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tiredofthehumanlife · 25 days

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A happy home (realizations pt 2)

Title looks like a Midwest emo song name dude 🙏give me strength

Barbie dolls: Jegulus x reader (James, Regulus, Your punk ass).

Words: 2.4k ish

Summary: Reggie is all like muh I don’t deserve love I’m just a poor peasant boy then he’s all like muh i should ignore all my friends bc I’m just a poor boy from the bourgeoisie and then you and James are like no 🥺 pookie and then hilarity ensues

Warnings: it's kinda angsty but it ends happy trust, mentions of panic attacks, mentions of Remus' dick, Harry Potter possibly mentioned, James has a mustache for about three sentences, regulus is all emo, its alright guys first one waa better ngl

Pt 1

After you and James used the classic kiss & run technique on Regulus, his mind was swamped with questions. Baby Black was having yet another crisis. Barty and Pandora had started a tally board marking up all his catastrophes. He was somewhere around the double digits at this point. Regulus wanted love, as any poor emo poetry loving teenager, but he felt he didn’t deserve love. He wanted. He wanted so much. Regulus wanted a house with a screeching screen door. He wanted a wrap around porch. He wanted beautiful tiles in his bathroom. He wanted nick nacks. A cluttered home is a house full of love and life. He wanted color in his home. Regulus’ parents’ house (attention to house not home) was cold. Regulus wanted a home. He thought of it frequently, planning the decor and colors. He would go to his little home in his head for comfort. After panic attacks he found himself pressed into a rocking chair, sitting on his wrap around porch and staring out at the beautiful garden in the backyard. His book open in his lap, his favorite pen between his fingers, tracing over his initials. Next to his chair was a small table with a mug full of his favorite tea.

With the more time he spent with you and James, he felt his fantasy home adapt. Suddenly when he visited he found your sweater flung over the back of his couch, James’ pictures on the wall. Which he could accept. Friends left their things at each others’ homes all the time. Friends made it onto each other’s walls frequently. He could handle your friendship infiltrating his home. Regulus appreciated you both no matter how much he threatened to kill you. It was his love language.

Regulus seemed to pull away. Suddenly you never saw him in the library, he didn't appear next to you, he didn't even hang out with Sirius and the others. He was actively avoiding you both. You tried to pretend you were wrong and just making things up. You knew it was true after you saw him in the Gryffindor commonroom again.

But after you both kissed him, granted on the cheek, he malfunctioned. Regulus’ home changed rapidly. He was rocking in chair again, following the vines of the tomato plants with his eyes. His train of thought interrupted by the squeals of a small child. Regulus wondered what on earth was a child doing in his fantasy home. A small boy, no older than three or four, ran around the corner of Regulus’ porch. His little bare feet stomping on the wood. Regulus felt himself smile like nature. The boy was decked in jean overalls, a red shirt underneath. A small truck printed on the shirt was peaking out from under the edge of the overalls. He looked like James, Regulus realized. The boy heard louder footsteps following after him and squealed louder. The boy jumped into Regulus’ arms muttering something about ‘papa’. Regulus looked up from the boy to see James. Though now he had grown out his mustache, and wore matching overalls with the boy. James scooped the boy out of Regulus’ arms. James pecked Regulus’ cheek before dropping the three year old back to his feet. He ran off, zooming around the garden patches. James quickly went after him. James raced after the boy. They both laughed. The boy squealed when James caught him and tickled him. Regulus tore his eyes away when he felt someone touch his shoulder. He found you sitting next to him, in a matching rocking chair. You moved your hand up to his hair. You looked older, like James, not by much but enough for Regulus to know you all had left Hogwarts. You kissed Regulus on the lips gently. He felt warm. You leaned closer and leaned into his ear. You whispered to him that you loved him. Regulus felt his eyes prick with tears and his throat dry. You stood up and took his mug off the table. You walked away muttering about him drinking so much tea people will think you’re dehydrating him like a raisin.

It was change. Regulus didn’t like change and he didn’t like identifying his feelings. He couldn’t like you and he couldn’t like James. You were in a relationship. He can’t. He couldn’t. But he wanted. Regulus knew he wasn’t ever good at controlling his wants. So he avoided you and James. Regulus knew if he made eye contact he’d fall all over again. If he fell his heart home would be crushed. Regulus had to protect his home.

Regulus was sitting with Sirius. They were both talking and laughing comfortably. It was one of the few times you've seen Regulus without his journal in front of him. He caught sight of you standing at the steps of the Gryffindor commonroom. Regulus' smile fell and he quickly stood up. Regulus muttered something to Sirius before swinging his bag over his shoulder. As he breezed past you, you whispered a goodbye. He didn't return it, he didn't make eye contact, he ignored you entirely. Sirius had asked you what that was about but you just left the commonroom as silently as Regulus.

You brought it up with James. He was just as upset as you. The one thing you both feared was making Regulus uncomfortable and that's exactly what you had done. You and James had to have burned your trails into the floors with all your pacing but you decided on what to do. You'd confront him. Even though it seemed all Black relatives hated confrontation it was all you could do. You confront and apologize and beg him to come back to the group. You both missed his insults so much you felt sick. You looked for him everywhere. Days went by before you were finally able to find him. He was hunched over in the library. Regulus was sitting as far away from his regular table as possible. He was scribbling away in his journal, as usual. He glanced up when he noticed people approaching. Regulus quickly shut the journal and went to grab his bag.

"Please." James whispered. James sat in front of Regulus. You sat next to James. Regulus stared at the ceiling before gently letting his bag drop to the floor again. He sat back in his chair and rested his hands on top of his journal. You steeled yourself, clutching James’ hand under the table for support.

“We’re sorry. For everything. We didn’t want to make you uncomfortable. We were just being-“ You paused. You wanted to make everything make sense to Regulus. You needed to explain yourself, you couldn’t live with yourself if you left this thread hanging. “Brainless. We were just trying to harmlessly flirt and we would’ve stopped the second we felt you uncomfortable. We misread you, obviously. We miss you. You’re avoiding us and the rest of our friends. We need you to come back. We’ll leave you alone, we won’t even look at you if that works for you, so long as you come back. So.” You stopped and cleanched your jaw. You felt like you might cry if you kept talking. Though you already seemed to do a lot of that. James dropped your hand to rub your shoulder.

“So, we’re so sorry.” James finished for you. Regulus stayed silent. He looked between you and James. You saw it in his eyes, hatred, disgust, repugnance. You felt sick to your stomach, knowing you’d only see his distaste in his eyes. Never seeing all of Regulus in his eyes again, made your throat close and tears collect in your eyes. You pressed your hand against your mouth, looking away from him. You would not cry in front of him. You would not make Regulus feel like this was his fault. James squeezed your shoulder, moving his soothing hand to your back.

“I’m not good.” Regulus whispered. You quickly looked at him. How could he think that? He was staring down at his journal. Regulus squeezed his own hands, you knew his rings must’ve hurt. Regulus sucked in a sharp breath. “At speaking how I feel. I usually avoid it. I’d rather sit in silence than speak up.” He looked up. His eyes had tears like yours. You hadn’t made eye contact with James since before speaking but you assumed he was probably teary eyed as well. Regulus slid his closed journal to the middle of the table. He stood and pulled his bag over his shoulder. Regulus tapped on the table with his pen twice.

“Just return it.” Regulus whispered before leaving the library. You watched him walk away. You looked to James. Your tears had left leaving behind pure confusion.

“Did we just get told to go fuck our selves in poetry nerd?” You asked James. He looked just as confused as you. He glanced at the journal.

“He did say he’s bad at saying his feelings, maybe he wants us to read his feelings.” You stared down the journal. It was bound in black leather. A small string wrapped around it thrice. It was unsuspecting. You didn’t want to read it though. That felt wrong, going into Regulus’ private brain like that. He was constantly writing. His deepest darkest thoughts, you assumed. You once sneaked a peak at Sirius’ diary and you truly never needed to know in that extreme of detail what Remus’ dick looked like. You looked to James. He stared at you. You pressed your lips together, contemplating. You gently picked up the journal, scared it would shatter under your fingertips. You unwound the string. You pulled the front cover up. You found the first page had Regulus’ initials. You smiled and held it toward James for him to see. He laughed and turned the page. You saw the pages were full of Regulus’ flowing handwriting. Overflowing really. The lines of his poems were pressed up against each other. His letters interning with each other like a lovers hold. If you weren’t already absolutely totally in love with him, you would’ve fallen more looking at his pretty messy letters.

The last poem made you melt entirely. Regulus started speaking of a cold home. All the walls stained with blood and screams. He moved. A nice home with a porch, a reading nook, painted walls, a coat rack, a garden in the back, and you. He moved into a home with his two lovers, their presence sweeping over every inch of the house. There was ding in the doorframe to your shared bedroom, James had pulled a dresser up the stairs and tried to squeeze it through the door. You had painted in small forgotten corners of the house. A sunflower on the side of one of the kitchen drawers, a moon added to the coat rack, a heart on the corner of Regulus’ bedside table. The back door was newer than the rest of the house, James had flung a snowball so hard one winter he shattered the glass. Regulus had started talking of the rocking chairs on the back porch. His sentence fell off, unfinished. You set his journal down, leaning back in your chair. James followed your lead. You both sat in silence for a few minutes. Baby Black liked you both back. Say that 5 times fast. You sighed. You stretched your arms over your head.

“McGonagall did say we needed 20 minutes of reading everyday.” You whispered to James. He nodded and pulled the journal closer between you two. You both held onto it with one hand leaning closer to each other to read Regulus’ writing. You read and read and read and read. Regulus wrote so much he had to get new journals fairly regularly. This journal started a few days before meeting Sirius’ friends. The fast few pages were Regulus stressed with his workload. After that there was the first mention of you. Regulus spent a whole page explaining how gorgeous he found you. He spent another page after talking all about how handsome and beautiful James was. All of which you agreed with.

After that all his pages were dedicated to you two. Slowly as you worked through the pages together, and the candles around you melted, Regulus fell in love. His words were frillier. He spoke of a garden, and tea. Regulus told all about laying in field of flowers. He painted images of you three deep in love and extremely domestic. Regulus wrote of pain. The pain of knowing it could never be reciprocated, you were already with James and James was with you. The pain feeling every touch warm his heart before burning his skin with his own insecurities. He wrote how the kiss situation felt for him. All roses and sunshine until his own sick mind turned it against him, making him think it was all some big joke on him.

“We are really bad at reading people.” James muttered. You gasped and sat forward. Glad somebody said it.

“Right?!? Oh god we just can’t catch a break.” You clicked your tongue. James gently closed Regulus’ journal, wrapping the string around three times. You huffed and stood up. You and James left the Library, it was closing soon anyway. You both decided you had enough time before curfew to go to Regulus.

You returned his journal. Regulus stood in front of you staring and waiting. You and James let it all out. Laughing at your stupidity, apologizing for making him feel like he was some joke even if it was only for a few minutes, and confessing that a wrap around porch and back garden sounded perfect. Regulus was happy. He smiled at you both before telling you curfew was sneaking up behind you. James decided you three would get together and make plans on how to move forward with your relationship on Saturday in the courtyard. Regulus agreed. As you and James were heading off towards your own common rooms, Regulus called your names. He ran over to you from his commonroom door. He quickly kissed your cheek before James’. Regulus skittered off back to his commonroom without a second to spare. You smiled brightly at James. He returned the look. He intertwined your hands, swinging them back and forth. James started skipping down the hall, still holding onto your hand. You joined him. You were both carefree

You didn’t have anything to realize. You already knew you loved them both.

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controversialhpmemes · 19 days

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I think the most annoying thing about Drarry and Dramione is the way the ships sort of ruin Draco Malfoy’s character specifically, similar to how Jegulus ruins Regulus and James.

Draco Malfoy is genuinely a very interesting character to study, and we do actually know a lot about his childhood and motivations and capacity for love. The information we get however, is from The Cursed Child, and people largely ignore CC since it is genuinely a bit strange and poorly thought out. But the things it says about the characters is still very interesting, and I don’t think they are entirely mischaracterised in it, seeing as it is canon.

Draco Malfoy is supposed to be arrogant, and big-headed as a child. He’s supposed to be a jackass and a bit horrible. But he’s a kid. That’s the thing with his character, he’s a kid that’s been taught to be bigoted, and as he gets older he does start to question things. JKR really didn’t want people to like him, because he was actually based on boys she didn’t like at her school. But she did right him as a very compelling character.

Draco is the only Death-Eater where the “forced” narrative has any grounds to stand on, however I do prefer the interpretation that he simply didn’t know what he was getting into. Yes, his mothers life was on the line, but I think he would have joined regardless. His father would have spoken about how great and noble the Death-Eaters were, and he probably thought it would be more like the Inquisitorial Squad. But the pressure did get to him, and he at no point actually kills anyone as far as we know. The fact that he saves Harry twice also can’t be ignored, since it would imply that to some degree, he became aware that he was wrong.

Where does CC come into all of this? Well, in CC, even in the Dark Universe, he protects his family above all else. He has fully abandoned any ideals of blood supremacy by the plot of CC, and we get to see a lot of his change. Lucius and Narcissa canonically thought of Scorpius as a bastard because they disapproved so strongly of Astoria. Draco had to have had some redemption for that to make sense, especially since this dynamic was on Pottermore before CC was a thing. Draco states that he never wanted to be a Ministry man, he just wanted to be happy, which would imply he wasn’t happy as a child and had very little freedom. His capacity for love is also very interesting, since he was so in love with Astoria and cared more for Scorpius’ happiness than his own pride. He fully broke into the Potter’s house and started a duel with Harry because he wanted Scorpius to be happy.

All of this is to say, that Drarry and Dramione kind of ignore this. It often makes Lucius into a physically and verbally abusive father, rather than just a controlling one, and sort of makes Draco’s redemption all about love. He starts seeing the light even before he meets Astoria, and she was likely just the final push he needed to change completely. Even in CC though, Draco is still cold and calculating and aristocratic, he’s just less scared. And that makes sense, since he’s an adult.

I find Drarry and Dramione really speedrun his character development, and make it all about some crush he has on this one person, rather than something that happened slowly through life experience. Also, the idea that he was forced to be bigoted always bothered me, since he was just bigoted until he learnt better. Forced to be a DE? Fine, I’ll give it to you, his mothers life was on the line (even if I had a different interpretation). By the end of HP I’d argue he’s still ignorant and has a lot to learn, CC just seems to take place after he’s fully left supremacy behind. Which is, you know, almost two decades later so like, keep that in mind for how long it took him.

Draco is a complex and very interesting character, and it just annoys me how Drarry and Dramione denigrate his redemption to “this person was hot and I didn’t want to oppress them”. Draco, I would argue, is much more interesting when he’s not shipped with anyone, or when he’s only shipped way after he’s started improving.

Just my thoughts, Drarry and Dramione do also ruin Harry and Hermione (and Ron, Ginny and Astoria), but the way Draco’s character is treated is just much more noticeable. It’s one of those cases of “if you have to change everything about the character to tolerate them, do you even actually like the character?” Also the why Astoria gets treated bothers me, but that’s for a different conversation.

#asked #answered #draco malfoy #anti dramione #anti drarry #pro drastoria #drastoria #astoria greengrass #astoria malfoy #draco x astoria

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jmeslovr · 1 month

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Random jegulus snippet <3

He doesn’t know why he keeps ending up here, why James is always the one there to pick up the pieces, but he’s endlessly grateful for it. Regulus isn’t sure he’d be here if it wasn’t for James. It’s a scary role to play in someone’s life.

Regulus lifts his head from James’ shoulder but doesn’t pull back. Tears still spill down his cheeks, but they’re silent now, and James still wipes them away as they form.

He wants to say something, but he can’t, so he sits in the moment, breathing the same air as James, keeping eye contact. He looks down at his lips, and it hits him just how close they are; it’s possibly the closest they’ve ever been.

“I want to kiss you,” he murmurs quietly, the filter that’s usually present gone.

James freezes beside him, and he’s pretty sure he hears his breathing hitch. “Then kiss me.”

Regulus smiles sadly. “I can’t.”

Pain flickers across James’ face, and Regulus wants to kill himself for causing it. “Why not?”

Regulus can’t breathe. “You know why, James. I can't. Not yet.”

James shakes his head, pulls him in tighter; rests his forehead on Regulus’ like he’s afraid of him running away. James’ arms are tight around his back, holding him in. “You don’t have to keep denying yourself things that will make you happy, Regulus.”

He lets out a shaky breath and closes his eyes. It’s all too much. Not enough. He wants James to consume him. Regulus wants James to sink his nails into his chest and pry it open so he can take his beating heart for his own. Maybe then will Regulus have a meaningful purpose.

Regulus keeps his eyes closed when he responds. Seeing James is too much. “I will take from you, and take, and take, and take until there’s nothing left. Until you resent me for needing too much. For being greedy.”

One of James’ hands moves to cup his cheek, and that’s when Regulus opens his eyes. He wants James to pull him in and never let him go. “It’s all yours, Reg. Please just— let me love you.”

Regulus is crying again, and he’s afraid that he’ll start hyperventilating if he opens his mouth. There is something clawing at his throat, desperate to get out. It sinks its claws into his flesh, uncaring at the pain it causes, and climbs. It gets stuck somewhere along with the words he leaves unspoken. Regulus is sure that his guilt takes the form of it.

Regulus wants nothing more to give in. To start this with James. To stop tiptoeing around each other, ignoring the feelings they have. But he knows he’ll ruin it if he does now.

He thinks he and James could be a perfect fit. James has a savior complex and Regulus craves too much. Regulus probably needs to be saved. James probably can’t go a day without trying to fix him.

The truth is, Regulus has a carnal need for James so deep inside of him it’s intrinsic, and he doesn’t know what to do with it. If he lets it out now it’ll kill them both.

So they’ll wait. Regulus will keep healing, and James will keep waiting. Just a little longer. Just until Regulus learns how to pick himself back up, until he doesn’t need James to do it for him.

Eventually Regulus speaks again, his voice raw. “You know I can’t now. Will you wait for me? Just— it won’t be long, but I need to get better. Please wait for me.”

James doesn’t say anything for a moment, but he finally nods his head yes as he wipes the remaining tears off of Regulus’ cheek, just like he knew he would. James always says yes to him, especially when he knows he needs him to, so why would this be any different?

#anyways #jegulus #jegulus snippet #regulus black #james potter #this is probably my favorite thing I’ve ever written #the layers :)))) woe #this is my sad trans reg wip #he’s sad #and trans #that’s the fic basically

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goodfornothingstar · 13 days

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Lily suffering in m/m Fics

I don't know what is the big deal.

I mean Sirius who is protagonist in so many fics, general or romantic or slice of life etc, himself goes through unimaginable suffering to reach an ambiguous ending which is bittersweet.

But these people have problem with making lily suffer. Why? Because she is a female character. And in the times we live, females are not supposed to suffer???

Isn't it upto the characterisation of the author about what happens to lily. And the storyline.

Maybe she started cheating on james with snape and James rather than confronting decided to give her a taste of her own medicine. Maybe in such scenario lily comes back to her senses and wants James back and maybe James is finally done with her and lives his hea with sirius. This right here is a happy ending for prongsfoot and not so for lily.

Or maybe James is a gay man with strong internalized homophobia and he decides to trap the most popular girl in the school so that no one can ever doubt. But once her relaxes and feels safe after marriage, he decides to go out and test the water, so to speak.

No lily Evans bashing. This is a tag I only see with lily. The one character in hp world we know the least about. And the author was successful in making us all believe that because James and lily were oh so great- any suffering that comes should come to lowlifes like sirius whose own parents hurt him or Peter who was born a traitor or hell even snape whose teenage years shaped into all the wrong choices and worst imaginable adulthood.

James and lily and specially lily should not suffer. The most you can do is kill them before old age. Anything more is unacceptable because lily is a woman.

I mean common.

I agree that it should not be done for the sake of bashing or making her out to be the thorn amongst the rosy prongsfoot Or jegulus relationship.

No, absolutely not. I agree that her worth shouldn't be only as a girlfriend or wife.

But she could be a grey character of her own whose poor choices and wrong decision lead to some suffering.

We see she smiles at snape's cost. We see that she doesn't sympathies with a teen petunia. We see her being friends with snape until he uttered that word to her, up until before that she was discrediting every other muggleborn in school by putting her head under sand. Because I feel that only muggleborn snape showed a basic human decency towards was her.

In fact i see her as capable of being a wonderful grey character. So why limit her with only being a Mary sue who is the best and gets the best. She was freinds with snape, a dark gray shade character. Wife to James, again a grey character. Then became friend with Sirius, again an ambiguous in terms of good or bad character. Canon lily surrounded herself around morons because she herself was a moron.

And life is unfair. We know this.

So why should it be unfair to only sirius or james but lily has people marching for her to only get a happy and respectful and wonderful life.

Even gods suffer in whatever mythology you pick.

But lily shouldn't???

So aren't you asking for the same as jkr. A sweet wonderful life for our dear lily evans because she as a female and a mother is great so she should live a wonderfull life.

Hell, my mother is the most wonderful person I know but let me tell you that being good at heart doesn't make the suffering less. If anything good people face most trials in life....

Ps- being cheated on is based upon how much respect your partner has for you. I mean yes love can fade but if they respect you as a human. They will have the decency to cut things off before starting something new. But in no way is being cheated on is about the person who is cheated.

In fact all these people marching for lily should just chill because at the end of the day even if she is cheated on, she will have the moral high ground.

The real question is - was canon James Potter as a character capable of cheating her????

#Lily Evans critical #Not so critical #Just stating facts #But i dont won't to trampled by lily lovers #James Potter #Prongsfoot #Sirius black #If lily is a human she will suffer #Or else she is just a cardboard piece like jkr's version

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paintmegrey · 1 year

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Sharing 2 of my favourite deleted Jegulus scenes from Yeah My Boyfriend’s Pretty Cool (But not as cool as me) :

They were lost.

James’ words sit between them, growing like some undefinable river. Too harsh to cross—too cold to bear.

“Regulus if you” James struggles to catch his breath, “if you get on that plane—I don’t know what I’ll do.” James deflates with the words. So true that they even leave him bewildered for a second.

Their love, it feels like the soft whistle to a song. So delicate, yet James would recognize it anywhere. He’s memorized all of it but standing here now James feels as though he’s forgetting the tune. As if the soft hum and whistle is fading into the end of the song.

“James I can’t-“ The hitch of Regulus’ breath is so harsh that James feels it in his own chest, “I can’t. This is not worth—this shouldn’t be worth anything to you.” The words are hushed, muffled under layers. But James doesn’t know what Regulus means. He wants to ask. He wants to scream to know. But every word is stuck in some lost corner of his mind, and all that he has to give now is his silence.

Nothing will ever define James the way this love has. They way Regulus has. Regulus is standing right in front of him, watery eyed and fading into shadow, but James already misses him. James can’t unclutch Regulus’ from his grasp. Everything that James has ever had to leave behind is buried with scratch marks, with every desperate attempt to hold on.

What is happiness if not love? What is James?

Regulus turns around, his body stiff and entirely closed off to James. “Go back inside, James.”

“Regulus.” It’s nothing other than a plea. A beg for Regulus to let them have this. To let James keep this.

Regulus hesitates for half a second, a simple twitch of his hand and then he’s walking away. The straight lights perfectly still. The echos of conversion, and laughter, and beautiful life continuing around them.

As James watches Regulus’ back he swears, somewhere in the distance someone is whistling the tune of a song. A delicate soft song, a precious one. And as Regulus gets further away, as James' existence is slowly ripped in half he focuses on that whistling and how it fades into nothing but air.

Then it is silence. Just James, just silence.

2) (the voicemail)

Regulus, hey. I’m not sure if you’re going to hear this anytime soon or ever—I hope you do though. Um- There’s a heavy sigh, and Regulus finds himself holding his breath. I’m not mad at you Regulus. I wish I could say I was, but—I just can’t. James’ voice gives a dry laugh, not a drip of humor. Maybe it’s pathetic but I—I care about you so much Regulus. So much that I—fuck, I would have helped you pack your stuff and leave to London if that’s what you really wanted. I would’ve held your hand until you left for that flight—I The sound of James’ voice breaking down starts to fill Regulus’ eyes with tears, barely able to stop themselves from pooling over.

—I would have just loved you until the end, as long as you would let me I’d love you. Even now…But your Mother called. I’m sure you already know that. I’ve been wondering if maybe I was…too much for you. If maybe I’m just too much. She told me that you want me to leave you alone. That you want nothing to do with me. Regulus hears the way the tremble in James’ voice becomes worse with ever word, and it kills him.

If that’s what you want Regulus. For me to just pretend there was nothing, I can—for you I can do that. And I’m sorry if I was a lot. I just— It’s then that James starts crying, and Regulus starts crying right along with him. Covering his mouth to muffle his sobs, desperate to hear James’ words clearly.

I just never want you to be afraid of me Reg. Like you can’t tell me things. You can always tell me anything, I will always listen. I’ll always be here, and I hope you never doubted that. If you don’t love me—that’s okay. It’s okay. I hope for the sake of my heart that you loved me at least once—that at some point you at least thought you could. There has never been anything wrong with you Regulus. I just— wanted you to know that you’re worth so much more than what this world has given you. You’re more than this job Regulus. You’re more than this imaginary worth in these awards. Or your family.

You are everything to me Regulus…all you’ve ever been is everything to me. You don’t have to be better or changed, you didn’t have to pretend for me. You never did. And LA—my house, is just not the same without you. I just want you to know I’m always here, that I’m always wishing you’ll call just so we can talk. Talk about anything. About the weather for fucks sake. Just to—just to know you’re there, love. I really do hope you’re alright Reg. I hope you’re happy, I hope it’s not too cold there. That you remember to water your plants and drink enough water.

If you need anything, I’ll always be here. Just a call away. I love you more than anything, darling, and I hope you’re okay. I hope you felt loved by me at least, because you were. You are.

The voice recording stops. Regulus’ hands are shaking and he’s choking violently on his sobs.

#jegulus #james potter #jegulus fic #yeah my boyfriends pretty cool (but not as cool as me)#paintmegrey #regulus black #jegulus angst #jegulus brainrot #marauders #marauders fic #sirius black #wolfstar fic #snippet

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sunchasingstar · 1 year

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AU Jegulus fic twist on Percy Jackson. Although I will say, none of them will be matching the actual seven like the parents will be different and will fit the characters like how I imagine they’d fit. Basically all I’m adding in is the marauders being demigods with a very VERY loose similarity to the seven💀

James would be Percy, but not the son of Poseidon. I mean this like, James is the one that would pull everyone together and make things go in motion, he’d be the one to challenge the gods because he recognizes that they’re shitty. His fatal flaw would be his loyalty (because it fucking was.) James is definitely the son of Apollo tho, I literally couldn’t make it any other way cause like James Potter is the Sun. But I do think Euphemia would be Sally and Fleamont would be Apollo but acts like Poseidon (ie simp for Sally) or Fleamont would be Paul because he’s stable and supportive. And I like Paul. Although, I think the Annabeth to his Percy would be (obvi) Regulus!

Regulus wouldn’t be the son of Athena, although he could be tbh, I see him more as a nico type variant. So, if SoAngelo was Percabeth basically 🫠 Regulus fits this vibe because he’s an emo boy who can’t swim. But also, because he’d definitely be the one to have trauma and a mixed up background. I think he’d still have Nico’s background and Sirius would act as Bianca, as in they both come from 1940’s Italian background and ended up in a fucking casino for years.

With that, I kinda see Remus as the son of Athena. He’d be the Annabeth in the planning and he’d be the one to make sure James’ dumbass stayed alive😂. I like the idea of making Peter be either a Satyr and friend like Grover or like Luke and be a friend turned enemy. Sirius would be the Thalia of the situation, mixed with a bit of Bianca (kinda?)

What I mean by that is that Sirius and Regulus would have different fathers but the same mom. They’d still be targeted but it’s because they’re the sons of Zeus and Hades respectively. I think this is because Sirius gives me electric vibes, he fits the son of Zeus. Regulus on the other hand is the dark one, the one that everyone kinda shuns a bit. So, in this setting, Sirius and Regulus wouldve both been hunted by Zeus in this AU (major reason why James has beef w Zeus) and Hades would’ve helped his son and sent them both to the casino to save them. But!! They get out earlier than in the series, they end up being lead out by one of the fates (ig??) because of the Great Prophecy that has James and Regulus as a key part, as well as our Luke variant, The Prophecy would be different because of this and because of my need to have fate force Starchaser to have a happy ending 🙃 anyway, so they get out and meet Remus, Barty (Luke) and Peter (Grover) on the way, right? So, ya know how that story goes. Only difference is that Remus and Peter are best friends and Remus had a crush on Sirius during their time spent together trying to find Camp Half-Blood. Then, right as they’re reaching the gates, the Cyclops comes and Sirius sacrifices himself for Regulus, this makes Zeus pissed because fuck that was his kid actually, so he turns him into a pine tree. Regulus ends up blaming himself for getting his brother killed and becomes a recluse tbh who only really talks to Barty. He doesn’t get claimed until James gets there and they end up getting claimed at the same time (prophecy things) which the first great prophecy would go something like this:

A half-blood of the eldest god

Shall reach sixteen against all odds,

And see the world in endless sleep.

Son of the Sun, his life and heart he shall keep,

The hero’s soul, cursed blade shall reap,

A single choice shall end his days

Olympus to preserve or raze.

I feel like changing it to the eldest god instead of gods would be limiting it to Hades and with the Son of the Sun, yeah. This would make Zeus and the rest of them change the oath to make it include Apollo (or it could be that they tried to make it just Apollo and Hades but no way in hell Hades would let that slide so celibacy for all four)

Regulus would start to warm up to James after he saved Sirius’ tree, which brought Sirius back to life. And I feel like James and Sirius would but heads a bit especially after Sirius learns that Regulus and James are the ones from the prophecy and Sirius wouldn’t like James at first because he’s scared that James could lead to his brothers death. This changes when Regulus is kidnapped in the Titans Curse. The Hunters would be hard to mix in ngl cause I could make them the girls but I also want the girls to play bigger parts to the story and I feel like the Hunt kinda doesn’t play that big of a part. Because of that, idk who to make Bianca cause Sirius isn’t dying after being brought back😀 I’m thinking we make Bianca be either Emmeline and have Mary blame James for not keeping her gf safe and then have her confide in Lily. Anyway, James stopping at nothing to save Regulus!! I also think James would be powerful as fuck because of this theory I have that the less children a god have = to more powerful kids idk why but it’s something I think ab a lot regarding the actual seven. James would have Photokinesis and Heliokinesis as well as a lot of the powers listed under the Apollo cabins power list (I can’t choose😭) although I mostly say this because I’m gonna hc that Euphemia is a demigod herself, or a legacy, she’s one of the few Greek ones that lived long enough to live semi peacefully in the moral world. Her godly parent is Hecate so that makes James hymns and magic in general just cranked up. It’s why he’s a major player in the war because he comes from an extremely powerful line of legacies (Potter is his mother last name and there’s been records of many, many of the family being demigods)(he doesn’t find this out until later) the Potters being descended from the Peverell brothers in the HP universe just always makes me think that the Potters have a lot more magical power than Rowling gave them so I’m gonna give that power to James in this au😄

James and Regulus holding the sky together!!!! This one is important to me, idk why, but it is. And their grey hair wouldn’t go away randomly in the series, it’d stay there! I feel like this moment would be when Regulus realizes he’s fallen for James because while he was taken, his faith that James would save him never wavers and that’s a big thing for him, that hope in another person, but it’s because he knows who James is. However, he never expects James to help him hold the sky. There’s a difference than simply going after a friend and going against a goddess’s warning (Artemis definitely told her nephew to not take the sky because she would rather her nephew be safe than anything) and shouldering the weight of the world for them. This is the moment he realizes he loves James. He doesn’t tell him, of course 🙄 James had loved regulus since the beginning, it never seemed like something he had to realize. Since the moment he came to the camp and Regulus’ dark grey eyes met James’ own amber colored ones, James knew he was meant to be there. James knew their entire lives were leading up to that moment. Of course, he’s also the son of Apollo and literally has prophecy related powers so he could probably feel the actual strings of fate that tied them together. Which is why he made it his mission to annoy Regulus into friendship on the first day. James doesn’t tell Regulus this until the Labyrinth, when Regulus gets jealous of flaming red hair and emerald green eyes that belong to Lily Evans, someone James felt a strange pull to (because she’s meant to be the oracle🤭) which leads to Regulus getting injured and James thanking his father for passing on his healing powers because he came tell Regulus how he feels in a intimate, cliche moment.

(Regulus, our souls are made of the same stardust. There is no one else for me.I wouldn’t want there to be.)

Which, this leads my man Regulus on a mission to find a way to protect James. Thus, he stumbles upon the Curse of Achilles and that whole plot plays out with the exception that James would only go through with it if Regulus did too. Except James wouldn’t choke Regulus like Percy did (even tho Percy was justified ngl) he’d def be heartbroken tho thinking his love had betrayed him, ofc he forgives him once Reggie explains. Once they both submerge into the river and come out again, they get visited by the three fates because ofc 🙄 and basically because they both were used the other to ground themselves to their human side, the fates decide to drop that one can’t live without the other. That should Regulus or James get stuck in their Achilles spot, they’d both die. (Son of the Sun, his heart and life he shall keep)

This would definitely lead to James and Barty fighting and Barty highkey bout to end it when Regulus interrupts with the, “Family, Barty. You promised.”

Then, once the war was over and they go back to camp half-blood, Regulus kisses James and admits to his love for him. And then, James goes missing and three new half-bloods turn up. James would only be able to remember Regulus and would be the one to get everyone on his side 🤣 Octavian would soooo be Snape. I feel like it’s funny asf because of how much Octavian hated Percy and it’s even better that James is the prophesied Son of Apollo and Snape is a legacy. He’d be so pissed that James’ powers are stronger 💀💀

Then Mark of Athena, I was gonna have Sirius and Remus fall instead of James and Regulus but I thought better of it because imagine Regulus seeing James snap in Tartarus. It freaking Regulus out to the point that he begs him never to do it again. ( either uses his plague and sickness power or sun powers to fuck up Akhlys)

Like I can so see that Regulus would save Remus from the web that was wrapped on his foot by manipulating the earth with his power, only to slip and fall into the hole which lead to James jumping to grab him and Sirius grabbing James. James would make Sirius promise to get the others to the other side. And then they’d fall. Regulus and James would cling to each other and James would so use his power to keep Regulus warm (he let it slip that he hates the underground because it makes him feel cold, like the dead)

That’s all I’ve managed to come up with so far, but it’s being rotting my brain all night

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orbitfalls · 26 days

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HELLO I JUST REALIZED I NEVER SENT YOU AN ASK SCREAMING ABOUT ULTRAVIOLENCE CHAPTER THREE WHICH IS CRIMINAL BUT IM HERE NOW

first of all TRANS REGULUS MY LOVE second of all i saw that you might include jegulus in the fic and i am humbly kneeling at your altar with an offering of honey and red wine begging 🙏🙏🙏

“Narcissa and Arcturus were one and the same.” YES THEY WERE

regulus starting and ending his life in the water please please please let him be happy let him live please i’m begging you i’ll give you a cookie a kiss a million dollars anything🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

“Narcissa was still in her little nightgown as she stumbled through the dining room and peeked her head through the wide open door to catch a glimpse of the garden.” SHES SO CUTE WHAT IF I THROW UP

bella telling cissy she is a black just like her and andy😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭AND THE PLEASE PARALLELS AHHHHFHDHSJDJF

oh my god i have so many feelings about walburga and regulus SO MANY OH MY GOD

gnawing on the bars of my enclosure chomping on rock salt chewing drywall this was so fucking good

HELLO ASTRA MY BELOVED

TRANS REGULUS YES AAAAA it makes so much sense to me idc that this is a canon compliant story (besides it isn’t rly cuz I will CARVE my own way through the storyline later on sksjjsjs) it’s just sooooo obvious to me that he has that side of himself to explore. ALSO sorry but I fear I’ll have to kill him off when the time comes… sorrows sorrows prayers… anything for the plot right 😭😭 I’ll happily take the cookie and the kiss and the million dollars anyway tho . if you don’t mind🤲

NARCISSA IN HER LITTLE NIGHTGOWN HELP SHES SUCH A MISERABLE VICTORIAN ORPHAN I WANNA EAT HER😭😭 AND HER AND BELLA AND BELLA AND WALBURGA AND WALBURGA AND REGULUS AND NARCISSA AND REGULUS BEING CARBON COPIES OF ONE ANOTHER GUARDS UNHAND THEM!!!! SEIZE THEM GUARDS

Ilyilyily TBANK U for making me blush SJSHSJSHSH kicking my feet possibly proposing if you don’t mind😌🫶 please marry me astra my hand is yours to take🫡🫡

#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #Astra tag #I hope you don’t mind I gave you a nickname btw it’s just so cute #I mean star symbols are kinda my thing if you hadn’t noticed😭😭#fun fact my legal name (atlas is a nickname) means star also so we’re twinning🤨🫶

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murderoushagthesequel · 1 year

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ok for the first time since icotfs i am very indesicive about a title so

all the info i'm going to give is that it's a sad jegulus one-shot (no happy ending) where i stuffed every literary/rhetorical tool i good (this shit is poetic)

and the opening line is "i would forgive you, you know" ... "if you were in love with me"

the last few are based on Arms Tonite (Mother Mother), Alejandro (Lady Gaga), Romantic Homicide (d4vd), Pretty When You Cry (Lana Del Rey), and Foreigner's God (Hozier)

(pls rb)

#please help i'm indecisive #i can't decide #like in eenie meenie #please ignore me #jegulus #jegulus fanficiton #jegulus angst #fanfiction #ao3 #writing #ao3 writer #fanfic author

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esorxy · 3 months

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daily updates of thoughts while reading crimson rivers

afterthoughts::

this was so beautifully written and well plotted, it had some of the best scenes and dialogues, and had me swooning, in shock, all of that

(particularly regulus') character development!!! insane!!! this has left me unsatiable, jegulus has me in a chokehold

oh the romance was so sweet, and ever so rewarding after all of the hurt, both jegulus and wolfstar

my only complaint is that its way too long like i lost so much sleep over this, at the end i was so impatient i kept skipping all the side characters povs cos i just wanted to be done with it

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day 1. 10% (games just started)

it took 80k words to get to the start of the games .... what did i get myself into. and i saw tiktoks going like the jegulus WEDDING ?!?!?!?!?! love it when sirius cannot form coherent sentences around remus, but he needs some distraction they literally have the worse luck ever. I'm so glad they dont have horrible communication issues, maybe because theyre all about to die.

oh and if the jegulus parting 'present' wasnt the saddest way to separate especially since they think theyre going to die

aside, i keep comparing sirius to quackity in that hunger games fic and then i remember how much better the dsmp fanfics were especially since i can actually recall the details after like 2 years. back when i thought 100k+ was a long fic oh how naive

so so far, pretty good, im invested in the story enough to not be bored but not THAT invested

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day 2. 31% (games ended, just before interview)

im fuckin invested. why whyyyy so much pain. regulus never fails to be the most hurt in any room aye. and james being touch starved?!? i lived for that shit.

why was it that reading about the games was so thrilling. the life/death oml give my boys a fucking break. they're out now and still no comfort, the only break theyre getting is a break up wtf!!

asides about the games, james was just a dumbass about peter, evan my beloved as always (and glad that the author shares that sentiment), and what the fuck regulus just realising at the end that he had nothing to live for if james died asfhhdsjjfsgjjf

why the fuck was i not satisfied with reading cute one shots or 100k fics,,, the length of this, i don't want to sleep i don't want to eat god help me with this addiction

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day 3. 60% (second games started)

honestly the lack of a mcd tag is the only thing getting me through this. the hope!! i relate to regulus so much on that.

and that's also the only reason im forgiving them for all being fucking IDIOTS and not making the most of their time together. now is the time to profess your love and get your spine realigned my darlings

why is there literally a force field preventing james and regulus from being happy together??? well im not complaining too much because that means that anything they do now is extra special. regulus not being able to resist james??? gahhh im gone.

also them having tea together and actually starting to heal oh theyre so sweet they dont deserve that cruel world.

they literally chose the worst time ever to make up, at least they did at some point, but man they really confessed and got engaged right before... probable death...

oh the amount of pain my poor boys are going through, i wish they can all escape and live in some cozy domestic paradise with everyone they love. but they have to suffer first otherwise the happiness in the end doesn't count for anything.

oh. my. god. CRYING regulus trying to get sirius to kill him and then going soft at the last moment, and i can't believe sirius almost got baited like that and was really about to kill him. but REGULUS, oh my, my sweet gentle boy, he tried so hard, and the aftermath left everyone in fucking pieces.

it is 2.30am, and it takes literally half an hour to make a 2% dent, and i am HOOKED

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day 4. 80% (healing at phoenix)

regulus is on his way to being my favourite and it's entirely cos he's so angsty and unhinged. following through with all of his threats??? fucking hilarious, and his desperate love confessions and having a meltdown every 2 seconds. hes a wreck GET HELP.

sirius, such a literal icon, i strive for his level of don't give a fuck. "what pasta"?!?! my god i love him. hes so gone on remus its sickening. when dumbles asked for his blood, sirius being possessive?!?! if i was remus i would have folded right then and there, literally sold, this man owns him

james high and being obsessed with regulus the angel?!!! im swooning, literal heart attack material. best scene so far.

i love regulus' character development, hes levelled up to be james' first man. goodbye sirius but tbh he has more than enough problems on his own. oh jegulus is so achingly sweet i will not shut up about it. this is the reward after reading through so much couples angst. they love each other so much IM CRYING, the way regulus looked after him after the rescue mission, in all the ways that James didn't after the first games, oh they're finally together and happy, i would die for them.

i am PISSED at how long this fic is. the amount of nothing that I've done these past few days to read this, after this im going to exclusively read one shots for a whole entire week.

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day 5. 100%

sirius dissociating on the roof and remus sitting with him, im sobbing

yeah im deadass sick of the comfort now, theyve had too much that its not special anymore. i just want it to end already.

jegulus finally getting their dream life and dancing by the fireplace,,,, aaaand theyre getting married ahhhhh, my boys,, theyve come so far, i have no words

james holding regulus in bed while they watch the rain to help with his aquaphobia?!!! if thats not the most angsty romantic beautiful scene ever, im in love

why is it so fucking funny that james gets high from getting railed with a dagger to his throat, like legit my man CANNOT even form thoughts anymore hes so far gone 🤐

happily married with 4 kids, its too perfect, domestic, im in shock

aaand guess what im finally finally finished. that took way too long, reading fanfiction should be a full time job.

im never reading anything over 200k in the near future, that was way too much emotional commitment.

#crimson rivers #marauders ao3 #marauders fic recs

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amixedwitch · 3 years

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AO3 Stats Game

Thanks for the tag @thusatlas

How many works do you have on AO3?

What’s your total AO3 word count?

186,030 words (and counting).

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

One and it's Harry Potter! I'm thinking about perhaps doing Grishaverse or Narnia at some point in the future but I'm not sure yet!

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Entanglement of Stars

The White-Winged Crane

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try my best to, especially if there's a question or like a reaction to a jaw-dropping moment. I need to actually respond to some 😅

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I suppose that The White-Winged Crane has an angsty ending because it's pretty obvious that tense times are ahead for Moira and Cedric. The Entanglement of Stars has its angsty moments but it's not going to be a happy ending.

Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not yet. The occasional Twilight/HP and Narnia/HP idea have popped up in my head but I'm not sure if I want to do that. I'd only do it if I felt that I had a sufficient idea.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Nope, and I hope I never do lmao.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Oooh. I haven't but I really want to. The Entanglement of Stars will have smutty chapters (that will be marked NSFW for my minor readers). I'm planning on having each smut chapter be a definitive reflection of the dynamic between the couple in question.

Each entangled pair will have a smut scene at some point in the story. The adult pairs will get them sooner, and the other pairings will have them once they both turn 18+ in the story. It's intentionally a long fic so I will get to them with due diligence.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope. I hope it never happens and I have ZERO tolerance for fic-theft.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but if anyone wanted to translate either of my fics, feel free to reach out!

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I gotta admit that Dramione and NottPott are my faves. I also love a good Wolfstar fic! I haven't read Jegulus yet but I'd love to read any! I also just love Jily because ahhh my heart. Any ship with (fanon) Pansy intrigues me!

And I know that this is an extremely rare ship but I love Remus/Narcissa (especially with a happy ending)! Both individuals are intriguing so brought together and I strongly feel that they would make a great romantic and/or sexual pair. @dramionedaydream has a great fic with the ship!

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I really want to complete what I am calling "The Moira Crane Trilogy". I thought I'd be done with it by now but then the foundational ideas that became The Entanglement of Stars popped up in my head and I've been running with it since. Hopefully, I get the immediate sequel published by the end of the year? Who knows. I will say that my writing in the sequel will be substantially better than TWWC... but I need to restudy OOTP since I really broke "canon" at the end of TWWC.

What are your writing strengths?

I do a fuck ton of research and world-building before establishing something in my story. Everything is planned ahead of time so I do my best to minimize plotholes in my fic.

I enjoy being very descriptive and I think I do a great job in making sure that each character's POV is unique. I pride myself on creating plot twists that are both shocking and logical in the grand scheme of the story.

I think I do a good job of keeping up the suspense and building curiosity. I know how to give enough information to let the readers draw the conclusions I want them to form. And I know which emotional buttons to push.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm a sucker for Happy Endings™️ and I don't like killing off characters. I'm an optimist, an escapist, and a hopeless romantic in my writing and I don't intend to change that soon.

I also overthink too much and sometimes it affects my publishing period for chapters.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I did some of Fleur's line in French with a dash of translation in The White-Winged Crane because I was trying to be cool and I wanted to break the horrible accent that JKR had in her version of The Goblet of Fire. (We all have our own versions of Harry Potter and that is my stance)

In The Entanglement of Stars, however, I just mention that the character is speaking in that language since the POV characters speak and/or understands the language in question.

I wrote Fleur's TWWC lines in French because I know the language. I note that Remus says a certain thing in Welsh (Yes, Remus is Welsh in my version of things) because I know nothing about the language and I'd rather not butcher it with a translator.

I say do what works for you + the story style... And make sure you know what you understand the translation and/or have someone who speaks the language do the translation for you.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter!

What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

That's hard to say because I have two fics up so far and I love them both dearly! I would say that I love TWWC as a fluffy + simple fic and I love TEOS as a sophisticated + smarter fic.

Tagging: @ilguna @gxtitobxby @sarewolf @dramionedaydream @ouat-in-spare-oom-of-rivendell @ceruleanwhore and anyone who is interested in participating! all of my tags are open tags!

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remywrites5 · 4 years

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Are you planning on writting some jegulus soon? Also can you link me your masterlist? Your writting is amazing you should continue forever because it's awesome👍🏼👍🏼

My master list is here based on ship! Happy browsing but in the meantime here is some Jegulus like you asked!

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James Potter felt like a king as his cab pulled up at the hotel. There was a flurry of action as he got out of the car with cameras going off and people rushing towards him. He stopped to sign a few autographs and take a few selfies on his way inside, trying not to get mobbed from the crowd. He was currently seeded third in the world for men’s tennis and it was Wimbledon. James knew all of England was rooting for him and it made him puff up with pride.

He stopped at the front desk to get is room key only to find the Black brothers already there taking up space with their ridiculous amounts of luggage. Regulus Black was arguing with the person at the front desk while Sirius lounged beside him looking amused. When he noticed James he perked up.

“Oi James!” Sirius said, pulling James into a big hug. “You gonna win this year or what?”

“You know it,” James said with a grin. He had known Sirius for years, and they’d always been friends, when they could find the time to see each other outside of practices and matches and all the other bollocks. Sirius had originally done men’s singles until Reg had gotten just as good. They were now an unstoppable doubles team. “What about you two?”

Sirius rolled his eyes. “We’re already off to a bad start,” he explained, glancing over at his brother. “Reg is superstitious and they put us in a room with an eight in the number and he thinks it’s unlucky. He thinks it’s a bad omen so he’s trying to get us to switch rooms but obviously the hotel is pretty booked up.”

James chuckled. “Well, I’d offer you my room instead but there’s just the one bed. It’s a queen sized bed but it might be a tight squeeze,” he joked, noticing that Regulus had stopped arguing with the front desk person and was now paying attention to them.

“Say, how about you let just Reg bunk in with you?” Sirius said, his eyes flashing with something dangerous. “I don’t care about the number eight and Remus is coming anyway and I don’t think he remembered to get a room for himself. So Reg can go in with you and Remus can stay with me. There, isn’t that sorted nicely?”

James blinked a few times and looked over at Regulus, whose jaw had dropped as he looked at his brother in complete bafflement. “Sirius, we have things to go over. I couldn’t possibly – “

“Sure you can!” Sirius said, clapping Reg on the back. “We’ll see loads of each other.” Sirius grabbed the room key and shot James a wink. “Besides, we can’t have you starting off Wimbledon out of sorts, now can we?”

“I’m going to kill you,” Reg growled under his breath. If he had meant for James not to hear it he had failed spectacularly.

Sirius just beamed at both of them and hauled up his alarming amount of luggage. “See you two later!” he said, waving after them as he headed towards the lifts.

Regulus deflated like a balloon the moment Sirius was gone. James cleared his throat and stepped up to the counter. “Checking in for James Potter.”

“Yes, of course sir,” the front desk person said with a tentative smile, wary of Regulus still being there. “You’re in room 634. Will you be needing one key or two?”

James looked over at Regulus who merely shrugged in response. “Two,” he said dejectedly. When he got the room keys he passed one to Reg silently. Despite being good friends with Sirius, James didn’t know Regulus that well. He’d faced off against Sirius a number of times all over the world but for a long time Reg was just the pale skinny kid on the sidelines.

They made their way up to the room without saying a word and James wished he could find a way to break the silence so everything could stop being so bloody awkward. It was bad enough that they were going to be sharing a bed for two weeks, considering neither of them were likely to go out in the first round, but James doesn’t even know how to break the ice with Reg.

“I’m sorry about this,” Reg said, shuffling uncomfortably next to James. “If I had known my little outburst was going to inconvenience you I would have kept my mouth shut.”

James punched Reg lightly on the arm. “Don’t be stupid,” he said good-naturedly. “Why the number eight though?”

Regulus shrugged. “I’ve just had some bad things happen associated with the number eight. I don’t like it.”

James nodded and didn’t push for any more details. The younger Black brother had always been a bit closed off. James had always figured there was a reason for it but he wasn’t going to pry and he doubted Reg would be forthcoming with the information.

The lift doors finally dinged open and James let Reg go first. They wound their way through the corridor until they got the room that would be theirs for the foreseeable future. James couldn’t help thinking that a room with the number eight would be a better omen than this. Still, he soldiered his way into the room. Too late to turn back now.

***

James’ alarm went off at six a.m. and he turned over to find Reg already gone for the morning. He was a little surprised that Reg had gotten up so early considering the ungodly hour James had set his own alarm for. Was sharing a bed with him really so bad that Reg had shorted himself some much needed sleep just to get out of there?

James went and showered to get ready for his early morning practice. Yawning, he stretched his arms over his head as he walked along the practice courts, letting his racket rest against his back and itch a small spot he couldn’t reach. He was barely paying attention and just nearly missed getting hit by a ball going well past 200 kph. He jumped and looked in the direction the ball had come. Regulus looked a bit alarmed at how close he had come to hitting James with his powerful serve.

“If you wanted the room to yourself all you had to do was ask,” James teased, walking over while twirling his racket in his hands. “No need to kill me over it.”

Regulus rolled his eyes. “That wouldn’t have killed you,” he reasoned, grabbing his water bottle off the side and squirting some into his mouth. He must have been up for a while because he’d already worked up quite a sweat. James found himself following Reg’s finger as he brought it up to his lips and wiped away a droplet of water that had missed his mouth. Buggering hell, James thought to himself as he realized he might just fancy the guy sharing his bed.

“Wouldn’t have been pretty though,” James managed to shoot back after his brain came back online.

Regulus grinned. “As if anyone would dare to say you weren’t pretty,” he joked, wiping the sweat from his brow.

“Would you dare to say it?” James asked, swiping Reg’s water from him and taking a long drink.

Reg scowled at him and yanked his bottle back. It caused some of the water to dribble down James front. “Not everything in this world belongs to you, Potter.”

James blinked a few times in confusion. “I was just joking, Reg –“

“Well don’t.” Reg turned on his heel and went back to practice his serve. James was almost off the court when another ball went whistling by his head, just narrowly missing him. He glanced back and saw Reg bouncing another ball nonchalantly as if nothing had happened.

***

James had just finished his first match and he’d won – straight sets. He almost felt bad for annihilating the boy he’d been up against but he was out to win. No mercy. A fucking Englishmen was going to win Wimbledon if James Potter had anything to say about it.

When he got back to the room he felt good. He’d forgotten all about his little spat with Reg the other morning and pulled him into a big hug. Reg let out a startled noise as he was embraced against his will. “James!” he said with reservation. “What are you doing?”

“I feel good,” James said, breaking the hug and smiling at Regulus. “I want to celebrate. Your first match isn’t for two days, yeah? So we can go out and get absolutely pissed tonight and you’ll be over it in time for your match!”

Regulus turned his face away. “I don’t think that’s a good idea, James.”

“It’s a great idea!” James said, not letting Reg kill his enthusiasm.

Regulus either realized it was a lost cause or had been protesting too much because he gave in. They ended up at a local pub and tried their best to blend in so they weren’t constantly bombarded by people. Sirius and Remus had joined them with the four grown men crammed into a booth. James was drinking heavily, matching Sirius shot for shot, their competitive spirit getting the best of them. Regulus and Remus merely watched, nursing their own lagers and not indulging.

“So, things going swimmingly for you two?” Sirius asked, his words slurring together slightly. “Getting all cozy?”

James wrinkled his nose in confusion. “No Reg won’t even cuddle me at night. He’s terribly selfish that way.”

Regulus snorted beside James. “I don’t recall any offers of cuddles.”

“That’s because you bolted before I could,” James told him in annoyance. “And then you tried to kill me with a tennis ball.”

Sirius laughed. “Nearly got you with his serve, eh? It’s a killer!”

“Twice!” James told him, holding up two fingers flipping them around so he was showing Reg the V. “Wanker tried to kill me twice and all because I borrowed some water!”

“Borrowed?” Regulus said, raising an eyebrow. “That implies you were going to give it back.”

“Maybe I would have,” James said, giving Reg a wink.

“Okay,” Remus said, interrupting them. “I think it might be time to call it a night. If Sirius has anything more to drink he’s going to be tough to get back to the hotel.”

Regulus nodded as if he knew as much from experience. He went up to the bar to settle their tab and James followed him. “Let me,” James said, trying to fish his wallet out of his trousers but his fingers wouldn’t cooperate. “Reg, get my wallet out.”

“Absolutely not.”

“Please!” James begged, drawing the word out in a whine. “Wanna treat you.”

Regulus sighed and delicately reached into James’ pocket and got out his wallet. “Happy?” he asked, holding it in front of James’ face.

“Extremely,” James said, curling his fingers around Reg’s wrist, which normally wouldn’t have been necessary except that there were three wrists and three hands and James wasn’t sure which one was holding his wallet. He plucked it out of the real hand and got out some bills, throwing them down on the bar with a jovial slap.

Regulus shook his head and double checked how much James had put down. Realizing James had put down too much, he took some of it back and placed it into James’ wallet for him. James beamed at him, swaying slightly on his feet, and pulled Reg into another hug. “You’re great,” he mumbled, nuzzling his face against Reg’s neck. Reg stiffened for a moment in his arms and then slowly brought his hands up and rested them on James’ back, rubbing soothing circles.

“Come on,” Regulus said softly. “Let’s go home.”

James liked the sound of that very much.

***

By the end of the first week it felt like James and Reg were dancing around each other. They’d spend a whole night in watching old James Bond movies and eating a sinful amount of food from room service and then the next day Reg would disappear down to the courts for the entire day and wouldn’t come back until James was already asleep.

He knew they were both busy with matches, it was Wimbledon after all, but he couldn’t help feeling like it was more that Reg was avoiding him. So James decided to go watch Sirius and Regulus’ match to support them. Of course they’d made it into the finals, no one had any doubts that they would. They’d be going up against Rosier and Avery from Germany, fierce competitors who were known to fight dirty.

James snuck into the back of the press conference held after their win in the semi-finals. They were asked the usual sort of questions – if they were nervous about the finals and what they thought of Rosier and Avery. Then someone threw a curveball.

“So Regulus, any truth to the rumor that you’re sharing a room with James Potter?”

James froze, his entire body going tense, waiting with bated breath to hear Reg’s answer. “I am,” Regulus responded evenly. “As tennis players were traveling quite a lot. It means all sorts of accommodations and living arrangements.”

James puffed out a breath. It was a perfectly logical answer to the question and not untrue.

The reported didn’t let up though. “But why James Potter?”

Regulus glowered at the reporter. “Why not James Potter?” he shot back challengingly.

“Is there something going on between you two?”

“I don’t see how that’s relevant,” Regulus responded snootily. It only made the reporter dig in more.

“There’s been quite a few sighting of the two of you out together recently as well as pictures of the two of you on Potter’s Instagram. Are you dating?” The room exploded into people chattering to each other, fueling the rumor mill.

Regulus brought his fist down on the table and the room went silent. “As of right now James and I are just friends,” Regulus said through gritted teeth. “And if that changes it will be no one’s business except mine and James bloody Potter’s. Okay?” Regulus sat back in his chair and scrubbed a hand over his face. “Now if anyone has any questions about tennis I’d be happy to answer them.”

“Or you can ask me about my love life!” Sirius offered cheerfully, making everyone in the room laugh, breaking the tension. Everyone already knew Sirius was with Remus and had been for five years. Their love affair was hardly newsworthy.

James slipped out the back door and went up the room. He sat on the bed and waited what felt like forever for Regulus to return. He stood up when he heard the key in the door and watched Reg slip in quietly. He pressed himself back against the door and stared at James. “Any chance you haven’t heard the news yet?”

“It’s worse than that,” James said with a grin, taking a few steps towards Reg. “I was actually there. I was standing in the back.”

“Oh fucking hell,” Reg said, his face going red with embarrassment. It was unbelievably endearing.

“Don’t be embarrassed,” James said softly. He brought his hand up and cupped Reg’s cheek, feeling the heat rising to his skin from his blush. “James bloody Potter, eh?”

Regulus laughed breathlessly. “The reporter caught me off guard. I’m sorry if I made trouble for you.”

James smirked. “Well my twitter and instagram have been blowing up for a while now. But the only person whose opinion I want on the matter is right here.”

James watched Reg’s Adam’s apple bob as he swallowed thickly. “I’ve had a crush on you since I was eighteen. I-I tried to chat you up and it went horribly wrong. I made some dumb comment about your footwork, trying in the worst way possible to flirt. That’s why eight is my unlucky number.”

James laughed, covering his mouth with his hand. Regulus looked scandalized and that only made James laugh harder. “Fuck’s sake, Reg, you were trying to neg me?” he asked, wiping away tears of mirth. “Am I to take your trying to kill me with your serve a declaration of love then, since that’s apparently how you communicate?”

“Wanker,” Regulus growled at him.

James closed the space between them and captured Reg’s lips. “You absolutely gorgeous, ridiculous human being,” he murmured in between kisses. He swallowed up each of the breathy little moans that tried to escape out of Reg’s lips. “When you win Wimbledon you can announce at the press conference that you’re dating James Bloody Potter.”

Regulus’ kiss swollen lips stretched into a smile. “And if Sirius and I don’t win?”

“Then I’ll just have to announce it when I win,” James said with a smug grin.

“Tosser.”

***

Sirius and Regulus did win the men’s doubles and Regulus got to announce to the world that he was dating James.

The only thing that made it better was when James won Wimbledon and Regulus came out to celebrate on the court. They had just called the last volley in the line and that James had won when James got an armful of Regulus Black. He’d just won Wimbledon and he was snogging Reg in front of Queen and country. Nothing could be better than that.

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Fanfic Masterlist

In an attempt to boost my confidence I decided to make a masterlist of the fics I’ve managed to complete, because somehow seeing them all like this makes me feel super accomplished :3 and more motivated to write more!

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King and Lionheart

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: M

Words: 6.3k (ongoing)

Summary: No summary, we die like men who can't write summaries.

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should i have known that you would take hold (and never let go)

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: E

Words: 70k

Summary: James Potter likes to play the field when it comes to matters of the heart, inviting home men he hardly knows just to feel less lonely for a moment. As the oldest son and heir to his father's company, expectations and scrutiny are unavoidable. Giving himself up to someone, even under the guise of a lie, is his only escape. Yet his desire for acceptance leads to unpredicted circumstances that call for him to open his home and his heart for his own protection. Teddy Lupin lost his job two years ago, leading him down a path with no direction. Left with scars and trauma, all he truly wants is his old job back. The last thing he expected was for the richest man in London to offer him a job protecting his oldest son. Less expected than that, was how charming and irresistible he was. Though it was the last thing Teddy planned, in the end maybe a kindhearted heir with a protective heart of gold was exactly what he needed to move on.

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Bad Liar

Ship: James Sirius Potter/Craig Bowker Jr

Rating: M

Words: 33k

Summary: Truth or dare was supposed to be a stupid game for kids to play just to kill time. It was never meant to start something serious with someone whom Craig never would have been interested in otherwise.

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Venom

Ship: Scorbus

Rating: G

Words: 1.8k

Summary: A minor incident at Albus' Magizoology internship with the Scamanders ends with him bedridden at St Mungos with his unamused boyfriend as his caretaker.

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Chances

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: E

Words: 78.7k

Summary: "There was just something about this man, though they’d never met before, never seen or spoken to each other before tonight. Maybe it was the bass of the music vibrating down to his bone marrow, the buzz from the whiskey or the crushing loneliness of having no one left. He was cold, and even after twenty-seven years of living, dating, breaking up, Teddy had never seen anything that could rival the honest warmth in Jamie’s eyes."

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Recovery

Ship: none

Rating: G

Words: 5k

Summary: Post Half-Blood Prince: Bill is dealing with the recovery and repercussions of Greyback's attack, confined to bed and miserable but desperate to reassure his worried family he's fine, when a surprise visit from his favorite brother finally lifts his spirits.

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Love me Tender

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 4.5k

Summary: Teddy loved James. Tender and true; and James loved Teddy back.

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Memory, Memory

Ship: minor Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 3k

Summary: Teddy visits his parents grave every year on the same day, but he always goes alone. This year turns out a bit different.

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Damages

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: M

Words: 27.8k

Summary: James wasn't one to hide things about himself from the people around him. He was brought up to be proud of who he was, every piece of himself. He wasn't ashamed of his sexuality or his preferences, the gender he was attracted to or otherwise, and his family wasn't ashamed of it either. No, in the end he was ashamed not for who he was, but for who he loved, and the fear that everyone else would be ashamed and would hate him for the same thing.

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Stargazing

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 2.6k

Summary: The lack of lighting made his eyes look like glass covering shadows, mirrors that had no discernible color but reflected all the stars that he seemed so entirely enthralled with. He looked like a charcoal oil painting on canvas, and Teddy was starting to become an avid art lover.

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Woke the F*ck Up

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 10.8k

Summary: When an ex who broke it off because James wouldn't put out re-enters his life and asks to have lunch together, James reaches out to Auror partner Teddy Lupin, who's all too happy to help scare away the little bastard, no matter how he has to do it.

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Ship: Jeddy

Rating: M

Words: 13.9k

Summary: An Auror mission gone awry proves just how essential having a specialized clinic for Lycanthrope-Afflicted witches and wizards is.

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Bones

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: E

Words: 15.3k

Summary: The Potter's and Weasley's had always been Teddy's unofficial family, he'd grown up with them after all, but in the past he never would have imagined actually joining their family. Till now that is, and there was no one else Teddy would have wanted to share this day with.

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Slow Down Time

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 6.3k

Summary: It was so domestic, Teddy always found himself in awe of it. That he'd grown up almost entirely alone, and somehow was blessed with this family. There had always been an empty space in his heart that could never be filled by those he grew up with.It was an empty space that ached unimaginably whenever he looked at pictures of his parents, whenever he visited their grave or saw it was May second on the calendar, because what he longed for the most was family of his own, his parents, shared blood, and now he had that.

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Creation Out of Nothing

Ship: Lilyander

Rating: G

Words: 4.8k

Summary: In retrospect, Lily and Lysander don't have much in common, but if you can't bond over feelings of self doubt and the concept of not being good enough for your family, then what else are you supposed to bond over?

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Just a Scary Dream

Ship: none

Rating: G

Words: 5k

Summary: When they were younger, Albus always went to James when he had a particularly bad dream. He grew out of it, but in light of recent events, the murders of Craig and his grandparents and his involvement with Delphini, the bad dreams had just gotten worse, and only one person was ever able to help him through those nightmares.

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Moon Sick

Ship: Jeddy

Rating: G

Words: 9.5k

Summary: James is in his final year at Hogwarts, seventeen and thriving, but no matter how long he'd spent in Slughorn's class over the past few years, he still didn't much see the point of potions, and he was running out of time to finally get motivated about it. His seventeenth Christmas at The Burrow, however, proves a better teacher and motivator than Slughorn or his father ever were, as a dear friend becomes ill, where the only method of healing and relief is through the brewing of a special tonic. Though James has little to no interest in such things, if it's to help relieve the pain of someone he truly cares for, he would do just about anything.

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Thicker Than Water

Ship: none

Rating: G

Words: 15.5k

Summary: James Sirius Potter loves his family, and he isn't shy about announcing it. He'll say it to their faces and say it to whoever is listening, that he loves his parents and his amazing sister, his cousins, aunts and uncles, even his ever frustrating younger brother, Albus. Difficult he may be to talk to sometimes, James still loves him, even if he struggles to make Albus understand that; but when Albus disappears not once, but three times, before the first term back at school is even halfway over, James starts to wonder, maybe he didn't tell Albus he loved him nearly enough, and worries if he didn't start saying it sooner, he'd lose his chance to entirely.

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Holiday Dysfunction

Ship: Scorbus

Rating: G

Words: 26.3k

Summary: People say that if you have a confession to tell, the best thing to do would be to simply rip it off like a Band-aid, but for Albus that metaphorical Band-aid has been stuck in place for the past six years, and it's hard enough talking to your dad when he happens to be Harry Potter, so it makes things a little more complicated when you're also in love and married to the son of your father's former school rival and ex-death-eater. Throw a new kid into the blend and the Holiday Season just gets more festive.

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Stupid Deep

Ship: Jegulus

Rating: E

Words: 24.2k (ongoing)

Summary: October of 1981 came and went, Halloween night left James Potter with lasting mental and physical scars, his wife lost to him and his son marked by a madman who had the audacity to disappear before James could get his revenge. He'd lost so much in so short a time: his loving parents, his beloved wife, his long time friend; a betrayal that stung more than the curse to his chest ever could. He struggled to live, he regretted every breath, only living because he had to, because he had Harry to look after, but he ached in ways that shouldn't ever be endured by any human. James thought for sure everything was lost, even the things he still had seemed too far away and easy to lose. He doubted anything in the world could make it less painful. Until a chance miracle is brought to light, a former infatuation rekindled into burning flames, and the Gryffindor bravery James thought was long lost roars back to life inside of him. He'd lost so much, but if he could help it, he would not lose this. Not again.

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#jeddy #scorbus #jegulus #amelia writes #amelia writes fanfic #Ao3 #james sirius potter #teddy lupin #scorpius hyperion malfoy #albus severus potter #james potter #regulus arcturus black #masterlist #fanfic masterlist

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