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selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs · 2 months

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When you were gone

Self-Aware! BSD x SAGAU Imposter crossover

Self-Aware! Nikolai Gogol x GN! Reader

Description: You disappeared one month ago...

Warning: OOC. English is my second language.

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You felt so sleepy. You go to your room, yawning. Tonight, you won't have a cuddle buddy. You tried to offer some cuddles to Kolya. But he refused.

"Sorry, Birdy, but I can't cuddle with you tonight. I will practice all night for the magic show."

You just nodded and left for your room.

"Okay. Goodnight, Kolya."

Your room's door closed behind you. Gogol feels a pang of guilt. You looked so lonely. Maybe, he should go to you and cuddle?

Nikolai shook his head.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow he will bring you coffee in bed and you two will cuddle.

You will be there tomorrow.

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Day 1

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You were late for breakfast.

Too late.

Everyone already were in the dining room, eating.

Nikolai smirked at himself. Were you waiting for him to arrive with your coffee? Well, give him a minute.

He was brewing coffee. Two cups. One cup was made to be perfect for your taste.

After preparations were done, Nikolai Gogol took the tray with coffee mugs, creamer and bowl of sugar and went to your room.

He will wake you up (by starting a tickle fight). Then you two will drink coffee.

Nikolai let out a small laugh. Maybe, he will plant a kiss on your nose after coffee will be drank.

He knocked on your door. You didn't answer.

Nikolai Gogol opened the door.

You weren't in your room.

He didn't hear the sounds of running water.

And your bed was made. And cold.

Did you go on a run? Or to the market?

How long were you gone?

When you will return?

Nikolai's eyes shrank, when he noticed your phone on the bedside table.

You left it.

You always bring your phone with you.

Nikolai had a bad feeling about it.

*****

It's been hours.

And you haven't returned yet.

It's been hours.

And all of them were searching everywhere.

It's been hours.

And you were nowhere to be found.

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Day 7

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Week...

It has been a week since you disappeared.

Everyone were devastated.

Nikolai fell down on his bed.

He didn't care, that the blood on his clothes will dirty the covers.

Today, he was searching for you.

He was 'nicely asking' some crooks, if they dared to kidnap you.

Ougiri have never used his ability as much as before.

And he will use it even more.

You still were missing.

You still were nowhere to be found.

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Day 14

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Two weeks.

They have been searching for two weeks.

For two weeks they were looking under every bush, every rock.

Trying to find just one clue. One little clue.

They gathered in the dinning room.

Sitting at the table.

Your chair looked dreadfully empty.

The table was quiet.

They can't say anything.

There were no news.

No good. No bad.

Nothing.

Oda's voice broke the silence.

"Q... Are you... Do you want to say something?"

Nikolai gazed at the teen.

They were silent. But the look on their face were empty. Q opened their mouth.

"I... Nikolai-san, two weeks ago... You were the last one, who saw [Y/N], right?"

Nikolai nodded, not understanding, where Q were going to.

Q nodded and bit their lip, hugging their doll closer. Toy's colorful clothes (your present for Q) looked out of place in this situation.

"I see... Why... Why didn't you stay with them? You were always talking about wanting to stay with Guiding Light forever. What happened with that?"

Nikolai's voice were a little bit louder, that of a whisper.

"I were practicing... For a magic show..."

"Were the practice necessary? Could you practice only that day?"

That he cancelled. Because he can't waste time on anything else, beside the search.

Q's unique eyes stared directly in Nikolai's mismatched eyes.

Nikolai stay silent. He could. He could practice in the morning. He could stay with you.

Nikolai's silence were enough to answer Q's question.

They stand up, put their doll on the table and walked towards Nikolai's chair.

Q took their own chair with them.

Q put their chair near Nikolai's chair.

Q stood up on their chair. Now they were looking at sitting Nikolai from above.

Q clenched their fists.

"If you stayed with [Y/N]… No one would be able to kidnap them..."

Q screamed.

"It was your fault!" Q's fist was small, but, the hit was painful. Nikolai covered his bruised nose.

Q were yelling, while Dazai was dragging them away. It was hard, because Q tried to get away from his hold and hit Nikolai again.

"If you stayed with [Y/N] they won't disappear! Don't you dare to say, that you cared about them! You never cared about them! You will never care about anyone! You will kill anyone, who came close to you! That was your plan, right? To get rid of [Y/N]? Did their love disgust you that much?!"

Dazai, with Chuuya's help, finally managed to drag Q to their room, locking the door.

And Nikolai was standing here. Unmoving.

"Коля... Как ты?"¹ Fyodor's voice sounded soft.

Nikolai swallowed and shook his head.

"I... I need to go..."

Before Nikolai could go away, Fyodor grabbed his shoulder.

"Коля, ты не виноват. В ситуации виноват только тот ублюдок, который похитил [Т/И]. Все мы знаем, что ты бы никогда и пальчем не тронул [Т/И]. Не вини себя."²

Nikolai didn't say anything.

Without looking at Fyodor, Nikolai returned to his room.

It wasn't true! He could never hate you! He likes you! You are his Birdy.

And you were still missing.

He loves loving you!

He didn't want to hurt you.

He missed you.

But, what if... Q were right?

What if he was the reason, why you were gone?

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Day 21

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Nikolai's body was shaking. He was crying. There was no hope. There was no you. There was no clue.

Ever since Q accused him, everyone were checking on him. Everyone were worried about each other. And about you.

Nikolai tears start flowing again.

Maybe, it really was his fault that you were gone? If he stayed with you... No one could take you away...

Another cry filled the room.

"Пташка... Пташка моя... Мені так шкода... Будь ласка... Повернися... Я люблю тебе..."³

Nikolai whispered.

"Я люблю тебе..."⁴

And no one answered his call.

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Day 30

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Chew. Swallow.

Bite again.

Chew. Swallow.

Bite.

Chew.

Swallow.

Bite.

Nikolai blinked as he pulled his fingers from his mouth.

The teacup.

Nikolai took it.

Blow.

Sip.

Blow.

Sip.

Go through the motions.

Nikolai closed his eyes.

For now, that's all he needed to do.

Go through the motions.

Breakfast is over.

Put dishes into the sink.

Go to the living room.

Learn, where to go today.

Search for you.

Repeat and repeat.

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Earlier that day, the portal appeared in the barn.

And you finally returned home.

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Two weeks later

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Nikolai was sitting near your bed, holding your hand. You were shaking. You had another nightmare.

He squeezed your hand, trying to make you feel better.

"It's okay, [Y/N]. It's okay. You are home." whispered Nikolai. You swallow your tears. Nikolai carefully brushed your tears away.

"I was so scared... I missed you..." whimpered you. You wanted a hug, you wanted to be near someone.

Like he was reading your mind, Nikolai hugged you. He whispered into the tip of your head.

"Nothing will ever hurt you, Birdy. I will never leave you ever again. I promise."

You stay silent, resting your head on Nikolai's chest.

Kolya carefully pet your head.

'Ніщо тобі не зашкодить, Пташко. Я обіцяю. І я подбаю про те, щоб вони заплатили за кожну сльозу, за кожну краплю крові. Я їм покажу.'⁵ thought Nikolai Gogol, hugging you closer.

Maybe, that way, he will have the smallest chance to be forgiven. For being the reason why you were kidnapped.

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¹Russian. "Kolya, are you alright?"

²Russian. "Kolya, it's not your fault. The bastard, who kidnapped [Y/N] are the only one to blame. All of us know, that you would lay a finger on [Y/N]. Don't blame yourself."

³Ukrainian. "Birdy... My Birdy... I am so sorry... Please... Come back... I love you..."

⁴ Ukrainian. "I love you..."

⁵ Ukrainian. 'Nothing will hurt you, Birdy. I promise. And I will make sure, that they will pay for every tear, for every drop of blood. I will show them.'

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Tag list: @withered-blossoms , @myluckymoon @cocodrilofeliz @c4xcocoa @vvyeislazzy @whisperingwinters

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cherrieflavouredheadcanons · 2 months

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hi hii! when you have the time, could you do headcanons for nikolai when he’s lovesick and pining for someone that he has a crush on? also pls stay safe from covid🙏🏾🙏🏾

…Oh god this took me so long to answer based on the stay safe from covid message. (Ik covid still exists but no one really wishes that anymore) I am so sorry for how long this took me to answer, I hope you like it! CW: Reader gets hurt (not by Nikolai), "Who did this to you?" trope used, Usual Nikolai behaviour GN Reader

Nikolai crushing on you

At first he doesn’t even realise he has developed a crush. Sure he likes being around you and annoying you, but he does that with everyone in his life so why should this be different? At least that is what he thinks. That is until he starts noticing the small details about you. Like how your nose scrunches up slightly when he is extra annoying or the twinkle in your eyes or the way your laugh can light up a room and -

Holy shit he has developed a crush.

Nikolai is just confused when the realisation hits him. He honestly had no idea when or how it happened, suddenly you were everything he could think about and he longed to see you smile. If he was having a bad day a smile from you could make it better.

Now let's be real here. Nikolai is not a subtle man. So his pining won’t be subtle either. He is not the type of guy who lovingly gazes at you and says nothing just to hope you will notice his yearning. He of course still lovingly gazes at you but that’s more something he does in secret and not his main form of pining.

His way of flirting is to be as annoying as possible. Be prepared for him to pop out at random moments and scare you, just so he can see your surprised face. Nikolai will also just get 100 times more clingy. You could do literally anything and you will have an Ukranian clown hanging around you.

While you of course notice that he is more clingy, you don’t think much of it. Nikolai sometimes has random mood swings so who knows, maybe this was just one of them? He is a bit annoyed that you don’t catch up on his flirting and pining, because he thinks it's obvious.

While he still is his goofball self around you, there is one moment where you see a side of him you have never seen before, and it surprises you.

You somehow had gotten involved into a fight with some ability users and came out of it with bruises and a bit of blood on you. You had planned to just quickly get home and wash it off and treat your wounds. That was until Nikolai suddenly appeared out of nowhere to surprise hug you, making you yelp in pain because he had pressed on a bruise.

He let go immediately and took a good look at you, taking in your battered up sigh. His normally playful look turns cold and serious. His voice even drops deeper when he asks you “Who did this to you?” You don’t want to answer, knowing how he can get but he insists. When you look into his eyes you expect the crazy look he gets when he is about to go murder someone, but instead you see worry, fear and…love. All things you never expected to see in Nikolai’s eyes. Seeing how he looks at you, you decide to tell him who hurt you, though still somewhat reluctantly.

Once he has the information he needs, Nikolai kisses your forehead and leaves to take care of the people who hurt you. And maybe, once he is done and has disposed of them he is going to ask you out on a date. Afterall he deserves a reward for what he is about to do.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs headcanon #bsd headcanons #nikolai gogol #nikolai gogol x reader #nikolai x reader #gogol x reader #bsd nikolai gogol #bungou stray dogs nikolai gogol #bsd nikolai x reader #nikolai gogol x you #bsd x you #bsd fluff #nikolai gogol fluff #nikolai gogol bsd

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darling--angst-archived · 9 months

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Yan!Doa and Reader who's two faced—highschool au

Pairing: Nikolai, Fyodor, Sigma x Reader (separate)

Type: Headcanons

Genre: Yandere???

Warnings: Yandere themes, manipulation, unhealthy relationship, stalking, obsession, invasion of privacy, mentions of blackmail,

Synopsis: The new semester started and a new batch of students come to Yokohama International school after JHS, that included you. However, you caught the attention of the top members of the student council

A/n: I took a break from making your oneshot requests because I'm hesitant to make one where Ranpo has an s/o who uses drugs, mind you I have no knowledge in drugs whatsoever. I literally made this a week before my semester starts.

Fyodor Dostoevsky

He is popular among all the years whether it be the seniors or the juniors.

He was what people call the perfect student.

All his grades are perfect, and he was handsome, he's also the president of the student council

Face of the council

He won many awards throughout every year.

Represents the music club with his cello

Though, he finds praises meaningless, after all they are just empty words.

He saw himself as the saviour of all the pathetic and imperfect humans.

At first he loved how when he walked in the hallways everybody would turn their attention on him and sang praises.

When he sees a new student, his first move is to make an impression(which he thinks as too easy).

He was quiet, he never got involved in trouble, he 'helped' those who asked.

He saw himself as an incarnation of an Angel, the path to salvation from their sins.

But he eventually got bored, then you came in.

He first thought to play you to 'save' you and then, he grew realize that you aren't a simple sinner but something else..

He saw you as his 'equal', and plans to have you one way or another.

Saw your true face while reading a book or smth

He'll make the first move and confront you abt it.

Will blackmail you with that information if needed only you refuse to be his.

Nikolai Gogol

He's mostly loved by the juniors but at the same is weirded out by him.

Most seniors think of him as a laughing stock

He's part of the student and always takes a seat next to Fyodor

(it means that his position is next to Fyodor's, making him the second highest in the student committee)

Which many finds shocking

He is academically gifted, when he's not paying attention and a teacher asks him to solve something, he'll joke abt it first but solves it with no struggles whatsoever.

Probably still a clown

He likes messing with Sigma.

He pranked him while sleeping one time and dear lord everybody knew what he did.

Loves to prank teachers, juniors, senior, anyone, no everyone.

Almost got expelled for a reason nobody knows

Most thinks he bribes the teacher that's why he gets top grades.

Can be smart if he wants to.

You can ALWAYS find him inside detention, the bathroom, or teacher's office.

He would go on measures just to make sure you aren't with anybody else.

Def would use the security cameras to see you.

He saw your true face because of this and he never loved you more. (He hated manipulative people but not you since you aren't manipulating them, kinda??)

Will use the information to his advantage

If you started dating someone, he'll blackmail you.

He loves the way you think and your view of the cruel people around you.

He would play along with your act.

Sigma

He's timid

Many saw him as a sweet individual who's willing to help others

He's loved by all the teachers and juniors because of how kind he is.

Loved by most of the student council.

Def has a lot of junior fangirls

He despises dislikes Nikolai Gogol. He would definitely avoid him.

Manages the complaints of the students or the internal affairs teachers are too lazy to do.

Has to clean up after Nikolai because Fyodor ordered him to.

Knows something is wrong about Fyodor but can't figure out what.

He thinks of you as an innocent angel who he has to protect.

He once saw your true face but thought that it's normal to get angry.

Hates when Nikolai touches you/is around you.

He'd be clenching his fist when monitoring things during break time.

Will never try to hurt you in anyway possible like the other two.

Nikolai's number one prank victim. Some even pity Sigma.

One time in JHS, when he was sleeping his hair had bubblegum in it(Nikolai did it) so Nikolai suggested he cut it.

...he did.. and that's the origin of his bad double bowl cut.

Would treat you to lunch on whatever you want.

Rich.

A/n: I'd make a oneshot/series about this, maybe.? Whichever you guys prefer I guess...

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ninasmovingcastle · 11 months

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bungou stray dogs boys' love languages !!

words of affirmation

he always knows the right thing to say. be it to soothe you, compliment you, or just to break the silence, he hopes you can find comfort in his words <3

↳ tanizaki, tetchou, odasaku, gogol, fyodor

acts of service

he knows that actions speak louder than words for you. so, at any chance he gets, he'll try to make your life a little easier <3

↳ kunikida, tachihara, atsushi

gifts

he loves to spoil you with little things that he thinks you'd enjoy. everything reminds him of you, so it's never a challenge for him to find the perfect gift <3

↳ poe, fitzgerald, hirotsu

quality time

he loves to simply spend time with you, regardless of what you're doing. he'll prioritize you completely, always giving you his undivided attention <3

↳ ranpo, kenji, akutagawa, sigma

physical touch

he can't keep his hands off you, no matter where you are. through touching you, he expresses all the words he can't say <3

↳ chuuya, dazai, jouno

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catmelonwriting · 7 days

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the fic of aku and chuuya where the reader has bulimia was so good omg :,)

as someone who also suffers from bulimia i found it so so comforting

if possible could i please request another one with dazai, nikolai and poe <333

please remember to take care of yourself!! <3

More BSD Men with a bulimic! Reader

Warnings: Bulimia, vomit type purging, Nikolai is ignorant, Nikolai spoon feeds you, Nikolai in general, I really fucking hate Dazai so I'm a little mean in his part, reader is not underweight b/c this is based on my experiences

Characters: Dazai, Nikolai, Poe

A/N: this is my first time ever writing for poe and I do not think I nailed his character but yk it's chill.. also I don't really like this I think the only one I really did good was Chuuya in pt 1

Part one here

Nikolai

- I'm so sorry 4 this but he probably thinks ur pathetic..

- Thinks bulimia is gross IM SORRY

- He won't try and stop u till his DUMBASS is informed by Fyodor that Bulimia, especially vomit + laxative purge types are very very very dangerous!!

- A sick part of him wants to encourage you to continue so if you die he'd feel free but ofc he pushes that away and won't encourage you

Oneshot

Catching you purge

You two had just finished eating dinner on your couch when you promptly excused yourself to the bathroom. He looks up at your standing form with suspicious eyes, but doesn't say anything and lets you wander off towards the bathroom.. just until he hears choking and coughing coming from your shared restroom.

You let out a gasp of surprise as you hear the bathroom door open with a loud bang. Fuck, did you really forget to lock it? You pull the end of your toothbrush out the back of your throat and turn around to face your loving boyfriend with tears in your eyes, who had a look of pity on his face.

He groans in exasperation, "Dove.. didn't I tell you to stop doing that?" He asks, his time filled with faux sympathy as he picks the toothbrush out of your hand, placing it back in the holder. All you can do is sigh.. he just didn't get it. "Kolya, I wish it was that easy, but it's not. It's really, really not."

"Oh please, excuses excuses." He mutters, pulling you to your feet before closing the toilet lid and flushing your dinner down the drain. "C'mon, let's get you some more food." Pulling you out of the bathroom by the arm, he drags you to the kitchen and sits you down on the floor.

"Kolya.. no.. I don't need anything else. I don't want anything else." You grumble while he digs in the fridge and pantries. "Well, you just threw up all the nutrients I gave you.. so we gotta get at least a little bit more in you." He smiles, sitting down in front of you with his legs crossed. He placed a bowl of applesauce in front of you, lifting up the spoon to your mouth. "Say aahh.." he giggles, and you begrudgingly open your mouth.

Once the bowl is finished, he places it in your sink and looks down at you with a serious edge in his eyes. "Now.. bathroom is off limits for.. let's say an hour. Cmon, I'll tuck you in."

Poe

- such a sweetheart omg :(

- holds you in his lap with his arms everytime you try and scurry off to your bathroom after a meal

- unlike nikolai he WILL stop you before you even get the chance to throw up

Oneshot

Stopping you from b/p

He had just finished cooking dinner and had placed your portion in front of you, before sitting across from you and staring down at his own meal. Poe had never eaten much himself.. but tried to start eating more to be a good example when you told him about your 'mia.

You wanted to cry. You knew you were either going to shove this all down your throat in five minutes or you weren't going to eat any of it, and you knew he knew. "My love.." He starts, his voice soft. "Can you try? Just a small bite?" He mumbles, reaching across the table and piercing a piece of broccoli on your fork, holding it up to you.

You took a deep breath, and took the fork from him, placing the food in your mouth. You tried, so, so hard. You placed the dirk down while you were chewing, making sure to go slow and take your time tasting the food.

Slowly, with his help, you finished your meal in what you two would call a normal length, around fifteen minutes, but everything inside of you told you to runaway towards the bathroom, stick the back of a toothbrush down your throat and rid yourself of all these calories. "I'll be right back, Ed." Clearing your throat, you stand up and walk towards the restroom.

You heard him sigh and his hand caught your arm, causing you to turn around and face him. You let out a huff as he pulls you down onto his lap, his arms wrapping around your waist and keeping you there "I know what you're going to do." His voice was soft, and gentle, you hated & loved it at the same time. It comforted you but it also made you feel so.. small, like you can't take care of yourself.

All you could find yourself able to do was lean into his touch, muttering a thank you while you rest your head on his chest.

Dazai

I fucking hate him so much I want him dead I hope the next attempt works Dazai

- Another IGNORANT man although this time he'll probably try and act like he cares

- bro probably threatens to tie you to the bed to stop you from binging

- "You can't ruin your perfect physique by binging, 'donna." Little does he know that does NOT help

- He'll say similar things about purging though too so it's fine

- "Shouldn't purge either. You're gonna screw up that pretty little throat and then I can't use it for .. other things."

Oneshot

Catching you binge

You were on the kitchen floor, stuffing your face with the pan of brownies you had made last night. You had already downed a bottle of milk, a loaf of plain bread, dry oats shoved into your mouth by the handful, anything you could think of. You wanted, no, needed, as much as you could get.

You jump as you hear a key turn in the front door, followed by the door opening and closing before Dazai stood above you, a look of disappointment on his face, and was that.. disgust? You knew people thought bulimia was disgusting, but him? Really? Your loving boyfriend?

"Okay, bella. Let's get this cleaned up." He sighs, pulling you to your feet. You were frozen, you just stood there as tears welled in your eyes from the humiliation and guilt. You needed the throw up. You pushed past him and sprinted towards the bathroom, only to be caught by the waist halfway there.

"No, no, no." He tuts, pulling your back against his chest. "There's no need for that. Remember what I said about needing that throat to be ready? Yeah, it's not gonna be if you're vomiting." He looks at you with a sickly sweet smile and all you wanted to do was collapse on the floor and sob but his arms kept you there.

Eventually, he pulled you down onto the floor with him so you sat on his lap as he whispered sweet nothing's in your ear, while you cried wishing you could just vanish.

#bsd x reader #bsd #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungo stray dogs #nikolai x reader #nikolai gogol x reader #gogol x reader #gogol nikolai x reader #poe x reader #edgar allan poe x reader #poe x reader bsd #Dazai x reader #Osamu Dazai x reader #dazai osamu x reader #osamu x reader

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nikolaiismysugardaddy · 1 year

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pairings... Nikolai Gogol x Reader

contains...! smut! fem!reader, alcohol, jelousy(reader), public foreplay, kissing, biting, edging, oral(fem!receiving), oral(Nikolai!receiving), dirty talk

AFAB reader

I apologize for any mistakes in advance - english is not my first language!

Hope you enjoy! xx

I've got two plus characters here, whom I decided not to name since I feel weird about unfamiliar names in fanfics that aren't related to the topic. Use your imagination and name them while reading! ♡

It was a hot summer day, and you were out at your favorite bar with two friends, having some drinks. It’s a small but decent place, hidden from the general public. Your friend XX just went to the counter to get some drinks for the three of you when two men entered the bar. You recognized the tall, white-haired guy: Nikolai. Nikolai and you have been dating for two months now. You haven’t seen him in the past few days since he had some "work stuff" (that’s what he called it) to do.

A pale, black-haired guy followed your date and sat beside him at the counter. It was probably the coworker he told you a bit about.

Nikolai ordered four shots of vodka and two glasses of wine for him and his company. Your friend, XX, gazed at them while she made her order as well. Nikolai noticed XX's curious eyes and gave her a clownish, goofy smile. The man beside him just rolled his eyes and whispered something to Nikolai.

XX grabbed the three drinks from the counter and rushed back to us with red cheeks. "Guys, did you see the hot guys there?" She asked excitedly. "Oh my, that white-haired guy is just...!" She pointed in his direction with her hand, like she couldn't even find words to describe how desperate she became in an instant. "And that handsome smile... he was totally flirting, I’m telling you!"

"Mhm, sure" you murmured without even looking at her. You grabbed your wine and sipped it in one gulp.

“Ay, girl, what’s the matter with you?” The other girl from our group laughed at your action. “You’re already dating someone; don’t be so selfish with your friends!”

“Yeah, she’s right, let our gaze pasture those two hotties, Y/N. Don’t be a meanie.”

You took a deep breath and forced a smile on your face. Since Nikolai hasn't noticed you already, at least you can test how serious he is about this dating thing between you two. You felt the booze slightly hitting your head from the fast drinking.

“I need to go to the toilet, guys” Your forced smile still rested on your face until you turned your back on your friends.

You rushed into the restroom without looking in Nikolai's direction. The irritation on your face was clearly visible. You tried to calm yourself down and splashed some cold water on your cheeks.

You opened the door, and the view you got was just shocking. You felt jealousy taking over in your mind.

Both XX and YY were standing at the counter, talking and giggling with Nikolai and his coworker. Your whole body got frozen for a minute, but then you took a deep breath and walked slowly to them.

“Hey.” You stood there, acting very confident even though your blood was boiling from the anger.

“Oh, finally, Y/N!” XX’s excitement got a bit lower when you arrived. “So, this gentleman here is Nikolai Gogol.” She introduced him. You bite your tongue and force a so-called warm smile on your face and reach out your hand to him.

“Y/N, nice to meet you.” You said it in a cold voice, but a light, cheeky smirk unconsciously appeared in the corner of your mouth. Nikolais shocked face made you feel much better. He gave you a very woozy but long handshake.

“My pleasure” he said with a pretty crooked, quiet voice. Fortunately, your tipsy friends haven’t noticed a single thing.

“And the other gentleman is Fyodor Dostoyevsky.” said YY.

You shook his hand too, with a warm smile. He looked at Nikolai suspiciously when he let go of your hand.

XX leaned into your ear and whispered: “We were trying to dig into these handsome guys’ dating lives, but Nikolai just jokes around about it. Maybe you could get us some information.”

Her eyes were filled with lust, and her voice was really sloppy from the alcohol. You nod almost invisibly and turn to Nikolai again.

“So my friend says you're looking for some fun tonight?” You ask the question loud in a playful tune and place your index finger on his knee.

He seemed shocked, and his face turned a light shade of pink.

“That’s not exactly what I said. I told the ladies I was having a few drinks with my colleague, Fyodor, and would see what came next. Did you hear fun in the sentence somewhere?” He put on a cheeky grin on his face. His eyes were sparkling; he clearly enjoyed the situation.

On the other side, Fyodor looked a bit suspicious and lost.

"I could bring you some fun if you let me." XX appeared beside Nikolai, putting her hand on his shoulder and softly gripping it.

YY seemed a bit off in the situation, as did Fyodor; to be honest, they looked tired and worn out.

"What kind of fun do you have in mind, m’lady?" Nikolai asked playfully, but he still looked into your eyes curiously. It seems like he’s waiting: when will you give this conversation a cold cut?

“Hmm, you see…” She leaned in toward his ears. “Something li-“

"I think you should take YY home. She seems a bit off." You grabbed XX's shoulder hard and pushed her a bit back.

YY’s head was on the counter, she was totally passed out. Who knows how many shots they had while you were in the bathroom?

“Why won’t you take her home? You could call your boyfriend or what, on the way.” She looked absolutely pissed at you.

“Why bother calling my don’t know what to call him if he’s right in front of me?” You said it teasingly. As you finished the question, Nikolai started to chuckle.

"W-what?" XX looked shocked by the information and took a few steps back from us. She stood still for a minute, then forcefully grabbed YY's hand and made her stand up. "I don’t know what this sick, perverted game did you two," she said, looking at Fyodor. "Or three played with us, but we’re leaving." She rushed out with YY from the bar.

Nikolai turned around to Fyodor and asked him with a gentle voice to leave the two of you alone.

"Well then. It was a pleasure to meet you, Y/N." He bowed in your direction as he stood up. He leaned in for a moment to Nikolai and whispered something in his ears before leaving.

“So that’s the way you act when I’m not around? Flirting with anyone and all?” You asked a bit annoyed.

“I think it’s a huge misunderstanding, Dove.” He said in a very gentle, calm tone.

“I think it’s not.” You say it in a very neutral tone. He looks surprised and waits for you to continue. “Well… to be honest, we never discussed what’s going on between us.” You felt a bit exhausted from the former anger you had to deal with.

“A-ha!” He burst out laughing. You look absolutely confused at this moment. “So you think you can have me?” He leaned really close to your face. His breath brushed your face while he spoke. You took a deep breath before answering his question. You licked your teeth and looked directly into his eyes with a very teasing gaze.

“I mean… couldn’t I?” You asked, holding eye contact with him, and a lustful, cheeky smile appeared on your face.

He stared back at you but couldn't stand it for too long.

“Oh fuck” he cussed under his nose, quietly. His cheeks turned a light shade of red.

“Yes? … or no?” You lean in a bit closer, just inches apart from him. You feel your confidence coming back to you.

He looked back at you. "Yes…" Nikolai licked his lips, looked around carefully, and pulled you in for a kiss. He moved gently, pushing them together, then gently slipped his tongue in your mouth.

You feel like your legs are going to give in and let a quiet moan out in the kiss.

“I think we should leave.” Nikolai mumbled on your lips. You lean back against him and nod. A pretty visible tent formed in his pants.

“Oh!” You act surprised for a moment then softly giggle. “Yeah, you’re right.”

He took his cane and stood up, holding his hand out to you. You take it and leave the bar.

“So…” The two of you started walking out of the small, empty street. “I think I’ll take a taxi.”

You see one parking next to the sidewalk, not too far, and raise your hand to make sure the driver can recognize your intentions.

“Care to share one?” Nikolai asked in a quiet, sly voice. You can sense he’s got something planned in his mind.

You decided to play along with the clown.

“Sure, but you see, I live pretty far from here.” You said while getting in the car. You told the driver your address. As soon as you finished, Nikolai quickly pulled the taxi curtains down. “You should tell him t-“ Before you could finish your sentence, he shut you up with a rough kiss. He put his cane on his other side and pushed his body to yours. One of his hands held your waist, and the other wandered on your thighs all the way up until it reached the end of your dress. He gripped the fabric hard, almost destroying it.

“My darling, I should tell you.” He took a deep, heavy breath while speaking. “This dress looks so nice on you…” He leaned toward your ear, whispering every word carefully. “The way it highlights your nice figure… and shows so much of those dainty long thighs…” He let go of the fabric and caressed the bare skin on your leg. “It makes me insane. It makes me wanna eat you up alive.” He moaned in your ears and teasingly licked your earlobe.

He grabbed you by your hips and pulled you underneath himself, making you lay down on the seats. “But I guess you already knew that, am I correct?”

You breathe through your mouth, trembling under his touch. The whole situation excites you. He swung one finger all the way up from your knee on your inner thigh. Your legs started to shake, and you felt your clit pulsing.

“W-we’re still inside the taxi…!” You had to bite down on your lips as Nikolai’s fingers started to wander under your dress. He reached your panties and warily touched your pussy. You struggle to stay silent.

He smiled at you devilishly as he saw how miserable you looked underneath him. He leaned down and started to kiss your neck, still caressing your needy parts.

“You know darling… you made this. So you have to endure it.” He whispered to your skin; the way his breath touched your neck sent shivers down your spine. His fingers wander around your entrance. He pressed one finger there, but your panties are still holding a wall to it. “And you need to take responsibility for this as well.” He held one of your hands and carefully placed it on top of his boner.

You haven’t been intimate with him before. Sure, you’ve been wondering a lot, how big he could be. And now you know the answer: it’s not big. No. It’s huge. You squeeze his digit lightly, and he let out a loud moan into your neck. He hungrily kissed you and started fingering you through your panties. He totally lost control.

Suddenly, the car stopped. It was the perfect wake-up call to realize what you were doing in the back of the car. The driver grinded his throat.

“We’re here.” He said in a really awkward tone.

Nikolai got himself together fast, while you still lay on the backseat, trying to calm yourself a bit.

“Thank you, sir.” He helped you sit up and pay for the ride.

Nikolai opened the door for you and gave you a hand to get out. Your legs felt weak, but the fresh air helped you cool down a bit.

“Wait a minute, Kolya.” You sound really serious. “I don’t remember telling you that you could come to my place.” He looked surprised, his eyebrows nearly touching his hairline. He took one step forward.

“Oh, you’re ab-so-lu-te-ly right, m’lady.” He tugged your hair behind your ear before he leaned in to you. “Then you want me to continue what we were doing here?” He whispered teasingly. You bite your lower lip hard and feel your body heating up again. “You want me to fuck you on the street?” He let out a deep moan and licked your earlobe. He gripped into your asscheek.

You look around quickly, then grab Nikolai’s hand and drag him to the front door. You get your keys out of your bra and slide it in the keyhole.

Nikolai looked amused. “Clever!” He mumbled under his nose. As soon as he set foot in your apartment, he slammed the door behind you and pushed you onto it. “Would you mind putting away my hands the way you did your keys?” He giggled and pulled up the end of your dress with his cane. “Indeed, I found a better place…” He held your hand above your head, pinning you to the door.

He dropped his cane to the floor. With his free hand, he pulled your panties down. He looked amazed by your naked lower body.

“Oh my, oh my. Not just pretty here…” He gave you a light kiss on your lips. “But also pretty here.” He touched your pulsing clit, just putting pressure on it with his palm. You let out a loud moan, and your hips instinctively moved in response.

He smiled wickedly at your behavior. Nikolai licked your lips and opened them for a kiss with his tongue while he slipped two of his slender fingers inside your needy cunt. You were whimpering in an instant, and arched your back from the pleasure. His fingers moved smoothly in your wet pussy, hitting your sweet spot from time to time as he pumped them in and out.

He started to kiss your neck, biting your skin insatiably. He clearly enjoyed how you reacted to his actions. Nikolai let go of your hands and kneeled before you, pulling your panties all the way down to your ankle with his mouth.

You look amused at how sexy he looked. He slowly straightened himself up, leaving his kisses on your leg along the way. He let his tongue out and lightly licked your clit while he still twirled his fingers on the inside. You shriek from the pleasure; unconsciously, you grip his hair and pull him closer to your aching cunt.

“My, my, you’re so impatient.” He smirked and started to eat you out. His tongue moved in circle motion around your clit, sometimes he even sucked on it lightly. He’s really fascinated by how sweet you taste and how soft your skin is there.

He swallowed your juices like it’s the most delicious thing he’s ever had. He groaned in your pussy while licking it closer to his fingers. He slipped the tip of his muscle in your cunt as well. You see stars from the pleasure as you’re getting closer and closer to your climax.

All of a sudden, he stopped moving and gave you a final kiss on your pussy before moving away from it.

“Not so fast, darling.” He stood up and kissed you. You can taste yourself very well, since his whole face is covered in your moist. “You should return the favor first.”

He smiled mischievously at you and placed your hand on his bulging pants. For a moment, you froze; you’re a bit scared about his size. But also crave him, want to know how he tastes, want to see how it looks, want to feel it inside you…

“Or is the little birdie scared?” He started to unbutton his pants and pull it down. His cock sprung right up, twitching in the air. “Kneel down~” He ordered you with a very gentle tone. You do as he told you, and now you face his digit closely. The tip got a nice pinkish shade, and his veins are visible.

“Open your mouth.” He touched your lips with his tip, and a light moan escaped his mouth. You slip your tongue out and lick it before taking it in. His hips started moving and you couldn’t even take a deep breath before you started choking on his long dick. He banged your head hard, the end of his digit slammed into the back of your throat. You felt your tears rolling down your cheeks. His moans filled the apartment; he held your head with both hands as he thrust harder and harder. You look up to him with wide, tear-filled eyes: you can see he’s in full ecstasy.

“Oh, you’re so good… such a good slut…” He groaned out loud,and you feel his cock pulsing intensively in your mouth. You feel his grip tighten in your hair, making you take in all his length.

All of a sudden, he stopped moving; he rested his cock in your mouth. He was panting fast; you could see some sweat sparkling on his face.

In a blink of an eye, you were laying down on the floor with Nikolai’s body towering on top. You were coughing intensively from the deepthroating.

“Now let me test out how well your other hole can take me, darling.” He said in a heated, husky tone and pressed his tip to your entrance. He moved it up and down all over your pussy before entering. With one thrust, he pushed his whole length inside. Your eyes rolled back from the mixture of pleasure and pain. Your pussy was squeezing him tight while he waited patiently for you to get used to his size.

“F-fuck, Nikolai… you’re so big…” You moaned and dug your fingernails in his back.

Nikolai groaned from the pleasure you gave him; your words had him twitching in your wet cunt. He started moving slowly, but very skillfully. The wet sound he made while sliding in and out of your sticky, warm pussy sounded like music to Nikolai’s ears.

He softly giggled between his loud moans; he was impressed by your reactions. He slipped two fingers in your mouth. You instinctively sucked on them, lustfully playing with them with your tongue. He moved his hips even faster in you, hitting your g-spot more frequently. You whimpered from the stimulation, and felt more sensitive than ever. Nikolai pulled out his fingers and slowly wandered them down on your body. For a moment he squeezed your breasts, which led you to let out a lustful scream. He continued his way down until he reached your stomach. He pushed his palm hard on it, making you feel his cock inside even more intensely.

Nikolai’s lips curled into a naughty smirk, then leaned in to give you a sloppy kiss. He playfully sucked on your tongue, making you groan in his mouth louder. He sneaked his finger to your pulsing clit, rubbing it gently. His cock continuously hit your sensitive spot and the stimulation on your clit made you whimper even more.

“N-nikolai..! I’m g-going to..!” You were panting in his mouth, but your whiny voice made him go nuts. He was thrusting inside you unceasingly, pushing you closer to your orgasm. Your pussy clenched around his digit, making him leak some precum inside you.

“Cum with me~” His sharp, cold breath made your legs shake in the intense heat. He bit your neck roughly, leaving a very visible mark on it. You felt your orgasm building up inside, squeezing his cock tighter. He kept circling on your clit and thrusting inside you more eagerly.

His hips slammed harder against yours, and he moved more vigorously in you. A loud whine escaped your mouth as you felt his cum filling you up. His whole body was shaking from his orgasm. He was slowing down his thrusts; the both of you were panting loudly. Nikolai pushed one last time inside, then pulled out his cock. The mixture of both of your juices dripped out of your worked up pussy.

Nikolai lay down on the floor beside you, gently caressing your waist and leaning in for a kiss. Your warm tongues danced together in his mouth. After he broke the kiss, he was looking at you with a warm, playful smile on his face.

“So, darling. Did your boyfriend do well?” He was giggling lightly at the surprised look on your face. You got up on your elbows to get a more steady posture. “What’s the matter, my little dove? Isn’t it what you wanted?” He grabbed your hips, pulling himself closer to you. Nikolai was acting like a big kitten, brushing his face against your skin, making purring sounds as well.

“Indeed it is.” You smiled and leaned down to give him a kiss on his forehead. “So you shouldn’t flirt with other girls from now on.” Your voice was still a little bit irritated; but your heart was overwhelmed by the love you felt at that moment.

He let out a huge sight and suddenly stood up from the floor. You opened your mouth to say something, but all of a sudden, he picked you up from the ground bridal style. “No need to worry, Y/N. So, tell me, where’s the bathroom, angel?”

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200 followers event: fyodor x reader x nikolai

This is for my 200 followers event! Leave a request for it if you want:)

Contains: gn reader, nikolai is crazy per usual, very domestic, established relationship between the three of you, reader calls them ‘Fedya’ and ‘Kolya’, Nikolai tickles you briefly and playfully, Nikolai calls you ‘dear’ and Fyodor calls you ‘sweet’, proofread

You woke up to Fyodor having his arms wrapped around you, holding your chest close to his, and Nikolai wrapping his arms around your shoulders. He was holding one of your hands, and had his other ruffled in Fyodor’s hair. It was purely intimate, and you couldn’t help the smile that came onto your face. You always woke up before the both of them, as they were both heavy sleepers. Very heavy sleepers. You swore that there could be a thunderstorm and they would still sleep through it. You chuckled at the idea, rustling the sheets slightly. You were a little hot from being held between two other people, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world. You snuck your hand up and onto the side of Fyodor's face, squeezing Nikolai’s hand even tighter than before. He really did look so peaceful when he was sleeping. He was normally plotting something or other with a comically wicked grin on his face, so seeing him in such a domestic setting gave you butterflies.

Not to mention Nikolai. He was anything but peaceful, constantly kicking the sheets off of himself (and you in the process), unable to find a comfortable position before finally falling asleep, and by that point, he wouldn’t have been any different than a piece of stone. He would become a rock, unmoving. The only sign of life that would come from him would be the heavy rising and falling of his chest. Not to mention his braid. He refused to undo it in his sleep because he liked the wavy effect that it has on his hair, but there’s been a handful of times where you or Fyodor woke up to his braid tied around your neck. He would always swear it was an accident, but considering his track record, you weren’t so sure. Nonetheless, you would all laugh it off and Nikolai would let you rest in his lap while Fyodor rested his head against Nikolai’s shoulder and read. That was how your typical lazy weekend would go.

Whenever all three of you had freetime, this was your morning routine, but this, however, was not normal. Fyodor and Nikolai had had a rough day the night prior. Being an absolute menace to society was tiring after all. You could tell that they weren’t gonna be waking up for a while, and you decided to let them sleep in. They really did deserve it.

You didn’t want to wake them up, but you had things to do. Luckily because they’re such heavy sleepers, they didn’t wake up as you maneuvered your way out of the entanglement the three of you had created throughout the night. You rushed to the bathroom, hopping into the shower and taking good care of yourself. You felt clean and ready to take on the day, and by the time you were out and dressed in comfortable day clothes, Nikolai was awake and sitting on the bed, but Fyodor was still fast asleep.

“There you are!” Nikolai gestured for you to come back to the bed, almost hopping out of it before you gripped his shoulders and pointed towards Fyodor, slightly turning his body so he’d face him.

“I love you and how loud you are, but let's try and keep quiet for Fedya, yeah? He seems tired.” Nikolai gave a playful offended look, before falling backwards onto the bed, taking you with him.

“That seems backhanded!” Nikolai whisper-yelled.

“Whatever,” you rolled your eyes, “let's stay like this for a little bit. I like it.”

Nikolai nodded, placing his hand in your hair and the other on his side as you wrapped your arms around his neck, burrowing in it.

Fyodor kept sleeping for a good thirty-five minutes after this, and when he finally did wake up he looked groggy and even more tired than before. Is it possible that he got too much sleep? Either way, you and Nikolai made your way over to Fyodor when he woke up, and Nikolai ruffled his already messy hair. Fyodor sighed, and stood up to get a hair brush to fix his, and now Nikolai’s, mess.

“Did I catch you at a bad time?” Nikolai asked, with a teasing smile on his face. Fyodor didn’t even acknowledge how Nikolai was joking and he nodded.

“I slept too much..”

You giggled, making your way over to Fyodor.

“I can tell. Want me to brush your hair for you?”

Fyodor nodded, turning around and resting his head on your shoulder. You smiled and turned to face Nikolai, and you noticed how messy his hair was too. The braid he had was half undone and was hanging on by a limb at this point. Very cute.

You made your way to the bed and let Fyodor sit on the edge of the bed on the floor, your knees overtop his shoulders. He tilted his head back and let you brush his hair, and it fell on the sides of his head and framed his face beautifully. Nikolai kept sitting on the back of the bed, looking at the sight. You two looked so cute. He crawled forward and rested his head on your shoulder, wrapping his arms around your waist. You couldn’t move, but it was fine. You didn’t want to anyways.

Fyodor’s hair is thick and a little on the longer side, so it was hard to brush through his hair without hurting him. Before he met you, Fyodor would practically yank his hair around and pull out at least a couple strands of hair whenever he brushed it. When you first saw him brushing his hair and saw him literally pulling his hair out, you volunteered to start brushing his hair for him.

Fyodor’s mind got flooded with the memory every time you brushed his hair, and it always made him smile fondly. He vividly remembered you scolding him over how little he took care of himself, only to pull him close and take care of him yourself.

He loved how gently you brush his hair. You grab it in sections to keep it from hurting when you brush it, only to run your hands through his hair once you’re done and scratch his scalp.

The moment was peaceful, but of course, Nikolai had to disturb it by tickling your sides. He was so sudden about it, you barely had a minute to process before you were grabbing his hands and trying to pull them off you while laughing like crazy! He’s so rude sometimes!

“K-Kolya—stop!” You couldn’t help the laughs that left your throat as you tried to not accidentally kick Fyodor, before he turned his head back and looked at what the commotion was.

“Kolya, stop it,” Fyodor stood up, “they were brushing my hair.”

Nikolai took his hands off you, raising his hands in the air comically.

“If you insist!”

Fyodor looked at him suspiciously, before sitting back down and huffing. “Don’t disturb them while they brush my hair.”

He’d never admit it, but you and Nikolai both knew he didn’t want you to stop because it felt good. It was calming, domestic, and romantic. You and Nikolai eyed each other, smiling at the knowledge Fyodor refused to share with you.

“Understood, sir!”

Nikolai stood up and made his way next to Fyodor, laying his head on his shoulder.

“Mind if I sit here?”

“Not at all,” Fyodor mumbled, his eyes closed and focused on the way your hands untangled his hair, “as long as you don’t start tickling me as a replacement.”

Fyodor smiled a little, looking over at Nikolai.

“I won’t, don't worry so much!”

The tone of voice was suspicious, but Fyodor chose to believe him.

“Mind if you brush my hair next?” Nikolai turned to you, a big smile on his face.

You sighed playfully, but ultimately nodded.

“Of course.”

Brushing Nikolai’s hair took sufficiently longer than Fyodor’s because it’s thick just like his, but about five times longer. But you got it done, and you fell backwards on the bed once you were done.

“My hand is cramping..” you shook your dominant hand back and forth trying to bring life back to it, but it didn’t work. You ultimately just rested it on your stomach until both boys came up and laid next to you, and Fyodor took your hand in his, rubbing your knuckles and palm.

“Where does it hurt?” Fyodor asked.

“On the side..” you rubbed where it hurt with your other hand, and Fyodor nodded, grabbing it. He rubbed small circles onto it to smooth it, and it worked for the most part. While Fyodor did that, Nikolai played with your hair, braiding whatever hair he could reach. The braid looked pathetic because you were laying down and he could only reach random locks of hair, but he managed. You loved it anyway.

Your hand feels much less stiff now.

“Thanks, Kolya. We’re twinning now.” Nikolai giggled, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you close.

“Do you guys have to work today?”

“Probably,” Nikolai rolled his eyes, “but I don’t care. I wanna stay.”

You both looked at Fyodor, who was sitting next to you with his head resting on his hand.

“Yes, we do..but we won’t have to start till five to get enough work done. I suppose it can wait till then.”

You and Nikolai smiled, and you wrapped your legs around Fyodor’s, trying to signal him to come closer. Fyodor did as asked, coming closer to you yet again.

“I need to shower,” Fyodor said.

Nikolai yawned dramatically.

“So boring! Be fast!”

Fyodor nodded, detangling himself and making his way to your guys’ shared bathroom.

You and Nikolai sat in comfortable silence for a few moments, only for him to ruin it, per usual. He sat up and started talking your ear off about something or other, pulling you into his lap so he could be closer to you.

You didn’t really catch anything he was saying besides hearing the word ‘breakfast’, and you offered to make some.

“Were you listening to what I was saying?” Nikolai asked with a dumb smile on his face.

“Nope, not a word.”

Nikolai gasped, grabbing your shoulders, looking offended.

“I was saying that I never eat breakfast.”

“Well, do you want me to make some? We can have it done before Fedya’s out. You know how long he takes in there.”

Nikolai pondered for a few moments, before nodding and pushing you off of him playfully and running to the kitchen. You could only imagine what Fyodor thought you two were doing based off of the loud running noises alone.

You made your way to the kitchen, looking at your pantry for a few minutes before settling on making something sweet. Fyodor did have a surprising sweet tooth after all.

By the time Fyodor was out you had been done for a good fifteen minutes. Luckily it needed time to cool down.

He made his way to the kitchen because he heard the loud sounds of bowls falling from Nikolai’s hands, and he could smell whatever it was you had made. And it smelled good.

“What is this?” Fyodor questioned as he made his way down the stairs.

“We made breakfast!” Nikolai yelled out.

“I made breakfast. Nikolai just made a mess.”

Fyodor chuckled, stepping into the kitchen and sitting down. He had a towel around his shoulders to keep the water dripping off his hair from falling to the floor. It looked adorable. It looked cute as a whole, but just the fact that you were seeing him in such a domestic setting was odd, and even if you two have been together for quite some time now, it never fails to shock you.

Nikolai noticed the way you were staring at Fyodor, and he poked your cheek to make you look at him.

“Get your jaw off the floor, dear.”

“Oh, whatever.”

You walked up to Fyodor and pulled him closer to you. Nikolai walked back to a cupboard to grab plates for the three of you, then he got a kitchen knife and eavesdropped on your conversation while separating the dessert into pieces.

“Yeah, like he said, we made breakfast.”

“Thank you, sweet,” Fyodor sighed, “you know me too well.”

Wc - 2k

I hope you enjoyed:) I always struggle to make fluff fics long so I hope 2k words is enough for you!!

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angelltheninth · 10 months

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Pain Play with Nikolai Gogol

The stings and pain from having your hair pulled and your ass cheek being smacked hit you at the same time. Nikolai uses his hand to guide you, to pull your head back so you have nowhere to move away from his relentless cock pushing into your hole.

"Want more? Don't bite that lip, let me hear you cry out, let me see you break on my cock. I don't think I've ruined you enough, not nearly enough until you're a crying mess every time you don't have my hands on you or my cock in your used up holes."

Nikolai always bites your lip when you kiss, he wants to taste your blood on his tongue and hear you whimper into his mouth. There's only one sound that beats your cry of pain and that's the way you moan, no scream his name while you come. He can close his eyes and let his other senses take over, the feeling of your hot, wet pussy walls around his cock, your nails scratching his arm, your voice broken with gasps of his name.

"You're breathtaking when you're struggling to speak up. What do you need me to do? Yeah? I didn't quite catch that. Maybe try it with out all the babble. No good? Oh sweetheart, your brain is mush right now, can't even talk to me."

When Nikolai has sex with you he needs to be able to kiss, bite and pinch your nipples. When they pebble in his mouth his teeth lock around one and nibble, just enough to send a jolt to your brain and another to your clit while he rubs it with his thumb. He's giving you both pain and pleasure, making you unable to have one without the other.

"These look nice right now but I think you should play with them a little too. Pinch them and me, I'll go down on this needy clit of yours. Its twitching under my finger, just waiting to have my mouth on it."

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dokk-fukuro · 1 year

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Your Relationship [Nikolai Gogol]

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A/N: f!reader, mention of female genitals, smut, mentions of violence, eating out

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Gogol as your friend:

If your friend is Kolya, you won't be bored. He guarantees it. However, do not expect seriousness on his part. Kolya is called a buffoon not without reason;

Only this person can think of calling you late at night, because he came up with a new quiz, the answers to which he will voice;

Don't ask where he got you a suit like his. Trust me, you don't want to know. In general, he made it himself;

Birdwatching together. You can do this for hours. Geese tried to peck at him a couple of times;

Likes to show you tricks with disappearing. Never let you travel with him in this way;

Your friendship also has a rather dark side. At least because Gogol is still a sadist, to whom other people's suffering is fun. You should be ready for this when he can call you on a “special quest”;

From the outside it may seem that he is not attached to you at all, but Nikolai has some problems with attachment to people;

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Gogol as your boyfriend:

Even though he tries to keep you as far away from Dostoevsky as possible, he knows full well that he cannot keep his secret for too long;

Does not tell you about many things, so as not to injure. It's a joke! Gogol does not like to hide anything from you, and demands the same from you;

He likes the way you cook;

Spend not as much time together as you would like, but, according to Gogol, it's even better. You have time to miss each other;

Despite all his sadism and some insanity, Kolya secretly admires you and your normality. You and Sigma are two people that he likes because you don't think ten steps ahead of the intricacies.

The beginning of your relationship was difficult, although this word does not describe the situation in which you found yourself for the first time. Gogol did not trust you because you would “treat” him, as Fyodor does. And it was new to him that you accept him for who he is;

Sometimes he uses his ability on purpose to slap your ass or get under your skirt. You both find it very useful at times;

You're lying on the couch in the living room, engrossed in a book. “Dreams of Cthulhu” captivates you so much that you don’t immediately realize that the lower part of your body has simply evaporated. Gogol, who has been touch-starved lately and very, veeeery horny, so he couldn’t simply leave you alone. You don't often manage to have time for two, so when he had the idea to use the Overcoat, he could not deny himself this by calling you on your mobile beforehand.

“Kolya, you’re in the next room,” you sigh, feeling a slight shiver through your body, as if his hands are touching you. You can clearly feel how the fingers press on your pussy, fingers passing along the fabric of your shorts. “Kolya, stop it and give me my body back.”

His half-mad laughter, mixed with heavy breathing, gives a completely unambiguous answer: "No." Gogol cannot resist the softness of the skin of your thighs, the warmth of your body, your noisy sighs on the verge of a moan, when he touches your pussy with double zeal.

“You refused me this morning, dove,” the young man recalls, as if trying to shame you. He pulls your shorts off your hips and presses his lips against your soft skin. This is too much! Your hips are sensitive and receptive to touch, so it only takes light kisses to make your body almost crumble. “I want you. Really want to fuck you dumb. However, now you’re all at my mercy, and you can’t do anything about it. Enjoy! And don't try to hold back your moans when my tongue touches you. Otherwise I'll punish you.”

Kolya loves to give you pleasure with his tongue and lips, because your surprised expression is the best reward for sudden molestation and persistent caresses.

He likes to comment on the change in your facial expressions. He cannot not do this, otherwise you will hear him moaning, which he does not want;

But if you pull his hair .... However, do not expect him to be indulgent to your pleas to be gentler;

Gogol loves when you massage his head after sex or braid his hair. Only you can he trust completely in this matter;

He also likes to run his hand through your hair sometimes. This is something like a sacrament for him, but he will not say what exactly this means for him. In general, listen less to all sorts of jesters and clowns, otherwise you’ll sleep badly!

#My writing #bungo stray dogs headcanons #bungo stray dogs #bsd headcanons #bsd #bsd x reader #bsd smut #gogol x reader #nikolai gogol smut #gogol smut

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ay-chuu · 1 year

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Fallen Down.

"Have you ever felt abandoned when you were unmotivated?" ' you asked quietly.

The moon was shining in the sky, the stars seemed to sense its presence and react with delight. The grass was soft, the fabric of the blanket you draped over it tickled you. The one you love, you and a beautiful night. Maybe those were the only good memories of the weird and depressive days in life, when you got philosophical. "Yes. I guess loneliness is sometimes only noticed when you can't do anything..."

His voice was your favorite. A sound that makes you peaceful and happy. You saw his hair waving, his side profile shining with the moonlight. He was looking at the stars. "You know, sometimes I just look at each star and tell one of my problems. Because when I give each one a problem to worry about, it feels like the whole universe is taking my troubles away from me." He said, while still looking at stars. "Isn't time the only thing we worry about? We'll never have enough of it. So let the universe take their bad energies. The next day, as the sun rises and the stars fall into darkness, they will gather their energy again. When their hopes are gathered, they will brighten the darkness they have fallen into."

He was right. At the end of every darkness there was a light. Perhaps despair was not something that was renewed in 24 hours. But hope would necessarily be evident from anywhere when we were worried. "I love you." you whispered. His heart arched for you. Your lover smiled and kissed your forehead and wrapped his arms around you. "I love you too, baby."

And yes, being alone, although it was the purpose of living, was sometimes very frightening. Still, romantically or not, it was a good feeling to be alone with someone you had a love bond with. A feeling that reminds you of the purpose of life.

After all, at the end of the day, 8 billion fallen stars can still shine again in the dark with sunlight, right?

Chuuya, Sigma, Atsushi, Gogol, Tecchou, Jouno(even he cant see he would say the sentences), Mammon, Simeon, Satan, Belphegor, Solomon, Diavolo, Izuku, Shoto, Hawks, Amajiki, Jamil, Malleus, Lilia, Cater, Rook, Trey, Tighnari, Zhongli, Childe, Kazuha, Xiao and your favs...

@senpaiofotome a little gift to both to my love and me <3

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beechbloom · 11 months

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What are dates with Nikolai like?

Cw: train derailment

Nikolai finds joy in being impossible to predict and that aspect also shows itself in the dates he takes you on

One day he takes you on an OFF-the-wALLS CRaZY date

Like derailing a train together

And for your next date you're eating dinner at his place with candles and music and rose petals

What most of the dates he takes you on have in common, is that they're all over-the-top

He's a dramatic at heart he can't just sit on the couch with you and watch a movie he has to cause a power outage across the entire city so you can watch the starry sky from your rooftop!

If you like tamer dates then he could maybe reign himself in for an hour or two

And if those hours end with you asleep on his shoulder...

Then for a moment he'll consider staying like that

You look so peaceful

And you feel safe enough to be like this with him

It makes him strangely sentimental

Which is a feeling he's never quite enjoyed

Time to shake you awake so he won't have to think about it anymore!!

#nikolai x reader #nikolai gogol x reader #bsd x reader #bsd #bsd hcs #hcs #headcanons #bungou stray dogs #nikolai gogol #nikolai #nikolai bsd #funny #fluff #gogol x reader #nikolai hcs #gogol hcs #nikolai gogol hcs #bungou stray dogs x reader

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selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs · 6 months

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Perfection

Self-Aware! Fyodor Dostoevsky x GN! Reader x Self-Aware! Nikolai Gogol

Description: A passing comment makes you feel terrible about yourself. Fyodor and Nikolai disagree.

Set between Surprise and Sick Day

Warning: OOC. Body Insecurity. Hateful thinking during eating. Rude comments. Reader have hateful thoughts about themselves. English is my second language.

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You were in one of the many fast food restaurants in your city. Today you have a movie night and need some snacks for that. You were waiting in line for your turn to make order. Meanwhile, you read the menu once again. Maybe, something new was added.

Movie night was time full of unhealthy food and different movies, starting with classic films and ending up with any trashy movie you could find.

Today you were going to watch a bunch of Halloween movies. "It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown" and "Ghostbusters" with everyone. And, after kids go to bed, you will watch "Bram Stoker's Dracula" just to hear Bram's comments about vampires and "Nightmare on Elm Street".

You knew, that tonight's going to be fun.

"Hello, how may I help you?" asked the cashier. They looked a little bit interested in everything, that happened around. You smile.

"Hello. I will have seven big buckets of fried wings and five big french fries. Thank you."

You took money from your pocket and put them on the counter. You knew, how much you need to pay, it wasn't the first time you made the order.

Cashier's eyes widen. He looked at you from head to toes. He mumbles.

"I-It will be ready in a few minutes..."

The cashier disappeared behind the kitchen's door. You start waiting. You decide to have a better look at some pictures, that were on the wall.

While you were looking at them, you heard hashed voices coming from the kitchen.

"What? Seven buckets of fried wings and five big french fries? Won't they burst?" said an unfamiliar voice.

"They immediately took the right amount of money from their pocket. It looks like this is not the first time they have made this order. It's quite obvious, really. Just look at their... cheeks... hands... stomach... Look at their everything!" The cashier from earlier answered.

You saw his reflection in the window. He was pointing at you and making some gestures in the air. Like he was trying to draw a sphere in the air.

You became still. You tried to tell yourself, that their opinion shouldn't matter, that they just bored and thought that you were an easy target.

"They looked like a balloon. A barrel with lard!"

You grit your teeth. Will you two stop and give me my order?

Finally, they became bored and returned to the kitchen. In a few moments, you finally got your order.

You glare at the cashier, but didn't say anything. Soon you will be home, having a good time with your friends.

You stomped away from the restaurant, holding bags with food in your hands. For one moment, you saw your reflection in the restaurant's window.

Your... cheeks do look chubbier.... And arms...

You hurry to the car. Kunikida was waiting for you.

You put bags on the back sit and sat on the front passenger seat.

You were silent on your way home.

You were staring at your reflection in the car window.

Were your cheeks always that chubby?

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This evening was too cold for a summer evening.

So you decide to put on your jacket.

New jacket... That just month weeks ago was big to you.

New jacket, that now you could hardly put on you.

Small... It was small for you.

You decide, that you aren't that cold.

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The table in the living room were full of junk food.

Popcorn, nachos, tacos, chips, fried wings, french fries and soda drinks.

So tasty... So unhealthy...

...so much food, that will make you fatter...

The movie was on...

And each snack you ate felt like a rock in your stomach...

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After movie night was over, you locked yourself in your bedroom.

You take a better look at yourself in the mirror.

You have gained weight.

It was impossible, not to do it, while living with BSD Cast. Ivan was a good baker, Junchirou's cooking was amazing, Kenji could fry a steak better, than in any fancy restaurant, Kyouka's cooking make you want seconds, and it was impossible to say 'no' to food, that was cooked by Fyodor and Nikolai.

And how you can refuse to share snacks with Ranpo, or not have a tea party with Kirako and Naomi?

You decide to lose some weight... Do more exercises, then usual.

And ate less...

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You manage to skip breakfast.

You just said that you were too tired and want to sleep some more.

They didn't ask you any questions.

You manage to skip lunch.

You pretend to be sleeping. Still.

You were forced to have dinner.

You couldn't sleep all day.

You are dinner with everyone. For dinner, you had mushed potatoes and pork.

You ate some mushed potatoes...

...your hips will be even wider...

You ate some pork..

... your stomach soon will look like you swallowed a globe...

You were smiling and talking with Atsushi, discussing last news...

And ate... Ate... Ate...

...they were right, you are a barrel with lard...

It takes your everything not to make yourself vomit after the dinner. If you didn't lose weight...

... soon they will leave a fat ball like you...

Everything is going to be okay... More exercises and less food... It will help...

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For one week, you were trying to lose weight.

You train with Hunting Dogs even harder than before.

You didn't notice worried glances, that Teruko and Fukuchi cast at you. You didn't notice Jounou's attempts to make you rest. You didn't notice Tachihara's and Tetchou's hesitation, while they were exercising with you.

You didn't notice, that you looked less and less healthy.

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For one week, you skipped meals.

You find any excuse you could. Any reason you could find.

"I am not hungry" "Sorry, I need to finish something for my university" "I need to be somewhere right now, will have dinner in the city."

You choose to ignore worried glances.

You didn't manage to skip meals completely. You ate some fruits and vegetables every day. Not enough for a real meal.

You refused to have snacks with Ranpo. You choose to ignore, how hurt he looked, while hearing your 'no' for the third time in a week.

You refused to drink tea with Kirako and Naomi. You choose to ignore their questions, if they did something wrong.

You ignored, that you became more and more weaker.

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You were banned from going to the training area. Something about you needing some rest and stop overworking yourself.

You could protest, but Gide and Verlaine, who were guiding the entrance to the training area, didn't look even slightly interested in hearing your arguments.

You couldn't do anything, so you return home.

And you immediately were greeted by Nikolai and Fyodor. Kolya grinned.

"Hey, [Y/N], let's have some lunch! I made pampushky¹ and Fedya made borscht! You will like it!"

Borscht and pampushky...

... even more fat...

... what if, back in May, Fyodor only asked to cuddle with you, because you were fat and warm, and he was cold?...

You lick your lips and mumbles.

"I can't... I must go to the library... In university library..."

Fyodor and Nikolai stared at each other.

Fyodor spoke. His voice was soft.

"Myshonok... Today is Sunday."

You close your eyes. What reason... Any reason...

You opened your mouth, trying to say something else, when a small bun was carefully shoved into your mouth.

"Here, Birdy, try it.... Please, just eat something..." Nikolai's voice sounded pleading.

You want to spit it out. But you had no other choice, but chew.

Fat pig... Hideous creature... You can't even hold yourself together...

You swallowed.

Before you can say something else, a spoon was put into your mouth.

Borscht... Warm soup... With meat and cabbage...

And sour cream...

"Myshonok, you need to eat. Stop starving yourself." Fyodor's voice was firm.

You will gain more weight... Even more clothes won't fit you...

You swallowed.

You looked at Nikolai and Fyodor. Both of them looked happy, that you ate at least one pampushka and one spoon of borscht.

And you despised yourself.

Nikolai took a step closer to you. He put his hands on your shoulders.

"Was it good? I sure, it was. I will bring another one... Oh, and a bowl of Fyodor's borscht! Just let me..."

You didn't know, what made you do this, but you were so close to screaming at Nikolai for giving you bread. You want to hurt Fyodor for forcing you to eat soup with sour cream.

hurt them hurt them them them make them pay say that you hate Them say that you hate them hurt them HURT YOURSELF

SAY THAT YOU HATE THEM

You open your mouth...

...hate them for what? For being your friends? For sticking around? For spending time with you? For worrying about you?...

...When was the last time you ate? Have a full meal and not a piece of apple? When was the last time you spent time with others? Were you even talking to Hunting Dogs while training? Did you say 'hello' to them...

You let out a quiet sob.

And immediately were pressed against Fyodor's chest. He draped his coat over you.

"Коля, я сейчас пойду и поговорю с Мышонком. Пора докопаться до правды. Сможешь сделать так, чтобы нас не побеспокоили?²" Fyodor's voice was calm. His grip was strong. You heard Nikolai's voice.

"Я це зроблю. Вас ніхто не потурбує.³" He sounds... worried. He stepped closer to Fyodor and lift the coat.

"Please... I miss you..."

He softly rubbed his cheek against yours and stepped away.

Fyodor's coat were once again draped over you.

You didn't resist, when Fyodor start leading you somewhere.

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The door closes behind you.

Fyodor removed his coat.

Both of you were in your room.

Your breathing was hard.

Fyodor was just standing here. Looking at you.

He spoke first.

"Myshonok, what's going on? You haven't eaten for one week, you hardly talk to anyone. We are worried about you."

You didn't answer. You were just swallowing tears, that were running down your cheeks.

You feel Fyodor's breath on your ear.

"[Y/N], please, talk to me."

You finally found your voice.

You told him about cashiers. About your sweater. About your insecurities. About hating yourself for eating food. About wanting to hurt Kolya and him just moments ago.

When you finish talking, only your sobs were heard.

Fyodor carefully squeezed your shoulders.

"[Y/N], everything about you is perfect. You are perfect, both inside and outside."

Your eyes met with Fyodor's purple eyes. They were so soft, so full of hidden affection. His hands cupped your cheeks.

"You aren't disgusting. You should not change because of some random person comments. And you only hurt yourself. You were almost starving all this week, you stopped talking to any of us. You try to make as many exercises as Tetchou normally do!"

Fyodor put his face closer to yours.

"Please, don't hurt yourself. If you feel down, just came to any of us. We all love you and want you to be happy. And for me..."

He kissed your cheek.

"For me, you are nothing less, than a perfection."

His eyes were so warm. You sobbed and hide your face in his chest.

He was warm. His embrace was everything you need right now.

"I... I..." you can't form a full sentence. Fyodor whispered, petting your head.

"Shhh... It's okay... It's okay... It will be okay..."

Fyodor took a step back, without breaking the embrace. He opened the door. You hear footsteps.

Now you were hugged by Fyodor and Nikolai at the same time.

Now you were sure, that everything is going to be fine.

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After you calm down, Fyodor, Nikolai and you had lunch together. It's not only was tasty, but very filling.

Then you three had a movie marathon. You were nested between Fyodor and Nikolai. A large bowl of popcorn with butter, salt and caramel was placed on your lap. It was tasty.

You had dinner with everyone. They were so happy, seeing you again. You felt, how the rest of your worries and sadness disappeared.

But, the last of bit of your sadness truly disappeared, when you were laying on your bed, in a middle of Fyodor and Nikolai cuddle sandwich. Your head were laying on Nikolai's chest. Fyodor's face were pressed against the back of your head.

Before drifting to sleep, you feel, how Fyodor kissed you on the back of your neck.

And whispered.

"Ты само совершенство, [Т/И].⁴"

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1. Pampushky - a small savory or sweet yeast-raised bun or doughnut typical for Ukrainian cuisine.

2. Russian. "Kolya, I’ll go and talk to Baby mouse. It's time to get to the bottom of this. Can you make sure we won't be disturbed?

3. Ukrainian. "I will do it. No one will bother you."

4. Russian. "You are a true perfection, [Y/N]."

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kolyamanic · 5 months

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Dove and a Cage

nikolai gogol x gn! reader

Synopsis: Basically SFW headcannons and other shit about Nikolai as a boyfriend !

A.N: I love Nikolai Gogol ! Also NOT proofread, poorly written (IMO) and I don’t have autocorrect SO-

Buddy’s an eccentric guy. Terrorist. Mass murderer. All good qualities. Obviously, your relationship is something (cough insane cough). With this in mind, see to the following as a sort of guide when adopting your very own Ukrainian magician as a lover.

Baths. Nikolai adores bath - the cool water, fruity scented shampoo that he washes his braid with. But they're better with his darling dove! Sure, he could wash the blood of his victims off his body by himself, but that's boring. Better to have your hands trace over every single inch of him as you're stuck in his lap in a overly filled bubble bath. it's a miracle if you don't inhale one or two bubbles. you're also lucky if the whole apartment doesn't flood with how much water Nikolai splashes around. It's free will, y'know.

flooding y'alls apartment because he left the sink on while washing off his clown makeup

Ooooh, speaking of makeup! Have you seen the man? Nikolai’s a clown, and he’s got nearly everything someone could want. Especially eyeliner and red-colored products. Eyeshadow. Lipstick. Blush. Have fun being held down at the vanity chair as he dolls you up to look ‘just like him!’. Sure, the desk is covered in red particles and a few black smudges, but now his dove is a duplicate of him. You two are that one couple during Halloween that goes ALL out on the makeup. Honestly, Nikolai recreates facial gore pretty well (praise his terrorist tendencies please and thanks!) so if you’re trying to cosplay Cosmo from Chainsaw Man with the eyeball hanging out, he’s gotchu!

And when you do his makeup he melts because it’s so cute how your fingers are fumbling around with the brush as he hums some Ukrainian song and complains that you’re taking so long yet also praises you for doing such a good job? Two sides of the same coin for sure. Expect to have lipstick stains on your skin after you apply his lipstick.

In case it wasn’t ducking obvious enough, this man LOVES physical affections and contact. Drop him in the middle of the Sahara Desert with no food, water or shelter and he’d perk up after one kiss from you. Cuddling is a big deal of your relationship. As energetic and manic as he seems, Nikolai’s a human too who craves attention and affection from his s/o! He’s always big spoon and makes sure his hands are on your chest at all times. Or thighs. It’s either that or the boobs. He likes to bury his head in your chest too and claims it’s more soft than your pillows.

Kisses are to be given at random intervals by Nikolai. You’re cleaning his bloodied clothing? Cool, you’re making out with him in the laundry room now. Especially when he’s jealous. Nikolai is possessive as fuck. You’re his dove for a reason - kept in a cage for him to coo and fuss over. It’s hypocritical of him - always crying about freedom and ‘free will’ - but he doesn’t care. You’re innocent, in his eyes. The world’s dirty and he’s gotta purge it for you through destruction and kisses! So. Many. Kisses. Tongue, too. And lotsa times spent together!

Dates…are something. Nikolai’s a globally recognized terrorist, and so he can’t just waltz outta the house with you. No, sir! Either it’s something illegal (usually stupid little things that turn out to be a major violation of the law but he claims he ‘didn’t know’) or it’s staying at home brushing and styling his hair or letting Nikolai attempt to teach you the hopak dance. He’ll tease you, but he’ll love you. Bonus points if you make piroshki afterwards too. Bonus BONUS points if you make a second batch after he eats the first one !

there’s only so many things to do with your ukrainian boyfriend, but Nikolai has the brilliant ability to somehow find the dumbest shit possible to do. Safe to say, your dates are NEVER boring. Either it ends in bed cuddling, or running away from the police as he uses his cape to smuggle you two back to your temporary apartment.

Nikolai is a great boyfriend overall - affectionate, humorous (in a dark AND normal way) and never boring. The cops may be on you two’s asses all the time for various crimes, but hey - it’s not a crime to love Nikolai Gogol!

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darling--angst-archived · 11 months

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The 'God', The Masochist, and the Crazy Scientist

I just found out that I'm anemic that's why I'm so frail and pale :'(

I twisted the plot a little

I actually don't know if Bram is made from human experimentation but I did it anyways.

TW! Explicit Language, Death, Human experimentation, Murder, Slight Yandere, Gore(?), Straight up crazy scientist, Slight suggestive content.

Pairing: Nikolai Gogol x Reader(you) x Fyodor Dostoevsky

Synopsis: F!Reader joins the DOA as their doctor because of her ability and piqued the interest of a certain clown and a person with God complex.

F!Reader has a personality like Mobius (Honkai) and Reader is a little unhinged

You were a normal doctor in Yokohama, working overtime. Now you were sitting across a wanted terrorist, offering you a job in their notorious group.

A few months back then the Port Mafia's boss, Mori Ogai came to your office to make you an offer to join them. You had great intelligence, but mediocre at combat, though you worked as a normal doctor, you had an ability: "The Souls of the Damned". Your ability allows you to bring the dead back to life through souls, but as the saying goes: an eye for an eye, it was the same for your ability, a soul for a soul. You must sacrifice an alive soul to bring back the dead. Soul Manipulation, is a better description of your ability; you can manipulate souls per will, to identify an ability user's soul they have a certain color in their soul's core. If you will bring back a dead ability user, you must exchange another ability user's soul. You owed favors from Mori Ogai, so you brought back dead people for him, he of course gave you the live souls. Yet, you didn't accept his offers. Which leads you back to now:

"Hello, miss Y/n" the Russian says from across the table.

"Well.. May I ask why you are here sir Fyodor?" you asked, offering him tea.

"Hm? Hibiscus?.. Though it seems you have already known my name." He said drinking the tea quite impressed.

"Of course.. Fyodor Dostoevsky, known as the face of The Decay of Angels." You said

"I have an offer to make for such an intelligent individual such you." He chuckled amused by you.

"..What is it?" You asked sipping your tea.

"Work as the DOA's doctor" he explained which piqued your interest.

"Hmm.? Why would a terrorist group full of powerful and dangerous ability users need a normal doctor like me? You sarcastically said raising a brow.

"Well.. To be precise we need your ability.. "Souls of the Damned" he smirked sinisterly sending shivers down your spine.

"Oh? What would I get in return?" You asked. There was no need to feign ignorance, he already knew it all.

"Advantages, and equipments for your experiments" he explained.

"Haii.. Same offers with the Port Mafia.. I must say it was quite a let down" you sighed dissatisfied. His eyebrow twitches from annoyance, yet still kept his facade.

"Then.. What do you want in return.?" He asked

"Guess it. After all, you DO believe you are smarter than me, don't you sir Dostoevsky?" You sarcastically said.

"Information."

"What.?" You said, eyes widened.

"You want information about THAT book" he said.

"Huh."

"Well I look forward to working with you Dostoevsky-kun" You said sitting up with him smirking.

He sat up and offered you a handshake, a very suspicious one. In every human body you can see their soul's color; normally a soul would be gray or slightly darker but his... It was pitch black. His soul's core was bloody red, the core is supposed to represent the ability; red, it means death. For him to offer you a handshake means he may kill you, yet it only excited you even more. You smirked accepting his handshake. When your hands met, his eyes could only widen, you were still there in one piece, alive and breathing.

"Your ability is as interesting and powerful as they say." He said pulling away. You could only chuckle in response.

"How rude of you Dostoevsky-kun.. already trying to kill me" you pouted sarcastically. He smiled in return, not a friendly one, the one that says "your correct" yet a little sinister.

"Well I must go.. Come here tomorrow" he said giving a piece of paper. As you opened the note, he closed the door. You could only clench your fist on what was written there.

"Сволочь..." You muttered. The note was quite unique, it's one that you have to decipher until tomorrow afternoon.

You spent the entire night, deciphering the note.. Actually you didn't, you put a tracking device on him earlier. As you looked at your computer for his location, it looks like he stopped at a certain building until he probably saw the tracking device and tossed it away.

The next day passed and you had no intention of actually coming to the building, because Fyodor found the tracking device it was most likely that you came but being the little bitch you are, you didn't. The afternoon passed and it turned into evening, the evening passed and midnight hit. You were taking a warm bath after you came home from your shift. As you finished bathing you noticed someone's presence in your home. You dressed and opened your laptop, water was dripping from your washed hair. As you typed, you got sick of the presence chuckling in the shadows so you decided to close your laptop and speak.

"Why do I owe the pleasure of you being here?"

Creeping up from the shadows, he finally decided to show himself, Nikolai Gogol.

"You're just as perceptive as Dos-kun said!" He excitedly said suddenly appearing beside you. As you took in his form, he was very tall. When your eyes met his, it was quite unique.

"As I said earlier, may I ask why you are in my home?" You raised a brow.

"Ah! right! I forgot about that part! Keke!" He chuckled.

"Dos-kun is annoyed because you didn't show up earlier!" He shrugged sitting on the table beside you.

"Oh.? He would actually be there?" You asked intrigued.

"Hueh?" He blinked twice not expecting that to be your answer.

"Since you already know the location by tracking him.. Let's go!" He said pulling your wrist to him as he put a cloth to your nose and mouth, drugging you. You passed out and fell on him as he chuckled.

"kekeke, works every time"

You woke up in an unfamiliar room, sitting up, dizziness caught up to you, your vision was very blurry, you looked around and there was Nikolai Gogol sitting beside you with an unfamiliar man.

"Maybe you added too much drugs onto the cloth.." A man with white and lilac hair could be seen uncomfortable and concerned.

"nah! I'm perfect at estimating! Keke" he replied. As you groaned in response, your vision finally became clear.

"See! She's awake already!"He exclaimed feeling proud.

"Are.. you okay.?" The other man asked feeling bad about your condition.

"Ugh.. Yeah.. I mean he could've used cholorform instead of Fluothane! tch!" You glared at Nikolai still feeling dizzy. He could only blink in response and chuckle while the other stood still.

"Let's start with introductions first shall we?!" He excitedly said.

"I'm Nikolai Gogol! My ability is Overcoat!" He exclaimed.

"I'm Sigma.. My ability is 'information exchange ability'.." help I don't know the exact name of his ability Sigma said looking away; as you observed him, he looked uncomfortable with Nikolai.

"I'm Dr. Y/n L/n, My ability is "Souls of the Damned". You said.

"I look forward to working with you Y/n-san!" Nikolai exclaims. Sigma could only nod at best.

Eventually, you met everyone of the Decay of Angels; including their leader, Kamui. Though you always tried to read everyone you met, you didn't try to read Nikolai; you didn't know why yourself but suddenly you felt reassured with him, Nikolai took noticed of that too.

You did experiments at your will and it all involved your ability so they gave you 'souls' or to be exact alive humans per your request. During your experiments Nikolai came for some unknown reason, during this time too..

"Hey~~ Dove~" He teased going down your lab stairs.

"Nikolai.? What are you doing here?" You were puzzled.

"I told you to call me Kolya! Hmph!" He pouted.

"...Fine.. Kolya" You murmured

"Finally!" He said jumping to you.

"Now what are you doing here?" You asked turning your head back to your experiments

"Well.. I was bored!" He exclaimed.

He took notice of the three bodies on the experiment table and asked:

"Hmm.? Why do you have three bodies here? Don't you usually do two?" He asked.

"I'm currently trying to bind their souls together then use the third body as a host" you explained putting your hands on the pockets of your blood stained lab coat.

"Well it's certainly bloody here!" He said looking around.

"May I watch?" He asked

"..." You still kept your cold poker face, you sighed and muttered a small "yes"

"Yay!" He celebrated and turned back to the side.

As the man strapped to the table awakens, he started struggling against his restraints and muffled screeches are heard from the other. This man was certainly interesting, his ability allows him to turn anyone to a 'vampire' immediately, that's why he has cloth on his mouth. The other 'patients' woke up and screams could be heard. You took the soul of the man on the side, it was an inhumane ability; one that grants immortality, he can't die. As you took his soul, his body slowly fades away turning into cold flesh. The man on the middle was a little calmer than the others, after all he did make a deal with Kamui. As you grabbed your knife you slowly made incisions as he groaned through the cloth. You took his soul as the man slowly became unconscious, your eyes widen at how pure his soul is. Taking both souls you binded them with the movement of your fingers. Crimson light covered the room as you laughed maniacally. In your hand was a soul, two pure and impure souls mixed together. The soul still has a core, it was crimson and in the middle was yellow; immortality and power. You succeeded, glancing at the body of the man, you caressed the soul, a sinister smile appearing on your lips. You controlled the soul at your will, as you slowly inserted it to the body of Bram Stroker.

With the insert of a soul to the unconscious body, he quickly awakens sitting up and groaned

"Hah! Finally!" You laughed forgetting the presence of Kolya.

The scene was watched by Nikolai until the very end. He was mesmerized by your beauty and craziness. Every flick of your finger, he felt his heart beating. Everytime you gave him attention and patience, you interest him. Every chuckle of yours, he wanted the be the reason of your chuckles and laugh. Everytime you smiled, he wanted that smile to be his and his only. He wanted you.

He was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard your laugh. He smiled at the sight of you, bloody, messy hair and laughing maniacally. Now he noticed where you were looking, a man with pointy ears and crimson red eyes. For some reason Nikolai craved you your attention.

He walked closer to you, without you noticing. He applauded at you catching your attention. When you turned at him he was so close to you, your head facing his chest at how close he was. You turned your head up to make eye contact with him.

"Ah.. Kolya..." You murmured.

"Why hello Dove! I'm certain you forgot my presence since earlier!" He said with a playful facade.

"..." You looked away to the side. Without you noticing Nikolai shot Bram a cold glare in which he didn't notice.

"Anyways let's go! I have to make the experimentation records!" You said grabbing him by the hand, oh how excited you are. Your usual demeanor was replaced with happiness and excitement. His eyes widened at you holding his hand, you weren't looking at him so you couldn't see his blush. His attitude completely changed and kept his facade on.

"Then let's go to Kamui first! Keke!" He laughed and held your hand leading you to Kamui's office.

In reality, Nikolai didn't do that to see Kamui; he did that so he can hold your hand longer. After all, Kamui's office is very far from your lab. Minutes passed as you two walked together, hands intertwined, now you were Infront of Kamui's office, only when you were supposed so knock at the door did you notice you holding hands with Kolya. You took your hand away from his and cleared your throat to try and keep composure. You knocked on the door and entered not even looking at Kolya, you were too much of a blushing mess to look at him. You had a friendly conversation with Kamui, then as you told him about the experiment being a success, he's expression was full of sinister, not that you did mind.. As you lead him to the lab, you didn't see Nikolai perhaps he decided to annoy Sigma at the Sky Casino. The experimentation was a success, Kamui took in charge of Bram so luckily you didn't have to take care of a vampire. You did the records and most was fine. You had quite fun with Fyodor by playing chess and cards with him, he of course wins by a point or two much to his delight. He didn't find you as bothersome as back then in your first meeting. Sigma... was quite scared of your antics and you being a mad doctor but most of the time he finds you quite comfortable with.. in his eyes you are better than Nikolai, because you aren't THAT crazy like him; For Sigma you are the better choice than a masochist with God complex who calculates his every move. The DOA got used to you being company to them, and you got used to how weird each member is.

A few months passed since you joined the DOA and Nikolai became more flirtatious and he initiated physical contact a lot. You and him kept on friendly terms as he refused to accept the lingering feeling he has for you. Eventually you learned more about The Book. You didn't plan on using it or anything, you just planned on studying it and maybe making a few writings on the book if you can, it depends on the possibility of getting the Book. After learning that Sigma was from the book, you were absolutely... pissed.

"Fyodor.." You barged into his room with a glare.

"Y/n.. What brings you here without even knocking.?" He raised a brow shifting his attention from Nikolai to you.

"I need to talk to you. Privately. Five minutes at minimum" You looked at Nikolai as he pouted. Fyodor nodded at Nikolai and he sighed, standing up from the table, he left closing the door.

When he left Fyodor stood up and walked over to you. You clenched your hand and grinded your teeth. He stopped Infront of you and lifted your chin up with his hand. As he took the sight of you his was a little shocked. You always tried to keep composure, you never really shared when you're angry, you just had a cold face, yet now you were certainly angry trying to calm down.

"Now. tell me what's wrong милый?" He asked you coldly.

"Why didn't you tell me..?" You muttered.

"Hmm.?" He asked raising a brow.

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me about Sigma being from the book?!" You snapped clearly angry at him. After snapping at him Fyodor was certainly pissed yet kept quiet.

"Huh. You knew from the fucking start since you made me that offer a few months a ago.. Сволочь." You hissed. He suddenly grabbed you and pushes you to his desk.

"Ah! Fyodor?!" You exclaimed. Now your back was on his desk, he was on top of you holding your arms above your head. He placed his leg in between yours as his face started getting closer to yours.

"I really don't appreciate you screaming at me like that, Дорогой.." He said with a low tone.

"Besides.. You never asked did you.?" He whispered in your ear. You chuckled before swiftly switching positions with you now on top.

"Fyodor... How could I know.? After all you did not fullfil the terms of the contract did you?" You said to him leaning on his face.

"Or perhaps.. You're not a man of your word?" You seductively whispered leaning on his ear as he snapped. He pushed you away and pinned you to the wall.

"You really do know how to piss me off, don't you Милый?

"Ugh.!" You groaned as he tightened his grip on your wrists.

"Stop with the nicknames Fyodor, I'm not your 'love' or your 'darling'." You hissed. He leaned to your neck and chuckled.

"Whatever you say Моя любовь" He exhaled his warm breath hitting your neck.

"mmh.." you huffed.

"Stop resisting me Любовь.." As he leaned closer to your neck. He stopped and looked at you for a second. You were looking up at him, wrists red from his grip and his body leaning close to yours, for him your current state was a sight to behold, his favorite part was your glistening lips. As he leaned in, you turned your head to the side. He held your wrist together with his right arm, as his other arm made it's way to your chin grabbing it. He forces you to look at him and as he leaned to your face, the door barged open.

"Alright! Time's up!!" Nikolai halted when he finally saw the two of you. Fyodor let you go, as you stretched you arms; he grabbed you by the waist and whispered to you:

"We'll continue this later милый" He pulled away from you and gave you peck on your head.

"Whatever" you glared at him walking towards the door as Nikolai stood still and Fyodor smirked at you. The door closes and Nikolai was there facing the door.. speechless. His expression darkens and his fist clenched as you left.

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