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crispyliza · 21 days

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It's a real struggle

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arthursfuckinghat · 1 month

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#there's so many more but feel free to let me know any others you like!#personally I love william so much like what a down to earth guy he's always so cheery and fascinated by plants like arthur #his sweet nature and the way he interacts with arthur- god I could cry #and he always remembers arthurs name 😭#“well I'm ignorant ugly and nasty”#“well lets see if we can do something about that :)”#god I love u william you're so lovely #the way they get so casual and friendly the more you complete his requests too :')#he wants to help arthur #gahh #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #william rdr2 #blind man cassidy rdr2 #moonshiners rdr2 #hamish sinclair rdr2 #marko dragic rdr2 #albert mason rdr2 #algernon wasp rdr2 #francis sinclair rdr2 #margaret rdr2 #charles chatenay rdr2 #mr black rdr2 #mr white rdr2 #charlotte balfour rdr2 #whew #tumblr polls #polls

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the-cat-and-the-birdie · 5 months

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Gwen-haters:

Me: Ayo Peter B. is a horrible person

Gwen-haters:

fuck Peter B. Parker all my Hobies hate Peter B. Parker (not a typo)

#this is a Peter b hate post reblog if you hate Peter B #this is how it feels sometimes #SpiderDad fans are so sweet they're like 'let's not talk about what they did to Miles how about that'😭😭😭#I love it and I'm not joking #GWEN HATERS HOWEVER #go fall down a metaphor for capitalism #spiderman #atsv #spider man #marvel #across the spiderverse #gwen stacy #ghost spider #ghostspider #peter b parker #peter b. parker #miles morales #Peter Parker

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starflungwaddledee · 7 months

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Okay you gave me permission so now it's time to go fully autistic

*inhale*

So something I'm really interested in (mostly for my Bandee x Marx bias) is that comic with Marx and Bandee interacting, like, what's their relationship in this au, how'd they get to that point and heck, what was even happening? also it kinda seems like Bandee may be the main guy in this au or is just really important which makes me happy as Bandee isn't treated the best by Nintendo at all (hell, Sakrai said he didn't add Bandee into smash because he didn't like him) so seeing Bandee get the spotlight always brings me joy

And about the Meta and Galacta comic, it seems like Bandee plays a factor here too, with the mention of him being what gets the most reaction out of Meta and that makes sense because canonically Bandee is the weakest of the four and most likely to die quite easily, so it would make sense for the others to be protective of him

ALSO META BEING SEALED AWAY AND GALACTA SAYING HE'LL TAKE GOOD CARE OF, I'M ASSUMING BANDEE, DOES THAT MEAN GALACTA TAKES META'S PLACE??? HELLO???

anyway hi im really invested and also your art is fucking astounding

hell yea, fully autistic! the best kind of message! thank you also for the sweet words about my artwork ahhh! but hoo boy isn't this The Ask Ever. okay, let's get into it!

Bandee is, i think maybe obviously, my most specialist little guy ever and everything i make is likely about him in one way or another. so you're correct that he is indeed the main guy in both these AUs; he is the central protagonist which i think he deserves!!

(but he does also go through the angst blender a bit, just like... a warning. i adore happy endings but before that i do tend to meat-grind my faves pretty well in the drama machine.)

clockwork heart is actually a spin-off of awtdy (we do a little AU-ception in my household) which is our* primary au. (*a lot of my au work and headcanons are fleshed out very collaboratively with my girlfriend! the initial concept for awtdy was her idea, which i then very meanly shoved my bandee-important agenda into lmao)

awtdy sets this basic alternate world-state: during the Haltmann invasion, Galacta Knight defeats Meta Knight in battle and makes a wish on Star Dream to trade places.

this causes all sorts of terrible fun problems for everybody and basically gives rise to a bad timeline that a lot of folks do not come out of intact (rip floralia)

the Meta Knight vs Galacta Knight comic covers an important turning point in the story, where Meta Knight lets slip that he cares about Bandee the way he cares for Kirby. Meta Knight has an especially strong reaction to this for two reasons:

one is because, as you said, of the three remaining heroes Bandee is the most vulnerable-- seasoned and experienced fighter he may be, but against someone like Galacta Knight? 💦 he's still ultimately just a mortal dude. this obviously puts him at terrible risk, because Galacta Knight also considers him far more expendable than Kirby.

"i'll take good care of him" is transparently a threat and not actually... you know, kind.

secondly is because (unbeknownst to Galacta Knight) Bandee uniquely remembers Meta Knight. he knows that the timeline is screwed up and Galacta Knight is not meant to be there, and is actively working to rescue his real dad mentor. Meta Knight knows that if he's found out, Galacta Knight won't hesitate to kill him.

suffice to say the guilt of this would drive him capital i Insane!

as for the Marx "hurt like hell" comic, I am actually sorry to have to tell you that that scene is their first ever interaction in this au! 😂 in this alternate version of the story Marx is also aware of the timeline fuckery (due to his existence as an eldritch, temporal little creature) and he tracks Bandee down late in the game with a risky trade offer; which Bandee refuses. that's what's pictured in the comic!

it goes on for quite a long ways after that; though I don't know if it'll tickle your ship dynamic quite right because Marx is mildly antagonistic towards Bandee (and everyone) the whole time. so while they are cursed to be Stuck Together By The Narrative they are not really close or even particularly friendly.

they do indeed interact in it quite a lot, and I personally think Marx would gladly shoot his shot if he was offered it; but Bandee is neck-deep in a different ship for the entirety of awtdy and is especially miserable/pining as hell throughout clockwork heart.

but that's okay because Bandee is, uh-- totally fine!! he's normal. he's fine. he's very very fine and things will be very very okay.

#hopefully this last lil doodle is not too dark?#wanted to give u something for your marxdee needs bc i feel like i'm letting a fellow bandee rarepair shipper down 😭#watch me skirt actually dropping my rarepair tho. even rarer than marxdee apparently!#anyway thank you so so much for this ask and your interest?! blew my mind that anyone cared even a little bit about the stuff i'm making <3 #my art #bandana waddle dee #awtdy au #clockwork heart au #asks #cw angst #cw blood

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ox1-lovesick · 2 months

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hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow)#is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER)#I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

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cheekblush · 7 months

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i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no..#.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to..#talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭#idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡#even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed..#me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!!#but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️#like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

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rillils · 4 months

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imagine post endgame bucky having to go alone, without someone to support him, to say sorry to all the people whos family he killed and he keeps saying that he didnt have a choice as his excuse

and he keeps thinking that its not a good enough excuse, that hes not good enough

no, you see, you see!! one of the things that made me uncomfortable about their treatment of Bucky, back when I was watching tf*ws, is precisely this

gonna slap this under a cut because BOY I have things to say

I WWILL NEVER STOP BEING MAD ABOUT THIS. I MEAN.

deciding that he has to apologize for all those deaths implies that he murdered those people willingly, while he was perfectly aware of his actions, of their consequences, and just did it anyways. so now, you know, he has to "atone for his sins", or make amends or whatever. so we're just going to send him off to those dead people's relatives to immolate himself because of course that's the only right thing to do. BUT idk, say what you will, this entire concept just sits wrong with me, I can't help it.

like first of all, we're acting as though killing all those people was a conscious choice on his part, as though he were completely 100% in control of himself and actively chose to murder a bunch of people, just because it suited him or something, when we know, WE FUCKING KNOW, WE HAVE BEEN LITERALLY SHOWN THIS, IT'S A RECURRING THEME IN AT LEAST 2 OF THE CAP MOVIES, that THIS. was NOT. the CASE. and fuck anyone who says any different tbh, mcu included

second, they might argue that by walking up to the victims' relatives and apologizing, Bucky's giving them closure or something, but. just. look at this from their point of view, right. as far as they're concerned, this is the guy who murdered their loved ones in cold blood, and he's just! walking free! getting away with murder(s), apparently without suffering any consequences whatsoever for all his crimes and all the grief he has caused. is that REALLY gonna give anyone closure? or is it just going to hurt them more/make them even angrier/unnecessarily reopen old wounds when there's nothing, really, that can heal or soothe them at this point, but rather just make them more painful than they already were????

so, it doesn't give them closure. and it sure as fuck doesn't give him closure, either.

they send him on this horrible, tragic, terrifying, sad errand, and all he gets out of it is torturing himself some more. seeing the pain and the hatred for him on all of these people's faces, the moment he says "yes, it was me, I pulled the trigger, I killed this person you loved". like, torture, yes, torture!! that's all this is!!! that's all it earns him!!! no peace of mind, no sense of closure, no hint of forgiveness! just more pain!!!!!!

just. I just hate this, you know, I just. I really, really hate this. I especially hate how, as you said, the way they insist on him having to personally apologize is just going to make him feel like his own hardships (aka being physically and emotionally tortured until he broke down and had his identity, agency and free will stripped away from him) were just "an excuse". as though a victim (because THAT'S what he is, THAT'S what he always was, a victim himself) needed an excuse for all his suffering. as if he brought it upon himself. as if he was "asking for it".

nah, all of this, it's just going to make his sense of guilt grow stronger and deeper over time, making him feel even more Unworthy (unworthy of love, unworthy of acceptance, unworthy of living a normal life after everything he's been put through, unworthy of friendship, unworthy of being seen as a whole person, as a human rather than a murderer) than he already felt before, making his own pain so overwhelmingly powerful that he might end up feeling like his entire existence is a mistake, and everybody would be better off if he just wasn't around anymore. and that's just so horrifying that I refuse to contemplate it.

#stucky just stucky #personal #like most of the time i feel like they just *hate* him down at the mcu quarters you know #it's like all they're interested in doing with him is just 'hey let's see how much more crap we can throw at this character'#just for funsies lmao #and i'm not even going to touch on what they did to steve (and - by proxy - to bucky himself) or i'll never shut up at all #i'm really sorry i went on a tangent honey #i just have way too many feelings about this 😭😭😭

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suddencolds · 24 days

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#not snz #more musings 📝 / mini vent:#not sure why my social battery is so limited 😭 and also so inconsistent #i feel like i can't sustain the amount of... like continued/consistent enthusiasm i see others giving esp in group settings #i just don't know how to engage in that way without burning out #over the past few weeks i've been stuck in like #a strange state where i can't muster the energy to properly respond to even the people i'm most excited to reply to #which is strange??#(and if that is you i am sorry 😭 i love you and i will get back to you)#i think i can't even like manage to get myself into the mindset of enjoying something for myself (eg. a conversation with a friend)#i think a part of it is the stress from work leeching into my personal life #i feel like i've been working so hard and for such long hours but its the kind of work where the progress i've made is very hard to track??#:( i just want to be off of ******* work so i can work on ******* work again #i also want to get ahead enough on everything in my life so that i write y+v D:#i feel like i haven't had a properly restful day in weeks... even over the weekend i was busy attending to others' needs #i just want a break from it all... but i dont have enough time to take off... but i dont know how much more of this i can take #i remember also feeling during uni like i was drowning #like there were simply not enough hours in a day to deliver everything i promised. it's such an awful feeling #i just feel defeated. like i've felt exhausted for weeks and weeks on end and like i spend every waking hour working on something or other #but ofc there is nothing to do but to keep at it 😭 other people can handle all of this and more #there are so many people i refuse to let down

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my-little-random-world · 10 months

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IRENA 𝒂𝒏𝒅 ALENA | Zlatá labuť (The Golden Swan) — Season 1 Episode 5

Alena: You wanted to see the new dresses and coats, so where do we start? Irena: We will wait until my husband leaves. Alena: I should probably go, too. Irena: You shouldn't have come here at all. But since you're already here, show me what you've got.

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leatherbookmark · 8 months

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oh god okay i understand that maybe not everyone is as indecisive/comfortable with saying "it depends!" as me, but like, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, but i just can't take people who call izzy a villain seriously

#he's a little annoying dude. i swear to fuck #'the real villain in the show is the system and izzy is siding with the system' babygirl he's a pirate 😭 he really isn't 😭#he could NOT more clearly be -- he literally IS -- that kind of gay man who wears his leathers and anger as an armor because being scary ha #been his way of fighting The System => being consumed and destroyed by it; and who looks down and feels disgusted by flamboyant #and effeminate soft-handed gays because if they're this soft then they clearly haven't experienced this kind of abuse that would make them #harden up. ....you know what i mean.#like idk this show in general like... doesn't have a 'villain'? it's about stede (and ed's) journey and their development. not necessarily #about their Conflict With Someone/Something. i guess it might change in s2 but idk. there are just Situations in which they find themselves #and because of/md is a comedy no one really... holds things against other characters in a long-term way? izzy stabs stede and sells him #out to the english and ed punches him for the latter (which he says 'ok fair' about!!! like!!!) but does he go 'and for all the shit you've #done i'm Firing you as my first mate? no! he slams him against the wall and feeds him his toe but he's like. ok get up and back to work #and he doesn't seem particularly disgusted or upset with him in that final blackbeard's flag 2.0 moment. (nor manipulated; inb4)#like. it's a workplace romcom. the workplace is a pirate ship but it's a workplace and izzy is that annoying coworker who's a bitch and #often ruins everyone's fun but no one like... Seriously ostracizes him. more like applies some light bullying BECAUSE IT'S FUNNY.#COMEDY. do we remember that?#and like. it seems he's going to have a bit of a larger (?) role in s2... it really doesn't seem like the show sees him as a 'villain' or #even an active 'antagonist' either. like ok let's agree 2 disagree and may both sides block each others' asses into oblivion because god #knows both sides have some annoying people but mannnn sometimes... insisting that things Can be divided into Good and Bad... is worse?#shrimp thoughts #once again i wrote a tag novel about an incredibly silly thing. welcome to leatherbookmark

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somedaytakethetime · 7 months

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I don't know if he'll be laughing after his little klumpedumpe but..

.. he was happy before the game 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

#i learned my new favourite dansk word the other day: klumpedumpe #i've been watching baby cartoons in Danish don't ask...#but i've been obsessively saying klumpedumpe like Bing now...#anyway back to Kasper #IF YOU'RE FEELING DOWN I CAN FEEL YOU UP KING #YOU CAN TAKE IT OUT ON ME I'D LET YOU #DROP YOUR NUMBER IN MY DMS 😏😉😉😉#i'm kidding.. i swear i'm kidding i just like acting insane 😭#but fo'real Kaspy i hope you're not feeling too bad king 🥺🥺#Kasper Schmeichel #king thicccness #danish captain america

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mishkakagehishka · 2 years

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You kinda forget just how much character development happened between ! and !!

And at the beginning of !! he was even passing out flyers with Rabbits and Alkaloid :) i'm still gonna cry over this tho

#also i keep forgetting how MEAN HE WAS TO US #''don't get close to me'' ''go on the other side of the kitchen'' ''i don't wanna work with you'' ''i'm not letting my guard down''#tho it's funny that he doesn't even seem like he wants to be mean bc he has to consciously remind himself not to be friendly with us😭#and then also how he thinks ab whether he hurt her feelings/went too far #like even just by saying ''i said all that'' he's aware of it. !Mika my beloved tbh he was so unstable #ensemble stars

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witching-by-the-willow · 2 years

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girl help i am being crushed by the weight of my own expectations

#this is true in general #but right now....it's about the exams I have going on ugh 😩#these bastards didn’t give us any time to prepare so it's been a week of pulling all-nighters 😭😭😭#but then I feel like I'll let myself down so like a complete moron I go and make nyself suffer #ugh at least it's only until tomorrow...#after that I'll have a week to prepare the last two ones and they're both easy topics thank god #I will come home on 16th sleep like a log binge some episodes of Fate's new season if they're out by that time here #and then stuff myself with food when we go to clebrate my brother's birthday #that idea is the only thing keeping me alive at this point #niki rambles #student life #text post #also you all can reblog if you want to lol I know I'm ranting in the tags but this is not gatekept or anything 😂

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muckmage · 11 months

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is it tomorrow f9r you yet?

oughh technically i got this ask at 9:30am but i'm only just awake enough to use my phone now at 2:30pm, if music asks today happen they happen, normally i answer them around dinner time anyway so we'll see

#i don't want it to feel like a job to answer them otherwise it'll be stressful and not fun #but i still wanted to set a day (saturday) to answer them on to give me more of a reason to not just rot in bed #as well as the fact that i don't have the energy to do things whenever so i wanted to try and save up to do stuff on saturday #idk i guess i just mean like... i'll answer the music asks whenever i can but i'll be trying my hardest to answer them on saturdays #but even then there's no guarantee #i almost feel like i'm letting you down 😭 but it's not like i'm not gonna answer them it's just hard to be able to tell when it'll happen #02

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beast-feast · 2 years

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I hate HATE that the final song in the HLD soundtrack is called Panacea because Drifter doesn't get his OWN panacea. He's victorious yes but in the end he doesn't get what he needs most. I'm about to ugly cry just thinking about it

#HLD is a game that I love but. oh my god. it hurts so bad dude #like HE DOESN'T GET HIS OWN CURE. HE FUCKING SUCCUMBS TO HIS ILLNESS #SLASH INJURIES AND I JUST. LET HIM LIVE.#DON'T PLAY A SONG REFERENCING A CURE-ALL WITH A MAN DYING ON SCREEN PLEASE 😭 I'm not emotionally strong #enough for that #not art #hyper light drifter #listening to the HLD soundtrack on shuffle and I shit you not if Panacea starts playing I'm going to choke on my own sobs no joke #literally the only like. fictional character death that ever made me THIS emotional was the Hollow Knight #the first few times and then I accidentally desensitized myself to it :') it still hurts lore-wise though #but god Drifter? he makes me hit the floor and WRITHE I become such a massive sob baby #AND FOR A COMPLETELY WORDLESS GAME TOO. dude that is POWERFUL #the BUILDUP TO IT ALL #the climax the sense of dreaded victory because you have a FEELING. you KNOW that something will happen. Drifter limping away #and sitting beside the rubble. the way he slumps down and the fucking #okay yeah. gonna cry brb or good night! one of the two #tw ???

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bat-the-misfit · 1 year

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man they cancelled my dentist appointment AGAIN how i wish i had money to not depend on these free health care pieces of shit

#you wait for months just for them to cancel on the day #man my teeth are all fucked up #it's been years i've had braces but i couldn't treat them bc i didn't have money #there's these two teeth who are so wrong of place i feel ridiculous when i smile and i think everyone will laugh at how ugly i am #the tooth i made root canal treatment had the silver thing covering it broken and now the rest of it keeps breaking as i eat #i barely have this tooth now and i always get anxious of getting caries on my healthy teeth 😭#my teeth are my biggest insecurity #i've had problems with them since i was very little #i really NEEDED to go there today #i was screaming for help #i hate having to go to these free health centers the government gives #they always let me down #i fear my teeth might get even worse to the point they will all rot and fall down #i'm so heartbroken i really wanted to start fixing my teeth again #especially braces #oh man i want to cry 😭#tio morcego tá destruído #tio morcego tá pistola #free health care centers are like friends #they will always leave you when you most need #“wow Bat you can joke while still angry??” yeah lol i can also trigger an erythromelalgia flare while i'm angry!!! :D #i'm having one right now look i'm so powerful i can multitask!!! :D #I WOULD PUNCH SMTH RIGHT NOW IF IT DIDN'T MADE MY FLARE WORSE UUUUUGH I'M SO PISSED

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