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spearxwind · 11 months

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Hiya, I’d like to put some thoughts out there on my blog (my house) bc I need to yarf some intense feelings or I fear I will explode on a nuclear scale. This is about hollowridge (not in a negative light!! just explaining + reminiscing of old stuff and talking about new stuff. Pouring my heart out more than a little bit.)

I will put them under a readmore of course, this is PRETTY long winded, so you can read or ignore at your leisure -w-

I was in my adri tag a while ago looking for some images and ended up going through the whole thing and seeing the evolution of him as a character and HR as a story. Additionally, I recently organized my external memory where all my art files are stored and also saw my old stuff, old concepts, old documents with info and ideas, etc etc and like other times where I have looked through my old stuff I have been WRACKED with so many emotions about it. It’s always a dangerous game to go back into my folders/tags to look because I always end up feeling this whooole spiel all at once and very intensely.

Seeing my content shifts is jarring. Very much so. It always is. I don’t think I can pinpoint causes, some of my better creative highs were at really low points in my life, and then other times my creativity and worlds were subsequently really hardly hit during similar lows. I like to think that I am on the up now though, both mentally and creatively. I’m getting back into a lot of things I love, and I am surrounded by people who I love dearly and who love me back, and things in general are really good! I feel less… I wouldn't say wrathful, but way less frustrated when looking back at my old stuff and more inspired to go back to these concepts with a healthier more open mind + knowing that I have improved nonetheless.

Specifically for hollowridge. Hollowridge feels like a home to me, simple as that. It's something immensely dear to me and I think this is clear by how much effort I have put into it over time, not all of it well placed or with good results, but effort to make it the best that it could be (at best) and effort to keep it afloat (at worst). HR is a strange thing to look back on because it has gone through so many iterations that its hard to pinpoint just one when looking back, but there's a specific time slot (2017-2018 roughly… I’m not gonna check) that I believe is where it was at its best, and that is specifically the vibe that I am trying really hard to go back to with the newest iteration.

I’ve always struggled with it a lot, I've often voiced this publicly, or to friends who would hear my woes out (god bless them for hearing me go on and on about this like a bass boosted and emotional broken record), often because there was so many possibilities that I could run with and I had a lot of really, really conflicting ideas that I wanted to explore. I also had a lot of trouble with lore in general because for many years I was haunted by the absurd need to “make things make sense”, whatever that means. Having things grounded so that people wouldn't be able to poke holes into the watertight plot.. which I never achieved of course. It was less watertight and more of a welded together pringle shaped monstrosity (This was not only true for hollowridge, but was true for everything I have ever made. like in general. It’s been a consistent creative problem for me).

Eventually what happened iteration after iteration was that I throttled myself too much with rules, random limitations, all in favor of making something cohesive and deleting all the fun bits off the project in the process.

For this reason I also can’t just up and go “yeah i'm gonna turboscrap everything and go back to what worked in 2017” because it also DIDN’T work then. But that vibe specifically is what I am aiming for. The “classic” vibe, if you will (if that means anything to you as it does to me.)

What didn't work for me back in the day was giving everything a reason for existing, which is something I no longer wish to do (it’s better that way) and also something that failed back then both in HR, and in extinction (earlier drafts) and just about any version of a story I ever tried to make was THE SCOPE. It always spiraled out of my hands. God entities always escape me. Magic systems always escape me. How cities and such would be regulated in these scenarios escape me. Its just things I’m not comfortable writing about in general

So that’s why I have made changes to it currently (the whole lens of technology over it) because it makes it easier to think about, and easier to handle. Post apocalypses are fun to handle, and also easy to handle (for me, in this context). Technology going awry feels like its easier to think about than just vague “magic”, even if in the end the aesthetic looks literally exactly the same. Does that make sense? I hope it makes sense.

To give an example: Magic spells and circles → programs and code lines. That can be shot into machinery or meat (recodes your fucking genome in real time and gives you super brain hemorrhage idk). I guess it just gives my brain something to latch onto that isnt just vague rules of a magic system that could potentially be anything and everything? It essentially works the exact same way… its just the lens of looking at it is changed.

Mimics are their own thing now (nanotechnology, instead of vague.. shadow things). Adri is his own thing while still connected to mimics (an angel array made of the same stuff, instead of.. whatever else). Connected to the world. AND all the conflicting but dearly beloved concepts I had for him actually fit (snake, scarf, smoke, usurper of a body that is not his. Hey remember when he was made out of ashes/smoke and eventually out of goop. Well all of that is true at once now! It’s ALL canon! Bitch! The concepts have been reconciled!!)

There are also more “normal” creatures besides these, animals that have either evolved aboveground due to fit into new world niches (so I can design Whatever without being too limited) and there’s also machine/biomachine chimeras, and purposed grown organisms, and just Weird Shit made by machines in the belly of the earth (meat is just complex machinery. you know this. your heart is a piston and your blood gasoline. but I digress.) So I have the space to Get Weird if I so choose, on my own terms this time. And it will have a proper place in the world.

There used to be a lot of concepts that were cool that I missed a lot when I had to shift away from them. Like mimics infecting people and pretending to be them, and then being able to break the hosts bodies apart to make bodies for the mimic itself. That did not fly in pretty much 80% of the later versions of HR but I was able to bring it back for this one. I’ve tied mimics to the epidemic and to Adri in a way that MAKES SENSE but lets me go wild anyways

I guess… the short way of explaining is that. Instead of it being very vague supernatural stuff of dubious origin, now it's a ‘manmade horrors beyond your comprehension’ type deal (still of dubious origin). Which obviously neither the characters nor I would be able to explain to you the details of its origins but the distinction MATTERS to me (to my brain).

Something else about HR is that it’s made up of me having rounded up a bunch of ocs who’s stories were empty or were left to the void so that they could have a fitting home where they could shine. At the end of the day I just wanna do my characters justice. I don’t want to just relegate them to nice set pieces (even though they ARE cool set pieces), but each of them has years of backstory stuff that I would like to keep to not lose the essence of said character and its where I put the bulk of my writing effort into.

I want their connections to the story to be solid, but I also want their base vibes and the vibes I am familiar with for those characters to BE THERE too. So if I’m slow with revealing info, or writing in general, its literally because all the processing power in my skull is being used to think of how to best approach that and not just throw low quality spaghetti at a wall. (Sometimes the spaghetti method works very well, but often. It does not. And only makes things more complex in the long run, so I have learned to be more careful with it)

Dianne and Nirven are over 12 years old now as characters. That 's insane. And she still has the same core concept of how her magic works as I created it ages ago.

Same for Bei. He still has his same vibe back when I made him 10 years ago.

And Adam when I made him 9 years ago. Though I’m working out stuff for him still in this new edition, but I’ll get there. I promise.

Sooo……….. What I’m really trying to say is that I’m learning to have fun again. And at the same time (re)realizing I used to have some super swag ideas that I have never fully let go of that I am VERY adamant on keeping. And my aim is to go back to that unhinged unbridled joy of creating for a world that is just So Fucked Up but it Works somehow. And yeah, if you’ve ever been frustrated at my changes don’t worry: me fuckin’ too buddy. A thousandfold. And if you’ve ever been curious as to the why of everything, then I hope this rant serves as some sort of explanation?

So yeah, if you’re an old fan and missed old stuff, I hope I am able to do it justice once more and from now on. I promise I am trying my best, I always have been. It just works better sometimes. And if you are someone new and dont know what the fuck I’m talking about, 1. thank you for reading this far and 2. I hope you enjoy the ride regardless

And who knows…. knowing me in a few years I might see this all changed again. Or maybe this will be the one, finally, that sticks. We’ll see. At the moment like I said, I am focusing on loving my characters, their world, their and my original intentions, and just having as much fun as I can with it. If I create confusion in the process then that’s something I will have to accept. I’m not a big media corporation with a team or writers, or even just one (1) accomplished author with a huge brain. I’m not tolkien. I’m just some guy having fun with made up guys in my brain

Thank you for reading this far, if you did, if there’s anything you’d like to comment or discuss (if anything, I don’t expect it) please feel free to reply or DM me, I try to respond in a timely manner when possible <3

Thanks for sticking around too. It means the world to me that you have. Have a really good week, cheers

#thunderclap #the hollowridge disaster #i feel like i need to put it in the tag 😅 for safekeeping #drop a like if you read this if you please #it is currently two AM i should have gone to bed two hours ago but 1. i was hanging with a friend and had this mid writing #and 2. i felt like if i didnt pour my brain out I was going to toss and turn all night #anyway yeah i have a lot of baggage with this that ill never be rid of so like. i just want to do GOOD yknow? i just want to do good.#alex writes #not fiction but i do use some big boy prose I think. academic moment #errr....... im hoping this isnt a badly placed post oops. idk what i mean by that just [vague fear] idk #the mortifying ordeal of being misunderstood vs the mortifying ordeal of pouring my heart out to strangers #you know how it is

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anonymousredactedconfessions · 5 months

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I'm gonna be real I'm like 80% sure I know who the "People are being so over the line about other people not wanting to hear Sam call Alexis a bitch." anon is. And listen.

My take on the Alexis situation? God sake move on. Me and my little dm of friends have been giggling our asses off because we as a collective have NEVER seen some fucking discourse over the word bitch in ANY fandom. ever. This isn't just target at that person but literally everyone that's said it's sexist to say the word bitch.

Grow up.

Have you been off you computer? gone outside? how chronically online are you. The main two people I saw saying that bitch is a sexist word and no one should be calling Alexis that were. lets just say 18 and under. I need y'all to know in the Adult world people are gonna say those words a lot. if you're finding them that offensive you need to settle down and assess how you're gonna enter the real world.

It's really stupid for discourse like this to be from an audio rp channel. Erik wasn't like "oh she's a bitch because she's a woman." Y'all need to realize how normalized the word bitch is. celebrities call people bitches all the time?? in good and bad ways? how the fuck do you feel about them??

I understand if you're uncomfortable with the word, confused, but whatever. If you're going to be this up in arms about it though you NEED to take a step back. People are gonna call her whatever they want, and if you find it that hard to deal with then if you make a post put your boundaries in your tags. no one is going to check your whole tumblr blog to see "don't call women bitches". most people just scroll the tags to find fresh content.

One last thing. The two people that were saying that bitch is a bad word to say. why did both of you so freely say the f slur then?? if that word is unoffensive, and allowed to be said, why not bitch? If we go down history lane you can see 'f slurs' being killed for just being gay. Not trying to compare or debate what's worse, but being brutally murdered for being queer is pretty bad. almost like your whole speech about how bitch was used to silence woman. so...

C'mon guys. this is an audio rp fandom. if you're not careful this WILL get back to erik and god forbid you all make him more afraid to add any kind of swearing to his fucking videos. christ. (sorry this is so long lmao been pent up about this for agesss)

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #confessions

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missbaphomet · 19 days

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Since Ken is probably going to try to drag my ass back into whatever internet beef he has going on, I just wanna get ahead of it.

I gave both of them (Emily and Ken) the benefit of the doubt and talked to them. It went well with Emily. I wouldn't call us friends, but I didn't block her again.

Ken went absolutely fucking ballistic when I told him the exact same shit I told Em, wouldn't hear it, started attacking my character, and then blocked me.

I'm gonna make it abundantly fucking clear once again. I don't give a fuck about this stupid internet drama. It's not my circus, not my monkeys. I think there's fault on both sides and have said as much. I just want Ken to stop name dropping me over bullshit that doesn't pertain to me. I was never involved in this, and still I'm catching blame. This is the last I'm engaging with any of this shit. Leave me the fuck alone, goddamn.

Em, since I know you read my blog, as far as I'm concerned, I have no issue with you. I blocked you again in case Ken wanted you to break your end of our deal. If you ever wanna reach out again, you know where to find me. So long as you honor the deal, you can reach out at any time.

Ken, just leave me alone. Don't talk to me, don't talk about me, don't mention me. It's not my fucking fault you didn't like the advice I gave, and last I checked time travel was impossible so it's really not my fucking problem what was said years ago, no matter if I disagree with it or find it distasteful. I spoke to you in good faith, and I was not obligated to do that. I was being very gracious and patient by offering my time WHEN I JUST WOKE UP to let you spam over a hundred messages at me (most of which contained direct insults to my character) and I will not be extending that grace again.

For anyone curious: my official stance on the drama is

EVERYONE SHOULD STOP BEING SHITTY TO EACH OTHER BUT ALSO I CAN'T MAKE ANY OF YOU DO IT SO IDK WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME

#baph bleats #braindead brigade

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duckwithablog · 6 months

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The lurker anon reappears! Thank you for answering my questions, and I’d love to hear the backstory of your macaque theme!

Also, I forgot to label myself. Silly me. Mmm 🤔… perhaps peach🍑 anon if it’s free? Because- unrelated to the cute and cheeky monkey man- I really, really love peaches!

YOO hello again!! And yeah, 🍑 anon is free!! I haven't tried eating peaches but they look so aesthetic,, the only peach flavored thing i tried was a peach drink and i ordered it PURELY bcs of LMK HHAHSHSAH

time for some blog lore..... THIS IS GONNA BE KINDA LONG AND RAMBLY SO BE WARNED-

Before this account was made, I actually had a different tumblr account for personal use (I never log into it anymore though lol) instead of writing. I was in the LMK fandom at the time, so I was reading x reader fics EVERYWHERE I could, from wattpad to tumblr to ao3.

And wouldn't you know it, when I was scrolling through the tags on tumblr I saw someone promoting their newly written fic they made on ao3!! I read it, loved the premise, and left a kudos and a comment (I think I left a comment? I'm not sure, I was a lurker as well when it came to reading HSDHSD).

Not too long after, I was scrolling through their blog and saw a post of them asking for any possible writing friends to interact. I thought 'hey!! i can write!!' and promptly sent them a dm. We chatted over our brainrot of the stinky monkeys and we grew to be pretty close writing buddies!! I even got to come up with a ship name for a pairing in the fic (the pairing was Macaque and Y/n, and Y/n in the fic was a baker, so I proposed the ship name 'Mooncake'. Still super proud of that ngl!! I'm pretty sure I made one for Wukong and Y/n too, but I forgot what it was </33 Mooncake was just so iconic to me).

We bounced off ideas from each other, and I sent them posts about Wukong (they were a Wukong Apologist and honestly, slay), and one of them actually managed to influence their characterization for him in a later chapter!! I was even writing my own LMK x reader fic at the time, and while I gave up on it after a while, they were the first person to ever read the first few paragraphs and gave me their thoughts.

Eventually, I had an urge to make a whole blog dedicated to x reader writings because I was inspired by them to make one, and when I told them they told me to go for it!!

Here's where the important bit comes in: This person's blog was themed around Sun Wukong. They're a Monkey King lover, they fucking love that stupid smelly monkey man!! So I told them "hey wouldnt it be funny if my blog was Macaque themed so we could match?" and they went "DUDE"

And boom!! That's the reason why my blog is Macaque themed!! I went through a LOT of custom tumblr themes (you know where you open someones blog and instead of being the regular tumblr blog layout its a totally new one that they customized themselves? Yeah that was me), meanwhile my friend just stuck to a simple 'Wukong pfp + header and orange background'. I think that matched our character themes really well HAHSAHSAH

Unfortunately, I'm sure that my friend is not working/active anymore. Their last post on tumblr was them apologizing for the lack of updates because of art school, and that was it. I don't know how long it's been since I checked up on the fic, but when I did, I found that their ao3 account was orphaned. So it's probably safe to assume that theyre not coming back to their tumblr acc either.

But still... I kept my Macaque theme. Even when my LMK interest started to fade and other media took over my brain, I refused to change it. Idk why, sentimentality I guess? It just felt wrong.

I have no idea where they are now, honestly. I just hope theyre doing okay. They were a super cool person, and I loved their fic and I loved talking to them and I loved being their friend!! Even if they probably wont see this post, I just want them to know how much of an impact they had on me. It was because of them I made this account, and got into writing requests and fics. And even if that didn't work out, they got me back to writing in general! They were an awesome person and they deserve everything good in life!!

Augugh this got sentimental... My bad!! Ngl, I've been secretly waiting for someone to ask me why my blog was Macaque themed, but the chance of that happening was really slim so I held the Blog Lore™ in. BUT NOW I CAN FINALLY SAY WHAT IVE BEEN HOLDING IN FOR YEARS RAHHH

Thanks for asking this, btw 🍑 anon!! Sorry if this was so rambly and long, my mind do be like that (incomprehensible to decipher sometimes). I'd love to see you pop in some more, if youd like!!

Oh!! And since ur a Wukong lover as well, you should read their fic!! It's unfinished, but I think you should give it a shot. The chapters are long, the writing style and interactions between characters are great, and the development and pining is well done!!

I realize that this sounds biased, but ermm..... IDC GO READ THEIR FIC!!! (/nf) Kudos and comment bcs they deserve it!! Even if they dont get to see it, I'd like to at least cheer them up on the off chance that they do.

Here's the fic!! And their tumblr acc too, because they make some pretty banging drawings for their writing!!

@butternut-zippersqaush

#🍑 anon #blog lore #yeah thats a tag now lmao #hope i explained this well bcs itd be mad awkward if i didnt #IK ITS LONG BUT BEAR WITH ME IVE BEEN WAITING TO TELL SOMEONE THIS FOR YEARS!!!!

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umbrellamedic · 10 months

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Watching the Operation Raccoon City trailer again and...

"No time for samples, Four Eyes!" she could have gotten it from anywhere, Four Eyes chooses THE MOUTH

Four Eyes not even phased about the rest of the team running past hunting cops

Spec Ops hearing gunfire and their first stupid fucking thought "Civvies :)" Like, what??

...ok, killing the Licker with nothing but a knife actually is talent. Not bad, Spec Ops. Not bad. And the 'all clear' after; you don't know that, you have checked one hallway.

Lickers are best boys I love them. <3

Beltway is from Puerto Rico according to his bio. He sounds... Bostonian?? Or something, idk, accents aren't something I'm great with BUT. he sounds like he's from the North East somewhere.

Also I love how he sets up the mine and is just so fucking happy like "Boooom :)" What a lad.

Spectre... maybe... be good at shit.... be better?

The cop looking back at his friend, distracted, GETS BLOWN UP

BERTHA JUST RUNNING FROM THE SIDE WITH HER FUCKING MACHETE. YOU HAVE A GUN. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS.

But also damn that was some FORCE you put into that swing. The ready to swing again, realizing the machete is STUCK in the car, having to push with her foot to get it out. Love it.

Vector vaults over the rail to jump down into the garage

Lupo vaults over the rail to jump down into the garage

Bertha takes the stairs.

Vector's voice. Yes. Thank you. Purr growl into my ear sir. ^///^

Lupo growling at him. Yes. Thank you. See above statement. ^///^

The closest zombie, then the screen goes dark, then the gunshots light it back up. A very quick moment, but amazing.

Team dealing with a swarm of zombies; IMMEDIATELY FUCK OFF FROM THAT TO CHASE A COP. Very goal oriented. Icons. Love to see it.

Spec Ops hearing gunshots. See the cop running FOR HIS LIFE. just "maybe not civvies??? not sure??" literally Vector has to stealth over and make threats for them to be like "oooooooh. maybe this is dangerous :)" Special babies. Please. PLEASE.

If I ever make another side blog for the Spec Ops team I want you all to know they will all be himbos. ALL OF THEM. Bitch I didn't stutter. Himbo energy for all these spec ops bbies. Sweet summer children. I have no respect. I am v biased.

"Guys. We got a liiiive one." -offended in Texan by this accent- Actually she might be from, like Tennessee or some shit. again, accents aren't my thing. i stand by my statement.

Beltway and Spectre coming in from the other side; literally i've seen this video a billion times and i have never noticed that before. i live in shame.

"This is a quarentine zone!" Sweet bby. PLEASE. why is your first instinct seeing the most maladjusted cunts Umbrella could throw together for what I'm pretty sure Umbrella thought was gonna be a suicide mission or some shit (i am convinced Umbrella spent the entire time hoping they all got fucking dead) who are all HEAVILY ARMED AND CLEARLY CHASING DOWN A MAN RUNNING FOR HIS LIFE IN THE MIDDLE OF A ZOMBIE INFESTED CITY and you're first thought is "i will approach and yell and nothing will go wrong :)" Himbo energy.

Vector. My heart. My life. Thank you for your service. LOUDLY makes a gun sound, starts talking just before he uncloaks. my boy appreciates DRAMA

special bby boy just looks annoyed like 'how DARE they do this to me, a man who has made no bad choices ever'

Also that hair. i appreciate it. none of the Umbrella boys are allowed to show hair and it's not fair.

LUPO JUST LOOKS AT THE COP AND FUCKING SHOOTS HIM. no words for the spec ops people. they aren't a concern until AFTER she completes the mission

just IMAGINE being that cop. you're running from these assholes, you've been shot, your friend was blown up, any others that were with you before this video starts are fucking dead. and you fucking FALL and it's like "i'm gonna die"

then you see spec ops and their resident himbo #1 making demands or whatever. and you're full on cop-brained so you're like "military good. am safe :)" so you're kneeling there expecting some kind of discussion to happen, maybe some hostage things

you never see the shot coming. imagine the relief followed by FUCKING NOTHING because Lupo isn't dignifying the spec ops himbos with discussion.

Vector just KNOWING this means it is go time. Shoots just after Lupo does

WE FINALLY SEE HOW HIMBO #1 HAS LIVED SO LONG. he isn't smart, but damn can he spider sense react. he's read the room- he did it late, but he got there.

Vector's kicks. 100% kick boy. Dem legs. Bet his thighs are great. Love to see it. King shit.

Lupo just calmly "Kill them all" and the team just raise weapons and shoot in unison.

i know they say Delta team is new, but there is NO WAY these people haven't worked together before this mission.

Bertha standing next to Beltway. Listen. I hc a lot of things for this team, but her and Beltway i have MANY FEELINGS about

I was gonna crack shit about Bertha wearing obviously fetish wear while everyone else has normal fabrics Vector's stealth stuff notwithstanding but that's still not the same shit as Bertha but tbh? She's the medic. This is designed for blood and shit to, like, slide off. But also it's like that scene in Repo: The Genetic Opera where the Repoman takes off his uniform and hoses it off. I imagine Umbrella medics do this as well. Or, at least, Bertha does it. Post-mission or post-torture session, she just hangs her outermost layers and fucking hoses them off. It's efficient. Practical. And she likes the look and feel of it. A true sicko. Wonderful.

"Who the Hell are these guys?!" "Let me ask them!" minigun. I like her. Spec Ops has one (1) person i might actually give a shit about.

Vector's stealth ending because he's taking damage from the minigun. I love it.

Side note: all scene, NO ONE CAN HIT SHIT. like, a couple times people will get a single bullet and it won't really matter. just in general. it would be a worse scene if there were people getting dropped, but it does make me laugh that it's two elite teams and literally no one can aim for shit.

speaking of a single hit. Beltway taking a shot to the shoulder, RESPONDS WITH A GRENADE. classic king behavior. his character is shown very strong in this. he's just SO CHARACTER. "Sonova. Bitch. Right back atcha."

lajfl;jads THE GAS PRICE IS $1.15. ok. for '98 i wasn't driving. and i'm pretty sure gas prices here tend to be pretty good compared to other places. but when i started driving in- fuuuuuck- '05 or so, that was gas prices. It was about that. i look at this sign and weep because it sure as shit ain't that cheap now. i need an electric but idk if that will save me money or where i would charge it or anything. this had nothing to do with the game.

Himbo #1 hearing a sound, getting down to look under the car, and just "shit" then RUNNING is such a good bit. the way the explosion FUCKS with the audio. chef's kiss.

that car looks like an Impala i inherited once; it was a '99 Impala. i'm not a car person but that's what i'm reminded of.

ZOMBIE MEAT SHIELD ZOMBIE MEAT SHIELD ZOMBIE MEATSHIELD. one of my favorite things in pvp and in general. it's just. idk, it makes sense to do. more zombie shooting games should have this.

"We need to flank these guys! Now!" And Four Eyes was like 'lawl, guess what :)' It doesn't show who threw the pheromones, but we all know

This zombie thing. is a new problem for the spec ops. I can see Umbrella having pheromones. That makes perfect sense, they need a way to direct the infected. but the spec ops guy just seeing that and KNOWING is like ??? idk. i guess it would be the logical guess when mystery smoke happens and you notice zombies coming for your ass, but he knows it .02 seconds after that shit goes off. x to doubt

Spec Ops at this point is more about killing zombies- fair, because of the pheromones- and Umbrella going STRAIGHT FOR THE TARGETS ignoring the zombies. this gives me life. this is their tactics.

I don't really understand Lupo's mask and it's three straps below her ear but whatever.

While we're on masks, i don't know how Bertha, Beltway, or Vector see with the lights in the eyes of their masks. But whatever

"We got a T103 Tyrant approaching" and then the debris blockade scene. It's jostled once. Twice. Tyrant realized that whatever he was doing wasn't working. THROWS A FUCKING CAR. this is a recurring theme for him. but it does solve more problems than it causes.

Lupo almost getting crushed by the gas sign. Picks herself up. that little headshake. then she sees the Tyrant. then the Tyrant sees her. "Holy shit!" This is Umbrella property, but she KNOWS that shit is gonna kill her and she's going to survive. Too bad shooting at it did not helpu.

Himbo #1 dealing with a zombie, slams it on the hood of a car. LUPO THROWN INTO THE DOOR OF THE CAR. Himbo #1 just ??? you know he's not Umbrella because he doesn't straight murder her. he starts shooting at the Tyrant. maybe he doesn't know if she's dead or not. if the roles were reversed, Lupo would take that shot- practical. just a quick pop to the spec ops guy, then shoot the Tyrant.

MEDIC FIGHT, MEDIC FIGHT, MEDIC FIGHT. it does demonstrate Bertha can take a fucking hit. and that her way of using her machete is to swing wildly. she doesn't have the finesse for a knife, she wants something big she can flail with and do damage. she can be delicate with a scalpel on an operating table, not in battle. about the taking a hit thing, the spec ops medic seems to be better at cqc than Bertha. she gets a kick in, but how he redirects her swing with his gun, hits her with the gun, slams her into the truck (both blows to her face) and Bertha doesn't even PAUSE. just full on attack mode

Beltway turning the zombie into a bomb. It's charming when Beltway does it, BUT WHEN NIKOLAI DOES THAT SHIT >:[

once again Himbo #1 has a moment of "...shit" and once again Tyrant's problem solving technique is to throw a car.

And of course the RESIDENT EVIL voice line. Beautiful.

#have a VERY LONG POST.#i would read more it but i've already written this and it won't let me insert the read more between bullet points #so i'm not. i'm just. enjoy scrolling through this #but they are all valid takes i'm gonna throw that out there. not to toot my own horn. but toot toot motherfucker :)

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court-jobi · 1 year

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🌻 If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your mentions, anonymous or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog 🌻

@emmyspov sent me this ask as well, so I'll answer both you lovely internet friends here! Sorry for the delay, moving had me WIPED... But I'm so happy to play the game!

But anywho, ONWARD!

About me:

🌊 I've never travelled abroad ((England and Italy are at the top of my list)), but I can say I am one of the lucky few who lives just 20 minutes from gorgeous, emerald green waters of my city's beaches🌊 turtle season is one of the most magical things in nature I've ever seen

🌻 I am a VERY new homeowner, and have discovered there is a grouping of tall, wild sunflowers right beneath my birdfeeders! Thank you, squirrels!! 🐿️

Fave quote/lyric of the moment, a la Pinterest...

About the blog:

❤️‍🩹 We love happy endings here, so 9.98/10, you'll be glad you read whatever you're reading if you check out my masterlist and WIP plans! ((Don't get me wrong, I do love a healthy bit o' angst, but ya girl's a romantic. The world's hard enough, so I like a dose of soooooo enjoy!))

🫶 Didn't think this would be a talking point... But we are kind, accepting, and affirming here. Send all the love + kindness you can, bc you don't know who needs to hear it at just the right time. I know I have 💞💞💞

❔You're gonna see a lot of content centered around my fave characters, but my asks are open for more! Gimme LOTR asks from the originals, your favorite clones and rebels from Star Wars, your Marvel hearthrobs, and I'll give it my best shot if there's something special you'd like to see... I'm down for anything, and am trying to stretch my writing wings!

Send me your challenges anytime, m'loves! 🥰

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angel-bruises · 1 year

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For the lolita fashion ask: 2, 3, 7, 14, 16

Since there's quite a few to answer here I'm gonna put them under a read more

2. What was your first piece?

My first ever pieces were this awful Gothic Lolita & Punk JSK and head bow, blouse with weird wristcuff things, and these Antaina(>) shoes which were pretty cute tbh. I was 14 so. thats my excuse lol..

3. What is your most recent piece?

My most recent piece was this awesome Marble faux leather skirt. I just wore it recently in an ero coord but I haven't posted the pics yet

7. What inspired you to join the fashion?

So when I was around 6-8 I got the FRUiTS book. I was already into fashion and stuff and I was obsessed with the book, J-fashion pretty much became a special interest. I used to like google lolita dresses on the google shopping tab and like open loads of links to dresses (which looking back were almost certainly milanoo) and wish I could buy them, I also found Sweet Rococo and used it like a game and just never checking out. I sort of just thought I'd never be able to wear lolita though because it was sooo expensive (I guarantee you those milanoo dresses were like £50 lmao). Tbf I didn't know much about the brands or where to buy. When I was 13 I made a friend who was also into lolita and Jfashion, and together we discovered the online Live Journal community, which we lurked. When I was 14, I spotted a sweet lolita walking down the street in my city while I was on the bus, I texted my friend immediately lol. The last thing that happened was I took a trip down to london and discovered Sai Sai and Gothic Lolita & Punk in Camden market, and begged my mum to help me buy a "full" outfit, which is the one above. Sorry for the blog post lmao

14. What is something about previous eras of lolita fashion that you'd like to come back?

The quality of well made cotton pieces in oldschool and even late 00s/early 2010s. I hear so many newbies say that taobao is equal or better quality than brand but I think that's just because the quality of the big brands has declined so much. It's such a shame. I also miss the unity of the Live Journal era. Maybe i'm viewing in rose tinted glasses because I started in the fashion just towards the end of the LJ community being active, but I miss the community having one main spot to congregate y'know?

16. What common misconception about lolita fashion bothers you the most?

Just one? I feel like they all bother me lmao. I guess any non lolitas saying that we're all elitist bitches and evil gatekeepers for having a basic criteria for what makes something lolita. Like okay it's kind of true but not in the way non-lolitas think it is. Another is that we dress like this for attention or that it's okay to photograph us without asking

#arbokzee

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overanalyst556 · 11 months

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Announcement!

Hello, I wasn't expecting to make this today. I was originally going to do this tomorrow but due to some issues, I have instead decided to do this today.

As for those of you that have not seen the posts, I have been considering leaving Tumblr due to the chaos that was happening in the community. But while I have come to a decision, I guess I Should explain the reasons why 'm doing this.

First is my content. Now I understand that people are busy right now and that's fine, I'm not forcing you to like my content, But I just wish someone would give it a shot and check my essay on which I spend hours on it. The first History related thing I ever did, The Black Death essay got 9 notes while the Korean War essay only has 1.

While I mainly do the blog because history is my passion, It sucks to hear that people almost, if not pay attention to what I do. But that's the least of my problems, Although still a big one.

The second and possibly main reason is the Tumblronpa fiasco. Now, I haven't been here long enough to see how Tumblronpa works, But I have been told of it, Hell I made an oc. But after the drama that went down about that the last few days, I'm genuinely staying away from that now.

I don't know when this drama started, But I think it started when the mod for a Tumblronpa by the name of Dash started getting anon hate from a different source ( the person of which has never been found)

Now I bring Dash up because that might have been the start for me to think about the risks of being on a Tumblronpa, though not enough for me to quit. But things get stranger when another content creator by the name of Mentally Eli disappeared for a while ( She has since returned)

After this, I was starting to get a little nervous not gonna lie, but It still wasn't-enough. But then come the Aliza -chan situation and that's where my hope was shattered. Aliza almost died not once, but twice because of anon hate. It got so bad that she had to leave Tumblr, which was a smart move from Aliza not gonna lie.

But still, that situation and the fact that one of my friends and mutuals tried to off themselves because of anon hate, pretty much shattered my hope of ever being on a tumblronpa. I was fucking terrified.

If you don't know, I'm terrible with anxiety and stress since I was little. Often times I wonder why I exist if I just have no purpose. Keep in mind, I'm a teenager and this whole suicide situation scared the shit out of me.

And really It was the Situation with Aliza- chan as well as Mama Lexi( Although Lexi's was something entirely different from that and had nothing to do with Tumblronpa's or anon hate, Still I highly recommend that you don't disturb her now cause she's not in the best mood) That finally pressured me to make this post and have my overall thoughts on it.

I'm not in the best mood right now and the situations that have been going on have been increasing my stress levels up the roof and my fears of Tumblronpa hate altogether.

But let's get to the big question: Am I leaving Tumblr? Yes and No. Let me explain.

While yes, I said I thought about leaving Tumblr, I'm not willing to delete my blog because of the friends I made on this site as well as the fact that history is my passion. But I won't lie when I say that I Need some time off from this to calm down.

Starting tomorrow, I will be on a break from Tumblr. The ask box is still open, So feel free to send stuff there ( Though I highly doubt you will) and I will be sure to answer them When I come back.

My discord is still open as well, Though don't expect me to answer often on it. I will still answer If I have the time.

As for Tumblronpas? I'm done with it. I refuse to participate in one after what happened, and as well as my mental state not being the best right now, I don't think I can handle the death threats that come my way.

If this means I'm dropping out of Eden's Garden and Lumnieres roleplay blogs, then Yes, I Unfortualney have to drop out. Also, the picrew that I made Samuel in is no longer there, so I can't do any more sprites with him sorry.

But still, I'm staying the hell away from Tumblronpas in general now. If you want to ask me to join a Tumblronpa, I'm sorry, But I will have to decline. No Tumblronpas, No roleplay, I'm done.

Overall, I think that's my reasons for taking a break from Tumblr. I wasn't expecting to make it today, but I guess so. This year has not been kind to me, with some issues going on at home as well as some finals I have to finish up, Plus the fact that people don't care for my content and the whole Tumblronpa situation has broken my mental state.

Let's be honest, No one is going to care about this post or won't even see it. Honestly, I get so used to being discarded and ignored, That I just don't care anymore. No one cares and that is that, I just wanted to get my thoughts off my mind.

So, yeah I will be taking a break, I don't know when I will come back, but Maybe when I get my shit together. I hope you guys have a nice day and this is goodbye for now...

#sam talks

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darthhope999 · 1 year

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Responses to “are you okay?”

I am only making this so I can keep track of which ones I have already written for. If you want to re-blog please re-blog the original by @emphasis-on-the-comfort here

Feel free to send me a number!

1. "Why do you keep asking me that?"

2. "I've been better."

3. "Not really...

4. "Yeah, my stomach's just bothering me a little."

5. "No, my stomach's really bothering me."

6. "Do look okay to you?"

7. "I was just going to ask you that."

8. "I'm fine. I'm just tired."

9. "I will be once we get home."

10. "Not exactly."

11. "No, I kind of feel like I'm going to throw up."

12. "Yeah, sorry, I'm just a little out of it today."

13. *shrugs* "I don't know. I feel funny."

14. *covers mouth and shakes head before making a mad dash for the bathroom*

15. "Yeah, I think so."

16. "No, something's not agreeing with me."

17. *shivers* "I don't think so. I'm pretty sure I'm running a fever."

18. "Like you care."

19. *wraps arms around belly and starts to cry* "No."

21. "Relatively speaking."

22. "At this point? Not sure I'll ever be okay again."

23. *swallows thickly* "No, I think I'm gonna be sick."

24. "Hard to say."

25. "No, I'm starving."

26. *snorts* "Did send you?"

27. "Not even a little bit."

28. *shakes head* "I don't feel good."

29. "I think I'm as far from okay as I can be."

30.

"Yup! I'm right as rain."

31. "Don't ask stupid questions."

32. "No, I-I don't--" *faints*

33. "I'm not talking to you."

34. "Who's asking? Because I know it's not you."

35. "Define 'okay."

36. "You know I hate that question."

37. "No. I have the worst stomach ache."

38. *sarcastically* "Oh, yeah, I'm great."

39. *shakes head and buries face into friend's shoulder*

40. "Ugh, no. I think I'm gonna hurl."

41. "Yeah. Why?"

42. "No. I just threw up."

43. *can't answer over the urge to gag*

44. "Yes. You're starting to sound like a broken record."

45. "Yeah, fine. Why do you ask?"

46. "Would you be okay?"

47. "gasping breaths, crying* "No. I can't breathe."

48. "No, I-I need a bucket."

49. "Yeah, don't worry about me."

50. "You have some nerve asking me that."

51. *knees collapse*

52. "No. I don't think my stomach's too happy with me."

53. "That's a bit of a loaded question."

54. "I dunno. Do I feel hot to you?"

55. "Never better."

56. "No, I feel like my insides are liquifying."

57. "Nnh. My head feels like it's gonna explode."

58. "I think you need to answer that question first.

59. "Psh. Of course I am."

60. "That's gonna be a negative, ghost rider."

61. "If I said 'yes' would you believe me?

62. "Jury's still out."

63. "I feel like I could puke at any second, but other than that I'm great."

64. "Oh, yeah, I'm living the dream."

65. "I'II let you know when I figure it out.

66. "Compared to who?"

67. "No. Pretty sure I'm dying."

68. "I'll live."

69. "Well, I'm still alive."

70. "No, I'm really dizzy."

71. "No, I think I'm sick. Really sick."

72. "You're receiving medical attention right now and you're asking me if I'm okay?"

73. "Just peachy."

74. "No, I'm not okay. Is that what you want to hear?"

75. *exasperated* "Yes, quit asking me that!"

76. *shakes head, pinches bridge of nose* "I think I need to leave."

77. "You already asked me that today. You passed your quota."

78. *humming no and cradling belly* "Mm-mm. M-My stomach...

79. "No... I'm gonna--" *throws up hugely*

80.

*stomach makes loud gurgling noise* "Yeah, sorry, my stomach's just going haywire."

81. *sniffs* "Yeah, I j-just can't stop c-crying."

82. *sniffs* "No, I'm a mess."

83. *color draining from face* "Uh, no. I need to find a bathroom."

84. "Does it matter?"

85. *shakes head, leaned against wall with arms wrapped around aching tummy, eyes closed and tears rolling down cheeks*

86. "If I was, do you think I'd be sitting on this disgusting floor?"

87. *holding head in hands* "No. I feel like I'm gonna pass out."

88. "I really wish that I was."

89. "I'd tell you if I wasn't."

90. "No. I don't know what's wrong with me."

91. "Last time I checked."

92. "It's not me you need to worry about."

93. "I've been worse."

94. "I have no idea."

95. "Me? Yeah, I'm fine. I-" *gulps, then vomits*

96. *trying to rub stomach discretely* "No, my stomach is cramping like crazy."

97. "I know you think I'm not, but I really am. I promise."

98. *laughs manically while sobbing uncontrollably* "Am I okay? What kind of question is that?"

99. "Yeah, I mean, I'm not about to go run a marathon, but I'm alright."

100. "No, and I don't know what to do."

#NOT MINE #ask me about my ocs #open to requests #ask game #do not reblog

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a-regular-ol-pill · 2 years

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hello! my friend told me about your blog and i love it so much, you write so well!! (≧▽≦)

also may i request drabbles or hcs about xavier, claude, ling, aamon and granger overstimulating an afab!reader ? if there's a limit to how many we can request any of them is fine, thank you :D

─ 🌙

"Give me one more. You can do one more for me."

Mobile Legends; Bang Bang

Pairing; Xavier, You | Claude, You | Ling, You | Aamon, You | Granger, You.

!! NSFW 18+ !!

Requested? Yes.

Small note for requester; I'm so happy to hear that you enjoy my stories! I was unsure if my work was good enough to be shared, and thankfully your friend think it is! <3

Want to request? Click here.

Warning(s); Sex, Overstimulation, Squirting, just everything about M4F sex.

Word Count; N/A

Second Person Perspective.

Pronouns used for reader; 'She', 'Her', etc...

Prompt;

"Being overstimulated to the point of insanity is both blissful and tiring at the same time. You know how that feels, right?"

Xavier -

Honestly? The first time he ever tried to go down on you is where he first started overstimulating you. I'm speaking from your experience~.

Overstimulation is honestly a top tier kink for him— Seeing you whine and pull away from his relentless, yet passionate stimulation turns him on and gets him ready for another round.

He's the type to hold down your hips when you keep shaking, and not taking his love well. It upsets him when you can't take everything he gives you. :(

I bet you my life he would kiss your forehead, whisper how much of a good girl you are, before pressing down on your clit to make you cum again.

Speaking of whispering— he can put you on edge with just a moan of your name. Breaking your promise of not cumming for the first three minutes with him.

Don't think he won't give you aftercare after! He'll cook you the most delicious treats or any food you want— even let the kittens he owns cuddle you before you sleep!

Anyways, when he's too tired to hold down your hips, rest assured you'll find your hands and legs being bound by his magic— Sorry Xavier's passion, his body has a lot of needs and he can be lazy sometimes!

Xavier likes cats, so... you're definitely gonna be collared, with a bell and cat ears when he's having a bad day. Pills couldn't resist..

If you've been disobeying him for three days straight, expect rough 'petting' (hair pulling) from him because his patience has been tested. Even if you've begged for him to stop, he won't. Because you know fully well about your safeword and you didn't use it in your begging.

Speaking of aftercare.. again. After the rough treatment you receive from his wrath, he'll apologize a lot upon seeing your drowsy state. Forgive the poor man... he's genuinely sorry!

Claude -

This man will not, I repeat. Will not overstimulate you by making you cum. Just saying that before you agree to make him overstim you.

His fingers are restless when they're inside you, like?? He will poke your g-spot relentlessly and repeatedly until you're just an inch away from cumming. You were so close... too bad he can't differentiate overstimulating and edging.

Speaking of differentiating the two, he'll convince you that he's not edging you after your sixth failed orgasm. Sometimes, you'll believe him because he just seems so honest.

In some days, he'll put a vibrator directly on your clit and won't turn it off until your face is beautifully glazed with your tears of pleasure.

I swear to you that he'll never stop praising you for not cumming for the last half an hour. He'll never stop overstiming you, and he'll not force you to continue when you're genuinely crying from the lack of release.

He's definitely trying to overstimulate you with your favorite clothes. Just to see if you're shameless... he swears it's only because of his curiosity.

The first time he stops the stimulation on your clit and sees you cry, he started panicking because he thought he hurted your feelings. Poor guy panicked for his princess' pleasure..

Sooo, aftercare... he triple checks to see if you did cum, and immediately covers you in kisses and praises that you'll forget he's been overstimulating you in the first place!

Imagine he's smirking at the sight of you squirming and he just pulls his finger out so he could rub it againts your clit. This guy won't even let you cum for giving him a nice show..

Another aftercare headcanon, if your tears keep dripping down from the large orgasm you had because of how long you obeyed his orders of not cumming, he'll kiss those away and teasingly lick your nose to make you smile again!

Ling -

God damn— the look in his eyes when you hold his wrist as a weak attempt to make him stop pumping his fingers inside you.. It makes you melt and orgasm from just that.

He changes his pace while fingering you a lot... a lot more than you can imagine. Seriously! I'm gonna break the fourth wall and show you how fast and slow Ling can be because of the user.

There is no straightforward answer to how Ling will usually be while overtimulating you. He's quite literally; too emotional to focus on one thing. He can't be gentle, nor rough. 'Can't also be too fast or too slow.. Even though I already mentioned that.

One time, Ling was desperate for you to cum, that he just goes down on you for the first time and makes you squirt because of it. You can probably be surprised because he made you squirt on the first orgasm you had.

Okay... so you know how he has his hair down all the time? Apparently, he loves styling your hair to tease you while he keeps his never fast and never slow pace on your pussy. Hell, he even keeps calm through it! Giving you a hell of a cocky smirk while doing so.

Aftercare for this man? He'll definitely massage your sore muscles while apologizing for getting carried away during it— (because he overtimulated you more than intended.)

Wanna know something? Holding you down with ropes.. Goodluck on that! He'll absolutely destroy your hole with endless abuse in the form of rough pleasure. Tough love... tough love..

When I say he loves to grip your ankles to spread your legs open.. I mean it. Like.. you could be kicking and squirming because he keeps pumping into you, and he'll be all amused before pulling your ankles back and pounding into you harder?!

I absolutely love to tell you that; he's tempted to kiss you everytime you look at him with those droopy and teary eyes of yours. Unfortunately, he's too flustered everytime that happens and slows down, denying you your fifth orgasm unintentionally. :(

Yes... another aftercare headcanon— He'll rub your tummy just to clear away the feeling of overstimulation in it. You wouldn't want a grumbling stomach after an intense session, would you?

Aamon -

Overstimulation? With him? Don't worry about being overstimulated alone, he'll join you in whining from too much pleasure. He is planning to breed you with his heir after all..

Be prepared for his never ending kisses, 'cause this man will never stop kissing you after the... eighth time you'd came. Forgive him for making you lose your breath, he just wants to be close to you as possible..

I'm pretty sure you've passed out from his ruthless thrusts a lot. Your poor energy keeps draining from the amount of orgasms he pulled from you while he just keeps holding back to make sure you're filled to the brim. :(

Anyways, this guy holds you down with his body weight because both of you keep going at it for so long that even he's tired to hold himself up. Don't worry though! He's still in his mind so that he won't crush you.

When I tell you he never stops whispering to you how beautiful you'll look while pregnant.. I mean it. He's been babbling about that the whole time you've been overstimulated. It'll be surprising if you haven't thought about kids, because of him.

Fun fact! He once tried edging you, but because of your body being used to letting itself go with Aamon's fingers... it didn't really work out. And it was a sad day for the both of you. It also won't work out because Aamon won't stop fucking you if you tried it in that way.

After finally being able to let your body rest after the eleventh orgasm— he'll cuddle up to you like a forgotten puppy and say sorry for seeming like he was using your body for his own pleasure. Who are you to not forgive him..?

Sincerely sorry for not adding this in before.. he'll also stimulate you by sucking on your nipples. Even if it's small.. He's craving to see it swollen and full of milk, he'll even tell you how pretty it is while sucking it.

He doesn't need anything else to overstimulate you other than him, and him only. You know that, right? If not, you'll be reminded every day of how much power he has over you.

Another thing about his aftercare, is that he'll never stop touching you in a non-sexual way. His touch is a kind of comforting touch that makes you relax and cool off from how hot your body felt. And he knows it. That's why he keeps doing it.

Granger -

The way he forces the noises out from your mouth when he's overstimulating you with everything he has.. I have to say, I'm quite jealous of his lover. Having him forcing their lips open and fucking them harder just to hear their noises..

It's like heaven and hell mixed together when he's overstimulating you, because; One, you're getting pleasure, and two, you need to moan out in exchange— which is really bad if you're the quiet type.

Don't be afraid though! He's truly a softie inside, and won't push your boundaries if everything is getting too much to process for you! He's just degrading you for the thrill of it.

Imagine he praises you for your whining voice while intimately rubbing your clit harder for extra stimulation.. that's the heaven part of him overstimulating you.

The hell part..? He wraps his hands around your neck and stops stimulating you until you beg in your most beautiful voice ever to let you cum once more.. you're lucky if he does let you cum and doesn't edge you for the cracks in your voice.

Ropes? Nah, but holding you down with strings that won't hurt or cut you.. I'm only guessing it's his forte, just saying.. tying you down and overstimulating you with a few instruments seem nice~.

If he doesn't have ropes, he loves to grab you by the neck and hold you down while he pounds into your hole. You'll be overstimulated, and fucked dumb because you agree with him overstimulating you..

When both of you are overstimulated and need release, he'll definitely nuzzle your cheek and hold your waist tightly while doing so. He's gonna forget what he was doing after you both cum and moan together..

Aftercare for this man? He'll never leave your side, and play comforting music for you to calm down and rest. Request a music and he'll gladly play it for his princess!

If it doesn't work, he'll resort to whispering gentle things to you while cuddling. Either way, it's rest assured that you'll calm down, and forgive him for the rough treatment..

I hope you enjoyed reading this, as much as I enjoyed writing it! Take care of yourself! <3

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batarangsoundsdumb · 3 years

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guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

#this is only like half of it #but at least you can get like a few answers #yanno fuck it #bataranswers #ask #asks #anon

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"....So I Married A Murderer" *Chapter 4*

Chapter 3

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Look I know I'm not helping myself with the Olivia stans, but in my defense this is a totally legitimate situation. And valid feelings towards Olivia given said situation. I'm not saying she's actually the bad guy here, but from an outsider's prospective without having actually seen what Lewis did to her, it's really just Olivia's hearsay. Am I wrong?!

That being said you know she's always gotta have that thing for Rafa, wedging her way in there. I'm sorry, it has to happen.

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“Uh, who is it?” Rafael called through the door, still panting from the work out his was mouth was getting.

“It’s me,” Olivia’s voice came back through.

“Shit…” Rafael pushed you off him and straightened himself up. You had never seen him ‘jump’ so fast when someone beckoned. Then again you hadn’t really seen him at work; but you thought he’d be more dominant than he was acting.

“Come in,” He instructed as he smoothed out his suit. Olivia opened the door and walked in, her face went from a smile to a scowl when she saw you standing there.

“Is this…?” She eyed you.

“Olivia this is my girlfriend, Y/N,” He gestured to you.

You had to smile, even though you were severely uncomfortable with the awkward exchange and introductions. You really hadn’t heard Rafael ever introduce you to anyone, let alone as his girlfriend. And also, you were relieved he still thought of you as such. Although you weren’t really sure how long that was going to last.

“Oh she’s your girlfriend now?” Olivia crossed her arms, causing you to furrow your eyebrows. What was her problem?

“What are you talking about Liv?” Rafael took your hand defensively. “She’s always been my girlfriend, you know that,”

“Uh huh and now that she’s in cahoots with Lewis?”

“Cahoots,” You snickered, causing the both of them to give you a look. “What? It’s a funny word…” You now looked at the floor in embarrassment. Excuse you for trying to lighten the mood.

“She’s not in ‘cahoots’ with Lewis…” He assured Olivia, then turned to you. “Are you, carino?”

“Uh…” How were you supposed to answer that? Obviously you weren’t helping him plan his next murder, but you also came down here with the specific intent to defend him to Rafael. Your pause gave both Rafael and Olivia concern.

“Y/N…” Rafael said more seriously, dropping your hand.

“Well…” You tugged at your blazer. “I’m not helping plan any murders, if that’s what you’re saying,”

“Oh my god…” Rafael muttered, looking away from you.

“Raff, look--”

“No no no,” Olivia now stepped in between the two of you. “No ‘Raff’, lady,” She glared at you.

“Excuse the hell out of you, woman,” You glared right back.

“If you’re planning on helping that monster with anything--” Olivia got in your face.

“Why is he a monster?” You stepped right into her, not afraid of her tough guy act.

“Excuse me?” Oliva narrowed her eyes harder.

“I want to hear in specific details, just exactly why you think he’s a monster,” You challenged her.

“Wha--?” She looked at Rafael in disbelief. “Because he kidnapped me? Tortured me? Almost killed me?!”

“From what I saw you almost killed him, Ms. Benson,” You said snidely.

“Excuse me?” Olivia was stunned at your defiance.

“I saw the scars on his face, and his damaged ear. He’s partially deaf now, because of you,” You explained.

“Wow…” Olivia exhaled sarcastically. “WOW….”

“Y/N,” Rafael’s voice softened. “No offense but, you don’t know what you’re talking about--”

“Are they fake?” You asked.

“What?” He replied quizzically.

“The scars,” you clarified. “Are they fake?”

“Well no, but--”

“So she did beat him within an inch of his life?” You gestured towards Olivia.

“I HAD TO!!!” Olivia screamed.

“BULLSHIT!!!!!!” You screamed back at her.

“Y/N!” Rafael yelled, trying to get your attention over the screaming.

“You’re telling me, that once you got him unconscious,” You narrowed your eyes. “Which, let’s be real would only take a few blows to the head, if not just one,”

Olivia exhaled again, crossing her arms and looking away from you as you approached her slowly.

“That you couldn’t have just-- I don’t know, run away? Gotten help?” You got even closer, lowering your voice to a growl. “That you just had to beat my husband to all hell?”

“Y/N…” Rafael’s voice sounded hurt now, hearing you call Lewis your husband.

“Yes,” Olivia stuck to her guns.

“You’re a fucking liar,” You resisted the urge to spit in her face as you backed away from her.

“You really know how to pick ‘em, don’t you Barba?” Olivia scoffed.

You suddenly remembered Rafael being in the room, hearing you defend Bobby like that. You turned to see him with tears in his eyes, betrayal on his face.

“Y/N you need to leave,” Rafael said in a soft but terse tone.

“No,” You crossed your arms now. You did feel bad that you were turning on him, but if he was going to defend this bitch just because she was his friend, you were angry at him too.

“Rafael,” You lowered your voice but kept your anger. “Look you weren’t there. You’re just taking her word for it--”

“And you’re just taking Lewis’s word for it!” Rafael didn't falter

“Because he was my HUSBAND!” You exclaimed angrily. If he wasn't backing down, neither were you.

“She’s my BEST FRIEND!!!” He argued,

“Oh is she? Now she’s your best friend? Because that’s not what you said the other night. Or were you lying to me?” You now were starting to doubt anything he said to you.

“W-What?” Olivia said softly, making Rafael turn to her sadly. Now she had the betrayed look on her face.

“A I told you not to tell her, and B--” He paused as he walked over to Liv with a pathetic look before turning back to you. “I thought you were.”

“You thought I was?” You bit your lip, afraid of what was coming.

“Y/N if you’re going to...to choose that monster over me, how the fuck am I supposed to consider you a friend?”

“I’m not ‘choosing’ him Rafael,” Angry tears stung your eyes. “You KNOW she’s lying! It doesn’t make any sense!”

“Look you weren’t there either Y/N,” Rafael said sternly. “You don’t know the kind of trauma he put her through--”

“So that makes it okay?” You challenged him, still glaring at Olivia. “Last time I checked, the NYPD wasn’t built on ‘Marshall Law’,”

“It wasn’t--” Rafael started.

“I didn’t kill him!” Olivia defended herself.

“Oh gee detective, how kind of you,” You mocked her. “You let him live with severe deficits because-- what? He wouldn’t sleep with you? Because you had a bad trip?”

“THAT IS NOT WHAT HAPPENED, YOU LITTLE BITCH!!!!!” Olivia charged you, and before Rafael could do anything she was on top of you, slapping the shit out of you.

“OLIVIA!!!!” Rafael screamed before immediately pulling Olivia off of you. You stood up in shock and anger, your face hot and swelling from her hands across it.

“...And you’re going to believe THAT, over Billy?” You gestured to Olivia.

“Alright that was a little much--” He conceded to Olivia's little stunt.

A LITTLE MUCH?!” You now screamed while stomping your foot. “I didn’t even do anything to her, and she ATTACKED me!”

“You were cornering her--” He kept making excuses for her.

“You’re still defending her,” You laughed dryly, tears apparent in your voice. “She just attacked me, and you’re still defending her,”

“Y/N,” His voice was now soft and sorry. “Baby, I--” He went to take your hand.

“No,” You snapped it away and backed away from the two of them. “Don’t you fucking dare start ‘baby’ now, Rafael,”

“You had the audacity to act betrayed when I defended Billy, who has never done ANYTHING to you. When you-- you ACTUALLY see your little ginger there attack me, and defend her?” Angry, hot tears now spilled down your face.

“Baby please--” He begged you just as he had at your house the night before.

“No,” You shook your head. “No, I’m not falling for this-- ‘baby please, I love you, you’re in danger, I’m the good guy,’ bullshit anymore,”

“It’s not bullshit!” Rafael replied frantically. He knew he was losing you.

“Really? Because from where I’m standing, the only ‘monster’ here is her,” You gestured towards Olivia who was still quietly raging from earlier.

“You know Billy wants to get back together,” You said simply to Rafael.

“What….NO,” Rafael was really beginning to panic now. “No you can’t go back to that--”

“If you say ‘monster’ one more time I swear to God Rafael--”

“What, are you gonna hit him?” Olivia mocked him.

“No, that’s what YOU do, captain!” You spat.

“Amor, please don’t do this,” He used spanish pet names, knowing they were your weakness. “Please don’t just go back to him because you’re mad at me. You don’t know what he’ll--”

“He won’t do anything to me, Rafael,” You rolled your eyes.

“B-But you don’t even love him anymore--” He stammered.

“MAYBE I DO!” You screamed angrily.

“W-What?” Rafael gasped.

“Billy left me, Rafael,” You started to cry.

“I didn’t leave him. Yeah he hurt me, he broke my heart. But--” You looked up at the sky, really hating to admit this to him. “But I never stopped loving him,”

“....Well he doesn’t love you,” Rafael’s face now turned to a deep dark scowl. “He told me that himself,”

“Oh, did he?” You rolled your eyes, licking back your tears.

“He did,” Rafael’s voice was now eerily calm and quiet.

“He said that he stopped being in love with you a long time ago, that he wanted to kill you. The only reason he didn’t is because he didn’t want to upset your daughters!”

“That’s not--” You shook your head.

Maybe it was true, but maybe he just wanted to kill someone, not you. Sure it wasn’t the greatest argument, but right now it was all you had. You weren’t about to concede to Rafael right now, not after all the bullshit that just went down.

“He said the only reason he doesn’t want me with you is because he doesn’t like people touching his ‘things’!” He went on. “He called you a THING, Y/N. Not his wife, not a person, a THING,”

“Shut up,” You growled.

“He’s just manipulating you, Y/N,” He kept a stern tone. “He’s playing you so that he--”

“So that he can what, Rafael?” You cut him off. “Go back to killing people? You don’t think he’s been doing that already? Or what, do you think he’s going to come back after your lady love?”

“She’s not my--”

“He’s not stupid, Rafael,” You spat.

“He obviously knows I know who, or--what, he is now. He knows that if he starts going on ‘business trips’, that I’ll know. He’s holding himself accountable now. Now you tell me, why would he do that if he didn’t love me? If he didn’t love our family?”

“..I….” Rafael tried to rack his brain for some sort of logical reason, any logical reason.

“Because he still wants to get to me,” Olivia added like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“Oh shut up, you twat,” You flipped her the bird.

“I said he’s not stupid. He’s not going to come after you, risk going back to prison. Or y’know, risk getting murdered by you,”

“I am not a murderer!” She stomped her foot.

“No, you’re just a sadistic, manipulative, evil wench,” You barked.

“You think Billy just wants me for himself, Rafael?” You half laughed while now addressing him. “What the fuck do you think she wants with you?”

"That's not--" Rafael tried to defend Liv again, but you weren't done.

“You say that I’m the one in danger, I’m the one who’s the with the psychopath, but look in the mirror,” You stared daggers into her.

“Maybe we’re just both attracted to monsters,” You bit the side of your cheek. “Maybe that’s our fatal flaw. Maybe we were never supposed to be together,”

“No,” Rafael shook his head and grabbed your hands before you could pull away. “No that is not true, don’t you ever say that,”

“Why not?!” You cried.

“Because I love you, Y/N,” He started to cry himself. “I know--- I know it looks bad, and I’m-- I’m sorry that we’re on opposite ends of this, but--” He paused, trying to compose himself.

“I may be upset with you, but that doesn’t mean that I stopped loving you. I will never stop loving you, you have to believe me,”

“Yeah well,” You broke free from his grasp, shaking your head with a sarcastic laugh, sobs dripping in your words.

“Maybe that’s the problem, Rafael. I don’t believe you,” You walked backwards towards the door.

“We’re done,” You turned on your heels and bolted out the door before you could break down sobbing in front of them. You wouldn’t give Olivia the satisfaction.

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“...You realize we’re going to have to go after her now, right Rafa?”

“Just--” Rafael put his hands over his face. “Just give me a fucking minute, Olivia,”

“But she--” Olivia’s words were cut off by Rafael’s phone going off.

UNKNOWN NUMBER

“No…” Rafael’s eyes widened. “No there is no way he could--”

“Answer it!” Olivia cried. Rafael put it on speaker.

“....Hello?”

“Damn Barba, you make this way too easy, it’s almost not fun anymore,”

“Lewis,”

“See, here I thought my wife’s little crush on you would deter her from believing me, but you just sent her running back into my arms,”

“You--”

“Actually I guess I should be thanking the good detective there, eh Olivia?”

“You son of a--”

“Hey, don’t get mad at me here, fire crotch,” He chuckled. “You should be thanking me,”

“And why’s that?” She asked warily.

“I just gave you what you’ve always wanted,” They could hear the evil smirk in his voice.

“...Excuse me?”

“Your little papi there?”

“How can you see--?” Both Olivia's and Rafael's eyes darted around his office, focusing on the huge window behind his desk.

“I have my ways, Livvie,” He chuckled darkly. “You know that,”

“Can we back up here?” Rafael chimed in. “What the fuck are you talking about, Lewis?”

“Rafael, he’s just--” Olivia tried to dismiss it.

“Ohhhh, he doesn’t know, does he Olivia?” Lewis asked in an amused tone.

“....Know what?” Rafael raised an eyebrow at Olivia.

“Well,” He chuckled even more sinisterly. “Let’s just say counselor, when I ‘allegedly’ tortured your little lady there,”

“Don’t,” Olivia warned.

“....It wasn’t some relative she was crying out for,” His words dripped with evil amusement as he revealed Olivia's dark secrets.

“...What?” Rafael now looked at Olivia with shock and awe. How had he never seen this?

“Rafael, he’s just saying things to get to you,” Olivia tried brushing him off, but the guilty look on her face was giving her away.

“Oh really? Am I? Tell me you’re not elated that I’ve just cleared the way for you right now, detective. Say that with a straight face while you look into papi’s eyes,”

“You’re sick,” Olivia sneered.

“That wasn’t a denial, Oliva,” Lewis pointed out.

“Oliva, come on--” Rafael said in frustration. How could this be spinning into such a soap opera shit show?

“So maybe you should listen to my wife, counselor,” His evil voice taunted them.

“Maybe you both need to be with your monsters, let nature take its course,” He licked his lips on the other end, eating up the pain he was causing.

“Because if you don’t, I promise you won’t like the results,”

“Lewis I swear to God--” Rafael growled.

“ Now if you’ll excuse me, I do believe the missus is on her way home to me right now. And I wanna give her a hell of a welcome home,” He chuckled one more time before the line went dead.

“Son of a--” Rafael threw his phone across the room angrily.

“Rafa,” Olivia said softly, nervous about the conversation they just had.

“Liv,” He put a hand up. “You need to leave,”

“What did I do?!” She put her hands on her hips.

“Nothing, I--” He sighed. “I just can’t look at you right now,”

“...Fine,” Olivia nodded, not wanting to push the issue right now.

She quietly walked out of the office, leaving Rafael alone. As soon as she was gone, he ran over to his desk and sat in his chair, breaking down into sobs.

What the hell was he going to do now?

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Someday I'm gonna wake up, check my social media and I will not see comments about Sophie being deminish, insulted or erased, Someday I'm gonna wake up and there will only be good and positive comments about her and how brave she was by not letting Araminta brake her spirit in anyway and always manage the way to stood up against everything she went through because I'll never accept her being called weak for her quiet strenght and surviving mechanism, that day will be a good day for me

First of all Anon who do I have to kick? Because some people go around disrespecting our Sophie and that's not nice. Come on give me names, I'll get my vodoo dolls.

Second, I rarely see Sophie hate in my dash because I use the block button liberally and I'm not on Twitter. Because angst is not my thing. (Unless we're talking fanfiction aus with a happy ending) this is an angst free blog. Safe for all of you who want angst free content.

That aside, this IS a blog where one is free to rant about fictional injustice so thank you for coming.

I know a lot of people don't like to hear this but Sophie Beckett is a perfectly fine character! She is not passive, or weak or a coward. I've said this in previous posts, only a person who's been trough the kind of abuse Sophie suffered under Araminta knows exactly WHY she's such a strong character in the first place. And why her quiet defiance is admirable.

If you don't know what it's like to be stuck since childhood with nowhere to go, in an abusive household, where the main abuser is a woman, traditionally seen as a caregiver who instead of offering warmth or love, holds food and shelter over Sophie's head to make her behave, while Sophie had nowhere to turn to and no friends to support her. Then you don't know why she's such a strong character.

Sophie's backstory is super tragic and this is a fact. Araminta was a gaslighter of the highest caliber. And Sophie's status as a bastard meant that she virtually had no rights and wasn't entiled to demand anything from anyone. So her surviving within her circumstances, without becoming an abuser or a cold unemotional asshole, was an act of superhuman mental strength and courage .

Sophie haters are like those people you meet when you're clinically depressed who ask 'But why don't you think more positive?' and 'why don't you smile more'

And you want to tell them 'I don't know Brad, maybe because it's hard? Ever thought about that??? Must be nice living in your head, without self criticism voices telling you that you suck, wonder how that fantasy land feels like'

For those of you who don't know what being a bastard was like in regency england (the following also applies to Gareth Sin Clair, if you're wondering). It was like having a stamp in her national ID, right next to date of birth and natal country, an ugly stamp that said 'born out of wedlock: Do not treat with respect' by all intents and purposes commoners had it better. But Araminta gaslighted Sophie so bad since childhood!!

And I really don't know what's up with people these days and victim blaming. But here's a tip ANYTHING THAT ISN'T KINDNESS AND SUPPORT TOWARDS A VICTIM OF ANY KIND OF ABUSE, IS UN-WEL-COME.

So those people that say Sophie could have gotten out of there, that she could have done this and that or left Araminta, or punched her sooner etc. Check your victim blaming at the door please. It was not Sophie's responsibility to get out of that abusive situation when she was virtually powerless. It WAS ARAMINTA'S RESPONSIBILITY TO TAKE CARE OF HER. Why aren't more people talking about what an absolute asshole Araminta was to do that to little Sophie, for her whole life?? Let's put the blame where it belongs, in Araminta's door and in the Earl of Gunningworth's ass.

Guys Araminta was the bad guy, I know it's obvious enough in An offer from a Gentleman, but let me spell it out, Araminta was an abuser, a gaslighter, a psychopath, the kind that lives under the beds of abusive homes and makes the victims of her criminal behavior call her 'mommy' a ne'rdo well asshole who treated a little girl with the utmost unfairness, who bullied and humiliated Sophie for half her life, just for funsies! She was evil and got away with it.

So when we meet Sophie in an offer from a Gentleman, we meet her after years of THIS 👆 And what we meet isn't a jaded, depressed girl. We meet Sophie, Sophie who is a kind, stubborn, warm-hearted person with only her integrity to comfort her against the world that has hurt her. By the time Sophie meets Benedict, Araminta has already taken everything else she has.

The psychopath she's lived with her whole life probably used the words 'your mother was nothing more than a _____' to further verbally abuse Sophie all the time.

When she meets Benedict, Sophie is clear that the ONLY thing she has that can't be taken from her is her agency. She's constantly using her agency around Benedict. Because it's something Araminta denied her for so long!. So of course she refused to be his mistress. She CAN, that's the whole point, she's been robbed of choices her whole life.

And now that Sophie sort of escapes, now that she can make her own choices she's saying NO! Call it morals, integrity or simply Sophie expecting Benedict to respect her use of agency. Saying No to Benedict might not look empowering for us but it IS empowering for her! And that makes Sophie Beckett awesome.

And I know I know, Benedict is a product of his environment and ya di dah. but the Book is titled 'An offer from a Gentleman' for a reason! It's a sarcastic dig at the fact that Benedict doesn't behave as a gentleman for almost all the book. Because a true gentleman would never ask any woman to be their mistress under any circumstance. Virgin, married or widowed.

Benedict SHOULDN'T HAVE ASKED. Had he truly been thinking like a gentleman he would have done that gentlemanly thing and rescued Sophie chivalrously, worked towards bettering her life circumstances and eventually asked her to marry him like a character out of an Arturian legend. But Benedict is no sir Galahad. The whole irony of the book title is right there. That people in the ton call him a gentleman but in reality he's a total poser. He's faking it, he's pretending, he's of as ungentlemanly as his brothers! Sophie's just calling him out on it!

And Sophie who is a woman and a bastard, who is penniless and is by every means supposed to be inferior than him. STILL HAS MORE INTEGRITY. Her morals are better than his, she keeps her word, she feels more guilty, has more patience and definitely takes more responsibility! Sophie in every sense of the word might not have been born a Lady but she IS better than Benedict. Who's the brother of a Viscount.

Go Sophie! You Rock!

I'm just glad Benedict recognizes what an absolute goddess he married and spends the rest of his life worshipping the ground she walks in because it's what Sophie deserves.

I hope she's already been casted, I hope it's an incredible actress that brings us the mix of absolute innocence and fierceness that is Sophie Beckett. Because it's what I want to see.

And you know me #JusticeForSophie4k I'll always be here to support our one only non problematic fave. Sophie has done nothing wrong ever, she's a fun chaotic sister in law and we love her just like Benedict. End of story

#bridgerton #sophie beckett #benedict bridgerton #benedict x sophie #Benophie #justiceforsophie #Sophie slander is so unless like why #she's perfect

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Can you be 100% certain that your source who said toe is real was not paid off by Tree to give you false information? Because if I was Tree I would have someone reach out to the top gaylor podcast and give the bearding validity in order to stop the spread of certain rumors

see this person asked nicely so i'm gonna share about how i source tea. i'm guessing you're new to the community so welcome 💜

i have a few people i consider to be "gossip hounds" who work in the industry in LA who i count on to keep their ear to the ground and pass on any interesting gossip or tea they hear my way. these people are blue check verified on twitter so i got them to dm me from their blue check accounts so i know they are who they say they are.

when they tell me tea that came from so and so i can double check their socials to make sure they have social interactions with the place the tea is coming from. for example the tily tea that taylor had a blonde british model gf on rep tour. that came from a gossip hound that we have nick named andy. she told me she heard this from someone who worked on the rep tour and i was able to verify that she had social interactions with this person on rep tour.

now of course i'll take a moment to say that this social media checking doesn't prove anything to be 100% true. gossip can be passed along that is inaccurate, people can mishear, misunderstand, or miscommunicate stuff and that could cause well sourced but inaccurate tea to get to me. this is why i insist that everyone take my gossip with a grain of salt. i am not an all knowing god. just a gossip blogger with industry friends. all that said i usually do not share gossip to the blog or pod that i don't personally think is true.

but thanks to verified accounts and watching public social media interactions i know my sources are who that say they are and they know who they say they know.

the toe tea came from one of these gossip hounds who got the chance to hang out and party with someone who is in tight with some of taylor's good friends. this person was gaylor friendly (hinted that they thought taylor was bi) and was there to gossip and dish tea. they said taylor and joe are legit. that they're a normal couple who spend all their time together and act normal and affectionate with one another in private settings. they said he isn't a beard and taylor's friends all consider him to be her boyfriend and are friends with him too.

could this be incorrect info? sure someone could be misreading a situation or just wrong about stuff but i don't think so because this is well sourced tea but my point is we have to take all gossip w a grain of salt.

beyond the tea joe and taylor's timeline checks out, they're always together, they're always private, they get spotted out without calling the paps on themselves (not saying they've never called the paps but that's just part of being a celeb, taylor and karlie called the paps on themselves all the time but that doesn't mean they didn't have something romantic going on as well), some of her music links back up to him, she is giving him writing credits on her music and bending over backwards in the most pick me pathetic girlfriend way ever to get him a grammy he didn't deserve, she hangs out with his family, her jets follow him around, she lives with him, we've seen private pics of them together, and he takes care of her cats. like y'all... they just check out and the tea supports all of that.

i am not a fan of joe and taylor. i don't "ship them". i want taylor to be with a woman in my ideal scenario. but she isn't and that's fine too.

my tea isn't some dark anonymous source that could be being controlled by tree. they're just gays in the industry in LA, NYC, and London that like to dish that found me through the podcast. my sources have also confirmed all sorts of wild shit about taylor like she was seeing both lily and joe at the same time, that she had a "slutty gay puberty" in the late aughts where she was fucking all these models, she was hooking up w julianne hough while julianne had a boyfriend, and that john mayer was a completely fake relationship (also got haylor and taylor squared to be confirmed fake.)

do you really think tree is like "ahhh yes this tiny niche podcast can call taylor a gay bislut who fucks girls with boyfriends and was open with joe for a while and kept a girl around to fuck on rep tour and faked dating john mayer as long as she ALSO confirms joe is real yessss this is perfect pr"???

like no. it's just the tea. it's not any huge surprise that the guy taylor has been hiding and sneaking around with for six fucking years is actually her boyfriend. like OF COURSE HE IS they CLOSETED for 9 months at the start of their relationship. you don't hide a pr relationship you show it off. if taylor is hiding something from us it's likely a legit connection. you have to watch the sleight of hand from her. she shows you her pr in the right hand but the trick happens in the left hand and it's what she keeps private that matters to her.

#joe #toe #tea

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