Gratitude can be found in the most unexpected places and can bring joy to our lives.

#reflections #lake #mountainlake #mountains #woods #forest #trees #rocks #curve #pine #evergreen #tahoenationalforest #lostsierra #hike #nature #wilderness #solitude #smallmoments #mentalhealth #midlife #2022 #forties (at Volcano Lake Sierra City, Ca) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgdVDSBrwxl/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

A small moments Life happens and so all my art plans are on pause. Loss demands that if we are hope to find our balance again. I have so many owl stories waiting in the wings… but all I can do right now is breathe and organise my world. I am retreating to Bruny Island and allowing art and nature to heal those inner story spaces. These owls were waiting and watching as a small family that emerged within the space of clearing studio clutter. Those spaces in the edges of awareness that call to be noticed. That curiosity of allowing and being in the moment of allowing and letting go. Art life connections is always my way to make sense of my world. It is my balance especially when the world shifts and changes beneath you. The world as we know it has a way of reshaping itself so the question is how do you find your balance when life happens and the world shifts you? #owlart#artlifebalance#artinprogress#lossandgrief #lifehappens#smallmoments##wildsoulcreativity#brightartstories#soulhealing https://www.instagram.com/p/ClSxGMJvdHe/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

QOTD: What are you currently reading? ❄ I am starting a new sweet journey with The Tea Ladies of St Jude’s Hospital; I can’t wait to dive into this warm-hearted story in this freezing time! ❄ #bookstagram #bookwarm #bookworm #book #bookloversaustralia #teatime #winter #bookoftheday #smallmoments ❄ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg6Roy2LYvg/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Midnight Musings - Once again

You know, it can be nice sometimes to have a void to speak to every now and again. :D 

What can I say, Insomnia’s a pain. 

So, here we are! I am sometimes amazed at how content it is possible to be, and how sharply that contentment contrasts with the sheer nihilistic depression that can take hold in an instant, the sheer overwhelming insanity of life. I wonder sometimes if my quest for contentment is spawned by a heavy preponderance of some of the classic gibli films during my formative years. When my grandfather died, he willed a large chunk of his Gibli collection to my brothers and I - one film for each of us, and those films have a tendency to idealize and to emphasize the simple beauty of normal life. Sofie sitting in a chair and admiring the landscape, the fact that nothing looked as tasty as the toast and egg that Pazu and Sheeta split in a random cave looking up at Etherium crystals that no one could mine, the Joy Nausicaa felt returning home to her own Valley of the Wind (There was a moment when the wind stopped in the valley where I grew up and I was surprised at how unsettled I felt)  - I used to spend hours trying to create a cohesive history for all of the films- especially the Gibli originals, because given that they all shared aesthetics, they all looked like they could feasibly be from the same universe - but always, It hit me that these characters were happiest when they were enjoying the simple beauties of life. 

This probably sparked my love of art as well - I am by no means a professional artist, but I love to create, love to paint, draw, and to try to capture the physical world around me. I used to lay down on the lawn and simply stare up through the leaves, letting the emerald light filter down through maple leaves or the tiny oval shaped leaves of the black locust trees in our yard like liquid gold through jade. I remember going up into Byce canyon - you could see it from our window - and simply admiring the view of the ampitheatre, making stories out of the different shapes, sculpting the Hoo Doos with my mind, as one would watch the clouds. I would stare out across Kodachrome and feel my breath catch in my chest at the sheer beauty of the place I didn’t know was a desert, because It was simply my home. The feral beauty of a Jackrabbit tearing away from me at full speed, the joy of bounding down a hill with reckless abandon, the thrill of exploring canyons. The feeling of cool stone under my hands, convinced that If I tried hard enough it would whisper to me the stories of the world, the stories that had been long lost to time.

I’ve been pulled from the brink of suicidal thoughts by the simplest of pleasures - the comfortable feeling of my favorite chair as I sip hot chocolate or Mate (an aquired taste) or simply listening to the hum of the fan as I feel the warm presence of my wife beside me. The ability to sit- to be still for a moment- and enjoy life was one that I made a point to learn, through the haze of ADHD and an incessant need to be DOING something, through the shape pang of depression and meaninglessness that strike me from time to time, I made a point to enjoy the simple pleasures for the simple reason that it brought some of my favorite characters from film so much peace. 

      This is probably a large part of why I like martial arts as well - It’s a very sensory experience. The more time you do martial arts, the more you tend to live in your sensory memory. A lot of my experiences don’t even make it into my short term memory, simply because they do not need to. I am EXPERIENCING, and that is it’s own joy. The feeling of my muscles tensing and relaxing, the snapping of my body as I lock my joints at the right moment to crush brick and stone, or to snap through wood with barely a second thought. It is satisfying- but I find the most peace in the forms. Flowing from movement to movement, like embracing an old friend. Hyungs learned in the WTSDA that have been ingrained into my body since youth, that I have made a point to try to perfect and improve for almost two decades now. It is the peace of being in the moment, and it is very likely the reason I am alive. 

It’s helped me through dark times, and through spurts of sheer blind rage, and has helped me to re-claim my sense of self, of being, when I feel that I will simply dissolve in a dissociative spell of mindless apathy. It lets me sit here in peace, comfortable in the dark of my living room, sipping away at one drink or another, arms resting comfortably on the table. I think, I dream, as I have to, I am of the daydreaming variety of ADHD after all - but also , I take a moment to simply enjoy the silence. The humming of the dozens of machines that we never pay attention to, whose constant hum and drone is simply another piece of the endless background noise of our modern lives. 

I like nights like these - when it is easy to smile, even when it is hard to sleep, and I can accept that while my life will be insignificant to many, it matters to a select few - to my students, to my wife and family, to my brothers, to the people I try to help along my blind and clumsy journey through life. 

Some things are constant. 

Leaves are beautiful in their infinitely fine geometry. 

The warmth of the sun is a constant reminder that I am alive. 

The stone will always be hard and strong under my hand, and sandstone I love the best. 

Even if I lose a limb,  I will still have my arts. 

This I think - might be a large part of how to survive adulthood. Little things bring joy to our lives. Happiest is the one who learns to cherish those little things while they drift by on the dispassionate winds of time. 

"Reflecting on the Beauty of Small Moments ✨"

In a world that often moves at lightning speed, it's important to take a step back and appreciate the beauty in the small moments. Whether it's the warmth of a morning cup of coffee, the gentle rustle of leaves in the wind, or the laughter shared with a friend, these moments are the threads that weave together the tapestry of our lives.

Let's challenge ourselves to be present and mindful, to notice and cherish these fleeting instances of joy and connection. They may seem insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but it's often these small moments that leave the biggest impact on our hearts.

So here's to finding beauty in the ordinary, to slowing down and savoring the little things that make life truly magical. 💫

#SmallMoments #Mindfulness #Appreciation

nyáron mind megtanuljuk, hogy az apró pillanatok tudják adni a legnagyobb boldogságot

I just want someone to have morning cuddles with and have movie nights with while eating our favourite snacks on rainy and cold days. Someone to watch the sunset with,  so i can stare at them while they stare at the sunset and i can watch the  wonder in their eyes. Some one i can hold when they are having a shit day and tell terrible jokes to so that i can try make them smile. Someone who will hold my hand when I’m scared and stroke my hair when i can’t sleep. Someone who will love me no matter my imperfections and I will love everything they hate about themselves. Some one who when i see something random during my day i can send them a picture or call them because it reminded me of them and they could do the same for me. Someone who will stay up late watching random videos with me and i can play with their hair so they can relax. Someone who doesn't only love the big gestures or declarations of love, but rather the small little intimate moments where you just hold each other and say i love you after they something funny or stupid. Not caring about massive surprises or gifts but rather when they get home from a rough day and you have cooked dinner and got their favourite movie and you build a  fort to watch it together or make them their favourite cookies and run a bath so they can just relax. I just want someone who can share life with me and we can build each other up and just make each other better people. I just want someone. Is that too much to ask for?

Little things, big ripples

#sunrise #mountains #landscape #morning #trees #forest #woods #wilderness #outdoors #outdoor #plumasnationalforest #lakedavis #winter #cold #california #midlife #explore #mentalhealth #misomaniac #nature #life #smallmoments (at Lake Davis, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cnb9vCqLCyh/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Today

Let's just take this one day at a time. Today, I felt better. I felt I was on track and I was productive. Today, I was happy. I felt that I put some things behind me and healed a little more. Today, I felt loved. I had my family to hold and my cat to adore. Today, today was a good day. We have to remember the moments from today because we don't know what tomorrow will bring.

𝐹𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑜𝑝𝑖𝑎 𝐸𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒

I would like to share my experience about this sudden event that change my perspective of being a fan. But first let’s go back to how I started to be a fan, when I first watch the Thailand series named U-Prince: The Handsome Cowboy I had a lot of fun while watching it that’s why I continued watching different Thailand series. A lot of Thailand actors and actresses catch my attention which encourage me to watch more. I’ve watch a lot of thai series and movies like U-Prince, Ugly Duckling, First love, Friend Zone, The Gifted, Theory of love, 2gether, Great Men Academy and a lot lot more, Crazy right? AHAHA you can try to watch it also if you like. I am a movie type person not series because at first I hate watching series because I’m lazy, but I don’t know what thai series did to me and I ended up like this. What can I do I like this kind of stuffs it makes all of my stress go away.

Fantopia is an event for the fans of different Thailand artist it happened on the twenty-first until twenty-second of November 2020. Sadly I didn’t get a chance to watch the fan events live in the past few years because I focus on my studies a lot that’s why I grab the opportunity that day. Every little things make me happy and strengthens me. Although I can’t watch them performing live in the stage I looked for another way to watch. I made a fan account at twitter dedicated for them then I’ve met a lot of new friends and they are Filipino and also some are International fans. It’s nice to be part of this kind of things because you get to interact with other race and also you can learn few things about their culture. But still I am not blessed to watch them lived I only get to watch them on clips.

While waiting for some clips there are kind thai fans that is sharing their moments in their tweets about the event and I felt so very thankful and blessed because of their kindness. Until I’ve watched a lot of clips and I discovered a lot of new words in their language. Being a fan at this young age is really hard I can’t afford to buy their merch, I can’t go to their country because of lack of money for travel and also I’m underage especially now that covid is still present in our country. Because of what’s happening right now I can only watch online and chill and wait for the others to share their moment with my loves. They’ve been a part of my boring 2020 even though this a worst year for me I’ve learned that no matter how difficult you are experiencing right now there is and there is still this someone who will make you happy and will make your day extra special. It’s such a great experience!

Attention: this is just based on my personal experience thank you! Lovelots! 💚

Here she is… Tucked away, eyes closed and dreaming her world… my little orange owl that was waiting to enter into this layered story. I love the way creating art surprises you as you trust the connections that form and the whispered guidance along the way. She adds a lovely new story to this gathering. I wonder what she is dreaming of and where this story will lead her? . . . . . . #owldreaming#owlwhimsy#trusttheprocess🙏#owlart#mixedmediaowls#smallmoments#artconnections#uniquelyme#creativedyslexic#dyslexicartist #owllove#owlart#soulstories#wildsoulcreativity (at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjMU7q2PIpo/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

QOTD: Do you ever get that feeling of book hangover?

I just finished my current read, The Midnight Library, and I'm missing it already. What could I pick up next? Any recommendations?🤔

My favourite genres are dark/fantasy, historical fiction, crime, thriller, narratives, mystery and more