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Janbi, JC & Bibi

Janis: [not you having to rush home in your club/date night outfit to tell all these tweens and teens to fuck off home right now lmao, definitely attempting to not even look at Libi because we don’t want to talk to you rn but I’m sure you aren’t going to just let that happen]

Libi: [picture the absolutely shaming scene of her dancing with some random boy who she’s probably about to kiss and then the lights go on and the music stops and Janis is telling everyone to gtfo, I die, and her utter confusion of like what are you doing here in the way only drunk people genuinely can have no clue about what’s occurring lol]

Janis: [oh babes, it’s not the mood, it’s really not, we’ll be here with the ‘Partys over’ which we’re saying in general so everyone here gets the memo but directing this as much at you as we can without actually talking to you]

Libi: [it’s the immediate sulking for me as if she is 4 again, in the way that drunk peeps don’t even know they’re being such annoying big babies, just like no no stop, the party can’t be over yet vibes as if this isn’t her house and you aren’t this close to being arrested gal]

Janis: [literally telling people to ignore her ‘cos this is not your house and you have no say in this at all hun, slamming that front door when everyone is out because it won’t be hard to scare away some children]

Libi: [literally trying to show Janis all her footage + rambling on like listen it can’t end like this, girl I know you can’t read the room in your current state but please read the room, she don’t wanna see none of that rn]

Janis: [the temptation to smash whatever you’re recording on would be SO real we’re having to eyeball it aggressively to not rip it from your hands and do that, just turn away and pick something up even though you have NO intention of cleaning up this mess because fuck that ‘it’s out of my hands, you got shut down’ not like I would let you keep partying vibes obvs but just trying to get through to you in the most obvious and slow voice like it’s done, give it up delicious]

Libi: [obvs starting to cry because it feels like the greatest injustice in the world ever for her atm and like everything in her life is shit and she can’t have anything etc etc, we all know it’s also because she’s been holding that in since the Bobby convo, however long ago that was compared to this but]

Janis: [get out some of this pent-up fury by throwing things off the sofa and throwing a blanket and pillow at it like there you go because we cannot start or we will not stop and it’s a pointless and thankless conversation that we don’t wanna be having because we’ve just been made homeless, which we will have to tell Casey when he gets back if we can manage to hold off in texts because obviously, he knows you had to rush off but probably not the whole shebang yet]

Libi: [hug this pillow to get out some of your sad hun, and then inevitably Chubby instead when he comes to sit by you because he knows you are ‘Don’t hate me too’ just a lil plea at her because Bobby hates us and we can’t deal]

Janis: [‘nobody hates you, Libi’ but in that tired, sick of this way you talk to a child who has really wound you up but you’re not gonna get on the level and have your own tantrum, however tempting it is ‘you just made a massive fucking mistake’ more of a trying to calm self down vibe to saying this out loud because obviously, we know there was malice in this but we’re trying not to make that equate to you wanting us to be homeless because you couldn’t have predicted that outcome]

Libi: [‘Yeah they do, he does’ when it’s a sob on the he for obvious reasons but you’re too drunk to not be that blatant about this ‘you sound like him, except he called me all sorts, and you’re at least trying not to’]

Janis: [‘Bobby is being an asshole too’ true that but that is about as interested as we can be in this tonight, soz hun but its registering low on our list of concerns, go to the kitchen which I imagine as being in the same room as the lounge vibes and find a clean glass to get some water, just letting that tap run for longer than is needed because when you run out of tasks you have nothing to focus on but your own worry]

Libi: [if you knew you’d made them homeless you’d be more concerned about that but you don’t realise that’s gonna happen yet so we’ll let you off, just telling Chubby everything that Bobby said, repeating yourself I’m sure because what drunk person doesn’t]

Janis: [again the petty urge to drag Chubby away from her like LEAVE HIM ALONE, resist, resist lmao, you must try to be an adult here, put this water down beside her and grunt out the ‘get some sleep’ before shutting yourself in your bedroom because what else can you do]

Libi: [actually taking your life in your hands by coming in at some point and getting in bed with her the way you did when you were a child but we all know it’s going to happen even if it’s hours later because I guarantee she’ll have tried to lie down/been lying down for a bit but then felt sick and been sick because again, drunk vibes, and you automatically want to be comforted in that sort of scenario, however angry you know Janis is, giving it the ‘I’m sorry, please don’t be mad’ as if it’s that simple]

Janis: [doing the world’s biggest sigh because you really do not want to do this but not doing it is more of a hassle than just dealing with the discomfort of having to so just letting her and stroking her hair]

Libi: [thank god Janis isn’t squeamish because this is a tiny flat and you would’ve heard her throwing up for however long and that’s just honestly grim, especially when someone’s also crying at the same time, bringing back everyone’s fave drunk Grace mems here Libi, if you could stop that we’d all appreciate it ‘I just wanted to have a happy birthday’ absolutely breaking my heart with how sad and defeated she sounds]

Janis: [will have to warn Casey that that has yet to be cleaned up because we have to stay here and let you snuggle us ‘I know’ because we do and we also know you did not have one, however momentarily distracted you were]

Libi: [‘Would I have, if I’d been born on time?’ like please tell me things will be better a couple of months from now because I can’t cope with how shit they are rn]

Janis: [‘Better’ because there’s no sense in telling you the truth of I don’t know right now]

Libi: [‘It’s not fair’ because it isn’t that your bday is falling at the worst time]

Janis: [‘Nope’ with a shade more spice behind it than there would be if we were purely being comforting but you’re drunk you ain’t gonna know]

Libi: [‘But I made a friend, her life’s shit too’ like hey silver lining]

Janis: [a noise like there you go then ‘not [that boy she was dancing with] then’ like who even was that lol]

Libi: [a genuine look like ??! who because who even was he for real, gurl do you know, what was the craic but then gloss over it how drunk peeps can and do like ‘Boys ARE bad at flirting’ aka my bestie was so right and so real for that one even though Janis was not privy to that convo so that doesn’t track for anyone but you sis, and just tell her everything about America, all the tea including the Mr Lucas detention and everything y’all have been up to and all the goss she told you about Gaz because no filter rn]

Janis: [‘Sure, I remember her’ because we are familiar with the family sis ‘you shouldn’t have gone to that detention’ like I would have got you out of it, like we would’ve planned something fun for your birthday if you were communicating with us properly]

Libi: [‘He’d have kept me for more of them if I didn’t go, maybe on my own’ like that’s a hard no thank you sir, because he deffo would, he is that bitch]

Janis: [‘not without valid reason he wouldn’t’ like no no]

Libi: [‘skipping the first detention would be a valid reason, any excuse to assert his disrespected authority, easier to get in, it done and then myself out only once’]

Janis: [just shaking our head but not saying anything like oh okay hun, you know best]

Libi: [‘not your baby’ in the sassy way you’d say it to a lad trying to badly flirt with you except we’re very much saying we know we’re not your problem and you have bigger, literally including a baby on the way, love how it contradicts to how you’re being snuggled as if you are, who’s the hypocrite now, huh? Lol]

Janis: [‘like mum wouldn’t also call and get you out of it’ because yes, this entire fam is that bitch, true]

Libi: [‘I handled it’ because this entire fam is also that bitch, we know]

Janis: [another noise because we’ve seen how you’re handling things tonight and how well that’s gone for us all]

Libi: [‘uncalled for’ even though it isn’t but I get what you’re saying, in the sense of this detention you didn’t get molested which is a win, but that makes her think of the Bobby convo and what he said that she said that in response to, so going v quiet]

Janis: [just letting the silence sit for a moment because we don’t have to immediately jump on this and turn it into a dramatic moment, wouldn’t be helpful and we’re also not inclined to ‘he’s facing a lot of shit they haven’t faced since he was a baby’ like he’s going to be in a bad mood]

Libi: [‘If I thought he was facing up to anything I wouldn’t mind, he isn’t though, he’s burying his head in playing nurse, a job which isn’t even his to do’ Where’s the lie tbh? Nothing is being addressed yet and we all know it]

Janis: [‘he’s facing up to the fact I left and so did both his parents, he can’t avoid it’ because that is an unavoidable reality for them right now]

Libi: [the kind of sad sound you do before you cry some more, because that is sad and we hate that he’s doing this all alone when he doesn’t have to and how that’s become unavoidable too]

Janis: [shrugging, not to be a callous bitch but just like yeah, I know]

Libi: [just have your little cry for a sec here ‘you really fucked everything up’ pot kettle miss but]

Janis: [getting up with a sigh ‘yep’ again like mhmm, I’m aware, go clean up that vomit hun, tis preferable]

Libi: [I hope you at least made it to the bathroom vaguely Libi, it’s not very far away, I know damn well you’re gonna fall asleep here, the audacity when it is not your bed and that is not your dog to snuggle and Casey is gonna have to carry you to the sofa or leave you there and have nowhere to put himself when he gets home, rude]

Janis: [Ahh the hot mess of it all, we are not equipped to deal with teenagers when we’ve barely stopped being one ourselves]

Libi: [Literally, Casey is 21 years old, get out of his house, gal, he was so happy here how dare you]

Janis: [was having a lovely night, God knows what he thinks is going on]

Libi: [he’s defs not expecting to made homeless that quick, that’s for sure, what fun that’ll be, thanks Libi, thank god there is that flat above the pub to move into quickly or else he’d never forgive you hun, really coming for his life and you’ve still got to throw yourself at him yet]

Janis: [yikes]

Libi: [do you wanna skip to the AM on this or do some jc first?]

Janis: [it might make sense to do some JC because I see no world in which you’re just leaving this lol]

Libi: [my thoughts exactly, I’ll have him message her like after she’s had the phone call and rushed off but had enough time to go home]

Casey: What were the landlord after, ringing you at that time, must’ve had a break in or some bollocks

Janis: Not a break-in, be disappointed by the lack of good shit to nick if it was, like

Casey: dog’s still there then, is he

Janis: ‘course, though his guard dog abilities are still in question

Casey: go on then, tell us

Janis: Libi decided to throw herself a party, must have took a risk on me not being there in that plan but that’s where any planning ended

Casey: at ours, how the fuck did she even get herself in, she had a key off you I don’t know about

Janis: emergencies happen, though yeah, regret that decision now

Casey: you never said, I’d have what a shit idea it’d be

Janis: I said, I know

Casey: keeping your mouth shut about how massive of a go [the landlord’s name] had though, like I dunno by that if nowt else

Janis: I thought it was the sort of thing that should be said in person

Casey: right, that bad

Janis: mission accomplished for her, I suppose

Casey: she’ll wanna take herself on the mission it is to set off back home before I get there

Janis: She’s in no state to go anywhere

Casey: and I ain’t in one to give a fuck, get her out my sight, I’m serious

Janis: Let me sort this

Casey: like how you kicked it off by chucking her a key

Janis: because I didn’t want her walking the streets ‘cos they won’t have her over

Casey: she’s got somewhere to live, more than us both by the sounds of

Janis: I can’t undo the decision, I can talk to the landlord in the morning

Casey: fuck’s sake, how much notice have we been given before we need to piss off out of it

Janis: How longs a piece of string, they wouldn’t want us to complain about not being given the fair amount of time

Casey: alright, that’s something

Janis: She’ll be asleep when you get in, you don’t have to talk to her or see her, alright

Casey: have to be, won’t it

Janis: I’m not driving her anywhere, she did this to me, I’m handling it

Casey: go handle it then

Janis: [do that]

Casey: [this poor boy having to finish his shift absolutely fuming, please don’t do anything, we don’t need you getting sacked as well]

Janis: [thanks again, girl, we’re all having a great time]

Casey: [it’s only his 2nd night at this new job and oh the drama, come back home when you’re done and GLARE at the closed bedroom door because that’s obviously where Libi is, refusing to look anywhere else, especially at Janis or at the carnage everywhere in this gaff that was his home sweet home]

Janis: [when you wanna shout I’M SORRY but that is fixing absolutely nothing and we all know it, just been sat here stewing casually because like fuck are we cleaning up the mess when the damage has been done and is so much worse than some party shennanigans]

Casey: [when he would start cleaning because he’s that bitch and this is how he copes, we all remember, but also because he’s thinking the landlord will let them stay there like a month or something before they had to leave because that’s what a decent landlord would do]

Janis: [soz we would be convinced we could make that happen, we’re not purposefully lying about it to stop an argument, because it is bullshit but you know; speaking of we all remember, this is reminding us far too much of the terrible times back at the JJ residence and the potential we may have to beg Jimothy to at least let us stay is making us wanna puke so go to the bathroom because can’t deal with any of this rn]

Casey: [I’d like to take a moment to remind everyone they’ve both barely slept and how much worse that would be making everything feel, and now they can’t even go to bed, ffs Libi, just have your respective moments, him cleaning up and her trying not to throw up]

Janis: I’m sorry she’s a bitch, she’s related to me

Casey: I’ve been her age and as fed up of it

Janis: doesn’t change how fucked up this was

Casey: I fucked her perfect life up for her first, expect no less, like

Janis: right so I’m the idiot for expecting more

Casey: least she had the balls to do something, makes one of them

Janis: there’s nothing impressive about it, it’s entirely sad

Casey: never said I were impressed by it, said I get it

Casey: she’s a lass, not like she can square up to me no other way

Janis: It’s only a fraction about us but we’re the ones with a fucked up life from it

Casey: fraction of what we deserve for what we done, we both know it

Janis: bullshit

Casey: how is it

Janis: We’ve done sod all to them, it’s Jimmy’s fucking pain not theirs

Janis: if anyone gets to use it like a weapon

Casey: he never will do, they might as well, them who’ve gotta live with him

Janis: no

Casey: he’s related to me, and like me, he spreads his pain about so every dickhead can feel it

Janis: I don’t care, there’s no excuse for it

Janis: she can sleep it off and then she can go

Casey: won’t catch us fighting her corner, I’ve said she’d already be gone if it was up to us

Janis: I’m not putting myself in the wrong to detract from her guilty conscience

Casey: well done, I’m not bothered where I put myself ‘cause she’s fucked my chances of it being bed

Janis: wouldn’t blame you if you went back out

Casey: yeah you would

Janis: I wouldn’t be anywhere near her if I could avoid it so, no

Casey: I’d rather be near her than away from you

Janis: you’re still mad at us too

Casey: just that you’re chucking keys about without telling me

Janis: she wanted to see the dog, it seemed harmless

Casey: she could’ve walked in on all sorts since she’s had it, how harmless is that

Janis: I reckon she knows that

Casey: next time, warn us

Janis: there isn’t going to be a next time

Casey: probably be living in a doorway instead, how it’s going

Janis: we won’t

Casey: this place wasn’t easy to sort, no use pretending it were

Casey: I dunno what we’re gonna do when the landlord wants us out

Janis: I’ll think of it

Casey: it ain’t your fault, there’s no need for you to reckon on fixing it all yourself, I’m not blaming you, girl, I don’t

Janis: I gave her the key

Casey: you said it yourself, you thought better of her than this

Casey: I love you for that, you know I do

Janis: don’t

Casey: you heard

Janis: it’s my fault she could, I feel so fucking stupid

Casey: I love you so fucking much, none of it changes my mind, it makes it up

Casey: she wishes she were the person you reckoned on her as, us an’ all, we don’t deserve who you are or how much you care

Janis: come here?

Casey: [do, appear and sit next to her on this bathroom floor]

Janis: [give him a dramatic hug because fuck all this]

Casey: [giving it back as dramatically, only pulling back eventually enough so he can do the checking her over thing they always do, and look down at this toilet to see if she’s been sick or not because of course he cares and needs to know]

Janis: [we are not okay and we’re embarrassed at how blatant that is on our face honestly, rubbing our eyes furiously ‘cos nah, sod crying when you’re just so fuming, shake your head when he looks over at the loo ‘let her have it’]

Casey: [cupping her face so soft and giving her the most caring eye contact of all time before he rubs her eyes really really gently because soz Libi we could not give less of a fuck about you rn hun, this is our only priority]

Janis: [just repeating over and over how you’re going to fix this in a quiet voice because that is the only way we know how to deal, by promising to sort everything like it’ll be easy]

Casey: [shhing her but in a it’s okay I still love you even if you can’t fix this sort of way not a stfu one, because he isn’t jimothy he doesn’t need her to promise that never mind have to feel the pressure to follow through on it when it isn’t her fuck up]

Janis: [putting a finger up to his lip like no you shh ‘believe me’ because we need to hear that you still do ‘no more cunty landlords, no more shit neighbours or broken things’]

Casey: [a nod cos we all know he trusts her with his life ‘long as you believe us I’m with you no matter what, there’s no need to bribe me with none of that’ said like everything she just said was ruster levels of boujee for the bants or we’ll simply die from how many emotions we have]

Janis: [do a small lol like alright then ‘you didn’t deserve this’ and resting our head on your shoulder because you didn’t and it was mean]

Casey: [‘nor you’ doing a feelsy lean because he didn’t mean that he was just upset and feeling like he can’t have anything either, see Libi you bitch you’re not the only one, stroking her hair in what’s probably a very similar way to how she was stroking Libi’s earlier because full circle and everything is cinematic]

Janis: [‘sorry there’s no one lurking for you to kick out’ operative word being the kick there ‘trying to remember knocking sense into kids don’t work’ because ooh girl, we are fuming]

Casey: [literally, if she hadn’t been asleep when he got back he’d have hit her and I couldn’t have stopped him, hence he’s not saying anything rn cos it’s too real, he’s just trying to be with her and calm down slightly]

Janis: [squeezing your forearms with both our hands as hard as we can lowkey because we get it, giving him a by comparison soft as hell kiss too]

Casey: [giving her a v soft and loving headbutt because yeah, they both have a lot of pent up shit thanks to that little cow in the other room lol ‘she’s right out for the count, let’s just’ a pause, whilst you try and decide if you wanna go for a run or go and hit something but in a safe way at a 24 hour gym, cos you know she’ll follow your thinking even if you don’t finish that sentence]

Janis: [‘she ain’t gonna wake up and start over’ like yeah, she’s definitely done for the night, thank fuck lol ‘it’s not like she came here to be looked after’ with a shrug like we can do what we want, slightly immature but we’ll allow it, doing a forehead lean]

Casey: [get up and pull her up, kissing her, harder than the one she gave him but still not really dramatic, when he of course ends up also pulling her into and really close to him, because thank god she said yes, we stan healthy ways of coping being suggested and implemented]

Janis: [letting yourself have a moment to just be with him as if everything is normal and back to the way it was because fake it ‘til you make it and there isn’t any point sitting here all night seething, you’re better to try lads ‘let me go get you some clothes’ after kissing you again, ‘cos you can’t do anything sporty in your work attire]

Casey: [a look like get yourself some which is also a shameless excuse to check out the gloriousness of her date and clerb fit once more because in all the drama it’s easy to forget how hot she looks and I’m sure some of the teen boys at that party never will lol]

Janis: [thought something was really about to pop off, unlucky lads, just giving you heart eyes and a smile like ‘was the plan’ ‘cos lord knows you’d look VERY odd trying to go for a run or to the gym in whatever you’re wearing too lol]

Casey: [him giving her a smack on the arse like off you go how men weirdly do in sports lol, I know they probably wanna hit things but realistically I think we’re gonna have to say y’all go for a run and take Chubby cos when she opens that bedroom door to get clothes that lil boy is gonna wake up and come bimbling out and see that Casey is home and be BUZZING]

Janis: [ah the homoerotic nature of sports, love to see it, like this dog with this boy, coming out with your fits in a bag or whatever and rolling your eyes like that settles that then, throwing his clothes at him like better get changed now then]

Casey: [the way he’d be loving upon this dog, because even though they are only tweens and teens it’s yet again like so soz I’ve put you in a chaotic situation when all I wanna do is give you a happy and settled home, is BREAKING MY HEART ACTUALLY, so yeah put your clothes on by literally doing a strip in front of her rn because I won’t separate a boy and his dog at this trying time]

Janis: [good thing he’s a social happy-go-lucky man ‘cos that would’ve freaked out some animals, even if no one was a dick because it’s so loud and overstimulating, this girl here equal parts 🥺 and 😍 watching you]

Casey: [mhmm, all my dogs would’ve hated it, and fuck you fr if you’d done that and he wasn’t this social king, Libi, we’d have even more serious beef, get this dog ready to go boy and don’t look at her because if you do we all know what’ll happen and it won’t be y’all going for a run]

Janis: [put your own clothes on and stop staring, miss ma’am, because whilst that would also help y’all destress, it would not be quiet enough I am so sure]

Casey: [we’ll let you do it post-run if we can, y’all have hooked up in the park before so you’re not gonna be opposed wherever you are, besides I love that you’re gonna work out together again cos you clearly used to but it’s been a minute]

Janis: [a solid vibe boo bear, we love to see it even though we wish it was under better circumstances]

Casey: [I’m so proud of both of them for not losing it at Libi though, seriously well done, lads, that’s growth, and you’ll end up having a good time, despite it not being the turn you thought your night would take]

Janis: [at least you can leave the house now the situation has been put to bed with that gal because there’s nothing more for you 2 to do tonight so go run it out and you can probably do some screaming if you feel like ‘cos it’s late enough]

Casey: [yeah, there’ll be nobody about much I’m sure, live your best lives, whatever you need to do, and when you come back he’ll chuck Libi like a sack of potatoes onto the sofa and y’all and Chubby can snuggle and pretend like it’s just any other night]

Janis: [winnie said like boycat the fat flump, at least drink does put you in that deep sleep ‘cos we don’t need you trying to crawl in again that would be very awkward for everyone involved lol]

Casey: [god imagine, no no, you’re staying asleep gal and not waking up until they decide to wake you to kick you out when Janis has gotta go to work and everything, thanks very much]

Janis: [you best be ready to grovel lmao]

Casey: [do you wanna skip to that now or is there anything else we need to do first?]

Janis: [I reckon we good]

Libi: I don’t know what to say

Janis: I bet you don’t

Libi: It’s new territory for loads of reasons

Janis: There’s a basic you might want to start with, that shouldn’t be that hard

Libi: I am sorry, you have to know that already, right?

Libi: I’m so sorry

Janis: I don’t know anything anymore

Janis: how can you genuinely say you had no idea that could happen

Libi: It was just a party, some people from school, nothing as crazy as anything mum would do

Janis: She lived in the middle of nowhere, as you’re well aware

Libi: Yeah, okay, it got a bit more out of control than it should’ve

Libi: when I did

Janis: I trusted you with a key because I was worried about you

Libi: I know you trusted me, but don’t say you’ve been worried, that isn’t true

Janis: Yes, it is, don’t you dare try to turn this around when you’re the one who has made us homeless

Libi: We haven’t spoken for ages, it’s not spin, it’s how things are

Janis: Because you are not speaking, you don’t want to

Janis: you can’t choose to do that and act as if it’s a valid excuse for you to do that, nothing would be

Libi: There’s no valid excuse for you to forget all about me while you go and play happy families with Case either, I lost mine cos of you and then you leave me as well

Janis: Make it clearer how unsorry you are

Libi: You too

Janis: I’ve told you, I’m not sorry and I’m not going to apologize for splitting from my husband

Libi: What about since? Where are you? You give me a key and expect that to make everything okay, but I’m not welcome anywhere

Janis: You used that key to throw a fucking party when I wasn’t there, you want to talk about being welcome, that isn’t how you behave when you want an invite, Libi

Libi: You’re never there anymore, and I’m so fucking lonely always now, I wanted to not be

Janis: and I wasn’t lonely, Case wasn’t, none of you gave a fuck about us then

Libi: You kept it from me, you should’ve told me

Janis: It was apparent to anyone who didn’t benefit from looking away

Libi: No, you shut me out and deliberately left me arm’s length away from what was actually happening, that’s what you do

Janis: It would be me doing it, not you lot

Libi: It is you misleading me and then getting upset cos you reckon I’m not looking in none of the proper places

Janis: If you don’t know what unhappy looks like then a lot of fucking people have failed you for you to be that bloody oblivious

Libi: I can recognise a rough patch, that doesn’t mean I’d call it as being the end of everything

Libi: you failed each other, nothing to do with my vision

Janis: And so what if we did? You get to act like a spoilt brat and treat me like shit for it? Nah, you thought wrong if that was the plan

Libi: I didn’t have a grand or evil plan, I only wanted to celebrate my birthday, to try and have some fun again

Janis: In my flat, that isn’t irrelevant, you did that for a reason

Libi: I had a key, you weren’t there and neither were a farmyard full of assorted animals

Janis: it was so fucking selfish

Libi: Well, you started it

Janis: not good enough

Libi: And you told me kids are allowed to be selfish and oblivious, that that’s all childhood is

Janis: and kids aren’t left to their own devices to throw stupid parties, think again about me trusting you like that ever again

Libi: I’ll think about it instead of the reasons I have not to trust you, be a nice change

Janis: If you started this expecting an ounce of sympathy

Janis: you’re sad, I have nowhere to live, it’s not the same fucking ballpark

Libi: I didn’t, in the competition of how miserable everybody is, I always come last

Janis: Poor you

Libi: Why do you think I tried to do something different? It backfired massively, alright, but I had to try

Janis: No one here has an issue with you having a party

Janis: you should’ve asked, you know you didn’t because you wanted to fuck us over, even if not to the level you have

Libi: I didn’t want you to be homeless, I don’t

Libi: but I’ll make it right, talk to granddad, the flat’s got nobody in, I’ll tell him he has to let you both stay

Janis: Is it?

Libi: I get why you wouldn’t want to be there and have nan in your business but it won’t be forever

Janis: I’m not in a position to be fussy

Libi: I’ll sort it, promise

Janis: I can talk to him myself now but thanks for letting me know

Libi: At least let me talk to nan, she’ll listen to me and keep out of your way

Janis: what do you reckon you’re going to say

Libi: You don’t need my script line by line, I haven’t done anything to make her fuming at me, I’m still her favourite

Janis: I mean do what you want, I’m not bothered by her or anyone else

Libi: Casey’s bothered, very bothered

Janis: you reckon

Libi: Yeah, I have lived with him myself

Janis: right, barely

Janis: it’s not like you paid him much attention or he was there that often

Libi: It don’t even matter, he’s a man and nan’s a hater of most of them, wouldn’t you rather avoid anything kicking off? That’s where I’ll come in and you’ll know I’m sorry

Janis: I’m an adult who don’t have to explain anything to anyone

Janis: and nan has successfully cockblocked 0 people in her life but

Janis: alright

Libi: You can be in her good books for all the teen pregnancies you will have prevented last night anyway

Janis: yeah, no one at that party was getting laid

Libi: Hopefully not, I don’t need that on my conscience

Janis: I weren’t pissed, I saw, no one there was far enough into puberty to worry about

Libi: Good, I banned anyone too old

Janis: alright, trying to show you’ve still got some sense

Libi: I’ve spent enough time avoiding Lucas lately without adding loads of other boys who aren’t really no more age appropriate than him and wouldn’t be as easy to murder if I had to, accidentally or otherwise, to the list

Libi: I’ve as much trust in them to behave, after being told how pretty I am and the rest, as you’ve got in me

Janis: it’s something and we’ll have to take it

Libi: I seriously didn’t mean for this, it was only supposed to be a distraction, which maybe hurt you a little bit, but not this much

Janis: I’ll believe you

Libi: I had too many drinks, you can believe I won’t do that again

Janis: less inclined but if it takes you a while to want to give it another go

Libi: I don’t want to, ever

Libi: I didn’t want to last night, but he said some things that hurt me a lot

Janis: I need to talk to Jimmy about him

Libi: I need to talk to someone about being homeschooled

Janis: he needs more support than the school has provided, it needs to be sorted for the pair of you

Libi: The school provides more support for sex offenders, I don’t think any of us are holding our breath

Janis: We haven’t exactly pushed the issue though, not before

Libi: I’m not buzzing about the idea of pushing it now, and why we finally are

Janis: If anything, you’ve got your exams this year, and leavers is more intense after, you both need to do your own work

Libi: He can write, he’s not illiterate, exams aren’t the issue

Libi: and it isn’t you who’d have to stand there and say you don’t wanna do this anymore

Janis: that isn’t the point at all

Janis: I’m fairly certain it borders on illegal anyway

Libi: The point is it’ll be the end of us

Libi: it’s the only time he talks to me at all

Janis: he might be more inclined to actually talk to you if he doesn’t have to

Janis: dependence isn’t close to anything you really want

Libi: I want things to stop changing in ways that are horrible

Janis: this would be a good change

Libi: You can’t promise me that

Janis: yeah, I can

Janis: it’s a pressure neither of you is benefitting from

Libi: Are you actually going to talk to Jim about Bobby?

Janis: among other things

Libi: I’m sorry for the parts which are my fault then, too

Janis: it’d be necessary anyway

Janis: but you should probably apologize to him, he’ll be the one who doesn’t want to talk to me at all

Libi: I don’t think he’ll feel like talking to me either

Janis: the reaction will be less visceral

Libi: 👍 can be pretty heartbreaking in the right, or wrong, context

Janis: yeah

Libi: You did it to me and I’ve done it back

Janis: I think we all have every way we can

Libi: Never again, along with drowning my sorrows

Janis: I’ll try

Libi: It’s alright, we’re not going to talk for a while, I get it

Janis: I do have a lot I need to sort out now, more than I did

Libi: Yeah

Janis: I’ll let you know, what Jimmy says about Bobby and all that

Libi: I’ll be able to work it out, from what happens or doesn’t happen

Janis: Alright then

Libi: I’m not doing a 👋 that’s almost as bad

Janis: We’ll talk soon

Libi: The birthday card should be in the post by now, no take backs

Janis: obviously the plan, as I’m so busy

Libi: So gutted you can’t take your euros out, more like

Janis: need every penny, like

Libi: I’ll give them back via granddad, he’s still trustworthy

Janis: as he ever was

Libi: 😶 or I’ll end up without my [whatever they’re getting you] too

Janis: might be an idea to behave now, yeah

Libi: You don’t need to tell me, you already have how badly I fucked everything up

Janis: I mean, yeah, you were too pissed to take it in before

Libi: Please don’t feel the need to tell me all about that either

Libi: god, how 😳

Janis: yeah well how pathetic you looked did stop me smacking you so, silver linings, girl

Libi: I’ll take it over details which would definitely cause an asthma attack on this bus, not that I’m using emotional blackmail again this soon, obviously

Janis: Another time, then

Libi: Never is cool, forget you ever saw me in such a state

Janis: you wish, you mess

Libi: I’m not wasting my candles on it under the circumstances, but yeah

Janis: lesson learnt works for me

Libi: Very unfair of the life I have to live now not to have a rewind, pause or stop

Janis: join the club, kid

Libi: No tah, the members all think I’m a dick

Janis: suppose it’s better to be surrounded by lads who tell you you’re pretty

Libi: A girl told me first, why we’re friends, no other reason

Janis: uhuh, yes man sounded close to what you described

Libi: Oh, go on and erase everything I said along with how pathetic you reckon I looked/acted

Janis: locked away for blackmail purposes if you fuck me over again, naturally

Libi: I won’t

Libi: There is a lad who keeps messaging me though 🤞 he hasn’t got anything he can blackmail me with

Janis: It looked PG when I walked in, doubt it

Libi: Saved by the fuming family member

Janis: You’re so welcome

Libi: From the look of his insta I’m sure I am

Janis: 😬

Libi: My hormones can piss right off, they’re not allowed to drive no more

Janis: it gets easier

Janis: maybe

Libi: Doubt it, going off every terrible role model I have around

Janis: Tah

Libi: I’m moving to London with that lot right now, fuck this

Janis: because they’re excellent role models?

Libi: No, but I can do a massive reinvention and let it stick

Janis: of a hormoneless teenage girl, good luck

Libi: And their exams are different, I could start school over as well

Janis: its a pipe dream, I would know

Libi: You’ve just reminded me, I told Bobs I hoped he had nightmares

Libi: so that’s great

Janis: Was it warranted?

Libi: He was being a dickhead, but you know what I was behaving like

Janis: lose lose then

Libi: The new normal for all of us

Janis: Speak for yourself, sad sack

Libi: I can’t speak for you, I wouldn’t have the first clue how to be as aggro

Janis: Well when you get your first place, I’ll be sure to come ‘round and get you kicked out

Janis: give you a fair go

Libi: Looking forward to it

Janis: uhuh 👌👌

Libi: Are you planning to wear the same outfit or? I will if you do

Janis: I didn’t get the memo about the theme from the landlord, oddly enough

Janis: and not sure I’ve got anything that is very toddler’s tea party so will have to

Libi: At least you picked up on it

Janis: I’ve got eyes and remember what you looked like

Libi: It was a last minute decision but still a better one than most Met Gala themes

Janis: don’t need to tell me how mental fashion is

Libi: A trip down memory lane isn’t improving anybody’s mood, I’ve realised that, yeah

Janis: not so much memory lane, just considering getting back into it

Libi: 👌 like you’re not 👵 as far as the modelling world is concerned

Janis: Um yeah but I don’t look like one ‘cos I didn’t do coke or have an eating disorder, tah

Libi: Good luck with it then, and congrats for the lack of drug abuse and mental illness, obviously

Janis: what

Libi: ?

Janis: why are you being funny about it, like you don’t know why I need more money

Libi: I’m not, it’s your life

Janis: yeah, right

Libi: And you think I don’t know Casey at all, so you probably won’t ever have a single row about it

Janis: we don’t row

Libi: Not yet

Janis: you’re so right, obviously going to break us

Libi: I didn’t say that, but tah for how reassuring you were

Janis: Another pipe dream isn’t gonna do you any favours

Libi: Right, I’ll just keep on living in fear for you

Janis: He’s never once hurt me, don’t be ridiculous

Libi: Yeah, it’s ridiculous he could, I’m sorry, how dare I

Janis: So could anyone but he hasn’t and he won’t

Libi: 🎂🤞🌠🙏🔮

Janis: Just stop

Libi: No

Janis: I trust him, I know him better than anyone

Libi: You love him, meaning you’re massively biased

Janis: Well that’s stupid, that’s what a relationship is, with anyone you love, you trust them and think the best

Janis: so what, go through life being close to no one so you can be objective? That worked really well, been there, done it

Libi: You’re happy enough to call me stupid and point out Bobby’s flaws, here I am returning the favour

Janis: no, because you don’t love him, you just point out his flaws, all of you

Janis: I’ve done a fucking shit ton for you and Bobby and Jimmy, I reserve every right to point out when you’re being dickheads, like I do with him

Libi: I don’t love him cos he scares me, that shouldn’t need pointing out

Janis: And when has he ever laid hands on you

Libi: Is that supposed to be my cut off? Everything else is okay as long as he doesn’t hit me? I don’t fucking think so

Janis: He doesn’t pander to you, that’s the real issue

Libi: No, it’s that he throws things, breaks others, and he does hurt people, even if they aren’t me or you, it’s that he’s volatile and you make excuses for him, you always have

Janis: I don’t give up and shun, it isn’t the same thing

Libi: Do you think I want to?

Libi: but it’s terrifying, okay? It is

Janis: I really don’t know how you would’ve coped

Libi: What does that mean?

Janis: Use your head or forget about it, this is ridiculous

Libi: Tell me

Janis: Nothing

Libi: It’s clearly something, you have something you want to say, so go on

Janis: If I had anything to say, I’d say it, when have I not

Janis: you’re trying to start another fight because you’re entirely in the wrong in this one

Libi: I care about you, it is putting me in the wrong right now, with you and Bobby, but I’m not going to stop

Janis: You didn’t care enough to not throw that party, don’t saint yourself, it’s really not going to bring him ‘round

Libi: I made a mistake, I’ve said sorry

Janis: It isn’t a mistake where sorry is fucking good enough, Libi

Janis: Jesus, just

Libi: I know but what else can I do? I’ve told you about the flat

Janis: We need to not speak, you’re right

Janis: because all you’ve done since saying the word is try to make this about my failings, Casey’s

Janis: the timing couldn’t be worse

Libi: You need to know why I did it, what you’ve both done and then walked away from off into the sunset together

Janis: We haven’t done anything to you

Libi: It’s you really thinking that’s true that’s the most fucked up

Janis: Who I’m with, has never been any of your fucking business, okay

Libi: I lived with you more than I did anywhere else, it was my family, my life

Janis: You shouldn’t have because they aren’t

Libi: But I did and they were

Janis: and that’s the only sorry you’ll get

Janis: he was my first boyfriend, you and fucking Bobby shouldn’t have featured anywhere in that

Libi: I can’t give you a sorry back, I was a kid

Janis: so was I

Libi: I’ve already said I wish I hadn’t taken your childhood from you

Janis: it’s the fact you don’t mean it because all you want me to do is go back to it

Janis: as if that’s even a possibility

Libi: I don’t want you to go back, I want to, it’s not the same thing

Janis: they don’t want you either, I’m sorry

Libi: I know, it’s been made painfully clear

Janis: and I mean it, I know it hurts

Libi: Like I said, I’ll never win the misery olympics we’re all competing in

Janis: I’m not interested, they can have their win

Janis: if you had any sense you’d drop it and drop out too because you can’t fucking beat them, it’s all they do

Libi: I tried and look what happened

Janis: try again without being so spiteful about it, that don’t work either, I’d know

Libi: It just hurts and I’m sick of everybody acting like I don’t have any reason to be upset

Janis: reason don’t equal solution or sympathy, that’s just life, I’m afraid

Libi: Happy birthday to me 🥳

Janis: yeah, yeah, your mum died on mine so I win that one too

Libi: Do you? You had more birthdays with her than I did

Janis: Obviously, my birthday was significantly worse than yours, be buzzing if all I had was a hangover and an eager dickhead in my DMs next day

Libi: How fuming you are will last loads longer than either of them

Janis: if anything about me is reliable

Libi: I don’t want it to be like this between us

Janis: neither do I

Libi: Why can’t I handle things better?

Janis: dead parents, shit role models?

Janis: better claim to it than most have

Libi: If I turn into the person he thinks I already am after last night, I might win the 🏆 but at what cost?

Janis: be as pathetic as the rest of us?

Janis: like I said, something I’m trying to avoid now personally but

Janis: old habits and all that

Libi: Yeah

Janis: He isn’t like that, he’s good for me

Libi: It’s fair to say my judgement of anybody’s character has got to be fucked, including my own, so

Janis: and he would support us modelling, if it made me happy, anything

Libi: Okay, that one was a bit of reach, but I

Janis: I know, that he has been scary

Libi: No you don’t, you basically called me a baby

Janis: you are a bit but

Janis: you’re just sheltered

Libi: …Love that SO much more

Janis: It’s hard for me to view breaking things the same way you do when I know exactly how much he wants to do worse and doesn’t

Janis: that isn’t scary to me but okay, it’s loud and overwhelming and there’s something to fix or buy new at the end

Libi: It isn’t something anybody should have to cope with, him included, that’s all I was trying to point out

Janis: but people do

Janis: like sadness, coping is better than pretending nothings happening until you break

Libi: Is this my rock bottom?

Janis: for now

Janis: you might get proper into your drink and then you’ve got a long ways to go, kid

Libi: You’re not funny, and you’re gonna make me 🤢

Janis: It isn’t anywhere I need to clean up now so

Janis: [send her her socials from last night like lollollol]

Libi: There’s no need, I’ve seen everything

Janis: A reminder of how much of a twat you were never hurts, like

Libi: It does 🤏 but

Janis: helpful reminder

Libi: Exactly

Janis: Alright, I’m gonna go talk to grandad at lunch

Libi: He’ll say yeah, you can be moved in by tonight

Janis: let’s hope so, no one wants to remind Jimmy my name is also on that tenancy agreement

Libi: Now isn’t the time to say trust me, he will though

Janis: I don’t want to rely on anyone

Libi: You still have to pay rent, it’s not like it’s total charity

Janis: it won’t be charity at all, I’ll pay full whack

Libi: There you go then, just another landlord

Janis: Except it isn’t just that

Janis: because now everyone will know I’m not at home and they’ll also know who I am with so

Libi: They have to know some time, you said it, you’re not going back, it’s not your home and you are with him

Janis: It isn’t just me you’ve essentially outed though

Janis: do you reckon Jimmy is ready for this, I don’t

Libi: Nan isn’t showing up at his door with a commiseration casserole or gonna be running her mouth to every punter, and the rest of the family won’t either

Janis: It’s above a fucking pub, Libi

Janis: don’t try to fool yourself, it’s going to be out there now, that’s it, done

Libi: I didn’t mean for this to happen, I’ve said that

Janis: yeah well, it still did

Janis: You best warn Bobby

Libi: Alright

Janis: I need to talk to Casey, update him

Libi: Yeah, go, don’t let me keep you

Libi: I know you don’t want to talk to me but I have to tell you something important

Bobby: Go on

Libi: They’ve been evicted and the flat above the pub is going spare, they’ll be moving in today, and there’s no need for me to spell out what that means

Bobby: And why have they been evicted

Libi: Don’t

Bobby: Don’t you try an’ lie to me

Bobby: you throw a rager last night, this morning they have to get out, I’m not a bloody idiot

Libi: I’m not trying to lie, it’s just obvious, like you said

Bobby: Are you happy now

Libi: No, of course I’m not

Bobby: I hope you lapped up every drop of attention because he’s about to get so much that he

Bobby: he can’t fucking cope with this right now, for fuck’s sake you

Bobby: They was away from him and no one knew about it, it was the only fucking silver lining and you’ve pissed on it

Libi: I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for this to happen but it is, and you both needed to be warned

Bobby: Sorry isn’t good enough!

Bobby: How is he meant to go anywhere, do anything

Libi: It isn’t but it’s all I’ve got, for my actual fuck up

Libi: this was my mistake, but I didn’t make it so he can’t show his face, or function, they did

Bobby: Tell your entire family to keep well away from him, he don’t need anything from any of you

Libi: They will anyway, it’s not their business, any of it

Bobby: Be about right

Libi: Nobody wants to upset Jim, okay? It’s the last thing on anyone’s mind

Bobby: Oh, yeah, totally okay

Bobby: you’re delusional

Libi: He’s the victim here, everybody’s well aware of that

Bobby: He doesn’t want to be your pissing victim

Bobby: just leave us alone

Libi: I said so

Bobby: Now, leave me alone now

Bobby: me and him are all each other has

Libi: Alright

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Never Have I Ever - Harry Styles (part 7)

a/n: aaand part 7 is finally here! however i want to warn yall that we are nearing the end of NHIE, im planning on having one more part and i don’t think it’ll be any longer, so enjoy while it lasts! lmao as always, feedback is very much appreciated!

pairing: Harry x actress!reader

word count: 5.7k

warning: some slight violence? it’s the good kind, you’ll see lmao

SERIES MASTERPOST

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Sitting in your trailer you stare down at your phone longingly, rereading Harry’s last text.

“Miss you, hope everything is alright. Facetime when you’re free?”

You hate how your chest is aching at such a small and sweet thing. If you had the chance, you’d run into Harry’s arms without a second thought, but you are stuck in Atlanta while he is currently back in LA, feeling farther away than ever, in every sense.

It’s been three weeks since you left the city and parted ways with Harry. You hated it. You absolutely hated how he was looking at you and how you was about to cry in his fucking Range Rover as he was dropping you off at the airport. You tried to make it quick so you don’t get too caught up in the moment, but the moment he kissed you, it was over for you. For a split second you were ready to cancel on the whole movie and just stick with the plans you made before you got the role, but that wasn’t really an option.

Since that day, Harry has been very respectful of your will to keep some distance, he always checks in before trying to call to make sure you have time, he doesn’t text you about the most random things like he used to, maybe because you both are so busy, you basically live on set while he has left for his tour exactly a week ago, and you can tell he is trying his best to never even mention Levi.

The news that you’d have to work with your ex came as a punch in your stomach. Taiki contacted you himself to talk to you about his choice to include Levi in the movie. He has informed you that they all agreed on him at the end of the casting process, but he wanted to make sure it’s okay by you as well. What would have you said? You wouldn’t just start off a project with getting someone out of the movie before filming even started. You had no choice but to suck it up and say that it’s all fine.

Now you are stuck to see him almost every day and spend your free time with him as well since he is always the first one to show up when a little group of the cast is out and about. He has always been such a social butterfly, though now you wish he would just lock himself up in his hotel room and not show up until he is needed on set.

Levi has been trying. He’s been pushing on your nerves, always coming up to chit-chat, like there’s nothing weird or absurd about the situation, but there’s plenty. Seeing that the last time you two saw each other you threw a book at him and he threatened you to sue you if you dare to even say his name ever again. Your breakup was the definition of nasty while the rest of the world just noticed a quiet and uneventful parting, photos disappearing from Instagram and awkward smiles whenever either of you were asked about the other.

While you are all about being civil and professional, what he has been doing feels like he is trying to get under your skin, testing your patience with him, which is starting to run short.

For an outsider he is acting perfectly fine, even human towards you, but you know him all too well, you know all his little tricks and moves because you used to be an expert on the topic of Levi Hudson.

Huffing to yourself you get back to the text and type a quick reply.

“Still on set, I have two more scenes to film. Will text you when I’m back at the hotel xx”

You wish you could call him right away, you wish he was here with you and you wish you didn’t have to go back to set and face Levi once again. You really thought you’d get entirely consumed by work once filming starts and run short on time and energy to even think about Harry, but it hasn’t been the case. He is all you can think about, you always catch yourself wondering what he is doing, how his day has been or if he is thinking about you too. You cling onto your phone the moment they yell Cut! and frantically check if he has texted you. It’s taking a toll on you and you can only hope you’ll last until the movie is wrapped and you can finally join him on tour, just like you planned.

“Hey there,” Maya steps out of her own trailer when you turn the corner and she catches up with you quickly. “Wha’s up?”

“Just plotting how I can leave early,” you huff, making her laugh. You’ve become the closest to her, you right away bonded when you met at the table read and she caught you grimacing behind Levi’s back when you thought no one was looking. She came up and simply told you she doesn’t like him for literal no reason, he just has a punchable face and an alliance was formed right then and there.

“Oh Honey, let me know when you figured it out,” she chuckles, circling an arm around your shoulders as you both make your way to the set laughing.

Trying your best, you focus fully on the job on hand so you can leave as soon as possible, call Harry and go to bed. Today has been way longer than you would have liked and you just need to get away from set, despite how much you enjoy filming in general. Sometime during the taping Harry texts you that he is free whenever you are and will be waiting for your call and it just makes you even keener on leaving.

When filming is finally finished, you find yourself storm out faster than ever, already ringing up Harry as you are walking back towards your trailer. When he answers the call, his smiley face fills the screen and you feel your heart flutter in your chest.

“Hey! Done for the day?” he asks, seemingly eating something as he talks.

“Luckily,” you breathe out. “What are you eating?”

A blush appears on his pixelated face as he glances down and grabs his bowl, showing it into the camera. He is eating your pesto pasta recipe.

“I had a strong craving for it,” he shyly tells. “It’s not as good as yours though.”

“There’s nothing to do different about it, H,” you chuckle.

“I know, but it’s different when you make it,” he smiles and his words warm your chest. Just as you are about to tease him about being so corny, you hear your name being called out. Turning around you see Levi jogging towards you.

“Here we fucking go,” you mumble, not ending the call with Harry who is a little confused about the situation since he can’t see the intruder in your conversation.

“Are you heading back to the hotel?” he asks, catching up with you.

“Yeah, I wasn’t planning on sleeping in my trailer,” you answer with a frown.

“Wanna share a car?”

“Why would I?” you simply ask.

“What’s with the attitude, Y/N?” he scoffs as if he was an angel and deserved all the respect on earth.

“Why do you keep coming up to me?”

“Because I’m trying to be nice!” he snaps, but it’s all for the wrong reason. You don’t buy this shit, nice is the last thing he is trying to be and you know that for sure.

“No, you keep getting on my nerves and you know that! We don’t have to interact outside of set and I want to keep it that way, Levi!”

“Now you are being a bitch, Y/N.”

“Excuse you?” Harry’s voice is coming from your phone’s speaker and you suddenly realize that he is still there, listening to the conversation. You glance down at the screen and see his now angry expression on it.

“Who’s that?” Levi nods towards the phone with a frown, but then realization must hit him. “Is that Harry Styles you’re talking to?”

“None of your fucking business, Levi. And leave me the fuck alone.” Turning around you start marching back to your trailer that’s now so close, but once again, his voice stops you.

“You’re making a fool out of yourself, Y/N!”

“What the fuck are you talking about?” you snap back at him, one hand already on the door handle of your trailer, the other one holding your phone.

“If you think he wants more than just a good fuck and some publicity out of you, you’re delusional.”

“Fuck you, Levi!” you flip him off before walking into the trailer and shutting the door behind you.

With your back against the door you close your eyes and take a few deep breaths, fighting with yourself not to go back out and kick him in the stomach. This is how it has been, he starts acting all nice, pretending like he is the good buy, but when he doesn’t get the reaction he wants, he is quick to show his real, asshole self he keeps hidden.

“Angel? You alright?” Harry’s voice brings you back from your thoughts and once again, you realize that he is still in call, staring from the screen with a worried expression on his handsome face.

Taking another deep breath you bring the phone up so he can finally see your face.

“Sorry you had to hear all of that,” you mumble, feeling way more tired than you were just a few minutes ago.

“Don’t apologize, it’s none of your fault. But I gotta ask, has he been this big of a dick since the start?”

“Kind of,” you sigh, walking further inside. You put the phone to the little vanity, propping it up against the mirror as you start washing your makeup off.

“Have you tried doing something against it? You really shouldn’t let him treat you like that.”

“I’m not trying to be the whiny star who gets someone kicked out. I don’t know what others would think if I told Levi is being a jerk to me, because he is fine with everyone else. Maya is the only one who knows about it, so I’m kind of stuck.”

“Then just punch him,” he suggests making you laugh.

“I wish I could.”

“Want to talk about it? I would love to listen to you talk about how big of a dick your ex is and about your hatred towards him,” he tells you, way too excited about the topic and it makes you chuckle.

“Let’s not talk about him, I get enough of him all day. But not enough of you.”

It just slips out, way too cheesy than you intended it to be, but it makes him smile so you don’t mind it.

“Is this your way of being casual?” he chuckles softly.

“Shut up,” you grin. “Tell me about your day while I get ready to leave.”

You listen to Harry tell you about his day in the smallest details as you clean your face, brush your hair out and change into your own clothes, finally feeling like yourself again. You’re talking even when you’re already in the car, but that’s when it ends.

“Talk tomorrow, Angel?” he murmurs, now lying in his bead, propped up against the headboard without a shirt on.

“Yeah. I’ll be off around five so just call me whenever your show is over.”

“Will do. Take care, alright? And… just hang on a little longer.”

“A little?” you huff. “There are still two more months to go.”

“You can do it. Text me whenever you want to talk, alright?” You just quietly nod, ignoring the ache in your chest. You want nothing else than to crawl into bed with him, curl up against him and never leave from under the covers.

“Good night, Angel,” he smiles sweetly.

“Night, H,” you sigh before ending the call.

An hour later you are already in your hotel room, wrapped in a fluffy bathrobe, lying in bed as you scroll through Instagram, aimlessly opening posts here and there. The explore page is always a mess, you like so many different things that Instagram sometimes can’t decide what to show you, but that’s just how you like it. Lately it’s been a lot of Harry on there, given the fact that you’ve often found yourself lurking photos of him when you were missing him more than the usual.

When a paparazzi photo comes up of him from yesterday, having lunch with Kendall Jenner you can’t help but feel the jealousy ignite a fire inside you. It’s not like you didn’t know they met up, he told you a week before it and even asked if you are cool with it, to which you said that you are not an official item and you’d never tell him not to see a friend, even if it happens to be an ex as well. After all, you were the last one to throw a stone at him since you are now working with yours, even if it’s a living Hell.

But after such a draining day, seeing him have a good time so far away from you with a woman who is not you, your opinion about the situation seems to be different.

You’ve never been that extremely jealous type and you are also very much aware that you have no right to feel this way, but… you do. Scrolling through the few paparazzi photos that has nothing odd on them, just the two of them sitting at a table on a terrace, enjoying their meal and then leaving in separate cars, you can’t help but tear them apart to the tiniest detail, your brain fixated to find the smallest thing that tell you that they have something more than friendship going on, when you also know damn well sure that there’s no such thing. Harry has talked to you openly about his friendship with Kendall, how they tried to make it work two times but both of them ended up the same way: they realized they are far better as just friends and that’s how they’ve been since then.

But because of the distance, your horrible days with Levi and your agonizing feelings about wanting to be with Harry but also not being able to, you find yourself letting out a silent cry as you close the app, but the pictures still haunt you.

Before you could even think twice, you are kneeling in front of the minibar you haven’t touched since you arrived, but now you’re determined to empty it out, paying extra attention to the alcoholic drinks.

You are well aware that it’s not how you should be coping with the situation on hand, but you don’t know what else to do. You were the one who told Harry not to make things official, there’s nothing you can do against the distance between the two of you and you are stuck with Levi for the rest of filming as well. You have no other choices but to somehow dumb the pain that’s been torturing you silently ever since you found out you got the role.

It’s nerve wrecking, because this role means so much to your career, you know it’s your big chance to be finally taken as seriously as you’ve always dreamed about, but does it worth it? If you lose yourself along the way and everything that’s been making you happy lately, does it still worth just to have an Oscar nomination, which is not even guaranteed, just a speculation.

It’s past one am when you run out of drinks, but because of the small portions, you are just buzzing, not really drunk. But it’s enough to make you lose your rationality and snatch your phone from the bed and open your text threat with Harry.

“I miss you. A lot, like a whole lot.”

You send the text before you could change your mind and for your biggest surprise the status changes to seen just a few moments later before the three little dots start dancing on the bottom.

“I miss you too, Angel. Everything alright?”

Harry knows you too well, you wouldn’t just text after you’ve talked on FaceTime before and you’re usually asleep by this time, since filming starts early in the morning usually.

“Do you really miss me?” you write back with a heavy sigh.

“You can’t even imagine how much…”

“Tell me. How much?”

“I’ve written three songs about you since we parted. Does that tell you how much I miss you?”

“Oh fuck!” you choke out, feeling your chest tightening. You don’t want to be in this hotel room anymore, damn the movie, Levi and the Oscar, you need Harry. Now.

“Can’t wait to hear them all.”

“There’ll be plenty more, Angel. Get ready for a whole album!”

The pictures with Kendall are long forgotten. Now you’re just lying in bed, rereading the texts over and over again until your eyelids get too heavy and you fall asleep, still clinging onto the device.

***

After years of being an independent and strong woman you’ve always aspired to be, you find yourself only focusing on two men to keep your nerves stable enough to stop you from breaking down every other day: Oscar and Harry.

The possibility to win an Oscar is what you think of every time Levi is pulling on your nerves, working harder than the devil to make you burst while acting like a saint in front of everyone. His attempts of ruining your days every imaginable are getting worse as the time passes and when thinking about the Oscar doesn’t help, you reach out to Harry. You’ve felt terribly at the beginning when you kept calling him whenever you felt like screaming after an encounter with Levi, even apologized for it, but he made sure you know he doesn’t mind it, not even the tiniest bit.

“I’m happy I’m the one you come to for comfort. I like that you’re thinking about me,” he told you one night when you called him so late, but he still answered.

Today has been extra hard. Two weeks have passed since your little late night breakdown when you emptied your mini bar out and felt like leaving Atlanta as soon as possible. Luckily, the morning came with an ease, though the pain was still there, you just managed to bottle it up enough to make you keep going.

You’ve been on set since 4 in the morning, having shot some scenes during sunrise and you’ve been going since then. Now it’s four pm, you are desperate for a good sleep already, but you still have some hours to go before you can head back to the hotel.

It seems like Levi has made it his mission to make you cry today. His latest favorite thing has been throwing shade about fellow actors who end up being the talk of gossip sites because they’ve dared to go on a public date with another celebrity. So, just to be clear, he is shaming you for being all over the tabloids, people are still speculating about you and Harry and Levi doesn’t hesitate to call you out about that in a sugarcoated way.

All he has been saying all day is “I guess I’m just more careful about my privacy!” or “Everyone is different, but I like to be noticed for my professional success!” but your favorite was “I get it that women need more effort to stay relevant.”

You were shocked how no one else realized how sexist he was, but deep down you weren’t that surprised. Levi successfully brainwashed everyone to make them believe he didn’t think it seriously, when you know for a fact that even if it was just to piss you off, he really meant it. You were once one of those who couldn’t really see how wrong his beliefs are and now you can’t believe you used to ignore all these sexist comments, but now they make your palms itch.

“You know, you once were just like that. I still remember us being on the covers,” you snapped back at him before everyone left for lunch and it was just the two of you, but he just snorted, brushing it off.

“Hated it. Always felt like just a toy they like to throw around.”

You needed all your self-control not to laugh right into his face and then jump at his throat. Instead, you just watch him walk away and you are quick to fetch your phone from your bag to text Harry, but then you realize that he hasn’t texted you back in the past ten hours. Your last four messages are sitting not just unanswered but unread as well so you talk yourself down from sending another one. It’s odd, because he always tells you when he is about to be busy, but he didn’t this time and you wonder if you’ve said or did something that upset him with you enough to stop talking to you. But then you tell yourself that something must have just come up.

“Hey girl!” Maya calls out for you, already dressed in her own clothes since she is done for the day. “I’m heading out to lunch with Timmy, want to join? Please don’t say you’ll just order in and stay in your trailer!”

“Only if Levi is not coming,” you grumble making her chuckle.

“Don’t worry, it’s just gonna be cool people.”

You both take your car to the little diner close to set, you’ve been going there quite often, they have the best pancakes and that’s exactly what you need right now. Timmy is already there sitting at a booth, waving at you happily. Aside from Maya, he is the other person you’ve been quite enjoying spending time with on set, he is a genuine guy and helped you a lot professionally which was a huge boost along this rocky way.

All through lunch you notice that he’s been checking his phone a lot, but you don’t think much of it, he is a busy guy, that you’ve learned already. It’s nice to have some time away from set and you’re thankful that Maya and Timmy are trying their best to make you forget about Levi and that eventually you have to head back.

The three of you return to set about an hour later. When the both of them stick to your side and they keep asking if you are going back to your trailer, you start to suspect something.

“You guys alright?” you ask with a chuckle. “Where else would I go? I still have thirty minutes from my break.”

“Just making sure,” Timmy shrugs. “We’ll walk you there!”

“Yeah! Let us walk to your trailer!” Maya nods in agreement and you give them a glare.

“You guys are weird,” you mumble under your breath.

As the three of you reach your trailer you notice how excited they are acting and you are confused about what’s really happening, but it’s just until you finally throw the door of your trailer open and gasp at the person waiting inside.

“Hello, Angel,” Harry smirks at you, leaning against the wall as you completely freeze.

“Angel! Oh my God!” you hear Maya squeak behind you, but you can’t pay much attention to her or Timmy, because you are busy throwing yourself into Harry’s arm, who envelopes you into his embrace, lifting you up from the ground.

“What are you doing here?” you breathe out, face buried in the crook of his neck.

“Should I not be here?” he jokes chuckling, his hands running up and down your back.

“Well, you are not supposed to, but I’m glad you are!” you chuckle and pulling back you kiss his lips, not able to hold yourself back.

“Thank your costars,” he mumbles nodding towards the door where Maya and Timmy are standing, grinning widely and proud of themselves.

“You guys did this,” you breathe out.

“Well, it was Maya’s idea, and then I was the one to message Harry,” Timmy admits, hiding his hands in his pockets. “Wanted to surprise you.”

“You surely succeeded,” you chuckle and turning back to Harry you hug him again, holding him tight as if he could vanish any moment.

“Alright, we’ll leave you two alone,” Maya chuckles before shutting the door and giving you some privacy.

“So how long are you staying?” you ask, arms circled around his neck.

“Unfortunately I don’t have much time. I need to fly out late tomorrow.”

“You came here for less than 48 hours?” you gasp in disbelief. He has been on the road for weeks now, all the traveling has been hard on him, that you know, yet he still went into the trouble of flying here for such a short time just to be with you.

“If Timothée didn’t reach out I would have still tried to mess around with my schedule to come here. I know how hard it has been for you here, I wanted to help you.”

“Stop or you’ll make me cry,” you chuckle, leaning in for another kiss.

You spend the rest of your break cuddled up on your tiny sofa in your trailer, talking but mostly kissing, because you’ve been missing Harry’s kisses the most probably. When it’s time to head back to set, you need everything in you not to lock the door and just never leave, but your work is calling.

Walking towards set you find yourself lacing your fingers together with Harry’s, to which he smirks at you in satisfaction. You couldn’t give less shit about that people will think the rumors are true, let them! All you want is to be as close to Harry as possible.

As everyone is slowly gathering back, you lounge around the buffet tables with Harry and Timothée, just genuinely having a good time, right until Levi walks in and he freezes upon seeing you with Harry.

At first you are convinced he’s going to come up to you, but luckily, he chooses to keep his distance this time, saving you some stress about what would go down if the two of them were to talk. Harry has definitely noticed his presence as well, but he doesn’t say a word, just holds your hand tight, kissing your knuckles.

Harry sticks around the whole afternoon, watching you film scene after scene and the excitement in his eyes is priceless. He takes every opportunity to praise your work and tell you how amazing you are doing and it means the world to you since it’s the first time Harry is seeing you working.

Through the afternoon, you can feel Levi’s burning glare on you, but you try your best to ignore it. You can tell he doesn’t like having Harry around but you haven’t figured out if it’s because he is jealous of you and him or because now Harry has all the attention he usually has. Either way, he is a petty fucker and you are enjoying pissing him off for once.

When filming finally finishes at six you are one of the first ones to head out, eager to finally be alone with Harry in your hotel room and not be disturbed for the night.

“I would say to pick up something to eat on our way, but maybe we should just order room service, how does that sound?” he asks as the two of you are walking back to your trailer.

“Room service is gonna be perfect,” you smile up at him, giving his hand a squeeze.

“Y/N!”

The voice calling out your name makes you growl in annoyance. The situation is all too familiar, Levi stopping you on your way back to your trailer with the pure intention of ruin your mood.

Oh for fuck’s sake,” you mumble under your breath before turning around. “What?” you snap back at him, clearly annoyed that he is here again.

“Hey, just… thought I would introduce myself to your friend over here,” he smiles as if it was the most natural thing, but you and Harry stand there, completely confused about how he can act so casual about him meeting Harry.

“I’m sorry, you what?” you question.

“Just wanted to meet Harry,” he tells again. “I’m Levi, nice to meet you,” he nods smiling, holding out his hand and you can’t hold your laughter back. Luckily, Harry is quick to react the best possible way.

“Are you really just gonna pretend like I didn’t hear you call Y/N a bitch the other day?” he asks, voice stern and surprisingly calm, however his hold on your hand is a little tighter now.

Seemingly, Levi is taken aback and you can tell he was convinced Harry wouldn’t bring it up straight to his face, but he did. He definitely just did and you are so happy about that.

“I’m, uhh—I don’t think you have any business in that, Harry,” he chuckles nervously, still trying to somehow dominate in the situation, but he is failing miserably.

“Oh, but I think I do. If you think you can just go around and call women bitches, you are in the wrong and if you ever have just one bad word for Y/N again, I’ll definitely won’t be this calm.”

The cherry on the top is the warm smile on Harry’s lips and your mouth hangs open at how bad he just burnt Levi. If you were alone now, you’d definitely jump his bones right away.

Watching Levi you see the exact moment when he drops the act and before he even opens his nasty mouth, you already know you’ll get another taste of his real self.

“What, you fuck her once and think she is the Queen of England who has to be treated with special care?” he scoffs and your stomach drops. Here he goes with the insults, buckle up!

“Excuse you?” Harry snaps back, clearly losing his patience with him.

“She is not that big of a deal, Styles. Might be a good fuck, but she is a fucking bitch in reality and you’ll see that soon.”

“I think it was just you who made her act that way and that’s entirely your fault, m’ friend. Anyone would be that way if they had to deal with you.”

“You know what? You two deserve each other, two low-life, attention seeker celebs, I just don’t get what people like so much about you. Especially about you,” he adds, eyes snapping to you. Your anger is boiling, he is dancing on your very last nerve and you have no idea how long you can last.

Harry then turns to you, a calm expression on his face, but his eyes tell you otherwise as he simply takes his rings off and places them into your palm, confusing you about what he is really doing.

“I’m sorry in advance, Angel,” he mumbles before taking a step towards Levi and with a simple but graceful move, he punches your scumbag ex.

You gasp as you hear Levi’s groan, his hands flying to his face while Harry shakes his fist off with a heavy sigh.

“Oh fuck, this feels better with a glove on,” Harry breathes out, taking a step back.

“You fucker!” Levi spats as he straightens up. He moves his hand from his face, checking it to see if he is bleeding, but it’s just some redness on his cheek.

“Don’t freak out, princess. You’ll just have to sit some more in the makeup. But Swear to God if you ever speak about her that way,” Harry warns him pointing at him, “You won’t be able to fix it with some powder.”

And with that, Harry grabs your hand and pulls you into the trailer, leaving a shocked and raged out Levi outside. As soon as it’s just the two of you, Harry changes from the confident, protective man to a frightened little puppy as he looks at you.

“I’m so sorry, but I just couldn’t take it any longer. The way he was talking about you and I—“

He doesn’t get to finish because our lips shut him up with the most heated and passionate kiss you two have ever shared. It’s hard and messy, your fingers thread through his hair as he grabs your waist forcefully, yanking you against her tightly.

“That was literally the hottest thing I’ve ever seen,” you pant against his lips.

“Yeah? So you’re not mad?”

“I’m only mad because you got to punch him before me,” you chuckle making him laugh as well.

“God, I have no idea how you could put up with him this long,” he breathes out, resting his forehead against yours.

“I’m convinced that my nerves are made out of steel,” you joke pecking his lips two more times.

“I don’t even see how you could be in a relationship with him in the first place,” he huffs.

“I was younger and dumber. Don’t worry, learned my lesson,” you laugh, cupping his cheek in the palm of your hand, running your thumb along the soft skin under his eye.

“If I’m being honest, there’s one more thing that’s upsetting me about him.”

“And what is that?”

“Please don’t get mad at me though, okay?” he chuckles softly.

“Just tell me!”

“I’m mad… because he is able to say that he has been in a relationship with you and I’m not. It’s pissing me off, properly,” he admits and your heart skips a beat. “I know you said you don’t want anything official, but I just want to call you mine and—“

You cut him off for the second time now as you kiss him again, grinning against his lips. If he didn’t bring this up now, you would have for sure before he left, because there was no way you would have been able to say goodbye to him again without having all strings tied.

“Just to be sure, was this your way of asking me to be your girlfriend?” you smirk, your hands holding onto the base of his neck.

“Kind of? Yeah,” he chuckles softly.

“Alright, cool. Now let’s go back to my hotel room, boyfriend.”

You watch as his eyes light up and leaning down he kisses you again.

“Just so we are on the same page, was this your way of saying yes?”

“Kind of, yeah,” you nod, using his own words.

“Great. Okay, let’s go, girlfriend.”

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BnHA Chapter 300: Days of Our Todorokis

Previously on BnHA: Hawks was all “hey Jeanist, wanna go on a road trip with me to my mom’s house?” Jeanist was all “you know it,” and so they hopped into Jeanist’s jercedes and took off. Hawks took a nap and had a flashback to his Dickensian childhood living in a abject poverty with his jerk mom and jerk dad, thinking heroes were make-believe until one day Endeavor arrested his dad and Baby Hawks was all “OH SHIT.” And then he saved a bunch of people, and the HPSC was all “what do we have here,” and blah blah blah, you know the rest. Back in the present, Hawks was all “well my life is currently in shambles, but on the plus side there’s no one bossing me around anymore so that’s pretty cool,” and then decided he was going to talk to Endeavor. Fandom was all “I can’t believe Hawks would side with his childhood hero over the man who burned his wings off and posted a video calling him a violent murderer who took after his abusive dad,” so that was fun and stuff. I can’t wait to see what piping fresh takes this new chapter will bring.

Today on BnHA: Our old friend Carbonation Carl tries to loot a Starbucks and gets his ass kicked by a senior citizen. Society is all “YEAH, WE’RE REALLY STARTING TO GET SICK OF THIS SHIT.” Old Man Samurai is all “this room won’t stop me because I can’t read it” and abruptly decides to retire, which, fun fact, is literally THE LEAST HELPFUL THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE. Anyway so then a bunch of other punkasses follow suit, and while I won’t say that I’m actually starting to root for Stain to kill some peeps, just for the record I’m not not saying that either. Back in the hospital, Endeavor cries some tears because his life sucks, and then is confronted by his entire family, LED BY QUEEN REI, FIRST OF HER NAME, BACK IN BUSINESS AND LARGE AND IN CHARGE. Rei is all “fuck feeling sorry for yourself, we have a rogue Murder Son on the loose” and I swear to god I have never felt so alive.

so here we go! and just for the record, even though the last two chapters have been phenomenal, I don’t necessarily have any sky-high expectations for chapter 300, mostly because chapters 100 and 200 consisted of Mei Boobs, and Toadette and her horrific quirk lmao. so go ahead Horikoshi, what are you gonna pull out of your hat for this one

oh, back to this stuff again. sob

I guess there was only so much time we could spend having hospital antics and exploring Hawks’s past before we got back to dealing with the whole “the world has gone to absolute shit” issue huh, lol

omg

what’s with these bizarrely cute Noumus. why do I want to pet them

so the narrative text is going on about how people have been super paranoid about the Noumu ever since the USJ incident a year ago. so yeah, I guess the fact that there are now a bunch of them confirmed to be running around is really freaking people out even on top of everything else

wtf is happening here

what did this poor lil glass ever do to anyone. r.i.p.

OH MY FUCKING GOD

SODA SAM IS BACK ON THE LAM

tsk tsk tsk. my man has graduated from snatching purses to raiding cafes. going after that big money. this man has no business sense whatsoever lmao

OH BUT WATCH IT NOW!!

OH SNAP THE PEOPLE ARE FIGHTING BACK. WHATCHA GONNA DO NOW SAM

THIS MAN IS 172 YEARS OLD AND HE’S NOT HERE TO PLAY GAMES!!

WTF IS HE LIGHTING THIS THING ON FIRE OR SOME SHIT. GETTEM GRANDPA YEAHHHH HE’S CHARGING AT EM YEAHHHHHH

lmao so that was fun. and now we’re cutting to Wash!! omg. look at him

he’s so dedicated. too bad you don’t have a car like Best Jeanist. probably takes a while when you’re just running everywhere

you see?? you were too slow!!

NOOOO, GRANDPA. he defeated Pepsi Pete, but lost his life in the process. this is too tragic

anyway so the good news is that the cafe has been saved! but the bad news is, there really isn’t much of a cafe left. huh. I guess that’s one of the reasons why people are supposed to get a license to use their quirks like this

oh snap and now everyone is coming outside, and they’re none too happy to see poor old Wash over here

seriously Wash, get a bicycle or something. also the way this guy is gesturing so dramatically with his hand in this sort of “YOU SEE!! YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS!!” manner is sending me

OH MY GOD

HE SPEAKS. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS. IT MEANS JEANS PUNS ARE YESTERDAY’S NEWS, FOLKS!! MAKE WAY FOR THE LAUNDRY PUNS. CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH THIS ALL... UNFOLD

“the heroes had dwindled away” okay real talk you guys, it is literally only a matter of time before they press-gang the children into picking up their slack. I still don’t know how to feel about that, but it is happening one way or the other regardless. Child Soldiers 2 Electric Boogaloo. wonder if we’ll see a rise in vigilante action as well

OHO WHAT’S THIS? THIS IS A CHAPTER OF GRANDPAS HUH

-- no fucking way

WOW. WOW. WOWWWWWW

wow. so he didn’t do a fucking thing while the rest of the top ten were being turned into red mist in the previous arc, and now that it’s all over and they need his help more than ever, he decides... THAT IT’S TIME TO RETIRE. holy shit. “fuck you” doesn’t even begin to cover it my guy. you stand there and soak up those boos you coward

ohhhhhhh shiiiiit you guys. oh shit

the “I am not here” breaks my fucking heart for real though y’all. oh man. everything he worked for is gone just like that

(ETA: okay so a couple of the takes I’ve seen on this make it seem like All Might is somehow the bad guy here?? “this is what happens when society puts a bunch of glorified cops on a pedestal”, “finally the cracks in hero society are showing”, etc. etc. so, just a friendly reminder that this isn’t happening because of too much trust and a lack of critical thinking; this is happening because the villains killed all the heroes and broke a bunch of murderers out of jail. it’s happening because an organized league of terrorists succeeded in terrorizing, and so society is now understandably awash in fear and panic. like, it’s just wild to me that AFO is RIGHT FUCKING THERE, and yet week after week fandom still has their “IT’S ALL THE HEROES’ FAULT” signs still up on their lawns. BUT WHATEVER, MOVING ON.)

also though, so exactly how much time is passing here now? I wanted to go straight back to the hospital and see what happens with Deku and the Todorokis. please don’t tell me we’re jumping ahead sob. my aaaaangst

OH SHIT

STAIN. LISTEN UP BUDDY. I KNOW WE’VE HAD OUR DIFFERENCES, AND I STILL DESPISE YOU FOR CRIPPLING TENSEI AND TRYING TO KILL MY BEST BOY TENYA. BUT AS IT HAPPENS, THERE ARE ONE OR TWO OTHER HEROES OUT THERE NOW WHO I WOULDN’T MIND YOU PAYING A VISIT I’M JUST SAYING

LOL BUT IT ACTUALLY ISN’T THIS MAN, FFFFFF

sob. yeah I was talking about Old Man Samurai actually but YEAH. HEY THERE ENJI

also is this entire hospital actually run by characters from Super Mario Bros though. first Yoshi and now this guy, come the fuck on that is not a coincidence

lmao they stuck him in another one of these cavernous creepy hospital rooms

wtf is it with Horikoshi and these giant fucking rooms lately. Kacchan’s in chapter 298, then Tomie’s colossal house furnished with like one table and a TV, and now this. and the weirdest thing about it though is that “huge space with nothing to fill it up” is like the exact opposite of what you’ll usually find in Japanese homes lol

so now Enji is just sitting there thinking things like “my head is fuzzy” and “I’m alive” lmao okay. not quite all there yet, huh. I’ll give you a minute

I’m so fucking curious as to who his first visitor is going to be omg. either way it’s going to be interesting af, and either way fandom is probably going to feel some way about it but OH WELL

okay now his thoughts are getting more coherent! and he’s remembering Touya, and feeling regret for freezing up and forcing Shouto to deal with everything instead

!!! OH HERE GOES BRACE YOURSELVES Y’ALL IT’S ABOUT TO GET SPICY

NO TOUYA PLEASE DON’T CRY HONEY NO PLEASE

ohhhhhhh man

okay, I mean I didn’t expect you to, but so instead then you’re just going to do... what? lie there and wallow in regret and self-pity for the rest of your life? son you know that’s not how we deal with our problems here in Shounen

though also, I totally do get it though. honestly, thinking on it, I probably would have been disappointed with any other response. but so this is where the rest of his family (including his adopted son) come into play now though, because like it or not they’re all in this thing together. and so friends, I am once again asking you WHO IS GOING TO BE THE ONE TO VISIT ENJI FIRST

AHHHHHHH

KRANCH!!!! OMG AND THE OTHERS ARE SO TINY NEXT TO HIM THAT I ALMOST DIDN’T SEE THEM AT FIRST. IT’S BECAUSE THEY’RE TWENTY MILES AWAY ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS REGULATION HOCKEY RINK OF A ROOM

holy shit I’m so excited lkjlklhlglkasdsjldfk

SDKFJLSKHLKJL

the way she has him by his collar lmaoooo. “lol nah you’re not going anywhere pal.” damn straight, siblings have to be ride or die in situations like this. banding together for survival. strength in numbers

OH MY STARS I’M JUST WARNING YOU NOW THAT I’M ABOUT TO DISSECT EVERY LAST REMAINING PANEL OF THIS CHAPTER PROBABLY YOU GUYS. WE COULD BE HERE A WHILE

love how Fuyu has absolutely no idea how to segue into THE SINGLE MOST AWKWARD CONVERSATION SHE’S EVER HAD, so she just GOES FOR IT in pure small talk mode like they’re meeting up for brunch somewhere

I KNOW IT’S A SMALL THING, BUT I APPRECIATE THAT THE FIRST THING ENJI ASKS IS WHETHER THEY’RE OKAY

lastly while I can’t wait for more of this delicious Natsu angst, I also just have to say that Enji has as much reason to cry right now as anyone on the planet. you can’t deny that being confronted by your not-dead-but-you-thought-he-was-dead son who’s all “SURPRISE DAD I GREW UP TO BE A MASS MURDERER AND I HATE YOU AND EVERYTHING IS ALL YOUR FAULT AND NOW I’M GONNA MAIM YOUR OTHER KID” with a side order of “EVERYONE HATES YOU AND SOCIETY IS CRUMBLING AND NOTHING WILL EVER BE GOOD EVER AGAIN” is enough to bum pretty much anyone out. there’s a Pagliacci the Clown joke here somewhere. BUT DOCTOR, I AM THE NUMBER ONE HERO

oh man lol he is seriously falling apart

damn. like you guys, I’m sorry, go ahead and cancel me, but I do feel compassion for the man. it’s therapeutic for me to see an abuser actually feel remorse and be truly sorry and want to change and want to make it up to his family. and it’s also compelling as fuck to read a narrative about a family that’s trying to grapple with that, because let me tell you straight up, as someone who’s done a version of that song and dance -- it is exhausting. it is a piping hot mess. it’s a gigantic mishmosh of extremely volatile emotions that all somehow all contradict one another. love, hurt, hope, anger, betrayal, resentment, attachment, longing. it’s something you can both be desperate for and also want nothing at all to do with. and attempting to portray all of that and write about it is a monumental task, and one which Horikoshi has done so, so delicately thus far, and damn but I appreciate it. anyway, so I’m here and I’m ready for my latest helping of Todoroki Fam Feels you guys

GASP

oh man. OHMANOHMANOHMAN. CAN IT REALLY BE. IS THIS THE REDEMPTION ARC OF CHAPTERS 100 AND 200???

LMAO SHE’S ALL “WE ALL FEEL BAD YOU JACKASS STOP CRYING ABOUT IT”

LAY INTO HIM REI!! SORRY ENJI YOUR PITY PARTY HAS BEEN CANCELLED IN FAVOR OF A “SO WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT” PARTY COURTESY OF QUEEN ELSA OVER HERE. THE PEOPLE TOOK A VOTE AND WE WANT LESS WHINING AND MORE ACTION

oh my god look at this lady folks

NOTE THE HAIR BLOWING IN THE NONEXISTENT WIND. NOW WE KNOW WHERE SHOUTO GOT THIS POWER FROM

(ETA: btw guys, seeing Rei handle this crisis like an absolute champ despite everything she’s been through is everything, though. I’m reminded of Hawks’s line last week about people sometimes unexpectedly finding liberation when they’re backed into a corner. like things may be shit but goddammit her kiddos need her.)

THE CHAPTER IS ALREADY ENDING SOB, IT’S ONLY A 17-PAGER THIS WEEK, BUT GODDAMN WHAT A WAY TO CLOSE

oh my god. oh my god oh my god. AND FUCK YOU HORIKOSHI FOR CUTTING IT OFF THERE sob. it’s like each week the wait for the next chapter becomes more painful. the Todofam is about to get real, and on top of that Hawks is gonna crash the party at some point down the line, and on top of that we’re still waiting for Kacchan to have his own heartfelt discussion about What The Fuck Are We Supposed To Do Next with his best friend who’s currently in a coma. all I want to do with my life is read about these three things, and all I can do is simply wait as they are portioned out in agonizing, addicting little installments every week

anyway! tune in next time as we answer the question of whether or not fandom will finally run its train of logic all the way through to its natural conclusion and somehow manage to cancel Noted Abuse Apologist Todoroki Fucking Rei. don’t act like it can’t happen. you all know nothing is sacred lol. anyways but I’m ready for anything lol, bring it

#bnha 300 #endeavor #todoroki enji #todoroki shouto #todoroki rei #all them todorokis #bnha #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #makeste reads bnha #I can't believe I've done 300 of these now lol #think I'm gonna finally have to update the post index again

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baka-writings · 3 years

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𝗩𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗼𝗻 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: 𝗦𝗲𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗴𝘂𝘆 𝗳𝗹𝗶𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝘁 𝗴𝗳/𝗠𝗧𝗟 𝗯𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀

𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: none actually

I combined MTL with a bullet reaction so I hope you like it~

𝗦𝗲𝘂𝗻𝗴𝘄𝗼𝗼

fourth most jealous, which puts him in the middle

when it comes to plain jealousy he wouldn't be that much jealous

cuz he knows you love him and he trusts you

he'd only get jealous if there were legit proofs of something ex. you kissing another guy, flirty text messages etc

but we won't talk about that rn, cuz cheating is not okay

(just tried to point out when he would get really jealous)

jealous Seungwoo I think would be mature

like he wouldn't unnecessarily yell or something and would talk it out with you

HOWEVER

if he saw another guy flirting with you eve despite knowing you had a bf

oof

i must say rip to that guy tbh

Seungwoo would put his arm around your waist and try to intimidate the guy with his face expression which would be kinda scary tbh

more like a glare tbh

if that person didn't get the hint (or more like didn't want to get the hint)

Seungwoo would lowkey threaten and scare him (not beat him or anything)

or tell him off with some scary expressions

then he'd ask you if you were okay and tell you that if someone ever tries to flirt with you again you should tell him

𝗦𝗲𝘂𝗻𝗴𝘀𝗶𝗸

the second least jealous from the group or maybe shares the least jealous with a certain someone 😌

i can't see him being jealous at all (in overal)

like he trusts you and also i think he wouldn't get in a relationship with someone he didn't know well

so by the time you are dating he'd know your personality very well

for example you had guy friends or something

he'd already know about them and know that you're classmates/former classmates etc

you get me

If he saw a guy flirting with you he'd frown

and tell that asshole to leave you alone

like he'd handle it without any yelling, swearing etc

maybe would raise his voice tho, but not on the level of yelling, just to scold him

if that guy ignored him and didn't want to leave, he'd just take your hand and leave with you

because first, he doesn't talk to people who don't respect others, second he doesn't want to get involved in dumb fights

so in overal a chill man 😌

𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗻

the most jealous in VICTON, fight me

in overal he'd really jealous and possessive

if you were spending way too much time with one of his members for example, he'd get jealous

but it's not because he wouldn't trust you,oh no

it's because he needs you attention and love too much

so if you spent time with someone else instead of him he'd be possessive about it

you're supposed to be with him only

but in his case it's not the dangerous type of possessiveness

it's just as i said the "affection seeking" possessiveness

i think he'd be flustered when jealous

like he wouldn't know how to approach it correctly so he doesn't hurt you ya know

he doesn't want to blame you, but also on the other hand doesn't like you hanging out with someone else

#confusion

but he'd mostly handle it well, unless he's tired from work and gets jealous

then he'd probably snap, regretting it at instant

if he saw another guy flirting with you, he'd immediately death glare him

he'd stand in front of you, shielding you from the guy and then tell him to gtfo with the same death glare as before

honestly he'd death glare every single person who looks at you either with flirty, hungry or hateful eyes

also after scaring the guy away, he'd turn to you with a cute expression again and pretend like he didn't turn into the devil himself a few moments ago lmao

(this gif😭😭😭 shit)

𝗦𝗲𝗷𝘂𝗻

the second most jealous

kinda similar to Chan

but more sassy and sarcastic

he'd glare at anyone who'd pass him when he's jelly

whether it's their fault or not

honestly he'd get jealous even if someone is looking at you for more that 3 seconds

he'd be like *mine* and pull you closer to himself

he wouldn't be 'loud' about it

all his jealousy would be mostly seen on his face expressions and they way he'd talk

if he saw someone flirting with you he'd be furious

he'd diss the guy who'd have the audacity to flirt with his girl, all with a death glare tho

keeping you close and safe

"you wanna flirt huh? why don't you flirt with me too then"

you'd probably chuckle ngl and the guy would be confused

however, I don't think someone flirting with his girlfriend would happen much, because he'd be always close especially when you go to a bar/club or anywhere where someone could flirt

𝗛𝗮𝗻𝘀𝗲

third most jealous, but maybe at times I'd also let him share the second place with Sejun

his general jealousy could go two ways

one; he'd be sarcastic and mad

i think he'd be one of those people who'd be on the 'loud' side

like he'd raise his voice and snap

but it would most likely be due to the 'pain' of maybe feeling like you might leave him

he'd give you a cold shoulder for a day (not more cuz he loves u) and in meantime write everything down for his future lyrics maybe

the next day he'd apologize for snapping, sit down with you explain to you why he did it and how he felt, which would probably make u cry cuz WE DON'T HURT HANSE .. NEVER

two; he'd NOT be impressed at all, If it was you who made him jealous

he'd probably show you in a very nice way 😏😈 who you belong to

okAy now If he saw anyone flirting with you he'd go after them immediately

call them out, death glare at them, scare them away while keeping you close, never leaving the assholes eyes until they leave

but also same like Sejun, he wouldn't really give anyone time to flirt with you as he'd be always around and honestly you'd never want to be around anyone else but him-

𝗕𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻

the certain someone I was talking about in Seungsik's reaction

which makes him the least jealous

he'd be the 'playful jealous' type

he'd either pout or just cross his arms

for example you're chilling with him in their dorm and a half naked other member walks by, you're looking at them

this would make others jealous, but Byungchan would be like "hey i have a good and tall body too, you can look as well"

or would cover your eyes with his hands

but he knows you love him and even If you looked at *his half naked friend* like that, he wouldn't necessarily take it as you thirsting over them, if that makes sense lol

if he saw another guy flirting with you he'd shield you with his body so the guy doesn't see you

and then tell him off with a smile and some snarky comments

"look, I know Y/N is very beautiful, but she has me" smiles, showing his dimples

"She has everything she needs with me so I don't think she'd ever need you"

"Please don't embarrass yourself anymore and leave" flashes another cute smile as he sees the asshole leave

𝗦𝘂𝗯𝗶𝗻

Subin is in the middle when it comes to jealousy

he's not THAT jealous, but can make a fuss about it If he becomes jelly

he's a babie, but he's also scary so in this case I wouldn't really count on the cuter image of his

the reason Subin would feel jealousy is most likely because he's young and small to (since he's the shortest in his group)

don't get me wrong, Im not trying to diss him of course

but let's say you'd hang out with Byungchan a lot or Sejun

he'd feel a bit self-conscious that you don't like him anymore and that you'd want someone older and/or taller

he'd either call you out for it, a bit raising his voice, but not too much

"Why do you spend so much time with Sejun? I know he's more handsome and taller than me, but I'm your boyfriend you know"

there could be some sassy comments/sassy tone too tbh

you'd have to reassure him that you love him as he is and that he doesn't need to be scared of you leaving him

(whoever hurts my son, will be badly beaten by Seungwoo and me)

okay but when he sees someone flirting with you, he'd go on beast mode tbh

I'd say something similar to Seungwoo

like he'd observe with a death glare, getting ready to kill a bitch, but at the same time containing himself

"Huh what did you just say?" he'd give the look same as in the gif below

daring the guy to repeat what he just said

honestly if they guy wasn't intimidated yet, he'd make his gaze more deathly

but if the guy got already intimidated, he'd be happy with himself, turn to you and smirk/kiss or both at you-

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pigletxpoohbear · 3 years

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I saw you asking for requests and wondered if you could do headcanons for how the obey me boys would react to a Mc who goes nonverbal sometimes (especially when they aren't feeling well mentally)? If you don't wanna do all, I'd just really love to see Beel, Barbatos, Diavolo and Luke!

I hope you have an amazing day🌼

I’m going to start off by just saying when I get really depressed and my thoughts and headspace are worse than usual this is my main mechanism to cope. So, I’m going to write this based on my experiences and go from there if you want me to rewrite it please say so. I’m also going to try and keep the headcannons for this as gender-neutral.

Lucifer

Lucifer is very observant and even more so when it comes to you

When he read your file he understood you had anxiety and depression, based on that he believed he had a clue what it was going to be like with you here in the devildom

Unfortunately, he was slightly off (he was completely incorrect, but he won’t admit that.)

He realized not too long after a week or two here with you in devildom that when you have really bad anxiety you tend to keep it to yourself and when your thoughts are too much you tend to do the same

He also saw that you’d try to keep answers as short as possible when feeling like this

Luci asked you to come by his office during school so that none of his brothers would interrupt, he ended up telling you that if there’s anything that he can do such as pulling you out of classes some days and just helping you privately or putting a proper lock on your door at the HoL you can just tell him and it doesn’t have to be in person, but a call, a text, an email, or a letter just let him know

He’s the most understanding of the brothers surprisingly

Mammon

Mammon isn’t exactly observant, but does notice

He noticed some days your answers to questions were so short or so quiet that they were almost nonexistent

Mammon was concerned about what was wrong with his human, but didn’t know what to do besides just talk to you about it

One night when you left to your room to be alone and just sit down away from anyone he actually knocked on your door instead of barging in

When he came in he sat across from you on the floor, he asked what was wrong or if there’s something that he needs to fix

You told him that when everything becomes too much you don’t really like to talk and want to be in a more quiet place

He ended up making a door hanger that told him if it was okay for him to barge in or if today you just needed time alone (he looked like a tomato when giving it to you, he felt so embarrassed)

Anything that makes his human comfortable

Leviathan

Anxiety? Depression? Nonverbal? Levi understands this all too well, but because this is the case he’s like the last one to notice

He doesn’t really notice mainly because he’s often in his room or in his head

He ended up finding out about it because you only gave him yes and no as an answer the whole weekend and thought it was because you didn’t want to be around a nasty otaku and confronted you outside your bedroom

You had to explain that you just go basically silent when your depression and anxiety became too much to handle and said you were sorry

Now Levi felt bad after you shut the door

He went out and got some mangas, animes, and candies and left them outside (after making sure Beel wouldn’t eat them and Mammon wouldn’t take them) and left a letter and a text message apologizing and telling you that he does the same thing and he’s really sorry that he jumped the gun and if you ever want to hang out with him in silence in his room you’re more than welcome to whenever you want

Satan

Satan notices almost as fast as Lucifer

He didn’t really say anything to you about it, but when he would see signs that today isn’t a good day he usually would keep his pranks on Lucifer to himself and see if maybe you want to play with the cats or go to a nice quiet cafe he found not too long ago

On good days he also tries to reach out and just be with you just to be sure you’re okay

Honestly does a ten out of ten job when it comes to being around you on good and bad days (he doesn’t even realize he’s benefiting from it and that he's much calmer recently)

Asmodeus

Asmo is very touchy-feely and some days you don’t like being touchy-feely

Asmo only asked about it because you wouldn’t cuddle with him the last few days

When he realized he apologized and said that if it’s not a good day today then whenever it is please come by he really loves to spend time with you, but won’t force you to do something that you’re not comfortable with

You guys cuddle every now and again because it does help sometimes and either he’ll whisper sweet nothings to you or he’ll just stay quiet and rub your head or back

When you don’t cuddle he’ll bring you tea and a nice pillow or two from his room so that you can rest or just sit more comfortably

Beelzebub

(I think that Beel is an empath and that’s why Beel gets upset by others being upset) When Beel gets the first signs that today isn’t a good day he usually gives you some of his food or asks if you need anything

He doesn’t quite understand it, but he wants to make you happy even if it takes a few days for that to happen

You ask Beel for cuddles or to just sit with you consider it done and sometimes Belphie will be there (usual he is, he just happens to always be where Beel is)

And you guys just form a cuddle pile and nap either in your room, the twins’ room, or in the observatory

Belphegor

He literally is too busy being asleep to notice and I don’t think would ever find out

One moment he’s in one room the next he’s in yours cuddling with you and Beel

Doesn’t mind too much (mainly because quiet means he can sleep)

Only realizes if someone says something to him about it, but no one asks him cause they go to you first

Clueless sleepy boi

Diavolo

He noticed because he could barely hear you one day and thought you were sick and was about to send you home with Lucifer (who had a bunch of papers he needed to sign off on and would grow immensely if not taken care of)

You explained that it wasn’t necessary and that today was just a bad day

He asked if you wanted to go home and just finish your schoolwork or some makeup work at the HoL or in his office so that you can be in more quiet and accommodating space

Every now and again you’ll do school work in Diavolo’s office and have little sandwiches and tea with him and Lucifer

Barbatos

Literally knows before you got here (he can see the future lmao)

He packs little gift baskets and things like that for you full of your favorite things and has them delivered that day or those days

He has to be with Diavolo all the time, but surprisingly is able to help with these little things that he sends you

You end up exchanging gifts and gift baskets every now and again and when he did get a day off you ended up spending it together and going to ristorante six

Simeon

Doesn’t spend much time with you outside school, but he does notice a few things that he considered odd

He wondered why you were so meek some days, but quite vocal others

He also saw how you’d keep to yourself and stay away from people especially large groups and then other days you’d be around all of the brothers laughing

He asked Lucifer about it and he explained the situation (Lucifer trusts Simeon to an extent, but knows that Simeon only asks for your well being and no other reason)

After learning the situation he becomes less curious as to what the problem is and more curious on how to help you

When needing to get in groups in classes the brothers aren’t closer or aren’t in he’ll partner with you and make sure that you’re comfortable

Luke

Sweet boy doesn’t understand other than your sad

Makes you cakes, cupcakes, cookies, and all sorts of sweet treats

He also loves to make sure that you’re heard and stays really quiet so he can hear what you have to say

He doesn’t get it, but he does have the spirit

Soloman

Oh boy where do I begin with this one

Soloman notices, he notices everything

Is he good at this type of stuff though? No, no he is not

Wants you to try out potions and tell him the effects, but can’t hear you

Is that an effect or is that just you?

When not experimenting he’s better and tries to find things that make you happy

Do you want cuddles? Done. Do you want food? I’ll get something from Hell’s Kitchen. Do you want to go for a stroll? I know a really good lookout point where we can be alone.

Literally, just don’t go in the potions room and you’ll have something helpful

#obey me imagines #obey me headcanons #obey me mammon #obey me diavolo #obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me asmodeus #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me barbatos #obey me solomon #obey me luke #obey me simeon #obey me mammon x reader

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silverlightqueen · 3 years

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Her 🦋

‘I could go up out to outer space with her, all I need is one more day with her.’

Phases - Hwang Hyunjin X Chase Atlantic

Rating: M (heavy angst and suggestive content)

Warnings: discussion of suicidal thoughts and severe depression, childhood trauma (absent father, daddy issues), discussion of sex, discussion and use of drugs, substance abuse/addiction and alcoholism, extremely toxic relationship, emotional manipulation and verbal abuse, fwb, sexting and sending nudes

Word Count: 4.6k+

a/n: and here is the second part of phases, my hhjxchaseatlantic series! please proceed with caution bc this fic is very heavy and touches on some very sensitive and serious topics. I really hope you guys enjoy this, lmk what you think and hmu if you wanna be on the taglist! the biggest thank you to the loml @silverlightprincess for proofreading this and bigging it up so much lmao I love you sis! x

taglist 🦋: @diue @shesfuckedinthehead @danyxthirstae01 @linours @titleisyettobemade @jikooksgirl19 @silverlightprincess

A loud ping from Hyunjin’s phone resonates in the hazy room, the other boys exchanging knowing glances, and he ignores the way his hands itch to reach into his pocket and see if it’s her. ‘Aren’t you gonna check that?’ Changbin asks, fingers fumbling as he tries to roll yet another joint. Hyunjin’s surprised the other boy can even see straight, let alone roll a joint, but he manages it. It’s not his best work, but it’ll do.

They’re sat in the private bar on the top floor of Changbin’s dad’s hotel on the outskirts of the city, surrounded by windows that overlook the skyline. None of them have particularly well-paying jobs – they have more than enough to live, but they splash it all on drugs and drink and fast cars and pretty girls who want Fendi bags, but thanks to Changbin’s dad, lavish nights filled with the oldest alcohol and the best weed are a regular. Changbin’s dad helps fund this lifestyle and they can’t be grateful enough towards him for it.

‘It won’t be urgent,’ Hyunjin says offhandedly, but he feels his skin lighting up with energy. It’s like nothing else is allowed to exist in his mind or body when he thinks of her – she pushes away everything else, even the marijuana mist that hangs in a heavy cloud over his mind. He’s already beginning to sober up, his senses alert and tuned into her. She’s not even here, and she’s all he can feel.

‘What if it’s your girl?’ Chan teases, dimples denting his cheeks as he hands Changbin the lighter. ‘She’s not my girl,’ Hyunjin replies mildly, the boys all looking amused. ‘Then why’d you go running whenever she texts you?’ Minho asks, gentle laughter running around the room, and Hyunjin pushes down the shame, rolling his eyes and curling his lips at the corners, trying to seem nonchalant.

‘He doesn’t go running. He leaves her waiting like a dick,’ Jeongin says, Hyunjin flipping him off half-heartedly. ‘As he should. She ain’t shit,’ Jisung says with a grin. ‘You say that, but you’d go running if it was you she was texting,’ Seungmin grins at Jisung, the latter nodding instantly. ‘Of course I would. I’m not a fucking idiot. I just feel sorry for him. They’ve been fucking around for years and she still hasn’t caught feelings like all other girls do. If there aren’t any feelings involved, it gets boring,’ Jisung says, not realising how his words feel like weapons to Hyunjin.

‘Are you fucking crazy? It’s way better without feelings. It gets messy with feelings,’ Minho says as Chan passes him the joint, fresh smoke already beginning to blur the room, and Hyunjin nods. ‘Exactly. The only reason we’ve been fucking around for so long is because there aren’t any feelings. That’s why we work so well,’ Hyunjin lies, his phone pinging again.

‘Well, I admire you. I’d have caught feelings for her by now,’ Felix says candidly, the other boys bursting into laughter. ‘Don’t laugh! You lot would’ve caught feelings for her too!’ he says defensively, raising his voice over the laughter. ‘Yeah, I definitely would have. I think I’d have wifed her by now,’ Changbin grins, and Hyunjin feels the jealously bubbling up inside him. He hates it when they talk about her. She might not be his, but she’s more his than she is theirs. They have no right to talk about her like that.

‘Yeah, but how do you wife a girl that doesn’t wanna be wifed?’ Chan asks, all of the boys letting out noises of agreement. ‘True. She’s actually living the life. Always decked out in designer, dick from Mr Handsome, free drugs from his friends, boujee apartment in the city, sexy group of friends and an easy ass ‘working from home’ job,’ Jisung says, sounding jealous, and all the boys start laughing again. ‘She really is. I’d swap lives with her, no hesitation,’ Seungmin says, more laughing filling the room.

‘Check your phone then, Mr Handsome,’ Felix nudges Hyunjin, and the boy lets out a little sigh, taking his time as he gets his phone out of his pocket. Her name is on the screen, no emojis and pet names or anything. Just her name. She’s sent him two texts, and he tries to hide his eagerness as he unlocks his phone to see them.

come see me when you’re done with the boys

give them my love and bring me some molly pls xo

‘Wow. Not her trying to emotionally manipulate the guys into giving her molly,’ Felix laughs quietly, looking at Hyunjin’s screen, and Hyunjin can’t help but laugh too. She’s one of a kind. ‘She sends her love to you guys,’ Hyunjin says, knowing he won’t even have to ask for the molly. They’ll offer it, like they always do. She’s got them all wrapped around her finger.

‘She’s cute. We should link soon,’ Chan says, handing the joint to Jisung and punching him gently when he nearly drops it. ‘Yeah, the same thing happens every time we link. We get a booth in a club, last for about ten minutes before they kick us out for doing lines, and then those two disappear to fuck and abandon the rest of us,’ Minho says drily, motioning to Hyunjin, who’s busy trying to formulate a laidback reply.

‘Tell her… only if she’s good,’ Felix says under his breath, knowing Hyunjin’s situation better than anybody else (Hyunjin’s never told him, but Felix is wise beyond his years, and very observant), and Hyunjin types up the response. Only a few seconds later do the three little dots appear, and Hyunjin imagines her in his head, lying on her bed and typing with that cute little smile on her face.

I’m always good

I love being good

for you

Hyunjin feels his blood heat up more and more with each text she sends, Felix chuckling amusedly as Hyunjin’s fingers ghost over the keyboard. He never knows what to say, never knows how to be cool and collected around her. ‘You’re on your own, bro. She’s too good at this,’ Felix murmurs, and Hyunjin nods in agreement, desperately wracking his brains for a response, ignoring the current conversation the boys are having.

Before he even begins typing, another text from her comes through, and it’s a picture. His heart speeds up as he waits for it to load, itching to see what she’s sent. He has a folder on his phone dedicated to all the pictures she’s ever sent, and he visits that folder more often than he’d ever admit. When the picture finally loads, he feels his heart stop for a second, Felix so startled that he begins choking, and Hyunjin hits him on the back, eyes still locked onto his phone.

She’s in her bedroom, the lights all off, and she’s stood in front of her mirror, her body illuminated by the flash from her phone and the city lights streaming in from her window. She’s dressed in her completely sheer Dior robe. And nothing else.

‘Fucking hell,’ Felix says when he finally gets his breath back. The boys are all distracted from their conversation, looking over at Hyunjin and Felix with curiosity. ‘What’s going on?’ Jeongin asks, and Felix and Hyunjin are both silent for a moment. ‘She sent me a picture.’ ‘Let us see!’ Changbin says instantly, all of them looking at him with disgust. ‘No, you fucking creep.’ ‘You showed Felix!’ ‘I didn’t show him.’ ‘Yeah, I looked at the screen just as the picture loaded,’ Felix says, the boys all raising their eyebrows at him. ‘What a coincidence,’ Jisung says drily, Felix beginning to defend himself.

Hyunjin quickly becomes distracted with the picture again, unable to believe how lucky he is that a vision of beauty sends him pictures like this. He still isn’t used to the feeling of having someone so… perfect trust him enough to bare herself to him. And he doesn’t think he’ll ever get used to it. How do you get used to something so… extraordinary?

‘The picture must be good. He can’t look away from his phone,’ Seungmin laughs, all the boys looking over at Hyunjin again. ‘At least… describe it to us,’ Changbin says, Hyunjin shooting him another dirty look. ‘Bro, just go watch some porn or something,’ Chan says, everyone bursting into laughter as Changbin shoves Chan. ‘I don’t want details. Just the gist of it,’ Changbin says, like a dog with a bone, and Hyunjin rolls his eyes.

‘It’s a mirror picture, and she’s wearing a robe.’ ‘Oh. That’s it? Bro, you’re down bad if you’re getting horny over that,’ Jisung says, and Felix bursts into laughter, Hyunjin unable to hold back his own chuckles. ‘You guys haven’t seen it, though.’ ‘If she’s fully clothed, it can’t be that sexy,’ Minho says, and Hyunjin and Felix laugh again. ‘The robe’s see-through,’ Hyunjin admits. When it comes to her, his pride and jealousy regularly battle, and leave him torn between showing her off and keeping her to himself.

‘It’s see-through? Like totally see-through?’ Jisung asks with wide eyes, and Hyunjin nods smugly. ‘And is she wearing anything else?’ Changbin asks, Hyunjin shaking his head with a grin, the boys all looking shocked. ‘Wow, she must really trust you, to send you a picture like that,’ Chan says disbelievingly, Hyunjin feeling smugger by the second.

‘What the fuck are you waiting for? Go to her, stupid,’ Jeongin urges, Hyunjin chuckling. ‘There’s no rush. She likes the long game,’ Hyunjin replies mildly, the others all shaking their heads in disbelief. ‘You’ve got it so good,’ Seungmin says, voice laced with envy, and Hyunjin can’t help but grin in response.

aren’t you gonna tell me I look good?

did I make you hard in front of your friends, jinnie?

are they all jealous bc your girl is so hot?

I bet they wanna fuck me like you do

only you get to fuck me though, jin

I only want you

only wanna be good for you

He stays with the boys for another hour, but his mind is elsewhere completely. The texts she sends him every few minutes fry his brain, and he feels himself getting needier with each one. He needs her. So many addictions in his life, but he’d give them all up for her. Fuck Mary Jane and Molly; she’s his favourite.

I’m thinking of you, jinnie

always thinking of you

And those texts are the ones that push him over the edge. Not the ones about how much she wants him, how good his dick is, how wet she is for him, but the ones that make him think she cares.

‘I’m heading off,’ Hyunjin says, getting up from his seat, and the boys all laugh and cheer. ‘Coming back after?’ Jeongin asks, and Hyunjin shrugs. ‘Probably,’ he says, pulling his jacket on. ‘Here, bro. I’ve got her favourites,’ Changbin says, holding a little plastic packet out to Hyunjin. The boy takes it, and he wants nothing more than to crush the pills into tiny little pieces. But he puts them in his pocket instead, their weight on his heart like bricks.

Hyunjin doesn’t waste any more time, driving like a madman to her apartment in the city centre, praying he doesn’t get a ticket but knowing that it’s worth it for her. He has a pass for her apartment block’s car park, and thankfully his usual space, the one beside her space, is empty. She has Hyunjin to drive her around most of the time, so her barely driven black Audi A5 with its D&G interior is in pristine condition. Hyunjin has a keycard to get into her apartment and he taps his foot impatiently as he scans it, the lift slowly moving upwards. He practically leaps through the doors when they open, stepping straight into her living room.

The lights are off, allowing a clear view through the floor to ceiling windows that look out over the city, but Hyunjin doesn’t care about that view. The view on his mind isn’t in here, and he exerts the last of his self-control as he heads towards her bedroom. When he reaches the open door of her room and she comes into his eyeline, his breath catches in his throat. She’s sat on her windowsill, looking out over the skyline with a wineglass in her hand, and he knows it isn’t wine that she’s drinking. It’s never something as weak as wine.

She looks like an angel, face serene and thrown into dim light from the city, and she’s not wearing the robe anymore. She’s in underwear, just a plain black Agent Provocateur set, but she looks like the most beautiful girl in the world to him. Practically everything in her room is Louis V, but she’s worth more than it all. He walks towards her slowly, and she knows he’s there but doesn’t look over at him. As he gets closer, he sees the black lines of mascara across her cheeks, her eyes red and swollen, and he isn’t sure whether it’s because she’s higher than a kite, or she’s lower than she’s ever been before.

‘Are you high?’ he asks her softly, and she lets out a gentle laugh. ‘No.’ ‘So you’ve been crying?’ ‘Yes.’ ‘You gonna tell me why?’ ‘No,’ she replies, voice like silk, and Hyunjin lets out a gentle sigh. ‘You can’t keep it all bottled up.’ ‘I can, and I will. I wanted you to come here to fuck me, not to be my therapist,’ she says tiredly, Hyunjin silent.

‘Did you bring my molly?’ she asks, and he just stares at her, waiting for her to look back at him. To actually look at him for once. ‘Hyunjin?’ Silence continues to fill the room, and after what feels like an eternity, she looks at him, her eyes shining with tears. ‘No.’ ‘You didn’t?’ ‘No. I brought you enough for a week on Tuesday. It’s Friday today.’ ‘I know what day it is. My health isn’t your problem.’ ‘I know it isn’t. But you should still have some left.’ ‘That’s not your concern. If I ask you to bring me something, you should bring it.’ ‘Stop being a fucking brat.’ ‘Stop being a fucking dick.’

He wants to scream at her, grab the glass from her hand and smash it against the wall, flush the pills in his pocket down the toilet. But he doesn’t. He just stands there, staring at her, and she stares back at him.

‘When was the last time you were sober?’ ‘For fuck’s sake, Jin, I can’t-’ ‘Answer the fucking question,’ he says angrily, and she flinches at his tone. ‘I… I’m sober now.’ ‘You’ve been drinking. When was the last time you were properly sober – no drugs or drink?’ She’s completely silent, and Hyunjin remains silent too, waiting for her response.

‘On Wednesday.’ ‘I’m not fucking stupid, stop lying to me.’ ‘I’m not lying!’ ‘I swear to God, I’m walking out of here if you don’t tell me the truth.’ ‘Then leave.’ ‘Don’t tell me to leave when that’s the last thing you want,’ he murmurs, and she just stares at him, eyes shining with tears.

‘Last week.’ ‘Stop lying!’ ‘I don’t fucking know, Jin! Maybe last week, maybe last month, maybe last year, maybe longer! I can’t fucking remember! I can’t even fucking see straight most days! You think I can remember when I was last sober? I’m never fucking sober!’ she screams, her voice shattering the silence, and Hyunjin feels his heart ache at the tears spilling down her face.

‘You’re slowly killing yourself.’ ‘You think I don’t know that? I’m not a fucking idiot, Jin! I haven’t got any delusions about my health!’ ‘If you know you’re dying, why don’t you stop?’ ‘You’re not an idiot either. You don’t need me to explain that to you,’ she says tiredly, as though all of her energy has suddenly flooded away.

Hyunjin’s eyes fill with tears at the realisation. She’s doing it on purpose because she wants to die.

‘Why? ‘What?’ ‘Why do you want to die?’ he asks softly, and she laughs humourlessly. ‘I told you; I don’t want a therapy session. That’s not why you’re here.’ ‘You’re insane if you think I’m gonna fuck you now,’ he says, the girl just staring at him.

‘This isn’t a film, Hyunjin, or a book. I’m not gonna magically decide to open up to you and cry on your shoulder and you hold me whilst I sleep and then you take me to DAA tomorrow and help me get sober. That’s not how this works. That’s not who I am, or who you are. You fuck me, or you leave.’ ‘I’m not gonna fuck you when you’re like this. I’m not a fucking monster,’ Hyunjin says harshly. ‘I might have to disagree with that,’ she murmurs before taking a sip from her drink.

‘You’ve had enough for tonight,’ Hyunjin says, the girl raising an eyebrow at him as she continues to drink. ‘I said that that’s enough,’ he spits angrily, and she flinches again, taking the glass from her lips a moment later. He holds out a hand to take it, and she hesitates before handing it to him, Hyunjin celebrating internally. It’s a step forward. It might be a small one, but it’s something.

He puts the glass down on her bedside table before taking a seat beside her on the windowsill. ‘You can leave.’ ‘I know,’ he says softly, and she doesn’t reply, looking back out over the city with tears streaming down her face. They sit in silence, looking at two different views, and Hyunjin feels like he could live in this moment. Her walls are up, but she’s letting him in, even if it is just for a little while.

‘You should go.’ ‘No.’ ‘Hyunjin-’ ‘I’m not leaving.’ ‘But why?’ she whispers, so much loneliness in her voice that his heart drops. ‘What do you mean?’ ‘Why are you staying? We’re not having sex, and we’re not in a relationship. You don’t have any obligations to stay,’ she murmurs, lips quivering as she speaks. ‘I know I don’t have any obligations, but I won’t leave you – not while you’re like this.’

They fall into silence again and it’s so heavy, weighing down both of their hearts. ‘No one ever stays,’ she says miserably, and he tilts his head questioningly. ‘My ex-boyfriends always left. My friends always leave. You always leave. My dad even left. So why are you staying now?’ she asks, and he’s devastated at her words. This is more than she’s ever told him, and he never expected to hear that this is her trauma. She’s got daddy issues, and that’s why she is the way she is. She’s a drug addict, an alcoholic, ridden with mental health illness, all because of her dad.

‘I’m all you have left, other than drugs and money.’ ‘That’s all I need.’ ‘If you’ve got what you need, why do you wanna die?’ ‘It’s all I need to survive. Not to live.’ ‘Don’t you want to live?’ ‘Of course I do. But not like this, not… haunted. Not weighed down. Not numb and empty, all the fucking time. I can’t escape. It’s all I am… when I’m sober. If I stay drunk, and high, I can forget it all. The second I start coming down, it all comes back, and it hurts so much. I just wanna feel… not even happy. Just… alive. For once. Without the help of alcohol and drugs and designer clothes. But they fill the emptiness inside me like nothing else does.’ ‘There’s so much more to life. Love, friendship, memories, nature, achievements.’ ‘I know, but my brain doesn’t work in that way. I could be… stood on top of the world, and I’d still feel like I want to die.’ ‘Let me help you,’ he replies, and she laughs.

‘You do help me. You help me fill the void my dad left behind. You’re an asshole. You might call me a good girl and praise me and baby me and treat me like a princess sometimes, but you’re emotionally unavailable, and you shout at me and get angry with me, and you’re never here when it matters which is good because I’d get attached if you were, and you’re horrible to me when we fuck, and you make me feel like I’m not good enough for you when you text other girls in front of me and check out every girl that passes us when we’re on a night out, and you never respond to the nudes I send you which makes me feel like I’m fucking ugly, but that’s okay because you’ll come and fuck me and I feel the validation that I need, and you never stay the night which makes me feel like you only ever want me for sex, but it’s okay because at least you like me enough to fuck me in the first place. You told me once that you won’t call me yours, but it’s okay because I’d rather my body be yours than none of me at all.’

She’s sobbing by the time she finishes speaking, struggling to breathe properly, and Hyunjin’s frozen in shock. He’s an asshole? No. He’s a guy who’s in love with her and doesn’t want her to know it, because she’s always told him that she doesn’t want his love, she wants his dick and his drugs. But maybe if he’d ignored her wishes, and openly loved her, she wouldn’t be so fucked up. She wouldn’t crave his worthless validation. She wouldn’t be so lonely that she wants to die.

‘But I’m-’ ‘No. Don’t you dare deny it and say some stupid fucking shit to try and manipulate me into thinking you care. You don’t have to. I know you couldn’t give a shit about me, and I’ve known for so long, and it doesn’t matter,’ she says, furiously wiping away her tears, and Hyunjin shakes his head, taking her trembling hands into his. ‘No, you don’t understand. I’m only like this because you pushed me away. We were so good at first, I used to openly adore you, but you pushed me away and told me that you didn’t want that from me.’ ‘Yeah, because I’m fucked up! I turned you into an asshole, and then fell in love with you! More fool fucking me! Can you just leave now?’ she asks, pulling her hands from his and looking away. His heart sings at her confession that she does love him, that this isn’t one-sided, but it quickly quietens when he sees the look on her face.

‘I’m literally trying to tell you that I’m in love with you too. I want to be with you, and do the things we’ve never done. Restaurant dates, and staying the night and laying with you, and shopping trips that don’t end up with us fucking in the Chanel back room – not that I’m complaining about that, obviously. But I just want to be with you. We could be so good together – just give us a chance. Things don’t have to be this way.’ ‘They are.’ ‘But they don’t have to be! Just give me a day. A day to be more than your dick appointment and your dealer. All I need is one day with you, and I can make the pain better.’

‘No, Hyunjin. Just go,’ she says quietly, the tears gone and her voice calm. She’s shutting herself off again, pushing him back out, and it makes him panic. ‘Don’t do this. This is your chance to be happy, for us to be happy together.’ ‘No. Leave, like you always do,’ she murmurs, and he can see the city lights reflected in her eyes, the galaxy held between her lashes.

‘I only left because you wanted me to.’ ‘I still want you to.’ ‘But you love me.’ ‘They don’t cancel each other out.’ ‘That doesn’t-’ ‘Make any sense? I know. I don’t make any sense. I want love, but I’m scared of it. I hate my dad for abandoning me, but I only ever want guys that abandon me so if you stay, I’ll fall out of love with you, or I’ll push you away like I did when we first started fucking so that I can carry on loving you. I was never treated right, but I only ever want guys that treat me badly, so if you treat me right, I’ll get bored of you. I never got love from my dad, so I’ve been running from it my whole life, and that isn’t gonna change. I’ve driven myself insane for years, trying so hard to understand why I’m like this, but I am, and you should just accept that instead of trying work me out.’

Hyunjin just blinks, trying to process her words. Where does he win? The only way he can have her is carrying on being the asshole he’s been for the past few years, but there’s only so long he can keep that up when he’s falling more and more in love with her by the day. But if he openly loves her, she won’t want him anymore. Hyunjin makes a vow that if, by chance, he ever encounters her dad, he’s gonna beat the shit out of him. And he also makes a vow that he’s gonna help her, get her to therapy or DAA, because there’s no other way he can see a positive outcome.

‘You should just leave.’ ‘How can I leave you like this?’ ‘Because I can’t love you if you stay. I don’t love people who stay, and I never have. So… go. Please,’ she says, no emotion, no nothing in her voice, or on her face. She looks like one of those ancient marble statues, passive and cold but beautiful. And Hyunjin knows that he doesn’t want to live a life without her in it, so he does the only thing he can tonight, the only thing that won’t push her away.

‘Fine. I’ll fucking leave, since you keep fucking telling me to,’ he says harshly, the girl flinching at the suddenness of him pushing himself off the windowsill, feet landing heavily on the floor. ‘Came here to fuck you, and you’re fucking crying instead. You’re such a fucking mess. I should have brought your fucking molly. At least you keep your fucking mouth shut when you’re rolling. Never tell me to come over if you’re in your feels again, ‘cause I don’t wanna sit here and listen to you whine about your shitty dad,’ he mutters angrily, loathing himself for the words he’s using against her, the kind of words he’s subjected her to for so long, the words that made her fall in love with him.

Despite his brain screaming at him to not look back before leaving, he does it anyway, and when he sees her reaching for her glass again, eyes filled with tears and lips curled up into a sad smile, he feels his heart break into a million little pieces. He should knock the glass out of her hand. He should tell her how much he loves her, and how he’s not gonna give up on them. He should force her to get into his car, take her to rehab, and tell her that he won’t stand by and watch her slowly kill herself. But he squares his shoulders, ignoring the clink of her glass against her Cartier rings, and leaves her bedroom with the weight of the world on his shoulders and her face in his mind.

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retrievablememories · 3 years

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make a wish | lucas

title: make a wish pairing: lucas x reader genre: fluff, a little angst request: hiii! can i please request something for wayv lucas where you dont answer his calls or texts for a day because you and the other wayv members were setting up a surprise bday party for him. thank you! word count: 1.7k warnings: hmm none that i can think of... a/n: not sure if i like how this came out, let’s pretend i didn’t post it if it flops 🤡 i felt like this was maybe a little more ~angsty~ than it needed to be altho i wasn’t sure how else to maneuver the surprise bday thing without them blowing the cover lmao...also yea it’s not his bday anymore but life is busy lol

To: Y/N Helloo~~? Y/N, are you ever gonna answer me back?

Seriously, did I do something wrong…

If you’re mad at least tell me why.

Lucas knows you’re not in any kind of danger or distress because he’s seen you be active on your social media accounts, but he can’t understand why you haven’t answered a single one of his calls or texts. Especially since tomorrow is his birthday.

Lucas feels frustrated at not being able to get through to you, and none of the other members seem to know what’s going on even when he asks. They’re close enough to you to have your number and talk to you regularly, but they all claim they haven’t heard anything from you either.

Ten looks up from his phone, seeing Lucas standing in the middle of the room looking bewildered as he stares down at his own phone like it’ll give him an answer. “Maybe Y/N wants a break from you right now,” he suggests, which makes Lucas sweat a bit despite himself. Ten wouldn’t know that. Right? Unless you’d told him something to suggest that.

“Stop trying to destroy happy homes, hyung,” Xiaojun says. “I’m sure it’s not that. Maybe she just needs alone time. Everyone does sometimes.”

“I guess,” Lucas mumbles. But he also knows that you’d usually tell him in advance if that were that case—not just ignore him completely. He thinks about going over to your place to find out what’s going on, but if what Xiaojun said is true, it’d probably be better not to disturb you or make you upset. “Are you sure she hasn’t contacted any of you? You look like you’ve been texting someone all day.”

Lucas tries to lean over Ten and look at his phone screen, but Ten is faster and leaps off the couch and away from him. “Don’t invade my privacy! Stop before you see something you don’t wanna see.”

Xiaojun laughs from where he sits on the ground playing with Bella. “Yeah, remember last time? No one needs a recap of that.” Ten rolls his eyes at that.

Lucas throws himself over the couch where Ten just was, sighing deeply. “Sure, sure. I’ll just suffer here then, lost in the dark without a clue what’s going on...”

Xiaojun brings Bella up to the couch so she can peer up at Lucas with her huge dark eyes, resting her forepaws on his arm. The corner of Lucas’s mouth turns up in a smile and he reaches out to pet her soft furry head. Xiaojun grins when the other man does, and he presses his face into her fur.

“I promise tomorrow will be better. It’s your birthday, after all...just watch.”

Despite Xiaojun’s reassurance, Lucas feels even more uncertain when he wakes up the day of his birthday, especially when he has no idea what the day has in store.

The other WayV members had all left the dorm early in the morning with the reasoning that they had individual schedules or needed to run urgent errands. Though they gave him their birthday wishes and said they’d come back as soon as possible so they could all celebrate, Lucas was more than a little disappointed about being left alone on his birthday. At least he had the pets to keep him company...and the manager and dorm auntie. Although they were nice to have around, they weren’t exactly who he was expecting to spend the day with.

He spends a while throwing toys around for the cats and Bella to play fetch with as he lies on his stomach on the floor, his phone a few feet away from him in case someone decides to call. Maybe someone like you.

Lucas tries a few more times to get in touch with you and still can’t get through, which makes him even more stressed than he was yesterday. Maybe the situation is something more serious than he initially thought? But still, you retweeted a couple things on Twitter just that morning, so it can’t be anything dire or life-threatening.

Lucas tries not to let his feelings bleed into bitterness, though he thinks you’ve picked a fine time to suddenly want to be isolated from everyone else.

A couple hours pass, but the time seems to go even slower than humanly possible. When even the pets become tired of the games and decide to wander off or take a nap, Lucas finally decides to just get dressed and go find something to do on his own for today; he doesn’t know what just yet, but there must be something to do. Just as he’s leaving the dorm, something happens that he previously thought was impossible; he gets a text from you.

From: Y/N Yukhei!! Can you come over?

To: Y/N ?? After ignoring me for a day and a half?

From: Y/N Please. It’s important.

I promise I will make it up to you, but you have to come over right noww 🥺

To: Y/N 😪 Fine, I’ll come over

Lucas makes it over to your place not too long after he finishes texting you. He’s not sure what to expect or what you’ll have to say to him once you see each other—or what he’ll say to you. His interest is piqued even more when he gets a text from you as he’s making his way up the stairs to your apartment.

From: Y/N Just come on in, the door’s unlocked. I’m a lil busy so I can’t get it myself!!

“Busy with what?” Lucas says to himself out loud. Now more curious than he was before, he continues up the stairs until he’s at your door. When he pushes it open, he’s taken aback by the sight of you and the other WayV members standing in front of the entryway.

You’re standing in the middle of them all, holding a cake with lit candles on it and smiling widely at your shocked boyfriend. “Surprise!” you and the other men exclaim all at once. “Happy birthday, Yukhei!!”

Lucas freezes in the doorway with a growing smile on his face, looking at all of you—and your surroundings—incredulously. Your apartment has been done up rather extensively with birthday banners, balloons, streamers, and every other kind of decoration you’d expect to see at a birthday celebration.

You all sing happy birthday to him then, and he watches you and his friends with his eyes sparkling with delight and a bashful smile on his face.

“Wait...is this why you wouldn’t answer me back?” A laugh slips out of him as he covers his mouth, and he feels a bit silly, like maybe he should’ve seen something like this coming. Obviously, you’d never freeze him out on a day like this without a really good reason for it. “Y/N, you did all this for me?”

“Of course! I mean, the guys helped with decorating and setting everything else up ‘cause it was hard to do all that and bake a cake—but you know what I mean.”

Lucas leaves the entryway and steps forward now, still grinning widely. “Wah, you guys told me you didn’t know anything!”

“It wouldn’t be a surprise anymore if we told you.” Hendery laughs.

“Sorry we kept you in the dark for so long, hyung,” Yangyang chimes in, “but as you can see, we did a really good job putting everything together. So it paid off!”

“Now, blow out your candles,” you tell Lucas, bringing the cake forward.

Lucas shakes his head in happy disbelief as he looks down at your creation and chuckles to himself. “You must’ve really worked hard on this...I know baking isn’t your favorite thing to do.”

You laugh sheepishly. “Yeah, well, it took a few failed attempts to get this result, that’s for sure.”

Lucas thinks to himself for a moment, then closes his eyes and blows out the candles. Everyone claps and cheers after he does, and his answering grin is possibly the sweetest thing you’ve seen all day.

Sicheng grins mischievously and suddenly breaks up the moment by saying, “Now, can we eat?”

The rest of the day is spent with you all talking about any and everything, playing games, and watching movies, which eventually ends up with everyone falling asleep in various spots of your living room. You and Lucas got the honor of taking the couch, with Kun squeezed in beside Lucas and currently knocked out, head leaning against the back of the couch.

You and Lucas are the only ones still awake, although it probably won’t be long before you’re off to dreamland too. You can feel yourself getting sleepier, though you try your best to stay conscious. Lucas glances down at you where your body rests in his arms, and he grins to himself, placing his lips on the top of your head for a gentle kiss.

“I want us to stay like this forever, you know. Just the two of us,” he whispers close to your ear.

“Me too…” you murmur, already half-asleep against his chest despite your best efforts.

“It’s what I wished for.”

You perk up a little at that and swat at his arm where it’s wrapped around you. “Noo, don’t tell me or it won’t come true!”

Lucas giggles, and his laughter makes your body shake.

“You don’t have to worry about that when it’s already fated.”

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miraculous-anna · 4 years

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Opposite Day (Or DuPont’s Worst Nightmare) Part 2: electric boogaloo

Hello Everyone!! The title is a joke, i promise! I saw a chance, and i took it lol. Anyway, In this part, we’ll be focusing on Lila a little bit, and the class focusing on everything Marinette said to them, and having a couple heart to hearts :) Just an FYI, the taglist is still open! And if you wanna be tagged, send me an ask and i’ll put you on the list!

Just a tip lmao: To really get a feel on how i interpret the mood of this chapter i recommend listening to this piano cover of knee socks by Arctic Monkeys, it made me cry :,)

Okay, on to the story!

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Footsteps echoed through the halls of DuPont Highschool, going straight towards the bathrooms. I have to make this right! She has to still be there! I have to apologize, come clean, tell her I’m sorry. I didn’t want it to go this far. But i was too stubborn, I let it get out of hand.

Lila raced to the bathroom, only find it was empty. “Dammit! Of course it’s empty!” She cursed, closing the door and going back down the hallway. Lila grabbed her phone, checking the time, and decided on another idea. Perfect, I can’t back out of it this way.

Lila ran towards the library, her backpack slung over her shoulders. Finding a table in the library, Lila sat down, and dug out her notebook. Picking out a pencil, she flipped open a page and got to writing. I have to explain, I need her to understand, and fast.

After a good 30 minutes of writing, Lila grabbed her things, racing towards the front of the school. Sprinting down the steps, she ran toward the cross walk to get to the side of the road, and after looking both ways, ran towards a very familiar and well known building. With determination in her eyes, She pushed open the door, hearing the bell jingle, alerting an older woman of her presence. The older woman smiled, and greeted her. Lila noticed the bakery was very empty at the moment.

“How can i help you, dear?” The woman asked, walking away from the counter. Lila took that as a sign to walk towards her. Walking up to her, with around 6ft between them, Lila took a deep breath.

Suddenly feeling nervous, her mouth goes dry. “Uhm, excuse me..” Lila’s words got caught in throat before the guilt came crawling back in waves. She swallowed, and repeated herself. “Excuse me, ma’am? I.. I need to speak to you.” The woman tilts her head in confusion, a smile still present on her face. “Well, of course, what is it? I’m Sabine, by the way.”

Lila would be lying if she said she wasn’t shocked that Sabine, Marinette’s mother, didn’t recognize her. Surely, Marinette had told her parents about Lila? Just how much was she keeping to herself?

With a shake of her head, Lila decided to say her name. “I’m Lila, Marinette’s..” Lila cleared her throat. “Uhm.. Marinette’s classmate. I need you to give this to her, later tonight. Please, after school is over, and she’s home.” Handing a letter to her, Lila balled her fists at her sides. Straightening her posture, Lila looked Sabine in the eyes, and said, as confident as she could manage, “I made some mistakes, and my apology is in that letter. I need her to read it at exactly the right moment. Your daughter didn’t deserve any of the things that happened. I’d appreciate it, if you’d comply with my request.” Finishing her plead, Lila took a deep breath, and blinked repeatedly to rid of the tears, and the burning sensation behind her eyelids.

“Of course! I’ll give this to her tonight. I’m glad you’re coming clean, Lila. It’s very mature of you. Would you like something from the bakery?” Sabine tucked the letter away in her apron, and gestured towards the glass cases showing the baked goods they had on display.”Uh,” Lila started, reaching into her pocket. Feeling her money pouch with her allowance she kept hid, She nodded her head. “Yes, please. Question, though.”

‘Yes, Lila?” Sabine asked, smiling again. “Which ones did Marinette make?” Lila scanned the room, searching for the macaroons the baker’s daughter was famous among the class for bringing. Sabine pointed towards different colored macaroons and chocolate covered croissants in a display cased with a sign on it called, “Marinette’s specialty baked sweets!”

Pulling out her pouch, Lila remembered just how much was in the pouch, and asked for as much as what was in there could get her. Sabine looked shocked, once again. “Are you sure, this is a lot.” Nodding her head, Lila pleaded for the second time that day. “Please, please make sure that money reaches Marinette. Consider this apart of my apology. It’s the least I could do, honestly.” Nodding her head, Sabine accepted the money, and assured the girl the money would reach her daughter.

Leaving the bakery with goods in hand(s), Lila sighed, hoping her plan would work. I just hope I don’t try to back out of this when i’m back to normal, I can’t afford to.

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Sighing, Alya scratched her head. Nino looked over at her, “Something wrong, Alya?” Messing with her hair, Alya groaned, “No, Nino, everything’s peachy!” “Sorry, Alys, dumb question.” Nino said, sheepishly. “It’s fine, i just can’t stop thinking about everything Marinette said.” Alya confessed, alerting the rest of the class. “Honestly, none of us can. What she said really hurt, but she did bring up a few good points.”

“Oh, really? Like what, Nino?” Alya glared, crossing her arms. “Well, We did ignore her for the past month in favor of Lila...” Rose pitched in, sadly. “Yeah, and she doesn’t like Adrien, definitely. I’ve been hanging out with him all month, frequently, and she hasn’t talked, texted, even seen Adrien all month.” Nino explained, He shrugged, “ He even complained how everyone but Marinette talks to him. He says he doesn’t know what he did, but he thinks she’s been avoiding him.”

“Where is he, anyway?” Alix asked, noticing the resident “sunshine boy” wasn’t present. “It IS lunchtime, Alix. His dad probably wanted him home or something.” Ivan replied, shrugging his shoulders. Alya placed her head in her hands, clearly frustrated. “I don’t get it. Am I a tabloid reporter? Surely, everything Lila says is the truth! She wouldn’t lie like that.” Mostly everyone was murmuring among themselves, mostly agreeing with her.

“If you think Lila wouldn’t lie, then what about Marinette?”

Silence. Alya surveyed the room. Who had said that? She spotted Nathaniel in the back, staring right at her. He spoke again. “Why is Marinette different then Lila? We’ve known her longer than Lila, she’s never given us reason to doubt her before, and Marinette hates liars just as much as Ladybug hates Hawkmoth.” Nathaniel continued to stare right at Alya, knowing she was one of the main accusers, if not the only one. “Well, you know Marinette acts crazy and kinda stalker-like when she gets jealous-” Alya tried to explain.

“But who is she jealous of? You heard her scream it right in your face. She isn’t jealous of Lila, so yeah, Alya, why would Marinette lie? Did you even check if Lila was telling the truth?” Alix, of all people had decided to speak up. She narrowed her eyes at Alya, deciding to perch like a gargoyle on her desk. Everyone had to admit, it was slightly intimidating.

“Alix? Why are you defending her? I mean, we get Nathaniel, he liked her at one point, but you?” Kim asked, shocked, and very confused. "Because I realized Lila's lies were hurting Marinette a couple weeks ago. Dont you remember? I stopped hanging out with the girls whenever Lila was there." Alix explained, rolling her eyes. Before anyone could say anything to Alix, someone walked in.

In all her glory, there stood Lila.

The class was silent, as they watched her walk to the middle of the room. "I need to speak to all of you, and it's important that you listen to what I have to say while my personality is reversed."

Everyone murmured in shock. Lila knew she was acting different? Everyone quieted back down, and Lila started speaking again. "Over the past month, since I came back, I've been lying to you all. I said that I did all these great things, met all these people, went places. But I lied."

Lila spoke before anyone could say anything in response. "Before you assume why I did these things, I want you to know, that I didn't do them cause I wanted friends, its an entirely different reason that I'm not gonna tell you, until I tell Marinette, cause she deserves to know the truth first. After everything I've done," Lila continued her monologue, taking a deep breath. "Of course, it still doesn't excuse my actions for lying, but one thing I don't get, is why you all believed me. I've been to 5 different schools, counting this one, and none of them except you ever believed my lies. I don't get it."

“Well, we accept your apology Lila. We’re glad you came clean.” Alya spoke up, finally. It was clear she was taking this whole thing the hardest. “Wait, then we really did hate Marinette for no reason!” Mylene cried, her hands flying up to her mouth. Rose gasped, and teared up. “You’re right, oh no..” Juleka hugged Rose, who was now crying.

“I don’t get that either. Yes, I was hard on her, but i never expected you to believe Marinette, the class president, the goody-two-shoes of this school would bully me.” Lila spoke up again. “At least you know what you did.”

And with that, she left. Where, no one knew.

“We have to apologize to her. Immediately.” Alya cried, running out of the classroom, desperate to find her ex-best friend. The girls of the class ran after her, minus Alix. “You guys can apologize to her once the girls are done. I feel like bombarding her at once will be a bad idea. The girls ran out before I could say anything to them.” Alix sighed, jumping down from her desk. Holding her hands behind her head, she walked out with Nathaniel beside her.

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Arriving at the bakery, Alya opened the bakery door, and the rest of the girls present followed after. “Mlle. Cheng! Where’s Marinette? We need to speak to her, like right now!” Alya pleaded, her words coming out in a frenzy, and very rushed. Sabine looked slightly shocked, and surprised. “I’m afraid Marinette hasn’t been home since this morning, girls. She told me she wasn’t going to be home for lunch because she was meeting up with a friend of hers. I’m sorry, girls.” Sabine gave them a pitying look, turning away to tend to the customer in front of her. “Dammit! Where could she be?” Alya groaned, leaving the bakery with everyone following behind her. “Who knows? Wait, she mentioned a friend?” Rose asked. Everyone nodded, before Rose turned to Juleka. “What about your brother?! They’re friends, aren’t they? You did mention they hang out a lot!” Rose squealed excitedly, as Juleka nodded. Alya grabbed Rose’s shoulders and shook them excitedly, exclaiming, “Rose! You’re a genius!”

“Look! It’s Ladybug!” A bystander cried, pointing to the sky. Everyone watched in admiration and awe as the spotted heroine swung over the city, her feline partner not far behind her.

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Show Me How

Description: After countless ‘I think she’s the one’ Grayson loses hope in finding his soulmate. But one girl gives him the hope to try again.

Warnings: None

Word Count: 4.5k+

Parties were not your scene. They just weren’t, but they certainly were your friends, and they loved to drag you with them.

Which is the only reason why you're in a stranger's kitchen, it was a nice kitchen tho, definitely better than the one at your tiny and overpriced apartment.

“I haven’t seen you around,” a random man’s voice spoke as they stood next to you.

“Cool,” you nicely replied, taking a sip of the cup that you were holding onto for dear life.

“You look hot,” he replied again, making you roll your eyes and turn to look at him.

“And you look like you should leave me alone,” you replied, you were a bit scared, he was taller than you and under the influence of alcohol and other things.

“Feisty, I like it,” he smirked and you instantly felt smaller and scared.

“And she doesn’t like you,” another man’s voice spoke, but from behind you, his arms wrapped around you, pulling you close but not that close.

“And who are you?” the previous guy asked with an attitude.

“I’m her boyfriend, and I suggest you leave her alone and leave while you’re at it,” he replied and the guy just scoffed and left.

“Thank you so much, he was starting to scare me,” you thanked as his arm unwrapped from you.

“It’s no problem. He shouldn’t be talking to you like that, or anyone else on that matter. I mean even I could tell you had no interest in him,” he replied giving you a smile that you returned.

“But seriously thank you, I don’t know what he was finna do if you didn’t come along,” you replied, placing your cup on the counter next to you. “I’m Nailed by the way,” you added with a smile.

“Grayson,” he replied, returning your smile. “Also not to be rude, but I’ve never seen you around. Are you new to the ‘youtube community’ or?” he asked and you shook your head with a giggle.

“Oh no, I could never. My friends are and they dragged me here,” you replied and he sent you a confused look.

“Why not?” he asked and you shrugged.

“I don’t know, I’m more of a lowkey kind of person you know. Like thousands of people watching me do something sounds weird” you said emphasizing the ‘me’ in your sentence.

“Oh, I get what you mean. But you get used to it.” he shrugged and you nodded your head.

“You know what’s funny. I get hate every day because of my friends, like why do you take time out of your day to make me laugh, like really?” you said laughing a bit. It was true, you get hate and laugh at it, you could say that growing up with your family made you immune to hate.

“See, you’re ready to be a YouTuber or something, you’re like mentally prepared,” he replied with a chuckle.

“I’ll think about it,” you replied and took another sip of your water, “I think I’m gonna go,” you sighed looking at the time displayed on your phone screen.

“Wait, why?” Grayson asked as he stared at you.

“I’m bored, and it’s late. Plus my friends all left me so,” you shrugged.

“So you’re gonna leave me,” he replied, acting offended.

“Bro, I’m not leaving you. I’m leaving the party, plus I’m hungry,” you replied, putting your phone in your pocket.

“It’s my party, so technically you’re leaving me. Can you just stay? At least for a bit?” he asked, making you blush, thank God for makeup. You were confused as to why he didn’t want you to leave, but you didn’t mind it either.

“Fine, and thank God I didn’t talk shit about the party,” you replied, making him laugh.

“What is my party?” he asked and you shook your head.

“No, but I told you pirates aren’t my thing. I would be reading a book right now,” you replied and he shook his head.

“A book?” he asked and you nodded your head.

“Yes, a book. Reading is actually fun dude,” you replied and he nodded his head.

“Well, then I’m gonna take your word on that and-,” he began saying before someone yelled his name cutting him off.

That someone looked just like him making you think they were twins.

“Ethan this is Y/N, Y/N this is Ethan, my twin brother,” he said as Ethan sort of inspected you and looked at you weirdly making you feel uncomfortable.

“Hey,” he said, sending you a smile.

“Hi,” you replied, returning him the smile.

“She came here with her friends but they left her alone, and Bryce was acting weird so I came,” Grayson said and you nodded your head.

“Oh, yeah he said you were being a bitch and left,” Ethan replied and you shook your head.

“No, he was being a bitch, harassing me and shit. He was scaring me,” you replied making them laugh.

“At least he’s gone now,” Ethan said and you nodded your head. “I don’t know who told him to come, because it wasn’t me,” he added and Grayson shrugged.

“Me neither,” Grayson replied.

“He probably came along with someone, like I did,” you replied and they both agreed. “Now this conversation is nice and all, pero I’m hungry, so,” you said, getting your keys out of your pocket.

“What does pero mean, is it Spanish?” Ethan asked and you nodded your head.

“Yeah, it means but,” you replied and he nodded his head and repeated the word to himself.

“Wait, can you give someone a ride, my girl was gonna leave to get food too,” he asked and you nodded your head.

“Yeah sure, I don’t mind.” you shrugged and he nodded your head, he left and said he was gonna go get her.

“So you’re gonna come back?” Grayson asked and you nodded your head.

“I kinda have to now, but yeah,” you replied and looked around. You spotted one of your friends doing something but you didn’t know what.

“Ok, here she is,” Ethan said, coming back to a girl.

“Hi, I’m Karolina,” she said and you could hear a slight accent in her voice.

“Hey girl, I’m Y/N,” you replied with a smile. “Do you wanna go now?” you asked and she nodded her head. You guys said your goodbye’s and she followed you out the house and into your car.

“Do you have any place in mind? I’m up for anything?” you asked turning on your car after putting your seatbelt on.

“Umm anything open honestly, and offer vegan food, they’re vegan,” she replied and you nodded your head.

“Wait, they’re vegan?” you asked and she nodded her head.

“Yeah, for a while now, it’s kind of annoying because sometimes not all places offer vegan options, and then we have to leave or something. But don’t tell me I said that,” she replied, making you laugh.

“My lips are sealed,” you replied making her laugh.

“So I see you were talking to Gray,” you pointed out, making you blush slightly but you still did.

“Yeah, he’s nice,” you casually replied.

“Nice? Girl, he was all up on you,” she said making you shake your head while smiling.

“He was not. He was just being nice,” you replied as she stared at you as if you were crazy.

“Ethan told me he had to go over to you guys because he saw him talking to you for like minutes,” she said and you shrugged,

“I mean yeah, but I doubt it. Doesn’t he have a girlfriend or something?” you asked and you shook her head.

“Nah, he struggles. A LOT,” she replied emphasizing the ‘a lot’.

“Word? How does he struggle when he looks like that?” you asked surprised.

“Don’t tell him I told you this but, Grayson is a guy that goes straight to the point. And he does the same thing with relationships, he falls fast and some girls don’t like that,” she sighed and shook her head.

“Awww dito, that’s sad. But I get it. He wants someone to stay with and just settle down with. He’s ready to commit,” you replied and she nodded her head.

“Yeah, and he falls fast, and Ethan always has to protect him and be there for him,” she explained.

“Well, hopefully, he finds someone who loves him for him. I mean he seems like a really nice person and everyone deserves to be happy,” you replied as you parked your car in front of one of the restaurants your friends go to.

“Yeah, he is, he just has to be patient,” she replied and you guys got out of the car and walked inside, ordered the food, and left.

When you got back to the house, everyone had left and it was just you, Kristina, the twins, and their closest friends who they introduced you to.

“Wait so you’re in college,” Ryan (not n-word Ryan) asked you and you nodded your head.

“Yeah, but I might drop out, It’s not for me anymore. I only have a year left so I don’t know,” you shrugged and he nodded his head.

“Might as well finish and get what you paid for,” he replied and you nodded your head.

“True, I don’t even want to be a doctor anymore,” you sighed and took a sip of your milkshake.

“If it’s not good for your mental health then don’t do it,” Grayson shrugged and you nodded your head.

“Yeah, I don’t know yet. I’m still thinking about it, anyway I think I’m gonna go,” you yawned getting up and throwing your trash in the trash can.

“I’ll walk you out,” Grayson said and you nodded your head.

You followed him out of the house and walked towards your car.

“Thank you for saving me from Bryce today,” you smiled and he nodded his head.

“I told you it was no problem,” he replied with a smile and put his hands inside his pockets.

“Umm, anyways,” you awkwardly replied leaning against your car.

“Yeah, um-” he began saying before he got cut off by Ethan.

“Just give him your number. He’s struggling to ask you for it,” Ethan shouted, making you and Grayson blush.

“Yeah, what he said,” he shyly smiled and you nodded your head.

He pulled his phone and handed it to you while you handed him yours and exchanged numbers.

“I’ll text you?” he asked and you nodded your head, putting your phone back in your pocket.

“I’ll see you around Gray,” you softly said as you got inside your car, turning it on.

“See ya, let me know when you get home, yeah?” he replied and waited for you to go back inside and get bullied by Ethan and the rest.

When you got home, you shot him a quick text letting him know and took a shower before going to bed.

Gray:

Good. Wyd?

Me:

Watching a show, you?

Gray:

Cleaning the kitchen

Me:

Wait...by yourself?

Gray:

Yeah, E and Karolina when to bed so

Me:

OOP, lmao good luck.

You replied before putting your phone down and continuing to watch your show before your phone started ringing. He was calling you so you answered.

“Hello,” you answered putting it on speaker and putting the phone on the bed.

“Hey, sorry if it’s random, I’m bored and basically alone,” he replied.

“It’s ok, I don’t mind, I wasn’t really watching the show anyway,” you replied, which was a lie. You were really into the show.

“Listen, I know we just met and all, but do you wanna go somewhere tomorrow? It’s ok if you don’t,” he asked, making you smile and blush.

“Sure, just let me know when and where so I can get dressed appropriately,” you replied.

“Umm, do you wanna go hiking, well not really a hike more of a walk?” he replied, making you laugh.

“You’re not gonna push me off the mountain or something right?” you joked.

“Ohh I’m definitely gonna do that,” he joked as a large smile waltz it’s way onto your face.

“Ok, so I won’t wear white. Is a tracksuit ok? I don’t go hiking a lot.” you said chuckling at the end, while Grayson nodded his head even though you couldn’t see him.

“Yeah, anything is ok. Well not really anything, heels are not good for hiking, or dresses, or skirts,” he slightly chuckled making you shake your head with a smile.

“So, I’ll wear that and some sneakers,” you said, getting up from your bed to get the outfit and lay it down on a chair. “And I’ll just put my hair into a bun or something. You’re not gonna make me run are you?” you asked and heard him chuckle.

“No, why?”

“Because I used to run Track and Field, and I don’t want anything to do with running for a long time,” you said, emphasizing the 'long time'. You loved running but Track made you dislike it for a while.

“Oh, in high school?” he asked and you nodded your head forgetting he couldn't see you.

“Yeah, not to brag but I was a state champion,” you said with a smile walking over to your dresses pulling out a pair of socks and underwear.

“Oh so you’re fast, but you’re so tiny,” he joked making you roll your eyes.

“And this is where I hang up,” you joked before he cut you off with a ‘NO’.

“I’m kidding, I’m kidding,” he said and you shook your head, leaving your room and walking over to the kitchen.

“So, Karolina told me you guys are vegan?” you asked.

“Yeah, for a few years now actually. It’s nice,” he replied as you rummaged through your cabinets.

“That’s cool and all, but I could never,” you sighed grabbing a Rice Krispies treat and eating it.

“Why not?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” you replied chewing and swallowing, “I like meat and all. I’ve tried but couldn't. I was dairy-free for two months though,” you added, causing him to laugh.

“Ethan would be so disappointed,” he said laughing.

“Ethan can suck a dick, but that’s not really vegan, so he can suck on an eggplant,” you joked and heard Grayson wheeze making your jaw drop.

“Sir, do you have asthma?” you asked and he answered with a faint ‘yes’ since his laughter wouldn’t let him speak. You weren’t annoyed because it happened to you all the time.

“Ok, ok, I’m done,” he said out of breath after a few LONG seconds of laughing.

“Dang, I didn’t know I was that funny. I would’ve chosen to be a stand-up comedian instead of a surgeon,” you said and he let out another loud chuckle.

You were on the phone for another hour, until you both decided it was really late and you needed some sleep for tomorrow.

You finished watching the episode you were on and went to bed, only to wake up at 6 the next morning, since you agreed to have Grayson picked you up at 7:30.

You did your business in the bathroom and took a quick shower. You did your usual routine, substituting your makeup with chapstick and waterproof mascara, you got dressed in the clothes you had taken out yesterday; a cute baby blue legging and sports bra set that your friend had gotten you. (could never be me)

You put your hair into a slick back bun, put on extra deodorant along with perfume, and made your way into the kitchen with 10 minutes remaining, which you used to cut up some strawberries and bananas, throw them in your blender with some other ingredients and place them inside two cute containers you had gotten from a random store. Smoothie bowls were your go two, they only took about 5 minutes to make and were so good too.

Grayson sent you a text letting you know he was downstairs so you grabbed your bag with everything you needed inside, the smoothie bowls with spoons and two bottles of water, and made your way downstairs.

“Hey,�� you softly said once you saw him standing in front of the passenger door of his car, waiting for you.

“Hi,” he said with a smile and opened the door, you got inside the car and muttered a small thank you, you put your seatbelt on and placed your little backpack between your seat and the bowls on your lap.

“Ok, I made you this,” you said, handing him the bowl with the smoothie inside. “I made sure everything I put inside was either vegan or plant-based,” you said as he opened the bowl.

“Oh good, thank you, this looks so good by the way,” he said with a smile as you handed him the spoon.

“No problem, I figured you hadn't eaten anything, and it’s better to make things yourself than spend money on them, only sometimes though,” you said and started eating yours, he did too, considering the car was driving itself.

“And we're here,” he said, parking the car since he started driving after he finished.

“This is really exciting actually,” you said with a smile once you got out of the car and looked around the scenery in front of you.

It was just trees but it seemed peaceful and calm, And the air felt slightly clean if you compared it to the one in LA.

“I come here when I need some time away from the city and stuff,” he said, grabbing your small backpack from your hands and putting it on.

“I see why, and that looks so cute on you,” you joked making him shake his head with a smile.

“You ready?” he asked and you nodded your head.

Ten minutes into your little ‘hike’ and the sun was beating down on you like there was no tomorrow. You naturally tan skin getting darker than before.

“This is fun,” you said with a smile and Grayson turned to look towards you.

“Really, or are you just saying it because you don’t want to hurt my feelings?” Grayson asked and you laughed.

“Babe, I don't have a sugar coat. And I’m serious it’s so peaceful and calm, it reminds me of where I grew up,” you said with a smile making sure to pay attention to the floor so that you don’t trip and embarrass yourself.

“Good because it reminds me of Jersey, and my childhood home and things,” he said, making you smile.

“That’s cute, Oh can we sit on that bench over?” you asked and he nodded his head and you began to walk towards it.

“Ok, tho but I would do this every morning if I wasn’t studying,” you sighed as you gave your legs a break from all of that walking.

“I started to do it with E, but then we stopped. But I try to at least every other day, gotta treat your body right, you know?”

“Mhm, yeah. I always try to sneak a workout in every day or go for a walk around the block which isn’t safe but you gotta do what you need to,” you said and closed your eyes as the sun shined on you and Grayson secretly watched you.

“Maybe we can try and go for hikes here and there,” he shyly spoke, making you smile.

“Yeah, we can be hiking buddies or something,” you spoke opening your eyes and sending him a smile.

“Yeah,” he spoke as you got up from your seat.

“Alright. Breaks over, move that ass sir,” you said making him laugh and get up from the bench.

“Ignoring the fact that my legs want to kill me, this was fun,” you said standing in front of his car. You just finished walking back making the entire hike about and 1 and half long.

“Yeah, you get used to it tho, but yeah it was fun, especially when you almost ate dirt if only I wasn’t there to save you,” he said with a smirk causing you to scoff.

“Oh god, so funny, I’m gonna die HAHA,” you sarcastically said and rolled your eyes. “OK but it was kinda funny,” you chuckled causing him to laugh.

“I’m hungry, you wanna grab something to eat?” he asked and you nodded your head.

“Please? I’m so hungry,” you said.

“OK let’s go,” he said and you opened your door getting inside the car.

“You want to come in? It’s ok if you don’t,” he asked as he pulled up to his house and you shrugged.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to be a bother,” you asked and he nodded his head.

“I’m sure, come on Ethan isn’t here so it doesn’t matter,” he said, making you agree.

“Oh wow, now this is pretty, it was pretty last night but now? Dang,” you said and he shook his head smiling.

“Thanks, me and E remodeled it and stuff,” he replied, dropping the empty food containers in the trash. “You wanna go to the pool, try to cool off?”

“I would but I don’t have clothes,” you pouted pointing to your outfit.

“I can give you one of my t-shirts,” he said and you nodded your head, and followed him to his room since he told you.

“Ok, you can wear this then I'll give you something else before you go,” he said handing you a white tee with a Wakeheart logo on the left part of the chest.

“Thank you,” you replied, getting the shirt from his hand with a smile.

“You can change in here or in the bathroom over there if you want. I’ll be in the pool,” he said and you nodded your head before he walked out leaving you in his room.

You quickly changed into the shirt, taking the bra and leggings off along with your shoes and socks, and slipping into the shirt, neatly folding your stuff and leaving it on the corner of his head before walking out towards the pool.

Grayson’s heart rate accelerated at the sight of you in his shirt, his imagination created both cute and sinful thoughts.

“Hi,” you softly smiled, slipping inside the pool and staying by the edge.

“Hey,” he replied moving closer towards you.

“Not to ruin the vibe, but I can’t swim,” you whispered and he let out a loud laugh.

“Are you serious? Please tell me you're joking,” he laughed causing you to playfully slap his arm.

“I’m serious asshat,” you replied and he stopped laughing.

“Oh wow, how?” he asked and you rolled your eyes.

“I never learned, how else?” you replied and he shrugged.

“Ok, so if I were to pick you up and throw you over there-” he began before you cut him off.

“-I would drown and hunt you in your sleep you bitch,” you said, causing him to laugh.

“I’m not laughing Grayson, don’t you dare,” you said pointing your finger at his face like a mother would to their child.

“I’ll save you, I promise,” he said and picked you up before you could try and run away, a loud squeal falling past your lips.

“Grayson-” you began screaming before you felt yourself being thrown in the air and falling inside the pool.

Not even a second after you felt a pair of arms wrap around you and pull you up to the surface, where you took a large and scared deep breath.

“I hate you so fucking much guy,” you screamed laughing, you didn’t hate him.

“You’re laughing so you don’t,” he said and helped you get towards that edge.

“I don’t but still,” you said shaking your head and leaning against the pool wall.

“Alright, I’m sorry that was insensitive,” he apologized and you noticed the sadness in his voice.

“Gray, you don’t have to apologize, we’re having fun. And you’re not insensitive because you didn’t hurt my feelings in any way,” you said rubbing his arm in a comforting way as he let out a sigh. “Are ok? Do you want to talk about it?” You softly asked, noticing how his energy changed from being happy to sad and concerned, making you feel his concern and sadness.

“It’s ok. I’m ok,” he said shaking his head and putting on a smile, which you can tell was fake.

“I know you’re not ok right now, I feel your energy, but if you don’t want to talk about it, I won’t force you to,” you softly said, making sure you weren’t pushing any of his boundaries. You carefully lifted yourself sitting down on the edge while keeping your feet inside the water.

“It’s just I don’t know, I’m scared to get hurt again, what if I’m doing something wrong and I never figure out what it is and I never find my soulmate and never have kids,” he sighed standing between your legs placing his hands on your knees.

“What do you mean to get hurt? Who’s going to hurt you?” you asked, confused as to what he was referring to.

“I mean to hurt like emotionally hurt. And I mean like what if I never find my person and keep getting hurt by trying,” he sighed and you nodded your head as he spoke to let him know you were listening.

“Well, when it comes to dating and love life, I’m not the best person to ask for advice but I’ll tell you this,” you began saying before letting out a sigh. “Everyone has a soulmate or their person, you just have to wait, sometimes it’s obvious as to who it is, while other times it’s the person you least expect it to be, just be patient,” you said with a smile and he nodded his head and laid it on your leg.

“And how will I know?” he muttered against your leg.

“You’ll feel it. You’ll feel connected to that person in a way that you’ve never felt with anyone else, and you’ll just know,” you shrugged and felt him nod.

“Now, stop being sappy and have fun. It’s October, Halloween is coming up. Correction, Halloween has started for me,” you said and a genuine smile returned to his face.

“We need to decorate, it’s our first Halloween here,” he spoke and sat down next to you.

“Oh, you guys need to go hard. I wish I could decorate but I can’t decorate the whole building, that's just weird,” you said making him laugh.

“Maybe you can help us decorate,” he said and you nodded your head.

“Ah yes, just tell me when,” you replied.

It was two days. Two days of consecutive texting before Grayson knew he wanted to- no needed to see you again.

Not before he was warned by Ethan. He had promised Ethan he wasn’t going to get himself entangled with anyone yet, that he was going to relax and stay on his own for a little.

But he knew he needed to see you, so he told Ethan you were going to help him decorate, which was true. Plus Ethan thought you were a good person, along with Ryan and Karolina so why not meet up with you for a bit.

Part Two

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literaphobe · 3 years

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that sounds like fanfic material, id like to see it pls 👀👀

oh it’s 3am so why not. here’s the (short) story of the first girl who ever told me she liked me. i don’t like her anymore now but i suppose i do look back fondly on select few moments. uh. i quite frankly must have repressed some of what i should remember and maybe i’ll remember it one day but hopefully none of it is too important

we met on tumblr through a shared fandom (surprise surprise) and we became friends! she liked a fic i wrote n i think i told her a lot about it in the planning stages n she was good at hyping me up i suppose?

we got closer through...... idk. i’m pretty sure it was because she got a crush on her best friend (same fandom, whether they’re BEST friends is debatable but this is what she called her at the time) and im like some fucking matchmaker i guess i wanna idk help people get it all the time n i was like oh she PROBABLY likes u back :) u definitely have a chance :) but also there was a possibility she was straight (this girl actually came out to everyone as bi like a year or two later so LMAO)

anyway! idk how but! things started to get flirty? i think? i genuinely cannot remember how or what the fuck i was saying to this girl or what she was saying to me. BRO I WAS TRYNA HELP HER GET W ANOTHER GIRL. the pivotal moment in this story is when i was going on a cruise. this was like december 2017 or something i think. people who have been following me for a long time might remember this. i think my followers might have shipped us a bit or something or asked us if we were dating? i can’t remember much about that

so i was supposed to go on a cruise and there is no mobile data on cruises. i told her i might have to not talk to her for 5 days and i think she was very sad. but when i was getting on the boat i found out u could buy WiFi for the whole time. AND i realized i was able to directly charge it to the room without having to pay for it myself. and there’s no way i could’ve paid for it myself because i was 18 then and still like. had zero financial control over my life n was still using a phone w restrictions n all that

i knew.... my mom would get mad if she found out i bought WiFi,,,, but also,,,,, i didn’t want to go offline for 5 days and i DEFINITELY did not want to stop talking to HER. so i asked her “should i go for it and buy the WiFi” and she said. “please do it i can’t breathe without you baby” and uh. idk how accurate i was for the first half but im PRETTY sure im right about the second. i think i will always remember it because no one had ever said something like that to me before

AND I. STRAIGHT UP DIDN’T KNOW SHE LIKED ME. I WAS LIKE. DEEPLY AFFECTED BY IT. IM P SURE I WAS. I CAN’T REMEMBER IF I KNEW I LIKED HER THEN YET OR NOT BUT IM P SURE I DID. AND YES I REALIZE HOW DUMB IT IS TO THINK. DAMN I WISH SHE LIKED ME /SAD FACE/ AFTER HEARING SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I CAN’T SAY I’VE CHANGED. I’VE ACCEPTED THAT IM P OBLIVIOUS N ALSO THAT I HAVE SEVERE ESTEEM ISSUES I GUESS

anyway uh. don’t really remember much else. i know we talked and flirted a lot n she sent me really pretty pictures of her. OH and during this i was texting her best friend a substantial amount because i STILL thought i was fucking helping her get with her. BUT what i DIDN’T KNOW. was that she was now texting her best friend to GUSH about ME and her best friend was helping HER deal w her feelings for ME

like wtf that’s so crazy what did i even do. anyway she kind of admitted she liked me. during this cruise trip. i can’t fully remember how. i think maybe she said it randomly like ‘u know i like you right’ or some shit like that and i was probably like OH GOD ME TOO. because. i would never tell someone i liked them unless they said they liked me first. again yes that’s one of the reasons why i’ve never officially been in a relationship. also my mom did find out i bought wifi! and she did get mad. but then she got over it and we shared the WiFi. sorry for typing so much this objectively isn’t even a long story i just go on for days

#ask #i hope this was entertaining #i overshare so much it’s the adhd #and also i am very bored #eh whatever #anyway #i got two more asks about this #who wants more stories from my terrible lousy weirdly funny non existent love life past ❤️#i hope u guys like reading my asks #i know i have really long ones sometimes n i wonder who reads them #if u do. thank u

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punkscowardschampions · 2 years

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Casey & Janis Pt.4

Casey: [picking something filling because y’all have used so much energy you’d be starving and sending it through as an order or whatever but so absentmindedly rn because what’s more important is the way we’re looking at her to be like are you okay/do we need to take a sec here to talk about any of the ones you have had]

Janis: [no complaints because we clearly are just hungry and do not care at the best of times ‘nothing I can’t handle’ being true enough ‘cos it’s mostly been telling the fam she’s away for some reason because we can lie to them about it no problem ‘just Libi wanting something, dunno what I should say to her’ with a shrug, ‘cos you can’t lie to the core group, in case the police do show up or Jimmy is just like SHE’S WITH CASEY so]

Casey: [a nod because he trusts what she’s saying and what he’s seeing on her face ‘you’re sorting my head out, nowt you’ve not done before’ cos true it’s absolutely not the first time]

Janis: [considering it like yeah, that might work ‘more vocal than Bob’ because we know the only thing Libi gets feisty about is protecting Bobby and there would’ve been so many times Janis would be like please don’t because no one wants Casey smacking you girl; so send off some text that says as much because what else can you say at this point]

Casey: [‘weren’t a total waste of time all of it you put into her’ like yeah she at least takes after you there, cos we know how annoying Casey finds her most of the time lol]

Janis: [a half amused half shh kind of noise ‘wonder if you would’ve liked her mum’ ‘cos we’re always wondering what Libi would’ve been like if she’d been raised by her parents instead]

Casey: [‘yeah’ cos he’s gotta know about her and he just would like her vibe I think]

Janis: [‘not a total wastes not a compliment to none of us’ just like btw, ouch]

Casey: [‘you know what I meant it like’ cos not trying to hurt you with it and it’s not your fault we find her so annoying]

Janis: [do a feelsy lean ‘cos we know you weren’t trying to be a prick about it ‘I don’t think you’d like her regardless’ ‘cos that’s just her role in this dynamic that was created, annoying little sister]

Casey: [‘if she was more of you, how could I not?’ but obvs we know it was never gonna be that way so we’re not saying it seriously like this is another one of Janis’ failings not to pull a Jimothy with Bobby and turn her into herself]

Janis: [a face like oh God no, likewise not being super serious about this convo now ‘last thing I need, however pleased you might be’]

Casey: [‘you’re not having [however many daughters we said Ian’s missus has rn, I have forgotten] daughters for us to take on then?’ it’s too close to the truth of what’s about to occur little do you know boy]

Janis: [not that reminding you that you and Jimmy came off birth control because literally, may as well have been another life and you’re just like oh no, oh no no no lmao]

Casey: [‘what?’ cos we see the absolute shock horror on your face gal you can’t tell me otherwise]

Janis: [trying to be super casual because we’ve done the maths in our head and remembered it’s only been a day so we’re fine FINE ‘I need to pick up some plan b when we leave, no worries’]

Casey: [giving her such an oi nudge for scaring us to death there for a sec when that’s actually pretty casual from our POV rn cos not gonna just jump to thinking about JJ trying for kids here in this moment, are you, just thinking she’s being extra careful like you normally are when you don’t go insane]

Janis: [‘I forgot I had my [whatever contraceptive you prefer] out’ like the nudge was an excuse me kinda nudge]

Casey: [‘it’s alright, piss easy stop to make tomorrow’ too casual about this because we really do think it’s fine]

Janis: [when you don’t wanna ruin his casualness by dropping it but you also can’t stand lying but it already looks like you were lying by the way you truly forgot, oop, what you gon’ do miss thing]

Casey: [‘what?’ softer because we know you’re in some kind of turmoil here but we can’t work out why]

Janis: [‘I thought you’d moved on for good, left me and this behind’ head in our hands because we have to say, we’re just that bitch ‘so, we came off birth control, see if anything happened, you know’ looking up even though we’re mortified and don’t want to because it’s important you believe us rn ‘I seriously forgot, today, with everything, it sounds like total bullshit but it’s not, that’s why I was so fucking-’ gesturing like you saw me and now this]

Casey: [‘when did you come off?’ because all we can think about is what the window of time is you’ve been banging your husband unprotected, nothing else is even registering rn]

Janis: [clearly something happened that made this but you’re just like I don’t even know, the whole timeline isn’t very long so clearly this isn’t either, probably a few weeks? ‘Couple of weeks ago’]

Casey: [a nod like he’s trying to convince himself it’s fine because as in the vibe of the OG, he knows JJ don’t bang like they used to, just telling himself that Jimothy has hardly been near her in that time]

Janis: [‘everything changed today’ after a while of silence because we don’t need to rush you]

Casey: [‘too right it did’ cos in no world are you just going back to Jimothy and attempting to have a kid, he knows that]

Janis: [‘we we’re both still trying’ meaning her and him, not her and Jimmy because if we’d have known you weren’t actually gone for good, shrugging because it’s done regardless ‘sort it back out, soon as I’m home’]

Casey: [‘why’d you reckon on having a kid with him, even if I was dead?’ when you think Jimothy is such a flop husband and would be such a flop father you can’t even fathom either of them telling themselves it’d be a good plan]

Janis: [‘why’d you reckon she’d be a good girlfriend?’ like it’s never that black and white and simple, shrug ‘he’s done it before? I don’t know’]

Casey: [‘she’s an adult, can make her own piss poor choices and deal with the consequences of ‘em’ like that’s absolutely not the same as bringing a kid into it with 0 say, thank you ‘yeah and we’re all chuffed to bits how his go at that turned out’ full shade Bobby but we also think you’re a flop tbh so]

Janis: [‘he isn’t 12 now neither’ like don’t say it’s the same when it’s a choice he made compared to being forced to because no one else was ‘it’s irrelevant ‘cos it hasn’t happened anyway’]

Casey: [‘he’d hack it no better than he did when he were’ because 100% believe that with our entire heart and soul and honestly he’s not wrong the state of Jimothy atm ‘you ain’t thick, you know that same as I do, that’s why it’s relevant’]

Janis: [‘I can’t undo it, you know I’m not gonna go back and repeat it, that’s the best I can say’]

Casey: [a nod because that’s all true and you think that’s the end of it now anyway and it’s not something you actually have to worry about lol lol]

Janis: [just hugging our knees up to our chest]

Casey: [‘come here’ softer than we were just being cos we hate to see it]

Janis: [not moving ‘you think I’m stupid’]

Casey: [moving himself and wrapping his arms around her so big ‘I just said you ain’t that’ holding her even tighter and pulling her closer ‘both our heads were fucked then, you said it, things are different now and it’s nothing we can’t sort once we’re back’]

Janis: [not fighting against it but not actively hugging you back right now ‘but it was stupid, a kid ain’t meant to be a last ditch attempt’]

Casey: [‘it’s gonna be alright, you ain’t having his kid, nor mine til you want to’ oh lads, soz]

Janis: [we’re so mean, squeezing his hand like okay, it’s okay]

Casey: [holding her like a Clove to his chest again and telling her it’s gonna be okay over and over, using okay instead of alright this time, we see you]

Janis: [just saying sorry as many times, to you, to Jimmy, to this potential baby]

Casey: [letting her get all that out and just holding her cos she obvs needs to, eventually ‘all that’s over, we’re here’ sure do wish it was over hun but baby Jac is coming, putting her down like it’s okay you can put all that down and we can move on]

Janis: [just doing a big breath out ‘we were all pretending, we can’t no more’ nodding like it’ll be better than that, somehow]

Casey: [‘we won’t no more, this is too real, you and me’ cos yep, it is]

Janis: [finally making eye contact again ‘and you don’t hate me for it?’]

Casey: [‘could never hate you, girl, I understand everything you think’ because we really do feel like that, however you fuck up, we get it, even if it makes us angry and frustrated, we still know why you did it ‘always work it out if I wanna or nah’ cos sometimes we have pretended but ultimately]

Janis: [holding you and hugging you instead of the other way ‘round ‘soz I’m so fucked’ like sorry you have to understand all that too, but we know you do]

Casey: [a laugh ‘me an’ all, right back at you’ cos she understands him the exact same and always has]

Janis: [giving you the gentlest kiss on your laughing mouth]

Casey: [doing his own big breath out as a happy sigh before kissing her again, still soft but more intense like ily so much]

Janis: [just all the emotion being poured into this right now because could not love you more]

Casey: [mhmm, not at all casual makeout sesh turning into such a soft but intense hook up, we all know it]

Janis: [it’s necessary and there’s no world in which it isn’t happening ‘thank you’ when it looks like you’re thanking him for the sex so you’re like lol no ‘for everything’]

Casey: [just shhing her because in no world does he expect or require thanks, this boy out here like this is the bare minimum of what I’m willing to do when I love you this much duh]

Janis: [‘rude, you’d let me show you’ 😏 giving you a little push like I’m trying to be polite here but then laying our head on your chest]

Casey: [‘I’m here for you for everything, there’s sod all you can’t tell me, we ain’t pretending no more, remember’ not this boy acknowledging this has been a fantasy and that’s all well and good but now if they need to get real they can get real]

Janis: [‘I’ll try and remember’ because we’re not used to it]

Casey: [‘I can hack it’ because soz he can he’s not Jimothy, you can talk to him gal]

Janis: [‘what should I do, would I do-’ because we really think we’re not pregnant lmao okay ‘-if I was pregnant?’]

Casey: [‘Whatever you reckon’s right, you usually are, and I’d support you’ cos he would, just facts]

Janis: [‘I dunno if I know, when it’s real’ because theory and practice is always different]

Casey: [‘it’d be nowt like before, we could do it’ cos y’all are not kids having to raise kids and again, he’s not Jimothy, no offense sir]

Janis: [‘could ain’t should though’ and shaking our head like fuck it, it’s not happening]

Casey: [‘I ain’t gonna say should for a bit, however much I want to’ just saying he wants to have babies with you nbd]

Janis: [looking at you so hard ‘do you mean that?’]

Casey: [looking back at her like you tell me, cos we know you know from this look rn]

Janis: [‘and you think I could?’ when your voice is quieter but too intense to be a whisper, just taking it that you also meant we’d be shit at it too when you said Jimothy could not hack it]

Casey: [‘I know you could’ cos he do, you’re not the flop here sis]

Janis: [clearly some part of you wants children, like most people do, because you wouldn’t just agree if you were truly like ew no, so we’re just here like oh ‘you’ll be good at it’]

Casey: [‘we’ll both be allowed to be’ shamelessly saying Jimothy would hold you back from being the best parent you could be cos that’s what he does think, like soz you can’t if you’re also having to hardcore look after him]

Janis: [‘one day’ because we do want it, just not in the absolutely chaotic way it’s going to actually go down]

Casey: [‘we’ll have it worked out when we both think we should, and then’ cos hard same, there’s a lot to sort out first and it isn’t remotely the right time, but there would’ve been if we hadn’t been evil]

Janis: [could not agree more, and you can tell from our entire demeanour and the way we’re looking at you, so there’s no need to verbalise it ‘then I can call you daddy whenever I want, yeah’ because if there’s any time to make a joke and calm the mood]

Casey: [‘there’s never a wrong time for that’ cos he LOVED it and you know damn well he did from his reaction at the time so]

Janis: [making a well… kind of noise like people probably would think there’s a time and a place, because you know we’re still shook that we did that]

Casey: [‘you heard’ unrepentant about any time and any place lol]

Janis: [‘it’s your fault’ like you have to keep acting like it, what am I meant to do lmao]

Casey: [‘blame me then’ in that saucy way he always tells her to do such and such then, like okay I guess you’ll have to take it out on me however you feel about it RN lol]

Janis: [fake playfighting you on every point ‘stop making me feel so small and safe and loved’]

Casey: [‘can’t, sorry’ not at all sorry dear reader]

Janis: [‘then I can’t be held responsible for my actions’ just pinning you on this bed rn unrepentantly]

Casey: [‘you’re my baby til we have one’ as unrepentant af]

Janis: [‘means you’re responsible for me’ like hehehe good luck with that]

Casey: [‘not fuming about it’ cos throwback to when he said he could feel all the things and he do be atm, pinning her to the bed because always]

Janis: [‘I’m fuming I ain’t’ because who are we, never thought we’d be here 😍 about this]

Casey: [‘are you?’ with the look and tone saying, gal I know you’re not]

Janis: [‘are you?’ matching energy]

Casey: [as per doing the most to show her how he actually feels about it, cos who is he otherwise, going over any and all marks caused during the feral daddy moment here]

Janis: [‘we nearly died’ because literally you did nearly crash but also it was just that intense and being reminded of it now is likewise doing the most]

Casey: [‘not very responsible of me’ like what a daddy fail but we’re still doing the absolute most here so can’t and don’t actually feel bad about it ‘I’m sorry, baby’]

Janis: [‘you had to let me, who knows what might’ve happened otherwise’ ‘cos felt like we were dying with all that we were not doing there, like no, you’re SO thoughtful ‘you always know what I need’]

Casey: [‘you’ve always needed me and I haven’t never let you before’ like yes true, very necessary actually, so mean of me to deprive you before today though]

Janis: [🥺 face ‘why?’ like we both actually know why but the energy is now we’ve done this why the hell did we wait]

Casey: [‘just the kind of dad I am’ like oh soz I’m SO strict and always telling you no]

Janis: [‘you thought I couldn’t handle it?’ doing the most we can whilst being pinned to show you we SO can]

Casey: [likewise doing the most to be like hmm let’s see if you can, just having so much fun here you two]

Janis: [‘let me prove myself’ like you have all day, casually]

Casey: [‘go on’ likewise, I’m loling because we know this takeaway is gonna appear at some point before y’all are done being extra]

Janis: [you’re owed a cockblock at this point, been wilding all damn day, you know we’re going to the door in the state we are in to prove ourselves that way, sorry delivery driver]

Casey: [unexpected bonus for this probably v bored middle aged man hahaha, just coming to get her and throw her back on the bed like I’ll sort it gal because obvs, not jealous but we are possessive, this man like hello?]

Janis: [he says and I oop, you know why the majority of people go to hotels like this sir, mind your business lol]

Casey: [me and my boo not telling them he’s seen worse or they’d only take it as a challenge]

Janis: [just let the poor man go children]

Casey: [also eat your food, even if you gotta be extra and feed each other it or eat it off each other or whatever, you do need it to be consumed and not totally forgotten about]

Janis: [the sustenance is vital at this stage, even if you’re grumping at the audacity of your order arriving lmao]

Casey: [we know you’re pregnant hun even if you don’t]

Janis: [not you becoming less grumpy like an actual toddler when you eat lollol]

Casey: [it’s a hard same from Junie b Jones personally]

Janis: [same but it’s amusing rn because you were so in the middle of something]

Casey: [this boy also eating v amused like okay then]

Janis: [shoving an unattractive amount in your mouth like and what boy]

Casey: [even more amused because he’s literally never known another girl like her in all the best ways]

Janis: [stealing one of his chips or similar, like whilst you are so amused, as was my plan all along obvs]

Casey: [bringing the food fight energy subtly by smearing some sauce on the end of her nose or somewhere like boop that’ll teach you but it just makes her look adorable actually and then he’s gotta just remove it for you with a lil smooch]

Janis: [‘you’re never gonna stop being so distractingly cute, are you’ because we know that’s a hard no and we’re still dying over it all, kissing you like we just wanna get that sauce back from you here]

Casey: [‘you started it’ like we’re just saying it to give that kind of playful response, but actually, has been obsessed and distracted by this girl for a decade already and won’t ever chill out now]

Janis: [‘and now you can finish it’ like it’s better because we can actually do something about it, not just die of frustration]

Casey: [‘dunno about that’ cos y’all can’t and don’t wanna stop lol as today proves]

Janis: [‘you owed me’ smiling, the ‘we’re making up for the last 10 years’ didn’t need to be spoken but we did anyway]

Casey: [‘paid up now, are we?’ amused like oh so you’re done now are you, cos we know that’s a hard no ‘nothing else to be made up for?’ with a raised brow like hmm okay sure]

Janis: [‘where’d you hear that?’ like not I, thank you very much ‘not a fair trade no matter how good of a day it’s been’ crossing your arms like he’s trying to trick you]

Casey: [uncrossing her arms because always, this time instead of shamelessly groping her like he did in the car, touching her stomach instead ‘thought I might’ve heard this were the best part of it for you’ playfully like you love that food more than me, I get it]

Janis: [me and this girl automatically thinking about the babygate of it all there like !! but keep on keeping on ‘free meal, is it?’ like do yourself down much, babe, at least you actually paid for this one, unlike the restaurant]

Casey: [same gals and you know he’s thinking about it in the sense of not yet knowing it’s a full kink unlocked but about wanting to have babies with her hence being too distracted when he has touched her to reply to the bants, leaving his hand there, looking at it like oh I really sent myself down a train of thought here]

Janis: [‘do you think-’ cutting you off ‘cos don’t need to vocalize that you’re blatantly wondering if you’re on the way to being pregnant rn with everything you’ve done today]

Casey: [‘we shouldn’t think about it’ because he as blatantly is and is into it but doesn’t wanna be like let’s have a baby rn cos not the time like we said earlier, has not moved his hand or his GAZE though so]

Janis: [‘no’ because that is correct but it isn’t as if you can stop yourself thinking about it either ‘wouldn’t be the right time’]

Casey: [‘but’ when you can’t stop yourself saying it because you’re just thinking about how a baby takes 9 months and that’s ages and how different things could be by then ‘it wouldn’t be born now’]

Janis: [‘you want it so much more than he did’ soz, again not something you needed to say but was unable to keep in]

Casey: [‘I want all of it more than he does, you, a marriage, kids’ because soz but we were at that wedding so we can say it]

Janis: [‘I want to give it to you, all of it’ putting our hand on top of his]

Casey: [‘he don’t deserve a proper adult life with you and you deserve so much more than putting up with the bollocks he can give you’ because again, tea, not him acknowledging that okay in spite of his crush JJ were in love and suited as teenagers ‘it ain’t good enough’]

Janis: [‘I want you, Casey’ pleading in our voice like he’s going somewhere ‘you want what I want, you can give it to me’]

Casey: [finally moving his eyes off her stomach to look at her ‘you got me, and if we’ve got a kid coming too, then’ like then is a full sentence because you know what we’re saying and it’s we want it and we’ll have it]

Janis: [looking down at your stomach as if one of you needs to always be keeping watch ‘there’s nothing to be scared of, you’ll be so good at it and I’ll be there with you the whole time’ when you’re talking to him but could be this imagined baby]

Casey: [gotta look back down at it too, cannot look away ‘not for none of us, you, me or the baby’ cos none of y’all need to be scared is what he believes, you’re all gonna slay together]

Janis: [‘the baby’ just letting yourself say it and imagine it]

Casey: [putting his head on her stomach like he’s trying to listen for a response as if this baby is gonna be like hello cos she said that]

Janis: [biting our lip so we don’t fully moan about that ‘you look so good there’]

Casey: [‘I feel good here’ getting more comfy with it because he does ‘hope you ain’t fuming about it’ whispered @ the baby that could be in there like hope I’m not squashing you with my big head rn soz]

Janis: [‘two babies’ stroking his hair like you get snuggled and I’ll try not to die ‘have to get used to sharing’ because you’re ours and we’re yours, soz baby]

Casey: [when that just makes you think about twins and die @ these potentially twin babies in the same whisper as he used before ‘her fault not mine if you’ve gotta get used to it an’ all, take it up with your mummy and auntie Gracie, like’ the slight shade on Grace’s name making me lol ‘not that you’d get a word in there but I’ll shut up myself before you don’t fancy getting out’]

Janis: [just there for a sec like why am I being lumped in with my twin, excuse me but then you realise what he’s saying and you fully GASP like oh shit ‘your head’d roll off, bump would be so big’ already obvious we’re into it but we don’t even fully get it yet ‘I’m well comfy, you know that’ like don’t blame ‘em]

Casey: [getting even more comfy like yeah you are and also I won’t roll off right now or any time soon, look, cos likewise too into it to say anything atm, the sound of his own he would’ve had to likewise stop with a lip bite is giving that away]

Janis: [lowkey stroking your hair too hard with all the energy we’re not expending touching ourselves or you right now ‘such a good dad, you’]

Casey: [when he was already so !! that if he doesn’t start kissing her stomach once she’s said that he’ll simply pass away, so that’s a thing happening rn not at all casually]

Janis: [you know we have to be playing with our nipples right now so we likewise don’t fully lose it ‘daddy loves you so much babies’ just going between watching you and being unable to because we’re so overwhelmed]

Casey: [was trying to do soft and little kisses at first there but now he’s just being fully feral and indecent about it ofc because how could he not when she says that ‘we’re gonna be the happiest family, you’ll see’ at all of you, her and these fictional twin bubs who are baby Jac actually]

Janis: [‘daddy makes mummy so happy, you’ll love him as much as me’ at our stomach, smoothing over every place he’s just kissed]

Casey: [‘I’ll take SUCH good care of the 3 of you’ kissing her on the mouth as feral as he was her stomach, while he’s touching it, like see, nobody left out]

Janis: [‘you are’ fully moaned into your mouth whilst we’re trying to mesh our faces fully together here ‘and we’re gonna take care of you, your girls’ clearly decided they’re girls because you and Grace are there ‘you’ll be so, so loved’]

Casey: [this boy touching her stomach with one hand while he touches her so saucy with the other and also can’t and won’t stop kissing her, we’re doing it all atm lads to show we can and y’all will be so loved too]

Janis: [you know we have to just touch you and shamelessly guide you inside us, all whilst kissing like you’re unable to stop because it’s true]

Casey: [it’s the only acceptable response and it gives him both hands to be touching and holding her stomach while you do this so simply must]

Janis: [fully in our element on this day, don’t even care where you are or all the actual drama that is currently being ignored and the drama yet to come, just yet again having the most intense sex you could imagine]

Casey: [I love it for y’all, there’s so much time for drama and I’m sure a lot of it will be heartbreaking, just be in love for now]

Janis: [there’s no alternative, we only have to get out of this mindset when the worst happens, basically, in all the ways lol, right now let us love on our imaginary babies]

Casey: [at least we can let you fall asleep again at some point cos the only way y’all ever stop having a sesh]

Janis: [at least you got to eat lmao, thank you delivery man for that unexpected convo]

Casey: [he’s the real mvp for that one lol]

Janis: [oh you two, still gotta go get a dog, WHO’S HE GOING TO LIVE WITH I’D LOVE TO KNOW]

Casey: [Oh Chubby, when you really do think you’re getting a puppy for your babies to grow up with, I mean, yeah, you are, but not the way you’re picturing it tomorrow when you do it]

Janis: [he has such beautiful eyes, I got a pic of him today, slay sir, I’m sure Billie and her man either have dogs already or will not want yours bumbling about so Casey is gonna have to take custody]

Casey: [Billie wouldn’t mind but I fully imagine her man acting like Chubby is gonna eat Cosmo or brawl any pets you may have, I need to check when she gets pregnant with Dash cos I know he’s around Jac’s age and that is a bit relevant to this if you are gonna be there gal]

Janis: [that was likewise the energy I got, like not in my nice house, tah, be awkward enough you being there pregnanting up the place, him like we have a new baby, can you go away, like she doesn’t hide in one of your many guest suites whenever you’re there and it isn’t just Baby Cosmo and Billie]

Casey: [like actually having Janis there would be a help and mean she can do more things for baby Cosmo herself than he lets her do so shut your mouth tbh sir]

Janis: [like I’m sure you’re nice enough to her face but it’s clearly just a vibe at all times in this house like yikes, at least you can get some baby practice in here]

Casey: [the way you just know she was going to see Billie at the start of this convo because she knows she’s not happy even though Billie is not ready to be saying that]

Janis: [mhmm, not that you’re in a similar boat or anything, yikes]

Casey: [oh girls, at least you do have each other]

Janis: [I can see why you wouldn’t wanna say shit though Janis, it makes your complaints seem like nothing in comparison, ‘cos it isn’t like Jimmy is bad or doing anything wrong]

Casey: [onwards with playing with puppies in the AM like nothing is or could ever be wrong though]

Janis: [casual puppy crawl occurring, so highkey buzzing and couply all these dog people gonna be like awh okay lovebirds lol]

Casey: [soz not soz that you deserve to be a couple in public places where nobody knows either of y’all]

Janis: [very much the energy of the day, shamelessly doing the most, being well chatty to these people as if you ever are, talking about your life like it’s the one you wish y’all were living]

Casey: [it’s a hard same for him as well as being a dog nerd, but you know he’d be especially buzzing to see it from her cos there’s no way Jimothy hasn’t at least slightly dragged her into his depression hole in the last few years, we all know you’d both have been even more antisocial than you usually are/used to be]

Janis: [it’s not been a good time since this wedding he didn’t want to have and we all know that, too codependent for it to not have an effect on her, obviously but yes, what could be a cuter day for y’all than to love on all these pups]

Casey: [and we’ll let you stay in a slightly nicer hotel for your last night away seeing as y’all have moved away from your teenage runaway fantasy now]

Janis: [and y’all did your utmost to wreck that room so you won’t be going back there anyway, at least you pay outright so you’re welcome lmao]

Casey: [that bathroom was absolutely destroyed, we all remember and I’m sure you’re lowkey bebopping all around ireland looking at puppies anyways so you’d be in a totally different area by tonight regardless]

Janis: [gotta find mr chubbs honey]

Casey: [I know he’s really not gonna help the situation and you two have actually gone insane with this one but I’m so excited to have him]

Janis: [we’re lowkey framing it like well if Casey wants a dog, why should we say no, then it’s irrelevant anyway because everything has to be blown up but still, not soz lol]

Casey: [are we saying y’all find him today or tomorrow before you go back?]

Janis: [I think you should find him today and go get him tomorrow, ‘cos they usually make you wait so you’re not being rash or whatever, and that can dictate that you have to go back energy]

Casey: [my thinking too, soz we simply have to stay a bit longer, and they’ll be so adorably buzzing all night and can go on a little shopping spree for him which is a vibe we always love]

Janis: [gotta be prepared baby, all the things you lowkey forget you need then you’re like omg, basically, it’s just all the cuteness we then have to destroy because we’re evil moos]

Casey: [I’m gonna have to insist you only go somewhere that’s v pet specific or else I simply won’t be able to stop him buying human baby things and we will really die]

Janis: [you’ve already hurt yourselves too much lads, you can’t do it]

Casey: [putting my foot down, hearts are gonna be broken hard enough]

Janis: [none of you can have the fairytale you do or don’t want here]

Casey: [I’m too hormonal for this lol, I’m gonna be sobbing]

Janis: [at least you will have time to properly eat today and not be as totally distracted, ‘cos you’ll be lowkey too excited to sleep when you get to your new hotel]

Casey: [Baby Jac is welcome for that sustenance]

Janis: [not saying you haven’t hooked up at all today though, lmao lbr about it, we know telling people about your life has you both like 👀]

Casey: [with all that driving from puppy destination to puppy destination there’s too many chances for y’all to pull over for that to not happen at least once, plus if you’re going out to eat that’s another restaurant you’ll never go back to with a bathroom you can make use of]

Janis: [we know who you are lmao, even if you’re having a very soft kind of day]

Casey: [softness kills you the most, you gotta, don’t talk to me about everyone thinking they’re married because she’s wearing a wedding ring, we can’t discuss it]

Janis: [peeps always do, the casual your husband/your wife thrown into convo and you’re like and I oop]

Casey: [could never be us, everybody out here thinking we’re sisters, he’d LOVE it though, that goes without saying]

Janis: [people simply forgetting that gay people exist is so funny to me honestly; but anyway, you’d think you’d hate it because of the reminder to your actual husband but like all of this, you can’t not love it a bit in spite of that]

Casey: [he’ll win you over telling some overly invested middle aged woman about your fictional wedding and it’ll be so much better than your devastating actual wedding that there’s no comparison, can’t help love him or the idea of it, soz Jimothy]

Janis: [‘might’ve just caused a divorce in there’ when you’re leaving, like that woman is gonna leave her husband now ‘cos you made that sound too damn romantic]

Casey: [‘not another one, [school therapist lady’s name]’s husband still ain’t over theirs’ because bants but also that woman was also as lowkey too invested in you for how crap she clearly was at her job so]

Janis: [pushing you as we walk like ugh, you’re the worst but pulling you back in as well]

Casey: [‘oi, no fair’ because if you’re pregnant we can’t push you back and we’re not letting that fantasy die yet, TOO clear what he means by his EVERYTHING, how he’s holding her rn and where he’s looking]

Janis: [‘deal with it’ very much looking at him with this is your fault energy and we are not mad about it at all ‘got to shamelessly exploit the perks or what’s the point, like’]

Casey: [just shaking his head like nope I cannot because can’t deal with you and how good you look and how you make us feel at all ever but especially rn ‘you’re alright, won’t tell them you said that’ like oh these poor twin babies of ours getting shamelessly exploited already ‘long as you promise to leave it out getting them an agent til they’re what, old enough to walk down the catwalk themselves’ when he really wouldn’t actually want his daughters to be models, soz hun we’re doing that to you]

Janis: [‘be even ruder of you to gang up on me already’ like don’t be chatting shit about me thank you very much, just making such a how dare you face and loling like god no ‘what am I, so washed up I need to live vicariously?’ pushing you again like boy stop, because so not that bitch ‘it’s not my fault I’m gonna make seriously cute kids’]

Casey: [‘daddy’s girls the lot of you, I can’t help that’ like they shamelessly take after you with that one gal, it’s not my fault they’re gonna love me that much, pulling her back in SO close when she pushes him because washed up is the opposite of what we think she is and that’s blatant ‘What are you? You’re the fittest lass in this whole country, weren’t like I needed to but good as seen it for myself now’ cos this this roadtrip energy bebopping everywhere, but we been knew before we went anywhere that that’s true ‘too cute’ also true like it’s gonna be dangerous how adorable these children are ‘dunno how we’re letting them live anywhere other than behind some massive wall, like’]

Janis: [doing the thing where you’re not stopping walking but you’re fully wrapping yourself around him so it’s a ridiculous dance of a walk right now ‘you don’t want to’ as a * because you love it as much as we do, and smooching you, again, like we’re not walking here, excuse us everyone ‘be taking the princess thing a bit far’ 🤏 and shrugging ‘cos can’t lock them up in a tower vibe]

Casey: [picking her up like so is this but I’m doing it because shamelessly can and will treat you all like princesses he is that bitch ‘I know what lads are like and it ain’t princes’ already no boys allowed dad energy happening here before they are even born lol]

Janis: [‘s’what they say, daughters are a punishment’ like yeah, you know what lads are like and you have to deal with it, babe, soz, welcome for Jac being a massive lesbian anyway]

Casey: [‘not mine’ they will be a delight and perfect angels, how dare you, looking at the bump she does not yet even have like you heard, it wasn’t me who said that gals, and best behaviour thank you]

Janis: [just smiling and shaking our head at you and then this bump like oh you, so cute, so naive]

Casey: [kissing her smiling face like we’re shutting her up even though she didn’t actually say anything]

Janis: [‘you’re gonna be such a pushover’ said in the sauciest way imaginable]

Casey: [‘they’re your daughters too’ likewise ‘such a good girl, you’ out here being feral on these streets]

Janis: [🥺 ‘you’re still gonna let me be your baby when they’re here?’ ‘cos he said until in that hookup and we were like * but not at the time ‘cos it was too intense]

Casey: [DYING at that face 5ever ‘you’re gonna be my baby no matter what’ cos literally nothing and nobody coming between y’all]

Janis: [‘promise’ like I do but also you must rn immediately]

Casey: [the most intense kiss of all time to promise himself and seal yours with ‘I need you’ whenever he can bear to break away even slightly, said with all the feeling and meant in every possible sense]

Janis: [‘always’ likewise in every way that could be taken ‘cos it’s real every which way]

Casey: [the heart eyes he’s rocking rn are as intense as that kiss was]

Janis: [y’all better get in your car right now]

Casey: [mhmm, there is only so extra you can be on the street lads and we’re not getting arrested today either thank you]

Janis: [repeating his ‘I need you’ when you are so you know what’s up]

Casey: [when you’re gonna have to drive at least a little bit away from wherever that wedding story lady lived and be dying every second, but I’ll be nice and say there’s a field or something nearby you can park up into, driving one handed so you can squeeze hers so hard with your other cos SAME]

Janis: [we’re just casually counting here by squeezing your hand in a pulse rhythm]

Casey: [bringing back from the OG when they were slowly counting from 1-10 like he was always taught to do when he’s angry but doing a different slightly saucier thing on each number and obvs getting there on 10]

Janis: [this just fully ending us bye, ‘I can’t handle you’]

Casey: [‘that ain’t true’ because we simply know you can]

Janis: [doing the most to handle you literally even if we’re shaking our head like nope]

Casey: [you are both welcome for this occurring in the day so this field isn’t giving full horror movie vibes again when he pulls up to it]

Janis: [unphased by our surroundings forever beyond the fact you couldn’t literally bang right outside that family’s home ‘cos a bit much, bit rude lol]

Casey: [she’s not that invested or shipping you that hard, there are limits lol]

Janis: [no random middle-aged lady threesomes, tah]

Casey: [not the mood ever frankly but especially not on this day]

Janis: [you aren’t invited, I’m sorry hun, we need some alone time immediately]

Casey: [they’ve been very restrained so far, it’s deserved]

Janis: [us when they go five minutes without banging, get it lads, self-control whomst]

Casey: [get it while you can, lord knows she’ll be moving out soon]

Janis: [can’t be overstated how much it’s all about to be crapped on so I do not blame y’all, live your dreams, be feral]

Casey: [we’re actually evil, not about to be more so by ruining anything before we absolutely have to]

Janis: [the way we could not foresee how bad Jimmy would take this, like none of us were expecting it to be easy but we’re like OH]

Casey: [it’s the tea though because everyone is so used to him barely reacting to anything anymore so to then have SUCH a big reaction is unexpected, especially because it’s gotten to the point she literally thinks he doesn’t love her anymore]

Janis: [exactly, we think this is over and we’ve lowkey been forcing you into everything since the wedding era, so if anything we’d expect you to be relieved, definitely furious over the Casey of it all, even if we’re not allowing ourselves to properly consider just how bad that is but this, it’d be really hard to not get back with you, like that’ll fix it, but we have to know deep down it wouldn’t]

Casey: [I wouldn’t blame her remotely if she did either seriously consider or actually get back with him but we all know if she did it wouldn’t fix anything and they’d be back to square one in no time and she obviously knows that too because the wedding hasn’t and she said herself he was not !! about the baby the way Casey is]

Janis: [exactly dr phil, it wouldn’t achieve anything and we all know that really but I’d understand the impulse when you’re lowkey terrified like no one wants to feel like a murderer but even that isn’t a good enough reason to do it hence the compromise is basically being like I’ll leave you both alone, I’ve done enough vibes]

Casey: [the vibe in that house is actually really upsetting me to think about because it’s like Jimothy might as well be your drunk af dad that you had to clean up after and care for because catatonic era, I know it’s kinda your fault he is Casey but I still feel bad for you]

Janis: [like obvs she’s going to help and not just leave because we still love him and it’s not like peace but emotionally like no, I’m here on a weird friend/family basis only, it’s truly not a time to be alive at all and that’s that on that]

Casey: [excuse me while I think about Chubby instead so I don’t sob]

Janis: [child of a broken home, poor fat fat, also I know you’re like 16 but respectfully Bobby, pull your weight here tah]

Casey: [he’ll have to at least a bit because Casey is not on the we must shield and protect him from everything at all costs team, soz Bobby this is your wake up call babe]

Janis: [there is 0 way for you to not realise what is happening anyway so no, and maybe you can actually get through to him on some level so you’re needed, not soz]

Casey: [like, Casey will do any of the really grim shit there is so Bobby or Janis don’t have to because he is that bitch but yeah you’ll have your own role to play here and truly if anyone could get through to Jimothy rn he’s the one who’s most likely to]

Janis: [not Bibi getting lowkey cunty like we’ll take it from here you two, like I see your POV and frankly, would be better but okay]

Casey: [respectfully children through no fault of your own you’re not ready, your intentions are good but that’d be the definition of throwing you in at the deep end and nobody’s trying to do that and risk things getting even worse]

Janis: [the point is there aren’t really other options, otherwise obviously it would be better to give him space]

Casey: [why do I kind of love the idea of bibi being absolute dicks? I think because they are such goodie two shoes normally haha]

Janis: [they probably would be, they’re obviously on Jimmy’s side]

Casey: [such fun, Winnie CANNOT wait to write it all he says]

Janis: [he loves the drama in all it’s many forms baby]

Casey: [but for now anyway, go find Chubby and then go celebrate finding him by going for food and drinks]

Janis: [chin chin gals, can go to a bar first so the drink is a more suitable vibe for you sir]

Casey: [it’s wild to think they’ve really only had that guinness this whole time, unheard of for this boy]

Janis: [not being slightly buzzed most of the time? Hello? Love to see it but also you can celebrate]

Casey: [he’s changing for the better already, very cliche of you sir but I can’t be mad about it]

Janis: [happy people make better choices, sorry]

Casey: [I do need him to befriend everyone and shamelessly take over this bar and get her put behind it so she can make him his much longed for personalised drink at some point, he’s that dramatic and extra, you know he would and could talk everyone into it and I’m defs bringing back from the OG when he stood on a table and made a speech]

Janis: [when you’ve got to pull it out the bag in front of these other bartenders now as well, no pressure boy, at least we thrive on a challenge but we will not be telling all these strangers why we’re picking what we’re picking so you will just have to infer it and we’ll let you know later]

Casey: [Casey and Jemily both have all the faith in her not to make a twat out of herself and she won’t, it’s fine, besides, he’ll definitely make you a new one, a mocktail for possible pregnancy related reasons so you’ll be almost even]

Janis: [will have to drag you down from this table though like ‘nobody cares’ with the faux energy of I do not care but we’re really 😏 and like stop telling these randoms all this unprompted please]

Casey: [the way it’s so close to sounding like a proposal cos it shamelessly would be if he had a ring to give you rn and you weren’t already wearing one from being married to his brother, oh sir]

Janis: [‘I’m a shit wife’ like you would not want that boy, because on some level we feel that, even before how we’re very clearly being an actual shit wife]

Casey: [‘Bollocks’ because it is from his POV, she’s been a good wife to Jimothy even though we famously think he’s a flop husband so there’s no way you’d be a shit one to us when we aren’t going to suck as hard]

Janis: [shaking his hand like oh hi, have we met, do you know what we’re doing here but then literally shrugging it off like whatever because there’s nothing to be done at this point]

Casey: [shaking his head because no we’re v serious actually ‘you heard’ up close and personal so she can’t not ‘he’d already left you’ cos again, how we feel about it, Jimothy be that MIA ‘ain’t worth the paper it’s written on, you being his wife in the first place-’ a pause to sigh because can’t not when we think of the wedding ‘but that’s not ‘cause of you, weren’t your lack of trying’]

Janis: [just looking at him for a while, before we reply, because simultaneously too much and nothing to say about this all ‘you’re still his brother’ the one fact of this we can’t change ‘only alright if you’re royalty or first one died in a war, like’]

Casey: [‘I’m his brother when I fuck up, yeah, when there’s something for him to hold up and say have a look who I ain’t and hold over my head, but that’s not what this is, not to me’ because we know damn well what he and other people are gonna say, he’s not stupid]

Janis: [press your forehead into his because you know that isn’t what it is, even with people saying it, we wouldn’t think it]

Casey: [‘getting there first don’t give him the automatic right to stay and the two of us sharing a load of dna don’t mean I owe him none of that no more than you do’]

Janis: [‘I’m the one that made promises, not you’ doing a big sigh ‘but I’ve broken them, there’s no point acting otherwise, not now’]

Casey: [‘he broke ‘em first, he don’t love you, treat you how he said he would up there in front of everybody you’re bothered about and invited to what’s meant to be one of the top of your life’]

Janis: [just blinking rapidly, nodding like wow okay]

Casey: [‘I’m not trying to hurt you an’ all, but when I know he did, I’m not sitting here having you feel like shit and the only one who’s done owt wrong’]

Janis: [‘I know it’s not just me but whatever’s going on with him…’ trailing off because obviously we’re heartbroken but we’re not going to accept that as a valid reason ‘don’t change this’]

Casey: [‘isn’t an excuse’ like a * when she trails off cos Jimothy has done wrong too and we know that’ll get swept under the rug by everyone else ‘this is what it is if I were his brother or some other lad you met down the town and proper fell for, he’d still feel as hard done by’]

Janis: [shake your head ‘nah, ‘cos he’ll be wondering how long and all the time we ever spent on our own without him, or with him about, if there was looks and touches that lingered too long and if I stopped loving him ‘fore he did me and it’ll do his head in like it has mine trying to work out when he did’]

Casey: [‘Why should it just be you having your head done in by all that? Let him have a turn’]

Janis: [‘you know why’]

Casey: [‘I know he’s a grown lad who made his share of the choices that got you here, there’s no one of us who can take more share of the blame than the other dickheads can, if it was that fucking easy, I would do, I’d take all of it and he can have at proper hating me how he’s always fancied’]

Janis: [‘He won’t hack it, whatever would or should, we both know that’s true, but we can’]

Casey: [‘he reckoned he could afford to have a kid, if that’s true, he can sit in a room with some stranger who’s paid to sort his head out, tell them everything he can’t hack and why instead of dragging you down with him’]

Janis: [‘I’ll get us a family discount’ because there’s nothing funny about this beyond the ridiculousness of the entire situation, like ffs]

Casey: [just look at her like !!! because ffs is right]

Janis: [just raising your hands because literally what else can I say or do]

Casey: [getting up to get more drinks before we say something out of pure frustration we don’t mean, but as he goes ‘you have no idea how much I’ve missed you, what it was like to watch you start to disappear an’ all’ so sadly because was actually heartbreaking to see her change since this flop wedding etc and we can’t even deal with thinking about it never mind trying to verbalise it]

Janis: [‘but I do’ quietly enough he’d probably miss it if he’d looked away because obviously, we watched it happen with Jimmy so we know exactly what it was like]

Casey: [Winnie says he did miss it because he’s that sort of bear, just bringing these drinks back after however long they take]

Janis: [drinking that with enthusiasm tbh]

Casey: [hard same because the fun vibe has taken a nosedive, soz lads]

Janis: [real 0-60 there, soz]

Casey: [when you can’t bear being in this atmosphere with all your new mates you’ve made any more actually, so you just gesture to her like let’s go]

Janis: [obviously do get up and go]

Casey: [walk for a sec and maybe you’ll calm down, boy]

Janis: [‘if you wanna say something, you just should’]

Casey: [‘I don’t have the right answers to chuck at you, I wish I did, like’]

Janis: [‘there aren’t any’ like that isn’t what I was looking for don’t worry]

Casey: [a big sigh cos yeah, we know that]

Janis: [‘you don’t have to tell me it isn’t bad when it is, it’s okay’]

Casey: [‘and you don’t have to tell me how bad it is when there’s gonna be loads of other dickheads lined up ready to’ an even bigger sigh ‘or make us feel like I’m in the wrong for the only thing that feels right to me’]

Janis: [‘it isn’t me, it’s what will be said by everyone else, like you said’]

Casey: [‘It don’t matter to me what everyone else reckons, never has and never fucking will, they don’t know sod all about me or this, it matters what you think, how you feel and if we’re gonna live the rest of our lives bothered more about the state of his head you might as well go back to being his missus’]

Janis: [‘I didn’t fucking say that, just that I can’t switch it off completely, which I’ve never said I could or would’]

Casey: [‘I can’t lose you to him like that, it were one thing having to when you was happy, but I won’t to guilt and misery’]

Janis: [‘I’m not going anywhere, its not an option’]

Casey: [‘you thought that handshake was a massive pisstake but nah, we have met again today, it’s been ages and ages since I’ve seen that girl’]

Janis: [‘well you’ve been gone too’ lowkey defensive there we see you but I get it, let’s not act like it’s been the same between y’all for a minute]

Casey: [‘when he’s like this, everything he touches turns to shit’ bit rude but I also get it]

Janis: [pulling a face like well excuse you]

Casey: [giving her a look like you know what I’m trying to say here]

Janis: [another like still rude though, but nudging into you slightly like yeah, I know]

Casey: [‘maybe I’m no better but I refuse to be alright with worse’ like yeah okay things between us have been not it for a minute but that’s because I’ve been deliberately trying not to also drag you down with me too]

Janis: [‘who’s judging that anyway?’ shrugging like that’s not the point because we don’t care about that]

Casey: [a shrug back, opening his mouth to say something which he then doesn’t]

Janis: [‘what?’ like no, go on]

Casey: [‘look at how easy I ruin shit, don’t take us the years it does him, can do it in minutes, me, can’t I?’]

Janis: [‘I’m the one who brought it up, or down to here, you were doing everything right’ ‘cos it really was her lol, not just saying that to make you feel better, ‘tis factual]

Casey: [‘we can’t just never mention him, learnt from my dad pretending our kid weren’t about, it don’t work out very well’]

Janis: [‘I didn’t have to do it today, I just-’ shaking our head]

Casey: [‘what?’ but softer]

Janis: [‘you deserve everything you want, what if I can’t give it to you?’]

Casey: [‘all I want’s to be with you, so you have done, and there’s nothing to worry about’ pulling her closer because ofc]

Janis: [‘I don’t want to fuck everything up this time’]

Casey: [pulling her even closer ‘I’m not him and who you are, or was, with him isn’t who you are with me’]

Janis: [just being held ‘I’m sorry’]

Casey: [‘me too’ holding her even tighter always somehow]

Janis: [making a noise that is as ‘no me’ without literally saying those words, hugging you back]

Casey: [a shushing noise without being like shhh bitch, stroking her hair when we can bear to even slightly loosen the hug]

Janis: [‘I don’t want to ruin this, you know that, don’t let me’]

Casey: [‘you won’t let yourself, you can trust that, you know I trust you’]

Janis: [looking at him like can I, but genuinely asking not pure I think the fuck not energy]

Casey: [‘you can do it, Janis’ namedrop so you know he’s v serious and means it totally]

Janis: [just giving you the most tentative kiss ever ‘stay with me’]

Casey: [telling her she can do it over and over and how much he believes in her and loves her and he’ll never leave her etc in between so many soft but intense kisses]

Janis: [doing that laugh you do when you feel like a hot mess like oh god ‘if I cry again, I swear to God’ making it more of a prolonged kiss with no stopping between for breathing let alone talking, so you don’t cry but also because it’s needed]

Casey: [doing the breathing into each other’s mouth thing they love to do when that long kiss finally gets broken]

Janis: [‘yours’ into his mouth on loop]

Casey: [such a good lil noise into her mouth in response because love to hear it]

Janis: [putting his hand over your heart and his other hand on your stomach and making serious EYE CONTACT ‘yours’]

Casey: [the EYE CONTACT back is indecent because feeling too many things]

Janis: [‘you’re too good for me but I’m keeping you’ biting your bottom lip out and drawing a heart on your teeth with our tongue]

Casey: [‘you’re too good for me but I’m keeping you’ like no no it’s the other way round actually ‘and them’ drawing 2 hearts on her stomach in a way that once again makes me so soz to dash your dreams like this]

Janis: [‘no one else loves us like you do, never would’ pressing our stomach against you harder, biting your adam’s apple in the process]

Casey: [if the blatant moan he’s just out here doing wasn’t enough of a giveway how into all that he is, there’s no room for any doubt with how he’s pressing as hard against her rn]

Janis: [putting your hand against his throat when you have to move your mouth to bite the opposite ear to last time and be up in it ‘I wanna be all the things you told people about me today, all the time’]

Casey: [I make the rules and he has to do the opposite ear he did to last time so they are mirrors again and be up in hers telling her she can do it like he did before except in the most indecent tone ever this time]

Janis: [using our fingers to collect the blood coming from his ear and mixing it with our own, tasting it, pushing our bloody fingers further into our mouth again to try and do something about the ‘daddy’ being moaned as indecently in response]

Casey: [meanwhile rubbing himself against her stomach too blatantly for wherever they are rn not to mention stealing those fingers out of her mouth to put into his own, just feral things]

Janis: [‘you can put so many more babies in me’ just watching these antics and DYING, pushing our fingers further into your mouth without even realising because we’re beyond distracted by how you look]

Casey: [having to sign ‘how many?’ cos you need to know IMMEDIATELY but you can’t speak with all those fingers there like that]

Janis: [smiling like oops sorry in the not at all sorry fashion and taking your fingers out, smearing the mess all over your own face ‘many as we can love’]

Casey: [kissing her whole face in the most extra way as if you’re thoroughly cleaning it and not just shamelessly making the mess worse ‘I’ve got so much love to give you’ plural you obvs for all these bubs but giving it to her rn literally with how he’s moving]

Janis: [just shamelessly spitting into your mouth and asking for the same ferally ‘I know baby, give it all to me and I can give you it back and more’ literally in the form of these babies ofc]

Casey: [there is no way it’s late enough in the evening for y’all to be doing this basically outside of/v close to a bar when you haven’t even been for dinner yet but here we are, gonna be kind to you and say there’s some kind of little alleyway he’s pulled you into after spitting into your mouth as requested because we’re doing this, there’s no stopping it]

Janis: [just here blowing raspberries and playing with this spit in our mouth like it’s our own ‘you taste like what I made you’ so happily]

Casey: [meanwhile he’s using all his spit and collecting it in her belly button, sticking his tongue and thumb in there, doing the most]

Janis: [being even louder as if this alleyway means you get to have 0 awareness for your surroundings, pop off lads, ‘I can’t wait ‘til it’s big, you can feel them inside me’]

Casey: [lol this alleyway is not remotely giving you the privacy you need but we’re sure pretending it is with how LOUD he was at the prospect of that, nbd just trying to fuck your belly button rn too as if that’s possible]

Janis: [casually the hottest thing we’ve ever seen and we’re letting it be known, pushing our knickers to the side so we can put how wet we are in your mouth, rough as fuck ‘I know you wanna feel them between us when you’re inside me’]

Casey: [the level he’s DYING cannot be overstated, the way y’all are just unlocking kinks like it’s your job absolutely sends me, giving her nips some love with his hands as rough as she was being with her fingers then because thinking about her boobs being massive too obvs but what are words atm]

Janis: [we’re both thinking about it ‘they already feel good’ because it’s true and you gotta know ‘sensitive’ still just mouth fucking you, wet fully dripping down our thighs now]

Casey: [take that cue to be going against her thigh instead at least because you can’t actually fuck a belly button I’m soz, but you can keep pushing one of your thumbs into it cos that feels really nice for some gals appaz cos of the nerve that’s there, the nips need the rest but you can spare that 1]

Janis: [‘it feels like you’re fucking me so deep’ ‘cos yet again amazed at this sensation ‘make me cum just like this and you can do whatever you want, I swear’ holding his mouth open with a thumb on either side, sticking your tongue in and out, seeing how far you can take it]

Casey: [signing ‘I wanna make you cum every way there is’ because he does and he needs you to know that rn but once again cannot talk with these antics, I have faith in you that you could with the belly button thing tbh so we’ll allow it]

Janis: [‘I know I want your cum leaking out of me when I give birth, that’s what I’m thinking about’ so in your grill saying this]

Casey: [I don’t know how someone hasn’t come and investigated and found y’all with the levels of drama this boy is being sound wise in this moment]

Janis: [when it’s winter and people wanna mind their own business so hard apparently, excuse us, acting like we can do what we want because we don’t live here, safe to say it’s mutual, we’re only getting messier and louder]

Casey: [we all know he actually does do his research in the future like a massive nerd but we’re purely in fantasy land here rn talking about how he’s gonna fuck her to get these babies out as if it’s occurring in this exact moment]

Janis: [begging him and telling him how bad you want it, running our fingers through his hair frantically because we don’t know what to do with ourselves rn ‘you put them in me you have to get them out, be the first person they see’]

Casey: [the feels are as high here, we’re all aware, being the most feral in this alleyway as if there’s no possibility of being discovered, could not be hooking up any harder right here and now]

Janis: [when the peeps clearly give that little fucks about being heard and/or seen, there’s no point trying to stop ‘em ‘cos they probably wouldn’t, you either call the police and report it or let ‘em finish lol]

Casey: [nobody wants the drama of getting involved and then likely in a brawl when they could just as hardcore mind their business and enjoy their own evening, plus bars are loud, you’re probably not making as much noise as it feels like you are]

Janis: [exactly, you two are just in your own world with it fully, we all know]

Casey: [glad your little domestic didn’t escalate, love to see it, finish up here and then go get some dinner and calm down]

Janis: [we all know the drama is looming, it would be odd if you made absolutely no mention of it as it gets closer, we’re not actually delusional, no matter how badly we wanna stay in this moment]

Casey: [I’m actually surprised neither of you have before now, so yeah, very necessary]

Janis: [had more time to be pretending but we know tomorrow you gotta go now, sad times but we still got tonight to enjoy]

Casey: [and Chubby to distract you tomorrow until you’re literally in the door]

Janis: [what a distraction technique, like excuse me who is this lmao]

Casey: [if only you could actually hide behind this giant dog, cos what a horrific convo to have]

Janis: [we could but we also can’t, not that girl]

Casey: [for now enjoy your romantic date]

Janis: [as per, chilling like you didn’t just behave absolutely insane out here on these streets]

Casey: [like butter wouldn’t melt]

Janis: [we’re nomming, still beyond essential for energy levels]

Casey: [for once he’s gonna be on his best behaviour and not start any kind of food fight, proud of you boy]

Janis: [we’re mature, we’re discussing Chubby and all the shit we’ve gotta get for him]

Casey: [I like to imagine because he’s not a baby pup and already had that name you’re both giving it the energy thank god it wasn’t a lot worse which sends you reminiscing about some of the terrible names from the dog walking era and then you start talking about peeps giving their babies dog names and the baby names you hate]

Janis: [forever dragging Asia, China and America for having the worst names of all times, ‘scuse us ladies]

Casey: [not the ideal time to bring up that you banged Asia but how could you not, she isn’t easy to get mixed up with anyone else]

Janis: [‘why?’ making such a disgusted face because genuinely]

Casey: [a shrug ‘why did I do owt back then?’ cos tea, everything he did was about you as you well know]

Janis: [‘another one for the register’ as if it’s a hit list and you aren’t the same age as her so it’s really not bad but you know, not happy to hear this obvs]

Casey: [‘least they’d write her name down for her’ like she’s so stupid she can’t herself because truly]

Janis: [just crossing our arms like ugh because shook by this news ‘it makes sense, she always was a massive slag’]

Casey: [leaning across this table fully to uncross her arms because always and don’t be mad at me thank you ‘be up for a murder charge if I went near the other two, better than their mate who’d get you done for beastiality, far as pisstakes go, but still’ when you’re just like Mia or Ella would pass away and Hollie is an absolute animal, rude]

Janis: [rolling your eyes ‘you’re predictable, I know that’]

Casey: [‘you’re the only one who’d get away with saying it and it not being total bollocks, that we both know’]

Janis: [just remembering when she asked Jimothy to rank them one time and he said Grace was the best and we were fuming lmao ‘Ella’d be more your type if she weren’t that gay’]

Casey: [‘Gracie would’ve if she didn’t take after you in reckoning I was an off limits kid in them days’ because she’s your sister not because he actually thinks she’s cute or anything]

Janis: [just kicking you in not a flirty manner under this table like shut up]

Casey: [a look like well it’s true, 1000% his type for what he was trying to achieve ‘would’ve got back to you if it had been her, can’t believe I bothered with Asia for sod all’]

Janis: [we’re scowling lmao ‘I doubt it pained you that much, boy’]

Casey: [‘you forgot what her teeth are like?’ Trying to amuse you but also fr, that would be dangerous lol]

Janis: [doing a little ha kind of lol ‘I hope it hurt’ but not seriously at this point]

Casey: [‘course, you never even heard, waited ages for you to bring it up’ cos genuinely gutted at the time that you didn’t find out as it was the entire point]

Janis: [‘when was it?’ shrugging like no, I obviously didn’t hear]

Casey: [telling her when it was and lowkey what went down without going into any deets more than where he ran into her and that sort of thing]

Janis: [just shaking our head ‘weren’t really bothering with messing with them by that point, I guess’]

Casey: [another shrug because obvs he knows that, he knows everything you were and weren’t doing at that point in time because crush ‘you should’ve told her, she might not have been so keen on calling us by his name’ because you can’t tell me she wouldn’t have called him Jimothy, I’m sorry, she’s just that bitch]

Janis: [‘I fucking hate her’ ‘cos we were fuming anyway but that’s really horrible and we’re not okay, rubbing your leg with our foot where we previously kicked it because sorry ‘be the first trying to get him post divorce’ trying to make it sound vaguely jokey but it’s a horrifying thought so it’s not hitting like that]

Casey: [when you don’t acknowledge it, even her physical apology, because you’re not acknowledging how fucked up that actually was of Asia seeing as you used her too and also it’s so long ago it’s basically irrelevant given everything that’s happened lately ‘sure there’ll be a list for that an’ all’ like Jimothy is still so in demand like y’all were as teens, it’ll be like an Agatha Raisin when a new man rocks up to the village]

Janis: [when you can’t remotely think about that actually, despite you being the one who brought it up and have already moved on in many ways, just doing your own shrug]

Casey: [‘be like you’ve died, all the lasagnes and that they’ll be bringing him round’ too true even though Jimothy can cook and look after himself better than most divorced useless dudes, it’s a shameless ploy]

Janis: [‘lucky him’ as if there’s anything about this to be wanting or jealous over]

Casey: [‘Ian had the time of his life with his go’ cos imagine what it would have been like when their mum disappeared and it was in the papers and everything, all the nosey hoes just appearing ‘surprised he ain’t bumped this missus off too to try and get another’]

Janis: [‘I bet, s’only reason I exist, know the score’ because we all remember what Caleb did]

Casey: [‘lucky me’ with more feeling than that suggests, because so glad you exist even though that situation was and is so fucked up]

Janis: [doing a little ta-da like here I am but carrying on eating like our life depends on it now]

Casey: [‘I’d have killed him if I weren’t beat to it’ cos we mean that wholeheartedly, fuck Caleb, said like I’m doubly lucky it wasn’t me who did or we’d not be here like this rn]

Janis: [‘as short of enemies as he was baby mama’s and kids’ shaking your head like what can you do ‘Rih and Gracie would be the only ones I’m proper related to’ like again, tah so much sir]

Casey: [a look like yeah okay I see that but I raise you Jimothy and Bobby who we think are both useless flops and are the only family we have that we know of]

Janis: [‘I’m not gonna concede the point’ but we’re 😏 too]

Casey: [‘have it, you’re giving me a new family, least I can do, like’ because marrying in but also babies]

Janis: [‘so generous, you’]

Casey: [leaning across the table again but to kiss her on the forehead this time like yep that’s me]

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wsgeon · 3 years

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hey everyone! ummm this is peyton (also the mun of lee hyeon) taking a second shot at a second character — i have a lot of muse for this one, so i swear he’ll be around for a while… 🥵 this is ryu geon, yes his name rhymes with hyeon’s & no i do not care ♥️ he’s the lead guitarist/vocalist of meta and also the son of a former nobody rockstar, but i’ll get into all that below! like this post if you’d like for me to come into your ims to plot, click the read more for more info on geon, and/or click here to be taken to his pages: CAREER, DOSSIER, PINTEREST.

HISTORY.

born in autumn ‘97 to a “budding rockstar” (translation: “no yeah i swear our band’s really starting to take off, we sold twenty-three tickets to our last show!”) & a woman with commitment issues ♥️ geon’s dad always told him that his mom left because she had some dire matters that needed to be taken care of and SWORE that she cried the last time she held her dear baby boy, but all of his dad’s bandmates say that she was just some groupie and had to be persuaded into carrying her child to term… who can say for sure?

naturally, there are no pictures of this mystery woman. there was one (1) of her holding infant geon, but then he found out that that was actually a sound tech who worked for his dad’s band… and he just never corrected geon’s assumptions LOLLLL

anyway! he was always really close to his dad, considering they were a two-person family. he has a set of grandparents, an aunt and a couple cousins but they were never involved with geon’s life because his dad is the #blacksheep of the family. geon and his dad against the world, am i right?

uhhh geon was also kind of a black sheep growing up, but he didn’t really notice? he was a happy kid, very energetic and enthusiastic. a lot of adults in the area looked down on him & his dad, but he was SOOOO blind to it because his dad’s a god in his eyes and HE’S always been nice to everyone, so why would they not like him??? because his clothes smelled a little like dad’s cigarette smoke??? big deal

wasn’t troublesome (beyond talking too much), but a lot of people still expected bad things from him :/ “his father’s a dirtbag, i’ll be surprised if that boy doesn’t end up in jail by 20”, “he won’t amount to anything without a proper role model in his life”, “his dad is teaching him how to slack off”, “he won’t contribute anything to society”, etc. he kindaaa picked up on this as he got older but pretended not to because it was more rewarding to play dumb and keep being a good kid(tm) to prove them wrong

was basically a mini version of his dad. same style, similar features, birthmarks in the same places, same “live today, die tomorrow” approach in life, same affinity for singing & playing rock music. ummm he loved his dad a lot. a lot. a lot. wanted to make him proud SO BAD, started his first band when he was 15 and they sucked so bad but his dad was their biggest fan… you know how it is. a lot of people misunderstood him, but he was a very good guy and such a great parent

TW DEATH unfortunately he passed away just shy of geon’s 18th birthday and your boy still hasn’t forgiven the world for taking his dad when he was in the middle of his angsty teen phase — had he known that their time together was dwindling, he would’ve been so so so much better to him END TW

his dad’s band actually rocketed into the charts after he passed & suddenly they were getting loads of publicity, lots of “what a shame that he went under-appreciated” which pissed geon off SOOOO bad because why couldn’t they have had that energy when he was still alive? he’s still mad about it five/six years later

this is getting kinda long, so uhhh tl;dr, he ended up staying with the drummer of his dad’s band until he was old enough to live alone/READY to live alone, but he changed quite a bit. was really going through it, quit his band, stopped putting effort into school. barely graduated. went from being a social butterfly spending every weekend at a gig or with friends to spending all of his time on a pc or in front of a tv, playing console games. the internet comforted him when nobody else would/could and then he met the future members of meta <33333333 #newbeginnings

present day geon is still struggling, has to go to counseling bi-weekly but he’s coming back out of his shell! he wants to fall in love with life again, just wants to tread carefully... outgoing & will talk to absolutely anyone, but he still spends most of his time alone. hard to reach by text, so if you wanna talk to him, you better call/facetime LMAO. talks a mile a minute, especially if you get him going abt something he really likes. laughs a lot, smiles a lot, more habitual than actual signs of happiness but yk. ummm he has a really loud voice, mostly controlled nowadays but he still gets carried away sometimes. an absolute menace during long drives/flights, sorry meta.

funny but only when he’s in large groups. feeds off of other peoples’ energy, really good at reading a room and breaking the ice/making everyone comfortable, but if you meet him 1-on-1, none of his jokes land quite the same.

i envision him as being the kind of guy who carries himself in such a way that you’d assume he’s really popular/out of reach/maybe even full of himself, but he’s... not like that... at all... in fact, he’s kinda irritating when you get to know him. the personification of a flood followed by a drought and vice versa, always either too much or not enough. gets used/ghosted/dropped/dumped/whatever a lot because he’s soooo fun in the moment (if he isn’t in his feelings), but draining long-term.

really emotionally intelligent, in touch with his feelings in a way that a lot of people never thought he would be (probably thanks to counseling tbh). he’s very very rarely the type of person who will make you wonder what your place in his life is — he’s communicative, kind, honest. ummm he thinks that intimacy between friends needs to be more common, so he’s really affectionate with the people in his life. type of guy to tell you he loves you every chance he gets (calling you when he’s drunk, sounding like a clingy ex type beat) & greet you/depart with a hug. losing his dad kinda fucked him up in the way that he won’t leave/hang up until his friends say “i love you” back, gets kinda (re: very) upset if he’s denied that and/or a hug.

TRIVIA.

has been playing the guitar “longer than he’s been walking” (not really, but he swears it’s true).

uhhh he really likes nail art, but he’s kinda hesitant in what he tries? mainly sticks to black polish (or other plain colors), but sometimes he’ll get little designs added in as well. mainly does it himself because he still doesn’t feel comfortable in salons... if his work looks bad, leave him alone <3 he’s trying

inspired by people like kurt cobain, nicky wire, yungblud, billie joe armstrong & damiano david in the fact that he’s not against wearing dresses or skirts on stage. doesn’t do it ALL the time, but often enough that it doesn’t go unnoticed. some people say that he does it for attention because he doesn’t dress like that elsewhere and tbh they’re probably kinda right

interested in history (only SOME... dinosaurs, ancient civilizations, specialized areas like the history of circuses/clowns/skateboarding/punk, stuff like that yk), stand-up comedy & documentaries. could spend a whole day watching documentaries and would say he had fun, has a lot of useless knowledge that nobody gives a fuck about and is kinda dumb when it comes to things that matter

when it comes to music, he prefers playing really fast and heavy rock or punk over anything else, but he actually listens to a lot more soft indie on his own time... he’s too tense these days to be listening to anything else RIPPP

the vibe: homemade tie-dye, ripped slipknot t-shirts, frosted tips, neon crocs with alien & peace-sign charms, chipped black nail polish, calloused hands, cheesy pick-up lines used NOT to land a date but to pull a smile, driving until he’s lost, stupid socks paired with pressed suits, dramatic poetry in an iphone note, etc.

PLOT IDEAS.

people he met through online support groups about coping with grief

uhhh an on & off relationship that’s been going for who-knows-how-long. the reason for this is up for discussion, but i imagine that he hasn’t given up yet because the constant highs and lows are a good source of inspo 🤪 artists must suffer for their art!

opposite side of the coin — someone he’s interested in, but he’s NOT disloyal so it’s a pattern of persistent courting when he’s single vs intense friend-zoning when he’s not and they’re getting tired of trying to figure out what he wants from them

someone else who likes nail art & can convince him that NOBODY cares if he goes to a salon

someone (probably female but doesn’t really matter tbh) who feels like his feminism is entirely performative… maybe they attack him directly for it or maybe they just REALLY don’t like him and they’re super vague about it idk. either way, please tell him that activism is much more than recommending one female artist a year and saying “clothes have no gender 🤪” so he can be praised for the bare minimum (his heart is in the right place but his skull is empty)

someone super introverted who comes out of their shell with geon! uhhh maybe they think that he’s the one doing them a favor, but in reality spending time with them has been doing wonders for his mental health

other people who like to skate. let’s congregate at the local skatepark and scare the middle schoolers away

someone who inspires him musically, for whatever reason. lots of late nights in studios, idly strumming his guitar and writing lyrics that definitely aren’t about how their eyes look in these dim lights… umm maybe he thinks he has a crush on them but really doesn’t and ends up hurting them eventually, maybe he really DOES have a crush but will (probably) never do anything abt it or maybe it’s entirely platonic and he just admires them a ridiculous amount

someone who likes to make music as a hobby, prob won’t publish/release any of it but it’s fun to imagine. spontaneous meetings with geon in the middle of the night, recording songs together and keeping the WORST takes for the laughs. there’s probably a diss-track of them going in on each other floating around somewhere even though geon can’t rap for shit

night owls who keep him company on the phone, even if they can’t be there physically. them talking really quietly vs geon shouting at them while he plays games LMAO

gaming buddies. come over, maybe you can carry geon through his game of the week or you can both fail but have fun while you’re at it… or you can scream while he fends off that hoard of zombies behind you

i’m typing this at the last minute (literally) so i’m gonna stop here, but i will get a proper plots page put up asap with a wider variety of connections!!! but as always, please do let me know if you have any other ideas. i’m always happy to plot and write with you all 🌚

#ws:intro #frankly my characters end up a lil different from intended 90% of the time soooo take my description of his personality w a grain of salt #this intro is long and illiterate but i'll fix it at a later time

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wri0thesley · 3 years

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many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn

Anonymous asked: NAT... you can write WHATEVER you want! It's your blog, and I hope that rude anons can learn to respect that. I used to be on your blog just for jjba content too, so when you started getting into jjk I was indifferent but eventually you dragged me into jjk so hard!! I already like bnha, so seeing you write for it only made me happier! I hope that you continue to write whatever make YOU happy:) ❤and yes, longer fics certainly doesnt mean it's better, quality over quantity

ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!!

Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making

i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!

Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.

ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn

Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.

gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;

Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕

honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3.

Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?

hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3

Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.

i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest.

Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday

dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof.

Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.

extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!!

Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!

ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!

Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~

Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)

Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.

hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’.

i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring.

anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3

Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!

thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3

Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.

this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3

Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u

ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.

Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)

i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3

Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.

honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3

honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3

Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!

honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_;

Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖

ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3

Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!

to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(.

Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!

anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess!

Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!

wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that.

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end

HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!).

Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.

ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3

Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!

i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3

Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon

i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don’t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3

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