoughts of feeling like the sketch looked like garbage — even if it was a flicker of false inspiration, you’d take it.
Half of the sketch had already been painted by the late afternoon. Different shades of browns you had mixed together for the golden crust of the pie as well as the lattice design you had freehanded. Only parts of the cherry filling had been painted with a red too red for your liking, but you’d go back in tomorrow to refine it instead of beating yourself up then and forgetting about the progress you had made.
You were trying to be nicer to yourself.
Little progress still meant progress, and that was the one thing that mattered. That finally something in your system was flowing the way you wanted it to, and part of you felt like it was Steve. Possibly his reminder echoing in the back of your head that the act of trying was literally you trying, and that in itself was good enough.
You were good enough and the progress you made was good enough.
Breathe. Take it in. Breathe out. Take it in.
The act of you literally doing breathing exercises in front of your painting could’ve been seen as narcissistic. Maybe it was? But for you, it meant something a lot different. It was you patting yourself on the back for what you did and making mental notes of what you could’ve improved on without openly criticizing yourself so harshly.
You were so good to other people; you had to find it in yourself to be good to you. To treat you the way, you treated others — how you complimented everyone for doing their best and how you should’ve been doing the same all this time.
It was never too late to break down that old system….to grow and be better.
You had walked away from the canvas minutes ago, busy in the kitchen grabbing a little snack and figuring out what you were going to have for dinner or even if you had any energy left to make some. A hot bag of popcorn came out of the microwave and you popped open a soda, going to sit at the table for a little downtime before—
RING! RING! RING!
“Eeeek!” Squealing you nearly tripped over the coffee table, rushing towards the phone juggling your snacks as you struggled to figure out what to do first — put everything down or answer the phone.
“Hello!” You answered nearly out of breath yet cheerfully, gasping quietly as you caught your can of Coke before it tipped over and made a mess.
“Hey!” Steve’s voice rang through the other line, and he sounded just as delighted.
“Steve! Hey….” you paused, catching your breath, “y-you found my sketch?”
“It’s my newest prized possession.”
“I missed you… I-I mean, I missed hearing your voice. We literally just saw each other this morning.”
Somehow it felt easier to talk to Steve in person rather than on the phone–even if it meant he could physically see you blushing and smiling like a maniac. Yet he found it cute, how you tried to cover your tracks as if he didn’t feel the same way and could imagine what you looked like right then.
“I missed you too — you’re voice and you.” He said, making you smile wider.
“What are you up to?” You asked, getting comfortable on the floor.
“Laying in bed, still looking at the drawing while talking to you.”
“Are you sleepy?” You wondered, realizing the hour and the day he must have had.
“No! Sorry… I just didn’t want you to think I’m tired. I mean I am tired, but I’m not tired enough to not want to talk to you.” He said convincingly, though his stumbling over words made you second guess it.
“You can always sleep if you want to…we could talk tomorr—”
He cut you off with an abrupt disapproving hum. “Don’t even think about it!”
You giggled, shoulders rising and falling comfortably before you started up. “You’ll never guess what I did today!”
“Steal the cronut recipe?” He guessed without skipping a beat.
“Oh my god, no!”
“Fineee tell me.”
“I painted!” You exclaimed, voice rising higher, “like actually. really. painted. something with my own hands and I didn’t look at it and think “wow this looks like shit,” I did it!”
You sounded proud of yourself, and he hoped you were feeling that just as much on the inside. Only a week ago, you were tearing yourself apart in the diner where you sat across from him, and he could do nothing but speak encouraging and honest words to you, hoping you’d see it through the way he did.
If he was there, he’d give you the biggest hug in the world then take you out to the diner. This time he’d actually grab the bill before you could and bring more quarters so you could play an unlimited amount of love songs and dance with him until your bellies were full and your legs were tired.
You wished he was here.
“Oh, sweetheart, that’s great! What’d you paint?”
You swallowed, peering up at the canvas that was drying. “It’s uhh… it’s a surprise!”
“Surprise?” He said, literally taken by surprise.
“Yeah! So I can’t tell you.”
“Well, I’m looking forward to seeing it… maybe soon?”
“Fingers crossed.”
That was enough for him… a promise that one day, whenever it may be, he would get the chance to see it with his very own eyes instead of just hearing about it. He already knew he’d be complimenting it and you for days on end, you’d probably get sick of it, but he wouldn’t.
“You’ll never guess what happened today.” Steve began shuffling a bit on his bed to get comfortable.
You gasped, reaching for your popcorn and tossing some in your mouth. “Did Dustin beat Max’s score?”
“Worse.” He said behind a strained laugh.
“Oh god.”
“Mike did!”
You slapped your hand down on the coffee table, making him chortle on the other line, knowing you’d react like this. “Oh, my gosh! Tell. Me. Everything!”
“It’s a long one.” He warned you, hoping you had the time to give him.
You scoffed jokingly, grabbing your snacks and leaning back on the couch cushions. “I’ve got all night, Harrington.”
Your midnights. Your mornings. Your afternoons. He hoped he could have them all... he wasn't sure if it was too soon for all of that, if the idea of having them already thought up in his mind was cool or not.
But he'd just have to hope that everything... all of this, you and him.
It was delicate, but it didn't always have to be.
“Lucky me.”
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