christmas miracle.

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Giving the people what they demanded

David Tennant Dancing - Part Eight

Also see:  My [ #David Dancing ] tag for more joy

There's something to be said for the strangeness of therapy and understanding not only why you do things, but why certain things make you feel like Death for no reason and sometimes why other people do things as well.

And its all well and good except its... tiring.

You go, you pay, you scoop out the seeds and flesh with a blunt spoon until you hit the rind, and then you sit there across from a sad, kind professional while the two of you try to sort out how to put it back together.

And no one thanks you for it outright. Your mom calls and you actually pick up for the first time in a month and she says you sound clearer. Your brother has nothing to say about the amphetamines in your bag because he knows something changed enough that he says an "I love you" at the end of a visit and gets one back. Your wife pulls you back to reality and you find affection and touch tolerable enough to do the same for her the week after without your skin crawling.

But then you start to feel muscles pull and things strain. Anger comes (real anger, not snapped frustration, not survival fighting, but deep, indignant flares) and it fires like an engine left to coagulate for years. It feels like an unwieldy hammer too large to control and too easy to swing all at once. You're afraid to pick it up. You're more afraid to have it taken away again.

So you start to demolish your own foundation. You find the rotten pylons holding up your childhood and leave them in the mud. You cannot move them now, only balance new beams better than your parents did.

Then the hardest room is next. The cozy sitting room with the day bed you kept open all hours and days for anyone to rest on, it goes down with the rotten floor. You never knew the mold had reached out here--you thought that was hidden behind the other doors, under your own bed, not in this space. Not here in the warm light of pride, of being kind and useful, where you curled up in too small of a chair and basked, knowing you had earned love with your tired limbs and heavy eyes. You drag the day bed to the curb and apologize to everyone who knocks. The new floor is bare and cold, the silence echoes in the empty room, but you start to ponder what color paint you might like to decorate yourself in. The roller is lighter than you expected. Maybe the bedroom deserves a coat.

And you brace for some pushback. Not everyone likes the color. Someone else compliments the new couch (only a couch now, an overnight bed for the cats and no one else) and someone else asks why you took the old one to the dump without telling them first. Some of them leave. Some of them put a crack in your newly painted drywall as they do. Others stay, asking if movie night is still on. You wipe your eyes and sweep the dust and ask if they'd like a drink before starting. The foundation shivers, but the walls remain.

Its mundane and earth-shattering and boring and the most terrifying all at once. No one will stop you from quitting. Healing is voluntary and the easiest responsibility on a long list to drop, and yet now that the mold is gone you understand, maybe, what it might be like to even want a home in your own mind and skin. Not a hotel, carefully crafted with beige walls and fluffed pillows, but a home.

🎇 morensong, tomarang

Interoffice relationships must be approached with caution, as they can lead to workplace drama and interfere with general productivity. While they are permitted, they are to remain outside the workplace and work hours.

Whenever possible.

nothing else in my bunny brain, only a much bigger and stronger dom teasing you for being so small and vulnerable by whispering things like this in your ear:

"awww, look at that. all it takes is one of my hands to pin down both of your little wrists together, so cute."

"such a small boy, wouldnt be able to fight back much if i decided to be a little forceful with your body, could you?"

"look how easy it is for me to carry you! gosh, such an easy little thing to toss and play around with whenever i want."

just holidays at the TVA 🎄

santa, santa, why do you hate me? i'm a gift, look how god made me

is it new years yet?, Sabrina Carpenter

Buddy Daddies + Text Posts [Part 17/ ??] Christmas Edition

Beth Riesgraf and Christian Kane in the Leverage Season 3 gag reel.

hey, remember 2.3? what was up with that event....

redraw of a thing from 2021 which was sorta a screencap redraw from that one cutscene

also oml albedo your in-game model... i am still so sorry to what they did to you and your hair especially.. i hope they go back and revamp it but i dont have high hopes for that happening 😔

I was keeping Deku the red-freckled reindeer for a christmas treat so might as well decorate this place a bit

some cosy doodles 💜

Loki's Sacrifice – "My Body Is A Cage"

(featuring found family + Lokius)

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🎄 fandom christmas cards 🎄

hi! so it's officially been about a year since i've been a part of milex tumblr, and honestly i just could not be more grateful for all joy, solace, and escapism being part of this little community has brought me over the last twelve months 💜

i always think of christmas as a time for showing appreciation for the people you care about (whether that's through gifts, spending time together, sending cards etc), and i wanted to do something to show my appreciation for all of you here who make this little space what it is ✨ something i love to do each year for people irl is make them christmas cards - and i thought i could maybe do a virtual version of that here to spread some festive cheer and express how thankful i am for this community that's just been such a gift in my life this year 💖

so, if you'd like to receive a virtual fandom christmas card from me with a handwritten note, then please reblog/leave a comment on this post and i'll send one through your ask box before christmas! 🥰