AMAB (assigned Mormon at birth)

Transitioned to Latter-Day Saint later in life

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So far, chances of KOSA being enacted is 31% according to the site linked below.

Let's get that fucker down to zero, guys!!

Stuff to help us do that is linked here!

The call scripts linked below were originally for Congressional representatives, but now that the bill is in committee consideration by Senate Commerce, you should call your Senators instead and you can use the scripts for them. Also, when calling your Democrat senators, make sure to add that Senator Blackburn explicitly stated in interview that it would be used to "protect children from the transgender." I think it's pretty clear that this is not meant to protect children. It's just going to harm children further, especially trans children.

(Article below with a video of the interview embedded.)

Please help stop this bill in its tracks. Reblog, donate, call your senators, and keep an eye on the bill's chances of being passed. We can't stop now. 31% is still kind of a big number. We need to shrink those chances by a lot more.

I forgot that there is probably 1000 people TOPS like me (Mormon and Queer), and that most queer people hate the church, and most Mormon people hate queer people. What a time to be alive

Found this image reposted in a few different locations, and wanted to share some thoughts. While it isn't the same for everyone, I feel like for me, the line in the Family Proclamation talking about eternal identities, (you know the one), for me I take it to mean that being born as a man is essential to my eternal identity. But so is being trans. I don't know if I've shared it before, but when I was first doing all the self discovery, I prayed for weeks on end, multiple times a day, to have my "trans-ness" taken from me, asking to have the burden removed, that I wouldn't have to struggle with the feelings of dysphoria my whole life, and every time I prayed for that, all I felt was more depressed, more anxious, and generally just more alone and abandoned. The very first time that I prayed to have the strength to accept it however? Instant, powerful, and profound peace. I didn't feel anything in a literal physical sense, no hands wiping away my tears, no warm hug around me, but I just had this innate sense of "it's alright, you'll be ok" It relates to this image of course by way that I believe I am loved just the way I am, transgender-ness and all. My Savior and Heavenly Parents all love me, they want me to be happy. I may not understand fully why the church policies and procedures are the way they are, but I know in my heart and soul, that I am trans, I am a feminine spirit. I trust that my Father in Heaven has a plan for me, and I believe wholeheartedly that in transitioning, I am following that plan. Maybe I was born a man so I could have the experience of going to cub scouts, boy scouts, and young men's activities, rather than their female alternatives. Maybe it was so I could go on a longer mission and there was someone whose heart I touched that I wouldn't have if I was born female. Of course, I do yearn for the girlhood I'll never get to have, the girl's camps, and the prom dresses. The princess Halloween costumes, and the embarrassing "first boyfriend" But I love who I am becoming, and for the first time in my life I love myself, and I feel loved.

And for that, I wouldn't change a thing.

So you're Mormon *and* gay? How's that supposed to work?

Excellent question! As soon as I have an answer I'll let you know that it's still none of your business!

Bruh she sent me her location tf is this??

I swear on the grave I killed and buried God in that my loved ones will never have to question if my love is conditional

I've been holding a General Conference watch party for the queer mormon club at my institute, and a couple of them came, but mostly I've just been gaining missionaries slowly throughout the day as they realized that a private, more fun, watch party with food and activities was happening in the building

Ways (that I have tried) to try to make a church/religious community more inclusive:

(This is more my religion/Christian centered, but can be applied to any kind of organization really)

Refer to to all presidents of organizations as president regardless of gender (Relief Society President, Young Women's President, etc.)

Use all inclusive language in scripture / doctrine/talk reading (even if you have to replace a word) (replace son or daughter or gendered language with child, people, or all. 'Children of God vs Sons and Daughters of God).

Don't be afraid to speak up for and add perspective of marginalized people in church community. This doesn't just have to be ethnic or queer minorities, it can extend to divorced, widowed, childless, disabled or converted members.

Recognize biases in self and religious thinking, and try to self-correct in words and deeds.

Reframe conversations that may be hurtful in a 'Love One Another' and Christ and/or God centered way.

(feel free to add on!!)

Edit: Realized in church that making sure we are clarifying all "churchy" language, whenever possible. Like not just saying 'MTC' (Missionary Training Center, to prepare to serve missions), or 'deacon' (young men who hold the first level of the Priesthood).

So the very first talk of conference today made me cry (in a good way!)

Queer members! "They of the last wagon"! That's us!!

We walk behind all the other members choking on the dust they kick up or even deliberately kick in our faces, but we keep walking! We trust that those in the front know where they're going, even if we can't see it. We get through obstacles in our path with no one around to help us. The rest of the wagon train might even deliberately try to leave us behind, but we stay anyway.

And sometimes, when the dust and the cruelty and the uncertainty are just too much, you might decide to leave the well worn dusty paths for a less worn one where you might finally be able to breathe. I hope those "forbidden paths" lead you to a beautiful meadow of wildflowers or a shady forest to shield you from the hot sun. You deserve the world and I love you.

I'm gonna come add to this when I have the actual written version because I have so many thoughts.

I have such an interesting relationship with the Mormon church.

It’s my home. It’s something I will return to when it’s safe. The core principles are something that I treasure and love and feel so strongly about.

But the actual institution is no longer a safe place for me.

Somewhere can be a home, even when it’s unsafe. You can have complicated, angry grieving feelings towards a home that is supposed to be safe.

The Mormon church is still my home. It’s where my heart is.

But sometimes the homes we love are unsafe and we have to leave until that home can be safe again— if it ever is.

I have faith that the Mormon church will eventually be safe again. But until then, it’s safer for me to find a new home.

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GET KOSA TRENDING.

STOP SCROLLING NOW!

AS OF FEBRUARY 21ST, 2024, WE GOT FIVE DAYS UNTIL THE DAY OF DECISION OF THE KOSA BILL, WHICH WILL CAUSE MASS CENSORSHIP ROUND THE INTERNET IF PASSED. OR DOOMSDAY. WE NEED EVERYONE TO KNOW ABOUT THIS AND CONTRIBUTE. I'M NOT GIVING UP ON YOU ALL.

WE'RE DOWN TO THE WIRE BUT WE CAN'T GIVE UP YET. IF WE GIVE UP, EVERYTHING IS OVER. IF WE DON'T, AT LEAST WE HAVE A CHANCE.

I'M THE ONE WHO SOUNDED THE ALARM, AND I'M NOT GOING TO CURL UP AND DIE YET.

Reblog this post in every LEGAL way you can under the Tumblr guidelines with the appropriate tags. TELL AND TAG EVERYONE YOU KNOW, then add the tags to see below... and more if you can think of any complying.

Visit badinternetbills.com if you want to find a way to defeat KOSA. It WILL NOT take much of your time. Reblog with any other information or sources, too-- but make sure to reblog if you can.

Reblog if you support lgbtq+ content.

Reblog if you support questioning queer youth and/or abused youth getting the information they need.

Reblog if you support Ao3 and/or other sites that wholeheartedly preserve talentedly made media.

Reblog if you're going to repost this on other sites than Tumblr and spread the word across Twitter, Tik Tok, Pinterest, or elsewhere, alongside the link to badinternetbills.com.

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Hey, everyone. So yeah, this is happening. We're still fighting this battle. And we can't give up now. We can't. We can't stand idly by while one of the most important resources that helped us all wake up, or at least start to question things, is being threatened by the government.

We can't stand idly by when kids, teens, and adults just like us still trapped inside might lose access to the resource that could help them wake up. We can't stand idly by when they might lose access to their non JW friends and family. We CAN'T stand idly by when we can do something to stop this bill from passing.

I am sick and tired of this same old song, where conservative fuckers higher up think they can oppress everyone. I am FUCKING SICK of it.

Please, reblog both this post and the original post linked above what I've written, and do what you can to stop KOSA, please. We are running out of time.

I suggest that if it is within your power to do so, that you do more than simply reblog and assume someone else will do something. DON'T assume that. Please do more than just reblogging if you are able to, because that's not really enough at this point.

Call/email representatives in the House and tell them to oppose KOSA (you may want to list different reasons depending on who you're calling, some House representatives are anti-LGBTQ+, so it may be best to tell them to oppose because it violates people's privacy, safety, and anonymity online). Print posters and put them up where legal if you can.

Sharing all this information to other social media sites (Instagram, Reddit, TikTok, the bird app) to reach more people can really help too. The wider the reach, the better.

Thank you. Now let's fucking rip that bill apart like we rip apart Watchtower magazines and eat it for fucking breakfast. (In a "we're eating it and the politicians who are sponsoring it are looking on in horror" kind of way)

What does a queer Mormon witch have to do to get a date around here 😤

Revisited a story that was very important to me as a child, and learned about the author being very vocal about the harm gender roles & stereotypes cause. I thought "oh that's great!" but was afraid. What if she only applied that logic to cis ppl?

I did some searching, and found out that not only does she support trans ppl, but has also spoken multiple times about how important it is to be able to see protagonists outside of the perceived norm. A.K.A., she doesn't see my very existence as wrong.

I let out a deep sigh of relief. I could continue to enjoy this thing that had been so important to me growing up.

But this isn't the first time something like this has happened. Too often I discover a new artist, or even be unsure of one I've enjoyed the work of for a long time up to the present; and I have to desperately search to know if I can enjoy their work. Either I am extremely relieved, or absolutely crushed.

This shouldn't be necessary. I shouldn't be feeling this deep fear that something so important to me, was created by someone who despises my very existence. That I, as a disabled queer femme ex-mormon Pagan witch who was raised like a girl, will be shoved off the emotional cliff of "this person you looked up to hates you for the same reason all bigots do".

I was so terrified that something that meant so much to me as a kid could've shattered me emotionally. Simply because I didn't know if the person who made it hates people like me.

We shouldn't have to live like this.

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