accepting the apology and not forgiving is great but I think that people should also just not accept the apology, whether it's because you just don't feel good still, whether the person is truly sorry or not, because it doesn't matter what they say, what's done is done and in the end you have been hurt by them
even if you're being polite or nice to them, you don't have to accept the apology just as you don't have to give them forgiveness, they're two sides of the same coin and you should never feel like you're bad or mean for still not liking them after they hurt you
and not only that, even if what they did was unintentional, it doesn't matter what they actually wanted to do or what the intended outcome was, because it's already been done and this is the outcome whether they wanted it or not, and even if they've done something nice for you, even if they're better to you, there is nothing that you have to give them unless you feel like it
nothing at all
until you're ready, if you ever will be
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Since you are a fan of rise and you do like that Raph. What’s your opinion on 03 Raph and 12 Raph?
Oh ho ho!! I'm actually glad you asked this bc I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
2003 raph is prob one of my favorite turtles in 03. I've only watched the first two seasons of the show, but I love his snark. He has some of the best comeback lines and his dynamic with Mikey is one of my favorite aspects of the show. His "yo mama" line is something I think about a lot haha.
Now 2012 raph. Ohhhh boy him. Having gotten through the first three seasons of 2012, my perception of him has changed drastically. If you showed me just the first two episodes of 2012 (and like...first half of season 1) I would've told you raph is a horrible brother who is nothing more than a bully. But I've watched three seasons of 2012 now and SOMEHOW he's become one of my favorites. Maybe it's bc they soften him a bit in later seasons. Maybe it's bc sometimes I'd sit there and be like...damn he has a right to be angry (I will actually never forgive splinter's "lesson" in s1ep3). Maybe I like really flawed characters? Idk. But as someone whos first introduction of the character was rise/2012 fics, I've now since grown an appreciation for him. 2012 had an extremely rough start with his character, since ya. He was a bully and oftentimes extremely out of pocket with insults. (but honestly all the 2012 turtles were. Raph was just the biggest offender). But like all raphs he's secretly a big softie that's masked by a rough exterior. 2012 raph is what happens if that softness is made fun of and seen as a weakness instead of strength. (Also if the writers don't understand the difference between banter and bullying until like season 2 coughcough) So ya, he's one of my favs now. I have way too much to say about him
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The screaming had lasted for hours.
Not screaming like someone was dying; Ingo would have intervened if that were the case.
In some ways, the argument he could almost hear was worse.
The twins had come round with Cori and Razz, picking up Akari and Rei and taking them out for ice cream when it had started. Ingo had asked Davis about it who had, reasonably, looked uncomfortable.
"Dizzy loves our brother, she really, really does. But she... takes his lifestyle personally. They're very similar like that." Davis had responded quietly. "It's an old argument with no end. This happens- not normally in front of the kids, so Khan had us take them out of the house when she started winding up, and Cor asked if we could grab Akari for ice cream and..."
Ingo had let them go, sitting at home and listening. He couldn't hear the words but he could hear the tone. How angry Dizzy was, how it would go quiet and then there would be another outburst. Only a handful of times did Khan raise his voice in return at his sister, but never for very long. Ingo couldn't remember having any arguments like that with Emmet. He didn't remember their childhood, but the memories he had recovered of their teenage years and before his accident... he didn't think he and his twin had ever been quite so volatile.
Then again, there had been no signs of this sort of conflict between the oldest siblings either. If he wasn't hearing it, he'd never have thought they'd fight like this. Given the lack of interference from the rest of the neighborhood he wagered Davis was right, and that the best way to deal with this storm was simply to ride it out.
When the argument finally ended he was standing by his window that looked into his neighbor's front yard, worried. Dizzy stormed out with Khan following quickly behind. Ingo had never seen him look so... small. It was hardly a word one would associate with the young man, given his height and stature, and yet it was the only word Ingo could think of to describe him.
He watched as Khan reached for his sister, only for her to turn and slap his hand away.
“Why can’t you even try, you self-sacrificing bastard? You never even try!”
She stomped down the sidewalk, slamming the door to her car shut before turning it on and pulling out at a decidedly unsafe speed. Ingo watched as Khan stared after her, shoulders still slumped, before he put a hand up to his face and turned to walk back into his home.
Maybe it would be better to leave well enough alone, to pretend he hadn’t overheard… _that,_ but Khan was… well. Khan was his friend. Things may have been shaky to start with between them, but they had smoothed out. Khan knew about Ingo’s amnesia and never once judged him for it. Now, Ingo knew about… this.
Still. He hesitated before walking out of his own home and down the sidewalk to his neighbor’s, glancing around at the rest of the homes on the street. Blinds were slowly opening, curious eyes peeking through to see what still stood in the wake of the hurricane argument. The door to Khan’s home was unlocked when he tried the handle and Ingo slowly opened the door.
“Khan?” He called out.
There was a sniffling sound, a familiar hitch of breath.
“Yeah?” Khan’s voice was thick and low when he replied. “What’s up, need something fixed?”
“No, I…” Ingo shut the door behind him. The house was in one piece. For all the screaming and noise it appeared that nothing had been broken. The argument may have sounded violent but nobody had gotten physical. “I heard what happened and I was wondering if you were… alright.”
“Oh, you… you heard that?” Khan hadn’t come out to find him and so Ingo continued towards his voice instead. “Well, yeah. They could probably hear that on the moon.”
“Possibly. I was unaware that Dizzy’s volume could rival my own.”
Khan was sat in the kitchen, slouched down in one of the chairs he’d built by hand. A byproduct of one of the many jobs he’d taken to keep his siblings fed, homed, and safe. He still looked, to Ingo’s dismay, small. Defeated. Deflated of all life.
“Yeah, she’s got some pipes on her. Always has. About burst my eardrums when she was a toddler, the way she’d howl when she threw a fit.”
One hand was rubbing at his face and his shoulders were still shaking intermittently. Ingo paused, uncertain, before he rested a hand on Khan’s shoulder.
“I don’t know what happened, but if you’d like to talk about it… or if you’d prefer, I can leave?”
Khan was silent long enough that Ingo prepared to straighten up, head out the door, and pretend this had never happened.
Khan leaned forward, rubbed his eyes again, and shook his head.
“You can stay,” he said quietly, and Ingo pretended he didn’t see the tears falling onto the floor, “it’s fine. You can stay.”
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so, you know how
SPOILERS FROM THE ARANYAKA QUEST
the aranara gave up their memories just to help Rana out?
Imagine FL Childe and the corruption from the abyss hurting and spreading, even moreso beyond what big fluffy moth can handle.
The aranara offered to help but since they did just recently cleansed Rana and had given the Bija to her, they can't do it immediately. But you're running out of time...
So you offer your own memories to be taken to the earth and the leaves and to be one with the great vanarana.
All your memories, your experiences, all the tears of joy and pain, all given to help make the Bija for Childe.
The next time he awoke and had hurriedly nuzzled you in gratitude, there was fear and evident confusion in your face and voice.
"W-who are you?"
*swings my legs and giggles* anon i love you SO much for sending this in /p
you don't remember how you got here, in a sweet little house filled with unfamiliar sights and sounds. you don't remember a lot, to be honest, other than a few scattered visions of your life and light and laughter and then a wide, gaping chasm of emptiness before waking up here, a gentle humming outside drawing you from your slumber
or perhaps it was the snuggly monster in your lap that truly awoke you
your first, immediate reaction is fear because oh Archons, it's so much bigger than you and has claws and fangs that could tear you to shreds in an instant- and you gasp in terror and flinch away when the creature's talons graze your arms. but it whimpers, crimson features falling in despair when it desperately looks for and fails to find any trace of recognition in your eyes, and your heart aches peculiarly at the sight. hesitantly you open your arms, willing yourself to not pull away when the beast quickly slots itself against your body, clinging to you like you'll disappear if it lets go
it noses against your hand, gently, prompting you to curl your fingers against its hair and slowly scritch behind its horns. it feels familiar somehow, this motion, even if you're sure you've never seen this monster in your life, and you feel it sigh and melt into your touch, arms wrapped around your waist. your fear ebbs away, leaving a sense of deep confusion and oddly enough, peace
there's a tiny tap on your arm, and you glance down to see a little plant-like creature standing beside you. when it speaks you're surprised that you can understand it- or, somewhat- it calls you a "Nara" and itself an "Aranara"
and as you gently stroke the hair of the Abyssal monster in your arms, the Aranara explains everything
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I just love it when I'm all trying to take care of myself and I'm like "okay self, time to make some lunch!" and my self's immediate response is "that's too overwhelming, how about panic instead?"
bestie it's okay, I can just heat up something in the microwave, no need to be dramatic
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