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yumiluna · 11 months
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drops this and runs
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soldier-poet-king · 4 months
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real talk how tf do ppl embroider things like cuffs on clothing, it's not a big enough area to hold in a hoop, are they really just That Good to do it freehand without the fabric bunching like
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altschmerzes · 9 months
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made an appointment to talk to my rabbi about the whole “my abusive dad who has been the boogeyman around the corner my whole life up and died suddenly and it kinda turned me inside out and jewish grieving rituals helped me a lot when my beloved granddad died but i don’t know what to do now that i cant seem to get past the death of someone im not grieving and don’t remotely want to honour” thing hopefully he’ll be able to like. help out there, some words of wisdom, some advice. trying not to feel weird about reaching out about it, i think this is what clergy is sorta for. probably.
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gibbearish · 2 years
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on the one hand i know that my cat cannot comptehend that i am staring at him while he poops because i am terrified that ive been accidentally fucking up something about his diet and not because im creeping on him but on the other hand i am fully aware that not only doesnt he not comprehend it, he does not comprehend anything about manners therefore even if he doesnt realize im trying to help him, he literally could not give less of a shit and i'm just a paranoid freak
#my mental health is hmm. in the toilet lately#oh yknow what actually. it might be because ive been having to cut back on my T lately bc of insurance bullshit#welp. good news is my appointment to finally fix that is tomorrow!#bad news i have to get up like an hour earlier than usual bc the earliest appointment they had was 8:30 AM and then get stabbed#and then continue getting stabbed weekly for the rest of my life#ough hadnt uh. fully comprehended that yet#everyone has always told me injections get easier with time but ive gotten. So Many of them and theyve only continued to get worse#like. what if it never gets better yknow#ive had a Lot of extremely painful dental work done‚ like. yknow. traumatizing levels of painful. so while recent injections ive gotten#have. presumably been less painful. it still fuckd me up for a While#idk I'll just. hold on until the six week check in and then if its still fucking me up ill bring up switching to once evey two week doses#and then just. enter triage mode with my mental health#oh yknow what actually you know one perk of shots done at home?#can be done while high#just fuckin tranq myself like a hotse KSNFLSNFLSNDLDN#disclaimer that i would not be doing the injections myself#my bf has said he'll do it if im having trouble#idk. anyways thanks for coming to todays high ocd hormone fluctuation ramble#feel like thats been happening a lot lately#i guess additional disclaimer that these arent just high thoughts‚ its stuff i do think sober but cant quite find the words to express#i have an ongoing paranoia about my loved ones dismissing my genuine thoughts thinking its just some high bs#has it happened yet? no#does my brain take that into consideration? also no#oh *horse
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biggie-chcese · 5 months
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rain code age headcanons because i have literally only ever been choosing ages based on what's funniest but now i wanna cast away my grand layers of irony and be genuine for a moment. also. this goes pretty in depth so be prepped for the long haul when you click read more lmao.
spoilers for the whole game below and it's because of one specific character iykyk
Yakou - this man has the soul of a guy in his late 40s going through what would be his midlife crisis if not for the fact that he's fully aware he passed the midpoint years ago. but that soul is trapped in the body of a guy who doesnt look a day older than 28. what moisturizer does he use? i doubt he even uses anything other than that 13 in 1 shampoo. anyway, i think he's 32.
Halara - 26. nothing really to justify this other than they've got that mid 20s swag but 25 didn't feel right. adult enough to be as competent as they are yet young enough to look like that. moving on.
Desuhiko - 19. i think he's the youngest of the NDA because. well. idk man have you read his dialogue? he's got a whole lot of growing to do and is still very lost on his direction in life. he's giving 'bitch fresh outta high school (or in this case, detective training) and relishing in his freshly obtained freedom."
Vivia - 28? yeah i got nothing for this i am going purely on vibes here. 28 just feels right.
Fubuki - 23. she's clearly still a bit young but is also clearly a grown ass adult who wasn't raised right so i think this makes for a happy medium, especially if she's already been on some worldwide adventures n shit before the game. works out quite swimmingly methinks.
Kurumi - 18. for my personal comfort bc we'll get to yuma later but im not gonna sit here and ignore the way the game constantly grovels at the audience's feet to ship them so id rather she not be any younger than this. anyway, more about her: she tends to hold her own as an informant with more competence, maturity, and effecience than most of the NDA. but she also has a pretty childish black and white view on things, like believing her beloved detectives are always right (girl if you were real you would be ENTRENCHED in stan culture oml do NOT get into minecraft youtubers) but i've... seen 18 year olds on the internet that are exactly the same so whatever
Aetheria girls - putting them all at 17-18 because, based on honorifics, they are treated as upperclassmen by their peers in the Japanese dub. i think waruna is the youngest and kurane is the eldest.
Yomi - 25. he has that vibe. old enough to be taken seriously as an adult but young enough to act like That™. yknow?
Martina - 32. she's giving older woman sexy librarian vibes and generally carries herself with a certain level of poise and maturity but is also a freak in a way that can best be explained by being a woman in her 30s. not elaborating on this
Swank - 41. to me he's like those awful surly businessmen who go to cabaret clubs to drink and smoke their office job woes away and cheat on their wives. but he also has extreme mafia boss swag about it so i kinda love him for that. dunno what this has to do with age tho. moving on.
Seth - 22 because he's giving youngest brother. i think he's the youngest of the peacekeepers in general. guillaume definitely bullies him about this.
Dominic - 34. bro is built like a jojo character what else do you want me to say. he's still got that youthfulness about him that makes me think he's still not going through his midlife crisis, so i wouldn't place him any older
Guillaume - 23. guillaume is so girlypop manic pixie dream girl core that she's definitely got the energy of someone who is young but also strikes the balance of being someone who has a job and a mortgage. dunno how she does it. id like to think she isnt even much older than seth but still bullies him for being the baby of the peacekeepers. do u understand my vision. please. they have so much annoying coworker potential.
shinigami - idk like 1000. she's a death god who cares.
yuma - okay. yeah. look i dont give a singular fuck about age discourse- headcanon whatever you want- but from looking at canon material i genuinely think that he could not possibly be any younger than 21. 20 if we wanna push it. yes, i know he looks young. i have eyes. but also, im in my 20s and the most common thing people tell me when i reveal my age is "oh, i thought you were 15." one time a person asked me if i was 12. at my job. that i was actively working at. i was 20. adults can look young, and contrary to the classic 1000 year old loli dragon trope he doesnt act overtly childish. he acts like a normal fuckin guy. yes he cries but like. you wouldn't in his position? bro speedruns lifelong trauma so skillfully that he's backwards long jumping into alternate universes where everything is somehow worse. i'd be freaked out if he didn't cry. also im aware that the child prodigy detective trope is a thing and that kodaka has written that before but... he was number one three years ago. and the training takes two years. which means, if he is a minor in the game's present day, he started working at the WDO at 12 and became number one at 14... at the oldest. have you ever met a 14 year old? forgive me for not suspending my disbelief here. and really the kicker for me is that yuma has a line where he says he's not sure if he's drinking age (which would be 20 in japan), but you know who would be sure? you know who knows yuma's age better than yuma?
makoto kagutsuchi - this megacorporation CEO has a fully stocked minibar installed in his penthouse. <- sentence i cannot bring myself to believe if it's about a child. since i also cant picture him becoming CEO at age 14 without yomi at least once angrily pointing that out (he only ever mentions that makoto is an outsider, or has his head in the clouds), id like to think both him and yuma, at their youngest, earned their top spots at their respective organizations at 18. it keeps their gifted kid syndrome and young prodigy-ness without making things comically ridiculous or uncomfortable for the sheer amount of sexual situations yuma gets put into.
anyway that's my silly little ramble on age headcanons. this was actually really fun to think about. shoutout to kodaka for leaving out the ages. funniest choice he could've made
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parasitoidism · 2 months
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Long meandering ramble about isabeau under cut sorry idk what happened
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Ok I wanted to expound actually I do think it’s really interesting how Isabeau isn’t like a “wishy washy” kind of neutral she is really serious and principled about it. Like when you fight her in law (and I assume things turn out the same in chaos, haven’t finished that playthru yet) if you extend your hand to her she takes offense to it + tells you to have conviction in the path you chose to the end despite her being so horrified and appalled by it that she would put down her life to fight you to prevent it from coming to pass.
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And in neutral as well after you defeat Merkabah she expresses respect for him in seeing his principles through. I think it’s interesting that she has such high respect for this concept of commitment to a belief, even a destructive one + even when that the belief itself is so fundamentally morally repellant to her. So anyways this is where I get kind of headcanony right. But I was thinking more about this again
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And yeah like she doubly has this thing of coming from a family that has always gone into the monastery as well as being a woman samurai (the level of rarity of this can be inferred by the fact that she’s like, the only female samurai npc iirc) that feeds into this right? Tho it’s conjecture on my part bc we don’t really hear her thoughts on any of this she’s already in this position of being like, an outlier, somewhere she “doesn’t belong” (as she apparently grew up expected to go into the monastery like the rest of her family- it’s a “loss” for the monastery) in terms of her place in the samurai. So I think that’s like .. where her position ultimately comes from. She grew up believing in the good of the kingdom like Jonathan but is in a position where she understands Walters feelings of being hemmed in by her society which I think just like is how I at least understand her character. But her neutrality isn’t just from a place of helpless desperation or an inability to choose its something she really believes in. So this is the part where I insist her love of shoujo manga is actually really important
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so yeah. I thought this was a little funny but the more I think of it it is super interesting how manga is cited as what makes her soul unshakably set against you and the destruction of Tokyo. And I think it’s just that it’s representative of or partly responsible for her genuine love for Tokyo, its art and by extension its people. Like to everyone the “unclean ones” are basically like some ancient historical threat once faced by their kingdom but through finding used copies of Rose of Versailles on the ground throughout the game and it, a product of the culture and people who live/once lived there, it just gives her a level of empathy/respect for them beyond what the others achieve.
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And she just cares about the people a lot yknow. When everyone splits off at shen duque her first worry is about skins and fujiwara. Walter and Jonathan’s motives both are concerned with the fate of Mikado, be it tearing it all down to start over or preserving it by destroying Tokyo (although that isn’t really /Jonathan/‘s motive but you know) but Isabeau is the one who actually wants to help the people of not just Mikado but Tokyo as well. So like “isabeau’s stance is that killing a bunch of people is bad” isn’t like groundbreaking literary analysis im aware. The game tells you that. But all the stuff I said is like In my cute little opinion Why she thinks like this. Anyways I wrote this for no particular reason other than I thought about isabeau and I like her. Sorry. Obligatory “but I’m probably wrong about everything” disclaimer
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maukiki1 · 19 days
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So, for MFB dub or sub? Which do you watch? Just a bit curious.
(Ik this is my art blog but fuck it, block of text jumpscare)
Well with mfb you dont really have a choice unless if you know japanese well enough do you? The sub doesn’t exist besides the first 30 episodes… yet😭 what i guess youre reffering to is the regular ass japanese version😭 i mean if there WAS a sub id naturally watch that of course because im all for sub i dont like dubs but like when you dont have a choice… its the dub😭 i of course watch the japanese version (without sub cauze it doesnt exist) sometimes on certain episodes where im like “i GOTTA see how this was in the original) . also the dub isnt bad by any means LMFAO people shit on it but like? Im sorry the joke delivery is a thousand times funnier LMFAO theres just so much like random ass funny shit they say that you know wasnt there in the original version?? Like i just know😭😭i dont know japanese well enough to understand it fully but like theres certain jokes in there that were just added with the dub and you know it.
Fusion ryūga is funny as FUCK. Like one of the major reasons why i dont hate his ass is because Hes literally so fucking funny wdym your father couldnt cut it. I feel like the va started taking him more seriously towards masters LMFAO and from what ive heard from japenese ryūga he has the same seriousness throughout. Tetsuya is also funny in both in both versions…jumbo crab…….crabba whaaaat⁉️⁉️ plus coach steel plus masamunee😭😭😭 Daxiang’s voice difference is also so funny theres something so funny abt his. English dub like. He sounds like hes trying too hard like 99% of the time but hes also silly. He sounds like an angry mother grounding his son when talking to Chao xin in that one episode😭😭 If that makes sense idk i fucking love daxiang… i compared the a scene once where hes like kinda shouting? Screaming? While fighting Julian and Japense va sounds so serious while the eng. the😭the english version😭😭hoAAAAAAAAA😭😭😭HE SOUNDS SO FUNNY HES SO STUPID💔💔💔
one voice i dont like from the japenese version is🤔julian…. Idk what it is but…i dont like it😭😔 a one i dont like from the ENGLISH dub is uh😭im sorry guys but king’s english voice irritates me I KNOW GINGA IS RIGHT THERE BUT THERES SOMETHING ABOUT IT….it just… idk its just irritating 😭😭😭Kyouya is also funny as SHIT in English fuckin. Alpha male wolf no one understands me i feel it deep within its just beneath the skin i must confess that i feel like a monster ass……but his japenese voice??? He sounds like a grown ass man….???? I know teenagers can sound like a grown ass man n have deep voices n shii but like that shit caught be off guard when i first heard it……… damians voice is sooooooo cute in the japenese version it makes me sadd😢 also aint his japanese va romi park🤔that woman who has voiced like every anime character ever LOL including lui from beyblade burst….his cute voice though like😭hes like supposed to be this fuckin. Evil Antagonist n shit and how am i supposed to be intimidated or take him seriously to any level when he sounds like… just a little guy….
I also prefer ziggurat’s english voice over the japenese tbh idk he sounds more evil i think it fits him more😔i dont hate ginga’s english voice (even though my friends say its so irritating they cant bear to listen to it for more than a second lmfao) i prefer the japense version over it yeah…..daidouji is also funny as shitballs omg..he needa stfu but also dont because youre ridiculous yknow. ?
(Talking abt damian again) I mean he is a little guy but his english va sounded so much more like the fucking asshole he was LMFAO…. Also ig his english voice would make more sense hes american idk🤔i dont hate his japanese voice by any means its so cute i love it sm but i just cant take it srsly😭😭😭ive heard fury in japanese the least but one time i specifically watched an episode where almost everyone was there so that i could see how their voices sounded like in the original and?? None of them stood out to me idk😭(well thats fury characters for ya LMFAOO)like they weren’t memorable to me im not saying theyre bad💥💥💥💥english though😭
Theres a way that. Dynamis sounds in the english version thats like. He. Sounds like kinda like a robot like a guy with no inside voice its kinda funny. The robot thing might be bcs hes constantly spewing out exposition and being a plot device but still its like the way he tones his voice sounds like its his first time talking ever ITS NOT BAD ITS FUNNY😭😭maybe it makes sense cauze that mofo lives in that isolated temple or whateva. Also credit to the english ver. Of the scene where Aguma and Kyouya were battling and the argument was literally fucking “youre not a lion youre a house cat in the backyard” (great thing to say when youre on johnnes’s side aguma😬) “GRR what did you just call me” THIS IS A MIDDLE ARGUMENT. THEYRE TALKING LIKE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS ROLEPLAYING IN THE SCHOOLS GARDEN. WHAT IS THIS😭😭its funny i hate them both i hope they die (affectionate)
So uhh which do i prefer? I like both but English dub is more entertaining imo and also i have to watch that one most of the time bcs i literally have no other choice if i wanna understand what theyre saying
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glamfellens · 5 months
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hello! thank you for introducing me to PoE, i really enjoyed the story and also played a pale elf, a cipher, in fact, so i'm interested how u find playing as one bc i thought it was extra juicy to play story wise! Also, have u shared more details about Tarren? I'd love read more about her! <3 I'd never played this type of game b4 and it resulted in funny moments like not realising that looking at the map/inventory doesn't automatically pause the game until "aloth" rudely urged we get a move on(and we were in Dyrford - not exactly early on!!). So, it turns out I recruited Aloth after staring into space for days :)) My background was philosopher so it checks out i guess XD
im so glad you enjoyed it!! GLAMFELLEN NATION RISE... pale elves are so cool .... im really enjoying cipher!!!! i picked ranger for my first run because i thought it would be easier to ease myself into a new game with new mechanics with a more straight forward class. but now i have my head wrapped around the game as a whole i think cipher will be tarren's official class! idk how this will work with multi-classing as priest in deadfire but we'll see im still figuring things out for tarren but ive settled on a backstory :) she is from old vailia with the gentry background (thank u console commands lol) she isn't of noble stock herself but her mother worked as a land agent/steward/game warden for a minor landed vailian family and so as thanks for her hard work and dedication decided to take on the cost of tarren's education and general welfare as a ward of the family. but because it's old vailia there was some level of political intrigue that involved everything going to shit to the level that tarren had to escape to the dyrwood. i dont think her parents were alive when this happened for simplicity's sake (it wasnt tragic it was just like. old age . i think they had her pretty late but im not 100% on elven longevity in the eora setting.) LMFAO. okay but if this makes you feel better the first time i played i think it took me about 60 hours to realise that you could manage keep restoration from anywhere in the world by just clicking on the keep icon in the ui. i kept travelling back to caed nua to arrange everything with the steward 🧍 aloth has that big ass grimoire to read anyway idk why hes complaining. your watcher has plenty of things to think about, yknow? just little things like the souls and ghosts you can now interact with, the fact that your awakening is a race against time to keep ur sanity... just normal things. regular. yep but yeah im really glad you enjoyed it!! thank you for the ask :) deadfire is also a great time if you havent gotten there yet 👀
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ipegchangbin · 3 months
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okay pookie give me a moment to BREATHE
POOKS‼️‼️ when u said that a new fic is coming soon, i didnt think that it would be THIS soon‼️‼️😨😟🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🫨🤧🤐😵
NO BC LIKE MY TUMBLR NOTIFICATIONS ARE FUUUUCKED UP 😡🤬🤬🤬 AND I HAVENT BEEN GETTING ANY OF UR NOTIFICATIONS‼️‼️😖😭😢😫AND WHEN I CHECKED MY LITTLE TUMBLR APP I SAW THAT U POSTED⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀😀
OKAY POOKIE‼️‼️🙌 IM SO SORRY BUT RN IM PUTTING HEAVY LIFTING ON HOLD 💔💔💔😖😖 BC UR GIRL HAS NOOOOTTTT READ UPLIFTING YET IM SO SORRY‼️‼️😓😫💔😔😖💔💔😭🙏🙏
I WILL GET TO IT SOON I PROMISEEEE‼️‼️‼️🙏🙏😫
BUTT‼️‼️🍑
WHEN I SAW THAT MF ASK 😀😀😀
ABT CHEERLEADER HANNIE‼️‼️😀
Z NGEL I THOUGHT THAT WAS SOMEONE POSING AS MEEEE 😭😭⁉️⁉️
BC I DONT REMMEBER SENDINJ THAT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ 😀😓⁉️😭🤯🤯🫨⁉️😟
BUUTTT‼️‼️🍑 IT HAAAD TO BE ME BC WHO TF ELSE WOULD KNOW I BROKE MY PHONE BC OF A MF BIRD⁉️⁉️😀😥😰😨🤯🤯🤯
ZZZZ I WAS SO FUUUCKING DRUNK😵‍💫😵‍💫😵🍻🍾🥂🥴🥴 LIKR I WAS SO CONFUSED WHEN I WOKE UP WIYH MY FUCKING 728 B.C. ASS OF A LAPTOPPPP⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😭💀😭😭😀 I DIDNIT FUCIKING KNOW I SENT A WHOOOLLR LOOONG ASS ASK ABOUT PUSSY⁉️⁉️🙀😀😥😨🙀🙀😺 Z THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING‼️‼️😖😭😥😀😀😀😀🥊🥊🥊🥊 BUT NOT ON A KINKY LEVEL🥹😭😭😀😖😰😰 I APPLAUD 👏 U FOR READING THROGHT THAT ENYIRE ASK BECAUSE I COULD NOOOOTTT‼️‼️🤕🤕🔨IM SO EMBARRASSING IM SO SORRY😖😖😖💔🙏 BUT THE FIVE 5️⃣✋IMAGES OF MY ASK IS SENDKNG MEEEEE IT TOOK FIVR PICTURSZ 😭😭❓❓❓
BUT Z YOU DIS ME SOO MUXH JUSTICE‼️‼️🙌🙌🤧 THANK U BC UR WRITINF IS SOOOOO DELICIOUS ITS A CRIME‼️😡😡🤬😾
POOKIE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHER ETO START‼️‼️😓😓😥 WHERE DO I START⁉️⁉️😰😰😰
OKAY‼️ BUT THE VISUAL👁️👁️ OF HANNIE IN A MINISKIRT AND A LIL CHEER UNIFORM HAS ME FUCKING WEEETTTT🤭🥵🤯😻😻💦💦I NEED TO EAT THAT ASSS OUUUTTTT‼️‼️🙌🙌🍑😝💦🥰🥰
THE THOUGJT 💭💭OF HANNIE AS A FLYER WITH HIS WET PANTIES 💦 AND HAVING THE BASES AND U SEEING HOW MF WET🌊🌊🏄‍♀️🚣‍♂️ HE IS HAS MY BRAIN GOING HAYWIREEEEEZYWHBSIHB 😻😻😣😻🙌💗😫👁️🫠⁉️🫨❣️🫨🫨💕🫨‼️‼️🫨🥴🥴❤️‍🔥🫶🤧
AND PRESSING HIS VIBROATOR AGAISJY HIS CLIT⁉️⁉️⁉️ ZZZZZ YKNOW I LOVE CLITS‼️‼️‼️😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥😻AND VIBRATORS IM SO OBESSED SJAKKWKEN‼️‼️😖😖😖💗💗
BUT PUSHING IT INSIDE OF HIM THATS CRAAAAZYYYYYY🤯🤯🤯 Z UR FUCKING INSANE‼️‼️‼️😫😫💗I LOVE YOU‼️‼️🫵😻❣️ LIKE PUSHING IT IN HIM AND HIS PUSSY JUST FULL ON GUSHING💦💦😽😼🙀🙀 IS CRAAAZZZZZYYYYY‼️‼️‼️😍😍😍🫶 IM SO IN LOVR Z😫😫😫‼️‼️🙌🙌❤️‍🔥
AND HIM CALLING U CAPTAIN⁉️ Z…….DO I HSVE A CAPTAIN KINK NOW⁉️⁉️😀😀😀
POOKS‼️ “he soaks your hand in his wetness even through his pretty panties, apologizing slightly even if it doesn’t seem to stop.” STOP 🛑✋IM RUNNING FUCKIGN LAPS RN 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️💨💨💨💨 SOAKING UR HANDS THROUGH THE MF PANTIES⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀 HOW FUCKING WET IS HE⁉️⁉️⁉️😫😣💦I NEEEED TO EAT HIM OOOUUUUTTTTTT 😫❤️‍🔥🙁😜‼️‼️😝🫶😋I NEED TO FINGER HIM I JUST NEEEEED HIS JUICY MF PUSSSY‼️‼️‼️😝😝😼 AND ITS SO CUTE HOW HES STILL APOLOGIZING RVENTHO HE CANT STOP HIS PRETTY CUNT FROM GUSHING SIZHKWSMISKWNDJE 🥹🥹💗💗💗🥴😋😖🥹😣❣️🥰😊
“it sends him to a blissful place, and you can tell by the way he squirts out a little trickle of clear cum from his pussy.”
squirts.
SQUIRTS.
SQUIRTSSS⁉️⁉️
WHAT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀🥊
I NEEED HIM TO SQUIRT💦💦 ON MY FACE‼️‼️ IN MY MOUTH😝‼️ANYWHERE OH MY FUUUUCKING GOD Z I NEEEED HIM😫🥰😫😖😣😫😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥‼️⁉️
“so he lifts his leg above his head, fully exposing his juicy pussy to you.”
BARKBARKABRAKBEARKBARK 🐕🐕🐕🔊🗣️‼️‼️🔊❤️‍🔥💯🐕🐕🔥🗣️🗣️‼️
I FUCKING NEED HIM‼️‼️🗣️🗣️💯🔥THE VISUAL IS SO FFUCKING CRAZY‼️‼️🤯🤯🥴🥴🤧 IDK WHOS WETTER💦💦 ME OR HIM⁉️⁉️⁉️BC GODDAMN I NEED TO BURY MY MOUTH IN HIS PUSSY😝😝😜😛😋😼💪😼‼️
“as if it’s hell sent from heaven, you eat him out while he’s stuck in this position.”
YESSMAAM LETS FUCKING GO‼️‼️🗣️🗣️💯🔥🔥IM HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS RN ON THIS‼️‼️😁😁 I LOVE PUSSY SO MUCH‼️‼️😻😻ISTG I THINK IM PUSSYDRUNK 😖😖❤️‍🔥MY DREAM FUCKING HOME 🏠IS IN BETWEEN HIS LEGS 🦵🏠🦵I COULD LIVE IN BETWEEN THEM FOR HOOOOUUURRRSSS 🕖🕠🕚🕒🕧🕓AND EATING HIM OUT IN THAT FUCKING POSITION CRAAZZY BUSINESS RIGHT THERE‼️‼️😩😩😩❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 IM SO FUCJING INNLOVE I LOVE U‼️‼️😻🫵🫵
“the vibrator never stops whirring. your tongue is flicking his clit in critically hurried circular motions. then your lips lock in to suck his clit and it sends jisung over the edge. his walls are being used to the point he’s almost exhausted from pain, fatigue, exhaustion, pleasure, ecstasy.”
bye.
DECEASED.
THAT WHOLE FUCKING CHUNK OF TEXT IS A CRITICAL ATTACK TO MY FUCKJNG WELL BEING‼️‼️🤯😰😨😰😰I FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT THROWN OUT THE WINDOW 👶🥊🪟AND CRASHED INTO A BRICK WALL 🧱🧱💥💥💥WITH A FUCKING SHATTERED SKULL🤯🤯🤯💀💀 BECAUSEE WHAAAATTTTT THE HEEEELLLLLLLL⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️EATINF HIM OUT WITH THE VIBRATOR STILL INSIDE IS CRAAZZYY BUSINESS‼️‼️‼️🙌🙌 AND THE WHOLE FUCKJNG FLICKING CLITS AND SUCKING CLITS ⁉️⁉️⁉️😩😩💕💕💕OMFG Z HOW DID U KNOW I LOVE CLITS THAT MUCH⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😰😰😰🤯🤯🤯🤯 I WANNA SPEND THE WHOOLE DAY MESSING AROUND WITH JUST HIS CLIT‼️‼️😫🤗🤗🤗😜😜 I LOVE CLITS‼️‼️‼️ I THINK THWYRE SO CUTE‼️‼️🥰🥰🥰 THE C IN CLITS STANDS FOR CUTE🫶 U CANT CHSNGE MY MIND😁😁‼️😋😋❤️‍🔥🔥😋😋
“please! i’ve been a good boy! please c-captain!”
IM SO FUCKING FERAL‼️‼️👹👹👹👹
WHAT THE FUCK⁉️⁉️IM LIKE A RACCOON 🦝🦝WITH RABIES👹👹 THIS IS LIKE A FUCKING TRIPLE 3️⃣ ATTACK 🥊🥊 TO ME “please” + “i’ve been a good boy” + “captain” WHAT TBE ACTUAL FUCKING HELL Z 🤯🤯🤯⁉️⁉️⁉️ARE YOU TRYING TO FUXKING KILL ME RN⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀🔫IM FUCKJG COLLAPSING AND SINKING LIKE THR DAMN TITANIC‼️🌊🌊🚢🚢🌊SOUWJOANEJEJZKWNRH IM GENUINELY TWEAKING RN I NEED HIM SO BAD😫😫😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥‼️
“he creams all over your fingers and squirts all over your hands and face.”
creams.
squirts.
CREAMS⁉️
SQUIRTS⁉️
CREAMS AND SQUIRTS⁉️⁉️
ALL OVER YOUR FINGERS⁉️⁉️⁉️
ALL OVER YOUR FACE⁉️⁉️⁉️
HUHHHHHHHH⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀😀😀😀😀😀
WHAT TJE HELL‼️ IM GOING FUCKING INSANEEEW‼️‼️🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯WHAT TBE FUCK Z⁉️⁉️ GIVE ME A MOMRNT TO BREATHE☝️🫁🫁🫁EVERY FUCJING PARAGRAPH JUST GETS BETTER AND BETTER‼️‼️😩😩💕💕 HOW THE FUCK IS THAT POSSIBLE⁉️⁉️⁉️😀
I NEED TO START LAPPING UP ALL OF IT LIKR A DAMN DOG 😝💦🐕‼️‼️BC “his juices are sweet and savory”
WHAT.
BYE 🚪🚶‍♀️IDK ABT U BUT IM GOING IN FOR A ROUND TWO 😁😁👍HIS PUSSY IS LIKE A WHOLE DAMN FIVE STAR ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️GOURMET MEAL 🍽️ AND IM GONNA FUCKING GET A SECOND2️⃣✌️ SERVING🍽️🍽️😋😋😋‼️🙌
Z IM SO FUCKING OBESSESSED WITH THSI FIC‼️‼️🤩🤩💞I LOVE YOU SO MUCH💖💖💓 ALL THE KISSES TO U POOKIE 😽😽💋💋💋❣️🫶HOW DO U WRITE SO WELL POOKIE⁉️⁉️✍️📝 WHAT IS UR SECRET⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️
WAAAAIIITT 🛑✋🚦WDYM U MIGJT MAKE SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR ME⁉️⁉️ FOR MEEE⁉️⁉️⁉️😀👈⏪ WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH AN HONOR⁉️🏅🎖️ ALL I DO IS DROP MY HORNY🦄🦄 THOUGHTS INTO UR INBOX✉️➡️📥📨 SO DONT DO ANYTHING I DONT DESERVE IT POOKIE😭😭😭😭🙏🙏
BUTTT🍑‼️ THIS FIC WAS SO DELICIOUS😋😋😋🍽️ IVE READ IT LIKE TEN 🔟✋🤚TIMES ALREADY😻😻TY FOR THE FOOD 🍔🍟🌭🍕🍰🥤🍽️ I WANNA SCISSOR ✂️👯‍♀️WITH HANNIE SOOO BAD AND HEAR HIM WHINE AND WHIMPER OHHHH MYYYY GOOOD Z‼️‼️😫😫😖IM GONNA START READING UPLIFTING AND HEAVY LIFTING SOON 🔜 SO BRACE YOURSELF FOR ANOTHER LONG ASK SOON‼️‼️😋 I LOVE YOU POOKIE😻😻🫶
POOKIE ANON I LOVE U 😭😭😭 sorry it took me a bir i forgot to reply SHHSHSHSSHDHHA
see thats why i hate tumblr notifs because i NEVERRRR get anything so i just turned it off (and i subsequently forgot to reply bc of that IM SO SORRY POOKS 💔💔) either way im so glad u check in on me and my content anyway ^_^ it means the Worldddd to me AND UR MESSAGES even if u send it on a fuckass laptop or not IDCCCC as long as ure here <33 yieee
and no rush + no worries not reading heavy lifting & uplifting yet!!! theyre both kinda long and just full of changbin filth HAHAHAHAH i understand but thank u once again for expressing interest in it 😁
ANYWAY BACK TO THE FEEDBACK THAT MATTERS!!!
u were the catalyst for cheerleader sungie…so i only have u to thank ☝️ ure a real one for suggesting him in his cute miniskirt and pigtails like the vision was visioning hard!!! AND YES FLYER HANNIE because everybody even his teammates have to see his pretty little pussy !!! ESPECIALLY CAPTAIN Y/N !!!
i played around with the captain petname becaude idk it was just fitting! and im so happy u enjoyed it cos i kinda ur enjoyment in mind 😁😁😁 same with the vibrator shenanigans LMAO i thought it would be nasty and messy to shove the vibe inside and IM GLAD IT PAID OFF ><
seems like not only sungie is affected by y/n’s antics but YOU TOO ?!?! hannie squirting and creaming and gushing and bring ass wet and disgusting was something i wanted to achieve so 😋 LAP HIM UP RIGHT NOWWWW u deserve all that pussy juice
“MY DREAM FUCKING HOME IS IN BETWEEN HIS LEGS” I CANT STOP LAUGHING POOKIE ME TOO. lets be roommates (by that i mean taking turns eating hannie out) (also very very Happy that you liked the Triple Attack because they were very specific punches to the dick gut that i wanted to let out!)
and yes pookie!! after i go on this 5 day vacay im definitely gonna post smth for u >:)) STAY TUNED BECAUSE ILY !!!
thank u as always pookie anon 🫂 my anon of all time
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thecoolerliauditore · 4 months
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hater hour 👍
i feel like... maybe this is just me but ive been noticing this weird kind of disturbing trend of people being way overprotective of the CCs whilst increasingly aggressive towards their fellow fandom artists/writers.
We all love gem on here. i think it'd be preaching to the choir to say she didn't deserve the hate she got for. Existing in the series or whatever people were mad about. but more and more people seem to think that any negativity is Bad and Affects The CCs and when they list examples it's all like. idk. ppl not liking the SL mechanic or the watcher lore or certain gimmicks (zombie apocalypse comes to mind) etc etc
while we are not owed any level of quality for entertainment getting put out by mcyters For Free, this is still a series that means a lot to me and most of the fandom take it seriously. so it can be disappointing when it feels like decisions are made for the sake of rushing things or forcing something specific to happen. Limlife is my least favourite season by a pretty long margin because i think it was pretty apparent the cast were very burnt out during it and I would like for them to make the series at their own pace instead of doing that. I still loved limlife and think it's super funny i just think it was weighed down by a lot of things.
when secret life came to close i loved the ending but the fandom space. scared me a little and it still does kind of reek ngl. i saw blocks of text telling people to shut the fuck up about their favourite pairings or characters because How Dare they not appreciate every other person just as much Alot. and now im seeing people say we should "know our place" as fans and never voice our "entitled" discontent because the poor CCs are just doing this for fun. as someone who tries to dig deep on every individual character and relationship it just all felt a little bit. Violent.
This + ive been seeing a lot more people recently who are like. very very mad about the way people draw the CCs?? i know i do my fair share of hating on hybrid designs and being the fun police but like. people are genuinely out here accusing others of being Evil for not drawing specific body types to match characters to CCs while in the same breath saying that character/CC divide is obvious. +people being mad about like. arghh ear wings are dumb!! everyone who draws [specific headcanon] should be melted into wax!! so on and so forth
can we please stop assuming that tumblr user 69 saying lmao watcher lore dumb is going to give martyn inthelittlewood depression irl and start thinking about the mental health of more inexperienced artists who straight up Don't Know how to draw certain features yet that they're the scum of the earth for it in a space that's supposed to be fun.
if you're asking for people critiquing the series itself (one of the most popular mcyt series as a whole right now) to do it more gently and politely the least we can do is ask the same etiquette for talking about fanwork pls. that's also yknow. made for fun and shared for free 👍
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blueskittlesart · 1 year
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How’re you feeling about the persona characters so far
there are so many characters. i will give my thoughts on the ones i can remember
joker/ren/akira/whatever: WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HIM. theres something under the surface i can FEEL IT something is up with him. i need to know what. he also carries my entire team in battle because i have one of those free personas from the velvet room that i think come with the dlc (??) thats like fuckin level 76 so he does like 500 damage per turn
morgana: thought he was female for the entirety of the first 2 palaces. anyway. personality wise he's nowhere near the most annoying character which is an achievement for a weird animal sidekick. would love to know what the hell is going on with him. becoming more and more convinced he is not in fact human and is actually just like a cat that accidentally gained sentience or something
ryuji: best character in the game thus far and i mean that completely unironically. i love him hes such a good kid... like hes so earnest and genuine and i really believe the whole righteous anger thing coming from him yknow? it's not quite as strong with some of the other characters but his motivation for joining the theives was really clear and well-done
ann: i want to like her so bad. genuinely i do. but she is annoying. it's not her fault tho she could be good i know she could be. she is just unfortunately in a japanese visual novel and therefore she needs to be annoying and have her tits out at all times. like if they would give her a fucking PERSONALITY she would be an infinitely better character but her only hobby is literally Being A Model
yusukue: benched the instant i was allowed to do so. in general i dislike both the edgy-guy archetype and the honor student archetype (on men lol this doesnt apply to you makoto my love <3) and he is just. the worst of the 2 combined plus he says weird shit about ann every 3 minutes. every time he opens his mouth i want to kill him
makoto: QUEEN. her heals save my ass in battle constantly. again she has one of the better-written origin stories of the thieves which puts her pretty high on my list but i also find her connection to sae so interesting!! ive yet to see where it goes but i REALLY hope they follow through with that
akechi: 90% sure he can enter the metaverse, my evidence for this being one singular scene in which it was vaguely implied that he could understand morgana. aside from that im obsessed with him for the same reasons im obsessed with every other detective character ive ever come across in my life. detectives just scratch a special little itch in my brain man idk. hes everything to me and i sincerely hope the game ends with either him dramatically, emotionally killing joker or vice versa a la death note
kasumi: somehow is both the painfully generic love interest character and has more personality than ann. i hope her gymnastics tryouts go ok and my condolences for the crush on a gay man
takemi: i do not understand why someone liked her enough to put her on their car. very nice of her to illegally sell me meth or whatever tho
i know im missing a bunch of characters but these are the only ones i have strong enough thoughts abt to remember rn LMAO
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<- is making insane decisions about aro/aspec “picnic” at pride next year.
The plan was originally to have it be completely unofficial and just me in the dc pride festival on an aro flag picnic blanket with some crafts but idk my mental health is crashing and making these things/organizing this may help. idk i want my future to be in community organizing so. it makes me feel good. anyways onto what i was talking about:
So. im deciding if i want to be someone with a table or not, if i want it to be aro or aspec, or if i want to have pride stuff available for donation only or not (aka no money accepted). (idk what to donate towards. maybe just explaining that i made all of this with my own free time/ money and any extra money will get donating to ace and aro advocacy project- which i think is located in the same city as the pride event- or AUREA? or just outright donating but… this all sounds really expensive which im anxious about but. i am okay with outright donating if thats a better idea idk)
ANYWAYS
I’m not sure if a table costs money or anything, but I dont think aro culture and aro pride should be locked behind a paywall. If I have aro pride stuff available, it would likely be:
bulk purchased silicone rings. the packs of rings dont just come in white, and almost always contain black, but id just have all the colors in a bowl with a sign about the meanings of black and white rings
diy low quality stickers. and im talking printouts and packing tape level quality. id probably also reach out to some aro/aspec artists if theyd be okay with me printing some of their designs for free pride stickers with their @ on the back. again, no profiting off their art, just having subtle aro/aspec options for closeted folks. also obviously the pride flags themselves/ like the heart emojis and stuff. if i get permission for the <2 i also think thatd be funny to have. id try to print off as many of the specific arsospec identities as i could, too.
some mini pride flags. like on the little stick and stuff? i already reached out to somebody about aplatonic and the new aspec flags. these will be on display at minimum, but im tempted to see how much bulk purchasing to give away for free would cost
….real pride flags, including aplatonic and the new aspec flag. im most hesitant about this because $$$ but…. i know how much it would mean to people, yknow?
i also want like. *stuff to do* to engage in community building and growth, so id likely have kandi bracelet stuff too, and be making aro/aplatonic/aspec bracelets to entertain myself while i sit there for folks without the time to make their own. (also! apparently grey bracelets are an old greyspec symbol. thats so cool!)
ive had it in my mind since early 2020 i want aro ribbon available for turning into shoelaces and im not gonna let up on this decision.
i just…. i really want to be able to connect with members of my community and raise awareness and recognition or aros/apls/aspecs in queer spaces, and i thought this may help.
these things are a little more hesitant but im thinking shrinky-dink keychains of these things/culture and symbols…? same thing @ artists, but uhhh if no one approves ill draw my Very Best. most of these will ALSO be stickers (if i do it)
(these are all old or current aspec culture. aro specific ones im more likely to do. also apl im more likely to do and may get ** but idk yet)
arospec
dragons
yellow roses
<2 (i got permission!!!!)
a little crown?? people are referencing jughead and you know what Sure.
frog,,
green! we sure do love green huh. just like scribbles gkfhjf
…garlic bread? i think i saw that get phased out for dragons but you know what sure
plants..? i hadn’t realized that counted ngl
gryphons! i knew about them
(cacti/succulents but i already said plants)
“no romo”
does space count as aspec culture? idk guys
peridot and labradite? hm. cool!
somebody said aardvarks but ive never seen that before. apparently theyre a really old symbol. thats so cool!
💚 and 💔
pizza and ice cream but garlic bread got more popular (tho these are easier to draw)
manticores
i saw rats..? ehhh im hesitant on that one
Nandays and Caiques :) okay this one is cute
acespec
pegasus
cake
dragons are also very definitely acespec too
pirates
axolotls (though i think we can share)
wolves??? huh.
apparently ghosts are greyspec and!!!! holy shit that me! thats my name! fucking Wild Thats So Cool
someone reffed dinosaurs? cool cool
aaaahhhhg so space is Definitely acespec i forgot the whole spAce thing lol
purple
badgers and unicorns? hm
♠️♣️♥️♦️ cards/symbols. i also recognize peole can turn these into earrings which. real. queer culture irl.
aplatonic
<2 (this is more loveless/heartless but i see it used a lot in aplatonic circles as well)
apples
bees, worms, and birds have been proposed but havent seen much use yet. there has been some use though!
tbh since i cant find much ill likely have a sign that says something like “aplatonic culture is only recently getting enough visibility to be seen as separate from aro culture, so as the growing community develops new symbols we should keep an eye out! im excited to watch this community and identity finally get recognition like it deserves
do i propose platonic solids? idk you guys
*aspen/fang reminded me that non-platonic solids exist as well and are getting used as a symbol. Nice!
general aspec
cryptids
im not making an aroace category but someone said handshake tattoos… imma pass on this one because its not apl friendly
i associate cross stitch and diy patches as aro core/ aspec but thats just me
lambda is queer culture and we belong to that too
i saw a lot of black triangle (as well as gradient) refs but idk if that is Ace Specific or not, but it Is a symbol i think is important to not overlook
ive seen bees used every so often in aro communities as well as aplatonic,
you know what the d&d “roll for x” is funny ill take that
flags
anyways sorry i kinda went off with the research But. ive wanted to do this for Years (since 2019/early 2020 when this blog started Yknow. happenin) and i. i want to make it actually happen in 2023. its going to. i am gonna will it into existence. i just want to build a community i can interact with, yknow? thats all.
Anyways let me know what you think! i recognize this is a Lot and honestly ridiculous but who knows, yknow?
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moonflwer-gutz · 11 months
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So since six's plan was sort of a failure how's he feeling can alternates even feel?
So, Alternates can feel. To a certain extent. Not in the same way as humans, and they definitely don't have empathy or sympathy. However, they are conditioned to feel things like devotion, a sense of purpose, things like that. Their most powerful emotions are anger, vengeance, and other negatives like that.
The emotional range of an Alternate can depend on their power level, though. So typical drones and mimics who are like a one-time-deal feel basically nothing. They have a purpose, they carry it out, and that's it. Then there are some other Alternates, ones that stick around for longer, that feel a rush or gratification in the fear and carnage they cause, or anger and frustration at the fact that their victim hasn't succumbed to MAD yet, which makes them more aggressive and vengeful. This can be seen in the Alternate that tormented Thatcher regularly and also Cesar's Alternate. Then there's the elders. Gabriel and Six. They're special cases. The two of them have been around the longest and therefore have the most developed emotions. Do either of them care for humanity or the lives of others? No. They have their goal, take the Earth back from humanity. Scald the Earth. Destroy it. Exterminate the human parasites. all that junk yknow yknow. But Gabriel and Six are dedicated to that purpose and are willing to wait the long game to get there.
However, when it comes to Six specifically, the best way I can describe him is that he's the employee that's been at the company for basically just as long as the boss and yet still doesn't get enough recognition. Six is the reason that Alternates are able to use technology to infest faster and easier. He was the one to discover that. Of course, he's the master at it, but other Alternates are able to use televisions as a means of transportation and MAD-inducers.
He's less than thrilled that his sleeper experiment hasn't been going according to plan. Most of the kids don't seem to make it, Gabriel kills most of them due to how far into the darkness they fell. Six telling Adam to "Wake up, I don't want to wake the others" was less of a threat and more of a plea. Adam being the only sleeper to wake up immediately made Six feel an odd attachment to him. He could tell, from early on, that Adam would've been different than the others. It might've been because Gabriel had actually stepped in for Adam's creation this time around. It was basically like "yeah no if this one doesn't fucking work im throwing all ur kids in the fire and you're gonna get ur shit kicked in for wasting my time."
So, while Six is angry that his plan hasn't worked the way he hoped, he's intrigued--maybe even proud--of how Adam has turned out. He's definitely easier on him than Gabriel is. less of a "get your ass out there and kill" and more of a "you need to learn your nature. learn your purpose."
idk it's difficult to explain. Six does still want Adam to go feral and full Alternate, but he's a bit more understanding of Adam needing time than Gabriel is.
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natsmagi · 8 months
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ABT THE SWITCH CLIMAX STORY THING. I AGREE WITH U SO MUCH i need more tsumugi and sora interaction please !??! Like it feels like they barely have anything going on sometimes, like they do have interactions but idk its like !? The fact that theyre a trio and yet their relationship feels underdeveloped makes me sad bc. I love both sora and mugi sm!??! Idk if im making sense like i know they do interact and what is there I enjoy (like idk i think its funny how they kinda take turns taking care of each other, tsumugi being his usual mommy self and sora being very like ... "ok senpai lets get u to bed" sometimes LITERALLY) BUT LIKE. idk its not enough especially compared to their respective dynamics with natsume like... yeah. Im not saying their relationship is bad just that it lacks depth and I just wish we could see more of it, more of them bonding without needing natsume so they can truly feel like a trio where everyone gets along and not like a triangle yknow. SORRY FOR RANTING ITS JUST I LOVE READING UR TAKES AND SEEING WHAT U SAID ABOUT SORA AND MUGI MADE ME REACT anyway ur art is awesome ily !!!!
YEAAAAA i love sora and tsumugis dynamic SOOOOO MUCHHHHHH i love how silly they can get yet also be so tender..... such as tsumugi trying to meet sora at his level when there is a conflict, such as him attempting to join him in playing with the plushies mugi had made to more easily converse with him (although it didnt work out too well bc tsumugi kinda sucked at it AKJHSDFJKH) LIKE!! THEY HAVE SUCH A GOOD AND FUN DYNAMIC!!! i just wish it was utilized more and had a bit more depth to it!!
like with natsume and tsumugi theres. well. Theres alot. you got them meeting in childhood, the war, theyve truly been through thick and thin together and that weight carries into how they interact
with natsume and sora they too met in childhood, aswell as natsume being very protective over sora due to his own internal struggles and sora deeply looking up to natsume (and tsumugi ofc! but natsume is his shisho!) which also carries into how they interact
tsumugi and sora dont really have this ?? at least not to the same extent. so i guess in contrast their dynamic ends up feeling shallow. that aswell as shipbait sells and people dont exactly ship those two very often so it tends to take a backseat in favor of natsume pairs JDKHSJKFH I JUST. GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO BOND OVER!!! PROPERLY!!!!!!! since they DONT have the same foundation with each other as they do natsume that makes this a prime opportunity to BUILD ONE!! theres SO much potential for those two but it just never gets utilized properly....... so many missed opportunities............... happyele dont fuck this up for me
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nikomedes · 2 months
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i mean. on one level i kind of knew that the data would already be scraped. i kind of assumed that before anyone started talking about the ethics of sourcing data sets, the bulk of the internet was indiscriminately consumed. that its a “closing the barn door after the horses are already out” scenario. but i want to believe i can do something, yknow? that i have some amount of agency in how my work is used. idk im gonna keep working on my neocities and relocating stuff, its not a totally worthless endeavor. im just yet more demoralized. i hate feeling like a rube for hoping for once consent might be asked before everything of value is stripped, not after. yknow
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babydarkstar · 3 months
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You write? :3
yes i do 😳 above everything else i consider myself a writer. it’s a fundamental part of me—words are what i’m good at, and like an illustrator can create wonderful worlds with lines and color, i strive to do the same with words.
i can remember before i even learned to read i was 4 years old and had stories i wanted to tell. i was 12-14 and i blackened journals with poetry and prose, things i would look back on now and think ‘omg cringe’ but in the moment that was my flow and i’ll never judge myself for that. any sort of creative writing project in school was a guaranteed 100 for me, because i took on the assignment like it was my mission from god. when i was 14/15 my best friend was always the one i would send any original writing/stories to bc she would always hype me up and help me talk through my ideas. i owe a lot of my perseverance to her, because she gave me the encouragement i needed to keep pushing myself to get better and better. i have original characters and stories that i started/worked on when i was 14-18, as well as a lot of stream of consciousness poetry and a few other abstract ocs that i wrote when i was 18-20 and going thru crazy shit w friends and almost-never-quite-lovers. i started this blog when i was 16 and mainly used it as a fandom blog to write star wars fanfiction, and i wouldnt say i established any sort of foothold as a fan content creator, but i published a lot of stuff here and on ao3, ao3 who is my wife and my beloved angel forever and ever til (hopefully only my) death do us part. long live, amen. my inspiration to write ebbs and flows so i don’t push it when it isn’t working for me. for like a year i created content for pedro pascal’s cinematic universe of characters™ when i got super into the mandalorian, but then my interest for it faded. i also started doing drugs again which always hinders my writing and that’s actually a huge reason why i’m sober now, and a huge motivation to stay sober. then i somehow went through an mlp phase like an insane person, and im still working on a collaborative project for rarijack (bless) w an artist who i met via that fandom. the lesbian/sapphic/wlw content creators in mlp fandom on tumblr are actually epic tho they are few and far between. quite a few hidden gems, but v hidden bc there are so many creators and not everyone gets the attention they deserve. mlp didn’t spark my desire to create fan content/fic quite like the locked tomb tho, which is my current obsession and also permanently altered my brain chemistry like nothing i’ve ever read before and oh my god in like 3ish months ive literally written probably upwards of 80k words of a modern/college au that i’m still working the kinks out of. and it is. mostly smut because i saw these lesbians and i was like yall deserve to kiss and have narsty (meaningful) dyke sex and also hold each other for 17hours straight and not have to deal with so much shit. but then again i also am putting them through their own trials and tribulations in the au. so. yknow. some characters beg to be traumatized. it’s a character study, among other things. lmao. but yeah i havent posted anything for tlt yet bc one im just a little bit scared of the fandom on here and also ive set myself with this goal that i want to FINISH a story and publish it bc i always end up posting my stuff without finishing and when i read fic i like it to have a promise of an ending, so i also want to emulate that as a writer, even just on a personal level of wanting to say i’m capable of starting and finishing something meaningful like that. i also havent ever posted original work/poetry (maybe some poetry i cant remember) bc it’s. idk more near and dear to me than fanfiction, and i consider everything i write very near and dear, so i guard the og stuff w my life lmao.
damn. sorry for the life story but. it really is just a fundamental part of who i am. i’m in the process of becoming a kindergarten teacher and one thing i’ve always wanted to do was to learn how to create stories that are relevant for my students. i’ve also always wanted to create a children’s book; one of my lovely coworkers has a degree in studio art and she’s dreamt of being an illustrator for a children’s book, so i’ve been seriously considering doing that with her at some point in the future, once my life is more settled and i’m able to focus on it and give it the attention it needs <3 thanks for your curiosity hehehe
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