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Seeing others get a successful ADHD diagnosis makes me so happy but hurt at the same time.
All through school the school staff told my dad that I passed screenings for ADHD.
He didn't do anything other than have me in programs (special ed for math because I also have dyscalculia, and a room I could go to with others that also had a hard time in school, like a study hall but not) and told me to demand "extra time on tests and projects" as if my disability was a weapon I could just whip out and use, it felt wrong in that way, eventually making me believe it was an excuse/crutch.
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At home he acted as if it never existed, as if it was just for school, and even then he would yell and belittle me for the grades I was getting.
He would yell at me for everything I did wrong in his eyes. Later in life when I was 15, his wife (then gf) came into the picture, he either never told her because he decided it wasn't a thing entirely or she wanted to insert her authority as soon as possible and questioned my dad into thinking "yeah, why isn't my child doing more in school??" (*knock knock* get the door, it's ADHD!)
That led her to treat me like he was, sometimes worse.
He also never wanted to help me get my ADHD regulated either, due to his own personal reasons (that he told me about later in life I'd like to not say publicly) he didn't see medication as the best option for me. (Sometimes it isn't! Different things work for different people but personally I literally had no other outlets to help me at the time)
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Later down the line when it finally came to light my brother also had ADHD (I've suspected all along and tried to avocate to have him tested but it would get shot down by dad and his wife) they did take the medication route with him, but due to my dad's personal reasons he hated it even happening.
My brother got put through the same thing as me (getting yelled at about grades, being belittled for household chores, "'I don't know' isn't an answer!", etc.)
At the time I felt powerless, because I had no means to help in ways I wanted to. It's one of my biggest regrets, but he seems to be doing better now.
(He just smokes weed and doesn't take any medication because he says weed helps him out easier, the meds he did have were hurting him but my dad and his wife refused to switch him due to saying it would just cost more.)
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(P.S. medications pertaining to things such as ADHD can only go so far, they are not magic pills that automatically fix everything like they wanted to believe. Some can even have bad side effects so they may not be right for the user entirely.)
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Coupled with my depression over the years, I felt lost in it all.
None of the adults in my life at the time really helped me, I felt like I was failing them (when really it was the other way around) and I pushed myself past the limit to prove my worth.
One thing I wish parents/guardians never told their children is that they're a liar, that they're faking something, or that nobody would/should believe them for their mental disabilities.
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It can be debilitating to them later in life to seek support in ways that could have worked/helped early on.
It feels harder to do so when they hear those echoing voices coming back to the surface and knocking them down all over again. (<- spoken from personal experience only)
Help. Your. Children.
#murphy mumbles#but its actually a rant/vent#dear god help them while you can#if you have the means or hell even the right mindset to help PLEASE do#theres so much i wish i could go back and have done for me to help current me#its not a phase/something they can just grow out of#adhd sticks with you for life#especially if you dont get proper coping skills to help#long post#sorry for formatting#i also kept it under a read more and hope that helps#i could go on and on about this#about how even doctors can be condescending to adults seeking diagnosis#but it goes from person to person and all experiences differ#this has also made me develop a fear of thinking i have a victim complex#and my life experiences getting belittled#i wish more adults realized how damaging it can be to a child to not listen to them#or support them#this is all a personal thing for me so if anyone outside of mutuals find this then i dont need unnessecary commentary on my own life#thanks
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Judas. | Emily &. Demon!Reader x Saint Peter.
Content: Emily took sides too quickly, Vaggie is suspicious. Saint Peter doesn't recognize this new (old?) angel and can't explain why he feels drawn to them.
In Hell, location: the Hazbin Hotel
"I still don't get it... Why would Emily side so quickly with us? With your cause?", Vaggie thought outloud as she laid down on the bed with her eye staring at the ceiling, before moving to rest on her side as she stared at Charlie who had been reading that story her mom would have ages ago as she was having trouble falling asleep. The Princess of Hell froze at her girlfriend's question, now looking at her eye.
She was right, Vaggie was much sharper than her when it came to important details, after all, her girlfriend was logical whereas she was emotional which is why they complimented each other — Charlie hadn't pondered on why Emily was so quick to side with her and her cause, stand up against Sera and promising to help as much as she could, dimissing the lingering threat over her head to get expelled from Heaven as an openly viewed ally. Charlie had been blinded by finally having one who wasn't a demon that she had entirely overlooked something so obvious.
The blond demon tried to come up with an answer, but none came to her mind — she gave a puzzled look at her girlfriend who gave an awkward yet understanding smile before sitting down on bed and getting closer to Charlie. "As a former angel, I didn't question orders and simply followed. I... I did feel guilty everytime an extermination took place, more often than not", Vaggie let out a heavy side at that, and Charlie couldn't resist but to hold onto her, pulling her closer so she'd be sitting sideways on her lap on their shared bed. The angel blushed faintly before she took a deep breath and continued her story. "I would let kids escape, I would try to turn an eye to those who seemed vulnerable and... What I mean is, I didn't have free will exactly, I didn't question things even if I felt like crap. But Emily had a different status, a higher one and much more strict so she... She shouldn't be this... I don't know, just, something's off, Charlie".
The pair of girlfriends exchanged a glance and held each other. Since the last extermination took place... They hadn't been back to Heaven. Much less now that Lute was running the show. So, all they could do, was wait, and try to keep a positive mindset while also working on a variety of defense and attack plans while taking into consideration all possible altering factors within and outside their control. As a precaution.
In Heaven, location: Emily's room
"Can you please keep quiet or tone it down?", Emily whispered-shouted as she helped her friend get dressed like all the other angels in Heaven. (Y/N) had been her best friend since they were alive, both were raised in a small church community and they used to have the same values until life happened, causing them to become two different people — (Y/N) had lost their way, and lost their faith unlike Emily who kept holding onto the church, studying the bible, volunteering at shelters and more selfless acts because she also had the luxury of a better economical background whereas (Y/N) didn't have that cushion. As bitter as they were at times, it hurt that those who had a deeply need to survive were the most motivated to study and do research on any and everything, to hone their abilities to impress and sometimes surrender themselves to poor treatments and toxic enviroments, a lack of support equals grapsing whatever opportunity lies before you and being indifferent on whether it will be harmful or not.
The 'angel' stood still as their friend helped them dress up accordingly, changing their make up, their nails, even shaving the necessary bits. Emily was trying to make (Y/N) look as clean, fresh and impeccable as she could to mimic the exterior of someone who belongs to Heaven. How did Emily sneak them? By using the remaining bits of the portal that had allowed Sir Pentious to access Heaven as a newly redeemed soul. "I have been meaning to somehow bring you here, you are like my family. No, you are my family and the reason why I want sinners to be able to prove they can redeem themselves...", Emily spoke in a soft tone, cupping the side of (Y/N)'s face and smiled at them, making them smile in return as they leaned onto her touch. "Even before Adam had given us that poor list of how to end in Heaven, you were worth Heaven. Fuck, you were better than Adam himself who was the epitome of humankind yet he was worst than a demon", their eyes widened at her venomous words and darkened expression of irrate. Somewhat paranoid, their (e/c) eyes looked around nervously as Emily's wings flapped behind her and she flew off the ground, circling (Y/N) to see if any detail of their outer appearance was amiss. Humming and even chirping happily at her work, she descended onto the ground again and squealed, holding their hands and spinning around. "Your disguise is perfect, (Y/N)! Gosh, I can't wait to show you Heaven and all that you mlssed".
Smiling at her, (Y/N) felt guilt bubbling within their chest as endless scenarios of what could go wrong went through their mind yet Emily reassured them that no matter the outcome, she'd be there for them. It was a lovely sentiment, but Emily wouldn't make it in Hell as far as (Y/N) did.
In Heaven, location: the library
"—I'm telling you, I don't know how he made it past the gates when that's literally my work", Saint Peter groaned, he was in Heaven's extensive library trying to find a logical explanation as to why Sir Pentious made it into Heaven without even crossing the Pearly Gates — yet nothing showed up thus far, nothing that could explain how this came to be or why this was the only record and proof of a sinner getting redeemed. Was he talking to the bored librarian that wanted him gone? Yes. Was he mostly thinking outloud? Also yes. His wings were flapping behind him, clearly showing the stress he was experimenting as he paced back and forth through the library's floor, yet he was pulled away from this spiral of what-ifs thoughts by the door creaking and different step patterns which indicated that two other angels had joined him, and the librarian.
"Ah, names? Okay Emily and... Sorry, could you repeat that? Assigning an old citizen to work here with hearing problems and poor memory was a questionable choice", the librarian spoke, slowly and bored at this interaction but chuckled faintly nonetheless. "Ah, (Y/N)? Can't say I heard that name, but then again... Angels rarely come here, only Saint Peter".
A name he was acquainted with, followed by a name he never heard, Saint Peter himself who greets those who make it past the Pearly Gates. What is going on?, he is supposed to know every soul that got here. Exasperated, he abruptly turned around and if it wasn't because he was on the ground and throwing a fit with only his wings flapping behind him, Saint Peter was sure he'd have faceplanted onto the ground at the sight of Emily and this unknown angel.
The unknown angel and Saint Peter had locked gazes for a long amount of time, making the librarian and Emily herself feel like the third and fourth wheel. Clearing her throat, Emily made the pair break eye contact and look flustered before she pressed her palm in between (Y/N)'s shoulderblades and pushed them before her, looking up at Saint Peter and gesturing a introduce yourself expression. If they passed Heaven's watchful eyes, the one in charge of letting souls pass and know everyone's name in Heaven, they could fool God.
"Hi", their voice barely above a whisper as they watched Saint Peter spread his wings and fly from where he stood to slowly descend before them, still looking in a trance of sorts as his face had a yellow blush present. "I'm (Y/N), I think one of your ah, collegues? The one in the current shift greeted me and told me to uhm, you know, introduce myself to you".
Saint Peter was familiar with falling in love, he did so back in Earth yet when he reunited with his former wife in Heaven, they didn't feel that initial connection nor the obligation to get involved in a romantic relationship, remaining amicable at best and acquaintences at worst. Whatever they had on Earth had evaporated, only a feeling of familiarity whenever they crossed paths and they carried on without interacting, not even a wave. But this..? Saint Peter never felt his heart beating this fast, this erraticaly... His face felt like burning, and his mouth felt dry as his blue eyes widened, memorizing each detail and feature of them, a beautiful, astonishing... "Uhm, hi?". Snapping back to reality as he tried to focus on whatever they said, Saint Peter reached down to hold their hand and shake it as a greeting, making their own face turn a reddish hue as they got flustered. Adorable, deliciously so.
"Hi! Yes, pleasure to meet you, welcome to Heaven, (Y/N). Shall I give you a tour?", blue eyes were practically sparkling at the prospective of spending (alone) time with them, but there was an increasing worry creeping from the back of his mind, what's this desire to monopolize them..? It was worrisome, the need to touch their hands for longer than he should have, to stand this close within their personal space.
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If you have time, could you do some scenarios of four of the TFP Decepticons (of your choice) taking care of their Fem Human S/o while she's on her period?
Absolutely, anon!! Thank you for requesting! <3
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Decepticons included: Megatron, Dreadwing, Predaking and Starscream
Content: Fem! reader, as stated above <3
Warnings: Some profanity
Notes: I always picture the Transformers in a smaller version of their bipedal mode to actually cuddle you with. ALSO this is my first time writing for Transformers for the first time in a while, so this might be shitty. I'm sorry if it is <3
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Megatron
I think we can all agree that none of these mechs will know what the hell you're talking about, girlie (when it comes to periods)
But he's gonna pretend like he knows
Later on when you're not around, he'll research
He's the silent supporter
He'll just grab you some meds, heating pad, hot water bottle, anything you typically need on your period
He wont even ask what you want, he just gives it all to you and just hopes that you'll use it lol
If you want cuddles, he'd most likely give a throaty chuckle (THIS MECH DOES THINGS TO ME I CAN'T-) and go "yes, dear." before giving you what you want
AAAAAAAAA PLEASE MEGATRON PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST A C R U M B OF AFFECTION?!!
sorry. lost control of myself for a second.
He'd cuddle you from behind, obviously being big spoon (BECAUSE WHY WOULDN'T HE-)
BIG servos on your tummy, gently massaging,,, mmmmmm
i need to get a hold of myself I AM SO SORRY-
Dreadwing
Girl you're gonna have to explain to this himbo what human anatomy is, much less what a period is
He wont cuddle you (mans is not a huge cuddler in my opinion-) but he WILL give you moral support
"You're doing great babe" he says from across the room as you're dying
BUT ITS OKAY cause we love him. people still love him right?
He'll be sure to get you meds though. Just cause he's not a cuddler doesn't mean he doesn't love you
"My pain is your pain babe" he says, making you glare at him
Wont understand anything you tell him at first until he looks it up later
He's relatively chill about it, doesn't really see a reason to make a scene about it
Predaking
Another himbo
Except this himbo is a WORRIER
The stereotypical "But babe, if you bleed for seven days, don't you like...die?" kinda mindset, which is why he worries
He doesn't exactly understand that its normal and you're used to it by now, so he's constantly thinking "what if something goes wrong?!"
When you tell him about the wonderful savior that is heating pads, he decides "oh shit, I'm your heating pad now" and will cuddle you whenever your cramps act up
Megatron can wait
You can't
At least, to him <3
Unlike Megatron, Predaking will face you when you cuddle. Or, well, he's curled around you. Dragon form or bipedal form.
You'll be laying on him, pressed into him. He feels like a heater, so you wont be needing your heating pad anytime soon lol
he doesn't know how to massage, but he'll learn if you want him to rub your tummy, or anywhere else that aches
Will give you many kisses, and lull you into many naps <3
Starscream
Oh man
This himbo will act like he knows everything, when he obviously doesn't
"Starscream no, I'm on my period"
"So? Just pee it out"
AKHDHSJGDFSH HE WOULD SAY THAT-
You'd probably lose it laughing I know I would and he'd be all pissy cause you're laughing at him
When you actually explain what's going on, he's a little more sympathetic
Super distant though until it's over cause you laughed at him >:(
Piss baby
Until he misses you, then he gets clingy
It's very confusing and he's all over the place which is NOT helping your cramps
He's screeching about something and you just want him to shut up. Kiss him, girl. Make him cuddle with you cause cramps are HORRIBLE.
DON'T. HAVE. HIM. MASSAGE. SHIT. With those claws, NO. That's gonna do you more harm than good.
Starscream is physically clingy so if you reject his touch he's gonna be all pissy, so just give him kisses as an apology
#megatron x reader#starscream x reader#dreadwing x reader#predaking x reader#tfp headcanons#transformers prime#tfp starscream#tfp megatron#tfp dreadwing#tfp predaking#megatron#starscream#dreadwing#predaking#tfp
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System Stuff Weeklies #1
Alright let's do this--
I'm going to put up 2 questions, intentionally pretty broad, with some examples from ourselves; go ahead and answer either or both of them, and feel free to interpret them however you want in order to get you to something you're interested in talking about! (No direct pings this time, just to see how it goes)
1. What's your favorite image, metaphor, or description of how your system works "overall" that you use to describe yourself(s) to others?
We're personally a big fan of calling ourselves a binary star system. Singlets are just one big star in the middle, and we might look kinda like that from far away, but actually we're two stars, approximately the same size, orbiting a common center together. Neither one of us is the "real one" or the "actual center", both of us are stars even though we might have different, idk, emission wavelength spectra and chemical compositions or whatever, and we're matched enough in "mass" that we balance.
And like, it feels like it used to just be one star and a bunch of inert stardust around it, but then a Bunch Of Stuff happened all in the right order in the right ways and that stardust all kinda coalesced and hit the critical point to start its own fusion process and become a star in its own right.
2. What's something you feel like you've learned or gained from being a system/part of a system? Either from the experience itself, from each other, or from the process of learning how to do this whole life thing together?
For us, I think one big thing that L's learned is how to stand up for ourselves better--really for me, initially, and then by extension for herself, too. She tends towards being a conflict-avoidant little ball of slightly-anxious sunshine who just wants to be friends with everyone...even when that means defaulting to the assumption that she must be the one in the wrong, always. This didn't cause too many big obvious problems in her life initially--and then system stuff started for us, and then suddenly we were confronted by all kinds of assumptions and assertions that it would've been so much easier to go along with than to fight:
"You don't really mean that you feel like he's 'real', right?"
"It was so weird talking to you in that other persona, haha"
"Unless you fit exactly these XYZ specific criteria you're not a system and everyone who says otherwise is an ableist faker"
"But this is only happening because you met [system friend], though, of course. Like, you wouldn't be saying this otherwise."
And yeah. We had a lot of really vicious system-doubt spirals for that first year and a half. But she looked at what was going on, and looked at what it was doing to me, and went, "fuck it, I have to change." And she has. Not overnight, not perfectly--but she's a hell of a lot better at it, because she put in the work to be:
"No, actually, this would still be happening, I just wouldn't have the right words for it if I hadn't met [friend]."
"This is a post from some random person on the internet who knows nothing about us, we can just close the tab and walk away."
"He's a person, not a persona--please don't ever call him that again." "Yes, I do think he's real, exactly as much as I am."
There's a lot more for both of us that I could talk about (for example, I've been learning to...accept help and affection and support better? Actually letting myself feel it rather than constantly operating from a scarcity mindset about it), but I'll leave it at this for now.
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hi! I might be childish but I am 100% agreeing with McGonagall not getting Ginny’s Christmas card…🙃
Can you please tell us some about her mindset? Is it just trying to get the school through this year, is it really though love, remorse or..?
the mcgonagall discourse continues to tickle me no end. anon i for one applaud an encourage any and all childishness. also i agree! dropping people from the christmas card list because you've got major beef with them is a time-honoured and noble tradition and ginny is right to uphold it
i don't want to say too much that will end up in the fic but! i think mcgonagall in beasts thinks she is trying to Do Her Best - for ginny, for the other students under her care, but also for hogwarts as an institution, which is an institution whose mission and ethos she really believes in. a lot of this is is (understandably, and not necessarily wrongly) bound up in her loyalty to her mentor, dumbledore, someone she didn't always agree with but whose vision for hogwarts she consistently throws her weight behind.
minnie's got a huge amount on her plate stepping up as headmistress in 1998. she's the headteacher of a student body who are individually and collectively traumatised, who are only just beginning to process what happened to them, and whose traumas are extremely complex and diverse and don't really have the tools to grasp each other's often very different but no less serious sufferings (obviously the the pureblood/half-blood students who endured life under the carrows during the war and the DA lot who actively resisted the carrows and paid a huge price for it, but also muggleborn students who were on the run, and all those who were in azkaban.) she's dealing with a lot of guilt for all that she couldn't shield her students from (more to come on this), and she's sincere in her belief that young people who have gone through enormous upheaval need structure, routine, accountability, and a kind of compassion that manifests as someone saying no, you can't punch whoever you like because they said something horrible to you. you do have to hand your homework in. you do need to not sneak out of the castle at night and make everyone worry about you. partly this is generational - she was born in 1935, she has a set of ideas about acceptable and unacceptable ways of expressing your distress as a child. but i think this is also a not inherently cruel or abusive child welfare philosophy, even if it doesn't really take on a lot of what we know of how trauma manifests in young people and adolescents. minerva would say: it's my job to look after my students, i'm the adult and authority figure, i need to reimpose and safeguard the social contract that holds an institution like a school together, and also to make sure that i care about each individual student while also managing the impact of students' behaviours on each other. (in canon, she repeatedly does enforce the rules in strong terms and doesn't make excuses when harry - a character who is well within his rights to act out given his life experiences - gets in a fight or fucks up and breaks the rules in ways that meaningfully impact his peers.)
when it comes to ginny, i think mcgonagall sees lots of herself in her. they share a fierce protective streak, they're both very loyal, they're both incredibly stubborn, and they both are petty as hell and show their emotions by way of biscuit/christmas card deprivation. but that also means mcgonagall expects more of ginny than most, especially as someone who rode hard for the hogwarts student body the preceding year. mcgonagall wants ginny to help her keep hogwarts standing and continue to play the part of a role model for her peers as someone (she knows) they look up to. ginny does not want to do that. and mcgonagall's massively frustrated that ginny has (also understandably) held her hands up and said fuck that, role model schmole model, i've gone through it and you're all now saying back to normal and pretending it never happened. what's hard is that they're both kind of right! but neither is able to say it. and that's why gryffindor girlies are so fun and massively annoying to smash into each other when doing the literary equivalent of playing dolls (writing fanfiction)
#beasts#mcgonagall discourse#thank you for asking anon!#minnie and ginny: clash of the titans#minerva mcgonagall
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I do understand ONCE YOU REREAD WHAT I SAID, Fictional characters or other things that are fictional can affect reality, and drawing CP will affect you and the people around you, I understand that your coping from and why you draw that stuff but trust me I’m not hating on you pachi, or anyone else who are defending you or trying to excuse your behavior
Fiction characters aren’t real but however they can have a major impact on reality, hell even kids on this planet, you have no idea how much children are going through, and have no idea how many are seeing your artwork and thinking this must be okay but reality it’s not, it’s concerning
I’m not trying decide how or where you should cope, if your coping mechanisms are drawing cp of fiction, I may not be helpful as you think, I do believe you use this to cope with your traumatic experiences, but please understand I’m not trying to force you to cope on these things on my behalf, I’m not trying to pick on you, I’m not trying to force you or hell I’m not even making fun of you or even trying to be mean to you.
But understand this Pachi, this entire situation or whatever your drawing could cost you your future career, your 19 years old you have the mindset of an adult but your still growing and learning, I do believe you can change for the better, I know how much it’s traumatic to remember or even live in that moment, but believe me when I say this isn’t healthy, if your not going listen or even take accountability or change for the sake of your fans or even your future career, I understand I’m just a random person in the internet who knows nothing about you, I’m also victim of these things, but i never cope by drawing cp of your favorite fictional characters, if your struggling to find a better way to cope there’s always something to help you out, trust me once I say this, I’m not hating on you I’m not defending you, I’m not even trying to force you into anything I cope with, but please understand this, I know deep down you want to heal and forget about that experience, we may not be perfect or anything but I know that someday you’ll be able to heal from that experience.. I do believe in you, your a talented artist, but this ain’t healthy or even good decision to cope, if it’s the way you cope, I can’t stop you, I’m just a random person in the internet, I hope you get the help you need
This will be my last post about Pachi, if they aren’t going to listen anything, it’s their decision, it’s their choice and words, they have every right to express themselves but please understand this, if your not comfortable or even happy by his content there’s always a block button, if they ain’t going to listen, then it’s best to block and report them. This is my last post about this situation, thank you for your time to read this
Again I’m not forcing anyone into anything, I simply want to help people understand
Thank you, this is my last post about Pachi, I’ll leave them alone now, thanks again
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Random Eddie Munson Headcanons
Part II
I've said some of these before- I know. Also please keep in mind that these are my own personal headcanons! You don't have to agree with all of them
Warnings: mentions of sex, swearing, bullying, season 4 spoilers, yes I mean ALL of season 4, mentions of self harm/ suicide
I saw somebody saying he's probably screwed all of the cheerleaders and that's why he's so nice to them? I see your headcanon and raise you: he's polite to the cheerleaders because a. He's a gentleman. B. Bet you five bucks they've stopped the football team from beating his ass at least once
He failed senior year his first time because of his mother's passing. The second year he failed was because of his father's murder trial. His mindset was quickly deteriorating and the only thing that kept him sane was the fact that Wayne fought so hard to keep Eddie.
Oh my God, Wayne.
His literal best friend ever.
Eddie was already into rock and metal and Wayne only nurtured that. Helped Eddie save up for his first guitar.
Eddie was the lead guitarist and vocalist for Corroded Coffin
Hates Mike with a passion but would never say anything about it to anybody. He doesn't wanna hurt the kids feelings.
I can't explain that one but I just have the strong feeling that he does.
Dude is a drama kid. Straight up.
That's where Hellfire is held every week, drama room
Man strives to piss everyone off. Everyone. There are no exceptions.
None.
Will legitimately zone out in the middle of ranting
Contrary to the "Eddie would let you sit on his lap at Hellfire"
NO HE WOULD NOT
Would be pissed if you did so
That is his TIME
He's way too animated for that. Man is standing up, doing little dances, acting out character actions. He is in the zone and he is in the moment. I'm telling you, if you sat on his lap while he was DMing he would not be happy.
MAYBE he would hold your waist when he asked you a question during d&d
That's it
There's little to no intimacy during Hellfire. He is all business
I'm not even kidding
Although he is a very gracious DM. Strict to certain things but he's very lenient on others. It depends.
VERY animated and imaginative. Man quotes Lord of The Rings, I don't expect any different
Speaking of LOTR, definitely only has those books because he stole them from the library
Maybe his mom really liked them so he reads them to keep a piece of her?
Bullying is a love language of his. You scared of a bug? He will chase you with one. He will tease you and make fun of you and piss you off, man doesn't realize when boundaries are being pushed too far
Half his humor consists of middle school kid jokes
Do not tell him a 'your mom' joke
Has no concept of personal space
Unless it's HIS personal space
Gets pissed off relatively easily but calms down just as easily
Will eat canned food right out of the can if he doesn't feel like cooking it
Literally only eats quick foods unless Wayne makes something
He very rarely decides he wants to cook
Cusses more than he should but also substitutes bad words so much it's funny
Sarcastic as hell
He's so chaotic I swear
Relationship/ NSFW Headcanons
Slaps your ass every chance he gets. Every chance. I'm not kidding, you're doing dishes? Smack. Standing up? Smack. Legit just standing? Smack.
Not even in a sexual way, he just knows it pisses you off so he does it
If you need something or you go to ask him for something, he automatically assumes you're asking for a kiss and gives you one that's small and quick
If you compliment him he will either deny it flat out or be a smiling mess there is no in between
Speaking of no in between, man's sex drive is either nonexistent or that's all he thinks about
If he's horny he will bother you until you give him attention
Easily made horny. I'm telling you, don't fall for it.
Per the hanky code, he's a heavy sadist top
There's no way this man is straight
Come on
"Big boy"
Are you kidding me?
Flirts wayyyyyyyyyy more than reasonable
Will flirt with other people to make you jealous
That being said he's easy to make jealous
Very protective of his lover
"Babe" and "Sweetheart" are his pet names for you
If you say his name he thinks he's in trouble
If you call him Edward? Silent anxiety. Will immediately ask you what he did wrong
Wayne snaps pictures of both of you whenever he can
Eddie is most likely demi
So by the time you're dating, you're best friends in and out
He's done some EMBARASSING things
Like
Not even kidding
You've seen him when he's been vomiting his guts out
You've seen him dealing with the after effects of an overdose
He's had some really bad episodes and you've been there through every one despite his mood swings and him telling you to fucking leave
Gets angry when he's trying to protect you
Full blown pissed
Starts yelling and screaming at you if you put yourself in danger
With as much as he flirts to piss you off, man doesn't have a disloyal bone in his body
Cheating? Might as well not even be in his dictionary
Will cheat on a test tho
Hears that you cheated on him? Won't believe it until he sees it
Defends you with every breath he has
Will run the fuck away from bullies but if something happens to you he will start some shit
I mean the most petty shit
He'll prank people, humiliate then in the hallways, even beat the shit out of somebody if he feels like it
Might be more later but please accept this while I'm working on requests. I'm sorry it's taking me so long, I've been looking for jobs and working on and off and I'm just constantly tired. I'll get your fics out as soon as possible, I promise.
#eddie munson#stranger things#stranger things eddie#eddie stranger things#fanfic#eddie munson x male reader#teddyposting#fluff#teddy speaks#eddie munson is gay#eddie munson x ftm reader#wayne munson#eddie and wayne#eddie plz marry me#hes so fine
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hello haha:') it's my first time sending an ask huhu so i'll keep it anon. so, may i request s/o finding out that she's pregnant with Nozel's child before marriage? since some royals, or at least their elders (what i implement in my mind😂) will most likely have the mindset of “marriage before a child” thingy? Thank you so much!!
and of course Nozel will accept it, because if he doesn't i will rage and cause hell for him😡
Hello Anony! I'm not sure if you're the same Anony, but the request is too similar so I'll assume it is haha! Thank you for this unique request, I love me a fluffy and protective Nozel. (*ฅ́˘ฅ̀*)
tw: pre-marital pregnancy, mentions of abortion, mentions of lost of virginity
Nozel Silva x f! reader
You stared at the pregnancy kit, your heart racing, your mind unable to believe your eyes. You first thought of aborting the child. Yes, that might be the best plan. Nozel's family would never accept this, they could never accept a child before marriage, "that would mean marrying a girl that is no longer a virgin." you recalled what one of his aunts said during a family dinner.
And.. what would Nozel think? Does he want the child? Although you thought of aborting the baby, but the thought of Nozel not wanting the child made your chest tighten in pain.
Your mind was filled with contrastive thoughts; some negative and scared. Do you want the kid? Are you even ready to be a mother? At the same time, you imagined having children with the love of your life, having a family with him.
You felt like you couldn't breathe. You heard a commotion coming from downstairs. Nozel is home. You quickly threw all the pregnancy kits into the bin and disposed of them properly.
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It had been days of you acting weirdly around him and Nozel has certainly realised it. He was an observant man and when it came it you, he was more sensitive.
You were barely eating like you had no appetite, you said you wanted to lose weight and you refused to be checked by a doctor. The worst of all? You refused his advancements at night saying you were exhausted yet it seemed like you were restless like you couldn't sleep.
You were definitely bothered by something and you were hiding it from him. This made the royal very very grumpy.
He came home early one day and was told by the servants that you were in your room resting. He quietly came in but you weren't in the room. Instead, he heard sounds coming from the toilet. You were vomiting.
You came out of the washroom after washing up, your head feeling light. You gasped a little when you saw your man standing right in front of you. Without a word, he helped you to your shared bed, and offered you some lukewarm water. It immediately made you feel better.
"y/n." he said in a gentle yet firm tone, "talk to me, what's going on with you lately?"
"I-I'm just not feeling that well today," you lied, adverting his gaze.
"Please do not lie to me," his hands reached out for yours, "am I not worthy to share your problems with?"
His purple orbs now reflected hurt and disappointment, it made your heavy heart feel even worst.
"Nozel.. I'm pregnant." you finally spat out. This was it. The moment of truth. He would probably tell you to abort the baby or leave.
There was silence as Nozel processed what you just said. He too, felt a flurry of emotions when you first found out. First he was pleasantly surprised, he was overjoyed that you both were going to be parents together. The thought of you carrying his child brought pride to him and thinking of your future together, made his heart skip in joy.
Then it came regret, the regret of not giving you a status before you carried his child, he wanted to marry you on your terms, not because you were pregnant with his child.
Then it was confusion. Was this the reason why you were hiding this from him? Did you not want the child? Were you upset or ashamed because you were not officially his wife yet?
There was also a mix of anxiety, would your parents berate him for deflowering you before marriage? But he was sure that he is sincere and serious about you. That wouldn't be a problem, right? He did have plans to marry you whenever you were ready.
He blinked, snapping out of his thoughts, focusing back onto you. But tears were spilling from the corner of your eyes, you sniffled silently, not wanting to make a fuss.
Seeing you cry like that made his heart ache. He pulled you into his arms, stroking the small of your back. "Honey, why are you crying? Are you not happy? Do you not want this child?"
He tried to look at your face, wiping the tears from your cheeks.
"I.." what did Nozel say again? You didn't quite understand, you didn't want this child? "No!?"
Your sudden exclamation caught him by surprise. The head of the Silva family was brought to his knees by you and only you. "Honey, could you calm down and tell me why are you crying?"
You took a deep breath and decided to let it all out, "because I know your family would never accept this baby! Your aunt said the other day that they wouldn't accept a child before marriage and that the Silvas would not accept a non virgin into their family..."
You started bawling again thinking about what his relatives said, "and you were silent when I told you about the news so I'm assuming that you're thinking the same aren't you? That you cannot accept a child like this and that you'll ask me to abort this baby or you'll probably have to break-"
Nozel grabbed your face with both his hands and kissed your lips. His kiss was firm, it was hungry, it was confident. His hand ran through your hair, holding you by the back of your head, pressing you against him.
You clung onto his tunic like you had to hold on for dear life; it's been days since you accepted any form of affection from your man, besides the light pecks and kisses he pressed to your face, you were touch starved and this made your aching heart calm down.
He pulled back minutes later, you gasping for air as he tucked the stray hair behind your ears. He wiped away whatever tears there were on your face with his gentle fingers. His hands still on your cheeks, he tilted your face so your eyes meet his, "feeling better now?"
You nodded, leading him to let out a sigh of relief. It must be all the pregnant hormones making you act this way, he thought to himself.
"First of all, I am elated that you are carrying our child, you know that?" his brows furrowed as though it pained his heart to have to tell you this out loud, he thought that you would have known better; that you were the one for him.
Your lips parted to say something, but the look on his face made you purse your lips and remain silent.
"Also, I do not care what the other busybody relatives have to say. The moment that I decided to..." he paused, thinking of the right words to say, "go into a more in-depth relationship with you, I have already decided that I would be responsible come whatever may. It was not like I was not clear-headed every single time, you know?"
You blushed at his words, it made your heart flutter at this charming man that you called yours.
"Those people do not call the shots, the last I checked, the head of the Silva household.. is me."
He let go of your face to hold onto your hands once again, "so as long as you are happy, as long as you want to, I'll be beyond happy and honoured to be your husband and the father of our children."
You felt a pinch in your nose again, your eyes were cloudy again, this time with tears of happiness.
"I am sorry that I didn't get to give you a status before you bear my child, but I would do so anytime that you want, as long as it comes from the bottom of your heart, not because of the baby."
"Of course I want to marry you, silly." you furrowed your brows as the tears fell down your cheeks, "I was just scared that you'll marry me just because of the baby."
He let out a laugh, something that most people do not get to see, "I guess I have been worried for nothing then. Let's go talk to your parents first thing tomorrow and of course I will accept any scoldings or punishments they have for me."
You laughed, "my parents would be happy, they don't care about stuff like these. Besides, they love you, remember? " you rolled your eyes, thinking about your parents that always sided with Nozel whenever you threw a tantrum at him.
"I'm eternally grateful to have found you and your family, y/n." he said it so sincerely, it made your heart melt, "thank you for giving me a family now."
He pulled you into an embrace again, his hand reaching out to your abdomen, "I hope he or she is as beautiful as you are."
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I love softie Nozel uwu. You guys could go through my little map to see more Nozel and wife fics, or Nozel with preggy wife fics and even dad! nozel fics!
I love this royal hehe <3
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20. what is something your muse wants to tell others, but is too afraid to?
hey, @absensia! thank you very much for the ask (: it means a lot to me that you'd drop one in my inbox, if i'm being honest!! but of course... i'm incredibly grateful for everyone's submissions in regards to the prompts i posted for barton! alright, so my answer to this one is probably going to be long like the last, so please bear with me while i pour out all of my thoughts as to what i believe barton has wanted to tell people for years. and that is that he might need help — which, considering how much blood he has gotten on his hands + the very poor state of his mind, isn't that unreasonable at all. though barton doesn't want to bring this up to anyone for a multitude of reasons; one of which is because he fears he'll be seen as weak and because he's pretty much convinced himself internally that he doesn't deserve it. though i feel as if most of the time, barton not only feels this irrational as well as powerful hatred towards everyone else, but towards himself, too. which are both dangerous mindsets to be in within their own right.
when you feel like you are completely unlovable but are also so chronically lonely at the same time that you will quite literally seek people out who you know hate your guts, because in a way, seeing them almost validates what you feel about yourself + you also feel so lonely sometimes that you feel like you're going insane ( or more than he already was before anyhow ) ; in barton's opinion, that is probably one of the very definitions of ' something's wrong. ' especially since this has led him down some pretty dark paths before: both with things like self-medicating using alcohol and getting into this relationship with someone that he knows is bad news, but who he believes he belongs with on some degree. this is because they're both terrible, and they feed into each other's desire to receive their own extremely unhealthy idea's of what love is. an idea that love is inherently violent when that is anything but what love actually is.
and barton knows that it's wrong deep in the back of his mind because he is at his absolute worst when he's with this person, but like i mentioned previously, he doesn't believe he deserves any better than them so he hasn't told anyone about what he's been feeling. however, when you disassociate like barton does sometimes in which you genuinely do not remember what the hell happened for a certain amount of time, since your brain is struggling so hard to cope with all of these bad feelings you're feeling and terrible things you're exposing it to that it feels the need to tuck it away somewhere... you should absolutely seek help as he has subtly alluded to how he often feels a few times around his kids, and they were probably the most concerned about him that they've ever been.
but the problem remains that the action of actually reaching out to people feels impossible for barton. both in the way that he wouldn't even know where to begin explaining his feelings into words, on account of them feeling so complex that he feels like he can't even name them a majority of the time, as well as that he was taught that seeking help was something to look down upon by wesley. this is also attributable to the desire that barton feels to appear like he's perfect all the time, as i had highlighted in one of my previous posts on here. and acknowledging that you are actively struggling goes against that, along with the fact that talking to someone is a sign of confidence in yourself. which barton is actually lacking in despite appearances.
though anyhow, i know that this was probably an awfully heavy thing to have to read through, and i'm sorry for that in advance. but barton, kind of like real people, are not the sum of their parts — so i felt like it was important to explain how he feels wholly and without things being sugarcoated / left out. i hope you liked this answer anyhow, though, and are having a great day so far! thanks again for the ask.
#absensia#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#ANGERS HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons.#asks.#i'm going to try my best to include all potential triggers that were in here but please let me know if i missed any!#tw: discussions of self-medicating with alcohol and self-harming by means of getting involved in a toxic relationship.#tw: mentions of disassociation.#tw: discussions of what it's like to be extremely self-loathing.#tw: negative outlook on seeking help for mental illness.#the concept of loneliness as a destructive force.#tw: a VERY unhealthy view of love and feeling like you deserved something bad happening to you.
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I broke my sobriety last week, and I didn’t lose control. I got lightly tipsy while on vacation and I enjoyed it for what it was, but I didn’t go until I was blacked out as I used to do.
I honored my two drink limit and stopped there. I promised so many people in my life that I would never drink again, and that’s where I made a mistake. But I also made a mistake reducing myself to a permanent fuck-up. I messed up by underestimating myself so much.
I’m so capable of doing whatever I want to do, yet I hit road blocks because I struggle to actually do it. I’m perpetually bored, unfulfilled, and struggling to see the road ahead and what sort of debris is on it.
For three years I abstained from drinking, told myself that if I had one drink I’d go right back down into hell. Rehab programmed into my brain that if I were to relapse, I’d easily end up back in those chairs of the meeting rooms.
But I didn’t. I drank last Tuesday and Wednesday and flew home on Thursday. Had a 20 hour layover in Denver where I could have continued the party and really fucked my life up in numerous ways. But I didn’t. It has been a week and I haven’t had a drink again since.
My therapist believes that some people can become alcoholics completely by circumstance. Enough factors existing at once can create the perfect storm. I do believe he’s right to a degree, but I’m also confused.
When I was at the height of my drinking I would walk into my apartment and take three shots just to warm up from getting off work. I’d go on to easily take 10+ shots during the night, even if I was alone. It became my routine and way of life. A habit I needed to go to rehab for because if I hadn’t I would be dead.
I always bargained with myself by saying I would maybe drink again one day. That helped me feel more in control. It helped me reassure myself that it was all temporary. My therapist said that many people get into the swing of dependency and after a prolonged period of abstinence, they’re able to one day drink again. That’s the mindset I tried to take, even if I didn’t fully believe it.
But why was I so easily able to do so and stick to moderation? Was I ever really an alcoholic, or was I in a routine? What was the meaning of it all?
I’ve been battling some pretty tough cravings today, and realized yesterday what it really is. Thank god for therapy, because I don’t know how I’d cope feeling all of this and not knowing why.
He says that based on what I’ve told him, I spent a high percentage of my life in survival mode. Pretty constant chaos. Because of that, my normal is existing in an environment where people fight constantly, where I’m scared about where my rent money will come from, where I’m constantly unsure of what the next day will bring.
Though he advises against being hyper-vigilant, he recommended that I use my hyper-vigilance to maintain a consistent inventory of what I’m feeling. Because my life is so stable currently and I’m making better money than I ever have, I’m not existing in the chaos to which I am accustomed.
Boredom is and always has been my biggest trigger. Feeling aimless and restless. When things aren’t imploding around me, I don’t know how to relax and enjoy it… so I self-sabotage.
I pick fights with those I love in an “I hate you, please don’t leave me” kind of way. I get cravings to go out and do impulsive things. I start spending in a way that is not sustainable. I shake up my world to create the chaos I don’t even need.
I’m making good money, I’m starting college next month, my bills are paid, I have everything I need. Why is it that the home in which I was raised affects me to the degree that it does? Why couldn’t my parents have been mild-mannered and boring? Why couldn’t I have experienced a normal existence?
And why did that lead me to getting into awful relationships which furthered the extent of the damage? You would think that trauma would lead one to never want to replicate it. But when I’m sitting in a clean house with the bills paid, silently hanging out with my dogs, I get so anxious that my leg involuntarily shakes. I stim and fidget and drive myself insane.
I should be grateful for this stability I have created for myself, for my own drive to get myself out of hell. Why am I instead just as bored as I could possibly be?
Once I drank again, it’s as if I ripped off a bandaid. No more intense cravings and no real interest in doing it again. Until today. Now I’m just thinking and thinking and thinking about how I could really use a fucking drink.
I don’t intend to be sober anymore, but I don’t intend to drink consistently either. Maybe a few times a year. But how do I make that work for my clearly unhinged brain?
I told my therapist that I’m suddenly realizing that I’m not this failure I have seen myself as for years. I can moderate and I can do the right things when I have a mind to.
But what if I don’t have a mind to? Will I ever? It’s hard to say.
I’m feeling extremely heavy with emotion today. The gabapentin is no longer covering everything I’d normally feel, so here I am feeling all of it in abundance. Very tough. I just want to go wild and do tons of things I shouldn’t. I want to cry and scream. I want to run away and join a weird commune.
What direction is my life going in? Where will all of this lead?
If I could just make the shit stop for a few hours I’d be the happiest girl in the world. The anxiety is almost unbearable.
But I won’t go back on more meds. I need to see this through and get through it. I’d rather feel life, the good and the bad, than cruise by with little to no emotion about anything.
Until I adjust, though, ouch.
Refraining from drinking again until I’m in a better frame of mind. Craving that release and giving in is what got me into all this in the first place.
Feelings. Lots of feelings.
I just want to be a normal woman, with the ability to give and receive love normally. With dreams and goals that I take steps to accomplish. With a happy relationship with my family. With a pretty okay mindset most of the time.
Instead, here I am blowing off work that I need to be doing. Agonizing over SOMETHING but being unsure of what that is. Thinking about people and situations that dwelling on doesn’t serve me. Feeling so uncomfortable that I want to crawl out of my own skin.
How am I so confident and aware of my own potential, but so fucking lost at the same time?
Who am I? I used to be pretty sure.
I guess I have to find her again.
Wish me luck as I ride this stupid rollercoaster.
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RWBY: Favorite Characters
When it comes to characters from Rwby, I have a small list I hold close to my hearts, in other words, people that I like seeing on screen sometimes more than others.
Now most people have watched the series for years, and have tight opinion on characters, but I love how unique the appearance characters is and how they tie to the plot.
So for this post, I thought I speak on my top five faves.
1. Mercury Black
Crazy to think that some Murderer’s son was going to be the first character that I liked.
Even funnier was, when I first watched the show, I thought that they wouldn’t put a character with some dead dad in the show, and five seconds later is Cinder and Emerald meeting this crazy boy who just straight killed his father.
What a legend in my opinion. But as soon as I saw that he was heading to Vacuo, I pretty much made the same expression as Emerald when he left, I pray that he shows in Volume 10, I don’t even care if he good or evil, I just want to see this cynical soul again.
“Ahem” Moving on.
2. Oscar Pine
This kid pretty much was the world’s punching bag, all because Ozpin lived inside his head rent free, and while I like Ozpin, Oscar stole my heart with his earnst nature and the fact that he went on to face so much to aid Ruby and her friends.
Even better was the fact that he was such a character, that Team JOYRide wasn’t just going to abandon him, even when Jaune, Yang, and Ren were all working through their own issues.
General Ironwood saw that Oscar was going to give him the information that he wanted and needed to be taken out for it, hell even Cinder said that Oscar was right at the end of Volume 8, so please come on the evidence of a great character is there.
Finally, I also love the ship Rosegarden, and the fact that the dynamic between Oscar and Ruby is really fun to watch. The fact that they grow together as friends and characters, the fact that they both lean on each other, the fucking fumble before Oscar goes to confront Ironwood! Let me tell you, I could write a small essay, if I had the time.
Well time to move on again, cause I definetly don’t hve time for that.
3. Cinder Fall
Now I know that everyone hates this character, that everyone depises her, but I love the idea of Fallen characters, the fact that Cinder is the true embioment of such a complex concept.
Even though her backstory arrived late, and the fact that she had failed so many times, its the fact that Cinder is meant to keep falling, she’s meant to keep being Cinderella, even though she no longer has evil stepsisters, she traded one stepmother for another.
Cinder has earned scars, burns, even a grimm limb for all the things that she had failed to achieve. People say that Cinder has no growth, but the fact that Cinder still has to kill, still has to betray, it shows that she has change, for the worse. The fact that she changed her mindset, only to be kicked down for all that can’t do.
Emerald is one of the few characters that cared about her, and because Cinder killed the only other person that ever felt that way about her, she changed herself to never put herself through something like that again, which is why she probably treats Emerald the way she does. Its all in the sense of mentality.
Time to get to the next character, no need to drag this now.
4. Winter Schnee
God in Heaven help me, why did RT have to make such an interesting woman.
I mean I have trouble picking a character that I like in a show, but Winter fit my description of a hardworking character. She truly reminds me of Jean (Genshin Impact), a woman who goes to lengths, working far harder than she needs to.
But Winter of course is different, like her younger sister, she specializes in Glyhs and the fact that they don’t use heavy weapons. Instead going for more smaller bladed swords, and making every attack count in the long run.
She also teaches the lesson of how hard it is choose duty over family. Even though she loves her family, she still chooses her job over and over again. The fact stands that when she fought against Ironwood, and the fact that Penny chose her to take the winter maiden powers, it was easy to see how much this was going to effect.
At the end of Volume 8, she had to face everyone, including what was left of her family, seeing that Oscar, Emerald, Nora, and Ren were what was left of everyone that she knew.
I bet you she even blames herself for letting Jaune fall.
At the end of the day, she was showed to be such a regal character, that still had the flaws to balance her just perfectly.
Now time for the final faverite of mine.
5. Roman Torchwick
Surprise, Surprise.
Bet you weren’t expecting that. I have to say I wasn’t either, the earlier volumes are my favorite for the fact that I love watching the first episode over and over again for my own amusement.
My personal watching rule is “If I can watch the first episode over and over again, than its a good series”, and since this rule works for both Rwby and Ouran Host Club, I think I’m in the clear here.
So, to the point Torchwick brought something amazing to the show, showing up in all of his mysterious glory, even if early him was rough around the edges.
I liked the fact that Neo and him worked together, bouncing their attack patterns and even their team skills together.
Also the fact that him being caring about her until the end was touching.
Him coming back in Volume 9 was what broke my heart though, like it was lovely to see him doing his thing again, but at the end of the day we all knew that it was an Illusion that he wasn’t coming back to us.
But I loved every second while he was on, and the way that he left was so touching. A departure for the ages.
Well thats the end of this long post, thank you all for reading.
An here’s a final hug to all that read this post.
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Holy shit. I forgot this was a role-reversal AU. In fact, Pomni having a lot of hp suddenly makes sense! Of course the starter AI is the one keeping them in line. It comes first in line. But do the others know? Does she know? What powers does she have that the others might not or did she lose it due to a hack? Was it a player? Or hell maybe an AI rebelling. Was it Kinger? Is the reason he laughs at her because of this? He knows? In fact, this is based on the show right? Where are all the ai...In the show, they get put in a box under the 'stage'...Is that why Pomni has guilt? I mean if I was incontrol of all my friends...Oh god, I bet the HP helps. Think about it. High hp makes it harder to stop her from chasing you. She's fast too. You have to be when you are the jester...Thankfully she's short. What does the collar do to her though? Does it keep her in the 'Admin' mindset or does it allow the dev team to mess with her? I wonder though was it a virus or something else that stopped it? Like what is she hiding, or again does she even know. Did someone take her place or is it just a waiting game until they notice the collars do nothing anymore. Or at least no one has been enforcing them but themselves. ARE THERE TWO POMNI?! So many questions. Man, I do wonder where the missing AI are though.
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FinalKing: Is it just me or does Pomni keep hiding !?!? (Sent 3.38 hours ago)
FinalKing: Stupid censors any idea whats up with her? She has way to much HP for a starter character, like why does she even have HP? (Sent 3.34 hours ago)
QE: Pomni does have that box of hers in the stage room. You know what one I am talking about right? (Sent 3 hours ago)
FinalKing: ThatThingIKeepTrippingOn.png (Sent 3 hours ago)
QE: Yeah, that one! The one with the star. Would anyone happen to know if it is moveable? (Sent 3 hours ago.)
Mr.Muchies: Dude you have gone insane if you think something is hidden there. You keep posting that bit of metal under it. I doubt it is anything more than leftovers from development. (Sent 2.87 hours ago)
QE: OK, But we KNOW there were more AI. I looked. They have to be somewhere! There are more rooms on the walls if you free cam. (Sent 50 mins ago)
Mr.Munchies: You just admitted to hacking the game idiot. I'm reporting You. Enjoy the game for what it is. (Sent 5 mins ago)
Admin: Hey everyone thanks for chatting about the game but we would like to remind you looking through the files is against TOS. Thank you. (Sent 1 mins ago)
Thread Closed Please open a new one to keep chatting
#This is a full role-reversal AU#Who took Cain's place?#carnival au#I couldn't stop myself from adding to it#If I overstepped anywhere please do tell me! I just had the idea and RAN LOL#Also everyone typing is slligghhttlyy different than the others.#Tbh I had more from Pomni's POV but I couldn't get it to format right soooo#Just my take on things.#The AU is owned by sm-baby#GO LOOK AT THEIR ART
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Robin was quiet as he made his way across rooftops, arriving to his location and entering through the window. The lights were off, the window was locked but it's basically child's play to unlock. Robin sat on the bed with a red quilt and looked down, he just ran after getting in a fight with Batman. He couldn't handle going back to the cave and doing anything that involved seeing the disappointing looks.
"WHAT THE HELL?!" The lights were turned on and Jason dropped bags of food on the floor. "Robin. Explain why and how you got into my house now"
"I unlocked the window and came in... I wanted to get away"
"Running away? At such a young age, remember to look both ways before crossing the streets and don't talk to strangers"
"That's not what I meant Todd"
Not even a remark to the dumb joke, Jason locked his door and put everything away before making his way to sit by Robin. "Definitely not in a mood to joke, wanna talk about it?"
"...Todd"
"Yeah?"
"...how do you make the family love you..?"
"Oh... um well, it takes time after everything I've done I had to earn back everyone's trust and apologize for my wrongdoings"
"Hm"
"Why did you say 'the family' you make it sound as if you are not a part of us"
Robin took off his mask and avoided Jason's gaze entirely.
"...do you feel as if you're not a part of the family Habibi?"
"...what does it matter? I know how they look at me, an unwanted child... a parasite to the family"
"Damian... that's not true"
"...isn't it?"
Jason couldn't find the right words, throught his time in that mindset he wasn't around anyone most of the times. Now a child, with no real happy childhood was asking the questions. A child who hides behind the facade the League of Assassins gave him, just to hide his pain of wanting to be loved and recognized. What do you say to a child like that?
It will be alright? No, that won't help. He'll keep it hidden and let it fester thinking that it should have gone away by now.
We're here for you? No... because as of now, he feels as if there is no one and he's gone to the dead end of questioning.
He may have asked everyone already in a hidden way. He's open to Jason because he knows that Jason knows about the truth of it, even more than Dick knows sometimes.
"I don't know what to say... it's difficult. You can explain if you'd like as to why you think we all don't love you"
"...where do I begin? Sometimes it feels as if merely existing is the issue"
"...you aren't planning anything irrational right?"
Jason could feel the panic and fear rising up his throat, he can't be feeling like that right? Surely not... right?
"No. Nothing life threatening, just emotionally"
"Good, good. Sorry I was getting worried there"
"Todd"
"Yes?"
"How... how do I make this stop?"
Jason spoke softly trying to discern the expression hidden "Make what stop Habibi?"
"This awful pain... my chest is tightening and my face is... leaking" Damian didn't face Jason, but he could see the tears falling onto his gloved hands. "It's part of humanity. You can't make it stop forever. You just find comfort and soothe it"
"Akhi..."
Damian finally looked up to Jason, tears running down his face and his eyes were red. "Please... Akhi..."
Jason grabbed Damian and held him.
Even if it might not feel like much.
Hopefully this act means something.
Something to help and make him remember the love the family holds for him.
"It's okay now Damian, I promise"
"I'm sorry... f-for breaking in"
Jason chuckled before ruffling Damian's hair softly "Aw no worries, I'm fine with you breaking in once in awhile"
#damian wayne#damian wayne has feelings and he wont admit it#jason todd#robin#tw minor suicide mention
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Hi. Sorry if this is off topic. I just want to share with someone here. Since you are my fav author here and you seem so sweet, i decide to tell you this. Hope you dont mind.
I am asian, next year i will turn 30. I have been into kpop since 2009. I have only liked 2 idol (which i really obsessed with), one has left his group and one is still active and quite famous in kpop. The things is today i scroll on twitter and found that my bias have kissing scene on his drama. I understand that he is just human like us too, and thats his job as an actor but i cant help but to feel so sad and anxious. I started to feel dizziness and nauseous all day. I feel like crying but no tears coming. And I am pretty sure this is not because of food poisoining or something else. But then i recalled when one of my bias left his group in 2014, i got the same situation with today. This make me thinking to stop into kpop. Kpop is like bittersweet for me. Sometimes it makes me happy and sometimes it makes me stress as hell.
Do you think this is normal? You are a physchology student right, if am right? Would you mind to share some advice? I feel embrassed to share with my fellow friends or my family because i am afraid they think me just overact and make fun of me.
If you find this ask annoying, kindly ignore me. But if you feel like replying, i appreciate it so much 🥹 And sorry for the bad grammar, english is not my first language. have a great day 💚
Hi babes! ❤️❤️
I’m so sorry this took so long to answer, I just came across it after coming back from my vacation and I wanted to gather my thoughts on it well. I hope you still see this!
Firstly, I want to say that you don’t have to feel embarrassed by admitting this, you’re definitely not the first person who feels this way and I understand you may not feel comfortable sharing with your family or friends since it’s a subject that can be seen as dramatic.
While I’m no expert on the Kpop industry, from what I’ve seen and researched over the years of being in fandoms and the overall experience, it’s very common to fall into this type of mindset. The industry relies heavily on parasocial relationships and they tend to market idols and groups in a way that leaves fans always wanting more, to the point of even forming emotional connections and attachments. Fan service is another key factor, the industry encourages idols to cater to fans and the type of content that comes out is very telling, ( vlives, fansigns, certain role plays they do when they act like they are a fan’s significant other , interviews catered to pleasing fans ) This this is by no means me blaming the idols or the fans, or saying the idols are not genuine , it’s just an observation & strategy that tends to happen in the industry. Unfortunately, while this is what makes Kpop so entertaining and immersive, it’s also what easily can cause some fans to fall into a mindset that’s not healthy for them. Especially if you’re someone who has gone through tough periods in your life ( we tend to gravitate to what makes us happy and gives us an escape ).
I think what you’re experiencing may be the effects of this parasocial relationship with your biases, you have most likely unconsciously formed this emotional attachment or connection with them and that’s why you’re not sure why you feel so much anxiety upon seeing them outside of this idealized version that they have previously presented themselves to you as ( or that you unconsciously made for them ) Again this is very common for a lot of fans from what I’ve seen so don’t feel embarrassed. What’s important is that you recognize this ( and you already do it seems, you know that what you saw your bias doing wasn’t meant to make you upset or stressed but it did ) . I think what you need to is take some time to reflect and maybe disconnect yourself from Kpop for a little while ( I’m not saying you should let it go completely or permanently ) I believe that just for now, if it’s causing you to feel those irrational feelings and anxiety, it’s best to remove yourself from it for a while and take a break. During this time, I think you should focus on taking some time to focus on doing other activities that make you happy ( any other hobby you may enjoy, try engulfing yourself in it as much as you can, keep yourself busy and if you can, try hanging out with your friends to distract yourself and leave Kpop as a background aspect for this time ) Once you find yourself more connected with yourself and your own life outside of Kpop, you may start to realize how dependent on it you have been for it to make you feel happy and you may reflect on that and how it may have unhealthily been impacting your mental health or life in general. Sometimes we need that push towards reality and it may sound harsh but we need to separate ourselves from the comfort zone we have fallen into or we may continue to down a detrimental path. Focus on yourself and remember that while Kpop is very fun and a form of escapism for a lot of us, these idols do not know us personally and they never will. We shouldn’t ever let them impact our emotions and mental health to that extent because they are essentially strangers and you should always prioritize yourself & the actual relationships with people in your life.
I also want to note that while I am a psychology student, I’m very much a rookie and new at this haha so please if you don’t feel like this helps, always try to seek out a professional ( promise they won’t judge , we are trained to deal with everything ) Of course this is only if you’re able to, I know therapy is expensive so don’t take this as me pressuring you. You can always look up videos on parasocial relationships on YouTube if you’re more curious about what I was referring to and how common it is in the Kpop world, it may help you get some more insight. I really love this Ted Talk and this video specifically targets Kpop so it’s also informative ! Thank you so much for even reaching out to me and I’m always here if you have more questions, I hope you feel better and have a lovely day :) ❤️🥰🥰🫶🫶 Sending lots of love ! Hope this helps you a little bit!
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Holy shit, since Abyss mc was the one to witness Khaenriahs destruction, she absolutely went ham on the archons once she realized who had caused the destruction, you can't convince me otherwise.
I am certain that Zhongli and Venti both have mini heart attacks and ptsd flashbacks when they see the twins and notice the resemblance because MC did NOT hold back (Also is there a particular name we could use to make referring to your Mcs easier? I figured Luna would work since it matches the meaning of Aether and Lumines names but it's up to you.) In beating the absolute shit out of them and the other original archons (except for maybe Makoto because even in her rage she could probably tell Makoto wasn't a fighter in anyway. Either way you get the point.)
Obviously, she figured out it was Celestia who gave the orders in the first place and the archons were possibly unwilling participants later on but the rage she felt in the moment doesn't disappear easily so she is still quite bitter when it comes to them.
Honestly this is just because I like the idea of someone like Zhongli actually fearing something in a non joking way with how he is in Canon. Bout time someone put him in his place. Venti is Venti, need I say more? Lol
🐱 and 🐈⬛-anon because I used the wrong emoji at some point and didn't realize it was the wrong one lol
I'm not convincing you otherwise! We need an MC who slaps!
Zhongli and Venti having that fear sounds nice, imo. If MC plans to raise hell, she will raise hell! BURN! BURN!
I feel like she wants to go absolute ham against them during the destruction but knows it not to be the right time to do as she pleases, not when Heavenly Principles is her main enemy. But yes, she's still bitter about the Archons aha-
Zhongli fearing someone does sound pretty cool, doesn't it?
He's feeling this way with Absconder!MC, actually! He doesn't fear her to the extent that he's all 'oh my go not her', but he fears her vengeful mindset.
After all, isn't it scary when a victim decides to stand up and fight, especially when said victim has nothing to lose? :)
Also with the MC names, I like to refer to them with the (title of work) prefix since names are- well, [Name] lol. It feels like I'm making them my OC if I use a name, when she's supposed to take form of the reader.
But if you'd like to refer to her as Luna, then by all means!
This is a little difficult for me in the Rancor and Ilmestys world, though (otherwise known as the Hadean universe), because the MCs there will meet.
Rancor!MC will encounter Ilmestys!MC because the plots are entwined. And not only them, future works (Paracosm/Kazuha'sMC😏) will also converge.
Obviously, they all can't be refered to as [Name] when they do meet hasdjsda but I'm working my way around it... Ithink-
(ps. omg what the shuck, anon dear, you'RE BOTH 🐱 and 🐈⬛?? AHDKJASDHJSADHASJKD HELP Okay- so which cat do you want to be- or should I just- shouldijustmergethem)
#moonlitchat#🐱 anon#🐈⬛ anon#HELP THE ANON TAGHADSHDKJASDAS#theres a first time for everything/j ANON HELP ME OUT AAEEE
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THE AUDIO LOGS OF ANDREW HUDSON.
SUMMARY: The following are real audio tapes of tapes left by an animator at the forgotten studio Joey Drew Studios. Please ensure that you are ready to listen with these with caution, dear listener. What you may hear may cause you to never want to hear again. What you may picture may make you never want to see again. Please be aware of the consequences you may have if you do not have permission to listen to these tapes. If not permitted, then [REDACTED]. You have been warned.
(This is fiction btw, so no worries-- I know some people with anxiety issues might think this is real so this is just a clarification.)
TW FOR CHAPTER/TAPE: PANIC ATTACKS, REPETITION.
TW FOR SERIES: MANIPULATION, TRANSFORMATION, UNHEALTHY MINDSET, OBSESSIONS, CULTS, CULT MENTIONS, MURDER.
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TAPE #8
THE VOICE OF ANDREW HUDSON & WALLY FRANKS.
SOMETIME AFTER THE LAST TAPE.
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[30 SECONDS OF SWEEPING SOUNDS GO BY.]
A: "Hey, Walls! How's it hangin'?"
W: "A— Ah! Oh— hey, pal.. I'm, uh, sweepin' right now, so if you could.."
A: "Jeez— you okay? Your eyes are watery as hell. Do you have allergies or some shit?"
W: "N— No, pal, I dont— I don't think I do.. hey, how come you've been talkin' to me so much lately? If your an animator, I'd expect for ya to barely be able to see me at all."
A: "Eh, that's what happens when you have too much coffee I guess! If I down it enough, I can finish it all in one sitting!"
W: "That— That shouldn't even be possible.."
A: "Oh well, it is for me— say, ya looked kinda sad when I got back from my pee break last night, did somethin' happen?"
W: "Uh— ye— yeah! I'm fine, nothin' happened. No need to worry—" [WALLY SEEMINGLY SOUNDS NERVOUS HERE.]
A: "Really? Ya looked like someone just told you the worst news ever."
W: "Y— Yes, I'm fine! I'm okay! Maybe— maybe you should get back to your work—" [WALLYS VOICE SOUNDS AS IF ITS BREAKING.]
A: "W— Walls? Are— are ya.. cryin'?.."
W: "No, no.. no.." [WHAT SOUNDS TO BE WALLYS VOICE THEN BEGINS TO BREAK INTO SOBBING.]
A: "W— Walls!"
W: "Its goin' all wrong.."
A: "No, no, come— c'mere.."
[SHUFFLING NOISES.]
W: "Its goin' all wrong, it's goin'—"
A: "Whats goin' all wrong? Hey—"
W: "No— no, no, no, no.."
A: "Hey, hey, it's alright.. I'm gonna help you get through this, alright? Come on.."
W: "No, no, no—"
A: "Okay, now listen to me alright— I want you to follow what I tell ya, okay? Okay. Now, now— breathe in for me, alright?"
[WALLY INHALES.]
A: "Breathe out."
[WALLY EXHALES.]
A: "Good, good— breathe in."
[WALLY INHALES AGAIN.]
A: "Breathe out."
[WALLY EXHALES AGAIN.]
A: "Alright, good, buddy! Your doin' great! Breathe in.."
[WALLY INHALES ONCE MORE.]
A: "Breathe out."
[WALLY EXHALES ONCE MORE.]
A: "Okay, okay.. can i hug you?"
[2 SECONDS OF SILENCE.]
A: "Okay, good.."
[SHUFFLING SOUNDS.]
A: "Its okay to not be okay, Wally.. I'm here, you can cry all ya want, bud.."
[WALLY WHIMPERS, AND THEN BEGINS TO SOB. HIS CRIES BECOME MUFFLED, THOUGH THE PERSONNEL AT THE FOUNDATION ARE UNSURE WHY. FOR A GOOD 10 MINUTES, WALLY JUST CRIES. THEN, AFTER A WHILE, HE STOPS.]
A: "...do ya wanna talk now?"
W: "...no, I dont... I don't think I wanna talk about it."
A: "Okay, okay, that's alright.. ya don't have to talk about it if ya don't want to."
W: "I— I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make ya put up with this.."
A: "Hey, man, I'm not puttin' up with ya— I'm just bein' your friend, that's all! Here, until ya feel alright again, we can stay like this."
W: "...I don't understand why your so nice to me, pal.. i cant tell if your pitying me or.. or not.."
A: "Hey, I'm not pitying ya, your just a really cool guy! If anything, I don't understand why I don't ever see people talkin' to ya."
W: "...your so warm. I dont think i wanna leave yet.."
A: "Heh.. and that's fine with me. I can still sit with ya for a few more minutes."
W: "...okay. And— and then i'll... I guess i'll be outta here for today.. I don't think I can do my rounds like usual.."
A: "Heh, okay. That's fine too. Maybe i'll get outta here too, since I'm already done after all.."
W: "...okay."
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NOTES: NONE.
#batim#batdr#wally franks#wally franks batim#wally franks batdr#andrew hudson#batim x oc#batdr x oc#read the tws
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