#i want to forgive her. i want to pretend that she didnt
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Starlo apologist speaks again
this picture right here.. i hate it sm.
TIME TO DEBUNK EVERYTHIN', YEEHAW!
#1 Starlo's name is uncool on purpose might literally mean 'Starloser' It fits his character arc. In other words, he's not the cool, badass sheriff he pretends to be (he's not 'North Star'), but a kind, friendly farmer inside
#2 He definitely DOES care about Clover. Why else would he keep saying he's proud of them, praise them, believe in them, get worried about their safety, send them a warning letter, immediately run to check what's going on with them, get angry at Clover for not staying HOME (yeah he really did consider the Wild East their home) tell Martlet to bring Clover to safety, and jump at Ceroba to try and protect them? don't question the love of star daddy
#3 Undyne actually IS a badass. Starlo isn't. He's a softie who cares about pretending to be cool bc he's insecure, even when in a situation where he could die. He wants to be a hero. He wants to be SOMEBODY, not a NOBODY. Maybe he also cared about his own status more than his town, friends and family (which could be the reason he brought a bb gun). Or he just wanted to buy time so the others could hide. Now that I think about it, it's the latter. Why else would Dina say this in genocide after you kill Ceroba: "He was more of a hero than you'll ever be." That's the whole point of his geno fight that, and a lil bit of angst when roba finds him dying IT'S CALLED CHARACTERIZATION
#4 He kidnaps Clover bc they're a human. The only human who's ever set foot on the sands of the Wild East. He's obsessed with human culture. His whole life ARE westerns. Why? Whether it's the sense of justice cowboys represent, the exciting lives they live, or both, Starlo feels like he matters thanks to this nerdy interest, like he can contribute to his community
#5 i see Martlet as a big sis not a mom bc of how young she is, despite that one joke in bits & bites, but to each their own Star jails Martlet bc of the potential of the Wild East getting shut down. She did threaten to report them to Asgore and well... according to him, better safe than sorry. He even admitted he doesn't feel right doing it
#6 It WAS wrong of him to blame and attack Clover like that, all for his own status and ego (and to get his friends back) It's called a flawed character making a fucking mistake. Or did you expect someone perfect, with no room to grow and develop throughout the piece of media? Also, Clover is not an infant, they're a child. If it was meant to be a joke, it ain't funny bucko
#7 he either actually forgot about the fact he himself kidnapped Clover bc he wasn't in the right mindset (understandable), or purposefully ignored the information to avoid responsibility for his actions & shift the blame onto Clover (he IS flawed and thats more than ok)
#8 in neutral, he doesn't apologize bc Ceroba doesn't come and snap him out of his fantasy & mindset
#9 he did his best with the apology. you can't blame starlo. He's not very good with expressing himself and emotions in general (that he has been avoiding for so long via escapism; he also uses escapism to help Ceroba instead of talking openly with her)
#10 he doesn't know how the ceroba & clover interaction played out bc he was unconscious. Maybe he thought Clover had managed to talk her outta fighting. He says in true pacifist "Yall had a fight?? and the deputy won??" In other words he didnt know they had even fought. To add fuel to the fire, his bff just died and star, being the forgiving sweetheart he is, had wanted to give her a chance at redemption, but never got the chance to. He never got the chance to say goodbye, either.
#11 just bc starlo's an adult doesn't mean he can't have these flaws/behaviors. Every individual is unique. Starlo is deff deeply insecure and most likely autistic, too. Please think about that in the future, thank you
my current feelings can best be described by good old Axis
#uty#undertale yellow#starlo uty#uty starlo#starlo#starlo undertale yellow#undertale yellow starlo#north star#undertale#ut#undyne#debunking#if the person who made that pic sees this and comments more hate here we'll have fun folks#the lack of understanding and empathy is insane here
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You ever had a friendship where like you kind of faded out of each other's lives for a period of time and then re-bonded without ever really addressing the distance so now every time one of you mentions something you never told the other one during The Dark Time you both just have to be like "yeah, this massive thing that happened to me that we didn't talk about at the time but I totally wanted to tell you about but it felt like I couldn't talk to you but I'm also not gonna say it was your fault because I don't want to drive you away again but I know and you know exactly what it is we're not talking about"
#like. i dont blame her for what happened#she was going through a lot of bullshit and i was getting into my current relationship with our mutual friend#and the mutual friend in question it turns out had rejected her like a month and a half before asking me out#so like. things were weird and i dont blame her for not wanting to make a whole thing out of it#and i also get how it would be hard to see me like that with someone you had interest in#but also from my perspective at the time i started dating a boy i liked and my best friend just decided she couldnt be around me anymore#and even though i now have the full context and it doesnt hurt as badly theres still a part of me carrying resentment over it#ive stopped pretending this is relatable content and now im just using the tags on this post as my diary#like on the one hand i know this friendship is worth it because we're stronger than ever now#and shes gotten so much better about vulnerability and admitting i matter to her and communicating in general#but on the other hand it just keeps feeling like theres this elephant in the room that neither one of us has any idea how to address#and like i dont even know if it would be better if we did address it#like 'hey btw i know you had a crush on my now bf and tried to kiss him one time and then didnt tell me when he shrugged you off'#'i also know how much you tried to pretend it didnt hurt you but you distanced yourself from half your friends to avoid having to face it'#'and at the time it was rly frustrating because you acted like me being happy in a healthy relationship was a personal inconvenience to u'#'but i understand now and i forgive you and im glad you came back around eventually because i love you and i missed you'#or can all of those things just remain unsaid and understood
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#also god bless my friend who pointed out that im moving up and im going to be in a salon soon and will actually be doing something good with#my life vs the friend who did me this way pretending shes still in high school that freaks out and loses all her friends every 6 months#i wish it didnt bother me. and i know in 2 months im going to have brushed it off and move on like i always do when bad shit happens#but for the wound being fresh this shit just fucking sucks i hate it i hate it i hate it#i made a very very very vague post on reddit just asking for advice#and the more popular reply was someone more on my side who basically said i should tell her to go fuck herself pretty much#and the second one was someone who v obviously did not actually read the post who said it was all fluff and basically defended her even#when in my post i am saying i defended myself while still listening to the shit she says#and i fucking hate reddit bc people are so.....quick to be hateful and judge#and i knew to expect people being hateful but god DAMN like you yourself are basically saying theres not enough info (yes there was) and you#still are quicker to assume im in the wrong#meanwhile everyone who knows her is like bitch we told you to not forgive her last time and now look where you are#and i am not a perfect person i have flaws the same way everyone else does. literally everyone has said and done shit they regret#and i have fucked her over before because she lost her fucking mind on a campus manager and an educator and she told me to find my own ride#home because i didnt defend her losing her shit and screaming at everyone and ended up having to write an incident report (so did the other#girls who watched it happen so nOT just me) anyways now she uses that as an excuse for treating me like fucking trash because she finally#found out about the god damn incident report which made it so now anyone can say i said anything and she just believes it#its such a fucking joke to me because like ????? girl if we were in opposite positions you would have filled out the fuckin report too#granted it was a handwritten letter and not a report but it was basically the exact same thing as an incident report#my bad that a year ago i wrote a letter saying i was scared you know where i live and that youre mentally unstable. funny how a year later i#feel the same way all over again! except i dont because im not scared of her anymore shes a fucking theater kid who needs to get a grip#i cant wait to look at my self tag again in 2 years and be like DAMN REMEMBER WHEN THAT HAPPENED#every single person who knows her that isnt friends with her (i am basically refusing to text her friends bc i dont even want to know)#keeps telling me i didnt do anything wrong and ive given her too many chances and she fucks me each time#i just wish she would go get help bro there is something so wrong with her#self
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to everyone that said geto was gojo’s only friend and was the only one who understood him fuck you and keep shoko’s name out of your mouth
#NOW you all start to pretend to care about her?? NOW YOU ALL SUDDENLY SEE THAT SHE WAS ALWAYS HIS FRIEND AND WAS ALWAYS THERE WITH THEM??#SHE WAS SO HURT THEY BOTH LEFT HER BUT EVERYONE ONLY FOCUSED ON GETO AND GOJO EVERYONE EVEN GEGE FORGOT ABOUT SHOKO BUT I DIDNT#SHOKO WAS ALWAYS THERE RIGHT BESIDE THEM THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A TRIO GOD DAMN IT AND NOW SHES ALL ALONE#SHE JUST WANTS HER FRIENDS BACK#I WILL NEVER FORGIVE GEGE FOR PUTTING HER ON THE SIDELINES#I WILL NEVER FORVIVE EVERYONE ELSE FOR FORGETTING HER AND MAKING IT SEEM THAT GOJO ONLY HAD GETO BECAUSE NO HE DIDNT HE WASNT ALONE
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wrio x reader fluff & angst
inspired by an old message from a friend about me and it was one of the most poetic lines that destroyed me. enjoy !
music entered your ears and went out the other, you can't even recall what time it was when you last left your bed. the love of your life, or so you thought, and yourself ended things. nothing felt right anymore and simply the world felt duller. its been two days, and it was spent mourning a soul that wasn't even dead. just gone.
the fight was nothing like anything of you guys had experienced before. it definitely was not the first fight you guys have had, but dating for almost a year its bound to happen. they have all been over silly mundane things due to high tensions that get worked out by the end of the night. you did something illegal to protect what you believed was an innocent person. you were right at the end of the day, but you colored out of the lines with your boyfriend who should have thrown you in jail for it. perhaps it was just the stress of a high case getting to him, even though he'd never admit that.
your friend, navia, dragged you out of your bed and made you get ready to go on a walk. what would that do? probably nothing, but she knew you needed a distraction and at that moment nothing was more beautiful to you than a friend who wouldnt give up on you. half an hour, of course it was fates dark design that you'd run into him. he hadn't seen you before you ducked behind the wall you just came from. no way in hell you could pass him. how were you supposed to walk by pretending he was still a stranger?
there he sat, next to sigewinnie sipping tea at the outside part of a restaurant. his eyes looked more tired, but maybe you just made it up because you hoped it was hurting him as much it was you. "its been two days, i guess i could of phoned her." wrio starts. the heartbeat inside your chest increases as you easedrop, navia behind you listening in.
"i said some of the worst things i have ever said before, all to her. it was a heat of the moment thing, ya know? i dont think she understood i wasnt mad at her, not once.. i was mad at myself, actually. she had to break the law - the one i enforce - just because i didnt listen to her when she told me that guy was innocent. because of my foolishness she had to cross lines, and i had to lose her." a long pause followed. it seemed sigewinne was out of earshot
"i really did lose sight of what was important, and it was her."
"now, she may never forgive me. and i'm willing to accept that, i just want the best for her. if i could change anything it surely would be the fighting that night. it was only too late when i decided to listen to her point of view, and i hurt her because of it. i was stubborn as fuck, and i'll always listen to her if she needs a shoulder to cry on. i'll always be here for her, even if she wants nothing to do with me."
#genshin impact#genshin x you#wrio x reader#wriothesely x reader#wriothesley#genshin smut#wrio smut#genshin fanfic#genshin fluff#genshin imagines
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My take on Kotoko as a morally gray person, about a morally gray character who thinks in black and white
first of all, i absolutely love this woman, so all of this comes from a kotoko enjoyer, but when talking about canon i can not turn the blind eye to the wrongs she has done. i will talk about my perception of her murder, of her as a character and about her beating up the guilty prisoners (i will put this emoji 🐺 when i jump subjects just to keep it organized)
this next phrase is my personal take, i know some will disagree with me and thats okay, which also works as a tl;dr:
Kotoko didnt do anything wrong outside the prison, but she did wrong inside of it
i know beating up people isnt actually good, but she did research upon research to get to the bottom of the cases she was investigating and found the culprits this way. "but she could've brought them upon justice" and you arent wrong about that, but the victim she actually murdered, even when his identity was revealed to the public, the law didnt bring justice upon him.
screenshots & translations from @/maristelina (i didnt put everything in here, if you wanna check all the articles, please go check on their post!)
her victim was a child murderer, he had already killed 10 girls in 2 years, but even then, he was still free because of his father’s position of power.
then we have her other victim, the man she beat up and sent to the hospital
there are a couple articles dedicated to this one. but a quick run down: the man, Mikio Oshii, was wanted for theft and assault, having tricked at least 2 or 3 elderly people, pretending to be a bank employee, and convincing them to hand over cash, he pushed one of his victims, fracturing her ankle.
then we have the article about Kotoko’s assault. again a quick run down: someone heard screaming and found a man lying on the ground, who had lost consciousness after being beaten up, and was taken to the hospital. the police suspects a man (kotoko was wearing men’s sneakers and covering herself up). the victim was wanted for theft and assault charges and was Mikio Oshii.
further proving that she was aiming at people who prayed on the weak, she had good intentions (at least at first), and we also have the facts that she was trying to go through the lawful(?) path at first
she was studying law, showing us that she genuinely believed her cause, bringing justice to the world and protecting the innocent, or “weaklings” as she calls them, more on that later. that she was gonna try and go for the morally correct route, but what changed? what is that thing she “wants to do”? i hope we get to see her reasoning on the next trial. for now i agree with the theory that says that her or her family was victim of someone like the guy that was above law for having money and a father with a position of power. showing her the flaws of the law/justice system and thus taking matters into her own hands.
🐺 i personally believe that there are some people who dont deserve second chances, like pedos and rapists, and like the man kotoko murdered, between others. so this is why i forgive her from her crimes. she did proper research, she is passionate about it, she wants to protect the weak, or thats what she tries to convince herself of, because this brings me to my next point
she does have those violent tendencies, and she enjoys them
“this feels so good”
this is from the t1 trailer, people suspect this were phrases they said after their murders. so i think there is a possibility that while she was trying to convince herself that her actions were for justice, to try and protect the weak, and i dont doubt that that was where it came from at first, she ended up doing it out of personal enjoyment.
i once read that “if you do a good deed because you want to do it, it means that you arent a good person. to be a good person you need to do good deeds without wanting something in return” meaning that you should be uninterested on even the satisfaccion of said deed. this is a phrase that i absolutely hate and dont agree with, but i think it applies in here. kotoko was trying to do something “good” (morality is on the bearer’s eyes) by bringing to justice people who kept escaping it, by taking revenge for those weaklings she so desperately wants to protect, and while thats her main motivation, she also does it because she wants to.
i believe my girl has a thirst for power. she is self righteous, the way she refers to the people she wants to protect as “weaklings” its like shes putting them down in some way, the way on her VD she just wants to keep rambling about her theories, the way she inserted herself on Mikoto’s interrogation, the way she just assumes Es’ intentions and doesnt seem to accept when they call her out on it. she doesnt listen to others at all and once her mind is set on something, there is nothing that can move her from there. she isnt a good person…. but also, she isnt a bad person, and i feel that the fandom forgets those two statements can coexist. even if she sees herself as a saint, and firmly believes that she did nothing wrong, thats because
🐺 her world view is black and white. and this is why while i condone her actions on her murder, i do not condone her actions of beating up the guilty prisoners.
a lot of the prisoners have a black and white morality, heck, milgram itself as a system IS black and white. and from what i’ve read, a lot of the fandom also thinks in black and white. all of which i find extremely… interesting…. tbf its the nd majority vote game about nd murderers on the nd website, so makes sense (im half joking, sorry)
kotoko attacked the guilty prisoners because thats what she had been doing, and thats what she got voted innocent for on t1 (i wasnt around). but no one told her to do that, she acted on her own, she misinterpreted her judgment and forced her opinions and methods on others, claiming it were Es’, without their knowledge and without ours.
as a side note, when i first got into the fandom, i found surprising to see that kotoko was inno and fuuta was guilty on t1, since from my perspective their crimes are basically the same, they both exposed and harrowed “bad” people.
i make a lot of emphasis on black and white thinking, since its something im familiarized with, for example lets talk Amane since its her trial is still going
she is the type of girl who will correct other’s mistakes, who will call them out and try to fix them so that the others can be right, like her. her truth is absolute and even when it flails, she stands her ground and proceeds to believe in herself and her views of the world. in what i said, you could re read that and it would also apply to kotoko, and just like her, Amane also convinced herself of doing something she wanted to do by telling herself it was the right thing to do. kotoko’s “protecting the weaklings” directly translates to amane’s “punishing her mother for her sins (hurting the cat)”. so while in both cases there were hidden feelings, something tells me neither of the girls knew about their own ulterior motives, thats how well they convinced themselves.
people who think in black and white just see it as it is, right or wrong, left or right, green or blue, there is no other choice but those two. and from my personal experiences with myself and with others, its something you end up applying in almost every aspect of your life and its really difficult to change up this way of thinking. beginning to see the grays of the world and its other options its not an easy task without some proper help
overall, i dont believe she was right for hurting the guilty prisoners, and fuuta losing his eye because of her gives me a horrible gut feeling. overall, it also ties on her need for power, since she firmly believes shes Es’ “fang”, thus reducing herself a weapon for justice, not implementing her own judgment anymore, but someone else’s, ours, which my problem with her actions in this scenario. i firmly believe that if outside the prison she had came across mahiru or fuuta, she wouldn’t have attacked them, but after her t1 inno, and getting her ideals supported, her beliefs became radical, and now shes going based on our ideals, our judgments, our right or wrong, our black and white morality, MILGRAM’s black and white morality.
🐺 im still a kotoko inno truther, and i love her, shes my favorite character. but i dont expect her to get innocent this trial, as she did wrong. i dont want to say it was our fault that she harmed the other prisoners, since we had no way of knowing this would happen. in retrospect we can say whatever we want, but none of us can read the future.
i dont even have a real argument on why you should vote her innocent “shes pretty” is not good enough lmao… but who knows, maybe we will see something that makes her worthy of an inno vote on her second trial a few months from now (not counting on it, probably wont be enough)
in the end i wrote this because im really passionate about this character and her black and white views on the world (shes so intense). and because this beautiful person @archivalofsins told me to "keep talking about kotoko" and i have zero self control regarding this fictional woman.
🐺 i believe with the help of a third party, someone who could act as a moral compass to her and could teach her that the world has more colors, more choices, and if she actually learns about this, she would end up being an amazing thing.
also, if the theory about her being an accomplice of the serial killer turns out to be true, i will puke and cry :)
#please forgive me for i am not good at character analysis and i was just rambling about my fictional wife#also never give me an open floor to talk about my hyperfixations someone needs to put limits and its not gonna be myself#im sorry if this isnt comprehensible its almost 4am as im typing this and i always talk so much i get distracted and forget what i was#saying but i tried my very best to try to organize my ideas in a way that others could maybe understand!!#im also sorry if there is something wrong with the spelling or the way i said something english isnt my first language#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#milgram analysis#long post#also not her parallels with amane making me a little more fond of the little girl#about the moral compass its me ill be her moral compass i dont trust other people to give proper judgment#or maybe it could be a small group project but just a small one because i dont work well in large groups#wife <3#seari writes
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okay id like to say im sorry in advance for this but i want to talk about my headcanon of rose having a glass eye.
first of all i have canon basis for this since in deathstroke inc #1 there was a flashback to her cutting her eye out. but she still has two eyes. probably not intentional but idc im taking it as true.
now i think she would have 3 reasons for using a glass eye: number one being that its a very clear blindspot and a weakness that can be exploited, and she doesnt like showing any weak spots so she finds a way to cover it up. number two is that she doesnt want to be like deathstroke, and having white hair and an eyepatch is basically an immediate deathstroke identifier.
however i can argue against both of those reasons (her blind eye isnt a blind spot because of her precog + enhanced senses, and if she didnt want to be clocked as deathstroke adjacent the first step would be taking off his mask rather than getting a new eye) SO. my third & favorite reason is that shes trying to extend an olive branch to slade. she doesnt want to address the things that hes done to her and shes still desperate for a family, so she gets a fake eye so that slade can look at her without remembering their past. shes trying to bury everything that happened as far down as she can because its easier for her to pretend that it didnt than to acknowledge that it did. and she wants a family bad enough that shes willing to try to forget everything
but im also gonna take that a step further and say that SLADE was the one that gave her the glass eye. hes also trying to cover up the past, and doesnt want to think about the shitty things hes done, so he gives her a glass eye because he thinks that'll make her forgive him. hes not changing what hes doing now and hes not apologizing for what happened before, but hes trying to get both of them to leave it behind. and since a glass eye is the only gift that her father gives her, rose takes it and uses it because she takes anything that slade deigns to give her.
and another reason that fucks me up is because theres a line about slade that says something along the lines of "he has a clear blind spot, but hes good enough that he projects that weakness and still wins." (and i wish i could fucking remember what issue thats from. i promise ill come back here and add a screenshot if i remember) SO part of him giving her a glass eye is him not believing that shes good enough to project weakness. which i think would fuck her up given that all she wants is his approval
anyways thats my pitch for why i believe shes secretly had a glass eye this whole time. i dont think she would've told anyone because she KNOWS that having a fake eye that her dad gave her to put a bandaid over the past is bad for her. but she will take what he gives her and implant it into her skull since its a tangible representation of her fathers attention
#^ totally hasnt put way too much thought into this#i just love her so much and think about her all the time ok.#rose wilson#<- i considered not tagging this but i realized how long its been since ive been in the rose tag bc i never tag my rants <//3#dc
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Everytime— Softwilly x fem!reader
Back to you, back to you, back to you
Back to you, back to you, back to you
I go back to you, back to you, back to you everytime
A girl with relatively short hair sat in a restaurant, a solum look on her face. Her black floor length dress decored with white pearls, the waiter coming back to her table. "Ma'am I'm afraid you're going to have to give up your table." The teenager sympathized with the older woman. Y/n nodded and placed a twenty on the table before grabbing her purse and leaving the restaurant.
I get tired of your no-shows
You get tired of my control (Yuh)
They keep telling me to let go
She got into her '55 Chrysler Windsor and drove to the shared apartment, where her boyfriend laid on the couch after 'working' for hours. His barbwire and inner forearm tattoo visible due to him wearing a muscle shirt and gym shorts.
She slammed the door close as he jumped and looked at her, an 'oh shit' expression covering his face as she immediately started asking him questions.
"Nick what the fuck!? Where were you?!" She asked him as he got up from the couch. "I was here! You didn't tell me we had a date!"
"YES I DID!"
"NO YOU FUCKING DIDNT!"
They went back and forth until she finally grabbed him by his shirt and tossed him out of the apartment. "LEAVE!" She cried as he scrambled to get up from the floor, almost making it before she slammed the door in his face.
But I don't really let go when I say so (Yuh, yuh)
I keep giving people blank stares (Yeah)
I'm so different when you're not there (Yuh)
It's like something out of Shakespeare
Because I'm really not here when you're not there
"Y/n get your ass up! Come on, we have to get you to do something." Her friend tried to convince her. The girl had red curly hair, her dark skin tone complimenting the black leather dress she was wearing.
She rolled her eyes at her friend, "what's so different about Nick that you'll stay inside?" She asked only to get no response, "...whatever. I'm done." She said before walking out of the girl's apartment.
I've tried to fight our energy
But everytime I think I'm free (Yeah)
Y/n laid in her bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about nothing as her phone went off. Grabbing it she looked at the message from Nick.
'New message from Nicky🤍'
Nicky🤍
Baby I'm sorry, please forgive me..
I, in no way at all, intentionally ever wanted to make you feel that way. Seriously when I don't text you you're always the only thing on my mind. I love you so much. And I never want you to think that I'm ignoring you. Because I never do. I love talking to you. You're the only person that I love talking to. And I never want to lose you. And beside the arguing, I've never had a person treat me so good like you do and someone that respects me like you do. And I don't want to lose that. I can't lose that. Because if I ever lost you idk if I'd ever be able to be with anyone else. Because no matter what you think of yourself, you're perfect to me. Everything about you is perfect. I absolutely love everything about you.And I still can't get over the fact that I have you. I love you.
(Read 11:50 pm)
Typing...
Come over.
Please..
Nicky🤍
Be there in fifteen. 🤍
🤍
(Read 11:51 pm)
You get high and call on the regular
I get weak and fall like a teenager
Why, oh why does God keep bringing me
Back to you?
Nick showed up to her apartment and knocked, the smell of weed still strong on him. Y/n opened the door, taking in his appearance, she's not dumb to the smell of weed. But when he pulled out the bouquet of sunflowers, lilies and roses, a large smile grew on her face.
"Hi baby." He smiled as she hugged him tightly. He picked her up and closed the door to the apartment, she kissed him softly. He walked over to the room, laying her down on the bed gently and slowly moving the kiss down to her neck. Soft moans coming out of her mouth as he grabbed the hem of her shirt and took it off.
I get drunk, pretend that I'm over it
Self-destruct, show up like an idiot
Why, oh why does God keep bringing me
Back to you?
Nick could taste the alcohol in her mouth, not that he minded. He liked the fact that she drank, she was a funny and emotional drunk when they were together. Now he's not so sure what type of drunk she is.
Y/n took off his shirt and looked at him before kissing him again, this time more rough than the last. His hands on her waist while her's were on his shoulders. Both of their bodies pushed against each other. Nick pulled back from the kiss and smiled at her as she smiled back, a confirmation for what was going to happen.
I go back to you, back to you, back to you
Back to you, back to you, back to you
I go back to you, back to you, back to you everytime
Y/n stood in a room with a projector lighting up the room, it was displaying pictures and videos of Nick and her either arguing or actually being a happy couple. She started singing and dancing towards the camera as the music continued.
The room was in a pink light, the singer wearing a black body suit along with baggy pants and a baggy zip up jacket.
Just when I get on a new wave (Yuh)
Boy, you look at me and I slip outta my lace
They keep calling me a head-case
'Cause I can't make a good case why we can't change
Nick stood behind of y/n in that same room she was in, the two dancing as she laughed while he wore a bright smile. He pulled her close and kissed her softly.
The color of the room was now a light purple, the two wearing matching clothes. Nick wearing a black muscle tank, black shorts with white lining, a black hat along with some white shoes. Y/n wearing a black bra, booty shorts lined with white lining, and a 'black panda' dunks.
She wrapped her arms around his neck as they smiled at each other. Y/n singing to Nick, "I've tried to fight our energy but everytime I think I'm free.." Nick mouthing a small 'yeah' as the music continued.
You get high and call on the regular
I get weak and fall like a teenager
Why, oh why does God keep bringing me
Back to you? (Back to you, baby)
The video switched to the 'couple' fighting again as they shoved each other. Y/n was crying as Nick shouted at her.
"God why are you so fucking clingy!?"
"I'm clingy because I know WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE!" Her voice raised near the end of her sentence as she sized him up.
Puffing his chest and glaring down at her before shaking his head and shoving her onto the couch. "I'm done with your psycho ass." He grumbled only for y/n to stand on the couch and push him. "Fuck you mean you're done?!" She yelled as he turned to her.
"I mean I'm fucking done y/n IM DONE WITH EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU." He said before walking out of the apartment.
The door slammed as y/n growled and threw a picture at the door then broke down on the couch.
I get drunk, pretend that I'm over it
Self-destruct, show up like an idiot
Why, oh why does God keep bringing me
Back to you?
Y/n sat on her couch, letting Nick have their old apartment as she now had a significantly bigger one. She was watching tv in a black lingerie set, her phone going off with the name 'Nick🤍' causing her to look at it. She sighed softly and opened his messages.
Nick🤍
Y/n
Baby
Take me back.
I fucked up.
My friends say I'm boring and all I do is cry over you, let me come backZ
I'll be better for you.
y/n 🩷
You've said that a lot.
I used to believe that.
Nick we need to stop this, going back and forth.
You need to be happier and I'm not the cause for that.
Nick🤍
Fine. You're a bitch anyways.
🖕🏻
😪
y/n🩷
Okay Nick.
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I go back to you, back to you, back to you (I go back to you)
Back to you, back to you, back to you (Back to you)
A couple years later
Nick sat at a bar for some social event with the rest of the groupchat. They were all off doing their own stuff, he drank a small white claw and watched as Issac and Yumi danced in a ridiculous manner.
Eventually he noticed a girl sitting at a table with longer hair. It might've been the alcohol talking but he could've sworn it was y/n.
She looked good, healthier actually. Her hair was longer yet nicely put in a messy bun, a nose piercing, long nails, her face looked fuller, lips a bit more thicker, just overall healthy.
The guilt filled him up as she walked over, not noticing him yet. She ordered a vodka tonic and smiled sweetly at the female bartender. Looking around and eyes landing on Nick.
I go back to you, back to you, back to you everytime
I go back to you, back to you, back to you
The two had started talking about three hours ago, they left the bar around hour one. Y/n had been talking about her growth in singing and modeling while Nick spoke of his growth with streaming and videos.
The two were at a in-n-out, standing out greatly due to the pair wearing obvious clubbing outfits. Also their loud laughs that boomed over the other people in the restaurant.
Letting out a small sigh Nick looked at y/n. "I like this..." he admitted. She looked at him confused before he explained further. "Us being this comfortable. Not to be rude but when's the last time me and you actually had a decent conversation like this?"
A awkward quiet covered the two "we'll at least you can still make a conversation awkward." She joked and took a sip out of her milkshake.
She stood up and laid a twenty on the table, "well here to pay you back." She grabbed her purse and handed him back his jacket.
Nick watched as she left, quickly following behind her "y/n!" He said before stopping her and kissing her softly.
Her hand raised to slap him before melting into the kiss, hand falling on his shoulder with the other one limply pulling him closer.
They pulled away and chuckled softly, both eyes closed still until they kissed again.
I go back to you, back to you, back to you every time
#softwilly#softwilly x reader#the group chat#the group x reader#song fic#first post#tgc#issacwhy#larry croft#yumi#Spotify
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Dad!Tim AU chapter 5
Part 1
• While Damian and Bruce get Talia to the medbay, Babs calls the others home from patrol for a family meeting
• They all meet in the cave, everyone shocked to see Talia, and sure enough Jason's ready to lop off some heads if only they were closer
• Bruce explains, slightly pink in the face, about the altercation and admits to the secret marriage license
• I FUCKING KNEW IT Dick shrieks
• "I DID know it," Jason says, sticking out his tongue.
• Damian is pissed that he did not know it but he wanted it, so he says he knew it
• Tim is listening with wide eyes, clutching a sleeping Eira so so close against his chest and trembling slightly because, God, the league was HERE, they were going to TAKE HER AWAY and probably KILL HER or or use her against him, and...
• Steph quietly asks if she can hug him, and Tim sags in her arms
• Bruce and Babs and even Talia rush to reassure him that its ok. The records are in place now, that makes it DAMN hard for ra's to do anything, and once they... well they dont HAVE to but if they make it publicly known that Eira is TIMS the way Damian is BRUCES then Ras will well and truly be powerless
• Tim nods grimly. He knows what all the socialites will think, what the board will think, the general popualtion... he knows he's in for all the judgment and scrunity and insults that come with being a teen dad but if it keeps Eira safe then he doesn't fucking care
• He tucks her closer under his chin and she makes a sleepy itty bitty sound, tiny fingers fisting in his shirt. Her peach-fuzz hair is so so soft against his jaw. He imagines for a split second if he doesnt come out and claim her, if Ra's, if...
• He moves his hand to protect her head and dips his own head to kiss her. He wont let it happen. He cant.
• Babs clears her throat
• She explains that she had started a fake birth certificate a while back, but hadn't brought it to Tim yet because she didnt want to overwhelm him, thinking they had time. Shes got Eiras DOB, sex, height, weight, and Leslie's signature and date to say that she delivered the kid and saw her through to discharge
• She was going to have Tim physically sign it, but had to forge it instead
• Tim tells her thats fine. He can scribble right on top if they want, but she does good work.
• Babs still.looks uncomfy.
• A few others seem to realize why
• She explains softly that the reason she'd waited was because she didn't want to make him think about what to put down for Eira's mother.
• The room goes still
• Babs takes a deep breath and works through her split-second logic, eyes pleading for tim either to understand or forgive
• There was no way for her to forge something as Eira's birth mother, even if she had thought Tim would want that
• "I don't" he mutters. She doesn't deserve that. Not after she let Ra's (try to) KILL the baby she raped Tim to get
• Babs rushes, almost stumbles, through her explanation of why she didn't create a fictitious woman - how the hell to account for her and how they met, because there WOULD be questions, the possibility that Ra's could poke holes without a woman who could and would support the claim, the way it felt so degrading to Tim to make up some random rapist that would never be brought to justice or random lover who'd end up as some Unspoken Of Shame because a sympathetic human could never be produced...
• She takes a deep breath and says that if Tim had been older, she would have claimed Eira herself, be the one to take the "fall" for not having done the whole thing sooner. But Tim’s ten years her junior, she's been too publicly involved with Dick, and it would force them into a charade that would be too long and public and awkward for either of them
• Tim slowly nods and agrees, no offense babs, but he doesn't want to pretend he trysted with his big brother's girlfriend
• She nods and takes a deep breath and says that she... she forged Steph's signature for Eira's mother
• Tim's eyes widen
• Steph goes very still
• Barbara rushes to explain that she KNOWS they're not like that, but they ARE so so close, if it came to speaking up to something Ra's tried to pull, steph could and would, based on eira's looks, she COULD pass as their genetic daughter, steph already knows the whole story and wouldn't need to be brought up to speed, she already adores Eira, and Steph, she knows... she knows... she doesnt, she SWEARS she didnt choose her judt because...
• "Its ok" Steph says softly
• It... was a shock, for a minute. It still feels a bit weird, under her pounding heart. Because Steph already has a baby. Except she gave it up. Suddenly, in the eyes of... everyone, she's a mom again, but Eira isn't her kid. She didnt carry her, birth her, nurse her. Steph was not a person you trusted to be a mother
• At fifteen, she reminds herself. She's 18 now. She's 18, and her one act as a mother WAS to ensure her child went to a good, loving, stable home, the one she couldn't have provided.
• But now... she still doesn't have her act together, but this baby's dad is THERE. He's also got a huge family thats *there* and a house. Money for anything Eira needs. Steph... Steph isn't goingnto be tryijg to do it alone.
• And she and Tim aren't together, she doesn't know if they will again or wont but still, they've been best friends for years, they've gotten through their fights, and she KNOWS him. She loves him, and she loves Eira. And maybe that's enough. Just that she loves them and they love her, and *need* her too. Besides, Babs already signed her name
• Steph finds a smile, and hugs Tim and Eira a little tighter. His eyes are wide and worried, looking at her
• "Hey, I'll claim your lil cutie any day," she says
• Tim feels something unwind in his chest. He doesn't think he'd have ever asked but... but Steph feels right. He almost wishes it could be the way they're going to say it was. He can't summon a picture of mom and dad kind of love without wanting to throw up, but. He and Steph aren't and don't have to be that. She's the best friend hes ever had and... and best friends can raise a kid together
• Because he knows Steph will commit. If they're saying Tim is Eira's dad and Steph is Eira's mom... they used to talk about how their parents had done things, how they refused to follow those examples. But he and Steph have been a team for a long time. They can be a team in this. They're a good team.
• "She has your eyes," he jokes, rather weakly, but when their eyes meet, he knows they're both agreeing. They both look at babs and nod
• She looks incredibly relieved, even as she assures them both that she would have asked if she had ANY more time, and shes sorry she didn't
• But its ok. Tim looks around at his family. His dad, looking both sad and proud. His... stepmom? That'll take some getting used to, but Talia isn't Ras or Maat. Shes Damian and Jasons mom. She looks very mom like right now.
• His brothers, soft and only a little pained, Dick blinking very hard, Jason still looking understandably murderous, and Damian dazed as he holds Talia's hand
• His sisters, Babs relaxing and giving him a hesitant smile, Cass bouncing a little with what may either be rage or happiness, her face is too even to tell.
• His daughter, sleeping safe and sound against his heartbeat, untouched by the trauma that surrounds her
• His... His partner. Steady and warm at his side, determined and brave in this as she is in everything she cares about
• And for the first time, Tim really thinks it all might be ok.
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Okay here to create an entire au based on just one song lyric but:
"What if the protagonists just died in the first scene?"
Anne did NOT survive that first week. But the guardian is like "shit didnt think this far ahead ummm ghost?" So Anne is this visible but *mostly intanglibe spirit. she panics at first bc "OMF I DIED" but gets used to it. shes visible, can still interact with people. she has cool ghost powers now. aint all that bad, aint it?
*If she focuses reallyyyyy hard than she can get like. half an hour of tangibleness. MAX
anyway now to over exlpain stuff as it pops into my head but ill put it under the cut dont worry. got the basic stuff anyway alwaredy
So: Reunion. Anne of the year happens and stuff and Toadie is like "some one says their a friend" yada yada yada stuff so anne is still ghost when she goes up to sasha. BUT she has learned that its best to pretend to be alive at least when approaching someone so she float walks up (looks like shes walking but is actaully floating) and then realizes its sasha and goes "Oh shit" and tangibles herself just before the hug. during the ride she lets herself go untangible but still trys to keep herself not see through so sasha doesnt know whats up. anyway while theyre at toad tower she tangibles but is really fucking tired most of the time. fight happens and anne is holding on with everything shes got. except she can feel herself losing focus. Sasha says the whole 'better off without me" line but right before she can let herself go Anne goes intangible again so sasha drops but she knows she was still holding on and she could feel anne so what happened? sasha has a lot of questions. Anne has extra grief bc she was the one who dropped sash. yeah...
Marcy at the gates! Anne is fully prepared to float over the wall and stuff but doesnt bc fam is in danger and oh hey theyre saved and thats a weird looking newt let me float over and help them but- oh. that is a human. who has just seen me be very much not alive. shit.
Anne pretends that nothing happened for a bit and goes tangible and all that while theyre doing the barbirant quest thing. Marcy is like "well, since she's not mentioning it, I must have imagined it!" Until that one bit where Marcy like shoves Anne out of the way. And just goes straight through her. Both girls eyes widen as they process what just happened but Anne takes control and is like "I'LL EXPLAIN LATER LETS FOCUS ON THE FIGHT RN" so yada yada yada thing happens except Anne kinda hides ghostyness a little less bc the secret is already out, not much you can do now. After fight she explains and marcy is broken. She brought her best friend here and now shes dead. She killed her best friend. Breaks so hard in fact that she spills the secret to Anne who is like "what. i- i need time to think" so they dont talk for multiple days besides the king andrias meeting**. Anne eventually lets Marcy explain why and friendship is very strained but Anne learns to move on. Not forgive, not yet, maybe not even ever, but move on. It happened, and all she can do now is deal with the consequences.
**CORE LORE HEHEHE. So actaully gonna slightly change some core lore and shit. Anne takes one look at the crown and it like "that thing is evil and I dont know why" bc she has some extra spirit senses now. She tries to focus in on it and her eyes flash blue for a second and she catches a glimpse of thousands of orange spirits, all with to many eyes, floating around the crown and whispering in Andrias's ears. She cant see them again, but is very suspicious of Andrias now. Thankfully, the core didn't see her. Or did it?
One little spirit, mostly ignored by the rest, saw her looking. For some reason, it doesn't feel compelled to tell the rest of the hivemind. It knows they wont look in it's mind, it has long lost all usefullness, only around because it was forgotten. It itself can't connect with the rest, and has no reason to want to. It follows Anne, leaving the core behind. It watches, silent. Until one day, Anne catches a glimpse of it following her. She doesnt day anything until she is alone. She calls out, "I know you're there." It is surprised, but becomes visible to her. (only her. thats important. but yeah the core ghosts have more control over theyre visiblity and shit.) She is surprised. It seems... so small. "Who are you?" It seems to think. It does not know. It's name has long faded from memory. It tells her so, and she softens just a bit more. "What are you?" It perks up. This it knows the answer to! It tells her of the Core, the collection of Amphibia's greatest minds. She understands why she dislikes the crown now, and what she saw that day. But she also knows that this little fellow wont hurt her.
Anne has a little ghost buddy now. She names it Clementine. (It's faintly orange, just like all the other Core ghosts, but slightly less as it is nearly entirely removed from the hivemind.)
#ghost anne au#dang i put a lot more into this than i originally thought i would.#amphibia au#amphibia#anne boonchuy#ghosts#birb blurts
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i got a lot of thoughts about loveless by alice oseman and if this post seems very one sided well thats just how it read to me. my opinion isnt the end-all and i value how everyone interpreted and was affected by this book. this isnt a closed topic lets talk about it
gripes with loveless by alice oseman
took a while to actually explain that ace and aro are two separate identities and still not that well. it makes aro seem like a subset of ace which is entirely false. its cool there was an aroallo character involved but still
the book title 'loveless' is a real term and identity and the entirety of the book kinda shits on it by enforcing the ideal that its still okay to be aspec cause platonic love can be experienced and any type of love is required or at least better than "not feeling anything and being alone forever"
it was weird for her friends to forgive her over gestures that had nothing to do with apologizing before georgia actually apologized and explained but that may just be more of a personal thing that i didnt like. likewise the story being about platonic love it kinda sucks her deepest connection is with her roommate and not the people shes known for years and wronged
kinda sex negative. i mean rooney says she doesnt dislike casual sex but then that whole thing becomes the reason she hates herself and a reason to cope with being "unloveable" and its kinda lame. you can tell that story without making it seem like casual sex is just a means of devaluing yourself. and you can be sex repulsed and still not do that. it just feels unfair to aroallo people especially who are told they are monsters for enjoying and only wanting casual sex when this book is supposed to be about aromanticism too
(can we also be done with harry potter references??? lets stop hurting trans and jewish people thanks)
basically particular identities' stories shouldnt come at the expense of others and other ways of life. its great and important to write different experiences because no one is gonna relate to them all but no one has to replace romantic love with ANY type of love to feel good about themselves and be human. loveless and aplatonic people shouldnt have to read something that uses rhetoric against their identities within a book about aspec people
things i like about loveless
i didnt relate to it personally but the experiences felt very genuine. internalized aphobia, being hounded by aphobic comments, finding it hard to portray love even in a fictional or artistic sense, etc.
I appreciate the references to race and intersectionality that come with being queer even if they were minimal. so few times is it actually acknowledged that there is privilege when it comes to being understood, coming out, being accepted, etc. the references to that were nice to see because too often intersectionality being brought up is brushed off and blatantly ignored or people pretend like they understand
it was written by someone who is aroace even if there are some things that can be less isolating within the aspec community with the language being used. someone being open about their identities and how they choose to define them in the mainstream world is how we get more peoples voices in there
it has helped people discover their own identity though id still recommend further research on the actual identities being named and ones not named. these stories are the first introduction of aspec identities in mainstream and that hopefully means itll start to expand to other identities within that community that have not yet had representation
this should be the start of developing more rep. the first takes are not gonna represent everyone and its a good thing it exists to tell a few peoples story. but that doesnt mean it should be free from any criticism because thats how we make them continuously better. i hope to see an aroallo character soon. i want the term loveless to be properly used in media and expressed for what it is. i want to stop pretending like ace is the umbrella term for all aspec identities. i want amatonormativity explained as the sociological term it is that harms all life not just aromantic and polyamorous people. i want a polyam aspec character and polyam characters in general. i want disabled and ethnic aspec characters where the intersectionality is just as important to the narrative. i want a whole lot more and to stop prentending like any of that should be unreasonable
#loveless#alice oseman#osemanverse#aromantic#arospec#aspec#aroace#aroallo#loveless aromantic#loveless aro#queer#lgbtqia#made this sideblog specifically for this post
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fuck yeah ok lets get into it. i tend to be irresistibly drawn towards whatever i think would get the most genuine disgust out of people i know irl, which is hard bc my friends are all also freaky transsexuals who are into edgeplay. so i got creative. this one is too involved to roleplay and probably crosses a lot of lines for a lot of people but i do love talking about it. also somewhat inspired by that movie "may december".
the concept is to find a transfem in a vulnerable position, probably newly transitioned, probably younger than me, and support her and date her and get her dependent on me and comfy with me. then i tell her im into cnc & i want her to top. once we try it out the first time i flip on her. i tell her she crossed my boundaries in a major way on purpose and that shes a rapist and a predator. once shes apologizing to me for nothing i forgive her and take her back. then it gets meaner. i initiate sex with her but stop when she gets close to orgasm. tell her i dont trust her to control herself and im too traumatized to continue. keep doing this until i get her pent up and really believing shes a monster who cant help herself. until she breaks and forces herself on me for real. of course i stopped taking birth control & didnt tell her, but pretend i did and act horrified that she came inside me. when i get pregnant i say i want to keep it and make her beg me not to, just so i can guilt her over that later. then i can blackmail her, keep her and our friends thinking shes the one abusing me, and tell her ill ruin her life if she tries to leaves me. so i can have a cute little pet for ever and ever :)
wowwwwwee you are dastardly anon. May December toxic trans masc edition. you should definitely write some fics! and tag them to hell and back. this reminds me of a lot of the forced detransition cnc kink stuff in terms of what a lightning rod it can be but also how immensely hot it can be because it is a subject that is so triggering and charged.
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hi how are you? <3 could you write a one shot where billy sleeps with inexperienced fem reader and then tells her that he did it just because he thought she was easy. but then he’s desperate to make things right with her and does everything to gain her forgiveness? sorry if this is to specific. have a great day!!
COMPLICATED
Billy x reader
A/n hey babies so here's another one for you I still have more to complete but they're on the way. Not the best at smut but i still hope you enjoy also I'm good and thank you love
WARNING: SUMT 18+ with fluff at the end
Read to find out love
Billy hargrove how exactly did we get here? You though to yourself, I was the supposed to be the good girl,the one that got good greads and the one everyone adored.
The older women in Hawkins though I would be a respectable house wife, with a bubbly and out going personality. The kind of house wife a father would be proud of their son to take home such a gal.
But that's everything I absolutely hate, being "good" and "innocent" no one every really cared about what I wanted or how I felt. In all honesty I liked being bad, what started out as Billy hargrove wanting to help me break out of my shell for some reason, took a turn of us meaning of in the back of his camaro as he proceeded to fuck the absolute shit out of me, and he'd do it everyday if he had his way.
One day in particular Billy came over and I hugged and kissed him getting ready to listen to music or watch a movie my parents were out of town, So he would sneak over to my house in the middle of the night.
Sometime when it's gonna be a heavy session Billy would bring clothes stay over at my house and we'd drive to school together if he knew I wouldn't be able to walk right. Then Billy said something and made my heart drop to the pitbof my stomach "Y/n...I think we should stop." My heart breaking into pieces, "what why?" My eyes filling with tears.
"What don't you get babe, your easy, dumb and naive, correction innocent that's it!, ding! ding! ding! ." I stooped him in his tracks with a slapped to his face and he was enraged.
"Billy don't you fuckin dare, if you think I'm so easy. You won you should be proud of yourself BILLY FUCKIN HARGROVE KING OF HAWKINS HIGH IS A BIG FUCKIN PHONY AND A LIAR AND A CHEAT!" Tear were pouring down my face filled with hurt anger and rage...
" you know what Billy get the fuck out of my house and when you see me in school just pretend like you don't even know me." With that I pushed him out my window realizing he made a mistake, he wanted to make it right but it was too late.
Days turn into weeks and weeks turn into month's. It was the end of the school year and one week till the final game for the basketball team. I was practicing with the girls from the team on a Saturday evening, until Billy came in and proceeded to pull me out of my cheerleading practice. "Billy let go, Billy stopped."
I tried to get my hand out of his grip because the way he acting was ridiculous, he stopped and looked at me with with hurt fury and something else and yet he still managed to pull me in a trans.
"Y/n stop do you understand me." All I could do was nod, and the fact rhat everyone stopped what they were doing to look at us that mean Billy was serious.
"Hey Hargrove let her go! Y/n doesnt desever to be with a scumbag like you." Almost everyone in the snicker but but Billy didnt flinch not one bit.
Billy turn to face Jason the leader of the basketball team and his perfect little cult followers, I seriously dont know why Lucas joined the team.
I looked to see Lucas' face had an expression of worry but I reassured him I was fine. The next things Billy spoke was a shock. "Well Jason you can keep wanking off to my girl in the fuckin locker room, while I'm getting the real fucking thing!"
The gym erupted in ooohhhs, some people were shocked and others laughed. Billy laughed flash a delivish smile and slapped my ass. "Billy!!!" "WOO That's right baby your gonna be screaming my name!!."
With that he turn to drag me to his car but not before Lucas yealled, " I'm telling Max!!!" " Go ahead what do I care." Billy just kept moving he was a man on a mission.
I reluctantly got in the car, the evening ride turned into a late night drive into the night in his camaro and taking me to a open field filled with flowers and fireflies and it was beautiful. I thought it was something out of a fairytale a place I wouldn't think Billy belonged but it was Okay because if only he knew that I still yearned for him, he was my first and I wanted him to be my last.
" Billy its late what so you want, I have church in the morning." "Y/n...please I've missed you." "Yeah sure you do".
At this point we were in the field leaning on the hood of his car, with his arms wrapped around my waist and me in-between his leg. "Y/n, I'm a dam fool, I shouldn't have said any of that, I'm an asshole that should have realized what... what I lost but because of my pride... it got the better of me. I thought for a moment on to make him wait in anticipation and also he did look sincere. "So." "So."" Come on y/n your killing me here."
"Fine Biiilllllyy, but I'm gonna tell you this right now you have a lot of making up to do, especially with that ego of yours." "I know and I will with, do I have permission to kiss you."
He gave me an all to knowing smirk that I knew exactly what it meant and I've carved to see it so much." "Well dummy are you gonna kiss me!?." With that Billy picked me up and slid back of the hood of his car and slowly kissed me.
Slow and sweet billy pepperd my body with kisses as I was on top of him srattling his legs and through the thin fabric of my pantiess and uniform rub my clit agianst his boner and he proceeded to grab my wasit to push down harder on my clit and grinded our hips togther making are breathes quicken in pace all the while deepening our kiss and desire for each other.
He held me and climb off the hoof of his car and undressed me from cheerleader uniform, that was the first time I was touched by anybody. He laid me flat on the hood of his car as he hovered over me, kissing the nape of my neck trailing down all the way to my cunt at this point my body was bare, billy look up from between my thighs giving me a delivish grin. Then his next actions sent bliss all over my body "Billy" , "BILLY" I said a little louder "BiLly sTop Please I can't taake this it's too much", my face flush and warmed from the heat I felt running through my body.
I whimpered and moaned his name. I was almost at my climax screaming his name and then stopped. "Billy why'd you stop, Please keep going daddy."
Billy stop and hovered over me "Daddy, you like that, dollface."
I nod my head in anticipation and pulled him by the neck giving him giving him kiss all over his neck sure to leave some hockey's behind in the process, I hear billy moaning in my ear his eyes roll back I'm pleasure. "Shit y/n." He said in a low deep voice, "I can't take this any more, I'm gonna fuck you on the hood of my car and your gonna take like a good princess you are or are you gonna miss behave."
In my mind either way Billy would absolutely ravage me but I wanted the the whole experience so I missed behaved." And what I said no." " wrong answer sweetheart." Before I knew it Billy gragged me to my feet opened the car door proceeded to take a seat he finally took off his jeans which excited my body even more, his cocktail was dripping with pre-cum, he wasn't gonna be easy going on for the first.
" now princess look at this mess you caused, my cock is dripping be a doll and clean it up for me." I sat their on my need taking his cocktail all in but Billy was impatient and grabbed a fist full of hair, push my head towards his cocktail as much as I could take.
"Doll move your head back and forth, also don't use your theeth""Billy I know,its not my first time anymore." Still he guided my head as I sucked on his cock, I wanted to take in all of him so I pushed his hand away my hair and held his hands down. Every moan he'd make and cursed out loud " Fuck! baby you sure you haven't doing this before."
Mhm was all I could say I was too busy wanting to earn more moans from Billy, but he bent over causing me to take in more of his cock to slap my ass. I whimpered in pleasure and then he stopped my head to pull out I wined.
" Billy please I want your cock inside me" He smirked, " of course princess you deserve this cock." Billy told me to stay on my knees at the point you could tell it was gonna be sunrise soon from the way the night sky was changing colour.
He brought out a blanket for me to lay on pointed me towards the blanket of the soft bed of grass, billy turn his car on to play some music in t he background which I thought was romantic.
He came back with a condom but I told him, he wouldn't need it since I was on birth control. " you ready y/n." "Yes, Billy please." Billy slipped his cock inside of me, it was slightly painful but he waited a bit for me to be comfortable and then he slowly started to thrust in and out of me and waves of pleasure and ecstasy hit him.
Billy went faster over time and it was the Crack of dawn. I couldn't take it anymore I wrapped my arms and legs around his body making his go faster. Billy,Billy,Billy, please fuck me, cum inside me daddy take this pussy. "Yeah, y/n you want daddy to cum inside you are you my flighty little whore of a princess" He said while grunting.
He went faster and the pit in my stomach was gonna explode" Billy, Daddy please fuck, I'm Cumming!!!" " yeah then come for Billy, cum for you fucking daddy" I closed my eyes shut but he gave me hard and deep thrust. " y/n open your fuckin eyes and look at me while I fuck you."
I did what he told me to. " I'm the only one that gets to be cum inside this pussy do you understand, only me and I don't want you to fuckin make eyes at anyone else but fuckin me."
At this point I already came and tears were streaming down my face as I whimpered Billy's name to stop because the pleasure was too much. All the anger I have for him went away and my eyes rolled back. He was getting ready to come and I was hitting another climax.
" Fuck!Fuck!Fuck! I'm gonna fuckin come y/n ahhh fuck tell ne me I can fuckin breed you baby." Yes, Billy please cum for me." FUCK Y/N. "BILLY" we both screamed in pleasure Billy pushing himself deep inside me realsing his load shaking but continously pumping inside me.
Both our bodies laid down on the sheet our bodies a sweaty tangled mess, billy pulled me close to him at this point it was day break and the sunrise was beautiful, in that moment Billy was beautiful his curly hair now laid a tangle mess and his beautiful ocean eyes staring back at mine.
He pulled me close and peppered me with kiss all over my temple, Billy got up and and grabbed a spare blanket to cover us up along with a pack of particular cigarettes he liked to smoke.
I always told him that smoking was bad for his health but usually he grumbled and put it away as I'd always put it out or not let him kiss me because I didn't like the taste. "Y/n you still with me? He smiled and I smiled back. " Yeah I'm still here, what's up?" " Baby... no Y/n I'm sorry, for the things I said, your not easy, nor are you in anyway easy to manipulate.
That was an asshole move of me and I shouldn't have said what I said, just because I didn't want you getting to close to me. But before my ass rambles on and gets all sappy and shit." Billy lifted up my chin to makes sure I made eye contact with him, "BE my girlfriend, and be my one and only, and we can take it easy. I'm being serious and I'll make it up to you and I know I'm not perfect but-".
"Billy it's okay People say things they'll regret, yes I'll be your and yes we'll take it slow or as fast as you want, I know this isn't really your thing. But I'll make you learn to love one step at a time I'll be there." "Promise" "I promise Billy."
With that said I took out a cigarette and passed it to him and lid it, while he smoked he held me and we just listened to the tunes from his car, for the rest of that Sunday morning.
#stranger things x y/n#stranger things#y/n x character#billy hargrove#billy hargrove x female reader#billy hargove smut#billy hargove x reader#lucas stranger things#jason stranger things#max stranger things
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Yoo can I request Nikolai with a platonic! younger female reader who's mother is like Nagisa's mother but she wanted a son instead? e.g. she forces her daughter to crossdress, have short hair, and basically dictates her daughter's life without letting her do what she wants. How would Nikolai react since it kinda goes against his values of freedom yknow
If this is triggering, please feel free to ignore this request.
Hii! I'm so sorry for posting this super late, but school's been testing me recently haha. I was really interested by this concept and it saddened me that I couldn't work on it sooner, sorry again! (I am so sorry if I didnt do it justice) Thank you for the request and hope you enjoy!
Nikolai Gogol x Female Reader
Summary: in the ask
Warnings: controlling mother, suggestions of killing
WC: 0.5k
Main Masterlist
Freedom was Nikolai's ultimate goal. He'd rather die than not be free, yet here you were standing in front of him, confined and still living your poor life. The exact opposite of Nikolai.
You were the object of Nikolai's disdain. He wasn't disdainful towards you as a person, no, he liked you too much to look down on you. But what he did look down on was your situation. It went entirely against his goal. And that insulted him. How could someone he was fond of be so trapped when you could be so free?
You had the freedom to walk away and leave your restrictive mother. You had the freedom to grow your hair out to look more feminine the way you wanted. You had the freedom to wear the clothes that you felt comfortable in. Yet you still came to him wearing masculine clothing, pretending to be someone you weren't. All to please the woman who birthed you.
It truly was pathetic in Nikolai's eyes. But you were someone he cared about, so that disdain turned to anger and he would happily end your mother if it meant that you could embrace yourself as a female and not a male.
You sat down next to him on the pier. You had a new haircut today. He pursed his lips but bit his tongue when he saw your defeated eyes.
"New haircut,"
"Yeah,"
You smiled at him. Even on the worst days, just being near Nikolai brought a smile onto your face.
"I don't want to talk about her. I will say though, that I did fight,"
"Really? Well I'm proud,"
Nikolai refrained from ruffling your hair and instead patted your shoulder. You beamed at him. How adorable. You were like a sister to him.
If only he could protect you and make you happy like a big brother should. He was free, so he didn't see why he couldn't set you free.
You lightly touched his clenched fist. He stared at you slightly surprised.
"Being friends with you makes me happy, and for now I just want to stay like this. I don't want to worry or to think about her. I'll take it one small step at a time, so please be patient,"
Your smile calmed him. And even though he'd go to the ends of the world to make you happy, he would never do something that you didn't want him to do. Like removing your mother's existence from the world.
"Alright. Just know that I'm always here for you,"
"I know,"
Nikolai smiled lightly as you rested your head on his shoulder.
"Perhaps freedom will have to wait, as long as it means I can enjoy these moments with you with no worries, I'm happy,"
But beneath that smile and carefree tone, violent thoughts swirled around in his head. You were so sweet, so forgiving. So naive.
He had to set you free from your controlling mother. Life was given to you so you could be free. You were stripped of the freedom that you so clearly deserved. He felt passion burning in his chest more strongly than it ever did before.
Nikolai would set you free, no matter the cost.
#nikolai x y/n#nikolai x you#nikolai x reader#gogol x reader#nikolai x fem reader#nikolai gogol x reader#nikolai gogol x you#bsd x reader#bsd x y/n#bsd x you#bsd x female reader#gogol nikolai x reader
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hi i have to come clean. i am the one who did hack into uniques stuff. i lied nd said i was sandra but thats not my name nd i would prefer not to even say it. wen her first blog came out she said sumthn to me that made me mad nd i wants to get her back. i major in computer science so it was easy to hack into her phone. i pretended i was a follower nd even became a mutual of hers. it was easy. i got into her phone wit the help of sum of my friends nd once we got in it was easy. i listened to all her convos nd everythn. so she still used her phone but certain apps she wasn’t able to use. i even took money out of her account nd she didnt even notice. but i decided to say sumthn now becuz it wasnt supposed to go this far. she said she was going to go thru with suicide nd i felt bad. i didnt kno she was pregnant eitha nd i feel bad. it was supposed to be a joke, but i took it too far. @charmedreincarnation nd myself decided to end it by sayn all that stuff nd then deactivating the account. i swear on my puppy hayes that she helped me do it. she thought it wuld be funny to see it happen nd so did i. but i didnt think unique wuld commit suicide over it. i do kno where she lives nd ive been tryn to get a hold of her best friend since i havked her phone but she isnt answerin. i kno where she lives nd im going to send the police over there to check on her. i kno this wasn’t supposed to go this far, but im srry it did. i hope unique is ok. i kno @charmedreincarnation is going to hate me for doin this but i had to do it. im srry. plz forgive me.
are you serious right now? no no no no no
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reading the japanese and english takukamu S supports im just getting really emotional over the japanese version
when i reread the official english version, i realize they kinda water down how takumi really felt. that explains why i got REALLY emotional reading the japanese version. some of the changes were:
english: there is something else I wanted to talk about…
japanese: will you listen to my request?
while this doesnt seem much, the eng version makes takumi sound calmer while jpn version makes him sound nervous. it was a bit odd when takumi says request but then
english: So…does this change anything? About your feelings toward us, I mean.
japanese: Hey. Earlier... you said you would listen to my request. So, will you... forgive me for this?
apparently after confessing his feelings n telling the truth, jpn takumi clearly felt disgusted and horrified that he has romantic feelings for someone he was supposed to call sister. eng takumi once again makes him feel calmer and chill as if he had enough time to think and ponder--almost as if the big truth wasnt all that much--while jpn takumi is implied to have rued and suffered through his feelings, fearing that kamui will hate or be disgusted with him. after alls said and done, all takumi ever wanted was for kamui to accept him even if she doesnt love him
english:
Avatar: When you said that you liked me, my heart started racing. But I didn't want it to show because I didn't know about Father. Everything is so confusing.
Takumi: That's right. But in a confusing world, we must cling to the few fragments of truth we share. And the truth is that I love you, Avatar, and you love me. Let's build a future on that.
Avatar: Y-yes. I think you're right. Let's give it a shot. What's the worst that could happen?
japanese:
Kamui: When you said that you liked me earlier, I was really happy. Because we're siblings, I've avoided saying such a thing...
Takumi: Kamui-neesan...
Kamui: ... But you came straight out and said you liked me. You showed me that it was okay to love you. Thank you, Takumi. I also want to stay by your side...
Takumi: Nee-san...!! For you to have the same feelings as me, I've never been this happy in my life. So... I'll give you this ring. ... I'll protect you with my whole life.
Kamui: ... I'm so happy, Takumi! From now on, please take care of me!
Takumi: Okay...!
once again this ending!!!! while i do like the eng version the fact that it feels......less emotional than the japanese one. yes takumi is more assured of his feelings now that its reciprocated. i hate that the english version doesnt wanna highlight the 'i cant romantically love you coz i thought we were siblings' like cowards. apply the brocon/siscon themes in this game as its supposed to be. but yeah i still do appreciate takumi being more confident and kamui still being hesitant but they both embraced their feelings nicely
but the japanese one
oooohhh OOOHHH kamui straight up saying she loves takumi too but didnt act out coz she thought they were related. takumi preparing A RING eventho he was 70% sure she wont love him the same way. takumi saying he will protect her with his own life which brings the whole conquest story 10x more painful.
english: If you were aiming for my heart, you've struck true. This was meant to be…
cheesy cute S support dialogue. 10/10. adorable. the last sentence is my otp tag for them after all
japanese: Thank you, sister. I'm so very happy. No matter what people think...these feelings won't change. I love you.
HEARTBREAKING HONEST S SUPPORT. 12/10 MAKING ME CRY. LOVE THAT HE PROMISES NO MATTER WHAT HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER. GOOD GOD
and my personal favourite difference of them all?
english: I'm sorry. I struggled with whether or not to tell you any of this. After all, now that you know, we can never go back to being siblings. But I couldn't simply pretend to be your brother for the rest of my life. Especially not with the way I felt about you. It is shameful, I know.
again takumi is being calm and somewhat professional. he knows its weird and tbfh i hate that the localization want to highlight how weird it is. we get it i know. but they make takumi level-headed which when i think back is kind of off for him but i appreciate the maturity of his behaviour here
japanese: I'm sorry... Nee-san. I was really at a loss as to whether I should tell you this or not. Now that I have, we can't go back to being siblings. But I... couldn't have beared living my whole life acting as your brother. I would have rather died...
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK OHHH MY GOOOOD FUCK FUCK FUCK AAAAAAAAAA!!!! i can hear his pain. his sorrow. his guilt. there is no voice acting in the supports but i can HEAR takumis emotions. the very fact that he loves her so so much and he cant bear pretending to be her brother anymore. the very fact that seeing kamui with another man might n will kill him. the very fact that he would rather die than pretending to be someone hes not. this is what im eating. this is what ive been robbed. this very line made me cry THE SECOND I READ IT im about to cry now!!! that very last line is just a big Fuck You to his fate in conquest GOD AAAAAAAAAA
#anyways hi. im very normal about takumi and takukamu#im only holiday today so its only fair. that i feel normal. about takumi#fafar yaps#about fe14#i believe his final S support dialogue is the same#it has the same emotional impact so ill give kudos to that#but the very difference between the english and japanese dialogues.....#like. i get tht the eng got a few gripes#and while the japanese version has its flaws too#its kinda annoying to know that they got rid or entirely change a characters personality/dialogue
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