dude i can't even draw srs,when I'm trying to draw something i just can't

That's weird,it's never happened to me before

So yeahhh,sry if i won't post much

tw s/h mentions

losing hope. sometimes i feel like cutting myself again. sometimes the idea of killing myself happens at random parts of the day. i want to find a fulfilling hobby. i really like learning languages so itd be nice to become fluent in my mother tongue, tagalog. i want to have something to look forward to. i feel so isolated. i feel so lonely. i feel so sorry for myself. i just want to disappear. i dont want to speak to people anymore. my extraversion has disappeared. i wish i laughed from my gut more often. i wish i had a group i belonged to. i wish people wanted me around. i wish i could stop being such an idiot. i wish i wasnt such a fool and i wish i wasnt insane. i wish i could know im not crazy for feeling this way. i wish i could hate him. i wish i had a reason to hate him. i wish i had someone to blame. i wish things were back to normal. i wish we were just friends again. i wish i had more to hold onto every day. i wish i could find a reason to stay. i wish people wanted me to stay. i wish i wasnt so miserable for no good reason. i wish i never followed my feelings. i just wish i was okay. i wish that everything was over. i miss when i was okay. i miss when i was happier. i miss when i would laugh from my gut every day. i miss the people in my life who shaped me into who i once was. i miss who i once was.

Ciri feels a bit like she's been in the way, once Geralt and Milek become closer - like she held him back somehow.

The thing I think is crucial about this - things went wrong and Geralt missed out on seeing Milek growing up - but Geralt is a dad. The parallels are there.

the only downside of my personal art and self portraits being semi well received (thank u by the way) is that on occasion some wah wah transphobe blog will get ahold of it and sing my praises of Wombmanhood and Femininity. which is so fucking funny, because terfs harassed me relentlessly about the fact that I pursued a breast reduction (butchering my body, reducing my femininity, being brainwashed, and so on) only to sing praises to my current body as The Natural Female Form. very, very funny. I normally do portraits of my body, for the extremely, *extremely* obvious reasons, which include but are not limited to: I have infinite reference images of my own body. but I think I would like to expand, in the future

No shade, but like I hate how many times you ask folks a question about trans healthcare and they’re like “this is actually very doable! Just live in Seattle/Portland :)” like come the fuck on

saw on twi/tumblr photoshop of Valteil as a maid, so i decided to draw him in few maid costumes

I think I’m gonna have to ask for an extension on this paper but i hate doing that so much I might drop out instead

Can you believe William Afton is British pretending to be from like the Americas or Utah or something (at least in one popular fan comic, afaik) and then we have c!Wilbur being from Utah pretending to be British?

Anyway I'm Very happy to see you drawing fnaf esp peepaw Afton :]

I actually think c!wilbur sucks and wilbur soot should never be forgiven for the handling of that character it suckeddddd it sucked badly and I find 0 humor in the assassination of a rly promising arc about suicidal ideation, ptsd, and codependency. Fuck that ending

however. William afton is just slasher evil man who came to America to fuck around and (unlike cwilbur) find out!!!!!!

Yaaaay thank u btw I’m working on a big ol piece I wanna make into a print ^__^

Do you know how hard it is to be an artist when making art causes you literal physical agony and then when you do push through and try to make something, god willing you actually finish it, you look at it and go “this is shit actually.” Like no fucking wonder I haven’t made anything except for like one fic that got like 12 kudos in the last six months. And the only reason that got written was because my OCD was so bad it was write it or perish by Intrusive Thought

every day i think abt how the first ever gacha video i ever saw was a ninjago singing battle

me when my brain tells me to not be normal about anything im remotely interested in

i know there r largely many problems w pjo and rick riordan and the disney series and i dont engage w the content at all anymore but i vividly rmmber reading the nico outing scene as like a 4th grader and it unwired and rewired my brain so heavily i had a visceral reaction to it yrs before i wld realize why i had a visceral reaction it was and still is so so hurtful

noooo >.<

Slowly strangling to death the part of my brain that snidely asks 'can you be normal for 5 seconds' anytime I get emotional about 'silly' things

i couldn’t believe when i saw you on my notifications.. DORI I LOVE YOUR WORKS SO SO MUCH YOUR SVT’S BF HABITS GOT GIGGLING seriously cant believe we’re moots now im so happy omg omg

SHUT UPPPPPP ur so sweet what the hell 😿😿😿 i gen didn't know u followed me i was just so happy to find a new svt smau to focus on (LMAOAOO??) but omg im so glad u enjoyed my svt bf habits im so proud of those so thank u sososooso much 💔💔 im glad we are moots now hihi i hope ur having a nice day/night and im excited for the next chapters of ur smau MWAH MWAHHHH