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damn. two fucking years. i really thought i could be happy. i gained a fuck load of weight and chalked it up to medication and recovery and now im 200 fucking pounds and i feel disgusting. the worst part is i don’t even wanna be thin. not really. i just wanna be Not This. i feel horrible as im literally peoples recovery inspiration but i cant fucking do this anymore. im gonna go back to logging my food with calorie goals of like 800-1200. and hopefully that’ll work but if not i’ll go lower. who am i kidding i’ll probably go lower anyway that’s how an ed work but im gonna cling on to my illusion of health for as long as possible. i know for a fact this is gonna take me somewhere bad but it’s too late to turn around. see you around.

<3 casey

the goddess 🪞

sick of feeling and seen myself as midsized!! am i fit in th1n$p0?

I just want to hear the truths,

but please be kind! >.<

ps:The first photo was taken sooner than the others!

lil update for my moots - saw ED doc yesterday and she is making me come back in a week to check my vitals again. glad I'm over 19 because otherwise she would've admitted me but was a bad experience! I just wanna maintain a BMI of like. 13 is that too much to ask? I just need to lose 2 more lbs then I'm good

I suck at this disorder

Same bro 😭😭😭

Okay cool cool cool

coming back to 3dblr after “recovery”

i am anor3xic again! I got recovered last summer and I tried my best to get sick again this summer lol and on the first day of october I can officially say that I can't eat anything again! I can't eat -not much but even i want to- for almost a week, I just vomit what I eat. but still, i dont feel sick enough. but i finally feel safe. dont wanna be recover again. never!

My brain is so dumb

I'm too jealous of those who "forget" to eat. My days are built around food........ fck you brain, think about something else