Okay uh how do you prepare for an interview that's not like, your basic interview. This isn't a Walmart or McDonald's interview, with the same basic questions online that anyone can access. This is an important interview and I don't know how to prepare because there aren't example questions online. I had an interview for this organization last year, different branch tho, but my memory is a disaster so I can't really remember anything. Plus, that interviewer and this interviewer have very different energies. AND I have a different interview for that same organization, just a different branch, coming up too.

I made that confusing.

I'm applying for an organization with branches all over. Last year I interviewed for the California branch, but I can't remember much of it. On Monday I have an interview for a Pennsylvania branch, and on Wednesday an interview for... I can't remember where it is tbh.

The Pennsylvania one is the one that I really really want, so it scares me that it's the first one up. Do you know how long it's been since I've interviewed for a job? It's been *tries and fails to count months* idk like a year? And that was for Starbucks. Customer service jobs all recycle the same questions. "Tell me about a time you delegated. Tell me about a time you dealt with a difficult situation. If a customer was dissatisfied with their order, what would you do to fix it?" And at this point in time, customer service jobs are barely asking any questions. At one of my last jobs he just asked about my previous work experience, why I wanted to work there, how long I was looking to work there, he gave me a tour, asked if I wanted to work there, I said yes, I was hired on the spot.

I had an interview at one Starbucks and she told me they weren't really hiring (idk why she gave me an interview but it was still nice), but we talked about my ambitions and hobbies, which was lit, I found out the interviewer is gay, and I got a free drink. Then she recommended me to a different Starbucks in the area, which actually asked me those normal basic questions, I got a free drink, and I was hired on the spot. Those were my latest interview experiences.

I'm a little hopeful for my interview on Monday though. In the email, the interviewer said "I'd like to find a time to have a conversation with you as an "interview"" and since he phrased it like that I'm hoping that it'll be more like my first Starbucks interview, which is easy.

Idk I think I really want that job. It's a huge opportunity but also a huge commitment. It'd be a year, across the country from where I currently live. It sounds like an amazing opportunity for me. Last year when I applied I asked an old teacher to be a reference, and she said that it seemed like the opportunity and I were made for each other. Plus, this location is just an hour away from my sibling.

This post became a lot longer than I thought I would. Interview on Monday. Different interview on Wednesday. I don't know how to prepare for either. I really want the job. I am full of so much anxiety.

WIBTA for mentioning college again to my online friend, despite her telling me she knows it's not for her/not making a decision about it right now?

We both turned 18 this year, and are in our last years of highschool, and hopefully will both graduate this year! We met two years ago, and call and play games together sometimes, send each other selfies, share our silly crushes—she's the best girl friend I have right now and im very grateful for her.

Some info about me: both of my parents grew up very low income and from rough places and got full scholarships/a deal(like they pay for your college, and then you work for them after), because of this they're financially doing much better than both their families(my mother regularly sending money back home to pay for surgeries , bills, etc.). All of this is to say I've been raised with the mindset that higher education is my ticket to bettering my life, and I take school very seriously. I live in an area with a lot of immigrants, and all my friends do plan on going to college. Here is my disclaimer that I know college is *not* for everyone, and you do not need to go to college to be successful. But my friend is in the same stage in life as me, and I think it could be beneficial for her. She's not the best student at all(also home-schooled and does online schooling), but she's passing all her classes. We've talked about it before and I've asked if she's thought about college, and she said no because everyone in her family who went was just left with debt. Additionally she's not motivated in school now, so she doesn't think she would be motivated in college and would just end up as a "money dump". She's also talked about college with her mom, who said that she was only 18 and didn't need to make decisions about it right now. Right now her plan is to get a minimum wage job after high school(she's mentioned a fast food chain). I do think it would be good for her to get out of the house because right now she's basically stuck at home because her mom doesn't like going places. To my knowledge she has no friends irl, because of the homeschooling. Which is one of the reasons why I think college would be great for her--the chance to be with other people your own age.

We've only talked about college one time where I just asked, and after that I haven't mentioned it because I don't want to act like I have any say in her life decisions or make her feel bad. I've just been thinking about it lately because logically to me it seems like if she did want to go to college, now would be the best time because she would have the support of her online school where she has a counselor. Her mom didn't go to college and she isn't in regular contact with her dad.

For more context my family is middle class and I'm not sure what her financial situation is, but I do know comfortable but not deeply so. I would hate to bring up college if it's something she knows she cant afford( but long term I think going to college would help her make more money than any job she started now, which is why Im thinking about bringing it up again). I don't know if this is enough context, and I'm willing to provide more! I'll admit I'm not the smartest teen out there, so if you see any thing wrong with my thinking or think I'm a total asshole please tell me and I'll check my behavior. Im also keeping in mind her lack of motivation that she mentioned she had in school, and of course her mental health and wellbeing is of like. the utmost importance.

so, would I be the asshole for bringing up college with her again, despite knowing her situation? I really love this friend and the last thing I would want to do with her is be disrespectful and insensitive. thank you for very much, Tumblr! any advice you can give in the comments would be greatly appreciated.

What are these acronyms?

My first

Pairing’s: Lo’ak x metkayina!Reader

Summary: Lo’ak wanted you to be his first everything and you were all for it.

Warnings: none other than flirty Lo’ak, and some tension

Word count: 1,436

Everything to Lo’ak seemed beautiful and better beneath the surface especially the sea life, oh and not to mention you. The way the water surrounded you and made your skin almost glow in such a beautiful way made him smile. He saw the light from above almost create a spotlight for you as if nothing mattered but you. Your hair floated almost perfectly in the water some braids went up and others stayed with your curls. Your arms swayed to keep you in place underneath the water your eyes were glistening from the light above. Lo’ak couldn’t help but watch your gorgeous figure move with the water. He was so inlove with you. It was something he hated to admit and wouldn’t admit it first.

He grabbed your arm and pulled you close to him as a swarm of fish swam infront of the both of you causing the light from above to almost flicker through the water. The light would come and go in different colors due to the scaled fish that swam by. The both of you swam back up and he gave you a wide smile. Smiling back you splashed water on his face and swam as fast as you could towards the shallow part of the waters. He caught up and you helped him up out of the water. “That was fun did you see the fish!” He said in such enthusiasm as you pushed the hair that was stuck to your back to the front of your body on your shoulders. “Yes Lo’ak!” Was the light response you gave him and he watched as you walked away from him he sighed and followed before he was pushed back by Neteyam.

“Hey man let her take a breather from you!” Neteyam spoke with laughter. Lo’ak rolled his eyes before pushing on his older brothers shoulder. “Your such an idiot Neteyam! This could’ve been my chance!” He sighed and looked down. “Don’t beat yourself up there will be plenty of chances Bro.” He said as he patted on Lo’aks chest repeatedly. “Now come on we gotta eat man!” Neteyam said while running towards Kiri who stood from afar. Lo’ak looked behind his shoulder before shrugging off.

Sitting down with his family he couldn’t help but smile at the memories from a few hours ago. Kiri kept a close eye on him knowing exactly what was going on. She eyed down Neteyam too and he gave her a look to not bring up whatever she was thinking of in her tiny head. She looked back at Lo’ak with a smirk on her smug face. “Soo.. Lo’ak how’s it with you know who??” Kiri said before she was pinched by Neteyam. Jake looked up from his food and over to his older kids. “What’s with it guys?” He asked and Neytiri stared at them in confusion. “Mm.. nothing your sons just inlove with a pwetty pwincess!” Kiri mocked and ended up getting smacked by Lo’ak. She rubbed her noggin and Jake warned them to stop.

“Lo’ak?” He knew exactly what was going to be asked by his mother Neytiri. “Who is this girl?” She asked as she looked up from helping Tuk finish up her last bite. Lo’ak threw his head back and sighed deeply giving Kiri a look. “She’s just a girl I met. Her name is Y/n mom and I like her im not in love.” He stated while looking back at Kiri all while mouthing “you’re dead.” She giggled and stuck her tongue out at him. “Well that’s good maybe you could become the next leader.” Neytiri spoke as she looked over at Jake. “Yeah we will see about that if Neteyam doesn’t win that spot first.” Lo’ak hissed at his brother who sat opposite of him. “Well let’s not get too ahead of ourselves. Now eat.” Was the last word spoken at dinner before they all went to sleep. Yet Lo’ak couldn’t sleep when all he could think about was you, it was as if you were invading his headspace and he wouldn’t lie and say he didn’t like it. With the talk of being the next leader he wasn’t even sure if that’s what he would even want. He knew that above all things he’d do it with you by his side. But that would be tough considering the fact that your not from his clan your from the Metkayina clan! There was no way in hell your parents would ever allow it. He would probably have to live with that.

The next day was a great day already because it started with you. He saw you after eating breakfast with his family. You both went for another swim adventure together still teaching him the way of the water. By the end of it you couldn’t stop giggling because Lo’ak couldn’t take control over his ilu under the water. He was a little mad he still hadn’t gotten the hang of it yet. It was beginning to get dark and you took him to your favorite place where the flowers glowed and the water reflected beautiful colors all around. The waterfalls in the distance had a pretty teal glow to them. You smiled everytime you walked into this place. It had surrounding walls of rock and it was opened up at the top to where you could see the night stars and the moons that surround Pandora. The stars from above lit your face perfectly according to Lo’ak. He looked over at your hands and then his. He was a complete outcast to the rest he thought. “Hey” You spoke gently as you took his hand in yours. “We are the same remember?” Assuring him that he is none of the things he says he is. He isn’t a freak or an outcast. He is the same as the rest and no difference will make him either of those things. He liked how you could read things out and know what’s happening. You were his comfort and he was yours.

You held his hand up palm to palm with yours. “We are one.” The words slipped through your mouth like silk. He smiled at your kind words. “I see you, my Lo’ak.” Was a soft whisper and it played like music to his ears. Yet he couldn’t say it back. You completely understood that he wasn’t as open as one should be but you still loved him for him. He looked up from your hands and looked at the moons, smiling he turned back to you, “You know what I’d do to give you every moon including Pandora!?” He mumbled in an audible tone and all you could do was laugh, “Oh calm down Mr. Loverboy!” You laughed as you gently hit the side of his face and he came back at you and getting ontop of you and your giggling soon stopped. It was a bit angsty now and tension filled the air. Lo’ak was looking into your eyes and you stared at every single detail on his perfect face. His bright eyes glistened with the reflection of the water. He stared from eye to eye and down to your lips the lust in his eyes was so obvious. Lifting your head from the soft grass your lips graced over his, lightly his bottom lip was dragged by yours. Kissing him was almost like drinking the sweet syrup that came from the giant leafs of the forest. His lips were plump and soft. Your hands went to each side of his face caressing his warm cheeks.

Pulling away his wide eyes opened and got lost in yours. Lo’ak couldn’t speak and he knew that if he did he would ruin the moment but he couldn’t stay silent, “Oel ngati kameie.” Smiling at his words you gave his another kiss. Sitting up you looked at him and gave him one final kiss. “Gotta get home my Lo’ak. Meet me tomorrow at the reef.” Helping yourself to another kiss on his cheek before leaving. He got up and ran as fast as he could towards his family. Yelling and awaking his parents and his siblings too. “Guess who got their first kiss! Ha you guys suck!” He bragged to his siblings and Neteyam couldn’t lie and say he wasn’t jealous. Y/n was the daughter of the chief and wasn’t an easy girl either. He was surprised his younger brother even got a chance. Lo’aks father couldn’t stop smiling he was proud. Lo’ak was ready for tomorrow and the next days to come as long as they were all with you.

THIS IS MY FIRST POST AND IT SUCKS BUT I WILL TRY TO GET BETTER AT THIS!!!🙊😭 ALSO PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU GUYS WANT A SECOND PART AND LET ME KNOW IF I SPELT ANYTHING WRONG!!!

staying in

an: yahoo! it's my first piece for my cuffing szn event! im currently under three blankets AND it snowed today so i felt inspired to write

pairings: husband!nanami x fem!reader

warnings: stress mention, food/eating mention, alcohol mention, nanami is a really good husband, pet names (love, darling, sweetheart) fluff, lowercase intentional

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every friday night, nanami takes you out on a date. some nights are small; dinner, dessert, and home right after. some are bigger; cooking classes, pottery classes, plays, dinner parties, or even catching a drink at one of the fancier bars. since it's friday once again, he spends the last hour of work deciding where to take you.

he doesn't want to give in, but a large part of him doesn't want to go out at all.

today has been freezing. the wind's been blowing non-stop, and it even tried to snow during lunch. of course, the students loved the few flakes that fell, but nanami was not as excited. snow meant dangerous roads, traffic, power outages, and that deep chill that sets into your bones.

to distract from the low temperatures, nanami scrolls on his computer, looking up different restaurants, shows, and events going on. the two of you have been busy for a while; the last two weeks of dates were spent with take out and heading to bed early. he doesn't want the same thing to happen this week.

as soon as the clock hits five, nanami walks out of jujutsu high as fast as he can. he has it all figured out; he will take you to the new restaurant that just opened up, then afterwards stop at the bar on the way home for some cocktails, and before the night is over; stop for whatever dessert you'd like.

but, with every passing minute driving home, nanami is fighting the urge to throw all of those plans out the window. it's beginning to snow again; the closer he gets to your shared home, the more the flakes begin to stick. by the time he pulls into the driveway, the roof has a light dusting of snow stuck to it.

the scowl on his face grows with each footprint he leaves behind, the crunch of his shoe against the snow tempts him to stay in. but, he won't give in that easily.

"i'm home," he announces, voice dripping with irritation as he shakes off his coat. he puts it away, along with his shoes, before walking into the kitchen. his sour mood sweetens almost immediately when he sees you, pouring yourself a cup of tea.

"hey ken, how was your day? are you loving the snow?" you grin, the last part thick with sarcasm. he rolls his eyes and you snort.

"no, not particularly. the kids enjoyed it, though," he mumbles, loosening the tie from his neck. "it's friday night."

you blink at him from the rim of your mug. 'it is indeed. what are your thoughts?"

he walks over to you, wraps his arms around you and dips you, earning him a laugh and a smile as the two of you dance.

"well, i was thinking about that new restaurant that opened last week, maybe some drinks, some dessert," he lists, dipping you further and further with each word until you're squealing. he pulls you up once more, brushing the hair out of your face. "what do you think?"

you smile and nod, but he can tell you aren't too thrilled.

"what? did you have something else in mind?"

you wince. "don't hate me, but i kinda want to stay-"

"in? me too," he sighs. "but i haven't taken you out in weeks, love."

"ken, i don't mind. let's stay in, yeah? besides," you glance out the kitchen window and smile. "everything is covered in snow." nanami groans, and doesn't need any convincing after that.

"i'm going to change, then. i'll be right back," he shuffles towards your bedroom. you can't help but smile. this week was shit, it's freezing and you would much prefer staying in than having to get dressed up. nanami works so hard, and you could tell this week was wearing on him too. you knew he was tired and wanted to rest, especially after he had a surprise mission to attend to earlier in the week.

"so," nanami's voice cuts off your thoughts. you turn to see him in what you would say is his best look: sweatpants, sweatshirt, and his round "at home" glasses, as he likes to call them. you love when he looks like this because you know that it means he is ready to spend the evening at home, with you.

"so," you mimic. he smiles.

"what would you like for dinner? we could order take out, but i don't want to make anyone drive in this weather more than they need to."

you hum and walk towards your pantry while nanami looks through the fridge. "we have pasta? but we don't have any sauce,"

"we have a bottle of wine in here, do you remember where it's from?"

you peek your head out of the pantry. "wine for dinner?" he rolls his eyes.

"okay, so no wine for you," you stick your tongue out at him and return to your search.

"it was from gojo, by the way," a small ahh comes from behind the refrigerator doors. "finding anything good, ken?"

"well we do have the ingredients for sauce. i can make it, if you would like."

"i would love that. you are the best cook in the relationship."

nanami chuckles as he grabs ingredients for the sauce, placing a kiss on your lips after he has what he needs. you watch as he goes around the kitchen, grabbing the tools needed for the job.

"darling, would you mind turning on some music? maybe even the fireplace?"

"not at all. any requests?"

he lights the the stove and turns to look at you over his shoulder.

"surprise me."

you feel very special, because your sweet husband just so happens to be very particular about his music. the vintage record player that sits in the living room is rarely touched by you, save for a few special moments like this. the vinyl sits in their cases, organized by genre of course, making it easy. you drop the needle in the groove of a slow jazz record, and nanami nods from his place in front of the stove. before joining him you flick on the fireplace and then walk back to his side.

"i have another job for you," he says, focused as he measures out another ingredient. you sigh at the smell, the sauce already looking better than anything you would've ordered tonight. "what's that?"

he stop stirring momentarily to pick you up and set you on the counter next to him. "well i need a taste tester, of course."

it's your turn to place a kiss on his lips, this one lingering for a bit longer than the last. he's made this sauce a hundred times, so you know he's just using this as an excuse to have you close by.

your hungry stomach is grateful that nanami works so fast, finishing up dinner quickly and plating it for you two at the table. he pulls your chair out for you, even pushing you in before grabbing the wine out of the fridge. before he sits down he pours your glass, then his own.

"thank you, ken. this is better than anything we could have eaten tonight."

he kisses your head before taking a seat. "we'll see about that. you haven't even tasted it yet."

the next few hours is full of laughter, mostly from you, as the two of you swap stories from the week. nanami's tales of the students have your stomach hurting just a touch, wishing you had seen things for yourself. after dinner the two of you clean up together before sitting down on the couch, enjoying the warmth of the fireplace.

"what would you like to do tonight, sweetheart?"

you nuzzle into his chest, curled up in a blanket at his side. "whatever you want to do."

he chuckles. "unfortunately i need to catch up on some new information the higher-ups sent out this week that i haven't looked at yet. you want to do that?"

"nope, i'm good," you tease. "i think i'll read while you do that. is that okay?"

he kisses your cheek before grabbing his computer. "i would love that."

you don't mean to, but the soft jazz that continues to play, mixed with the warmth of the fireplace lulls you into a light sleep. nanami realizes you've fallen asleep when he feels you lean into his side. his heart swells, looking at your beautiful face, peaceful and coated in a golden glow from the fire. he tries to be as quiet as possible while reading through, not wanting to disturb you after the week you've had.

"ken?"

"i'm sorry, love. did i wake you?"

"no," you voice is groggy. nanami finds it adorable. he shuts his laptop and pulls you close, smiling to himself at your sleepy sigh.

"ken?"

"yes?"

"i want something sweet,"

he fully laughs at that, shaking his head. you can't hide the smile playing at your lips either.

"are you really my wife if you don't want something sweet, shortly after eating?"

you sit up and gasp dramatically. "shortly? it's been," you glance at the clock. "two hours after we ate dinner! come on ken, i know you wouldn't say no to cookies."

"you're absolutely right, i wouldn't," he agrees.

"well," you say, standing up with a stretch. "i can make some cookies for us. it's only fair. maybe i'll make some for our neighbor while i'm at it," you slowly shuffle into the kitchen, grabbing ingredients of your own and turning the oven on.

while you work, nanami leans back on the couch and begins to drift into a sleep of his own.

"ken, come here!" he groans in question, and you laugh.

"i need a taste tester, don't i?"

"oh, obviously," he sits up immediately, coming right by your side with a happy grin on his face. you give him a kiss on the cheek before scooping him some dough. he eats it quickly, sighing the second it touches his tastebuds.

"i'm so glad we stayed in. best idea you've ever had," he says, words slurred lightly as he cleans off the spoon you gave him. you look out the window once more, eyes widening at the amount of snow that blankets everything outside. when you turn back and see your husband, sitting on top of the counter just like you were hours earlier, peace melts through your body.

you're glad the two of you decided to stay in, too.

hi abby its jade!! congrats on the follower count, very well deserved ❤️❤️❤️ !!

if those slots havent been filled out already.. ohoh you know what i want. apocalypse byler + jealous mike. im on my knees orz

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Apocalypse Byler + Jealous Mike coming right up!

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Will Byers was absolutely smitten.

Mike was sure of it, he could see it in his eyes. Even worse, Mike knew that there was absolutely nothing he could do to stop it. He was stuck at home with a “sprained ankle” (he still didn’t trust his mother’s diagnosis seeing as she was not a medical professional) while everyone else went out on missions.

Everyone else was out doing supply runs, and fighting monsters, and falling in love. Okay, not love. God, Mike hoped not.

The Wheeler house had become sort of a home base, it was still intact and it was the largest house available. Plus, being hospitable made Karen feel useful.

After missions, everyone would usually return to the house for food or a safe place to sleep. Or they’d gather in the living room and chat. Mike had been essentially living on the living room sofa, since he couldn’t climb the stairs without help and he refused help. So even though Mike wasn’t allowed on the missions, he could listen to everyone talking about them.

He was jealous, and bored. Perhaps he was going a little crazy.

One of the things he’d gathered from listening in was that there were assigned partners on these missions. Everyone had someone to watch their back. Which was good, he supposed.

The problem was, Will seemed to have bonded with his partner.

Mike hated her. He hated the stupid heart eyes Will was constantly giving her.

Robin fucking Buckley.

Mike wasn’t even sure when exactly she became part of the team. When exactly she found out about the Upside Down. A few years ago, she was just the exasperated girl behind the Scoops Ahoy counter who rolled her eyes every time they came to force Steve to sneak them into a movie. Then she… cracked a Russian code? Mike was still fuzzy on the details of that whole ordeal.

Now, ever since she and Will had been working together on missions, she was basically all Will could talk about.

“That reminds me of something Robin said…”

“Robin’s actually really funny, you should talk to her…”

“Have you seen Robin?”

Will was so obviously obsessed, it made Mike want to throw up.

She was too old for him anyway. RIght? Mike wasn’t sure exactly how old she was. He never paid much attention before.

He had, however, been collecting information about her over the past few weeks. For totally normal, not jealous reasons.

He knew she spent most of her time alone with Steve, but they were not dating, much to Dustin’s chagrin. He knew people thought she was funny, because they were always laughing around her. He knew she talked a lot, and really fast. He knew she was sarcastic, which he resented. He knew she was friends with his sister. He knew that when she was alone, she always looked kind of sad. He knew she was pretty. He knew she was smart, at least according to Dustin, who seemed a reliable source. He knew she was kind to Will. He knew she kept him safe, like Mike used to.

This was all information he’d gathered purely from observation. He never asked Will about her, because he didn’t care. Not in the slightest.

He most certainly didn’t care as he sat on the couch with his leg propped up and watched Will and Robin walk through the front door of the Wheeler house, talking and laughing. He continued to not care as Will said something to her and then turned to look at him, his face lighting up as soon as their eyes met. Probably because he was excited to tell Mike more about how great Robin was.

Robin. What kind of stupid name was that anyway? It’s a bird. It shouldn’t be the name of a person.

He snapped out of his hatred induced trance-like state as Will plopped down on the couch next to him, so close their sides were pressed together.

It was a big couch…

He was probably saving room in case Robin wanted to sit.

“How’s the leg?” Will asked with a small smile.

Mike shrugged, “Fine.”

Will’s smile faded, “You okay?” he asked.

Mike stared at his lap and picked at a thread on his shorts. “Yeah,” he mumbled.

“Mike, what’s wrong?” Will asked, sounding concerned.

Of course he was concerned. Will was the best friend in the world. The problem was, Mike couldn’t tell him what was wrong. He couldn’t say, “I know you have a giant crush on Robin and it’s actually driving me slowly toward the brink of madness because I’m having some very strange feelings toward you that I’ve thus far chosen not to think too hard about, but I’ve been stuck in this house alone all day for weeks and it’s kind of hard not to think about them, so I think I’ve come to the tentative conclusion that I’m in love with you.”

He really couldn’t say that, but honestly it was on the tip of his tongue pretty much constantly.

“I uh… my leg just hurts,” he said instead.

Will furrowed his brow, “You just said it was fine.”

Mike sighed, “Yeah, well…”

Will hesitated. Mike could practically hear him debating with himself whether to push the issue. Mercifully, he didn’t. “You want to see something to cheer you up?” he asked.

Mike smiled, he couldn’t help it. “Sure.”

Will nodded and stood up from the couch, he went upstairs to Mike’s room where he’d been staying, and returned with his sketchbook in hand.

Mike’s heart soared. He loved seeing Will’s art, more than anything.

Will sat back down, not quite as close as before. Mike resisted the urge to scoot closer and close the gap.

Will opened the sketchbook on his lap, and Mike looked down at the pages. On one side, there was a sketch of Will and Mike in their DnD personas. It was beautiful. It was mesmerizing. It made Mike feel things. Things like the desire to grab Will’s face and kiss him square on the mouth.

Mike couldn’t focus on that for long though. Because on the opposite page, was a half done sketch of Robin. Her head was thrown back in a laugh and her stupid hair was cascading over her shoulders. It was gorgeous. Of course it was, Will did it.

Mike glanced up at Will. He looked nervous, his face was a little red.

Oh god, was he about to tell Mike about his crush on Robin? Was showing him the sketch his way of doing it?

Why else would he be nervous? There was no reason for Will to be nervous about showing Mike a sketch of the two of them.

Unless…

No. Mike couldn’t even go there. Hoping would be a terrible thing to do to himself. Especially considering Will’s obvious infatuation with one Robin Buckley.

He took a shaky breath. “Cool,” he said.

Will looked nervous still. “Cool?” he asked.

Mike nodded quickly, “Yeah. they’re really cool.”

Will paused. “Oh. I was really just wanting to show you this one,” he said pointing to the sketch of Mike and himself.

Mike’s pulse quickened. He should say something. Something normal.

“Do you like Robin?” he blurted out.

Great. Really great, Mike. Super cool.

Will raised his eyebrows. “Like… like her?” he asked.

Mike wished the couch cushions would open up and swallow him like loose change, never to be found again. Unfortunately they did not, so he was forced to continue the conversation.

“Yeah, I guess,” he said awkwardly.

Will laughed a little. Why was he laughing?

“No, Mike. I don’t like Robin,” Will said.

“Oh,” Mike said.

“Oh,” Will repeated with a smirk.

They sat in silence for a moment, then Mike blurted, “Are you sure? You know you can tell me if you do. I won’t get mad.”

God. Shut up! “I won’t get mad?” Why the fuck would you get mad?

Will laughed nervously. “Uh… yeah. I’m sure. Like, very sure.”

Mike’s head was reeling. It seemed like Will was telling the truth. He had no reason to lie.

“I’m not really… Robin’s type anyway. I mean, she’s not mine either, and she’s older. Really, we’re just friends,” Will rambled.

Mike was ecstatic. He couldn’t help the grin that spread across his face as he said, “Okay.”

Will smiled back, but then he looked nervous again. “I uh… I kind of like someone else anyway,” he said, his face bright red.

“Oh. Okay,” Mike said.

Who the fu-

Headcanons about the Main Four + Y/N (afab)

I just wanted to preface that this is just my Headcanons and all of this is for fun! If the characters seem ooc mind your buisness and let me live my delulu life. j/

Also for after having a convo with a friend of mine Y/N is gonna be specified at the top of post if their female, male or gender neutral presenting! Also I know Y/N is suppose to be a self insert but I lover writing personalities so heres some head canons that I have for her!

Kurapika

Always somehow smells like rain water and eucalyptus

Though he's tried to preserve as much of the traditions and customs of the kurta clan, he's slowly losing it as he goes deeper and deeper his attempt to avenge them.

Keeps a diary but is never consistent with it (sounds like his friendships)

Has the biggest rbf ever and no one is brave enough to point it out.

Absolutely despised fast food, would only eat it if it was the only option for him.

Has never kissed anyone on the lips in his life and most likely will never (sorry guys)

Has the best skin out of the whole group, he doesn't even do much its literally water and face wash

According to him his phone doesn't work, so he doesn't have Spotify to stream new artist (pls call your friend back). I do believe that he would listen to jazz and folk music.

Says he's above petty shit talking but once you get him going, he doesn't stop.

Up until he started wearing suits for his body guard job he use to hand sew his clothes.

Constantly forgets to get hair cuts and gets annoyed when his hair covers his face.

Doesn't respond to texts or calls. In the groupchat he just reads the messages and its rare that he shows up to the group hangouts

Leorio

Has a consistent smell of old spice and axe body spray

Has a thing against germs so he always has hand sanitizer on hand for whenever and wherever

Needs to be able to read something to learn it, thats why learning nen was hard for him. (apparently writing down knowelege is sacrilege in the hxh universe but whatever)

Hates modern art with a passion, all he sees are splotches of paint on a canvas with an overpriced tag attached to it.

I hate to say is girls, but he was not a feminist until Y/N beat the shit out of him for saying some bs analogy about locks and keys (if yk im sorry that yk). Would have definitly listened to one of those alpha male podcast. Kurapika almost broke his arm trying to hold Y/N back.

Has kissed one girl in his life, but it was BAD like real bad. He kept doing the kissy face (yk what I'm talking about) and gave the poor thing the ick.

Owns a planner yet never uses it.

Music taste is that of a middle aged father: Eagles, Alice Cooper, Chicago, Radio Head

The best gift giver and honestly the most thoughtful when it comes to his friends.

He'll listen to everyones problems. Honestly such a dad.

Biggest gossip, cannot shut his mouth to save his life

Killua

Smells like iron and burnt sage (grandpa zeno looks like he would be into that hippie shit ngl)

Wants to learn how to surf so bad but doesn't have the time

Y/N gave him a fidget spinner as a joke for his birthday, but he ended up loving it.

Only texts in the groupchat via meme reactions. Responds for both Gon and him because they're always together. Either way Leorio is just happy that someone is responding.

Is so judgmental on what you wear.

Thinks he's cool and edgy for listening to green day and panic! at the disco but really its what every twelve year old boy does.

Met Y/N before the rest of the group so now she's #number1trustedadult. This has caused her a lot of problems with the Zoldyck family, especially with Illumi.

Tried flirting with a girl once but in twelve year old boy fashion he ended up accidentally insulting her. He hasn't attempted to talk to a girl ever since.

Has ice cold skin, like touching it is like touching a corpse thats been stuck in the freezer

Bought purple shampoo for his hair because he noticed that the hard water in most places was discoloring his white hair.

Illumi has been blocked on everything except email, so every once in awhile he'll get random emails from Illumi's spam account.

Gon

Our sweet boy probably smells like salt water and wet forest

Has a wildlife analogy or story for every occasion

Killua has been trying to get him to change outfits, but he absolutely refuses to go into a department store after Aunt Mito lost him in one when he was younger.

Will eat absolutely anything edible.

Has a collection of stuffed animals from everywhere he and Killua have been.

He use to feed all the cats on the island. It gotten so bad that all the rodents on the island are nearly extinct because he's been keeping hundreds of felines alive.

The best swimmer out of everyone.

Does not have a specific type of music he likes but Killua got him to listen to the Weekend and they've bonded over that.

When he was younger he really wanted younger siblings because there weren't many kids on the island.

Has accidentally gotten high trying to eat a wild psychoactive plant on accident

Forgets he has a phone most of the time and when he texts back its mostly in emoji

Y/N

She probably smells like lemons and ink (you'll learn eventually)

A GIRLS GIRL (author would write her with the other female characters, however I feel like Y/N would have beef with them due to moral reason)

Like probably has thrown hands with Illumi in multiple occasions for saying that she would make a great Zoldyck house wife.

Really good at puzzles and anagrams.

Horrendously bad at math. Give her a problem more advanced than arithmetic and she's done for.

Has Aunt Mito on speed dial.

During the hunters exam she was paired up with Hisoka during the tower phase and lets say the two have a very (one-sided on Y/N's part) beef.

She's a specialist

got the ick from Chrollo for saying she's not like other girls

listens to all the sad girl artist: laufey, phoebe bridgers, taylor swift, lana del rey, fleetwood mac, e.t.c

Was a camp counselor for a few summers and made friendship bracelets for the whole group.

The only one in the group who has been to therapy (as she should).

Texts frequently in the groupchat, but is very bad at calling back.

WARNING I TALK ABOUT SUICIDAL THOUGHTS IN THIS POST!!! AND EATING DISORDERS BUT THATS A GIVEN WITH THE TAGS IM USING.

I promise I won’t kill myself! Don’t worry! Just venting cause I literally have no one to tell!

I’m liquid fasting today, and for a week until I have money again lmao.

I’m literally so annoyed with how much money I spend on food just to b/p it.

Like I’ll have every intention of keeping it down, but then my body just hates the feeling of food in my stomach.

I took some sleep meds and hit a point where I didn’t want to eat at all because I was so sleepy. I slept 13 hourssss

It makes me feel more on track for today to already have killed so much time. I’ve got an evening lecture and some homework to tackle. I also have a morning lecture tomorrow so I can’t do the sleeping med thing again. Annoying but whatever.

Also real life is kicking my ass rn. I genuinely need to keep scrolling on the Reddit suicide watch page because seeing all the annoying people on there who are like “I give up! Life has fucked ME over. Personally I am UNIQUELY hopeless. Because I am so God DAMN special that I AN ORIGINAL, one of a KIND individual. Can not HANDLE the TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS of mY LIFE.”

Not to discredit those feelings, but like sometimes I’m afraid I’ll kill my self out of entitlement for what I think I deserve. No one or thing owes me anything. I don’t have friends or family so there’s no unspoken agreement there that exist within relationships. A lot of people kill themself out of anger, spite. It’s like shaking a fist up to the sky holding yourself hostage with a gun telling the universe if it doesn’t fix this shit you will end it! But the universe ain’t listening. It doesn’t care and if it does, it doesn’t respond to threats.

That’s why I have rules about it. I won’t kill myself out of avoidance. I need to finish my essays, clean my apartment, have every conflict squared away or at least have it not be a motivator.

It can’t be out of anger. My anger is irrational and not exactly cured with the kiss of death.

It can’t be half assed. I’ve got to want it with every fiber of my being. I have never wanted to die 100%. Maybe 96% but never ever 100%. Dying is traumatic as shit. Failing to die is a horrible experience. I never wanna feel that way again. I also have no one so if I failed I’d be stuck alone for a whileeeeee if I had done something incredible damaging. I’d have to call someone and I really have no one to call so that would just be embarrassing.

Anyways I still get that feeling a lot. I also get completely hopeless and just imagine getting all comfortable and doing it. But I’m here to tell you rn I’m not doing that! I promise! You do not need to worry! I have to want it with my whole heart! I never ever ever do!

1, 6, 40, 45 for jason and marcus too :)<3

SO SORRY I DONT SHUT UP HERE I CANT STOP

1. How do they fall asleep? Wake up? Any daily rituals?

the important thing to know here is that jason Does Not Sleep. he doesn't really need it. that doesn't mean he can't sleep though. he still gets tired, he just chooses not to sleep. the time between getting in bed and falling asleep is always Much Too Long, and gives him way too much time to think about everything that's happened, process his feelings and so on. which is something he wants to avoid at all costs, so he's constantly keeping himself busy. he never felt safe enough to sleep either, because truly anything could happen to him at this point, so he's always on high alert, just in case.

when the two of them first met, jason still didn't sleep. it felt even les necessary because he not only has to defend himself, but a whole entire human man too. and even though they had just met, if anything happened to marcus, he'd hate himself for it because it's something that could be 'preventable' to him. he always takes it on himself to protect anyone he's with no matter what, and he CAN'T fail at any point ever. can't let his guard down for even a second.

and when they start hooking up (but aren’t Officially Together) he starts kind of drifting off occasionally - not even bc he’s tired but because he’s letting his guard down. listen usually when he hooks up with people it’s Him doing all the work. so he wouldn’t let marcus absolutely rail him unless he trusted him to some degree. yes this is an important part of this answer thank you. IM THREE PARAGRAPHS IN AND I STILL HAVENT FULLY ANSWERED IT YET WHFHUSF OK CARRYING ON.

so basically. the more time he spends with marcus, the easier it is for him to just. fall asleep. and sometimes he even sleeps through the whole night!!! he doesnt even realise until he wakes up and he Panics for a second but then he realises that theyre both STILL alive and safe and nothing bad happened. and the more that happens, the more he realises he doesnt have to be on edge 24/7 and it makes me insane. and because he’s not used to sleeping anymore, it always takes him FOREVER to wake up.

marcus can fall asleep at any time anywhere if he’s tired enough he doesnt care. if he wants to go beddy byes he WILL and no one can stop him. no matter how uncomfortable he is, he will be gone within minutes. he falls asleep so fast. he’ll fall asleep mid-conversation.

they never fall asleep hugging but they ALWAYS wake up tangled together somehow which i think is very sweet. but bc jason is so Strong and Large, marcus always gets stuck whdsgkjh poor guy. he doesnt care though <3 he loves the affection

6. Any tasks that are always left to one person?

marcus always does the cooking, because jason would either give them both food poisoning, burn the food, burn the house down, or all three all at once. he simply cannot be trusted. and as much as marcus hates it, jason is always the one who drives. ONLY because marcus can’t drive, if he could, jason would have his driving privileges revoked. he’s very insane on the roads and goes Very Fast at every given opportunity like he’s in a car chase. the man needs to learn how to calm down

40. Any special memories? Do they have a special place they like to go to?

im still working on a lot of things w/ their relationship and where the story’s going bc it’s definitely nowhere near finished in my mind so i don’t really have an answer for this yet dghfjgjh but if i Had to say something, it’d probably be when they first met. because that was a very bizarre situation - marcus, lou, + morgan hutning for a ghost only to walk in on jason torturing some guy. great way to make a first impression! they both think about it a lot

45. Any special dreams or goals they have as a couple? Any heartbreaks? Regrets?

they’ve got a very solid relationship so there’s not much they’ve hurt each other over or regretted at this point - other than maybe not getting together sooner, not saying anything etc etc. like they BURIED those feelings so deep to the point they were bursting at the seams. two very smart boys <3

more than anything else in life they just want to make it out alive, together - well, as alive as jason can be because that is certainly still a Problem. also still kind of undecided as to whether marcus ‘dies’ near the end of the story too. ive got a lot of thoughts on THAT like so many i think i’ll explode. i shan’t go into that rn i will be insufferable sorry.

another thing is going on holiday somewhere nice and quiet, getting away from everything for a bit. they deserve to relax and feel SAFE and just be normal guys for a few days. and by GOD they will get it. trust me

first post.. wow hello void. this is a little more awkward than i thought. i know i should treat this like im writing on paper again in my little taco journal i got from my friend back in elementary, but... idk maybe its the thought that somebody might read this that puts me off. and also the fact that i just.... havent written anything in any sort of journal since i was 16 and making goodbye letters (ToT) what a life

anyway today is a saturday... well its sunday morning at 5am but im riddled with anxiety and cant sleep so :,) im trying to keep my thoughts busy. i work again tomorrow, only six hours which is usual for me, but its fucking -50⁰ where i live rn and I REALLY dont wanna force myself out of bed..... ugh

but ive been really good at never skipping work unless im throwing up all over the place so :,) speaking of that, i just got done being sick with the flu for the SECOND TIME within two months !!!!! i have a horrid immune system.. most of the time when im sick i spend hours rotting away in my bed and on the bathroom floor... these two times were no different

i genuinely was up at like 5am unable to sleep sobbing in my bed because it hurt so much !!! i gen wanted to die lmfao i hate being sick

but its whatever... at least i got to talk to 🍀 while i was high on meds and a 39.8⁰ fever... i said some funny shit but he just entertained me... i love looking back at our messsages.. he really seems to care for me.... crazy

neway yes saturday.. today.. what did i do- well i had work. i was stressing the entire day over being able to get my hw done for uni classes on time but then i just.. decided not to work on it at all. idk.. work was okay. i love working. even though its a a gross fast food restaurant with shady people coming and making a mess 24/7. all that bad cancels out when it comes to my cowokers. ive had so... so so so many people ive loved at this job. people ive loved more than i should and who have left me (WHATS NEW) BUTTT thats a story for another day

well anyway i got to see one of my besties who is always talking about her boy troubles ... i think everyone still thinks im a lesbian there since im not out to them as trans and have a gf 🙃 its kinda funny.. especially with all my male coworkers

who can just goof off and be close to me without the added stress of thinking its going to go anywhere (for the two of us).

wow this is already becoming so long shksjjsskjslk i have a feeling each post is gonna be like this... just a ramble about my life

anyway. i went home and immediately one of my headmates made himself know... his names nikki and hes... newish? hes been around since august 2023 but just recently showed himself. well we played sky together for a while, just the two of us. i sorta.. soft called out 🍀 on my discord status saying something like "chill cr w/ nikki!! anyone can join!" hoping theyd join my game LOL

well it was a call out to any one of my sky friends on disc (my new friend mochi actually ended up seeing it and we got to talk propery on sky for one of the first times... i was so happy)

i felt bad for 🍀 at first because he couldnt see mochis chat messages while we were having a whole ass conversation with 🍀 piggy on my shoulders... but they added each other a little later and i think the convo went well :)

🍀 's sky friend actually joined us as well.. i dont know her... nor do i really care that 🍀 seemed so close with her (well that was definitely a lie i told myself)

im so jealous LMFAOOOO definitely problems related to being stuck in a toxic friend group for 12 years BUT AGAIN thats a story for another day

anyway i was a bit sad at first because there are just things you cant say in a chat with your queer platonic partner when theres a random who you sort of know but have never personally talked to... so i shut off a bit... nikki tho bless him wtf was like- urging me to stop being so closed off towards sky friends sjhdksjsk especially because this person was really nice and even asked if she could tag along (which i said was fine because i cant say no to anything, no matter how hard i try)

it got better tho, when mochi joined

i really am a horrible person, because i felt i finally had equal grounds on 🍀 by being able to talk to mochi while they couldnt

curse being literally delusionally attached to 🍀 because he is my o n l y true friend !!!

i really am selfish for wanting to have all his attention. i am such a shitty human being

anyway... we went to eden (i lead everyone) and then sat and talked for a bit. being on equal ground with mochi about our interest in skz was super refreshing. its been a while since ive talked to anybody... but i recently joined the sky server and mochi and a few others dmed me

half way through i saw me and 🍀 's mutal friend come online.... ill call him 🌟 on here.... i only recently got to know him because i was online on sky alone and decided to join him.. he was doing quests by himself so i got some 1 on 1 time with him and omg hes so cool

i always have this habit of putting everyone else in an "untouchable" catergory, because everyone compared to me is just so much better. i guess i idolized 🌟 in a way because i never got to talk to him... he was only mutals to me through our sky friend group

anyway after that 1 on 1 i immediately felt so amazing and i wanted to talk to him every chance i get... so after mochi left and he hadnt joined our game (which was suprising because i was with 🍀 and the other person who are close to 🌟 and he likes them a lot better than me so i thought hed join one of them.... but he didnt) so i just went and joined his game immediately

i kinda ditched 🍀 but its whatever, i was still in a bad mood from earlier

i was kinda upset and sad all day so.... i was distant in my head and wasnt talking to anyone.. but that wore off the moment i got the chance to talk to 🍀 again

which was when my dad suprised me with mcdonalds !!! i really felt gross after eating it- and still do- but it helps sometimes. to eat that garbage.. ive always been a binge eater

where the hell even was i

yea i teleported to 🌟 to hang out with him and 🍀 warped to me... i didnt really mind because theyre both super cool and my idols but i got a dry ass greeting from 🌟 wheres as 🍀 got a enthusiastic one !! so yeah immediately i was like aight i see how it is

but 🍀 left to do a cr so i got more 1 on 1 time with 🌟 WHICH WAS SO NICE!! i feel like we are getting closer and closer everyday... anyway he was playing some music and i offered to stay and listen and it was gen so nice... i wanted to fall asleep just listening to him play hehe and after every song id complement him and we'd talk about what hed just played (if it was from a game or a movie) .... and well he seemed gen grateful for the compliments which made me fill up with pride

eventually 🍀 came back but i didnt really mind since i got my 1 on 1 time and i enjoy talking to both of them anyway

we had a nice convo going then 🌟 left

i always feel so prideful when i can make people laugh, even though it might even just be a lol or hahaha

then me and 🍀 had one on one time... which is what brings me to writing this

he mentioned he had a secret tumblr diary. this isnt the first time he mentioned it- back when we met irl he said if i could find it i could read it.... i tried to find it lol but couldnt so i just gave up

i didnt even think about it again until tonight.... i thought about trying to find it again but then i was like- yk what would be a better idea !!! make my own !!

so yeah i got the idea from him... a little secret vent diary place that i hope nobody can find (especially him, but if you do find it, im sorry LOL)

really i kinda wanna go looking for his but.... idk after making my own im just like how fucking awkward would it be for him to find mine and read it 😀😀 LIKE THAT WOULD BE SO BAD

so ive given up again

im gonna wait until he shares it with me.. idk when that'll be, but maybe when he does ill have wrote a lot on here and can share this with him as well

after all, i am kinda crazy. ill tell him every little secret about me if he asked.

i have so much to say but no brain power left. oh well

- ji

(1 / 13/ 2024)

gonna fucking kill someone today. had to look around for security cameras in this room before writing this cuz im in a fucking prison for young people and every day our rights get stripped further and further and they expect us to function normally after being spat out after graduation. i'm not going to college. my mom is gonna yell at me for that but i'm fucking not i don't care what she thinks. the stupid fucking vending machine next to me has a goddamn 'calories count check then choose' label on it. what fucking performative stupid goddamn bullshit that dumbass label is the thing that tipped me over the edge into making this stupid post. maybe don't sell death sugary slop to people and they won't have this goddamn issue of everyone being too fat and mentally ill to make it into the meat grinder that is the military. i know food choice has little to do with how your body fat works shut up about it already i was gonna go to college for nutrition i know how that shit works. but if i went they'd likely still be in the "being obese is YOUR fault" phase of food and health knowledge and i just i cannot bear paying thousands and thousands of dollars to get some info that is objectively false according to recent studies. god. i'm so sick of this shit once i graduate i'm literally never going into another institiution again literally they cannot make me this is such bullshit. has anyone else read john taylor gatto? changed my life. this stupid asshole next to me can't handle the word 'moist' and makes a huge show of how much she hates it every time it's uttered and it's like god i wish i was that sheltered. i wish the biggest problem in my head was how much i hated the word moist. what a stupid thing to attract attention to yourself for. shut up. everyone just shut up. the music in my headphones shut up. dumb fucking assholes shut up. all the freshman who are lower than the sea life stuck to the bottom of a cruise ship shut the FUCK up. you're not funny for saying nkgger you don't even hate black people that much you're just ignorant and want attention. your material is derivative and unoriginal and you cannot find genuine vulnerability and appreciation for beauty because you're too busy being poisoned by your peers into thinking everything is stupid and one day one of you is gonna kill themselves and everyone else will joke about it because what else do you know to do. it's sad really the way we are raising these men. panera lemonade killed a girl. caffeine users will really find meth and adderall users disgusting failures because they "use drugs" unlike the fucking. caffeine users who also use drugs but oooo its so normalized you know what else is normalized? driving 80 miles a goddamn hour down the interstate. that's so scary what the fuck. why does nobody care how fast we are going. why is everyone going so fast going 90 95 down the interstate the world needs to fucking slow down and i'm so serious. we need to wake up slower and get to school slower and my classes went from an hour or so to 40 minutes and the teachers barely even skim over anything anymore and tiktok is still this fucking cancer on society that makes people think mass surveillance for "weird" "clickable" behavior is normal and im tearing my hair out every day because people are AMAZED i don't have the no attention span give me all your data and buy products off of our app app. god. tik tok made me buy it is the most pre-packaged artificial stupid fucking slogan ever it always ruins my mood seeing that stupid fucking section at walmart. like are you kidding me. companies are so bad at trying to seem human anymore. you have to astroturf everything because if the people do it themselves they might THINK or ACHIEVE SOMETHING for once. i don't even think i used astroturfing right. it's got the same vibe of taking something from the people (self-advertisement to a different site or product) and hijacking it and making your own fucking store so people can give the money to you instead. its so crazy and nobody talks about how tiktok has a STORE. like it's normal.

everything makes me want to scream. i will never truly fully get a break from this. everyone is getting angrier and angrier but i dunno if we're at a breaking point yet. i might not live to see the revolution which bums me out but i try to keep optimistic about that. i saw that republican debate today and got such strong second hand embarrassment. that shit is no better than jersey shore at this point. and these are the people we're supposed to aim to be like? people who are qualified to be presidents? people who are so reactionary and childish that they throw insults at one another in a politics debate like a bunch of middle schoolers parroting what their parents say at each other? are you fucking kidding? john gatto was right the rich are so fucking good at extending adolescence into adulthood. look at these people over thirty engaging in high school behavior to appease the other high school masses who'll tweet and click and talk about it (like high schoolers) and then the debate cuts to an ad break because money money money money money money. they probably already have the president decided and this is all one big billboard or something. i dunno. drugs are seen as a moral failure but like what else is there to do in this goddamn fucking world we've made. i didn't ask for this.

Dream Journal

Two dreams:

My first dream, There was a group of guys and one of them with long black hair didnt want to be part of the group anymore. The groups activities was that they find prey and then chase after it. So he was kicked out of the friend group, when he gets into his car, im in the back with another version of himself being in the passengers seat. I sit there and hold both of their hands (assuming im dating him) and i tell him that its silly to kick him out especially with his sickness. As he drives and im holding his hand, all of a sudden the radio turns on talking about how whoever wins, gets 60% of the US. How do you win? You have to kill the most people. Sorta like Purge but not really. Worried, my lover pulls over and makes a plan that involves going to a connivence store and getting food. I state thats stupid cause it will be populated so i say we should go to the middle of no where. Then i wake up.

Second dream:

Somehow i land up in a mansion where a family of vampires reside where its also a place where vampires go to school. Now this story introduces me to a family where there is a dad who is making sure his two sons have their fangs on. Like make sure they are out because, as he states, they are a show of power. The eldest son hates his fangs but he doesnt complain. In the mansion, there are two pianos facing each other, one has certain keys that are pressed in and the Eldest vampire makes a confused comment about why that is.

In comes me and my crew. We are oblivious we just walked into a den of vampires. I don’t remember why we walked in but anyways. I saw the piano with the keys and played a melody. The eldest son gets intrigued of how i knew exactly which keys were broken. A bit of dream transition and me and the eldest son met. I have fangs now for some reason, I’m still human, and we play a melody together. One thats always been stuck in our heads.

Fast forward, humans now go to this school and im surprised there are extra dorms. The dorms, though, are made for vampires. There are two bunks to each dorm. The bottom bank, people can sleep peaceful but the top bunk houses two people with one always sleeping on a pillow and another annoyed. When we go to my dorm, i apparently need to go to the bathroom a lot. At some point, i check. Im pregnant (i think. Wasn’t explicitly said).

Humans come to me later stating they hate being oppressed and preyed upon by these vampires (there is also a scene where these vampires swarm two humans in a parking lot. They didn’t bite them but like i had to shove them away) so we went on a riot where the humans scaled this section of the school and kept reciting something. I don’t remember ifs its rules or a book. All i know is the principal came and asked one of the girls who started this and she said “whats it to you old man” and my dream ended.

First dream lasted whatever was my sleep duration i think 6-7 hours and then my second dream lasted 2. There was also a dream about mars being right in front of earth and i had the sickest picture. I felt literal anxiety.

just a glimpse

today, i finally had a little taste of what life might be like once this is over. i had just a glimpse of who i might be after its all said and done with. just a little tiny bit at a time its getting easier. each passing day just hurts slightly less than the previous. today i did a couple hours worth of yard work, something about it just feels so rewarding. then i went and got my check from my job that i no call no showed at which im proud of myself for doing, i thought i was gonna be too anxious to go through with showing my face in there. got 120 bucks though, im glad i went. i need all i can get right now, money do be kinda tight still. then i had dinner at texas roadhouse and ate so much fucking food i thought id burst. unfortunately while i was at the restaurant was probably the hardest part of my day, i had nothing but my moms company to distract me and when im with her id rather be in my head. but after i made it through that i came home and finally started stranger things season 4. my opinion so far, it seems like a totally different show. not in a bad way, its definitely cool. just definitely doesnt seem to connect to the other seasons, the flow is not as clear. maybe theyll make it all connect shit idk, im only on episode three. to end my evening ive been laying in bed practicing my ukulele and drawing, and it feels so nice to have a creative outlet. i honestly kind of hate commission work. it makes me feel pressured and constrained. my friend asked me if they could pay me to draw them a furry of themselves and i started on it but im stuck on the fucking hands and its making me so frustrated i havent touched the drawing in days. so ive been drawing other shit instead, but oh well...maybe ill get around to finishing it. when i was at the restaurant with my mom i did something i really am not proud of and have been trying to figure out why i reacted this way. they brought us 4 rolls and i had eaten two of them, precisely my half of the basket. my mom made a comment saying we needed more, and i said i was good. then she said something like , "you and samantha are always eating all of the bread and then wont ask for more." and i snapped back at her soooo fast and in a really defensive and angry tone, "I only ate two of them. thats literally half." i guess i dont like how shes always comparing me to my sister, i hate being lumped in with someone else who im nothing like. i want to be seen as my own individual, not the other version of her favorite child. i was also irritated that she was implying i ate "all of the bread" when i literally only ate my half. i just wish i had the ability to stop myself and think in situations and respond calmly and thoughtfully express my emotions instead of snapping back. at least the first step is awareness, and i know my defensiveness is something i need to work on. blame the aries in me, i guess. not saying thats an excuse but...could be an explanation. ive always had so much anger and frustration that it comes out at the slightest inconvenience. i dont know why im so angry. i guess i feel hurt by the world, resentful of my situation. i need to stop feeling and treating myself like a victim. ive always been so angry, that my parents sucked, that i got a chronic disease, that im not straight or cis, that i cant think or feel like neurotypical people. im so angry that ive always had to be an outsider. its not fair. i want to be accepted. why wont they accept me? havent i been through enough? i guess its never enough until you learn your lesson to get off your ass and stop pitying yourself. no one else is going to take care of me so i better suck it the fuck up and do it my god damn self. and i better make it fucking worth it.

boyfriend! taehyun.

im surpised i am able to keep up so far haha, you guys have been great continue being amazing.

genre: fluff, super fluff, idol x idol au, very slight angst. considering tae and kai are not 20 internationally yet i will not be doing a nsfw section for them. but i will be making their bf au slightly longer to makeup for it.

requests: "helo ^.^ i was wondering if i could request the same thing as those idol reader yeonjun boyfriend hcs but for taehyun?" // "can i have a txt taehyun boyfriend headcanons please!! 🥺🤍"

boyfriend series;

❁ yeonjun, soobin, beomgyu, taehyun, hueningkai .

confession:

taehyun was never extremely shy around you, but this time he was. he would avoid eye contact, stumble over his words and yknow kinda play with his fingers.

part of him would just want to blurt it out to get it lover with, but his words continued to get stuck in his throat.

he probably invited you out to a nice place to get food, much fancier than what you're used to. you even joke about it being the perfect date spot which makes him sweat.

literally he's just watching you, and how amazingly beautiful you are in his eyes. getting lost in his thoughts not even being able to talk much.

that is until you guys finish eating, and real unexplained silence walls to the table, now he HAS to say something.

when he confesses he looks down at the floor, he wasn't sure how you felt but incase you didn't feel the same he didn't want to look dumb.

so when you expressed you felt the same he looked up at you in shock, extremely happy but also in shock that you actually like him back.

the relationship;

he is quite literally the most affectionate boyfriend ever. he loves getting cuddles and kisses but they just be in private.

in public though he wouldn't mind if you gave him a quick peck on the cheek, he would probably make an adorable high pitched noise in response.

he's very attentive to you, he never loses you in a crowd because he always pays attention. he notices fast when you change your hair or wear something new.

sometimes it makes him feel fuzzy inside seeing you wear something he got you because, wow you liked it so much you actually are wearing it!

expect him to wake up early to spend time with you, both of you have such busy schedules that you guys spend your time together in the early morning drinking coffee and talking about the past day.

he's always sending you songs he thinks you'd like, you guys probably have a shared playlist where you both just add songs for each other.

he probably makes you breakfast on the days you choose to sleep in and leaves you a cute hand written note about how he loves you and can't wait to see you when he gets back.

something he always does is looks out for you, he would hate for you to get sick and stuff so sometime's he nags you about wearing a jacket or getting proper rest.

he remembers your order at your favorite  restaurant, and your favorite songs. he's very much a romantic so  aspect him to use this information later on

you both like to cuddle up and watch documentaries, because you both are  intellectuals who love to learn about things. literally you guys will go from watching a murder mystery doc. to one about penguins and both are fascinating.

please remember he's a bit of a scardy cat and as much as he wants to protect you he will hide behind you in scary situations

ask him to sing for you while you both are doing domestic things like cooking or washing dishes! he'd love it and do it in a heartbeat for you.

he'd get you such thought out gifts, probably like a necklace or anklet with the coordinates of where you both met.

you guys definitely have a minecraft server together where it's just random builds and a whole bunch of tamed wolves, that you guys remember you have like twice a year.

he'd leave you voice messages all the time because he says that his words don't interpret well over text and needs you to hear him.

your name on his phone is probably like your first name and a heart emoji. simple but effective, no one else on his phone has an emoji so it's special.

he also puts the first hangul character in front of your name so your contact is the first thing that comes up when he looks through his contacts.

when he's on tour or away, he's always sending you little videos or pictures of what's going on and makes sure to send you a good morning and good night text.

when he gets a chance he'll make you chocolates, a special kind something light and maybe even a bit fruity tasting that you can't get anywhere else.

late at night you probably take his glasses to read, and he chuckles while gently scolding you because you might worsen your eyesight with his glasses that are probably not even his prescription anymore because he hardly ever uses them.

he definitely likes to take you to fancy dates, he thinks they're nice and in the movies it always seems so romantic. but he jokes about not knowing why theres so many spoons on the table.

he's always checking in on you to make sure you're okay, making sure you're not overwhelmed when you both go out in public together which isnt often.

one thing he also does is makes sure there's a reasonable distance between you and everyone else in a crowd. he tells you to walk in front of him so he can make sure that you're alright in mobs.

taehyun is one of your biggest fans, he knows and often sings your group's songs and even sometimes makes you laugh by doing parts of the choreo.

he melts when you call him cute pet names like 'honey' or 'darling', literally he loves it so much.

if you get sick expect getting scolded but also cared for by him. he will literally baby you while you're sick and tell you to be more careful.

he's the type to give you his jacket if he sees you're cold, give you his shoes if he sees that yours are hurting you, literally give you anything to make you feel getter.

literally he will fight for you, like no one can say anything to you or about you that might be even remotely mean, because he will pick a fight.

things like your birthday, anniversary, or a milestone will never be missed with him. he always has flowers and a cake for you to celebrate what ever it is. 

you both probably come up with your own way to communicate non verbally, wither it's certain looks, or tracing letters on each other's palms. you guys are able to communicate without speaking.

he loves how you take interest in his interests and he does the same.

in the morning he's ready for you to tease him about how he sleeps and how his eyes don't close all the way. he can't help it!

he's literally so gentle with you it's so cute.

taehyun is your go-to guy when you need something heavy lifted or something like that. like he will help you no problem.

in case of an argument, which due to his communication skills wouldn't happen often he's the type to let you feel your feelings.

he often listens to what you have to say and what you feel and trues to understand you better to find a common ground.

he hardly ever gets mad at you, and prefers to express his feelings so you can understand him as well and usually both of these things work well.

overall, you both are happy cuties in love.

hope you guys enjoyed this! sorry for the lost wait, i got sick and i am finally feeling better.

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- mari x.

Heeeey your page has been a godsend for my fanfic moods. So my ask is for any fics set at the end of season 1. Is there any fics (preferably sterek) that are about Derek going feral after becoming the alpha? I know there a lot of good feral Derek stories out there but I'm hankering for something like him being stuck in the alpha form Peter was in through season 1.

AND

Anonymous asked:

Hello there! Could you help me find some sterek fics that involve either derek or stiles being feral / assuming feral behaviours? Better if they're very long (im a sucker for 100.000 words fics) but any is good!

Yeah!

Soothing the Savage Beast by missmagoo

(9/9 I 17,348 I Explicit)

Stiles had always hoped it wouldn’t come to this.

He knows he has to be sold once he comes of age, but being bought at auction by a crazy billionaire as a gift for his feral nephew? That's worse than any deep, dark fear he could have ever imagined.

The Hale Beast by secretfanboy

(4/4 I 17,707 I Mature)

Stiles would rather be at home playing X-Box than attending the ceremony inaugurating the Wolf nation's sovereignty over the Argent kingdom, but he's the Sheriff's son so those are the breaks. What he doesn't expect is the feral werewolf Prince Derek AKA The Beast to take an interest in him.

He was alone with the Beast. His heart started pounding its way up into his throat. A burst of static came from his cell phone. "Scott! Oh my god! He's here! The Hale Beast is here with me and I'm alone and no one is here to witness when he kills me...to death!"

Souls, Love and Marks by DearDaisy (Scribblesnpaws), TwistedAmusement13

(1/1 I 23,388 I Teen)

On his way to search for the half body in the woods with Scott, Stiles crashes the jeep. He doesn't wake up.

Searching for the wolf that killed Laura, Derek uncovers the truth and after doing the unthinkable, runs.

Soulmarks appear on the wrist on the 18th birthday.

Only Derek is feral and Stiles is in a coma.

Waiting by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

(2/2 I 81,018 I Teen)

Not wanting to think on it too much, Stiles took a step forward and passed his hand between the bars, moving the bleeding side closer to Derek’s mouth.

“Not too close, he bites.”

Stiles snatched his hand away just as Derek had been about to lick at it. The snarl he got in response was not comforting.

“He what?” Stiles asked nervously, turning to Deaton.

The man looked a little amused. “Don’t worry, only if he doesn’t like you.”

“Well, he probably hates me, now!” Stiles insisted, turning back to Derek.

He looked extremely displeased.feral

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@1lostone suggested these!

Stand Fast in Your Enchantments by DevilDoll, Rahciach

(3/3 I 76,956 I Explicit)

"Stiles knew damn well what a pissed-off wolf sounded like, and every hair on the back of his neck was telling him that somewhere in this room was a very pissed-off werewolf." An AU in which Derek is feral, Stiles is magical, and they eat a lot of fast food.

It Was a Wednesday by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

(2/2 I 80,129 I Mature)

“What happened? Where are you? What’s that sound?”

Derek jumped, having momentarily forgotten Scott was on the phone with him because Stiles had started moving. He’d stalked over to the other side of the cave, still eying Derek warily and growling, then settled protectively over a mass of clothes, leaves and animal innards. It was probably where he was sleeping.

Lovely. No wonder he smelled like death.

“Stiles,” Derek said, answering Scott’s question. Or, one of them, at least.

“Stiles? What do you—Stiles is making that noise?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“How fast do you think you can make it to the south lot of the Preserve?”

aizawa calling you clingy - gn reader

- [attempt at] angst to fluff

- warnings: being called clingy, aizawa gets annoyed with reader and berates them, one use of the word ‘shit’

- wc: 1.9k

a/n: this wasnt......as sad as i wanted... i cant tell if im just not so good at writing angst or immune to it T_T

once again, not edited!

#! aizawa!!!! eee

#! hes a levelheaded man so arguments are rare

#! u both trust one another so theres no reason to have doubts in ur relationship

#! being his s/o, he tells u things thats not so easy to tell others over time, and you’re patient enough to let him take however much time he needs to let u in

#! however, years of keeping to himself most of the time doesnt just disappear even if you’re his s/o

#! so aizawa does have this tendency to close off and distance himself from u bc of his stress and insecurities

walking through the spacious halls of ua, you were headed towards your lovely boyfriend. aizawas been pretty busy lately with teaching his class, making sure no one is being left behind progress wise, doing his job as a pro-hero, and then spending his free time training with shinsou.

you knew showing up at school unexpectedly was something aizawa found irky, that’s why you made sure to tell him the night before that you would be coming during lunch time to bring him some yummy homemade food.

humming softly to yourself, you finally reached the door opening to class 1-A and walked in. the classroom was empty, but there at the front was no one other than mr. aizawa shouta. you quickly greeted him with a smile and he turned to look at you.

“what are you doing here?” he slowly asked with a look of confusion.

“i brought you some food! did you eat yet? i hope not, i made-,” you quickly stopped talking once you noticed the look he was giving you.

“why are you here? i already told you, you shouldnt be showing up without letting me know first. our relationship is quiet, if the students see they’ll get noisy and ask questions, i’ll get bombarded by my colleagues, and it’ll put you in danger if words get out. did anyone see you coming here? can you listen to me for once instead of continuing to always be near me? you’re so damn clingy and need to start thinking about the consequences your action will bring. i already ate, just go home before anything happens.”

your jaw dropped a little after hearing what he just said to you. did he not remember what you told him last night?

worst of all, you couldnt believe he just called you clingy. you just wanted to do something nice for him by making his favorite food hoping that it’ll relieve some of the stress thats been building up, but he just thought of you as clingy.

fine, if clingy is what you are then you’ll stop bothering him. you quickly whispered an apology, not sure if he could hear or not, and began making your way back home as fast as possible. the food you made for him was still tightly grasped in your hand.

due to the new dormitories, aizawa stays at ua majority of the time. he comes home to your shared apartment whenever he can to spend time with you. unfortunately, those time aren’t usually much because as soon as he’s free, he’s quick to do something else.

once you’ve made it home, you packed the food away and put it in the fridge. you felt your phone buzzing repeatedly, already guessing who it could possibly be, you took it out to see it was your boyfriend.

shou <3: im sorry

shou <3: honey, im so sorry. pls text me back when u can

shou <3: i know what i said hurted u, but i promise u i dont mean it. pls just call me or text me so we can talk about this

shou <3: i have to go back now. but i love u. so much.

staring at your screen, you contemplated texting him back.

letting out a sigh, you decided not to.

putting your phone to the side, you walked to the bedroom and changed out of your clothes into the comfy pjs you were wearing right before you left.

seeing that there was nothing for you to do other than wallow in your insecurities and let out a few tears, you got into bed and made yourself comfortable for an afternoon nap.

aizawa on the other hand was at school and distracted. his own words kept replaying over and over in his head and all he wants to do is smack himself a few times (after comforting u ofc).

his students could tell he was in a badder mood than usual so they collectively agreed to not worsen it (one particular student does not care. can u guess?). aizawa just wanted the day to pass so he can apologize to you directly and make it up with some cuddling.

despite being distracted with planning his apology and thinking about you, he was still teaching as he should and constantly telling his students to be quiet because he’s intimidating like that.

a few hours passed, the students are back in their dorms and some of the teachers are still in school finishing up some work. the hallways were empty and silent, and the weather outside was nice and calm - not too sunny with just the right amount of wind.

however, if you were to peek your head inside of class 1-A at the moment, the environment is an exact 180. aizawa is quickly trying to grade the remaining stack of papers he has on his desk so he can leave as soon as he can. there’s papers everywhere, he’s not so sure where the answer key went off to but to hell with the answer key. he just needs to go home.

his hair is messily tied up and his lips have probably been gnawed off by now. as soon as school ended, he got out his phone to see if you replied and sadly you didn’t. he doesn’t blame you though, considering all of the shit he said to you earlier. 

finally writing down the fat score in red pen onto the final paper, he gathers everything and put to the side of his desk and packed up his stuff. his stuff being his yellow sleeping bag and that’s it.

he went to his room first to clean himself up a bit, and then grabbed a taxi to go to your shared apartment. arriving at the front door, he takes out his copy of the key and entered.

first thing he noticed while entering and taking off his shoes was that the apartment was dark and quiet. he made his way to the kitchen first and turned on its lights to check the fridge. in the fridge laid the food you made for him earlier today. he took it out to start heating it up in the microwave then he walks away from the food and to your bedroom.

quietly opening the door, he poked his head in to see you laying on your side with your back facing the door. he assumed you were asleep and gently closed the door to not wake you up. he made his way over to the bed and sat on the edge of it. 

you, feeling the bed dip, slowly opened your eyes to be greeted with the sight of your boyfriend gingerly brushing his fingertips across your cheekbones. he notices that you’re awake and looks up to meet your eyes.

making eye contact with him, you quietly grunted and brought the blanket up to cover your face while turning your entire body to the other side to ignore him. aizawa sighed and brought his hand down to rest on your waist as he begins talking.

“yn... i know you’re.. mad at me for the things i said to you earlier, but i’m truly sorry. i know saying i didn’t mean it isn’t good enough for you to forgive me, but i want you to know i’m really really sorry. i’ve been so busy for the past few days, my head is all over the place, seeing you at school just got me overthinking and worried that i ended up saying things about you that’s not true at all. i love you so much, hun. you’re the best thing to happen to me. you don’t have to forgive me now, i understand if you want some space.”

it was silent for some time after he finished his apology. the echoing silence was slowly making aizawa worried that you’ll leave him, but he won’t tell you that. thinking that you wanted space, he lifted his shaky hand off of your waist and moved to get off of the bed when you suddenly grabbed onto his hand to keep him there.

“i...i told you the day before that i was going to be visiting you during lunch time. did you not remember? or even hear me tell you?”

aizawa situated himself back down onto the bed before replying. “if i’m being honest, i don’t really remember much of that day at all. my brain was occupied with work and rest, so i was practically drained by the end of the night. i’m sorry i took it out on you, it’s my fault for overworking when i know you’ve been trying to help.”

letting out a soft sigh, you turned your body back towards him. still holding onto his hand, you carefully slotted your fingers in between his and pulled him down to lay with you. he immediately found comfort in this and placed his head into your neck. you could feel his facial hair against your skin making you let out a quiet giggle.

“i love you. i know you have a habit to overwork since that’s all you did before we dated, but please shou, take care of yourself. im not talking physically, cuz you’re already so damn fine, but mentally. i hate seeing you bury yourself in work and training that it even makes me tired just watching you.”

he grumbled something against your neck - his usual reaction to you complimenting him - and held onto you tighter while putting light kisses on your collarbone.

“i know. i will. please bear with me, i know i’m a pain but i’ll always try to be my best for you. i’m never letting you go, love you too much for that.”

“hmm? who said i’m going? you’re stuck with me forever just so you know,” you laughed and patted his head before rising from the bed.

“i heard you heating up the food earlier. get up and come eat,” you tugged aizawa to get him off the bed.

he grumbled once again because he was being forced to leave the warm comfort of your shared bed, but followed you out anyway holding onto your hand.

“wait. you heard me entering? so you were pretending to sleep when i got here?! not funny, babe. not funny. -also don’t take sleep for granted. i did and look where that got me. stop laughing!”

bonus:

it was the next day and aizawa just finished passing out the grades he rushed grading yesterday. even though it was rushed, he was confident that there wasn’t any mistakes-

“aizawa sensei, you marked this question wrong when it’s right. this one too. and this other one on the last page. are you trying to fail me?!” denki dramatically wailed as he showed aizawa his papers.

guess he did make mistakes after all.

moon song (sirius black x reader)

TW: angst, angst, and more angst. so cheating, lowkey a toxic relationship, falling out of love, sad ending? if there’s anything else i missed tell me!

a/n: this was so fun to write, im like obsessed with phoebe bridgers rn and the mauraders. we all know that my moony and pad foot would never actually do this but. also my writing skills are so bad so just deal with it 😙

word count- 709 (which is the biggest thing i’ve wrote)

you asked to walk me home, but i had to carry you, and you pushed me in, and now my feet can’t touch the bottom of you

you knew that your relationship with sirius was falling apart. he didn’t look at you with the same sirius sparkle anymore. the communication was falling apart too. no more pet names that made james wanna throw up in his mouth, no more lovey dovey things in the hallway. the relationship was becoming a chore.

you couldn’t have, you couldn’t have, stuck your tongue, down the throat, of somebody who loves you more

he did it. you knew he would. he would always pick remus over you. it was a bond that couldn’t be broken. but you broke it, and in return remus broke your relationship. it wasn’t his fault completely. but when lily told you what had happened the only thing in your mind was remus. and how he ruined everything

so i’ll wait for the next time you want me again, like a dog with a bird at your door

he would want you again. you know he would. he had to. you would take him back in a heartbeat. you swore you loved him, even when you hated him, and even when he hurt you. the love you had for this man was insane. he was broken. and beautiful. and the best person for you. and the love of your life. there was no one else, and there will never be anyone else.

we hate tears in heaven, buts it’s sad that his baby died

let’s face it, sirius never meant to hurt you. he never meant to loose feelings for you. and he never meant to stop loving you. it happened with time. spring turned into fall, and sirius’ love for you rusted like old metal. it was bound to happen. and he tried to make it stop, or to slow it down, but it was too fast. and in the mits of all the chaos, remus was the only thing that could hold him down. and while remus was holding him down, you were letting him fly away.

and we fought about john lennon, until i cried, and then went to bed upset

the first signs were the obvious ones, he was easily irritated by you, and seemed to always be picking fights. like when you said you didn’t like queen and he blew up on you, or when you stole one of his jumpers and he got really pissed because that was his favorite one and you didn’t ask for it. and whenever you got pissed off he rode away and went to find moony and prongs. of course, you went with lily and eventually lily went with james and they both knew that heartache was the only thing in store for the teo of you. so, if it was destined, why did it hurt so bad.

but now i’m dreaming, and your singing at my birthday party, and i’ve never seen you smile so big, it’s nautical themed

the memories came back in flashbacks and echoes. good memories, bad ones. all of them. over and over and over in your head until you finally fell asleep. classes were hard and boring , food had no taste, and it became increasingly difficult to take care of yourself. if it wasn’t for lily, marlene, and dorcas, you would be an absolute wreck, well. just a little worse than you are now. you avoided all of the mauraders, for “healing” and to try and forget about remus and sirius.

and there’s something i’m supposed to say, but can’t for the life of me, remember what it is

when you finally got the urge to go out again, to party again, to see sirius again your mouth went dry the second you saw them. remus and sirius loving up on eachother and the worst part was that sirius looked happy. so, you ignored them, found james and lily, and acted like a third wheel the whole entire night. it was hard to be in the same room with him, but you needed to make things right.

and if i could give you the moon, i would give you the moon.