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musical-chick-13 · 4 months

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3 and 5 for the fandom asks please!! 🥰

3. Do you anticipate writing for a new fandom this year? Which one?

Several things on the Giant WIP List are for fandoms I've never posted fic for! (Like, for example, Noir (2001) or Chainsaw Man or DN or obscure Dutch opera Sunken Garden.) But being WIPs, I guess this would mean that I have still, technically, already written something for those fandoms. So if we're talking about "Do I anticipate starting anything brand new this year for a new fandom," then for my own sanity I think the answer is going to be "no." (Though I did write a completely unrelated Christmas fic in like. Three days at the end of last year, so...never say never..........)

5. Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (<-not laughing at you, this is the sound of me crying).

Okay. So anyone who has been following me for the past like. Few months at least. May have heard me talk about something I keep calling "The Fic That's A Lot." This is the first thing on the WIP list I'm trying to complete because I've been trying to do that for the past... actually I don't want to look at how long I've been working on it, we're going to move on.

Those who have borne witness to the saga of me trying to finish this will know just how much of. A Challenge. This has been for me. It's, ultimately, a character study of 11 and River (and, by extension, their relationship) that takes place after they're already married, but it is the most...unconventional, we'll say, thing I've ever written. I don't want to elaborate too much, just because the premise itself is full of some very specific trigger warnings (MUCH more so than my usual fare of things like intense grief or discussing the particulars of intrusive thoughts). But the closest thing I can reasonably give to a summary (which...I know you already know this because I've been screaming to you about it for the past God-knows-how-long) is that River breaks her ankle, and from there spirals a series of events that make her husband go, "Sure hope this doesn't awaken anything in me" and her go, "Yeah, this has definitely awakened something in me." Lmao, let me see if I can find a passage of this that a) I haven't already posted and b) isn't completely deranged.

The sound of the chamber orchestra tuning their instruments shakes her out of her musings, and she remembers something that’s been prodding at her brain since she realized what was on the live feed. “How are you accessing this footage? I thought the workshop was a closed event. Airtight security.” His only response is to smirk, eyebrows darting slyly up and down. Which can only mean he’s done something very difficult, very clever, and-given his lack of elaboration on the subject-probably illegal. That last one sparks a wicked sort of thrill in her, one she’ll have to fully unpack later. “And they say I’m the bad influence.” His face snaps into something oddly serious, like this inconsequential piece of banter is an affront to something. (Affront to what, she has no idea.) “You’re not,” he says.

new year fanfic asks

#are--YES THEY'RE WATCHING AN OPERA OKAY. SHUT UP. I GOTTA MENTION AT LEAST ONE (1) STAGE-RELATED THING IN EVERY FIC IT'S A RULE #there was another relatively unassuming passage I could have put but it was in the middle of a narratively-pivotal conversation/the #major emotional turning point of the story and I didn't want to risk accidentally giving too much away #I also want to clarify that I'm not being oblique and secretive because I think this is an embarrassing thing to write about or think #everyone is an inherently delicate flower or something #I really REALLY just want to make sure there are as few moments as possible for people to accidentally have a Bad Time #due to the aforementioned trigger warnings #(obviously that's still a risk regarding me actually posting the fic and having to at least mention specific warnings but I'm trying to #minimize that risk overall)#multi t(ASK)ing #The Fic That's A Lot #this also...I think it's a particular take on their dynamic that a fair amount of people are going to disagree with. but. what can you do.

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sawiet · 4 months

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parents sincerely wonder why i don't want to visit a home where my identity is continuously torn apart repeatedly

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mushroom-for-art · 1 year

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Lmao I was inspired, I'm meant to be writing the horrors and yet the movie au dorks are at the helm, featuring the wonderful @oogaboogaspookyman s monochromatic actor

April fools

May casually walked down a hallway within the studio before sliding into broom closet to her left with efficient quiet her back bumping into the monochrome two already hiding in said broom closet who made a slightly startled squeak at their close proximity though May didn't care much keeping her back to him but tilting her head up slightly to look at him.

"You got the goods?" She asked though in a hushed tone.

"Why do you say it like this is some mafia trade?"

He sighed softly at her antics as she turned to face him properly.

"Because you're trading your goods, for my services," she cast a wink as she poked his chest lightly, unable to see his embarrassed expression for the dark of the closet. "And if you don't got my goods well buddy boy this deal is gonna fall through and you may like me so much because I can be real dangerous when I don't get what I'm owed," though she threatened her voice was entirely playful.

"This mafia movie you're shooting is getting to your nogging. But yes I have 'the goods'."

He exaggerated with quotation marks finally turning the closet light on earning a hiss and what the fuck from May at the sudden light as he pulled out a large carry on bag, he unzipped it slowly for emphasis opening it to reveal it loaded with different kinds of treats.

"Hersheys, Moreos of varying delightful flavors for your enjoyment, aero bars, dairy milks, milky way buttons large, caramac, Pokey sticks, reeses pieces, m&ms and many other delightful treats await."

He quickly closed it, zipping it up closed.

"If you can hold up your end of the deal."

"Darlin' you were just speaking my language, don't you worry toots, I'll treat you right." She grinned playfully doing some sort of accent as she booped his nose, "though, surely you could part with something, for my troubles, call it a down payment hmm, keep me sweet? Gonna treat me well Shugs?" She put her hands on his chest as though fiddling with an invisible tie.

"You're enjoying this too much."

He snorted softly but chuckled finding her demeanor somewhat amusing as he pulled out a random thing he paused ripping off the packaging with his teeth before holding the chocolate bar out for her watching her just bite the chocolate and hold it in her teeth with a grin, she gave him a wink and slipped out of the closet as he sighed zipping up the carry bag and hiding it for later.

It was in honesty a difficult job, he wanted her to complete many tasks in advance for April fools, he was always the butt of jokes, but not this year! This year he had help.

It started when everyone had left to go home, she put her plan into motion, firstly the put all the cameras on loop to cover her tracks, secondly she hit the bathrooms carrying carrier bags of jeans and shoes she set them up matching up shoes and trousers in the mens to make every stall appear occupied locking them all from the inside and putting out of order signs on all the doors to cause frustration and the reasonable idea that all of them were full due to the previous closures.

Next she booby trapped different doors and chairs, taping Foghorns so when the door was slammed open or chair sat in it would honk loudly and startle people, she hid them all over some obvious to throw them off the tracks some very expertly hidden. She also took this time to sneak Rubber chickens and whoopee cushions under seats and cushions. On Marie's desk she put a paper cup with "Spinarak inside! Very big! Only lift cup if you're ready to get rid of it!" She'd asked a local Spinarak to make an exit hole in the cup so it looked as though a large spider escaped and it looked authentic.

She removed the bottom of Derricks keyboard carefully, in honesty this one was personal as he has been incredibly rude and quite mean to her for no reason for quite some time, she carefully placed down tissue paper and super fast growing seeds, watering them generously and offering a little psychic help and replacing the keyboard top, and did the same to his work station so when he came tomorrow it would be taken over by nature.

She hit Kathleen's office next, this one was personal to her monochrome friend as she'd not been doing her job properly and fucked up his appointments, she looped a ziptie around a Febreze spray bottle trigger, "fire in the hole!" She pulled it tight and threw it into her office, closing the door as it hissed letting out all its content. In all honesty she would've used a fake fart spray herself but she figured monochrome just wasn't that evil.

Finally, her magnus opus, she spilled hundred upon hundreds of sticky pads and concentrating her psychic energy they flew everywhere sticking to everything along halls window chairs plants set pieces everything! It was a whirlwind of color and chaos.

When she finished she kisses her fingers in an exaggerated mwah of her brilliance before setting the cameras to start recording live footage seconds before the new work day began leaving no trace of her crimes. With that she slipped away into the night to her movie trailer, she preferably would've been enjoying her prize but he's clearly hidden or taken it with him because she couldn't find it.

The next day was complete and utter chaos, there was accusatory yelling frustrated screams, loud HONKS of Foghorns and Kathleen came running out her office coughing and gagging at the overwhelming Febreze scent while Derrick yelled and raged over his computer. He smashed it into a wall and punched a hole into a door before higher management called him into their office. In all honesty probably would've been easy to remove the plants but he was a hot headed asshole anyways.

A worker pointed an accusing finger at ??? Shouting that it must have been him. The boss quickly told them that no it couldn't be because the monochrome one was with him. Another pointed at May, "then her then! She used her powers to do it!" They cried.

"Me? I, I mean I don't know how to break it to you but I'm not the most gifted with psychic abilities," she frowned a sad frown managing a very sad voice that was pitiful without it being obvious that was the intention. Monochrome was impressed by her acting as another worker snapped at them saying that May wasn't capable of such a thing, stop being an asshole.

It halted all work and filming that day as everyone worked to clean up the unexplained mess of pranks with more yelling as hidden jumping snake pranks leapt out from places at cleaning workers. May effectively bumbled along as though just as unsure as everyone else despite knowing where they all were leaping in fright with a squeal at the peanut spring snakes and getting shocked by hidden shockers to really strengthen the image of innocence.

May collapsed onto her bed in her trailer exhausted, setting it up and taking it down was tiresome stuff. She grumbled to herself that her supposed friend hadn't looked at her once or made any indication of trade off, angrily thumping her tail into her bed at his betrayal. She'd get him for that as she snuggled her cushion.

She groaned as someone knocked on her trailer door dragging herself out of her comfy bed.

"Imma coming Imma coming it better be worth it," she emptily threatened as she opened the door to the monochrome bastard she was just thinking about. "You." He smiles at her unaware of his supposed treachery.

"Yes? Me-eh!"

She yanked him into her trailer with one hand holding him against a counter, "you got a lot of nerve showing up you slippery snake." His mouth hand open in confusion as he awkwardly ah'ed? Before making an oh holding up the carry on bag of sweets.

"I didn't want to give it to you where people could see in case they suspected anything. Honest!"

She eyed him taking the carry on with one hand keeping the other holding him to the counter using her teeth to open the zip and stick her nose in sniffing, yup, smelt like sweets in there and it was heavy.

"Hm." She removed her hand to stop pinning him, "you're forgiven, could've been mighty bad for you otherwise pardner"

"Western mafia huh?"

She nodded as she pulled out some Pokey sticks, nodding firmly as she popped one in her mouth confirming around the biscuit, "Western mafia." He chuckled as he watched her nibble the Pokey slowly making it disappear into her mouth seemingly satisfied with the trade off.

"Am I free to leave unharmed?"

May chuckled, stepping aside so he could get to the door, popping another Pokey in her mouth with a "suppose." He grinned putting his hand on the door he paused and leant over close biting the pokey and snapping it before rushing out the door as she stood there in confusion.

"The fuck??" She finished chewing what was left of her Pokey. "What a bastard."

#My writing #Mewtwosona May #@oogaboogaspookymans???#@oogaboogaspookymans oc #No trigger warnings this time Holy shit XD #They are menaces!#I know it's not April fools but I was inspired by him bribing her #Yes the Pokey was intentional from the start figured I'd throw in a little ship content stuff #May is just like that lmao she's doing a mafia movie she's probably a tempting dame so she lmao feeling some kinda way #She's method acting lmao playing along plus it's fun and it's a sneaky sneaky #Meanwhile monochrome is probably actively attempting to flirt XD and she is not picking up on that #I mean honest rips open packaging with teeth steals pokey he's trying he really I #May is just lmao autistic and blind to social cues and just thinks he's a bit of a fuck eating her treat XD #Doesn't notice his embarrassment of getting shoves into a counter and held there by her or the earlier close proximity XD #He's soft and struggling and May is a useless fucking bisexual XD #Why yes I did Google pranks for offices how could you tell #Fungal Spooks Studio

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5weekdays · 2 years

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soap2day is a great place to watch prehistoric planet in good quality AND it has other appletv+ bangers like severance and central park which you should all be watching

#look up severance on doesthedogdie because it's horror/a thriller and contains triggering/stressful stuff #no warnings apply for central park it's a fun musical comedy and i Need to see more fanart of it or i'll hold my breath til i pass out #also obligatory warning that pirate sites can be risky but so far the worst i've gotten from soap2day is embarrassing popups

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fuck-customers · 1 year

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my friend and I agree that this is a constant pattern with our employers. Wondering how common this is...

#tw #trigger warning #submissions #fuck customers #cashier problems #happy ending #fuck co-workers #fuck retail #embarrassing #server problems #call center problems #fuck coworkers #fuck managers #retail justice #retail law #tw:

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the-sappho-of-lesbos · 2 years

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Like my brain has the same affect on buying as it does to ******* it’s like “maybe this will fix it. This will make things better. You WILL become the love interest or more beautiful or loved if you get this series or this book or these clothes or this OOP thing - it will fix things. It’ll give you love or a gf or more energy”

And I KNOW that’s completely illogical and fully not how things work at all. But also in the moment it just feels true. And I guess I’m so unbelievably desperate for those things that when I’m already feeling down and beaten and ugly and lonely it’s easy for my brain to go “well let’s just try. It might work this time” or even worse “what if this is the one time it works and you don’t do it and then you never get what you want and you miss your chance on happiness”

I just hate how I know it’s illogical but in the moment it’s all my brain can think of. As if buying this one OOP manga will alter some drastic about my life or fill the hole I need it to so I can go and get what I want. And it doesn’t make any sense!! I hate how it makes no sense but I still cling to it

#I have such a messed head I have no idea why I’m like this #and honestly I’m too embarrassed to fully bring it up in therapy lol because I feel like I don’t make any sense #it was embarrassing enough trying to talk about unhealthy attachment to fiction and one particular character and how it fuels a lot of #dullusions and expectations etc etc etc #this just feels worse #you know being this way in high school didn’t feel too bad #but I genuinely feel embarrassed to be this way at 23 :/#what a sorry excuse for an adult #no wonder I’m lonely and single good god #tw self harm #tw mental illnesses #trigger warning #personal

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shinichirosgirl · 2 years

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something people on this app won't like: there has been more and more research about trigger warnings and non of these found any positive effect. on the contrary: studies are suspecting that trigger warnings have a negative effect. just saying. and no, content warning is not different our brain is not that stupid.

#i feel second-hand embarrassment when i read authors get attacked for not using trigger warnings because the word child gets mentioned #please get help

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im-vibin · 2 years

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I don’t know how to explain to others that while maybe someday I would like to be married, or even just date and form that type of intimate connection with someone, I can’t imagine someone ever wanting to put up with the fact that I have a chronic illness.

#i have a chronic illness #i am exhausted all the time #because of the type of chronic illness it is I am perpetually on my period #i am constantly bleeding and that’s embarrassing both for me and any potential partner #i have chronic pain which feeds into my chronic fatigue #i can’t go out very frequently or for very long without hurting or needing consistent rest breaks #why would I make anyone have to deal with that #i don’t even want to deal with it #it feels so unfair to make someone like me and then reveal the fact that if they choose to be involved with me I have all these extra proble #yeah I dream about loving someone and having someone love me in return #but I can’t reasonably fathom someone loving be despite all that’s wrong with me #vent tw #tw #trigger warning #chronic Illness tw #chronic illness

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headworld · 9 days

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have literally never related to a character harder than sena-san from she loves to cook and she loves to eat

#eating disorder talk in tags ->#as the guy who doesnt eat and only eats like 3 things i always get so nervous and embarrassed when i have to turn down food #or if i do take it and it goes to waste....#my dream is to find irl friends who i can feel confident that my food issues arent a major inconvenience...#i really liked the message talking about how you dont have to conform to what your family thinks of you and how you should act...#it really touched me #i also love the trigger warnings theyre very helpful

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ashmaenas · 2 months

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If you ever think you've put your foot in it, you probably didn't fuck up as badly as my Mom did this one time.

So, my uncle had this friend who he'd known since his school days, right? He seemed like a fairly average dude, had a wife and two kids. His daughter actually ended up scaring the hell out of me when I was two, but that's a different story.

The most notable thing about the family was that they were insanely rich. The father was a "businessman". They had this huge gorgeous house, went on holidays several times a year, always had nice clothes ect...ect... They were very well respected in their community.

The Incident, as it is probably called in my poor mother's mind, happened when she went with her sister and BIL (my aunt and uncle) to visit them. You see, another notable thing about this family was that every time my uncle came back from hanging out with them—he would be stoned out of his mind. High as all hell. So in her socially awkward glory, my Mom decided the perfect opener would be "Hey, you must be Kevin's drug dealer."

The room froze and this dude looked at her like she had kicked his dog in front of him.

You see, it turns out this man was in fact... A drug dealer. Not just a petty drug dealer, or an occasional plug but a full, multiple warehouses for transporting weed, type of drug dealer.

Anyway, he ended up getting arrested for money laundering like four years later, but my Mom still remembers what happened and cringes about it to this day.

#text post #idk how to tag this #story time #?#drug trigger warning #embarrassing

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waitingforafriendblog · 2 months

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My love for food is so deep and my ED broke my relationship with food..

Picture this:

You’re in a straight jacket, laying face-up on a mattress, surrounded by 4 white walls…

Mac and cheese begins to fall from the ceiling.. So much so; that you’re now, buried underneath 2 tons of pasta....

That’s how I’d describe my love for food… Intense? Welcome to the wonderful world of living with an eating disorder..

Let’s dive in, to living life buried underneath food,, And the inevitable death of the relationship shared with food we love, most..

Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD), or body dysmorphia, is a mental health condition where a person spends a lot of time worrying about flaws in their appearance. These flaws are often unnoticeable to others. People of any age can have BDD.

When I was 8 years old, my body dysmorphia began to develop and started to haunt me… I was only in the second grade……

My jealousy took over when my best friend Alexa Burridge,, and I went swimming in her pool one summer afternoon…. One piece swim wear was the only bathing suit I had ever wore as a kid… But so many other girls were already wearing bikinis… Including Alexa…

As soon as we finished changing into our suits,, and I saw Alexa’s perfect body,,,, I ran to her bedroom and stood in front of the mirror and cried…. She so much skinnier than me… Her body is perfection.. It’s official. I’m the ugly, fat friend……

(We were literally the exact same size. Meaning, you could also, count my rib cage from 100 ft away)

Anorexia nervosa,, often simply called anorexia,,, is an eating disorder characterized by an abnormally low body weight, an intense fear of gaining weight and a distorted perception of weight. People with anorexia place a high value on controlling their weight and shape, using extreme efforts that tend to significantly interfere with their lives.

At 12 years old we had attended a Holiday/Christmas party… The catering that night was provided by The Olive Garden… (bet)

As the buffet began,, my anxiety to serve myself in front of 50+ people became so overwhelming I started to cry softly, my vision became blurry, dark, insulting, and cruel thoughts took over while I was surrounded by a lot of food, and a lot of people.

It seemed like I was in that buffet line for 10 minutes when in reality it only took me less than two minutes to fix a plate…

Sitting at just one of the many tables spread throughout the house… I approached a group of women, at least 9 of them..

“did you see Elena in there?? She got practically nothing..”

“Yeah I looked at her plate and it’s obvious she doesn’t eat..”

“I bet she’s hungry all of the time..”

“Elena needs help because there is definitely something wrong with that kind of behavior..”

“Why doesn’t she eat..”

“She’s way too skinny. She’s way too skinny. She’s way too skinny…”

Standing in the shadows I interrupted the topic of conversation…. Only to stand in front of the group of women, silently, for 10 seconds,,, with the most bitchy-disgusted look on my face….

Everyone else saw,, what I thought was invisible. Fuck…

Bulimia is an eating disorder in which a person has regular episodes of eating a very large amount of food (bingeing) during which the person feels a loss of control over their eating. The person then uses different ways, such as vomiting or laxatives (purging), to prevent weight gain.

When I was 16 years old,, I spent a week of my summer shadowing my Mentor at his workplace, that meant I had to eat in front of the people I loved most…. I didn’t want to look gross or disgusting or chew too loudly or eat too much or eat too little….. WHAT am I going to do?? Well, at that point my body dysmorphia took over my thoughts, and couldn’t allow me to physically eat,, anything.

I was so nervous if I did eat, I would for sure throw up at the dinner table…. We all know our limits when it comes to nausea……

“Dinner was great I’m going to go brush my teeth!!”

Collapsing in front of the toilet, I vomit the small amount of food I actually ate. And then, I brushed my teeth..

Luckily,, I was starved and my body wasn’t bloated from eating so we hit the pool….

“You never eat… We all know you’re bulimic,, or some shit….” (Ugh. Douche.)

Not thinking anyone noticed, I became so fucking embarrassed and ashamed… That night I cried myself to sleep… How the hell was I supposed survive 4 more nights, when everyone knows I’m a freak?

I’ve lost weight, I’ve gained weight, I’ve loved food, I’ve hated food…

But what’s past, is past…

i love food and I’m making it my responsibility for my daughter to have a healthy relationship with the plate in front of her..

Something no one has ever done, for me..

#journal prompt #journalling #eating disoder trigger warning #food #anorexia #bulmia #Ed binging #sad #embarrassing #insecurity #I hate celery #I hate blue cheese #I hate cauliflower #I hate feta cheese

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