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Trauma Responses

Hi folks! This is not going to be a huge educational post about trauma responses. I mostly didn't know how to title this. I am in a conversation with a person on Tumblr who I will not name for privacy and the topic of trauma responses came up between us and I feel like I need to share this. It might not be super helpful, but it helped me understand the people around me better and I feel like sharing this might give you some perspective.

Imagine: You are a kid whose parents are really awful to you. They are always on your ass for not doing work, for not finishing tasks quickly enough, for dressing a certain way, for acting a certain way, etc etc I could go on forever. When they yell at you, you might dissociate a little. You might go numb. You might nod along with everything they say, agreeing to everything they say about you ("you're lazy, you're stupid, you'll never amount to anything, how are you ever going to get anything done when you're living on your own, etc.") because you just want to get it over with. They might yell for a few minutes or a whole hour. They might get physical with you. In your mind, as long as you stay small and agree with them, it'll get done quicker. And it usually does. You're a teenager and have perfected this by now. Just agree with them until they leave you alone. Then you can go to a "safe place" (your room, a bathroom, outside, etc) and show your emotions there, whether it's crying, anger, or whatever else. This is a trauma response called "fawning."

Now, you have a sibling--younger or older--who gets treated the same way you do. Only they don't get how this works. See, you agree and agree and don't show anything until after it's over. It's tried and true. It doesn't keep them from getting mad, but it usually makes their outbursts much faster. Your sibling doesn't do this. They immediately respond with anger right back. They don't like being treated like shit. They don't like being disrespected. They will yell and scream and fight with your parents, to the point where they will fight for hours. Your parents are especially horrible to them, trying to pull out all the nasty tricks they have to get them to shut up and submit. Only your sibling never admits defeat. Sometimes you have to sit and watch. Sometimes you're in your room or bathroom in hopes your parents won't direct their rage toward you. Your sibling has the "fight" response.

When you and your sibling are alone, you admonish each other. "Why don't you fight back?" they complain. "They expect me to be like you. I don't like being treated like that." You frown. "If you would just let it go and let them yell it out, it wouldn't get so bad." you reply. "You just make them angrier and angrier. You know they won't stop until they have you broken." Your sibling doesn't care. They don't deserve such treatment. Neither do you, but you hate conflict, so you just try to end it as quickly as you can. This causes a great divide between you two. You don't understand how the other can act the way they do.

This was me and my younger sister. She fights like hell and will not stop. I fawn immediately unless an alter with a "fight" response fronts. All our lives we were angry at one another, not stopping to understand that we were in the same shitty position and were trying to cope in the ways we knew how. We are both adults now and have gone to therapy. When I realized that her "fight" response was quite literally involuntary and my "fawn" response was the same, it changed everything. It's how we coped with the excess traumatic stimuli. I talked to her about it and apologized for all of my anger directed towards her growing up. When I told her that my response was "fawn" and I couldn't really do anything else, she had an "Aha!" moment. She had no idea I couldn't fight back. These realizations have helped us heal our relationship and we are closer than ever--when we were kids we despised each other. In all honesty, this was likely for my parent's benefit. We wouldn't team up against them.

So just understand that trauma responses cannot necessarily be controlled. With DID this gets even more complicated because you will often have alters assigned these different trauma responses. (Not purposely, that's how structural dissociation works.) You will likely have at least one "fight" response alter, a "freeze" response, a "flight" response, and so on and so forth.

Hope this helps someone. :)

-Jules

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yo my name is ‣ forest, your local ‣ grungy punk pothead gamer artist and welcome to ‣ my personal blog

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