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shadowtraveled · 3 months

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"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.

but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)

mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…

the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.

every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.

first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.

which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.

the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.

walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?

well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.

you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?

it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.

when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.

and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.

kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.

yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #mithrun #dungeon meshi #this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme #half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is #someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality #his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though #he says he tried to see the worst in them.#hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on #wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore.#but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once #snakes #long post #severe problems #meshy

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accidentalslayer · 9 months

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#its always october in my brain #dissociation #shifting #shiftblr #shifting community #desired reality #dr #dreamer #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder

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aziraphalalala · 9 months

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I am not entirely certain what will happen once the actors & writers strike ends, but I'm pretty sure Michael Sheen will break the sound barrier with how fast he will go feral on the internets about how Aziraphale wants to eat Crowley's ox rib

#i mean have you seen how he looks at David Tennant #Have you seen how Aziraphale looks at Crowley #it's not a “I like him a normal amount” kinda look #it's more of a “I hope you've put down some solid roots cause Imma climb you like a tree” manic stare #and he has been 0% chill in all earlier statements about it #so i anticipate a feral front approaching from Wales with a hefty precipitation of Sheenussy on display #Is this post inappropriate?#i don't even know anymore #my brains are scrambled to the point of no return #what is reality #hahaha I don't care let me shitpost and die on this hill #good omens #good omens 2 #michael sheen #aziraphale #ineffable idiots #ineffable husbands #aziracrow

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bogcreacher · 5 months

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aurosoulart · 5 months

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alright. that's it. technology has gone too far

#figmin xr #ar #augmented reality #vr #virtual reality #video #alternate caption: My Blue Toilet #i just got this build and needed somewhere dark to test it #brain is reeling thinking of what to do with this #entirely virtual shadow puppet shows #a ceiling covered in gently glowing stars #bioluminescence #shadowboxes lit from within #glowing mushrooms #magical runes #holy shit #holy shiiiitt #this might be the thing to get me out of my art block #anyways uh. enjoy toilet video LMAO

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vanpalmr · 1 year

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YELLOWJACKETS | 1.01 | 2.02 |

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reegis · 5 months

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Listen. I am obsessed w brian and nastya being friends, to the point i went into a fugue state and wrote 40k in three months back in 2020 about them being friends. If you have any extra time or energy, do you have any doodles of them being buddies?

besties tell besties when theyr about to yeet themselves into the void 💖

#& if anybody knows what its like Out There… its brian :’^)#Out on tha brain…#i refuse to accept the reality that she left without telling Anyone. im in denial #the mechanisms #nastya rasputina #drumbot brian #my art #asks #Alsooo hmu w that linkkkk pls 🤲🏻

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 9 months

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*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment #so many innocent bystanders at stake #every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis #racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system #and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description #aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh #(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt.#but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.)#seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this.#the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later?#that is not cute. it is Alarming.#no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain #and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students #this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE #...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power #and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class #which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever #it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses...#anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you.#obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding #are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it #please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent #mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies #& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground #mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man

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hakurasakura · 5 months

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@pscentral event 22 ☆ 2023 wrapped ↳ GOJO SATORU LETTERBOXD | [insp.]

#jujutsu kaisen #jjkedit #jjkdaily #hyeahjujutsu #animeedit #fyeahanimegifs #usernik #usernanda #userloidforgers #underbetelgeuse #*yash.gif #*2023 #ok in reality i would put 5 stars for every gojo #but for funsies i had to make some 2 stars lol #he takes up 90% of my brain at this point

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vacant2007 · 1 year

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#tc #traumacore #cw traumacore #traumacore edit #trans trauma #ventcore #vent edit #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #vent art #vent artwork #my stuff #my edit #cw vent #yknow when its like the people who are supposed to love you could kill you and nobody with any power is gonna help you etc #so you just have to pretend to be an entirely different person just to survive #i try not to think about the reality of my trans experience for more than 5 seconds bc i want to blow my brains out whenever i do

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7cfc00 · 7 months

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Cast: Hermie the Unworthy as Theatre Kid with Identity Issues!

#dndads #dndads fanart #dungeons and daddies #dndads s2 #hermie the unworthy #hermie unworthy #dndaddies #dndads season 2 #dndads quest #dndads hermie #words are by me... came out of my brain box #also it rhymes if you pronounce the “a” in “mask” like you pronounce the “a” in “parts”#anyway. i was just trying to get at the idea of him making his roles his identity... thinking that he is simply this group of parts #when in reality he's more than the sum of it... hes a person beyond his personas yknow #i really like how this turned out. tbh mostly because i took my own sweet time... thats why i've been gone for so long LOL #hermie has such a wealth of visuals behind his character man theres SO MUCH to explore... i didnt even manage to fit in all the references #that i noted down

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medicalunprofessional · 17 days

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never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

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chonkymoth · 7 months

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I'd like to present an idea to the masses...........

#all of the posts of loki being the god of stories is related to the time stone #and i saw another last night that included wanda as the reality stone which made perfect sense #so naturally #my silly little brain was determined to figure out the others #accepting any alternative ideas for who would be who !!!#loki series #loki spoilers #loki #loki laufeyson #carol danvers #captain marvel #the marvels #mcu vision #steven strange #dr. strange #wanda maximoff #scarlet witch #agatha harkness #mcu #marvel cinematic universe #mine #mcu edit #adding this tag a solid 30 mins after posting to complain abt how i misspelled stephen 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#godspeed to me and my illiterate ass #also i want it to be noted that i specifically listed them in this order bc rainbow #not me switching out the pics to be correct even tho its already been reblogged

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uncanny-tranny · 9 months

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Shoutout to all the other adults who have acne or any other condition of the skin that you are expected to outgrow or "just deal with."

Adulthood isn't this magical time where everything just disappears, and the reality is that these skin conditions are largely genetic. It isn't your fault (nor your skin's fault) that you are an adult with different skin than other people. In fact, it's neutral (and even, dare I say, good!).

#positivity #body positivity #acne positivity #i have skin redness and acne still and it actually is a neutral thing at worst :3 #in fact it makes me feel better because it gives me the (false) notion that i am genetically more like him than anybody else :)#he has the same unique features i do :)#and it's helped me appreciate body moles and non-ski slope noses and boney features #as much as people like to pretend that body image is shallow (it can be) it's still not a moral failure to be insecure #we live in a society after all and it's inevitable that society's messaging can become like a malevolent growth in your brain #it's okay if you have a hard time with the reality that your features are neutral at WORST. it's hard to swallow that pill sometimes #but no matter what just know that you are lovable and you are loved. as you are too #do what you want forever dear reader #oh hey the 'him' that the tags didn't include is my dad! not some Mystery Guy lmaooo

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ghostdrinkssoup · 1 year

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girls don’t want hannibal season 4 girls want a spin-off show that’s basically master chef but hannibal is the only judge and the rest of the cast are contestants except the catch is they don’t know all the ingredients are people-based (except will who’s desperately trying to convince everyone while also having homoerotic tension with hannibal) and it’s filmed like the special features clips on the shrek 2 DVD

#hannibal the cannibal: master chef vs far far away idol FIGHT #listen guys I’ve accepted we probably won’t get s4 and I’m okay with that because s3 ended perfectly I am very content with it #but that doesn’t mean I don’t want silly goofy content who do you think I am an insane person #there would also be those one-on-one interview scenes or whatever where the characters talk shit about each other #you know what I’m talking about this needs to be built like a reality tv show #my big brain moment do u see my vision #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #hannigram #ghost speaks

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stagefoureddiediaz · 1 month

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Something something about bachelor party buck and Eddie and alcohol lowering inhibitions and therefore allowing them to display the closeness they can’t normally display with one another

Something something about Eddie saying g ‘this changes nothing between us’ only for us to then be shown them behaving very different when inhibitions are not inhibiting - when the truth of how things are changed/changing between them is allowed to exist for a period of time

#I’m not making sense #my brain is still trying to compute #but something about the idea of bachelor party Eddie existing free of his catholic guilt #and therefore free to be far more affectionate with buck #and something about bachelor party buck being able to ‘recognise’ his feelings for Eddie and sort of embrace them #something about it being a funhouse mirror of reality #idk what I’m saying #gonna come clack type it in the morning #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 abc

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