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luminecent-sky · 1 year

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How my team would interact in sagau: my mains

Just from the pic alone, its clear who my fave is.

Anyways, Ayaka is main dps, Barbara is healer(no kokofish yet, didnt have enough to get her after zhongli), Diluc is sub dps and Zhongli is sheild.

Ok now the interactions, with voicelines too!!!

A/n: i will be making one for all of my team comps, idk hot to tag this lol

tw. Yandere and cursing only in diluc's section

》 Kamisato Ayaka,

The first to be bestowed with a golden star.

Ayaka, gets along well with Barbara and Zhongli, hoewever when interacting with diluc she's a bit reserved. Because she knows i don't particularly like Diluc.

As my main, i may have spoiled her rotten.... giving her my first 5☆ weapon, the best artifacts i could get and even breaking my f2p status to get her costume.

Voicelines:

》About the Creator: Adored by the divine

Oh, you want to know when i got bleseed by the creator? Well it was when the first star showers began, in... April? was what the creator called it, anyways i am honored to be the first to receive the golden star and bringing honor to the Kamisato clan. The Almighty Shogun and Lady Guuji even hosted a celebration for this event.

》About the Creator: Honor

Being one of the first blessed is such an honor, i devote my entire being to their grace. What ever she needs i will become, be it her sword, her friend and dare i say it.... maybe even a lover. Everything i am is hers, my heart, my soul. I have travelled with her for so long that i know how to talk and help their grace should they ever come to teyvat.

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》 Barbara Gunnhilder

One of the original blessed, had been under the creator's blessing for the longest.

Barbara gets along with everyone, no matter what team she is placed in. Often seen with Ayaka and Diluc, because of their elemental compatibility.

As the one of the original 4☆ that we get in-game, she has been with me since the start. Her hydro vison helps Ayaka and Diluc do more damage and keeps them alive.

》About the Creator: Blessed by the divine

You know i always thought that the creator would abandon me after a while... It happened to Sir Kaeya, Xiangling and even Noelle. However she never did, i stayed, even gave me better artifacts, a better weapon.... So i decided that when their grace decides to finally decend I'll be one of the first to welcome her. To thank her for all she's given me.

》About the Creator: Worship

Ive learned a great deal of information about the creator, ive added it to the records of the divine in the church library. Most of the rituals we hold in the name of the creator is based on the information ive gotten. From the colors of the celebration to the items we offer. Ill make sure the creator won't have to lift a finger when she gets here, only the best for them. The price does not matter when the entirety of mondstat is willing to sacrifice everything for them.

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》 Diluc Ragnvindr

The second to be bestowed a golden star.

He's got a... complex relationship with everyone. He respects them all as he does with others, however watching them be favoured, cheered on and loved by the creator while he gets at most a "Oh you finally landed that hit, thank fuck." Or a "Damnnit Diluc- ugh I'll switch to Ayaka she would do better." Knowing that he is favoured but having the creator actually let him know are two different things.

Yes im mad at diluc cause he made me lose the xiao banner in june.. days before my birthday. He's very useful in my team but barely crits and stuff.

》About the creator: Unloved by the divine

Ah, about their grace... she doesn’t usually have anything good to say about me. However on the rare time she does i always keep it in my mind. I just have to work harder to earn their grace's forgiveness.

》About the creator: Determination

I have to get stronger so that their grace can finally feel confident in my abilities. I must prove that i can protect them. When the creator descends i can offer the dawn winery as a place of recidence for her. With her there, i can finally show that i am capable enough to be beside her. That one of the safest places in teyvat is by my side. They won't need anyone else to protect her anymore once she's within the manor.

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》 Zhongli - Rex lapis

The seventh to be bestowed a golden star

He gets along with everyone in the team often telling stories about his days as an archon. Always in the team and gfted the second golden weapon. Like barbara keeps the others alive.

Yeah he has primordial winged jade.... cause i got the weapon before xiao banner, and then lost i gave it to him. Somehow despite being on sheild build he crits almost constantly, has the record for my highest crit thus far. Of 62k

》About the creator: Archon blessed by the divine

About their grace? Well she is quite a lively woman. Ah you mean her blessings, to us archons being blessed by her is quite the honor, and as i am the only one she has blessed Barbatos and Ei have been understandably displeased. Buer is still acclimating to godhood after her imprisonment so she remains neutral about her opinion.

》 About the creator: Responsibility

As the oldest of the seven and only archon currently blessed i have made it my duty to serve her grace to the fullest. If she asks of it i shall even retrive my gnosis from Snezhnaya, her needs are of the utmost importance. Anything she desires, be it the rarest and finest jewels or the heads of those who displease her, all will be lain at her feet. When their grace decends i ahall return to my post as the archon and worship their grace with the people of liyue.

Tagging:

@meimeimeirin girl its here.

#sagau #tw yandere #genshin x reader #self aware genshin #genshin impact #genshin impact sagau #writings from the cosmos: genshin

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jennycalendar · 9 months

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hello!!!! things to pontificate about. angel. i would just love to hear your thoughts about angel. and the rest of the fanged four. and know that im waiting for that jennyangel fic i really am. but yes! specifically i would love to hear any thoughts you have on the dynamic of jenny/angel/darla. because i think thats just. yeah. darla created angel and angel is such a huge part of jenny's life, and just. yeah. plus the attitude darla has about her soul is so different from angel's

ok so first of all this is such a hilarious question because -- i need you to know this -- i have a jenny/spike/drusilla vamp polycule fic in the works. so just the energy of you asking me about jenny + how she'd interact with the couple in the fanged four that i am NOT currently drafting a vamp polycule fic for is SOOOO FUNNY and also so wonderful bc it gives me an opportunity to really think here! i love you for this.

long wordy answers under the cut!

my thoughts on angel. hmm. i think i am mean to him a lot on this blog but i hope everyone here knows it's out of love. i think i want to see him and jenny have a Gothic Romance that is really fucked up. i think he and cordelia rewired my brain at 14 and i've never recovered -- there's no other love story with that specific friends-to-lovers energy in the buffyverse, and i LOVE that it grows out of the people we see them grow into! i love that btvs s1 angel and cordelia are not even remotely compatible long-term but ats angel and cordelia develop this incredible friendship that blossoms into a loving connection! and actually maybe a lot of this is just how i'm not normal about angel and cordelia, ever. i think angel on btvs and angel on ats are two different characters so when i'm beating angel on btvs over the head with a stick that has nothing to do with angel on ats and i hope we all know that. world's most favorite manpire. mr. dad. sings barry manilow and wants cordelia to say she loves him as a friend and colleague. is soooo normal.

i don't spend A Lot of time thinking about the fanged four simply because, again, not my circus not my monkeys, but i have a softness for them!!! spike i have mentioned i sorta steer clear of lately, but i would literally fucking kill a man for drusilla, who is done so dirty in canon and fanon alike, and i think all the time about jenny/drusilla because they would be so insanely obsessed with each other as vampires.

and darla...hmm. i have never quite felt like i know how to capture her voice in a way that's particularly nuanced, though that's never been a problem within my writing bc she really only cameos in, like, nocturne for two seconds? i think? i'm not usually writing things set in a time/place where darla would be around so she just kinda never shows up.

iiiii think jenny's take on darla would be one of just intense crushy interest, because darla holds absolute power over the man who has held absolute power over her. like there's something super aspirational about darla to jenny. darla meanwhile would probably initially harbor a lot of resentment towards jenny, but actually getting to know her would probably have her do a complete 180. (i think darla n drusilla would both be super fucking interested in jenny, who grew up in this family surrounded by every reason to hate them and still tried to find a way to forge her own path. they'd want her in the family.)

i also think though that IF turned, IN a situation where darla's still around, jenny and darla would be in a really intense competition for control of the family dynamic that would slowly but surely transition into a really intense romantic connection. so there would be a lot of Romantic Weirdness when it comes to jenny/angel/darla because both of them want his attention, and both of them want each other's attention, and both of them think that they should be the one in charge, and the entire time they're probably both having a lot of fun with it because it's a Sexy Slightly Violent Power Struggle. also angelus likes pretending that he has the capacity to put jenny in her place and jenny likes crushing him under her heel and darla really will look at that situation and go "that is 100 percent my baby girl" (and i do mean that in a sex way.) though i wonder if in this situation drusilla and jenny might have some weird vibes a la jenny and buffy? where there's a lot of similarities and so drusilla has some Older Sister resentment, because SHE had it hard, and now mom and dad know how to parent better and the baby is just getting SPOILED, and how is THAT fair?

#asks #headcanon #basically: vamp jenny. thank u for ur time

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leafbatraccoon · 11 months

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these were notes on my journal till yesterday but the news that we're getting the nectar-making skill with horses i figured i'd have some fun with it yet still be loud with my opinions, so i'll reblog with updates from time to time - im reposting with the original slot texts bc i was unhappy with my sleepless decision making 👍👍 | details under the cut if u wanna know but i'm a bit of a hater fyi |

longer seasons - i don't think this will happen, if miracle mods show up i might stamp them on in a different color but from what i've found it's pretty ingrained in the game that 28 days is the longest and if modders we're going to crack it they might've done it already but when im playing on pretty long life spans i just 💔💔 50+ days seasons would be the dream, but i'd be happy with 45 👀 10 outfits per category - same as before ig, this is probably super niche but i'm not satisfied and i hate having to get into cas to change it up so much bc in my head they have a closet each and i want to mix and match pieces in a realistic way 👚 pack refreshes - tbf, they did set up an expectation for that one which for the looks of it they are done with it; there's so much to fix, dine out in general, mermaids deserve some love in comparison to the other occults, updates to the bodies of water (going in the water in windenburg would be legendary), hu just bug fixes and compatiblity here and there would be nice (more hiking ? power walks in more places? its so weird how they are restricted to ONE place) now by world refreshes - i mean that in my dreams they go back and expand the maps they give us 🗺️🗺️ im greedy and want 2 neighbourhoods for my vampires & spellcasters, a lil more space in moonwood mill, granite falls & del sol valley too why not not gonna happen so i can say wtv an extra space in mt komorebi with apartments and since we're at it in san sequoia too; will def not happen working gallery - ig that might be coming too ?? idk my gallery sucks at times like it wont find any results when there are ?? and i know there are bc if i restrict more it might come up with something?? also just wanted better mechanism for the searches, i never had issues with disturbing content showing up tho so idk i heard some simmers weren't so lucky

bigger households - having to control or monitor 8 human/humanish sims is challeging enough but because pets, because having to fake apartments, because reasons; i use mccc but this workaround brings issues in cas so yea, wishlist ✔️ snakes // lizards - this would've been appropriate to launch with horses imo and i'd love if there had been interaction/compatibility from snakes in the wild and those taller friends & other small pets - small pet options in ts4 are non existent, sorry, birds only exist in that one tree (they are probably happy about not being captive actually), bunnies are also wild (personally im fine with it but i know that its a popular pet so i'd love if it was an option), reptiles don't exist (yet) and rodents are exclusive to the slap-in-the-face-of-this-community pack... 🐁🐇🐢🦎🐍🐦🐜 faeries or other fae kin - i feel like they've hinted at it for quite a while and we've seen it show up in quizzes too?? 🧚‍♀️ so i'm hopeful for this one and hope they are just trying to make sure they properly deliver on it bc there's a lot of fantasy enthusiasts and they deserve it & woodland creatures - personally would love it if the fae pack came with woodsy world and the addition of woodland creatures at least the spiritual kind (like unicorns or a white doe which they possibly alluded to with puzzles - it made me real giddy) bonus points if it has some outdoor retreat compatibility

owning more lots - after winning the lottery or keeping up with a family for generations, sims can accumulate quite a lot of money, there's not a lot of expenses in the life of a sim tbh, travelling only costs one loading screen, gardeing makes you rich and thats ok ig but being able to own a holiday house would be welcomed, not just a business 🏘️ nectar making - when tartosa came but no nectar making i was a bit let down, imagine making or acquiring a special batch for your wedding?? it would've been lovely and appropriate for a wedding pack but ... yeah anyway it comes with the horse pack for some reason so at least it's coming, and only 3 years after juice fizzing 🥂 bands and more instruments - another thing they've hinted at in polls and i kinda wished it to come with HSY yet was not surprised it didn't; that being said we need drums and other instruments like bass and/or contrabass, just more than what we have if we're to have bands plz skating and/or surfing - these two are very different and honestly idk how the latter one would work, i just think they are popular sports we could have; at least skate boards should be easy enough to implement and a cute way for sims to drift around their closed off worlds so i have more hope for that one 🏄

hotels - even if they've been around the franchise and ts4 seems to draw all it's ideas from previous iterations i'm not confident they haven't just been replaced by rental properties but it's not the same, i'd like to be able to meet other guests vacationing on the property without having to engineer everything about it, ordering meals at hotel services and running/owning a hotel also; retirement homes - ELDER SIM LOVE IN GENERAL (canes, health issues, idk im not that old yet ..hum wills & testiments, special interactions) i feel growing together really fucked up on that one but i was not surprised bc it's ts4 and we rely on crumbs mods here and thats why some players stop buying dlc 👵☕👴 the townie refreshes - just pay some fans to do it at this point bc it's taking so long; most of them don't need to be redesigned anyway, just add hot and cold weather outfits, preferences and maybe a sneaky extra trait or lifestyle they could have developed and voilá, finish that chapter disabilities - i don't want it in the form of traits and thing it's rotten to make people to pay for it BUT i'd love to see some disability representation in this game, physical, cognitive and what not. i understand at this point it might be hard to introduce but i think it be really important to have this in the sims and ts4 is about time funerals & cemeteries - death is a part of life, this is a life sim... thats it basically, i want it, i miss it in comparison to previous games, i fake it with parks and inviting guests over, but we shouldn't have to tho seems pretty basic stuff

more and better apartments - i would like it if we saw more conjoined builds, more apartment builds, both with few floors and plenty, the option to have sims living in different floors of the same building and even having business or community lots in builds that are divided into multiple lots - ambitious ik - bonus points if they update apartments in a way you can own one or more and rent them out - i don't want to play as a landlord, i swear - i just want my sims to be allowed do simbnb while they go for a weekend in the city (which ig u cant bc of the current system/coding idk) or bringing them to more existing worlds but bc of the obstacles to that i have 0 hopes well-crafted worldly words - i see a lot of americancentric choices being made when creating the worlds, it's unrealistic for a global player base and hum.. a life sim and whenever they drop interesting worlds they are always so frigging small you have to sacrifice making a lively town, with people and businesses, if you want you're sim to live in certain environments (or use multibuilds, which is fine ig but it bothers me a bit) and they fail to utilize the common spaces of the neighbourhoods in ways simmers would love to, to bring some life into these worlds; 🌍 the worldly part of it... i am yet to see african like climates and cultures represented, asia is so wide & full of diversity and we get one japan inspired world so far, south america if confined to a destination world if you don't have mods ig (maybe it's changed by now im not sure) and europe while being represented in 3 packs so far - and one of them being the best in terms of lots per world we've had so far - 2 of them have few lots and its all very niche, so in a way i don't need to be able to point to the actual cities that inspired those worlds, it's not my priority just something that crowded and lively that draws from wider range of cultures and that mre people could recognize as close to their experience would be nice 🌏 also more islands maybe im a sulani simp new jobs & careers - i love GTW, it was the first pack i got and sure it deserved a refresh by now and i would welcome it, especially if it meant more careers, i really liked that gameplay feature; that being said i feel like we deserve more job options OR branches. y no dentist ??? i cant think of ideas right now but while playing the game and setting up townies or sims i feel limited a lot trans content fixes - yea i avoid using the in-game system for trans rep (i headcanon a lot and cheat stuff basically) bc its just not the best in general (clothes fit weird, there's no changes in the frame through time as there would be with hormonal treatments - which there arent in the game so makes sense), not in comparison bc i dont know other games to compare it to just real life ig but im not even that informed tbh; i am happy they didnt create a life sim where trans people are erased and don't want them to be discouraged to stop investing in this at all so i try not to mention it but fix the binder at least & here's a tumblr post that helps me a bit something that surprises me - /pos !! because... they don't... a lot of what we see seems to me like repeating the content ideas from older games but spreading it out to make as much dlc as possible; i had a lot of more wow reveal moments with ts2 & ts3 i feel like but cant truly be sure bc brain is mush

#ok here we go im keeping this one #two ppl saw the og #i love love love to know what people miss in the game + their opinions and this just felt like a fun format #wish fulfillment #but with typos #bingo #roadmap #kinda #long post #repost #raccoon only #sims opinion #sims discourse #simblr #sims 4 #ts4 #the sims 4 #sims related

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stregoniconiconii · 1 year

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for the character ask: el and robin

el <333

1: sexuality headcanon: hmm I feel like el isn't the type to label her sexuality, I do think she's some sort of sapphic tho <3 I do think her first idea of romance was informed by television tho so there's some unlearning to do. she's a huge romantic. I also really like the idea of her Choosing to be a girl/woman after being reduced to an experiment for so long, whether that be her being a trans woman or a cis woman On Purpose

2: otp: I very rarely think of romances for the younger generation but I actually do enjoy elmike sometimes. love a good elmax moment too or elumax as an ot3. won't lie also slightly intrigued by the idea of eldustin

3: brotp: god I can't pick! elmax first girl best friendship is so special and el's friendship with the og party is so good, the sibling relationship she has with will and Jonathan is also so good (in my heart Steve is also part of this little sibling love fest lol she's the baby sister of the family) god also her relationship with both joyce and hop...like those are her parents <3 I also really like her relationship with kali and im really hoping we get to see more of it

4: notp: ive seen some grossss ships for el...anything that's with adults is no bueno for me.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head: ive been talking about this recently actually but since millie is half deaf ive thought about el also being half deaf and how she can possibly use her powers as an aide

6: favorite line from this character: the delivery of "I dump your ass" is unparalleled imo love it when she screams too <3

7: one way in which I relate to this character: hmmm idk we dont have much in common . we both love max

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: nothing she's perfect

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: ignore all the ppl she's killed they deserved it. cinnamon roll

robin <333

1: sexuality headcanon: that's a genuine canonical lesbian!!! I do think she's a bit demisexual tho like she'll hang out with a girl for months maybe even years and then suddenly go oh. wait. this is a crush. and promptly freak out about it lol . I think robin is also a bit gender weird! definitely gets more gender nonconforming as time goes on, my baby butch <3

2: otp: robin and vickie <3 that's my endgame couple right there! ive seen a lot of fanon ships for her and some are more intriguing than others for me. buckingham is cute!

3: brotp: hmmm im not sure....lmao obviously stobin they're platonically married and share a mind . I know if nobody got me stobin do . I did really like that she got a friendship with Nancy started tho I dont think they'll ever be Super close. in the Lucas tie in novel she had some really nice interactions with Lucas that made me all <333 I also think she's close with erica!!!

4: notp: any romantic ship with a man. ronance..they just do not seem compatible to me <3

5: first headcanon that pops into my head: she's a vegetarian, her parents are too! she has eaten meat a few times, and her mom used to try and make it to fit in with small town America but it was never very good. the last time she ate something with meat in it was when Steve made them some pasta that had like anchovies in it and he nearly knocked her fork out of her hand (he cares more about her sticking to her vegetarian diet than her lmao)

6: favorite line from this character: ohhh her ears are little geniuses...my genius baby <3 also the whole bathroom coming out scene was perfect I literally would not change a single thing about it

7: one way in which I relate to this character: we are both soooo gay

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: ahhhmm idk I think she's perfect <3 kinda cringe to encourage her bestie to get with a girl in a relationship tho :/

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: cinnamon roll <33

#el hopper #robin Buckley

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odditycollector · 2 years

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how about dave/nepeta &/or dirk/equius?

dave/nepeta

Going for <3.

if i mention "davepetasprite" after this sentence i lose, but finding that spark that made their steven universe fusion feel so complete and free after the merge, and distilling it into something that can work without necessitating their destruction as separate people is... well. just #RelationshipGoals in general, probably. But i think it is possible in the specific case.

btw, dave and nepeta did interact in canon, although we just saw the shadows of it. dave rp'd with her as "Akwete Purrmusk" and as far as i can tell they were both p enthused about the experience. (per Dave's comments to Jade and Nepeta's to Karkat.)

They both tend to bring WAY more energy to their IM chats than (with exceptions) their conversational partner can maintain, so interacting with someone who will meet them with a "Yes And" every time could almost sell the thing right there. Nepeta is good at seeing through the personas people wear, but she will meet them where they want to be met at regardless. In Dave's case, this means that she wouldn't buy his "coolsona" any more than anyone else, but she'll treat it just as seriously as he does at any given moment, and she is not fussed about purported irony levels.

And neither of them have hidden motives. Refreshing!

But all that and... this would very much still be a story of showing my work.

Endure The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known in 5 Easy Steps, For Beginners

It'd be a fic of 5 scenes where they have a great time riffing/rp'ing their way through background plot stuff, but because any character you create you create out of yourself, they are each obliquely sharing the truth of themselves. And in each scene, they are closer to the core. In the second to last, they pretend to be each other, much as Equius and Nepeta did in that one walkaround. In the last, they are no one but themselves. It is quietly intimate.

Thematically it'd be about the purpose of the identity masks we wear, I guess. Play is how we meet ourselves, after all.

...

dirk/equius

Like, they are probably compatible kink-wise, at least superficially, but I'm not sure the power dynamics are right for a LTR. Maybe a non-committed fuckbuddy arrangement? Equius is the subbiest sub ever to sub. Dirk is not a top, he just has control issues. That he gets off on sometimes, okay, fair.

...It's 12 am on a worknight and I am faced with the essay question of "Is Dirk a power bottom and/or does he desire to be sent to subspace so he can get out of his own head for five minutes maybe, discuss. Bonus question: Is there any case to be made that Equius could be the man for the latter job?"

Yeah. I am refusing this exam.

OTOH maybe that is the summary of the hypothetical fic I am writing in part #2.

No plot, just thousands of words of the wettest, filthiest, kinkiest porns I have written in my online existence.

Alternatively, this is the au where Dirk takes Jane to a sex club to help her figure out that she can, actually, get her BDSMs out without being, you know, Like That, and they end up with Equius to "practise" on.

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queenshelby · 3 years

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A New Life

Part Three: Art, Bets & Dates

Pairing: Cillian Murphy x Reader

Words: 1,404

Warning: None

When you arrived at the exhibition, you were greeted by one of Cian’s and Cillian’s friend who, surprisingly, was accompanied by Robert.

‘You must be Y/N. My son has spoken very highly of you’ the man said to you and you were somewhat perplexed when you realised that he was Robert’s father.

Being a friend of Cian, you expected him to have attended Cian’s birthday party but you were soon to find out that he had a prior engagement related to his work that evening.

He was a well-known artist in Ireland and his artwork was, according to what Cillian had told you, rather interesting and controversial.

‘I had no idea that you would be here Y/N’ Robert said, much more confident than the night before.

‘You told your father about me. Why?’ you asked somewhat confused.

‘He is over exaggerating. I told him about having met you last night and that we would be going out for dinner sometime soon’ Robert explained, causing you to look sharply towards Cillian who simply shrug his shoulders.

‘How about the theatre instead?’ Cillian then suddenly suggested and you immediately shook your head.

‘I think dinner sounds fine’ you huffed out quickly, not realising that Cillian had, in fact, planned to save you after having accidently gotten you into this mess in the first place.

‘Well, I was just thinking…I’ve got four tickets to the new play at the Abbey and you could both go together with Cian and Evelyn’ Cillian suggested.

‘A double date?’ Robert said almost excitedly, causing Cillian to smile and nod.

Cillian had known Robert since he was a young boy and had gotten him his first acting job in an Irish TV show. He was a good young man but Cillian could see that you clearly were not compatible and hoped that Robert would realise that as well.

Being a young mum, you were at different stages of your lives and Cillian was surprised by your level of maturity after he had found out how young you actually were when he googled your name.

‘Well, I am not one for the theatre Cilly. Unless you are in the play, I don’t think I’ll force myself to sit through it’ Cian then said, causing you to roll your eyes. ‘But, Laura loves the theatre and you should go with her and take my sister and Robert along with you’ Cian then suggested while giving Cillian a wink.

Cian’s comment caused Cillian to chuckle but, when you looked at him with big puppy dog eyes, he couldn’t help but sigh.

‘You owe me’ you whispered towards Cillian quietly without anybody noticing and he nodded reluctantly in response.

‘Yeah, sounds good. Let’s go together. Are you in, Laura?’ Cillian asked and, of course, she gladly accepted his invitation.

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The exhibition itself was as interesting as Cillian had promised and you were quite impressed with Robert’s father’s artwork.

Laura, on the other hand, seemed a little lost and couldn’t make much sense of some of the pieces. Her plan was to follow Cillian around and agree with everything he had to say which made you realise how much she actually liked him.

She had no interest in art whatsoever nor did she seem to enjoy literature much which was all Cillian had been talking about for the past two hours.

‘I think you are wrong Cilly. Clearly, this work refers to Ulysses by James Joyce’ you teased him as he tried to make sense of one of the works. He was determined that the work was inspired by a less a famous book and an argument evolved.

‘If I am right, you owe me a pint’ Cillian chuckled while Laura stood by and watched you both laugh and argue at the same time as you were analysing one of Ireland’s most famous pieces of literature.

‘Let’s make it dinner and we have a deal’ you chuckled, causing Cillian to nod.

‘Fine! If you are right, I will buy you dinner and if I am right, you buy me dinner instead’ Cillian confirmed, causing Laura to sigh while you continued to engage in the conversation without her and, just as you were about to seek out Robert’s father to get your answer, Cian arrived with a brochure about the exhibition while Laura excused herself in order to visit the bathroom.

‘Apparently, this painting was inspired by Ulysses. Interesting’ Cian said, causing you to grin while Cillian snatched the brochure from Cian’s hands.

‘Damn’ he huffed out before informing Cian that he lost a bet against you and now needed to take you out for dinner.

‘Is that alright with you? Me having dinner with your sister?’ Cillian chuckled, clearly seeing the humour in this not so serious bet.

‘So long as you don’t sleep with her, I have no objections’ Cian then laughed, causing Cillian to roll his eyes.

‘The fact that you are concerned about that is flattering man, but I am sure your sister would prefer a younger model for this kind of stuff’ Cillian then joked, shaking his head in disbelieve about your brother’s comment.

‘Topic change, please. My sex life isn’t up for discussion’ you laughed and, just as you did, Laura returned from the lavatory and joined you to see the remainder of the exhibition.

It was obvious to you that she no longer liked to be around you and, whilst she appeared nice when you met her, she was now rather frustrating to deal with. It was clear to you that she wanted to mark her territory and didn’t appreciate your interactions with Cillian.

She looked at you sideways for the remainder of the day, ignoring your presence and trying to pull Cillian aside wherever she could. Yet, you didn’t even try to interfere with her as all of your interactions with Cillian came naturally to you. You simply were you and he was comfortable being around you. It was as simple as that.

‘What are you trying to achieve?’ Laura eventually asked you when no one else was around and just before you were about to leave the exhibition.

‘What are you talking about?’ you asked rather curiously.

‘Don’t play dumb Y/N. It’s obvious. You are putting on act and it’s almost embarrassing, really. But, I guess, at your age, you don’t know any better. You are just young and in it for the game’ Laura then said and, whilst you were getting angry with her, you still weren’t sure what she was talking about.

‘You have to realise that he is a grown man Y/N and clearly won’t be interested in someone your age’ she then said which is when it hit you. She was talking about Cillian, thinking that you are hitting on him.

‘Oh Jesus. Laura, I am just trying to make friends, alright? Cillian is nice but I am not even interested in dating anyone. That includes him’ you pointed out, shaking your head, before walking away from the conversation.

***

At around 5 o’clock that evening you arrived back at Cian’s house which is where Max was spending the day.

‘Mum, can we go to the Zoo? Pretty please?’ Max asked pretty much as soon as you walked through the door with Cian and Cillian. He had been reading a book about tigers and was really keen to see one in real life.

‘The Zoo? Honey, the Zoo is like an hour’s drive and we don’t have a car. Maybe we can go to the Zoo in Perth when we get back home, hmm?’ you suggested, which is when Cillian jumped in and suggested that he would drive you.

‘You will drive us to the Zoo? It’s an hour’s drive Cillian’ you said somewhat surprised.

‘Well, I do owe you’ Cillian chuckled, feeling terrible about the situation with Robert. ‘Despite, I wasn’t going to just sit in the car. I’ll check out the cool tigers and elephants with you and then I’ll take you both for dinner’ he then said, remembering the bet he had lost, while Max was showing him the book with the tigers.

‘You will be so bored’ you giggled quietly before gladly accepting his offer.

‘I doubt that. I haven’t been to the Zoo in a decade and some of the animals are pretty fascinating’ Cillian said with a warm smile which almost made your heart melt then and there.

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well i thought i had a better support system with my family than my bf does with his but turns out my parents only know how to give support financially (like i can’t afford my health insurance, my state doesn’t offer Medicaid to anyone who has no children. so they support me by paying for healthcare) but also are abusive financially (using finances to control; I had to secretly close my bank account n open a new one years ago). along with verbal and physical abuse. (And controlling thru things like, refusing to teach me anything growing up. I had to google how to boil water. didn’t know how to drive until I was 19 I think). and the fallout of my mom finding out about my car accident made me unable to take it anymore. if they were poor I would have no support from them either, they only know how to be abusive people. every single interaction with them., if they can’t throw money at it, they go out of their way to be cruel instead and i don’t really get it. so im just. im done with them. im not used to being abused anymore I guess since I left home (my mom kicked me out, it turned out to be a bluff she just wanted to be abusive and cruel, but i left anyway and moved in with my bf). they gifted me my car after i graduated university when i was 20, my mom constantly threatens to take it back when she’s in a bad mood, so I told her to just keep it. take me off the car, car insurance, health insurance, phone plan, said don’t ever contact me again, made sure she knew I am blocking her number. my dad will probably try to contact me too to mediate because they only are aligned with one another when it is to abuse one of their kids. i can love him from afar. I only have one sister that would rlly do anything for me without it being conditional, but she is poor as I am, and is in a similar position as me, but worse probably because she’s far far more dependent on our parents.

this is essentially why i cant break up w my bf. he is the only person who doesn’t gaslight, threaten, yell, purposely say cruel things to me every single conversation. normally he is better to me than I could dream of, that’s why it bothers me so much the times he gets too drunk bc he becomes mean to me and im not used to it. most of the time with him is peaceful and we do well together. i don’t have the luxury of leaving him over things I’ve mentioned on tumblr about him that bother me. because I’m fucking poor. I would have the choice between him and my parents and they are actually, day in and day out, every interaction, abusive. I would have killed myself if I was living with them. I think about that a lot. I would definitely kill myself probably within a year. now , I don’t have that horrible “option” either because I’ve decided to end my relationship with my mom. so the “why don’t u leave him why don’t u break up with him” shit is like. I couldn’t leave him even if our relationship wasn’t harmonious and loving and compatible 90% of the time. I would have nowhere to go, no car, no money. most of our life together is peaceful and full of love and laughter and being a team. no yelling. actual caring, caring for one another. for the past 7 yrs. Polar opposite of living w my parents. they even blame my Crohn’s disease on me like I did it on purpose to myself. Everything is my fault. I’m not allowed to implicate them in blame for anything, in any way shape or form. I have never ever in my life heard my mom ask me how I am 😂 with them there are no conversations, only commands. hitting me, hitting me with objects, slapping me, pulling my hair, grabbing, pushing, damaging my stuff in the process. and screaming/yelling.... oh my god, the yelling and screaming is near constant, it never ends. Living w them is anxiety, fear ,stress ,sadness, anger, 24/7.

this got way longer than I intended . meant to just post really that it sucks realizing that I don’t have support, neither does he, we r alone together (he always says: we are a team), but i hope and think we will be ok just having each other. we will scrape by. my mom is dead to me and hopefully it stays that way and. sometimes wounds r not meant to heal. and u can’t salvage things with ppl who don’t know the meaning of respect. this lifetime is not meant for making every relationship I have perfect by being a perfect human. that would be insane. i just want to not be treated like shit anymore and my mom doesn’t know how else to treat people so. im ok with loving her from a distance. my parents can pretend I don’t exist and then it’s one less disappointment of a daughter for them. and I’m gonna marry my bf so I can have health insurance, it’s just financially and legally a huge benefit to get married and i need health insurance.

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mostlysignssomeportents · 3 years

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Facebook vs Robert Bork

Unless you're a certain kind of conservative, you probably haven't heard of Robert Bork, but he's one of the most important people you've never heard of. The best way to understand Bork is that he was Ronald Reagan's court sorcerer.

Reagan was an empty vessel with the hands of ruthless plutocrats shoved up his asshole*, operating him like a hand puppet for their collective will to power.

He served as a kind of dowsing rod for policies that would transfer wealth from the 99% to the 1%.

*Hence the polyps

That dowsing rod pointed straight at Bork. Bork was an alternate history writer, a fabulist with a unique and wildly improbable theory of antitrust statutes: that if you studied the Sherman Act and the Clayton Act with Qanon-style fervor, you'd find hidden messages in them.

Specifically, you would discover that the lawmakers who drafted, debated, amended and passed these laws thought monopolies were good, actually. They were only concerned with a small and possibly mythical minority of monopolies that were "harmful."

Not just any harms: Bork said that these ancient sages were worried about *consumer* harms, which, practically speaking, means monopolies that use their power to raise prices. This, he said, was the only thing that the government should step in to prevent.

Since it is nearly impossible to prove that a given merger or tactic would result in higher prices before the fact, and *also* it's nearly impossible to prove that a price rise after the fact was attributable to monopolism we should probably just forget about antitrust.

Reagan loved this. By shifting antitrust's focus from *democratic* harms (like reducing choice, distorting regulation, hurting workers, etc) to *consumer* harms, he could demote "citizens" (who have a role in shaping policies) to "consumers" - mere ambulatory wallets.

Reagan tried to get Bork a seat on the Supreme Court, but there was a little problem. Bork had committed a string of disgusting crimes while serving as Nixon's Solicitor General, and the Senate refused to confirm him for a seat.

(Conservatives were outraged that committing crimes at the highest level of government disqualified you from the Supreme Court and coined the term "Borked" to describe rich, powerful people who had to face the unfair prospect of being held accountable for their actions)

But Bork - along with the Chicago School economists - went on to completely revolutionize the world's conception of anti-monopoly enforcement, as neoliberal leaders all over the world (Thatcher, Mulroney, Pinochet, Kohl, etc) took up his theories and tuned them into policy.

Bork was a fringe figure, but he was preaching a gospel that stood to make the richest people on Earth *so much richer*, and they bankrolled the hell out of his theories.

For example, 40% of US federal judges have attended "continuing education" seminars at an annual lush Florida junket where they are initiated into the bizarre world of "consumer harm" theory.

https://crookedtimber.org/2018/10/18/law-and-economics/

40 years later, monopolism has surged in every industry, from bottlecaps to pharma, from poultry to pro wrestling, from eyeglasses to emergency rooms, from oil to car parts, from music to publishing to movies to online services to telecoms.

All driven by mergers, all resulting in higher prices (so much for "consumer harm") all wildly distorting of public policy (the decision to let Boeing self-certify the 737 Max is repeated in thousands of ways across hundreds of industries), all brutal news for workers.

It's a disaster, but it's one that we have been powerless to avert or address for so long as "consumer harm" ruled antitrust enforcement.

Finally, that's changing.

In 2019, Dina Srinivasan published a landmark paper: "The Antitrust Case Against Facebook," which made *incredibly* clever arguments showing that FB's democratic harms were also consumer harms, meaning FB could be sued without first undoing Borkism.

https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=3247362

But the magic of this work was in revealing the poverty of the consumer harm standard: she laid out the innumerable ways in which FB is bad for society and showed how a sliver of these harms were technically illegal, raising the question: why isn't *all* this stuff illegal?

Today, Facebook was hit with *two* antitrust suits, one from the FTC and the other from almost every US state (including California!).

The complaints say that FB's acquisitions of Instagram and Whatsapp were anticompetitive.

https://www.theverge.com/2020/12/9/22158483/facebook-antitrust-lawsuit-anti-competition-behavior-attorneys-general

Of course, they *were* anticompetitive. We know, because Zuck - who specializes in tripping over his own dick - sent out memos extolling the acquisitions' anticompetitive advantages, proving he hasn't learned a thing since he traded incriminating IMs about founding FB.

https://www.esquire.com/uk/latest-news/a19490586/mark-zuckerberg-called-people-who-handed-over-their-data-dumb-f/

The complaints build on Srinivasan's work and they carry the same flavor: claiming "consumer harms" in the acquisitions, but winking and nodding toward a broader, more democracy-focused (and less consumer-focused) critique of monopoly.

It's a weird tightrope act: they want to win, so their argument is designed to balance on the single, fragile hair that borkism stretches across the chasm of monopoly enforcement, but they wanna make sure we see that big sturdy bridge of nonbork antitrust right there.

If there was any doubt, it was erased by the remedies demanded in the complaints. The prosecutors aren't asking for money damages - a fine is a price, after all - instead, they want FB to sell off the companies it bought for illegal purposes.

And they want FB to get regulatory approval for future acquisitions (though the states will let it buy companies for less than $10m without approval). These are not "consumer harm" remedies - they're "democracy" remedies, aimed at removing the company's source of power.

Facebook has stood up a website explaining why it's a cuddly mom-and-pop business that's being bullied by mean government meanies:

https://about.fb.com/building-to-compete/

The argument's pretty similar to the one laid out in a leaked memo in October:

https://pluralistic.net/2020/10/05/florida-man/#dnr

Basically: it would be really hard for us to unwind these illegal, anticompetitive mergers. Seriously, it would cost a bundle and take so much work!

This is an unserious argument, and it shows how badly FB has misgauged the mood.

All of FB's arguments are garbage, really. Take the line that ex-British-Deputy-PM-turned-FB-salesdroid Nick Clegg has been peddling: "STOP TRYING TO BREAK UP FACEBOOK OR THE CHINESE WILL WIN!"

https://www.cnet.com/news/facebooks-nick-clegiden-must-unite-global-powers-to-shape-internet-amid-china-threat

The company's best arguments are about "market definition" - to claim that they don't have a monopoly because of all the competitors they face, provided you define FB's market broadly enough.

Like, "Here at Facebook, we are in the 'using computers' business. Now, just think of how much time you spend using a computer without interacting with FB! Your car has a computer and it's not on FB! How can you say we have a monopoly?!"

If you want to see someone making this argument as well as it can possibly be made and literally getting laughed at by a University of Chicago (!) audience, check out this debate from 2019:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_Jp-GJ9LM0

Forcing FB to divest itself of Whatsapp and Instagram is a no-brainer. The company lied to secure those mergers, broke the promises it made to get permission to make them, and the penalty for that should be unwinding those mergers.

https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2020/07/dont-believe-proven-liars-absolute-minimum-standard-prudence-merger-scrutiny

And if FB fights this for a decade the way IBM fought its antitrust action, fine - IBM outspent the entire DoJ antitrust division every year for 12 years (Bork called it "antitrust's Vietnam"), but even though Big Blue wasn't broken up, they had their spirit broken.

It was fear of another tangle with antitrust regulators that caused IBM to sit idly by while Phoenix cloned the PC ROMs and created the PC clone industry, which became the US computing industry.

https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2019/08/ibm-pc-compatible-how-adversarial-interoperability-saved-pcs-monopolization

And it was the same fear that caused IBM to hire an outside company to make the OS for its PCs, getting a couple of nerds named Paul Allen and Bill Gates to supply one for them.

IBM's 12 years of antitrust hell focused the attention of every tech giant of the age, letting them know what was on their horizon if they acted like IBM had. It created the US tech industry.

Today, VCs call the businesses that Big Tech dominates "the kill zones" because they know that monopolists have the market power to destroy any startup that tries to compete with them.

There is an entire - better, more pluralistic - tech industry that's been suppressed by Big Tech. If FB and Goog and Apple and the other tech giants spend the next decades throwing billions at the FTC and the states attorneys general, it will be money well-spent.

Because it will be money that these companies don't get to spend destroying the next wave of tech companies, co-ops, and platforms.

#pluralistic

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two-gays-in-a-trenchcoat · 2 years

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Can I have a twisted wonderland matchup please most compatible only please

Gender: cis female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: heterosexual ally

Traits I look for in a partner: Well I’ve never been in a relationship before so I don’t really think I know what I want besides for them to be a nice person who treats me right

Personality Traits: anxious nervous emotional moody perfectionist people pleaser kind smart caring compassionate funny nerdy awkward introvert shy curious protective innocent naive insecure low self esteem low confidence helpful polite responsible respectful obedient just wants everyone happy healthy and safe HSP (highly sensitive person)

How I make decisions: I mainly think before i make 90% of my decisions like how will the outcome be will i really be happy with that outcome will others be happy with it will it help someone else am i gonna mess it up how can i prioritize this will i fail how do i not fail what will those im close to think about my decision is this really what i want somewhere along those lines

How I act around others: It depends on who I am with and what mood Im in that day when with strangers i try to be as nice polite and friendly as possible I like to make people feel comfortable when im with my teachers i try to be as polite and respectful as possible depending on the teacher or class i may talk and interact too when im with my friends im either the baby of the group or the mom it’s a flip flop because most of my friends are taller and chronologically older then me but im also the one who’s more mature or responsible but i also goof around with them a lot and can be sassy sometimes when im with my family it depends ok who im with when im with the adults of my family i can be very silly too also timid and like im walking on eggshells (whether it is necessary or not) and i try to be as polite and helpful as possible when with my siblings i try my best to take care of them but can very easily loose my temper especially if it’s a situation where they’re doing something that’s going to hurt them or get them into trouble and they refuse to listen because im the oldest it’s my job to make sure they’re safe

Fears/Anxieties: loosing people disappointing people letting people down failing doing something wrong spiders loud sounds math tests and weird holes and patterns I have no origin or logical reading for any of these fears or anxieties they’re just there for some reason

Insecurity: that all my traits are fake and im actually a bad person I know it’s not true but im stressed a lot and get angry a lot and do things that make me feel like an awful person and the fact that i get so many compliments about how smart or strong or polite i am from people who don’t see that makes me question my identity especially when im angry or after I’ve been angry

Random facts: i pace a lot for no reason i sing only when i feel people aren’t listening I have trouble saying no sometimes or taking time to or for myself I don’t like asking for things it makes me feel guilty im really clumsy

Hobbies: reading writing listening to music video games

Likes: animals books fantasy magic sci fi anime cartoons movies

Dislikes: people who harm other people i care and not taking care of myself my siblings not listening to me my emotions (sometimes)

Wow that was a lot of gut spilling sorry if this is too much or too long

Thank you

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I’d definitely say your major brain system is estrogen, while your secondary brain system is likely serotonin. Because of this, I think you’d be most compatible with Deuce Spade.

You and Deuce both have introverted tendencies, which would make planning dates or activities would be a breeze since you both prefer more low-key things. You both would be very comfortable with each other; the type of couple who could sit in silence for hours but be comfortable and so, so very loved.

He’s a little..... slow, so I think he needs someone that’s understanding and in touch with their emotions, like you are! You’d be patient with him, and you wouldn’t bring up things in his past, and only look at the best parts of him. He really appreciates that. You’d also help him with understanding his own and others’ emotions.

You are both very hard-working and driven, but unlike you, Deuce has no problem voicing his thoughts and opinions. He’s very direct, and doesn’t compare himself to others; only his current self to his past self. This kind of attitude would rub off on you, and help you be more assertive and outspoken with your feelings, as well as more comfortable in your own skin!

The fact you’ve never been in a relationship only adds to the fact; neither has he. You’re both kind of new with this, and are exploring it together. He’s a naturally affectionate person, and as soon as you tell him you need direct reassurance, Mr mans cannot shut UP about how amazing and strong and perfect you are. Other times, if you’re having a particularly low episode, he won’t even mention your traits; he’ll simply repeat how much he loves you over and over again.

Overall, please date Deuce. poor boy needs it

#osapost #matchup #twst #deuce spade

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Umm what are your thoughts on Magnus thinking Raphael doesn't need him anymore

Y̴̖̳̏͐̓͝͝͝O̴͉͔̪͙͎͌̋̊̽̚Ü̴̦ ̵̡̧͍̙͎̤̓͜F̵̺̹̼̫̳̻̖̓̈́̎Ơ̵͈̟̘̼̲O̴̤̻̭̻̟̺̖͗̆͌͒͆͊͂L̴̨͚̝̟̙̥͆̏. you absolute idiot. my thoughts on magnus thinking raphael doesn't need him anymore??????????????? C̶̨̛̖̘̜̟̪̱͗̈́̓̑̋͛́̽͛̃̑̈́Ą̵̢̣͕̥͚̩͔̗̤͙̺͝ͅN̷̢̜͇̪͖̫͓̦̟̰͎͈̫͔̹͌̓̏̐̔̊̽͝ͅ'̵̩͇͐̅͌͋̕T̵̡̡̼̰̼̯͇̝̗̼̫̝̺̝͖͑̀̒͛̈͘͜ͅ ̷̧̘̬͕̯̘͇̹̳͔̑̓͜Y̷̨̥̙̻̣̯̦̓̏̏̂̒͐̕Ơ̸̭͔̤̤̮̙͇͙͇͙̩͐̌̂̈́̐̇̌̌̕̚͝U̴̢̡͙͕̖̥̗̔̿̒̓̉̓͌ͅ ̶̺͚̯͙̘̦̻͚͒͒̍͗̌̚͜͠S̶̢͆̉́̋̈́́Ȩ̵̪͚̹͉͉͉̼̱͖̏ͅĘ̶̛̞̣͚̲̳̻̪̤̲͎̳̠̻̎̊̽̀̉̑͝ ̴̧̛̫͖͍̺͙͓͈̹͕͛͊͊̓͋̄͑͗̉͆͠͝T̵̡͍̱͍̙͈̞͍̪̭͌̄͂̎͑͂Ḩ̴̧̫̪͖̫̞̞̀̔̾̿̃͗̋͐̌͊̀̕̚È̴̢̨͓̞̠̲̱̠͉̾̀ ̴̢͇͈̣͙̝̭͔̰͔̫̦̈́̀͘Ṁ̶̡͓̖̭̩̱̗̗̘̯̖̹͖̳̭̙̺͋͐̈Ḭ̷̢̧̢͔̙̪̣̞̣͙̘̑͌̈́̐̾̅̆́̆̑̃͋͒͒̎͠Ş̵̱̘̰͓̫̦̺͚̙̹͚̗͎̭̠͆̀̏͐͋͗̈́T̷̢̡̡̛̪̝̟̻̠̼̦̦̰̦̗͓̣͌̌̐̋͊̐̔͛̕Ą̵͔͉̜̪̦͓̗̤͇͖̘͓̱̰̜̈͒̍̊͂ͅK̵̛͈̜̱͉̜̖͈̈́́̒̀̐͒́̂̔͆̾̏̂͂̕̕E̸̡͓̣̪̮͉̮̻̹̒́̾̋�� ̴̡̮̝̝͇̫̮̭̞̦̘̙̥̥̗͒̿͝ͅY̷̡̨͙̝̰̗̗̫͛́̕͜͠͝Ō̵̬Ų̶̡̖̗͙̞̲̺͖̣͉̜̿́͒͆́̏̚͠ͅ'̵̮̭̗̙̘̰͍̥̣̪̩̖̦͂̀̋̆̓̉́̅͜R̸̼̤͙̞͚̼̤͆͛͌̄̈́̑͘Ê̸̡̢̩̳̤͙̳̘̲̞̦̳̻̩̔̐̄͐̑̒̿̒̽̈́̌͒̏̚ ̷̛̮̂̈̽̄̇̆̍̄͂̋̒͛͝͝͝M̶̧̢̛͙̮̣͎̮͍̝̪͔͎̘͔̐̊͐̄̃́̄̄͋̆̕͜͝A̵̧̮̙͖͓̭̯̘̪̿͊̌̉̆̄̈́̾̅́͆͋́̾̓͝K̸̘̩̯̼̣͍̠̝͈̤̮̝̻̬̿̈́Ǐ̶͖̹͈̫͙̀͛̀̆͆͊̿͘̕͝Ṋ̸̨̨̗̰͖̳̝͉͑̏̀̀́̂͗͌̽̈G̸̢̰̟̜͎̪̬̞̲͔̘͍̋̆. not only is this one of my favorite angsts ever, nay! you just posted self promo bait!!! i have a whole ass fic about it (link). and you know what the worst part is???? im gonna make a huge ass answer to your question anyway!!!! do you understand how naive you were now??? do you have any idea what you have unleashed?????

ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok. so i think the saddest part about this is magnus' assumption that like... if he isn't useful, he isn't desirable. which we know is 100% how magnus rolls (therapy-needing icon) and would particularly ring true in raphael's case because like... magnus took raphael in when raphael was at his lowest. their relationship was started off by the fact that raphael needed him. and that makes it even harder for magnus to shake that feeling off

like, don't misquote me, it's not raphael's fault and that is not how he sees magnus at all. and i don't think magnus singlehandedly saved raphael or whatever; raphael had to build his own network of ppl and resources to get over his addiction and get back on his feet and build himself back together, as anyone does. no one can carry a burden as big as singlehandedly taking care of any one person, nevermind one in the state rapha was in. but the fact remains: raphael and magnus met when raphael was at his lowest, and they built their relationship because magnus helped him

and magnus knows raphael's got this whole repentance thing going on, he knows that raphael feels like a monster and a burden and like his debt to magnus is unmeasurable. and that makes him second-guess everything about their relationship, imo, because like... raphael probably feels like he has to keep magnus company, he has to do as he says or whatever, because he has a debt

and to some extent it's nice that magnus is like... aware of that imbalance, which is inherent to that situation, but then i think it becomes pretty much... being convinced that raphael doesn't like him and only puts up with him because he has to since he owes magnus

and when magnus "adopted" rapha, magnus was at a particular fragile point. i'm pretty sure rapha was the first person magnus ever let into his life, fully, enough to really know him and his insecurities and his true self, after camille. his other friends - catarina, dot, ragnor, elias - all knew him from before. and we know how after camille magnus locked his heart; yes, he was referring to romantic relationships, but when you are constantly afraid of falling in love with someone in case they will abuse you, you can't fully build platonic relationships either, because there is that wall that is there, a certain level of intimacy that you won't allow yourself

and with that i don't mean that romantic relationships are inherently more intimate or deeper than platonic ones! i mean that to build any sort of intimate relationship, romantic or platonic, you need to be able to allow yourself to be vulnerable, and magnus was obviously not allowing himself that, because he was scared of being vulnerable after it was used so viciously against him the last time he opened up his heart

but magnus is still too caring of a person to leave someone in a state as bad as raphael's - no sire, battling addiction, alone in the streets, probably no knowledge of the shadow world (this is probably where i should add my mandatory disclaimer that i'm not following book canon and i don't care how it went there, i'm talking about the show), no clan, no family, basically no one - alone, so of course he's gonna bring him in for a night and feed him and try to find a way to help him

but then you add to that two facts: 1- magnus is hopelessly affection and touch-starved and desperately needs company; 2- there is not many places raphael can actually go to

so of course magnus lets raphael stay. and it's for his own sake as much as it is for his, because again, magnus is starved, and he is at a point of his recovery where he needs to let people in, even if it's slowly and in a relatively safe situation - like, what can raphael do to hurt him? okay, there's a few things, but still. it's just easier to let yourself be vulnerable when the person you're allowing to see it is someone you've seen equally as or even more vulnerable. especially if they have no connections to people you know, as it is in rapha's case

PLUS, he empathises. i've said it before and i'll say it again, raphael and magnus have so much in common. from background (immigrants, brown, downworlders, one is bi the other is ace which are two groups known for their ties and solidarity with each other, trans if you go by my headcanons which i will because this is my blog and i do what i want) to coping mechanisms (both clearly deal with their problems on their own and try to avoid letting other people help them as much as they can, even if in very different ways - magnus creates a persona so he can be surrounded by people and not let them in too close whereas raphael doesn't let them get close from the get-go), to some of their personal psychological issues (this unbearable responsibility they carry on their shoulders, like everything and everyone is dependant on them and it is on them personally to help everyone they find: see raphael and how involved he got with simon and the way he talked about the other vampires/the clan even before he became clan leader, and magnus and Literally Everyone That Came Into His Path; the feelings of monstrosity they both feel due to their downworlder status and their past; the guilt; the self sacrificial/giving til it hurts tendencies; etc), to a few personality traits (similar sense of humor, both natural leaders, both pretty bold in their own ways; they also have many differences in personality but they are quite compatible/similar in other ways as well).... i could go on. i'm not saying they are Literally The Same Character (that'd be bad writing anyway, and there are notable differences such as raphael being way more recluse than magnus, their different moral codes, etc.) but there is a lot in common, which results in a nice dynamic in which:

they have fun with each other (think "because you're totally unbiased"; that was clearly a tease, neither of them were really upset by it, raphael looked at magnus expectantly like he expected magnus to laugh and magnus just glared at him in a clearly playful way)

they care for each other deeply (think every interaction we got between them or that included them talking about each other to a third person lmao i think this one is undeniable)

they trust each other incredibly (think raphael being tortured and going to magnus before he went to his own clan, then staying at his house, he obviously feels comfortable and safe there more than anywhere else including his own supposed home; and i wish we had gotten to see more of raphael taking care of magnus as well but of course the writers always forgot magnus had friends and family beyond shadowhunters lmao, but still, i think it's undeniable that the trust goes both ways because of the sheer difference in the way magnus treated raphael as opposed to other people who came for his help, including downworlders like simon)

they are openly affectionate with each other in a way they aren't with most people (think them hugging or the way magnus casually touched raphael's face like it was perfectly normal. that is like, the only s3 raphael scene i claim lmao)

hmmm where was i going with this. man i should really get checked for ADHD or whatever

RIGHT they built a nice relationship. which magnus craved!!! he really really needed someone he could be affectionate with, someone he could trust, someone he had fun with! and again, it's not that he didn't have that, but it was the first time he was building a relationship like this again from scratch after camille. plus, i'm sure camille pushed him away from his friends because that's what abusers do, and i'm sure magnus also pushed them away to some extent because again, being vulnerable was hard. but with raphael there was no escaping it. like, he was living at magnus' house

and he needed that! and i think raphael and their relationship had such an important catalyst role in magnus' recovery from camille. not that raphael saved him - again, that's not even possible - but the way their relationship was constructed was essential for magnus to start opening up again. without it i really doubt it would have been possible for him to open up to alec, and i think their relationship and history is extremely overlooked and underrated by the fandom

but like... the fact that he was in such a vulnerable emotional state to begin with, plus the fact that their relationship was kickstarted by the fact that raphael needed him, will obviously lead to him thinking that raphael only puts up with him or whatever because he needs him/feels indebted (because magnus knows at this point that raphael is not the kind to use people, but he also knows that raphael already acts like his mere presence in the world is something he has to make up for it's the catholicism so of course he's gonna feel like he needs to make up for magnus for such a huge gesture. anyone who's not an asshole would, but like, particularly raphael). cue magnus like, probably feeling guilty for getting so attached to raphael because he's an idiot

and like of course raphael feels indebted and grateful but he also does genuinely in fact like magnus (for all the reasons listed above) and also like, he did in fact also need more connections, he had just lost all of his previous ones. but most importantly he does care for magnus and loves him immensely even beyond all that magnus did for him. and he does see magnus as a person and knows about his struggles and vulnerabilities because it's impossible not to when you live/have lived together, and he just... cares and empathises

but also raphael obviously thinks he's a burden to magnus because duh, and i don't think magnus ever really told raphael how much taking raphael in helped him, how much it meant to him and his recovery, how he was doing it for himself as much as he was doing it for rapha, because 1- he's scared of being so open and vulnerable; 2- he's scared of making raphael feel even more guilty; 3- he's stupid and i think part of him assumed it went without saying

like he was always so openly affectionate with raphael (maybe even too much in his eyes, maybe he was scared of being too attached, putting too much on his shoulders, it's not this traumatized kid's job to deal with his issues for fuck's sake) and magnus has always worn his heart in his sleeve and he feels everything so deeply i think he sometimes forgets that it's not actually plain for everyone to see and feel. particularly not non-warlocks, since it's kinda implied that warlocks have some level of sensitivity to each other going on. plus raphael is autistic af so he can't tell what magnus is feeling if magnus doesn't fucking say it, and he has a terminally low self esteem that i assume would be even lower by that point (due to, you know... the general shitshow state his life was in), so of course he doesn't assume he's as important to magnus as magnus is to him, particularly not when he is literally burdening him (in raphael's eyes). so he thinks it's obvious but it's Really Not

so we have like a lot of misunderstanding angst with both of them wanting to get closer but thinking they are imposing on the other and pulling away, and both of them taking the other pulling away as a sign that they aren't comfortable and aaaa

so like i think that rapha would mention moving out so he can get out of magnus' hair, and magnus is all crestfallen because he's so not ready to be alone at home again, but he can't be selfish and hold the kid back just because he has shit he needs to deal with, right? it's not fair

and then like lowkey spiralling afraid that after that he's going to be alone again and raphael won't want to see him anymore, or worse, that he'll force himself to out of pity or guilt, and magnus will just be a chore to him

and raphael feeling like magnus wants to get rid of him and will want him out of his hair and aaaaaaaaaaa

and magnus of course is all put together and excited about it, "yes, my boy, don't worry, i'll help you move" and playfully tilting his head and being all excited and getting into chop-chop mode because as long as he can make himself useful he can avoid thinking about how he's gonna be alone again. and rapha of course taking this as magnus being eager for him to leave

and just doijasiodjasoij they're IDIOTS. i think this would be more or less resolved by raphael because at the very least he has to thank magnus for everything he's done and tell magnus that he means so much to him, that he'll always be thankful. and magnus again is all put together, all "it was nothing, my boy" but rapha pulls him into a hug and suddenly they are Not Letting Each Other Go. like it's tight and maybe they're both shaking a little because Badly Repressed Emotions and they're just. so unwilling to let each other go for what they feel like will be forever because they are sad and dramatic. and raphael even wonders for a second if he's like, super strengthing magnus into the hug by accident, but even when he tries to let go magnus doesn't even notice and is still hugging him tight, so he's like. okay. guess i can stay for a little longer then. and keeps hugging him

and lol i have half a mind to be like "and then raphael ends up staying because neither of them actually wants raphael to leave so what's the point" and actually i think i might be going this route for this particular hc. but of course eventually raphael does leave because you know... kids grow up and all daihdsaioj and i think that they still have some things to resolve, particularly from magnus' side? i think raphael is more in touch with him than the other way around, even if mostly we've seen him coming to magnus for help, but like... that trust is there, you know, and we didn't see a lot of the opposite

i know s3 raphael was fake anyway but like i imagine him finding out that magnus lost his magic and he had no idea or that he lost his home and being like "why didn't you ask for my help?? our help??" because you know all his other friends would have wanted to help him out too, and magnus is just. he doesn't want to be a burden. he feels like if he is, he's going to lose anyone. he needs to be there for them

and it's so much bullshit of course and raphael is pissed - not at magnus, he couldn't be mad at him, but just pissed in general. and he draws magnus in for a hug and tells him that he can always come to raphael, whenever he needs, and raphael will drop everything to help him. the clan is doing okay (especially post-valentine and impending doom and all, you know, they can take care of themselves lmao. like look of course raphael is a very involved leader but you get what i mean, they won't die if he goes help magnus with something) and he has second-in-commands he trusts anyway. and he doesn't want magnus to hide his problems for him and not come for his help and aaa

just.... rapha being like "you think i wouldn't do anything i could for you? anything to make sure you're alright?" and magnus being like "you don't have to" and raphael going, "you didn't have to do it for me either. but you did" "you don't owe me anything" "i do, but this is not about that. magnus, you're my family" and magnus tearing up because it is so immense to him to be someone's family, something he almost can't grasp

and magnus slowly learning that no, raphael doesn't need him, but that's not important because he wants magnus in his life anyway. and they can always rely on each other, no matter what, even if they aren't dependant on each other - and that is a good thing :)

#shadowhunters #sh #raphael santiago #magnus bane #brotp: i'll do whatever it takes to protect them #ask #anonymous #meta #raphael santiago meta #magnus bane meta #q #anti cc #anti tsc #anti tmi #long post

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ssamie · 3 years

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three. how strange

oikawa tooru x fem langa!reader

(hq x sk8 the infinity)

warnings: spelling mistakes, swearing, 2k+ words, u have langa’s blue hair sorry

gen masterlist. “snow” masterlist.

"so, you should tell me about yourself, y/n-chan" rika hummed "all i know is you're from canada and nothing else" she said

y/n hummed and took a small bite from her sandwich, munching lazily as she stares at rika from across her. "there's not much to say" she said. "oh cmon, there must be something" rika exclaimed

"favourite food?" rika asked "burgers." y/n responded with a look of glee "or fries. or poutines. or japanese bentos" she added

"see? im getting to know so much already!" rika said with a grin. "hm, how about your hobbies?"

"hobbies?" y/n repeated. "i like to skate.." she muttered. "what about you?"

"oh me?" rika hummed excitedly "well i play volleyball! im the girls team captain!" she exclaimed. "volleyball.." y/n mumbled as she recalled the brief conversation she had with cherry. "how do you play that?" she asked

"hm, well you just hit the ball and try to keep it in the air for as long as you can!" rika explained

"oh.. that's a bit boring" y/n said with a huff

rika spluttered and silently sulked "what do you mean?!" she exclaimed "volleyball is so fun! you get to play with your team and win! and go to competitions and-"

"rika-chan?" a girl's voice called out "who're you with?" another asked

y/n looked over her shoulder to see two girls walking towards them, holding what she assumed was a volleyball and their lunch. "oh, this is y/n-chan, she's our new classmate" rika explained. "oh, you're the transferee?" one of the girls asked

y/n nodded and quietly picked at her food, not wanting to look up and interact with the girls.

"not much of a talker huh?" the other girl mused. "well that's fine" she shrugged "mind if we eat with you guys?"

"not at all!" rika exclaimed with a grin. y/n grumbled in slight discomfort as she awkwardly sat along with the three girls.

"oh, sorry. im yuka" the girl beside her said with a wave. "i'm yuri!" the other said

"hasegawa y/n. nice to meet you." y/n replied with a straight face as she waved back at them

"hey, y/n-chan, yuka and yuri are twins and both third years too! they're my teammates in volleyball" rika exclaimed. "is that so.." she replied "that's cool" she smiled

"man, you are really bland" yuka said with a chuckle as she slung her arm around her shoulders

"what?" y/n mumbled back as she stared up at the girl with a raised brow "a-ah! yuka meant that you're not really that expressive!" rika explained with a nervous grin "yuka-chan is bad at wording things so she comes off as mean"

"oh.." y/n muttered. yuka laughed and patted y/n on the back. "that's right, don't take it too seriously!" she said

"you should be nicer to her" yuki said with a frown as she watched y/n rub her back right at the spot where it got hit. "what do you mean?" yuka playfully scoffed "im nice! i mean why wouldn't i be?"

she then tucked some of her blue locks behind her ears and smirked. "how can i be mean to a cutie like this?" yuka cooed

rika and yuki face palmed while y/n simply stared back at the girl with a blank smile, blinking cluelessly as the flirty remark seemed to fly over her head. "you're cute too." y/n said with a small smile as she continued munching on her sandwich

rika and yuki averted their eyes to y/n and deadpanned. "is she really that dense?" yuki sweat dropped. "it seems so" rika chuckled

"i like you, you're cool!" yuka exclaimed as she slung her arm around the girl once more. "you should join the team"

"team?" y/n mumbled in confusion. "I AGREE!" rika exclaimed as she slammed her hand on the table. "can you even play volleyball, y/n-chan?" yuki, who seemed to be the only sensible one, asked

"no" y/n replied

"i'll teach you!" yuka said with a grin "im the ace, this'll be easy!"

"well, it's all y/n-chan's desicion if she wants to join or not" yuki said with a smile.

"NOPE IT'S MINE!" rika interjected "im the captain so im scouting you to join!"

y/n sweat dropped and shook her head. "can i decline?" she asked. "absolutely not." rika replied

"this is.. strange." y/n said as she inspected the ball in her hands. she dribbled it back and forth as she eyed the net. "what's with that net?" she asked them. "are we supposed to jump over it?" she asked

rika paled and immediately shook her head "ofcourse not! no one can jump that high anyways" she said. "were supposed to keep the ball from touching it. it also divides the court, as you can see."

y/n hummed and nodded in fascination. "oh. so we throw it over?" she asked

rika sighed and shook her head. "nope we hit the ball so it could fly through the air. kinda like this..." she took the ball from y/n's hands and fixed her stance to perform an overhand serve.

y/n's eyes followed her hands, watching as her palm made contact with the ball, and making it real through the air with immense speed and power.

"heh. hows that!" rika grinned. y/n looked at her with sparkling eyes, her expression laced with awe and admiration. "that's so cool!" she exclaimed "can you teach me?"

rika nodded excitedly and grabbed a different ball for her to practice with. "okay, so pretty much just throw the ball with your hand and hit it with the other" she said

"go as hard as you can. we're only practicing anyways” y/n nodded in determination and did as she was told. except, when she did her attempt, it was quite unsuccessful to say the least.

she threw the ball in the air, her aura changing into a more concentrated one, as she readied her other hand to hit.

"ouch!" she yelped as her hand missed the ball, which led to it falling ontop of her head.

"ah, don't mind" rika chuckled "it's your first try, you'll get it right soon!"

"right!" y/n replied

wrong. they were wrong.

y/n couldn't perfect or let alone perform one successful serve or receive. it always ended with her tripping, missing the ball, or accidentally making it bounce onto her face

"i can't do it" she heaved out as she laid on the gym floors . "yes you can, you're just.. different.." rika sweat dropped "learning new things comes differently to others, so maybe with more practice you'll do well" rika said

"i can't anymore" y/n huffed out as she sat up from the ground "it hurts." she gestured to her arms and face which was covered in bandaids. her arms were as red as they could be from all the impact it had been receiving. and her face was honestly close to being battered. she felt as if it was worse than the injuries she got while learning how to skate with reki.

"but volleyball seems awesome and fun.." she muttered out in distress "i wanna play it. but i don't think i can" she said, making rika frown.

"well.. we could always try again?" rika suggested with a smile. "im afraid if i get more bruises i won't be able to skate or move properly anymore" y/n replied with a grunt

rika hummed in agreement. "well youre not wrong" she said

"i wanna play volleyball.. but i also don't.." y/n said with a soft laugh "i wanna learn about it.. and be involved" she said "maybe reki would be proud." she muttered with a smile. "..is that weird?" she asked

rika looked over at her and shook her head with a smile "not at all!" she said "actually, it might know just what you want"

"and that is..?"

"please accept her as manager!" rika exclaimed to the coach as she bowed down in respect. "please!" y/n repeated as she went to stand back up, only for rika to push her head back down.

rika sweat dropped and cupped her mouth, whispering to him with a frown "well, she's kinda bad at it so.." coach nobuteru sweat dropped and nodded. "i see." he said.

coach nobuteru chuckled at the two and urged them to stand. "i don't understand, rika" he said "if she wants to play volleyball, why not let her join your team?" he asked

"hasegawa y/n, correct?" he mused. y/n nodded in response, way too distracted by the boys' gym that seems to look relatively different from the girls'. "well, our manager spot is indeed open for offers" he said "we still haven't found one that's reliable and fairly compatible with the team."

"yeah, most of the volunteers just wanna flirt with oikawa" rika explained, causing nobuteru to laugh but agree nonetheless.

"..." y/n stared at them in confusion and tilted her head to the side, looking absolutely clueless. "who's oikawa?" she asked

a few murmurs and snickers could be heard from outside the gym entrance, followed by some whines from a boy saying things like 'don't laugh!' or 'she's just playing hard to get!'

"he's our team captain." nobuteru explained with a smile. "he's arguably one of the best players in the business, im sure he won't disappoint."

"oh.." y/n muttered. "who are the other players?" she asked, not really wanting to discuss a boy she don't really know

laughs and murmurs once again echoed through the gym walls, followed by some teasing remarks like 'oh the pretty girl's not interested in you' and the likes

"well, we have our vice captain iwaizumi" nobuteru said. y/n then perked up at the familiar name and gasped in awe "iwaizumi-san's from our class" she said to rika who only nodded in response

"i see he's got a fan?" coach nobuteru mused. "iwaizumi is a wing spiker and our 'ace' as we may say" he said. "so cool!" y/n exclaimed with sparkling eyes as she invisioned iwaizumi spiking a ball through their opponent's blocks

"enough!" a loud whine echoed throughout the gym walls, followed by various laughter from boys

the three of them looked back to see oikawa crossing his arms and huffing in annoyance while some of the boys teased him

"oh, you finally decided to show yourselves, huh?" coach nobuteru chuckled

"coach!" the boys greeted with sheepish smiles as they put away their bags

"well anyways, i'm guessing you've already heard our conversation" nobuteru said. "y/n seems like a nice girl.." he trailed off "she also seems interested in the sport.. and a specific player" nobuteru chuckled as he watched her discreetly look at iwaizumi with sparkling eyes and amazement

"i'm thinking of giving her a chance."

y/n's eyes averted towards him and blinked in surprise. "really?" she asked with a smile

"yep. but it's only like a trial type of thing. we'll see how well you'll do, then we can all decide if you're cut out for it" nobuteru explained. "okay! i'll do it!" she agreed with a determined look in her eyes.

beside her, rika yelped and bright her down to her height to whisper. "these boys are very rowdy so if you can't handle it, i'll totally kick off our shabby boy manager and take you in instead!" she said

y/n looked at her in confusion and simply nodded. "okay.. but they can't possibly be that bad.." she whispered back. y/n then turned to inspect the boys, looking them up an down and studying their white and teal uniforms down to their shoes.

"reki would look good in that" she mumbled to herself ".. the color's kinda like my hair.." she felt her cheeks heat up, causing her to jump and quickly cover them with her hands

"um.. when do i start?" she asked coach nobuteru

"right now." oikawa answered with a smirk. "nice to meet ya, manager-chan~" he winked. she raised a brow and looked him up and down. with a look of dread, she muttered; "you're the boy from class..the noisy one.."

oikawa's face paled as he watched her bow at him then swiftly move along to greet the others.

"eh?" he muttered in confusion. the brunette looked at her with furrowed brows and watched as she bombarded iwaizumi with questions.

"are you really the 'ace'?" she asked him. "ah yeah.. i guess coach told you" iwaizumi replied with a sheepish smile. "are you good at spiking like rika?" she asked with sparkling eyes. "i guess so.." iwaizumi chuckled as he rubbed the back of his neck

"so cool.." she mumbled in amazement "can you teach me?"

"ah, that's not a good idea" rika quickly interjected "at least let your bruises heal first" she sweat dropped

"bruises?" matsukawa hummed in confusion "why'd you have bruises, hasegawa-san?" he asked

oikawa simply watched as her expression morphed into one of slight embarrassment and dread. "i.. i tried to play volleyball.. but i suck" she sulked

the boys sweat dropped and nodded in understanding "i see." matsukawa chuckled

"well no worries, we'll teach ya if we ever have the time" he said. y/n was seemingly cheered up by that statement alone, seeing as her lips curved into a small smile. "thank you" she said

"hey, quit staring you pervert" iwaizumi said as he nudged oikawa with his elbow

oikawa looked over to him and chuckled. "im not staring" he said. iwaizumi rolled his eyes and lightly hit oikawa's head with his fist. "don't even think about flirting with her" he said

"she seems to hate you enough." iwaizumi snickered "that's what you get for annoying her in class"

"im not gonna flirt with her—"

oikawa abruptly paused as his eyes caught hers. she kept eye contact for a while longer and sent him a faint smile before looking away.

the brunette blushed as he watched her walk off along with rika and coach nobuteru

"iwa-chan.. i think im gonna have a problem with that request of yours" oikawa muttered out as he watched her blue locks sway in the air

iwaizumi huffed and slapped him on the back. "geez. you got love at first sight or something?" he teased

"yeah.. i think so.." oikawa responded with a hazy smile, watching her figure disappear with a blush sprawled across his cheeks

"wait what? seriously?" iwaizumi asked in surprise "you can't be serious.. don't mess with me or her like that" he warned him. "im not!" oikawa huffed "im telling the truth, okay!"

"whatever" iwaizumi rolled his eyes "let's get practice going"

on the other side of the gym, y/n shuddered, which gained rika's attention. "something wrong?" rika asked her. "oikawa-san was staring at me..." she said with a small whimper ".. creepy.."

rika sweat dropped and patted her back comfortingly "maybe he likes you" she jokingly said with a laugh. "i mean, it's not a bad thing. he's cute and nice. he's actually pretty fun to be around"

"reki's like that too.." y/n muttered with a smile, completely disregarding the topic about oikawa.

"who's reki?" rika asked with a curious hum. "he's my best friend." y/n replied "he's in okinawa right now."

"i wonder what he's up to.."

"oi, redhead where's SNOW?!" "SNOW's been gone for a few days, the beefs are getting boring!" "i miss betting on her" "we wanna see SNOW!"

reki gulped as he watched almost the entirety of S rampage about the absence of their favourite rookie "ah, she's just taking a break for now!" reki exclaimed with a nervous smile

reki sighed and simply walked back to his friends, groaning in exasperation as he sat on the ground next to miya "its no use, they won't buy it" he said. "well yeah." miya huffed "they love betting on her cus she always wins"

"yeah right, she didn't even get injured last time" "he's totally lying!" "just tell SNOW to come!"

"why don't we just tell em" shadow shrugged "not like she's coming back any time soon"

reki frowned and shook his head. "that would stir a lot of commotion" he said "but i guess you're right. y/n can't really come to S anymore if she's not here." reki sighed in distress "AGH, WHY DID SHE HAVE TO LEAVE ANYWAYS?!"

"SHE COULD'VE STAYED HERE INSTEAD OF MOVING TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY!" reki whined "now i don't have my best friend!"

"no, it can't be.."

everyone froze as the oh-so-familiar voice rang across the air. they looked back to see ADAM with his jaw slightly agape, and his hands shaking from either anger or disbelief. maybe both.

"no way, it's ADAM" reki clenched his fists "what the hell is he doing here?"

cherry frowned and nodded along. "yeah. there are no major beefs of events tonight.." he said

"my.. my little y/n.." adam whimpered "she left me.."

reki grimaced at the nickname and glared at the man, looking at him in utter distaste as he stood up warily.

"NO! I WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN!" adam exclaimed in anger. he was seething, basically shaking from anger in distress.

"you." he pointed at reki. "where is SNOW." he asked through gritted teeth

"im not telling you ADAM." reki said with a glare. "leave her alone."

adam scoffed and turned on his heels, picking up his board and walking off with tadashi following suit. "tch. i do not care." he said. "i don't need an interposing nuisance like you." adam scoffed

"it doesn't matter if i have to search the whole country or let alone the world.." adam trailed off

he placed his hand on top of his pounding chest and grinned. in a menacing tone, he muttered;

can you tell im a fucking wattpad author with how fast the oikawa suddenly liked her

"i will find you, my eve."

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kats-kradle · 3 years

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Hi hello yes I actually found your blog while I was looking for Ronon Dex whump, something there is not nearly enough of, and I just wanted to say that should you ever want to share your thoughts about him, whump-related or otherwise, I'm around to hear them,,, I care him very much (which is why I like to see him hurt... funny how that works).

OHOHOHOHOHO DID SOMEONE SAY THE MAGIC WORDS “RONON WHUMP”????? And yes there is not NEARLY enough Ronon whump!!! Buckle up I don’t think you know what you’ve unleashed by offering to let me talk about this XD i have 43 (i counted thats not an exaggeration) unfinished fics where i whump this man so i have A Lot of Thoughts on this so i’ll try to keep my headcanons and general thoughts from getting mixed up so here we go (also I haven’t actually seen past season 3ish but I know like everything)

Just general thoughts

I just love the team dynamic in general the actors had great chemistry with each other

They don’t whump Ronon enough and that is A Crime.

But when they do whump him OH BOY ITS GOOD

Just off the top of my head I can think of the episode where John and Elizabeth were possessed by those people who wanted to kill each other and ronon got SHOT that was dope especially when it showed the surgery but I was so mad there was no aftercare

Also just the fact that after Ronon was shot the guy possessing John said (about John) something like “if only you could hear him right now he is screaming so loud” or something to that effect and I’m not really a John whumper but oh boy the thought of John fighting as hard as he could to try and get control back because he wants to help Ronon rlly adds to the experience

After atlantis flies and John is going around checking the damage and he finds Ronon with the shard of glass in his shoulder juts the way he kneels down next to him is so soft and his voice goes soft too its great

I haven’t gotten there yet but ohoho the enzyme episode where Ronon gets drugged and then has to go through withdrawal ohooho I may have watched that scene a few hundred times

I just love also how fiercely loyal Ronon is and how much he trusts them

That ep where those villagers were going to give them to the wraith and Ronon literally would rather die than let his friends be taken to the wraith I love how John and Teyla go through like 45 heart attacks that’s one of the ones I haven’t gotten to yet but ive seen gifs and oh boy oh boy does it look good

The way I generally describe Ronon is he’s like a bug fluffy dog. Like he’s kind of silly sometimes and he’s very loyal and will kill without hesitation if it means keeping his friends safe

Also just that whole scene when Ronon arrives when John is asking Elizabeth if he can stay is just like a kid asking his mom if he can keep a dog he found

And Ronon has such a sweet smile also I love it when hes happy (but also I love it when hes in pain)

Stargate Atlantis was very well directed because for most definitions of “good acting” you can see “oh this character is sad. Now they are happy” which I do understand that many people prefer this because they have difficulty interpreting facial expressions but I absolutely adore how subtly expressive the actors are because to me it’s fascinating to decode what the character is feeling. They act like real people and talk in the way real people would and it seems super natural and not scripted, and you can just tell in their interactions that the characters care for each other a lot and its beautiful

Now that I’ve said something vaguely scholarly-like its time to move on to the mess of headcanons

Headcanons

So when rewatching season 2 with my sister I realized the amazing potential for angst involving Kell (his old commander who he killed) so in my mind even though he’s very loyal to John at first it was more of a “you saved my life now I’ll watch your back because I owe you” and he had difficulty trusting any of them but especially John this changes over time ofc but he can’t help being wary of command

I also hc that Kell would punish the soldiers in his division for being “unfit” for battle so like if they broke a leg or something they would be punished (this is mostly just for my guilty pleasure of ANGST) so that way they would “be more aware” of their surroundings and whatnot

Also disobey direct orders was a big no no and you know how laid back John usually is with orders so the first time Teyla disobeyed a direct order after Ronon joined the team John was grumbling about it in a way Teyla knew wasn’t serious but Ronon just kind of panicked and started lying his ass off and saying he threatened her into doing it and he should take the punishment which led to an awkward conversation (awkward for Ronon, it left his teammates ready for some murdering)

He hides injuries because he was alone for so long and never had anyone to take care of him so he just forgets that he has to mention it and in his mind some injuries might not be that bad

Beckett is constantly chasing him around after missions desperately trying to get him to hold still for long enough to do a check

Ronon hates pain medicine because it tends to dull his senses so in his mind all the more reason to avoid Beckett

He is really good friends with Beckett but just not when he’s hurt

Usually he wanders into the medbay after bad nightmares if Beckett is on night shift and will just sit there

One time he hesitantly asked if Beckett could check to make sure that the tracker was actually gone for good

Ronon was expecting to get laughed at but Beckett took the request with the upmost seriousness and ran all the tests he could think of to calm Ronon’s fear

One time Ronon stumbled into the medbay and he obviously hadn’t slept in a while and was flinching at every noise so Beckett made up an excuse to “take some blood to test and see if it would be compatible with vaccines for the common sicknesses humans get” and just like. Sedated him. Ronon felt betrayed at first but quickly realized that Beckett only did it because he cared about him and wasworried. He did try to get more sleep after that tho

Oh and you can bet Beckett goes off at him if he ever ends up in the medbay which he does to everyone but especially Ronon because usually he’s either dragged there or he’ll come in like “yeah so three days ago for the last mission I got hit in the side and now I’m coughing up blood so…” and then will just like pass out

While he was a runner he trained himself to be a light sleeper so adjusting to Atlantis was difficult because the ocean would wake him up every night at first

Also thunderstorms are The Worst to him because 1. It gives him PTSD for when he was a soldier and the wraith were attacking and 2. When he was a runner thunderstorms were almost a death sentence because the wraith could track him but he couldn’t hide he couldn’t hear and he couldn’t see so yeah thunderstorms are real bad for him

He has a constant fear of leading the Wraith to his new home and his new family oh also I decided that he doesn’t know if his mother died or not so every place they go he’s hopeful he’ll see her

This is a hc I had before I knew it was basically canon but he and the team hang out in the cafeteria a lot especially after nightmares they just all gravitate there

Also I haven’t gotten here yet so I’m just going off of what I know but he kind of tried to leave after Beckett died because he managed to find a way to blame himself also one of my hcs is that Beckett would tell him about Scotland all the time and had decided that if they ever got the opportunity to go to Earth then Ronon was coming to Scotland with him sooo ehehhe the angst of Ronon going to earth for Beckett’s funeral and going to Scotland with Beckett but not in the way either of them wanted

On to softer hcs just cuz

He loves hugs. 7 years of being alone would make anyone want a hug.

Children gravitate to him for some reason. Logically it doesn’t make sense because he’s so big and a bit intimidating but children just adore him

He carries extra snacks for Rodney

He can’t swim. Somehow he went his entire life without knowing how to swim which Rodney is astounded by and goes on about it for a minute or so

John took it upon himself to give him swimming lessons. John was a terrible teacher but Ronon managed to get the idea

He loves cocoa, specifically loaded with marshmallows. Teyla jokes he likes the marshmallows more than the cocoa

Wow this has gone on so much longer than I thought it would

So that’s it! you unleashed the beast. I now demand to hear your thoughts on ronon because boy oh boy hes a great whumpee and im not sure ive met many if anyone who likes to whumpe him so im super excited!!

#whump #angst #ronon dex #stargate atlantis #headcanons #this was so fun you hav eno idea how long those thoughts have been rattling in my brain with no one to talk to about #asks #ronon whump :)#(:

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of-daisies-and-dandelions · 2 years

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OMG THE LAST ONE, HE SURE IS THE BEST BOY. The jobs option 👉👈 I love it?? What's ur main job for him? And please I'd love to know the story behind him, go ahead and throw everything you've thought!! I adore how ffxiv can make me adore different mcs and yours might be one of the faves I've ever saw hahah big handsome wol vibes, I love it!! ALSO YES. Let's talk about our ocs because I'm also a viera supremacist (female, but still) ♡

gosh you are making me blush!!! ;-;

My main jobs for him currently are Dark Knight, Reaper and Bard. You are so right about how the FF community just keeps making these amazing, beautiful and interesting characters and hearing everyone's stories and backgrounds and personalities for their wols is so nice!

His story is under the cut because it's embarassingly long :')

His story basically starts with another WOL, who I've played since ARR to about level 83 of Endwalker, Mia. A miqote Bard, White Mage and Paladin. She truly was the epitome of a Warrior of Light, kind, caring, would give her all for anyone who needed her, even though she was absolutely riddled with doubts and fears, something which sadly festered over time, Shadowbringers truly was the moment where she broke, not only because of the incredible strain on her physical health, but also her mind (suddenly starting to get flashes from past lives and reliving old wounds, losing new old friends all over again, etc. you know how Shadowbringers is). That led to her growing weaker and weaker up to Endwalker, and shortly after Zenos takes control of the Wol's body, she canonically dies, killed by a blasphemy, while she was out in the field, kind of losing her mind with old memories and aching body from all the light she carried.

At the same time, Cain, who is originally from a different shard, is fed up with his miserable life in the forest with his brothers, who were always awful to him, and finally snaps and leaves, runs away, and as he runs, fast as he can, tears in his eyes, trying to escape his life that he didnt want to live anymore, Hydaelyn, sensing what is about to happen, opens a portal with the last of her strength and transports him to the Source. He runs out of a snowy forest just in time to see Mia being cut down. He runs over to see what is happening, and finds Azem's crystal in her hand, glowing.

Cain communicates with Mia and Ardbert in a little forest clearing inside his mind, where he meets her for the first time and allows her to pass into him. Thus, the two shards of Azem, Mia and Ardbert, are reunited with a third, who is, of course, none other than Cain.

Because they are all technically the same person, they are compatible. However, that is only in theory, because no matter how much people wish for that to be the case, Cain is a person of its own. He carries Mia and Ardbert's memories, feelings, but that is all.

My Azem's shards are based on animals, therefore, Mia was based on a fox, Ardbert is a wolf and Cain is a wild hare. Sometimes, Cain and other people that knew Mia can swear they see a little fox dart in the corner of their eyes, but when they look, there is nothing there.

Azem and all their shards share certain similiarities as well, like not fitting in where they were born and having to carve their own way trough life, amongst other things.

Both her and Ardbert still play a role in the story, interacting with people in their dreams (though that happens so, so rarely, I wanted their death to be actually meaningful, and not be like oh, they are still kicking!!! hahaha), and generally keeping an eye on the people they love as animal spirits. I wanted them to be a comforting presence, in a way.

Cain is immediately thrust into absolute shitstorm, because he had absolutely no time to adjust or get used to his new powers, memories and responsibilities, immediately has to fight Zodiark, which triggers the literal apocalypse, so he's one day on the job and the world is already ending!!! Im sure that's not going to be a major trauma or anything.

He struggles to find his place in Endwalker, and especially post Endwalker. He wanders, trying to find a reason to do this besides his childish dreams of wanting to be a hero, be important, be able to change something. To actually find a reason to continue fighting and understand his place in all of this.

It is in his wanderings, still wielding the bow, which was Mia's preffered weapon, that he learns how to wield a scythe and a greatsword. He learns how to derive strength from his and all the other shards' darkness that he carries, therefore becoming something of an opposite to Mia. Where Mia was the literal embodiment of a Warrior of Light, Cain becomes her mirror and basically acts as a Warrior of Darkness.

That is the main gist of it all. I dont know if this isn't the most cringe thing you have ever read :') I try with all of my characters and stories to make it magical and kind of whimsical in a way, I like to play with the lore and rules given by the world and working with it in a way that still sounds believable, despite obviously having to squint a little.

Thank you so, so much for reading all this mumbo jumbo, I had an exhausting few days and I truly wanted to sit with this and write it with actual class, but I think that would never get done at this rate, so I just wanted to hurl it out of my head and hope it is at least slightly comprehensible hahaha.

Would you like to tell me about your bunny? I would love, LOVE to read anything you have! Thank you for your patience with getting this ask answered ;-; I hope you are doing great and keeping healthy!

P.S. Heres a lil somethin' :D

#nat rambles #answered ask #ffxiv

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mantistog · 4 years

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Hello. 8 and 10 with Sherlock please?

Hoesntlyn fhsdfhs this is my first time writing sherlock and im not sure it went that well but im posting it anyways so eeeeeeeeeeeee ur welcome LOL __________________________________________

Yandere! Sherlock Holmes x Reader: I’ll be whatever you want me to be.

It was in your nature to hate him, as it was in his to one up you. Being police was hard, even more so when you constantly get deprecated by a private detective who doesn’t know when to stay out of other peoples business. After a talk with the army doctor who followed him about, you learned to hate him a bit less (which didn’t mean much). As stated before, it was his nature and John had helped you understand that. You now understood that he needed this as much as you needed a cup of coffee right now. You wondered how Lestrade could even put up with him, or the army doctor who lived with the man. The pity you had for their souls.

Maybe an energy drink would be more fit right now, actually. Whatever with the highest caffeine contents. Sherlock was explaining something about the murder, and at this point you just assumed he’d already solved it so you didn’t bother continuing to work. You simply stood there, wishing you had coffee so you could stay awake during his theatrical and boring speech. You must have been zoning out, cause you jumped half a meter when a pair of fingers snapped right in front of your face. “What the fuck is wrong with you?” You asked Sherlock, ready to get violent if it was not for the presence of Lestrade.

“You of all people should be listening, officer. You could learn a thing or two about solving crimes.” You wondered if he knew he was being condescending, or if he just always sounded like that. There was a shared look between you and his companion doctor, and he just shrugged as an apology. Why was he only like this towards you? Sure, he was always a dick but you felt personally targeted as of recently. To be more precise, it started the first time you had a win. It had just been a normal case, where he had been a bit in over his head. Or maybe distracted. Either way you solved it first, and he had ticked off. Life had been rough since, to be honest.

Trying to not pummel Sherlock was not your forte, so while he was busy belittling Lestrade you snuck out of the police taped area to go get some coffee. As you left with the lovely caffeinated drink you were suddenly pulled into an alley, a hand being shoved over your mouth before you could scream. You were calmed to see it was Sherlock, but not thrilled. He removed his hand when he was sure you were calm enough not to scream. You were 5 seconds from just beating the shit out of him. “I seriously cannot stress how much I want to punch your face. What are you doing?” You asked, leaning in and pointing your finger at him for emphasis.

“You left during a very teaching moment. I was worried you were trying to stay stupid on purpose.” You cringe. There’s no way you’re just going to stand there and listen to him, so you try and push past him. He just steps in front of you. Once again you try and side step him, and he does it again. You look up at him with seething rage. “Sherlock, you better fucking move or I am going to kill you.” He lets out a brief laugh, looking around like he is in disbelief. “Why is this so much harder than I anticipated?”

You cock your head to the side, unsure what he is referring to. Sherlock would never admit to having trouble with anything, so you can’t help but be slightly intrigued. “What are you talking about, Sherlock?” Even you are surprised at the kindness and patience in your voice. There’s a silence, before he looks around again like he is searching for something. Or maybe just avoiding eye contact. “Do you hate me, officer?”

You’re surprised at his question, and you’re not sure you know what to answer. Do you hate him? And if you really do, is it something you should reveal? It’s a heavy question, but with a lot of pent up anger you decide to be truthful. “Well, it’s hard not to innit?” You ask, rhetorically. “Honestly, I didn’t even think you’d care about my opinion on you.” He seems to understand, as his eyes meet yours.

“I think I was being quite obvious.” He says, and once again you’re left confused. The way he talks always assumes that the opposite party knows or understands everything. It’s hard to hold a conversation with him. “Obvious about what, Sherlock?” You ask. He looks at you like your stupid, or you grew a second head. You can’t tell. It makes you frustrated, and you scrunch your eyebrows together trying to keep yourself calm. “I’ve been trying to court you.”

You’re both flabbergasted and angry. What does he think courting means!? Whoever put the idea in his brain that courting starts with verbally abusing someone, was going to get the shit beaten out of them by you personally. “How exactly do you think insulting someone every chance you get will make someone like you? Unbelievable.” You try to walk past him again, but he grabs a hold of your shoulder and shoves you up against the alley wall, holding you in place.

“I was showing my dominance. A compatible partner should show themselves to be able to protect their mate. but…” He looks you over, and it makes you feel very uncomfortable. You might dislike Sherlock but you’d never felt unsafe in his presence. “You’re more remarkable than what an average relationship calls for. I’ll be your slave. If that’s what you want. I can submit to you.” Your mouth flies open, and you can’t help but blush at the slightly sexual undertones in his words. You’re not interested, but you’re unsure how to approach this. The whole interaction has you walking on eggshells.

“No, Sherlock. You misunderstand,” you begin, putting a hand on his chest and pushing a bit to create some distance. “It’s nothing like that! The fact that you think you can just change your approach to a relationship and get a person to like you shows a lot about what you think a relationship is. I’m not interested.” You push him a bit further, ready to leave the very unpleasant conversation behind. You almost feel bad as you look back at him. That is before he talks.

“You’ll come around. After all, I’m the only one who could ever love you.” You turn around, throwing your coffee to the ground and walking a bit closer, seething with rage. You’ve tried to be civil, but this is it. He has to be fucking with you, saying that after saying he was trying to court you. “I’m right. You have a bad attitude and your first response to everything is violence. You should have been falling at my feet for even being interested in you.” His arrogance only fuels you further, despite proving his point if you actually try and beat him up. You can tell he’s expecting you to stop as to not prove him right.

So you throw a good punch, hitting him straight in the face. “I don’t care!” Is all you say as you leave the alley. Sherlock wiped down his face with his hands, trying to stop himself from smiling. Your touch was intoxicating, no matter what form it came in. One day he’d teach you to love him, but for now he was satisfied with your violence.

#Yandere x reader #Yandere sherlock holmes #Yandere sherlock x reader #Yandere sherlock holmes x reader

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lesbiten · 2 years

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HONESTLY YOU'RE RIGHT THOUGH???

Like. I kind of didn't know if I should say it but like. It's frustrating that Fiyero and Elphaba running off together was portrayed as happy???? Honestly, if it was like. Where they genuinely wouldn't have been happy together it's one thing but. It's not??? Elphaba and Fiyero would not have been happy together, and like. They could've been good friends but they weren't the type to be able to imagine each other in their lives together (*cough* One Short Day) ??? Genuinely, it wasn't a happy ending and portraying that it was happy is disingenuous at best???

But honestly the ending felt like it was twisting itself backwards to do... Whatever that was??? It felt like they couldn't go all in on being a meaningful tragedy and so tried to put a happy twist on it that ultimately made the story not as strong???

YEAH YES EXACTLY!!!!

so to focus in specifically on like. the whole thing about how fiyero and elphaba just do not seem like they would at all want to spend the rest of their lives with each other (especially in isolation with literally no one else). i just really want to stress the fact that elphaba and fiyero had interacted, what, maybe like 3 times on screen? and im sure there were offscreen interactions that happened between them, especially with elphaba being best friends with his girlfriend. but at the end of the day...they did not have the time or opportunity to form a meaningful bond. if anything their initial relationship gives off major high school crush vibes that end up going nowhere.

and its just like...so after all those years in isolation, elphaba really came back with fiyero in mind? fiyero put all that effort into becoming part of the royal guard for elphaba? thats their entire character motivations? thats weak as shit!!! and like. yeah maybe working up the ranks to the head of the royal guard gives him a purpose. but would he really still be that in love with elphaba after all that time without her, after he had barely known her to begin with?

it just feels like both of them had to be in love with the Idea of each other more than their actual. like. selves. it feels like they'd probably begin to realize their mistake like a month or so into running away when they're just...not compatible.

glinda and elphaba's relationship had So Much More development. so much more basis and proof that they could overcome such a time gap and still be strong. that elphaba could be gone for years and glinda could see her and without a second thought, run up and hug her. because they actually had a relationship!! whether you interpret it as romantic or platonic!! elphaba and fiyero were acquaintences at best!!

ok. so now Unfocusing from that. and onto the weird twist. that is a very good way to put it!! it feels like the intention was to like...i don't know. its hard to say. its hard to look at the visual of glinda being heartbroken and isolated away from the town, even physically just by being above them in her bubble, and at the same time watch elphaba and fiyero walk away happily and try to understand what in the hell they were trying to do.

are we supposed to believe that glinda is going to be happy afterwards? that her little ending speech to comfort the town was also a sign of her own personal hope for the future? if it was, its just. so evident that she doesn't believe it. once again, it's just the Glinda the Good facade in order to placate the town.

#hmmm usually i ramble more in the tags but i think i got out all the thoughts in this one. satisfied #asks #anon

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