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julianamaius · 1 year

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Being "too much" and talking about queer and trans issues to people who don't want to hear it. The false allyship of Neoliberal right wing bigots hiding behind acceptability politics. The reality of being a trans woman gatekept from 'actual womanhood' (hint: it's a bunch of bullshit every trans woman is valid and fuck your dumb ass if you say they aren't!)

It's a tiring fucking thing, and yeah I'm new to it. Idk how you've all been handling this inane fucking bullshit all this time, I can't tolerate intolerance like this. The worst part for me, and I'm lucky to have not had this experience before coming out as trans as a white woman, is the fake allyship. Everyone I thought would most jump to my side when I came out has pretty much pushed me under the table, despite the insistence that they're "there for me" and were so over-the-top supportive and actually very weird when I came out as a woman

Like yeah I did NOT look like someone who would identify that way when I started, my transition has been on the dramatic side in how much my entire personality and entire face has changed. But now there's no excuse, a year into HRT. I've got the voice kind of down (though kind of fuck that too but I do what I can), I've got the makeup, I pass in bigoted areas, I dress as well as I can being broke as shit and unable to work while I change my name through all the agencies under the sun at cost to me

And those people, the ones who were so adamant about having my back are the ones treating me the least like a human, and least of all like a normal fucking woman. Like I am not an alien, and in terms of being around me it's 1000x better and more fun than it's ever been! I'm fucking happy, after all these years I'm finally happy and have so much going on and am thriving but NOW it's the aunts who jumped to congratulate me on starting HRT alone with no help at the jump who treat me like a non-human

Funny thing too is all the people I was most scared of being around are the ONLY ones who treat me like a normal fucking human being. My girlfriend, her dad they treat me more normally than anyone who has known me forever and should be there but absolutely are not. And now it's my therapist who throws her hands up and says 'it is what it is' when I talk about the deadnaming that happens at every media when a trans person is being targeted, when I talk about being almost assaulted in a parking lot or how the very real fear of being assaulted feeds into my already existent hypervigilance from a very difficult childhood to say the least

It's all the people that I trusted the most emotionally who have, after its all said and done and we've talked about and been close over the ways people can fail us and worked with them to do better, who have let me down. They're the ones who seem to have the most discomfort with my mere existence as a trans woman, as the most beautiful woman in my family to them I am not a woman at all, I'm something else to be handled with care and the worst part is that it's not even talked about

The best way it seems to handle me, to them, is to avoid every step I make and pretend I don't exist, after all the shit it took to get through. It cuts me so deep, I can handle James with the punisher tattoo wanting to rock my shit in the grocery store parking lot but when I get home and I let the shield down and you tell me you don't want trans women in sports, that's "it is what it is just deal with it" to being hated at large, to having no voice to combat people calling for genocide who want me dead, who treat me and other trans women like disposable non-human garbage, when that happens it hurts more emotionally than any real threat to my person

And the fucked up part is of course I'm lucky, I'm white I'm passing I'm pretty, it worked out for me! And here it still is that I'm treated like a disposable napkin in my life in the closest relationships I have poured so much of myself into with so little restraint of love and care, with so much of my best intents and actions. It fucking hurts, so bad. And the reality is of course I'm alone with it because there's not another trans person in my life. I wanted to believe, desperately wanted to believe the people in my life could show up that aren't trans and understand the things I need and go through and not treat me like a sideshow. It seems, on so many counts I've been wrong

At this point I'd actually rather be friends with the person who's loud and open about their bigotry because when we get past the talking points they've been fed they're so often actually the ones that support me FOR REAL, not this neoliberal false-acceptance bullshit that has cut me so deep time and time again in only a single year. I'm tired, I didn't want this. I love being trans alone but I'd never have chosen this minefield if I'd been given any say at all.

It's hard to keep going sometimes but I will, it's just sad that others really think they're "helping" when they're actually pulling me down with their fake 'feels good for them' surface level 'acceptance' that is used to obfuscate the ugly bigotry they refuse to acknowledge, challenge or overcome beneath it all. I'm trans, I'm happy and I'm also so so alone and exhausted and it's hard even when the bulk of things work out in transition

Thanks for hearing me vent because there are fuck all people in my life that actually, when it's all said and done, actually want to support me and listen to this shit which is a daily thing I have to grapple with. I guess it's not important to them

#trans #trans woman #lesbian #trans lesbian #mtf #mtf trans #mtf trans woman #discourse #queer #lgbtqia #lgbtq #trans community #trans pride #fuck neoliberals #fuck the united states of america #leftism is the future

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cassie-is-trans · 1 month

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#trans #transgender #mtf trans #mtf #transisbeautiful #trans woman #girlslikeus #lgbtq #trans pride

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nicholasribcage · 6 months

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#trans #transgender #transmasc #ftm #nonbinary #trans man #trans boy #trans memes #mtf trans #transfem #trans girl #trans woman #mtf girl

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carhammerexplosionmatt · 4 months

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hello everyone!! this is a burner account to share this:

as photomatt deletes everything, me and a few others are trying our best to compile screenshots to spread the word of the situation. most of the screenshots in the dropbox feature a comment by one of our helpers containing context. if you have any screenshots you'd like to add, please dm me. there is a high chance this account will get banned, so please save this dropbox and the screenshots included and continue to spread the word.

thank you!!

edit: thank you to all the people sharing and reblogging this! please note that this dropbox is being constantly updated (as i type this, files are being processed) so be sure to check in frequently for updates.

edit 2: as this gets more popular, i'm getting more and more worried about the probability of getting banned. to send me screenshots, please feel free to add me on discord (@mit_skies). i'll try to keep everyone updated on there + it'll be easier for me to see and document screenshots.

#carhammerexplosionmatt #photomatt #trans #transgender #trans woman #transfem #transgirl #mtf trans #predstrogen #drama #important #reblog #trans rights #transfem rights #🚗🔨⚒️💥

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queerism1969 · 9 months

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kamillelt · 1 month

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I'm just a normal girl but I've got this thing between my legs! Idk what to do?

#trans nsft #trans pride #mtf trans #transsexual #transgirl #transgender #trans woman #ed comunity #trans man #igbtq #so hot 🔥🔥🔥#meet and fuck #trans fem #transfem #transisbeautiful #happy pride 🏳️‍⚧️#trans 🏳️‍⚧️

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addelaidesupreme · 3 months

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I'm watching a video essay about a game ive been interested in playing. The creator of the video, who has crossdressed multiple times, makes a "women arent funny" joke, and i suddenly realize ive never witnessed him acknowledge a woman in an uplifting way before.

I'm on a dating app for lgbt+ people. I've stated multiple times on my profile that i would rather lose an arm than recieve nudes without consent. I will be sent five dick pics for every 2 people i talk to that night.

I'm talking with my dad, who informs me he's been trying his best to learn about trans issues. He says the same things steven crowder brings up when trying to ridicule trans people. I gently but firmly correct my father and get told that ive been fed propaganda.

I'm on instagram, under the comments of a post ridiculing someone for being a misogynyst. Someone's left a comment saying "it must be hard being a woman on the internet" and i respond "it is." I will have every aspect of my appearance scrutinized as a reminder that no matter how well i pass, it will never be enough for someone with bad intentions.

I'm back on that dating app for lgbt+ people. I'm messaged by an attractive looking person, but i can see their partner prominently displayed in all but their main photo, oftentimes striking what im sure they thought was a very intimidating pose. Their bio says "looking for a third for our anniversary." I know that even if I did feel up to it, the gruff partner wouldnt approve of me because i don't pass.

I'm at a job interview for a clothing store. I tell the gracefully-dressed woman interviewing me that ever since i began my transition, i've discovered an interest in fashion, and that this job would allow me to dip my toes into the industry in a safe way. I'm told that i've reduced womanhood to a stereotype, and i can tell by her tone that i lost any chance at the job the minute she realized i was trans.

I'm at the same hospital i got facial feminization surgery in, trying to figure out what's wrong with my bowels. When the person behind the desk gives me a wristband with my patient info on it, i notice a single, lonely, letter M. I ask a nurse in private why it would say that despite me having changed it nearly a year prior. They say they have no clue, and bring in paperwork for me to fill out and have it re-changed again.

I'm living with my mom at the time. I'm new to transitioning, and decide to try my hand at voice training. It feels a bit off, but otherwise im feeling neutral toward the whole thing. I try speaking in this new voice to my mom and she laughs. Now, when people ask if i intend to voice train, i find speaking at all difficult for minutes after.

I didnt have some sort of grand message to convey by this. I just had a thought and then that thought spiralled into whatever the hell this became. Some, okay most, might call it complaining; they are right to do so.

#trans woman #trans pride #trans #lgbt #lgbtq #addies high thoughts #transgender #pre op mtf #post op mtf #mtf trans #mtf girl #mtf hrt #trans hrt #hrt #trans rights #transmysogyny

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genderqueerdykes · 7 months

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the reason why you can't define gay as "man loving man", or define lesbian as "woman loving woman", or define trans as "person who has dysphoria and identifies as the 'opposite' gender " is because all queer identities defy being defined in a reductive, singular statement. the entire point of these identities are that they cannot fit inside the rigid boxes of what gender, sexuality & expression "should" be according to our societies.

people with these identities will always break the rules. we will always blur the lines and exist outside of the boundaries you set around us. you can't try to force us into boxes and hard definitions all over again, we intrinsically defy them no matter what.

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cassie-is-trans · 22 days

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#trans #transgender #mtf trans #mtf #transisbeautiful #trans woman #girlslikeus #lgbtq #trans pride

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pennylittlekiitten · 1 month

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Hope you enjoy the view ?

#transformation #trans cult #trans exclusionary radical feminist #trans man #trans nsft #transisbeautiful #trans #transgirl #trans artist #trans rights #mtf trans #trans pride #trans woman #transgender #trans beauty #transsexual #transfem #transmasc

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queerism1969 · 3 months

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transqueen23computer · 1 month

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#mtf trans #trans pride #trans cult #trans woman #transgender #traditional drawing #transgirl #trans nsft #transfem #trans mtf

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genderqueerdykes · 2 months

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you're allowed to love being trans if you:

just came out

havent transitioned and dont plan to

have known you are trans for years but kept it to yourself

don't want surgery or hormones

dont disclose your trans status or genders to other people

dont change your name

never have dysphoria

your transness is tied to your neurodivergence

your transness is tied to your nonhuman identity

dont feel like you have a gender or gendered experience

feel like gender isn't really that important

are intersex

are two-spirit, hijra, or have another cultural gender or expression identity, or "third gender"

are a person of color

are an afab demigirl

are an amab demiboy

have a complex identity

have a very simple identity

cant figure out your gender for the life of you

cross dress

do drag

present socially in ways that are "normal" for your agab

have crushing dysphoria

don't know how to pass

pass effortlessly

are a butch trans woman

are a femme trans man

are demigender

don't like to be reminded you're trans

have a very specific gender

have a gender that's specific to you and you alone

have hated being trans at one point

stopped transition and restarted it at some point

have had to change your gender, name, pronouns or presentation multiple times

change presentation a lot

have a gender that's hard or impossible to put into words

dont want to figure out what your gender is exactly

are plural/a system

are genderfluid, gnc, genderqueer, multigender, polygender, genderflux, neutrois, maverique or genderfuck

are xenogender

are a lesbian or gay

are transneutral

are transfemasc/transmascfem

..... are trans.

every trans person is allowed to love being trans. good day, love yourself today!

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shadowyarcadetale · 1 month

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Would you let a trans girl like me ride you?

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maddybaae001 · 1 month

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If I unveil my cock🍆, will you suck it ?

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rachaelmaddie · 20 days

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Still your gorgeous princess💋💋

Trans Rachael❤️

Reblog 🙏

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